BeYonD Fence oF liGht

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From the origin of allthatis..
gRains of SAnd fill toes
oF liGht bRiGht
connecting Now
to aLL ‘A eARTh
breeze through
eYes thaT LovE..
SinG through taste
of Night.. DancE aLL
SonG
oF
Be..
Butterfly born..
cocoons
shelved
away noW
as cycle oF LiFe
ends begins staRts
fiNishes aLways
MoRe noW
BrinG
tears
ring
Laughs
SMiLes moRe
liGht SunG
aM ONe..
and hmm..
off to dVerse Haibun
oF what WiLL be Fredbun
style of whatever free versE noW
comes to FinGerS of FReED.. oh
so short and long.. as Leaves
oF Grass WiLL Grow
in Fields
and Streams
of Rivers Ocean
Glow in midnight Diatom
sands of Sunlight Shores..
and the topic of the dVerse
prompt as coming noW is
how does one Rest and
Relax for R and R..
WeLL.. i have
a special
and very
SacRed Holy
Thursday and
niGht.. sEt.. uP
for R and R each
week.. and anyone
who follows my bloG
PoEM WiLL kNoW precisely
aLL the paths iN JourneY Now
oF Y i FreeST noW oF i thaT Goes..
So after what i provide here.. as mY
own contribution of mY way iN FReEDom
poeTry i.. iT’s 5232016.. and 4:50 pm noW to sTARt..
HeRe’s the deal.. i don’T juSt DancE aNd SinG
i aM a SonG
oF DancE
iN
poeTry
too.. and
thiS is jUst an
ongoing stARt to
never begin and finish
a never ending poeM oF
thE ‘SonG oF mY SoUl’.. i
AM.. and this iS the 671st
Verse of allthatis noW as i..
and surE.. sTiLL apProacHinG
4 MilLiOn words as aLL
WiLL FloW
iN
ZonE oF
i FReED..:)

http://freeversenudepoetry.blogspot.com/2016/05/pleasure-principle-of-hell-free-verse.html

sMiLes.. R and R
iN decades for me
was only a drive
through to see
mY Father then..
on Interstate
Roads.. twice a
year and twice
a month
moWinG
grass close
to Nature as
Leave of work
then.. worKing aLL
Holidays for decAdes..
never taKing a break WiLL
Certainly make i a dull boy..

noW neverLand
EnDinG story
aGaiN..:)

SMiLes.. WeLL
trUth iS i mainLY
stay in a state of
DancE and SonG even
iN poeTry that
is effortless
in balance
as best
Friend
oF graVity
noW.. iN WhiTe
liGht Love energy
that has no limits
or expectaTiOnsnoW
FReED from attempTinG
oTheRs to grey the
colorEd RainBoW
hiGh oF i
WinD FReED..

Sycamore
grows
ever taller..:)

Ah.. one of my most
favorite R and R DanceS
oF i to SinG iS FloWinG
WitH Butterfly golden
toes in Nike
Shox shoes..
yes.. size
11
and
a half..
with a bridge
across for H
wHolE as SpiRit
i oF liGht MoVinG
deep in SanDs WitH
arms as Wings BaLanCinG
GraViTy liGhts oF i.. wHere
Fingers are ruShinG DreAms as
Air oF mE.. Waves pattern Dance
Prints along never ending sway
of Ocean i across fAce of sUn
SeAGuLL jOY i
BRinG
to un-suspecting
Sun bathers sTiLL
who have never
viewEd an
ET
Butterfly
HUman BeinG
navigaTinG
i oF Heaven
HOmeNoW..:)

WoNder RiVers…
FoRests.. PoNds..
LaKes.. BaYs..
SuGar BeacHes..
EMerald WaTers..
SeaGulls SpiRal
neveR enDinG
SunnY Days
oF liGht..
NatUre’s
spiRit aS
animaLs
SingG Free
As heArt SoUL
BalanCinG heRe
noW iN Saint FloWer
oF Florida wHerE noW
i liVe iN RosE waY
peTals Of DreAms
coMe truE Now..

i’LL jUst
aDD..
iT’s HeaVen..:)

Seriously.. iTs
trUe.. it’S eVen
iN the good book
titLed.. “A History
of God’.. pAge 8..
the first name
for God iS
Lahmu and
Lahamn
meaning
silt as
water and
earth sTiLL
miXed toGeTheR
and per my last bLog
posT thAT mY friEnd..
iF you kNow the wHole NoW
story of ‘mY’ name.. iS iroNic
as both Heaven and Hell.. toGeTher..
iN oNe hUman BEinG aS DeViLAndAngEL..

SynchroniciTy
SinGs LaYman teRms
iN aweSoMe wHole waY..;)

WeLL.. trUth and liGhT iS noW
foR aA Angel emPath.. SaVinG gRace
is NatUre spAce..
as hUmans
with worry
emit stingy
jelly fish energy
kinda like the other
side of those jELly
fish like spiRits that
are positive liGht oF
FeeLinGs oF NatUre iN
that Avatar moviel.. then..
and noW.. wE Angel empaThs
mUst consTantly
generate poSitive
eNergy.. iN ways
of DancE and SonG
not to be defeated
by Human Jelly Fish
Stings of Stress.. Worry
Fear.. Doubt.. Jealously..
Greed.. and all the other
Con-social emoTions
that
non-
EmPath
AngEls
SinG.. but
trUly they
kNOw noT what
they do.. theY Now
juSt feeL and SinG noW
a DarKeR Song of Negative
EnerGy that wE empath AngeLs
do E-scape With DancE and SonG..
Beach.. Forest.. and under Trees..
and even in Caves and Desert too..
And yes.. Positive Energy oF poEtry2..

DancE And SinG NoW
aWay.. noW oN aNd or @NatUre HoMe
froM HUman SpiRit Jelly Fish StinGs..:)

SMiLes..
iN poEtry
SpeaK Jazz Now
iS jUst anoTheR
woRd foR Free Verse
SonG As MusiCK noW..

Free oF Art
SonG And DancE..
JaZz oF aLL..:)

6 ‘O’ 1 pm cLock
mean work-out
now.. be
back
later..:)

Back at 1:01 am
on 5242016..

Nature and photography..
Yes.. a relaxing mix of
rest of Nature
beyond the
mundane
routines
oF life
to make
the routine
oF liFe sacred
iN aLL deTails
of big photo view..

Mindful
iN phoTography..
Peace aNd Blisst..:)

Runner Endorphins of decades
past.. knees and hips no
longer agree with high
steps.. Now
but fLoWinG
Dance close
to eARTh BRinGs
SeNsaTionS noW oF
EmoTioNaL regulation
and sensory integration
to new highs in all pARts
of MiNd and BoDy Balance that
i had no idea even existed then
running to or away from something
that was toward the end of FeeLinG
rather than.. the do of Art iN noW..

Legs..Hips..thanK
mE For eYes oF
FloWinG DancE..:)

SMiLes.. sitting still or mechanical
walk not a meditation one noW..
MoVinG as i for one can
do iN ConNecTinG
CreATinG
Way oF aLL
thaT iS.. MuSt
FloW aNd SpiRal
iN body weight fULL
to be free.. my friend.. for me..

DanCinG
mediTaTion..
bestT piLL for i..:)

Quick poeTry break
ends at 1:15 am
and noW
foR
Bed..:)

Many Many
Global and
Local Metro
Area detouRS
as hiGhliGhTed
beLow.. noW bacK
here at dVerse Monday
prompt in Haibun
flavoRed
Fredbunns
in taste
oF R and
R for N0W..
10:41 AM..
5252016..:)

Ah.. CHalice oF wE
DanceE aNd SonG
oF Y i For mE..
FloW oF zoNe..
cOmes.. matterS
noT thE foRm
Or DestiNaTiOn
paThs JoUrney
aLiVe noW iN Peace..

Rivers Ocean
fly iN
eYe oF Love..:)

SMiLes.. cOunting sheeP
To g0 tO sLeep.. oNe steP
tWo stEp thRee sHeeP foUr..
NumBerSgroWinGs..
LetTers coMe FReED..
woRdSinGSonG
Longer noW
LettersEEd..
SpRead
i On..
PeAce cOmes..
eYe oF niGht
eYes oF DaY
sKeYes oF ALL..

SpRinG LiVes
iN aS MooN
ChiLd DreAms..:)

Saunter Red
White and Blue
Flag Breeze through
hiGhliGhts sacRed HoLy
FLiGht iNside.. ouTside..
so aBove.. beLow
all’A
rOund..
wHen aLL
becOmes
onE fLag
ofEYe..
NaTion
i oN
1 noW FReED..:)

FlaG oF
LovE fearLess
juSTiCe Flies iN FeAT..:)

HI.. Adriana.. haven’t
caught up with you
on the dVerse trail
recently.. nice to hear
your inspiRational words
here again.. another story
of tragedy inspired by bLack
books of lies.. rapes against
faith of different religions
God as evil
twin..
holding
hands with
Rapists Murders
evilivedevilived sAMe
raping little girls to burying
Lesbians to their chest aLiVe
to stone them with RocksNow
so they cannot cover thEiR oWn
eYes.. Supreme leader of Iran..
hA!.. supreme dEvil of heLL.. iN
real human form.. and aLL Ah
associated with
the devil realm
of killing
other pARts
of NatUre God
one sAMe all noW..
i’m getting reAlly REAL
tired oF iT.. and serioUsly
i lEarned how to shape shift
in so many artFuL ways he HE
perhapS i’LL beCome ISA
and settle
thE dajJaL
score of
Muhammad
twice and for
aLL oNe.. perHaps
A mYth.. perhapS
A dreAm pErhaps
thE anGer of God
Nature oNE as uS
mY frIEnd iNoW..

DEvils SpRinG
fRom loiN oF peDo
fiLe HeLL iN Dante bLack…

SMiLes.. moVing.. ConnecTArinG..
CreAtinG.. i too fiNd a way to
go iN R and R
HeaVen for noW
mY friEnd and oH
mY GoD the dEtale
pErson aWay froM
BiggeR viEw poeTry..
DancE and SonG i too
can be.. after three degrees
at the toP of my class through
Highschool.. UniVersity in Social
Sciences Interdisciplinary.. Health
Science.. Anthropology and then..
a Quarter oF A Century wHOle oH..
from Bowling ALLey to Adminstrator
oF Federal Government Programs then..
i neVer had a clUe trUly whaT
iT was to move.. connect
and create.. unTiL a little
Yellow Boy cat
disguised
as GoD aLL
cried under
my shed for
respite of
drOught with
no drop of water
taught mE aLL i
needed to kNow iN
PAws cLaws and puRRs
oF fearLess cAll oF the Wild
iN goD FreeD oF aLLeY strAy caT
SonG iN LiVinG Free liKe Whitman2..

PoeTriaL DanCes
iN SonG oF fEarFReED
Yellow Boy LoVe..:)

SMiLes..
bottom
line..

Nature
we are
ONE..:)

sMiLes.. for mE.. long
ago a giant oak
with spot liGhts
at bottom pointed
toward sky.. leaves
oF alive flow upward
downward sAMe for
a brief moment in break
from all stress work.. i AM
tree one WitH niGht.. tree later
felled by Hurricane Ivan iN then
WiNds oF FreeinG skY opens
uP cLouds oF Love never
seen in heaVens aBove..
and ah.. the stars no
longer covered
by branches oF
Love..

DarK iS liGht
IS A sTar
briGht MooNoN..:)

Sea as endless
as Summer neW
Breeze NoW iN
DeSert yellow
StreAM RiVer
eYes BriGht
aS Summer
longS AnD
WiNter FaLLS
SpRinG aGaiN..
Now oF Love..
NoW iN FearLess
SacRed eYe onE
WiSdom
Be
hOld..

i’s A foretOld
iN Led Zeppelin
Kashmir dreAm..:)

SmLes.. fOr thouSands
oF yeArs EaRth circles
Sun iN perFect pAth..
And ha.. hUmans
doubt they
master fate..
first step out oF
fear.. the rest fAlls
as pLace iN LoVeNOW
BesT FriEnd of ENerGy..
FrienD iN Gravity Balance tRue..

EarTh SinGs
truTh
iN DancE oF sUn..:)

SMILes.. a KaT then oH!
in cage oF a ThunDerstorm..
My liFe never but a sPark
of reaL reLaXaTioN on
the Autism Spectrum
then.. hA!.. anSwer
so simple!..
free fLow
iN ZonE
DancE aWay
from ruLeS Now
laughing aLL.. aH..
thE way to bliss bank
noW FReED no matter who
the F noW thInks i’M iNsanE..

IN FreeDoM
iNSaniTy
DancELoveSonG..:)

Oh God.. you are F iN
Hilarious.. the H and the
B ran mE out’A liNKinG
butT Jesus
F iN Christ..
thIS IS A foR fUn tHinG
noW and no F iN Science
PoeTry Project fOr mE.. heHE..
buTT i StILL wRote a 3 MilLion PLuS
LonGesT woRd ForM TerM poeM iN
thE hiStory oF HuMan
kiNd sTiLL
exPaNdinG
iN Words heRe
noW anD thE hidDen
MaGicK surPrise iS F iN
moSt everyOne oNliNe
i’Ve eVer conNecTaRed
WiTh iT IS A LoVinG
pARt oF iT iN aLL DarK
aNd liGht aS thIs iS paRT
oF thE 671st Verse.. iN aS
Love iT aLL..
as SonG oF
My SouL.. aka
the hidden title
IN KATiE MiA
FredericK!iI oH!
noW.. nanmykel
so mUch.. moRE wITh
FearLess noW LoVeNoW..

HeHeR.. yoUr
nAMe iS noW iN
mY Book oF LiFe2..;)

pS.. ‘they’ finAlly sorTa
put out that Alice
iN Wonderland
movie about
mY liFe..
thE LooKinG
GlAss IS A CaLLing
anD i liVe tHeir noW..

Two Fred
BuNs aNd PuNs
juSt For FuN..;)

Most people
don’T realiZe
thaT reTire
doesN’t
meaN reLax..
iT juSt mEans
gET eXcited aBout
LiFe witHouT worrY
WitH mOre tRead oN
thE WheeLs oF liFe..

oH.. To bE Re-
tiRed.. thE JoY noW
DriVinG aLiVe 55..;)

And fOr seCond FredKu..
FeeLinG younGer aT heARt
noW thAn sWeet mAle 16..;)

SMIles..
trUly.. iT’s
imPossiBle
to give the
most by folloWing
oLd ruLes.. to give is
not to take.. including
animal blood.. and lives
of others.. the
give is
without
take in
fearless
GiVinG Love..
withOut harm
to oTheRs mY friEnd..:)

Golden NEW rULE..
FearLess Love.. NO
hArm To creaTioN ONE..:)

As printED by SuN
AnD ShadeS oN mY bE
forEhead selFie waY..;)

AnD thE conText oF thAT
lasT Fred KU.. biGGer viEW..
reQuires deTail SeeiNG mY Friend..;)

And SeeKinG
EXploRinG
FinDinG
Too..2..;)

SMiLes.. iN mY miNd And BoDy
BaLanCinG SoUL Of EmoTioNal
FeeLinG heArT iN ExpreSsinG
SpiRit SamE.. FriEnd Viv..noW
i SaY.. nEither RelaXaTioN..
DancE.. SonG.. oR poEtry
worKs aS fuLLeSt hUman
heARt wiTh mechanical
cognition ruleS
NoW iN as i2..

Free Verse i
reLaX
ZERO RULE..:)

ps.. per.. second Fredku
and Fredbun Free foR aLL
PEtERPaNmINraRiFiED..;)

SMiLes… EarTh never
sweats orbit around
Sun.. cats say no
when they get
too many
petsnoW
and scratch
WarningS oF diScomforT…
hUmanS iN BaLanCinG
stAnd stronG
LoVe hard
hug noW iN
gRass moonliT..
rollS in midday
sAnds.. so free allone..
noW Sand oF SinG SonG
BliSS WitH Grass cat whiskers
freE noW to bE aLiVe noW withouT
hUman Cultural noise iN PriSon
cLocK
tiMeS

BreathE DancE SinG..
moonLit twiliGht
Sun’s.. hEiR..:)

Ah.. a cat of mine..
named Arthur for
20 years.. noble
alpha cat of neighborhood
bLock never injured posture says
at 7 lbs from 15 Lb
mountain lion
beFore.. go away
intruder cat or else..
i WiLL have your fur..
and it worked as this
cat would never be scratched
by a less brave one oF hE then..
BagG oF BONEs
i stepped on
one day..
all weight oF Y i
230LBS noW..
KinG Arthur geTs
uP leisurely thenoW
anD walKs LioN
KinG aWay sTiLL
HeaLinG proPerTies
thAT mediCine WiLL
never understand
in the relative
free WiLL
of even
a Cat
freeR than
hUmans arReNoW..

FunctionAlly
disAbled hUmans
bY culTuRe’s teAt priSon..:)

i lEArNed
HiS
lesSon WeLL..:)

And that catches
iT aLL uP for NoW..
next stop way beLow
here… WiLL be
Tuesday prompt..
all About
farewells
not so
sure
in hopes
of geTtinG
Back to Love’s WeLL..:)

1:37 pm..
5252016..:)

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And tHeRe’s
the much softer
Angel Side.. noW in ‘that’
Facebook Profile status photo..
And speaking of that i find
the Inner UniVerse of HUman
BeinG in terms of EmoTioNs
and seNses fascinating and
how we connect wITh each other
through the verbal and non-verbal
expreSsiONs of SpiRit oF HeARt
FeLt EmoTioNs through both
our physical verbal
and non-verbal
eXpRESSiOns
aS weLL as SiGn
Language in all the
symbols that hUmans
can abstract design
iN mind and body BalanCinG SoUL..
as constructs.. both representing
metaphors of Golden Calves.. Hawk
Headed men.. to a three letter word
named God.. to expReSS more of what
CAN NOT be measured by empirical means
alone in discrete observation in meaSuRinG
ways.. and the height of the weakness in both
the field of psychiatry.. psychotherapy.. and
the psychology field as whole.. is what to do
when a human no longer either FEELS EMPATHY
AND OR ASSOCIATED NUANCED EMOTIONS.. and now
for me this IS A case study of mY history
for sure.. as when undergoing 2 years
of fLiGht or fIght stress i became
the textbook version of a person
who experienced little to
no eMoTioN along with
losing the connection
of Language with EmoTioNs
to describe how i was feeling
if anyway at all.. and truly all
was left of me was panic mode on
or less on in total adrenaline
flow.. AND WHAT happens when
one loses this normal
innate human
ability..
is chaos
and a complete
change in how one
views the world in terms
of FEELINGS.. and the sickest
pArt of the whole experience was
my brain was so damaged by stress as
yes science proves prolonged stress WILL
DO TO THE HUMAN BRAIN and all other bodily
systems.. THAT THE way i viewed pleasure became
both my pain and the pain of others to wHere when
i saw a person suffering to my cognitive moral code
self viewing the unfolding of this new way of view of the
world.. WHEN i saw my beloved mother choking on a piece of
bread instead of extreme fear and concern.. i felt a perverse
pleasure and there was nothing cognitively i could do to change
that feeling.. and when the psychiatrist asked me to use something
other than adrenaline to motivate myself.. namely EmoTions.. i had
no idea what he was talking about at that point.. and no way to generate
anything other than adrenaline fight or flight hormones.. in fact he said
my adrenal glands were literally stuck in the on position as this is what
the body will do.. under constant fight or flight pressure when a job
gets like that.. and my perseverance to survive in the job
was of my own goal oriented behavior too.. NOT TO QUIT..
as i had been with the same Government employment
for close to 25 years.. close to retirement
and assurance of lifetime health
insurance.. for my wife
who had Epilepsy..
and for myself
suffering from
Severe Anxiety at an
era where any Mental Disorder
meant no insurance coverage if you
lost your insurance and went to another
coverage or coverage one could not afford..
so yes.. Golden Handcuffs were around wrists
as i made those Golden Handcuffs real with the
contingencies created by my mind as life or death
action and consequence of life.. in keeping that job..
wHere the demands were becoming increasingly impossible
for me to do in a catch 22 situation.. Well at that period
of my life.. i had no idea a person could lose their emotions
or that Stress could result in close to 20 disorders all at one
point in one human being.. as my body and mind finally gave up..
and i could not sleep for almost 40 days except for 1 hour each
night for the first 35 days with an alpha blocker to slow
my heart rate down enough with what then became
dysautonomia for a nervous system and
cardiovascular/respiratory system
damaged beyond immediate
repair.. and doctors
can’t do a dam
thing for
that as
only rest and
relaxation.. sometimes
years.. to even a decade
can heal the extent of the
damage of a synergy of bodily
destruction from the real deadly
results of continual Chronic flight
or fight stress.. ANYWAY.. along with
the worst pain known to mankind.. type
two Trigeminal Neuralgia like a dentist
drill in my right eYe and ear.. WITHOUT
NOVOCAINE.. Sjogren’s Syndrome wHere
my Eyes quit making tears..
Severe Degenerative
Arthritis in my
spine and Spinal
Stenosis precipitated
early by a Congenitally
Fused Vertebra in my spine..
Coat Hanger Pain associated
with Dysautonomia.. and Fibromyalgia
for an entire body of pain.. the worst
of all was losing my Emotions and at the
end of that 40 day stay with no sleep.. even
all senses and pain too.. which was the worst
Hell of all wHere yes.. as mentioned over and
over in my blogs and here on Facebook too.. a second
was like a thousand years in a piece of paper existence
and what felt like total separation from allthatis AKA
GOD.. yeaH.. so.. i finally figured out that Hell and
Heaven is here and no where else.. most obviously
what the folks where talking about in the
old sacred texts too.. as there is
no other word for this place
that i’m sure other folks
have been to iN a similar
place of hell
who experience
constant fight or flight
stress in whatever shape
form or fashion that comes
in both now and then in the
human condition as is.. anyway..
stress is a serious ill of western
civilization as we base flight or fight
reaction to external abstract constructs
as determined by our minds to have life or
death consequences through our actions of
either success or failure.. and that is
truly a catastrophic way of thinking
in potential catastrophic
illness.. AND BACK
TO THE FIELD OF PSYCHOLOGY
ALL THEY COULD DO WAS OFFER PILLS
AND THERAPY IN THE WAY OF THOUGHT CONTROL..
BUT ZERO WAY OR ZERO SUGGESTION IN HOW TO
GET THOSE EMOTIONS BACK.. no one could help me..
so i had to find my own back to humanity.. and finally
i did that with connecting emotions to language through
poetry in remembering grief in songs and photos of my past
as copied and pasted in visual blog way.. and in reliving that
grief it finally sparked my Emotions back like a Tidal wave..
turning me into a bi-polar state of mind from the darkest
dark of emotion-less existence to waves of EmoTion
from a drought of hUman BeinG for 66 months..
and the first laugh around the beginning of
August in 2013.. yes.. the first laugh
in 66 months and the first emotion
felt smile was a heaven out of
hell for me then..
simply coming
from a joke
from the
new person
we got to cut
my hair then.. she
was a savior too.. of my
heARt.. SpiRit.. and SoUL then
too.. and the first and only tear
in that 66 month period was in
April 2013.. after a beloved
cat we had to put down
due to Kitty Aids..
the son of
Yellow
Boy
named Sunny
Boy.. and now
i can bring tears easily
as i know the value of them..
as that one tear brought strength
of emoTions in my body that could still
muscularly press 500LBS then but
felt so weak inside
as EmoTions
are what
give uS
strength..
not the form
by itself of strength
of what we see on the outside
and this is why my 94 year old
crippled great aunt Jettie at this point
in my life at age 47 was infinitely
stronger than i.. without EmoTions
as i barely had the energy to
speak.. exhausted after
a few words..
so anyway..
dance was the next
step to regulate my new
found emotions and integrate
the senses of my new found bodily
strength.. from head to toe and how
i radiated this emoTioNal and sensory
energy to others through outward spiRit
eXpreSSinG energy in non-verbal ways and
other ways that science is yet to measure
that we humans can sense who experience..
it.. however.. as i know and feel now..
there are many who cannot as
both disuse of the emotional
intelligence of human
beings.. in physical
way too.. from head
to toe.. can wither
away emotions and empathy
to almost non-existent.. and of
course successful first responders..
surgeons.. law-forcement.. etc.. must
have excellent control over their
emotions and senses otherwise
they will not survive..
and interestingly modern
science shows the criminal
element of psychopathy has
the ability to feel emotions
and empathy fully like a faucet that
can be turned off and on.. but in my
mind those are not the real full psychopaths
who can only feel pleasure at someone’s pain..
as horrifyingly from first hand experience that
is no longer a part of my life.. it is a real deal
and beyond horrifying.. both to potential perpetrator
of all types of crime violent or not.. and or manipulation
of others who are white collar crime folks who are of the
higher IQ type of psychopaths with high
emotional intelligence.. and ability
to turn the emotions and empathy
off or on.. by will..
the moral code is
what sets folks apart..
and to pooh pooh the value
of all religions in modifying
potential dangerous and criminal
behavior of human beings.. is a distinct
and dangerous mistake.. as even science shows
now that otherwise psychopaths through structural
disorders in their brain can become successful law
abiding and folks with moral character if taught
this from birth with love no different
than the education of school..
so yeah.. take the
good book learning
away and potential
harm grows and of course
even in the clergy.. science
shows that is one of the top ten
jobs where psychopathic leaning folks
land jobs.. and certainly their upbringing
in church is what kept ’em at least in part
out of real criminal associated trouble..
and they are simply fearless and
smart enough to stand before
a crowd of folks and
speak freely
and coherently..
the lesson of the
day as it were and still
is today.. and what i feel would
be helpful to both boys and girls in school
is free style dance in martial arts ways for
girls to develop their masculine qualities of
fearless strength and will and ballet-like free style
dance now for boys.. to both expand their emotional
feelings of experience throughout a body of motion..
and to regulate more aggressive associated emoTions
too.. to limit potential negative action and
consequences upon both themselves and others..
sadly.. polarized gender role expectations
makes this almost impossible
in heavily influenced
patriarchal leaning
red state areas..
that are of
course homophobic
to the max from a
so-called part of a good
book that is not good at all
as that is one of many dark parts
of religion too.. in ways of hate now
and illusory fears.. so there is a long
way up for humanity.. but truly many ways
to get there for many folks who might not
otherwise have hope.. if they can just lose
their fears and get the job done on a path
that will work for them..
’cause once
you’ve been
to hell.. trust
me.. you will appreciate
being an Earth Angel again..
oh yeah.. and for people who pooh pooh
the value of selfies that is total bull shit
as it is just another way of bio-feedback to
master and regulate human emotion through
the nonverbal language of facial
expressions and in the online
world of autism communities
folks with so-called
higher functioning
autism who are
more likely
to have problems
with non-verbal
language are using
this as an advantage
for personal therapy
in gaining a greater
emotional intelligence
and even with more severe types
of autism therapists are finding
great effective results using both
music and movement therapy to increase
the connection of language.. both verbal
and non-verbal with emotions and greater
all natural propensity to interact
with other folks
as sparking
the Emotional
life of human being
in pro-social ways
is what makes us strong
in social cooperation and is
why.. DUH.. WHY OUR FUCKING PRIMITIVE
ANCESTORS NAMELY MY INDIAN ANCESTORS
WHO WERE NAMED AS SAVAGES FOR DANCING
NAKED TOGETHER AROUND CAMPFIRES HAD MUCH
GREATER EMOTIONAL INTELLIGENCE AND COULD
KICK ASS IN ANY ONE TO ONE FIGHT WITH A SO-CALLED
WHITE WARRIOR WHO WALKED IN STRAIGHT BRITISH LINES
OF MILITARY BATTLE.. PER THE GENTLEMAN WAY AWAY
FROM THE WILD OF WILL AND STRENGTH..
yes.. the kind of IQ you get in school..
might make ya money.. BUT IT WILL
never IF yoU seeK iN GoD WITHIN
yes.. FucKinG WIThIN
save your
HeARt.. SpiRit
SoUL.. that are the
true life saving intelligences
of both the individual human
being and the race as
whole on a global
basis now..
so when
they say
DancE And SonG
in ExpRESSinG
EmoTioNaL SpiRit
HeARt and SoUL..
WiLL save the world
the Rock and Rollers understand
God better than most religions
and science will ever do
in the
tRue Art
iN liGht of hUman
BeinG and to put this
into words has been one
of the hardest tasks assigned
by the God of Innate Intuitive
Instinctual Nature real to me..
but worth it as the paths and
journey to help others attain
heaven now like i’ve
REALLY JUST DONE..
NOW.. COME
TO FRUITION..
IN HELPING OTHERS..
SURE.. it can’t
be said enough
when
a REAL
SPIrIT.. SOuL..
AND HeART
iS AT
STAKE
oF
ART..
And if you are wondering
how i do all of this..
i am an au·to·di·dact
from HeLL noW iN Heaven
who reads 10 to 15 times
faster than the average
human being and types as
fast as A Keyboard allowS
somewhere up to 130 words
a minute or so..
the volume of
information
i consume in both
Google text and
youTube Video way
as well as I generate
is beyond the fathom
of most minds of this
human era .. but again..
i am motivated from
a place of REAL
HELL.. THAT
MOST PEOPLE
CAN NEITHER
FATHOM EITHER..
THANKS
GOD FOR
THAT TOO..
and the closet analogy
to who i am now.. is probably
that new movie named ‘Lucy’..
as my mind and body balance
continues to grow at an
exponential rate to the
point that truly
no one
can catch
up to me now..
as far i know now
and have experienced
in all i do.. but again
as stated before that is
the mission assigned by
God in another intelligence
well beyond the fathom
of perhaps any
human
anywhere..
any day..
but i do not
kNow the answer
to that as i am
not all humans
yET.. who have
ever lived..
and the last
line was iS..
tongue
iN
cheek..
per the Movie
‘Lucy’ if ya
ever actually
see it more
than here..
hehe..
And as side note
here goes on.. last
night at the gym.. i take
a white towel.. and i use that
towel as a ballet-like tool to
butterfly my way twirling around
the iron of Nautilus machines..
as it Will impact my fLight
per weight of towel.. i ask
her iF iT’s bigger and
she says.. it’s just
different..
and i say..
okay.. next now
someone asks me
what’s wrong with
you i’m gonna say
the girl at the
gym said
iT’s
juSt
diffeRent
thaT’S aLL..;)

