KATiE MiA FredericK!iI

Empirically assessed as the
best dance shirt yet..
by numbers of selfies
with the opposite sex
tallying in at 31.. soon to be
added to my current blog post..
Yes.. this shirt.. was a Father’s
Day gift from Katrina.. and she guaranteed..
it would Bring surrogate age 18 to 21 year
old daughters in kind my way to dance
tonight.. and hmm.. one really
wild one too.. who kinda
was exploring me
with her hands
and bootie
dance
as such..
but anyway.. didn’t
get a selfie with her.
it was like a hit and run
or something like that..
really tall.. dark hair..
with lots of tattoos
all over what
was exposed
of her natural
body..
such is
liFe in the
dAnce Halls
of Youth.. with
older folks like me..;)

And original duo of trio of Charlie’s
Angels ‘here’.. dancing
for two years now with
Chelsea.. recently A UWF
Biology Graduate noW
and Facebook Friend..
Cortney.. a newly
Minted Federal
Employee at the Beach
as Park Ranger.. saving the
Turtles and other wildlife free..
like me.. hehe.. anyway.. good to
see them always.. such upstanding young
female citizens are they of the free world now..;)

http://freeversenudepoetry.blogspot.com/2016/06/into-light-darkness.html

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Haha! And wife Katrina.. referring to my
31 selfie autographed photos of my
smiling tender college aged
dancing surrogate
daughters
close to
Father’s day
now says.. Fred you
are cheating.. you are taking
two to three photos of each
group of dancing girls and i say
then and now.. well.. you know and
feel iT is the power of the human face
in expressing SpiRiTuaL joy in non-verbal way..
noW recorded tHere is dopamine energy of joy
heRE and pleasure to relate to others too.. here
in my longest long Form poem.. in this newest noW
coming 678th Macro VersE Now.. and true it’s kinda
hard to open on Word Press and truly impossible unless
ya have a Work horse computer and super Broad Band access
like i do.. as it is one huge flowing monolithic super epic long form
River noW going fast still now toward 4,000,000 words of ocean whole looonnnggg..
and my other blogs just do one post per hit on http://katiemiaaghogday.blogspot.com
and http://katiemiafrederick.blogspot.com and after all is said and done and photographed
and all of that including my Adult restricted blogs three of which two are set to private
as such.. and another more obscure one that is where my 1.4 million views from
Google Plus are coming from.. as WordPress for me is like my Art Palette
workshop.. a place wHere the draft is always in progress in the
comments section there and yes.. i am happy to say
that once again.. i can open up my website whole
as http://www.katiemiafrederick.com.. on my
iPhone6s mobile smartphone again.. as for
a while that wasn’t working for
me where i had to go
to individual links
to open up anything
at all on Word Press then..
anyway.. it’s all for LovEarT..H.. and truly
as noted in the last blog post iF it wasn’t
for getting kicked off the Wrong Planet last
year as well as from directly lInking to dVerse
too.. for my otherworldly super human epic art
in photos.. videos.. and a word hurricane too..
tHere is no way i would have accomplished
the three Novels including one of those
that was a third of a million words
in MacroVerse whole
Singular
Verse
here.. as i am
a person who takes
each human interaction holy
and sacred and gives it all my
focus and attention in poetic response
way.. even if it is someone just saying
how is your day Fred.. as that is my science
and art of happiness.. giving all i can be to
the other person too.. celebrating that person
as the most important person in the Universe
no matter who they are at the point of our
reciprocal social interaction now.. as i
believe too every new and continuing
human relationship is another
creation of God’s MulTivERse
UniVerse way too Now/then..
and sure.. not many
folks live by a science
and art of Kindology like i do
now.. so they wonder somenows why
is he being so nice to me.. does he want
something from me or something like that..
and hell no.. this wasn’t just a science of online
way for me.. when i was in school.. including Kindergarten
it is the natural way i treated each social human interaction then..
even if i got too excited and my words came out in what they
thought was all retarded way then too.. slow.. not really
though.. my mouth just couldn’t keep up with my mind in
focus.. and the same is true now but nearly
as much.. i just talk really fast and
coherent now.. and somenows
more than other folks can
process in a lightening
second before the
thunder noW
of understanding
comes second after
the liGht of My Mind released
as verbal vocal energy to rely
all the human and nature
insights i have gained..
but anyway.. when i write
it is like the natural rhythm of
the Ocean and UniVerse wHolE noW..
like the voice of hUman can be when
FloWinG iN ZonE of SonG.. as trUly when
we get in touch so deep with our HeARts..
ExpresSinG SpiRit of EmoTioNal energy
oF our miNd and Body BalanCinG SoUL..
wE are the Voice of God hUmanifest in
sign language of we humanS noW
as form..
and WOmaNifest
of God mini-me’s
we are aLiVe and FReED Essence
Waves oF Ocean wHOle.. Galaxies..
and UniVerse of Stars we are.. inside..
outside.. above.. so below.. all around
we are the tongues.. the nose.. the eYes..
the ears.. the touch in Fingers and yes
down to the nitty gritty of reproducing
organs of Penis and Vagina too..
all sacRed.. all wHoly
paRts of GoDonE
wE are SaCred Instruments
of the Great Spirit.. the God.. the
Allah.. the Dao.. the Chi.. the Force..
the Qi.. Ki.. KA.. Holy SpiRit.. etc.. and
forevermorenoW.. iNfiNitY of potential abstract
constructs that approximate in signS noW thE aLL
essence of allthatis that too.. is aLL just another
collection of letters as terms that relates what
can be seen and unseen.. fELt and unFeLt
as same.. problem is when folks think
they own God with their own
cultural and personal
housings of vehicles
and vessels of symbols
that hold the essence oF all..
and when that happens sAdly as
so when folks become selfish and say
their words are the only symbols that are
real.. symbols become God and God dies as
God oF aLL.. yes the same God that creates
and lives in all oF us.. From Lesbians to Gays..
to folks of all colors to Yellow Boy and the
flower of the so-called Weed we are
all children of God.. the Force
oF aLL that is from inside..
to outside.. above.. so
below and aLL’ARound..
it doesn’t matter what you then/noW
use as vehicle.. vessel.. or houSinG
of theTruTH and LiGht as the TruTh and
LiGht WiLL be as real when every hUman
BeinG and Book is erased from the Earth
Forevermore nOW.. and some now then other
eYes and eArs.. NoSe.. FinGers…eTc..
toes.. ToNgue.. or whatever
they use to get the
creation job co-created
WiTh God as wHole too noWThen..
tHe Essence iS TruTh and liGht
too tHere wHeREver tHeRe coMes
forevermorE noW iN Truth and liGht!..:)

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Himali.. Facebook Dubai
Friend.. shares a Lovely
Friday morning
greeting with
me as she says..

He he he. ..
Having a lazy
weekend here in dubai

And i say..

Hehe.. my feet are propped up after all night dance..
and i am writing a thousand words or so every 5 minutes
or so as usual as i really get creative and poetic after i dance
all night.. it really helps focus and remembering everything at
once without even rally thinking about it hehe.. but yes.. i am
totally relaxed like a bowl of marmalade jelly too…
slightsmile emoticon..

Yes.. and i really mean
that not rally mean that..
wink emoticon

And Himali says..

You are truly blessed to have
such a musical life Amidst
nature Singing and dancing

And i say then..

Yes.. and you know i thInk/FeeL it all works together…
PoEtry.. SinGinG.. DanCinG.. as when we open uP noW
our hEArts..SpiRit and SouL in MiNd and BoDy BaLance
iT is like magic as it all comes to fruition one and sAMe..
and there have been whole eras in my life of problem
solving at work wHere i was a valued commodity then
for work but inside i was dYinG sLowLY iN Now all the
MoVinG CoNnecTinG and CreaTinG a smiLinG
young boy was once meant to do.. seriously
i lived whole decades like that and it was
dead as compared to now so
alive my Friend..
Himali..
slightsmile
emoticon

And finally HImali says..

You give me such deep insights about life Fred !
We often go chasing material success but that never gives true happiness..

And in summary of that discussion i say..

So true and i too was like that always worried about money..
and afraid i would lose my possessions.. until i got so depressed
and ill i learned that all of that means absolutely nothing.. and
happiness is something we can dance and sing inside..
that keeps growing.. and groWinG.. and we shine
bright and share that joy with others like
true human quantum subatomic
energy shared with others and
the liGht of the World grows bRighter
with smiles instead of misery and suffering dark..
i have so much joy to share to keep it inside would
be the greatest sin.. somewhere on a beach not giving
what i can do as greatest gift i can for others too.. hmm..
and now i say the way word press describes that icon
as slightsmile emoticon is so dam funny.. as i wasn’t
smiling slight at all.. big grins oF Kindness and Love inside..
giving.. sharing.. moving.. connecting creating WitH aLL otHeRs 2..
Big
smilemoticon
liKe HUman InFinity wide..:)

And later Himali adds..

You have a treasure of wisdom
I am amazed by how you over
came your depression
You are so powerful

And i interject..

SMiLes my FriEnd Himali..

And Himali responds..

Smiles to you tooooo

And i then say..

And you are equally powerful my friEnd
as you have inspired so much iN me
since we met that i have been able to
give and share with others too..:)

Himali says..

