No More HeadLines
No More scheduLed
A Facebook Algorithm
provided memory from
a year ago above.. and..
below.. After MaKinG the
Fredline.. of over 3.3 million
words for Longest Long Form Poem
in history of Humankind in 36 months
and witness for God in around that many
number of words plus.. in 6 months longer of blogging
public whole for 42 months from 3/13 through
9/16 and 3 years of Dance Walking a martial
arts and ballet-like free verse style..
Dance too.. in all of public stores
and places i go.. by the
Fall Equinox 2016.. to
Poem Free Verse
style and continuing
Witness for God.. perHaps
i need a vacation.. nah.. no..
just no more deadlines.. free verse
from noW on.. and after documenting
too.. a total of 400+ photos in that
PAN FReED Dancer record
MacroVerse of over 1000
Quarter of which
around 350 photos are
in just the last 6 month record
of that since the Spring Equinox
of 2016.. i’LL have to do another Macro
Verse to document those photos come Spring
Equinox of 2017.. as the blogger blogs that
house that record almost said balk for the length
of what i recorded of that complete for 6 months
of dance smile records to date.. so now.. at
9:18 pm.. i can give this a break while
i Marathon Dance with all the cool
college age folks at Good
Old Seville Quarter..
and nah.. no
scores of smiles
at Old Seville..
will be enough
for me.. juST for
the dAnce oF i AM noW..:)
“The old appeals to racial, sexual, religious chauvinism
to rabid nationalist fervor are beginning not to work.
A new consciousness is developing which sees the
earth as a single organism, and recognizes t
hat an organism at war with itself is
doomed. We are One Planet.”
– Carl Sagan
“A human being is part of the whole
called by us universe , a part limited in
time and space. We experience ourselves, our
thoughts and feelings as something separate from
the rest. A kind of optical delusion of consciousness.
This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us
to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons
nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from the
prison by widening our circle of compassion to
embrace all living creatures and the
whole of nature in its beauty…
We shall require a
if mankind is to survive.”
– Albert Einstein
Now as i come back to this Micro-Verse
of 706th Macro-Verse that will be titLed
After Dance oF Fred.. yeah.. jUst another
two Macro-Verse Titles to come in the signature
line of each coming Macro-Verse.. for an overall
taste of what i do in this Ocean Whole Poem.. juST
in case anyone gives a FucK.. as trUly.. why should they..
liFe moves fast.. i’M heAr to hELp but hey.. if one even
can hELp themselves in finding God within that’s quiET an
accomplishment on tHeiR own.. but hey.. as far as i can see and
feel.. sure.. i could juSt hang out at the beach and dance and sing
and sip on crystal fresh water and salt breeze.. but to truly experience
Heaven now.. one muSt give and share all they have to do.. as without giving
and sharing.. we lose our humanity.. as that is what any social animal does..
with more than
half a brain
away from the social
cognition in empathy
and compassion.. and other
pro-social emoTions that FEELS
not only are wE as hUmans in this
game toGetHer.. in fAct.. SAYS.. wE hUmaNS
ARE TOTALLY BLESSED to see the Interdependent
Interrelating all that is of God living as the
entire planet as well as the rest of Nature and
all that is unseen and unfelt too.. depending on
how big yoUr God eYes and ears are to perceive more
of this real thingie that is GoD noW iSREAL for REAL..
nah.. not a man in a book.. nah.. not a book.. not
some words.. but the essence of all that is.. that
includes forms of course but forms never tale the
entire God story of essence that iSREAL noW.. whether
we see and feel this essence or not.. in all seNses and
EmoTioNs that once aGain.. some folks feel more or less depending
on how blessed or sometimes cursed they are depending on how you
see and feel the liGht of the gifts you have.. that can be perceived
differently by each individual depending on an almost infinite number
of innate and environmental factors.. but here’s the thing.. for those who
can now find peace and harmony in MiNd and BoDy BaLanCinG soUL WiTh heARt
expreSsinG EMoTions SenSEs.. as SpiRit as whOle hUmaniTy reBorn iN We..
somenows it is as simple as a free naked dance with sun and sand..
letting go of the mechanical cognition and becoming the air
and the water aGain as winds and waves and ocean whole
become reborn as wE again.. nah.. not
just dunking your head
in some frigging
your baby in
a lite version
of this with the
baby screaming.. what
the fuck.. i thought you loved
me.. now you are pouring water on
my head.. and FucKinG Laughing at
me in this big Temple Catholic Church
while i aM IN SO MUCH FUCKING DISTRESS..
DON’T YOU KNOW A CRY MEANS FUCKING DISTRESS
AND I CANNOT UNDERSTAND WHAT THE FUCK YOU ARE
PRAYING OVER MY HEAD.. I’M GLAD THIS MAKES YOU
FEEL HAPPY.. BUT CANNOT YOU HEAR MY CRY.. OH WELL
that’s culture for you.. female genital mutilation
in some countries.. a 20 Percent member discount
of same on males in our countries and even more
iN other countries.. and water boarding babies
lite in Catholic Church to scare
the beejezus out of them..
instead of making
any devil but
fucking you who are..
water boarding babies lite..
shortly after birth along with
mutilating their penises too.. ugh..
is it no wonder.. the real definition of
Greek Apocalypse in original way of lifting
the veils of ignorance failed to reach the minions
of life.. well no.. as human beings.. with their tribal
instincts and need to fit into whatever the cultural rules
are and no matter how truly fucking insane they are away
from common human decency.. humans will do it to avoid
outcast status from the social group aS in the
evolution of human away from grocery
stores and stuff like that
and death.. when
no longer are apes
working toGeThER to
be stronger toGeThER now..
and hell.. yes/no.. i’m sorry
iF the trUth and liGht can hurt..
but i came first to lift the veils
of ignorance from my eYes too.. and i
juST share as i go along.. and if you don’t
like it.. don’t like it.. hehe.. as i came for the
real definition of Apocalypse and not to fucking blow
the world up.. in a fiery end or such crap load as that..
hmm.. anyway.. build iT and he will come.. the only person that
i can guarantee will come is me.. and if you build it with enough
effort and perseverance and focus.. perhaps you will find God within too..
as Lord NO’s no church ever did it for me.. it was too easy for me to find
the hypocrisies from the start.. making God into one human over my bed and taling
me Santa Claus was real too.. myths serve a purpose.. they hyperbole as message and
vehicle and vessel in housing trUths and liGhts that are iSREAL.. fAct of the matter
is.. if there were not myths of old time religions.. the core trUths and liGhts would
have never made it in oral tradition in the first place.. as it is the emotive
power of the hyperbole.. no less than marketing 101 to reach a target
audience that seals the emotive glue of mind
and body emotions to remember the
cores of trUth and liGht too..
but sadly folks..
many.. at least..
the trUth and
liGht messAges of the
golden rule in harming
no other beyond consuming
nature for needed food and drink..
and shelter.. to taking more than giving
and dominating the earth in destructive ways
for other species that are dying off as we speak..
including even the Bee who is responsible for so
much of what we can even eat in agricultural
ways or even foraging/picking berries to eat..
yeah.. kill the birds and the
bees and you humans
me started on
as i live inland enough
in a high place not to worry
about that.. but the ocean is rising
faster and faster than even forecast before..
and the same people who kill for trophies are
the one’s who will tale ya.. humans aren’t killing
the earth.. in generalized Trump ways of course..
with trophy wives
music and dance
are evil and end up
repressing and oppressing
human nature.. taling their populaces
that the opposite sexes cannot hold each
others hands.. until marriage.. and then
the Arabian clinician studies suggest
60 to 80 percent of 3 to 6 year
old little girls in that
fellatio on family
members by raping force..
and additionally intimate
so-called friends of family
too.. who get access to the
family home/girls.. this lifting
the veils of ignorance
away from lies
a long way to
go to meet the
of Apocalypse.. a long long
long way to go.. we are very fortunate
in America to build it in fields of dreams
to find God within.. and live free again in
the Heaven of now as Kingdom of God
free.. come now.. but nah..
even folks here..
and empty promises..
of subjugating and
controlling human nature
freedoms.. and it is the rule
of law in many other countries.. away
from human God Given Nature that is responsible
for so much of the conflicts we see in the world today..
but how to stray.. how to escape the lies of ignorance of
the past.. it ain’t easy.. and it is gonna take a lot more than
one 42 month witness for God in words of 3.3 million and more to
get this.. beyond herculean.. superman.. and batman effort done..
i can lift me..
even with 6000
miles of public
dance that lifts
some other folks
uP in the wild now..
but i cannot even
lift my wife..full.. as she
cannot escape all the lies
of indoctrination of illusory
fears of her life.. at the
hands of ignorance
are those outcasts
like me from a young
age who were lucky as they
learned to live without the
approval of the minions of folks
who truly follow what could be described
as despicable leaders.. who would rape
and pillage the spoils of war..
the best they can
away from walls of the
past of rules that bring
humans down.. away from God
given human iNnate Nature now..
so sure as the Without Me Version
of M and M.. stated before.. i am only
shady.. a shadow of what you could be too..
if you build a dream and find God within..
and these two quotes from Taking IT to the
Streets of FALL are well worth repeating
along with the song that goes
Love Roars.. truly it does..
when one is bullied.. and
even outcast.. and comes back
with eYes of Love.. instead of
swords of vengeance.. as Hate..
sure even the hate that is still left
in the Constantine Bible of the 4th Century
in Roman Catholic way.. where still in the Gospel
of Luke.. Chapter 14:26.. promoting hate against even
parents.. husband and wife.. and children is the way
to follow the love of liGht.. what a FucKinG oxymoron
that is that minions silently follow for thousands of
ears with no questions of dissent.. as same as always..
when they say all is liGht and no word can be changed..
dARk is surely
who lives within..
whoever wrote that was
a heartless zealot.. sure.. there
are zealots with heart and those without
heart.. but people who develop cognitive empathy
with the feeling affective part.. understand the roots
of ignorance run as deep in hate.. anger.. and fear as the roots of
love in hope and joy.. and those are killing words.. the same killing
words that will still be taken literally and fundamentally in the Koran
too.. as sword to kill in tribal instinct way away from the
Golden rule who is capable
of even Loving
understanding that the
bully is the one who was most
oft bullied before.. the sad eyed
Muslim girl was often molested in the
home by family members as clinical studies
in Arabia show.. who cannot utter a word of
truth and light of disgust and despair of the
rape of hating not loving eyes of family members
who would use flesh as a tool away from heart
to fill a soul
ends away from
love.. and if you don’t
think and feel God is pissed..
perhaps you cannot hear the cries..
well.. i can.. i’ve been hearing them
for a long time now.. since i was born..
aGain.. let’s just say.. and others can hear
these cries too.. even if you
eyes of these
women.. up.. God hEars
in the empath compassion
of human ears.. that go
but trust me..
perHaps you haven’t
felt it or seen it
yet BUT LOVE ROARS..
A FOUNTAIN WITH NO
BEGINNING AND END
FREE AND NOW..:)
The Facebook Video Slide Assistant does an excellent job of providing
an avenue to present my Dance photos from Thursday Night
in a comprehensive and somewhat brevity flow..
with even inspirational music
too.. but yeah..
as that theme song
is kinda getting old..
but anyway.. photos ranging
from the “After Dance oF Fred”..
as this titled 706th Macro-Verse
WiLL SinG.. a photo of
the top of
of an iMac
square in the core of
with a bite
of lifting the veils of
ignorance.. i SinG iN
WoRds of PoEtry.. i DanCE
and i Move on.. and sure.. no more
deadlines.. to meet that i kNow of
now.. but sure.. with FeeLinGS.. Milestones
will alWays arrive anew.. and i WiLL report
them in documenting way with the help of all
too.. but sure..
with 12 million written
words coming on the milestone
of Thanks Giving day of 2016.. that
in all likely hood has arrived now.. as
11 million words was the tally last year.. and
i am writing on average.. as easily empirically
counted now in 30K+ words a week.. that makes
over 1.5 million words a year.. and 120K words in
just 4 weeks.. or the equivalent per se.. of three Novels
of Poetry per month now.. as that comes and goes in
written way.. additionally all the nice dance girls of
last night too.. my FB profile photo.. a dance photo
of a ballet student and her smiling friend too..
still under age 21.. somewhere between
18 and that number to drink
in bars now2.. but not
likely she will..
high with the force
of dance free as a way of life..
in miNd and BoDy BaLanCinG..
in poise and grace.. and that reminds
me of last week at Starbucks when i was
dancing my smooth steps in that place..
a nice other mall employee from
another place said.. i wish
i could be as light
on my feet as
and of course
my wife looks much
more like a dance student
and accomplished dancer from
head to toe than Arnold looking
me.. all square and moving curved
at 230 or so pounds now..
wow.. if you can
dance like that i can
only imagine how great
your wife can dance with
that body over tHeir.. all lean
and shapely fit in legs ways too..
she could.. if she could lose the fear..
i never thought or even would have imagined
the stiff of me could break out in poise and grace now..
but it’s NOT imagining your dreams and just doing them
after that.. that make dreams NeVER come to fruition…
Believe.. imagine.. hope.. have faith and just FEARLESS
do it.. human potential is amazing
if i can do all i can do..
with all the demons
i have had to defeat..
perhaps you need
a few demons
ass up to heaven too..
aLL the DArk in my LifE
Has led to all the liGht i am NOW..
never discount the power of the dARk ForCe noW2..;)
An 18 year old photo of my wife
hEAr.. and a 44 year old photo
of her from 2014.. and
i shared one
is.. she is a woman who
gets more beautiful with age..
like a fine wine.. per se.. who does
not drink either.. hehe.. and nah.. she
doesn’t smoke.. and she kinda chills out
and watches TV.. and escapes stress too..
so perhaps that IS A secret
of her fountain of youth
as much as i can
love someone with
never fearing losing that
love.. probably saves some
mileage on worry too.. as obviously
i am trust worthy.. huh.. with all those smiles
of pretty dance girls who can’t possibly match the
beauty of Goddess Isis.. also known
and felt as Katrina too.. mother..
wife.. sister.. all in one..
me back toGeTheR..
after all the pieces were
scattered apart.. more than
just a looker.. the essence of
that myth.. has come to fruition
in the new age of noW as alWays
noW as WeLL as prophecies
are archetypal in human
way and often
of same and different
too.. so sure.. for now..
you can call me Osiris2..
too.. been to the underworld..
and can tale ya what it’s like..
can steer you out of death in life..
but only if you can hear.. can feel
and can see what i say.. hEar now..
and more great Beach photos from
Navarre Beach from two year ago too..
in this Macro-Verse .. but sure.. the best pArts
aS oNe of the greatest muse of my Ocean Whole
Poem.. is Katrina of course.. as she and Yellow ‘Sphinx’
Boy and Moby Cat of past.. are the stars who ‘sOld’ the show.. iSREAL2..:)
Yes..wE stiLL gET aRound2..;)
And hEar is Rosalinda’s eYes from a year ago.. but
as oft happens.. the Music shared from A YouTube
Version of this Billy Joel Song
has gone the
of old songs.. i’ll find another
version and sure share it aGain..
so in honor of Rosalinda’s eYes..
a Song that reminds me of my first
Love.. Cuban Girl Friend Sonia..
who was a mix of Irish too.. like
me.. although back in that day..
i hadn’t actually heard from
my Irish ancestors to
even verify that
mother and he were
both actually born in
Ireland.. on paternal
side.. and sure.. my Grandmother
was Cajun on that Hispanic leaning
French Paternal side too.. so me and
the Sonia had much in common.. even in
numerology way.. as both our year birthday’s
06061960 for 28 to 10 to 1 and 07021963 for
28 to 10 to 1 and nah.. don’t discount numerology..
came out to number one.. and as synchronicity
would have it2.. she bought me A gold chain that
had number one on it2.. with all her Babe perfume
that i can still smell now.. and while i call my wife sugar
now.. Sonia’s name was babe to me.. and that was her
name for me2.. as the memories and a few tears
still sing through everynow.. i reAlly remember
Rosalinda’s eYes.. but it’s so weird..
deep down.. somewhere i knew/fELt
i was looking for someone
who looked like Sonia..
and as the photos
show of the
girl in the blue
with mind blowing body figure
too.. she was the precursor to Katrina..
almost like a sign of what would still come
as heaven even more.. as surely the little frail
nerd boy i am was back then.. was blessed with
the beauty of women.. that would amaze most
men.. to make me the luckiest man who ever
FucKinG walked on the EARth.. and sure
they say the nice guys finish
last… nah.. they are
just patient until
and sure.. a couple other
girls from then are in this
photo collage i have shared
many times before.. that i scanned
that helped to bring emotions back
from lost loves before.. including Uncle
Ed who died way back when.. who wasn’t
even an Uncle at all in childhood as Grandmother’s Friend
on Maternal side then.. on the river front home.. and
Charlie my dog in middle school who was my mostly
only friend out of outcast life of what they named
as skank boy then.. at school.. among
other names that said
you do not
yeah.. i saw
him on the side
of the road one day
coming home on the
middle school hell bus then…
where Vickie taunted me saying
look.. he’s got eyes lashes like a girl..
they are so pretty and long.. laughing
all the way.. but truly upset as her eyes
were not nearly as pretty as mine.. heheR..
yeah.. life is funny like that… when people get
mad at other folks for having something they
don’t have deep down.. and for me mostly
it was the smile on my
face that they
a while then..
and straight A’s
but SMiLes cAMe
back as Love roars
once aGaIn isReaL..
