Heaven is aLike aLL Over sTiLL noW



Facebook Friend Rafiah and Poet Blogger from Pakistan shares kind words about my Mother…

I never imagined myself such a beautiful death as having my beloveds around me with so much love and respect for me as you have for your mum. I feel for you. Your mum and me share same birth date as well..:) Live to the fullest with your mum and i hope she’s better now.

And i return with words that say..

Hi Rafiah.. thanks so much for providing these kind words
about my Mother and having a beautiful
death with beloveds around
one as
a time
and place
for all that is
love as long as
love dances and sings on..
My Grandmother’s Birthday was very
close to your birthday on September 13th..
as if i remember correctly your birthday is on
September 14th.. please correct me.. if i am wrong..
My Mother’s Birthday is December 10th and she did
pass away at 8:10 pm on 2.22.2017.. yes.. on Wednesday Night…
It is hard my friend but the greaTest
gift she gives me that
lives on is
love that
lives as me.. the
most beautiful gift of
Mother.. my friend.. as
the Grace of Love that flows
as river into an Ocean with boundless
shores.. where an insignificant grain of sand
as pARt of WhoLe can be friends with a nice young
woman like you on the opposite side of the globe..
Love grows my friEnd
when free..
my friEnd
when born by a Mother
and watered and fed as Garden of
Love to sow over a lifetime and be
continuously a Reap iN A Kingdom of Heaven
on this eARTh NoW.. my FriEnd.. whaT a gift by
A Mother that is.. nOw.. so holy and sacred and full
of meaning and purpose worthy of thanks and praise..
and i for one believe you will make a wonderful Mother
and Wife one day soon.. and sure.. a great Scientist too..
Color it all with Love and tHeRe is no otHeR pLace but the Heaven of Love..:)



Fellow Poet Blogger Friend
Xenia Tran offers kind blessings too…

I am so sorry for the loss of your mother.
She is at peace now and will always live on in your heart.
Sending love and blessings to you, Katrina, your sister and all the family.
Purple Heart Emoticon.

And i respond..

Hello.. my friEnd.. Xenia Tran..
wonderful poet
and canine
and respite
place for the
Greyhounds in how
you say ‘Galagos’ as their name from
where you are from.. now.. what a great
source of online hugs you have been/are
to wade all through my words and photos
of how Julie Andrews says in the Sound of
Music are pARt of God whOle.. as jusT a ‘few’ of my favorite things..
There was a time of life threatening
synergy of illnesses for me
totaling 19.. for 66 months..
invisible to
the human
eye and my Great
Aunt Jettie at age 94 said..
Fred.. we need to get to the root of all
your problems and the truth is.. chronic flight
and fight stress of the modern age automated
work world of combining people and machine responsibilities
as far as data download and output opposed to love killed my
heARt.. then my SpiRit.. then my
ever LoVinG soUL as gifted
so much as Love by
my Mother
grew that
Garden of Love in me..
For 33 months.. i could not use my
eyes and ears and looked within.. the ability
to write words came next for 33 more months..
and literally in the span of 6 million words the search
went on for me to find the essence of love in words as
empty shells that housed as vehicles and vessels what once lived
in me.. and last year about this time when i went back to the River i was
raised at.. when i felt such a close connection to God of Nature before i could
speak at age 4.. then at 3.. with Autism.. like i had been
heAr forever with God with no break..
at about age 5..
when i started going
to Kindergarten and my rationality
stArTed to beat my heART in ways of
straight A’s through three college degrees
and a quarter of a Century working for the Federal Government..
the price of what culture said i must do then to survive and supposedly
thrive was the free of Love that i was gifted with at age 5.. when i went
back to that River.. what i found my friend was/is.. i was/AM Five years old again..
NoW/theN Going Back home.. i finally arrived one with God in and as Love again FReED..
thaT pARt of Heaven at hand that Jesus could relate to as the Kingdom of God within..
in the same
a child
that perhaps
he found in a desert
away from the cultural
clothes that take away love
from eYes that move.. connect
and co-create with God.. as all that is..
as we humans come togethER and make
multi-uNiverses in God Connections more now..
as the hiGhest HUman potEntial of Love.. of yes..
the five
with no fear
of or to Love my friEnd..
and yes.. an excellent song as
i remember from Elton John to illustrate
this point further with a man who expanded his
heARt as an outcast at a very young age.. the heARt
lives oN my FriEnd that never gives up in fearless way..
even if
to be in
feel and sense
nothing at all left
in that other place of
the abyss of the anti-kingdom
of fear and emptiness of numb and pain
with doubt/fear potentially leading to hate.. in other words.. hell on earth…
and that’s one thing.. no matter what.. i couldn’t hate..
the greatest gift from a Mother sTiLL..
Thanks for the
kind prayers..
hopes and wishes
my friEnd.. look forward
to commenting on your liGht
fELt and sensed poetry soon
as words go on as more than
the past root
giFt Love.. My FriEnd..NoW..:)

Xenia says..

The greatest gift from your mother is such a blessing and
will live on through you and all who can see and hear this wonderful gift.
Take care my friend, many blessings to you and Katrina.

And i respond..
Thanks so much.. again..
my very nice friEnd..
BlesSings and Love to
yoUr family and family of dogs alWays..:)

Xenia says again..

Thank you my friend
Smile Emoticon
Heart Emoticon
Paw Prints Emoticon

And finally..
i say..

Paw prints
Of friEnd ships
Back to you.. too..:)


So.. nice to see you online.. friEnd Soheir.. taking
a little break from your Graduate Studies
in English.. “Just Smile!!”.. what a
wonderful title for
a blog post
that relates
even more concisely
what you quote here
from Islam as “Do not
belittle any good deed, even meeting
your brother with a cheerful face”.. and surely verily
i say that applies to sisters too as well.. one would hope
my friend
put that into
action with all free love..
and haha.. back in a Quarter of a Century
in Customer Service.. early on they told the
not so happy employees that you get paid to smile..
so bare your teeth whether you feel it or not.. and sometimes
one is lucky and just baring the teeth brings an essence of connecting
love with others as Joy..
and for other folks
sadly by either
innate reason
or environmental
reason of lost.. the human
connecting warm and fuzzy
feelings are not experienced in what
science illustrates as the all natural social
bonding neurohormone oxytocin that even domesticated
cats share with otherwise rival cats for reproductive rights..
with sure.. an operation in the mix to alter other hormones too..
we humans smile best when the shell of smile is full of Loving Feelings
with Joy.. and an empty smile is surely better than a frown and even worth thanks
and praise
as it is
a symbol
of love and Joy.. too..
but the best smiles shine
deep within with no whine..
and are shared with feeling and sensing
ways all Natural as human is innately good in this
way when raised with love over empty shells of baring teeth..
Anyway.. i for one could not either feel a smile or remember what
a smile felt like for 66 months.. a horrible place in hell my friEnd..
i feel them
above.. so below
and all around now..
as the greATest of HoLy
and SaCred HUman Gifts
full of meaning and purpose
when a smile acts and feels alive
and surEly my friEnd.. why i end most
all my online Fredtalks with sMiLes oF Love..
nice to see you
again.. can’t see your
face but i’ve fELt youR
sMiLes beFoRe all the way
my.. what
Love can do
when isREaL.. sMiles unconditional as LoVE..
i spend my time counting as blessings all my favorite
things in life as pARt of my blog art in poetry and visual images..
for what i seek and find in life my friend.. the more we make all of
life holy and sacred full of meaning and purpose.. even the dARk
paRts that we mUST endure.. the more Heaven comes now and
the signs of God as synchronicity as the secular world
describes those signs as God’s communication
to us.. i for one can prove it’s real
by every count
of every
of all
my favorites
things.. namELy God aLL..
and sure.. theRe’s a Song for that too..
When i was a little boy full of joy and Smiles..
then.. the so-called patriarchal bully boy Christians
told me i was ‘queer’ for smiling so much.. if i shared
a song like this then.. they would have threatened to beat me up..
as your Islam story relates heAR not to shame acts of kindness to others
no matter how small.. even.. juST a sMiLe as that song by Julie Andrews IS
A way too.. and an act of kindness that growS oN as Love on YouTuBe too..
not sure if you can open it up wHere you live.. i don’t think YouTube is
censored in Egypt.. like it is in Pakistan as you have shared so
many videos heaR.. but how sad it is.. when Love
is censored in
any way
how sad it is
when God is not Love..
Anyway.. heHe.. now that i leg press 1020
LBS.. 33 reps and more at the University of Gym
at the Military Station after i regained my smiles for
a couple of Decades at the University of Humanity also
known as a Military Bowling Center then before i went to the
hiGher up pay grades of becoming an automated human work machine..
let’s just say the Bully Christian Boys look away.. it’s true around these parts my
friEnd.. sometimes you literAlly have to become Superman just for the privilege
of expressing
Love in
all the
ways that comes..
it’s worth it… verily i say.. Love is.. SMiLes..
the greaTest Strength is Love.. otherwise
i would only leg/word press 500 Lbs..;)
sure.. wiNks
aS in humor
are as powerful
as sMiles too..
to generate
and all the
stuff that comes from Love..
i guess.. i missed you.. per all these words.. Love you…
and by the way.. i really respect all your efforts to get ahead
to provide for your children as a widowed mother.. my mother
who raised my sister and i as a single mother after father left at age
3.. as i’ve told that story heaR before.. cashed in her retirement fund
to go to Junior College to get her degree when we were in about middle
school.. night school it was for her.. while working full time too.. and then
we all went to college at the same year graduating in ’83 from the University
of West Florida.. while she quit work altogether and lost her cushy Federal
Service potential for Government retirement.. to take care of her Mother
too in her failing illness.. my Mother passed away on Wednesday night..
and it always makes me a little righteously
indignant when the Bully
Boy Christians
who are now
Deacons and
Radio show hosts
and Pastors say single
Mothers are not fit to raise children
successfully.. well.. they may not raise children
who make a lot of money.. but what love can do is raise love..
so best of
to you my friEnd..
and your children of course..
too.. wiTh sMiLes that live on too and
with wInks more of Joy.. more then now..:)

Soheir.. responds back with kind words.. and i say..

Thanks my friEnd for all your kind comments..
and glad to hear that Love for Brother is same
as Love for Sister and all of humanity
in smiles more
bare of teeth..
no different than
God as him as that
relates to human gender..
and human in form alone in general..
witH aS


Long After living in Hell for 66 Months..
Thursday.. a sweet girl from Old Seville Quarter
came up to me with joy of support in exclaiming
she’s never seen a more fearless person then me as
i can do public dance anywhere.. heHe.. even naked too..
parameters of course..
the dARk can take you to new
hiGher places in liGht or the dARk
can sink you to lower places than ever
before.. my Mother’s fall to illness of cancer
suddenly revealed by Doctors on Valentine’s
Day and her death 8 days later has surely
been a creative dARk fuel for both words
of Love and Dance to get all
the other emotions
out so
they do not end
up as somatic issues
as emotions will go somewhere..
either creativity or illness depending on
how one processes the dARk and liGht
of EmoTioNs and how that mixes with the
entire seNsory experience of life and how blessed
i am to find a language with signs of guide posts to
navigate my way around an inner UnivERse so intense
with emotions and senses too.. as hey.. i have a really big
head and there IS A whole lot going on up tHeRe to sort
through and get all focused for an opera
and symphony of life that
plays in balance
with conductor
me mastering that
balance with all the tools of life
i seek and find and share freely for anyone who
can wade through a mind as deep as mine or perhaps
what might be viewed as Rabbit wHoles never ending full of mines..
to explode in ways that one hasn’t viewed life before.. that’s what explorers
and nomads.. same do.. with dopamine variant genes and warrior genes and such
as that iN how they move out of the cave both within and outside.. above.. so below
and all around now and report back to the rest of the herd wHeRe the Maverick goes next..
the joy of free verse dance with no fears comes back to play in the rest of my life too.. as surely
what moves first as dance sounds next as song as liGht continues to Dance and SinG
from dARk..
as i Love to say..
Life doesn’t have to be
that complicated if one can
find a way to juSt Dance and Sing
it moving.. connecting and co-creating
with the rest of all that is aka God.. could be
as concise as that or arise to what is now 1,176,885 words
as of the last 78th MacroVerse since Memorial Day of 2016..
named ‘Dogwood Winter Blooms’.. as paRt of an entire ‘Nether Land
Bible 2017′.. as this yet to be named 79th MacroVerse arises now heAR
in words as also what is now the 750th MacroVerse oF Ocean wHOle poem
sTiLL DanCinG and SinGinG 3.3 Million words plus now at the end of this month
of February since the end of August 2013 on Word Press at the 42 month point now
with 6900 Miles of Free verse Metro public dance now to go along with that in the same
42 month period of time.. with a 48th Month Blogging effort coming on March the 10th
surely approaching or exceeding 4 Million words out of 12 Million online words since
Thanks Giving of 2010 per the record still now of what still exists of that in all the
places i have traveled online now in 75 months of doing just that where 66
months were spent inside as shut-in Hunch Back of Notre Dame since
January of 2008 through July of 2013.. first 33 months with no
words or visual images produced at all.. just shut in my
mind without effective use of eyes and ears with
the worst pain known to humankind of
type two trigeminal neuralgia from
wake to sleep for those
66 months full
like a dentist drill
without novocaine in my
right eye and ear.. additionally..
accompanying a total of 19 medical
disorders.. most of them invisible to the
human eye as disabilities within.. of pain and numb..
and when the sweet girl from Old Seville Quarter asked
me.. how in the world you do it and why do you do it without fail
for what will be my 150th week of doing it this next Thursday coming
up.. i said.. well.. i’m fearless ’cause i’ve been to hell.. yes.. i’ve really been to hell
and not unlike Forrest Gump and his running across the United States back and forth
i just
like doing
it.. so i dance.. so
i dance some more.. now
and nah.. i didn’t provide all of these
other details as i didn’t want her head to explode
then as it is already loud enough in that dance hall
where even i have to wear ear plugs to muffle some
of the boom boom and more boom boom that fuels the dance of me too..
Bottom lines.. again.. life is great when one moves it connects it and co-creates
it with God oF Nature all in unison of a Dance and Song allone.. works for me.. at least..
And oh yeah.. Trivia bit here.. There is 783,137 words as counted in the so-called King
James Bible printed in English in 1611.. so yes.. what i have birthed now in close to
9 months is more than one and a half times more words than that for my
personal bible heaR as written by one person me.. 80 authors wrote
the King James Version that came from hundreds of years before
that of copying scribes and oral tradition on dusty
roads of round table discussions in
Aramaic long after the
so-called Jesus
was gone
and so
many years of scribe
copying of what came before
that in old Testament ways too..
anyway.. humans have come along way..
and i for one prove what one human can do with
the so-called #John1412 way of humans always doing
more than before with 100% faith of belief hope and love
with will and strength and grace and love and yes.. beauty and wisdom too..
and yes too.. all the transhumanist tools at our finger tips noW as no one truly
does anything
alone in
life.. all
is interdependent
as we lift each other up
or drive each other down..
DArk or liGht of Karma comes down
to WiLL and Grace and Strength oF Fearless Unconditional Love..uP..:)

And now.. off to share some MacroVerses and Visual Images as provided
by the all free Facebook Algorithm tools at hand.. wHeRe Memories come
like little birds of wisdom and beauty in trutH and LIGht more each day..;)


‘Moonlight Feels Right’.. from three years ago as i explore the sacred
and holy paRts wHOle of the Human experience with God of Nature all
as an art of my own personal bible expanding more then now too.. in divine
feminine grace and will of strength in fearless loving ways in masculine divine
too.. but hey.. a foundation of divine feminine grace leads to the greaTEst Bruce
Lee type strength of Chi for those with ears and eyes to find.. seek.. and continuously
feel and sense and empower a Chi Force oF liFE all Free and ageless timeless with
no distance space or time of cLock hands to cover the reaLiTy more of noW iN
MiNd and BoDy fuller awareness soUL wiTh heARt dancing singing Chi
Force more now forevermore now as holy creative streAMinG
SpiRiT of much greater hUman PotEnTiAL now..
but sure.. to get really brave/fearless.. yA
kinda have
to rid yourself
of the clothes of
culture first.. either through
66 months of hell like me first..
or perhaps by just getting naked and
dancing free with God spiraling in Grains of
Sand around the Sun as Sentient Star DuST plus
born of Crucible Fire of stAr BurST BiRth as we arise WiTh
GreaTEr God EYes now sTiLL with no gRain of sand wHOle inside..
outside.. above so below and all round greater or less that all paRts
that maKe God all ThAT is WhOle Ocean full with shores ever expanding now
by waVes and riVers fed by streAMs of HuMan eYes more now forevermorenow..
hehe.. or
now like
that as i will
never portend to
have the last or first
word of any of this.. haha..
people who think they can chain
God in restrictions of words and books..
make me giggle and google just a little bit more..
sure.. in my underwear too.. with my little pInKie finger.. sticking uP2..
heHe.. even
more noW as
that art continues
to evolve soft and hard cover more
and essence too.. wiTh more on thaT2..;)


And now.. “Talking.. Shh.. wITh God”.. from two years ago.. on the Wrong
Planet website.. where i fulfilled a role there somewhat like Socrates.. Yoda..
Buddha.. even being compared to some of those folks too.. as hey.. bRinGinG
folks to a greater mindful and bodily awareness of life in existential/emotional/eTc/
physical ways of much greater human potential beyond what standard IQ measures
has always been a challenge historically for the sages of the ages to take folks jusT a
little out of the cave of what folks have been been exposed to before.. in other words..
away from ignorance which is not the fault of anyone really and the responsibility of
the God of Nature within one to bRinG greATeR liGht and trUth to otHeRs wiTh
all tools at hand completely used as one can and will.. and interestingly..
more so-called right brain interpretive art thinking and feeling and
sensing folks could get wHeRe i was coming from but
the more left brain thinking folks who
held little of life
as holy
and sacred
or full of much
meaning and purpose
at all as nihilists as older philosophies
and philosopher say too.. were lost from my
loop and the ones who made the moderator rules..
as still happens now for the priests and pastors and the politicians
same who can know the form in empirical structural way of words and
other symbols but the essence of right brain interpretive feeling/sensing
in innate.. instinctual and intuitive way misses tHeiR use or lose potential
intelligences of liFe and liGht to dArk to living death as dARk.. sAdly enough..
the way i spoke as essence was gibberish to them.. and nah.. this is the online
modern world.. no Socrates Hemlock or Jesus Crucifixions or hanging folks out
in the street for making 42 month witnesses in Bibles one and a half times bigger
in lone efforts birthing them in just 9 months too.. i have been banned and deleted out
from the reasons land of nerds to the art land of poets time and time again.. but the energizer
bunny holy spirit oF aLL of God of Nature keeps ticking as a river as an atomic clock freed in
me with no time..
distance.. or
space beyond
the streAMs of River
Flow to wAves of Ocean SonG
oF My SouL more.. and this was a particularly
interesting MacroVerse heAR and one of my favorite
paRts of it were words SunG by a friend named Grommit..
and it is my privilege to add his words heAR in my “Netherland
Bible 2017”.. heRE as this is one of the very few people on
the Wrong Planet or really anywHeRe who had
eYes and ears to see and hear what
my spiRit says now
in Holy
way full of
meaning and purpose
with God of Nature all now..:)

Grommit writes:

“Nature = knowledge = Wisdom = True aka God.