You are too generous
with compliments

And then i say..

SMILes aGAin my FriEnd
Love is never too generous..
the men folks used to say
my mother spoiled me..
but she gave me something
they could never give me
that would withstand
REAL HUMAN HELL..
what a gift a mother’s
L O V E n o W aLL
iS and i for one am
sure that you will
give the same to
your child if that
time comes for
you as well.. my Friend..:)

Himali responds..

That’s such a lovely wish
But still long way to go
Need to find my place in this huge world
Hopefully 2017 will be States and
CPA..:)

i say..

SMiLes again.. and am i reading you
correct that you wish to live
in the U.SA as soon
as 2017..:)

Himali says..

Yesss. . Wanna
clear my CPA and live
the American dream..:)

That is wonderful.. maybe one day.. you..
Katrina and i.. will have a dance on
the sugar white Emerald coast
of panhandle Sun.. and
sure we will adopt
you as daughter
friend too..
it would be
Lovely to see
you with your
Lovely smile..:)

Himali responds..

I’d love to dance freely..
its just such a pure bliss.
I loved the beaches in Mumbai
and also here in dubai

i reply..

Yes.. in viewing them they look
somewhat like the beaches here..:)

Himali asks..

How is the coast in your city ?

And i say..

Actually i live a little west of Pensacola in the
panhandle of Florida and East of Milton.. the River is
near in Milton that i grew up on that was Lovely then and
now as well.. i often still photo that place in my blogs..
the beach is about 20 miles due south.. and we used to have
many tall dunes with sea oats that were so beautiful but it is flat
now like Dubai.. from what i’ve seen there.. but there are still Lovely
Dunes to the East of us near Destin Florida where my Uncle lives on Shalimar
point there in a Lovely home on the bay.. what i like most is the sugar white sand..
and the Seagulls and other wildlife of Nature on the Beach.. so peaceful it is and
you can still walk far enough where all there is is Nature and no footprints of culture..
The dunes are flat because Hurricane Ivan washed them away.. by the way…slightsmile emoticon

Himali exclaims..

Wowwww… love the beautiful scenic place..
I guess it’s nature which inspires creativity in you

SMiLes my Friend.. Himali.. i may have mentioned it before..
but for 66 months i could not use my eyes and ears to enjoy Nature at all..
as a issue of the type two trigeminal Neuralgia i had from wake to sleep..
it even affected my sense of smell as smells actually caused additional pain..
and with the Dysautonomia that i also suffered from greatly then.. the nervous
system no longer properly controlled heart rate and blood pressure meaning it was
difficult for the blood to get to my brain and circulate through my body.. where i
was chilled in 100 degree temperatures with a breeze and stifled at the same time hardly
able to breathe.. so then.. my only inspiration was dimly lit text after the first 3 years shut in..
in a dark bedroom more than any other way of being stuck in my head like Helen Keller and worse in
many ways as i could no longer feel emotions and one point so dead inside i could not feel senses..
really separation from God and Nature same that was.. being in Hell for real.. so i will say now my
friend that it is people like you who inspire the greatest creativity in me.. as you are open minded Loving..
and a conduit for Loving.. Moving.. Connecting Creating Human Energy.. just your presence in visual symbols
on the Internet including words and that is truly amazing that your soul is that powerful in expressing who
you are in soulful energy online.. and sure that can be as simple as your bright face and smile my friend..
it really makes me most sad never to see some of the faces i have known in text online..slightsmile emoticon

And Himali exclaims as well..

Oh my god! I didn’t know that it was due to
blogging that you over came all
the odds and your depression.
It is so nice talking with
you. Please feel free
to message me anytime
you feel like wanting to talk

And i say..

Yes.. it seems that connecting Language
and emotion in my firsts poetic breakthrough at the end of February 2013..
was the road back home to recovery and happiness my Friend.. preceded with
around 5 million words or so of analytical discussions online in Autism Communities..
before poetry set me free.. the two years and a few months before that in words of purgatory
i guess.. and now there is no pain.. just happiness and freedom.. hope you have a Lovely Weekend
my friend.. and sure. we will talk again..:)

Himali says in conclusion..

Sureeeeeee
Take care
Happy weekend to you

And i end for
now with..
smile emoticon..:)

And another poetic comment inspired
by Himali in another Facebook discussion
form last last night after i return from dance..

Hey Himali.. back from an all night of dance..
and yes.. this is so true.. to connect spiritually noW
with soUl is something to me that lastS forevernow..
wHere a friend will always be a friend now..
even if separated by distance or even
over the course of time..
a friend is truly
the best thing..
My friend.. and blesSinGs to
you my friend who i also believe
IS A BlesSinG from the Lord.. as
God sends us just the friEnds we need..
i believe and feel to help us to make God’s
dreams in and as us come to Fruition REAL..
and yes.. Love to your family as well WitH Great wishes..:)

And i say now here in summary.. tHere was a day in World
Market.. a store in the metro Mall complex iN Pensacola
that has sells cultural items from around the world..
it is my favorite among open minded stores
like the Earth Store and Spencer Gifts too..
and in work decades of cog in a machine then..
i used to see folks from different cultures
coming to that store.. and i had this dream
that one day i could meet these wonderful people
from around the world and now with a tear in
my eYes
and i CAN
say i DO..
streAMinG down
to wash my feet
from the fear and hate
i too was raised in here
in New Jerusalem in the
IS ra EL..U.S.A too the Internet
can make Unconditional Fearless
Love possible for anyone no matter
wHere they Live in potential fear and hate..
NoW. So God Bless Steve Jobs and Bill Gates
and all the other New World Nerds.. Geeks..
and real Life Sages in science and art for
mAkIng mY
dream come
true iN Fearless
moVing..ConnecTing
CreATing LovE noW..
wHere i am never lonely
noW in the real God’s KinGdom
of World Wide Global New age fRiendS noW..
and i suppose if the real dudes Jesus or Buddha..
Zoroaster or Lao Tzu.. and even Edgar Cayce
wHere to come back again now too.. they noW
would feel.. sense.. and say the sAMe too..
tHere may never be a Kingdom of God’s
Heaven in most localities of this
Earth now.. but truly iT iS
aLL around us Now
oNline
TrUe
iN pLaces
wHeRE hoPe
and LovE liVe through
and away from hate and fear
in GiVing ShaRinG waY Now..
iN MoVinG.. ConnEcTinG
Co-Creating WiTh GOD
NoW
FReED..:)

And you know/feel what.. that
first somewhat of a manifesto
that is on the right side of all
my blogger blogs.. was just
a response to a
Facebook
PM discussion
similar to the one
above.. yes it’s true..
when two friEnds come
toGeTHer another Verse
oF UniVerse can be created
pArt and WHoLe to generate
LoVinG Energy in others for years
to come.. truly it Defeats the laws
of Entropy whole iN Nature True iT is
God’s tRue and liGht MaGic uNleashed
and released iN uS FReED as a hiGher
cAlLinG of God wHere we Become Allah’s
Instrument of Hope and Love instead of
Fear
and Hate..
and that is what
i wish for all my
sweet Friends
around the
world no
matter what they
may believe or fear
and hate now.. just
Hope and Love iN God’s
greatest gift to uS noW thAT
iS Sacred Holy Fearless LovEnoW..:)