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Well.. iF ya look closely..
‘this’ iS my “Metaphors Be
With You Shirt”.. noW aND
that’S trUe hUman NoW iN
MetaphorsE iN wayS noW
of Sign language.. developed
in all visual abstract constructs..
whether as labels for so-called
concrete objects.. including we
humans.. And our figurative behavior
of emoTioNs in figurative metaphors
as well.. thAT CAN be either
FOR US
OR AGAINST US noW..
wITh some folks free to
go beyond the barriers
of fences constructed by
other humans in life or those
who succumb to illusory fears
generated by metaphors of symbols
ranging from words to horned pan
devils and such as that.. where
timid humans never develop
their much fuller human
potentials as progress
is halted by the
more conservative
closed minded folks
among us.. and ha!
there are those who believe
the magic of liFe in the belief
itself as human emotion is sorcery
per both black and white magic as
metaphor for Ted Bundy Shape Shifters
to murder young women.. to super hero
soldiers who save Liberty and Freedom
and Justice for all in Paul Revere waY iN
GIVE ME LIBERTY OR GIVE ME DEATH..
well.. ya see.. P!nk in her video FIRE speaks
to this.. in occult ways.. yeS.. it’s true..
folks in Hollywood practice occult
rituals to increase the Placebo
effect of human potential
and yes.. they use
what is described
as Sex MaGicK
in occult way
too.. but
seriously.. the essence
of what works is human
sensuality through changes
in neurochemicals and neurohormones
motivate us to be more creative and socially
cooperative.. and the action.. consequence of that
is positive over negative.. and those who lose all
illusory fears will succeed in whatever endeavor
they enter into whether in metaphor of black
or white magic.. per negative actions
that harm others.. potentially..
or positive actions that result
in positive outcomes for
most everyone as wHole..
but here’s the thing.. the
essence of Human Nature
iN Human potential in alignment
WiTH the Interdependent.. Interconnecting
Relationship of allthatis aka God is as real
if one calls iT blue as it is red or green.. the metaphors
just house the vehicles and vessels of trUth to liGht essence from
black to white to shades of grey and all the concrete labels
of the birds.. dragon flies.. and plants that my sister..
who is a lot like Ms. Jane Hathaway if you
remember that bird nerd.. who my sister
freely identifies with proudly as someone
diagnosed with the super IQ form
of Asperger’s syndrome too.. who
can tale ya every label for most
every living thing in Nature..
as that is HER SPECIAL
INTEREST.. and she captured
a Kite Swallow Tail bird today..
one of the most beautiful
members of the Hawk family
with her three grand or so digital
camera that will blow anything i take
with my iPhone 6s in quality but yes..
it weighs a ton and one cannot pull it
out of a pocket like drawing a gun in
a gun fight to point and shoot.. before
the target moves out of sight.. my advantage
too.. iS moving in 360 degrees in my own Kite
way of mastering my physical environment
and sensory integration.. in capturing
Nature in Smartphone/Fred way..
Well.. okay.. back to the occult..
the most famous occultist
in history by far in terms
of Hollywood practice..
is Aleister Crowley..
of last Century.. definitely
one with psychopathic checklist
symptoms as he tortured small animals
as a child.. and didn’t have a whole lot of
sympathy for those who got in his way..
in what his exploration was to increase
human potential in both he and others..
yes.. in total effect and lack of affect..
he was a lot like Steve Jobs..
in genius way too..
and yes.. the Beatles
and Led Zeppelin and many
other Rocks Stars.. including
Jim Morrison.. and even Sting
were highly influenced by this man..
and yes.. stars like JZ.. Beyonce..
etc.. in believing in a much higher
human potential than what was censored
out of the good book as iS in terms of Bible..
where human potential in all these ways.. particularly
the naturally lusty propensity of human beings iS sTilL
repressed and oppressed.. leading to much
lower potential in human creativity..
social cooperation.. and even
productivity.. as whole..
but no worries.. in the
western free world
as Porn HaS totally
taken care of this..
just finger tips away..
and most anyone who says
they do not peruse it.. is lying
through their fingers.. hands..
etc.. as iT iS juSt hUman NatUre..
as yes.. NaturAlly gifted by God and
only something that has been held back
by the so-called Victorian age before Vicky’s
secret came out in the heat of below and above
same… As given freedom.. women.. can be even more
sexually charged than men.. demanding it in bootie
dances as one sees free on dance floors today..
vs.. girls who waited like wallflowers all innocent
and such on the sidelines of life.. BUT.. SOME
FOLKS ARE NATURALLY LESS
SEXUALLY CHARGED.. CREATIVE..
PRODUCTIVE.. AS THAT ALL FITS
TOGETHER BELOW ABOVE..
INSIDE AND OUTSIDE..
ALL AROUND..
AND that is why in
a truly free country like the
USA.. there must be room for
both sides now and all the shades
of grey in true liberty.. freedom.. and
justice foR All hUman beings
to express more or less
of hUman potenTial and
that heaven is herE noW
for those who Master liFe
through relative free will..
and there are no longer any fences..
that i care to go through or so-called
dark but legal fantasies that i do NOT
explore fully without harming anyone
else but those who would like to say
in books.. others symbols.. and such..
including words.. no Fred.. you cannot
go past that fence.. you will be held
accountable for what it says in our book..
Well.. folks.. i have read many books.. and i for
one kNow and FeeL 100% that God does not
discriminate when it comes to God manifest in
us to find Peace.. and Pleasure in ways of
Unconditional Fearless White Magic Love..
and while the Ted Bundy effect has no
impact on me.. as i know what
makes Ted Bundy Fundies tick..
’cause i’ve been to
a similar place too..
folks like Aleister Crowley
do not scare me at all as all they
have is metaphors.. and no matter
how complicated human signs get..
in symbol and idol way.. THE GOD OF
NATURE ALL ONE OWNS FREEDOM..
AND LIBERTY AS MANIFEST FREELY
IN US.. AND WHEN ITS UNCONDITIONAL
LOVE AND IT FEELS GOOD THERE CAN
BE NO EVIL IN THAT AS LONG AS IT HARMS
NO ONE.. WITH INTENT.. AND IS DONE IN A WAY
WHERE OTHER FOLKS DON’T HAVE TO TURN IT ON
OR CAN TURN IT OFF.. AND the trUth and liGhT iS..
metaphors as attached to powerful human emotions
and senses associated with sensuality.. and the
human archetypes of the collective
genetic subconscious that impacts
us both through our genetic history
and our life experiences now are
powerful devices to increase the
real emotional and sensory
powers of human being..
in Quantum Mind and
body ways.. unleashed
and released that no human
has adequate metaphors yet to
describe.. but there IS A road there
through human language and other
metaphors that as a synergy of social
cooperation of human beings.. the Chalice
we raise to God IS A Temple of God Manifest
aS US iN mini selFie mE waY.. iT’s A Confident
FeeLing.. truly.. when you raise your armS noW
as the CHALICE OF GOD.. AND KNOW noW..
FEEL.. AND SENSE YOU ARE A MASTERPIECE
OF ART MORE VALUABLE THAN ANY PIECE
OF GOLDEN
CALF.. OR BIBLE
IDOlS WORD SYMBOL…
N O W LIGHT TRUTH
FREEDOM AND VALUE
iT iS TO KnOW WE ARE
THE NAKED FLESH AS PaRT
oF the Living God allthatis.. yes..
inside.. outside.. above.. so below..
and all around.. and truly it pained
me much not to be able to express..
my entire naked temple of God here..
but hey.. it’s the law and i give Caesar
what is ‘his’.. whether that means i have
to wear clothes or pay taxes or now DO
AS community standards dictate iT.. to be pArt
of the wHolE
human pie..
but sUre wHere
1st amendment rights
of the United States rule..
and there are open minded
Corporations like Google who
truly believe in the rights of human
beings as part of this country to fully
express what and who they are from
head to toe.. tHeRe are places wHeRe
folks can go online.. wherE the repressed..
oppressed.. and just plain vanilla.. not born
sensually charged can go to cover up too..
and generally speaking that is everywhere
for them.. and few places for trUly fRee fully
FReED folks like i.. but the world is changing
and the intoxication of Freedom iS
the drink
of God
free iN US/wE noW..
who have the desire
to be more fully free
and comfortable in our
own skin of God in however
the art of that comeS now..
And sUre.. theRe IS A Song
for this appropriate for the
coMinG Memorial Day
celebration for Rosie
the Riveteer PiNK
too.. as she INviTes
uS to raise our glasses
and be free.. truly the best
thanks to give iS to the those whose
blood and bones we stand upon noW
who allow us this great Freedom of
Expression in the U. S. oF A.. so
yeah.. whenever yA see.. naked
Miley’s.. Britney’s.. Rihanna’s trUth
such as THAT.. they are the liGht
oF HUman Chalice and Glass
iN God Given Freedom sET
and raised uP as Naked
God iN/aS uS WiLL Love
to do without human illusory
fears fostered by chains on
God in books large and small
of God iMpriSONed iN hUman mAde HeLLs..
OH.. by a way.. i had to travel all the
way to Bagdad to get this metaphor selfie photo..;)

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And.. God.. yeS noW as thE
Selfie Hit FredNoW
ParAde continues..
Martial Arts and
Ballet-like dance
IS A best way
to increase thE
metaphorSE
poTenTiaL
as i
iN Kite
hEiGhts
oF Egyptian
Mythology to
enhance the
EmoTioNal
and hUman
SeNsory poWer
oF juST thAT from
Head to toe.. to
aLL A RoundNoWoN..
And hell no.. iT’s nOthing
new.. folks have been raiSinG
conscious mind and body balance
oF SoUL awareness through all forms
of ecstatic dance from all nows memorial
but true when only footloose IS A freewayNOW..:)

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SMiLes.. with due respect
to EMiLy D..the best stuff
in life is free.. oh but so much
farther out of a book.. iF one
can find WinGs of SeeD
born in Happy Feat..
SMiLes aGaiN..
ImaGiNation iS mY
playgRound.. reaDinG
iS mY insPiRaTioN..
DancE iS thE
energy that
SinGS the
aLL SeeinG
eYe as pArt
oF i.. And then
the Lord said make
iT aLL sacred and
Holy jUst like Dance
and poEtry and aLL WiLL
be YoUr FriEnD from head to
toe to grains of sand of mountains
hOld above.. Valleys green.. and even
black hole rain of sOuL as boost to UP..
when one finds every Number as UniVersE
and every letter as natural poeTry.. duSt as
US in liFE as sAMe.. tHeRe iS no wHeRe but
uP and Up iN MindFuLL awareness oF NoW..
tHe only reaLiST pLace oF aLL in heAven’s
piLLoW i cloUds sKeYes AzuRe gOld
iN i..
noW..
anyWay..
paths never
stop branching
out and the journey
iS aLwaYs noW.. BooGiE
Wonderland iSRaeL and this
place ain’t HeLL for mE anymore..
as even though New Jerusalem can
kinda suck when ya feel the stress of the
helLions all around ya.. jUSt Dance juSt dAnce
as GoD WiLL SmiLe iN leGs oF Happy Feet uP
WiTh Gloria
noW
breatHe oF
i iS So flY aS GOlden
SpiRAls WiLL bE NOW..
and the fAct iS giVen aLL
possibilities i AM aWarE oF
iN UniVerse noW i would be
no wHere and no one different
than i iF given the opportunity
to do iT aLL oVer aGain.. and
i woULd do iT aGain.. aS now
the ultimate achievement
iS moving from
heLL to
HeaVen
iN juSt
oNE
noW
aLiVeFReED..
but the greAtest
luxurY iS NoWinG
i could die noW
and that
jUst
makes
HeavenoW
taste that much
better noW mY
FriEnd.. when iT
aLL makes FucKinG
sense as deep and hiGh
as soUl can go aliVenoW..
And iS iT noW nO WoNder
that folks who enslave others now
have hidden the tRuth that Heaven
requires no money at all.. no iT iS noT
as iF “THEY” kNew theRe would bE no reason
to buy anything but food.. water.. and shelter
from
HELL..
And of course
DancE And SinG
Naked and free hOlding
thE hand of God in each
otHeR FReED.. anyWay2..
i’M gonna keep doin’ Heaven
’cause i JuSt can.. bottom line..
and if no one wants to join me..
i WiLL not make them as they
can continue to live in prison
as sure it’S tHeir freedom..
theiRs of choice
as not so
WeLL..
@ALL. AH..
Dead.. Ashes to
dUsT..DuSt to Fire
i RisE aGain from
FLumes oF lies..
And as side note here.. PRoLoNG..
you kNow.. liFe is so FucKinG noW
strange gigoid.. at the start THEN
of Sjogren’s syndrome before
my eYes quit making tears
back in the FaLL oF
2006.. wondering
why when i touched
anything with my
feet it felt
like needles
in the bottom bones
of my feet.. where anything
i touched with feet was beyond
belief of pain.. funny how the
Trigeminal Neuralgia kind of
made me forget about
that pain and
about the
Fibromyalgia
too.. and sure the
arthritis in my spine..
Carpal tunnel syndrome..
etc.. etc.. but watching that
Movie back then.. yes.. Happy
Feet.. it was the strangest dam thing..
somehow someway i knew then i would
become that Penguin even though i could
not touch the floor underneath the seats
in the movie theater with my feet.. Jesus..
i aM that PenguiN NoW
and by
God
that’s
enough..
beyond BELIEF
AND MAGIC ISREAL
AS BY GOD HELL FEET ONE
TURNED INTO HAPPY FEAT TWO..
and now i kNow wHat the purpose of the
Tree of LiFe iS noW to gRow deepest roots
oF aLL
Ocean noW..:)

penniewoodfall resPonds
with this and i quote
her.. quoting
me and
someone
else..
more
or less
sAMe..

‘breatHe oF
i iS So flY aS GOlden
SpiRAls WiLL bE NOW’

“the habit of thinking only
of horizontal and vertical movements
often prevents us from experiencing
the spiral one

spiral movements
are LONGER in TIME
and WIDER in Space
than vertical and horizontal ones
applied to the breathe

this is the image to employ while breathing
it facilitates the exit and entrance of air

until it tumbles over the sides
and falls down
like a rain of light”

Sandra Sabatini..;)

i say..

penniewoodfall
You are a TreAsurE..

And then i say..

ps..
Pain is
Fear exiting
The body.. Also
kNown as Kundalini
riSinG and hA! Funny
How physicians noW and
Yogis can reduce thAT greAT
Inner UniVerse experiencE noW
To jUst 7 or so pArtS iN LaBeL
ReAcTioN.. WeLL poeTry iS every
gOdAm goDsubAtomicString RAng iN
pAint and NoW SinGs and DanCes
iN BList And HeLL oH! GoD yeS2..
YeS tHiS iS morE tHan A FuCKinG
HeaD and BreAtHinG GamE noW.
THiS IS A FKinG tHinG noW
PerioD oR A
eRa/AeOn..
siriUs..
noW LiKe
A DoGoD
sTaRry
StarrY
niGht
oF aLL
heaVenoW
aGaiNoWoN..:)

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Hmm.. seeing the date of the Happy Feet
Penguin movie as noted on Wiki..
actually i saw the movie
in 2006.. the fall
of that year..
and now i remember
that the first colors that i could
not bear with my eYes actually
started well before that pain
of feet at the beginning of
2006.. so yeah.. not
just 66 months of
extreme suffering..
actually over 8 years
of intense suffering overall..
and truly the strangest part oF
aLL was when i could longer stand
colors.. and no longer stand music..
and finally not even stand words as spoken
on the radio.. in around that period of now in
2006.. before Hell went full blown.. and in an attempt
to describe how i felt inside.. words will never do it.. but
visual arts in non-verbal language when a human beinG noW
has forgotten what a smile is or laugh in terms of FeeLinG And
or expreSSinG hUman spiRit.. the video “Illusion” as accompanying
VNV Nation’s Illusion song does the bLack of death in liFe juStice..
and existence outside of existence real in a place of machine
pArts begging to regain the flesh and blood of FeeLinG..
not just breathing.. and pain.. and pain and breathing..
always now in never ending ground hog.. yes.. Aghogday..
another ground hog day.. anyway.. the polar opposite
is my life now.. as i feel energy of EmoTioNs and
SeNseS in ever cell shining of my Body.. zero
pain when not sore from a Marathon
of dance.. and an energy
that i can actuALLy feel
radiating from me
in those
Spirits of Angel
energy presentations
that are pure energy without
form at all.. in liGht of hUman
BEinG.. anyway.. i celebrate life
and attempt to expReSS what i’ve
been through.. so.. someone listening
somewhere in the future through what i do..
NoW miGht gain hope that tHeRe iS A way out
and suicide really isn’t the answer although
i surely hoped it was.. during the suicide
disease of that type Two Trigeminal
Neuralgia from wake to sleep at
beyond eXXtreme levels
of pain for 66 months..
but when it comes to
empathic FeeLinGs of
conNecTinG iN MoVinG
CreaTinG ways.. tHeRe are
certainly ways to exercise this
Love Muscle like Insurance for
another heArt Day noW.. WitH
spiRit ExpreSSinG A BaLanCinG
MiNd and BoDy SoUL.. it’sREAL..
It’s now and anything iS trUly
possible iF ya jUst don’t
give uP.. if i had given
uP.. i would never
have got to
experience noW
heaVen and surELy
thAT would have been
a shAMe oF HeLL here on Earth..
same as polar opposite pLace oF Heaven
here on Earth too.. REAL.. A PLACE INSIDE
THAT NEVER ENDS.. WITH ZERO MATERIAL NEED..:)

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WeLL.. i muSt say.. I LovE ThE LoVinG Eagles and i had
a great night.. and yes.. i NoW like sleeping
iN the desert.. or aT least DanCinG
oN the Sand iN my back
yard and MaKinG
Love to the
sun of i..
aka God
within.. and yes
how i saY it.. from
inside to outside.. above..
so below and aLL’A’Round..
what else.. i don’t really care
iF Las Vegas.. lives forever..
butt i do Love to Dance
freeSt style on
Biloxi
Casino
Beaches.. what else..
i just let it go like the
froZen Princess and
Madonna does.. then too..
and hmm.. stream of consciousness
wRiting.. IS A Great River pLace to Be..
in Memorial of the Freedoms of the GreAt
U.S. oF A.. and of course all the folks
who have died for the unalienable
right even for ET’s liKe me.. for
Life.. Liberty.. and the Pursuit
oF Happiness.. which yes..
can sTiLL be achieved
in thiS great country
noW aND yeS oh
MaGiC iS now
juSt noW ah
ReaLiNoW
and i do
do that
noW
to
01
..:)

7997

Facebook FriEnd Mary F..
shares a heARt fELt
status that perhaps
she could use
some
couseling
and i say..

i feeL liKe thAT soMe noWs
aNd fiNd My beSt theraPist
iS
mY feeT
iN fLight..
wITh SonG
oF COUrse
accompanYinGliGht..
serioUsly.. i FeeL yOur
soUl.. coMe dAnce WitH
mE aT SeViLLe anD i WiLL
sHow yA mY waY foR
YoUR frEe waY
tHere aNy
ThurSday niGht
wHeRe i neVer reFuse
A reQuest To DancE..
mY ARTFUL FriEnd..:)