Words on their own are emptier vessels but so many of these words that aghogday writes are true resonance with aka god nature and a higher wisdom which is only achieved through what can only be described sometimes as the pits of hell.

We live in hell everyday if we choose to be, some choose to make it hellish for others and both of them is sad.

Admittedly you have a right to live in hell, but most people are asking for redemption, to see the light, who wants to spend an eternal life in hell?

Remember hell and god are metaphors for what is bad and good

Hell being: pain, torture, suffering, greed.

And god meaning, peace, unconditional love, a resonance with the universe, wisdom, knowledge, understanding, hope.

Of course hell isn’t necessarily a bad place and sometimes can not be avoided. But hell can teach you things that you never expected.

I think that if someone was to commit suicide, mass genocide then I would say they were all ready a tortured soul, and what that does is when people take these actions it causes more tortured souls and the cycle can be never ending.

But It takes souls to break cycles, and we still have free will at this point.

When you have lived in a live or die situation, I choose life, and people like aghogday now officially known as Aka Yoda only enforce that belief for me.

The purpose is people can lift each other out of the pits of hell through Aka = knowledge = wisdom and understanding and accept that we truly are all one and united as human.

If thousands of people disagreed with hitler then hitler would not have had an army.

The free will of hitler and many others could be a Definition of hell.

Learning from the past and identifying mistakes made through human evolution, and not making the same mistakes again is god.

People that inflict pain to others intentionally is hell.

Sharing hope is god.

The narrator on here, is extremely knowledgeable about religion yet = has got a fascinating and brilliant view point towards everything, and I can tell that narrator has uncovered much wisdom which could be described as god.

And I am not actually talking about god as in the man. I’m afraid you have been blinded by the definition of GOD, because god can be achieved in other ways,

Kraftiecortie masters the art of language and he has a multiplex of words, in my world this is poetry. A passageway to communication.

Some people are maths gods
Some people are science gods
Some people are art gods
Some people are healing gods
Some people are nutritional gods
Some people are poetry gods
Some people are technological advancement gods
Some people are toilet gods
Some people are funny gods
Some people are entertainment gods
Some people are rock gods
Some people are people gods
Some people are animal gods

I would expect to find these three people I mentioned here sitting in a space cafe in the far reach of the solar system, sharing the wisdom and listening to 5th dimension..:)

Anything that could potentially be human suffering could be described as hell

For now I try to live on the good side of the force and to not be tempted by the dark side.

The yin and yang is a perfect representation of natures forces at work.”


MacroVerse from 3 years ago.. appropriately named “ZEN ART of selfie”..
and in my continuing practice of fearless then that has led to all of my human
potential now along with wisdom and beauty in trutH and liGht.. not much different
than the Snow Princess in the Movie “froZen”.. i let it all go to explore all of my being
human treading on the clothes of culture with no fear of shame or regret.. sure.. i kinda
hazed myself too.. as ya can’t make fun of a person and make any impact on them when they don’t
think themselves serious at all in cultural expectations and limitations that make fear of shame
a reality like
the Emperor has
no clothes.. i fully know
and understand and feel and
sense i have no cultural clothes and
that more than anything is what makes me
free per Verse 37 of the Gnostic Gospel of Thomas
per Jesus2.. if yA wanna now use the power of so-called
historical authority too.. thing is.. God lives in us NoW greater
naked and free without the clothes we are culturally born with
in flesh and blood all innate..
instinctual and intuitive
too.. through a couple of
hundred thousand years sTiLL
through the struggles of being
human through our rodent
ancestors we share
with rats
75 million years ago too..
and then there is the science reLated
14.5 million years that aRose toward
those achievements of struggles and success
in sentient star dust liFE plUs US from Crucible
of Star BurST death resurrection of duSt that comes
as uS noW on this Miracle of blue and green beauty orb
of eARTh still turning as the globe goes as life wHeRe we don’t
fly off the edge of the eARTh at a thouSand miles or so an hour.. as science
sHows we would if the earth stops spinning now.. yeah.. we have lots to be thankful for..
and other
BS sTuFF like That..
i play naked.. it’s what God does
free ya kNow or not Do..
as a
Do/Say too..;)


“To CENsor Human being”.. Macro Verse memory from two years ago
about the date now of 2013.. when all the online Autism Communities started
deleting and moderating me out in banning ways as i refused to agree with
their common social bonding ways of dark in believing conspiracy theories
that the Autism Speaks organization was a Eugenics organization and
people were googling murdering autistic children as i shared
a couple of those related memories from 4 years
ago on my Facebook page too..
along with a memory
of a conspiracy
thinking pastor of
our local area and his alignments
with conspiracy Obama birthers.. naming
homosexuals demon inspired and stuff like that..
didn’t have any problem defending the facts when i put
my science hat on.. and sure.. it was like banging my head
up against a wall.. as you cannot convince folks who bind for
dark purposes as religion by very term meaning social binding
over common meaning and purpose where even sTiLL female genital
mutilation and ripping foreskin off of tiny babies can come to be seen
as holy and sacred too.. in blood lust way of doing what we say or you
are kicked out of the social group for survive and thrive and in instinctual
feeling and sensing way for those who foraged together or did agriculture
in small farming way.. it could be a truly life or death situation if a Maverick
strayed from the group think of religion and politics and corporate this is my
favorite quarterback and religious team too.. people are alike all over
as one Twilight Zone show related so well through
Rod Serling’s eyes in the 60’s too.. some folks
open minded.. fearless.. seeing all of
life as abundance.. happy with
what they have and
other folks closed minded.. scared..
seeing all of life as scarcity.. never happy
with what they have as enough.. always wanting
more and afraid to give and share more and move out
of the cave to greener pastures of pure happiness in LIGht and Joy too..
it’s true people are same and different same.. same rule Jews and same Jesus
Hippies then and now same.. i can’t fight the city hall of rules and all the insanity that
goes along with that.. but what i sure as FucK can and will do is stay unplugged NoW and
give Caesar all of his or her.. eTc.. coins due.. and sure.. at one point Google was considering
limiting that private community of adult restricted blogs and of course i had no choice but
go with the change of Caesar coins then.. but enough people fought for their full head
to toe freedom of expression where Google changed their minds and i changed
the title of my freest blog all stripped down as such.. and went on
fearlessly with my free verse art to express all of what i am
as a child of God fearless
as any child
of God
of the clothes
of culture can and will
do to King David celebrate this
Gift so much more than before of life..
Bottom lines2.. free and uncensored me in what
the law allows in local.. state and federal way
as hey.. they still provide the avenues and highways
to be freer as human than ever before with even a phone
now that reaches around the world carrying the art of human more than ever before..
i like all the free avenues of art provided now… and hell no.. my soul will never be for sale..
as far
as i
kNow now..:)


And now to celebrate the animal nature even more as if you view
my all PG rated underwear art. one might come to the
conclusion i am a little bit soft… heHE.. don’t
confuse my sweetness with
weakness.. we are
wild animals2.. and
if this picture from
then.. 3 years ago..
of me now doesn’t prove
that in a way that would
scare Jack Nicholson in a
Dark alley other way.. trust me.. you wouldn’t
wanna see me angry.. as i am only playing heAR..
wild wolves love more than domesticated wolves as they
work together for the survive and thrive for life in foraging ways..
humans are no different.. someone like me in the olden days could
come in handy for the love of life and as well as the hunt of life too..
but nah.. i’ll let the grocery store take care of that.. but sure.. my Father
didn’t serve in Law Enforcement for 46 years after a few years in the Army
without sharing a little genetic potential for the warrior and nomad gene with me2..;)


And yes.. 2 years ago.. heAR.. Yellow Boy approaching a window squirrel for breakfast.. in the old
days before.. when Yellow Boy was all feral in the backwoods for about two years way before then..
Yellow Boy was a lightening streak with a squirrel almost his size
then as a young cat flying across the yard.. with the greatest
of cat ease.. feral cats are not unlike Jungle wild cats..
just a little smaller is all..
and it’s true..
if a hunter
like Yellow Boy
can love like he does
now.. all Mama Cat milk
and Cat biscuits now with Katrina..
there must be hope for humans too..
if they find a path to love and somewhat predictable
subsistence too.. scarcity breeds fear and abundance breeds hope..
Hate comes more from one and Love more from the otHeR.. Give and
Share for Love or Take and hoard for hate.. it’s still a cat choice really wild and
free with love
or imprisoned
and domesticated with hate..
and for now that’s all i have
to dance and sing..
of cultural
clothes and lies..
all play with God of Nature FReED..
Devil or Angel.. Angel IS A way for me…
At this point..now i feel like a little American
Indian Meditation Music to go along with this..
Sioux and Cherokee in me gifted through my
Mother and her ancestors too.. Sioux on her
Father’s side and Cherokee on her Mother’s side..
surELy.. the wildest and freest pARt of me along with the
Irish eyes.. two generations removed with the Cajun of
France and Spain and the Old English and Black Forest
of Germany and that rodent ancestor from 75 million years
ago2.. and the origin of all that is and beYond 14.5 million years ago aLL..
an Indian
song as continuous
Indigenous soUL of God oF NaturE noW2..
JuST.. cAll me “Master Chief Aghogday”..1.. yes i exist2
as He2.. you can Google me/he2.. if you don’t believe it HE HE3..;)


Love Lives fulfilLed deaTh..
Hate lives Dead life

– tHeMe-meMe

Hello.. gigoid.. nice to see you heAR.. aGain..
And i guess i’ll start heRE.. wiTh three to catch up..
through a count of 6 with a SonG too.. and what better place than play to staRt..

“Man is most nearly himself
when he achieves the seriousness
of a child at play.”

~~ Heraclitus ~~

ReAlly.. can’t add any more
to tHis HeraCliTuS butt
continUinG to play..;)

“Beware of that person who is slow to anger.
For when it is long in coming,
it stays longer and is warmer and dies not so easily.
Abused patience is a very strong fuel
for a fire not easily put out by any known means.”

~~ Wise Bee ~~

Even worse
that festers into long term hate..
usuAlly.. what happens iF Anger
is not Emotionally and Sensory
regulated and integrated
and co-creating
more.. out.. oF AnGer..
to AnGel as mEtapHoRuS oF cOuRse..;)

“One kind word can warm three winter months.”

~~ Japanese proverb ~~

Yes.. Yes.. Yes… and more
yes.. as the Great Band..
the Police.. clearly
SinG too..
got to
be an Invisible
Sun inside generating
warmth of kindness as
oxytocin surely can and
will do when neurohormonally
and neurochemically living free inside..
and exPaNding to OthErS even more as HuMan
SunliGht groWs aS uNConDiTional Love.. tHeReForE..
i now have
a thEme
for this
too.. heHe..
in Sting and
Police ways2..;)

“If you would know a man,
observe how your cat treats him.”

~~ Leelu Bee ~~

It’s reAlly.. kinda sad..
all of my Father’s
cats paid
attention to human beings…
but he cried when they died..
guesS he couldn’t reAlly show ’em when he lived…

“Many a man’s tongue broke his nose.”

~~ Seamus MacManus ~~

Hmm.. i can
but not quiet..;)

“I want to live my life so that my nights are not full of regrets.”

~~ D. H. Lawrence ~~

too busy
dancing at night
anything aT all..
funny how ‘they’ talk
about the pitfalls of an
‘idol’.. mind.. butt rarely
the pitfalls
idle feet..
problem with words..
tHey are locked uP ‘tween ears..;)

“If what you want lies buried, dig until you find it.”

~~ Things We Can Learn From Dogs ~~

One thing.. i FeeL/SenSe
for sure.. ‘it’ doesn’t

“Some people march to the beat of a different drummer.
And some people tango!”

~~ Anonymous Bee ~~

or SinG free
verse DancE
with no labELs
or FoRmS aT aLL..;)

“If you lose the power to laugh, you lose the power to think.”

~~ Clarence Darrow ~~

True.. as science sHows..
emotions.. most definitely
including laughs
are the
of all
and the source
oF aLL memories too.. as is..
per cognitive executive functioning

Now to two too2..
as six was just in
the intro of thE theMe Meme SonG2..;)

Haha.. rational mammals..
nah.. not a one..
all driven
by emotions
at core as
shows now..
the best emotions
and senses make uP
reaLitY iN a sea of words and
otHeR symbols that house the
vehicles and vessels of essence real..
thaT iS FeeLinG
liFe as
so.. reAlly.. at the
end of the day StiLL now
it is those who are fulfilled
with love.. happiness and joy
who win the game of reaLiTy.. my FriEnd..NoW..2..
mY Mother tried to teach me that lesSon by example
as she reTired her wheels and i continued
to roll
my ass around
the rat wheel
of race
leads to
empty symbols of now..then..
without much substance of LIfE..
in other words.. whatever takes uS away
From Peace of Mind and Joy and Love is about as evil aS it gets..
away from thaT real essence of FeeLinG SenSinG LiFe..NoW..
otHeRS.. of course..:)

“It is hard enough to remember my opinions,
without also remembering my reasons for them.”

— Friedrich Nietzsche (1844-1900)

As always.. emotions and senses drive iT all..
develop.. regulate.. integrate them in balance.. rich or not..;)

“That’s the effect of living backwards: it always makes one
a little giddy at first, but there’s one great advantage in it,
that one’s memory works both ways.”

— Lewis Carroll, “Through the Looking-Glass”

And don’t forget to walk in reverse
and spiral like the Golden
PHI 1.618
of Nature in
move.. connect
and create too..
again.. the
of philosophy
never getting down
below the ears to more TruTh aT hand..
Feet too..
and toes and fingers too..;)

“I count religion but a childish toy …
there is no sin but ignorance.”

— Christopher Marlowe

Once aGaiN..
siN oF Feet and hands
and otHeR idle body
aBove beloW as
TrUtH and liGht.. mOre..;)


— Zippy the Pinhead


“Human beings are perhaps never more frightening than
when they are convinced beyond doubt that they are right.”

— Laurens Van der Post, The Lost World of the Kalahari (1958)

iF it’s aLternative fActs..;)

“It is no measure of health to be well adjusted
to a profoundly sick society.”

— Krishnamurti

As lonG
aS onE
and throws away the clothes..;)

(Emerald Forest 1985 and newer Avatars)

“Thus it is said that one who knows the enemy and knows
himself will not be endangered in a hundred engagements.”

— Sun Tzu

it’s how
i Handle
And Trump LiFE..;)

“One should seek virtue for its own sake and not from hope or fear,
or any external motive. It is in virtue that happiness consists,
for virtue is the state of mind which tends to
make the whole of life harmonious.”