Yeah.. Rosalinda’s eYes
are quite a muse huh.. and if
you are out tHere somewhere
listening.. Sonia.. if you could ever
keep up with what i do now.. as i know
you have visited at least once before by
way of your daughter a couple of years before..
i owe part of regaining my heart back from that
hurt before.. as muse of emotion both dARk and liGht
for tears that brought me back from the photos of that
love that hurt so much to lose then.. but i can finally feel
that warm and fuzzy in hugs that went away for so long
and the puppy
in me died.. so far
so far.. in warm and fuzzies
that finally live again as Babe..
and yeah.. there is Michelle in
a Prom picture too.. inviting me
at she.. age 17 after a short
date or so
Sonia.. to make
her high school boy
friend a little jealous
for the next day date with
him.. but hey.. it was nice
to go anywhere then.. truly
wanted for all of who i was
or not.. and Renee in the
center.. a friend who
call ways in
some of the
darkest days in
college then.. so
troubled with a father
who sexually abused her..
and finally ending her life with
a revolver in her father’s bed
with a loving husband and two children
in her twenties then.. oh the dARk and liGht
webs we weave.. so many destinations of
in iSREAL liFE noW
bottom line NoW counts..
then and NoW in what
we are evolving
and i remember
Renee saying one time
nothing could possibly
happen to you..
and you would
never deserve some
one like me to hurt you..
and i remember years after
she killed herself.. her father
walked in to the Bowling Center
where i worked.. shortly after that
he died in a motor-cycle accident..
from what i heard.. just a really ugly
man who consumed his daughter’s beauty
out in death….
yeah.. i remember
Renee’s eYes too.. and
i see them still around the
world and they make me very
angry.. spitting nails angry..
i will NOT..
to a gun
or even vengeance..
i WiLL win WiTH Love
of the Fearless KinD..
as i always have and
always will by the will
of God in relative way
as LION iSREaL.. LoVE..
mArk mY FucKinG words..
iF yoU SeeK iN God as i do2..:)
SMiLes.. my friEnd
Zee.. we stArt as
as we love our selves
and others same.. the first
step is truly Loving God within
with all youR HeARt of EmoTiOns
and SeNses aS liGht iN Positivity..
tolerating and accepting
sAme God FeeLinG
dArk as not
what we can
to liGht morE..
as nows go by..
as the grains become
sand as the water of Love
becomes silt.. same as original
name of God too as Lahmu and
Lahamn too.. as i always
have to refer to
8 by Karen
remember how to
spell those names that
oddly enough are like my
real last name too that is just
another name for land holder too..
in Feudal German way for the ‘owner’ as such..
too.. as sure.. just synchronicity and coincidence
too.. as spelled in reverse my name sounds a lot
like name hell too.. except it it ends in EL that way
that is another name for God too.. so sure..
perhaps i have an inside
for liGht and truTh..
inborn as such as well
all do when we open our
heARts.. our MiNd and BoDy
BaLanCing SoUls wiTh SpiRit
riSinG hiGher in positivity of
EmoTioNs and SeNses too..
so do not be ashamed
for as you say
in self love way..
as the other side of that
is the timid soul who never
loves self or has the power of
self love to bring love up in the
empty grains of love that can
be the tunnel of
of otHeRs too..
PoEtry and DancE and
SonG and aLL otHeR arTS
of heARt is how we grow
A muscle of Love.. wriTing
A SonG of YouR SoUL.. and
you my friEnd.. will help build other mountains
too.. where a heARt replaces.. for a way to love
of dArkness.. from Before..
in oTheR words.. my friEnd
Zee.. BeCoMe the Love you dREam
of.. BeCoMe the Lover you desire..
SinG and DancE Long..
A SonG oF liGht liFE.. mY FriEnd.. Zee..:)
“We live only to discover beauty. All else is a form of waiting.”
~~ Kahlil Gibran ~~
and when all oF
it becomes holy
and sacred as an
emotion of essence
and hell no.. no book
or words as empty shells
of nothing but believe what
i say or else.. or get the
noW for those
who liVe Beauty iSREaL..
a Tree of liFE that breatheS now..
with roots that run deep as iSREAL2..:)
“The man who believes he can do it is probably right.”
~~ Helvetius ~~
iNtent of positive
liGht in form aS WeLL..
bottom line sTill.. just do it
of art and Art of science
of doing nothing at
all or all of nothing..
“In all affairs it’s a healthy thing now and then
to hang a question mark on the things you have long taken for granted.”
~~ Bertrand Russell (1872-1967) ~~
Life is a Koan..
color it with
paint of another color…
more of BeFore..:)
“To develop a complete mind:
Study the science of art;
study the art of science.
Learn how to see.
Realize that everything connects to everything else.”
~~ Leonardo da Vinci ~~
in other words….;)
“People might not get all they work for in this world,
but they must certainly work for all they get.”
~~ Frederick Douglas ~~
didn’t make it
into the 20th century
and taKinG Gives..
and sure.. we can beneFit
from that more as Love Rules over
aLL iN Giving more than Taking.. i pay
aS A BaLaNce oF liGht iN liFe..;)
“The only way round is through.”
~~ Robert Frost ~~
too.. mY friEnd..gigoid..;)
“Hold the MAYO And; pass the COSMIC AWARENESS…”
~~ Zippy the Pinhead ~~
life on the planet
as we know it is
And ps.. my
Bible IS A FucKinG Funny..
Book.. at lEAst iN mY Fredhead..;)
“YOW!! I’m in a very clever and adorable INSANE ASYLUM!!”
~~ Zippy the Pinhead ~~
And that’s why..
and cultures that take
life too seriously are
God’s a joke..
i have Free Will..
Relatively sPeaking to make iS..bE for mE..;)
Oh God.. the practice..
of BaLaNCinG to experience
IS A Fear
and Tear too..
that perHaps i Love..
even more than the
says and do’s..;)
“Any one can hold the helm when the sea is calm.”
~~ Publilius Syrus — Maxim 358 ~~
i for one find..
i choose waves
is for cautious and fear..
the hardest thing i could possibly do is hold
of a boring
F iN Calm Sea.. now..
it just ain’t what humans
are obviously evolved to do..
as struggle is what makes strong..
but only in Victory over Vengeance way as liGht Houses…:)
“Because I could not stop for Death —
He kindly stopped for me —
The carriage held but just ourselves
~~ Emily Dickinson ~~
Death IS A FeeLinG
A Feeling of Death..
or shall i say unfortunate..
for those who do.. as nah.. truly
there is no rule that insists we dream of death..
noW as Real..:)
Now is immortal…
always has been..
always will be
who don’t do science..;)
“Do you love it do you hate it
There it is the way you made it”
~~ Frank Zappa, “Brown Shoes Don’t Make It” ~~
Nah.. as science shows now..
how we even have the
ability to Love
by the Love
that is touched and
given to us in hugs
0 to 3..
source of addictions
to fill a feel that does not
exist in some.. as far as touchy
feely warm and fuzzy puppy love
every F iN.. Day.. for a heARt that
fully lives.. is neglect either
in early life
and or social
abuse as live goes on..
Some folks simply have
no biological way to Love
anything as their
never fed the
seed of love that wires
from head to toe… in biology way..
Refrigerator parents are a menace to Love..
with children too..
as the truth and light
of that is largely
“Kids, don’t gross me off..
“Adventures with MENTAL HYGIENE” can be carried too FAR!”
~~ Zippy the Pinhead ~~
ZIPPY the PIN HEAD
is one smARt cookie
off asthma breath too.. etc..
i expose myself every chance
i get.. except for ‘that stuff’ in restaurants.. etc..
the shits of life..;)
Thanks as always
for the muse.. my Friend
gigoid.. as practice
of course too…;)
Hmm.. Feeling a bit eclectic
here.. and it’s been ‘literally’
months since i’ve visited an
open link night at dVerse..
so perhaps i’LL head
for fun.. after
all is said and wordy
dance walked and
iN Ocean Whole Poem
thAt i am swimming sTiLL
iN NoW juST for Fun..:)
Hmm.. the most interesting
pARt of a North Florida
FaLL seAson these
days is it loses
it all tropic until
after the New
year of winTEr..
anyWay.. as paRt
Indian.. i can’t say i mind
an Indian Summer ongoing..
anyway bottom line you are
only as Fall as you Feel as
Eve Winter Warms a heARt aLive..
and Indian Summers are miGhty Cool too..:)
SMiLes.. my FriEnd Lillian..
haven’t done an open prompt
night in months.. but came by
for an eclectic mix of muse..
and the comments
thaT.. a greatest lesSon
i lEarned was from the military..
just working for the Navy as civilian
for a quarter of a century.. everyone was
noted to bleed the same color.. and it was
amazing how everyone.. and i do mean everyone
treated each other as a shipmate.. just a few miles
North in a place named Jay.. until just a couple of
decades ago.. still in the 90’s.. it was a place
where the veteran shipmates warned
their fellow African
i for one.. will
bleed now with shipmates
my friend.. and sadly the truth
is.. ‘that good book’ was used
to substantiate the ‘good’ of slavery..
Now that homosexual individuals are
finally able to get legal marriage rights..
from the same part of ‘the Good book’
that used to give credence
to slavery too..
of Independence finAlly
is applying to all as Lord
kNows.. outcast status for any
social animal is a form of slavery..
as bad as shackles as it prevents the
pursuit of Life as Liberty and Happiness…
Yes.. as Shawna said above.. aka LZ.. Martin Luther King
sKin as Free..
and books of before.. My FriEnd..
wE bleed.. we bleed toGetHer FReED..
and truly there are so many forms of ‘invisible’
slavery heir apparent to the rabbit who still moves..
like classrooms and work attached to StiLL and stagnate..
isn’t this great fun..
being ReTired now with
so much new tREad to sHare..
and i swear i could have never
done any of this in that Government
place of slavery in stagnate Golden CuFFS
as i can still remember
the Captain of the base storming
through.. demanding that the blinds
be turned one way.. without a dare
at her power that had no oversight..
So many paths.. to slavery.. mY FriENd..
And as the Matrix says.. many people
have no clue wHeRe they are2..
be.. to unplug..
as alWays.. thanks
for the inspiration too.. my FriENd..:)
Force A feather into
heLm.. float siNks as
WeLL.. hello Glenn.. as my
mama alway said.. if you
don’t have anything
kind to say
when one is involved
in a song of art that
comes from within.. a wild
spirit of horses too.. from a place
that has enough feeling and empathy
to tolerate and even accept what they are not
used to too.. from before.. what the Fuck is Poetry
S o U L noW..
W H A T Now
the fuck is
of every day life..
and a fucking three line
do a full
never been before..
to share with others
who have enough look.. to read..
to each his/her/etc.. own.. but may
the naysayers stew in their own soup..;)
Note here.. the same ‘Poetry Administrator’
who couldn’t understand my metaphor of the
‘Desert Isle’ for change..
and my main reason for
no longer linking
there.. as i ain’t
Officers or Red
Tape anymore never..F iN AgAinT..
calls friEnd Glenn’s
poetry.. like she
couldn’t figure out
where my poem ended
with a date stamp
and frigging literal
tally of words counted..
and the comments section began..
but it’s par for the course.. some folks demand same..
And that’s okay too.. as long as you.. say oKay.. and continue change..;)
Cold Front of Fall
Fairs of hugs
Dances and cars
to warm hands..
back and front seat
kisses that say.. Winter’s
coming.. now for a nest perhaps..
ah.. nature.. and human nature same..
factoid.. male testosterone is highest
during the Fall.. there is a reason for that
as we continue to evolve
The remaining two
who are a
of grey poopom
noT allowing my commenting
on their sites.. as second
note here.. gives me an
opportunity to take
even more.. there..
so.. sure.. there’s
always a silver lining
to general discontent..
where lemons become different LemonAde..
anyWay.. it turns my stomach a little whenever
i am reminded of efforts to stifle creativity in actual
Yeah.. open link
night can make
more words than
usual come.. but
hey.. it is whatever
comes next.. and every
poem is an opportunity to
expand mindful awareness into
the world of minds around us.. for me @least..
and with that said.. now for dinner and a work-out
as a long weekend ahead of Dancing at a Pensacola
Seafood Festival with bands on a field of
grass.. as i may tear up some turf
there and note to self..
wear ear plugs
and then there is
store dance and church
and i’m still recuperating
from a full three hour marathon
of dance last night at Old Seville..
the Nike GPS watch doesn’t work in many
places well and not there at all.. but
no doubt i did at least twelve miles of
dance last night.. if not more in total
comparative effort of even
jogging that far
as would be
who hasn’t mastered
gravity in dance yet too..
thaT takes thousands of miles
of practice.. i can vouch for me
at least2.. to truly feel like water
and air on Terrestrial Butterfly Tiger Lands..
and the wife notes later no Seafood Festival
i’ll sleep early
and start writing
early on Saturday
morning before Store Dance stARts..:)
So.. after the F.B. EN Name Test thingie.. determines
my IQ is 279 after conflating standard
IQ with common sense.. as often
the two have a rather inverse
relationship in converse way..
as they say.. hey.. hey..!..
now the Name test thingie
determines my theme song
from the eighties is.. drum roll..
Centerfold.. of course.. by J. Geils..
hmm.. wondering if the Name Test
thingie goes deep deep in my links..
and peruses all i do.. who who.. but
truly as science shows bringing back
my Standard IQ into play.. adventure therapy
is a cure for PTSD.. and of course anxiety too..
and many illusory fears.. by the way.. and as
science also shows lust play.. IS A source oF
all creativity and productivity.. just in case then
you thought this was an elaborate muse to sext
all the world.. hehe.. like Miley cyrus in Center
fold way.. well.. truly it is a mix of science and art..
and add in fearless with that.. and voila.. you get a
56 year old Center Fold Dude with an IQ that can
not even be FucKinG measured as i meet no F iN
Standard of human archetype IQ of the past at all except
for an eclectic mix like a Son of all who came before.. and don’t
take that too serious.. per literal.. as it is a metaphor in trans
Humanist way.. that relates to how we humans these days
through multi-media sources of input can live literally
vicariously thousand of lives through the actors..
producers and directors of so many other
plays of life.. why not just be honest..
well.. getting social outcast
in a First Baptist Church
is the main reason
porn on Saturday
Night to intuitively
rev up tHeir creative juices
in so many ways.. to make a
very inspiring sermon to the 60’s
something Bleached Blonde Prim and
Sexy Seniors in the front row bleacher seats
with their push up bras pointed RIGHT toward the
face of the pastor’s recently satiated eyes from
last night’s porn activities.. where the younger
women in the third and fourth rows.. with
their really tight skirts are no longer
a distraction.. a frustration.. as
that human instinctual way
of male being in release
has already been
met the night
even with the pastor’s
wife.. and no not me.. hehe..
as sure.. as studies show 50% of
males and 33% of females peruse
porn at work.. it is human nature and
folks do it from all religious denominations
and it sure beats.. yes.. literally beats studies
that show when human beings are repressed
and oppressed to release their human nature in
all the ways that naturally can come.. that Arabian
clinical studies show that in cultures where men and
women are prohibited from even holding hands with
the opposite sex until after marriage.. other than
family members.. three to six year old girls..
as i’ve horrifyingly reported before..
as i would sure like to see a
stop put to this.. are
sexually abused in
the home by male
family members.. and
other intimate associations
from the home.. as sure it would
be a lot FucKinG better if those males
took care of business by themselves behind
a private FucKinG Door with some Good Old
American Porn.. to do as they wilt without FucKinG
harming your kid sister or 3 year old daughter or
whatever then else truly FucKinG perverted thing
happens when human nature is put in a cage
and comes out all truly harmful like that..
hmm.. so sure.. i support porn.. as it’s
dam sure better than harming someone
in the flesh who does not FucKinG want
it or is not even at the age of
consent.. and of course..
porn that is consensual..
and it would be nice
if porn was less
like love and
fun.. that sure you
can find too.. if you
look hard enough for what
is beautiful and harms no one else..
anyway.. i grew up in the Catholic Church
where the Virgin Mary.. was used literally
to suggest that girls who are touched
down there before marriage were
less than holy.. and sure..
stuff has eased up
a whole lot
as take most anyone
aside.. and if they fess up
they’ll tale you they come here..
but they take all the now ridiculous
labyrinth teachings with a grain of
salt.. people understand life is much
more complicated than what the church
portends to control in strict regulations
of human nature.. and sure there are
die hard repressed and oppressing
fundamentalist folks too.. but
as we often find out
those are the
the most hidden
in the closets with
skeletons that prove..
they are just human too..
humans create the best free..
and productively too.. as in all stuff
liFe.. a BaLanCinG ForCe of Human
Nature set free.. is what makes humans tick
restraints of clocks
in life.. with hands that
only go in clockwise fashion..
sure.. sometimes it’s good to stroke
the left too..;)
Changing gears here rapidly..