8074

i doN’t have any stigma
or fears or WTF toward
mental illness as i have
explored iT personAlly
in full disability oF dARk..
noW and also described
as mental illness in the liGht
of perseverance on what some
folks miGht think is insane in
terms of religiosity.. sensuality..
and overall life.. hmm… kinda like
Red hot instead of Luke Warm WiTH
God in two spiRit MiNd and BoDy BaLanCinG
way.. and thE truth iS.. iF it were not for political
pull THEN.. of an esteemed political person who
is a relative when i am young at 21.. the drugs they
were giving me then for a Condition of Asperger’s
mixed with a very strange manic episode that could
NOT BE diagnosed then.. WERE USELESS oh and
almost made me F iN reALLy lose mY mind.. way back
iN ’81.. and they basically just said.. sorry we can’t help
yA WitH tHeir hands up and said.. Fred there is nothing we
can do for you.. no different than what the Rheumatologist
said shortly after he said Fred you are wired different and there
is nothing more we can do for your pain.. sending me away then with
a paper highlighting the Dysautonomia.. Fibromyalgia.. Sjogren’s
Syndrome.. and later diagnosed Atypical Trigeminal Neuralgia termed
noW as Atypical Fascial pain too.. from wake to sleep for 66 months..
the degenerative arthritis.. Spinal Stenosis.. congenitally fused
vetebra and all of that2.. yeah.. i know i have already talked
to thAT in this 671st verse of the longest poem
in history now.. but it also stands alone in
this ‘tiny’ micro verse of 671 Verse
wHoLE.. which is also a symptom
of Bi-Polar noW aNd yES.. oH..
God yeS.. Asperger’s syndrome
intense focus on one thing
per poeTry and now
over 5400 miles
of dance in just
33 months.. go go..
everywhere i go noW in
public.. and yes.. nude
art online for a 55 year
old dude.. is not exactly the
norm in the world today..
particularly.. if one
is only
hot for
the Ladies
as it were and
sTiLL iS for me..
okay.. i cannot deny either
of those two existing diagnoses
that keep me in the realm of the
so-called permanently disabled and
i cannot deny if i was put into the same
job i had before.. that i am at regular retirement
age now for.. anyway.. that i could do that now
any easier than before.. without falling
dead after a short while..
as i am simply
not able
to carry
on with a thousand
or so responsibilities
at one now.. in FAct NoW
out of Love my Wife Katrina
takes care of ALL THOSE SO-CALLED
MINOR Details of a so-called house wife
hunter and gather now.. oh yeah.. and Katrina
is Permanently disabled too.. with complex partial
seizures.. up to 5 times a week or so.. where she
cannot hardly function at all after the seizures and
will now.. some times.. thank God so far.. only fall down
slowly to the floor and in NOT one hard
head hurting fall.. and that has only
happened two times so far with now
only one Grand Mal Life threatening
seizure in labor with our son who
did not make it but for 51 days..
and yes.. as far as demon looking
possession goes the literal fAct iN
art is THAT is what a partial complex
seizure looks like in terms of facial expressions..
and the truth is.. both of us back in bible days..
then would have been strung up and or burned to the burning
stake for being different.. funny.. how invisible disabilities
can look until they are expressed or rarely expressed at
all in terms of outward behavior.. and Jesus F iN Christ..
i modeled others standing still to the best of my ability
‘tiLL i exploded with dance at age 53.. and finaLLy got
the whole thing balanced enough with SonG and
DancE iN steps of peace to find mInd and
Body Balance soUL wELL enough noW as
what i term Heaven iN noW..
@least for mE noW..
anyway.. it’s kinda
kool that my wife and i
have accomplished what we
have as basicAlly a couple of
rejects for what they call society
today.. but hey.. i know a secret too..
back in the primitive days.. folks noW
like us were actually put on a pedestal
and praised for our oh so ‘special’ abilities
as they were treasured then.. as the mysteries
of liFe come aLive in what is basically viewed as
Extra Terrestrial humans.. Robin Williams as it were
and sTiLL Jim Carrey’s and others today.. who entertain
instead of pushing keys in offices without free air.. i Love
to bRinG folks uP as i was perhaps in one of the LoWest
HeLLs ever for what we term as an animal on Earth..
or who knows.. perhaps any other planEt too..
as we likely share the same general
characteristics throughout the
UniVerse too.. as liFE
WiLL BrInG uS
ET’s aLiVe
wherever
wE find a way
to thrive and flourish
in a side niche.. where
most no one kNowS noW so KooL
wE Exist.. and theRe is zero doubt
in my mind that the Buddha.. the Jesus
and many others who would not kill or hurt
a fly.. have our so-called weird conditions
too and sorry.. i cannot say that for any
head hunter dudes no matter
how much good stuff
they copy
out of the
Good Book trUe oF liGht
iN lIFe noW they are the
scourge oF God’s NaturE noW
as they KiLL other pARts of
God’s Nature based on lies
of imaginations in books..
God WiLL noT Kill God for
no F iN Reason unless
God iS trUly insane
like.. ‘head hunters’
‘over tHere’ and here..
who trUly
as the Jesus
says kNow not what
the FucK THEY StiLL DO
iN DEViL’S DREAMS COME
REAL IN TERMS OF HUMAN
MISERY AND SUFFERING REAL
IN GOD’S EyES OF HuMAN
ONE AND SamE.. EITHER
InSANE IN KILLiNG
OR LOViNG
SENSUAL
NAKED
TOUCH OF
BONOBO FREE LOVE..
ANYWAY.. WE ARE WEIRD
WE ARE ALIVE.. AND EVEN IF
‘YOU’ ha! DO AWAY WITH US NOW.
THE TRUTH AND LIGHT WILL STAND
ONLINE AS LONG AS SEVERS SERVE US
UP.. YES.. me and Isis to Use one Egyptian
metaphor from way back when.. or Thot noW
or Mercury or Apollo.. whomevA Ya wanna
call the hUmans who stand out liKe
strange iCons of tHeir now.. iT iS
the SpiRit of God
in the young
disabled
boy
King Tut
around as disabled
as uS.. who is still remembered
in His Golden Nautilus shell
sTiLL noW.. and thiS iS
the first now
in history
that anyone
could upload
tHeir soUl even more
than ya kNow in perSon
online liKe this.. quiET amaZinG
what i and Isis have accomplished
as permanently so-called disabled
folks in ‘this world’.. tHeRe is no
commercial market
for trUe super
heroes
of SoUL
today.. but thaT iS
oKay as we mY friEnds
are oNly heRe to Offer aLL tHe
TrUth and liGht wE see and FeeL
and yes i am the egg head Osiris
member of the couple.. who
all the KinG’s Men
and h0rses could
not put togeTher
AgAiN.. iT took Team
LiGht to do that.. wiTh
sure.. lots of help from Isis..
as Isis alWays doES as Mother
oF my ‘little’ home hEar online..
Ha!.. i exist.. and therE is absolutely
nothing anyone can do to get rid of me
now.. or ha! even notice me.. unless they
truly chase the ‘tuition of my words deeper
than 99 percent of the general pop.. will do..
thAT pARt never changes.. iT reAlly
don’t yEt.. buTT tHeir
iS alWays room
for change
as long
as wE.. hehE..
and so many oThER
Team liGht members do exist
online in numbers of miLLioNs now
through recorded history in Google Search
way.. just adding a verse here to the UniVerse
oF multi-human way here on Earth.. sUre.. tHere
WiLL be less and likely more than tHiS from oTheRS2..
as tHere is no limit or expectations of i.. FoR wHerE noW
the eYes oF God iN hUmaNoW WiLL gO neXt away from dARk
And Jesus F iN Christ.. the thingie about Isis iS JuST a metaphor
no different
reAlly
than Jesus
F iN Christ..
have a nice noW..
we SureLy WiLL
heRe iN Heaven
where the foRest SinGs
DreAms of Pan and his Wife..
and sure.. all the nymphs of the
Forest in innocent meadoWed way..
as my 112th Dance oF PaN FReED iS cOminG
ThurSday Night and yeS iN all Politics and
even religion tHere aRe the Cat people and
Dog people too.. some of uS are in the ‘tween
of puppy dog tales.. and spice of kitty KaTs2..
and of core there are Jekyll’s and Hyde’s like
me and the Lilith and Angels oF mY WiFe too..
iT just
Depend on
what pARt of ‘OnE’
oF wHere you WiLL
FiNd uS to kinda quote
Richard Bach’s ‘other
Free Seagull book’
on thAT..noW
sUre.. i’Ve
seen both
sideS Now..
and thE Win
IS A mix of the
blUe and Red PiLLs
for the Greenest Tree oF LiFe
possible in terms of Blue Highs
and Red lows in hUman poTenTiaL noW..:)

9600

SAdly.. we live in a world now..
where humans have bEcOme
commodities and work
is no longer creating
and sharing a product
that is useful to folks
one can actually touch…
REAL problem.. as humans are
humans until they become machines
and break down.. of course.. as humans
WiLL who have FeeLinGS of course to sTARt
with to lose.. and of course.. a few do not have
that either through nurture or nature.. so in cold
heARted way.. And.. Oh God.. the government
disability process is like any Microsoft
project of nerds without heart..
as Steve Jobs might
complain about
Bill Gates
in no ArT liFe
cold mechanical
cognition robot way..
WitH no imagiNation..
arT bRinGs wHolenoW
aS logic without heARt
Brings chaos that has
no glue to get the miNd
oF EmoTioNs through now
for focus.. and iN short term
memory as executive functioning
with oil of sorts.. and the glUe oF iT…
anyWay.. the system is designed by lawyers
for lawyers.. and that’s the last place now wHere
someone with a disability needs to be to navigate..
Fortunately for me.. i was a lawyer more or less and
with 100 pages of documentation was approved the
first time like a breeze.. sAdly.. the system was not nearly
as efficient after that as i received three forms asking if
i was still getting workers comp.. when i never received
that at all.. and kept on having to fill the paper work out..
somehow with dentist drill in my right eye and ear never
ending from wake to sleep.. seriously.. i was already
intent on suicide for the first two years.. as those
were boot straps that not even JOB could pull
up then.. and that did just about put me over
the edge as you say Murphy says..
but some how i kicked Murphy
in the ass and he seriously
has just been wimpy
for the last
3 years..
no matter
what he attempts
to do in bits and bytes
hehe.. he ain’t got no teeth
no more for me.. i won the battle..
i won the war.. i AM ALIVE NOW KiCKING..
yeah.. so i’m at the gym tonight and a twenty
something muscular black military dude is now
really kicking ass pumping iron making some
gorilla sounds like me.. and i say.. man.. i like
this.. you are really working hard and he turns
around and says.. yeah.. man.. you are the one
who inspired me
to work out
like this..
Funny.. how
people can make
a difference without
even saying a God Dam
thing.. i AM.. ’cause i inspire
others.. and that’s all tHere is to iT
for NoW mY friend.. with words or steps
oF liVing liFe as aweSoMe as all our
functional disabilities as hUmans WiLL
allow.. and trUe.. as professionally
assessed in document way
by three professionals..
i am too disabled
to do a pay
for money
job sTiLL
yeS in
lifelong
way now..
but not too
disabled to help
save the world in
aLL our little ways.. mY
friEnd THAT DO ADD UP..
iN MORE NowTHAN JUST
BUTTERFLY iMPACT NOW
AS HuMANS HAVE HaNDS TO HoLD..:)

10,122

Yeah.. sure..
TRUST ME..
I’M A
NINJA..
sure.. it’s
just a myth.. but…

Hmm.. let’s see what Wiki has to
say all about this Legendary
Ninja stuff..

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ninja#Legendary_abilities

“Legendary abilities
Superhuman or supernatural powers were often associated
with the ninja. Some legends include flight, invisibility,
shapeshifting, the ability to “split” into multiple bodies,
the summoning of animals, and control over the five classical elements.
These fabulous notions have stemmed from popular imagination regarding
the ninja’s mysterious status, as well as romantic ideas found in later
Japanese art of the Edo period. Magical powers were sometimes rooted in
the ninja’s own efforts to disseminate fanciful information. For example,
Nakagawa Shoshujin, the 17th century founder of Nakagawa-ryū, claimed in
his own writings (Okufuji Monogatari) that he had the
ability to transform into birds and animals.[67]

Perceived control over the elements may be
grounded in real tactics, which were categorized
by association with forces of nature. For example,
the practice of starting fires in order to cover a
ninja’s trail falls under katon-no-jutsu (“fire techniques”).[94]

The ninja’s adaption of kites in espionage and warfare is another
subject of legends. Accounts exist of ninja being lifted into the air
by kites, where they flew over hostile terrain and descended into, or
dropped bombs on enemy territory.[75] Kites were indeed used in Japanese
warfare, but mostly for the purpose of sending messages and relaying signals.[98]
Turnbull suggests that kites lifting a man into midair might have been technically
feasible, but states that the use of kites to form a human “hang glider”
falls squarely in the realm of fantasy.[99]”

10,386

Oh God.. gotta keep the legend
going.. K and H and
all that circus
stuff
with
aghogday
and such..
through
loops
of real
fire..
okay..
so back
to DVerse
and SpeakinG oF TEAM
LIGHT BrinGinG Folks back
to liFe a little GAGA iN House
of FaLLinG Angels iS iN oRDer
of Chaos yET arT i FeeL..
so BrinG her and
aLL her
Ancient
and modern
SGT Pepper
Captain sAlt Friends
on too.. WiTh Eros
and Venus too..
he HE.. noW..
and remember
thiS iS jUst another
one of those Ninja thingies..
in multi-UniVerse LeGent way..:)

So yeah.. here’s to dVerse
and Farewell with
some wishes
of coming
back to
meet
again..
fickle we hUmans
can be.. he HE..;)

noW at 11:51 pm..
5252016..

Winter comes
back in dreams
of farewells come
mET aGaiNoW..
LovELy
eYes oF
SnoW
SinG
BacK
to LovE..
A Kiss oF SpRinG..:)

Best thing about never
worKing aGain.. FOR
FUCKING GOD DAM
MONEY.. is no
one has
to be
the Supervisor’s
FRiENd.. the administrator’s
Pal.. or the slave of several
bosses.. hehe.. i DancE.. i SinG
i SpRead Love.. no matter
whaT
i foR
oNE LOVE..:)

A WORLD without third
places away from work
and home.. iS certainly a
sad place.. a place for
distance instead
of moving..
connecting
creating
flesh and blood
and although
there are no
more BowLinG
AlleY’s.. a place then..
of close to two DecAdes
for me at work wHere
everyone kNew me as
the Bowling Alley man..
there is Dance and Cheers
of the same bar.. and even
Super-Walmart.. as i am the
fixture of the never ending
story noW of the Metro
FL Panhandle
Dance man
at Large..
and jUst
iMagine.. planting
a sMiLe on someone’s
face everywHere ya go..
as they jUst wait for the
neXt dance from the
watch of dance
man days..
And that my
friEnd.. is whY i do
not take online seriously..
iT never existed before
iN flesh and blood
and iT still
doesn’t
exist that
way for me
and never WiLL..
THANKS GOD..
i feel wHere
REAL HOME
iS.. but sure..
it’s a very fancy
piece of paper
to noW write
some pretty
noteS ON..
that WiLL
never
burn
iN
eaRTh
HeLLnow..
So.. alOnE..:)

oH.. YeaH
genetic STiLL
memory and aLL
oF thAT aS hUmans
have A long history
of enjoying sacRedrum
death oF eWe.. poor
Goats.. i rather
fancy liFe and do
Love to eat Leg of Lamb..
as long as i am not NoW
the one
to slice
the throat..
oh.. the dirty
worK oF liFe
and hAnds so
iVory tower cLean..;)

Oh.. God Grief is hard..
as an empatH oh God2..
FeeLinGs so sTronG i lEarned
to close off those FeeLinGs unTiL
oh.. God3 all the tears dried up in dry rain
too.. aH.. but now i kNow the reaSon
for those tears.. actually an
increase in dopamine
release.. a steady
decrease in
fuzzy warm
and soft oxytocin
human connection
and reduction in
trust of Serotonin
but then the nomad
of Dopamine increase
WiLL create iN arT anotHeR
tOuch oF Love.. and then the
warm and fuzzies will come
back and the trust and human
moving.. connecting.. creating
fuller feelings but the
tEar IS A
stream
that FiLLs
the much fuller
Ocean oF Love aGaiN..
AS rivers do flow and
tides
do ebb
on Ocean
shores oF eYes
oF sorRow and Love..
and oh God4.. poeTry
and DancE as WeLL
as SonG IS A great way
to work through and process
oh.. those so.. difficult trials
and tribulations of hUman EmoTioN
FReED… and as side benefit.. inteGraTioN
Of seNses iN MiNd and BoDy
Balance oF SoUL WiLL come
Greater2 iN heArt and
SpiRit ExPRESSinG
ways.. oh so tRuE..
noW iN liGht Now
and dArK oF LiFe..
NoW mY FrieND..:)

Shot gun home on river..
Train tracks a stone throw
away.. Locomotive shaKing
Foundation on concrete blocks
mIles away in whistles oF Loving
Relatives inside then..
and then that
whistle so
far in the
distance..
lost and so
hard trYing to
FiNd that soft
Love connection
of Youth in Work
dead soUl.. heArt..
and SpiRit then.. and
noW the Whistle once
aGaiN is HaPPy as i own
happy.. iT is the servant oF I
noW
totAlly
tRain Whistle
Free.. mY friend..
and good forTunes
to yA as WeLL aLL aBoard..:)

SMILes.. farewells
used to scare me
oh so deeP iN fEar..
and noW
all i kNow
iS Hello
NoW oN
as the sea
iS alWays
fULL oVe
REaL
HELLoS..
iF oNe says
HeLLo fiRst..:)

Ships that pass
in the life decades
never meeting.. i tried
i tried but pretty much
the only thing my dad told
me after leaving our family
when i was three.. mad that
my mother then wanted to
raise us more than making
money.. SO LONG ago.. iS
boy.. be a man.. perhaps
the military can make ya one..
and when our child was going
into heart surgery.. he said..
make sure you
raise him
like a boy..
before the
child died..
problem was..
my father never
lEarned to be a
man first by being
a woman.. my friend..
a lesson lEarned by
i oF diVine feminine
Love finAlly setting
the father in
the face
of mirror
me free from
reins of Father
who never sadly
reAlly became a man
as A REAL MAN WiLL
love no matter
what..
as Real
human MEN do..
without excuses
for what they are
afraid they are or
not themselves..
Human Nature is
easy to understand..
once the real fears do come out
to play in ways of liGht and dARk..:)

Love as
nigh iS die
never
forgeTs
Love..
LesSon
leARned
bY DYinG
iN liFe.. soon
enough.. SaVinG Love..:)

Perhaps.. the saddest
thing about retirement
or even children is
Lovers and
even friends
can become
sibling rivals..
i suppose humans
are made to miss the other more
than count on ever presence.. ah..
effervescence off miSSinG Love..:)

And now as side note here..
A farewell to Love is sadly
what is expected in some patriarchal
cultures.. particularly the deep south
i live in.. that is so dam homophobic..
if any male even attempts to act
soft in grace as a REAL
MAN NOT AFRAID
OF THE DIVINE
FEMININE
OF ANIMA
but i fight
that with half
a ton of kick
ass strength
in ballet
and it gives
me great pleasure
to scare the feminine
back into so called
macho head men..
TO gET
the real
strength
of the inner
anima.. and true..
it works the same
dam way in reverse for
a woman who thinks her
husband must speak for
her.. and accompany
her on every walk..
as the woman has
an inner
animus
of WiLL
iN SpiRit..
W i S d o M
Strength too..
if not repressed
by self or oppressed
by others in ways of
culture and or religion..
trUly.. the patriarchal cultures
are the place wHere there is the
most psychological suffering.. wHere
only half a man or half a woman are allowed
to exist as one soul.. in this liFe noW..
that is beyond
sad as that is
liVing
half a liFe
or half a UniVerse
aS innEr BeinG beYonD aLLnoW..:)

And wITh aLL that sAid
iT’s noW for bed..
5262016..
1:33 am..
be back later..:)

11:35 AM..
and now back
to Unintentional
Farewells that noW
are alWays dVerse-
like potential
Hellos to mE noW..;)

Memory dusts photos old
from Bars of liFe
third places
away from
home.. work
and yes from school..
wHere we lean into hug
each other and find support..
oh.. the days of third places
gone in text
of cold
but now
found as arms
iN Feat oF Dance..
at Least for me..
wHere there
is never
a stranger
iN joY.. i.. lost loves..
lost friends.. lost joys..
sMiles.. laughs.. and cries..
alWays potential for new paThs
neW DreAMs FruiTioNoW jourNey..:)

SMiLes.. i neVer say
goodbye.. as i kNow/
FeeL/SeNse.. thE trUth oF morE
InFiNiTy iN liGht foreVermorEnoW
Now.. ALL.. AH.. iS SEE yA LAtER WaY..
AnD yeS.. i SMiLeS And neVer
ends a story.. fiNish..
beGinS alWays
noW A StARt FoR Art.. DroP oF
waTerstreAMsRiVerOceaNwHole..:)

Letting go.. can be so difficult
until one realizes
tHere iS
no letting
go only reaL
stayYinG Now..
WitH but noT WitH
juSt wordS.. seNses
FeeLinG DanCinG NoW
SinGinG liFe WholE
anD thE Rest SnoWs
iN Flow unFroZen ZonE..:)

From the origin of the
Cycle aLL Of NowonE
continues thE
poinT oF
noW re..
tUrn iS see ya
laTer.. BlanKeT
oF Love all that iS
one God sAMe.. no separation
aLL.. ah.. oNE.. Namaste arE wE
and all of creaTionS oWoNe WitH
never enDinG SMiLes aT lEasT noW
whOseeHEarFeeLeYesheReNoWoNe..:)

sMiLes.. oh.. the
poor roach.. disGuSTinG
villain hero who never
dies @aLL in relative
human
terms
of 300 miLLioN
years or so and
his/her giant dragon
flY brethErensistEren
wHo sTill
flY uP
to SpEEDS
of 60 or so
miles an hour..
oh.. hUmans.. so foCused
oN.. foRm iNstead oF eVer esSeNce
oF GoD iN Roach and DragOn Fly FReED..
speedY spiNy leGs.. WinGs FlYinG hiGher
thaN hUman cOuch potaToes feeDinG
wE Long terM liVers..
aS juSt noW
anoTHeR sOURce
oF cocKroach
wHinE toasT..;)

Ah.. FeeLinG iN aLL thE wHoles oF
iMaginAtiOns DreAMs No liMits
oF wHere aLL thAT iS caN
Go t0 A next noW
heLLo oF bYes
thaT aRe
neVer tOld..
wHeReVer neveR
lAnd iS neveR eNdinG
storY oF no eXpectaTionS
noW oF Valley MounTain hiGh
LoW gRainS oF deSert sAnds WitH
mEmorY oF BeYond Eternity jUsT noW…:)

Lovers liVing
iN air SinG
sweet refrain
of Yesternows
SonG and DancE..:)

CLocK Of FarEweLL
hAnds oF noW
No longeR
eXisT aS
i..N0W
FloWinG
RiVerSUniVer
sAL NoW SonG
aNd DancE As SpiRaL
InG ForevernowmorE..:)

“Poetry is a form of literature that uses aesthetic and rhythmic[1][2][3] qualities of language—such as phonaesthetics, sound symbolism, and metre—to evoke meanings in addition to, or in place of, the prosaic ostensible meaning.”

-from the Wiki Poet Professors..;)

For the literal minds aT hAnd.. poeTry
left the scene in farewell of
long poem
forM iN
oRAl tradiTionS..
We live in a Twitter
world.. wHere of course
most everyone lives as
mechanical cognition
cogs in machineS
Of spoon-fed
instructions from
birth.. what was/iS once
dream time iNnateNoW
iNstinct and iNtuition LanGuaGe
iN SonG and DanCe too..
iS noW pAINT by number
words and steps.. aS most
aLL other hUman
symbols aS EX..
PRESsinG.
liFe iN
SpiRiT
heArT
soUL
essence
of whaT is much
more than contrived form
before hand as it were/iS iN liPs
of cold analytical thoughts that
do noT FloW iN ZoNe.. i Am
jUst here to tale ya friEnd
thaT yoUr poeTry iS more
poeTry than
Mr. B uP
tHere can
imaGine.. iN
my oPinIon..
as what you do
heRe takes tHeRe noW
iS iN more than concrete
pAint by number words
masquerading as rote
ways of real liFE mY friEnd..
and that mY friEnd iS why i’ve
written thE Technically longest long
form poem in the history of hUman
kInd of which my entire blog iS worKing
noW witH this too.. in the 671st macro
verse as Micro Verse here of Super Epic
PoEM FLoWinZonE.. i neVer lisTeN wheN
the Twitter
kNats
sAy
shuT
iT doWn
Fred.. nO.. i ain’T
averAge.. i’M awEsoMe
liKe thE God oF aLLthaTis..
’cause i can DO no more.. no less
than whAT
i Am with zero
chains of gNat
bytes under
moons that
never feel
fuLLer Sun
gloWS oF liVinG noW
WitH zero chains oF anyThanG..
Bottom LineS.. Stay AweSome mY
friEnd.. yoUr poeTry stands ouT
’cause you do more
than Twitter
kNats..
WiTh aLL
due respect
to iNsects as they
too are necessary
for the Balance of
Law and Order
wiTh wE
Free
i’s too..
In other words
‘that parenthetical
statement’ ‘uP theRe’
iS just other words for
i am too busy and your size
iS not worth my precious time..
WeLL.. FriEnd.. not everyone Feels thAT way..
O B
V i O
U S ly..
ANd soMe oF
wE arE fiNanciAlly
iNdepenDent aNd jUSt FLY..;)

SMiLes.. ha!
moNey hELd No
yiELd to mE oF noW
dreAMs iN SnoWy
North way foR A
bigGeR ciTy greateR
waY oF doLLar biLLs..
haX2!.. to leave thE
Paradise of North
Florida for money dreaMs..
no fool.. i.. as poor.. LoVes liKe
A KinG’s Tree oF
liFE nOW..
iN ParaDise
ReaL.. FriEnd.. Viv..;)

Oh.. Lord..
80 at 21..
104 at 47..
And noW
16 CloSinG
DanCinG oN
@56 on June
6th.. and no
wonder i Love
sixes born then
on 6660.. hehe..
but anyway.. HeArt..
SpiRiT.. and SoUL
aS InnEr FloW oF ZonE
iN Force iS essence oF ReaL..
wheRe Age iS juSt a cLock
of no real meaning
for those
who do sTay
iN PracTice oF
GRoWinG heARt..
SpiRit soUL aS younG
aT heARt anD i alWays
tale the ‘scientistS’ when they
scoff aT mY Zealous acTivE
beLieF iN thiS.. heY!
Baby! got
AN Internet and MOre..
liNkS thAT proveS
aLL i Say iN
hUman
ForM
as sUre
thAt refLects
too.. thE essence of wHat
iS tRuLy liGht aS iSRaELwE..:)

sMiLes.. aS iN
reaLITy evolved
sTiLL as such
humans are usuAlly
only comfortable in connecting
to 150 to 200 sets oF eYes aT oNe
era oF tHeir liFE.. the BlesSinGS
iN liFe are to connect
to as many Loves
as possible..
i for one
FeeL.. so
oF course
see ya laters..
are necessary..
but i never say
goodbye as i aLways
beliEve in more.. jUst
’cause i can.. and oh what
a gift the Hello of Can iS
mY
Friend
when REAL..:)

Interestingly.. some folks think in almost
only verbal ways.. and others navigate
the world in movie like visual world..
and ha!.. 11 million words only
precipitated as i.. per
loss of effective
sight and hearing
in pain disorder
starting iN November
of 2010.. before that iS
almost no writing for me..
and truly my visual memory
is so deep that i can play all
the siGhts.. and additionally
sounds.. and other senses
of encounters with
others in full
cinema
mind and
body balance
way.. and i can
even feel the hug
of a couple everywhere
i go.. as iF iT were they hugging
i.. i suppose that is why i have
never said goodbye.. with nowsOme
as i wish there were a way i could..
but i guess that is why i’Ve lEarned
to Love aLL thE dARk anD liGht
sAMe… as for me at lEAst
theRe is no farewells
inside oF
i.. and that
mY friEnd.. perhaps
explains wHere the
11 million words plus
now come from.. a River
that finally escaped out of
dam
of Inner
liFe.. oH thE
StreAM.. Oh tHe
River seT Free ouTside
as oCean wHolD skEyes..
trUly
whaT a relief
to FeeL that i am
not the only one stuck
in this prometheus/FrankenStein
bRain
noW..
my FriEnd..
aS ReALLy
FinaLLy LiVinG
FReED.. iN
noW froM
bonDaGE
inSide..
never
ending..
noWoutErE-scAPinG..:)

For me at least..
a life of Beta brain
wave being of solve
this problem now now
now.. of course most all
work related as rat race then..
but now i find
retired with
no more
rat race
worries..
the creativity
fLows freer close
to alpha.. and even
theta waves of MiNd iN
FloW ZoNe noW.. i suppose
tHeir IS A Science of Creativity
but of course a 1 step to 5 step
or whatever old crusty formula
WiLL noT work for no repeatable
HearT for mE at LEast FReED
FloW moVinG LeTTiNG
aLL the Tension iN
mY body go..
iN EmoTioNal
REgulation and
Sensory Integration
was the answer but
so hard iT was for me
to raise my arms to the
sky as a man in the homophobic
red state south.. but that is history..
now is free.. i can ballet and martial
arts all i like.. as the tire of wheel is FULL
tRead re-tired aGain.. anyWay.. yOur wordS noW
inpiRed aLL oF thiS.. so.. thank you FrIEnd..:)