— Diogenes Laertius (c. 200 AD) — Zeno, (B.C. 335?-264), liii

If only
that were
possible aS even
science sHows it’s not
for so-called
at lEast..
Square root one
Problems of heART..:)

“The moral test of government is how it treats those
who are in the dawn of life — the children; those who
are in the twilight of life — the aged; and those who
are in the shadows of life — the sick, the needy and the handicapped.”

— Hubert Humphrey

Square root
one issues of subsistence and shelter too..:)

“Virtue is that perfect good which is the complement of a happy life;
the only immortal thing that belongs to mortality.”

— Seneca (B.C. 3-65 A.D.)

Ugh.. perfect
to too many arguments
about how the towels are arranged on the racK even or not..;)

“I have a feeling that at any time about three million Americans
can be had for any militant reaction against law, decency,
the Constitution, the Supreme Court,
compassion and the rule of reason.”

— John Kenneth Galbraith

Sure.. anything
goes with
aS even science
sHows about one percent
of the population are made that way…
evil.. like
it or not..
as they don’t give a shit
and likely never will..
no smile heAR.. my FriEnd
as life ain’t fair in one lifetime aT leASt..;)

“I’m just hoping that one day the sheep will realize
that the shepherd is really a wolf in disguise.” —

Sanjay Singh

As science shows too..
the clergy in the
top 10
choices of folks born ‘that way’…;)

“Every man is a damn fool for at least five minutes every day;
wisdom consists in not exceeding the limit.”

— Elbert Hubbard

i kNow
and feeL and sense so
much more
now than
Piece of Paper
existence.. all the rest a peace of cake..:)

To produce things and to rear them,
To produce, but not to take possession of them,
To act, but not to rely on one’s own ability.
To lead them, but not to master them –
This is called profound and secret virtue.

— Lao-Tzu (fl. B.C. 600)

And never
ever worry
about perfect..
practice practice
practice perfect more..:)

“Make no mistake: the weeds will win. Nature bats last.”

— Robert Pyle

FeeLs anD
sEnSes beST..:)

So.. now.. off to three2..:)

“Man is most nearly himself when
he achieves the seriousness of a child at play.”

— Heraclitus

SurELy VeriLY worth
continUing play..;)

“Apollo said that every one’s true worship was that
which he found in use in the place where he chanced to be.”

— Michael de Montaigne (1533-1592)
— Essays, Book ii, Chap. xii, Apology for Raimond Sebond

Toilet Paper.. a warm bed at night..
wow! a grocery store
and a way
get some food..
and friends and a lover too..
with family too.. Heaven is now
for those
see the sliver
out of
rest oF iT aLL..
out of shape of Happiness now..:)

“An empty man is full of himself.”

— Edward Abbey

Ugh.. Tin can
on the
to see the wizard oF aLL…;)

“If you see a man approaching you with
the obvious intention of doing you good,
you should run for your life.”

— Thoreau’s Law

thOught that came all natural
buTT hips and eYes never lie to me aT leASt.. hEhe..;)

“Man is a credulous animal, and must believe something;
in the absence of good grounds for belief, he will be satisfied with bad ones.”

— Bertrand Russell, “An Outline of Intellectual Rubbish”

Case proven
more than ever now..
haha.. hehe..
of tears
for the ignorant
more for those in the kNow..;)

“Life is just a mirror, and what you see out there,
you must first see inside of you.”

— Wally “Famous” Amos

LiGht bulbs
do much
without a filAmeNt within.;)

“I hold it to be the inalienable right of anybody
to go to hell in his own way.”

— Robert Frost

YeS iT happens..:)

“Go softly, for you tread on my dreams.”

— Yeats

are real..
soft or hard..
tRead or noT..;)

Against the Word the unstilled world still whirled
About the center of the silent Word.

– T.S. Eliot

UgH A word
without a voice..:)

It was not death, for I stood up,
And all the dead lie down;
It was not night, for all the bells
Put out their tongues, for noon.
It was not frost, for on my flesh
I felt siroccos crawl,–
Nor fire, for just my marble feet
Could keep a chancel cool.

And yet it tasted like them all;
The figures I have seen
Set orderly, for burial,
Reminded me of mine,

As if my life were shaven
And fitted to a frame,
And could not breathe without a key;
And ‘t was like midnight, some,

When everything that ticked has stopped,
And space stares, all around,
Or grisly frosts, first autumn morns,
Repeal the beating ground.

But most like chaos,–stopless, cool,–
Without a chance or spar,–
Or even a report of land
To justify despair.

~~ Emily Dickinson ~~

DArk niGht of the
soUL SuNG rung so quiet..:)

“Nothing unreal exists.”

— Kiri-Kin-Tha’s Law of Metaphysics

If one takes Stephen
Hawking literAlly..
is every
is real..
and words are
as real as essence real..:)

And hence one master-passion in the breast,
Like Aaron’s serpent, swallows up the rest.

– Alexander Pope (1688-1744)

— Essay on Man, Epistle ii, Line 131

Yep.. tHeRE Go
‘eM EmoTioNs
And SeNses for real..;)

“You can get anything you want,
at Alice’s restaurant (‘ceptin’ Alice).”

— Arlo Guthrie

Hannibal Lector doesn’t like that at all..;)

the end
of three
on a rather
non-pleaSing taste of Alice iN Wonderland less..;)


It’s worth noting that stress is cumulative over the Battle
Fields of Life.. and when it IS A situation like
Catastrophic illness of a Loved
one as close as a Mother..
for those
who have
lived a Battlefield
of Stress for Decades.. those
Battle Scars rear tHeir ugliest heads
of dARk.. in other words.. strange.. strange..
pain.. as somatic symptoms from head to toe..
to heARt Palpitations and
Nausea and
feeling like
Bees are nesting
a hive in your head and
stuff like that for me at least..
including Chronic Fatigue and Dysautonomia
with the Heart palpitations as hey.. from the outside
in this photo.. looks like just another deliriously happy
day in the last 42 months or so of Heaven.. and by this
Happy Picture existing at the Mall after about 10 miles of Public
Dance.. i muSt say.. i was floating on a cloud again.. and
hopefully.. all the somatic issues will disappear as tHeRe
are some things in life that are almost
too hard to face.. sure..
with night terrors
and stuff
that too.. ah.. being
human.. can get so complicated..
but at least i’ve experienced it all before
and realize that no matter how long it takes
this too shall pass as the cycle of dARk and liGht
goeS oN.. as LiFE.. and for now.. i’m at Peace as writing
can be so soothing as streAms begin to empty in Rivers and
waves of ocean whole gently expanding shores more toward liGht..;)


Hmm.. and some MacroVerses to share as usual in Facebook Memory way..
starting with “Sounds of Sexual Healing” at the 432 Hertz Genital Healing frequency
in sensuality way.. and nah.. not wham bam thank ya ma’am stuff.. anyWay.. a reminder for
me in how much peace comes listening to the 432 Hertz rendition of the Gospel of Thomas
Mystical Gnostic sayings as attributed to the dude named Yeshua aka Jesus..
yes.. how much Peace it brought to me in the last night spent in the
recliner slowly falling to sleep next to my Mother at the
Hospital.. and the next day.. i felt so much more heaLinG
inside and it seemed to bring a mystical
connection with my Mother too..
as this is the Jesus i FeeL
SeNse.. a real man.. no different than
the Buddha and Lao Tzu and so many
otHeRs who sought and found the Kingdom of
God within uSing metaphors to relate this Yogi-like
Unison with God.. sure.. Unidaughter and
UnieTc too.. as yes.. Women
didn’t get the right
to vote until
last Century
and were not considered
good enough to be spiritual priests
of God in the old Abrahamic religious way..
of course.. this Jesus gives all the power to the people
and remains just another humble last as first and meek
inheriting the eARTh as the King and the Queen are those
who become one with God as the Kingdom and Queendom
and eTcdom lives within.. but seriously.. no matter how many metaphors
are used and other complex symbolS.. unless one has a direct verb experience
of God in action beyond words as God as Verb within.. just empty shells are the words
that fall to rocky soil with no floWer of God groWinG hiGher as hUmaniTy’s eYes alive..
it’s kinda sad how the Modern Catholic Church.. since Constantine as Roman Emperor
expanding that empire and monolithically making a Statue of himself as Sun god
same as Jesus as Soldier Sun God too.. but hey.. that’s what Trump’s do..
it’s all about them and rarely
about you.. although
they will
you a job
that never comes
with pay.. Vs.. the eternal
reward oF HeAVen NoW..
the place with no dollar amount..
aS History repeats itself with Herstory
of divine feminine grace and love within..
as all is left is will and strength to conquer and divide..
anyWay.. for those in the feel and sense oF iT.. this is the isreAl Deal..now..:)


“Talking.. Shh.. wITh GOD2”.. pArt two of a series of God as action
verb conversations regarding the active experience of being with
God noW as aliVe.. yes.. on the Wrong Planet.. a place wHere
folks are more locked into left brain ways of
analytical thinking away from
all stuff associated
with social
including spirituality
and connection with God aLL
as Nature wHOle aliVE in the Kingdom
of Heaven NoW.. like most intelligent animals
without standard IQ.. experience all Naturally without
the clothes of Human culture.. aS in someways.. human
is burdened with the greatest virus oF aLL.. separation from God
through cultural and religious clothes from birth to death.. never reAlly
experiencing a naked God alive within at all for some all the way from
birth to death in a priSon of Hell as made by cultural tool and device
as human becomes a tool in a human made cultural hell.. i watch
people in this place from day to day in both flesh and blood
life and online too.. and yes.. it’s like an opaque
window they cannot see through
to get to other side..
and sure
even the so-called
leaders at church who
only truly look forward to God
after death.. as real then to meet..
so.. sad.. this separation in life as illusion can be.. away from God..
it would bring A TEar to Yellow Boy’s eYe if he could see the ignorance
of human separated from God like this.. surELy.. juSt anoTheR day within God for him free..:)


“On Seeking, knowing and Loving. On understanding Islam in its meaning as a whole.”
MacroVerse Memory from two years ago as the previous MacroVerse also
was from two years ago.. and the one before that at three years ago
as dates go on and the information remains as applicable
noW as that Gospel of Thomas rendition listening
too.. here from around 2K years ago.. too..
and Fellow Blogger poet
Friend.. Lala Rukh..
from Pakistan.. sHows tHeRe
are the same issues with Islam
as there is with Christianity as far as
some folks extreme.. some folks Christmas
Day and Easter worshippers and others who seek
and find God within with book or not.. thing is.. God does
live within and the Kingdom of Heaven is just waiting for those
who do seek and find it within over the course of life noW as LiVinG..:)


“INDIAN MOON CHILD in the alleys of Life”.. as MacroVerse from two
years ago too.. more discussions on the Wrong Planet site..
finding it still almost impossible to reach folks
locked in the ‘other’ hemisphere of
brain.. namely
in left
brain ways
of rational thInKing
away from Art of Love and God sAMe..
as living verb in the Kingdom of Heaven within now..:)


“Tornado PoeTry and mE”.. MacroVerse memory from a year
ago.. visiting many of my Blogger Poet friends and continuing an
end to a year long venture of poetically responding to every single
prompt and link from the online dVerse Poetry Pub site for an entire
year.. from April of 2015.. through March 31st 2016.. coming to be..
neXt.. GodsUniVerseNovel3 at 338,630 words as lInKed at
the bottom of all my MacroVerses now.. a little
easier at this point though as i am no longer
visiting the relatively speaKing online
hell of the Wrong Planet
website.. permanent
staycation from
hell on earth
as Lucifer in that
Fox show might say..
except.. this is Lower Alabama
Panhandle of Florida.. yes.. pet
name of LA too.. with plenty of NASCAR racing fans too..
and although i don’t own a big bar in money way.. sure.. in
A way.. i owN oNe for the LovE of DancE all free of dollar biLLs and driNks.. heHe..;)

And speaking of Nascar.. that reminds me of a Good Ole Christian Man and his family
where his children are watching the float of my feet upon the Mall Grounds by
Starbucks with the youth wielding their smartphones to capture the oddest
thing of all in Lower Alabama LA of Panhandle of Florida and that
is anyone at all brave enough to dance free in public..
which to me is amazingly.. only me.. as Jesus F iN
Christ it is like the best thing ever
to float on terrestrial land
in use it more and
gain it in terms
of emotional
and physical intelligence
in regulating emotions and
integrating senses and making
every move magic like Katy Perry says
in her ET song.. but hey.. this is no fairy
tale.. just human poTenTial used more than lounging
around on Sunday in easy chairs watching NASCAR go ’round
and ’round and ’round eventually snoring back after Sunday Dinner too..
anyway.. heHe.. was hoping
the NASCAR good Ole boy would
ask me what the hell (heaven) i
was/am doing as surELy my come back again
would be.. hey.. baby.. in terms of #John1412 ..
walking on water is old-school noW as verily and
surELy i say and sing and dance one can do that with
a surf-board with ease.. floating on terrestrial ground
and nicely polished mall floors like this IS A real John
14:12 challenge.. babe.. ya should try it one day.. particularly
if you enjoy making women smile more than your hunting buds.. heHe..
anyWay.. it’s human potential and in ALL stuff John 14:12.. USE IT OR LOSE
and survive or thrive
in the Kingdom of Heaven now..
as DanCinG and SinGinG Light hoMe NoW..

WeLL.. considering there is still room left
on the 432 Hertz rendition of the Gospel of Thomas
might as well review more Facebook MacroVerse memories
and associated supporting documentation for how if or one reach
the Kingdom of Heaven with now.. yes.. now.. in this generation now..
as promised even in the New Testament version of what is no attributed to the
Jesus dude too.. yes the generation then means the generation now.. otherwise
according to simple Logic.. the Jesus dude would have been taling an empty Trump
promise and apparently the real dude Jesus per Yogi-Like dude was taling it as real
as any Tibetan
who rises
steam off their
body in icy waters
as documented by science
too.. along with controlling
Brain waves from Alpha to theta
creative streaming consciousness holy
spirit bringing to the table of mindful awareness
where the bread and water of life is a living spring of breathe
for those in
the dance
and song
who juST
can and
will do that now..
in once again now use
it or lose it in all human
potentials now.. but hey.. still
these traditions are dominated by patriarchal
ways of illusory fears and dominating women and
such as that.. controlling reproductive freedoms
for selfish gene and material gains.. same stuff
of storing grain in silos
for jealousy
and greed
in subjugating
others for whatever
power and status comes next..
yes.. including excluding women
from the Monk Monasteries too.. all
men’s club as such while the women are
relegated to cattle of breeding babies..
but yes that’s old school now.. and meanwhile
while women have moved way ahead in the battle of the
sexes as far as combining the masculine will and strength
with the feminine grace and love.. men or still in Trump
states at least.. watching cars go around and around tracks still
of boring same shit over and over again.. where mirror neurons are
the only joy in vicarious male adventure life.. over and over again
on the big
and as far
as any martial
arts mixed with
ballet dance.. i understand
some ‘liberal men’ are doing that
with their daughters now.. but Nascar
men.. nah.. nah.. no.. that’s a no no tHeRE..
and hey.. if nothing else they can watch me do
ballet in the mall while this memory comes to mind
as shared on Facebook of me leg pressing 930 Lbs.. 14 times
back two years ago.. now that is 1020 LBS around 33 times for now..
unless the adrenaline
of temporary
it up to
50 reps when
My mother is in the
Hospital dying and such as that..
like last week.. straining my leg
a little bit after that effort too..
and the thing is.. the power comes even more
from divine feminine grace and love than masculine will and
strength as the divine feminine love is what brings the mindful
awareness and the focus to make the will and strength do real time
all things
considered of course
as a Macroverse Memory
shared here of “BE midnight LIGHT”.. 3 years ago..


