Well.. hi!.. back to you Princess
Leah.. and i always like to call you
that even before i saw your picture
in the ball attire as tiny.. strong.. and elegant
you are.. and as always after a night long sensual
Dance at Good Old Seville Quarter for my 112th
week.. i’M feeling particularly poetic.. and after aLL
i’ve been FeeLinG that way.. ever since the end of
February 2013.. like a switch changed in my
brain.. hehe.. but per science i am certain
it is neuroplasticity and epigenetics
at play as change of mind and body
balance soUl.. and in my case
iT IS A flow of energy iN thE
zONe.. what they
name as Chi
to Star Wars2..
and yes.. real magic
for me.. as before that i was
a list maker.. firstly.. secondly..
and thirdly.. and had no idea how
to be creative as i experienced this
artFUL flow twice.. once in middle school
then.. winning a Christmas story competition
among 80 students in two homerooms.. then..
and writing a play when i talked to the phenomena
of hot chicks.. but had no frigging clue what sex was
until age 16.. or had no clue until 18.. beyond the fur of what
was between a girl’s legs to put THAT rather bluntlY and crudeLY..
hehe.. but anyway.. with the HYperlexic mind that i’m pretty
sure we both share.. as there is a certain feeling about your
writing that talked to me beyond ‘just the words’ when you
conversed those few times with me on the Wrong Planet
IN a kind of advanced soul.. if not only in genetic
memory.. as scientists are starting to
explore the reality of that in
rats at first too… so there
is no rat taling how
that may apply
whole.. but anyway..
it’s so nice not to have to analytically
plan something.. every step.. to make it happen..
it’s so nice not to have to worry about if every step
you walk is the normal way it is supposed to be as i never
felt comfortable in my own skin before 2013.. ever standing
next to a stranger as i truly felt a vague feeling that i wasn’t
balanced and might just topple over as i guess a part of Asperger’s
too. in motor coordination issues.. but back to Neuroplasticity.. Epigenetics..
and the real scientist part of me that i can still call up if absolutely necessary
to become a lawyer again too… CHALLENGE.. ADAPTATION.. CHANGE IS THE WAY
OF THE BEING AS HUMAN.. and Jesus F in Christ.. culture’s challenge was to become
a cog in a machine of who THEY said life was supposed to work.. from the first F iN
walk up that hill from the shot gun home on the Blackwater River front Down town
in old MiLL ToWn here.. and the German Shepard dogs barking at me.. and i was
afraid they might bite my tiny frail hands off in one chomp.. seriously..
i was terrified a dog might bite my hands off for some reason..
as they felt special and so airy.. almost like they were
not even there in the first place.. kinda like the
rest of my body.. just like air with
almost no weight
i guess that’s
part of the reason
i feel so comfortable in
my body now.. as at 230LBS
i finally got enough poundage
to make me feel grounded to
earth as it were and truly
is now.. although
when i dance
i still feel
like one day
if i get too high with
the SonG and DancE i might
just float away like those 99 Luft
Balloon as originated by that group
as song in Germany where you live now
my wonderful kind and loyal Asperger’s
Friend.. like me.. who i know i will always have
and just the one reply a month now is enough for
always have.. my friend.. ’cause it does sTiLL make
me kinda sad that i always reciprocally communicated
with everyone in my life who has every communicated with
me.. and i am the always the last one standing.. if not for just
one conversation with them.. that i would like to extend for two..
but it’s like my wife says.. SHUT UP FRED.. YOU ARE HURTING MY HEAD..
YOU ARE GIVING ME A FREDACHE.. AS TEARS COME DOWN MY FACE NOW..
AS I JUST WANNA SHARE WHAT I THINK IS SO IMPORTANT THAT MIGHT MAKE
YOU FEEL BETTER DEAR.. it’s hard to be smArt.. but it’s almost FUCKING IMPOSSIBLE
TO BE GENIUS.. and have a God Dam Friend.. but i have a handful now.. and like in the
World Market store back in the day.. of working in an office for so long where i didn’t really
have a FUCKING THING IN COMMON ENOUGH TO HAVE A REAL FRIEND AT ALL.. i thought about
around the World.. and perhaps.. maybe.. just maybe there was one person like me.. and truthfully
i found a few on the Wrong Planet.. but none with any propensity for continuing reciprocal social
communication with me.. and now i have found a handful on the Internet that do the reciprocal
social communication BACK FROM ME.. and you know i FUCKING WROTE A POETIC RESPONSE
BACK TO EVERY SINGLE dVerse Poetry prompt and link that numbered in literal
thousands of poetic micro expressions from me in the course of an
entire year last year.. particularly after the administrators
kept taling me they didn’t like my Long Poem
way of doing poetry.. with videos..
and so many photo streaming
poetic expressions that
are integrated with
the written word
for the visual
i was before i became
the 11 million word man
back on Thanks Giving day
in November of 2010 at the
Wrong Planet.. then.. to escape
my perfect storm of God Dam pain..
and back to all those poetic responses
after they deleted my poem.. ’cause they
FUCKING DIDN’T UNDERSTAND IT.. EVEN AFTER
I FUCKING CLEARLY EXPLAINED IT TO THEM.. I MADE
IT A MILESTONE TO KEEP GOING ON FOR A FULL YEAR
AND after i accomplished that at the end of March this year..
i made one poem titled “GodsUniVerseNovel3” so so far
far from me.. having no idea how long it was gonna be
before i compiled the Novel Free Verse Poetic
journey of one entire year.. and just a
fraction of what i did whole as year at
that one Internet place.. and it ended
up being 338,630 words long with
around 300 gorgeous
i headed each
prompt with.. with
around 30 or so micro
poems.. and yeah.. although
i haven’t gone back and counted
each one.. that makes close to
10,000 individual micro poetic
expressions.. in one MACRO VERSE
OF MY ENTIRE WORD PRESS BLOG..
THAT IS ACTUALLY ONE HUGE LONG FORM POEM
THAT IS CLOSING IN ON 4 MILLION WORDS NOW
THAT EVEN AT 338,630 WORDS MicroSoft
Word says WiLL take 3000 pages to print
without the Fucking Photos and Videos
as such.. which means conservatively
speaking without the scores of thousands
of photos and Videos my entire 671 Verses
of my Blog that is actually one UniVerse of
Long Free Verse Poem Form.. would take over
30,000 pages to print.. and is actually almost twice
as long as the Longest Poem ever in humankind and
of course.. four times longer than the Fucking Bible and
40 times longer than the Fucking Kuran.. as it ain’t just
narrative free verse prose poetry .. it is FucKinG Deep
DEEP Poetry Shit too.. perhaps.. who knows.. maybe
as deep as it can FucKinG Get as sometimes i have
to read it three times now after i wrote it to get
the original meaning of it or the different
meaning after i first wrote it.. as truly
it just flows from my fingers with
little to no preplanning
per firstly.. secondly..
thirdly or all
formulas they use in snooty
poetry land for WHAT SOME FOLKS
CALL REAL SCIENCE OF POETRY THAT
IS A FUCKING OXYMORON TO ME AS ANYTHING
PLANNED DON’T COME FROM THE HEART.. SOUL..
AND SPIRIT.. DEEP IN MY FEELINGS FREE.. BUT OF
course before THAT switch went off in my mind
and body BaLanCinG back in 2013.. i had
to have a manual to write
it’s nice to
go NOT BY THE BOOK..
AS THAT WAS THE PROBLEM
WITH CULTURE.. IT MADE ME INTO
A COVER OF A HUMAN BEING INSTEAD
OF THE GOD DAM REAL THING.. the real
thing was me in the backyard of that River
Front home.. in Down Town Milton.. looking
in flow and ZonE at age 3 across the River before
i could speak at age 4 as of course what does happen
in modern day Autism.. where back then the Doc just
said he will speak when he gets good and God dam ready
to speak.. and yes.. i added in the God dam for my emphasis
there.. i am so FucKinG happy.. there was no diagnosis for FucKinG
Asperger’s then.. as if that were the case in my Hyperlexic form.. i would
have been spoon fed mechanical cognition activities at FucKinG age 3
in the-ra-py.. when all i needed to do.. was juST enjoy liFE look across
that River in Flow.. and ZonE and kNow and FeeL AND SENSE without
words that i was one with this thing called Nature GoDONE AND SAME..
develop the same friendships i was developing in play in back
and front yard games.. until they TRAPPED ME IN
A DESK ALL DAY LONG.. SAT ME IN FRONT
OF A BOOK AND A TALKING HEAD AND
SAID SIT FRED SIT.. AND TO BE HONEST
I WAS TOO FUCKING SCARED TO
MOVE OR NOT PAY ATTENTION
AS I THOUGHT GOOD
IN THIS WORLD..
I WAS WRONG.. I WAS GOD
DAM WRONG.. THE HIGHWAY
TO LIFE IS PAVEDANCE MOVING WITH
CONNECTING SonG WITH OTHERS NOW
AND CREATING.. NOT A FUCKING NUTHER
ROTE FACT TO REMEMBER AND ACE ON
A MULTIPLE CHOICE TEST TEN THOUSAND
AND MORE FUCKING TIMES FOR FUCKING
19 YEARS UNTIL THE SIX YEARS OF COLLEGE
ENDED AND ALL THE THREE DEGREES WITH
NO FUCKING JOB SKILLS TO DO ANYTHING
BUT PASS OUT SHOES TO CUSTOMERS
AT A MILITARY BOWLING CENTER
‘CAUSE I NEVER REALLY
FULLY OR EVEN FUCKING
EXPRESS MYSELF FULLY
IN WRITING EITHER.. the two
skills i needed most that multiple
choice tests never gave me.. and no matter
how garbled and incoherent my words were
as i could not F-iN Focus after sitting still all
day long with no movement.. i was for all
practical intents and purposes retarded
with three degrees.. at the top of my
class as that was all the teachers
were interested in.. not what
i could do in real life.
just F In test
the very hard
way.. then and
i eventually got
a lot of the social
part from the hard
knocks of Bowling Alley
social life then iN trial and error..
but truly the school system Sucks
for a nomad like me that was meant
to be on the ADHD move.. i’m just fucking
smart and didn’t have any way to get it out..
Well..the DancE and SonG of LiFe finally cured
that.. allowing me to Express all that was inside
that i could never get out.. and yes.. it is good that
your husband quit that Game of Thrones game developer
job and is taking a long month break.. as corporations will
change.. and stress will continue to grow greater… and my
sister recently retired.. and by the way she is diagnosed with
Asperger’s in mid-life too.. if i didn’t already mention
that.. and she said she finally enjoys food again..
as the pleasure of life was leaving
her the same way it did
me after prolonged
flight or fight
stress since F iN
age 5.. that first
walk up that hill
to mechanical cognition
school.. and she can enjoy
music again.. as i lost the ability
to even listen to a talk radio show
or listen to any sound at all or look
at any colors either.. as stress will
do FucKinG whacky destructive stuff
to the body from head to toe.. to
potential premature death..
yes.. it is potentially
a life saver that your
husband is taking a break
and as long as you have your
exercise program to accommodate
your stress.. you should survive well
now.. my friend.. off of cigarettes.. as that
is a common way to deal with cumulative
fight or flight stress too.. and is what my
father did since age 13.. until his
fortunate long life at 81 although
his identical twin brother is
still living.. approaching
84 as Gemini us too…
on June 20th..
ha! anyway.. i have developed
a science of creativity unhampered
by what society says i shouldn’t do or
should do now.. it is extreme.. but it is
unfettered by what others say i should
or should not do.. from the age
of Pre-K.. yeah.. i forgot
my stress actually
started in Catholic
School pre-K but it
was a tiny classroom
and kinda lax as pre-school
can come now to make the
next brain surgeon as it were
now more so as now.. anyway2 and
three now to end mY FriEnd.. Life is
exciting.. ever changing but much better
with moving.. connecting.. and creating to me..
instead of someone spoon feeding life to me
out of an F IN societal instruction manual..
but sure it’s good to know the law and
the loop holes too.. as the
smARt ArT HeArT SpiRiTeD
S O U L N O W human..
wiTh reaSoNInG BraiN
too.. will survive the
long haul with a dirt
nap dream that says
I DID IT ALL.. I LIVED AT
THE LAST BREATH THEN..
AND SURE.. LEFT A LITTLE
MARK AND SOME GUIDEPOSTS
FOR OTHER FOLKS ON THE MULTI-VERSE
PATHS OF THIS JOURNEY CALLED LIFE.. thanks
for stopping by on my Artful Poetic Journey
now away from the mechanical cognition
of liFe.. my Friend.. always nice to
hear from you.. and as you
know you can alWays
expect a tSuNaMi oF
i when i floW back
to you Now
Joy to you in eYes
of Peaceful and Energetic
liFe my friend.. with plenty
of MoVinG.. CoNnecTinG
and CreaTinG ways in whatever
way suits yoUr happiness best
and of course whatever else
will tickle your fancies
too.. my dear
See ya later..
WitH Smiles of course..
PS.. Happy Birthday
at the end of May too!..:)
Hi! gigoid.. almost exhausted here after my last 15K word 671st..
Macro Verse of my LonGeST Form Poem but fired back up after a night
of sensual dance that always fuels all things associated with ART oF
social/nature cognition for me in terms of moving.. connecting
and creating whole.. and truly why DancE and
SonG.. iNcluding poeTry iS my onLY
TRUE RELIGION FRIEND..
other than learning
to accept all the dARk and
LiGht oF noW as sacRed HolY
and change what i can
and lEt the
DaRk that iS
here as is that
i cannot change
a pArt of the SacRed
hoPe that more folks
who are DArk WiLL to
become more liGht iN ArT
than science of fear and hate
and all other stuff related to
not LiVinG liFe WeLL aT aLL..
so sad so sad in DArk oF aLL
trUly FaLL of hUman Angel
FrienDs who juST
Love moST All iN tHe
liGht of EnJoYinG noW
WitH only Food.. Shelter..
Water.. and yes.. luSt and
Love to make liFe aLL.. AH..
Love noW.. mY FriEnD and so
nice to see you back on Facebook.,
Facebook FriEnD Ned.. too.. numbering
iN as 51 who are even brave enough to
have me on their FriEnD liSt @ALL.. as
i come here for TrUth and liGht and often
upset the so-called Atheist with my insistence
that Nature.. Magic.. God and all stuff life iS
saCreD hOly ALLTHATIS SAME.. and my
insistence.. that whomever wrote the
words of the gnostic Jesus.. was
more Yogi-Leaning than any
other metaphor of
dudes or dudettes and
of course the insinuation noW
that a dude called MuHammad
who dictated something called
the KuRaN in just 2000 words of
vocabulary in an 80K word book..
is the last F In Prophet when little
old me.. the permanently disabled
dude in a little River Town who could
not speak before age 4.. mumbling his
way through life fast and incoherently
to most in a thousand different subjects
of flighty ADHD mind all at once.. who has
now written 11 million words online.. including
the longest long form poem that is my Word
Press Blog now approaching 4 million words
itself.. that is at least 40 times longer than than
the friGGinG little bitty gnat sized Kuran in comparison..
wHere even one of my macro Verses per ‘GodsUniVerseNovel3’..
is 4 times as long as that little black book.. and almost half the
size of the entire F iN Bible new and old testament full.. and
twice as large as the Frigging New Testament now at
only 180K words compared to my 338,630 words
big Macro Verse noW.. in pARt of what
WiLL be here.. the 672nd macro verse of
tHaT wHOLE LONG POEM NOW..
i peck the eYeS iN metaFO
RcE of folks who think they are
the last and first of anything noW..
iN terms of sacred text.. as idols of
men who WE now.. are far exceeding
in human potential.. with the help of God ALL
ONe heRe on eARTh.. including all of Google and
the Internet too.. in terms of synergistic effect and
Emotional AFFECT TOO.. in all the arts and sciences
of humankind eYes of God maniFest in this Golden City
IIT without even the Sun and Moon for liGht.. additionAlly
defeating the law of entropy in Nature’s full science way..
iN ART and SCIENCE as just one SonG oF
EmoTioNaL Energy NOW can repeat..
almost forever in terms of human
lives here on earth relatively
speaking as long as
to serve up
with tiny tiny batteries
iN sMARt PhOne way..
that can move a 230LB
man like me through spiRAls
oF Ballet and Martial Arts
Dance for hours on end
in juST Super WalmARt
AisleS now.. so.. sure.. now
i/wE come here to SpRead
trUth and liGht and
while the HuMan
for the social norm for
overall survival.. we live in
a technology aided world where
the outcasts with the Bigger TruThs
oF liGhtS.. without fear of crucifixion.. starvation
and such as that.. or even psychopathic leaning
fools who will never ever get down this far in the
deeper metaFORCE OF LiFe to DIFFERENT like
the metaphors of the New Testament created
by whomever created THAT have much
deeper meanings than MOST
never even get a FULL clue oN
now.. not EVEN
LEANING PRIESTS AND PREACHERS
AS SCIENCE SHOWS AS FACT ARE PART
OF THE TOP TEN PROFESSIONS WHERE
THOSE KIND OF FOLKS LURK.. ‘PErvFECT’ PLACES
TO MANIPULATE OTHER FOLKS FOR MATERIAL GAINS
AND REPRODUCTIVE CONTROL.. AND CHANGING THE
RULES TO GET 10 WIVES INSTEAD OF 4 AS ‘SOME’ HAVE
CERTAINLY DONE IN HISTORY.. ADDITIONALLY.. ENFORCING
THEIR RELIGIOUS RULE BY PENALTY OF DEATH AND TORTURE
AND STONING LESBIAN WOMEN IN IRAN.. WHILE COVERING
THEM IN DIRT TO THEIR BREASTS WHERE THEY CANNOT
SHIELD THEIR EYES.. WELL.. LET ME TELL YOU.. THE REAL
GOD.. YES.. THE SAME GOD THAT WHOMEVER WROTE
THE GNOSTIC GOSPEL OF THOMAS.. PER SO-CALLED
JESUS.. IS TIRED OF OTHER PARTS OF GOD HARMING
EACH OTHER FOR FOOLISH INSANE PSYCHOPATHIC
FOLKS LEANING RULES OF YESTERNOWS.. ThEIR
IS A WAVE IN THIS WORLD.. A NoW SEVENTH SEAL
WAVE NAMED SACRED LOVE THAT IS BREAkING..
RIsING LIKE A TSUNAMI AND iN A SYNERGY
OF A TIPPING POINT WILL SWEEP
THE HATE.. AND PERHAPS
EVEN MUCH OF THE FEAR
AWAY TOO.. AND i.. my fRiEnd
aM pArt of an Iron Fist of God
as meteor in metaphor among
many others who have
come back now..
of phoenix rising
from the lies of culture
wHO are bRinGing the
fist of the God oF Nature
altruistic fearless Love back
to punch the FucKinG haters
back to knock them back
hehe.. tSuNaMi am i..
and i’Ve lots of tSuNaMi
FriEnds BacKinG mE Up
whether they are cognizant
of thAT fAct and Art and ReaL
ALL NATURAL QUANTUM
MECHANICS MAGIC NOW
iN THE HUMAN MIND AND BODY
BALANCED SOUL UNLEASHED AND
RELEASED.. HeHeh.. these ARE INTERESTING..
VERY interesting nows.. my friend.. and i’m jUst
a court reporter/scribe/poet as such to
wRite iT aLL FucKinG dOwn.. in terms
oF iF yoU seeK iN God.. yEs the REAL
GOD OF NATURE NOW.. IT’s NOW
FOR NATURE ALLTHATIS PeR US..
OUT OF FUCKING
LITTLE BLACK BOOKS..
OCEAN oF i..wE sMiles
iN streAMs to Rivers oF
LoVe NOW mY FriEnd..
NO LUKE WARM HERE..
LUKE OF STAR WARS HIGH
IN AWAKENING AND ENLIGHTENING
WISDOM EYE OF GOD IN US/WE ILLUMINATI
Thanks.. my friend..
noW aftA soMe Sand
aNd Sun and Dance oFF
to refresh more.. i’m Off to
your next blog posT noW…
to see.. hehe.. wHere i go
neXtnoW.. as i moST alWays
StArt oFfT wiTh whAt ‘they’
nAMe aS Zen MiNd eVen
afTer i read whatever comes
A BoX oF
Ha!.. i’ll drop down straight from finishing your words and wisdom
to the Pearls and pearls in the comments section too..
and say.. when i snarl and spit like the
primate beast i am at core to
survive at the military
gym in what the
WiLL do in aLL
hIs Natural Glory..
juSt to let ’em kNow..
he ain’t got no nows for
messing around.. he HE iS
here for survival.. LiVinG noW..