Facebook FriEnd Rafiah..
shares this very nice post
from Humans of Bombay that
so sweetly relates.. the favorite
word is beautiful as that applies to
everyone on earth.. all are beautiful
no matter what.. and truly as i’ll add here
again.. as i always come back to do.. hehe..
to find all in life sacred from head to toe.. and
in all of Nature around us too.. including the
extensions of God and Nature same that
is our technology that allows us
instruments even greater
than Star Trek had
to share our
SoUl and sure
eYes of Body too..
with others freely IS
A way to live in heaven now
with no wait at all.. as when all
becomes beautiful even what one
might term as ugly when one understands
that dARk makes liGht in liFE too.. as struggle
makes us stronger.. with Victory and flowers
of eYes over Vengeance and swords that
the dArk Side makes for life.. sure.. let
the sword change into words
and photos.. and videos
of flowers.. dissent
that sure has helped
to bRing to the point oF iS noW too..
so.. i respond back to Rafiah’s Facebook
share by saying in kind reFrain oF liGht..
WeLL.. FriEnd Rafiah.. that is so
beautiful and i just am stopping
By today to say..
you have a beautiful
heart.. soul.. and spirit
and it lights up your eyes..
when you present that liGht too..:)
Language of the
Internal UniVerse of
what speaks within my
lesSons not taught
school at end..
i can remember when
i lost my emotions.. it’s
strange how that can happen..
when one lives in only ways of
solving external problems.. a Heart
is not a book with instruction manual
a heARt is ARt..
and wHere does
brain fixer upper
the Air Force Major
combat fatigue repairman
the Psychiatrist Major then..
you need to use something else now..
other than adrenaline to motivate yourself…
hmm.. and reflecting on what the music i created
on the piano that had fingers of feelings without
words to express
i had no
he was saying
in words as the
reference point… even..
of all emotions other than
adrenaline and fear were lost
to living life that way in severe and
chronic stress over the course of two
years before that.. where general adaptation
syndrome brought me down then to the lowest
levels of serpent brain where logic could not even
focus to play a game of tic tac toe.. i literally could
not play a game of tic tac toe.. and my wife had
to write down if i could do anything
each day.. like brush
my teeth.. floss..
take a shower
any F in task
is one can come
back from the cliff
with no bottom as well
dry of bRAin water from
bEfore.. as when i was young..
the common view of me was
i was way too emotional and
needed to come back down
to earth.. well.. there
is no water in
even a word
can be pulled
of literal death in life..
seriously though.. no frigging
psychiatrist or therapist or social
worker or psychologist or general
physician or rheumatologist or pain
doctor.. or heart specialist.. as Jesus
F.. in Christ.. after seeing no doctors
at all for 23 years.. i had somewhere
close to 100 appts.. and sure i am
leaving out some of the
titles for Doctors
way who eventually
found 19 medical disorders
in me.. mostly pain related..
invisible from a view outside..
with the common denominator
of no instruction in how to bring
my emotions back.. bottom line.. the
emotions came back storming at the
end of July 2013.. other bottom line..
when they did.. all the F iN pain went
away fast.. as slowly as it came over the
course of two years.. ’06-’08 and
66 more months of iSREAL
hell ‘tween 2008 and
is why what
you do is so important
my friend.. is.. you bring human
emotion from the deep.. from the
dark.. and into the light as well.. as
my first break through was a tear after
five years when a beloved cat died
in April of 2013.. i had a spark
of poetry before in March .. ’13
no feelings inside..
that tear.. eventually
led to the first smile and
laugh after emotions of sadness
came back in July of 2013.. but then..
mostly.. truly it was the poetry where
language connected words of hEart
finally again in me.. to open up a dam
of mind in damned way with body too…
that had lost the liGht of EmoTions trUe..
these places of heaven and hell are places
within.. when within comes out of seed.. of
broken shells of what was before.. as liGht
of EmoTioNs new and or renewed..
liFe changes to
flow from head to toe..
through the Vagal Nerve or
the Kundalini Serpent same..
from Brain to Gut too… where
my psychiatrist who said my case
was the worst he had ever seen.. even
offered to put an implant in my chest to
stimulate a vagal never that had gone
dark as wick to liGht.. Dance was
the second pARt to PoEtry
my friEnd.. and that
Dance was the liGht
from before.. free
flowing.. body spiraling..
as waves of ocean whole before..
where the entire FucKinG Ocean
of existence finally is complete sense
and feel as integrated.. and invincible
to Forces of DArk.. Bones can reignite
to liGht.. bottom line2 my fRiend is
we can fix ourselves…
and help others
and other art
too.. so keep
doing what you do…
it’s not jusT the flowery words
that folks need.. they need to feel
all pARts of the Human soUL dARk and
liGht and that is what you Bring best.. heARt
and SpiRit to the
table of Life..
and first Supper
of the human being
that breaks fast for LiFe iN LiGht..
you have a
that sadly i
often find lost
in poetry land..
so.. i come to visit..
past.. dVerse trail.. now..
Yes… thE friEnd then.. close..
at age three.. i find.. i could
see so clearly too.. across the
river.. in shot gun home way.. liGht..
somehow.. not as clearly in lesSons
of school in shoes
oF seated way..
grass of leaves beneath
my feet of bare before.. so free
with breeze.. and air of
water front deep..
now in free before..
and in the dArkest pit
of numb i come to see so
many years later.. at age 47..
42 years of meaning lost from
then.. tHeRe IS A faint whisper
at beach that no longer warms
soul.. and eventually i become
waves and ocean whole
again my friEnd..
tHeRe iN tHe
thE ‘tween.. and
at the end and
beginning of always
noW Now.. it’s juSt that culTure
in all its complexity drOwns out
The beauty of the voice within that needs
no words but seashores open.. within.. mY FriEnd..:)
we all reach
out to someone
just ’cause we can
for no other
will.. and sure
a Loving human
in a grain of sand..
and sunshine rays..
is now.. and life
is worth living.. reaching out..
smiles my friend.. i don’t think we
thank folks enough for being this way
naturally as they can be.. i’ve commented
on literally thousands of poet’s sites just
for inspiration of words of heArt..
and i’ve been thinking
or better put
i miss A
human touch at nows..
that is just a ‘stranger’
with a warm heart..
as the world
without that my friEnd..
anyway.. i don’t know you..
but i encourage you to keep
being you.. just another friendly
person on the trail of life.. that can
become so rigid and unwavering if we don’t reach out..
and Wonderful Artist..
in words and paint.. Himali..
Facebook Friend.. with status..
shares some photos of
herself from India
and i say..
this beauty is elegant..
you look like an Indian
princess here for sure..
by to say
my friEnd.. noW iN
your pArt of the World..
as i need a Nature
and a first
step.. is alWays
the beauty of FriEnds..:)
And this reminds me too.. of my
young college age Friend Vida who
is the gym attendant where i work out..
as i came through the door she raised her
arms up and yelled Fred.. you know.. a Norm
moment from Cheers.. as i am a character most
as named that too..
at Old Seville Quarter..
last Thursday night.. then..
anyWay.. the human touch
noW is what counts.. Now
in DanCinG and SinGinG
liFE Free.. it’s harder to
do online.. deeper
but i work at
it and never ever
give up FOR THE BLESSING
OF THE iSREAL HUMAN TOUCH
THAT TRULY LIGHTS UP MY LIFE..
as human lamps of love CAN AND WILL..
and with that said.. hello Nature.. i’m coming BACK..
as Lamps Love..
DancE and SinG more
“Since we cannot know all that is to be known of everything,
we ought to know a little about everything.”
~~ Blaise Pascal ~~
A Philosophy Class in
Humanities for me
in ’78.. a dire
the vice of the modern
world that is making us
smart in niche’s and
of us.. leave
no stone unturned
is what i say/FeeL now..
but sure.. take
that’s everythinG aLL..
as now is all at peace too..
ah.. simple animal homeostasis
on a trial of life that meanders in breeze
yeah.. i know i said
i don’t like ruling
calm seas.. Now..
but hey.. noW..
a break from waves
too.. so.. i’ll surf water
as sTiLL Air wiTh Calm Sees..:)
“It is easier to stay out than get out.”
~~Mark Twain ~~
OH JF Christ..
Ain’t that the
trUth and dARk..
CuffS iN decAdes
of Government work..
all for the retirement Now..
of being free ..if ya live that long
in chains as yelloWed gOld of Uncle Sam..;)
“You govern a kingdom by normal rules;
You fight a war by exceptional moves;
But you win the world by letting alone,
How do I know that this is so?
By what is within me!
The more taboo and inhibitions there are in the world,
The poorer the people become.
The sharper the weapons the people posses,
The greater confusion reigns in the realm.
The more clever and crafty the men,
The oftener strange things happen.
The more articulate the laws and ordinances,
The more robbers and thieves arise.”
~~ Tao Teh Ching, #57 ~~
Hmm.. now that Ching
Tao dude or dudette
or whomever sAid
all of this.. noW
yeah.. be careful
of niches inside.. just
itching to get out and play..
and just got me to thinking.. the
Jesus dude who was against all
the old rules of the day according
to whomever wrote that.. got changed
into follow my rule as believe in me or
Go to FucKinG
is what i say..2..
to the otHeR noW..
FucKinG FReED siDe..;)
Cynics are made, not born.
~~ Max ~~
Dust has no hope.. until….
“I’m not into isms and asms.There isn’t a Catholic moon and a Baptist sun. I know the universal God is universal…. I feel that the same God-force that is the mother and father of the pope is also the mother and father of the loneliest wino on the planet.” — Dick Gregory
God iS Star dUst plus…
story of US..
“The first problem for all of us, men and women, is not to learn, but to unlearn.” — Gloria Steinem
about before first
and after last now..
and all the
for the better or worse.. and sAme..
Adaptation or not.. change moves on for leARn
“Walking in a forest between two hedges of ferns transfigured by autumn – that is a triumph. What are ovations and applause beside it?” — E.M. Cioran
Life IS A miracle
of sorts as even science shows now..:)
“You cling to your own ways and leave mine to me.”
~~ Petrarch ~~
Like.. i told my FriEnd
Glenn.. let ‘them’
to try out..
to renew me too..
with a lot of Wild Hair
iN mY soUp FReED..:)
Other than that have a
nice respite from the online
world.. my FriEnd.. mY fingers
are still running.. straight to Nature
SpiRAl FeeLs.. SeNses..
more than kNow oF Words..:)
Back to the Future
of After Dance oF Fred..
hehe.. with the past and
the beginning of the
the dance of
me first.. and back
in the mid to late
70’s of course
Craze put into
the height of that era
With John Travolta and
Saturday Night Fever where
dance came into vogue of the
in thing to do.. even to the point
that River-Side Disco came to
the little River town
of Milton.. Florida..
just in time
of the day of
first Cuban Girl
Friend Sonia in ’78 with
the rest of her Cuban and
Irish mixed brothers.. one of
which by name of Ron and she
the Sonia.. were great latin-like
couples dancers.. where i as noted
before was just a stiff who was inspired
to move.. somewhat robotic and repetitive-
like instead of floWing and spiraLing Galaxy
and Nautilus style noW as back
then for a male to raise
his arms above his
not the in thing
to do in Riverside
Disco Town.. Milton
Florida.. but ah.. the black
lights and the electronic music..
so inspiring as trance of human
higher freer levels of consciousness
when all worries melted Away.. and yA
juST danced the night awaY.. getting higher
and hiGher.. even without any alcohol or drugs
although of course plenty of folks were abusing
that then too.. as for some folks.. there is never
enough for the more of now to be
satisfied at all..
A Gregorian chant
is a way to trance.. but
mix in some electronic music
like this and some sexy related
moves all jiggly and free
like the video nicely
like a very
slip.. of the whatever..
you stARt to get the
drift of where the
dance first hand
and feet and the rest
of Ya can take ya higher
and higher in iSREAL hUman
orbit.. and like the original ‘FiLI’
of my ancestor seers as poets from
Gaelic early origin Irish Tradition then…
the FiLi Poet.. put on a pedestal much
higher than the bard.. was no less than
a bible prophet from the parable books of Abrahamic
religions too.. yah.. Poetry/Dance like this is sacred..noW
don’t yA kNow and FeeL iT.. when iT Flows with zero effort
like the Waves carry the Ocean to the shores back and
forth as juSt a free pARt of Nature.. well.. sure.. the
Ocean iS iN the moves of those women in the
video.. and if you see it other than
holy and sacred.. you
aren’t seeing and
FEELING the whoLe
piCture of God iN
wE when set FReED..
the holiest experience
that’s ever been noted
in history in the sacred
trance dance of seers and
prophets alike when truly free
to core of what it means to be
A Child of God with no limits or
expectations of clothed cultures of
later than the Sacred and Holy Fili’s
of Ireland.. that are carried on in my Irish
EYes.. and American Indian hands sTiLL noW Now..
aS Feet oF feAT dAnce noW FReED.. Wild and UntAMed..
And oh my Goodness.. one of the Dance Girls up in the
Video reminds me very much of ‘one’ of my Seville Dance
Friends.. but nah.. i ain’t saying which one or more she is..
anyWay.. back in the 70’s.. male chest hair was all the rAge
and that was one place.. i was gifted then.. if not the dance.. heHe..;)
How fortunate am i.. to live somewhere close
enough to Nature.. to walk out.. either my
back door or front door and escape
to God’s Hands/eYes/Feet without
much reminder of the every
day stresses of culture..
other than cars whizzing
by on busier roads..
where truly.. the
Beach as trees
and me too.. one with
Nature.. one with God..
sAMe dAM thing for those who
think that God only lives in Temples
and books of religions.. sure.. and wE commune
ecstaticAlly with Nature and God sAMe when We
Free dance naked aWaY from cultural clothes and more
on that in a few.. but i can still remember a Philosophy
class at age 18 that opened my mind/body to the similarities
of all religions and other ways of belief that bRinG
a oneness of bEinG wiTh each otHeR..
including other animals and
all of Nature sAMe
for this great
Star DuSt Life
thaT is miracle beyond
dUst beLief.. why shouldn’t
we dance scantily clothed or not
clothed at all from the ways of culture
that repress and oppress our human
natures from head to toe as gifted by
God and Nature sAMe.. well.. it’s
simple.. ’cause there are those
among us who would
subjugate us and
use the beauty
of our sensuality
and sexuality to make
money off it instead of free..
to control reproductive freedoms
for weaker men who don’t want to
have the responsibility to attract a
mate by increasing their God given
talents to do just that.. in ways of
dance innate.. and being
for a future family..
but nah.. tools become rules..
and truly real fools are those who
repress and oppress human nature
by limiting our ability to dance and sing
free with God in all the ways that comes
free for all.. who free themselves from
the chains in books.. and beliefs
that say anything
CHAIN AND OWN GOD OF
NATURE IN BOOKS IF YOU THINK
YOU CAN BUT WITH WE YOU WiLL NoT
Ha! the only thing stopping illuminati conspiracy theorists
from saying i am Lucifer come to flesh
is the fact that i ain’t famous..
from doing a red-tinted
dance here at
age 56 with
year.. eTc.. also known
noW as Charlie’s Angels..