Where i guarantee dam tee ya.. ain’t no Nascar
men brave enough to do this shit.. hehe..
even if they could leg
press 1020 LBS
now 33
times or
not.. if you
wanna get to heaven
ya be afraid of any part
of your God given Nature as
to repress and oppress it as
patriarchal cultures teach their
little boys to erase all divine feminine
grace from their existence.. including compassion
and empathy to be cold enough to pull triggers to kill
and defend in wars and such as that that is a part of the
sad tribal instinct for snake head survival too.. as part of
the restricted reptilian brain inside our heads too.. it’s a nuclear
option of hell.. on earth.. and far far away from the Kingdom of Heaven
all BaLanCinG act in reaLiTy NoW oN course.. camel and needle and all of that too..
if you
be in
Heaven ya
gotta really be
brave enough to be
in terms of limited scientific method repeatable
experiments too.. as those don’t exist where few men
and women
before as truly brave
and free in the Kingdom
of Heaven within for NoW..:)


“Don’t Look Me in the Eye”.. Another MacroVerse memory from 3 years
ago.. as i continue a real practice of BaLanCinG the Divine feminine
Grace of Love and Masculine WiLL and strength togeTher as oNe..
and if you are actually listening to any of the
Gospel of Thomas related metaphorical
deep sayingS it’s not quite
as fully illustrated
as what i do
in these
MacroVerses heAR
but of course that was
in the days of almost no
freedom of expression like this
without killing fields coming to those
who illustrated iT fully like this.. so vague
it came in metaphors instead.. so those with shallow
more left brain thinking snake brain ways would have no
WTF FTW idea what was going down in this kinda sacred text..
again.. one muSt acT on it and experience it as verb of God life..
AS Experience now..
alone are
housing vehicles
and vessels to get
here as the rider of
the camel or the elephant
through the culture and religion
N E E D Le E Y E even s M A L ler
of now and then.. my best advice is
just get naked and dance free verse with
grains of sand spiraling around the Sun
Seagull free… and don’t forget the warm
Gulf Illuminated diatom waters at night
if you
i do
on a Summer
midnight breeze
with a loved one too..
or just one if that is all you are2..
God allone..:)

And now the Hertz of the Earth to go along
with “Don’t Look me in the eye” too..
yes at C sharp.. 136.1 Hertz
frequency.. and when
this share
with the
metaphor of
poetic expression..


Last night my cat yellow boy was sleeping..
purring by my feet..and his purr was precisely
the GAIA frequency of mother earth..a beautiful purr of peace of life..and mind..heart..soul..emotion..logic and ONEspirit.. the best sound ever..PURR..

So with that said..have a PURRfect day..;):)

PURRLIGHT with mother earth..

Some literalist from YouTube..
yes.. material reductionist.. tried
to get in an argument with me
that it wasn’t
a cat
purr in hertz..
and i said.. dude..
it’s just a metaphor..
okay.. as we all come
from the same stuff okay..
namELy Mother Earth with Cat
Biscuits and Mama Cat milk like this too..
feathered duckling
friend.. love is
love.. my friend..;)

And now.. from two years ago..
A short MicroVerse Memory
on Freedom to share..
noW oN course..;)

Freedom is NOT free;

Never has been never will be.

Some folks are willing to die for IT.

Some folks are willing to be afraid of IT,

and DO in effect eliminate
the greater potential for IT,

by their overall, fearful ways…

ONE and the ONLY THING FOR for sure IS,

“IT’S” ALWAYS AT LEAST, ’50 shades of Grey’….

And NOT even




Oh.. Prajakta.. i love the diversity
of all of human Nature.. nah.. not all
have the same Maternal instinct and some
have literally none and never will.. male and or female..
like the Wrong Planet online i used to visit where aversion
to babies was as common as everyday allergies
to pollen..
a matter of
human nature in
hormonal ways of birth..
ourselves and environmental
ways of more left brain analytical
corporate think as opposed to
down on the
raising right brain
life.. balance comes
for what we must do in life..
as opposed to what we may
even wanna do in life..
not all folks
are even
cut out
to have
babies.. of course..
and to make someone
go where they do not naturally
wanna go.. is a source of much human
misery and suffering in the case of forced
arranged dowry marriages and stuff like that
surely when the innate stuff is not there to nurture
at all.. anyway.. if you like puppy love.. if and when you
do get pregnant and have children.. no doubt when Nature
changes you too in hormone way.. the nurture and attachment will
come as it did for even me.. when i had my first and only child then..
the first time then.. i understood what all encompassing non-conditional
love is.. it’s Nature and the core of survival/thrival.. not only the will but the love to go on..
And with that said
here is a little more
Love to move ya too..;)


1968.. about 7 years old.. am i too..
going to see this movie.. yes.. the first
Planet of the Apes movie.. with my mother
and sister.. and the first time i had one of those
moments of questioning the existential angst of life..
of what is real
and what is
not realest
as and in existence
now then now too..
and i’ve moved
180 degrees
on how
i view the ending
noW as opposed to then..
as the notion of no infrastructure
of culture for a small and very weak
child then was a scary notion.. for sure..
as there was nothing wild about me at
age 7.. fully domesticated in grade two
in a small school up on the
hill away from the
river front
then.. and i remember..
coming out of the theater..
just around the block from our
home.. downtown.. yep.. what was
named as the ‘Milton Theater’.. then..
looking up and seeing the red flashing
light of what was just a radio tower then..
with no cell towers to reach around the globe
in an actual interaction with global friends then..
thing is.. Charlton was riding on a horse.. with the most
beautiful woman.. alive then.. on a beautiful beach and he cursed
the blown up infrastructure of a city comparablY as ugly compared
to a pristine beach as New York City full of subways and people who
never meet eye to eye aS SucH.. as a giant can of lemmings all trapped in priSon..
and instead of jumping for joy as Nature and the beautiful woman and Horse of Nature
wiTh Beach was/iS once again his free home.. him.. he said.. God dAm.. you blew iT all up.. hell.. cannot
see the
for the loss
of feel and sense
now of what iS even important
in life as a touchy feely human
being alive now.. just wanting to get
back to they city as a habit is wHeRe he
wanted to go.. misSing paradise on the way
to heaven then now.. so.. how advanced are we..
only.. in how much we touch and feel of mindful and
bodily awareness all naked now.. cover it all up.. make
it numb and pain.. or uncover it and live as the Beach of Heaven Now..
and i still haven’t come uP.. with a title for this 79th MacroVerse heAR of
“Netherland Bible 2017”.. and 750th MacroVerse of Song oF mY soUL too..
but sure.. by the standard of another play.. the great Social Critic.. Rod Serling
helped write in written script way.. too.. perHaps with a twist of a few words
the title
is aLike
All OVer sTiLL noW”..
better now than never..
Zoo or Free.. yOur can and WiLL or not..noW2..:)

YeP it’s true..
Verily i say
a deep
DanCeR SinGeR
i AM2.. sTiLL..NoW2..
with or without words thenow2..
And today.. the 27th of February
makes a full 42 month Longest Form Free Verse
Poem on Word Press and Metro Public Dance too..
over 3.3 Million words and over 6900 Dance miles2..
Planet of the Apes.. released on 2.8.68.. 49 years
ago.. in a memory for me.. wHeRE tHeRe is
no distance
tiMe.. sTiLL NoW2..
When i was living in the crib..
my Mother said i turned around
and around on my left toe then
until i wore a dance
blister on
it then..
my Mother told
my Father.. my boy
has the look of an adult
in his green to blue eyes like
he knows more than he should know
now then.. and my Father said.. in one of few
conversations to my Mother then.. one day.. you
will come in here and he will have a cigarette propped
up in his hand.. just puffing it away.. heHe.. kinda like Rod Serling (and my father too)
did at the beginning of his T-Zone show.. then too.. it is what is and i am am i..now..STiLL2..1..:)








BeforE and After NovEL pARTy

BeforE and After NovEL pARTy
Introductory post to Free Novels..:)



41K words
Free Verse Poetry Novel..:)



51K words
Free Verse Poetry Novel..:)



338,630 words
Epic Free Verse Poetry Novel
Approximately 3000+ printed pages…
With Hundreds of Beautiful Beach Photos..:)


KATiE MiA FredericK!iI

3.3 Million plus words
Super Epic Free Verse Poetry Novel
SonG oF mY SoUL..:)
Approximately 30,000+ printed pages…
just ’cause
i caN
buiLd iT..
FoR Free..:)

CrediTs FiELd oF DreAMs

And yeS.. FinAlly..
CrediTs FiELd oF DreAMs..
A Thanks YoU oF sORts..

Love iS

GRains oF SaNd
hOld mounTain
oF LoVe NoW..:)

GodsUniVerse 42 HiTchHiKinG

GodsUniVerse 42 HiTchHiKinG
Hmm.. more and less..
A Meaning oF liFe..;)

After Book oF Fred

After Book of Fred
And Purpose
of course too..
for mE..:)

6000 Miles of DANCE WALKING! NOW!

6000 Miles of DANCE WALKING! NOW!
Documenting this Public Feat oF Feet in 3 years..:)

After Dance oF Fred

After Dance oF Fred
NeverEverLand DoN’T
Stop DanCinG noW..:)

Book oF Ten Sixteen..

9 Macro Verses from
October 2016.. totaling
141,244 words.. all liNked
from that Month like A Great PumPkin..;)

New Testament oF ELeVen iN HeaVen ‘SiXteen

New TesTament HeaVeN iN ELeVeN ‘SiXteen

Total of 12 MacroVerses with
final chapter of this New Personal
Testament named as such.. 181,221 words..
as streAMs.. RiVers… OceaN wHOle wAves SinG oN.. FReED..:)

12 MilLioN ThanksGiVinG Words 2016

12 MiLioN ThanksGiVinG Words 2016

Documenting 12 Million words written
Since ThanksGiVinG oF 2010 or
A Seventh Book wHOle noW
oR wiTh 16 Macro-Verses
sTarTinG October
2016.. enDinG..
oN ThanksGiving
2016.. iT iS wHAt
iT is..
Longgg.. NoW..;)

2nd NT iN HeaVen TwELve ‘Sixteen

Included as 13 Macro-Verse liNks iN
Grand Cross Bible 2016.. 181,291 words..:)


Grand Cross Bible 2016

61 Macro-Verse chapter liNks
provided in this last chapter as
full table of contents oF A 915K
Word.. Personal Bible aS SucH..
Written from Memorial Day
2016 and finished and
published 7 months
later on Christmas
Day oF 2016..
Yes.. somE
F iN
aS thiS beComeS
mY 9th book completed
iN Star Year 2016 that ranges..
yes.. approaching 2 MilLioN words..
iNclusive oF 12 MilLioN.. over 6 years
written and recorded NoW oNline too..
Y.. yeS.. oF course.. ’cause i CaN Do WiLL..
thE ForcE
oF uNConDiTioNal
Fearless smART LoVe
wRiTe oN cOUrse..:)


KATiE MiA FredericK 2016 A Year in Review

A ReView oF A Record Years of Record years..:)


CoLoRs of HeAVeN Bible 2017

991K words
66 Macro-Verse Table of Contents Chapter liNks WiTH
5 added as a revision to ‘Grand Cross Bible 2016’
wHeRe A iSReaL Revelation oF HeaVeN
is made at the
eNd and continuing
beGiNNinG aS WeLL..:)


VicTorY LaP iN HeAVEn 2017

The rise oF A MiLLioN
Word Bible aT
Over 1.01 MiLLiON
Words and suRE..
A Victory Lap GoinG
aLong wiTh aLL thaT iS
And This aT thE 67th MacroVerse
oF thaT Bible.. pArt oF Ocean Whole Poem more..:)


CelebRaTinG 42 MoNths iN HeAVEn

Yes.. most Definitely Worth
Celebrating and noting
in Epic way too..:)


Nether Land Bible 2017

NoW A Third ReViSiOn of a Personal
MiLLioN plUs Word Bible
at this 69th MacroVerse
with liNks
to the
rest of the Bible
MacroVerse Chapters
arriving at 1,052,137 words
total at this 69th MacroVerse poinT
as words continue in coMiNg MacroVerses
after this 69th MacroVerse as nows continue to Go oN NoW..aLLFReED..LonGeR..;)


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13 Responses to Heaven is aLike aLL Over sTiLL noW

  1. YeS.. it’s trUe.. Baby
    Giggle Duels
    a do
    oF wiNnie
    the Pooh
    in Modern
    house view..
    heHe.. as you say..
    out of planned chaos.. Glenn..
    OMG.. A Prompt with a Giggle..
    44 words.. less or more.. at dVerse.. i say now..
    i’LL veriLY surELy be back for more.. oF thiS oNe2..;)

  2. HeHeX2… yeP.. back for A Giggle
    prompt at dVerse online Poetry Pub..
    and i guess if i were any more responsible
    than Peter Pan.. i would be catching up on what
    now is 10 whole MacroVerses behind on copying
    and pasting for all free back-up text on Personal
    Facebook Page and two other Facebook Pages too..
    where the last 79th MacroVerse named “Heaven is aLike
    aLL over sTiLL noW”.. added in for “Nether Land Bible 2017”
    stARTinG back on Memorial Day of 2016.. now equals a grand
    total per DancE and SinG aS as Say oF 1,189,090 words now..
    hmm.. last updated Backup
    was/is the
    69th one..
    actuAlly titled..
    “Nether Land Bible 2017”..
    way back then at the 1,052,137
    word count point.. so with general
    subtraction aWaY in head count
    way that makes about 137K words
    to copy and paste three times for a total
    of 411K words across three Facebook Pages..
    like i sAid.. aLong with this new MacroVerse heaR
    as paRt oF A LonGesT lonG form Poem free verse
    on Google effort ever too.. at 3.3 Million words
    plus per this upcoming now 751st MacroVerse
    noW as 80th MacroVerse of “Nether Land
    Bible 2017”.. too.. oveRAll naMed NoW
    “SonG of My soUL”.. as
    Ocean wHole
    Poem too..
    yes.. finishing
    thaT thOught like i sAid
    if i was/am reAlly more responsible
    than A Peter Pan.. perhaps.. i would now
    engage in the mechanical cognition as staRt
    of copying and pasting all of that too.. but heHe..
    nah.. rather do free verse poetic expressions about
    giggles instead.. as that is what free does.. jUst flows liKe
    StreAmS into RiverS as Ocean WaveS to shoreS more
    Abundant wiTh smARt.. Fearless UNconditional Love
    iN juST moRe MoVinG.. ConNecTing and
    Co-Creating with God oF Nature
    all that is now even more..
    And sure.. i’LL get
    around to
    the oTher thing
    when i do.. do do..that.. too..
    but for now.. some more Giggle
    liNks from dVerse for juST more FuN..
    and speaKing of Fun.. a reminder to me
    that this Thursday Dance with all the cool college age
    folks.. is my 150th week of doing that too.. along with
    what is still coming to be about 7,000 miles of public
    metro area dance around the 2017.. Spring Equinox coMiNg too..:)

    SMiLes.. my friEnd.. Lillian.. iS
    not much liKe
    A Porcupine
    to quiLL
    wiTh huMor
    oF pinS and needLes
    aLL Natural witH Poetic Love PeN..;)

    Giggle with.. Giggle aT.. all
    the difference
    in whether
    A Emperor
    feels and
    senses liFe
    with or without cultural clothes..
    sure.. laugh at me.. laugh with me..
    juST Laugh while i giggle and google all
    outside too..;)

    DoWn in these pARts
    girl giggles are a thing
    of the past and
    in school
    and on the
    playground too..
    Thanks God Boys can
    actually Giggle now too..
    as who the F can take reaLiTy
    seriouSlY now.. Trump it with a Giggle
    is all
    is left to do..;)

    You bRinG to miNd MorE A TrutH and liGht
    thaT jusT thE WORlD giggle has an iNfinite
    number oF esSences aS FeeLinGs
    And SeNSeS and tHaT
    mY friEnd iS
    liKe A
    HaT anD
    iS NoW whY
    i for one caLL
    GoD A Laugh/gigglE
    as essence is alWays
    bigger than A word of hUman.. Google..;)

    A greaTest Giggle..
    a sMiLe on a Dog’s Face
    at play no different
    than a human
    A w A Y
    from worry..
    never own wiTh
    froWn alWays Love to Give..:)

    Nah.. my
    friEnd.. noThing
    Giggles now about
    and religiousized rape..
    dress up owning people
    as cattle in any color
    other than
    all that’s
    left is slave labor
    in all the ways that liVes
    as less than liFe can and
    WiLL Be..FReeDoM NoW..:)

    mY friEnd..
    perHaps A Saddest
    pARt of liFe is when
    our sMiLes of LiFe NoW
    are not accepted togETher as
    LoVinG Understanding IS A greaTest
    Gift oF aLL noW iN the diVersity trUe
    of BeinG hUman now.. as thaT liGht Now..
    A Best pARt of FreedoM as ExpresSinG noW
    getting to kNow and feeL and seNse everyone
    WiLL be
    shared for
    A CommonaLiTy oF Love..
    Tree oF LiFe aLL Leaves riSe..:)

    WeLL.. now for Dinner and ExXtreme
    Strength Training and Dance at the gym..
    hmm.. all i need IS A TheMe song but for now
    these words WiLL do As MeMe DancE and SonG too..;)

    2.27.2017 6:06 pm..:)

  3. frankhubeny says:

    Nice video of the cat and ducklings. I also liked the quote from Isaiah 49:14-15. Thanks for bringing these to my attention.