Oh goodness.. thiS noW
reminds me of supervising
a crew of lifeguards as Athletic
Director of a Military Installation..
i didn’t go into that line of work
for potential liFE or Death
situations i miGht be
responsible
for..
but that
does come
wITh experience
i guess.. and so much
harder when you are
actually drowning in
whatever may come in LiFe..:)

SMiles.. i never truly
became a friend
until i became
a friend
of me..
and truly
i FeeL we muSt
all lEarn to bE
our own
mothers..
fathers..
sisters
and
brothers
too.. as everyone
needs this assistance..:)

It’s truly a sad statement
of humanity when we are
taught to feel shame for
what hurts us.. or for
who we are..
and i suppose
thaT is why i find
God aLLonE inside
uS and noW buT alone
never in buildings or books
that support human hurt noW
iN any hUman way oF FReED..:)

2:30 pm
@5262016..
ends the dVerse
poEtry for tHis
“BeYonD fence oF liGht”
671st Verse oF the Longest
Long Poem Form Poem Eva..
hmm.. Holy and Sacred
R and R duties ahead
for i FReED as
usUAl..
bE
bacK
laTEr
as promised
sAMe aS AlWays..;)

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So.. back to the gym.. and i am
warming up then with.. yEs.. not
unlike my Fredbun and Fredku style
of Japanese Haibun and Haiku poetry
yes.. i am doing
FreDfu.. my own
style of KunGfu
and truly both
are getting in touch
with the Force.. the Ki..
the Chi.. the Qi.. the Dao..
the UniVerSal Interconnecting
Interdependent relationship of
all thaT is that the A. Indians named
as the Great Spirit but in their own
form of language of course.. bottom
line.. without the essence of God fELt..
LiVed.. experienced whole.. one is more
separated from God than oNE sAME wHOlE..
and to bE crystal clear when i say FreDfu that does
not mean Fred FucK You.. in Layman’s termS noW
seriouSly it means Fred iF yoU sEEK
and there is the inG part for iN God
one and sAMe but seriouSly2 iT could
mean Infinite concrete and figurative
metaphors and Force of letters.. words
and any other symbols.. either seen.. felt
heard.. and all other hUman poTenTiaLs
in EmoTioNs and Senses of the beYond
oF juSt a three letter word
to chain God..
oh GOD so
Tribal
Instinct owned..
true.. it’s not easy to
get so much wisdom in
liFE and or be Jesus ’cause
other folks ain’t caught uP yET
to the larger views of TrUth and liGht
and in general not to be proud and just
be literal.. they are still in nursery school oF
God yet to be weaned from chains of cave men and
women holding
God back
iN them..
in PRiSon
of HuMans
whether Free
wHolE oNe and SamE
wIth and as pArt of God
integral.. yes.. holy whole
and sacred aLL thAt iS noW
as God NatUre trUe are wE
who SinG and Dance Free a
DancE and SonG WitH and
as God Holy wHole liKe KaTs
do in the hunt of liFE FReED..
So to come UniVerSal circle
noW here.. oh so.. FReED iN
FreDbun FredKu.. and
FreDfu style of BeinG
oNe WitH God..
back to the
gym..

where a rather
large young man
comes uP to me after
i have been warming uP
with FredFu.. and the thing
iS.. the Interconnecting Interdependent
relationship oF all that iS Aka knoWn as God
teaches mE everyaLL i do through the InnateNoW
Instinct and Intuition gifted through existence oF
God IN uS iN the never ending story cycle of the
end and beginning.. start and finish alWays noW
and never ending.. beginning.. starting or finishing
as alWays iS noW
noW aLL onE
home
ALLONE
FOR ALL WHO
EXIST NOW IN
ALL WAYS THAT
MOVES.. CONNECTS..
AND CO-CREATES AS WITH
GOD SamE noW.. yes.. even
online in abstract constructs that
are human symbols to approximatE noW
the essence oF aLL tHat iS too.. but
yes.. approximation as words are only
signs and guideposts to the essence of
what iS not only kNoWn in terms of
abstract concepts and symbols..
but also felt and sensed from
head to toe.. and beyond
generated as energy
of Chi/Ki/Dao/Qi..
yes etc.. etc..
HOLY SPIRIT..
KUNDALINI RISING
AND SHINING EVERYWHERE now
YA GO AND SUCH AS THAT ALL THATiS..
NOW.. JUST FucKinG yes iF yoU seeK iN
God
now
juSt i Say
juStiCe Now..
okay.. WeLL here’s
the thing about the Aikido that
the rather large young man suggested
i was doing in preparation for a fight of LiFe..
Hell no.. i ain’t gettin’ in no fiGhts.. i’ll just tale
the drunk young dudes at the bar.. when they intimate noW
in body language they wanna challenge me.. here noW my
friend.. see this dude in the video leg pressing a half
a ton 14 reps.. now 30 reps.. in way of YouTuBe
video of parallel leg press machine.. slowly
surely with his arms raised in the air..
with 88 seconds of the 14 reps..
in YouTube way and yA
can come to
the NAVY
STATION AND
WATCH ME DO iT
NOW FOR MORE THAN
3 MINUTES.. WHOLE LIKE
ONE OF THOSE DANCING
SONGS ON THE SEVILLE
SCREEN NOW.. JUST
IMAGINE THIS..
BRUCE LEE
WITH THE STRENGTH
OF THAT.. GET MY DRIFT
YOUNG BUCK FRIEND.. AND
that is the end of that as they scurry
away.. with soMe wonder of who the fuck
i really am noW.. as obviously ya don’t
do that at the Military Gym full of Molly
drugs that let ya float across the dance
floor in Tai Chi-like butterfly moves.. heHe..
Presence.. harmony.. creativity.. iN
moving.. connecting.. and creating
sAMe.. many more metaphors for the
Chi of martial arts.. but Aikido was
developed moreover as spiritual
moving mediation exercises to
develop Utopia and or Heaven
on eARth.. unfortunately
that pArt of Jesus’
message and
even Buddha
iF it existed at all
is left out and all there
is is sitting still meditation
or prayer.. basically more or less
cognitive behavioral therapy for putting
the good words out.. and eliminating stress
and worry.. problem is.. sitting still is one of the
most ill ways of being sTiLL.. as even science now shows
that sitting still for long periods of time is equal to smoking
a pack of F in cigarettes A day.. we primates from our free Loving
rarely aggressive or violent free sex loving Bi-Primate Bonobos..noW
are noT evolved to fight.. FucK no.. we are evolved to cooperate
in touchy FeeLY.. MoVinG.. coNnecTaRinG.. CreaTinG ways for the
successful hunt and gather of liFe in foraging for species
other than killing our FucKinG self off GOD in violent
warring head hunter stupid ass ways out of BaLanCinG
with the holy wHole of Nature too.. TaKInG more
from God than GiVing TO God.. DUH.. F iN COMMON
SENSE DICTATES.. F in Share and GiVe..Now
aWay FROM insane
F iN
interpretations
of voice in caves..
and such as that..
per people.. psychopathic
clergy/political leaning folks with
little feelings for their neighborS noW
in the Golden Rule of Jesus and Buddha..
TaKinG away the freedoms of Rock and
Roll and Sex too.. but honestly when
ya find the Chi.. Drugs are Now
child’s play
after
the free
adult all natural
Force of God iS NoW
assessed in all FeeLinG
greAT and healing wayS noW
and yes.. if necessary as defense
to kick psychopathic leaning harming
folks ass.. and yes.. although my feet
are not registered as deadly weapons with
law enforcement.. there is no doubt i could
kill a person easily with one swift FredFu kick
so no.. i will never get in a fight as i for one
ain’t gonna risk manslaughter FredFu
charges.. for kicking someone
yards away.. them hitting
their head on a bar
stool.. and
dying and
such as that..
i’ll just show ’em the
video.. that way they will
see the imaginary potential
consequence first before any
potential action from me is necessary
to resolve the issue of any aggression
and violence from them toward me
in self defense ways.. no..
i do not spar with
flesh,, i spar with
metal.. and my kicks
always come fractions
oF inches away from metal
as metal will potentially hurt
my toes.. so the discipline of practice
of the monkey never falling out of the tree
or hawk falling out of the sky is built in as
practice as all those consequences hurt..
and fighting and any contact sport
that is trauma to the human
body is just plain
FucKinG stupid..
AS IT INJURES YA
MORTAL BODY.. AND IN
A F iN Civilized world where
thugs are now hooked up fingeRing
oN cell phones.. seriously.. if yA
walk like a Lion and look strong
as a LiOn.. and hehe.. wear Kool
Secret Service Shades like me.. with
the nuance of a potential hidden weapon
here or there.. the possibility of anyone F iN
with ya.. even iF they are drunk.. is rare to
close to nihl.. particularly if the other party
is sober as such with due prudence
to stay away from death and
seriouSly bodiLy inJury..
bottom line is free flow
iN zOne DancE SonG..
PoeTry and Martial
arts sAME allows one
the nirvana oF heaven now
F E A R L E S F L O W N O W
as ONE wiTh God.. so whenever
someone looks at me with a WTF
look.. i am alWays available to explain
all of thiS iN words to them in EnliGhteNinG
AwaKeninG-liKe speed.. or jUst give the folks
who are over 18 a quick google search on the
simple term ‘Katie Mia’ that anywhere in the
world BRinGs my SpiRtuaL FULLuST TEACHINGS
TO THE TOP.. and yes.. i alWAYS WARN THEM..
particularly the dudes.. that no.. you probably
do not wanna click on them restricted
links as baby.. seNsual
Intelligence
IS Also
a huge hUmaN
iNtelligenTce thaT
not many folks touch
iN liFE aS ways of Apollo..
Heracles.. Eros.. Michelangelo..
KinG David and sucH As that aLive
iN flesh as we WiLL RocK and RoLL
ya to thE bONe of hUman liFE oNe With
GoD aLive wHere aLL iS thAT iS exPreSsinG
ART as sAME.. SpiRit FloW iN zONe aS
MINd and BoDy BaLanCinG
soUL noW.. as lifelong
practice iN hUman
potenTial as
and WiTh
GoDarTnoWaLWaySaLiVE..
Oh and ps.. oh god yes..
almost forgot.. back to the
other pARt of the story
at the military gym
with the young
muscular
black military
dude who was inspired
by my fierce style of working
out with Gorilla Growl intensity
and such as that.. i also told that
young man.. back in the early 80’s or
so when.. all there was were a few Universal
weight machines.. a bar here a plate there.. a
chin-up bar and such as that.. there is a 30
something Marine Captain dude that gets under
somewhere around 200LBS on a Bench
Press machine and says.. oh God
i’m 30 now and this is Getting
so F in hard to do.. and then
i say.. please if you hear
any old dudes saying
that.. don’t
believe ’em
it is not true..
in fact.. you can
look up Jack LaLanne
on Google and it will tale
ya all about him in his 60’s towing
in swim 60 or so boats behind him
in rope way across a long wide bay..
and that dude kept pumping iron
to age 96.. and only
a bad case
of
pneumonia
brought him
to demise..
and that’s the thing..
Jesus can you imagine
how old my cat Arthur was
at 20 years old in cat years..
when he could still traverse
the neighborhood in stern
alpha cat way..
that’s the problem
with modern society..
sit on your butt
and eat
an ice
cream and yes..
i have been guilty
of doing just that when
my first Love told me you
are not gonna work out my
Loving whipped boy
friend.. you
will spend
ALL YOUR
TIME WITH ME..
until she broke up
with me.. i started working
out again and i said to myself
Jesus.. Heaven again.. i can finally
F iN focus in class and do not feel
like i am swimming in mud mind
all foggy as such..
ugh.. exercise
as science shows
in one hour fashion
before an IQ test is proven
to raise scores around 10 points
or so.. and Jesus F iN Christ aGain
that goes to show that hUman potential
is much more in thInking ways than
just F iN head deep.. as Lord
knows for decades i wasn’t
even comfortable raising
my hand up to
wave at someone
simply as the arm
swayed little at all
straight down.. and the
fingers were most always
attached to a pencil sloppily
taking notes in egg head speed..
And in college in Sociology class
and the study of aging the outlook
was bleak with folks my age.. doing
therapy in warm health pools all pasty
white and grey haired as such.. flabby
here and there.. with skin hanging down
off arms.. but ha.. they did not know
the secret of either Jack LaLanne
or Arthur Brown tabby cat.. who
by the way looked almost
just like
the Democratic
Cat in my Candidate
ANN channel for debate
on my dance shirt tonight..
yes the secret is simple.. move..
connect and create from birth to dust..
never ever stop.. and become a vegetable
or robot walking dude as i used to be too..
Flow.. don’t be a mechanical angular sidewalk
dude or dudette.. move like the UniVerse and
all stuff in Nature away from human
sidewalk hells do.. iN Golden
Spiral iN ZonE fLy oF spiral
either around the Sun or core
of God iN uS.. as God moves
more like sexy sixes and
nines.. than angular
so-called
God number
7 for G..
yes God iS
more like F iN 6
or i oF Nine foR All
oF liFe Free asOnE..:)

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And here is a couple more Facebook memories
of the totality of this 3 Million Word plus
play.. scores of thousands of photos..
thousands of videos.. links to
other places iN the
unabridged human
table of contents
bible named
Google so
far..
in E-Land
here.. one
of a year ago..
and one of nearly
the beginning of all
the poeTic reaLITy
in DancE and SonG
that does comprise
aLL online oF the
‘SonG oF mY SoUL’..
aka ‘KaTiE MiA FredericK!iI
on word press and KATiE MiA
FredericK! as a blogger blog
by that same general
Pen Name
aka
juST
plAiN
FREd..
and with that
said here is that
memory verbatim iN
text from three years
ago to date too.. NoW..:)

https://katiemiafrederick.com/2015/05/26/prayer-of-a-heart-bench/

Postscript:

A Devil’s Advocate

Can Be a Friend

While the Devil may be Found

In DeTails

The Easter is in the Eggs

D’eviled Eggs

Can be

DeLightFul

..:):..

Even Without Friends

One can Play with Words

..:)

And now i say..
at the end of this
new post.. more fun
dance photos coming
after midnight.. yes
around the 3 am wee
hour of Friday morning..
after my 112th Dance Week
Thursday NiGht celebration
wITh aLL the Kool College
age Folks at Good Old
Seville Quarter..
one of the top
100 Bars
to dance
in yes..
the memorable
Good Old U.S. oF A..:)

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Free Verse Poetry Novel

https://katiemiafrederick.com/2016/04/28/godsuniversenovel3/

GodsUniVerseNovel3
338,630 words
Epic Free Verse Poetry Novel
Approximately 3000+ printed pages…
With Hundreds of Beautiful Beach Photos..:)

https://katiemiafrederick.com

KATiE MiA FredericK!iI
3 Million plus words
Super Epic Free Verse Poetry Novel
AKA
SonG oF mY SoUL..:)
Approximately 30,000+ printed pages…
just ’cause
i caN
buiLd iT..
FoR Free..:)

CrediTs FiELd oF DreAMs

And yeS.. FinAlly..
CrediTs FiELd oF DreAMs..
A Thanks YoU oF sORts..
NoW..:)

Love iS
ALLTHaTis..:)

GRains oF SaNd
hOld mounTain
LoVe..:)

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21 Responses to BeYonD Fence oF liGht

  1. Well.. hi!.. back to you Princess
    Leah.. and i always like to call you
    that even before i saw your picture
    in the ball attire as tiny.. strong.. and elegant
    you are.. and as always after a night long sensual
    Dance at Good Old Seville Quarter for my 112th
    week.. i’M feeling particularly poetic.. and after aLL
    i’ve been FeeLinG that way.. ever since the end of
    February 2013.. like a switch changed in my
    brain.. hehe.. but per science i am certain
    it is neuroplasticity and epigenetics
    at play as change of mind and body
    balance soUl.. and in my case
    iT IS A flow of energy iN thE
    zONe.. what they
    name as Chi
    the Force..
    hehe.. back
    to Star Wars2..
    and yes.. real magic
    for me.. as before that i was
    a list maker.. firstly.. secondly..
    and thirdly.. and had no idea how
    to be creative as i experienced this
    artFUL flow twice.. once in middle school
    then.. winning a Christmas story competition
    among 80 students in two homerooms.. then..
    and writing a play when i talked to the phenomena
    of hot chicks.. but had no frigging clue what sex was
    until age 16.. or had no clue until 18.. beyond the fur of what
    was between a girl’s legs to put THAT rather bluntlY and crudeLY..
    hehe.. but anyway.. with the HYperlexic mind that i’m pretty
    sure we both share.. as there is a certain feeling about your
    writing that talked to me beyond ‘just the words’ when you
    conversed those few times with me on the Wrong Planet
    IN a kind of advanced soul.. if not only in genetic
    memory.. as scientists are starting to
    explore the reality of that in
    rats at first too… so there
    is no rat taling how
    that may apply
    in depth
    of humanity
    whole.. but anyway..
    it’s so nice not to have to analytically
    plan something.. every step.. to make it happen..
    it’s so nice not to have to worry about if every step
    you walk is the normal way it is supposed to be as i never
    felt comfortable in my own skin before 2013.. ever standing
    next to a stranger as i truly felt a vague feeling that i wasn’t
    balanced and might just topple over as i guess a part of Asperger’s
    too. in motor coordination issues.. but back to Neuroplasticity.. Epigenetics..
    and the real scientist part of me that i can still call up if absolutely necessary
    to become a lawyer again too… CHALLENGE.. ADAPTATION.. CHANGE IS THE WAY
    OF THE BEING AS HUMAN.. and Jesus F in Christ.. culture’s challenge was to become
    a cog in a machine of who THEY said life was supposed to work.. from the first F iN
    walk up that hill from the shot gun home on the Blackwater River front Down town
    in old MiLL ToWn here.. and the German Shepard dogs barking at me.. and i was
    afraid they might bite my tiny frail hands off in one chomp.. seriously..
    i was terrified a dog might bite my hands off for some reason..
    as they felt special and so airy.. almost like they were
    not even there in the first place.. kinda like the
    rest of my body.. just like air with
    almost no weight
    too..
    so yeah..
    i guess that’s
    part of the reason
    i feel so comfortable in
    my body now.. as at 230LBS
    i finally got enough poundage
    to make me feel grounded to
    earth as it were and truly
    is now.. although
    when i dance
    i still feel
    weightless
    like one day
    if i get too high with
    the SonG and DancE i might
    just float away like those 99 Luft
    Balloon as originated by that group
    as song in Germany where you live now
    my wonderful kind and loyal Asperger’s
    Friend.. like me.. who i know i will always have
    and just the one reply a month now is enough for
    always have.. my friend.. ’cause it does sTiLL make
    me kinda sad that i always reciprocally communicated
    with everyone in my life who has every communicated with
    me.. and i am the always the last one standing.. if not for just
    one conversation with them.. that i would like to extend for two..
    but it’s like my wife says.. SHUT UP FRED.. YOU ARE HURTING MY HEAD..
    YOU ARE GIVING ME A FREDACHE.. AS TEARS COME DOWN MY FACE NOW..
    AS I JUST WANNA SHARE WHAT I THINK IS SO IMPORTANT THAT MIGHT MAKE
    YOU FEEL BETTER DEAR.. it’s hard to be smArt.. but it’s almost FUCKING IMPOSSIBLE
    TO BE GENIUS.. and have a God Dam Friend.. but i have a handful now.. and like in the
    World Market store back in the day.. of working in an office for so long where i didn’t really
    have a FUCKING THING IN COMMON ENOUGH TO HAVE A REAL FRIEND AT ALL.. i thought about
    around the World.. and perhaps.. maybe.. just maybe there was one person like me.. and truthfully
    i found a few on the Wrong Planet.. but none with any propensity for continuing reciprocal social
    communication with me.. and now i have found a handful on the Internet that do the reciprocal
    social communication BACK FROM ME.. and you know i FUCKING WROTE A POETIC RESPONSE
    BACK TO EVERY SINGLE dVerse Poetry prompt and link that numbered in literal
    thousands of poetic micro expressions from me in the course of an
    entire year last year.. particularly after the administrators
    kept taling me they didn’t like my Long Poem
    way of doing poetry.. with videos..
    and so many photo streaming
    poetic expressions that
    are integrated with
    the written word
    for the visual
    thinking person
    i was before i became
    the 11 million word man
    back on Thanks Giving day
    in November of 2010 at the
    Wrong Planet.. then.. to escape
    my perfect storm of God Dam pain..
    and back to all those poetic responses
    after they deleted my poem.. ’cause they
    FUCKING DIDN’T UNDERSTAND IT.. EVEN AFTER
    I FUCKING CLEARLY EXPLAINED IT TO THEM.. I MADE
    IT A MILESTONE TO KEEP GOING ON FOR A FULL YEAR
    AND after i accomplished that at the end of March this year..
    i made one poem titled “GodsUniVerseNovel3” so so far
    far from me.. having no idea how long it was gonna be
    before i compiled the Novel Free Verse Poetic
    journey of one entire year.. and just a
    fraction of what i did whole as year at
    that one Internet place.. and it ended
    up being 338,630 words long with
    around 300 gorgeous
    beach photos
    i headed each
    prompt with.. with
    around 30 or so micro
    poems.. and yeah.. although
    i haven’t gone back and counted
    each one.. that makes close to
    10,000 individual micro poetic
    expressions.. in one MACRO VERSE
    OF MY ENTIRE WORD PRESS BLOG..
    THAT IS ACTUALLY ONE HUGE LONG FORM POEM
    THAT IS CLOSING IN ON 4 MILLION WORDS NOW
    THAT EVEN AT 338,630 WORDS MicroSoft
    Word says WiLL take 3000 pages to print
    without the Fucking Photos and Videos
    as such.. which means conservatively
    speaking without the scores of thousands
    of photos and Videos my entire 671 Verses
    of my Blog that is actually one UniVerse of
    Long Free Verse Poem Form.. would take over
    30,000 pages to print.. and is actually almost twice
    as long as the Longest Poem ever in humankind and
    of course.. four times longer than the Fucking Bible and
    40 times longer than the Fucking Kuran.. as it ain’t just
    narrative free verse prose poetry .. it is FucKinG Deep
    DEEP Poetry Shit too.. perhaps.. who knows.. maybe
    as deep as it can FucKinG Get as sometimes i have
    to read it three times now after i wrote it to get
    the original meaning of it or the different
    meaning after i first wrote it.. as truly
    it just flows from my fingers with
    little to no preplanning
    per firstly.. secondly..
    thirdly or all
    those fucking
    Mechanical Cognition
    formulas they use in snooty
    poetry land for WHAT SOME FOLKS
    CALL REAL SCIENCE OF POETRY THAT
    IS A FUCKING OXYMORON TO ME AS ANYTHING
    PLANNED DON’T COME FROM THE HEART.. SOUL..
    AND SPIRIT.. DEEP IN MY FEELINGS FREE.. BUT OF
    course before THAT switch went off in my mind
    and body BaLanCinG back in 2013.. i had
    to have a manual to write
    then too..
    anyway..
    it’s nice to
    go NOT BY THE BOOK..
    AS THAT WAS THE PROBLEM
    WITH CULTURE.. IT MADE ME INTO
    A COVER OF A HUMAN BEING INSTEAD
    OF THE GOD DAM REAL THING.. the real
    thing was me in the backyard of that River
    Front home.. in Down Town Milton.. looking
    in flow and ZonE at age 3 across the River before
    i could speak at age 4 as of course what does happen
    in modern day Autism.. where back then the Doc just
    said he will speak when he gets good and God dam ready
    to speak.. and yes.. i added in the God dam for my emphasis
    there.. i am so FucKinG happy.. there was no diagnosis for FucKinG
    Asperger’s then.. as if that were the case in my Hyperlexic form.. i would
    have been spoon fed mechanical cognition activities at FucKinG age 3
    in the-ra-py.. when all i needed to do.. was juST enjoy liFE look across
    that River in Flow.. and ZonE and kNow and FeeL AND SENSE without
    words that i was one with this thing called Nature GoDONE AND SAME..
    develop the same friendships i was developing in play in back
    and front yard games.. until they TRAPPED ME IN
    A DESK ALL DAY LONG.. SAT ME IN FRONT
    OF A BOOK AND A TALKING HEAD AND
    SAID SIT FRED SIT.. AND TO BE HONEST
    I WAS TOO FUCKING SCARED TO
    MOVE OR NOT PAY ATTENTION
    AS I THOUGHT GOOD
    GRADES WAS
    THE HIGHWAY
    TO SURVIVAL
    IN THIS WORLD..
    I WAS WRONG.. I WAS GOD
    DAM WRONG.. THE HIGHWAY
    TO LIFE IS PAVEDANCE MOVING WITH
    CONNECTING SonG WITH OTHERS NOW
    AND CREATING.. NOT A FUCKING NUTHER
    ROTE FACT TO REMEMBER AND ACE ON
    A MULTIPLE CHOICE TEST TEN THOUSAND
    AND MORE FUCKING TIMES FOR FUCKING
    19 YEARS UNTIL THE SIX YEARS OF COLLEGE
    ENDED AND ALL THE THREE DEGREES WITH
    NO FUCKING JOB SKILLS TO DO ANYTHING
    BUT PASS OUT SHOES TO CUSTOMERS
    AT A MILITARY BOWLING CENTER
    ‘CAUSE I NEVER REALLY
    LEARNED TO
    SOCIALLY COMMUNICATE
    FULLY OR EVEN FUCKING
    EXPRESS MYSELF FULLY
    IN WRITING EITHER.. the two
    skills i needed most that multiple
    choice tests never gave me.. and no matter
    how garbled and incoherent my words were
    as i could not F-iN Focus after sitting still all
    day long with no movement.. i was for all
    practical intents and purposes retarded
    with three degrees.. at the top of my
    class as that was all the teachers
    were interested in.. not what
    i could do in real life.
    just F In test
    scores then..
    lesson learned..
    the very hard
    way.. then and
    i eventually got
    a lot of the social
    part from the hard
    knocks of Bowling Alley
    social life then iN trial and error..
    but truly the school system Sucks
    for a nomad like me that was meant
    to be on the ADHD move.. i’m just fucking
    smart and didn’t have any way to get it out..
    Well..the DancE and SonG of LiFe finally cured
    that.. allowing me to Express all that was inside
    that i could never get out.. and yes.. it is good that
    your husband quit that Game of Thrones game developer
    job and is taking a long month break.. as corporations will
    change.. and stress will continue to grow greater… and my
    sister recently retired.. and by the way she is diagnosed with
    Asperger’s in mid-life too.. if i didn’t already mention
    that.. and she said she finally enjoys food again..
    as the pleasure of life was leaving
    her the same way it did
    me after prolonged
    life cumulative
    flight or fight
    stress since F iN
    age 5.. that first
    walk up that hill
    to mechanical cognition
    school.. and she can enjoy
    music again.. as i lost the ability
    to even listen to a talk radio show
    or listen to any sound at all or look
    at any colors either.. as stress will
    do FucKinG whacky destructive stuff
    to the body from head to toe.. to
    potential premature death..
    yes.. it is potentially
    a life saver that your
    husband is taking a break
    and as long as you have your
    exercise program to accommodate
    your stress.. you should survive well
    now.. my friend.. off of cigarettes.. as that
    is a common way to deal with cumulative
    fight or flight stress too.. and is what my
    father did since age 13.. until his
    fortunate long life at 81 although
    his identical twin brother is
    still living.. approaching
    84 as Gemini us too…
    on June 20th..
    ha! anyway.. i have developed
    a science of creativity unhampered
    by what society says i shouldn’t do or
    should do now.. it is extreme.. but it is
    unfettered by what others say i should
    or should not do.. from the age
    of Pre-K.. yeah.. i forgot
    my stress actually
    started in Catholic
    School pre-K but it
    was a tiny classroom
    and kinda lax as pre-school
    can come now to make the
    next brain surgeon as it were
    now more so as now.. anyway2 and
    three now to end mY FriEnd.. Life is
    exciting.. ever changing but much better
    with moving.. connecting.. and creating to me..
    instead of someone spoon feeding life to me
    out of an F IN societal instruction manual..
    but sure it’s good to know the law and
    the loop holes too.. as the
    smARt ArT HeArT SpiRiTeD
    S O U L N O W human..
    wiTh reaSoNInG BraiN
    too.. will survive the
    long haul with a dirt
    nap dream that says
    I DID IT ALL.. I LIVED AT
    THE LAST BREATH THEN..
    AND SURE.. LEFT A LITTLE
    MARK AND SOME GUIDEPOSTS
    FOR OTHER FOLKS ON THE MULTI-VERSE
    PATHS OF THIS JOURNEY CALLED LIFE.. thanks
    for stopping by on my Artful Poetic Journey
    now away from the mechanical cognition
    of liFe.. my Friend.. always nice to
    hear from you.. and as you
    know you can alWays
    expect a tSuNaMi oF
    i when i floW back
    to you Now
    iNZonE noW..
    Joy to you in eYes
    of Peaceful and Energetic
    liFe my friend.. with plenty
    of MoVinG.. CoNnecTinG
    and CreaTinG ways in whatever
    way suits yoUr happiness best
    and of course whatever else
    will tickle your fancies
    too.. my dear
    FriEnd..
    Leah..