Cortney.. Maggie.. and
Chelsea.. left to right.. and this
gives me an opportunity of course
to honoUr them.. as they didn’t happen
to make it.. to my 6000 mile dance milestone
celebration at Good Old Seville Quarter on Thursday
Night.. but never the less they have been steady and
very supportive dance muse partners for over 2 years now
and i appreciate them very much.. as they are what you might
term as intellectual dance partners too.. and in someways a
nerd like me.. but ha!.. they hide it well like i do too..
on the freer dance floors of life.. all free
and open in dancing by heArt
nah.. no rules for
Dance and Song for me..
not even playing the piano.. as
i remember when my friend by the
book of piano.. Pearlas… another nice
Pacific Islander friend from school.. asked
me how i did a riff on the Song.. Take the Long
Way home.. by Super Tramp.. i told her.. and it’s
no different than dance or poetry.. or how
i improvise the SonGs in Catholic
Church with Choirs of
down.. i feeL iT..
in ways of heARt.. Spirit
and soUl iN miNd and BoDy
BaLanCinG wayS.. and as Nike
says per the Goddess of human
archetypal Victory.. i juST F iN Do it..
and the art comes next.. juSt the way iT is for FReED..
and sure when
i write poetry
i am not
in planning way..
i aM SinGinG from deep
down and tHeRe IS A constant
melody i hEar of God of nature iN mY eAR’s HeARt..
anyWay.. the earliest renditions of hell were most
always photos of humans huddled together naked
with the obvious meaning that being naked is
evil.. and even in modern
to go deeper
in oneness with God
to exercise our higher human
potentials that sure are sensual
and even sexual in nature.. is considered
evil.. and when someone like Beyonce reaches
deep down.. and finds that masculine strength and
will inside with the serpent eYe of going higher in survival..
it is no demon.. it is just her human potential in genetic
memory of epigenetics unlocked as human
nature.. and expressed in new
And i saw it recently
with Lady Gaga continually
as she sets herself free in her
dance of her latest song named
Perfect Illusion.. the illusion is we
are not free.. when yes.. we CAN AND
WILL OURSELVES FREE WItH FEARLESS smART LOVE..
AND sure.. wHeRe would A After Dance oF Fred Be..
without the Disco Electronic Trance Roots Music oF
Donna Summer and i Feel Love..
well.. the trUth and liGht iS..
when one releases
all their inhibitions
in the trance of ecstatic
DancE thaT can certainly be
enhanced through electronic trance
dance music.. one does rise higher and
higher with the higher potential of God within
wE through raising our mindful awareness NoW of
FeeLinG/SeNSinG.. the Unconditional Love from God of NatUre
Fearless Free gifted to uS.. juST waiting within to
be SpARked hiGher and Higher like this through
ecstatic dance like our so-called primitive
ancestors and some still do..
without F iN
restraints that would
hold folks back in books
and men and other’s lies to
repress and oppress our God
Given human potential to basically
make us slaves.. from old so-called
Fundamentalist Christian rules that said
dance and rock and roll both.. were the brew of
the devil.. to many Muslim countries that truly sTiLL
believe that raising mindful awareness through ecstatic
trance dance is the work of the so-called fucking devil..
Go(O)d news for you.. the only dEvil is fear and all
stuff related to hate.. that oppresses and
represses human nature…
but sure.. ‘you’ kNow
not what you
do as you
with lies that
take human freedoms
as gifted by God free away..
iF it exists free on the NAKED BeacHes of
life it is God given.. if not.. more than
likely it is fear and hate given.. by those who
would still slave human nature for selfish and tribal benefits..
that sadly are a real dARk paRt of human nature too.. wHeRE soMe
of uS have the abiLiTy to do better than that.. with hUmaN liGht PoTenTiaL..
Happy Children of God
thaT way.. in Fearless smARt Love..:)
Every Girl Loves a Sharp ‘Dressed’ Dancer..
A satire here on a 54 year old dude.. hehe..
me.. two years ago.. continuing a free lance online
stripping career in all legal
all for free
of course.. as
ha!.. who would
pay for thaT anyWay
moreover hehE.. but anYway
an endeavor to lose past inhibitions/fears..
and set myself free f(r)orm a very repressing
and oppressing red state patriarchal place now/then
i was raised in aS oNe could be metaphored as
a New Jerusalem as Milton in a Freer
U.S. of A as New iSREAL too..
wHeRE hUmans wHo
can set themselves
free too.. hmm.. how
to.. how to.. well.. as science
shows adventure therapy or going
places that you would have been terrified
from doing and going before.. is now a
validated way to treat PTSD.. as sure
i’ve experienced that before
along with panic attacks
too.. and what would
you do to not
let’s just say
getting naked ain’t
nearly as hard as getting
PTSD and Panic AttackS.. in faCt
let’s juST say it is the anti-hell
of that iN FeeLinG iT is more like
SenSinG pro-Heaven now.. as it don’t matter
what you look like when you do it.. what counts
is how you FeeL/SenSe when you set yourself free and note
to self.. this Donna Summer Music IS A very/very good trance
SonG to inspire words along with Dance too.. hehe.. as they
continue to flow hEar uninterrupted as free.. anyWay2.. as Aleister
Crowley once said.. sex is magick and it brings to fruition higher
potential of intentionally changing your future to TruE wiLLful ways of
being and concrete empirical results.. well.. the trUth and liGht
now is.. even science shows that lust IS A major source of
all human creativity and productivity and as
in all stuff life now.. i use it
instead of loSing it..
i don’t give a FucK
how it looks or what
people think about.. it.. sHows..
bottom line is.. luSt increases
human creativity and productivity
as 3.3 million plus words in 3 years and abouT
100K photos.. do.. including.. over a thousand
sMiLinG beautiful women from Seville including
the Goddess Isis.. Katrina.. the you know.. real incarnated
one as human Imagination of self-fulfilling prophecies go and
continue to grow in our modern age oR either.. in Isis head
hunting aS devil ways2.. or beauty of women smiling
ear to ear.. in red tinted photos too..
okay.. fuck you head hunters..
life is beautiful..
okay.. from head
too.. and if you can’t
see that all those parts
are sacred and holy as God
and a Grain of Sand you are
blind my friend(S) in veils of iGnorance..
and some of us are lifting those veils
of ignorance continuAlly now as we noW
DO iN original Def of Apocalypse noW iN
aRt as we
as the modern
age human archetype
of Angel Miley Cyrus
and her FucKinG WreckInG
bAlls against F iN C Trump
WAlls of hate.. haha.. ain’t
it ironic.. trump’s grand daddy’s
name was Frederick Christ Trump
and his Mama’s first two names were
Elizabeth Christ.. oh.. little old me..
born on 06660.. but illuminati conspiracy
theorists.. i am free free from your lies as
in the night..
har har.. haha.. he HE..
keep hanging with ‘famous
folk’s oKAy.. see wHeRe thAT
“I asked God for strength, that I might achieve;
I was made weak, that I may learn humbly to obey.”
First of all.. i find that
God iSREAL in all of
Nature and the filter
oF eYe is within as
i asked myself
for strength.. sure..
God within.. and lost
iT.. and lEarned new ways
aS the Nature oF God within
to humbly obey.. to get stronger noW
every day after that.. after encountering
the weakest pArts of liFE oF aLL when all was lost
it works as empirically
measured.. i AM now stronger
at age 56.. by measures as much
as twice.. before.. any day of before age 54..
in fAct.. some folks who kNew me bEforE.. swear up and down i’VE even
grown taller.. sure.. standing uP straight for yoUrself iS Standing TaLLer..
and sure.. perhaps i have lEarned to shape shift somewhat too..
as science proves this is a real thingy too.. as even my
Father.. the law enforcement officer in TaLLahassee
Florida.. witnessed Ted Bundy making himself
shorter and taller and transforming his
facial expressions into someone
else in a heart beat or so..
as practice makes
as practice comes
for those.. who do more..
dArk and liGht as Karma goes..
and actors in Hollywood are quite
successful in mastering tHeiR appearance like this too..;)
“I asked God for health, that I may do greater things;
I was given infirmity, that I might do better things.”
Sure.. i would be kinda crazy not to insist within
that i not be healthy.. yET.. i am hUman..
and without obeying mY hUman
Nature.. i fall.. i fall..
and respect and
obey those limits
for doing much greater
things as BaLanCinG Force of
within.. inside.. outside.. above
so below.. and all around.. now..
Like.. totAlly eliminating negative stress and
illusory fears in life.. and becoming fearless..
and controlling every single thought in my head
liGht aS weLL..
unless i’M doing
poEtry satire as an
Art of relative free WiLL
As my own GD actor..
“I asked for riches, that I may be happy;
I was given poverty, that I might be wise.”
Fuck Money all together.. i asked for a rich
soul.. and once again.. by not lEArning
my Nature and obeying the
limits as imposed
by God and
i fell with poverty of
Spirit.. and got the
riches.. without even asking..
of course.. not spending money.. helped..;)
“I asked for power, that I might have the praise of men;
I was given weakness, that I might feel the need of God.”
i asked for the Power of Love.. was born
that way.. and God as Nature in me
took it away.. once.. again..
’cause i was too ignorant
to understand Nature
and God sAMe within..
obey those Laws
understand.. i need
that Nature AKA God BaLanCinG
within.. to do almost anything iN life At ALL..
as sure.. once again.. i failed before.. in fall…:)
“I asked for all things, that I might enjoy life,
I was given life, that I might enjoy all things.”
Life IS A Gift..
is icing.. if ya kNow
how to lick it good..
instead of getting whipped bad..
as a matter of perceiving life.. of course2..:)
“I got nothing I asked for but everything I hoped for.
I am, among all men, most richly blessed.”
Most everyone i meet in real life.. can’t believe
i’m on an all natural high from Nature
aka God.. allone.. within.. eTc..
i practice and
obey all innate..
instinctual.. and intuitive
ways of getting the most
BleSsinGs.. bY juST figuring
i aM within
as Nature i AM
iS noW as far
as other folks see..
wanTinG soMe of what
@leASt for mE..:)
And ha! regarding religion..
we got some hyper-scare-bowl..
from the Monsignor.. at Church.. suggesting
that Pew research reports that 50 Percent less
of Americans no longer believe in religion.. as
hyperbole goes.. but sure.. info.. bowl.. is driving
many folks into other areas of practicing emotions
of holy and sacred.. to create their reaLiTy as a Happy
one with EmoTioNs and SeNses iSREaL.. nah.. not everyone
is doing the Fundamentalist thingie any more.. in hell fire pews..
with illusory promises and fears.. the percentage noW of Atheists
in America is relatively the same at 3 percent.. since 2007 where
it was like 2 percent then.. oh no.. a 50 percent increase.. but sure
there is still the other 97%.. Believing.. Having Faith.. and Hoping are
simply human emotions and senses iSREAL.. whatever they get
attached to.. as far as metaphors.. as symbols.. vehicling and
vesselling.. houSing what works.. thAt will continue to change
noW as long as culture changes.. However.. hUman
NatUre still works the way it has at core..
before all this written language
and book/culture stuff became
the stuff of tools
of our Nature..
iSREaL too.. bottom
liNe.. EmoTioNs and SeNses
are iSREaL.. and insurance pays
for hypnotherapy.. so sure.. the power
of suggestion.. for at least 33 Percent
of the population works.. and to control/utilize
that power within.. preSents amazing human potential..;)
And as the ‘Great Philospher’ Sting
and Police StiLL SinG..
when the world
the best of what
is left that’s STiLL..
aRound.. and oh yeah..
tHeRe muST bE an iNvisible
SuN too.. i ain’t scared.. and
in fAct i’M thrilLed to bE aLiVE..
as i can’t ask for anything more.. mY
FriEnd than Heaven now.. Space is full
of shit happens.. i’M gonna enjoy this wave
ain’t gonna do mE
a bit of Good2.. other
than keep my miNd off of liFe
and i refuse to ever do that again..
’cause.. i’M lucky enough now to master
thAT is ME mY
fRiEnd.. and i AM
the only one inside
who could have possibly
achieved that.. everything else
i lick good as icing on the cAke..
i can and WiLL..
iN fAct.. thE LiGht iS
so BriGht.. i gotta wear sHades..
but nah.. tHey ain’t cheap..
about ‘666’ dollars.. they
so F iN
Hmm.. i was just talking about
shape shifting in my last Micro-Verse
of Macro-Verse.. After Dance oF Fred..
and if the En Name Test thingie is any
indication of my success at this.. it’s representation
of me as not only A Creator in curious.. creating…
great at expressing myself.. and being
born in order to create something
new in this world.. as
my role in life.. hmm..
ham ‘here’.. the
very nice ballet
Student and Dancer
From Old Seville Quarter
that the En Name Test thingie
is suggesting who i am out of
the recent profile pic..
of creating me aNew heheR..
Well.. MoVinG along with
my last dance Shirt of this
706th MacroVerse of
i mUst say
that moving from
to SupERman VanGogh
in starry starry niGht way..
is reflective of mY HuMan Nature
as even literature study shows.. the
iConic Superman.. and other Bi-Polar
Nature way of Being Kent Nerd vs..
all star every jack of trades.. comes from
the original story of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde..
although Mr. Hyde is certainly a Bad Cop Superman
and or Batman as that can move to Super Villain
too.. as we kinda see in the last
Superman Movie too..
modeled after the
Jesus story too..
was Bi-Polar too..
and most anyone Super
Creative is on some kind of
hypo-maniac stay.. like i’ve been
most of my life.. anyway.. other than
the dark.. dark.. nights of the soUL and
a few stellar and very painful extreme manic highs..
yeah.. i’ve moved past three years of clinical hypomania..
but i did almost two decades of that before.. without much of
a hitch.. until stress killed the balance that i finely maintained
then as i do the same now.. i work at the hiGh BaLanCinG oF liFe
in a Hypomanic Heaven oF liFE like a Frigging Olympic mental
and body BaLanCinG Athlete.. and it’s not anything new..
i’ve been doing this all my life.. with success stellar
as such and misery fail in the opposite
of dArk niGhtS of the soUL
too.. and i must
i shed tears for
Vincent Van Gogh
and many oThers as it’s
impossible to understand
what it’s like unless you go somewhere
dARk like that as oil tarred bird away from
star of morn.. as rebirth.. yourself.. but as the
phoenix rises.. the ashes and charred feathers
fall away.. and yA rise again.. and once again..
juST another opportunity to use the Katy
Perry SonG by sAme nAMe as RisE
noW too.. sure.. the artists
have always been
the saviors of
as change sTarts
at the heARt and tHeRe
is neither start or heart
as aLL is left
and in some ways
that is both art and science too..
as alWays a BaLAnCinG ForCe of WE
to geT iT Super(wo)-
man aLL ToGeThEr onE
iN YiN and YanG wAyS
and Atman too..aS B..2..
So.. now.. the Name Test Thingy on Facebook determines
i am an Avalanche when angry.. and i was curious
if this had changed since the last result of
Tornado.. and sure enough..
when i feel just ’cause
iS prevalent.. a ‘revalent’
Revelatory Avalanche of Free Verse Poetry
comes in the nick of now.. to the rescue.. hehe..
along with some word play of wit too.. as
hey.. people are too FucKinG serious
these days for my tastes…
too stuck on rules..
their illusory fears
and even promises.. now
from the system.. aka the
Matrix and or culture these dAys sTiLL..
first step to anything positive in life is to lose
fear beyond the paradigm of the matrix beFore..
How to.. trUly depends on how much courAge you
can muSter.. for me.. i was lucky.. i went to hell first..
of why it’s worth it
at almost any cost
to lose fear.. as fear
kills liGht.. although yes..
Fear can be a dArk ark to liGht2..
LiGht iS Hope.. Love.. and Joy..
and the inner drive to Move..