NO.. iFs and or Butts.. but maKinG
sure din din now comes sAMe.. tHere
iS tHe great pleasure of FeeLinG Fearless
mY friend.. and L I K E the alpha ape who is
trULy Gentle at core after he gets his Gorilla Growl
ouT to let other aPes kNow tHeir ain’t no fear here..
there IS AlWays more RooM for Love iF the fear can
be put aside.. and the same wITH Yellow Boy applies..
he is never afraid to come uP to strangers and offer a
fRiEndLY cLaWed Paw.. as he has been to the Jungle
uP close and personal.. and KNoWs when it’s F iN now
to get out of the way or stay.. from personal cat experience
THEN.. so yeah.. i went to the Jungle and survived intAct
fINally Fearless.. and the constructs of culture abstracts
in LanGuage way.. including obsolete pArts of
FearFULL RELIGIONS.. no longer touch
the WinGS oF miNe hiGher WitH
eYes that do fLy as
pArt oF aLLthatiS Free
noW FriEnd.. the kiNship
with the cAll of the WiLd iS
real iN fearless luSt and Love..
butT harming no other.. iT iS the
alTruism in Balance oF we LoVinG
Apes at core oF BeinG
LYinG of Hate
DeN iN absTract
coNstructs and symbolLocKs
like the four letter words
hate and fear.. Loveall
is the Seven word letter
as symbol and word that IS A BalancE
iN mY SaVinG Mantra for HEaveNoW..:)
Back to dVerse for a few here..
before work-out now comes..
It’s Open Link Thursday
and the first one of those
i have visited noW iN a few
weeks for sure..
for what i do..
in Longest Term Free
Verse PoeTry way.. hehe..;)
Lot.. oh the story of Lot.. two daughters
blamed for getting their father drunk
and what making him Fuck.. nah ain’t
the way it works.. alcohol no excuse for
getting it up and putting it in.. anyWay iS
a man’s world then.. a man’s book.. half
a culture away from the fuller story of the
human soUl.. and at least spoken to some
in New Testament way.. but rapes.. violence..
murdering children of the opposing team then
as an eye for an eye.. the way of liFe noW when
one gender dominates the other of course with yes..
help of laws for FORCE and BOOKS CONTROLLING
FOR PATRIARCHAL CONTROL IN SICKEST WAYS now
OF HARMING WEAKER HUMAN BEINGS WITH FORCE..yes
WITH FORCE AND LIES AND LIES.. ANYWAY.. SADLY MUCH
OF THE WORLD POPULATION IN FEMALE FORM SUBMITS
TO THE SO-CALLED STRONGER WEAKER SEX NAMED MALE
WHO REFUSES TO CARRY THEIR OWN WEIGHT IN LOVE OVER
LAWS.. AND THAT TAKES MORE WORK IN LOVING THAN KILLING
WOMEN AND OTHER MINORITIES IF THEY DO NOT SUBMIT TO THE
LAWS AT HAND FOR DOMINATION… God lives in and as women same
as men.. homosexuals.. weaklings.. stronglings.. transvestites.. androgynes
and even Elohim.. at first was a mix of androgyne metaphor of masculine
and feminine before THEY made God into an angry old White man with
a beard.. just like the Angry Old men who dreamed uP the stories
for control of others.. through psychopathic dead heARt
ways oF BeinG then.. same as we see in the
middle east today.. ranging from
marriages made as institutionalized
rape when dowries are used for
non-consenusal marriage.. to
female Genital mutilation
to the old tradition
need iN protection
from the environmental
elements AKA FORESKIN..
RIPPED OFF FOR THE LIE THAT
WE ARE NOT JUST ANOTHER pArt
of the Balance of GoD Nature.. no more..
no less.. just killing the GAiA with the veiL
of ignorance still covering the eYes of
around half the world or so..
in harming lying
when consensual and
between two mature adults
is sacred and holy.. but the lies go
on in pedophile priests.. buddhist monks
and ‘clerics’ over ‘there’ too.. it can be a sick
world without Love that never harms the free
WilL of another human being in relative way..
and wow this is one long poem but inspired by
a very inspiring poem by Bjorn.. about the
story of Lot turned around where the
woman who just wanted to
protect her daughters
from an incestuous
his own daughter’s
soft skin.. was turned
to a pillar of salt to keep
her mouth shut about the real
perverse of what was behind the
story to give men just another
excuse to harm women
and call them evil
at the same
the truth gets out..
even in mythological lies
in the first place.. of stories whose
real purpose is to give one segment
of pArts of God power over the other
that is truly like God shooting God in
the God dam foot.. it’s sick.. it still happens
and the cure is fearless Love in harming no
other human being’s relative free will.. and those
people who would then Love to cover uP Real TruE
intentions of control in dominance for material
gains and reproductive control.. whether it is
a FucKinG 10 million dollar home for
sport.. or a man with 10 wives
as basically slaves.. or
whatever it is
it is the greatest sin
and only sin to harm the
relative free will of another
human being.. God’s rule.. not
rules from a book.. just remember
God lives within all as Force.. to harm
any of that Force unjustified for greater
God’s Love.. iS separation to harm God
now.. God KnoWs.. FeeLs.. and seNses
iN human eYes and sKin.. to rape it.. sell
it,, or trade it for material Goods iS to do the
sAMe AS oNe to GoD ONE.. and the eventual
consequence is yes.. HOPE AND LOVE WILL
WIN OVER FEAR AND HATE.. AS LOVE AND
HOPE ARE MUCH MUCH GREATER FORCES THAT
LAST FOR THE LONG TERM OF HUMAN HAPPINESS NOW..
AND NOW off to the next link.. as i’Ve got a few more moments
left before the work-out comes to escape words with steps then..:)
The moment of never
say Goodbye can last
ForevernoW as long as hELLo
Now lasts in the heat of LovinG
every moment wiTh LuST for LiFe..
And trUly one who has LUst for aLL A’ LiFe..
can be happy with just one bed on the head
sadly.. for some
folks the great main
pleasure is a variety
of places to put stuff in
and take stuff out.. and or buy it.. BuTT
the heARt..the SoUL.. the SpiRit kNoWs
more that putting
and out and buying
in different places..
as objects over LoVE..:)
And that does it for noW..
at 6:06 pm.. 05262016..
and as alWays
what i say..
A few global detours
and now back
to dVerse for
a few.. before
i run to
better yET.. drive..;)
i Love the siGn of a free
bird flYinG iN thE
sprawl of Big
murder on the
24 hour news circuit..
muggings around the back..
as the birds just fly and do
what they do.. and yes… i
too.. am that free bird too..:)
Rose nose of smells
so sweet no knows
of fELt so red..
petals so sweet..:)
Sadly.. people are afraid of different..
glAdly.. not all people but some..
And that is a pArt of human nature..
dARk and what can bE liGht..
and that’s why we have
among us as
do go DNA
unfettered now.. by
laws that do protect..:)
LIFe.. a continuing practice
oF liGht that must be
fiercely hELd bRiGht..
less the dArk
what was once
and or first noW
LiGht.. and Now the
dArk.. too.. a pLace
of continuous practice
that must be changed one
step at a day to reach liGht
for the last or first now too..:)
WeLL that was rather short and
sweet.. as Katrina says.. Fred
you better get moving for
and she iS
correct.. i cannot
expect for Wonderland
to arrive here.. iF i
do not go tHeRe first
so.. see ya laTers aGaiN
when i gET bAck oN Course..;)
Well.. goodness back
on 5302016.. as there
have been many many
detours below.. and
i am a gonna skip
wRite on Over to
dVerse Quadrille Monday
44 word prompt about
the wonderful term
Breeze.. catch up there
and publish this newest
Epic 672nd Verse of the
Longest Long Form Poem
ever.. wRite here as
it.. oh my God! keeps
butt no.. no
me but sure.. i’ll
keep iN the spiRit oF
the particles of micro
poetic expresSioNs heRe
to go along with the
672nd wave iN
oF tHe entire
Field iN Ocean
oF thiS wHole BLog
Poem that is headed
sTiLL towards 4 milLion
words now.. with the shore
that has no horizon and
ALL Breeze aT means
oN sitE noW.. 7:02 pm..:)
Breeze of fingertips
along the sKin
of velvet tips
that yearn to spREad
a FeeLinG oF continual
bLiss.. Force oF ENergy
bEneath rosE skiN GloWeRing
as the belL TOlls aNd SingS
soft breath Breeze undulating SonG..:)
Breeze of Freedom Lonely
Souls for Soldiers known
only to God..
Giving so much
for LiFe’s LibeRty’s
Justice and yes.. the
pursuit of happiness..
UNsung heroes of long
near and far.. Soldiers
Song for God Free
ALL N ALL..:)
A Summer’s Breeze for
mE iN July of 2007..
in 100 degree Florida
weather.. a chill.. an
OMeN of what
iN Hell for
Me In 66 months..
i’d rather be RED BURNING
COAL hot than go through
thaT aGaiN.. SMiLEs..
Breeze comeS iN
aS iN PAPER HeLL..:)
Grass blows in Breeze
of Memorial day rocks
as stones wHere heads
lay to rest of wars and battles
gone by.. Rockets.. bombs.. Fireworks
sky of Old.. beneath the bones and bloods
Rocks oF Breeze..:)
Breeze of time has
no rigid ticks or tocks..
there was a tIme when
both i and wife walk around
the block after two years of
flight or fight stress for me..
she says oh that is weird
it feels like time suddenly
a split second
after i felt this
feeling of gravity
slowing time like
never ever before..
iN January of 2008..
i never looked at reaLITy
the sAMe after thaT or time
as ever just tick tock again
and no… now reTired since
then i have alMost no perception
oF tiMe aT all.. iN fAct i’M sure iT
doesn’T eXist wITh only noW aS reaLITy..:)
Surely Funny sad
strange yes whimsical
and magical noW how the
same breeze one breeze
can be so different in the
next breeze same breeze..
and that was when i determined
i WiLL master the Breeze oF FeeLinG
aLL inside and REAL IN RELATIVE
Free WiLL.. ha..! iT worked wITh
so much practice but
linE It works
i AM thE master
of mY own FeeLinGS
and SenSes noW which
means zero nada no one
controls my FeelinGs or
SenseS now.. not even
the moon.. the clouds..
the Sun or skeYes iN
Breeze.. all iS BliSS
aLL iS Color aLL
liGht oF REaL..
oh.. by the way.. sorry..
i went WAY over the liMit
but you so
Oh Lord.. it’s been
oh God.. but this
yes.. 37 years
ago.. and i can
still remember the
smell and name of
that first perfume
of my first Love..
the name was BABE..
and oh my wife is so
much more Lovely and
still looks as young almost
as that 16 year old girl at 46..
seriously.. it’s true.. i’ve photos that
prove that.. hehe.. noW on my blog but
yes.. anyway.. it’s kinda sad as honestly i
cannot remember any of the smells
of my wife’s perfume or names.. but
oh! i kNow.. i FeeL.. i would NoW
if she ever leaves..
or faLLs aWay breeze..
perhaps.. i’ll now go grab
a bottle.. spray it all.. over
mE now.. and bask noW iN
thE nAMe and SmeLL Now
oF LovE TrUe..
oh! thanks so much
Candy.. this inspireS
me.. so noW.. mY friEnd..:)
Oh Lord.. Bryan..
Living on the River
Front home in
sound of crickets
way back in 60’s..
and frogs.. through
open dead breeze paste..
turning the pillow over and
over again.. now infinity it
seems then.. stiLL noW
never a cooler spot
in mouth of River heat..:)
Sharing deeper secrets..
sharing links a place
now in someone
Real.. i WiLL
noT lEt ReAL Go..:)
Oh gosh.. this reminds
me of an entire Summer
of Digging as a research
associate in Archaeology
way back in ’83.. so young..
as Anthropology IS A degree
of miNd.. never a breeze across
holes that never end.. shovels
that alway dig.. dam it..
this frigging brown
boy stuff.. i felt then..
hehe.. now i’m tougher..
Bring on the hell hEat.. it’S
better than nOthing iN REAL HeLL..
oh.. wet behind the ears.. green with
no understanding then oF REAL BREEZE..:)
Vietnam.. A jungle
that never ends in
fiery breeze of gun
shot wounds.. my 1st
cousin in ’69..
Still no feeling
for what counts
sAdly it sTill seems…
HeARt Of LiFe
Rose oF FeelinGs
Age when hUman
Fall Breeze a favorite
tall pine needles..
cold front a sign
of North breeze too..
cure for humid ways..
WiNter even welcome
iN SAuNteRing FL DreAMs..:)
WeLL.. as Shakira
says.. hiPs and eYes
do not liE..
and after 5444
miles in 33 full
months of dance..
i repreSent umm.. aLL
heR reMArk withouT
one word.. noW iN
thaT heART liFe..;)
i left out the
word Breeze iN
mY last poetic
never less i’LL
oF Y i..;)
SeNseS and EmoTions
lovers yeT not friEnds..
and the converse..
BreaTh of Kiss
Breeze oF liFe
SonG oF FeeLinG
Been through it with
a baby too.. of 51 days..
LiFe is never
worth iT iN
dArk and liGht..
but with modern
medicine.. one can
the gift of short
of medical death..
It’s always relative
but more relative
and to be
clear.. i am not
the inspiRaTioN thEse
words bRinG mE noW..:)
Oh.. to Love thE Breeze
tHe staRs oF shiNe..
liGht Now to
to Love iT
aLL to bE iT
uP! and ending
dVerse for noW..!..:)
Hi.. gigoid.. thanks so much for stopping by
and absorbing 200 or so photos.. 15k words..
etc.. hehe.. about the average output of the
poets i visit in about a years time.. so truly
if most anyone visits me out of that crowd in reciprocation
of my reading their 50 or so words output.. we are now even for the
year.. hehe.. as tit for tat goes.. but yes.. seriously.. i was never
a word person as you know.. until 2010.. as before that hmm.. back then..
i just couldn’t use my eyes and ears at all after 2008.. for anything
other than pain.. and when i could use them.. most all of what i did
in my spare time away from work is the home stuff that had to be done..
and a few news shows.. and this same dam little snow boarding video
game that was just a way to escape all the worries associated with
work.. and keeping a job that for me lasted nearly a decade of
scares of losing a job over reductions in force.. working for
the government.. oh yeah.. and now to answer your questions
before this turns into just another one of my daily war
and peace size monologues.. or whatever
one would like to call an ocean Now
of flowing waving go go so long
words.. in Free Verse Stream..
the River is Blackwater
River here in Florida..
to it in the
Pond creek.. as that
body of flowing water..
And Ellen was holding
some kind of game show
and Dubai.. is considered a
big tourist place to go and the
reason i used it in synchronicity of
this particular association is my dear
friend Himali.. originally from India lives
there now doing her new job noW in Management
Accounting.. so it’s kinda in honor of her and yes
only meaningful to me and her.. i guess.. if she ever
sees it wading through all i do.. which of course is noW
Legion.. and sometimes seemingly Foreign too of course too..
but considering this whole dam blog is the longest long form
poem in history.. i like to honor those who touch my life including
all the symbols and nature of life.. so a photo of almost anything
will meet my very low bar of LIKE LIKE LIKE LIKE ALL STUFF LIFE..
AND ASSOCIATED SYMBOLS AS SUCH TOO.. AND yes the Marijuana working
Medical solution has been suggested to my wife before.. and i understand
that Medical Marijuana is becoming legal here in Florida.. but my wife is one
of those folks who cannot tolerate Alcohol or Marijuana.. and interestingly
while i used to drink to get rid of all my social anxiety and general hang
ups when i went to bars when young.. ranging up to the equivalent
of a 6 pack of beer.. or so.. just when i went out to vegetate
mostly as a wall flower.. as i was Oh God.. impossibly
too anxious to get up there on that dance floor
alone then.. and when i did dance..
it was really limited
where my arms never
went above my hips..
but no more alcohol or even
caffeine for me as i control inner
bliss like a faucet that goes way way uP.. staYinG
sTill in relative calm inside.. and any substance
would just take that balance away now… while many
of my friends smoke Marijuana.. although they don’t
talk about that to me.. hehe.. as they know i don’t..
when i did try it.. i hated the way it made me
feel as it took away the Natural high i had
when i was young.. and just made
me feel bored and empty
in sensory way..
and of course
it must make other
folks feel much different
as it only made me feel low
instead of high.. but of course
i was born high.. more high than
most.. so voila Bi-Polar and the such..
but i’ve had decades of relative high
without lows as long as i stay away
from catch 22 stress.. that will
basically blow me up
as i don’t like
to leave any detail
hanging and must have
a clean slate to start the next
day of problem solved.. as the
natural perfectionist i can unfortunately
be as you see while there is no planned
form here.. it does come out rather smooth..
so perhaps the perfectionist even lives as
subconscious mind too.. and that’s why i dance..
as it allows me to really escape the Frankenstein/
Prometheus Brain as such.. and CAN LET IT ALL
ICE PRINCESS GO.. WELL OKAY.. HOPE YOU
DON’T COME BACK TO SEE THIS TONIGHT AS
YOU SAY YOUR eyes hurt and this ain’t gonna help
at all.. and Jesus F. Christ i am an expert on eye
pain if there ever was one.. so i feel for yA oN thAT..
but hey hey hey.. as Fat Albert WiLL say..
i can’t stop the Love Train from
Flowing go go go.. it still
comes what may until
the end here
as i continue
to shake my tail feathers
and Lord i had a great martial
arts routine in Tai-Chi like speed..
when listening to the theme song
here tonight at the military gym..
and the Chi was exploding
in all directions of
iN liGht oF aLL
i can be as the
still do say.. have
a great night friend..
i’ve got some more reams
of poetry to write.. and some
dreams to do after that to wake
up and do some more go go go.. GO
iN SHAKING MY TAIL FEATHERS MORE..;)
These three yearly series of Facebook Algorithm memories..
demonstrate well i thInk.. the evolution of my writing style..
moving from slow flow to full sWeLLinG Flow iN ZonE oF
Stream of Consciousness Free Verse poeTry..
of course what is now the longest historical
poem ever at over 3 Million words whole
in my Word press Blog as whole
with this 672nd MacroVerse..
speaKing here of the
process as well
as the end as means
of product to all one..
anyway.. also on current
topic for this 672nd MacroVerse
of Super Epic PoeTry MacroWhole..
that will be named “tSuNaMi 7tH WaVe oF LoVE”..
per the importance of poeTry.. Confidence noW..
and overall zest for freedom of expression.. AS
i FeeL.. the best way to honor those who have given
tHeir liFe for Country.. is to be as free as possible..
as that is the greatest thing about this country.. Miley
can swing naked NoW from her WrecKinG Ball and i can
sure as hell dance in public.. and do iT ALL ONLINE..:)
And here is the oldest post from three years ago..
where i am gradually on my way to recovery and
re-entry back into humanity in the real flesh and
blood world at the end of July 2013.. whereas
before.. i couldn’t even go into a Whataburger
for 15 minutes.. as was my assignment
by my therapist then.. where not long
after that i was dancing
freely in public.. like
a butterfly escaping out
of an old and moldy cocoon..
that WAS my physical body then..
less and more of robot in human
flesh and Zombie too.. but anyway..
this altruistic effort was one of many
that helped me get my human back.. then
in trying to help other folks.. and eventually
it worked big time.. and i came back ON earth
from a living death.. and back then.. i had one
friend on Facebook.. and none at all the two years
before that and only this cat avatar of my beloved
Noble Arthur Brown tabby alpha neighborhood
block cat.. who was more frigging human than
me in the feelings and senses that really count
in social mammal life.. and the only other
avatar in there is my Yellow Boy
Kate Mia Avatar i used then on
Google plus.. as quite honestly
without an emotional life inside..
i didn’t feel like i had a face at all..
and my first selfies in August of 2013..
were of great surprise to me.. as i actually
saw emotion on my face.. and all my selfies
have been therapeutic in getting my humanity
more fully and fully back.. as quite honestly.. the
Trigeminal Neuralgia type two.. from wake to
sleep for those 66 months.. as well as a
perfect storm of life threatening synergy
of 19 disorders erased whatever parts
of me in Feeling and Senses that
made life worth living at all..
i built the good parts back up..
and left all the fears and anxieties
behind as well as input activities like
TV that did not allow me to develop the
output of life in moving.. connecting.. and
creating.. i still have the propensity for an
extremely systemizing mind.. so art is therapy
to F In Stay human away from Robot liFE.. as that
was what and how folks described the way my mind
worked both online then.. AND in my work life before
i got sick.. yes.. they called me a computer.. a problem
solver.. and a commodity for work.. well no.. i am NO
longer a cog in societies machine to make other folks
comfortable… i am now a poet.. dancer.. Singer renaissance
nude self artist in the photographer flesh.. bottom linE noW..
F iN ALive..
stARt.. and never finish
of never ending story i..
and when you die dead iN
life aLive.. if you ever you do..
iN REAL LIFE noW AND GO WHERE
Li’VE BEEN.. PERHAPS YOU TOO.. WiLL
LIVE LIFE SUPER EPIc iN HEAVEN NOW2..:)
And Facebook Friend Benjamin.. my only
Facebook Friend.. now out of 50..
from the Wrong Planet website..
as it seems a dear one decided
to no longer use
from my college past..
so a core of 50 is left..
but anyway.. Friend
Benjamin. and by
the other friend
who left Facebook
is named Ben too
or Benny Junior II..
not to complicate matters too..
much but Benjamin says in response
to my posting of this three year old memory
from the Wrong Planet website then in Blogway2..
Then Benjamin says..