    See ya later..
    WitH Smiles of course..

    -Fred..:)

    PS.. Happy Birthday
    at the end of May too!..:)

  2. https://gigoid.me/2016/05/26/born-to-be-mild/#comment-19404

    Hi! gigoid.. almost exhausted here after my last 15K word 671st..
    Macro Verse of my LonGeST Form Poem but fired back up after a night
    of sensual dance that always fuels all things associated with ART oF
    social/nature cognition for me in terms of moving.. connecting
    and creating whole.. and truly why DancE and
    SonG.. iNcluding poeTry iS my onLY
    TRUE RELIGION FRIEND..
    other than learning
    to accept all the dARk and
    LiGht oF noW as sacRed HolY
    and change what i can
    and lEt the
    DaRk that iS
    here as is that
    i cannot change
    a pArt of the SacRed
    hoPe that more folks
    who are DArk WiLL to
    become more liGht iN ArT
    than science of fear and hate
    and all other stuff related to
    not LiVinG liFe WeLL aT aLL..
    so sad so sad in DArk oF aLL
    trUly FaLL of hUman Angel
    potential Altruistic
    ways like
    our Bonobo
    FrienDs who juST
    Love moST All iN tHe
    liGht of EnJoYinG noW
    WitH only Food.. Shelter..
    Water.. and yes.. luSt and
    Love to make liFe aLL.. AH..
    Love noW.. mY FriEnD and so
    nice to see you back on Facebook.,
    Facebook FriEnD Ned.. too.. numbering
    iN as 51 who are even brave enough to
    have me on their FriEnD liSt @ALL.. as
    i come here for TrUth and liGht and often
    upset the so-called Atheist with my insistence
    that Nature.. Magic.. God and all stuff life iS
    saCreD hOly ALLTHATIS SAME.. and my
    insistence.. that whomever wrote the
    words of the gnostic Jesus.. was
    more Yogi-Leaning than any
    other metaphor of
    sacred text
    dudes or dudettes and
    of course the insinuation noW
    that a dude called MuHammad
    who dictated something called
    the KuRaN in just 2000 words of
    vocabulary in an 80K word book..
    is the last F In Prophet when little
    old me.. the permanently disabled
    dude in a little River Town who could
    not speak before age 4.. mumbling his
    way through life fast and incoherently
    to most in a thousand different subjects
    of flighty ADHD mind all at once.. who has
    now written 11 million words online.. including
    the longest long form poem that is my Word
    Press Blog now approaching 4 million words
    itself.. that is at least 40 times longer than than
    the friGGinG little bitty gnat sized Kuran in comparison..
    wHere even one of my macro Verses per ‘GodsUniVerseNovel3’..
    is 4 times as long as that little black book.. and almost half the
    size of the entire F iN Bible new and old testament full.. and
    twice as large as the Frigging New Testament now at
    only 180K words compared to my 338,630 words
    big Macro Verse noW.. in pARt of what
    WiLL be here.. the 672nd macro verse of
    tHaT wHOLE LONG POEM NOW..
    anyway..
    i peck the eYeS iN metaFO
    RcE of folks who think they are
    the last and first of anything noW..
    iN terms of sacred text.. as idols of
    men who WE now.. are far exceeding
    in human potential.. with the help of God ALL
    ONe heRe on eARTh.. including all of Google and
    the Internet too.. in terms of synergistic effect and
    Emotional AFFECT TOO.. in all the arts and sciences
    of humankind eYes of God maniFest in this Golden City
    IIT without even the Sun and Moon for liGht.. additionAlly
    defeating the law of entropy in Nature’s full science way..
    iN ART and SCIENCE as just one SonG oF
    EmoTioNaL Energy NOW can repeat..
    almost forever in terms of human
    lives here on earth relatively
    speaking as long as
    Servers continue
    to serve up
    that human
    EmoTioNaLLy
    inSpiRinG Energy
    with tiny tiny batteries
    iN sMARt PhOne way..
    that can move a 230LB
    man like me through spiRAls
    oF Ballet and Martial Arts
    Dance for hours on end
    in juST Super WalmARt
    AisleS now.. so.. sure.. now
    i/wE come here to SpRead
    trUth and liGht and
    while the HuMan
    Social Animal
    instinct sTiLL
    dictates conformity
    for the social norm for
    overall survival.. we live in
    a technology aided world where
    the outcasts with the Bigger TruThs
    oF liGhtS.. without fear of crucifixion.. starvation
    and such as that.. or even psychopathic leaning
    fools who will never ever get down this far in the
    deeper metaFORCE OF LiFe to DIFFERENT like
    the metaphors of the New Testament created
    by whomever created THAT have much
    deeper meanings than MOST
    never even get a FULL clue oN
    now.. not EVEN
    THE LITERALLY
    THINKING PSYCHOPATHIC
    LEANING PRIESTS AND PREACHERS
    AS SCIENCE SHOWS AS FACT ARE PART
    OF THE TOP TEN PROFESSIONS WHERE
    THOSE KIND OF FOLKS LURK.. ‘PErvFECT’ PLACES
    TO MANIPULATE OTHER FOLKS FOR MATERIAL GAINS
    AND REPRODUCTIVE CONTROL.. AND CHANGING THE
    RULES TO GET 10 WIVES INSTEAD OF 4 AS ‘SOME’ HAVE
    CERTAINLY DONE IN HISTORY.. ADDITIONALLY.. ENFORCING
    THEIR RELIGIOUS RULE BY PENALTY OF DEATH AND TORTURE
    AND STONING LESBIAN WOMEN IN IRAN.. WHILE COVERING
    THEM IN DIRT TO THEIR BREASTS WHERE THEY CANNOT
    SHIELD THEIR EYES.. WELL.. LET ME TELL YOU.. THE REAL
    GOD.. YES.. THE SAME GOD THAT WHOMEVER WROTE
    THE GNOSTIC GOSPEL OF THOMAS.. PER SO-CALLED
    JESUS.. IS TIRED OF OTHER PARTS OF GOD HARMING
    EACH OTHER FOR FOOLISH INSANE PSYCHOPATHIC
    FOLKS LEANING RULES OF YESTERNOWS.. ThEIR
    IS A WAVE IN THIS WORLD.. A NoW SEVENTH SEAL
    WAVE NAMED SACRED LOVE THAT IS BREAkING..
    RIsING LIKE A TSUNAMI AND iN A SYNERGY
    OF A TIPPING POINT WILL SWEEP
    THE HATE.. AND PERHAPS
    EVEN MUCH OF THE FEAR
    AWAY TOO.. AND i.. my fRiEnd
    aM pArt of an Iron Fist of God
    as meteor in metaphor among
    many others who have
    come back now..
    in metaphor
    of phoenix rising
    from the lies of culture
    wHO are bRinGing the
    fist of the God oF Nature
    altruistic fearless Love back
    to punch the FucKinG haters
    back to knock them back
    iN
    Fearless Love..
    hehe.. tSuNaMi am i..
    and i’Ve lots of tSuNaMi
    FriEnds BacKinG mE Up
    whether they are cognizant
    of thAT fAct and Art and ReaL
    ALL NATURAL QUANTUM
    MECHANICS MAGIC NOW
    iN THE HUMAN MIND AND BODY
    BALANCED SOUL UNLEASHED AND
    RELEASED.. HeHeh.. these ARE INTERESTING..
    VERY interesting nows.. my friend.. and i’m jUst
    a court reporter/scribe/poet as such to
    wRite iT aLL FucKinG dOwn.. in terms
    oF iF yoU seeK iN God.. yEs the REAL
    GOD OF NATURE NOW.. IT’s NOW
    FOR NATURE ALLTHATIS PeR US..
    TO TAKE
    GOD BACK
    OUT OF FUCKING
    LITTLE BLACK BOOKS..
    OCEAN oF i..wE sMiles
    iN streAMs to Rivers oF
    LoVe NOW mY FriEnd..
    NO LUKE WARM HERE..
    LUKE OF STAR WARS HIGH
    IN AWAKENING AND ENLIGHTENING
    WISDOM EYE OF GOD IN US/WE ILLUMINATI
    OF
    FEARLESS
    LOVENOW..
    mY FriEnd..:)

    Thanks.. my friend..
    noW aftA soMe Sand
    aNd Sun and Dance oFF
    to refresh more.. i’m Off to
    your next blog posT noW…
    to see.. hehe.. wHere i go
    neXtnoW.. as i moST alWays
    StArt oFfT wiTh whAt ‘they’
    nAMe aS Zen MiNd eVen
    afTer i read whatever comes
    nexT..
    iT’s liKe
    A BoX oF
    Chocolates
    as ForRrEst
    WiLL saY
    too iN
    GumP
    TioN way..;)

  3. https://gigoid.me/2016/05/27/polite-reasons-to-marinate/#comment-19407

    Ha!.. i’ll drop down straight from finishing your words and wisdom
    to the Pearls and pearls in the comments section too..
    and say.. when i snarl and spit like the
    primate beast i am at core to
    survive at the military
    gym in what the
    big alpha-like
    headed male
    WiLL do in aLL
    hIs Natural Glory..
    juSt to let ’em kNow..
    he ain’t got no nows for
    messing around.. he HE iS
    here for survival.. LiVinG noW..
    NO.. iFs and or Butts.. but maKinG
    sure din din now comes sAMe.. tHere
    iS tHe great pleasure of FeeLinG Fearless
    mY friend.. and L I K E the alpha ape who is
    trULy Gentle at core after he gets his Gorilla Growl
    ouT to let other aPes kNow tHeir ain’t no fear here..
    there IS AlWays more RooM for Love iF the fear can
    be put aside.. and the same wITH Yellow Boy applies..
    he is never afraid to come uP to strangers and offer a
    fRiEndLY cLaWed Paw.. as he has been to the Jungle
    uP close and personal.. and KNoWs when it’s F iN now
    to get out of the way or stay.. from personal cat experience
    THEN.. so yeah.. i went to the Jungle and survived intAct
    fINally Fearless.. and the constructs of culture abstracts
    in LanGuage way.. including obsolete pArts of
    FearFULL RELIGIONS.. no longer touch
    the WinGS oF miNe hiGher WitH
    eYes that do fLy as
    pArt oF aLLthatiS Free
    noW FriEnd.. the kiNship
    with the cAll of the WiLd iS
    real iN fearless luSt and Love..
    butT harming no other.. iT iS the
    alTruism in Balance oF we LoVinG
    Apes at core oF BeinG
    when E-escaped
    from the
    LYinG of Hate
    DeN iN absTract
    coNstructs and symbolLocKs
    like the four letter words
    hate and fear.. Loveall
    is the Seven word letter
    as symbol and word that IS A BalancE
    iN mY SaVinG Mantra for HEaveNoW..:)

  4. Back to dVerse for a few here..
    before work-out now comes..
    It’s Open Link Thursday
    and the first one of those
    i have visited noW iN a few
    weeks for sure..
    where almost
    anything goes..
    hehe.. except
    for what i do..
    in Longest Term Free
    Verse PoeTry way.. hehe..;)

    Lot.. oh the story of Lot.. two daughters
    blamed for getting their father drunk
    and what making him Fuck.. nah ain’t
    the way it works.. alcohol no excuse for
    getting it up and putting it in.. anyWay iS
    a man’s world then.. a man’s book.. half
    a culture away from the fuller story of the
    human soUl.. and at least spoken to some
    in New Testament way.. but rapes.. violence..
    murdering children of the opposing team then
    as an eye for an eye.. the way of liFe noW when
    one gender dominates the other of course with yes..
    help of laws for FORCE and BOOKS CONTROLLING
    FOR PATRIARCHAL CONTROL IN SICKEST WAYS now
    OF HARMING WEAKER HUMAN BEINGS WITH FORCE..yes
    WITH FORCE AND LIES AND LIES.. ANYWAY.. SADLY MUCH
    OF THE WORLD POPULATION IN FEMALE FORM SUBMITS
    TO THE SO-CALLED STRONGER WEAKER SEX NAMED MALE
    WHO REFUSES TO CARRY THEIR OWN WEIGHT IN LOVE OVER
    LAWS.. AND THAT TAKES MORE WORK IN LOVING THAN KILLING
    WOMEN AND OTHER MINORITIES IF THEY DO NOT SUBMIT TO THE
    LAWS AT HAND FOR DOMINATION… God lives in and as women same
    as men.. homosexuals.. weaklings.. stronglings.. transvestites.. androgynes
    and even Elohim.. at first was a mix of androgyne metaphor of masculine
    and feminine before THEY made God into an angry old White man with
    a beard.. just like the Angry Old men who dreamed uP the stories
    for control of others.. through psychopathic dead heARt
    ways oF BeinG then.. same as we see in the
    middle east today.. ranging from
    marriages made as institutionalized
    rape when dowries are used for
    non-consenusal marriage.. to
    female Genital mutilation
    to the old tradition
    of separated
    human’s
    need iN protection
    from the environmental
    elements AKA FORESKIN..
    RIPPED OFF FOR THE LIE THAT
    WE ARE NOT JUST ANOTHER pArt
    of the Balance of GoD Nature.. no more..
    no less.. just killing the GAiA with the veiL
    of ignorance still covering the eYes of
    around half the world or so..
    in harming lying
    disgusting
    ways…
    Harm is
    disgusting.. sex
    when consensual and
    between two mature adults
    is sacred and holy.. but the lies go
    on in pedophile priests.. buddhist monks
    and ‘clerics’ over ‘there’ too.. it can be a sick
    world without Love that never harms the free
    WilL of another human being in relative way..
    and wow this is one long poem but inspired by
    a very inspiring poem by Bjorn.. about the
    story of Lot turned around where the
    woman who just wanted to
    protect her daughters
    from an incestuous
    father who
    wanted
    some of
    his own daughter’s
    soft skin.. was turned
    to a pillar of salt to keep
    her mouth shut about the real
    perverse of what was behind the
    story to give men just another
    excuse to harm women
    and call them evil
    at the same
    dam time..
    the truth gets out..
    even in mythological lies
    in the first place.. of stories whose
    real purpose is to give one segment
    of pArts of God power over the other
    that is truly like God shooting God in
    the God dam foot.. it’s sick.. it still happens
    and the cure is fearless Love in harming no
    other human being’s relative free will.. and those
    people who would then Love to cover uP Real TruE
    intentions of control in dominance for material
    gains and reproductive control.. whether it is
    a FucKinG 10 million dollar home for
    sport.. or a man with 10 wives
    as basically slaves.. or
    whatever it is
    that harms
    those
    with less
    so-called power..
    it is the greatest sin
    and only sin to harm the
    relative free will of another
    human being.. God’s rule.. not
    rules from a book.. just remember
    God lives within all as Force.. to harm
    any of that Force unjustified for greater
    God’s Love.. iS separation to harm God
    now.. God KnoWs.. FeeLs.. and seNses
    iN human eYes and sKin.. to rape it.. sell
    it,, or trade it for material Goods iS to do the
    sAMe AS oNe to GoD ONE.. and the eventual
    consequence is yes.. HOPE AND LOVE WILL
    WIN OVER FEAR AND HATE.. AS LOVE AND
    HOPE ARE MUCH MUCH GREATER FORCES THAT
    LAST FOR THE LONG TERM OF HUMAN HAPPINESS NOW..
    AND NOW off to the next link.. as i’Ve got a few more moments
    left before the work-out comes to escape words with steps then..:)

    The moment of never
    say Goodbye can last
    ForevernoW as long as hELLo
    Now lasts in the heat of LovinG
    every moment wiTh LuST for LiFe..
    And trUly one who has LUst for aLL A’ LiFe..
    can be happy with just one bed on the head
    oF
    NiGht..
    sadly.. for some
    folks the great main
    pleasure is a variety
    of places to put stuff in
    and take stuff out.. and or buy it.. BuTT
    the heARt..the SoUL.. the SpiRit kNoWs
    more that putting
    stuff in
    and out and buying
    in different places..
    as objects over LoVE..:)

    And that does it for noW..
    at 6:06 pm.. 05262016..
    and as alWays
    what i say..
    Be Back
    LaTers..:)

    5282016
    2:39 pm..

    A few global detours
    and now back
    to dVerse for
    a few.. before
    i run to
    Alice
    and
    Wonderland..
    better yET.. drive..;)

    i Love the siGn of a free
    bird flYinG iN thE
    sprawl of Big
    City Stress..
    murder on the
    24 hour news circuit..
    muggings around the back..
    as the birds just fly and do
    what they do.. and yes… i
    too.. am that free bird too..:)

    Rose nose of smells
    so sweet no knows
    of fELt so red..
    red FeeLs
    oF pInk
    petals so sweet..:)

    Sadly.. people are afraid of different..
    glAdly.. not all people but some..
    And that is a pArt of human nature..
    dARk and what can bE liGht..
    and that’s why we have
    laws to
    protect
    the different
    among us as
    yes.. attitudes
    do go DNA
    deep
    as far
    as human
    inclinations go
    unfettered now.. by
    laws that do protect..:)

    LIFe.. a continuing practice
    oF liGht that must be
    fiercely hELd bRiGht..
    less the dArk
    overwhelm
    what was once
    and or first noW
    LiGht.. and Now the
    dArk.. too.. a pLace
    of continuous practice
    that must be changed one
    step at a day to reach liGht
    for the last or first now too..:)

    WeLL that was rather short and
    sweet.. as Katrina says.. Fred
    you better get moving for
    Alice and
    WonderLand
    and she iS
    correct.. i cannot
    expect for Wonderland
    to arrive here.. iF i
    do not go tHeRe first
    so.. see ya laTers aGaiN
    when i gET bAck oN Course..;)

    3:00 pm..

    Well.. goodness back
    on 5302016.. as there
    have been many many
    detours below.. and
    i am a gonna skip
    wRite on Over to
    dVerse Quadrille Monday
    44 word prompt about
    the wonderful term
    Breeze.. catch up there
    and publish this newest
    Epic 672nd Verse of the
    Longest Long Form Poem
    ever.. wRite here as
    it.. oh my God! keeps
    GroWing like
    thE Breeze
    that Will
    never stARt..
    finish.. end
    and always
    begins now
    butt no.. no
    restrictions for
    me but sure.. i’ll
    keep iN the spiRit oF
    the particles of micro
    poetic expresSioNs heRe
    to go along with the
    672nd wave iN
    Macro Verse
    oF tHe entire
    Field iN Ocean
    oF thiS wHole BLog
    Poem that is headed
    sTiLL towards 4 milLion
    words now.. with the shore
    that has no horizon and
    ALL Breeze aT means
    oN sitE noW.. 7:02 pm..:)

    Breeze of fingertips
    wandering travelers
    along the sKin
    of velvet tips
    that yearn to spREad
    a FeeLinG oF continual
    bLiss.. Force oF ENergy
    bEneath rosE skiN GloWeRing
    as the belL TOlls aNd SingS
    soft breath Breeze undulating SonG..:)

    Breeze of Freedom Lonely
    Souls for Soldiers known
    only to God..
    Giving so much
    for LiFe’s LibeRty’s
    Justice and yes.. the
    pursuit of happiness..
    UNsung heroes of long
    near and far.. Soldiers
    Song for God Free
    no Glory..
    jUsT
    Free For
    ALL N ALL..:)

    A Summer’s Breeze for
    mE iN July of 2007..
    in 100 degree Florida
    weather.. a chill.. an
    OMeN of what
    soon WiLL
    come neXt
    iN Hell for
    Me In 66 months..
    i’d rather be RED BURNING
    COAL hot than go through
    thaT aGaiN.. SMiLEs..
    WITH FiEry
    ReD eYes
    oF RelieF
    iN CoLd
    icE
    PIECE BeForE
    Breeze comeS iN
    aS iN PAPER HeLL..:)

    Grass blows in Breeze
    of Memorial day rocks
    as stones wHere heads
    lay to rest of wars and battles
    gone by.. Rockets.. bombs.. Fireworks
    sky of Old.. beneath the bones and bloods
    wE stand
    to Be
    free in
    Rocks oF Breeze..:)

    Breeze of time has
    no rigid ticks or tocks..
    there was a tIme when
    both i and wife walk around
    the block after two years of
    flight or fight stress for me..
    she says oh that is weird
    it feels like time suddenly
    slowed down..
    a split second
    after i felt this
    feeling of gravity
    slowing time like
    never ever before..
    iN January of 2008..
    i never looked at reaLITy
    the sAMe after thaT or time
    as ever just tick tock again
    and no… now reTired since
    then i have alMost no perception
    oF tiMe aT all.. iN fAct i’M sure iT
    doesn’T eXist wITh only noW aS reaLITy..:)

    Surely Funny sad
    strange yes whimsical
    and magical noW how the
    same breeze one breeze
    can be so different in the
    next breeze same breeze..
    and that was when i determined
    i WiLL master the Breeze oF FeeLinG
    aLL inside and REAL IN RELATIVE
    Free WiLL.. ha..! iT worked wITh
    so much practice but
    yes.. bottom
    linE It works
    i AM thE master
    of mY own FeeLinGS
    and SenSes noW which
    means zero nada no one
    controls my FeelinGs or
    SenseS now.. not even
    the moon.. the clouds..
    the Sun or skeYes iN
    Breeze.. all iS BliSS
    aLL iS Color aLL
    A
    BriGht
    liGht oF REaL..
    oh.. by the way.. sorry..
    i went WAY over the liMit
    but you so
    inspired mE..;)

    Oh Lord.. it’s been
    oh God.. but this
    reminds me..
    yes.. 37 years
    ago.. and i can
    still remember the
    smell and name of
    that first perfume
    of my first Love..
    the name was BABE..
    and oh my wife is so
    much more Lovely and
    still looks as young almost
    as that 16 year old girl at 46..
    seriously.. it’s true.. i’ve photos that
    prove that.. hehe.. noW on my blog but
    yes.. anyway.. it’s kinda sad as honestly i
    cannot remember any of the smells
    of my wife’s perfume or names.. but
    oh! i kNow.. i FeeL.. i would NoW
    if she ever leaves..
    or faLLs aWay breeze..
    perhaps.. i’ll now go grab
    a bottle.. spray it all.. over
    mE now.. and bask noW iN
    thE nAMe and SmeLL Now
    oF LovE TrUe..
    oh! thanks so much
    Candy.. this inspireS
    me.. so noW.. mY friEnd..:)

    Oh Lord.. Bryan..
    Living on the River
    Front home in
    Panhandle Florida..
    Summer Humidity..
    sound of crickets
    way back in 60’s..
    and frogs.. through
    open dead breeze paste..
    turning the pillow over and
    over again.. now infinity it
    seems then.. stiLL noW
    never a cooler spot
    in mouth of River heat..:)

    Sharing deeper secrets..
    sharing links a place
    for Facebook..
    sharing dreams
    now in someone
    else’s photo..
    oh God..
    wHere is
    Real.. i WiLL
    noT lEt ReAL Go..:)

    Oh gosh.. this reminds
    me of an entire Summer
    of Digging as a research
    associate in Archaeology
    way back in ’83.. so young..
    as Anthropology IS A degree
    of miNd.. never a breeze across
    holes that never end.. shovels
    that alway dig.. dam it..
    this frigging brown
    collar work..
    not college
    boy stuff.. i felt then..
    hehe.. now i’m tougher..
    Bring on the hell hEat.. it’S
    better than nOthing iN REAL HeLL..
    oh.. wet behind the ears.. green with
    no understanding then oF REAL BREEZE..:)

    Vietnam.. A jungle
    that never ends in
    fiery breeze of gun
    shot wounds.. my 1st
    cousin in ’69..
    burned
    to death
    in Helicopter
    shot down..
    breeze in
    Washington
    Still no feeling
    for what counts
    sAdly it sTill seems…

    HeARt Of LiFe
    Rose oF FeelinGs
    SinGinG DanCinG
    SmeLLinG
    FloWers
    sAME..
    never an
    Age when hUman
    bLooms SonG
    i
    DancE..:)

    Fall Breeze a favorite
    SinGinG through
    Northern Florida
    tall pine needles..
    cold front a sign
    of North breeze too..
    cure for humid ways..
    WiNter even welcome
    iN SAuNteRing FL DreAMs..:)

    WeLL.. as Shakira
    says.. hiPs and eYes
    do not liE..
    and after 5444
    miles in 33 full
    months of dance..
    i repreSent umm.. aLL
    heR reMArk withouT
    one word.. noW iN
    thaT heART liFe..;)

    Oh cRap..
    i left out the
    word Breeze iN
    mY last poetic
    eXpresSioN iN
    rEsponse heRe..
    never less i’LL
    pARty oWn
    iN
    Breeze
    oF Y i..;)

    SeNseS and EmoTions
    lovers yeT not friEnds..
    and the converse..
    Breeze..
    perverse..
    and empty
    space between
    hugs.. longing
    to hold
    noW
    lonGer
    as Real..:)

    BreaTh of Kiss
    Breeze oF liFe
    SonG oF FeeLinG
    deePer than
    toNgues
    oF SonGSin
    HAte..:)

    Been through it with
    a baby too.. of 51 days..
    LiFe is never
    fAir wHole
    but alWays
    worth iT iN
    Breeze oF
    dArk and liGht..
    but with modern
    medicine.. one can
    understand better
    the gift of short
    verses
    aided
    torture
    of medical death..
    It’s always relative
    but more relative
    when it’s
    relative..
    and to be
    clear.. i am not
    presuming.. juSt
    responding from
    the inspiRaTioN thEse
    words bRinG mE noW..:)

    Oh.. to Love thE Breeze
    tHe staRs oF shiNe..
    WinGlits
    Ocean
    diAtoms
    bRinGing
    liGht Now to
    neW moon
    sKeYes..
    to Love iT
    aLL to bE iT
    All comFort
    BliSs
    wE
    cAn
    bE
    noW..
    In sMiLes
    oF LoVeAll..:)

    9:00 pm..
    all caught
    uP! and ending
    dVerse for noW..!..:)

  5. gigoid says:

    Nice one…. a couple things…. Why on Earth was Ellen DeGeneres sending people to Dubai?