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i AM so excited.. finAlly.. Rihanna’s new SonG..
WeLL.. actuAlly Calvin Harris’ new SonG featuring
Rihanna is out and as expected filled with
new age symbolism in esoteric
ancient wisdom symbolism2
noW iN cube way for the
perfection of humankind
OnE wITh God each individual
riSinG to the occasion of this
way of being eventually with
practice of life.. and yes..
the SonG noW named..
‘This Is What You Came
For’.. is followed uP
with lightening
over and over
and it is safe to
say that this 678th Macro
Verse of the Longest Long form
poem ever x2 at least.. sTill pushing
4 million words.. WiLL now be named
‘i cAMe for ENliGteNinG2′.. to additionally
answer Rihanna’s SinGinG voice noW iN this
Song2 also named.. “This Is What You Came
For’..1 and sure we all come for enlightening as
all religions at mystical and esoteric core do relate..
if one looks a little deeper than anything more shallow
than being connecting with God oF aLL ONE and SAME..
TO EMPOWER HUMAN GREATER WITH GOD AND TO
DO GREATER DEEDS OF FEARLESS LOVE WITH ONE’S
FELLOW HUMAN BEING IS THE STILL STANDING MESSAGE
OF NEW TESTAMENT WAY.. when the dude Jesus said folks
will come to do more than he.. as this God thingy and us
continues to evolve toGeTHeR and not stuck
in card board box symbols.. like books
and even cubes too.. the cube is
a pretty cool symbol but still
it is only a symbol and not
the essence of TrUth
and liGht in human
Abstract concept
alone.. as
form as
essence is
pure energy as Force..
inside.. outside.. above.. so
below and all around.. yeah the
Grand old new always NOW
SPiRiT oF GoD aLL and
yes the liGht of Pandora’s
Box is now open.. as
Rihanna and Calvin
finALLy release tHeir
61616 full Song after
holding out to this obvious
esoteric symbolizing date with
all the sixes and ones too.. in perfection
of human being greater one with God.. anyway..
like the previous preview song said so many dam
times wHere i used it before.. ‘who knows why it
has to be this way’.. before it went off carefully
planned as such as well.. weLL.. here’s the deal
noW iT’s just anoTheR new age now and old age
ancient way of wisdom come to modern
art no different really than new
age revised and printed
versions of Bibles
that only change a little..
and other workS iN art oF
Human EnLiGteNing way
that continues to evolve as
God does iN uS and With uS..
noW.. and sure.. much mystery here
in Synchronicity heRe2 but i was looking
for a 678th title and what better way to
headline my newest coming post
with Rihanna’s and Calvin’s
super cool song that
by the way hit
number one on
iHeArt Radio in Synchronicity
way too.. when it was released
on 6162016 yesterday too..
yeah.. radio play and
a YouTube preview
was enough to get
it theRe and make everyone
hungry to hear it more more more..
almost like a magic trick it was for
the artists to do this.. MATTER OF
FACT IT WAS A REAL MAGICK TRICK
FOR THOSE WHO UNDERSTAND IN
INTUITIVE WAY HOW THAT WORKS.. YEAH..
HORATIO THERE IS MORE GOING ON IN THIS
WORLD FOR REAL.. THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW
AND HELL NO THIS AIN’T NO DEVIL SHIT AS THERE
IS ONLY ONE GOD AND NOT ONE ALL SPLIT UP AS SUCH
LIKE AN INSANE CLOWN.. GOD IS MORE LIKE A LAUGHING
CLOWN FOR THOSE IN THE GREATER KNOW AND FEEL OF GOD2..1
so in that way i totAlly expected Rihanna/Cal to release the SonG yesterday
and i AM.. so happy to use it for just another poetry prompt to keep my
Ocean GroWinG just for shits and giggles huh.. as God WiLL surely
approve in all seeing eYe way of hUman
Wisdom real too..
anywaY as alWays
i just watch as such
and scribe it down..
a little birdie
told me so
anyway.. and
sure.. i’m insane
my mother really had
me tested but it took ’em
decades later to get the
Vincent Van.. Gogh-like
diagnoses all straightened
out in hell no.. no cube or
sidewalk way.. just a spiral..
a wave.. a drop of water that
never ends in Golden Ocean full waY noW..;)

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“Real generosity toward the future lies in giving all to the present.”

~~ Albert Camus ~~

“We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark;
the real tragedy of life is when men are afraid of the light.”

~~ Plato ~~

With those two.. ya just about can’t
go wrong.. but i would switch around
the second one a bit to say..
fear of the dArk
and cynicism of the
liGht are equAlly miNd
and BoDy Limiting as our
flesh and blood soUl.. iN
BaLanCinG oF course..
and i love mischief
as it inspires
new
EmoTiOns
as it is the unexpected
come real to make folks
look around and see a surprise
they were not expecting.. and it’s
alWays fun to carry my driver’s license
around with me in wallet way on the dance
floor.. as by the point where i’Ve danced
2 hours straight and almost exhausted
folks just by looking at me.. and
i am surrounded by two.. three..
five or ten.. much younger folk
than i.. yes.. even as young
as 18 which is getting
very close to 40 years
younger or two generations
away from 56.. which means i could
be tHeir GranD DaddY as i somenows
gently whisper in the ear of the wild
bootie dancing girls to see if that
will inspire them to grind a little
softer.. and of course i
mention my wife too
and show ’em that
great bathing suit photo
i recently shared on Facebook..
to let ’em know and feel my beauty
thingy is fully filled up.. at least.. hehe..
anyway.. small talk here of course but what
i really love to do is play with imagination and
creativity.. and ask ’em how old do you think i
am first.. and the average is around 38 in the
dark.. as my grey hairs don’t shine as much
and nah.. no 56 year old dude could move
like Bruce Lee huh.. hehex2.. so then
i do say i am 56 and they kinda
look at me like nah.. dude
you are on drugs.. and
i then say.. no i am
actually the Devil/Lucifer..
that’s why i am not aging here
and can dance all night.. see here..
look.. at my Driver’s License.. see that
6660.. didn’t you see that movie the
Omen yet.. WeLL here i am.. you
know that Lucifer show on Fox
about the Dancing Bar owning
Devil in LA..
well this is
Lower Alabama
and once again i
AM FOR REAL.. here’s
the thing.. i am no longer afraid
of the dArk.. fearless after getting through
all the demons.. and no longer cynical of the
liGht.. and sure i wish the same for you my
friend and everyone else as i sure hope
it is not a privilege that only
THE DEVIL/LUCIFER
CAN RECEIVE
iN Now..
anyway..
tHere has to be
a path out of this
box.. this cube.. an open
door.. to a clear blue sky like
ELO might say.. yeah… Mr.
Blue Sky is here.. why not
Love the liGht and
the dARk
as same..
pretend it’s
REAL AND MAKE
IT REAL.. i did THAT..
it worked.. BOTTOM LINE…
oh yeah.. and another thing i did
to some of the good ‘ole southern
boys who don’t really have any idea
what the fuck free VERSE martial arts iS
when they are watching me.. so i EXCLAIM!
you know that Bar killing that
went down in Orlando..
if i was there ‘he’
would have never
seen me coming
and i would have
chopped him to pieces
with my Bruce Lee Kicks..
and on top of that can you imagine
him trying to shoot me the way i move..
hehe.. and then i show ’em how i Leg
Press.. close to half a ton on YouTube..
and the Legend
grows and grows..
as ya need HOOKS
to eventually light
a fire behind a story..
tHere is nothing in LiFE
Random my Friend.. at least
not in this one now.. the way it is for me..
And that my Friend is the LIGht of Magic REAL..:)

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Ah.. Facebook Memories again.. more more
more.. each year a memento of what came before..
And a sample of my Mother’s published poetry
but sadly this one published in the local
news paper in memorial of our
Son who would have turned 19
on June the 4th.. yes.. this
is ‘real poetry’.. the stuff
that has predictable
numbers of lines..
and overall
general form..
hmm.. i never really
liked poetry most of my life..
never really liked text.. couldn’t
stay focused until it became lit up
on a computer screen of stimulation..
Things change.. they really do and more
about that reaLiTy oF LiGht and LiFe in a few…:)

W/baby/mE2..:)

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And of additional note here.. this photo was actually taken
on Father’s day ’97.. the first and last one for me with
a live child.. and the only Family photo of
Wife and Child and Son.. and
sure.. sorry if that is weeping
sad but sure it is and
this child
lives on
in these
words that
as promised to him
would make some kind of
difference in the world in honor
of 51 days of pain and suffering
as imposed by modern medicine
when God the Creator would
just fold a baby
back into
the Creator’s
arms as Star dust
to Star dust as now goes
on.. hmm.. God is merciful..
THE ONLY GOD OF NATURE..
humans NO.. not always so much..
with their fancy medicine and religions
that make God into one who would kill
God’s own for sport of Big bLack Book Lies..
sorry.. it’s just the truth as history continues to
show still in African Christian church ways and
all over the Muslim World.. as such in Killing..
Raping.. ways in statutory marriage.. acid
face baths.. STOVE TOP WIFE
BURNINGS.. BURYING LESBIANS
TO THEIR CHEST IN DIRT SO
THEY CANNOT COVER
ThEIR EYES FROM
STONES OF HATE
AND FEAR.. YES..
really deep down God
is pissed off in so many ways..
IN AND AS US NOW JUST NOW2..
perhaps you can’t feel
it but i can and
the only answer
is FEARLESS Love
and yes now.. more
about that in a few2..
iN BACK AGAIN AS ALWAYS2..
And yeah the slow torture is also
very quiet at times in church pews of
Catholic and Muslim Churches where the
young gay child born that way with sure.. environmental
factors too.. will listen as the polished and robed priest
says well.. it’s secular society that supports your rights
to a sacred sacrament of Love otherwise as marriage
in a church.. you are not quite good enough yet
to meet our standards of children of
God.. so it’s just more fodder
for the fuel that they
are not good enough
just as they are to enjoy
the feasts and joy of all other
humans too.. i watched my priest
do this in what he thought was the softest
manner possible saying well it’s not just you..
folks.. who are homo’s too.. who cannot get
married it is us priests too so don’t feel
alone.. of course this particular
priest already spotted
by one of my
so-called outcast
from Catholic Church
relatives.. in one of ‘those’
‘bars’.. and perhaps he was just
following the Jesus golden rule of exclude
no other in the social life world of wherever
humans tread with the other.. but sure i can
sense stuff.. after all i am a real empath with
every kind of human radar that most people
have no clue about still now.. anyway.. there
are lots of ways to slowly torture and
kill a human being in life..
while they sit quietly
in the pews of church
by demands of their virile
and fertile mommies and daddies..
and any person with the sacred and
Unconditional Fearless Love of the Good
Cop Jesus over the Bad Cop end of days
Jesus will know and feel this for sure that
everyone deserves respect.. acceptance..
and tolerance to have the same benefits
of others free as God WiLL Be iN us too..
And THAT day my child died in just misery and
suffering for 51 days of pain as imposed by modern
medicine driving the long road home from Shand’s Hospital
after my son Ryan died in my arms finally free from death’s
fire continuing as life.. i reflected on the paths of my journey
too.. all the smiles.. all the trials and tribulations to that point
then.. all the nows the bully boys in school threatened me
to NOT SMILE.. or called me the F word and not Fred
word.. as the McDonald’s cashier mistook my long
blonde hair.. bright blue eyes.. and tall
slender frame as Ms. can i help
you please.. to my
finally realizing
what the problem was
other kids were seeing
too.. as i Loved girls then too..
romantically from Kindergarten as
precocious Lover then too.. and sure..
the kid picked last on the sports teams..
Straight A’s always.. not able to find
a real intimate girl friend until age
18.. three college degrees and
named as Superman for that
but without the ability to
output all i knew/felt then..
ending up working at A Bowling
Alley.. making close to minimum
wage.. called a skank by the turned
up nose girls as ugly in middle school too..
but yes.. stuff changed.. i got some contact
lenses.. started working out with Nautilus
machines.. that would compensate..
for the delicate future writer.. super
typer hands.. and make me finally
hunky dory enough to meet the
never aging female Storm Katrina..
the most beautiful.. then and now..
girl in the world…my wife as nicely
illustrated lately in Facebook Bikini
photo recently too.. and yeah.. somehow
after only having a grand to my name in 1999..
we managed to get up to close to half a millionaire
in total assets by the time.. i fell to human hell in illness
in 2007.. and sure i figured out that money and stuff don’t
mean crap then.. so i let loose of it all and the wife helped
spend and give a lot of that away.. to needy relatives and
such as that too.. So many potential lives i have lived in
just one now then and now.. and yeah.. before i met
my wife.. i dated lots of women who had
daddy problems.. who were looking
for someone with Loving
Lights in their eYes
as well.. even
living off and on
with a girl with two kids
in the ‘projects’ as visitor
back in ’86 or so about the
time that ‘the way it is’ song
came out.. but now i came to
the Elvis Presley old AdAGE come
real that i’m doing it my way now.. i’ve
been to those other places and this is
my path now.. to direct with God’s help
all big time.. with the help oF aLL God as
the rest of Nature too.. as the words go
on… in all essence of Free verse LiFe Now..:)