You dont post there much anymore
And then i say..
Actually i don’t post there at all anymore..
since the end of July 2015.. the last straw
for me was when the moderator Bookashaya
or however she spelled her user name
banned me for a month for giving
Raptor back what he gives
people to try to make
’em feel bad…
i told her i wasn’t
coming back after
that and did mean it..
occasionally.. i drop by to
see if there is anything interesting
in the PPR section.. but i find the same
stuff that was discussed before.. basically..
so it’s kinda like a soap opera where i’m not
missing anything.. and anyone who frayed from
the standard Philosophy and Religious views were
ostracized by the militant atheists there.. and
bullied by little boys behind avatars that were
afraid to show their real face online.. anyway..
i’m glad i left.. i was trying to illustrate fully
how i overcame the most disabling impacts
of both my physical and Autism related
functional disabilities but most folks
wanted to continue on with their
misery Loves company
with cynicism of
anything more than
their book learning..
there’s more to life than
that and i find it out there in
the flesh and blood world more
than online.. so no.. i don’t miss that
place at all.. but it was a life saver when
i couldn’t effectively use my eyes and ears
in real flesh and blood life.. or connect with
any human much in the real world.. that hell
is over and i have found ways to insure i don’t go back..
and quite honestly the only nice person there other than
Sallamandrina who is Leah who i talk about on my blogs
and keep in touch with on Email.. is you my friend as
quite honestly you are only one of few that had any
common human decency there to treat other folks
like human.. in other words you weren’t retarded
in the worst way.. of not showing other humans
basic empathy.. and truly at least there on
the Wrong Planet the greatest problem
was a lack of real human empathy..
for those who did post.. not likely
many Autistic Folks with empathy
would post there as quite honestly
i feel like most people there actually
had personality disorders instead
of self diagnosed Autism..
namely Border Line
particularly what i saw in
other online self-diagnosed
Autism Communities.. i couldn’t
speak until age 4.. but my mama
Loved me.. so i guess that was my
saving grace to develop human empathy..
anyway.. thanks again my old Wrong Planet
Friend for stopping by and all the support you
gave me while i was in hell here and there for REAL..:)
Then Benjamin says..
yea wrong planet is crazy hey
And finally on
Facebook i say..
And i say here now.. of very interesting note..
Benjamin.. was actually an Autistic person
who spent sometime in his younger years
in the institution life for folks more
severely impacted by Autism..
he was a very caring person..
and passionate about life..
Another Individual on the site
also institutionalized named Ci..
more severely impacted by Autism
was also very passionate and emotional
about life.. but of course with difficulties communicating
aS that is the bottom line with Autism as difficulty in
reciprocal communication.. both verbally and
actually now with the new APA definition
of Autism more issues actually with
non-verbal language.. anyway..
the bottom line is both these men
were capable of expressing human
empathy in emotional ways.. whereas
most people there had almost zero
motivation or pleasure to socially
reciprocate human language..
in back and forth conversation..
and in my case.. in my life.. my problem
wasn’t a lack of wanting to reciprocate
social communication with other human
beings.. just a problem expressing it in
socially appropriate and wanted ways.. i still
tend to talk more about what i am interested in deep
deep ways.. than what’s for dinner.. or what’s on TV.. although
as i get older i get much much better at doing that and seeing the
inner workings of so-called normal every day folks online and particularly
Facebook in ways of share and likes for what the so-called common
human does.. has helped me greatly to get in the grove of what
most humans do in day to day life.. and sure.. i count these
blessings much.. in ‘this’.. Longest long poem form poem
ever.. as it reinforces A better way to really
connect to people.. as i receive that
warm fuzzy feeling aka oxytocin
release.. and Serotonin
comfort as trust and
as a pleasurable healing
FeeLinG when i connect
to other human beings..
and sadly.. the medical fAct..
is some folks with Autism are missing
the ability to either produce or feel these
human neuro-chemicals/hormones from head to toe..
noW in cellular peptide way.. and of particular emptiness
the NON-ability to feel the social bonding hormone oxytocin..
the stuff of the nurturing human.. being both male and female..
and some don’t even feel it with sex.. therefore.. some of them..
never ever even want to have sex for that reason and many others..
BUT THE FACT IS.. MOST KNOW/FEEL NOT WHAT THEY DO.. AS WHOMEVER
WROTE THOSE WORDS OF SO-CALLED JESUS ON THE CROSS INTUITIVELY
UNDERSTOOD.. WHETHER OR NOT THEY KneW THE BIO-CHEMISTRY FACTS
BEHIND THE MISSING FEELINGS OR NOT.. so these people deserve empathy
and sympathy too.. and while folks love to call them evil.. and in literal
ways when they harm folks.. instead of bonding with them..
the behavior can be viewed as evil.. STILL.. OFTEN.. THEY
ARE MISSING SOME OF THE GLUES OF SOCIAL
ANIMAL LIFE IN WAYS OF NEUROCHEMICALS AND
NEUROHORMONES.. so it’s like they are running
on a very LOW OCTANE OF HUMAN GASOLINE
or viscosity of Oil that makes them rather
thick when it comes to wanting
and making reciprocal
a warm and fuzzy reality
in trust and comfort in others..
Nature.. and God yes.. in FeeLinG
Nature.. and SenSinG Nature as God
one and sAMe.. and this is why i could
most always predict the allegiance of a
militant atheist there.. by the lack of affect
of human emotion in their written language.. then..
and it is the same in the poetry world… there are
folks who do poetry.. as fill in the blank rhymes that
talk about the world like tHeir is no figurative language
of emotions too.. similar disease.. just no diagnosis in
general.. and truly all the most destructive diseaseS in
the world.. in terms of human psychological hurt.. carnage
and even potential World War three.. are both a direct and
indirect result of people who cannot easily get filled up in
heARt.. SpiRit.. and soUl.. of FeeLinG and ExpRESSinG
the warm and Fuzzy FeeLingS of liFE that are
unmistakable for someone like me
who can read that easily
in the eYes of
who is not
dead inside.. or
just pretending to be
human in an imitation game
as such.. i can’t show THAT much
in my eyes anymore.. ’cause i must
wear shades.. for medical reasons
associated with Trigeminal Neuralgia
so that FucKinG Hell pain will not come
back.. and truly that is the biggest part of
why you see so much of my eYes online..
as that is how i for one best express my
soUl.. whether passion for survival
or the warm human Loving
touch.. and i have done
my best to make the
rest of my face
body in DANCE iN ExPresSinG
aLL the Love i feel inside
fearless for both me and the
rest of humanity.. along with all
of Nature and folks dear to MEnOW
like Yellow Boy and all his paWed
and claWed brothers and sisters
of the world.. you see.. like
my nephew.. who is
my wife’s deceased
sister’s son.. who
is diagnosed on
the Autism Spectrum
he is in learning classes
for folks with difficulty in education
but when it comes to empathy and the ART oF
human touch he had a full adult understanding FeeLinG
of that.. from the age of his middle teens.. creative.. YES!..
Loves Disney movies.. attached to animals.. truly
human without the grades of life that social
cogs of machines can become
without the human FeeLY touch..
particularly from parents
who are too busy
in touchY feeLY
face to face NOW hUwOmAniFEST
interaction for whatever reaSon
from the two parent high class jobs..
that take all their effort.. to noses in
4 to 5 inch screens.. at the dinner
table in restaurants where the
child is tugging at the
mom or dad’s shirt
and they are
BY THE PARENTS.. i got all
the attention i needed from my
mother THEN whether i could speak
to her until age 4 or not.. and the
greatest reward of all her effort
is I AM STILL FucKinG HuMAN
AFTER ALL i’VE BEEN THROUGH
OF A MOTHER
WHO TOUCHY FEELY
LOVES THEIR CHILD AND A
FATHER TOO.. iS FUCKING PRICELESS
AND CAN FUCKING SAVE THE WORLD
AS OPPOSED TO CLOSED HEARTS
WHO DO NOT
EVEN NOTICE LOVE
FUZZIES OF WHAT
HUMANAS ARE EVOLVED
TO BE.. FROM HEAD TO TOE
TO EYES TO HOLDING HANDS
TO HUGS.. AND THE SEXUAL
INTERCOURSE THAT BRINGS
PEOPLE TOGETHER TO RAISE
CHILDREN INSTEAD OF HEY
AND THERE IS
ON MY BELT OR BRA..
WHAT THE FUCKING
REPORT CARD SAYS
AT SCHOOL OR WORK NOW..
or in bars for scores instead of Love
Love is the only score that trUly counts
when the head meets the bed of death.. NoW
And the after life.. but i stick to what
i can prove not what i have 100%
Faith and Belief in the THAT
God speaks to me
in God’s way
noW in Synchronicity
ways of ALLTHATISART
OF GOD’S EyES US NOW
WHEN FINDING SEEKING
AS OPEN TO ALLTHATISARTNOW
AND practicing allthatis alWayS noW
As Tapestry oF Fearlessly LoVinG LiFE as Art
with the just the science as vehicles and vessels
Fearless Sacred Love
wHere aLLiS Holy SacRed noW..;)
‘Funny’.. how ‘some” fundamentalist
‘Christians’ can Oh! DeVIL! YES!..
now sTiLL support an
and don’t get me
ain’t a Saint..
THIS IS TRULY InSANE..
iN.. HuMAN SPEAK AT LeAST..
And as of 5282016.. close to
9 million views of the viral
Facebook Video version
of this.. let’s shoot for
300 million or so..
but nah.. there
iS ZERO CHANCE
THIS DeVIL DUDE IS
GONNA WIN.. iT Is
SUCCESS IN CHANGING
THE U. S. of A.. unless Republicans
can find the Real Jesus and convince him
to run.. but nah.. he or she would never slime to THAT…
Sorry.. no.. i’M NOT.. iF it hurts.. but truly like the big
J says.. THAT can set
yA kNow.. i would
Love to be in a room..
with TRUMP ALL ALONE..
let’s say with a bright light..
and we could just talk.. talk..
talk.. TALK.. for FucKinG 40 hours
NOW.. straight.. without sleep.. to see
who would win the DeViL/ANgEL NOW..
HeLL.. bet he
would quit by
the 39th hour..
but in all fairness i would
have the advantage as i’ve already
gone 40 days with only 1 hour of shallow
sleep the first 35 of 40 with an alpha blocker
and none the last 5 out of 40 days with the
worst pain known to mankind and 18 or so
synergy of life threatening disorders.. in
REAL HELL THEN.. and sure 11 million
words of documentation along the way..
66 months now.. oh.. another 66 comes
up NoW.. how cool.. since November
Thanks Giving day of 2010.. oh joy..
when i started all this writing
then.. anyway.. as i say the
Monkey does not fall out
of the tree.. and the
Hawk does not
Fall out of the
sky and i never
kick anything less than
a fraction of an inch away
as i practice my FredFu ways
of Martial Art.. because wE noW
ALL PRACTICE CONTINUOUSLY
iN MORE THAN OLD ANGRY WHITE
MAN WAYS.. WITH TRUMP BUCKS
OF DEAD HEART.. AND SOUL NOW..
TRUST ME.. FEARLESS LOVE WINS
IN THE LONG RUN.. AND FEARLESS
HATE IS JUST A BOTTOMLESS PIT
THAT FOLKS LIKE TRUMP WILL NEVER
CRAWL OUT OF WITH THE EMPTY POWER
LITERAL HUMAN METAPHOR
THEY ARE UNTIL THEy FIND THE
LOVE TO FucKinG GET OUT OF
REAL HUMAN EARTH HELL NOW..
oh what an inspiring little VIDEO noW..
And yeah.. the end of Trump’s NOW
unsuccessful IGNORANT HATeFiLLeD
try at President is gonna
look a lot like ‘this’
MaRK MY WORDS..
iT’S GONNA BE RADiON
ACTIVE iN CHANGING THE
HIsTORY OF THE U.S. OF A..
TO A MUCH KINDER GENTLER
CHRIST LIKE WAY.. PER THE YES..
angEL VERSiON oF REAL JESUS..;)
Hmm.. gosh.. that Trump speech left somewhat of a bad taste
in my mouth.. but at least it is justification enough to
repeat the salient dance photographs of
my last Novel Macro blog post verse with
the cat and dog
eat Cat eat Dog
style as such.. anyway..
aGaiN.. as i’ve clearly stated
before.. politics is no different
than a soap opera as it is based on
Human Nature as whole as there are
the more fearful conservative anxious
folks in the world who must have
control.. and then there
are the more
who want progressive
change.. the nomads as such
as it were and still is that made
this country great to get out of conservative
Monarchies of the Old English way.. WeLL..
Jesus F iN Christ and God too of Nature
they brought genetics over the
big pond of Atlantic
too.. so the soap
opera goes on in
liberal ways and HA! TRUMP
A CONSERVATIVE.. hell no.. he is
a risk taker from hell.. with no fear
and plenty hate filled ways of Loveless
being selfish ways.. and that is how he
got way way ahead in a Billion or whatever
empty bucks he stores in cabinets and
Trump Towers of hell.. as such..
anyway.. he knows
how to pull
strings of scaredy
dogs of red who are
afraid of change.. he ain’t
no cat but he is clever enough
as all psychopathic leaders are in
how to push the buttons of fear like
oh my God oh my God they are gonna
take your guns away and turn this country
into one gigantic mosque Temple with covers
on.. Well.. wELL.. WELL.. IT is just really boring
but funny to me.. as it is so F iN predictable.. just
like when Gore lost and the re-constructor military
contract cronies.. with the head of Cheney snake
went into Iraq after 911 to make the really
big indusTRiO miLitary CompleX BUCKS..
AND THAT THEY DID.. but yes.. at a
price.. ’cause once aGAin.. Love.. and
Hope is stronger than Fear
and hate.. so the Dude
who had the audacity
for Hope got elected
over the oh god non-
charisma left of
God he was boring..
i almost cannot remember
his McCain dam name.. but
anyway.. that chick he was
with was F iN Hilarious and
i bet she would make a spirited
dance partner too.. getting down
at Seville as it were and now is too..
Hmm.. what else.. ’cause i already
had to go outside and do the
Sun and Sand dance thingy
to get that dEvil
oh yeah.. the new age…
the new world order as
promised by the book dude
Jesus.. and somehow how
folks think oneness in a Global
way of Love is the F iN Sign of the
DeViL.. WeLL maybe iT iS iF YOU CAN
catch the FULL METAPHOR OF THAT..
but MOST WiLL NOT..
HEHE.. SO THAT
iS why i can say
WTF.. yes.. whatever
noW the FucK i liKe…
tHe deeper pArts WiLL
Jesus F iN Christ of how
that story goes as Thief in the
night not be read and if read totally
go wRite oVER ANYONE’S HEAD
THAT iS crazy as me as fearless without
any FucKinG Real empathic Right Brained
way in figurative interpretations to now get what
the FuCK i even said.. somethings.. never change..
Fundamentalist religious folks still don’t get the
fact that Jesus was a Naturist who
explored human potential with
the God oF Nature at hand..
to gain greater potential
in metaphor and
of Star wars
says too.. anyway..
THAT should do.. the wife
is asking me about issues
with the insurance bill.. which
means i had to put my Lawyer
Fred Head hat on and just about
have lost my artistic flow here
back into the mechanical
cognition of humanly
are so far
of human being
they are like poison
in the water of Life but
it is the mind and body that
gets corrupted before anyone
can even find a saving grace
of one drop of God water in hell now..
kinda like the place where Trump… Bush
and so forth and so on live.. but WAIT!.. i underStand
G.W. is now painting puppy dogs with quite a great
FeeLinG in Brush way.. so maybe he found a heARt
after all after Living in Cheney Snake heLL back then..
for the dude with only a mechanical apparatus of heart now..
anyWay.. i wanna get back to dVerse and catch up some tHeRe
as Alice and Wonderland is at the theater just waiting for her
me hEar.. hehe..
magic joy down
the rabbit whole
of all oF tHAT
iS noW oF course..;)
Alice Through the LooKinG gLass.. not to give
too many spoilers here.. a basic story about
a young woman whose milestones are
are to do six impossible things
in life.. and you WILL to
does this no matter
what all the
naysayers say in
Life about her achievements..
and yeah.. blah blah blah.. sure
Fred can relate as relatively speaking
Fred has used the power of Hope.. Faith
and Pure Belief with the assistance of God
all that is.. see i told you i wouldn’t give you
any real spoilers.. matter of fact.. at this point..
let’s just go this REAL TALE.. FRED THR0UGH
THE LooKinG Glass at this point here in
my never lAnd’s longest Free Verse
Poem iN the History of humankind
in Long Poem Form here
at the 672nd Macro Verse
that of course would be
impossible for any
kid who could
until age 4
with Autism huh..
Well.. kNow like Britney
say.. Oops i just did iT iN
ever increasing poetic SpRinG
Verse of SonG NoW MoVinG Faster
iN oN 4 Million words of a total
of over 11 million total since
66 months ago on Thanks
Giving Day.. at the
Start oF all this
oF i.. after not BeinG
able to effectively use
my eyes or ears to read
or hear music or most any
words at all for 3 years almost
to that date then.. Zombie Hunch
Back of Notre Dame i was then..
yes.. sorry.. blah blah blah..
you may have heard
this before.. but
yes.. sure.. empiricAlly
speaking it is one of the
perhaps most inspiring
stories of human
to be me through
FUCKING SHEER WILL
AND LOTS OF LOVE FROM
GOD.. YEAH.. LOL.. GOD EXCLAMATION
POINT NOW.. WITH THOSE OTHER 18
OTheR MEDICAL DISORDERS AS A SIDE
ORDER OF HUMAN HELL TO GO WITH
ALL THE REST.. anyway.. back
to impossibilities in what
can or cannot
do.. so yeah.. that
Autistic boy Graduates
with three degrees at close
to the top of his classes in college..
then Marries a woman who still looks
the same at 46.. from 27 years ago..
when he first met her then.. that’s two..
Dance Walks Everywhere he goes for
now over 5400 miles in 33 months
approaching the distance of
back and forth across the
U.S oF A.. this Memorial
Day.. from sea to sea..
in Super Walmart..
Target.. the Mall
etc.. etc.. all
through the Metro
area for 3 and although
i didn’t have to do much
obvious work to keep the
wife young.. it’s still the
impossible more or less
in norm of human way..
okay.. let us move to number
4.. and leg pressing that close
to half a ton.. 30 times now at
the military gym.. much more than
any other elite military dude who has
attempted that there.. and with my arms
raised up in the air in perfect balance
slowly and surely on that parallel
leg press machine that is
almost twice as hard
as the standard
mostly see in
big man gyms..
and now to five..
sure.. 112 weeks
with somewhere between
600 to 800 photos of me and
oh God.. so many Gorgeous girls
and remember i have Autism and
that ain’t standard operating procedure
for that challenge for sure.. in the realm
of what most folks raising an Autistic
kid would say would be impossible
approaching age 56 now.. well..
what about number 6.. that’s
a secret.. and although
i talk about it all the
noW it’s stlLL
a secret service
noW in convenant
between me and
the God oF aLL
Nature.. and every
REAL FAIRY TALE noW
NEEDS SOME MYSTERY
OR A HOOK AS SUCH TO KEEP
THE INTRIGUE GOING FOREVERMORE
NOW FOR WHO KnoWS.. PERHAPS A THOUSAND
YEARS OR MORE.. OR WHEN SERVERS DIE.. WHICH
EVER COMES MORE FOREVERMORE IN THE RELATIVE
REALM OF HUMAN BEING.. in what most folks would say
is impossible unless they witnessed iT FirsT FucKinG HanD
noW on Facebook.. hehe.. in real time while it’s GoinG onOW..
and yeah.. just the fAct that i did all of this NoW
for NO God DAM money aT all IS A FucKinG
Miracle iN itself all own it’s oWn..
FucKinG Free now..
so.. i guess
7 the secret
and go from there..
as the LooKinG Glass
and Rabbit hole grows
deeper and deeper with
hidden paths exposed in
JOURNEY OF REAL NOW..:)
incredible is waiting
to be known.”
i’LL go one DancE
step further to say..
and talk about
later iN poEtry..
And yes.. in terms of bombs
and wars the human race has
become a great annoyance to
the rest of NAtuRE.. including
hUman BeinGs.. so.. i sImply
DancE and SinG aS noW
iN a key of C sHarp
noW to Go to
SMiLes.. many children smile.. giggle.. laugh.. share..