    • Hello.. Frank.. thanks so much
      for stopping by with thanks
      for the Cat and
      Loving Video
      and what truly does
      mean a continuous Nurture
      from God same as A Mother in
      Isaiah 49:14-15.. in Older Testament
      way sAMe as now testament reaLiTy
      as to be conNecTING iN MoVinG Co-
      CreATING ways with God all
      that is is to be allone
      and never
      my friEnd.. see you
      soon at your Poetry place too..:)

  4. https://theordinarilyordinary.wordpress.com/2017/02/24/on-lonliness/

    SMiLes.. Now..
    my friend.. Rafiah..
    for we are social
    animals and verily
    that is science too..
    And Loneliness is an emotion
    that signals us that we must continue
    to extend our handS even further for this
    IS A rule of God and Science and Nature sAMe..
    tHeRe is no
    who and
    we are aLivE
    as being human
    or trying to escape
    our nature as social
    beings oF liGht
    of HeaRt as soUL
    of MiNd and BoDy BaLanCinG
    NaTuRE togETher as more than juST
    one.. sure.. easier SAid than dOne.. as
    considering how much liGht in DancE
    And SonG i emit in each day.. the give
    is more than return in any given day by far by far
    by far.. and the truth is.. by birth and by environment in
    restrictions of what is that is.. some of us have to try harder.. even
    to the extent of an Olympic athlete of the greatest muscle of Love…
    All Depression IS A signal from God to get up or keep falling.. keep falling
    keep falling some more.. and so sad when the cultural environment makes it so
    hard to hold hands with all others free as small villages will do when free.. all i can
    DancE SinG my friend is.. i’m heAR.. willing to hold your internet hand.. and i don’t thiNk that’s
    your laws
    wHere you live
    as far as i kNow
    and feeL and Sense
    surELy not
    in the
    place wHere i
    live free within.. for this gift
    of life worth still extending a Hand of Love..
    my friEnd Rafiah.. never give uP as truly tHeRE iS togeTheR
    only do and no trY aS even Yoda says in this Love of/for Life..:)

  5. Memories are emotions
    Emotions are memories
    and for those of us who are ‘severely’ happy
    and have experienced ‘severely’ depressed..
    two dimensions of life that is.. and surEly VeriLY
    a spectrum as sHades of Grey
    to abyss
    thin ash existence
    and beYond rainbow colors
    too.. i’ve been traveling back across
    the river Styx ever since my mother fell
    catastrophically ill.. as in every stop along
    that river in my past my mother was the first
    and last to hold my hand and often the only one..
    particularly much earlier in life wHere i had no idea
    truly how the inner human Universe of me would go or come..
    in either dArk
    or liGht
    the ’round
    of that BeYond
    and below abyss of miss..
    the place i’ve been in.. yes.. the dimension
    whole of the last 42 months or so has been one of
    almost pure beyond rainbow liGht.. a place of no fear..
    a place of all give.. and a place of no fear of loss.. Nirvana.. the
    Kingdom of Heaven within.. wHEre no tears are shed but for the joy of Life
    even in loss of loved ones along the way.. Mother too much to bear..
    for me at least.. to avoid traveling back on the dArk roads of ‘fore..
    and more than anything else.. it reinforces what i have lEarned
    as an individual on my journey and multi-branching
    paths of life of what works for me and
    what will not work for me..
    for free works for
    me.. if i was still
    a slave
    to the
    demands of others
    at a job of subsistence upon
    whatever the whim of the moment
    of others were in the decades then..
    recovery would be hard to almost impossible
    as the inner Universe must be gardened with focus
    away from problem solving mechanical cognition life
    in a way that humans are not even wholly evolved to live
    now as it is a manufactured life of standard IQ that we live now..
    for only a relative few centuries in the scope of being human for a couple
    hundred thousand years on this planet now.. in small groups wholly depending
    on each other in measure of touchy feely love of cooperation to survive and thrive
    to make the measure at the end of the day of forage in survive and even thrive
    in a dance
    and song
    of life
    free.. and that
    is what families do.. perhaps
    only two in a nomad way of nuclear
    family to be or not in our new ways of
    moving where the jobs are.. even
    in global
    fashion now..
    is it part of our Nature
    to do this at hand.. hell no..
    it’s way beyond a village of life
    for togetheR that glues success
    of Love.. in touchy feely way..
    away from love it is
    aS even science
    that mechanical
    standard IQ activities to
    the exclusion of the human social
    touch withers away a pipe of Love no different
    than a backed up Septic Tank of solving problems with
    no end and never now as simple as getting something to eat
    and a FucKinG group hug.. with eYes and Hips of furry that KNow
    FeeL and SenSE no separation.. how advanced we are.. depends
    on how far a sMiLe can travel today.. or how many times two pairs
    of eYes meet in Love for the day of Unconditional Fearless Love..
    tHeRe is no drive thru for love only stay a little while longer.. please..
    so.. i’ll bounce back.. i am bouncing back for i’ve the tools of Love at Hand
    in both art of language and movement that sooner or later does connect me to
    others and more importantly exercises the greatest muscle oF all.. the HeARt of Love
    that feels and senses more as luminous beings who shine.. giVing shaRing a Love oF LiGht mOre..:)

  6. I hope you are keeping well dear friends and I had never seen a cat care for ducklings before, what a wonderful sight!☺💖 xxx

  7. “Mementos from Mother Helen”..
    yes.. spent all day at my Mother’s
    home with my Sister and Katrina and
    Katrina’s Sister Kim and our friend Judy
    from back at the Bowling Center working days
    and also a fellow employee Judy was with Katrina
    at the Local Press Gazette Newspaper.. our roots truly
    run deep in this community.. as my Great Uncle Charles as family
    history records that seems to be different from official history
    but never the less.. it said that Great Uncle Charles..
    a first settler on Navarre Beach with
    his Father.. my Great Grandfather
    Edward Robbins
    way way back then..
    actually named it..
    and Edward..
    to family history
    named Oriole Beach..
    haven’t seen it in the official
    history books but anyway.. first settlers
    they were in the most beautiful pARts of the
    County for sure with my Grandmother and two
    Great aunts too.. when Edward took the ferry into
    Pensacola to his job then.. and brought back the
    groceries to the Peninsula of Lower Santa
    Rosa County by the Gulf.. anyway.. the
    headliner Memento heAR..
    is me at age 22
    all bearded
    a race of life
    as a perfectionist in
    many OCD-like ways..
    coming off a serious.. almost
    year long depression at age 21
    with a lift here.. wHere i might look
    like i never had a problem in my life and
    haha.. who would believe by this photo that
    yes.. all my life.. i’ve been on the Autism Spectrum
    for what they name as Asperger’s Syndrome and nah..
    it will not be hard to believe at all per stereotypes of that
    disorder if one views this coming 751st Macro Verse of Ocean
    wHole Poem.. yes.. now named ‘Mementos from Mother Helen”..
    also now what will be the 80th MacroVerse of “Nether Land Bible
    2017’.. as already talked to earlier in another MicroVerse word total
    subtotal of what will eventually be just another Grand Total of words
    in MacroVerse way.. and after my Mother and My Sister and Me all
    Graduated this year of 1983 from the University of West Florida..not
    too long after this Bay Bridge Fun Run.. hehe.. where.. hmm.. it looks
    like i’m in the lead here.. haha.. as that dude behind me.. really
    looks like a serious runner.. hehe.. but nah.. somewhere
    in the top of the pack but not nearly first.. as hey..
    only been back into running about 6 months
    or so here.. on the 10K and
    5K Regional
    of run for fun
    and all the health
    benefits that go along with
    that.. and nah.. my knees and
    hips and feet won’t do the run anymore..
    and i must admit the dance overall is much more
    bliss than run as all body parts go in basically all directions
    for total head to toe fitness.. but i did dance too.. kinda shook
    my butt too.. but never ever raised my arms above my head..
    as i was too afraid back then to do that.. hehe.. even though
    after i earned my third degree that year in December of 1983
    and was doing some graduate work too with at one point three part
    time jobs.. simultaneously.. i remember a 25 year old girl asking me..
    what are you.. Superman.. same as an eventual co-worker called me that
    later on for my efforts at work too.. super achiever making it through all odds..
    including non-speaking Autism until age 4 and lifelong Bi-Polar and around eventually
    19 life threatening synergy of illnesses in 66 months of hell to get to here.. if this is what
    it takes to be Superman.. i wouldn’t wish the darker paRts on anyone but me to get to where
    i am now.. the Kryptonite is gone now.. once again.. for now.. as spending the day with all
    my Mother’s Memories as mementos in her home brought the emotional healing
    to open them all up and process them.. i needed most today.. and that
    reminds me.. the Military Hero.. who has been helping
    me through.. dealing with this at the gym..
    notified me yesterday that he
    just got notified that
    he has stage
    2 Melanoma..
    so.. it was my turn
    to console him as he confided
    that he couldn’t stand anything that
    spells weakness in his life.. and that as
    he was an Enlisted Vietnam Vet and eventually
    Commodore of a Navy Station.. he was really good
    at compartmentalizing his emotions out.. and that was
    exactly what i was doing my best not to do.. as i did it so good
    through fight and flight stress at work that i lost them eventually all
    together.. to the point i could not remember what a smile felt like
    or if i ever felt a belly laugh as when emotions go away
    there is no reference point as emotions
    are memories and memories
    are emotions
    that are
    the glue of all
    cognitive executive
    functioning in both focus
    and short term working memory
    and to get that all working together
    as a finely tuned Ferrari.. along with integration
    of senses to go along with regulation of emotions
    sure.. 12 million words eventually come and a Bible one
    a half times as big as that old King James Version in 9 months
    with this 80th Macro Verse heAR.. but you kNow.. if you do view this
    MacroVerse and see wHere i come from.. where at one point.. the McDonald’s
    Cashier mistook me for a girl at about 12 or 13.. and sure.. i’ve got the photos
    to make you believe it.. coming as mementos of photos stored at my Mother’s home
    too.. and when they tell you as you talk so strange and move so strange and wear
    your hair and your clothes so strange that you don’t deserve to exist.. you either
    become Superman or you FucKinG Give up.. thing is.. My Mother never ever
    expected us or limited us in whatever we wanted to be.. she never
    told me i couldn’t be Superman.. just like she never told
    me back then that i wouldn’t be able to do
    #John1412.. as what were you
    expecting.. someone to
    come back
    to actually
    fly and walk
    on water and raise
    people from the dead
    and steer bombs away
    in sky from Nuclear Destruction
    like a frigging movie or a myth.. nah..
    3.3 Million words pluS as Ocean whole Poem
    in 42 months.. 12 million words in 6 years..
    6666 miles of Public Metro Dance in 40 months..
    approaching 7 thousand miles close to the Spring
    Equinox of 2017 in a little over 42 months too.. and this
    “Nether Land Bible 2017”.. now at 1.189090 Million Words
    and that’s what a continuing Human Storm of DARk and liGhT
    will Fruit when one never FucKinG gives up on the race of life.. no
    matter what.. and does tHeiR best to Thank God for tHeRe life for a
    more than
    ever before..
    juST a challenge for
    YOU to do more.. if YOU
    really believe what the so-called
    Jesus Dude said is really possible
    for human now.. with 100% Faith
    as Fearless SmARt Hope and Love
    noW.. tHERe are no limits.. THeiR are
    no expectations and thEre are no tries but jusT do it NoW
    in Victory
    over Vengeance
    for those who gave
    up and became a bully instead of
    Supermen and Superwomen and SuperEtC2..
    TRumPinG Bullies every now.. With LoVinG LiFE alWays noW..
    and nah.. didn’t make a frigging Lincoln Penny off of any of it as
    this reward of life as gift is beyond all tools that human make as idols of life..
    as the
    is the full
    100% Pure liGht of Love..
    as simple reward of Heaven now..
    takes work though baby.. a lifetime of work
    that never ends as perfection of practice and never perfect..
    goeS oN..
    And hehex2.. it’s
    worth noting.. thaT
    Body was 60Lbs ago.. too..
    at 170Lbs back in ’83.. and
    it remained that way for years
    to come.. no matter what i ate until
    hmm.. about when i got married in ’90
    at 190Lbs and now at 230Lbs.. or so..
    i reAlly did love to run..
    ran track in high school
    too.. for over a decade
    more but dance has so
    many more benefits
    as the
    continues to prove..:)

    Facebook Friend Rafiah drops
    by for a short quick sweet note..

    Freddy, I see you..:)

    And i return somewhat
    mischievously by saying back again..

    Hey… it
    Took this..
    To get Even
    Katrina to

    Copy of a MicroVerse
    as shared on Facebook
    too.. from a year ago..
    as what remains when
    i dance the beach
    in photo
    too all flow
    all spiral
    aS Such in ratio style2..;)

    So.. what kind of animal
    leaves prints on the beach..
    that resemble lines of waves
    as they shore the beach.. what kind
    of animal.. flows like the MilkYway
    in Golden Spiral Phi.. that too..
    are lines of waves
    as they shore
    the beach..
    should iT be obvious..
    sure iT should be second
    Nature to flow as God.. now..
    as water and beach become
    one Force oF balance beach
    and human
    sAMe.. when
    one becomes
    water.. ocean..
    waves.. and
    shore line all iN oNe
    ForCe noW..
    the result iS
    NOW ALL FREE.. iS…
    i could show ya how to
    juSt do iT.. but only you
    can do iT..
    as iT iS an
    inside.. outside..
    all around now..
    above so below..
    juSt Do iT JoB.. now
    wheRe Form oF God
    naturAlly reflects the
    essence of aLL that iS
    that iS God from
    top to bottom
    oF inFiniTy


    And a MacroVerse memory way way back
    from 3 years ago as “She Wolf Lives”..
    as i go a ‘little’ further than only running
    or dancing too aS expreSsing the Golden
    Spiral Phi as essence come in form
    of juST anoTheR
    of God
    who has
    come to
    Move as
    the Pattern of God
    aS UniVerse more.. above
    so below.. inside.. outside.. all around..
    and even come as essence of human form too..:)


    Lazarus and a Beer.. yes.. documenting Spring cleaning by
    the wife Katrina.. even going as far as washing windows..
    last year in this Memorable MacroVerse way
    too.. and sure more than
    that with
    a real time
    story now
    Lazarus and a Beer
    as fully reported in the MacroVerse heaR..;)

    A quote as my first deeper meaning poetic
    remark on Facebook ever on March
    1st.. 4 years ago on
    as the private
    message i shared with
    my first Facebook then
    at the end of February
    that ended up becoming
    my first Perspective pre-Macro
    Verse post in Google Blogspot way
    on March the 10th..2013.. anyway it began
    on Facebook with the quote as copied below..

    Kind Autistics Taking In Everything Mindful in Awareness
    Autistic Love
    And the Science of Kindology
    An Ideological First Identity

    Sure.. a creative acronym take on
    the phrase KATiE MiA.. as not only
    a version of my wife’s first and middle
    name.. but also a way of looking at the World
    wHeRE the Present is more Gold that past and future..
    in all FeeLinG and SenSinG way of liFe more than jusT words
    as Physical and Emotional Intelligences beCoMme regulated mOre
    as sensory integration too.. in ways of MoVinG.. ConNecTing and
    CreaTinG even more free from head to toe more too.. wHere we
    also create an iDeology bY Director.. ‘i’ as actor.. ‘I’..
    producing that actor with plenty exclamation point!
    SpiRit eXpreSsinG heaRt of Kind as study
    of Kind in Kindology way too.. in
    yes.. a miNd
    and BoDy
    fuLLeR soUL way too..
    wiTh bottom line to top
    of the lines of Fearless
    smARt Unconditional LovE NoW2..:)

    And that’s about it for this MicroVerse
    pARt of MacroVerse whOle Ocean Whole Poem
    And “Nether Land Bible 2017.. as WeLL..:)

  8. https://gigoid.me/2017/02/28/lofty-goals-impudent-desires/#comment-21463

    Hello.. gigoid.. been taking care of business
    with the passing of my mother and
    will be.. for awhile.. but wanted
    to come by
    for your more
    intense effort here
    at least.. to drop a ‘few’ lines..
    Hope you are doing well out there
    in the Big Blue Room of Oxygen as you
    say and hope the
    air out
    there is
    breathable in
    all of human ways…

    “…life is long enough if it is well-spent.”

    ~~ Erasmus ~~

    As science shows now.. life
    is only as long as the depth of the
    emotional and sensory mindful and
    bodiful awareness of the present of the moment..
    and sure..
    words get
    to that reality
    of experience.. helpful
    or not.. as liGht and dARk
    grows or not with all the potential
    sHades of grey attached to the
    complex tool of words
    that humans
    grow to
    be beyond the
    essence of experience
    of emotions more regulated
    and senses more integrated
    and self actualization to highest
    summits of Maslow’s hierarchy as
    Pyramid as well as Fowler’s
    Pyramid of Faith
    from Myth
    to Agape Love
    for all that iS in what
    some folks name God in
    many different languages and
    metaphors through all of history
    and indicated as artifacts of long ago too..
    social animals bind.. togeTheR using all
    tools available as far as humans go as science sHows too..:)

    “There is nothing like death.
    To it, everything is a metaphor.”