And in response to this Facebook Status
and continuing Free Verse poEtry in BLog way..

Niece Candie says..

Pretty sure I just learned more about you
in THIS post then I’ve ever known in my whole life. Love y’all..:)

And i say..

Thanks.. Love you too..
and i just added the photo..:)

Candie then says..

I see it. You and your ageless
goddess and beautiful Ryan..:D

And i say..

Hehe.. yes.. deFiNiTelY
wITh SMiLes oF Beauty..:)

Sister in-law Kim says..

I agree with Candie on this post…
deep stuff here…love to you both.

In return i say..

Thanks to you too.. Kim..
and as i told Candie up there
i just added the photo..:)

Kim then says..

Beautiful

And i mArk LikE..

Facebook Friend Sherri says..

Beautiful pic! The pic speaks volumes.
Often, we forget to wish a Happy Father’s Day
to those who have lost a child. I know that one day
you will be reunited forever! You are such
a beautiful soul and so is Katrina!

i say..

Thanks.. So much Sherri.. Very kind wishes..
God bless you and hope your husband
has a wonderful Father’s
Day with Love..:)

Facebook Friend
Rafiah says..

I am sure your kid
would have been so proud of
such amazing cool parents like I
feel about you guys. Happy Fathers Day Freddy.
Once a father, always a father..:) I love you.
I Iove the friend in you. I love the Dad in you..
heart
emoticon

And i say in Loving Return..

Hi Rafiah.. Thanks so much for stopping
by with these Loving words and yes.. i Love you
like a friend and the daughter i never had until you..
And happy continuing
Ramazan too..:)

Facebook Friend Himali says..

Fred! I never knew this part of your life before.
Wish you a very very happy fathers day. You made me know
the unconditional love of a parent for his child and how they
can never bear to see their child in pain or agony. I am so touched
by your journey. For someone who visited his father just 2 times a year
to loose a child would be heart breaking. Much love to you
and Katrina! You guys are my heroes..:)

i say in Loving Return..

Hi Himali.. Sitting in church with smArt phone in toe and
Perhaps 10 perCent of human potential to write with one finger..
i must say the more one FeeLs.. SinGs and DanceS Love the more Life
becomes art of poetry my friend and thank you as you make me FeeL additionally
Cared for and Loved.. So.. Thank you dear sister.. With Poetic ArtFuLLLove..:)

Himali then asks..

Pray to Jesus on my behalf too..
I soo miss going to church

And i say..

Will do..:)

Cousin Terri says..

Love y’all cuzzos..
That is a perfect
family photo..
heart
emoticon..

i respond..

Hi tHeRE cousin Terri too..
Love to you and all the family
over 'tHere' too.. THANKS..:)

Facebook Friend
Suzanne
says..

Blessings to you

And finAlly i say
heRe too and
wish for aLL
oTheRs too..

SMiLes Suzanne..
thanks so much for
the kind wish.. and the
same to you..
aS WeLL..
mY FriEnd..:)

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Rather fresh on the local actual bar scene in extended
metro manner here in Destin Beach Florida.. 2yrs ago..
and seriously.. if you’ve never danced
freely.. ReLaXinG out of your mind
of thoughts with no instruction
or worry about what the
human cultural rules
say you should or
should not do.. it
is very likely ‘you’
have never reAlly
fELt tHe fAce oF God
uP close.. perSonAl.. and REAL
NOW iN yA temple oF God FReED..
And that reminds me too.. of last niGht
a nice woman and her children and husband
who work at the gym.. obviously with great and
respectful attention paid to the authority of rules
and those who master us for order of course.. as
her son is doing the elliptical machine backwards
instead of forwards.. and hehe.. i’m thinking feeling
as he watched me twirl around backwards in my own
FredFu way of martial arts perhaps that sparked
the intuitive desire to do a new artful movement
on the elliptical machine in his own creative
way.. anyway.. the nice mama.. says..
Johnny or whatever.. son you
cannot do that no.. no way..
it is against the rules
to move like that
And i cry inside
just a little..
but it is Caesar’s
Kingdom they are under
rule too.. so i let it go.. and
wish i was a little closer to the
family to provide some verbal advice
but i can tale then and now.. that the young
model looking military wife might be wary of
someone in the gym like me.. that rarely
follows any rules at all when Caesar
allows it and with my explanations
of it’s a martial arts form of
Tai Chi it’s all cool as
hey.. it’s
a place for
secret and special
services to train too..
little do they no though
i work for God with no
intermediary supervisors
or
Caesar
Rule but nah..
‘they’ wouldn’t likely understand
that if it wasn’t in a book or whatever…
and that’s kinda sad when every thing
must be written down first for
someone to believe
something new
can be now..
just innate..
instinctually
and intuitively
Real now as that
is how God talks to us.. with
no voice NoW of verbalway@
aLL necessary from all we have
lEarned in genetic memory for the
cycle of the continuing never ending
journey of paths that branch out in the
origin of the cycle never finishing.. never
stARTing alWays now.. now.. now.. N O W..
And that reminds me too.. when the dude Joe..
who used to run the M.W.R. show looks at me
with a duh look.. and says don’t you have to
take some kind of lessons to do Tai Chi..
and i say no Joe.. just balance one
foot with the other left and
right and everything
else from A to Z
and more from
head to toe
falls in
Balance..
above.. inside.
aLL A’round yA..
anyway.. with my
hearing that is like
a dog sometimes i over
heard him say something like
well he just spends his time
walking in reverse all
the time..
like it might
be rather foolish..
but nah.. he couldn’t
feel inside me obviously
and if he did something that
he thought looked foolish to
other folks it would prove he
was as fearless as the way
he carried himself
might otherwise
indicate.
seriously
i takes a lot of
work to be fearless
and the first step is never
worrying about what other
folks think about you.. but
sure you can write a story
about it in the longest long
form poem ever but before you
can do that you have to prove
to GOD THAT YOU ARE
100% RED HOT AND
NEVER LUKE WARM
IN FEARLESS
LOVE NOW
IT’S TRUE.. TRUST
ME OR NOT.. AND WHY
THE FUCK ELSE DO YA THINK
I GOT DRESSED UP IN MY UNDERWEAR
DO NUDE ART STILL.. OTHER THAN FOR
ART.. AND WHY KING DAVID IN THE GOOD
OLD BOOK DID THE SAME GOD DAM THING..
funny how folks can get the literal meaning
but what is said deeper
goes right over
the head
of TrUth
and LiGht..
Anyway i am here
just as a scribe helper
to REVEAL IT ALL FOR
my little pARt of what i do
FOR TEAM LIGHT NOW..
YEAH.. GOD’S TEAM Now
FOR TRUTH AND LIGHT..
THE SAME one Rihanna.. Katy..
Gaga.. and so many others are on
in big time fame way.. my job is relatively
easy as compared to those as it is so God
dam
STRESS
FREE.. HEHE..
WiNks It IS A great
honor and privilege
to work directly for
God without any bLack
book overseers in poLiTics as such..;)

Hidden Paths Food and Love

Ah yeah.. and just a year ago
here with more memories of
Food.. Love.. and stuff..
on poEtry Lane
of Free Verse
words as WeLL
or whatever iT aims
FReELy sTiLL to bE
NoW.. FloWinG iN ZonE..:)