SinG.. DancE and give freely.. as they have not
forgotten how to be human
in the basic principle
use it or lose
it humanity noW
but more on that
in a few.. my friend
Prajakta.. in your next
of topic.. noW
of course.. Freedom is.. not
letting it go
than hey.. i could write
a Novel on say.. in fAct
i do in size on average
every two weeks at 40K..
anyway.. to let it flow to let i go
to let the streAM of mind and body
Balance become river in ocean flow..
and to note..
to stick his tongue
out before it was too
late to be human
and then he
is never moving
out of one’s inner circle
and loving it all.. pure
genius that man
too more than
empirical science but
he understood the value of
imagination.. over one step
two step three and more for
A scientific method.. now then..
and as mentioned before.. use it
or lose it applies.. the gold of selfies and
the starvation of any kind of facial expression
interaction is the habit and the glory of that in
increasing natural humanity of what science shows
is 60 to 90 percent of natural human reciprocal communication..
in non-verbal expression.. and nah.. Emotive icons do not
match the almost infinite number of facial expressions
AS the human face potential that move our emotions
and inspireS our very basic ability
to move in life at all..
somewhat of a bandaid
to save the human face
from Zombie life as again..
in all things human and animal
too.. as i like to say.. why our friendly
Monkeys do not fall out of trees in India..
and other high places and hawks out of
skies is they practice practice and practice
more the ability to do what they naturally DO
do and not lose it as humans literally NoW
are as science shows 30% in measures
of behavioral empathy have dropped off
among college age adults in the
last several decades.. yes..
evidence that our
being our tools..
and electronic sign
language.. is making
the Zombie Apocalypse
real in that it is eating away
our basic social animal nature
propensity to dance and dance
some more together in the most basic
dance steps that are the movement of
the human face to express emotions and
move us higher and higher away from
a depressing life of blunted emotions
that can move us like the atomic
fuel of basic neurochemistry
from the Zombie
apocalypse… yes.. back in the
day.. they had signs on computer
labs and engineer classes that said
don’t forget YOU ARE HUMAN.. WeLL..
those signs are no longer posted as so
forgotten in cold
frozen faces that do not noW look
uP.. butt the ice princess learned better
my friend.. she released her heart.. UP!
her spirit.. her soul.. and yes sensuality
whole as the potential for humanity to
come back more is still tHeRe to practice..
And that’s pArt of the reason i’ve now danced
5400 miles in public.. believe me it forces some
kind of facial expression of dance.. on at least
some folks lost in the REAL ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE
AND MAKES MY BODY GLOW BRIGHTER AND BRIGHTER..
NO.. not even 40K thousand words every two weeks of multi
dimensional emotional words in the sign language of blogging
comes close to the original language of human that is dance
that can say it all in just a smile or a twinkle of an eYe
that moves.. CONNECTS.. and
CREATES uS toGeTheR
Oh the power of Chi.. truly
such a powerful force of human
and the rest of the UniVerse that
few people know and understand until
they experience it through the power of
the hUman heARt.. SpiRit and MiNd
and Body SoUl.. unleashed and
released.. iN Balance and
sure it comes
language as postures..
facial expressions and
such as that.. but it slices
through concrete blocks for
the martial artist who comes
to iNnately.. iNstinctually.. and
iNtuitively master the force inside..
outside.. above so below and
all around as the Chi..
the Qi.. the Ki..
and so many
other words that
express what IS A
HIGHER power of God
available for human beings
to do amazing stuff in life iS
tHeRe for the taKing for those
who seek it.. find it.. practice it
and master it to higher and higher
feats of human potential and at times
in the snootier of stores.. like Publix..
some old angry white dude who ‘THINKS’
HE HAS power as established through the
illusion of the dollar bill.. with his golf buddy
buds.. as groups feel more confident in
expressing so-called male power
than a solitary male will
do when faced
AMONG US ENOUGH
to do memorial day JUSTICE
AS FREE.. thinks.. i ain’t paying no
attention to his middle age lady
gossiping in line.. and yes
the dude is probably 10
years younger than me
and his friends all
fat cats on the
golf course they
just came off of..
but anyway.. he don’t
know the crazy 230LB
Alice in Wonderland wearing
shirt dude.. is an empath who can
feel what’s on the emoTioNs of
people without even FucKinG
seeing them in physical way..
has no idea how FucKinG hiGh
i am WitH Chi as i could break
a metal door off the hinges as i did
one time when i was 20 or so at a
McDonalds.. juST ‘casually’ pushing the
door open.. when in a state of this CHI
mind unknown to me what it was in mind
and body balance then.. but here’s the thing..
and no.. i can’t FucKinG prove it but anyone
who has mastered the Chi WiLL tale ya..
in the Eastern ways of doing this
first of course.. and as any
of our American Indian
call of the Wild too OF GOD..
i can easily look at a person
who is harming anyone with
either verbal or physical ways..
and like that video ‘up there’ about
Radioactive.. can penetrate them with
energy that says watch your step you
are on shaky ground my friend.. anyway..
all it takes is one direct glance from me
in non-verbal language wHere the dance
suddenly stops.. and i am motionless like
the calm of a Hurricane at eYe.. and their
heads go down.. and do not come up until
i continue A dance as the Winds oF Y i Hurricane
Chi goes.. as Holy Spirit of God released for both
Love and Defense AGAINST hate if necessary in
what makes even the smallest female martial artist
a holy terror to a pot bellied angry old white
man as it were and still is..
as God IS A equal
in making Shepard boys
like David in metaphor KinG
oF thE Lions sTiLL noW.. in
ways of sWeeping Hurricane
Winds with cAlm oF eYe at
the Center now.. and yes..
i thInk.. the lady with
of a certain
flower has a
song for that now..
and you do realize
that when Jesus said
me he was talking about
God in me.. unleashed..
released.. and ready to
ROCK AND FucKinG RoLL..;)
WeLL.. the 60’s or so VW Bus in multi-colored
Memorial Background was a popular hit
with the Lady’s as far as i like your shirt..
but NO.. not so much for the men.. as ya
know.. down here in Southland..
a colorful man can scare some
Homophobes.. but anyway..
no complaints here but i did..
get a Mississippian
Biloxi native scream
out of his Big Red Truck..
last time i wore this at the
Casinos and was dancing on
the sidewalks getting squeals
from women driving by.. and yes..
Hot Apple Pie.. A comment indicating
a crude way of referring to a Woman’s
Vagina.. in Urban Language technique..
anyway.. it’s like those anonymous online
haters who hide behind avatars.. iT won’t happen
to my face.. but distance saves the day.. in hater way..
Anyway.. just imagine.. Jesus Driving the VW Bus in never
land of heaven.. wHere all pArts of existence are equally
important as grains oF sand holding up the mountTaiN oF
Love and for the homophobes that attempt to climb
on the Jesus Bus of Love.. Jesus will probably
say.. i’m sorry i don’t know you in my Book of Life..
but.. you know not what you do.. as you are probably
scared you like penises yourself.. so grow up..
and come out of the closet.. won’t ya.. instead..
of hating up on what you kNow you are
deep down.. and are God dam afraid..
of.. but anyway.. you humans
have been ruining the earth
as Nature with your
so WTF do you expect
God to do to limit the numbers
of you killing cockroach culture
human beings against the rest
oF God’s Nature one and sAME..
YeS! perfect solution.. same sex message..
ya big dummies.. that’s what God LovE noW..
does.. iN particular to keep the numbers of yA
offspring down from killing the
rest of my precious species..
Anyway.. i find it rather
disgusting.. in church..
yes.. my church too..
that the so-called Sacred
Sacrement associated with a dude
in a book that said all pARts of Nature
are one as same.. even in today’s God
Dam scriptures.. still discriminates pArt
oF God’s Nature as less sacred and
holy in ability to do the Sacrament
of Marriage vow thingy in the
church.. WeLL.. let’s see..
the Catholic Church believes
in Evolution and Science.. so.. perhaps
sooner noW than later they will quit splitting
hairs out of tradition.. and JUST FUCKING
DO THE TRUTH AND LIGHT AND SING NOW
THE HAPPY SONG OF LIFE AS FEARLESS
LOVE TOGETHER.. I HATE IGNORANCE AS
IT IS PROPAGATED BY FOLKS THAT FEAR
AND HATE THE DIFFERENT AMONG US..
And anyway.. pretty much a moot point here
in the U.S.. noW but i’ve already lost at least one
nice Muslim friend in ways of social reciprocal
communication that NO.. it’s not kool to Stone
Lesbians in Iran after they are buried in dirt to
tHeir chest SO they cannot cover their
eyes.. and be killed like that out
of hate and ignorance.. anyway…
while this person.. did not
agree that Isis should
kill folks who were
of different faiths..
it’s still apparently a free
for all of torture and agreement
on the target of God’s Gay Children
square in misery and suffering way..
And.. sorry.. although only me and
one person were human enough
to disagree with her.. all her other
American readers stayed silent..
And that’s where murder..
torture.. and so much
more fear and hater
stuff begins.. ends.. and
begins for more.. when folks
do not value humanity enough and
God who lives in all of humanity and
all of creation as one and sAMe.. ENUFF
to FucKinG sPeak up and just say that’s
enough that’s truly evil so just put a stop
to it or pay the Karmic consequence as
mArk my words they will if they do not
quit murdering people for ignorance..
in fear and hate.. anyway.. hope
all the gay folks enjoyed our
beaches down here..
as the U.S. oF A..
is finAlly acting liKE
ONE NATION UNDER
GOD as a real Memorial
Day for the folks who died
for Life.. Liberty.. and the
Pursuit of Happiness.. which
means everyone.. with no exclusions..
which is one up on the Frigging Catholic
Church.. i have attended every Sunday
for going on three years.. THAT iS
Still Separated from God..
in ways of fear and hate
against God’s Homosexual
children as just another part of
oF Nature as seen in our closest
primate cousin.. the Bonobo too..
As juSt pARt of maKing the balance
of God’s Nature work how iT should..
thiS way.. FREED.. NO EXCLUSIONS..
WHERE EVERYONE GETS TO RIDE THE
BUS IN FIRST TO LAST SEATING ACCOMMODATIONS..
IN HEAVEN NOW.. anyway.. the Homosexual folks i have
kNoWn over the years.. TRUMP… all the FOR CHRIST
LOVE I HAVE SEEN as compared to homophobes now
TrUlY iN LoVe liGht oVer thE DArk oF Fear and HATE..
KiCKS ASS OVER
iN aLL tHe Trump
Anyway.. when people say..
i don’t have the Key or KA
to tHe FounTaiN oF YouTH..
i juSt say oF course i do..
and heRe iS clear and
preSent eviDence oF
wHat thAT COULD
DO FOR YOU..
iF yA kNew
Yep… thaT dArK hAiRed slender girl
in Egyptian mythology..
referred to as Isis..
Nut.. and Mut..
a real person
then.. just a prophecy
oF Sorts for NoW as shE Stands..;)
Oh.. Lord.. a quick
visit over to Shawna’s
continuaLLy changLinG Blogs..
as i say..
iT is you..;)
And Shawna says..
You can spot me
from a smile(y) away
And then i say..
Ugh.. your myoutube
lInks aren’t working..
butt anyway.. read all your
poems and my favorite one
iS thE one aBout the fur..
as it reminds me now of
3D Anime Monster porn..
and thaT is so friGGinG
hilariOuS iN A veRy
dArk anD furry wAy..
hmM.. whAT elsE..
yeaH.. i staY
LLy butT i c H i
baLanceS iT ouT
WitH DancE anD
stroKes oF lucK!..;)
“Grain grows best in shit.”
~~ Ursula K. LeGuin ~~
Oh Lord.. Ain’T thAT thE trUth..
and probably one of the world’s
greatest problems iS not enough
people toe the sand anymore..
yes.. the struggle noW..
Now iS most Of thE
bATtle For heavenoW…
tHe Victorious neVer
give up or tUrn to
foR poTenTial aWake
wiTh SiGht aNd hEAr..:)
Yeah.. i realize iT’s almost
Memorial Day now but
truly there is only one
Holiday for me always
now.. and that is the
of the 4th of July
noW iS Saturday
in the park oF Y i..
and does anyone
Know what time iT is
Thanks God i don’t and
that is why i for one make
aLWAYS now the Fourth oF July
oF Independence Day.. and truly
i Feel sorry for those who do not
exercise more fully that great
privilege and right wE have iN
this country for the unalienable
God oF Nature giveN right
for LiFE.. LiberTy and
the purSuit of
can mean the
U.S. oF A.. CaN
be thE REAL GARDEN
OF EDEN IN LEGEND WAY
THAT IS NO MYTH AT ALL AND
ALL iS RAEL now.. iN a place of
HeavenOW.. only dreAMed oF..
days beForE.. anyWay thAT
daY of allthatis aka God
and God’s Kingdom
as gifted as Human
Fearless Sacred Love..
iS noW for those who SeeK
iT.. FinD iT.. and practice allthatiS..
NoW iN MoVinG.. CoNecTinG.. and
CreaTinG.. way.. as to lose
Heaven when it can
certainly be found..
noW as i document
every God dam day
here iN Fred’s HeaVeN
iS possible for many otHeRs
too.. when they get to tHeir
own TrUth and LiGht WitH the
God Of Nature allthatiS now juSt aS iS iS..:)
An Enlightened one of Nature..
yes..! Yellow Boy doing his early
morning Yoga Pose in Tai Chi Balance..
no less balanced than the way he walks to
conserve all energy for the fight or flight of liFe
when necessary to reduce cat suffering.. to be at
ONE with allthatis Nature also known as God.. or
if you are Buddhist you choose not to name it with
a humanly designed abstract three letter word concept..
but never the less a Buddhist Will tale ya.. no less than
a Christian that Heaven is possible after life and of course
in life in the State of Nirvana no less than what is relayed
in the New Testament of so-called Jesus that heaven
is at hand in a different state of mindful awareness
away from worry.. yes.. fear.. jealousy.. doubt..
hate.. and all other con-social emotions
but HA! IN BOTH Christianity and
Buddhism.. lust is considered
a sin.. instead of the
of most all stuff
human in creativity
and basic productivity..
while meditation is the human
way of escaping negative thoughts
and thoughts in general.. Yellow Boy
is not saddled with this neocortical deficiency
as such.. as he comes with the full package of
innate.. instinctual and intuitive ways in mind and
body balance soul.. of Emotional heArt… expresSinG
this emoTioNal heArt as SpiRit in yes.. a miNd and boDy
BaLanCinG soUl.. without the ambulance traffic of worry
thoughts about oh my God i don’t have the biggest house
in the neighborhood.. the most shapely breasts or the
longest God dam dick.. in the gym locker room..
BUTT!.. YES.. before he got ‘the operation’..
he FEELS AND SMELLS the value of lust
to get the job of reproducing
done.. and there’s no
in wild CAT
ways of doing that
for long term survival
oF tHe cat species at hand..
and seriously.. out in the wild..
depending on the resources noW at
hand.. it can be a real struggle full
of misery and suffering.. no different
than what THE BUDDHA DUDE SO-CALLED iN India
SAW BACK then.. outside of the castle of all
ya can eat tender vittles.. anyway.. a balance
yes.. and attachment to material goods and
making the tools us instead of what we
naturally are all naked in nature..
is a big no no.. for simple
Nirvana and Bliss
of the morning
life in the liGht
of God of aLL Nature at
Peace.. without all the worries
of mortgages.. car payments.. and
sure he still has the tools of claws and
jaws to survive in the wild like he did before
he met us two years or so into his wild cat life to
bring him the easier ability to enjoy early morning
Nirvana in the SunliGht of GOD ALLONE WITH NO
GOD DAM HUMAN SEPARATION FOSTERED BY
FRIGGING WORDS COLLECTED IN BOOKS WITH
RULES OF PRISON WHEN THERE IS OBVIOUS
ABUNDANCE THAT COULD BE SHARED IN
SMALLER HUMAN GROUPS IF WE DIDN’T
LIVE IN INSANELY LARGE POPULATIONS
THAT HUMANS ARE STILL ONLY EVOLVED
TO LIVE with just 150 to 200 sets of
touch feely naked eye connections
together as one happy human
Bonobo-like family that
uses sex together
to get rid of the
of Neo Cortical
about what comes next..
or what was before.. particularly
in the case of human beings noW with
books.. and particularly big black books
that suggest that going away from human
Nature like repressing lust and becoming
celibate is a great thing to do to become a
spiritual leader.. overall.. as we already know
how that works with pedophile fetish priests.. yes..
God dam Buddhist Monks and Muslim clerics who have
also been caught with the little boys pants pulled down..
and yes.. the so-called men of God partaking of using little
boys for slaves to fill their sexual desire that would be
much better used in a willing vagina or hand than
harming a little boy as history shows always
happens when humans get out of the
Nature of God’s Balance that is
consensual Lust and Love between
have made women
and little boys into slaves
to suit tHeir whacked out of Nature desires
now from a life of withholding lust instead
of letting it go and flow.. in consensual
non-harming ways.. YEAH.. tHiS iS A SOURCE
STILL OF MUCH MIDDLE EASTERN AGGRESSION
AND VIOLENCE By noW SHUTTING DOWN HUMAN
LUST BY FORCE.. THEREBY MAKING RECRUITING
TERRORISTS EASY BY LETTING THEM RAPE LITTLE
GIRLS OF OTHER FAITHS IN CONQUERING THEM.. AND
PROMISING 72 YOUNG VIRGINS AFTER LIFE IN SUICIDE
BOMBINGS.. ANYWAY.. i live in Miley Cyrus wrecking ball
land where sexuality is celebrating in oh so many wonderful
and lusty ways that increase human creativity and balance
except for folks with the disease of addiction that are gonna
get addicted to something to excess that harms them
no matter what.. as most often the core issue of
that disease is mammas.. daddies..and or peers
then and now who did not cultivate the garden
of touchy feely love at a relatively tender
young toddler age and in school boy.. girl
days and even work days too.. all around..
so yeah.. i veer paths with the ignorance
of both Buddhism and Christianity.. and
Islam too as ‘they’ FAIL TO UNDERSTAND WHAT
FUCKING HUMAN AND GOD GIVeN HuMAN NATURE FeeLinGsEnSes
EVEN iS.. and to suggest tHeRe is no God as a Buddhist
and then go on to say you are going to live forever in bliss
away from this earthly plane is the height of hypocrisy as
how the fuck do you get to control that if there is no other
higher power either named or unnamed.. it matters not
as Yoda Might say as this Force of God that can
certainly be unnamed but is still God dam named
when someone calls it the Force one and same
as Force underlying allthatis same and ONE..
i say.. LET’S GET REAL.. THiS iS FucKinG
GOING DOWN FOR REAL ALwAYS NOW
AND DON’T FOOL OURSELVES TO
BELIEVE THAT GOD LIVES
ANYWHERE BUT EVERYWHERE
ALWAYS NOW.. INSIDE.. OUTSIDE..
ABOVE.. SO BELOW.. AND ALL AROUND.. NOW NOW NOW..
there is no escaping the God of Nature.. no.. not
even after death.. as even science shows that
Energy always exists whether in matter or not..
and we are energy at core.. same subatomic stuff
as the Stone of the Mountain of gRains oF sand
that hold up the Mountain of Love as human
potential when we work together in naked
flesh of lust and love instead of against
each other when we make cars
lovers and brick houses
Gods.. NOW YES..
now WE are God
and tHeRe ain’t no need
to fear attraction to breasts
Penises and Vaginas or even GOD YeS..
firm male butts if you are a valley
girl.. depending on whatever the FucK
God given sexual orientation the God of
Nature gives ya from birth or extension of
cultural leaning ways of being in Nurture NoW
iN aLL.. YES.. BALANCE iS KEY.. ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE
WITH THE DISEASE OF ADDICTION.. BALANCE Is NoW
KEY.. VERY POSSIBLE WITH A LOVING FAMILY AND
PEERS FROM BIRTH WHO MOVE… CONNECT.. AND
CREATE FROM BiRTH IN GIVING SHARING WAYS noW..
SO.. ON THIS MEMORIAL DAY WHILE I GREATLY RESPECT
THOSE WHO HAVE DIED WHO GIVE ME THIS YELLOW BOY
IN BALANCE OPPORTUNITY TO HAVE BOTH TENDER LOVING
VITTLES AND THE GOD DAM CALL OF THE WILD TOO IN BALANCE noW
I SAY JUST REMEMBER YOU ARE A CHILD OF NATURE.. YES GODoNE
AnD SamE.. both seen and unseen and sure i intuitively FEEL the essence
of myoUr soUl LiVes forever the same as God dam Buddha.. or Jesus or
whomever the other countless enlightened primates or such as those
intellectual and artful beings have come to understand
all over and beyond the UniVErse and InFinity
beyond thAT alWays now.. anyWay..
Yellow Boy is far more advanced
in being one with God than
most humans mired
as tools are
he needs is fur..
paws and claws to
be one with God in
thE Sunlight oF BreaKinG
dawn who he is at core noW
with the liGht of God Now..
and yes.. the tender loving
care and tender vittles helps
but no.. i’M not sure what brand
name Katrina buys.. but he only
eats what he needs to get BuY..
to maintain his youthful God cat
appearance in balance and bliss
in the law of claws of God set FReED WitH i..