Connect.. and Create..
dARk.. is Fear.. Hate..
and Despair.. and
and overall stagnation
of what human potential
can be.. when all stuff related
to fear is released.. and changed
to all stuff related to Hope.. Love and
Joy.. in MoVinG ConNecTinG and Creating
as pArt of the Canvas of God as Nature.. that
is the greATEst hiGher Paint Power of BruSh LiGht as wE..:)
Hmm.. so apparently.. the EN name test thingie has seen
the symbol of the Goddess of Victory.. yes.. that
is what the word Nike means.. as the Swish
on my shoes and socks.. and
brings definitive news..
that my pen name
per first pARt
Kaiona as form
iN essence as Bringer
of Victory.. moving on to
say.. ‘You are blessed by
destiny. You Bring happiness
and joy wherever you go’.. hmm..
now this takes work.. practice.. and it also takes
courage and resilience to overcome the naysayers
in life.. who are not used to folks who challenge the
paradigms of life.. yes.. what is also known and
sadly fELt as the system.. the matrix.. yes..
culture in all its complexity.. including
religion.. that seeks order in
insanely large populations..
of humans packed
wHeRe Nature says..
and yes scientific studies
say.. 150 to 200 sets of eYes
are about all we are evolved to
be comfortable with all naked and
such dancing free around the moonlit
campfire homogenous and FReED.. shaRing
and giving with no greed and jealously where
even semen is considered holy and each potential
father who contributes to A Holy womb of birth
is honored in the act as the next potential
dad steps up to bat.. for the
work of the night..
or broad daylight
as a group as the
science and history of
human sexuality does iSREAL
document still and report..
both in modern primitives and
the archaeology of that.. in artifacts
of art.. where all of human life and
nature is worshipped as holy
and sacred.. as.. see.. in this
free context.. the
video i shared earlier..
of what a free dance of so-called
primitives would be.. yes.. the ‘Let’s
ALL Chant’ Video.. tHeRe is no brazilian
wax.. tHeRe all is fuzzy warm and free
love for the worship of human life..
and nature all surrounding that..
and while 12 thousand years or so noW..
of agriculture might seem a long long
time of patriarchal rule of storing grains
and jealousy and greed.. and owning other
human beings.. and even purchasing wives
for non-consensual dowry sex on the first night
as that is the reality of rape in many cases where
sure the male may like it fine.. but the woman not so okay
with first night rape.. and sure some folks follow along with
that tradition that is truly totally opposite from our God given
evolving nature still that says variety is the spice of life
and not FucKinG ownership of free.. but sure.. where
there is fear imposed through either illusory
fears or promises.. there is an environment
of order and laws to enforce strict
limitations.. and expectations
of life.. that are ironically
used to make folks
more comfortable with
the insane illusory fears that
are propagated and empty promises too..
to endure the abuse away from human freedoms
in this lifetime.. sure.. like a promise of something
after death.. when death becomes the goal over life..
’cause life sucks so bad.. as propagated by the
lies of culture and religion same.. as the
matrix says.. to get unplugged one must
want to get unplugged as Lord knows..
most everything about culture
and religion wants you to
be cooked up and hooked
on their books of laws
away from basic
Life.. Liberty and
yes.. NoW.. for the pursuit
of happiness.. for some folks that
only means doing what other folks tale
them… To escape the same propagated illusory
fears and promises.. For others.. it means stepping
outside of the cultural/religious boXes.. and sometimes
that means dancing naked ALL and chanting.. and in
the case of YouTube.. the artist who was
censored last century for doing this
on TV.. can get away with
showing you what it
would be like to
of lingerie.. that
show.. the human body
is just a natural work of sensual
art.. and when you get toGeTheR like
that.. even if only through mirror neurons
as a naked virtual rave and go and come.. noW..
there’s no doubt.. as you dance free in public
in all the cooperative mall stores that allow this…
if you glance down at Victoria’s secret that is
practically the same dam thing.. on the big
displays outside the store for everyone
of every age to see and feel free..
creativity and productivity comes
to the point that folks wonder
how the hell you can dance
that free and fast at
your size if
Crack.. well no..
i wasn’t on crack..
i had Victoria’s Secret
playing and showing on
my FucKinG smARt phone.. haha!..
while i continued to break the paradigm
of why so serious folks.. forget about buying
shit to crowd up your garage and closets some
more.. just do like Sia does.. and do some FucKinG
cheap thrills that don’t even cost a dollar.. if you’ve
already budgeted in for your broadband access
and 25 dollar or whatever a month fee for
the newest fastest version of iPhone7
and Samsung7 to play Victoria’s
Secret that is like wide
out in the open..
in the land
of the free and
the brave.. who
kNow/FeeL.. how to FuckInG
unplug and play free from
the paradigms of illusory fears
and promises as orchestrated from
the patriarchy of storing grain.. greed..
jealousy and all stuff related to fear..
hate and despair.. of why so
Trump and Hillary
serious in all stuff
culture and religion now..
Challenging the paradigm is not
easy.. but when you are Grounded with
Hope.. Love and Joy within as God lives in
hiGhest human power within.. it’s kinda easy to
both giggle inside and feel sorry for the naysayers
of why so serious still.. Life IS A Beach.. sugar white
sands.. swaying sea oats in breeze.. and waves that
never end/begin noW in ocean whole altogether as beauty
now that knows and feels no limits.. and
quite Frankly that beauty.. and joy and
fearless love in human terms of
God within.. is totally naked
of cultural limits and
say worry.. worry..
and now is not the best
now ever for life.. liberty
and the pursuit of happiness.. WeLL..
IT IS for those who find the Victory
in jusT doing it now.. for those who
stay plugged in.. Karma IS A rule of
liFe.. Action.. Consequence.. dArk or
liGht.. negative or positive.. i choose
A naked liGht oF positive SonG noW and
DancE of liFE Now.. and sure.. i share it..
as i am not hEar to make a dollar bill off a
store of greedy and jealous gRains of wheat gOne sOld..:)
Well anyWay.. the Good news
is PANdora has E-Scaped..
dONe been FOUND..
both her and
is here.. tHeRe’s
no turning back as the
greaTest human technology
of all is human set FReED…:)
Second bottom Neo
line.. thE Choice
and Will to get
unplugged as Always
iS only YoUrs and who
you serve.. the FREE oF God/Nature
within NoW.. or the rule of jealous..
greedy.. storing dollar bill human beings..
for me at least.. the answer is simple.. naked culture..
SonG and DancE Freed.. A Chant ALIVE NOW as bEACH..:)
And to be clear i support all local.. state and
federal laws.. that protect the still
vanishing species of human
that wants to stay
in the matrix/etc..
these local.. state
and federal laws.. ensure
the free of wE who live God
within free as naturally evolved
sTiLL.. do not scare the beejeezus
out of folks who live in fear.. hate..
and despair.. as hell is not an easy
place to live.. i know and feel..
as i’ve been tHeRe too..
the FucK iN
Fear of the
the nerd version
of Bruce Wayne.. the
cultural memes and human
archetype for lily white
domesticated human dogs..
are legion for what it
of the wild..
Wolf i am Free..
nice wolf.. Good
Cop Mr. Hyde..
Cop Human Wolf..
and sure an
SWord of Teeth..
and sure.. Dance
without a dollar
bill or even penny
earned for FREE GOD WITHIN
AS SPREAD.. AS SPrEAD SOME MORE..
iN GIVE AND SHARE AS MY AMERICAN INDIAN
ANCESTORS AND CELTIC RELATIVES FROM IRELAND
AND SPAIN AND FRANCE AND ENGLAND DID/DO TOO..Relatively STiLL N0W2..:)
Set my people free…
Facebook Friend Rafiah.. shares a status that says..
as reported by Mohammad Abdus Salam.. a
famous Pakistani Theoretical Physicist
that the Quran has many verses
of knowledge associated with Nature..
So i ask..
Just out of curiosity.. do you believe in the theory of Evolution..
i watched a video from one of the most popular.. apologists
for Islam.. Dr Zakir Naik… who attempts to say it isn’t fact..
so in other words.. is this really true.. does Islam evolve
with scientific discoveries or stay stagnant…
and of course there are still now in the U.S..
a substantial number of Fundamentalist
Christians who deny it.. but thankfully..
at least the Pope of the Catholic
Church has evolved on this
and come into the
but of course
he was a Chemistry Major.. smiles..
Education is the key to ending conflicts
misery.. suffering.. and useless killing..
Anyway.. i watched Dr. Zakir.. yell angrily
at a Medical Student who questioned his
authority and eventually the medical student
was censored from speaking further.. in debates
over here.. Dr. Zakir would have immediately
been disqualified for just being a bully…
it disgusts me.. i must say..:)
And now i go on to say..
the fact that we share
a majority of our DNA
with a common ancestor
Rodent from 75 million years
ago.. the mouse today.. and
of course almost entirely all of it
with Bonobos and Chimps too..
and we are born with vestigial gills
in fetus form within the mother’s womb
is evidence enough that we all came together
in a mix of Star dust soup.. and some of us even
continue to evolve epigenetically in one lifetime or
become functionally disabled by not using our human
potential and unlocking our DNA potential through environmental
challenge… adaptation.. and change.. finAlly the Pope says that
the God of Nature doesn’t have to do magic tricks.. to test
us on our human potential.. it comes naturally
or does not come at all.. but sadly
he still stands by the side of
folks who would take
away a right
on the hypocritical
rules in paraphrasing a
Leviticus of a 3500 year
old middle east oral tradition
and scribe copied and mistaken
book.. as history shows now true and
liGht too.. with just frigging common sense..
who would call Jesus a God.. instead of just a
humble teacher.. ’cause someone said it was so
in the beginning of the fourth century after 40 years
of round table oral illiterate Aramaic language of beliefs
and myths for educated Greeks to determine which sects
that came and come to be in the 1st Century so-called now..
after death of Jesus then.. true or false.. of what was named
something similar to Christianity too..
and sure.. people use their
creative minds in
up with whatever
and symbols deep down
for that.. along with plagiarism
and paraphrasing of what already
has been said and written down every
which way and loose too.. including raping
and pillaging spoils of wars.. including wives
of soldiers yA killed by the sword and chopping
off heads too.. hmm.. yeah.. education
is important.. as ignorance..
the veils of ignorance
still reign the world
by ancient myths
and beliefs that have
no natural credence any
more as science shows..
not expecting s single word
from Rafiah back on this.. as nah..
i am not a person to get in a debate noW on
this.. obviously with.. but anyway.. it’s something
in Rafiah’s education that she has been enlightened
and changed with.. and sure other stuff is harder to let go
of.. as she lives there in that culture and i do not.. as Lord
knows and feels in me.. some of the most ignorant stuff
propagated in my culture has darkened my life too..
namely the ignorance of the Catholic Religion
i was raised in.. it’s a long way to go..
and Islam religions are still
stuck in the place
voice in the
culture now.. no different
than women before in the U.S.
too.. but as sociology suggests.. in
those Muslim countries the minorities
that sadly still include half of the population
of women.. too.. will gain the same basic human
rights in the U.S.. as women and other minorities like homosexuals
have.. in underprivileged countries ‘over there’.. by 2050.. but surely
the fact of science now.. that all is connected and interrelated
and we are made of star dust.. from the Cosmos whole no
different than a Grain of Sand.. is just ’cause to dance
naked from the veils of ignorance coming into
the original DEF of Apocalypse in
Greek terms that
true.. and perhaps
then.. Muslim women who
want too.. will be able to dance
naked and free in sands with sun
and God free.. or if they want to..
they can stay covered up still.. and
even stagnate and go functionally disabled
from their fuller human potential too.. but
as the Matrix reloaded scene says too..
and do the
Wild thing Free..
for who wants to unplug..
while the rest can do their
or not.. in dance
or song or stagnate same..
as relative free will Sings
or does not sing and dance
of Free verse
as God verse too..:)
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A Meaning oF liFe..
After Book of Fred
of course too..
6000 Miles of DANCE WALKING! NOW!
Documenting this Public Feat of Feet in 3 years..:)
Hmm.. Well.. the next milestone
as i stARt this 707th Macro-Verse
oF LonGest LonG Form Poem..
still exceeding 3.3 Million
words as NOW ANEW
Ocean Whole Poem..
SonG oF mY
SoUL too now..
in a somewhat
Plain Fred looking
website.. even a
little cluttered as such
as mad scientists WiLL..
Back to the Future of
noW Always do too..
yes.. neXt Milestone..
on Thanks Giving Day 2016..
celebrating a full 72 months also
kNoWn and fELt as 6 years.. full
of writing on line for
12 Million words
plus.. as Lord
kNows could be
much more than that..
considering from that
Thanksgiving Day of 2010
all the way through July of 2013..
i wrote from wake to sleep for 32
months every dam day to Escape
a life threatening synergy of 19 medical
disorders.. mostly pain related and invisible
to the outside eye.. including type two Trigeminal
Neuralgia.. the worst assessed pain in the associated
medical literature to date as far as i know and feel @least..
and Jesus F iN Christ.. worse than Crucifixion.. as it was like teeth drilled
then without novocaine.. in my right eye and ear that no drug would
touch.. words were my only escape and every word for those 32
months was a mountain to hill of pain.. where i was never sure i
could make even the next second alive.. without some kind
of literal escape.. that only words would partially bRinG..
with light turned down on screen to lowest setting
and eyes that could no longer use
prescription lenses effectively
as the focus only
of type two constant
Trigeminal Pain from wake to sleep..
and after the pain finally went away on or
about July 22nd of 2013.. i moved.. i literally
moved to dance.. and the rest of that as documented
for three years in the last Macro-Verse titLed After Dance
oF Fred.. so sure.. the words slowed down a little with
dance and speeded back up.. as my new Nautilus
Shell of Ocean Whole Poem.. had a skinnier
spine of word flow first.. and even
double spacing too..
much more often
and the photos
continued to explode
and that went off into
nude new age Renaissance
Art too.. and all the Dance at Good
Old Seville Quarter moVing into 128 weeks
now of dance there.. except for a week of sick..
and perhaps another one where the dance moved
to Saturday.. for a trip somewhere else.. but never
the less.. two and a half years of Dancing Rave with
all the cool college age folks at Old Seville too.. so many
photos of smiling friends that are girls.. in over a thousand
too.. as i continue to assess in each Macro-Verse wHere i’ve
been and wHere i’M going.. as when i flow iN Holy
SpiRit and Sacred Writing/DancE.. i am only noW
iN SeNse and FeeL of SonG and DancE..
lest i forget all of what
i’Ve doNe beFore noW
for mindfully/bodily aware
focus of JusT noW iN aLL
ways noW does surely sTiLL comes..
practice.. practice.. practice.. never ever
GiVinG up.. BaLanCinG.. BaLanCinG.. BaLAncinG
wHeRe thanks God.. tHeRE iS noT only wRiTinG buT Dance Steps
Too.. ALL WiLD and Free.. Free verse in photos too.. as Visual
poEtry goes with the Verbal WriTing SonG and DanCe oF
Too.. ISreaL noW aLL..:)
Life is full of sad songs..
More than can be heard
by those who
felt at all.. A
hardest part is
when all feelings
are gone away beyond
sad.. and An only feeling
that is left aT all.. is pain to
replace numb.. a horrible
place that has
to feel as space
beyond empty.. beyond
the nothingness of piece
of paper existence.. yes.. as
you say.. the black hole soul..
forgets to play a Song
that no longer
moves a SonG of Life..
to morning star BriGht..
as heARt.. as SpiRit FliGht
gone down.. so far beyond the liGht..
and A saddest pARt oF aLL.. is often
if theRE is any cure aT aLL iT is wait
for numb to go away.. and of
course pills are
back a Lamp
that lasts iN eYes
that SinG and DAnCe
aLive aGAin.. noW
and truly impossible
to fully understand
as dead in life.. mY FriENd Zee..:)
wow. 😀 a very good collection of photos and poems! 😀
Hi.. FriEnd.. rosemawrites.. thanks
so much for dropping by
to share these words of
appreciation today.. glad
you enjoyed the continuing
collection of what i do.. mY FriEnd..
and hope you continue to have a beautiful day
way it may
be wHere you liVe..:)
yay! thank you dear, Katie!
“To see what is right and
not to do it is cowardice.”
And sure a way to lose friends…
oh.. how.. the brave and the lone.. turn..:)
“Although it is tempting to resent disaster, there is
not much use in doing so… Whether we remain ash
or become the phoenix is up to us.”
— Deng Ming-Dao
Yep.. shit happens..
no reason.. reAlly..
to cover it up..
as it fertilizes
“Think not forever of yourselves, O Chiefs, nor of your own generation.
Think of continuing generations of our families, think of our
grandchildren and of those yet unborn,
whose faces are coming
from beneath the ground.”