7051

“We Hate Joy

We Hate Love

We Love Money”

Iconic same moto from the
Old iconic and often assessed
worst movie in critics eyes of all
time.. named.. ‘Sgt Pepper’s Lonely
Heart’s Club Band’.. yes.. the
Movie modeled after
one of the most
celebrated
and critically
famed Albums
of all times.. including
art of cover named by
the same name coming
out in ’67.. on the 20th anniversary
of Aleister Crowley’s Death.. with him
‘up there’ with his shiny bald so called
wickedest man of the world head in
the top row.. on that Album Cover..
problem wuz.. then now.. he was
a true genius.. and clever little
old fox too.. making
an impact on
art culture
in Rock and
Roll music
that WOULD MOST
DEFINITELY EVENTUALLY
CHANGE THE WORLD IN UN-REPRESSING
AND UN-OPRESSING WAYS OF SENSUAL/SEXUAL
ART FROM THE QUEEN VICTORIAN PRUDES OF
YESTERYEARS WHO CHOPPED OFF THE PENISES
FROM APOLLO STATUES AND HIS FRIENDS.. note
to self here.. i really loved that dVerse Statue
come to life poetry prompt.. wanna get back
there too.. before
this 678th macro
verse ends on the
Full Moon.. of Summer
Solstice.. Father’s day
on June 20th that is also
my deceased father’s birthday
and the original scheduled delivery
day of me.. before the Doctor decided
to go on Vacation and deliver me early
on Omen day.. 6660.. hehex2.. anyWay..
this “i cAMe for eNliGhTeNinG’ post
will come on that day too.. with
statue or not as this is
the REAL DEAL NOW..
SO WHAT WAS I SAYING..
OH YEAH.. the Beatle’s also
took “Uncle Al’s” advice that Al
said was a prophecy and direction
by the ‘one’s above’.. to take all kinds
of strange drugs to get higher and higher
and bring some other weird news too.. so they
just did it.. and while the critics hate the so-called
non-sense of the movie by the name of Sgt. Pepper’s
Lonely Heart’s Club band.. and sure the hidden so-called
‘secret metaphor’.. is that the Sgt.. Pepper is actually a metaphor
for the Devil’s Chief of Staff that Aleister said he wanted
to be.. anYway.. Aleister.. was a trickster.. a clever
clown too.. and somEnoWs non-sense iS what
misChieF clowns like Aleister and the
Beatles did then too.. to get a
broader mesSaGE across
too.. that even they
may have no idea
in Beatle Synchronicity
what they may mean then2..
under the influence of LSD
and those type of synthetic
new age illegal drugs then..
anyway.. it’s pretty obvious to me..
that they are making and taking the piss
out of fundamentalist religious folks at the
time then.. oN tHeir suggestions that the
Rock and Roll is the devil’s Brew of music
then too.. not much different than what Aleister
did in his hilarious satirical poetry that brought to
focus the same God Dam human sacrifices that the
old time bible still supports now.. and his hyperbole worked
to keep his message going right until now as we see with ‘JZ’
and folks wearing shirts that say DO AS THOU WILT.. AND
the age of the Child of the Me Generation.. as Nature is simply
saying me me me.. and have less children as you you become
Eternal Peter Pan’s/Princesses now.. Truly as then.. now and
always iT is the God OF Nature in control.. wITH and iN uS..
what we write and what we say
is just an after-affect and
effect in symbols of
what God does as
whole to make
BALANCE OF NATURE
REAL.. sometimes it’s difficult
to understand why all this dArk we
see around uS iS an eQual paRt of God
as liGht too.. but IT IS NECESSARY NO MATTER
HOW ROUGH IT CAN GET FOR US HUMAN BEINGS
TO ENSURE GOD WHO LIVES IN THE REST OF NATURE
GETS ITS GOD OF MERCY FAIR SHARE OF THRIVING ALIVE
IN THE STRUGGLE OF LIFE TOO.. IT’S JUST THE WAY IT IS..
TRUST
ME OR
NOT.. IT IS REAL
GOD IS REAL.. HEAVEN
OR HELL CAN BE NOW..
AND NOW IS ALL
THAT IS
GOD
AND
SAME
AS WE
US.. YOU
AND ME.. i.. REALnOw..
Oh yeah.. and the 30 or so
percent of American who are polled
as seeing Donald TrumP A real Anti-Christ
In dArk Form and Fashion.. in a FAVAORABLE
WAY.. UMM.. YEAH.. pretty much NoW STiLL
thAT iS tHeir motto ‘up tHere’ too.. i see
it in Super-Walmart.. saw it in
middle school too.. yeah
that too.. iS jUst or
not juSt..
THE WAY IT IS..
but WE WILL DO WHAT
wE CAN TO CHANGE
THAT NOW.. ACCEPT
WHAT WE CAN’T CHANGE
AND CONTINUE TO LIVE IN
FREE FOR ALL PETER PAN
AND PRINCESS NEVERLANDNOW..
JUST LIKE THEY DID IN THAT SONG
UP ThEIR TITLeD FOR THE
BENEFIT OF BEING
MR.
K.. AND ThE-story
FloWs On.. iN ZonE
iN TWiLiGht way
wHeRe the
Halls of
Sanity
i TreaD
and ThRead
softlY anD hard REAL nOW..;)

7866

Ha! No matter how dazed and confused i might
look when i alternate a ballet and martial-arts-like
dance in public everywhere i go.. if i had a bottle of
wine for every time someone has asked me in public
what i’m drinking or ‘taking’.. my wine cellar would be
at least
this large..
but hehe.. nah..
no drinks or substances
for me.. just high and one
wITh God oF aLL.. and the
rest of the UniVerse.. cool..
and what better way to
celebrate the Summer
Solstice than A
Sun with a
SMiLe oF
GoD iN
DanCinG ShoeS..
hmm.. i thInk tHeRe IS A
SonG for that too.. that i WiLL
add heRe too.. and iF i had a penny
for every sMiLe i brOught to others
in this now 34 months of public
dance approaching 5600 miles..
i would be rich bEyOnd WitH
beLiEF and yeS i AM
iN terms oF SMiLes
and Free Love to
give and SHARE..

And for all you Fathers out there..
Here’s your Father’s Day Card
from the P-cola Metro
Area DancinG
Man.. sorry..
the wife was
too shy.. to do a
ballet pose.. as such..;)