Culture.. is an enormously large millstone for a
human being noW to escape with a vision quest that
is truly still necessary these days away from spoon
fed culture no different than the legends of the Buddha
and the Jesus and whatever is truly historical fAct of those
two men’s lives.. and sure.. Muhammad rates too.. but OH GOD..
levels of violence still propagated by that associated religion
truly does show it doesn’t work well as the sacred text is not
clear enough for folks as whole to actually practice
peace and harmony in BaLaNcinG REAL EFFECT.. and sure..
those problems exist everywHeRe.. including heRe..
wHeRe humans live in insanely large populations..
particularly.. in low resource areas like
desertS of course.. yeah duh.. that’s
just FucKinG common sense and
why tHeRe is so much CONTROL
FOR BASIC GOD DAM SURVIVAL..
so.. the answers are still
in A way like the
ones of the Jesus
and the Buddha.. they must
be obtained at the individual level
in seeking finding and practicing A INdividual
way that works for each person as we are all
different in the bio-diversity of God for the
struggle of life that allows us to survive
for the longest eras of now
works… seek It..
find IT.. use it.. or
never NoW find it or lose
iT as in all stuff animal
oF God oF aLL LiFeNOW now
so hEar with my Memorial
Day treatise on remembering
who and what we are at core..
a little Vision quest music and
the life of the Buddha celebrated
in PBS documentary way..
anyway.. no one
trUth and liGht
but the LiVinG God
as yes.. Force that lives
all that is inside us .. outside
us and all around us NOW above oh!
so below.. to make the best of iT
iN INTerdependent relationship
with allthatis God can be
HUMAN WILL iN
THE BLISS OF HEAVEN
NOW.. BUT REMEMBER2 NO
ONE OWNS THAT BUT GOD
AND YOU ALL NEVER A SLAVE
TO TEXT OR ONE HUMAN ALONE..
FREEDOM IS FREE
Okay.. so in conclusion here.. while i might still go way up
back ‘up’ there and finish the Thursday Open
Link from dVerse poeTry poetic responses
to keep this Trojan Horse of
eva in the
History of Humankind
with all the colors that must
come in to keep it somewhat
monolithically interesting too..
going.. approaching 4 million
words now in this 672nd verse
as inspired and in covenant
with God too of course but
hell no.. it ain’t like
have a beer
and chit chat
to discuss this
stuff but haha..
it can even be stranger
than that in non-verbal
terms too.. hehe.. noW
of course iN synchronicity
ways of tapestry of all ‘A
God Art and science put
together in one whole painting
of beauty forevernowallmorenow..
so anyway.. basic instinct lie of Christianity..
Islam.. and Buddhism.. the big three religions
that some folks like to lie to themselves
and say Buddhism isn’t a religion
as i pull out my handy dandy
Wiki instruction on that
here and quote:
Okay i’ll go easy on ya..
and use the long term
Def. of religion
AS we analyze
it in Layman’s
: the belief in a god or in a group of gods
: an organized system of beliefs, ceremonies, and rules used to worship a god or a group of gods
: an interest, a belief, or an activity that is very important to a person or group
Well.. the truth is Islam.. Buddhism.. and Christianity all meet
the third part of this three part and or or and definition
of religion.. and yes.. of course science and
the scientists WHO passionately
use science as an interest, a
belief, or an activity that is
very important to a
person or group..
Jesus F iN Christ
of course meet THAT
definition as clearly
expressed noW iN this
Symphony of science
video ‘heRe’.. same passion
same preaching with emotion
same mysteries and imagination
of God and Nature one and same
of what is known and unknown in
all the mysteries of what is as is noW..
Bottom line.. replace the word Nature with
God and they are talking about the same
God dam Interconnecting Force as
of allthatis AKA GOD ONE
GOD ALL NOW ALL OK..
let’s not get caught up
in priSons of words
LET’S JUST GET
REAL AND ADMIT
IT IS THE SAME
GOD DAM THING
ALL REAL NOW.. ALL NOW.. OK..;)
but anyway here is the clear evidence
of THAT NOW IN THE VIDEO HERE..
Okay.. so back to Islam and Christianity now.. the other
two of the big three religions in the world today..
Well.. Christianity as whole clearly worships
a man on a cross named Jesus..
they stand.. they kneel and they
bow to Jesus too.. and yes..
although not all folks
do this with an idol
form of Buddha.. it’s
plain to see many do and
argue as to who is or is not
veering from the Buddha’s
teaching of who’s got the real
message real of supernatural
too.. yeah.. legend has it that
Buddha was born of a Virgin birth
too.. not unlike the same mythology
of Jesus.. and Horus of Isis and
Osiris too.. same story.. just
different God dam
of human history
stories that house
the vessels and vehicles
of Truth or Not and or both
Truth and Not.. and Islam..
well that’s a little more tricky
but as obvious as a man who
changed the laws of the day
to get his dick in one more
little girl who never has
a chance to find
first before owned
as a slave back then..
and sure if your dick
is really hard as pedophile
then.. you can get even get
10 AS more little girls by the
price of a dowry too historically
set as precedence by that somewhat
sick in the mind and body balance
dude Muhammad.. and Jesus F in
Christ.. per what so-called Nicene
Creed talks to about putting the
dead and alive on trial and
judging then.. i’ve already
given plenty of Muslim
Folks time and effort
to defend Muhammad
but they failed miserably
as they cannot deny the
lust of his selfish ways..
over love with slavery of
others by purchase instead…
sorry NO.. it pisses me and GodONE
oFF Very much.. in the eYes sTill of
stove top burned beautiful young
women in Pakistan.. tortured ’cause
A husband didn’t like the slave money
for the wife enough to be satisfied in
eyes of Muhammad still then now..
yeah.. i read about Muhammad playing
with the dolls of that 9 year old girl whatever
her name was that he purchased at a young
age.. and what particularly makes me sick
is Muslim women come to believe THAT is
sweet and loving.. when truly it is so
God dam sick.. in perversion
of what the greatest
gift to human
Love even is
sticking a dick
in a little girl’s private
parts.. for perhaps the
reason he didn’t feel man enough
to do it with an ADULT woman at that
point in his life.. you know a
FULLY mature one and not
a little bitty girl..
ugh.. this putting
Devils on trial is not
a task i like to do.. but
ya know the Covenant
thingy and all to bRing
GREATER TRUTH AND LIGHT..
God is the Judge.. i’m just
the court reporter.. and
scribe.. and sure prophet
too.. in healing SOMEwayS..
of death.. if ya say
Muhammad don’t have
the last word from God you
can be punished by death
if you live over ‘there’..
FAIL.. THE GOD JURY’S
OUT.. MUHAMMAD FAILS
MISERABLY FOR THE CAUSE
OF FREEDOM IN GOD’S CHILDREN’S
FREE EYES AWAY FROM SLAVES THAT
ARE BOUGHT WITH DOWRIES AND SUCH
AS THAT.. but yes.. it is what it was and CAN
be different if more folks wake up and quit
worshipping Muhammad as a God no
different than Jesus.. or for the
folks who bow down to an
idol of Buddha too..
and fear to veer
from whatever tHe
Fuck he suggested then..
while humans are never cookie
cutter replicas as sure some can go
without lust by nature.. but a balance
of lust and love is what makes humans
most creative and productive for survival
and that is why mostly the United States
has been the leader of the free world up
until around now.. where the U.S has
failed miserably.. recently.. in ways
of greed.. and killing others
for the almighty dollar
of illusion away
God of Nature
now.. well.. anyway..
YES.. the trUth can hurt..
NOW but the liGht feels
great wide awake once
one arrives there.. and the
trUth and liGht is.. science so
far as both a religion and one
that can see the interdependent
relationship of all that is one and
same from inside us.. outside us..
and all round us above so below..
is doing the best God dam great
job so far overall.. with
at least not raping
too many little
wives.. going into
Iraq by calling three
other countries the axis
of evil.. to use God to Kill
as a defense.. so dam INSANE..
or bombing A Japanese ISLAND
and killing almost 100 thousand
innocent people there same
as Iraq over there.. yep..
most everyone has
blood on their hands..
and yes.. science does too..
as mistakes in the medical profession
are the third leading cause of death
in the U.S. now too.. too many folks
relay on external substances to heal
themselves rather than the all
Natural Yellow Boy power
inside who is doing
fine by the way..
for around 8 or 9
years now.. and perhaps
it is all natural Tai Chi and
Yoga Poses at peace and
rest in still call of the Wild
Balance with a serving
of tender vittles love
to keep life
now.. it beats
raping little girls
for a price for dam
sure or the spoils of wars
in promises of 72 virgins
after life too.. tRust me..
God over all as God lives
in all is not very happy with
the human race.. and sure.. while
not many people may read this or give
a shit.. it matters not.. as God
Speaks For God allone
iN ALL of US
now when free allone..
the wages of going against
that allone is real sin.. the
balance with it is simply
Nirvana and bliss
SAME AS THE
HEAVEN OF NOW..:)
OH.. yep.. and in addendum to
iF anyone thInks
is not real.. in terms
of the ant who has no
idea what the hive looks
like when the ant finishes
the individual of teAM task
at the end of the day now..
or the fleA.. who dePends
on the Dog for its very
survival but has no
idea what makes
as meal for life..
Secrets in plain siGht
show clearly the phenomenon
of the same hive LiKE synchronicity
of human behavior too.. and no.. not an
individual or even nation effort alone but
an entire iNnate.. iNstinctual and iNtuitive
art of creaTiViTy thAt Flows iN God’s eYes
oF UniVersal Flow as a streAm that flows
into a River of Ocean one wHole ZonE..
now.. as wE.. and iT makes mE giggle
when conspiracy theorists
on the Internet suggest
there is some
kind of WHoLE
plan of ruling the world
in one world new age order
when it is simply and complexly
yes.. beyond the human power
oF reaSoNing to the
Art of God
Force of brush
aS paiNt iN Action
with beYond inFinite
hAnds on thE liGht oF
Brush noW iN yes dARk wAves
oF negative too.. so the best
advice is to grab hold of the brush
and ride in new heights of liGhts ReAL
wAvE.. trUe.. iT IS A TEAM EFFORT AND THE
CALL OF GOD HAS BEEN SET FREE back into
HuMans OF LITTLE AND BIG BLACK BOOKS aS
DancEs and SonGS oF artistS iN Global Wide wayS..
and even profit making organizations that sell shoes
that say JUST DO IT.. iN GOD OF VICTORY OVER VENGEANCE noW
WAY.. i added in the Vengeance pArt oF Course for a wheeL rehearsed..
No Harm Clause for the best oF Fearless Love LIFE Now.. a drink of
water for all when aLL liVes In JuST DoinG Fearless Love LiFE Now..
so with that sAid.. iT’s Memorial day and the gym is cloSinG early
for celebration ways.. but no different than when i started a
little warrior journey as A soldier of God at age 12 with some
rudimentary concrete and bar weights.. Fearless is required
to truly express Love.. thE GreaTesT iN love aS Sacred waY..
so here comes a three hour or so Exxtreme Martial arts..
ballet-waY iN intense strength training too.. noW witH
the technology of free FloWinG Nautilus
Golden Spiral machines that exercise more
range of motion and paRts of the body
than just free weight exercises and
such as that.. but no.. no rat
treadmill repetitive cage
movements for me..
all so freE noW..
i WiLL Tai Chi-like
move my way fast and
slow.. iN InfiNite more and
potential nuanced Movements
and Associated EmoTions aS
experienced per way of peptide
receptors of positive insPiRinG
Electronic music with associated
Neuro-chemicals and hormones way
noW hiGher to fiRe A praCTiCinG
play oF Y i.. aS A conTinUinG
pasSioN oF miNdful bodYFuLL
Awareness iN balance oF soUl..
wHere the creaTiVitY iN wayS
Of DancE and SonG oF poEtry
WiLL Fly hiGher and hiGheR
SOaRing around the God oF/iN/aS..
i.. wE.. mE.. uS.. sAMe ONEnoWonE..:)
Oh Lord.. of Beers and Bowling Alleys
and all them years i had to drink
a beer to relax.. well.. i’m glad
i don’t need no more beers
to Chill out.. and noW this
‘tSuNaMi 7tH WaVe oF LoVE’
is dedicated on Memorial Day
to my 1st cousin Dickey who died
in a fiery Helicopter crash in Vietnam..
back in ’69.. i remember he said he
always wanted to buy a Camaro and
marry his sweetheart when he got back..
Well.. i was fortunate.. was born just at the
right time where i didn’t volunteer like my
cousin did for the ’cause of preserving
life… liberty.. justice.. and the pursuit of
happiness over here in the
U.S. of A.. and yes i married
my sweet heart and drove
a teal green super
for all of 14 years..
and sadly.. since then..
in ’69.. it’s hard to find a fully
truly justified war for good
but never the less.. plenty
of folks were still fighting for
freedom no matter what the higher
ups were arranging for them next..
and that reminds me.. never thank
a living Veteran for their service
on Memorial Day as more than
likely they will get a little
indignant.. and i was
talking to the X-Commodore
of the Naval Station where i work-
out about just this same thing a couple
of hours ago.. yeah.. an amazing dude
in his 70’s.. still squatting over 400LBS..
as solid as monument of a Human Rock..
without steroids.. yeah that Movie Star ‘Rock’..
in the REAL special services S.E.A.L.
operation and spending
years ’66 to ’70 in
the Loss off 44 of his
fellow sailors to deaths
as horrible as being chopped
in half by chopper blades in
front of friends.. and one guy
he said who only served 4 hours
and was killed.. oh.. the price of Freedom
iN Life.. Liberty.. and our current pursuit of
happiness has been the steepest price of all
for many through our history.. and hopefully now
with more freedom of information.. NO unjustified
wars where our own young men and women and
other young men and women of other countries noW
are NOT sacrificed for a dollar bill.. some reconstruction
of an oil country or whatever suits the administration
higher ups.. fancy.. of psychopathic leaning current
REAL INTENTION.. then.. no more.. JUST DON’T
DO IT HERE.. NEVER EVER DO IT.. YOU HEAR..
Life.. Liberty.. Justice.. and the pursuit of Happiness
are worth dying for overall for the Human species
to thrive alive.. but lies.. oh no.. OH NO.. OH NO.. NO NO..
DO IT UNDER
ANY FucKinG Circumstance
as trUly the God oF aLL iS watching
iN and as aLL oF uS.. anD more
of US are free than
while WE ABIDE..:)
CAMe BacK.. TG..;)
Facebook Friend Rafiah
from Pakistan says..
As you talk about inner healing,
this reminds me to tell you that Ramazan
is just around the corner. And it all about
inner healing. I am going to be such a good baby.
Hahaaa wink emoticon grin emoticon
And then i say..
Oh Gosh.. Ramazan is like alWays noW for me..
and your Ramazan starts the day before my 56th birthday..
the 6th.. on June 5th.. sMiLes mY friend.. Rafiah.. you
are always a Good baby to me.. And good to hear from you..
i miss you ’cause you are my REAL FRIeND.. for
so long now.. going on
Then Rafiah says
in another Facebook
It’s very surreal where science and arts meet.
My presentation topic for my organic course was
biosynthesis of cholesterol in body. When I was
studying I was so much amazed at the how subtle and
beautiful the design is. Subhaan Allah, is the word.
P.s I am sure you’ll google the meaning of
Subhan Allah yourself. wink emoticon
And finAlly i say..
Yes.. Glory bE to God
when art and science
iN the HUman
MiNd and BoDy
iN BaLanCinG souL
my friEnd also through
noW aS SpiRit to gET
iT aLL toGeTheR NoW..:)
And then Rafiah shares
a Facebook Status about
“Never Let Me Go”
and i say..
I liked the movie.
It was bi sad though. But it’s the
song with the same title that I love
so much. And me and my friend Juwairyah
go crazy over this song. Lol actually I go
crazy an she accompany me in my craziness.
It was her birthday. So yeah. smile emoticon
And finAlly iN conclusion i say..
WeLL… happy birthday to her too..
and stay crazy wiTh Good EmoTioNs..
as God WiLL bE Happy WiTh you too..:)
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Didn’t want anyone
in this photo
for a 230 pounder.. eh..
with my happy clOwn fAce
fully on too.. and BeYond
RaiNMan coloRed shirt3..;)
to me at lEast
that has such a birtHinG
RinG that SinGs a SonG oF New..
who kNew but a CloWn WiTh A pAin’t
oF teaRinG clothes that WiLL noT hOld
a SoUl.. WiTh SpiRit oF CoLor oN HiGh
and Low oF mINd and BoDy BaLance
sHoW.. and Oh mY God.. Pronoia
the polar oppoSite
And Oh mY
GoD iN HeaVen
and JeSus F iN
ChriSt after.. before
and all a’Round the
it figureS noW
that special spell
the dArk poWer of
Paranoia iN SpELLinG
Way of VooDoo of NoCeBo
efFecT too.. yes.. the spELL
Checker algorithm has an
empty glass away from
the realist Placebo
effect and affect
action as Pronoia
that can simply be termed
as the power of attraction.. in
this case the liGht attraction oF
HopE.. FaiTh and BeLleF iN
a Super AweSOmE way
thAT comes PlaCebo
trUe NoW vs..
rhythm and negativity
oF liFe iN dArker NoceBo
Way iN noW.. oh the path
that can be greater in
and even self-fulfilling
prophecies too.. but when
i went in the black hole soul
back in 2008.. i played scrabble..
or at least attempted to play and
every God dam combination started
coming up with words similar to destruction
and even friGGinG Death.. literally as such..
and then the Dead End Road seemed like
a Harbinger of what was to come.. and then
a chair of negativity in front of a TV i could
no longer watch or hear as Dancing With
the Stars became fireworks.. as liGhteNinG
and Thunder in my eYes.. the Down
ward spiral was accelerating to
Mach 1 heLL iN eYes oF i..
and of course all the
cells of my body
of negative FeeLinGs
as associated and the spiral
downward to and endless pit
of lower continued oN almost
OH my God.. jUst like Dante’s
Hell.. surprised now that i didn’t
see Muhammad in there like the
author said he would be but
what i found is one is
oH God all alone
in HeLL Facing the
inner demons that
are real.. as the broom
stick that i ride straight
on the highway to hell..
anyway.. the highway to
heaven is truly paved with
Good Intentions that constantly
reflect positive actions one and
sAMe.. and sure.. tHeRe iS all a
science and art to liFe.. and WhiLe
i stayed on the highway to HeLL for
that 66 months… back then.. i have
polished my ruby slippers wHeRe
Home IS A alMost enTireLY HeaVen
NoW.. Oh God.. heRe i go aGaiN and
before i oops write another 19K word
post like the latest one noW.. i’M gonna
Go to bed and go deep deep deep into
the Forest tomorrow.. wITh OnLY NatUre
dreAMs come real for literal escape from
WORDS WORDS WORDS OH GOD IT’S
LIKE AN ALFRED HITCHCOCK AND
ROD SERLING COMBO NOW OF
WORDS WORDS WORDS
in the TwiLiGht ZonE
FLoW oF i..
GroW oN aWay
from WordS noW..;)
is Dance in
Pan and i
Of goat feated
Hoof as synchronicity’s
WinK WiLL hooF iT Then
Wow – Your desire to express yourself is felt in your words. I saw many different shapes throughout the form, several goblets some upside down and many faces and a tall hat. I see you are still never short on words 🙂
ps- I always enjoy pictures of clouds
Hi.. Truedessa.. to paraphrase you here
a desire to express oneself in feelings
is what poeTry is to me..
And truly Truedessa that
was the spiRit oF dVerse
through eYes.. words and
direction by Brian and Claudia
when i first entered into the poetic
Diversity of the dVerse online poEtry
Pub.. but sadly the Freest Verse aspect
of that in Dead Poet’s Society terms.. where photography
in my style of integration with visual streaming photos
and words toGeTher was too tiresome for the new
management that did not care for my newest style
of doing poeTry so free.. anyway.. the heARt
SinGs and the mInd thInks and any
form of poeTry that requires
planning or words that
work like a scrabble
game is zero
poeTry to me
at all.. just another
STandard IQ test
for fill iN the blank..
and in this case for
me at least.. to do that
shunts the Growth of SpiRit..