    ~~ Subtle Bee ~~

    SMiLes.. my friEnd.. trUe.. unless as you say
    there IS A great adventure after Death and it’s
    worth noting again that about 1 percent of the
    population is born innately evil in terms
    of gaining tHeir only pleasure
    from harming others
    as the brain
    is basically
    FucKeD uP at Birth..
    in this way.. so.. if there is no
    rhyme and reason or true
    meaning and purpose
    to whatever existence
    noW is is beyond
    material reductionism
    and as science shows above
    reflects below at the Sagan level..
    the 800LB Gorilla in the room is the
    still mystery of human consciousness as
    the rider of the Camel and the Elephant
    that we hold dear as the words we say
    to express all of what we sentient sTar
    dust plUs notice about life above
    the camel
    elephant of
    what lies and tales
    the truth below.. scientists are so
    far behind on the inner realities of
    the human experience of conscious awareness
    in repeatable experiment way and so far away from
    measuring even the tiniest paRts of ReaLITy beyond
    subatomic flow.. sure.. wish for a great adventure but
    the reality is.. the energy both in material reductionism
    and what we worship and praise as holy and sacred Rational
    Consciousness above the Camel and the Elephant that science
    now proves are the emotions and the senses that rule all rationality
    at our verbal level of navigating our realities in song over dance as
    priorities come more in recorded intelligence way in written language
    and complex cultures and burial ceremony flowers.. same as 30 thousand
    years ago.. what remains now is what binds us now.. and in terms of original
    Greek etymology.. my friEnd.. in all the ways that comes in material reductionistic
    view or myth and magic and Nocebo Voodo and Placebo Prayer.. what Binds us
    toGeTheR otherwise known as the term religion is what binds us toGether as
    no matter
    what the
    ritual is that
    comes next.. hehe..
    posting every day on blogs
    or twice a week.. come hell or
    high water or whatever comes next..
    in other words.. my friEnd.. once you
    remove all these words.. the essence remains..
    and if Positive energy in the Universe attracts Positive
    energy in the universe and Negative energy in the Universe
    attracts Negative energy in the Universe and as Sagan and ‘others’
    say we are Sentient Star duST plUS aRiSinG from Crucible of Star
    DeAth Burst and Resurrection of those gaseous duSts into
    StAR duST uS sentient plUS now.. i WiLL
    DancE/SinG go for the positive and juST Do
    iT or end up
    in the
    1 percent
    later on and perhaps
    be a politician.. a priest
    of even a philosopher or two
    who don’t understand that rationality
    at most is still a present now ruse..
    and surely.. the muse of essence2..
    is what continues to make the news@6
    as EmoTioNs and SenSEs do continue
    to rule the Science of being human now for
    the little science does KNoW about the bigger picture
    and much bigger picture UniVersaL miNds eYes Views..
    iN other wordS it’s kinda silly not to be joyous about the miracle of liFE
    if one
    can and
    wiLL and jusT
    do iT of course..
    alWays easier sAid
    in words thaN what
    comes in essence neXT..
    and usuAlly thAT paRt of what
    i fiNd is best regulated and integrated
    in that miracle of the present of now
    with a totAlly non-verbal dance oF
    liFE as that present of NoW..
    no confusion
    of words
    all the Joy of Life noW..
    hehe.. @leASt for me
    as i for one inherit
    that present
    Here’s.. A thing.. my friEnd..
    the only adventure for
    me is now..
    don’t need
    no promises
    or fictional myths..
    iN this heaven @least
    for me.. is only now.. i inherited it.. what more could
    i ask for.. from dARker space and empty cold and hot rocks..
    i’ll make
    it all a piece
    of cake now and don’t
    even need no icing.. later on.. my friEnd..
    juST.. ’cause.. i can and will and do it now..
    and if that makes me a chosen
    one and
    ain’t fair..
    perHaps i did make
    this reaLiTy now from
    way way back then by simply thennow
    never ever giving up on the positive now..
    and i’m not stupid enough to say i KNoW anything.. my friEnd..
    but i am smART enough to feeL iT aLL and seNse iT all iN the beauty
    and wisdom
    now.. juST alive now..
    mindfully and bodily aware
    as ‘they’ say in the present of now..:)

    “You’re not ready for what I think.”

    ~~ Fox Mulder ~~

    Here’s another thing.. my friEnd..
    when one kNows nothing and feels
    and senses all now instead.. nothing anyone
    else says.. now.. can get ya down at all.. as one
    realizes beyond words that’s the ruse and the buzz is the heaven within..
    and man..
    it takes a
    lifetime as far
    as i don’t kNow
    to get here my friEnd..
    particularly riding elephants
    and camels like more of what
    underLies me for ONE as trUth..
    aS liGht
    out of dARk..:)

    “History does not record anywhere at any time
    a religion that has any rational basis.
    Religion is a crutch for people not strong enough
    to stand up to the unknown without help.
    But, like dandruff, most people do have a religion
    and spend time and money on it
    and seem to derive considerable pleasure from fiddling with it.”

    ~~ Robert Heinlein, Time Enough for Love (1972) ~~

    Hmm.. wiNKs.. reference
    back to the ‘last’ thiNks..;)

    “But a short time elapsed after the death
    of the great reformer of the Jewish religion,
    before his principles were departed
    from by those who professed to be his special servants,
    and perverted into an engine for enslaving mankind,
    and aggrandizing their oppressors in Church and State.”

    ~~ Thomas Jefferson, [letter?] To S. Kercheval, 1810 ~~

    i’ve got a copy of the Jefferson bible that is simply
    a more gnostic re-hash of what remains of
    words attributed
    to just another
    son of man
    in a book where
    all biblical scholars
    now understand the problems
    of the integrity of that.. and nah..
    Jefferson’s version don’t ring totally
    true to me either.. it’s also obvious how
    Washington DC is laid out that our country
    was developed by Free masons.. overall..
    who wanted to escape the monarchy
    of a Supreme Being imagined
    to be one of
    control along
    with the representatives
    thereof.. they decided that
    rights of life.. liberty.. and the pursuit
    of happiness was more like God as
    a Republic instead.. one nation under FREE
    my friEnd.. getting tHERe slowly as maKing that
    happen with a being with strong tribal instincts
    only evolved to live in relatively small groups
    that are heterogeneous as small groups go..
    and do do.. is surEly and verily
    like herding cats where
    the dog of ration
    is a
    hard dog to pet..
    or Trump as that goes with Love for all
    in Fowler and Maslow enlightened and awakened ways..
    the elite
    as they
    say in abundance
    out of scare city rural
    areas and deserts and
    snowy mountains aS Such..
    on a beach.. under the shade
    of a tree..come to be in heaven.. go to a desert and you get a tribal God inSTEAD
    to gain fertile land for subsistence by warrior kill and rape and pillaging too.. in HELL..
    no adventures
    again tHEre.. my friEnd..
    but hey.. what are words after death..
    other than “spiritual’ energy/force/ART
    defeating entropy in recorded KA ways..
    now turn it into senses
    and feelings
    MaGiC liveS on..noW
    that’s enough for me..
    my friEnd.. the adventure now..
    as the ‘rest’ (GOD) will take care of itself after
    death but the trUe liGht MaGiC is we can dreAM nexT now2..
    and only a fool would do something not to feel and sense good..
    but remember..
    of course as for
    some folks only pain is pleasure of someone else’s pain..
    as science most definitely sHows in ‘that’.. “1 percent’ now..
    nah.. don’t
    come back
    as A dEvil daM
    suRe.. not now..:)

    “What is it the Bible teaches us? – rapine, cruelty, and murder.
    What is it the Testament teaches us?
    – to believe that the Almighty committed debauchery
    with a woman engaged to be married,
    and the belief of this debauchery is called faith.”

    ~~ Thomas Paine — The Age of Reason ~~

    Of course..
    ‘that one’
    and one
    one’.. two..
    was/is written
    in a F
    Rocky Desert
    S C A R C I T ie S
    wHere soMe humans
    moved and some reFused
    to move on to greener pastures..
    meanwhile.. the Indians of abundant
    places dance(d) naked with each other..
    smiling in orgies of Love toGeTher like an Adriana
    Grande Song.. was/is God pissed living within those
    people.. sure..
    an orgasm
    every now..
    meanwhile.. ‘other
    people’ enjoy getting pissed on
    as the record continues to sHow..
    A Trump of Love A Trump of Hate..
    just survive
    with heART or snake..:)

    “All national institutions of churches, whether Jewish, Christian, or Turkish,
    appear to me no other than human inventions,
    set up to terrify and enslave mankind, and monopolize power and profit.”

    ~~ Thomas Paine ~~

    Sure.. the religions
    in places
    a little Anthropology
    goes a long way
    to better
    what even the essence
    of language and humanity is..
    in binding
    way in peace and
    harmony of beach and rain forest
    or anger and hate and violence of desert
    and snowy mountain ways..
    with the
    poverty of aLL
    of the Spirit within
    that never rises close
    to Maslow and Fowler’s
    pyramid of
    like the Founding
    Free Masons said too..
    albeit.. excluding women and
    ‘colored/other folks’ then in
    living then/now too..
    butt sure.. the tribal
    instinct lives on then now for those
    trapped by the Nature of the human beast too..:)

    “All national institutions of churches, whether Jewish, Christian, or Turkish,
    appear to me no other than human inventions,
    set up to terrify and enslave mankind, and monopolize power and profit.”

    ~~ Thomas Paine ~~

    And it’s true ‘they’
    have those sucKy
    casteS.. even
    India2 with
    Hinduism too..
    with a billion or so folks+..
    square one root problem
    as usual.. insanely large numbers of
    humans living together equals
    scarCities and Chaos
    to keep
    roaches in motels..
    and never veering off of sidewalks too..
    it’s truly ugly for the majority and not worthy of praise and worship
    in some places in the world for sure.. but hey.. it’s Nature at its dARkest
    and yes
    all that is
    out of Balance
    in human form of essence too..
    Karma.. roll the bones.. pay the dues of do
    or no
    do do..;)

    My church is Nature/God sAMe..
    in Balance
    i dare anyone
    to prove it’s not heaven now..
    as no one
    has yet..
    and i for
    one prove it’s real..
    all that is is now..
    and for
    iT’s isREAL..
    does everyone get it..
    no.. of course not.. tHere is dARk too.. rhetorical for all that is..
    no misSinG it.. it lives everywHeRE sTiLL in the World/UniVerse2
    now.. with Karma of all that is for reaLiTy of DARk and liGht now..
    Yin and Yang and Kali and the Cosmic Dancer and such
    as that too..
    hey.. now..
    but at least..
    i feeL and sense
    the other place then2..
    now a little sympathy from
    a devil2
    to live ‘tHeRe’2..:)

    “The divinity of Jesus is made a convenient cover for absurdity.
    Nowhere in the Gospels do we find a precept
    for Creeds, Confessions, Oaths, Doctrines,
    and whole carloads of other foolish trumpery
    that we find in Christianity.”

    ~~ John Adams ~~

    A Crux sTiLL
    in all of that…is..
    And John Quincy
    Adams saw into
    the weaknesses of
    so-called secret
    societies then of
    Free Masonary too..
    it’s rather simple to me..
    any organization that refuses
    women in are lacking half a brain
    afraid of divine feminine love and grace now..
    A worst kind of weakness.. sureLY.. VeriLY.. hAlf a bRain
    in metaphor
    of course
    aS iT
    AtoP AtLas
    ShUdder ShoulDers sTiLL..;)

    “…this would be the best of all possible worlds,
    if there were no religion in it.”

    ~~ John Adams, Letter to Thomas Jefferson, 1816 ~~

    SMiLes.. John A..
    A little Anthropology
    101 would help to understand
    that it is ‘the bind’
    at core of what
    A social animal
    is and for human
    inherently fixated
    expresSinG and
    labeling emotions
    and senses and
    commonly shared experience
    with abstract symbols from vocal
    now to
    and tribal
    there will always
    be the etymology of
    religion as the essence of binding two or more
    togetHeR as culture/church/politics/sports/science/philosophies/eTc..
    as whatever
    with a similar
    dance of song now..
    toGeThER DanCinG and SinGinG NoW..:)

    The only place religion does
    not exist iS iN the abyss
    of piece of paper
    existence where
    one feels and
    senses no
    connection to
    anything all that is..
    that’s hell.. my friend..
    a place where tHeRE are no binds but escape..
    wHeRe yes.. escape becomes the religion in hell..
    been tHEre done it.. a thousand years in one second
    where all is time and all is hell and if one thinks that burning forever
    is a worst
    think at
    all.. NOT feel and
    sense 0 point piece
    of paper existence
    trapped in A Genie
    bottle of hell forever now
    Lesson lEarned.. bind all
    that is to one.. make every
    step and word and every emotion
    and sense holy and sacred full of meaning
    and purpose in abstract construct way too..
    make all
    of life
    no dARk or liGht
    then Heaven coMes..
    perhaps one has to go to
    hell first to truly get ‘heAR’.. my friEnd..
    to understand that away from bind is hell..
    the essence of all that is good is bind for those who feeL and sense
    of LiVinG
    C O L O R
    all that is now
    binding toGeTher
    forevermorenow.. aS onE..
    the opposite of hell.. my friEnd..
    works for me at lEast as inheriTinG
    the dArk and
    meek and last
    for what all that is now..:)

    “For those who believe in God, most of the big questions are answered.
    But for those of us who can’t readily accept the God formula,
    the big answers don’t remain stone-written.
    We adjust to new conditions and discoveries.
    We are pliable.
    Love need not be a command or faith a dictum.
    I am my own God.
    We are here to unlearn the teachings
    of the church, state, and our educational system.
    We are here to drink beer.
    We are here to kill war.
    We are here to laugh at the odds
    and live our lives so well that Death will tremble to take us.”

    ~~ Charles Bukowski ~~

    i feel so sorry
    for someone
    who isn’t ‘strong’
    to enjoy
    life to the
    max without
    a frigging beer..
    another benefit
    of hell.. maKing heaven one’S own..
    i have nothing against weak people as i was
    A dEvil as A weakest one oF all too.. in hell2.. wHeRE2
    i would have done anything for a drop of anything to get me out of tHeRE2..
    yes.. the Lazarus story doesn’t do it justice.. either.. thAT’s trUe too..
    thing is..
    in tHeRE..
    nothing.. nah..
    works for.. now…
    For one who is one
    with God/Nature.. no ‘additives’ needed
    in balance.. pre-packaged for fun.. fair.. nah..
    i didn’t do anything to deserve heLL.. AFAIK..
    reAlly.. except for
    now.. the after
    Karma pARTy..
    wHeRE most
    asks me
    soMe of what i’M oN..;)

    “Patriotism is the willingness
    to kill and be killed for trivial reasons.”

    ~~ Bertrand Russell ~~

    Liberty.. is usuAlly only
    trivial for those
    who have
    never trUly
    tasted Free..
    And WiTH A death of
    Patriotism/Tribalism is also
    A Willingness to share that Free
    aCross Borders oF Past Tribalism/Patriotism now..
    is no trUly
    Free without
    forgives and
    gives and shares..
    with Mercy more of Love..
    as FreeLiGht gRows Ocean wHole..
    but aGain.. those who are free.. master A camel and elephant as
    Master/Rider FReED.. odd they are and so far apARt they coMe..
    unplugGinG heAR and THeRE.. dReAMinG oThERs FRee2..
    liKe A pLay oF A
    MaGiC Flute..
    for those
    A DancE and SonG..noW..:)

    “Some writers have so confounded society with government,
    as to leave little or no distinction between them;
    whereas they are not only different, but have different origins.
    Society is produced by our wants,
    and government by our wickedness;
    the former promotes our happiness *positively*,
    by uniting our affections,
    the latter *negatively*, by restraining our vices.
    The one encourages intercourse,
    the other creates distinctions.
    The first is a patron, the last is a punisher.
    Society in every state is a blessing,
    but government even in its best state is but a necessary evil;
    in its worst state an intolerable one….”

    ~~ Thomas Paine, opening lines of _Common Sense_ 1776 ~

    ~~ *asterisks denote Paine’s use of italics* ~~

    Yes.. Government is a
    necessary so-called
    evil for those humans
    who live in insanely large
    populations.. tHere is
    no other
    but rules
    when humans
    no longer connect
    to the entire group as friends..
    and as one agrees later down on
    in this piece.. about 200 or so
    sets of eYes
    is wHere
    some kind
    of Government becomes
    a reality with humans living out of
    so-called Natural Balance.. i have no
    problem with Government as i master
    it for now..
    not to
    say i won’t
    have problems
    again.. but the seagull
    doesn’t worry about asteroids
    coming and other stuff like that..
    Government is slow and psychopaths
    who run it.. won’t kill themselves first..
    as psychology indicates at least.. hehe..
    statistically now.. i have no worries.. so i live on for this great adventure now..
    it’s what one does in mostly empty space and cold and hot rocks now.. life ain’t fair
    and licking
    is great for squirrels..
    ride the wave until it ends..
    change what ya can and enjoy the rest..
    as once again.. a great adventure now.. if one can and will.. now2..:)

    “Money made a vow to itself,
    that no one who didn’t love it,
    would ever have it.”