— Peacemaker, founder of
the Iroquois Confederacy, (ca. 1000 AD)
A death of the extended
village in home of
death of this
in nomadic ways
of couples and singles
who have lost a village
that moves.. connects..
creates.. TogeTHer for
for Others and
Nature forevermore now2..
gone past the highwayS noW for Love..:)
“A woman takes off her claim to respect
along with her garments.”
women don’t scare
me.. per.. ‘Vagina FReED Dialogues’..:)
“(1) Everyone who shits on you is not necessarily your enemy.
(2) Everyone who gets you out of shit is not necessarily your friend.
(3) If you are warm and happy in a pile of shit, keep your mouth shut.”
— Ancient Shit Happens list
and F iN liVe..
or get use to it..
and STiLL liVe..
And even better yet
lEarn to Enjoy dARker
ShiT that leads to liGht too..
A first step is to pretend.. let
shit be written.. let shit be done..;)
Beaches Love me…
A memory from Seville
Square from last year to date..
with a T-shirt that says the same..
At a Pensacola Seafood Festival..
where i tore up a grass field in dance
With the bands playing there.. but seriously..
can you feel the beauty of Nature.. can you
actually feel a warm and fuzzy actual physiological
bio-chemical attachment to Nature driven by barefoot
oxytocin receptors in your feet as you connect to Mother
Nature’s warm sands.. well.. if you can’t.. it is very
possible you may have a case of spreading
Nature Deficit Disorder.. as
a First World Problem
that reaches as far
back and deep
who were too busy working
or today attached to electronic
devices even after work
for warm and fuzzy
as well as actual literal
hugs and even rough and tumble
play.. and yes.. even a play of dance
and visiting neighborhood FLESH AND
BLOOD KIDS.. ALL AFTER SCHOOL..
AND loving being outside literally
so much in warm and fuzzy
connection.. the last
thing in the world
ya wanna do is
until your mother’s
high pitched soprano voice
can be heard around the block..
Come home.. Come home.. it’s
time to eat.. Jane and Jack
even a Nurturing Soprano
Song can give you the warm
and fuzzy feeling of oxytocin Love..
if it was ever nurtured in you.. in the first
place or if you are very unfortunate as in
the case of psychopathic leaning folks that
lack this emotional contagion.. who torture
small furry animals as they can feel no
warm and fuzzy love..
you may live in
hell and it is
worth noting in
caution and warning
that chronic social stress
in ways of neglect and abuse..
and chronic stress in general..
can take away the warm and fuzzies..
until one day.. when someone puts up a
furry cat photo on the Internet.. you say..
Jesus Bad Cop Christ.. why are folks
putting up so many stupid cat photos..
when they could be talking all smart and
stuff.. and why do folks continue to share
photos of their babies.. and why do they just
talk about shallow stuff like it’s interesting.. when
it is just small talk.. well.. A core issue is they may not
be feeling the social emotional contagion that normal
nurturing social animals feel.. that is so beneficial to
actual emotional and physical well being and now even
healing that the village.. in both male and female way
always felt for bonding.. until we separated in the
Terminator movie and Zombie Apocalypse
and Matrix Movie real.. and have
become more mechanical
F iN human..
once again.. as a Spreading..
First World Nature Deficit Disorder..
and this distance from Nature is why
machine humans also toss their trash out
their car window in total disregard for Nature..
and why folks on the Internet can be so cold
and lacking any reciprocal social communication
for others like thank you and you are welcome and
smiles my friend.. and so many other things that
people are actually internally motivated to say
in social emotional contagion way.. ’cause
truly when you are mentally healthy
it feels good to do this..
and some folks..
sadly many folks..
do not even feel what
it should feel like to smile
at a stranger in a mall with
the empathic social contagion..
that says safe love rules.. safe love rules..
you are human and this is what makes you
great as all other mammals who are capable
of feeling the warm and fuzzy love of connection..
the glue of life that is warm and true.. again.. safe love..
there are ways proven in empirical science to increase
the emotional empathy of warm and fuzzy human
beings and there are other ways of distance
away from social cognition in
worry in solving
from modern electronic
gadget ways of life when life
becomes a video game instead of
a touchy feely human way of life.. the
only loss is humanity.. the greaTest loss oF aLL..
it doesn’t have to be this way.. when the Love Muscle
is exercised in MovinG ConnnecTinG and CreaTinG
ways alive.. and i do mean the one between your ears
with touch and feel..
i won’t mention any names
but it said someone was noW..
yes.. the EN name test thingie..
says.. impressed by my soft lips..
Ha!.. other than that it said my cousin
WAS FOUR PERCENT HAPPIER NoW
than me.. no one
no.. no one..
hehe.. harhar.. haha.. hi..;)
Godzilla is GOD..
Well.. at least
in pArt as human
in this additional
from two years ago.. then
but tHeRe iS moRe.. yes..
the reptilian brain for survival..
of course that moves.. connects..
and creates for BaLanCinG .. to stay
alive and thrive in animal homeostasis..
AnyWay.. Godzilla gets the job done and
reminds us who is truly in control.. yes.. the
whole of Nature.. when set free more as we too..:)
Yes.. Catholic Church Memories from a year ago..
yA never know and feel who Ya miGht meet when
you enter the Banquet Doors.. a People Francis
in Cardboard way could come as
a self authenticating
Facebook Friend Michael..
provides a video of an Orangutan
nurturing several Tiger Cubs.. including
feeding them with a bottle.. and back to
an earlier feeling and thought today.. if you
cannot feel the warm and fuzzies by watching
‘this’.. and perhaps respond with the common
verbal small talk of aww.. isn’t that cute..
perhaps your oxytocin receptors
need a ‘little’ loving
tune up.. per se..
as yes.. once
again.. the heArt
is a love muscle that
can grow like mine to
10 grinch sizes of previous
cOld dead heARt.. in ways of
increasing the muscle of oxytocin
that drives emotionally mentally healthy
human beings to practice greater successful
reciprocal social communication activities in
moving.. connecting.. and creating ways..
you might even wanna dance all
naked in sand and sun
God as your sKin..
in Mother Nature way too..
hey.. if an Orangutan can feel
love tHeRe is hope for whoever
you are too.. let’s hope at least ..
as Nurture is the glue of human
family and survival when it’s working..:)
Aw.. Tuesday morning at the Pensacola
State College.. my Junior College Alumni
place.. in the gardens.. next to a scare crow
that ain’t scaring me at all.. everyday is like
the fourth of July when firework colors of
flowers are going off all around yA..
with so many
feeding off the colors
of life free in groWing..
surviving.. thriving way..
if you have any problems..
you might escape them.. long
enough for your genetic memory
to feel the appreciation.. of Nature’s
Abundance that says deep down. hey..
tHeRe iS enough to eat.. now we can relax..
and play a life of easier loving.. there were literally
years i could not go to this place in the internal
Universe of myself.. nor could i even feel the
warm and fuzzies.. petting a kitty kat then..
tHeRe is great poverty in the
world.. but the greaTest
poverty oF aLL..
the human heARt
In liFe.. aS iN all sTuFF..
living.. use or lose applies..
humans are not exempt from
this Universal Law of Nature True aka GOD2..:)
“If you understand, or if you don’t.
If you believe, or if you doubt.
There is a universal justice
and the eyes of truth are always watching.”
~~ Enigma ~~
Nature is God..
see the Law of this..
in practical ways of course..
all seeing as all that is we see..
feel.. hear.. touch.. smell taste..
and so much
how far we can
from more that we are
evolved to be.. alive.. thriving
or not.. depending on how well
we understand this God as Nature
that lives as all existence or don’t..
as within us.. inside.. outside.. above..
so below.. and all around for @lEAst now..
tHeRe is no escape
NaTuRe GoD sAme..
and like Enigma says..
matters not if one believes
or not.. there is bi escaping the
Laws oF God and Nature same
within we sAme as pARt oF wHole..
but oh.. how hard ignorant human cultures
have worked to do this.. from tearing foreskins
off babies.. to separate them from the other apes..
to becoming tools more than flesh and blood empathy
and compassion in moving.. connecting.. creating ways..
Karma is real.. it’s really simple.. obey nature or pay the consequence..
above.. so below
and all around.. and survive
and thrive for those who have not
forgotten innate.. instinct and intuition
and the genetic memory to do just that..
a fluid intelligence this is and not crystallized alone..
as human labels that reduce the size of God all that is..
is as real as large
for both the grain of sand
and an avalanche of LoVe..
not people do
these days.. lost
in a matrix of
cOld in Zombie Apocalypse of living Robotic death away from
opposed to thAT dARk.. as LIFe2..:)
“Jesus died too soon.
If he had lived to my age he would
have repudiated his doctrine.”
~~ Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche ~~
Nietzsche was missing
a very important
as well then..
IQ measures of books..
never get it
or give it.. and
end up going basically ‘humanely insane’..
the story is as old as hiStory.. and beYond..
a life in both/’tween
places.. hell.. purgatory..
and heaven.. liFe.. understand Jesus..
what Jesus.. it’s just a created then and now
real human archetype of both the dArkness and
liGht that lives as human being.. love your
enemy hate your mommy and daddy and
sisters and brothers and children if they
don’t do what you say.. same Luke 14:26..
sAMe FucKinG hUman different story.. Now..
in all sHades
of grey as anger.. fear and hate
dARk and colors hue hope and joy..
oF Love liGht.. either live liGht or die dArk..
and sadly for some..
there is no choice at all
as some are born without
ever gaining an ability to love.. aT aLL..
as far as science shows now@leASt2..:)
“The higher we soar, the smaller we
seem to those who cannot fly.”
~~ Friedrich Nietzsche ~~
in one of his
no doubt ..
“If there is a sin against life,
it consists perhaps not so much in despairing of life as
in hoping for another life and
in eluding the implacable grandeur of this life.”
~~ Albert Camus ~~
Enjoy it if you can..
Why the FucK not..
Suffer in frustration.. misery..
and ignorance.. ie.. Religion..
for those who cannot discern
the trUth and liGht housed in all
myths and metaphors of human language..:)
“Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain.
It’s not something you learn in school.
But if you haven’t learned the meaning of friendship,
you really haven’t learned anything.”
~~ Muhammad Ali ~~
Yes.. as science illustrates
nicely now.. there are two kinds
of intelligence.. Mechanical Cognition
and Social Empathic Cognition.. in general.. use
one solely and the other pipe withers away…
School.. rarely now teaches
Social Empathic Cognition..
or even work
Keep making those
good grades.. study
hard.. get rid of physical
education and no longer play
with other children.. as art of HeARt
and lengthen the school day if you
can from 8 to 5pm.. and.. raise your
kids with electronic devices.. and pay
to An iSREAL
people can/will no longer
even connect to each other
iN Real Flesh and Blood Life..
And next thing ya know and feel..
youth in Japan.. no longer interested
in the ‘Wild thing’ with each other way
past the age of puberty.. into young adult
hood.. Dogs replace children.. and Robot
dogs replace the flesh and blood warm
and fuzzies.. and sure.. love a
car and a home..
flesh and blood
and creating star dust vibrant alive..
and thriving.. in the ‘old days’ of HeARt.. as liFe..:)
“We don’t see things as they are,
we see them as we are.”
~~ Anais Nin ~~
And God lives
within.. in more
than three letter
wE can and will..
JuST F iN Do it
more than say iT..:)
“If you’re already in a hole,
there’s no use to continue digging.”
Roy W. Walters
But only if you
don’t find the
finAlly.. come aLL ouT..
or perHaps.. dig A wHolE uP..;)
“Be what you is,
’cause if you is what you ain’t,
then you ain’t what you is.”
~~ Satchel Paige ~~
iS relatively speaKinG..:)
And other than thaT..
nice to see you writing
fresh again gigoid.. but
and future too..
at lEAst foR
i live the Restricted
Version of a thirteen
year old.. me.. as FucKinG
i felt then
more of what
i don’t miss now..;)
God is alive as me..
Facebook Friend.. And Fellow Poet Blogger.. Rafiah.. says..
“I am a woman, hear me roar, I am a free child of God.”
I definitely love the feel of it. Makes me feel stronger
and braver , just as you are.
Thank you for seeing the good in me.
As the beauty lies in the eyes of the watcher,
it makes you beautiful as well. Both of us are
assistant to beautify each other.
i say back..
With soft Kitty purrs too..:)
Rafiah says.. further.. in response..
to another Blog post of hers..
after response by me..
Those are not my feet and my second toe is definitely not longer..:p
But when ever I hear from you I do feel like a leader, dynamic and resourceful.🙂
you make me more beautiful, more than anything in the world. Thank God for
the five year of sickness is no more and you got all the caressing of
the world from your Mum. She must be hAppy to nurse and comfort you,
as mothers normally feel when tending their kids. As sometimes
I feel so elated seeing my sisters happy and joyous,
and especially seeing them in so much peace
when they are asleep. I too would love to
watch Hichock’s movies with you and I’ll
cook lots of food for you. I’ll make
you fatter as well.
Inshaa Allah one day.
SMiLes my FriEnd Rafiah..
Mother’s who nurture and
people who nurture in
and haha.. i eat too much..
if you feed me more.. i’LL have
to dance double as much
sMiLes.. but would love
to see a movie of any kind with
you as you say.. Inshaa Allah.. one day
SpiRit my FriEnd..:)
Rafiah speaks on another Poem
in response to a response i made
How my wilts are predictable?..:p
and by now I have had too many plates of
garlic bread that I have become fat…:p
i say.. in response..
You come back
And say hi.. and
That is enough
i go on to say..
And if you
Of Rafiah to Love..
You’ll sTiLL have Rafiah
eYes.. heArt.. spiRit..
And soUl.. no matter
Form of beinG hUman..:)
And now in response to her current Poem..
You kNow/FeeL.. my friEnd.. Rafiah..
i have few friEnds
who truly keep
back to me
over the years of my
life.. but what i can
say for sure.. is..
i am not the
A village was alWays the
way of human life for thousands
of years more than a nomad way of life..
lots of lonely folks out there without a human touch…
What i come to
not give up
and continue to
thread a needle.. no
matter how small oF Love..
and if nothing else.. Love God
within.. and be
this gift of Life..
better shared of course.. now..
but no one can stop me from giving..
oh.. and by A way.. you are becoming
a more beautiful poetess as well.. as you evolve
SpiRit and sOUL..
need never gRow oLd..
as Ocean wHole pARt of GoD..:)
A busy day of writing.. dancing in sun and sand..
visiting the Escambia Bay.. and
Pensacola State College
in Public store
now.. back to
writing after the
Video Assistant helps
provide a slide photography
documentary of the Tuesday
full Activities.. and i must say..
with trance dance electronic music..
higher ways of body and mindful awareness
comes easy aS A BaLanCinG FoRCe noW
with healing power liGht as a FloWinG Forrest
Gump Feather in Center aisle
FReEDo in that Dance
Hall so nicely
juST a place
for me to further
my experience of
Dance and art more..
yes.. all for FReED @lEast
for me.. Bliss in the evening
of Super-Walmart Dance while
i somewhat sadly watch the robots
of the Matrix.. The Terminator.. and
Zombie Apocalypse iSREAL shuffle
by in remnant all to present worry
state of mechanical
so far away
from what human
beings are even evolved
to be for free.. for free.. naked
of cultural induced illusory fears
and simply happy for this abundant gift of LiFe..:)
A Facebook Profile photo share
of YellowBoy reaching up for
the stars of mid-day play
on one back
reaching the next
play toy just for
in play now..
for the fight
and i say..
own FucKinG liFe..
Move.. Connect.. and Create…
i for one.. wiLL
And nah.. this week noW..
is not Fredbun and Fredku
week at dVerse Monday
Haibun and Haiku original
way of doing ‘tHeRe’ thing..
that i rif my own art off of..
in individual link and themed
poetic prompt way.. it is Quadrille
instead of 44 words that i will play
as that innately.. instinctually and intuitively
in holy spirit creative deeper mind and body
BaLAnCinG soUl Voice of heARt comes free for ALL..
when i get around to it.. if i get around to it at all as streAM
flows into river and waves make Ocean Whole Poem what it is
the free martial
arts of Fred FU too..
And i understand the
theme of this week’s Quadrille
prompt is shadow.. as i shadow in
a little later.. as the shadow kNows and Feels
The En Name Test
thingie says my problem
in life is being too generous..
it says.. i sacrifice too much
to do this and i say..