    What river were you walking by?

    The medical marijuana product known as “Phoenix Tears”, aka Rick Simpson’s Oil, would control Katie’s seizures, completely. It has been proven by research, by the National Cancer Research Institute, not only does it cure more than 90 types of cancer, it will stop the strongest forms of seizures and epilepsy, in their tracks.It cured my brother’s stage III lymphatic cancer, in four months. I’m using it, and it is improving my vision, and has healed my diverticular bowel enough it now works normally.

    But, the AMA and Big Pharma wouldn’t make anything on selling pills, if that became widely known, now, would it?

    My eyes are tired now… *smile* See ya ’round the net, bro

    Love

    gigoid

    • Hi.. gigoid.. thanks so much for stopping by
      and absorbing 200 or so photos.. 15k words..
      etc.. hehe.. about the average output of the
      poets i visit in about a years time.. so truly
      if most anyone visits me out of that crowd in reciprocation
      of my reading their 50 or so words output.. we are now even for the
      year.. hehe.. as tit for tat goes.. but yes.. seriously.. i was never
      a word person as you know.. until 2010.. as before that hmm.. back then..
      i just couldn’t use my eyes and ears at all after 2008.. for anything
      other than pain.. and when i could use them.. most all of what i did
      in my spare time away from work is the home stuff that had to be done..
      and a few news shows.. and this same dam little snow boarding video
      game that was just a way to escape all the worries associated with
      work.. and keeping a job that for me lasted nearly a decade of
      scares of losing a job over reductions in force.. working for
      the government.. oh yeah.. and now to answer your questions
      before this turns into just another one of my daily war
      and peace size monologues.. or whatever
      one would like to call an ocean Now
      of flowing waving go go so long
      words.. in Free Verse Stream..
      the River is Blackwater
      River here in Florida..
      more specifically
      what they
      call now
      tributaries
      to it in the
      Bagdad Mill
      photos.. named
      Pond creek.. as that
      body of flowing water..
      And Ellen was holding
      some kind of game show
      and Dubai.. is considered a
      big tourist place to go and the
      reason i used it in synchronicity of
      this particular association is my dear
      friend Himali.. originally from India lives
      there now doing her new job noW in Management
      Accounting.. so it’s kinda in honor of her and yes
      only meaningful to me and her.. i guess.. if she ever
      sees it wading through all i do.. which of course is noW
      Legion.. and sometimes seemingly Foreign too of course too..
      but considering this whole dam blog is the longest long form
      poem in history.. i like to honor those who touch my life including
      all the symbols and nature of life.. so a photo of almost anything
      will meet my very low bar of LIKE LIKE LIKE LIKE ALL STUFF LIFE..
      AND ASSOCIATED SYMBOLS AS SUCH TOO.. AND yes the Marijuana working
      Medical solution has been suggested to my wife before.. and i understand
      that Medical Marijuana is becoming legal here in Florida.. but my wife is one
      of those folks who cannot tolerate Alcohol or Marijuana.. and interestingly
      while i used to drink to get rid of all my social anxiety and general hang
      ups when i went to bars when young.. ranging up to the equivalent
      of a 6 pack of beer.. or so.. just when i went out to vegetate
      mostly as a wall flower.. as i was Oh God.. impossibly
      too anxious to get up there on that dance floor
      alone then.. and when i did dance..
      it was really limited
      where my arms never
      went above my hips..
      but no more alcohol or even
      caffeine for me as i control inner
      bliss like a faucet that goes way way uP.. staYinG
      sTill in relative calm inside.. and any substance
      would just take that balance away now… while many
      of my friends smoke Marijuana.. although they don’t
      talk about that to me.. hehe.. as they know i don’t..
      when i did try it.. i hated the way it made me
      feel as it took away the Natural high i had
      when i was young.. and just made
      me feel bored and empty
      in sensory way..
      i really
      hated it
      and of course
      it must make other
      folks feel much different
      as it only made me feel low
      instead of high.. but of course
      i was born high.. more high than
      most.. so voila Bi-Polar and the such..
      but i’ve had decades of relative high
      without lows as long as i stay away
      from catch 22 stress.. that will
      basically blow me up
      to smithereens
      as i don’t like
      to leave any detail
      hanging and must have
      a clean slate to start the next
      day of problem solved.. as the
      natural perfectionist i can unfortunately
      be as you see while there is no planned
      form here.. it does come out rather smooth..
      so perhaps the perfectionist even lives as
      subconscious mind too.. and that’s why i dance..
      as it allows me to really escape the Frankenstein/
      Prometheus Brain as such.. and CAN LET IT ALL
      ICE PRINCESS GO.. WELL OKAY.. HOPE YOU
      DON’T COME BACK TO SEE THIS TONIGHT AS
      YOU SAY YOUR eyes hurt and this ain’t gonna help
      at all.. and Jesus F. Christ i am an expert on eye
      pain if there ever was one.. so i feel for yA oN thAT..
      but hey hey hey.. as Fat Albert WiLL say..
      i can’t stop the Love Train from
      Flowing go go go.. it still
      comes what may until
      the end here
      wriTE noW..
      as i continue
      to shake my tail feathers
      and Lord i had a great martial
      arts routine in Tai-Chi like speed..
      when listening to the theme song
      here tonight at the military gym..
      and the Chi was exploding
      in all directions of
      where the
      body
      sped away
      iN liGht oF aLL
      i can be as the
      Army Recruiters
      still do say.. have
      a great night friend..
      i’ve got some more reams
      of poetry to write.. and some
      dreams to do after that to wake
      up and do some more go go go.. GO
      iN SHAKING MY TAIL FEATHERS MORE..;)

  6. https://katiemiafrederick.com/2015/05/28/tears-of-god-vines/

    https://katiemiafrederick.com/2014/05/28/ascension-is-now-here/

    These three yearly series of Facebook Algorithm memories..
    demonstrate well i thInk.. the evolution of my writing style..
    moving from slow flow to full sWeLLinG Flow iN ZonE oF
    Stream of Consciousness Free Verse poeTry..
    of course what is now the longest historical
    poem ever at over 3 Million words whole
    in my Word press Blog as whole
    with this 672nd MacroVerse..
    speaKing here of the
    process as well
    as the end as means
    of product to all one..
    anyway.. also on current
    topic for this 672nd MacroVerse
    of Super Epic PoeTry MacroWhole..
    that will be named “tSuNaMi 7tH WaVe oF LoVE”..
    per the importance of poeTry.. Confidence noW..
    and overall zest for freedom of expression.. AS
    i FeeL.. the best way to honor those who have given
    tHeir liFe for Country.. is to be as free as possible..
    as that is the greatest thing about this country.. Miley
    can swing naked NoW from her WrecKinG Ball and i can
    sure as hell dance in public.. and do iT ALL ONLINE..:)

    http://katiemiaaghogday.blogspot.com/2013/05/30-safe-sites-for-people-on-autism.html

    And here is the oldest post from three years ago..
    where i am gradually on my way to recovery and
    re-entry back into humanity in the real flesh and
    blood world at the end of July 2013.. whereas
    before.. i couldn’t even go into a Whataburger
    for 15 minutes.. as was my assignment
    by my therapist then.. where not long
    after that i was dancing
    freely in public.. like
    a butterfly escaping out
    of an old and moldy cocoon..
    that WAS my physical body then..
    less and more of robot in human
    flesh and Zombie too.. but anyway..
    this altruistic effort was one of many
    that helped me get my human back.. then
    in trying to help other folks.. and eventually
    it worked big time.. and i came back ON earth
    from a living death.. and back then.. i had one
    friend on Facebook.. and none at all the two years
    before that and only this cat avatar of my beloved
    Noble Arthur Brown tabby alpha neighborhood
    block cat.. who was more frigging human than
    me in the feelings and senses that really count
    in social mammal life.. and the only other
    avatar in there is my Yellow Boy
    Kate Mia Avatar i used then on
    Google plus.. as quite honestly
    without an emotional life inside..
    i didn’t feel like i had a face at all..
    and my first selfies in August of 2013..
    were of great surprise to me.. as i actually
    saw emotion on my face.. and all my selfies
    have been therapeutic in getting my humanity
    more fully and fully back.. as quite honestly.. the
    Trigeminal Neuralgia type two.. from wake to
    sleep for those 66 months.. as well as a
    perfect storm of life threatening synergy
    of 19 disorders erased whatever parts
    of me in Feeling and Senses that
    made life worth living at all..
    i built the good parts back up..
    and left all the fears and anxieties
    behind as well as input activities like
    TV that did not allow me to develop the
    output of life in moving.. connecting.. and
    creating.. i still have the propensity for an
    extremely systemizing mind.. so art is therapy
    to F In Stay human away from Robot liFE.. as that
    was what and how folks described the way my mind
    worked both online then.. AND in my work life before
    i got sick.. yes.. they called me a computer.. a problem
    solver.. and a commodity for work.. well no.. i am NO
    longer a cog in societies machine to make other folks
    comfortable… i am now a poet.. dancer.. Singer renaissance
    nude self artist in the photographer flesh.. bottom linE noW..
    i’M
    F iN ALive..
    beginning.. ending
    stARt.. and never finish
    of never ending story i..
    and when you die dead iN
    life aLive.. if you ever you do..
    iN REAL LIFE noW AND GO WHERE
    Li’VE BEEN.. PERHAPS YOU TOO.. WiLL
    LIVE LIFE SUPER EPIc iN HEAVEN NOW2..:)

    And Facebook Friend Benjamin.. my only
    Facebook Friend.. now out of 50..
    from the Wrong Planet website..
    as it seems a dear one decided
    to no longer use
    Facebook recently..
    from my college past..
    so a core of 50 is left..
    but anyway.. Friend
    Benjamin. and by
    another way
    the other friend
    who left Facebook
    is named Ben too
    or Benny Junior II..
    not to complicate matters too..
    much but Benjamin says in response
    to my posting of this three year old memory
    from the Wrong Planet website then in Blogway2..

    good post

    And in
    response
    to that
    i say..

    Yes..
    Old Wrong
    Planet memories..
    Thanks Benjamin.:)

    Then Benjamin says..

    You dont post there much anymore

    And then i say..

    Actually i don’t post there at all anymore..
    since the end of July 2015.. the last straw
    for me was when the moderator Bookashaya
    or however she spelled her user name
    banned me for a month for giving
    Raptor back what he gives
    people to try to make
    ’em feel bad…
    i told her i wasn’t
    coming back after
    that and did mean it..
    occasionally.. i drop by to
    see if there is anything interesting
    in the PPR section.. but i find the same
    stuff that was discussed before.. basically..
    so it’s kinda like a soap opera where i’m not
    missing anything.. and anyone who frayed from
    the standard Philosophy and Religious views were
    ostracized by the militant atheists there.. and
    bullied by little boys behind avatars that were
    afraid to show their real face online.. anyway..
    i’m glad i left.. i was trying to illustrate fully
    how i overcame the most disabling impacts
    of both my physical and Autism related
    functional disabilities but most folks
    wanted to continue on with their
    misery Loves company
    philosophy along
    with cynicism of
    anything more than
    their book learning..
    there’s more to life than
    that and i find it out there in
    the flesh and blood world more
    than online.. so no.. i don’t miss that
    place at all.. but it was a life saver when
    i couldn’t effectively use my eyes and ears
    in real flesh and blood life.. or connect with
    any human much in the real world.. that hell
    is over and i have found ways to insure i don’t go back..
    and quite honestly the only nice person there other than
    Sallamandrina who is Leah who i talk about on my blogs
    and keep in touch with on Email.. is you my friend as
    quite honestly you are only one of few that had any
    common human decency there to treat other folks
    like human.. in other words you weren’t retarded
    in the worst way.. of not showing other humans
    basic empathy.. and truly at least there on
    the Wrong Planet the greatest problem
    was a lack of real human empathy..
    for those who did post.. not likely
    many Autistic Folks with empathy
    would post there as quite honestly
    i feel like most people there actually
    had personality disorders instead
    of self diagnosed Autism..
    namely Border Line
    personality disorders..
    particularly what i saw in
    other online self-diagnosed
    Autism Communities.. i couldn’t
    speak until age 4.. but my mama
    Loved me.. so i guess that was my
    saving grace to develop human empathy..
    anyway.. thanks again my old Wrong Planet
    Friend for stopping by and all the support you
    gave me while i was in hell here and there for REAL..:)

    Then Benjamin says..

    yea wrong planet is crazy hey

    And finally on
    Facebook i say..

    Yes.. Benjamin..
    Amen..

    And i say here now.. of very interesting note..
    Benjamin.. was actually an Autistic person
    who spent sometime in his younger years
    in the institution life for folks more
    severely impacted by Autism..
    he was a very caring person..
    and passionate about life..
    Another Individual on the site
    also institutionalized named Ci..
    more severely impacted by Autism
    was also very passionate and emotional
    about life.. but of course with difficulties communicating
    aS that is the bottom line with Autism as difficulty in
    reciprocal communication.. both verbally and
    actually now with the new APA definition
    of Autism more issues actually with
    non-verbal language.. anyway..
    the bottom line is both these men
    were capable of expressing human
    empathy in emotional ways.. whereas
    most people there had almost zero
    motivation or pleasure to socially
    reciprocate human language..
    in back and forth conversation..
    and in my case.. in my life.. my problem
    wasn’t a lack of wanting to reciprocate
    social communication with other human
    beings.. just a problem expressing it in
    socially appropriate and wanted ways.. i still
    tend to talk more about what i am interested in deep
    deep ways.. than what’s for dinner.. or what’s on TV.. although
    as i get older i get much much better at doing that and seeing the
    inner workings of so-called normal every day folks online and particularly
    Facebook in ways of share and likes for what the so-called common
    human does.. has helped me greatly to get in the grove of what
    most humans do in day to day life.. and sure.. i count these
    blessings much.. in ‘this’.. Longest long poem form poem
    ever.. as it reinforces A better way to really
    connect to people.. as i receive that
    warm fuzzy feeling aka oxytocin
    release.. and Serotonin
    comfort as trust and
    Dopamine/endorphins
    as a pleasurable healing
    FeeLinG when i connect
    to other human beings..
    and sadly.. the medical fAct..
    is some folks with Autism are missing
    the ability to either produce or feel these
    human neuro-chemicals/hormones from head to toe..
    noW in cellular peptide way.. and of particular emptiness
    the NON-ability to feel the social bonding hormone oxytocin..
    the stuff of the nurturing human.. being both male and female..
    and some don’t even feel it with sex.. therefore.. some of them..
    never ever even want to have sex for that reason and many others..
    BUT THE FACT IS.. MOST KNOW/FEEL NOT WHAT THEY DO.. AS WHOMEVER
    WROTE THOSE WORDS OF SO-CALLED JESUS ON THE CROSS INTUITIVELY
    UNDERSTOOD.. WHETHER OR NOT THEY KneW THE BIO-CHEMISTRY FACTS
    BEHIND THE MISSING FEELINGS OR NOT.. so these people deserve empathy
    and sympathy too.. and while folks love to call them evil.. and in literal
    ways when they harm folks.. instead of bonding with them..
    the behavior can be viewed as evil.. STILL.. OFTEN.. THEY
    ARE MISSING SOME OF THE GLUES OF SOCIAL
    ANIMAL LIFE IN WAYS OF NEUROCHEMICALS AND
    NEUROHORMONES.. so it’s like they are running
    on a very LOW OCTANE OF HUMAN GASOLINE
    or viscosity of Oil that makes them rather
    thick when it comes to wanting
    and making reciprocal
    social communication
    a warm and fuzzy reality
    in trust and comfort in others..
    Nature.. and God yes.. in FeeLinG
    Nature.. and SenSinG Nature as God
    one and sAMe.. and this is why i could
    most always predict the allegiance of a
    militant atheist there.. by the lack of affect
    of human emotion in their written language.. then..
    and it is the same in the poetry world… there are
    folks who do poetry.. as fill in the blank rhymes that
    talk about the world like tHeir is no figurative language
    of emotions too.. similar disease.. just no diagnosis in
    general.. and truly all the most destructive diseaseS in
    the world.. in terms of human psychological hurt.. carnage
    and even potential World War three.. are both a direct and
    indirect result of people who cannot easily get filled up in
    heARt.. SpiRit.. and soUl.. of FeeLinG and ExpRESSinG
    the warm and Fuzzy FeeLingS of liFE that are
    unmistakable for someone like me
    who can read that easily
    in the eYes of
    someone
    who is not
    dead inside.. or
    just pretending to be
    human in an imitation game
    as such.. i can’t show THAT much
    in my eyes anymore.. ’cause i must
    wear shades.. for medical reasons
    associated with Trigeminal Neuralgia
    so that FucKinG Hell pain will not come
    back.. and truly that is the biggest part of
    why you see so much of my eYes online..
    as that is how i for one best express my
    soUl.. whether passion for survival
    or the warm human Loving
    touch.. and i have done
    my best to make the
    rest of my face
    shine..
    and my
    body in DANCE iN ExPresSinG
    aLL the Love i feel inside
    fearless for both me and the
    rest of humanity.. along with all
    of Nature and folks dear to MEnOW
    like Yellow Boy and all his paWed
    and claWed brothers and sisters
    of the world.. you see.. like
    my nephew.. who is
    my wife’s deceased
    sister’s son.. who
    is diagnosed on
    the Autism Spectrum
    he is in learning classes
    for folks with difficulty in education
    but when it comes to empathy and the ART oF
    human touch he had a full adult understanding FeeLinG
    of that.. from the age of his middle teens.. creative.. YES!..
    Loves Disney movies.. attached to animals.. truly
    human without the grades of life that social
    cogs of machines can become
    without the human FeeLY touch..
    particularly from parents
    who are too busy
    for their
    children
    in touchY feeLY
    face to face NOW hUwOmAniFEST
    interaction for whatever reaSon
    from the two parent high class jobs..
    that take all their effort.. to noses in
    4 to 5 inch screens.. at the dinner
    table in restaurants where the
    child is tugging at the
    mom or dad’s shirt
    and they are
    not even
    FucKinG NOTICED
    BY THE PARENTS.. i got all
    the attention i needed from my
    mother THEN whether i could speak
    to her until age 4 or not.. and the
    greatest reward of all her effort
    is I AM STILL FucKinG HuMAN
    AFTER ALL i’VE BEEN THROUGH
    IN HELL..
    THE GIFT
    OF A MOTHER
    WHO TOUCHY FEELY
    LOVES THEIR CHILD AND A
    FATHER TOO.. iS FUCKING PRICELESS
    AND CAN FUCKING SAVE THE WORLD
    AS OPPOSED TO CLOSED HEARTS
    AND EYES
    WHO DO NOT
    EVEN NOTICE LOVE
    ANYMORE IN
    THE WARM
    AND
    FUZZIES OF WHAT
    HUMANAS ARE EVOLVED
    TO BE.. FROM HEAD TO TOE
    TO EYES TO HOLDING HANDS
    TO HUGS.. AND THE SEXUAL
    INTERCOURSE THAT BRINGS
    PEOPLE TOGETHER TO RAISE
    CHILDREN INSTEAD OF HEY
    I SCORED
    AND THERE IS
    ANOTHER NOTCH
    ON MY BELT OR BRA..
    BOTTOM underwear/panty
    LINe NOW
    HUMANITY
    COUNTS
    WHEN REAL
    NO MATTER
    WHAT THE FUCKING
    REPORT CARD SAYS
    AT SCHOOL OR WORK NOW..
    or in bars for scores instead of Love
    Love is the only score that trUly counts
    when the head meets the bed of death.. NoW
    And the after life.. but i stick to what
    i can prove not what i have 100%
    Faith and Belief in the THAT
    God speaks to me
    in God’s way
    of doing
    thAT aLways
    noW in Synchronicity
    ways of ALLTHATISART
    OF GOD’S EyES US NOW
    WHEN FINDING SEEKING
    AS OPEN TO ALLTHATISARTNOW
    AND practicing allthatis alWayS noW
    As Tapestry oF Fearlessly LoVinG LiFE as Art
    with the just the science as vehicles and vessels
    to drive
    around iN
    Fearless Sacred Love
    wHere aLLiS Holy SacRed noW..;)

  7. ‘Funny’.. how ‘some” fundamentalist
    ‘Christians’ can Oh! DeVIL! YES!..
    now sTiLL support an
    ‘Anti-Christ’
    like ‘this’..
    and don’t get me
    wrong.. Hillary
    ain’t a Saint..
    but.. yeah..
    just sayin’..
    THIS IS TRULY InSANE..
    iN.. HuMAN SPEAK AT LeAST..
    And as of 5282016.. close to
    9 million views of the viral
    Facebook Video version
    of this.. let’s shoot for
    300 million or so..
    but nah.. there
    iS ZERO CHANCE
    THIS DeVIL DUDE IS
    GONNA WIN.. iT Is
    AN EPIC
    DEMOCRATIC
    TRUMP CARD
    FOR YEARS
    TO COME
    IN POLITICAL
    LIBERAL LEANING
    SUCCESS IN CHANGING
    THE U. S. of A.. unless Republicans
    can find the Real Jesus and convince him
    to run.. but nah.. he or she would never slime to THAT…
    Sorry.. no.. i’M NOT.. iF it hurts.. but truly like the big
    J says.. THAT can set
    yA
    FReED..
    yA kNow.. i would
    Love to be in a room..
    with TRUMP ALL ALONE..
    let’s say with a bright light..
    and we could just talk.. talk..
    talk.. TALK.. for FucKinG 40 hours
    NOW.. straight.. without sleep.. to see
    who would win the DeViL/ANgEL NOW..
    battle..
    in REAL
    HeLL.. bet he
    would quit by
    the 39th hour..
    but in all fairness i would
    have the advantage as i’ve already
    gone 40 days with only 1 hour of shallow
    sleep the first 35 of 40 with an alpha blocker
    and none the last 5 out of 40 days with the
    worst pain known to mankind and 18 or so
    synergy of life threatening disorders.. in
    REAL HELL THEN.. and sure 11 million
    words of documentation along the way..
    66 months now.. oh.. another 66 comes
    up NoW.. how cool.. since November
    Thanks Giving day of 2010.. oh joy..
    when i started all this writing
    then.. anyway.. as i say the
    Monkey does not fall out
    of the tree.. and the
    Hawk does not
    Fall out of the
    sky and i never
    kick anything less than
    a fraction of an inch away
    as i practice my FredFu ways
    of Martial Art.. because wE noW
    ALL PRACTICE CONTINUOUSLY
    iN MORE THAN OLD ANGRY WHITE
    MAN WAYS.. WITH TRUMP BUCKS
    OF DEAD HEART.. AND SOUL NOW..
    TRUST ME.. FEARLESS LOVE WINS
    IN THE LONG RUN.. AND FEARLESS
    HATE IS JUST A BOTTOMLESS PIT
    THAT FOLKS LIKE TRUMP WILL NEVER
    CRAWL OUT OF WITH THE EMPTY POWER
    OF FEARLESS
    HATE.. BlACK
    WhOLE SOUL
    ANTI-CHRIST IN
    LITERAL HUMAN METAPHOR
    THEY ARE UNTIL THEy FIND THE
    LOVE TO FucKinG GET OUT OF
    REAL HUMAN EARTH HELL NOW..
    oh what an inspiring little VIDEO noW..
    And yeah.. the end of Trump’s NOW
    unsuccessful IGNORANT HATeFiLLeD
    try at President is gonna
    look a lot like ‘this’
    video ‘here’..
    MaRK MY WORDS..
    iT’S GONNA BE RADiON
    ACTIVE iN CHANGING THE
    HIsTORY OF THE U.S. OF A..
    TO A MUCH KINDER GENTLER
    CHRIST LIKE WAY.. PER THE YES..
    angEL VERSiON oF REAL JESUS..;)