    Irish Proverb

    i ignore
    for me
    at least
    that’s why i have
    all i need.. i ignore money..
    it naturally grows when one
    don’t need it.. i find at least.. now.. hehe..
    it’s like
    HA hE
    it’s math.. Heha..
    i ignore money.. so much..
    when it comes.. i just ignore
    it more and it continues to grow..
    like a FucKinG Money Tree.. And..
    i juSt hope those who
    inherit that shit..
    don’t bLow it up
    tHeir nose like my
    step-sister did with
    her Mother’s inheritance of hell and
    die way too soon2.. iF only she had
    that gift.. the first Woman my my Father married..
    the one who rather stays at home and raises one’s kids
    with hugs more than go to work and make some big bucks
    for some
    stuff.. a vicious
    cycle.. it is.. when
    money and all its
    vices attempts to FeeL a wHole.. empty of Love..
    ‘Fore.. for A couple hundred thousand years entire villages
    yes.. small.. raised children with touchy feely love.. noW it’s FucKinG
    Barney the Dinosaur through the lonely stare of crib bars now.. then2..
    and plastic
    FucKinG cold nipples..
    that feel and sense no Love aT aLL..
    it is what is is.. Nature Nature.. God sAMe..
    pay the piper all Karma due of do do now..
    HeHe.. i praise single Welfare Food card
    great thanks
    for what is important
    in life.. love over pride..
    love over
    all when love reigns real..
    A best part of Government
    is one that understands what is
    most important.. a home of touchy
    feely love for a child at all costs more without..
    And nah.. no welfare for my mother but my Father
    stayed long enough.. where i would stay rich all my life without
    a green bLack dollar.. required to fill that up until i became its slave too..
    as money
    truly is a root of
    all human suffering now..
    when it becomes empty Love..;)

    “The races of the Galaxy look towards
    mankind as the essential lunatic element.”

    ~~ Terry Pratchett, “Strata”, pg. 60 ~~

    Meh.. Love brought this all to
    a head now.. if we didn’t cooperate
    so much as being human.. the virus
    of cultures/religions would have never become the
    out of control experiment oF all that is now..
    Love IS A
    out too..
    back in for balance..
    but with rationality
    over emotion now..
    nah.. more likely
    a more
    difficult answer
    as solution of emotions/
    senses/ though aS Surely hiStory
    and all news continues to sHow.. as Muse.. Nothing
    ‘normal hUman’.. Trumps human emotion/senses.. dARk or liGht..
    EmotionS and senses win.. liGht or dArk..
    in other words.. my friEnd.. believe
    it or not Ripleys..
    and Horatios
    and other
    folks like that..
    it’s common
    sense now..
    the answers
    will have to be found
    in ‘Religion’ as EmotionS and Senses rule thE
    DancE and SonG for all of whaT iS hUman StiLL now..
    AnD what i do mean is the essence as
    Etymology of ‘Religion’ in what BindS iN
    Unifies uS as Victory
    BindS iN
    Us as Vengeance.. anyWay..
    i’M betting on noW as all that is Love
    at LEast..
    bE tHe Love yA
    wanna be or not for all i can and WiLL DO now..;)

    AnyWay.. my friend.. thanks for putting toGetHer
    all of what this is aS Highly muSinG to me
    in your efforts heAR..
    Life doesn’t
    have to
    And it won’t make sense..
    unless we personally co-
    create it that way..
    to suit our
    sense and
    taste and
    feel for all
    that is and..
    it’s kinda nice
    to be lost
    in a village
    this large.. as no
    one notices me anymore..
    enough.. to try to change me..
    as most everyone under 40
    is strange now.. too.. heHe!..
    A beauty of
    true chaos
    as long as it lasts..
    the strange thrive in
    a world more of strange..
    i’m gonna enjoy this chaos
    as long as it lasts.. no FucKinG
    for me..
    my friEnd..
    i’LL take the tapestry
    as masterpiece of chaos
    on the long way home.. Free
    as subatomic flow swirls around in me
    for what i for one see as
    a beautiful world now.. sTiLL..
    FucKinG Fabulous
    aDvenTure NoW..
    and i’m
    not asKinG
    for anything else..
    now.. but as ‘they’ STiLL
    DancE and SinG.. NoW.. thE REAL
    Money Tree continues to GroW mY FriEnd..
    don’t need
    to kNow thaT..
    i for one
    born this way thaT works..
    forevermore now.. juST now..;)

  9. More ‘Memento’s From Mother Helen’.. and yes in ‘this’
    photo from DownTown Milton at my Grandmother’s
    home where i was raised next to the Railroad
    Trestle on BlackWater River in
    DownTown Milton
    in a hundred year
    old or so shot-gun
    home.. where the beauty
    of the River and the Flowers
    in the yard outshines anything
    that human can build as homes
    away from Nature Free.. you see..
    i write poetically to make more of life..
    Holy and Sacred full of meaning and purpose..
    12 million words of effort have come into maKing
    the River of my SouL Bleed Beauty.. from the dArkness
    of Before.. but it is real and so am i.. and so is this Wonderful
    Adventure of life as i am still amazed by what comes in every word
    and step of life.. in other words.. the rider of the camel and elephant
    that is the mindful awareness in both mind and body from head to toe..
    is surely amazed by the camel and the elephant that are just metaphors
    for what lies as truth living
    within the subconscious
    mind that is
    a collective
    whole of all
    i’ve experienced
    in my life.. and while it might
    be hard for the folks at Old Seville
    Quarter to imagine me as a little
    boy in a cowboy hat.. where i actually
    road in a ’57 Chevy in the year ’63.. or so
    after the Birth Control Pill first came on the market
    when i was born on the 6th day of the 6th month of
    the 6 decade of ’60.. last century as now goeS on..
    My mother pictured ‘here’.. on the
    record of what it means
    to be feminine..
    voted by her
    highschool peers
    as having the best figure then..
    and noted by my Father’s Mother as
    having the most beautiful skin for a woman
    she ever saw glowing white as estrogen does
    when expresSinG at high levels as my cowboy hat does opposite..
    ‘here’.. before my Father left.. wRite about the time John F. Kennedy
    was assassinated then… in November of 1963.. and my mother was so
    inspired.. and saddened by my Father leaving and really stressed
    out.. looking for answers somewhere in her life.. that she radically
    changed from being a Protestant.. moving to Catholicism..
    inspired by the widow Jackie and her two
    children with the ritual of the Catholic
    Church then.. anyway.. explains
    how a Grandson of an
    Priest.. got
    in the Catholic
    Church.. hehe..
    let’s face it.. all us folks
    approaching 60 years old and
    older now have seen a lot in life..
    have done a lot in life and are still involved
    in a brand new cultural experiment through what
    we all experience now as a thousand lifetimes and more
    of virtual mirror neuron experience of watching and listening
    to the medium of home entertainment.. nah.. didn’t have a TV
    until age 7 and i didn’t actually have a color TV until age 16.. and
    when that console blew up about 2 years later.. i didn’t have another
    Color TV until age 26.. purchased with my first Lowe’s Credit Card at
    that age.. and i never filled out a check until age 28 and lived mostly at
    home until that age with some stints with other folks living in apartments
    until i finally lived alone in an apartment at age 28 and got married shortly
    after that while living in an apartment with my sister at age 29.. moving into
    more apartments.. living with my mother and my wife until age 33 to save enough
    money for the start of a mortgage in ’93.. eating pork and beans and those big packages
    of cheap leg quarters.. somehow.. saving three thousand dollars while both me and the wife
    still made close to minimum wage and below minimum wage dollars today and finally bought our
    modest home in the Forest that we still live in today.. all paid off as such as my debt went
    on all the way from age 26 until just a couple of years ago in at least car and home loan
    mortgage way.. slave to debt.. like everyone else.. but in that year of ’93.. my
    non-appropriated federal job at the little Military Bowling Center was
    changed over to appropriated.. GS-5 pay and my pay went
    up.. almost double.. and next thing ya know..
    i moved from Blue Chevy Cavalier to
    Green Teal Camaro and
    got into debt some more..
    as that is how the American Dream
    Steals your freedom of choice away..
    in stuff.. in stuff.. and more stuff.. until
    the camper and boat is no longer used in the
    backyard.. if ever used at all… or for those higher
    ups.. the Yacht never leaves port and is used for a dinner
    party once a year… same old shit.. same old American Dream
    that really is a nightmare for many folks as how many homes does
    Oprah need and what does a F iN 10 million Dollar home do for your
    Eternal Osteen Soul.. the best pARt of going to Hell is.. you finally figure out
    money and stuff don’t mean shit.. don’t mean shit.. don’t mean shit.. all that you
    have is the soul that you lost.. all that other shit was just an illusion that helped take
    your soul away.. and nah.. no fairy tale soul.. the miNd and BoDy Balance within as
    Kingdom of Heaven of emotional regulation and sensory integration where we
    become spiraling dervishes without having to stay in synch
    with the dude spiraling next
    to you..
    or girl..
    if you live in
    an area where the
    two can mix in dance..
    hehe.. and hold hands and
    give a kiss on the cheek for free
    and innocent love as all love is when totally free..
    like these words that have the navigator below as
    the elephant and the camel is set free in greater mindful
    and body awareness from head to toe as the rider flies higher
    and higher and the camel passes through the needle and all of human
    God Given potential is free in a metaphor of the Quantum miNd and BoDy
    unleasHing and releaSinG iN Greater BaLanCinG soUL way of HeaRt expresSing
    SpiRit of EmoTioN as the soUL Flies HiGher and hiGher in MoVinG.. ConNecTing
    Ways of ImaGinAtioN and CreaTivity with all that is as Nature plUs aka God all that is
    NoW all now all.. as GoD eYes BrightER as Lamp of Human PoTenTiaL NoW.. 24 carat Gold.. NoW
    Baby.. in terms of within.. inside.. outside.. above.. so below and all around now.. let’s face
    it.. yes.. we need subsistence..in terms of food.. drink and shelter and basic tools for creature
    comforts and more than anything.. we need each oTheR to accomplish that sTiLL.. but beyond
    that what do you really need.. for you to decide.. of course.. could be another Oprah Home..
    a Bigger Osteen Home.. could be a few more Golden ornaments on a Christmas
    Tree in a Trump Tower too.. but when the Trump way says that only
    the rich are happy.. truth is.. they are never truly happy as
    happy only means you are happy
    with what you have
    in material
    and need
    nothing else to
    complete you now..
    as far as human potential
    goes.. the soUL continues to
    build thee more stately Nautilus
    Mansions of heART.. as Spirit and
    SoUL to twist some words by Oliver
    Wendell Holmes as Home of within
    beyond taller Towers that Trump the
    height of other towers.. and sure.. as i told my wife
    one day.. see that table over there.. that is not just a table..
    that is part of the spiRit in KA Egyptian terms of the sOUl of the
    person who designed it and even the worker bee effort in drone way
    of the folks who put it together.. namely you and me and all the other folks
    who helped bring it into existence now.. as there are swirling electrons around
    atoms and subatomic flow in that table leg same as you and me.. sure.. a little paraphrasing
    heaR as if i had told it this way to the wife all vocal she would have said.. shut the F uP.. you
    are giving me.. yes.. a Fredache now.. hehe.. great thing about online is.. tHeRe is an off
    switch everywhere you go.. haha.. and i can be all of who i can be like the Army
    says and the rest is just a fredbuffet all served out in online banquet style.. haha..
    that’s the thing.. this is a brave new world.. there is no longer just a cowboy
    haTe.. a scarf for a head.. some fashionable cat eye glasses and
    lots of estrogen fueled love beside a ’57 chevy on
    the lawn of a Beautiful Blackwater River with
    the sounds of choo choo and the
    passing sound of the Rail Road
    Whistle that can remind
    you that sAdly the
    past has gone
    by and is not coming back..
    hmm.. in human terms.. i can still
    hear that whistle.. and in terms of KA
    Spirit.. my Mother’s spirit in non-verbal
    language now surely lives online in memorial
    as most all 12 million words of what i have originally
    written in real time online still exist of me and myriads
    of different places in repetition too.. seriously.. if you count all
    the places my words are.. there is likely at least a tenth of a billion
    of them that exist heRe and tHeRe.. sure.. easily 100 million words as
    The Google search Wizard can connect almost any word now with Katie
    Mia or Aghogday too.. try it sometime.. hehe.. you’ll be amazed.. particularly
    considering.. i did it in just 75 months now.. haha.. nah.. just kidding.. don’t try it..
    it’ll likely give you a Fredache.. too.. hehex2.. anyWay.. i’ll let Google sort that all out for
    free.. don’t need no card catalog for anything i ever wrote.. just a few key words and voila..
    history comes back to play.. but yeah.. too busy moving forward.. usually.. to look back at all..
    if i’m lucky.. to read anything at all i’ve already written.. as i am out to test the waters of human
    potential.. juSt for a hobby and the fAct that it feels reAlly good in limitless way.. as ‘Lucy’ might
    say too.. from the furry beginnings to a movie that comes isreal now too.. in this coming Macro
    Verse.. there is probably a hundred Memento photos or so.. and while dVerse Synchronistically
    had a prompt on that Tuesday at the same time i was looking through my Mementos as happened
    time and time again without fail with the prompts i was inspired by.. before i saw them in acausal
    connecting way for the three years or so i engaged with most of what was done there..
    i’ve seen too many coincidences in life not to understand there is an underlying
    reality beyond all material reductionism that is all supra organism
    of life as God.. of course.. i cannot prove that to anyone
    who does not live in my personal eYes
    of God that is that
    unleashed and
    released as me as
    higher human God of all
    Given potential that i for one
    believe we all have inside.. in other
    words.. i am no more special than a grain
    of sand.. just been brushed by the
    challenges that God
    Brings all
    my soUL
    continues to Evolve
    deep deep deep of all the
    rider i.. sits upon the Camel and
    Elephant and so much more of what
    this potential of life in the interdependent
    relationships with each oTheR and all our tools
    and devices of culture have brought to the table
    of the entire collective soUL of God uS now.. all that is
    so far beyond the eYes of a clanky old scientific method
    that measures science and never the whole view of the tapestry
    of the painting that is the masterpiece of God that we brush together
    as paint of one of the most beyond beautiful experiences that can be life now..
    truly.. we live in magical times now.. where once what ways “Waiting for Godot”
    is heAR now always for eYes that can see and take advantage of all the inherited
    co-handed and feated gifts shared in abundance with all folks now.. who live in free
    enough countries with avenues to bliss.. eternity.. IS A place now of all Love where you
    never you get bored.. in Heaven NoW as any Jonathan Seagull with a cowboy hat on..
    of Love.. you just fly a little hiGher and are no
    longer afraid
    to look
    the ‘Sun’..
    without blinking your
    eYes for you are the star
    that birthed you HeAR.. we
    are the sTARs that are all isREal noW..
    AnyWay.. back to the point about the dVerse prompt..
    tHeRE is so much to be inspired by in all MoMenTos
    of LIFE as a better spelling in my opinion as they do allow
    us to relive moments of before that are actually the memories
    of now.. and reaLiTy sAMe.. as all is miNd.. all iS BoDy.. aLL is heARt.. all is
    SpiRiT And all is soUL NoW as some folks get attached to the things ‘out there’ in ‘solid
    form’.. and this is wHeRe the issue of semantics and religion comes in.. when we talk
    about within and inside.. and outside.. and above.. and so below.. and all around.. we
    create our reaLiTies from birth with a deeper gift that is our mINd and BoDy soUL as
    evolving in one lifetime now.. and this is so far beyond what concrete reality is..
    as truly there is no concrete reality.. we make buildings as skyscrapers
    to brinG an illusion of concrete order to quell the nerves in straight
    lines and sharp angles for those who are afraid to go a little
    more off the limb and
    more to
    soaring heights..
    conservative.. they call it..
    comes from a spirit that is no
    longer as free or perhaps not born that way..
    as science tends to show.. and that’s okaY as
    insanely crowded populations of humans need those
    rules to get along as science shows too.. other thing is..
    as the ‘Matrix’ says and ‘Jonathan Livingston Seagull’.. too..
    for those who live in countries more of abundance.. wHeRe the
    more liberal nomads go to play.. the spiRit of the individual eYes
    of God can unchain themselves and fly hiGher and Freer than ever
    beFore.. while everyone else then and now scrambles for dollar bills and other
    material desires of life.. external now.. to what lives inside.. yes.. the eYes of God
    Free.. i used to be trapped as the tools that others created as culture too.. and it is
    a trap that can be very difficult to escape.. particularly.. if one is spoon-fed this trap
    from Birth with no reference point.. out.. you see.. the FAct that i didn’t have a TV until
    age 7.. set my SpiRit inside freer even though i could not speak until age 4.. as children who
    must face within.. they.. become dreamers more than the tools that surround them wHere the
    soUL within radiates as the star shines briGhter within.. it’s pretty simple.. i can get it out now
    as i am no longer feeding my self on a strict diet of the tools of others.. input is good.. particularly
    a variety of input.. i still consume.. but output is more vital to the life of the eternal souL now.. it
    gRows that way more.. when the soUL DanceS and SingS more than just eating life whole..
    and Lord kNowS.. it takes a lifetime to GroW and more as uS in tHe TrUe and LIGht
    KnoW SenSE and FeeL with zero words @aLL.. aka GOD.. within.. inside.. noW
    outside.. above.. so below.. A BaLanCinG acT all oF liFE is and A Practice
    as such that never ends Now.. LiFe is Only as FuLL as the Moment
    of SenSe and FeeL anD suRE.. kNow too.. soar
    or stAy StiLL..
    tHeRe is
    the sAMe
    amount of tiMe now..
    the rest is juST iLLuSions
    of hands on a CucKoo CLock oF A
    chaiNed rhyme with only reaSons…
    Tree oF LIFe Flies HiGher when soars..FReED..:)