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And here is the only family photo.. i have
of my mother and father when they are married
way back in ’59.. at the courthouse where i still
live now in good old Milton.. originally
named hell before it became
a mill town.. when the
folks came aboard the
river Banks and got
all bloodied up with
the sharp briars
of warning tHere..
and sure that is where
i eventually grew up after my
father left when i was three.. as my
mother wouldn’t go along with his plan
of making money over taking care of her
kids as a stay at home mom too.. fortunately..
for me.. i already had a stay at home Mom until
age three.. full of Loving estrogen with fairest skin
Love.. Glowing as such.. as my Paternal Grandmother
noted.. oh.. Helen’s skin is so vibrant it glows like a Saint..
in words to that affect.. but as they say and do back then..
the most masculine man was attracted to the most feminine
woman before the ‘pill’ changed that general nature rule of
human as now the so-called friendlier more nurturing beta
males are more the rave and interesting.. even the
70’s turn on of chest hair has kinda gone
the way of the do do bird too..
in western pill civilization..
as that was always
one of my
main selling points
no matter if i talked
all suave or not.. as there
was bear chest of hair right
under my chin.. hehe.. but now
it’s more like ugh.. hairy man..
please wax it all off..
Nature is funny that
way.. it changes
for reasons
hormonal
as such..
anyway.. my father
an identical twin.. seems
to have gained more of the
male hormone between the
two.. not as verbal.. in fact.. my
mother said he never really talked
to her after he popped the question
on the first date or so.. as he was 27 and
i guess he figured it was already time to get married
back then.. anyway.. after i got three.. he said goodbye..
i’LL find a wife who will make some money.. and he did
in the next two marriages.. one of which he married twice
in my first stepmother way.. And my mother said i idolized
him when i was a toddler never leaving his side.. but i don’t
remember that and i suppose it was too traumatic when
he just left one day.. without really turning back and
missing me.. as was his plan to move on.. i guess..
anyway.. if you are out there and are thinking
about leaving your family on this father’s day..
all i can say.. is try to make it work..
as it’s not easy growing up without
a father.. as my wife can tale ya too..
yeah we have that in common and even
though i visited my father twice a year
for decades as i’ve oft mentioned
on this blog.. he wouldn’t let
me in to really get to know
him in any kind of emotional way..
and not sure he really could as that
is an issue with Asperger’s syndrome
and considering that both my sister and i
were professionally diagnosed with that
reciprocal social communication difficulty
in our mid-40’s.. yeah.. there is a
genetic component
and we sure as
hell didn’t get it
from my mother’s
side it appears for sure..
and it seems my X-Catholic
Irish Priest Grand Daddy who also
left early with my father being raised
by his grandparents mostly more than
his 18 year old mom.. might have had A
touch of the Asperger2.. yeah.. odd situation
my X-Catholic Priest Grandfather married this Cajun
beauty out of his parish.. 16 going on 17 or
something like that and he was
36.. oh the scandal
back then..
anyway..
like Mohammad now then2..
they say he didn’t consummate
the marriage until a year later
after the marriage.. as if that
was supposed to make it
ethically and morally
okay and stuff like
that in adult
and barely
female adult
marriage way.. anyway..
not surprising that there
were some issues with the
family unit for generations to
come.. as life is kinda messy like
that more than folks will usually admit..
anyway.. my father just wasn’t cut out to
have kids.. he didn’t change the diapers
and didn’t really have a nurturing bone in
his body then.. as far as fathers go.. in
ExpreSsinG Fatherly duties as such..
then.. and while his identical
twin brother became quite
the continuing nurturer
it wasn’t the gift
my father happened
to have from birth
as it seems his twin
brother had more of it for sure..
and way through his old ages too..
And as sadly and honestly as i will say2..
the things i remember about my father are
all the times he said he would visit.. and
how he would send us through school..
and how he didn’t show up for my
graduation from college..
or even my marriage
too.. but again.. when
my Autism got much worse
as my Loving Mother.. no doubt..
all made the difference with me..
i came to better understand in
middle age as i regressed with
little ability for reciprocal social communication
iN how hard that might have been for Daddy to do
too.. without the same kind of nurturing Love i
received full time from ages 0 to 3.. at least..
before my Mother had to go to work
for decades to come to support
a family as single parent..
but yeah.. my father
was frigging prejudice
against black folks and i heard
some rather unpalatable things from
some black folks much later in life as he
was kinda rough about how he treated the
black folks in his law enforcement duties then..
and he was homophobic as hell too.. and no doubt
since i was so androgynous looking and sweet and all
after being raised exclusively by mama likely2 that his biggest
fear might have been that i would turn out gay as a son.. but
nah.. i married a girl about as beautiful as my mother when
she was young too.. when he was on his third wife and
fourth marriage in a relationship that never seemed
very loving at all.. and when my child.. Ryan.. was
in the operating room having his open heart
surgery.. the thing i remember most about
my father.. sadly enough.. is when he
told me.. make sure you raise
him.. like a boy.. son.. yeah..
like it was my fault i never
had a male role model in the
home when i was a child..
i just shook my head inside
in disgust.. and eventually became
my own father.. and i always wanted
to be fearless like my father.. like he always
was with that cigarette in his hand.. law enforcement
James Bond Cool.. with never a worry it seemed then even
when my step-sister died of a cocaine related incident
he just said that’s the way it goes.. and i guess
46 years of law enforcement can kill parts
of the human soul.. just to survive.. and
sure if he had stayed i might have followed
in his shoes.. and quite frankly i’m glad
he left with all due respect.. cause if he
had stayed.. i might have never found
my dancing shoes.. and
become the
leader
of my own
band.. it is just
the way it goes.. but
i for one can find meaning
and purpose in most all lemons
in life.. to keep the Lemonade
stand smelling fresh.. struggle
teaches more than having it
made by someone else..
in my opinion
at
least..
and sure..
there is an ironic
song for all the boys
who must grow up to
be men.. friends. and father’s..
and brother’s too of tHeir own..
but the lucky ones.. keep the
nurturing ways of divine
feminine Love too..
a greater gift
of mother
in this
case..
finally finding the
fearless father as i2..:)

9373

And heRe iS mY Father
@50 and mE @22
iN 1982..:)

9381

i remember a Sociology class in College
where my 51 year old professor and what i
might have imagined i would present as in the
future at that same rather grey and stoic age..
named Dr. Ray Oldenburg.. in the Sociology of
the family stated.. who would want to live forever
as most of my friends.. complain about boredom.. then..
WeLL.. Ray was/is smart and inspirational to me as he
came up with a philosophy of how important the third place
of life away from Work and home was so important to the proper
socialization of human being.. in other words.. the bar.. the bowling
alley.. and in someways even the church in all the church can be rather
constricting too as far as LETTING IT ALL HANG OUT AS SUCH.. as sure.. sTiLL..
churches historically and politically speaking are tools to control groups of human
beings for a structure of human order.. so there is plenty of subsistence.. appropriate
mating rites.. shelter.. support and common bonding traditions to oil the flow
of the structure of
society as such
to make it work well
enough at least for the
human family and children
to survive.. across the lifespan..
in some comfort at least.. with
some emotional hope.. faith
and belief in the trust of
what life is and can
potentially be too..
but sure that can also
range from Female Genital mutilation
to killing innocent folks in unwarranted wars now
to tossing homosexuals off the rooftops of buildings..
yet male bonding and homosexual behavior and
just calling holding hands something else
than male homosexual love as hands are
held.. creates a loving bond and
potentially even more than
the penis and vagina
union as such..
people have interesting
and cruel ways of lying to
themselves..the reality now and
the fact of the matter is when ya
separate males from females in affect
even if the specific sexual organs never
meet you create a homosexual society as
sex is not just about the Bill Clinton def now of
penis and vagina meeting.. as the entire human being
organism now from brain to bottom of toes IS A sensual
sexual being.. and Jesus F. in Christ.. when i first met
some Saudia Arabian men flight training hand in hand all flushed and
smiley at each other..at the Navy station.. it was no different than what you see
of a gay bar on TV.. only difference really was.. they didn’t have to culturally
hide their homosexual love.. and haha.. the same thing
can be seen among the priesthood and monkhood
and in the Muslim clerichood too.. it is a boy’s
neighborworld where no one is even allowed
to look at girls AND QUITE HONESTLY
FROM THE VIEW OF GOD’S NATURE WAY..
THAT IS FUCKING INSANITY AND MAKING
BOTH MEN AND WOMEN ‘QUEER’ AS HELL there
now AND THAT IS JUST A FACT THAT ‘NORMALLY’
IN AT LEAST SOME PRIMITIVE SOCIETIES
WHERE SEX FROM PUBERTY BETWEEN THE
OPPOSITE ONES IS ALLOWED WITHOUT REPRESSING
IT OR OPPRESSING IT THERE ARE NOT EVEN ANY WORDS
FOR HOMOSEXUALITY OR MASTURBATION IN THE LANGUAGE
AS SUCH.. humans are incredibly plastic in their ability to adapt to
the environmental circumstances.. and to hide the opposite sex..
is really no different than prison.. and the straightest most
alpha male adapting to the orifices at hand to get
the human instinct of sex job done.. to satisfy
the instinctual drive.. and sometimes in
Muslim cultures holding hands
and kisses on the check is enough
until someone buys a bride for you..
Folks.. this is just human Nature and God
of Nature 101 common sense.. use it or lose it
applies.. hide the female goods and stay around
the male goods all the time.. and folks will do what
they have to thrive and survive.. and no doubt in my
mind that there is actually more homosexual desires in
Muslim countries either hidden or not talked about than
anyone can imagine who lives there that is not a member
of that same sex.. no different than the down under
of the African American community over here..
and anyway.. it’s already been empirically
proven to some degree over the
number of Muslim folks
involved in that
online
homosexual
dating service once
it got uncovered by the
hacker as such.. for public
display.. and yeah.. this recent
American mass murder is exposing
the truth as well.. in the worse way possible..
it’s just fucked up to fuck with the God of Nature
and cover up the Truth and Light of the human body
from head to toe to penis and vagina.. as what you get
then is all about some fetish to express the Nature of Human sensuality
and sexuality whole from head to toe.. anyway.. i’m wearing my somewhat
pink to red shaded Lion King shirt to Catholic Church this morning with
cam·ou·flage shorts.. to point out the hypocrisy of the flaming
gay Catholic Church.. where there are so many obvious
conflicting hypocritical folks lying to themselves and
everyone else it would be hilarious if it wasn’t
so flaming sad.. the Catholic Church is the
largest run closeted homosexual
organization that the world
has ever known and crap even
my horny granddad for the opposite
sex as Catholic Priest talked to that
homosexual Catholic way as author
way back in the middle of last
century too.. it’s human
Nature.. the patterns do remain..
and the best thing about that i suppose
is it has softened up the image now of
Jesus so much more than what you find
in the less flaming element of Love in the
Protestant end of days hell fire churches per se..
and nah.. there ain’t much homosexual blatant in the temple
Catholic bashing going on.. as there are good reasons
why the priests will put a stop to that if the more
so-called macho Deacons start to go down that path..
So yeah.. there’s some dirty water in the Catholic
Church.. and the Muslim World of clerics and
the Protestant way too.. but ya cannot toss
out the baby of Love over dirty bath
water no matter what..
there is room to improve..
the Catholic Church is moving
slightly away from lies.. and sooner
or later the rest of religion in Abrahamic
way will follow suit as bottom line.. God lives
best within us when free from chains of lies..
God lives best when real and true to
the Nature of what will more
often naturally occur
when there
are no more
hidden lies..
AND Priests/Deacons are not afraid
to say a prayer for over a hundred
folks who were shot up in a bar for fear
that they might be seen as sympathetic
to who they really are at core as human
beings.. that really disgusts me the most i think
out of any experience i’ve had at Catholic Church since
i haven’t missed a Sunday of Singing in almost three years
now.. THE FACT THAT OUT OF A CONGREGATION OF
OVER A THOUSAND PEOPLE THAT DAY BY 11 AM THAT
MORNING THAT NO ONE WAS BRAVE ENOUGH TO
OFFER A PRAYER FOR THOSE HOMOSEXUAL
FOLKS WHO WERE KILLED IN THE
BIGGEST MASS MURDER
IN AMERICAN HISTORY
IN SHOOT ‘EM UP
STYLE.. they just went
by the book of what was pre-planned
on the Church list to do.. and no one had
the God dam human common sense then and basic
humanity for a nation that is ‘supposed to be’
one Nation under God of all in a Republic and
not just a monarchy of a chosen few as some spiffy
suited church goers think.. they are so God dam special
over someone else like a Panhandler Jesus on the side of the
road that they say.. oh GOD… you look like an able bodied man not
considering that mental illness can be totally invisible on the outside
and say.. get a job.. you lazy bum.. not even realizing that’s just Jesus they
are talking about.. of millions.. who have finally determined that it is society
who is really insane and not them.. funny how what is good and what is bad
can get
so fucking
insanely sTiLL
twisted around
in human misery and
suffering.. but that is what
human enlightenment is all
about.. escaping the father
of all lies.. as truly God is
more like a black she.. as
the astronaut said when
returning to
earth..
yeah.. as always
dArk births LiGht..
and all of this is sImply
dArk birthing more liGht..
if you can see the dARk is the
liGht and the liGht is the dARk sAMe..
and it is for us each as human beings
to find God in us as is to choose the
path that works from birth
of dArk
into A liGht..
that shines briGhter
out oF dARk noW..
anyWay.. it dam
sure works
for me.. @lEast..
oh yeah.. and back to my
original point about Ray and his
assessment as living forever is not
worth it for the boredom like hell that would
occur.. well FucK.. don’t you understand Ray
that’s what the dArk is for.. as with dArk there
is always creativity of liGht and that means
LIFE NEVER GETS BORING AS LONG AS
YOU CO-CREATE WITH GOD
DARK
TO LIGHT to
DARK TO LIGHT
FOREVERMORE NOW..
and i’m sure that Ray now
who was born in ’32 like my
Dad was… is.. finding a way to still
noW create liGht out oF dARk as bottom
line is we all do that when we are BaLanCinG
aT lEast.. no need to lie about God as reaLiTy
out of DArk.. Now iS tHere reAlly.. once one
uncovers the dArk and liGht of God
W
i
T
H
iN side..
out side..
aBove.. so
beLow and
aLL A’round noW..
tHe DArk Ocean now
miXes wiTh the Star
oF liGht and tar and
oiLed birds iN LiVinG
dArk of ‘Kali’.. noW do
rise uP to liGht aGaiN..
and to be clear here.. Homosexuality
is not just a part of Nurture created after
birth.. tHere is GroWinG evidence that before
birth the womb awash in androgens from stress
in the environment can create the propensity of
homosexuality as a natural way to decrease the
future fertility of the population to
better share what social stress
normally means as less
to eat to even
be able to survive..
so the ‘best’ way to make
a homosexual society like what
Muslim cultures really are closeted
as such.. is.. to make women marry men they
don’t wanna marry and get them all stressed
out.. and next you know you have a really fucked
up culture.. that has adapted to life’s stresses
where most everyone is living a lie in human
made hell.. so sure when sociologists
like Ray say.. that Muslim
cultures Will eventually
adapt to current U. S. of A
general human freedoms that’s just
common sense too.. as life is worth
living when free.. and seriously who
wants to die in a suicide bombing
or mass shooting..
when life is worth
R E a L L y..
living now..
IT’S COMMON
SENSE 101 AND EASIER
TO FOLLOW if someone isn’t
threatening your freedom
for continuing control
for what is
deemed as the
flavor of order now..
Waking up to the God oF
Nature in us as us has alWays
been and is THE TRuTH AND LIgHT..
it’s innate.. instinctual.. and sTiLL
intuitive.. and needs no lies for REAL..:)