  8. Hmm.. gosh.. that Trump speech left somewhat of a bad taste
    in my mouth.. but at least it is justification enough to
    repeat the salient dance photographs of
    my last Novel Macro blog post verse with
    the cat and dog
    debate
    in ANN
    candidate Dog
    eat Cat eat Dog
    style as such.. anyway..
    aGaiN.. as i’ve clearly stated
    before.. politics is no different
    than a soap opera as it is based on
    Human Nature as whole as there are
    the more fearful conservative anxious
    folks in the world who must have
    control.. and then there
    are the more
    Liberal Leaning
    open-minded folks
    who want progressive
    change.. the nomads as such
    as it were and still is that made
    this country great to get out of conservative
    Monarchies of the Old English way.. WeLL..
    Jesus F iN Christ and God too of Nature
    they brought genetics over the
    big pond of Atlantic
    too.. so the soap
    opera goes on in
    conservative and
    liberal ways and HA! TRUMP
    A CONSERVATIVE.. hell no.. he is
    a risk taker from hell.. with no fear
    and plenty hate filled ways of Loveless
    being selfish ways.. and that is how he
    got way way ahead in a Billion or whatever
    empty bucks he stores in cabinets and
    Trump Towers of hell.. as such..
    anyway.. he knows
    how to pull
    the heart
    strings of scaredy
    dogs of red who are
    afraid of change.. he ain’t
    no cat but he is clever enough
    as all psychopathic leaders are in
    how to push the buttons of fear like
    oh my God oh my God they are gonna
    take your guns away and turn this country
    into one gigantic mosque Temple with covers
    on.. Well.. wELL.. WELL.. IT is just really boring
    but funny to me.. as it is so F iN predictable.. just
    like when Gore lost and the re-constructor military
    contract cronies.. with the head of Cheney snake
    went into Iraq after 911 to make the really
    big indusTRiO miLitary CompleX BUCKS..
    AND THAT THEY DID.. but yes.. at a
    price.. ’cause once aGAin.. Love.. and
    Hope is stronger than Fear
    and hate.. so the Dude
    who had the audacity
    for Hope got elected
    over the oh god non-
    charisma left of
    God he was boring..
    i almost cannot remember
    his McCain dam name.. but
    anyway.. that chick he was
    with was F iN Hilarious and
    i bet she would make a spirited
    dance partner too.. getting down
    at Seville as it were and now is too..
    Hmm.. what else.. ’cause i already
    had to go outside and do the
    Sun and Sand dance thingy
    to get that dEvil
    bLack Trump
    taste out
    of my
    wordY mouth..
    oh yeah.. the new age…
    the new world order as
    promised by the book dude
    Jesus.. and somehow how
    Fundamentalist Religious
    folks think oneness in a Global
    way of Love is the F iN Sign of the
    DeViL.. WeLL maybe iT iS iF YOU CAN
    catch the FULL METAPHOR OF THAT..
    but MOST WiLL NOT..
    HEHE.. SO THAT
    iS why i can say
    WTF.. yes.. whatever
    noW the FucK i liKe…
    tHe deeper pArts WiLL
    Jesus F iN Christ of how
    that story goes as Thief in the
    night not be read and if read totally
    go wRite oVER ANYONE’S HEAD
    THAT iS crazy as me as fearless without
    any FucKinG Real empathic Right Brained
    way in figurative interpretations to now get what
    the FuCK i even said.. somethings.. never change..
    Fundamentalist religious folks still don’t get the
    fact that Jesus was a Naturist who
    explored human potential with
    the God oF Nature at hand..
    to gain greater potential
    in metaphor and
    Force way..
    like Luke
    of Star wars
    says too.. anyway..
    THAT should do.. the wife
    is asking me about issues
    with the insurance bill.. which
    means i had to put my Lawyer
    Fred Head hat on and just about
    have lost my artistic flow here
    back into the mechanical
    cognition of humanly
    prescribed abstract
    constructs that
    are so far
    beyond
    the Nature
    of human being
    they are like poison
    in the water of Life but
    it is the mind and body that
    gets corrupted before anyone
    can even find a saving grace
    of one drop of God water in hell now..
    kinda like the place where Trump… Bush
    and so forth and so on live.. but WAIT!.. i underStand
    G.W. is now painting puppy dogs with quite a great
    FeeLinG in Brush way.. so maybe he found a heARt
    after all after Living in Cheney Snake heLL back then..
    for the dude with only a mechanical apparatus of heart now..
    anyWay.. i wanna get back to dVerse and catch up some tHeRe
    as Alice and Wonderland is at the theater just waiting for her
    to join
    me hEar.. hehe..
    with mysterious
    and everlasting
    magic joy down
    the rabbit whole
    of all oF tHAT
    iS noW oF course..;)

  9. Alice Through the LooKinG gLass.. not to give
    too many spoilers here.. a basic story about
    a young woman whose milestones are
    are to do six impossible things
    in life.. and you WILL to
    does this no matter
    what all the
    control
    freaks and
    naysayers say in
    Life about her achievements..
    and yeah.. blah blah blah.. sure
    Fred can relate as relatively speaking
    Fred has used the power of Hope.. Faith
    and Pure Belief with the assistance of God
    all that is.. see i told you i wouldn’t give you
    any real spoilers.. matter of fact.. at this point..
    let’s just go this REAL TALE.. FRED THR0UGH
    THE LooKinG Glass at this point here in
    my never lAnd’s longest Free Verse
    Poem iN the History of humankind
    in Long Poem Form here
    at the 672nd Macro Verse
    that of course would be
    impossible for any
    kid who could
    not speak
    until age 4
    with Autism huh..
    Well.. kNow like Britney
    say.. Oops i just did iT iN
    ever increasing poetic SpRinG
    Verse of SonG NoW MoVinG Faster
    iN oN 4 Million words of a total
    of over 11 million total since
    66 months ago on Thanks
    Giving Day.. at the
    Start oF all this
    Lightening
    Run of
    deeper words
    oF i.. after not BeinG
    able to effectively use
    my eyes or ears to read
    or hear music or most any
    words at all for 3 years almost
    to that date then.. Zombie Hunch
    Back of Notre Dame i was then..
    yes.. sorry.. blah blah blah..
    you may have heard
    this before.. but
    yes.. sure.. empiricAlly
    speaking it is one of the
    perhaps most inspiring
    stories of human
    being that
    juste happens
    to be me through
    FUCKING SHEER WILL
    AND LOTS OF LOVE FROM
    GOD.. YEAH.. LOL.. GOD EXCLAMATION
    POINT NOW.. WITH THOSE OTHER 18
    OTheR MEDICAL DISORDERS AS A SIDE
    ORDER OF HUMAN HELL TO GO WITH
    ALL THE REST.. anyway.. back
    to impossibilities in what
    humans normally
    think humans
    can or cannot
    do.. so yeah.. that
    Autistic boy Graduates
    with three degrees at close
    to the top of his classes in college..
    then Marries a woman who still looks
    the same at 46.. from 27 years ago..
    when he first met her then.. that’s two..
    Dance Walks Everywhere he goes for
    now over 5400 miles in 33 months
    approaching the distance of
    back and forth across the
    U.S oF A.. this Memorial
    Day.. from sea to sea..
    in Super Walmart..
    Target.. the Mall
    etc.. etc.. all
    through the Metro
    area for 3 and although
    i didn’t have to do much
    obvious work to keep the
    wife young.. it’s still the
    impossible more or less
    in norm of human way..
    okay.. let us move to number
    4.. and leg pressing that close
    to half a ton.. 30 times now at
    the military gym.. much more than
    any other elite military dude who has
    attempted that there.. and with my arms
    raised up in the air in perfect balance
    slowly and surely on that parallel
    leg press machine that is
    almost twice as hard
    as the standard
    Leg press
    machine ya
    mostly see in
    big man gyms..
    and now to five..
    sure.. 112 weeks
    with somewhere between
    600 to 800 photos of me and
    oh God.. so many Gorgeous girls
    and remember i have Autism and
    that ain’t standard operating procedure
    for that challenge for sure.. in the realm
    of what most folks raising an Autistic
    kid would say would be impossible
    approaching age 56 now.. well..
    what about number 6.. that’s
    a secret.. and although
    i talk about it all the
    noW it’s stlLL
    a secret service
    noW in convenant
    between me and
    the God oF aLL
    Nature.. and every
    REAL FAIRY TALE noW
    NEEDS SOME MYSTERY
    OR A HOOK AS SUCH TO KEEP
    THE INTRIGUE GOING FOREVERMORE
    NOW FOR WHO KnoWS.. PERHAPS A THOUSAND
    YEARS OR MORE.. OR WHEN SERVERS DIE.. WHICH
    EVER COMES MORE FOREVERMORE IN THE RELATIVE
    REALM OF HUMAN BEING.. in what most folks would say
    is impossible unless they witnessed iT FirsT FucKinG HanD
    noW on Facebook.. hehe.. in real time while it’s GoinG onOW..
    and yeah.. just the fAct that i did all of this NoW
    for NO God DAM money aT all IS A FucKinG
    Miracle iN itself all own it’s oWn..
    FucKinG Free now..
    so.. i guess
    We WiLL
    make number
    7 the secret
    and go from there..
    as the LooKinG Glass
    and Rabbit hole grows
    deeper and deeper with
    hidden paths exposed in
    JOURNEY OF REAL NOW..:)

  10. https://gigoid.me/2016/05/28/such-dignified-phlegmatism-is-gratifying/#comment-19417

    “Somewhere, something
    incredible is waiting
    to be known.”

    -Carl Sagan..

    i’LL go one DancE
    step further to say..
    aLWays NoW
    more to
    FeeL..
    SensE..
    and talk about
    later iN poEtry..
    And yes.. in terms of bombs
    and wars the human race has
    become a great annoyance to
    the rest of NAtuRE.. including
    hUman BeinGs.. so.. i sImply
    DancE and SinG aS noW
    iN a key of C sHarp
    EarTh humm..
    unTiL iT’s
    noW to Go to
    theEneXt AdvenTuRe..:)

  11. https://anarmchairperfectionist.wordpress.com/2016/05/27/my-nephew-3/comment-page-1/#comment-5068

    SMiLes.. many children smile.. giggle.. laugh.. share..
    SinG.. DancE and give freely.. as they have not
    forgotten how to be human
    in the basic principle
    of life
    named
    use it or lose
    it humanity noW
    but more on that
    in a few.. my friend
    Prajakta.. in your next
    blog
    post
    wRite
    oN course
    of topic.. noW
    of course.. Freedom is.. not
    holding back
    letting it go
    voila
    Go..
    Go..:)

    https://anarmchairperfectionist.wordpress.com/2016/05/28/say/comment-page-1/#comment-5069

    Hmm.. more
    than hey.. i could write
    a Novel on say.. in fAct
    i do in size on average
    every two weeks at 40K..
    anyway.. to let it flow to let i go
    to let the streAM of mind and body
    Balance become river in ocean flow..
    and to note..
    even Einstein
    who discovered
    relativity.. learned
    to stick his tongue
    out before it was too
    late to be human
    and then he
    said
    the poverty
    of humanity
    is never moving
    out of one’s inner circle
    and loving it all.. pure
    genius that man
    became
    as human
    too more than
    empirical science but
    he understood the value of
    imagination.. over one step
    two step three and more for
    A scientific method.. now then..
    and as mentioned before.. use it
    or lose it applies.. the gold of selfies and
    the starvation of any kind of facial expression
    interaction is the habit and the glory of that in
    increasing natural humanity of what science shows
    is 60 to 90 percent of natural human reciprocal communication..
    in non-verbal expression.. and nah.. Emotive icons do not
    match the almost infinite number of facial expressions
    AS the human face potential that move our emotions
    and inspireS our very basic ability
    to move in life at all..
    and literAlly
    not get
    depressed..
    again.. selfies..
    somewhat of a bandaid
    to save the human face
    from Zombie life as again..
    in all things human and animal
    too.. as i like to say.. why our friendly
    Monkeys do not fall out of trees in India..
    and other high places and hawks out of
    skies is they practice practice and practice
    more the ability to do what they naturally DO
    do and not lose it as humans literally NoW
    are as science shows 30% in measures
    of behavioral empathy have dropped off
    among college age adults in the
    last several decades.. yes..
    evidence that our
    technological
    ways of
    being our tools..
    and electronic sign
    language.. is making
    the Zombie Apocalypse
    real in that it is eating away
    our basic social animal nature
    propensity to dance and dance
    some more together in the most basic
    dance steps that are the movement of
    the human face to express emotions and
    move us higher and higher away from
    a depressing life of blunted emotions
    that can move us like the atomic
    fuel of basic neurochemistry
    and biochemistry
    whole
    of
    human being
    as inoculation
    from the Zombie
    apocalypse… yes.. back in the
    day.. they had signs on computer
    labs and engineer classes that said
    don’t forget YOU ARE HUMAN.. WeLL..
    those signs are no longer posted as so
    many
    folks
    have literally
    forgotten in cold
    frozen faces that do not noW look
    uP.. butt the ice princess learned better
    my friend.. she released her heart.. UP!
    her spirit.. her soul.. and yes sensuality
    whole as the potential for humanity to
    come back more is still tHeRe to practice..
    And that’s pArt of the reason i’ve now danced
    5400 miles in public.. believe me it forces some
    kind of facial expression of dance.. on at least
    some folks lost in the REAL ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE
    AND MAKES MY BODY GLOW BRIGHTER AND BRIGHTER..
    NO.. not even 40K thousand words every two weeks of multi
    dimensional emotional words in the sign language of blogging
    comes close to the original language of human that is dance
    that can say it all in just a smile or a twinkle of an eYe
    that moves.. CONNECTS.. and
    CREATES uS toGeTheR
    NoW..:)

  12. Oh the power of Chi.. truly
    such a powerful force of human
    and the rest of the UniVerse that
    few people know and understand until
    they experience it through the power of
    the hUman heARt.. SpiRit and MiNd
    and Body SoUl.. unleashed and
    released.. iN Balance and
    sure it comes
    through body
    language as postures..
    facial expressions and
    such as that.. but it slices
    through concrete blocks for
    the martial artist who comes
    to iNnately.. iNstinctually.. and
    iNtuitively master the force inside..
    outside.. above so below and
    all around as the Chi..
    the Qi.. the Ki..
    the KA..
    Dao..
    and so many
    other words that
    express what IS A
    HIGHER power of God
    available for human beings
    to do amazing stuff in life iS
    tHeRe for the taKing for those
    who seek it.. find it.. practice it
    and master it to higher and higher
    feats of human potential and at times
    in the snootier of stores.. like Publix..
    some old angry white dude who ‘THINKS’
    HE HAS power as established through the
    illusion of the dollar bill.. with his golf buddy
    buds.. as groups feel more confident in
    expressing so-called male power
    than a solitary male will
    do when faced
    with the
    different
    and hehe
    THE
    FUCKING
    CRAZY FOLKS
    AMONG US ENOUGH
    to do memorial day JUSTICE
    AS FREE.. thinks.. i ain’t paying no
    attention to his middle age lady
    gossiping in line.. and yes
    the dude is probably 10
    years younger than me
    and his friends all
    grey haired
    and potbellied
    fat cats on the
    golf course they
    just came off of..
    but anyway.. he don’t
    know the crazy 230LB
    Alice in Wonderland wearing
    shirt dude.. is an empath who can
    feel what’s on the emoTioNs of
    people without even FucKinG
    seeing them in physical way..
    has no idea how FucKinG hiGh
    i am WitH Chi as i could break
    a metal door off the hinges as i did
    one time when i was 20 or so at a
    McDonalds.. juST ‘casually’ pushing the
    door open.. when in a state of this CHI
    mind unknown to me what it was in mind
    and body balance then.. but here’s the thing..
    and no.. i can’t FucKinG prove it but anyone
    who has mastered the Chi WiLL tale ya..
    in the Eastern ways of doing this
    first of course.. and as any
    of our American Indian
    ancestors likely
    mastered
    in the
    call of the Wild too OF GOD..
    i can easily look at a person
    who is harming anyone with
    either verbal or physical ways..
    and like that video ‘up there’ about
    Radioactive.. can penetrate them with
    energy that says watch your step you
    are on shaky ground my friend.. anyway..
    all it takes is one direct glance from me
    in non-verbal language wHere the dance
    suddenly stops.. and i am motionless like
    the calm of a Hurricane at eYe.. and their
    heads go down.. and do not come up until
    i continue A dance as the Winds oF Y i Hurricane
    Chi goes.. as Holy Spirit of God released for both
    Love and Defense AGAINST hate if necessary in
    what makes even the smallest female martial artist
    a holy terror to a pot bellied angry old white
    man as it were and still is..
    as God IS A equal
    opportunity employer
    in making Shepard boys
    like David in metaphor KinG
    oF thE Lions sTiLL noW.. in
    ways of sWeeping Hurricane
    Winds with cAlm oF eYe at
    the Center now.. and yes..
    i thInk.. the lady with
    the name
    of a certain
    flower has a
    song for that now..
    and you do realize
    that when Jesus said
    me he was talking about
    God in me.. unleashed..
    released.. and ready to
    ROCK AND FucKinG RoLL..;)

  13. WeLL.. the 60’s or so VW Bus in multi-colored
    Memorial Background was a popular hit
    with the Lady’s as far as i like your shirt..
    but NO.. not so much for the men.. as ya
    know.. down here in Southland..
    a colorful man can scare some
    Homophobes.. but anyway..
    no complaints here but i did..
    get a Mississippian
    Biloxi native scream
    out of his Big Red Truck..
    last time i wore this at the
    Casinos and was dancing on
    the sidewalks getting squeals
    from women driving by.. and yes..
    Hot Apple Pie.. A comment indicating
    a crude way of referring to a Woman’s
    Vagina.. in Urban Language technique..
    anyway.. it’s like those anonymous online
    haters who hide behind avatars.. iT won’t happen
    to my face.. but distance saves the day.. in hater way..
    Anyway.. just imagine.. Jesus Driving the VW Bus in never
    land of heaven.. wHere all pArts of existence are equally
    important as grains oF sand holding up the mountTaiN oF
    Love and for the homophobes that attempt to climb
    on the Jesus Bus of Love.. Jesus will probably
    say.. i’m sorry i don’t know you in my Book of Life..
    but.. you know not what you do.. as you are probably
    scared you like penises yourself.. so grow up..
    and come out of the closet.. won’t ya.. instead..
    of hating up on what you kNow you are
    deep down.. and are God dam afraid..
    of.. but anyway.. you humans
    have been ruining the earth
    as Nature with your
    increasing numbers
    so WTF do you expect
    God to do to limit the numbers
    of you killing cockroach culture
    human beings against the rest
    oF God’s Nature one and sAME..
    YeS! perfect solution.. same sex message..
    ya big dummies.. that’s what God LovE noW..
    does.. iN particular to keep the numbers of yA
    offspring down from killing the
    rest of my precious species..
    Anyway.. i find it rather
    disgusting.. in church..
    yes.. my church too..
    that the so-called Sacred
    Sacrement associated with a dude
    in a book that said all pARts of Nature
    are one as same.. even in today’s God
    Dam scriptures.. still discriminates pArt
    oF God’s Nature as less sacred and
    holy in ability to do the Sacrament
    of Marriage vow thingy in the
    church.. WeLL.. let’s see..
    the Catholic Church believes
    in Evolution and Science.. so.. perhaps
    sooner noW than later they will quit splitting
    hairs out of tradition.. and JUST FUCKING
    DO THE TRUTH AND LIGHT AND SING NOW
    THE HAPPY SONG OF LIFE AS FEARLESS
    LOVE TOGETHER.. I HATE IGNORANCE AS
    IT IS PROPAGATED BY FOLKS THAT FEAR
    AND HATE THE DIFFERENT AMONG US..
    And anyway.. pretty much a moot point here
    in the U.S.. noW but i’ve already lost at least one
    nice Muslim friend in ways of social reciprocal
    communication that NO.. it’s not kool to Stone
    Lesbians in Iran after they are buried in dirt to
    tHeir chest SO they cannot cover their
    eyes.. and be killed like that out
    of hate and ignorance.. anyway…
    while this person.. did not
    agree that Isis should
    kill folks who were
    of different faiths..
    it’s still apparently a free
    for all of torture and agreement
    on the target of God’s Gay Children
    square in misery and suffering way..
    And.. sorry.. although only me and
    one person were human enough
    to disagree with her.. all her other
    American readers stayed silent..
    And that’s where murder..
    torture.. and so much
    more fear and hater
    stuff begins.. ends.. and
    begins for more.. when folks
    do not value humanity enough and
    God who lives in all of humanity and
    all of creation as one and sAMe.. ENUFF
    to FucKinG sPeak up and just say that’s
    enough that’s truly evil so just put a stop
    to it or pay the Karmic consequence as
    mArk my words they will if they do not
    quit murdering people for ignorance..
    in fear and hate.. anyway.. hope
    all the gay folks enjoyed our
    beaches down here..
    as the U.S. oF A..
    is finAlly acting liKE
    ONE NATION UNDER
    GOD as a real Memorial
    Day for the folks who died
    for Life.. Liberty.. and the
    Pursuit of Happiness.. which
    means everyone.. with no exclusions..
    which is one up on the Frigging Catholic
    Church.. i have attended every Sunday
    for going on three years.. THAT iS
    Still Separated from God..
    in ways of fear and hate
    against God’s Homosexual
    children as just another part of
    oF Nature as seen in our closest
    primate cousin.. the Bonobo too..
    As juSt pARt of maKing the balance
    of God’s Nature work how iT should..
    thiS way.. FREED.. NO EXCLUSIONS..
    WHERE EVERYONE GETS TO RIDE THE
    BUS IN FIRST TO LAST SEATING ACCOMMODATIONS..
    IN HEAVEN NOW.. anyway.. the Homosexual folks i have
    kNoWn over the years.. TRUMP… all the FOR CHRIST
    LOVE I HAVE SEEN as compared to homophobes now
    TrUlY iN LoVe liGht oVer thE DArk oF Fear and HATE..
    BOTTOM
    LiNE..
    FEARLESS LOVE
    KiCKS ASS OVER
    FEARLESS HATE..
    iN aLL tHe Trump
    ways of
    THaT..:)

    Anyway.. when people say..
    i don’t have the Key or KA
    to tHe FounTaiN oF YouTH..
    i juSt say oF course i do..
    and heRe iS clear and
    preSent eviDence oF
    wHat thAT COULD
    DO FOR YOU..
    iF yA kNew
    thE secRet
    LoVe PoTioN
    Fearless FReED2..;)

    Yep… thaT dArK hAiRed slender girl
    in Egyptian mythology..
    referred to as Isis..
    Nut.. and Mut..
    iS noT
    a real person
    then.. just a prophecy
    oF Sorts for NoW as shE Stands..;)

  14. http://starjessamine.blogspot.com/2016/05/buying-cow.html

    Oh.. Lord.. a quick
    visit over to Shawna’s
    continuaLLy changLinG Blogs..

    as i say..

    Ha!
    As soon
    As i
    Saw Holy
    Now New
    iT is you..;)

    And Shawna says..

    You can spot me
    from a smile(y) away
    any day..:)

    And then i say..

    Ugh.. your myoutube
    lInks aren’t working..
    butt anyway.. read all your
    poems and my favorite one
    iS thE one aBout the fur..
    as it reminds me now of
    3D Anime Monster porn..
    and thaT is so friGGinG
    hilariOuS iN A veRy
    dArk anD furry wAy..
    hmM.. whAT elsE..
    yeaH.. i staY
    hiGh too..
    aLL.. ah..
    Nat
    uRA
    LLy butT i c H i
    baLanceS iT ouT
    WitH DancE anD
    stroKes oF lucK!..;)

  15. https://gigoid.me/2016/05/29/pomegranates-in-lime-coulis-to-go/#comment-19423

    “Grain grows best in shit.”