HeARt and SoUl.. and trUly poeTry
Free lET loose in stream oF consciousness
writing where the subconscious heARt
arises to tale a Story deep so deep
iN SpiRit oF miNd and BoDy
BaLanCinG SoUl iS the
place i go.. mY FriEnd
without restraint from
the thInKinG miNd
iN aLL oF us that
seT free from head to toe..
above.. so below.. inside.. outside
all around.. wheRE the deeper UNiVerSAl
FloW of Genetic Memories and all experiences
of Nurture become one wHere wE are the voice
oF Nature and trUly another Verse oF GoDoNe
iT iS mY
a gift from beyond
the science of the
standard IQ oF miNd
thaT alloWs this beauty
of iNner liGht and iF someone
like me.. almost a Robot on the
Autism Spectrum in all way oF
miNd and BoDy souL ouT oF
baLancE can come to
this plaCe noW
seem to mE
a similar path of
heARt iS juST waiting
to be opened by many now
IF THEY CAN FUCKING GET
AWAY FROM THE CONTROL
FREAKS OF SCRABBLE
and that mY
friEnd is why i go
iT allone alone noW..
the Dead Poet Society
Robin William’s adminstrators
left the house of FREEDOM at dVerse..
and truly that iS sad.. as somewHere theRe
iS a budding poEt thAt unLIke me WitH the
REAL LIFE PROVEN FORTITUDE OF JOB..
just quit and is playing a FucKinG Video game
and sharing heArtless links or quotes of someone
else on Facebook now.. theRE is nothing worse
than KillinG the Holy SpiRit thaT is the
free expresSion of poEtry.. iN fAct
in some books ‘they’
say iT iS
i raise A toast to
those who FREE..
like Brian and Claudia..
mY friEnd.. and hope the
others one day Will simply
be ReLeased for FReED2..:)
And as additional note here iT is
the sAMe with fiLL in the blank dance..
wHere the ballet or Tai Chi.. or Martial
arts instructor WiLL say adhere to form
or fail.. WeLL.. the trUth iS iN LiGht
oF Freedom FuLL.. form is HeLLnoW..
and when one says dance
my way or do poeTry NoW
mY waY.. i say.. no thanks..
already been to someone else’s
liFe.. i am liVing free now AM as i..:)
HoLY SpiRit oF poEtry.. yes.. sounds
like a fine title for the 673rd verse
here of my own little personal
E-linked 3M+ bible titLed
KATiE MiA FredericK!iI
aka ‘SonG oF mY SouL’
thaT iS the sAMe SonG
oF anyone’s Holy SpiRit
expreSsinG heARt oF
miNd and BoDy BaLanCinG
soUL when set free.. under a tree..
in a cave.. walking 40 days in the
desert if your name iS Moses and
or Jesus.. we all have potential access
to the stream of conscious speaKinG
WriTing SinGinG DanCinG ways
oF HolY SpiRit noW.. and oH
God problem iS while this
ability may be rather
rare in fully
and liGht.. tHere is no
one way to God oF aLL Nature
inside.. outside.. above.. so below
and all around uS now.. many paths
WitH each human experience truLy
as liGht in multi-Universe truths
and lies of liGht and dArk..
J O U R N E Y w H O L E..
truly tHere is no other
way to explain
mid 50’s year
old man like Muhammad
could justify being attracted
to a frigging 6 year old female
for marriage iF he wasn’t expreSsinG
a very dark and harmful part of beinG
hUman that was more interested in
Sado Domination than the Loving
touch of a fully mature adult
woman.. or Jesus at least
one much older than
9 years old
started too.. it’s just
sick and the metaphor
of demon possessed over
angel possessed in metaphor
for sure.. thanks God there
are laws against pedophiles
today who would otherwise
terrorize little girls for
domination otherwise iN noW
to finally feel like so-called
big men.. when chopping heads
off don’t do the entire trick of psychopathic
leaning dEvil minds who will use the good pARts
of an old book and add in their selfish desires to
harm another.. and of course the same applies
to the Christian bible too.. in ways of raping..
incestuous interaction with daughters
whether drunk or not.. killing
the children of the opposing
team in wars.. or just
plain bringing a
of peacE noW..
yes.. the dark pArts
of human nature are real
and truly there is some science
to it too.. as science shows now
that not getting enough REAL INNOCENT
TOUCHY FEELY LOVE AT A YOUNG AGE THEN..
CAN LEAD TO ALL KINDS OF REAL METAPHOR
OF INNER DEMONS.. RANGING FROM CHILD ABUSE
TO SEXUAL ABUSE.. TO ALL TYPES OF METAPHOR
IN HUMAN DEMON BEHAVIOR.. YES THAT KILLING
STUFF AND CHOPPING HEADS OFF TOO.. ALL
‘WONDERFUL’ METAPHORS FOR THE
HUMAN PSYCHOPATH DEMONS
AT HAND STILL REAL AND
PRESENT AT THE extreme
ends of hell on earth..
in human incarnate
form still now..
covers of made-up
dEvil Gods to get away
with harming the lighter paRts
oF God’s creation whole as Nature
one iN balance in Balance of lust and loving
ways away from harm of those Now weaker than
us with true evil laws that support harm ranging
from Capital Punishment here to cutting off hands
and stoning lesbians covered to breast in dirt
over ‘there’.. without the ability to shield
eyes from Rocks thrown in face..
for death in tortuous slow
misery if you get
there is no good iN
BeinG sanitized from the
Truth in literal and metaphor
way.. and sure it’s just mY truth
and liGht and i make meaSures to
enSure no one ever FucKinG makes
what i say into some Gospel FucKinG
trUth wHere no verse may be added now
in someone else’s Holy SpiRit expresSioN
of Greater trUths and liGhts wheRever they
may come and i may sTiLL lEarn from too..
and that’s what’s great about the Internet
everyone finAlly at lEast has the opportunity
to birth tHeir own Bibles oF liFe iN whatever
art oF ExpreSsinG the WHoly StreAM
of Consciousness MiNd and
BoDy BalanCinG SouL thAT
maY come neXt.. the
larger pictures in
view of LiFE
noW and when
the dude Jesus sAid
others WiLL do much
greater than he.. and folks
in the Buddha religion say
another teacher will come and
even in Aleister Crowley’s Book
of the Law from the Occultist of
the last Century that so many
Hollywood folks have followed
in the past.. says the same..
that one will come
even be able
to fully understand
then in his own human
potential that was obviously
genius beyond standard IQ..
but dARk in so many ways of
literal psychological harm
to so many folks truly
no different than
sTill back then..
in motivating all the
slavery of women still
in Dowries and so much
more now in ways of misery
and suffering of hUman being..
wHere our original way of Bonobo
like being has been lost under covers
of hate and deceit to control.. manipulate
others for personal selfish reproductive
control gain.. and of course material
success in holding slaves..
no matter how modified
then.. to make
feel a little
taKinG the freedom
oF WiLL iN True Nature
of other human Beings then..
anyway.. i’m just a scribe jotting
down from within.. sure it’s the
Holy Spirit now no different than then
now and sure.. if i wanted to pretend
i could say this voice that i do not
plan that comes through my fingers
now.. is Gabriel an archangel
or whatever else the FucK
i could imagine for
as inner voice oF
FucKing GOD noW..
but here’s the thing..
been there and done it
is not something all folks can
say.. when you get here and you
do it.. you finally understand who the
Fuck Aleister.. Jesus.. Buddha..
the Muhammad and all the
other prophet poets
are.. they are another
voice in the big pool
and Ocean that is God wHole
we are aLL voices of God.. some oF
uS parrot what we here from other
voices of God.. and some oF us
come up with some new ways and
different stuff to say in words of God too..
tHeRe are DarK Parts than can be made
Holy SacRed saDistically.. as liGht pARts too..
in KiNd and LoVinG feaRlless ways..
and that is wHere the human
power of Discernment
comes in when one
at the rest of
hUman nature and
Nature whole as God and
say finAlly.. this is Bullshit i’ll look
inside.. outside.. above.. so below
all around and compose my own
bible and.. FucK you i ain’t gonna
chop no heads off or rape any
little girls or daughters drunk
like you Devils did
not any different than
FiN did in that new
Star wars movie REAL..
NO NADA NO NO NO
FUCK YOU.. YOU ARE WRONG..
AND HAVE A NICE DAY ON THIS
SIDE OF HEAVEN
wHere the Holy
spirit in either Devil
or Angel way can SinG
A SonG of Fearless Love
in Sacred and Holy way
for anyone who cares
to hEAr what iS
sAID iN all
Art oF Heart
iN God’s voice and
eYes and feet iN DanCe
and SonG oF wE hUmanS now..
anyway.. i’m off to the deep foRest
of the University of West Florida
Nature Preserve in Pensacola..
wHere i haven’t been in decades
to reconnect to the 21 year old
me who first joined uP
wIth God to be FReED
aWay from what others
expected and limited
of mE then..
and the FoRest
WiLL SinG iN echoes oF
the Stairway of Heaven
that goes both ways for me too..:)
oF Salvation.. i’LL be
back to write MUCH more
about this.. i promise.. BUT.. Oh
God.. meanwhile.. i’M Hungry and Thirsty..;)
Yoda at Jurassic Park..
Or is iT Terminator WitH
Yoda aT Jurassic PaRk..
Never the less tHere
IS A reaSon wHy
i need not go to
DefiNiteLy.. i did
iT aLL oVer aGaiN..;)
“The intuitive mind is a sacred gift;
the rational mind is faithful servant.
We have created a society that honors
the servant and has forgotten the gift.”
— Albert Einstein
Hi.. gigoid.. what a long day in the
FoRest and echoes of Nature’s
SonG aT old University
oF West Florida..
it was quiet a dance
and i quite enjoyed iT iN Balance..
And speaKinG oF that boy THAT
Einstein guy certainly had it all
toGeTheR iN Sacred and
Holy iNtuition that arises
in aLL humAn wITh
NatUre wHen sET FReED
and sAdly the Tools of Mechanical
Cognition Driven By culTuRe.. oF course..
are becoming moreso one of the ‘Other
GodS iN DaRk’ that other lighter BeiNGS
are attracted to.. and get burned.. burned
oh.. low.. so very slow burned now.. Ashes
come and then Phoenix riseS noW FReED..:)
SMiLes.. i’M BaCK gigoid.. and commenting down here.. as this could
get epic.. hehe.. anyway.. yeah.. need the horizontal space..
and yes.. i have to agree Einstein is definitely one
of my most favorite humans from last century
although i hate to use the word favorite..
you kNow.. fair and balanced and
all of that and as you
hEard i did not speak
until age 4 either.. and
of course if the Autism craze
were here in those yesteryears
of both ‘he’ and i.. we would most
definitely be diagnosed as far as i
can see.. it just took me until age
47 to get the Asperger’s diagnosis
as i didn’t fit the characteristic
Mr. Peabody look from
first glance outward
in older years..
then.. oh.. yes..
the now Sheldon
Cooper look from
that Big Bang show…
and to my greater surprise
yesterday.. my sister noted that
the Dog on one of their cars had
Mr Peabody on it and suddenly when
i asked her who Mr. Peabody was and
she told me he was the Einstein dog on
the Rocky and Bullwinkle show when i
was groWing up.. i had an epiphany that
oh gosh.. that Mr. Milton High school
dude.. the quarterback of the football
team and eventual Athletic Director
of the school.. who mocked me
without cease when i was
13 with the word term
peabOdy.. and yes..
he kinda sang it that way
in a sarcastic mocking tone..
but all i could think with a string
bean body and a literal mind is he
was comparing me to the body of
a pea that was string bean long and
skinny.. hmm.. i could have used Google
back then.. but some of the other names
i was called in verbal abuse would have
hurt much more than.. the Einstein Dog..
which i would have took as a compliment
then.. as that is how i got all my teacher
pets.. as the apple of their desks in gold
star ways.. anyway.. you may have heard
this too.. but i was quite surprised to hear
in my twenties that my X-Catholic Irish Priest
Grandfather who became a noted author of the
days of Einstein dined with Einstein then.. in the
Socialist party circles of New York.. New York.. but
i thought Jesus.. wHere iS my full potential.. my Grand
Father’s book is so wordy and complex i cannot get through
one dam page without falling asleep.. yes.. it was boring like
me then as it was mostly a technical write.. all literal as such..
with no exciting moving emotions to glue me to the page..
but hell NO.. i didn’t even read the Penthouse articles
as quite honestly print.. any print in books
was not stimulating enough to catch
my ADHD attention.. UNTIL THE
computer came along with Gui’s
all lit up to liGht mY Dopamine
and Adrenaline neuro-
uP to focus
oH! so much
better and to become
a speed reader straiGht from and
to heaven and hell2.. and even a slick
typewriter thaT would finally allow me to
write.. as my writing sKills in pen as far as
graphics never progressed much pass a
doctor or first grade writer in readability
or order at all.. chicken scratch all
over the place i still am with
the literal penned word..
anyway2.. it’s interesting
as when they did an autopsy
on Einstein’s Brain.. there was
no visible signs of aging.. but that’s
no surprise to me as science shows now
in higher functioning Autism anti-aging properties
of neurohormones in Growth hormone way stay
very high as in comparison to control groups..
and that is why so many folks like Sheldon
Cooper in the real still retain their
youthful looks way into age..
kinda like my father did
for the longest
time as he
same at 60 pretty
much since the first
time i can remember him..
old back ‘then’.. but the same
old back ‘then’ at 60 same
as 30 something.. but his
brain did get old
in ways of
but he only watched
TV.. and i suppose that the
use it or lose it principle has much
to do with that too.. in ways of neuroplasticity..
epigenetics.. and continued smARt phone connections
in the neurons of communication making deeper wayS noW
oF thIinking way into later age.. as my mother has relatively
done better.. in her continuing scrabble plaYiNg wayS noW..
so.. anyway.. i thInK/FeeL both literAlly and metaphoricAlly
now.. and actuAlly write creativeLY.. which i could
barely do at all for decades before.. AND
i can concentrate.. FOCUS.. Jesus
F iN Christ oh GOD NOW..
for hours on end to days
iN reaDinG oN
a bright LiT
after.. so.. so
and no longer
walk stiff but dance
in the way of the galaXy
spinNinG aLL Around in elliptical
orBiTs now and i looked up the
new version of Mr. Peabody
and Sherman by the 2014..
movie.. by that name
and sure enough
iN tHeRe iT says
that Mr. Peabody then..
not only invented a new
Time Machine butt Zoomba
too.. which my dance has been
compared to too.. in public plus
Jazzercise but i have not yet employed
my trusty YouTube assistant yET.. to
perUse the evidence on thaT
too.. in comparison to what
i see myself doing now..
AnD i AM just waiting for
Sheldon Cooper to break
out on that Big Bang TV show..
in Neuroplastic and Epigenetic way
and become Apollo too.. noW in DancE
and SonG of PoeTry too.. and by the way..
the hiGhliGht of the trip to my alma matter
iN P’Cola yesterday In the FoRest was walKing
on a boardwalk through the Wetland Forest and
on the newly boarded top.. with fresh unpainted
boards.. there was a series of spontaneously penned
poetry by students in the existential angst of College
most all the way through.. and i captured the poems
in iPhone6s photo way.. so.. not only WiLL my next
673rd Verse of my Longest long poem form
poem EVER.. have photos of the wetlands
iT wiLL be a quick streAM
too per College Student
Existential Angst.. oH! what
Technology with the assistance
of folks like Einstein.. Gates.. Jobs.
etc.. can do now.. when more fully
employed by nerds turned artists..
outcasts from society.. and dam
it.. my poem.. full Word Press
Poem from A to Z to more
has gotten too big to
open up as whole
lInk with my iPhone6S..
but the SamSunG7s can
kick the iPhone6s ass..
by opening all
my bRain man
and memory kick..
anyway.. i guess i’LL have
to wait on the iPhone7s
to catch back up with
me once i pay
bRaiN is becoming
more expensive as i go..
but anyway.. moving.. connecting..
creating.. and even thInking differently
is so much better and those folks like Einstein
and Mr. Peabody are defiNiteLY keepers noW for
aLL the human fish in the Ocean who have yet
to reach the fuller surface like Einstein did
for greater awaKeNinG and eNliGhTeNinG
iN the almost limitless fuller potential
of what human can do..
when the liMits
and an ediT
comes for oH MY
GOD.. so much more..
and to end this pArt of my
next epic verse thaT i hope wiLL
not go over 20K words as the
last one reached almost the
limit of dividing a 19K
post to fiT iT iN
hmm.. i thInk three
miGht be a little excessive..
hehe.. with sarcasm fully in tow..
as truly iT is juSt a back uP as i aM
in creative flow and i do not wanna
officially back iT up at that NOW iN
the flow of how Word Press has
ya do that now.. so i kNOw..
hell no.. i ain’T exPecTinG
anyone to read
the teXt that way
unless they are
BOReD.. WITH ZeRO
ELSE TO DO.. BUT ANYwAY..
AS FiNAL note.. decades.. decades
later when i caught up with that verbal
bully who i guess was jealous i had such
an easy time getting all the pets from the
teacher way back when.. and wasn’t just
making fun of my string bean like pea
body.. yes.. i caught up with him
at the Ryan’s Buffet house..
he all pot bellied and
totally white haired
and i now with the
230 LB muscled body
freshly pasted on what
was then around a 5 foot
10.. 120 Lb body about
half the size when
he bullied me at
age 13.. and i said
oh.. yeah.. at that time
in around 2014.. i retired in 2008..
as Athletic Director of the local
Naval Station.. last thing he
expected of course from the
last kid picked on the regular
vanilla PE classes in school..
and then i said.. oh God yes..
financially independent.. and yes
i did as without even the disability
income i banked enough cash for that..
by then.. somehow in just less than a decade
too.. after making minimal wages before that..
and i told him.. i just dance and write wherever i go..
iT’S so much fun HaVinG fUn.. don’t ya kNow.. and let
him meet the wife who never ages.. as they SaY..
LiVinG WeLL with sMiLes IS A best Victory oF aLL
All away from the boy or girl who is bullied
who might otherwise seek vengeance
the rest of his or her life and become
a fucking bully too.. but anyway..
that is my reSunG Peabody
SonG for the day..
quite an iNspiRinG
Dog he was for yesterday
aLlonG wITh your response here
my FriEnD as the tSuNaMi oF
i continues to spReaD all over
the place with YES.. ONCE
OoPS i DID iT AgAiN..
yes.. i most deFiniTely aM
A Roving tSuNaMi.. but Jesus
F in ChrisT iT iS dAM sUre better
than the Zombie i waS for 66 months..;)
And i suppose here..
in somewhat simple
words i should say..
you see this is how Nirvana
and bliss can easily work..
it takes practice but
yes it works
and the hUman miNd
and BoDy BalanCinG
SoUl FReED in SpiRaliNG
FLow.. no less no more yes..
noW aS the Galaxy that parents
uS heRe wiTh GoD WhoLe BeYonD
UniVersE DanCinG.. as MoVinG..
SounDinG.. as SinGinG
ComInG togeTHeR aGaiN
aLwayS noW.. as uS when
iS Freed.. unleashed
released as aToMiC
AiR ARounD ouTside
uS.. inside Us..
aBove uS So beLow
aLL sAMe and different
DancE and SonG foR NoW..
So what to do.. WeLL yes..
Energy.. Best friend of friEnd
oF Gravity.. togEtHer oNeNoWoN
moVinG.. ConnecTinG BaLanCinG
NoW CreAtinG iN DanCe and SonG..
how to do iT.. easy.. reAlly.. NOW
VoCal chords of humans changed into
greater strings and guitars and more
iN Expressing greater heiGhts of MoVinG
hUman EmoTioNs.. cut and paste the sound
of i-Pod SonGS into body spiRaLinG Movements
and EmoTions adhere like glue to every cell of Body
MoVinG in SuBatoMiC Flow too.. and when BoDy oF
DancE anD SonG of Body BeComE onE associated
Force Of sAMe.. just a movement oF one boDy
paRt oNE iS liKe Sub-Atomic energy
Controlled wHole as One
Body oF Force wE
so YEAH.. WHEN
‘that’ herbalist healer alternative
Health Store Owner Lady who earlier
additionally back then IS A practicing
fundamentalist Christian who.. then NoW
does one of those praying sessions then
to try to exorcize the devil out of me
when i lost all my EmoTioNs in heLL way
back when in thaT DeadZone of 66 months..
she told me after she did it that i would never be
ever an Athletic Director again.. no.. that was not for
me and to my surprise as i could hardly F in Move
without hardLY any eMoTioNs then or even speak
a paragraph coherently as EmoTioNs glue all
our language together with logic too..
she said.. you are going to do
something amaZinG wITh
energy to help
thing i ever
expected the Zombie
of me to hear then..
so whatever she did
to come to that
a real prophecy now..
as even iF mY FredenFrankenEinsteinFuRter
theory ain’t fully correct in how human
BeinGs can control the entropy of
AginG and stay at extremely
hiGh LevelS iN control
oF ENERGY.. noW
of Tai Chi
this is case study
proven too in anecdotal
way.. but anyWay.. just to
move your arm or any pARt of
yoUr body as a nuclear tool of
EmoTioNs as such.. to spArK
greater energy.. in foCus
and even short term
working memory as
P O T E N T I A L noW
iN regulating all
iN MoVinG.. ConNecTinG
CreaTinG Force iS God dAM
sure evidenced as REAL iN MY
LIFE AT LEAST FOR SURE NoW REAL
wRite here in photos.. videoS and
millions and milLions of poetic
word expreSSioNs too.. and sure..
i could say i AM anointed
BY F iN God and AM the
only special one
with this ability
but i ain’t no miS-guiDeD
Christian who thinks thaT
Jesus is the only Begotten
Son/daughter of God.. wE ALL are.. bottom
LINE WE ALL ARE.. PARTICULARLY
WHEN WE BECOME ONE WITH
THE FORCE OF GOD NOW..
NO DIFFERENT THAN
NOW THAN THE STAR
F O R C E n O W
OF GOD AS WELL TOO
IN AND AS US FOREVERMORENOW2eTc….