    As ‘the Giver’ says and the words above..
    yes.. somewhat indicate.. be careful what you
    wish for baby.. as what is dARk is often liGht
    and what is liGht is often daRk after the wash
    and rinse cycle comes to dry out..
    hehe.. anyWay.. i like
    this new generation…
    you kNow.. what ‘they’
    name as mil·len·nials..
    around age 37 and under.. i first
    encountered them at work.. hehe.. supervising
    them as such.. basically they didn’t give a fuck
    about who the FucKinG head dude in charge thought
    he was as the authority.. haha.. you see.. while some
    folks believe the American Dream is one of Trumping the
    next tower.. other folks go more back to the original thought
    of the unalienable right to life.. liberty.. and the pursuit of happiness..
    where let’s just say that the pursuit of happiness IS A little more subjective
    than what is previously written in a book or the employee manual aS Such.. and can
    you blame them.. after seeing all the Iraq lies.. and the continuing Republican Administration
    in the so-called more liberal one after that as the bullshit continued on in hidden emails
    and under the the table shit to get your way.. albeit.. the Obama got some freedoms
    per say and DO.. of this original Declaration for the have nots of health care
    and different sexual orientations that was a virtual
    miracle in a country so divided as
    all heterogenous cultures
    as mELtinG pARTS
    of all human
    from around
    the world are..
    amazing.. this shit works
    at all and not too surprising
    that from the outside in.. it dAM
    sure looks like it is falling apart like
    a three rings circus with the head clown in charge
    or trickster perhaps.. but never the less.. chaos iS in charge
    and that is no surprise and to be expected.. all things considered
    as NPR might say.. if continued funded of course.. not so.. haha..
    the Millennials are the potential Bernie Sanders Saviors.. they trUly
    are.. but hey.. there’s the 60’s and pretty much the same young folks then
    who at least allowed a Clinton to get into office to try some new stuff and
    promote some hook-ups just for fun too.. sexual liberation is inherent in all human
    potential.. kinda takes the sting out of not having the biggest Trump Tower too.. haha..
    he he.. and she she too.. and more.. the 20’s came and went too.. but these roaring Teens..
    i’ve dam sure been enjoying while i still can at ’56.. heHE.. anyWay i’M heaR.. a few people
    can see me.. like my friEnd Rafiah from Pakistan..
    and that’s
    enough for me..
    considering.. i haven’t
    made a penny off of any of
    my Teens of 2000 stuff.. i’m
    happy as a barefoot sparrow without human clothes.. wiTh
    not even a FucKinG white robe.. just a 7.50 Dollar Walmart T shirt..
    And some half price.. JC PenNy shorts and very long Dance and SonG too..
    but yes.. i muSt take care of the feet approaching the feat of 7,000 miles in
    just a little over a #John1412 42 months.. no barefoot tHeRe.. outside in
    the sand.. yes.. but on the mall floors.. no.. at about 125 dollars..
    every three months.. in my signature Nike Shox 11 and a half
    jocks.. in all athletic way feet.. haha.. not exactly
    ballet shoes but works for a mix of
    ballet and martial arts-like
    Free verse
    spirAling Dance..
    but sure.. at my ease..
    i float on land.. as walking
    on water is so yesterday.. like
    just another son of man.. he He..
    once again.. John 14:12 Dances and Sings more..
    unless ‘he’ was/is a Clinton and Bush and a Trump liar too..
    who can you trust.. just do it like a Mil·len·nial of 2K is
    what i for one continue to Give iN DancE and Song FReED..
    let’s JusT
    saY at
    was/is HeAR..;)


    And now to bRinG this to
    a RinGinG close wiTh some MacroVerse
    Shares as usual.. heAR.. and sure.. even
    with Forrest Gump and that Star Lord dude..
    and so many more SuperHeroes as such.. the death
    of tHeir Mother.. changed their lives in a new direction..
    not sure of what that WiLL be in totaLiTy NoW but have alWays
    fELt iT CoMing aGaIn all of MY liFe now.. hmm.. funny little synchronicities..
    as truST me or Not.. tiMe.. sPace.. And diStance.. is only as real as you maKe that NOW..
    “Naked TRUTH of philosophy’.. speaks to the tRuth and liGht of what it would be like
    if Jesus comes back today.. and trUsT.. Jesus WiLL come back as humans get what they
    wish.. when they wish for it together in a Nicene Creed with all the Muslims
    and the rest of the Christians in terms of half the world aS Such..
    that’s a lot of human imagination and creativity in self-fulfilling
    prophecies.. in action aS Such.. hmm.. i suppose when i was a
    runner..i fit the artistic archetype.. tall
    and slim and dirty blonde with a beard
    and eYes that can glow at times..
    just stretch the arms out
    a little bit up and
    out and voila
    a painting
    of Fred
    comes to life.. too..
    and sure.. there is my mother
    too.. by the way.. my sister’s real
    name is Marie.. Helen means the giver of the
    light by the way.. and Frederick means peaceful ruler
    and Arthur.. my middle name.. means strong and my last name is
    just another version too.. of the original Middle Eastern name of
    God as Earth and Water makes Silt on page 8 of Karen Armstrong’s
    “History of God’.. what else.. yeah.. born as the second gen.. son of
    a Catholic Priest.. French Lineage through his wife too..
    let’s get a little DaVinci Code in this if we can too..
    and Jesus F iN Christ.. Mother could fit in a Mary
    Robe too.. with lily white skin.. and
    super feminine face with no
    angles at all..
    or sharp
    sure.. why not..
    let’s just dream a little more..
    the things is.. we create our realties and
    many folks have come to believe they are Jesus
    now or at least rode that thEMe and MeMe to get a
    Harem of women to live in a compound and stuff like that..
    not much different than Muhammad really and his desire to break
    the rules for number of wives from 4 to 9.. just for him.. and that’s
    how you can always tale when a so-called false prophet comes to town.. they
    say they are the only one or the first or the last.. when in God’s time there
    is no only one but all and there is no first or last as time.. space.. and distance
    does not even really exist in the relative imagination of even Einstein living
    as science now too.. in other words.. we have Trump Fact checkers now..
    and the biblical scholars realize that no one even knows
    what the real Jesus looked like.. Fully said or did..
    if he even..fully existed at all.. Faith is not juST
    believing what someone said..
    Faith is the
    John 14:12 now..
    that says and does
    even more and that you
    can do more too.. there is
    a Christ born in every John 14:12
    act.. surELy.. John Lennon and his Beatles
    stARTed a Revolution of Love like that too..
    i’M not famous and i don’t give a Fuck about money..
    but even without hardly any help.. about 1.6 million folks viewed
    my shit on Google plus.. what this means is.. the avenues for John 14:12
    are more open than ever before.. now.. for those who are not afraid to exercise
    tHeir God Given Potential and be a real Jesus now.. in terms of John 14:12..
    NoW iN
    metaphor way.
    most people are
    talking and waiting
    And otHeR folks are FucKinG
    juST doing it in Nike Victory way(S)..
    Hell.. yes.. tHeRE are mosTly BeYond iNfinite Suns and Planets
    and OTheR infinite ways.. what putS aLL toGeThER is NoW the God of all that is WE
    and so
    iN eXtra-
    planetary ways..;)


    “IRREFUTABLE PROOF THAT ‘GOD’ EXISTS”.. HAHA.. really tough crowd
    on the Wrong Planet online of what science terms as A highest
    populated place of Atheists online at about
    a 26 percent mark as a Boston
    College actual
    study did make..
    and after swimming amongst
    the crocodiles.. i understand much
    better noW in case study way and other research
    ways of what makes them tick deep within.. they
    simply do not sense and feel the connections to all that is (GOD) thaT our
    gifts of hUman potential do usuAlly.. healthy bRing.. i lost mine too..
    for 66 months.. and realize fully thaT iS an opaque window of heLL on eARTh
    that is real for whatever reaSon that comes in Nature (GOD)
    now.. as hUman.. but real as it is
    for now.. i can
    predict an Atheist
    long before they tale
    me.. just by the number of
    emotionally heaRt felt words
    they use in a paragraph or the
    Joy that more comes when one has a
    Faith in some MaGiC ACT more than a dry
    science abstract of systemizing
    repetitive bore
    as robots
    shuffling by
    with no rhythm of
    God of Nature as expreSsinG
    spiRit now.. and if you think they
    don’t exist at the Southern First Baptist Church..
    tHeRe is no separation of the dead heaRT.. no matter what
    label one assigns to oneself.. of the DeaD SpiRit and the Dead Trump soUL..
    words are empty shells without
    the Nature of this
    SoUL of SpiRit (GOD)
    as EYes expreSsing HeARt
    iN MiNd And BoDy BalanCinG
    FreeR SpiRits now.. and no matter
    what they labEL the Word(s) they/uS/wE/i wiLL
    FeeL SenSe wE are ‘Christians’ by the unconditional
    acts of both words and doing that spell
    E in uNcoNditional
    GiVinG shARinG altruistic
    so-called normal healthy ways..
    in MoVinG CoNnecTinG CreAtinG ways more
    less the environment of machines
    we live in make
    us tools
    Robots now..
    sharing and linKing
    fActs from sunrise to sunset
    each day in a soUL that never lEarns
    to DancE and SinG more than copy and paste liFe..
    nah.. i’m not Jesus.. i am the FucKinG Terminator
    tUrned into Good Guy noW2.. And as
    promised i’M back.. T2 heHe..
    NoW and with that sAaid.. more
    flesh and blood duties are coMinG
    i must travel to noW.. away from this
    Terminator Keyboard that will imprison
    me NoW if i don’t escape too.. now now now..
    for i am
    jusT hUman..
    adhere to the
    Laws of God as Nature plUs uS..
    or pay the Karma of poTential eARThly HeLL..
    off to
    i DancE and SinG isREaL..
    in yes.. FucKinG Flesh and Blood more..
    with more fun photos.. coMiNg on the 3rd
    of the 3rd month around 3 am after my 150th week at Old Seville Quarter
    oF free verse dance ends with all the new Millennials (college age folks)
    of the Teens in ’17.. of this new Century iN the art oF Free Dance NoW MoRE..:)

    ONE more thing.. the Facebook Algorithm along with the two MacroVerse
    Memories from three years ago and two years go.. bRings ‘this’
    Memory as MicroVerse oF First written creative
    piece on Facebook for the public in general..
    thE first spiRit
    FilLed words
    from within..
    and that spiRit has
    been uPon me less and
    more now for 48 full months..
    just anotHeR Self-Fulfilling prophecy
    come to pass noW as this shit is reAlly going
    down in first person way with no one else editing ‘my’ words then/now but ME..
    read between
    or noT it’s iSReaL..;)

    Ideology of Identity:

    I think I was born as a kind of classical pantheist, as I saw patterns and connections in things that were more of my thinking process, along with the tactile sensory world, than what I think most people may experience as an internal dialogue of thought.

    I still have a vivid memory of connection to everything in the world, as if I had been here forever, before I was able to speak that I cannot fully put into words, from about age 3 looking out into the distance over the river I grew up next to. But I think in some ways I knew more about my existence then than I do now, as I could not separate myself from what seemed like a very old home of nature.

    I am glad I had the opportunity to roam desolate pristine beaches as a teenager and young adult, without any fear, and feeling one in being with the waves, white sand, emerald green gulf, sea oats and sea gulls, with no dramas in my head.

    But even my ancestors could not experience that with not being sure where their next meal was going to come from. Not likely that many creatures in the Universe could experience a little slice of nirvana like that.

    I can remember getting back into my car and being jolted back into the reality of all that is the complexity of modern culture, which at that point in time was so, so limited as compared to today. I was never quite the same after home computers came along, as I drifted further and further from a home of nature.

    The people I dealt with in the public at that time, in what was a “Cheers” like environment, was also a slice of nirvana. Cigarette filled, but the emotional contagion of a hundred human beings that are happy that I had the privilege to serve and make even happier, equaled the nirvana of the walks on the sun-filled beaches.

    I loved my exquisite sensory experience of life….

    It was worth not being able to touch man made texture without goose bumps and an incredible feeling of discomfort.

    When I see Landon Bryce’s book “I Love My Own Autistic Self”, the little guy on the front is how I usually felt inside that people could only see in the gleam of my eyes.

    People often told me they wished they had what it was I had, or wanted some of the drugs I was taking, but I had no idea what they were talking about because there was nothing I wanted but to exist, for so many years…

    It was a powerful feeling that no one’s negativity could take away from me, not even when the rest of the world told me I was not one of their kind.

    Sorry, that was quite a tangent, but it is kind of therapeutic for me; I hope you don’t mind…

    My point I started off with was religion and classic pantheism, which is all of nature and science for me; the cultural complexity of what has come from human collective intelligence, including all the strange oddities, even the strangest of religious cults and beliefs. But most of all the reality of that beach those waves, and those grains of sand, that do not exist without me.

    A gift, a wonderful gift that was provided by my father and mother, and their ancestors where there could be no break in the chain of events of human struggle that all my ancestors experienced to survive and reproduce, and their rodent ancestors about 75 million years ago, and all the other ancestors not identified and material substances that came together to make that possible, from the origin of what is, whatever is, is.

    That one point that I can only abstractly define because of the human collective intelligence that provides the map to what can be described, as one point that we all share that can never be disconnected, as long as we exist…

    Wow, I just realized that sounds kind of like the intro to the “Big Bang Theory” TV show…

    And relatively speaking the knowledge that I gained that this is one sliver of conscious existence and what really is a little slice of heaven for some that do exist, considering just the benefit of a warm soft bed, a hot shower, and things now considered so mundane that took billions of years to come into existence that were not here a little over a century ago. Like toilet paper…

    But I could never experience that connection of what is, any stronger than when I was three. I have everything and everyone before me to thank for that experience… Including collective intelligence and the understanding of that one point that still exists in all of us and everything else…

    I never met a stranger, not even a grain of sand on the beach…

    But I did not feel a category, a religion, a race or even a gender for myself, which at least for me enhanced the ability to find a friend in that grain of sand.

    I suppose it is the immune system issues and chronic pain that has taken some of that gleam out of my eyes, but it still exists in the eyes in what I perceive of the anthropomorphic expression of the cat in my face book photo.

    Who at 18 years old is likely closer to the wisdom of that three-year-old child that only exists in my memory and pictures…

    I sense that type of wisdom requires no human intelligence at all beyond the core that is shared.

    I think it can be lost so much easier in a human into a little sliver of hell somewhere outside that balance of heaven.
    Particularly in lives where instant gratification has become the norm…

    I am at the service of my fully inside cat, but he has never had that gleam in his eyes, or the same struggles to survive.

    The yellow cat in my Google plus avatar on the “Autistic Hoya” website, was a feral cat that only knew struggles in his several years of life behind our house in the woods.

    He became my emotions after chronic pain had removed them from my existence. He gained a gleam in his eyes of gratitude to have a balance in his life when we allowed him a place to gain predictable subsistence.

    An identical yellow cat that likely is his offspring, younger and stronger appears intermittently out of the woods and started to injure our now neutered cat, racking up $200 dollar vet bills, every other week so the once feral cat has now been forced to become a fully inside cat.

    I am watching him slowly lose that gleam in his eyes, with the call of the wild slowly drifting away, along with all the likely incredible sensory experiences that come with an outdoor world that the other cat that never gets injured in fights at age 18, can still fully experience.

    As I sit outside toward the back of my yard, in the afternoon sun, he is pacing back and forth politely, still with a humility of respect for a place of subsistence that keeps him from tearing the screen of the patio.

    Perhaps if he could speak and let me know in words what I was taking away from him, I would listen.

    But I cannot bear the thought of additional bloody wounds on his face. But still I remember what it means to have that connection and balance…

    When I watch him pace back and forth, it is one of the few things in life that will bring a tear to my eye that reminds me that I too am still connected..:)

    Other than that, it could be just a word like Synesthesia that seems to trigger something in my brain letting the brakes off the logic to move into figurative space.

    At least for me, even one word can be a gift that leads me to a place in words that I don’t often visit.

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