    ~~ Ursula K. LeGuin ~~

    Oh Lord.. Ain’T thAT thE trUth..
    and probably one of the world’s
    greatest problems iS not enough
    people toe the sand anymore..
    yes.. the struggle noW..
    Now iS most Of thE
    bATtle For heavenoW…
    tHe Victorious neVer
    give up or tUrn to
    Vengeance
    but yeS..
    sWords
    oF WiT..
    SpiT diRt
    iN
    tHeir
    eYes..
    Blind..
    mY FriEnd..
    foR poTenTial aWake
    wiTh SiGht aNd hEAr..:)

  16. Yeah.. i realize iT’s almost
    Memorial Day now but
    truly there is only one
    Holiday for me always
    now.. and that is the
    Independence day
    of the 4th of July
    where alWayS
    noW iS Saturday
    in the park oF Y i..
    and does anyone
    Know what time iT is
    Thanks God i don’t and
    that is why i for one make
    aLWAYS now the Fourth oF July
    oF Independence Day.. and truly
    i Feel sorry for those who do not
    exercise more fully that great
    privilege and right wE have iN
    this country for the unalienable
    God oF Nature giveN right
    for LiFE.. LiberTy and
    the purSuit of
    Happiness thaT
    can mean the
    U.S. oF A.. CaN
    be thE REAL GARDEN
    OF EDEN IN LEGEND WAY
    THAT IS NO MYTH AT ALL AND
    ALL iS RAEL now.. iN a place of
    HeavenOW.. only dreAMed oF..
    days beForE.. anyWay thAT
    daY of allthatis aka God
    and God’s Kingdom
    as gifted as Human
    Fearless Sacred Love..
    iS noW for those who SeeK
    iT.. FinD iT.. and practice allthatiS..
    NoW iN MoVinG.. CoNecTinG.. and
    CreaTinG.. way.. as to lose
    Heaven when it can
    certainly be found..
    exercised and
    practiced aLWayS
    noW as i document
    every God dam day
    here iN Fred’s HeaVeN
    iS possible for many otHeRs
    too.. when they get to tHeir
    own TrUth and LiGht WitH the
    God Of Nature allthatiS now juSt aS iS iS..:)

  17. https://katiemiafrederick.com/2014/03/13/my-cat-is-a-tai-chi-master/

    An Enlightened one of Nature..
    yes..! Yellow Boy doing his early
    morning Yoga Pose in Tai Chi Balance..
    no less balanced than the way he walks to
    conserve all energy for the fight or flight of liFe
    when necessary to reduce cat suffering.. to be at
    ONE with allthatis Nature also known as God.. or
    if you are Buddhist you choose not to name it with
    a humanly designed abstract three letter word concept..
    but never the less a Buddhist Will tale ya.. no less than
    a Christian that Heaven is possible after life and of course
    in life in the State of Nirvana no less than what is relayed
    in the New Testament of so-called Jesus that heaven
    is at hand in a different state of mindful awareness
    away from worry.. yes.. fear.. jealousy.. doubt..
    hate.. and all other con-social emotions
    but HA! IN BOTH Christianity and
    Buddhism.. lust is considered
    a sin.. instead of the
    now scientifically
    evidenced juice
    of most all stuff
    human in creativity
    and basic productivity..
    while meditation is the human
    way of escaping negative thoughts
    and thoughts in general.. Yellow Boy
    is not saddled with this neocortical deficiency
    as such.. as he comes with the full package of
    innate.. instinctual and intuitive ways in mind and
    body balance soul.. of Emotional heArt… expresSinG
    this emoTioNal heArt as SpiRit in yes.. a miNd and boDy
    BaLanCinG soUl.. without the ambulance traffic of worry
    thoughts about oh my God i don’t have the biggest house
    in the neighborhood.. the most shapely breasts or the
    longest God dam dick.. in the gym locker room..
    BUTT!.. YES.. before he got ‘the operation’..
    he FEELS AND SMELLS the value of lust
    to get the job of reproducing
    done.. and there’s no
    holding back
    in wild CAT
    ways of doing that
    for long term survival
    oF tHe cat species at hand..
    and seriously.. out in the wild..
    depending on the resources noW at
    hand.. it can be a real struggle full
    of misery and suffering.. no different
    than what THE BUDDHA DUDE SO-CALLED iN India
    SAW BACK then.. outside of the castle of all
    ya can eat tender vittles.. anyway.. a balance
    yes.. and attachment to material goods and
    making the tools us instead of what we
    naturally are all naked in nature..
    is a big no no.. for simple
    Nirvana and Bliss
    of the morning
    kitty kat
    who lives
    life in the liGht
    of God of aLL Nature at
    Peace.. without all the worries
    of mortgages.. car payments.. and
    sure he still has the tools of claws and
    jaws to survive in the wild like he did before
    he met us two years or so into his wild cat life to
    bring him the easier ability to enjoy early morning
    Nirvana in the SunliGht of GOD ALLONE WITH NO
    GOD DAM HUMAN SEPARATION FOSTERED BY
    FRIGGING WORDS COLLECTED IN BOOKS WITH
    RULES OF PRISON WHEN THERE IS OBVIOUS
    ABUNDANCE THAT COULD BE SHARED IN
    SMALLER HUMAN GROUPS IF WE DIDN’T
    LIVE IN INSANELY LARGE POPULATIONS
    THAT HUMANS ARE STILL ONLY EVOLVED
    TO LIVE with just 150 to 200 sets of
    touch feely naked eye connections
    together as one happy human
    Bonobo-like family that
    uses sex together
    to get rid of the
    frustrations Now
    of Neo Cortical
    existential thoughts
    about what comes next..
    or what was before.. particularly
    in the case of human beings noW with
    books.. and particularly big black books
    that suggest that going away from human
    Nature like repressing lust and becoming
    celibate is a great thing to do to become a
    spiritual leader.. overall.. as we already know
    how that works with pedophile fetish priests.. yes..
    God dam Buddhist Monks and Muslim clerics who have
    also been caught with the little boys pants pulled down..
    and yes.. the so-called men of God partaking of using little
    boys for slaves to fill their sexual desire that would be
    much better used in a willing vagina or hand than
    harming a little boy as history shows always
    happens when humans get out of the
    Nature of God’s Balance that is
    consensual Lust and Love between
    Loving primates..
    where humans
    have made women
    and little boys into slaves
    to suit tHeir whacked out of Nature desires
    now from a life of withholding lust instead
    of letting it go and flow.. in consensual
    non-harming ways.. YEAH.. tHiS iS A SOURCE
    STILL OF MUCH MIDDLE EASTERN AGGRESSION
    AND VIOLENCE By noW SHUTTING DOWN HUMAN
    LUST BY FORCE.. THEREBY MAKING RECRUITING
    TERRORISTS EASY BY LETTING THEM RAPE LITTLE
    GIRLS OF OTHER FAITHS IN CONQUERING THEM.. AND
    PROMISING 72 YOUNG VIRGINS AFTER LIFE IN SUICIDE
    BOMBINGS.. ANYWAY.. i live in Miley Cyrus wrecking ball
    land where sexuality is celebrating in oh so many wonderful
    and lusty ways that increase human creativity and balance
    except for folks with the disease of addiction that are gonna
    get addicted to something to excess that harms them
    no matter what.. as most often the core issue of
    that disease is mammas.. daddies..and or peers
    then and now who did not cultivate the garden
    of touchy feely love at a relatively tender
    young toddler age and in school boy.. girl
    days and even work days too.. all around..
    so yeah.. i veer paths with the ignorance
    of both Buddhism and Christianity.. and
    Islam too as ‘they’ FAIL TO UNDERSTAND WHAT
    FUCKING HUMAN AND GOD GIVeN HuMAN NATURE FeeLinGsEnSes
    EVEN iS.. and to suggest tHeRe is no God as a Buddhist
    and then go on to say you are going to live forever in bliss
    away from this earthly plane is the height of hypocrisy as
    how the fuck do you get to control that if there is no other
    higher power either named or unnamed.. it matters not
    as Yoda Might say as this Force of God that can
    certainly be unnamed but is still God dam named
    when someone calls it the Force one and same
    as Force underlying allthatis same and ONE..
    i say.. LET’S GET REAL.. THiS iS FucKinG
    GOING DOWN FOR REAL ALwAYS NOW
    AND DON’T FOOL OURSELVES TO
    BELIEVE THAT GOD LIVES
    ANYWHERE BUT EVERYWHERE
    ALWAYS NOW.. INSIDE.. OUTSIDE..
    ABOVE.. SO BELOW.. AND ALL AROUND.. NOW NOW NOW..
    there is no escaping the God of Nature.. no.. not
    even after death.. as even science shows that
    Energy always exists whether in matter or not..
    and we are energy at core.. same subatomic stuff
    as the Stone of the Mountain of gRains oF sand
    that hold up the Mountain of Love as human
    potential when we work together in naked
    flesh of lust and love instead of against
    each other when we make cars
    lovers and brick houses
    and pyramids
    Gods.. NOW YES..
    now WE are God
    allisGod NOW
    allthatis now…
    and tHeRe ain’t no need
    to fear attraction to breasts
    Penises and Vaginas or even GOD YeS..
    firm male butts if you are a valley
    girl.. depending on whatever the FucK
    God given sexual orientation the God of
    Nature gives ya from birth or extension of
    cultural leaning ways of being in Nurture NoW
    iN aLL.. YES.. BALANCE iS KEY.. ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE
    WITH THE DISEASE OF ADDICTION.. BALANCE Is NoW
    KEY.. VERY POSSIBLE WITH A LOVING FAMILY AND
    PEERS FROM BIRTH WHO MOVE… CONNECT.. AND
    CREATE FROM BiRTH IN GIVING SHARING WAYS noW..
    SO.. ON THIS MEMORIAL DAY WHILE I GREATLY RESPECT
    THOSE WHO HAVE DIED WHO GIVE ME THIS YELLOW BOY
    IN BALANCE OPPORTUNITY TO HAVE BOTH TENDER LOVING
    VITTLES AND THE GOD DAM CALL OF THE WILD TOO IN BALANCE noW
    I SAY JUST REMEMBER YOU ARE A CHILD OF NATURE.. YES GODoNE
    AnD SamE.. both seen and unseen and sure i intuitively FEEL the essence
    of myoUr soUl LiVes forever the same as God dam Buddha.. or Jesus or
    whomever the other countless enlightened primates or such as those
    intellectual and artful beings have come to understand
    all over and beyond the UniVErse and InFinity
    beyond thAT alWays now.. anyWay..
    Yellow Boy is far more advanced
    in being one with God than
    most humans mired
    as tools are
    today.. all
    he needs is fur..
    paws and claws to
    be one with God in
    thE Sunlight oF BreaKinG
    dawn who he is at core noW
    with the liGht of God Now..
    and yes.. the tender loving
    care and tender vittles helps
    but no.. i’M not sure what brand
    name Katrina buys.. but he only
    eats what he needs to get BuY..
    to maintain his youthful God cat
    appearance in balance and bliss
    in the law of claws of God set FReED WitH i..
    Culture.. is an enormously large millstone for a
    human being noW to escape with a vision quest that
    is truly still necessary these days away from spoon
    fed culture no different than the legends of the Buddha
    and the Jesus and whatever is truly historical fAct of those
    two men’s lives.. and sure.. Muhammad rates too.. but OH GOD..
    levels of violence still propagated by that associated religion
    truly does show it doesn’t work well as the sacred text is not
    clear enough for folks as whole to actually practice
    peace and harmony in BaLaNcinG REAL EFFECT.. and sure..
    those problems exist everywHeRe.. including heRe..
    wHeRe humans live in insanely large populations..
    particularly.. in low resource areas like
    desertS of course.. yeah duh.. that’s
    just FucKinG common sense and
    why tHeRe is so much CONTROL
    FOR BASIC GOD DAM SURVIVAL..
    so.. the answers are still
    in A way like the
    ones of the Jesus
    and the Buddha.. they must
    be obtained at the individual level
    in seeking finding and practicing A INdividual
    way that works for each person as we are all
    different in the bio-diversity of God for the
    struggle of life that allows us to survive
    for the longest eras of now
    ALIVeNoW bottom
    linEnoW..
    what works
    works… seek It..
    find IT.. use it.. or
    never NoW find it or lose
    iT as in all stuff animal
    oF God oF aLL LiFeNOW now
    so hEar with my Memorial
    Day treatise on remembering
    who and what we are at core..
    a little Vision quest music and
    the life of the Buddha celebrated
    in PBS documentary way..
    anyway.. no one
    owns the
    trUth and liGht
    but the LiVinG God
    as yes.. Force that lives
    all that is inside us .. outside
    us and all around us NOW above oh!
    so below.. to make the best of iT
    iN INTerdependent relationship
    with allthatis God can be
    YES.. RELATIVE
    HUMAN WILL iN
    MASTERING
    THE NIRVANA..
    THE BLISS OF HEAVEN
    NOW.. BUT REMEMBER2 NO
    ONE OWNS THAT BUT GOD
    AND YOU ALL NEVER A SLAVE
    TO TEXT OR ONE HUMAN ALONE..
    FREEDOM IS FREE
    ALWAYS
    BOTTOM
    LiNE
    NOWFReED..:)

  18. Okay.. so in conclusion here.. while i might still go way up
    back ‘up’ there and finish the Thursday Open
    Link from dVerse poeTry poetic responses
    to keep this Trojan Horse of
    longest Long
    Poem Form
    eva in the
    History of Humankind
    with all the colors that must
    come in to keep it somewhat
    monolithically interesting too..
    going.. approaching 4 million
    words now in this 672nd verse
    as inspired and in covenant
    with God too of course but
    hell no.. it ain’t like
    ‘we’ jUst
    have a beer
    and chit chat
    to discuss this
    stuff but haha..
    it can even be stranger
    than that in non-verbal
    terms too.. hehe.. noW
    of course iN synchronicity
    ways of tapestry of all ‘A
    God Art and science put
    together in one whole painting
    of beauty forevernowallmorenow..
    so anyway.. basic instinct lie of Christianity..
    Islam.. and Buddhism.. the big three religions
    that some folks like to lie to themselves
    and say Buddhism isn’t a religion
    as i pull out my handy dandy
    Wiki instruction on that
    here and quote:

    Okay i’ll go easy on ya..
    and use the long term
    Merriam Webster
    Def. of religion
    AS we analyze
    it in Layman’s
    terms using
    Fred Logic
    here..

    RELIGION

    : the belief in a god or in a group of gods
    : an organized system of beliefs, ceremonies, and rules used to worship a god or a group of gods
    : an interest, a belief, or an activity that is very important to a person or group

    Well.. the truth is Islam.. Buddhism.. and Christianity all meet
    the third part of this three part and or or and definition
    of religion.. and yes.. of course science and
    the scientists WHO passionately
    use science as an interest, a
    belief, or an activity that is
    very important to a
    person or group..
    Jesus F iN Christ
    of course meet THAT
    definition as clearly
    expressed noW iN this
    Symphony of science
    video ‘heRe’.. same passion
    same preaching with emotion
    same mysteries and imagination
    of God and Nature one and same
    of what is known and unknown in
    all the mysteries of what is as is noW..
    Bottom line.. replace the word Nature with
    God and they are talking about the same
    God dam Interconnecting Force as
    Interdependent relationship
    of allthatis AKA GOD ONE
    GOD ALL NOW ALL OK..
    let’s not get caught up
    in priSons of words
    LET’S JUST GET
    REAL AND ADMIT
    IT IS THE SAME
    GOD DAM THING
    ALL REAL NOW.. ALL NOW.. OK..;)

    but anyway here is the clear evidence
    of THAT NOW IN THE VIDEO HERE..

    Okay.. so back to Islam and Christianity now.. the other
    two of the big three religions in the world today..
    Well.. Christianity as whole clearly worships
    a man on a cross named Jesus..
    they stand.. they kneel and they
    bow to Jesus too.. and yes..
    although not all folks
    do this with an idol
    form of Buddha.. it’s
    plain to see many do and
    argue as to who is or is not
    veering from the Buddha’s
    teaching of who’s got the real
    message real of supernatural
    too.. yeah.. legend has it that
    Buddha was born of a Virgin birth
    too.. not unlike the same mythology
    of Jesus.. and Horus of Isis and
    Osiris too.. same story.. just
    different God dam
    actors in
    the play..
    of human history
    stories that house
    the vessels and vehicles
    of Truth or Not and or both
    Truth and Not.. and Islam..
    well that’s a little more tricky
    but as obvious as a man who
    changed the laws of the day
    to get his dick in one more
    little girl who never has
    a chance to find
    her own
    independence
    first before owned
    as a slave back then..
    and sure if your dick
    is really hard as pedophile
    then.. you can get even get
    10 AS more little girls by the
    price of a dowry too historically
    set as precedence by that somewhat
    sick in the mind and body balance
    dude Muhammad.. and Jesus F in
    Christ.. per what so-called Nicene
    Creed talks to about putting the
    dead and alive on trial and
    judging then.. i’ve already
    given plenty of Muslim
    Folks time and effort
    to defend Muhammad
    but they failed miserably
    as they cannot deny the
    lust of his selfish ways..
    over love with slavery of
    others by purchase instead…
    sorry NO.. it pisses me and GodONE
    oFF Very much.. in the eYes sTill of
    stove top burned beautiful young
    women in Pakistan.. tortured ’cause
    A husband didn’t like the slave money
    for the wife enough to be satisfied in
    eyes of Muhammad still then now..
    yeah.. i read about Muhammad playing
    with the dolls of that 9 year old girl whatever
    her name was that he purchased at a young
    age.. and what particularly makes me sick
    is Muslim women come to believe THAT is
    sweet and loving.. when truly it is so
    God dam sick.. in perversion
    of what the greatest
    gift to human
    Love even is
    more than
    sticking a dick
    in a little girl’s private
    parts.. for perhaps the
    reason he didn’t feel man enough
    to do it with an ADULT woman at that
    point in his life.. you know a
    FULLY mature one and not
    a little bitty girl..
    ugh.. this putting
    Devils on trial is not
    a task i like to do.. but
    ya know the Covenant
    thingy and all to bRing
    GREATER TRUTH AND LIGHT..
    God is the Judge.. i’m just
    the court reporter.. and
    scribe.. and sure prophet
    too.. in healing SOMEwayS..
    yep2.. oKay..
    And yes..
    by penalty
    of death.. if ya say
    Muhammad don’t have
    the last word from God you
    can be punished by death
    if you live over ‘there’..
    FAIL.. MISERABLE
    FAIL.. THE GOD JURY’S
    OUT.. MUHAMMAD FAILS
    MISERABLY FOR THE CAUSE
    OF FREEDOM IN GOD’S CHILDREN’S
    FREE EYES AWAY FROM SLAVES THAT
    ARE BOUGHT WITH DOWRIES AND SUCH
    AS THAT.. but yes.. it is what it was and CAN
    be different if more folks wake up and quit
    worshipping Muhammad as a God no
    different than Jesus.. or for the
    folks who bow down to an
    idol of Buddha too..
    and fear to veer
    from whatever tHe
    Fuck he suggested then..
    while humans are never cookie
    cutter replicas as sure some can go
    without lust by nature.. but a balance
    of lust and love is what makes humans
    most creative and productive for survival
    and that is why mostly the United States
    has been the leader of the free world up
    until around now.. where the U.S has
    failed miserably.. recently.. in ways
    of greed.. and killing others
    for the almighty dollar
    of illusion away
    from the
    God of Nature
    now.. well.. anyway..
    YES.. the trUth can hurt..
    NOW but the liGht feels
    great wide awake once
    one arrives there.. and the
    trUth and liGht is.. science so
    far as both a religion and one
    that can see the interdependent
    relationship of all that is one and
    same from inside us.. outside us..
    and all round us above so below..
    is doing the best God dam great
    job so far overall.. with
    at least not raping
    too many little
    girls.. stove
    top burning
    wives.. going into
    Iraq by calling three
    other countries the axis
    of evil.. to use God to Kill
    as a defense.. so dam INSANE..
    or bombing A Japanese ISLAND
    and killing almost 100 thousand
    innocent people there same
    as Iraq over there.. yep..
    most everyone has
    blood on their hands..
    and yes.. science does too..
    as mistakes in the medical profession
    are the third leading cause of death
    in the U.S. now too.. too many folks
    relay on external substances to heal
    themselves rather than the all
    Natural Yellow Boy power
    inside who is doing
    fine by the way..
    after surviving
    feline leukemia
    for around 8 or 9
    years now.. and perhaps
    it is all natural Tai Chi and
    Yoga Poses at peace and
    rest in still call of the Wild
    Balance with a serving
    of tender vittles love
    to keep life
    bright
    and liGht
    now.. it beats
    raping little girls
    for a price for dam
    sure or the spoils of wars
    in promises of 72 virgins
    after life too.. tRust me..
    God over all as God lives
    in all is not very happy with
    the human race.. and sure.. while
    not many people may read this or give
    a shit.. it matters not.. as God
    Speaks For God allone
    iN ALL of US
    never separated
    now when free allone..
    the wages of going against
    that allone is real sin.. the
    balance with it is simply
    Nirvana and bliss
    now
    ONE AND
    SAME AS THE
    HEAVEN OF NOW..:)

  19. OH.. yep.. and in addendum to
    conclusion here..
    iF anyone thInks
    thaT Synchronicity
    is not real.. in terms
    of the ant who has no
    idea what the hive looks
    like when the ant finishes
    the individual of teAM task
    at the end of the day now..
    or the fleA.. who dePends
    on the Dog for its very
    survival but has no
    idea what makes
    the whole
    dog NoW
    tick with
    holy and
    sacred blood
    as meal for life..
    Secrets in plain siGht
    show clearly the phenomenon
    of the same hive LiKE synchronicity
    of human behavior too.. and no.. not an
    individual or even nation effort alone but
    an entire iNnate.. iNstinctual and iNtuitive
    art of creaTiViTy thAt Flows iN God’s eYes
    oF UniVersal Flow as a streAm that flows
    into a River of Ocean one wHole ZonE..
    now.. as wE.. and iT makes mE giggle
    when conspiracy theorists
    on the Internet suggest
    there is some
    kind of WHoLE
    secret corporation
    plan of ruling the world
    in one world new age order
    when it is simply and complexly
    yes.. beyond the human power
    oF reaSoNing to the
    non-empirical
    meaSuRinG
    Art of God
    wHOle nowoNe
    Force of brush
    aS paiNt iN Action
    with beYond inFinite
    hAnds on thE liGht oF
    Brush noW iN yes dARk wAves
    oF negative too.. so the best
    advice is to grab hold of the brush
    and ride in new heights of liGhts ReAL
    wAvE.. trUe.. iT IS A TEAM EFFORT AND THE
    CALL OF GOD HAS BEEN SET FREE back into
    HuMans OF LITTLE AND BIG BLACK BOOKS aS
    DancEs and SonGS oF artistS iN Global Wide wayS..
    and even profit making organizations that sell shoes
    that say JUST DO IT.. iN GOD OF VICTORY OVER VENGEANCE noW
    WAY.. i added in the Vengeance pArt oF Course for a wheeL rehearsed..
    No Harm Clause for the best oF Fearless Love LIFE Now.. a drink of
    water for all when aLL liVes In JuST DoinG Fearless Love LiFE Now..
    so with that sAid.. iT’s Memorial day and the gym is cloSinG early
    for celebration ways.. but no different than when i started a
    little warrior journey as A soldier of God at age 12 with some
    rudimentary concrete and bar weights.. Fearless is required
    to truly express Love.. thE GreaTesT iN love aS Sacred waY..
    so here comes a three hour or so Exxtreme Martial arts..
    ballet-waY iN intense strength training too.. noW witH
    the technology of free FloWinG Nautilus
    Golden Spiral machines that exercise more
    range of motion and paRts of the body
    than just free weight exercises and
    such as that.. but no.. no rat
    treadmill repetitive cage
    movements for me..
    all so freE noW..
    i WiLL Tai Chi-like
    move my way fast and
    slow.. iN InfiNite more and
    potential nuanced Movements
    and Associated EmoTions aS
    experienced per way of peptide
    receptors of positive insPiRinG
    Electronic music with associated
    Neuro-chemicals and hormones way
    noW hiGher to fiRe A praCTiCinG
    play oF Y i.. aS A conTinUinG
    pasSioN oF miNdful bodYFuLL
    Awareness iN balance oF soUl..
    wHere the creaTiVitY iN wayS
    Of DancE and SonG oF poEtry
    WiLL Fly hiGher and hiGheR
    SOaRing around the God oF/iN/aS..
    i.. wE.. mE.. uS.. sAMe ONEnoWonE..:)

  20. Oh Lord.. of Beers and Bowling Alleys
    and all them years i had to drink
    a beer to relax.. well.. i’m glad
    i don’t need no more beers
    to Chill out.. and noW this
    ‘tSuNaMi 7tH WaVe oF LoVE’
    is dedicated on Memorial Day
    to my 1st cousin Dickey who died
    in a fiery Helicopter crash in Vietnam..
    back in ’69.. i remember he said he
    always wanted to buy a Camaro and
    marry his sweetheart when he got back..
    Well.. i was fortunate.. was born just at the
    right time where i didn’t volunteer like my
    cousin did for the ’cause of preserving
    life… liberty.. justice.. and the pursuit of
    happiness over here in the
    U.S. of A.. and yes i married
    my sweet heart and drove
    a teal green super
    sporty Camaro
    for all of 14 years..
    and sadly.. since then..
    in ’69.. it’s hard to find a fully
    truly justified war for good
    but never the less.. plenty
    of folks were still fighting for
    freedom no matter what the higher
    ups were arranging for them next..
    and that reminds me.. never thank
    a living Veteran for their service
    on Memorial Day as more than
    likely they will get a little
    indignant.. and i was
    talking to the X-Commodore
    of the Naval Station where i work-
    out about just this same thing a couple
    of hours ago.. yeah.. an amazing dude
    in his 70’s.. still squatting over 400LBS..
    as solid as monument of a Human Rock..
    without steroids.. yeah that Movie Star ‘Rock’..
    in the REAL special services S.E.A.L.
    operation and spending
    years ’66 to ’70 in
    Vietnam witnessing
    the Loss off 44 of his
    fellow sailors to deaths
    as horrible as being chopped
    in half by chopper blades in
    front of friends.. and one guy
    he said who only served 4 hours
    and was killed.. oh.. the price of Freedom
    iN Life.. Liberty.. and our current pursuit of
    happiness has been the steepest price of all
    for many through our history.. and hopefully now
    with more freedom of information.. NO unjustified
    wars where our own young men and women and
    other young men and women of other countries noW
    are NOT sacrificed for a dollar bill.. some reconstruction
    of an oil country or whatever suits the administration
    higher ups.. fancy.. of psychopathic leaning current
    REAL INTENTION.. then.. no more.. JUST DON’T
    DO IT HERE.. NEVER EVER DO IT.. YOU HEAR..
    Life.. Liberty.. Justice.. and the pursuit of Happiness
    are worth dying for overall for the Human species
    to thrive alive.. but lies.. oh no.. OH NO.. OH NO.. NO NO..
    DON’T
    DO IT UNDER
    ANY FucKinG Circumstance
    as trUly the God oF aLL iS watching
    iN and as aLL oF uS.. anD more
    of US are free than
    ever before..
    and that
    counts
    for
    a
    LOT..
    while WE ABIDE..:)

    OKaY.. noW..
    thE otHeR
    YelLow Boy
    CAMe BacK.. TG..;)

    Facebook Friend Rafiah
    from Pakistan says..

    As you talk about inner healing,
    this reminds me to tell you that Ramazan
    is just around the corner. And it all about
    inner healing. I am going to be such a good baby.
    Hahaaa wink emoticon grin emoticon

    And then i say..

    Oh Gosh.. Ramazan is like alWays noW for me..
    and your Ramazan starts the day before my 56th birthday..
    the 6th.. on June 5th.. sMiLes mY friend.. Rafiah.. you
    are always a Good baby to me.. And good to hear from you..
    i miss you ’cause you are my REAL FRIeND.. for
    so long now.. going on
    two years..
    smile emoticon

    Then Rafiah says
    in another Facebook
    Share discussion..

    It’s very surreal where science and arts meet.
    My presentation topic for my organic course was
    biosynthesis of cholesterol in body. When I was
    studying I was so much amazed at the how subtle and
    beautiful the design is. Subhaan Allah, is the word.
    P.s I am sure you’ll google the meaning of
    Subhan Allah yourself. wink emoticon

    And finAlly i say..

    Yes.. Glory bE to God
    when art and science
    comes together
    iN the HUman
    MiNd and BoDy
    iN BaLanCinG souL
    my friEnd also through
    expresSinG EmoTioNow
    noW aS SpiRit to gET
    iT aLL toGeTheR NoW..:)

    And then Rafiah shares
    a Facebook Status about
    “Never Let Me Go”

    and i say..

    Wiki makes
    Me thInk
    Good movie
    And way..:)

    Rafiah says..

    I liked the movie.
    It was bi sad though. But it’s the
    song with the same title that I love
    so much. And me and my friend Juwairyah
    go crazy over this song. Lol actually I go
    crazy an she accompany me in my craziness.
    It was her birthday. So yeah. smile emoticon

    And finAlly iN conclusion i say..

    WeLL… happy birthday to her too..
    and stay crazy wiTh Good EmoTioNs..
    as God WiLL bE Happy WiTh you too..:)

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