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Finding Dory.. moral of the story..
with perseverance and alWays trYinG
new paThs when the otHeRs do not work..
stuff eventually works out..
and i must say..
that for me at least
with 100% Hope..
Faith.. and Belief
that i show liFE works
out in both dArk and liGht..
the tween beyond rainbow color
shades.. and hues of ever more
EmoTioNaL moves and colors of liFE..
wHOle.. yeah.. LiFE when viewed froM WHole
Canvas Painting is the most beautiful thing imaginable
and more as we can imagine it and create it WhOle as pARt
aS WeLL.. and the trUe and real Quantum Magic of life iN miNd
and BoDy unleashed and released continues to grow aT lEast
for me.. documented in all the art of blog.. in Longest.. Long
Form PoeM now.. sTiLL GroWinG WitH these words.. and
after writing about Jesus Panhandlers.. sure enough
i met three today wHere Pigeons fly free
as messengers too.. and the Raven
who is fed by NaturE noW needs
no stress of manmade
rules to eat..
yeah.. humans
are social animals
and they take care of each
other.. and the good news was this
man and his friends who had roughed
it out in life who refused to be named as
homeless but domestically displaced
on their way back home..
did receive enough kindness
from people who are never
strangers who have empathy
and unconditional Love who
do the right so-called good
cop Jesus thing of helping
their fellow humans as brothers
and sisters with no personal judgements
over.. mental illness.. alcoholism.. which is also
a disease that is addiction.. and just FucKinG
Misfortune.. Hospital bills from past and
foreclosed mortgages and i was so
happy to hear the homeless men
say.. they’ve never been happier
as they escaped the true insanity
of culture as is.. as certainly of
what i assessed it as bound
and cuffed to the system
of work for
decades..
without respite
until it.. by a razor’s hair
edge almost ended my life..
as stress kiLLs iT REALLY DOES..
and nah.. we had already given our
spare cash to another homeless person
before.. and these homeless men showed
the most appreciation and didn’t ask for a dime..
they were just happy to meet some more friendly
human family in the ever occurring now of LiFE that Lives..
and i must say.. the FinDinG Dory movie.. IS A sAMe
God dAm story.. in that parKinG lot today.. as
these folks stick together who are
domestically displaced no
different than Dory
and her friends
who find that
friends are truly
family same as any
so-called other blood that
folks think separates them
any less thick than unconditional
Loving Friendship ways.. so yeah..
Jesus and the other Jesus’ could be
found on the side of the road today..
and on the way to see Jesus.. i saw
some threats of hell by bad cop Jesus
that i photoed off a Van.. and one of those
scary scary Pamphlets about burning
in hell cooling wet on the Chinese
Restaurant sink.. all distributed by
folks who have so-called homes..
but sure they could have skipped
all the fear and hate.. and just met
Jesus and his Jesus friends in the
parking lot.. as one of the men said…
i AM Jesus’ personal representative
and that is all i need in life.. and
yeah.. the Jesus metaphor
as role model created
by the Catholic
church well after
what scholars suggest
is the 18% or so words
that can even be attributed most
to one author alone out of the
New Testament book.. live
in Nature free aWay
from lies
of fear
and hate..
And sure.. if he was one
man who could get reincarnated
today.. or just another man as he promised
in humble way WiLL do much more than he
in the future.. those men.. WiLL shake tHeir
head in disgust.. and alMost disbelief that
his message of Golden Rule Love
and no exclusions for Gentile..
Jew.. Servant or man or
woman no more
separate ONE
WitH aS God’s
Love.. as truly
nothing changed
and still hasn’t changed
for so many folks who continue
to crucify Jesus’ REAL MESSAGE
OF FEARLESS LOVE.. with hate
and fear.. as ANTI-CHRIST REAL..
anyWay.. Hope and Fearless
Love Heals.. Anger..
Hate.. and Fear
is the equivalent
in Emotional power
to most human suffeRinG
and miSery.. amaZinG that
folks stiLL chose the second
place as hell on earth instead
of REAL DOMESTICALLY DISPLACED
HEAVEN OF GOD’S NATURE NOW.. AS
A MUCH BETTER FREEDOM TO BE WITH
GOD ALL NOW.. OnE… AS Pigeons WiLL
Deliver as messengers of God too.. sAdLY
culture makes something so beautiful and
BaLanCinG as Fearless Love into
the mechanical cognition
of a culture with
a Labyrinth that some
folks never escape through
tHeir day of death.. these homeless
folks could EXCLAIM.. i AM aLivE..
LiVinG and i FeeL the FULLesT..
eXTent of that wiTh God ALL
ThaT iS.. oh.. Now.. tHe wIDe
aWaKe and EnliGhteNinG
FeeLinGs and SeNseS
FReED WitH God..
tRuLY iN terms oF
JuSt DoinG iT..
Zero beaTs thaT.. noW..
anYwaY2 Long LONG LoonnG..
daY oF DancE and ‘thiS
Dory’ IS A jUst
aBout
ready to
FaLL asleep
like a dolphin StiLL
wiTh at Least one hemisphere
of bRaiN opeN.. alWays WidE awAke..
and sure.. tHerE’s a SonG for thAt too..:)

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iN storE..
contTinUinG
freeST stYle DancE
roUtine.. alWays neW
neVer enDinG.. alWaYs stArTinG..
aLwaYs noW.. DancE oF liFe’s SonG mY SoUL Now..:)