Oh God and this is kinda morbid but
kinda like a deeper parable
too if you get the
of dreAMs liKe
i can too noW..
i wrote a somewhat
short poem.. in Fred
Terms at least.. about my
wife and taking her smells
for Granted in perfume ways
and such as that.. and missing
her iF she ever really left..
and douSing myself with her
perfume all over now..
so i could cherish
now now now..
of True Love
you kNow iN How
how that SinGS
a SoUL SonG Now..
but anyway.. back to
the dream.. i dreamed
we were talking about how
the mortician prepared her
all on the medical table as
such.. for the last rites..
of life.. and she was
just mad at how
they dressed her
up and said NO.. i do
NOT want to look like that
or in other words you cannot
take a picture of me like that
as people will remember me for the
rest of whenever just like that in
stead of the way i wanna be remembered..
and i suppose iF Jesus came back now
for REAL.. HE WOULD FEEL THE SAME
DAM WAY.. AND SAY IF HE HAD
IT TO DO ALL OVER AGAIN
HE WOULD GET A FUCKING
BLOG TOO.. AND
THE SHIT DOWN
HIMSELF AS EDIT
TO GET THE FUCKING
STORY FINALLY CORRECT
IN REVELATION OF WHAT
HE ACTUALLY GOD DAM
EVEN SAID THEN
2K OR SO YEARS
AGO.. anyway that’s
the meaning i got out
of the dream as i always
make the FucKinG Glass of
LiFe ALL FUCKING FULL AND
CREATE IT REAL IN ALL ONE WAYS
CAN BE AS ONE FORCE WITH GOD NOW..
FATHER.. SON.. AND HOLY SPIRIT ONE
AS ALL OF
US AND MAMA
AND SISTER TOO
WITH ALL OUR FRIENDS
AS THE REST OF CREATION
AS GOD TOO.. i mean.. jesus
it would probably take Jesus
the Longest bible in the world
to get all the shit revealed correct..
everyone’s been expecting it.. well..
most everyone has been expecting..
sooner or later or perhaps even
now.. someone is gonna have
to step up to bat
aT the field
by all whom
came before and
just hit the FucKinG
BaLL out of the FucKinG
pARK that has alReady been BUILT..
ANYwAY.. have a nice day.. i’Ve got
much more to do forevernow.. no
limits.. not expectations..
AND YES.. i FucKinG
Challenge you to hit
one out of the pArk much
much farther than i already HAvE..
point now HOME RUN HEAVENOW..
Bottom Line.. i’ve got
thE SonG and DancE
Hmm.. seems like an appropriate
SonG now to reUme mY
travels with the oNline
dVerse grouP oF
to juSt lET
the words go
thE musicK oF iT
goes nexT i FeeL FuNkY
feel good.. gonna fly
like a bird on
kNow so go
go go more
i WiLL bE noW
a JusTA Doin’ iT REAL!..
so for Now back to the
Monday Quadrille thingy
aLL A ’bout BreezeS noW
reSuMinG from last Verse
oF mY lonGesT ouT of the
BaLL pArK oF home Run
LonG Form Poem..
Louder and louder
juSt to bE FREE
no less no more
when the Bird Sings
and flies the Bird don’t
give a bird crap what
haPpens afTer or BEforE THAT.:)!!..!!..;)
Hmm.. and that last thOughT iT reMINds me
of the ending of another SonG that
i’LL play wRiTE noW in the
HoLy SpiRit oF poeTry
in unplanned Jonathan
Giver and sharer way!..
and i wanna say in words
of more sharing a little more
about that trip to my alma matter
in wetland Forest Yesterday and say
yes.. it has been precisely 33 years
since i graduated from the University
oF West Florida..in Argonaut and
Nautilus way.. for mascots
and logo of Build
thee more Stately
maNsions hehe.. as
i Am certainly fulFiLLinG
in Long poem ForM aS 3 million plus
Holmes Way words now to attribute
those wise words in only
wordS aS ManSioN hoMe
noW to further say..
on the board walk
and poem chap
way we met the
wife of the new
Coach of the newly
formed Double A
there pushed on
by my original Professor
of Archaeology.. Dr. Bense
who is now the soon to
retire President of the
Entire University now.. yes from
shoveling dirt for years in research
at pennies of the day.. she arises to
ultimate pen pusher of University Administrator
now.. and quite an inspirational motivator she was/is..
heLL.. she could have probably easily been foot
ball coach too.. or even God dam played
as she was a tough woman.. then too..
anyway.. i do like the number 33 and
just three two.. and in ’83 mY
mother and sister and me too..
in a group of three in family
way all graduated from the
University then and in that
year of obtaining three triple
Major degrees of Anthropology..
Social Sciences Interdisciplinary..
and Health Science going on to attempt
a Masters in Social Sciences before
the money ran out and i had to
get a job doing God dam
something and with
no real skills in
verbal or written out
put to get ALL THAT KNOWLEDGE
OUT.. YES.. Passing out shoes at
a Bowling Center will be my humble
egg head duty along with Supervising
and Managing the place without a clue
on how to bowl much above a hundred ’till
the end.. then Community Activities Director..
without even doing any dam recreation myself
or even with any inclination of what to
do to even take a vacation then.. working
through every Holiday and getting double
pay in Government work then.. and Oh
God.. becoming Athletic Director as the
last kid picked on sports team for
my computer skills and overall
same College effort at being
Superman in everything i do..
with sadly perfectionist
tendencies that i sTill
have to control now….
but cherishing mistakes
like the Zen Art folks
do too.. for yes total
miNd and boDy Balance
iN honoring success and
failure same for progressive
ultimate success in change.. adaptation
to greater super man and woman heiGhtS..
in neuroplastic yes.. and epigenetic
way away from all the potential
functional disabilities fostered
by culture sTiLL noW without
a God dam greater adaptation
to Environmental change
NOW stiLL.. hmm..
wHeEe was i.. oh
yeS in my last year
of College the sign up
lady for the last Quarter
says.. what you gonna do with
all this Knowledge Fred when she
saw the piece of paper that says this
dude Fred is gonna finish a Triple Major
now.. weLL.. honestly i had NO clue i alWays
just focused on getting the job noW dONE.. AnD
lET the rest juSt bE itself as now goes by.. kinda
like what Forrest Gump did too.. ya know.. be the
best at what you are doing now.. give it all your
attention and focus.. and when you get done with that
just move on to the next best thing and best that too..
the fACT that someone who relatively was
a failure in communicating anything
to anyone out of College then..
CAN AND JUST DOES NOW
WRITE THE LONGEST LONG
FORM POEM IN THE HISTORY
OF HUMANKIND IS PROOF OF THE
HIGHER POWER OF GOD IN US.. WHETHER
OR NOT ANYONE IS PAYING ATTENTION TO
A THIEF OF TRUTH AND LIGHT WHO HAS COME
INTO THE NIGHT IN BRIGHT LIGHTS NOW WHO
FEW WILL SEE.. ‘TILL PERHAPS WHENEVER
WHEN.. BUT NEVER THE LESS THIS AIN’T
NO MYTH OR FAIRY TALE IN SOMEONE
ELSES TALE.. IT’S REAL.. IT’S
MY TALE AND YES.. IT’S STILL
GOING DOWN FOR MORE REAL
NOW.. anyway.. i told
the new Football coach’s
wife.. along with my sister
we both did say.. we graduated
33 years ago.. and now we are here
just to play in the wet land forest
of University now.. and she even asked
me for a link to all my poetry now.. and
i just said.. i hope you have a powerful
enough computer to open up ALL OF MY BrAIN
hehe.. as the moral of the story is
THIS IS WHAT
I DID IN PART
WITH ALL THAT
KNOWLEDGE AND SO
MUCH MORE NOW AS ART
MUCH GREATER THAN ANY
KNOWLEDGE ALONE CAN BRING
WITH SYNERGY OF GOD AS WHOLE
MICRO FORCE OF i iN TANDEM
OF WHAT REAL SUPER
WOMEN AND MEN CAN DO..
and yes.. it’s true in
my liFe.. kinda like Forrest
Gump.. i have been named various
things.. such as PEABODY.. FAG
FOR MY ANDROGYNOUS LOOKS WHEN
YOUNG.. JUST LIKE JESUS WHEN
I WORKED AT THE BOWLIG ALLEY
as the church groups used
to say i was the perfect
example of a Christian
and even some workers
too.. even though
i did’t attend
23 whole years..
and yes.. in college
one girl asked me are you
Superman.. you must be him
in getting three degrees and
being so smart.. and the Payroll
Administration LADY AT WORK told
me i was Superman for doing everything
i did then too.. shortly before i broke
all the way down and went to hell for 66
months.. and since then online in my various
travels there i have been named Buddha..
Yoda.. a reincarnated Whitman.. and
to my somewhat chagrin even
the perfect Definition
of God in human
form.. and even
in form of human
ears to as a perfect
man too.. like Christ too..
by a random eccentric dude like
me at a Military Gym too.. and in the
world of Dance.. Dance Legend.. Icon
of Pensacola Dance.. Awesome.. Boss
of Dance.. an Inspiration.. Dance MVP
and GOD yes retarded.. ridiculous..
crazy.. and evil by Fundamentalist
Christians.. for shining the lamp
of My God lAmp2.. and sure at least
one anonymous Internet person
told me i wrote retarded
and should just
ya see.. i ain’t
just anyone.. i AM
mE.. the ups and downs
come and go.. but yoU bET
your bottom dollar that aLL
the lemons i have been through
make the sweeTest LemonAde taste
in FeeLinGs and SeNses of an entirely
new diMenSioN that most are totAlly unAware
of iN Sleeping State noW.. tHeRe iS NO Way
i can even come close to putting inTo words
what REAL HEAVEN IS LIKE NOW.. BUT I CAN
DAM SURE TRY TO HELP SPaRK someone
get heRe NoW too.. i’LL keep
trYinG ’cause iF i did NOT
share and give the best i could
do now.. i would be the deVil
iN neW anGeL clothes coMinG
aGaIn out of the
i for one say..
i say after
T H a T
FuLL iS saTisFacTion..;)
Okay.. back to tHe pLay
Ah.. SMileS noW
and the bio-chemistry
of hUman Grief.. wHeRe
the oxytocin Neuro-hormone
of warm and fuzzy Loving
comfort drops off but wait!
iF grief takes
course.. the dopamine
for anew in paths
for the next
creating human connection
of rising trust in serotonin
these three dots
back together again..
until the wheel of life
Spins uP and down
so.. in other
wordS.. iT’s mostly
aLL good iF yA juSt
leT iT aLL Go Free and
LiVe iT bE aS IS All FReED
iN EmoTioNaL and senSinG
way as a tear can lead to
A greater BaLanCinG
paTh and jourNeY
from beFore.. mY FriEnd..:)
liGht air whole..
LoveEiN Fire Air..
Earth Wind Water
oF Y i’s..
sMiLes.. juSt makes
me remember more
the Chap Book i found
of totAlly unrelated
Angst.. on wetland
trail of boardwalk top
rails as such.. ThEY
made tHeiR marK
tHere i share In
ps.. i cheatED
foR trUth aNd
SMiLes i never
need to instruct
winD as iS..
as i AM
oF Y i..:)
SMiLeS and Love
thaT GIF of A
woman out A
car window waving
Good bye to Sunset
rear view.. and that
reminds me of that
paTh and tRees that moves
out iNto iNFiniTy oF fuTure too..
both places in paintings used to
relate depression of both past and
future to me.. unTiL noW thaT’s aLL
never looKinG forward or BackWard
poeTry oF i..
i Leave iT iN words
noW.. rarely ever LooKinG
forward or Back noW.. and
thAT i suppose IS A greATest
beauty Of poeTry iN wriTing iT
and neVer reaDinG
iT aGaiN.. anD
onE PerSon to do
sAme ouT iN LoVe oF Now..:)
liT BreeZe eVer
wiTh torCh oF
taLL.. shoRt.. LonG..
FiRe oF SuN.. FlaMe
iN eYes sAMe LovE
oNe HoPe.. SMiLes AGaiN..:)
Wind Caught up
to Breeze.. Love
catches uP to Blood..
SonG SinGs near iN liGht..:)
SAil oF Breeze
of intercellular liGht
aS body ways.. subatomic
flow iN ZonE greater briGht
than any noW science sHow
Aided eYe butT should be
no surprise with greater
inner realities than
BreezE oF Y i
ZonE oF i
LoW i NoW..:)
dArk oF Stormy
liGhtS uP hiGher
BriGhter Love SinGs..:)
i breeze cold
iN SnoW WinG
no lonGer froZen
aLL wArm iNside..
iN FiRe oR iCe
i flOaT creAM..:)
Older moSt alWays
better iN overCoMing
Struggle than getting
seats for free without
a walk for Stronger
LiVed iN liGht..:)
Okay.. a power surge
a loss of words and
a couple of detours
too.. and now
Ugh.. power surge just zapped
my power and response but
here i go aGain.. wHere
shE goes no one
past and future
mes and i totAlly
agree the mastery
iS iNside mostly in
adaptation to change
in environmental way..
and sure.. i use studies to
appease and crack the liGht
of those who wiLL only approach
liFe from a textbook.. spoon-fed
instruction from birth and the only
scientific method they know so far
in one step.. two step.. five steps way..
But i for one.. Live the mastery inside..
a continual practice when one arrives
iN the World of RegulaTioN oF EmoTioNs..
InteGraTioN of SeNses onE noW and sAMe..
requiRing zero words aT aLL for animals
much smarter than those with collective
intelligence and culture rat wheel races
away from what can be more
fullY REAL NOW..
a place of Love…
a place of Fearless
wHere all IS A liGht
aWay from dArkNess Now..
to put into words.. yes.. difficult..
but not impossible as pArt.. noW..
but anyway… trUe Glory of tHe
hermit or outcast iS iT can
be much easier to
fiNd a way
no matter what
form.. iN heArt..
iN SpiRit.. iN
miNd and BoDy
aLL Now.. as they
WiLL to bE FReED from
liMits and ExpecTaTionS noW
that prevent folks from attaining
Nirvana.. Bliss.. Chi.. KA.. Ki.. Qi..
Dao.. Tao.. X.. Y.. Z.. noW Great aS
wHoLe ONE SpiRit.. Kundalini.. eTc..
and Holy Spirit RiSinG metaphors
sAMe in the general sAMe SonG
but only iN liGht mY Friend.. as
the HeaVen oF Nirvana and
Bliss FeeLs and SenSes
No HeaVeNoW iN
FeaR and HatE
and all Associated
with negative con-social
FeeLinGs and SeNses
ImpRiSonED foR NOW..:)
more WeLL.. after
Xxtreme workout in
Martial Arts.. and Strength
Training at my favorite and
only Military Gym Facility wHere
i do this.. wow.. since about 1980 or
so overall.. until Nautilus Machines became
available iN P’Cola and i actually drove over there
three times a week.. and back to use that advanced
exercise technology that is based on the golden
spiral movement of the UniVerse as whole..
And when the station finally got the
Nautilus Machines in the late
80’s.. i came back to exercise
there for free.. as Lord sTill
kNows i’ve been attached
to that Military Station
from ’80 when my mother
and we received
privileges to use
the facility.. including
the Station Pool where
i met at least a couple of
nice young Ladies and at
least one to date.. and even
went to her prom then.. yeS..
fringe benefits of that station
have most always been
great for me.. hmm..
at aLL particularly
at the end days approaching
Hell for me tHerRe for sure.. so anyWay
here is to the Benefit of Working out
across the liFE SPan staYiNg stronG
practiCinG the arT of moVement
as All contribute to greater
and creaTinG in LiFe
to Live the best ya
can from birth to
death and dust to
Star dust as it were
and WiLL liKely be
aGaiN… aT lEast as
far as Science kNowS NoW..:)
Now back to dVerse for
the Tuesday Prompt
about making mistakes..
and Oh My God as mentioned
before in this blog Novel
Longest LonG Form Poem..
almost the end
but now i
kNow a little
better.. but yes..
it’s kinda hard to
do the Zen Art of letting
flaws go.. and yes.. when
ya see errors here of the
obvious kind it’s more
than likely i caught
the error.. sucked
let it go..
as a sMart
Ice Princess and
even KinG as such
WiLL alWays do to keep
both tHeir Health and Long
Term Sanity too.. hehe.. haha..
but it’s not funny when you lose
your F iN miNd after pushing ya
nose to the diamond grindstone
too much to get a perfectly
BEinG.. as the most
drOught of aLL..
but wE hUmans must
be careful wITh relative FREE
WiLL that wE do not push ourselves
over the ledge out of balance in Perfectionist
state of mind.. wHere no no error will ever
do.. even iF you don’t catch the one
you cannot stop worrying about
that miGht haVe Got away..
and ugh.. ugh.. ugh..
ugh.. all the expectations
and limitations of culture’s
idea in TV and such how wE
hUman BEinGS should look
in whatever the Cookie cutter
Box of TV says whatever it does
for now.. alWays changing of course
too.. i turn it off.. i find that works the
best.. juSt lEt who i AM Fly now..
even liKe i did last year
in my nude art.. when
the belly started getting
a little too much out of
shape.. the reward
is getting back
a better work oF arT
butt i FloW iN the ZonE
noW WiTh Fewer.. much
fewer worries of anxiety as
i had before.. as i AM OKAY..
YES i AM OKAY Just the way
the God oF Nature continues
to make mE noW wiTh aLL ‘A
my input and output too..
above.. so below..
and all around..
hmm… thiS iS noW
quite a long introduction
and i thInk iT deserves iT’s
0wn theme SonG noW and yeS!
a Special place on Facebook
status way all oF iTnesS own too..
meaN While i continue to REAP ALL
THE BENEFITS OF THAT SO OKAY!..;)
Yes.. okay again.. 06012016.. and
oh Goodness.. yes aGain.. i do love
to age.. as the best thing NOW aBout
AginG is i AM StILL liVinG oN thiS
beautiful blue green brown and
snowy white orb named
Earth.. and this won’t
be my Birthday post
specificAlly but as
they say in life the
more ya celebrate iN
eaTinG.. drinKinG non-
alcoholic beverageS now
and CAN be MerrY iN DancE
and SonG now aLive and Free
to make iT NOW as Sacred and
Holy as yE can is the Placebo
effect of prayer like reaLiTy oN
overdrive of worKinG great for sure..
even if ya have to make up yA own fEast
days jUst for Fun to reign in some more Fun
and what ‘they’ call self-fulfilling prophecies..
so at this point.. and yes.. i am fiXinG to get
back to that dVerse Poetry Mistake prompt thingy..
let me use my tRustY Google Algorithm Search assistant
to see what if anything is going down on my birthday
060616,,, to see if there iS anything more special
possibly to celebrate.. and sPeaKinG of sexy
6’s yes.. i AM of course.. wRite on course
born on 6660.. a yes.. reAlly sexy sixy
day that was and sTiLL IS As
Wine soMeNoWs ages finELy
hehe.. enough to gET
thE DancE and SonG
JOB dONe.. anyWays
aT lEAST.. and yes..
jUst got through celebrating
66 full months of Writing at the
end of May since Thanks Giving
Day 2010.. so just some more
sexy sixes to add iN JUsT FoR FuN..
So yes.. the Google Assistant
says a reported additional
very special Cosmological
“Grand Cross of 6/6/16”
per Ancient Esoteric
type wisdom.. in
And let’s get a quote
from the lInk to hear
more about that whether
or not iT is true or not..
as again.. it’s the FeelinG
of BeliEf that counts toward
the real Placebo impact of a prayer
for a better day that WiLL come trUe
with positive intent and resulTinG consequences
after additionally inspiRed positive actionS noW
so ya cannot go wrong as long as ya keep ya BeLiEfs
in a positive liGht noW.. and here’s a SonG for that
by a Way too.. along with a quote from the Grand Cross of 60616 too..;)
“1) new moon of Sivan appearing in the pleiades
2) superior conjunction of the sun and Venus in the pleiades
3) grand cross between four major planets in the signs of the faces
of ezekiel’s chariot: the new moon and venus in the bull, Jupiter
and the North node (destiny) in the Lion, Saturn or the gatekeeper
of knowledge in the Eagle or rising phoenix, and Neptune the
master of the transcendent bridge of the soul
in the sign of the man or Messiah,
the Water Bearer..”
WeLL mY Goodness if this is
all TrUe that does make
my Birthday extra special
this year too.. and
there was also
a special event
like this when i got
well on or about July 22nd.. 2013
along with that Royal Baby BeinG
born in England named the 13th planetary
alignment of the Star of David.. with the
first one occurring in 1990 shortly after
Katrina and i got married just by chance
too.. but yes.. i just kNew something
special would happen that day..
and it happened to ME! AND
SURE THAT BABY over in
England too in Golden
way too.. yes.. i GOT
WELL AND THE MIRACLE
OF THE REST IS DOCUMENTED
HISTORY NOW TOO.. WHERE I TALKED
ABOUT IT BEFORE IT HAPPENED AND
GOD DAM IT THE MIRACLE CAME TRUE..
AND HERE IS another lInk juSt
to document the Star oF
July 22nd of 2013..
as the fAct iN Positive
Action and Consequence
of REALIST PLACE IMPACT
CAN BE A FUCKING REAL MIRACLE..