There is an off
Button on line
And it IS
oF Y i..
nah.. i AM
the one who controls
the on and off buttons now..
this is no longer Government
slave mastered work.. this is for
God of Nature free that respects
my humanity in BaLAnCe as the
rest of NatUre.. too.. no
tricks when the
laws of God
within as human
Nature.. and all of
Nature.. inside.. outside..
above.. so below and all around..
all treats for those who understand
the Nature of God Nature sAMe
and that Nature gifted
to love this all that iS..
is to love GoD sAMe
and more force of energy
to Love all oTheRs sAMe too..
in BaLanCinG FoRce of Course2..:)
The F.B… EN name test therapy assistant
for the Power of Suggestion in bRinGinG
hUmanS uP through inspiration says
who i am.. as one who
around an empath
way.. adding beauty
to the world.. and bRinGinG
happiness and inspiration to others
too.. well.. here’s the thing.. i do this
unconditionally.. all oF iT.. even including
my all male new age renaissance art
in A most passionate way
allowed of course
noW in Blogger way
of restricted adult links..
it cost me almost nothing
to inspire others this way but
the joy of doing it that is no cost
aT aLL and only pleasure for me
to feel and spread by doing all of what
i do too.. not everyone will understand
what a full empath human angel archetype
entails as there is no sin in the human function
and form.. that wills no harm to others but pleasure
same.. in wild and freeing setting hUman Nature FReED..
just the fAct that i AM free enough to do it.. is highly inspiring
to some folks..
and other less
by the rules
of older Patriarchal
illusory fears and subjugating
ways of slaving and owning
other human beings.. may
sees it as foul
and that is
they know not
what they do
of a more
scared and closed
minded being of human
way.. but nah.. i AM
FREE to Love
in all the ways
it or not.. bottom
line.. God lives Free as ME..
no books.. no chains.. God FreED iN and aS mE..
and hopefully for you iF FReEDom iN open minded
and body way is what you seek.. iF noT.. yoUr
allone.. i LivE.. FReED
@Least NoW.. onE..
for mE wiTh GOD
And.. oh by A way..
tHiS iS comment
SMiLes.. mY FriEnd..
Mario.. and of course..
i don’t kNow you..
of Sand that
iS sAMe as pARt oF GoD
in other words.. friEnd iS
A grain of sand and
of course as
all that is seen..
unseen.. felt.. unfelt..
and beyond of what we
can even imagine as hUmans..
mY FriEnds.. oh.. the paradoxes
of the shadows.. the pARts
we tend to overlook
of life as we
that plays with
us as subconscious
mind rather than the one
that escapes as God.. in Mechanical
cognition of literal worry of life.. obviously..
Jesus is only human.. in original story way..
before.. Constantine and his Roman Catholic
Cohorts.. made him into myth instead of man..
even in ‘that book’.. the shadows are more
than evident as Jesus
in me you
will do more than
me as i have not done all
that can be improved as works
by human beings.. per John 12:24..
and the Golden Rule gets through in
most every testament of love your neighbor
as yourself.. and Love your enemy too.. but
then there is the Paradox Shadow of Luke
14:26 that says to follow me you must
hate your mother.. father.. brother..
sister.. and children.. and that
my friend is quite a shadow
and a paradox from
and Love your enemy..
and then there is live by the
sword and die by the sword and
i bring a sword and not peace.. and
if i am in a really bad mood.. and not feeling
very diplomatic.. i will just turn some tables over
and maybe yell some to let you know i am angry…
Human nature.. my friend.. archetypes of shadow
being that will not go away.. as long as we are human..
And even Jesus
admitted he wasn’t
perfect as far as whomever
told the story.. for the light and
shadow of he.. and the good cop..
bad cop shadow Jesus too..
but sure.. God IS A
the paradoxes of liFe…
briGhtest liGhTs now.
DaRkest ShaDows too..
thaT truly thank God the
New Testament doesn’t wash
away as sugar coated liFe that
doesn’t exist.. even in a fairy tale
like Mary Poppins that doesn’t have
to make sense until you look deeper and
the shadows come out and play my friEnd..
So.. you are going on the offense here and following
the words of the Shadow Jesus more than the Good
Cop Jesus who focuses more on the liGhts of life than
the shadows that drive us more in ways of harming other
folks when we are not strong enough to unconditionally Love..
Unconditional Love is the next step uP my friEnd.. when one truly
finAlly understands the dark in one’s foes and never gives up hope
to bRinG them liGht.. but first.. my fRiEnd.. one must understand the shadow
in tHeir self.. embrace it.. forgive it.. and grow stronger as mountain of Love..
as the Grinch kNows
come out of the
Shadow.. the heARt
that drives John 14:12 my FriEnd
is the SpiRit that comes out of the
Shadow to lift folks hiGher and
hiGher with the soUL
that kNOws and
FeeLs the shadow
and iS no longer
so afraid of
lift otHers uP
who waLk iN the
oF aLL… thaT was quite
a challenge that Jesus put forth
to come out of the shadows in that
story of he.. and do greater works oF liGht
and truLy my Friend.. it is often the Chimney
Sweeps.. the watchers from the ash who better
understand the dARk and BRinG the GreAtest LIGhts…
Question is.. are you uP to the challenge of John 14:12..
oF liGht and trUe pArt
New Testament along
with Heaven is only in this
generation now per Luke
17:21 as the Kingdom of
God within that is most often
overlooked in the Shadow of now..
thaT mY friEnd is the best Good news.. oF aLL..
wE can do more in Heaven now than ever bEfore..
but sure.. only those who believe in thE me that’s
yoU and wE wiTh hands and feat of God more than beFore..
FeeLs foR noW..:)
New King James Version (NKJV)
24 Most assuredly, I say to you,
unless a grain of wheat falls into the
ground and dies, it remains alone;
but if it dies,
it produces much grain.
PS.. thAt IS
And for those ‘other’
‘noted’ poEtry scholars..
many other so-called forms
of poEtry are all incorporated
into this one SonG without even
GiVinG iT A FucK oF thOughT as ‘step in time’..
and only those of ‘you’ not too Jealous that i now
singularly produce the longest long form poem ever
will be able to pick them out of shaDow greed..
liNe from God
Essence FucKs Rules..:)
And i AM
A Son of
Okay.. it appears
now.. i am most
it seems.. to carry on
with the Monday dVerse
Week Long prompt as Quadrille
44 worded theme on shadow tHeRe..
hmm.. should be fun as any shadow kNows and FeeLs..;)
Hmm.. 55 liNks
so far moving.. caution..
Hmm.. and the one
from Tuesday was
something or another
about objects lined up
on pages in predictable
ways.. to get all mused
about tHeRe.. ugh.. gag me
with a straight line of garden
bricks.. not my style for today
but perhaps a prison form theme for another day..
as shadows sing from essence back to.. ugh.. form..;)
goes the dArk..
Down coMes thE liGht..:)
itch of memories
long gone past..
past gone long
memories of itch
KoaN oF LiGht..
Night oF Winter’s SpRing
Summer Fly oF liGht hiGh..
i muSt saY..
i loVe A
who kNow how
to escape to
bake.. no longer
longer as first world
ways SinG dArker
as shaDow liGhts..:)
Shadow SonG oF Fall..
liGht groWs dArk..
hope for liFe..:)
A longer shadow ‘forE liGht..:)
‘tween paradox BriGht..
noW as melody of
SonG and DancE on
oF liFe no longer
“God is dead, & we killed him–but his
shadow still looms.”
Lesson of Nature
and science same…
Humans evolved to
live peacefully in groups
no more than about 150 to 200 sets
of naked eYes and hips StiLL noW wHo trUly
kNow and FeeL each oTheR from head to toe..
anything else more and less..
IS A shadow
packed as lemmings
in cities of strife and hate..
from clothes of culture worn invisible of Love..
Nah.. i for one ain’t scared
to walk city dArkest parKing
lots at night.. but not a
place for anyone
less than A
half a ton now.. heHE..
with real man fearless Love..
other than that move
to a small
meh.. now at least
it can be done somewhat
virtually and vicariously online..
from the biggest roach motels oF all
in desert lands of fear too.. my FriEnd..
of cultural clothes
continues to groW iN
dARker and liGhter ways too..
A pan aLL now
theISt oF God plUs..
He!.. Essence.. LoVe
oF liGht ShaDowS noW..
Ignorance aWay from Free aLiFe..:)
to A original
ProGram.. as pArt
EmErGinG eVeN moRe..:)
sMILes.. i see/fEeL noW..
Art.. A BriGhtest
liGht.. A Nature
gift now greAt..
oF Fearless Love
for shaDows dARk..:)
dArk consumes liGht
goeS on as
dArk consumes liFe..
so why be
as we are
all dArk and liGht..
Sacred and Holy NoW..:)
in cultural clothes..
and often no need for
all can be fulfilled
as Nature without clothes..
iN sMall enough hUman Village LiFe..:)
Love iS liGht
iS dArk As liGht
too.. as travel way
as sNowS and
refLect dArk liGht..:)
it’s not that
poEtry alWays has
to have a discrete
meaning.. it’s more
uP to LiFe liGht..:)
Shadows of my own
dArk reflected and projected
on Mother’s liGht..
mine yelLed from
dArk.. A liGht liVinG
alone and finding allone..
no matter who
to be fulfilled
by living and
A leSson oF
lives liGht as mE noW..
and my father lived then A
similar freeway2.. what went
wrong for me.. unTil
lost in A
self-fill found now..
hmm… perHaps what
iS iN order.. soMe forAging
and Hunting to find wE allone..:)
Missing in action
as empirical measures of
modern empathy goes..
the way of
and fuzzy means warm
and fuzzy with sMiLes..
no matter 43 or 44 words..
be found @44..;)
i’M not gonna lie..
i counted ALL your
words and liked
them just as
so the poet makes
a mistake in themed
way and does 43 words
instead of 44.. with
Microsoft word counting
the whole enchilada at 44..
and the administrator states..
i didn’t count your words but
you must have 44 excluding the
title.. so the poet says.. i use
Microsoft Word as i don’t have enough
fingers to count to 44..
to see the pink
elephant in the
room or not..
are not gonna be
brave enough to
say what you mean
in ways of form and
rules.. why.. F iN say
it At aLL.. oh.. the webs
we weave with less than fearless clarity
IF it was
me they would
deleted my poem..
oh.. the rules for elder
ladies change from younger
sure.. the strong
can stand to be
kicked around like A homeless dog..;)
Anyway.. as they used to say at work..
it’s good enough for government work…;)
Back to number 21 here..
A cave within..
and old.. juST
to grow young aGaiN
as heARt.. as SpiRit
as BaLanCinG miNd
and BoDy reBorn as shaDow Lives..:)
Okay it’s 12:37 pm..
9282016.. on WeDnesDay..
not even half way
off to lunch and
sand and sun dance..
TruE liGht as mE..;)
Nature aLL and
ain’t it grand for
a Serpent who
his or her..
i care not
to spend a thouSand
dollars on it.. not a dime
or even a cent
Am i surprised to fiNd
dARk and liGht in all things
liFe.. sMiles.. the Serpent kNows
and Senses more than sanitized liFe
Eat or be eaten
thaT pARt hasn’t changed..
Love.. AS A fearless gift..
that must be exercised
properly aS liGht.. less
to strike and
bite A liGht tale..
Considering the benefits
over the dArkeR negatives bEinG noW A Furry
Warm and Fuzzy hUman.. liFe is much better
than AllAgator bait..
of Star dust plus…
it’s enough.. it’s enough..
aS Heaven plus.. @least for
me now.. as i weigh the options.. mY FriEnd..
elSE but noW..;)
Back to the dVerse Quadrille
Shadow theme prompt..
at 3:33 pm..
or goes around aGain.. as
other bodies of
water that mirror i’s
of We.. seeing all into
each otHeR then
F E E Lnow
be who we
a L L on E…
can be inside..
outside.. above.. WiLL
so below.. and all aRound..:)
fAll wiTh dArk..
grey scales tone as
melody oF Fault.. ah…but
to find within A weaTheRed hUman
SpiRit.. heARt and miNd
and body BaLanCing
soUL can stop the Rain..
so below above..
and all aRound..:)
mINd and boDy
heArts and spiRits
SaMe.. DancE oF liGht
SonG oF HeaLinG noW..
LiGht hoMe sPeaks..:)
than Denim Jean..;)
Trees Forest liGht..
Limits come.. Fire a Savior
iNk Blot sAMe..
not quite awake
wash once.. wash twice
StiLL a hUman pARt..
Had A color..
s H a d e noW..
what would iT
be.. sUre IS
essence as more
SeNses aS liFe..
goeS oN.. MoVinG..
a play of who
am thaT iS real
iS alWayS noW
as wHole iN onE..:)
Flow oF NoW iN ZoNe..
aLL aS oNe nOw..:)
E MoT iONs..
S H A DoW S
onE dArk noW
TAste foR liGht
sMell For dArk..
TOuch f0r Victory..
SeeS Hears WolF liGht..:)
wHo dare to be Shadow FReED
BrinG Fields morE..:)
Shadows oF liGht
Fall… Not even
A shadow last yEar…
spoiLed FloWers color less..
iN eYes liGht..
jusT for FuN..
jUst for FUn
Tales for liGht Pan DancE..:)
in light of home
THeRe is a place
wHere colors hurt..
tHere IS A place
tHere IS A
iNvisible to colors
oF Black and White..:)
move.. move.. move
Dance liFE as Art..:)
Okay that takes me
44 at 5:33
and a Work
out and maybe more later..;)
SMiLes.. my friend..
Depression isn’t fair..
and really bad things
happen to good people..
as life doesn’t grade on a bell-curve
for being good people.. but what Life does
is reaLiTy.. my first real depression.. of course i didn’t
have a name for it then.. was in second grade when i moved
from my small school.. to a large Chaotic Catholic School.. where
Mean Nuns were the first thing i remember with rulers spanking hands
of kids.. and i went from the smartest
kid in a backwards town school…
to the one that had
at the smarter
private.. and well funded
for top notch teachers.. and by
the end of the year i caught up..
but the stress of being in such a cold
big place ended up with me being anemic
and not even able to eat at lunch for an entire year…
my mother took us there to be in the same home town
of my father.. but the stressful environment was killing both
me and my sister.. and nah.. no one then knew what the hell of
Asperger’s Syndrome.. per the Autism Spectrum was.. and
how stressful an environment
like that could be for empaths
with overloaded senses..
nah.. not the
other folks are just
mechanical aids in the environment..
the kind that feels and senses way too much..
of our modern world.. and even can hear silent
alarms in stores.. like a dog might do at higher sonic
levels.. and my tactile sensitivity is still so intense i cannot
stand to touch almost anything man-made.. anyway.. the
second era of depression came in middle school..
while almost the entire school.. then.. bullied
my looks and social eccentric behaviors..
suggesting in words to the effect
i didn’t deserve to exist..
smiled too much..
smile off my face..
as even the school pictures
eventually showed as depression
wasn’t a word in my vocabulary
at puberty age either.. so i
carried on with
a smile again.. until
losing my first love..
and a full two years of
severe to off and on depression
then.. at 19.. and from then on.. ages 22
to 45 for 23 years.. working at a Bowling
Center.. Cheers like environment until age
42.. where everyone knew my name by the
smiles of norm that was me.. all
was mostly good even
there.. in budget ways..
change came at 42.. with
three job changes in three
years.. and in December
of age 45 in ’05..
away.. and associated
auto-immune issues.. chronic
stress that i didn’t realize i had
started to take the best of me
away.. in a spiraling
idea of where
i would eventually
go in hell in ’08.. yeah..
about 7.7 years of Depression
for me then.. and i’ve spent about
about a quarter of my life in moderate
to Severe Depression.. Depression is a monster
who does not care.. a monster who is not like Santa
Claus or a Judgement from an Angry God who keeps
note of who has been naughty or nice.. it can come ’cause
we did our best.. always did our job.. or always took care of
the ones we loved without fail.. despite the challenges that came
our way.. it can even come from being too happy.. as often happens
to the Lottery Winner.. who loses sight of how fickle happiness can
be if not tendered with the dARk side of liFE too.. as humans
are evolved for intermittent rewards.. not instant gratification..