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HeHE.. more inspiration
heRe from online Illuminati
end of days conspiracy
theorist way.. and
sure my.. X-Catholic
Priest Grandaddy did
the same last Century
in his still PDeFEd..
book as authored
titled ..
“Behind the Dictator’s”..
easily searchable too
now in online way..
so sure.. just
continuing
an old
line family
linEage way here..
from Ireland days..
of Catholic Priest
then too.. in
grandfatherly
way on just another
Celebration way of
Summer Solstice
2016.. as meaning
and purpose is what
hUman liFe is all about..
and sure there are basicAlly
two ways to go.. one in the
Love and Hope of Heaven now..
and the other duality in Hell
now of Hate and Fear REAL..
i choose the liGht Fearless
path of Love’s LiGht
others choose the
dArk path oF
Fear and hate..
and sure.. as any
cLoudy day WiLL..
tHey inspire mE for
thE SuN of God ReAL2..:)

Here’s the deal dude..
The Anti-Christ that
is only fear and hate
aWay from hope and love
has already come.. is found out..
and is slowly being erased from the
eARTh to a new age of Christ as Hope
and Love.. sure.. metaphors.. if you haven’t
lEarned NOT to take sacred text in literal way..
Truly it’s as simple as that the Christ way of
Life is the Golden rule away from fear
and hate that is Unconditional
Fearless Love for aLL yoUr
neighbors that is Nature
God anD ONe.. anything
else is anti-christ my
friend.. and sAdly
i see those
remnants here
still same as when
the Roman Emperor Constantine
and his Catholic Cohorts made the
humble yogi-like teacher Yeshua into a Soldier
Sun God of the entire beyond InFinITy oF GoD
oF aLL that is.. and of course Constantine THeN folloWed
suit by making a monolithic statue of himself to be worshipped
as idol same as folks still do for a King of a Universe nailed to a cross
of hell as King instead of last before first.. and one who would freely
say still in New Testament way that giants of Fearless Love would
come after him to do much more in evenTuaLiTy to spRead
thiS sAMe GOlden Rule of Buddha and all his sage
ages ‘friends’ 2 around the the world my friEnd
sTiLL now in REAL APOCALYPSE GREEK
MEANING THAT MEANS LIFTING THE
VEIL OF IGNORANCE MY FRIEND
AND HELL NO.. NO ANTI-CHRIST
FEAR AND HATE WAY OF
END days and lies
like that
to control
and subjugate
human freedoms by
repressing and oppressing
Free God as humaNifest
in and as us as now..
and haha.. sure i can
prove it with my own
little bible of longest free
verse long form way
approaching
4 million
words..
but nah..
no need to link..
my friend.. as God has
already provided this Raven
with enough to eat for the rest
of his life.. with no need for Google
likes.. shares.. and pennies along the
way.. but sure.. everyone’s gotta make a living
now.. huh.. the way of basic subsistence survival
but sadly it’s kinda hard to spread hope and love
for money.. as money is still the root of all fear same
in ways of subjugation of others for control in ways
of hate and evil.. generally speaking.. as human end
of that means to life now.. anyway.. my friEnd..
i’m just ‘HeAR’ as many others are freely
as volunteer soldiers of God who
heRe thE CAll of God Within..
inside.. outside.. above..
so below.. and all
around to help
NoW lift oFF the
veil of ignorance
sure that is the REAL
CHRIST apocalypse noW
in other Bible translation
Greek way too.. of BeForE..
So.. SuRE.. YOU CAN CALL uS
THE ILLUMINATi.. NoW.. thE LIGHT
BRINGERS IF YOU LIKE too2 real.. AS WE
STAND TaLL.. FiRM AND UNSHAKEABLE
IN AND AS THE REAL CHRIST WAY OF
FEARLESS HOPE.. FAITH.. AND BELIEF
IN THE POWER OF GOD OF NATURE ALL
GRACE IN THE POWER OF LOVE.. you can
find us domestically displaced on the side
of roads.. as the Raven flies and is fed by
God’s friends.. or you can find us online in places
of sacrifice for toils and troubles of fame with folks
like Katy Perry and others who make ‘little’ film shorts
in creative Wide Awake and Dark Horse ways.. or folks
like me who quietly scribe Away in creative Quantum unleashed
and released force of God within.. yes.. inside.. outside and all around
so above so below.. who do what Jesus said they would do in much more
than he could do back when.. before the new age geeks and nerds would
prepare A way for real miracles to come now to spread A Good News NOW
of Fearless Love.. Golden Rule style.. in moving.. connecting.. and creating
in iMagiNAtiOn.. of prepare ye a new technological way of doing that
now.. almost free without even any need for fame or
Google pennies for pay along the way..
wE come as thieves in the night
too my friEnd.. i AM
no one
SPECIAL
BUT
THEM..
SEE YA AROUND
BABY.. HOPEFULLY NoW
AWAY FROM ANTI-CHRIST
FEAR AND HATE.. THE LOST
WAY AS SAME SINCE THE BEGINNING
AND END OF NOW.. DON’T BE AFRAID
AND SPREAD HATE AND FEAR.. OR DO
AND LIVE IN HELL NOW.. IT’S TRULY
THaT SIMPLE AND COMPLEX
TOO.. HEAVEN IS NOW
AND MANY
OF US IN
METAPHOR
HAVE ALREADY
BEEN WIDE AWAKE
R A P T U R E D uP
AND ENLIGHTENED
IN THIS GIFT OF HEAVEN
NOW.. IT IS GOD’S ALL NATURAL
REWARD FOR THOSE OF US WHO
HAVE PERSEVERED FEAR AND HATE
AND COME OUT ON THE OTHER SIDE
WHOLE IN HOPE AND LOVE.. AND THIS
MY FRIEND WILL BE THE ONLY INVITATION
I BRING HERE NOW.. take it as a grain of salt
or not..
as life
your choice
alWays and
never really
any one else’s
but you and God
FReED who lives within..
inside.. outside.. above..
so below.. and all around
now.. and thanks my friend
for yoUr dArk inspiration for
A New age bard way Now
as this too.. WiLL be pArt
of many new age mini-
me bibles2
of God
to fill the ocean
of E-World reaLiTy
that IS A unabridged NoW
bible whole of the E-World
all now online real.. in a kingdom
for thousands years more now real
that has no sun.. no moon.. as sure
as synchronistic metaphor in Revelation
in old good book way2.. nice to meet you
here.. no matter what as that is what the
Golden rule of Jesus and other sages of the
ages.. like Buddha and so many others have
sAGeD across the ages.. tHere is no fear and
hate in my life friend.. as that is the real crOwn
A N D R E A L T H R O N E N O W I N H E A V E N
of Jesus.. REAL.. Hope and Love and again as ending
note always
of Heaven now..
A G A I N REAL..
Fear and hate is
the other way
to hell iN
now.. noW
NoW Enjoy A River
wayAS wave mY friEnd NoW..
thE water iS Fearless LovENOW
in whole Ocean of DArk and
liGht mixed oNe as field
of dreams noW REAL
realized in the
Kingdom of
God’s heavEn
noW.. no wHere ever
but now.. and i Am just
a noWheRe but noW
man my
FRiEnD
and sure
a watcher
witness
and scribe
as such.. as God’s
court reporter2 if ya
wanna use that metaphor
as WeLL.. HAVE A NiCE NOW…;)
WiTH GOD WiNKS TOO.. wRite.. ON COURSE NoW..:)

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WeLL.. no trip back
to dVerse to bRinG more
statues aLivE Now MoVinG
but soMeHow noW @lEast
i FeeL i did anyWAY iN pArt..
THiNk.. not so much.. NO..
but FeeL.. oH.. NoW..
YES..
So.. Happy
Sumer Solstice
As A Sun stArTS faDinG anD
Will Rise aGaiN as alWays
morE as WiNter Solstice
fLies out oF Ashes
iN A cYcle
oF DArk
aNd liGht..
thaT goes oN
forevernowmorEnoW..
as Star duSt beComEs
uS aS DaRK And liGht
SpArKs oF FirE hoMe allone..2..1..
ending for now thiS 678th Macro verse
pArt oF LonGest Long Form Poem noW
titLed.. “i cAMe for
eNliGhTeNinG
NoW”..:)

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Hi gigoid.. as penniewoodfall so elegantly
quotes otHeRs wiTh similar nAMes..
i AM glad to see you back
and aM continUinG
to eNjoY
mY
pLay
of VillAge
iDioT2..noW1..
and didn’t see
the quote heRe..
and perHaps i’LL coMe
back a little later to add more
but for now the one you jUst shaRed
off oF Facebook WiLL end a Summer 2016
Solstice pLaY oF iT.. iN reSouNDinG noW
tri-U..
TuNe2..1..2..;)

“It is an interesting question
how far men would retain
their relative rank if they
were divested of
their clothes.”

— Henry David Thoreau

And iN shorts thAT mY FRiEnD..
iS hoW i f0r 0Ne EnSuRe i WiLL
neVer GaiN anY FucKinG eARThly RanK…
aS iT iS
A RAnk
oF ulTiMaTe
hUman StInK
TRump STanK..
As A
reForMed
Grinch
miGht
SaYe..2..REaL..

noW So.. Yes!
See yAl8r’s
babY.. iF Ya
don’t see
mE
LasT..;)

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