YOU BET YOUR WAY OUT OF 66 MONTHS
OF HELL TOO.. i FOR ONE KNOW FOR SURE..;)
Jesus F iN Christ Synchroncity can be A OK too..!.. With
all the power of Belief.. Faith.. and Hope Fully iN Toes..;)
Wow.. that was like the longest dVerse Intro… i thInk
i’Ve done in ‘eva.. but hey.. at worst
it could be a mistake..
hehe.. as long as
vieWed iN positive
ya juSt aBout can’T
go WronG iN noW.. okaY!
oKaY!.. so here comes
some micro poetic ExpreSSioNs
FuLL poEtry sPeeD aHead by Fred A. Okay..
@10:21 pm.. write a’bout noW iN cLocK for sUre..:)
HaHa!.. i weigh twice as much
as the wife.. and when
we ride the fAir
rides.. iF i ever
get on the wrong
side of her.. i WiLL
crush the poor
So i stay
on her right
side just for fun..
either left or right..;)
Ah yes.. birth
can be a joyous
over the longest of runs
and teenage pregnancy
is down.. as the
now.. all the
way as they
say back to
with no sticks peed..;)
Just coming back from
talking about pregnancies
that and this reminds me..
the first time in years
i noticed a flower
was after my
wife had a baby..
Work truly kills
beauty without even
realizing it’s even gone..
now work is gone gone gone..
ALL OF iT
iS Beauty NOW..:)
Airports come and
go but planes
Crab Cake bakes
work better cooked
than crawling on Kitchen
Floors between legs.. oh those
spiny legs.. all caught up
between the legs..
make a home
G A l O R E..;)
When the Wrong number
becomes a friend.. i too
remember a friend like that too..
a young woman called me when i
am so alone back at age 20 or so.. and
that becomes my only friend for a call then
that day and no more after that.. Yes.. funny
what one can remember 35 years ago..
in just a casual call in isolation..
hmm.. now most everyone
KNows ‘my name’
i go in Town..
or whatever they
all choose to name
me now.. but i still
remember that call more
than most of the Legend
calls i have received to date..:)
SAdly.. i tried my best
but i’m afraid my father
had no way in words for me
to get to know him no matter
how hard i tried over years
of weekend visits.. to honor his
face was easy in 46 years of Law Enforcement
order.. to find the door to his heARt.. more
he’s gone but sadly
there is no regret as
he had no way out
in life’s open heARt..
i accept it.. cherish the face
and move on to be my own Father now..:)
SMiLes.. my mother..
a published poet
in print.. and
a poem named
Green Eyes about
my father saying he
was the most handsome
man in the world and whomever
was married to him was the luckiest
woman of all.. shortly after that he
popped the question… and didn’t
say another word more or less
for three years of marriage..
hmm.. some days eYes
are not enough.. he
left ’cause she wanted
to raise kids more than
make money.. hmm.. i guess
that is why i hate money so
much i never spent it and got
rich.. life is ironic when the son
gets what the father wanted all
his life.. and the son never gave
a crap about
what the Father
wanted that the
Son still has now..
i have a heARt and
some folks say nice
eYes too.. but truly
a heARt is enough for me..
sMiLes.. i retained the best
pARt from my MoTher REAL..
and who kNows perHaps a
too.. wITh WInk
on paper and or forgET
A similar issue
in my family and
a similar issue with
A mother but a family
member.. who values A
mother over what isreal
other than A mother..
some nows there
to be no good
choices at all..
raised in a society
that cherishes symbols
more instead of people real
no matter who they are REAL..:)
you do sing
a turn of change..
oh.. poeTry you
do lead me in
now.. oh words..
i LovE so much to
escape you too.. no
misTaKinG DancE as
Free most oF i new..;)
as i try.. i cannot
see any beauty in perfect..
in fAct.. the ugliest i for one
kNow noW iS
SMiLes there was
a now when i could
not feel the same
as same my Friend
and then i found out
the rest was true and
documented it all the way
through.. but it doesn’t ‘matter’
unless one iS iN a real miracle
that even scientists and doctors cannot explain..
When wishes become real rides the rest is history
my friend in Ripley’s believe it or not.. or at least that’s
relates.. WitH Winks..:)
Funny.. how the loss
of colors.. like Indigo
in the color wheel can
relate to even a real Zombie
Apocalypse wHere science
shows Students have loss
around 30% of the
over the course
of the last several
decades.. of course..
The colors of the wind
no longer SinG A royal INdiGo..:)
Hmm… a side note hear.. inspired
by the lead note of this prompt that
says even Monkey’s fall out of trees
and truth is while it’s possible and
can be a deadly mistake for a monkey
they rarely.. do.. and what can be
worse is when the human
falls into the
Silver Back Zoo
at least for the Ape
that is on the news recently
when a human family let tHeir
three year fall down into an Ape’s
Zoo home.. and truly it pains me
to keep an animal domesticated
inside.. but Yellow Boy
has a valid disability
for stayin’ iN with
10 times more healthy
than our Moby boy domesticated
from birth.. with food as his only
defense mechanism of the anxiety
of being put outdoors with no
claws and no way to defend
himself.. the cat was
an anxious wreck by
the date he made
it to our
in from the Wild
Kingdom outside.. and yes..
just like humans who are domesticated
noW and couch potatoes or office cell
sitters too.. diabetes and arthritis
got him.. until he could no longer
even lift himself up to the
litter pan then..
not even with
a two inch
ledge.. at age
10 or so then..
Yellow Boy is
about 8 or so..
it’s not even just
the Silver Back who is
a Guinea Pig or even Moby
and his Domesticated all you
can eat inside friends.. it is we
humans.. some of us who never even dance
naked in the sand.. and sun of God FReED..
and i WiLL tale ya this.. until you now ever
Dance Naked in Sun And Sand oF God no matter
what religion you follow.. you.. my friEnd have
never touched the Face oF God FReED.. and that
is pARt of why i do nude Art as i am no longer
any pArt of any God Dam FucKinG hUman Zoo..
and no matter what.. i ain’t goin’
back to the Human
Zoo.. at lEAst
in thIs Country
given proper private
home provisions sAMe one
can Feel the Face of the
REAL GOD OF NATURE FReED
And thAT CaLLs for
a little Side Dish
of Rod Serling Before
i carry on noW WitH soMe
more totAlly FReED poEtry..
in fACt it’s 12:02 am on
June 2nd now so i’ll sleep
and then carry on as wayward
Back at 9:33 am.. 06022016..
to finish this milestone
of Mistake of Tuesday
dVerse poEtry prompt
and then to move on
WitH my own style
of Sacred and
R and R activities
of course with the freest
dance of all when the hour
of 11 pm approaches at old
Seville Quarter for my 113th
Dance week there WiTh all the
cool College age folks who hope
to retain thEir freedom to all
Natural into much older ages of
i as WeLL BeinG that my
liFE at lEast
youth.. early adult
hood or even middle age
for sure.. and folks like
Jack LaLanne have already
proveEN the older ages
as WeLL Being potential
as WeLL witH very
and towing 60 or
so boats across a bay
just WitH a Rope and
hUman God oF Nature potential
iN wE unleashed and released in
the Quantum hUman poTenTial oF
a MinD and BodY Balance oF
to make liFe
and Super-Epic two or
three as more more more..:)
‘Funny’.. how ‘that’ works..
snakes can be men
and women too..
but iT iS
ofTen A snake
hiss of his or her that
make the most beautiful
and BalanCinG children oF aLL..
i suppose as alWays the sacrifice
oF liGht from
dARk tHe sAMe
my FriEnd as i AM
born of the hiss of snake
more or less.. but oF Love
too.. noW.. of fearless NatuRE WeLL..
so yeah.. somenows
A dArk hiss.. leads
to oh.. the BriGhtest
Kisses oF aLL noW..
the Nature of both
the Snake and the
KiSs iS ulTiMaTe
oF MiNd and BoDy
S O U L noW.. Ah..
BaLanCe iN dArK
and liGht.. mY FriEnd..
and truly sorry iF one sees
Me IS A Snake but thaT iS thE
gift of my fatHeR.. tHe thiCK sKiN..
thE Love.. the gifT iNsiDe.. mY FriEnd..
oF i aS TOTaLLy
WeLL iN Fearless Love..:)
Sadly life is a bitch
for so many folks
and of curse that
works in both his or her
wayS in balance sex IS A
Joy and a consensual
play of Love..
out of desperation
when the heARt dies
iN Stress a desperate
need with no holds barred..
i watch the play
niGht in Bars
i have Love so
i play in Love
and never domination
out of desperation my FriEnd
but sure i’ve seen the darKer
side to oF iT aLL out of
Balance.. to escape noW
Heaven free.. sAdly
watching others fall
prey to the desperation
of need to feel anything aT aLL..:)
yes.. to play
with no rules
noW as super
freak as such
IS A way to fly
as flying trapeze
hUman.. ugh.. yes..
FaLLinG DowNoW can
hurt.. particularly from
hiGh but when the Circus
Freak gets balance.. no holds
sMiLes in my life failure
was quite the opposite.. then..
at least in ways school/work
and sure in social life i often got
the failure response all too often..
and at nows still do from those noW
not nearly as free spirited now as i..
but anyway.. school and
work is what we have
to do to even
eat and sleep
anyway.. i suppose
since i could never get
the social part wRite i did
everything else in perfect
motivation to never make
a frigging mistake.. and
truly in ways of work
40 years for
someone to give
me just the kick out
of perfection i needed
and to say the magic words
YOU FAILED.. i tried my best
but my boss.. a Female Captain
in the New NAVY said YOU FAILED..
seriously.. everyone hated that lady..
everyone on the entire Naval
Station.. and the fact
that she would
not let me
perfect in the
longest of runs
saved my soul…
my family wanted
to ‘kill her’ but seriously
if i ever see her again i will
give her the biggest kiss of
joy ever for making me a
i suppose a
of much of the
world.. IS A humAn
cannot forgive Lucifer
even though he stARted
out as the most beautiful Angel first..
and waS noW juSt
trYinG to hELp.. huH
Heh.. ‘funny’.. hUman
NatUre and hoW thaT sAMe
archetyPal story goes.. one
iN Oh.. ONE God.. iN so
SMiLes.. in my work life i was important
to all as they needed me..
in my home life the same..
when i failed to the
i was important
to no one.. not
even me.. after
that i made myself
my own father.. mother.. brother
sister.. wife.. husband and FRiEnD
too.. and now i juSt love and need
no one but Love allone mY FriEnd..
iF at ALL possible too..:)
Wow.. trUly it took me decades
to ‘achieve it’.. but iN ways oF
bEcoming my own best
friend.. i can be a friend
to anyone.. even if they
are the devil incarnate..
i’ve got some
proof oF that too..
but truly Real friEnds
are Golden.. and very
very rare.. as they will
Love the same
my friEnd.. noW
and in that way Now
no one loses a friend
as they are the friend
first and last.. mY FriEnd aGaiN..
and honestly without really going
to heLL.. you kNow.. the earTh one
as dEvil too.. i don’t thInk i could
ever Love Unconditionally like
thAT iN fearless ways as tHeRe
are some things that only
A real DEvil in HeLL
can uNderStanD aS
thE price oF liGht
for deePest WeLLiGht..:)
Sorry.. couldn’t bypass
the opportunity for another ‘short’
story.. my 2nd cousin Fred.. a much
older elder than my wife and i
strangely referred to her as mutt
and seriously.. my wife is one of those
women who would look good even in hell..
and yes.. she stiLL did when i was tHere..
so we just ignored it as
eccentricity from him
as he believed in UFO’s
and stuff like that too..
then.. later to
find out he
to the Goddess Mut
in Egyptian mythology
for her unique beauty of
can change the
liGht oF all from dARk…:)
sMILes.. truly it’s hard
to be a beauty Queen
these days.. even if one does
not wear the crown.. even if they
are A.. Queen from birth.. as my
frAgile looKing butterfly oF a wiFe
can tale through years of bullying
in school for the jealousy of her
beauty by bigger boned
girls.. and then into
don’t wanna be
friends with someone
all the men google eyes
at.. no.. it’s not always an
easy ride being beautiful too
and sure it’s the same for a man
as not many men wanna HANG around
as i can attest
in reams of evidence
as well of course.. funny..
how Nature has his and
her say.. my wife and
i have always
only to the
it seems.. but
sure.. she won the
battle of the beauty
against the beast long ago..
and whenever she gets on
my Facebook page the likes
and no doubt
sHe is likely one
of the only reasons
i noW have 1.4 million
views on the Google plus
oh what A side show she is..
in all stuff bLog of beauty sure..
nah.. tHeRe is no
SMiLeS.. it’s true2
in all stuff politics..
religion.. and culture
wHole.. systems that
do not allow the son and
the daughter to improve
on what the Father and
Mother do.. stagNate
argues well on a daily
basis without physical
bLows stays toGeTher
aBout as good
aS iT gEts..
Ha.. iT’s trUe
from my point
of view2.. the nerd
way is the saFest
paTh oF all but oh
thAT i finAlly
as bad/good boy2..;)
CRap.. Sorry Bjorn..
i forgot i wasn’t
in FAct.. i rarELy
look at who
noTioNs iN greaTest
ArtisTry oF poEt FReED..
in otHer words.. iF it haPpens
aGain i’m just trYinG to validate
and clarify my communication noW as
i alWays do… when need bE.. oF course..
And oN course as always hopefully you’LL
understand the metaphor of the whole of
what i am doing here now.. you kNow..
the mistake theme thingy.. of course
WitH FriEndly WinKs..
to see the
heRe or not.. my old FriEnd..;)
i can certainly relate
as i was too depressed
to the point of total
66 months to
travel to see either
my Father or Step
Father then.. fortunately
i got well just in the nick
of time to see both of them
before they suddenly dropped
dead.. so yeah.. i can sure feel
your pain for not being able to be
tHere but in liFE tHere is the dARk
that not all can either relate to
or understand.. mY friend
and thaT iS truLy wHeRe
Fearless Love as
related by the
in.. to forgive
as others now
and move on
to Love more..
truly liFe is too short
to not listen to everyone
dArk and liGht or delete anyone
out of anyone’s liFE when FReED
WitH Fearless Love but that ma’m
takes work hard God work for hUmaNoW…:)
Okay.. 11:59 am.. milestone
complete.. and publish
in online way
the end of day..
or niGht at lEAst
hehe.. so FReED..;)
Oh.. Lord.. i’M reAlly gonna ‘have’ to invest in a battery back-up
as one can write some comments that may never happen
again.. in fAct.. soMe can wRite some comments that
WiLL never happen again.. but as Zen says
no sweat.. just keep danCinG as the dArk
Steps can inspire the liGhtER steps greatER
than ever before.. as i take solace
heEe and stARt agAin from wHeRe
no thOughts live outside of the
subconscious miNd of creatiViTy..
yes.. juSt more proof that the trUth answers
lie liGht within.. and once one practices enough
they come for free no different than the Ocean
whole holding Pearls that free without shells
of restraint.. hmm.. Ocean whole holding
Pearls that free without sHells of restrAint..
a pearl within a pearl that WiLL be this
Ocean wHole too.. and that’s the
problem my friend.. too many
people in the world
of cultures and
exploring the ocean
on tHeir own.. whether iT IS A
man in a desert.. a psychopathic
leaning Dude who wants a few more
wives and slaves in a cave with a little
plagiarism from the past.. and sure.. a
little Holy Spirit too.. as the Ocean IS
An equal opportunity employer wHo allows
Dolphins and Sharks the
same to swim.. i aM a
DolpHin.. and i WiLL
fiNd a way of
to get rid of tHe shaRks
without sWords of steel..
or killing by bottleD uP kNows..
of dirty bombs and the new aTomic
ones specifically deSigned for smAll
countries in the middle east that get too
far out of hand in the future with ISiS ways
for just another eXcuse to rEbuild a country
of a bunch of innocent fools who are slaves to
a man and a book.. and the state as Sharia
same as such.. instead of voices of the
God oF Nature that lives free aS onE..
anyway.. i feel and sense comfortable
to go almost anywhere with A Shield
oF mastery iN regulation Of
of SeNses.. as the
Director as i actors the
I oF i in relative free WiLL
whatever the instructions oF Y
i Will do next in words or steps..
in Holy Spirit of i set Free as all
thaT is.. Nature one and sAMe God
iN mE.. sure.. the Christ.. of the Gnostic
way.. the Buddha.. and similar metaphorS noW
of human beings.. like the Lao Tzu too.. who
WiLL tale ya.. to look within instead of listening
to the Lies of past control through illusory fearS now
but sadly they lie too.. as a balance of lust and love
throughout the lifespan is NOT A SiN or some daRk
desire of way to go.. iN fACT as science shows now
without a doubt in instruments and studies as such
iT is the basis of human Creativity and productivity
and y e S.. C O O P E R A T i O N iN Social WAY noW
when set free.. so sure we have some of the
most beautiful paintings/sculptures originally
sTiLL of naked Women aS in the
eYes of Michelangelo the
greatest art is the nude.. the
woman or man in all the passion
of liFe that all naturAlly BRinGS
in the luSt of liFE to create
more at hand now..
but then Victoria’s
secret was lost..
the penises off and
pulled tHeir nickers uP..
and Jesus F iN Christ our
Friendly Muslim Women on
the gulf coast WiLL Swelter to
the point of heat Exhaustion on
the Beach just to see a little bit
MORE of the fuller Beauty of God..
and look away in guilt
when they see
a REAL MAN
in fear of what they
even are at competitive
core for a dam child who
will live strong as any REAL
MAN WILL OPEN TO BOTH
LOVE AND LUST IN BALANCE
MY FRiEnd.. the sAddest human
IS A slave my FriEnd and even a
sadder hUman is one who is one
of the poorest slaves in the entire
UniVerse+ CAlled hUman without
even a naked clue of who
they FucKinG even are
in the greAtest potential
oF a child of Nature
yes.. this comment
is entirely different than
the last as i let loose a little
bit and expresS noW more of the
dArk and less of the liGht but
that is the Yin and Yang of thangs
mY fRiend.. DaRk and LiGht.. to be
either cynical of the liGht of the tRuest
maGic and mysteries of liFe or to be afraid
of the DaRk and not to call it out.. is to sTiLL
be a slave to the master of social political correctness
to avoid the outcast status that WiLL naturally come
too WitH a Buddha.. a Gnostic Jesus.. or even a
modern Lao Tzu too.. LiFe is too short to pull
punches as long as no one is hurt
in the Golden only rule of liFE noW
that WiLL Set the rest iN Balance
oF Peace and Bliss.. and yes..
liFE is too short not to
spread as much lust
and love for liFe.. oh..
iN Balance too.. noW..
sure.. the Warrior and
the Lover iN Yang
and Yin Balance
oF LuSt oF LiFe too..
i don’t need no 72 Virgins
or need to bomb anyonE noW to
get that prize.. i don’t need to
Bomb any country to rebuild iT
to make another million dollar
home or even the first one for
i.. iN fAct.. i need nothing but
liFE.. Food.. Water.. a shelter
from the harsher elements oF
Nature.. Lust and Love mY FriEnd
as i AM the God who LiveS iN i as
i the sAMe as the rest oF wE who
are Free liKe thiS aWay from all the
slavery i see in robots frOwning shuffling By
tHeir culture and religion driven way to just
buy another thing to fill up tHeir garage or
another wife as slave.. or whatever exists
for they away
from FreeDoM oF
God OF NatUre as WE..
thE Hurricane eYe of i iS
at Peace and cAlm but the
WiNds my Friend are now the
Jonathan LiVinGston Seagull
who finds the trUth and liGht
within without the chains of others..
Religions… or cultures that WiLL hOld
God back FREE from BeinG wE fULLy aLIVE..
My dorsal FiN rides Free WiLLeY hiGh.. i Live iN
no sea world of human driven Zoo.. and i Love/luSt
and i LOVE as Beauty WiLL All NaturAlly Do aLL noW
AmaZinG truly iT iS that all of this exists for jUst
of a power surge..
WiTh Bigger WiNks
of course as thaT is how
the wHole dam bi-cycle
of dArk and liGht SinGS
A SonG of oFF anDancE oNE..
seriOUsly God IS A laugh no
different than Britney Spears
when wE siNg oops WE
Lord.. SpeaKinG of Doing iT aGaiN..
man.. woman.. or whatever..
113 weeks of dance iS
a Long Long Hot
And sweatY Road
to physical and
Force too ONE
but unless you
Go tHerE noW
you miGht Now
per FeeL iT And
seNse iT ALLNow
oh WeLL.. i gueSS
thaT’s jUst the waY
iT can Go but i wEnt
a diffeRent rOUte bacK
to liFE aGaiN.. and TrusT
me after iF you go to HeLL yOu2
WiLL keep DanCinG and SinGinG
a SonG of the GreAtest DancE oF aLL
Named LiFe so back later after 3 am.. after
i do iT FucKinG 113 nows AgAiN and AGAiN
for massive FuN.. and heLL no.. i’M not InnoCent..
i fOr PeNneY onE
WiTh GoD iN
aLL dArK And
liGht thAt cOmes
FReED noW WiTh ATiS….:)
And wIth Winks
aLL iS on topiC
coming to this
currenT bLog post
in thAt NoW wee wee
3 am houR oN Friday
June the 3rd wHeRe
i underStand the
GetS in Gear..;)
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