Seriously.. it shouldn’t be this hard for humans
to get in balance.. but my friEnd whether
or not we can see it or not..
we live in a truly insane
world.. and i’ve
those pARts in
detail here.. so need
to repeat that again..
truth is.. and i can say this
as an expert now as both a King
of Pain and a King of Happiness same..
in just one life of Heaven and Hell and
Purgatory that lasts for years and years too..
i cannot say.. i have met one sober person..
who is truly content in this life now..
my friEnd.. not even the
people i see on
than anyone i know
by the name of human..
my friend.. how sad is that..
beyond sad my friend.. it is an
indictment of how we all live in a
society gone insane from what it even
means to be human now.. so what i am saying
is.. don’t feel alone.. but i know you cannot help
to feel alone.. As Depression doesn’t give a FucK
how you feel.. but what i will say is.. anything is possible
in life if you never ever give up.. your life is precious.. you are
precious.. feeling and sensing life.. is the best Gift that God gives
star dust my friend.. and that is we when human.. feeling and sensing
it all.. even the grief.. even the despair.. that CAN AND WILL eventually
lead to liGht.. even if it takes a FucKinG Decade to come real..
i can’t say that any of the psychiatry professionals
did me any good.. except for the Ativan
that allowed me to sleep
with the worst pain
known to humankind
to go along with all
the emptiness i had..
but what i will say is.. the same
Psychiatrist who said i was his worst
case ever.. he in the Air Force as a Major
dealing with really bad cases of PTSD and
Combat Fatigue for the veterans of war then..
and by the time.. 7.7 years had ended our
relationship.. after he offered in ’08.. to
arrange for a vagal nerve stimulator
to be put in my chest for
me to feel something
of emotions again..
of feelings.. he left
his practice to teach movement
therapy.. as he told me i inspired
him to do that.. as he saw my
movement therapy cured
me in real time..
as it worked
same for my
Licensed Social Worker
Therapist.. who gave me what
is named as cognitive behavioral
therapy and psychotherapy.. she is
the one now who asks me for advice in how
to help her other hopeless patients.. that none
of her methods work on.. who live the dark nights
of the soul my friend.. i am not going back to hell..
as i’ve made it an Olympic sport not to go back..
in many ways of truly hoping i can help
one person.. too.. just one person..
not go to the full
been.. keep writing..
keep expressing your feelings..
it took me 33 months before i could
write the first word.. and about 33 more months
before empty shells became feelings with words
my friEnd.. life is not easy.. and even the World Health
Organization.. says that Depression is the leading cause
of Disability around the world.. and that my friend is no surprise
with the First World Problems of the heart we have today..
but this gift of feeling and sensing the World that
perhaps through the power of imagination..
and creativity.. is the potential
liGhtest and dARkest
place of all
is worth it for
one thing my friend..
and that is life.. in all the
ways it comes.. down and up..
may the up come soon again for you
my friend.. and may you find what works
for you too.. to stay in balance.. no different
than my Cat Yellow Boy does.. as all he has been
able to do.. is find the answers within with God..
The answers are within.. i could
find them no where
My Friend.. Zee..:)
Well.. it appears that Facebook is
on strike for letting me post
YouTube Videos.. perhaps
the Hall Monitor Algorithm
is ‘pissed’ ’cause i
shared that rather
racy “Let’s All Chant”
Video.. or perhaps
the Matrix all lovin’
Rave Video.. but
i had shared
a photo of some
chopped heads off from
an Isis ‘promotional video’
that would have probably stayed..
and that’s okay.. as hey.. this is not
something i am ever gonna FucKinG pay
for.. so i’ll take it as it comes.. as free extra
hard drive to back my shit up.. as ha!.. thought
i was doing potential ‘readers’ a favor by sharing
cool music videos that superSEED tons of words..
as after all i have been writing an average
of 120K words a month to back them all
up here2.. for several months now.. hehe..
and sure obviously that is too
much for a Twitter world
wrote.. in the
way we communicate today..
as i just got a like back on my
comment from my Dance Friend
Cortney.. who i rarely talk
to on Facebook..
and that is
a friend plus thing
enough for me.. hehe..
and sure.. better words as
non-verbal language has always
been 60 to 90 percent of human
communication.. in REAL FLESH
AND BLOOD WAY.. until it became
where truly THIS IS THE FUCKING
PLUGGED IN MATRIX WHERE WE
LIVE SO MUCH OF WHAT IS LEFT OF
SOCIAL LIFE NOW.. so Facebook Friend
Cortney shares a status that says in other
words of photo the reason she didn’t answer
her friend’s communication on Facebook was
’cause she was snoozing.. and hey.. rest is
paramount to having any semblance of
balance in life these days of
one of extreme stress..
so Kudos goes to
sleep no matter
what.. hehe.. unless it is
too much associated with
depression too.. so anyway..
i say in generalized response..
It’s like life..
look straight ahead
and never meet the eYes of THE stranger..;)
And yeah.. that’s kinda tongue AND cheek as
Cortney is no stranger now to the strange of me..
and sure.. i can understand why ‘strange’ folks
don’t meet eyes of the Shaded ones of the
233 LB Public Dancing Dude.. at
Public stores unless they have
a few wild and free hairs
tHeir self.. as i often
find the only
that are left in humanity
this way.. in a sea of sullen
looks about the overall existence
we have these days.. in Terminator/Avatar/
Matrix Machine cognition breed of life.. anyway..
Depression.. i FucKinG find it everywhere
i go online.. from the base.. anger at life
that is only anger truly of feeling bad
inside.. as let’s face it..
haters are full of
bad feelings inside..
otherwise they would do not
hate in harming others.. and that’s
the way black flowers and colored
flowers of life work.. when all is color
all is good.. when all is black.. black comes..
black is black.. joy is white.. and purgatory ‘tween
shades of grey.. is the biggest place of all.. of apathy
too.. as modern life sucks the colors of Free EmoTioNs..
as FeeLinGs and SeNses and SexuaLiTy too.. until
all is left is i hate you.. i hate you.. and i hate
them and even us some more as i..
Life just sucks Life just sucks..
and Yellow Boy says
you folks are full
but the thing is.. the
grey creeps slowly.. perhaps
startS in Kindergarten when you are
stuck in desks.. quiet hands please..
no fidgeting.. keep your pencils and
or keyboards as it were and is now..
close to your FucKinG Face where
information and data download is
the new of contact in hell now.. my ‘FriEnd’..
and from then… on and now on.. how low
she or he or etc.. can go in dARk.. in Fear..
in anxiety.. worry.. and constant trembling
ways or numb dark nights of soul.. is perhaps
more unlimited than ever before in hell now..
of the invisible kind.. not easily seen on
the outside.. hidden in two-D screams
of screen.. where text
even YouTube Videos
fear to tread in bushy and fun
dance videos too.. where headless
Nah.. i’m too
crafty to get upset..
but hey.. it kinda hurts
me to see friEnds hurt so much..
so far out of the reach anymore..
out of the
same dark place
i too.. used to live..
in Matrix.. Terminator
empty Avatar sAMe..:)
Hmm.. well.. unless the Hall Monitor
of the Facebook Algorithm Police
has gone all good cop and bad cop
mix.. it’s either a bug of filled up
Browser Cache.. or a bug
on Facebook’s end
as when i rebooted
i was able to share
my link to 6000 Miles
of DANCE WALKING! NOW!
two times on my Personal Facebook
Page and the link and Nice Wife Bikini photo
as more than thumb nail photo fun.. worked
half the time on my Facebook pages for Blog
and Nature photos.. respectively too.. so i rebooted
again now.. just for fun.. to start out with a clean
slate cache for more liNks to potentially come
until Thursday mechanical cognition activities
come into Holy and Sacred R and R
activities.. including celebrating
my 128th Dance night at Good
OId Seville Quarter tHeir..
with all the cool college
age folks.. with
more fun dance
photos arriving around
the end of Rave Dance at
3 am in this 707th named
Macro-Verse of what’s the
title i arrived at..
no.. not there..
must be iPhone 6s notes..
yes! tHere it is.. the one i woke
up with in half sleep before i went
the route of Mary Poppins.. for whatever
innate.. instinctual.. and intuitive creative
Holy Spirit FeelinGs and SeNses thaT led
mE tHeRe in Synchronicity tapestry
canvas brush of painT in my hand
God ways of Being two..
i mean one.. well
yes.. THERE IT IS!
helps me to be so
much “smArter” than
without it.. hehe.. lest i
forget how to remember in
flesh and blood way toos.. hmm..
and that bRings me to my next point
oF ConFidEnce as i will check and see
if one of my favorite artful expressions of
fearless comes out in Demi Lovato way as
i attempt to link that here as header with all
these words on Facebook too.. to see if the
temperament of Technology is setting itself
in trusty assistant way again.. yeah.. what about
confidence.. turn the other cheek and pacify.. i think NOT..
be calm sure.. be strong yes.. be stead fast and firm.. hell
yes.. without even a word necessary when body language
matches the word FucKinG Fearless.. yeah.. i know that’s
two words.. but ya know what i mean.. but question is..
do you feel and sense confidence.. do you reek it
from your body language like a Lion Walking
the savannah as a King of A Jungle with
no FucKinG Bruce Lee fear.. hmm..
that my friEnds takes movement
art of movement in regulation
of emotions and integration
of senses that flow through
the vagal nerve from brain
to gut.. and spread
and hormones to peptide
receptors throughout the body
noW in literAlly trillions of connections
between cells now.. no different than
neurons in your head.. and stars of skies
connecting with liGht Force God energy noW
as we or just me speaks Now.. hehe.. and that
my friends.. is where the East.. at least the older
East has a leg up on us westerners through
free flowing Kung Fu-like Martial arts.. NoW
wHeRe in my case my own style Fred FU
all intuitive.. instinctual and
innate driven by God within
of Nature wHOle me..
PHI mean 1.618
spiral flow to the Galaxies
around Black Hole Suns
as Universe and GoD
laRger wHOle.. as every
alpha cat knows and feels
and truly senses like my old 20
year old neighborhood block Leader
the ‘fixed’ and i might mention when Arthur
Brown Tabby Cat with Golden eYes was just
a kitten he had complications with getting fixed..
and had urinary issues and eventually had to
have a reconstructed cat penis.. ouch.. yes..
but he lived about 19 or so more
years.. with plastic cat
penis fully in tow..
and who kNows..
what made him so
strong that this FucKinG
come to be fearless cat never ever
got a scratch from an intruding territorial
cat.. whipped ’em.. all gone away.. and even a bag
of bones like he at 20 years old still had the
fearless body language.. that deterred
the then 15LB Yellow Boy muscle
bound Feral cat.. from
a challenge of
cat fight then..
but it’s worth noting
too that Yellow Boy spent
his feral stray Tom Cat years
in the woods when Arthur Boy was
still toting 15 LBS of muscle cat too..
no doubt when starving Yellow Boy at
his previous 7 or 8 LB prize fighter weight
crossed paths.. with the Golden eyed claws
and teeth champion.. the Noble cat Arthur
in all his years of neighborhood block
champion then.. nah.. no one has
ever inflicted body damage to
me either.. not even a scratch..
not even in the nerd days.. as
i suppose there could have
been something in my
eye that said..
is kind of a
Karmic looking eye
that in mY last Profile
Green shirted photos speaks
words of nah.. you don’t want any part
noW of the potential dARk of my Fearless
liGht my Cat friend or foe Now.. heHE..;)
“The attacker must vanquish;
the defender need only survive.”
~~ Master Po ~~
Humans can be
so territorial.. almost
like Cats when resources
are at stake.. hmm.. and we
think we are smArt.. we are juSt animals..
mate or not
to do.. now
or Fear/Hate to be with
the addition of now more
complex emotions guided
or not by words.. hmm..
silent defense in body
i find in the wild
at least.. late
at night.. when subsistence
of mates is most at stake..;)
“I’m stealing back to my same old used to be.”
~~ Arlo Guthrie ~~
Yep.. lots of folks could
use more of a
The secret of reaping the greatest fruitfulness
and the greatest enjoyment from life
is to live dangerously!”
~~ Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche ~~
Spoken like a true adrenaline
Junkie.. likely neglected or abused
when younger.. perhaps much younger..
or perhaps just born that way..
missing the softer
fill up over flowing
with moving.. connecting..
creating with each other now
in somewhat peaceful flow..
with occasional peaks
Dangerous is stupid..
Insurance companies charge for it too..;)
Risk taking can be something
entirely different.. non-dangeorus
risk taking in terms of fucking
disabling bodily injury..
like Diving into FucKinG
untested depth of waters..
shallow in terms of reaSon2..;)
And that reminds me of some
new song i heard in our
of young to ‘middle’ adults
now that says everything
that kills me makes me
feel alive.. hmm..
a sad song
of far from fully alive..
safe and loving free enough.. to be..:)
“The man who removes a mountain
begins by carrying away small stones.”
~~ Chinese proverb ~~
There are no pills or
drinks for happiness..
gRainS of sAnds carried
over deserts of life to make mountain
Love come iSReAL noW within.. inside..
outside.. above.. so below.. and all around noW..:)
“Far more crucial than what we know or do not know
is what we do not want to know.”
~~ Eric Hoffer ~~
The greatest challenge
i for one see/feel today
is not this
“These times of ours are serious and full of calamity,
but all times are essentially alike.
As soon as there is life there is danger.”
~~ Ralph Waldo Emerson ~~
It’s a dog eat whatever world..
but at the end of the day..
even the road runner
and coyote are
to R and R..:)
“Sometimes you win, sometimes
you lose, sometimes you get rained out.”
~~ Satchel Paige ~~
shit are on
the same overall teAm..:)
(:..at least for me..;)
“Truth is always exciting.
Speak it, then.
Life is boring without it.”
~~ Pearl S. Buck ~~
Yeah.. life is kinda
prickly and pearly
“All go down
~~ Baby Plucky. ~~
Life is a series
of ins and outs..
and sure.. uPs and
dOwns.. alone and allone..:)
Hmm.. i muSt say.. Play IS A way to Happiness..
and i alWays encourAge.. wiFE Katrina..
also known as the modern day version
Isis incarnate of course better
than any myth of Isis
and Osiris.. as
i was really
also known and felt as
the Wrong Planet online..
while she tried literally almost
everything to find all the pieces of
me to put me back toGeTher.. heHE..
and this is a fun photo from last year.. in
a Blog Macro-verse.. about a SuperBLOOD
Moon.. year to almost date from a year ago sure..
too that i will get to soon.. as there is a back log
of 4 Facebook Macro-Verse Provided memories
to explore.. give and share.. neXt of course as
now goeS oN until FinALly Thursday Sacred
and Holy play comes in more for me
to eXplore for FuN.. juST FucKinG
Fun in all the ways dance
comes!.. but anyway..
to be healthy in
DancE step as
poEtry oF Art liFe..
with EmoTioNs better
regulating and senses
enhanced as integrating..
more than sitting FucKinG sTiLL..
forgetting that being animal means
animate and moving more than just your
eyes and fingers.. in shoulder and arm flow
oN keyboards.. hehe of digital way if you dance
ivory and ebony iMac ones like me.. that in
this case of Keyboard is white and noW
silver,, kinda like
me too.. hehe..
at age 56 with
tan still covering
most of me too.. and
sure all of me too.. haha!..
oKay.. enough talk about play
let the play come okay.. for me2.. soon..;)
Well.. first.. ANCIENT FREDDY WORDS OF WISDOM.. one of my
first Ancient Macro-Verses from ’13.. in September
to date of then.. and what is great about
that wisdom.. particularly in
Video way is that A
chant and a Song
can be enough
to set yA self free..
so i’LL go a double
route here.. again.. and
provide the Warm.. furry.. FuZZIE version of let’s
all chant and the Indian version Dance
as SonG of that too.. for 70’s vs..
ways of doing it
as uncensored as it
can get in 70’s way too..
at lEAst for now.. on YouTube
and Facebook PG audience 13 ways..:)
Once aGain.. a give and share of Super Blood Moon of Truth and Light as i will
use all days for feast days to celebrate
this greaTest GifT of liFE.. NoW..
in GiVinG and shaRinG ways
sImply ’cause i CaN
PoWer and hiGher
Force of SmarT and Fearless
Love as Gifted by Nature AKA God
to wE who count our blesSinGs and give
and share them as such as bRiGhter liGhter ways
oF Free way
So far.. i have only encouraged
what seems like two young adult
females to dance with me at Barnes
and Nobles.. to date in three years of
doing free dance there and reading and
listening to trance enhancing music from
Alan Parsons’ too.. but sure.. good book worms can dance too!..
with sure.. a mall festival dancing bear too.. in all the ways that comes2..;)
And here.. a Macro-Verse from two years ago too.. regarding
Multi-Media Poetry and TRUEST human freedom..
it ain’t easy going against the grain
of what’s been done before.. it
can be either too little too
much and never just
‘WRite’ for the
on narrow or larger
sidewalks of sAMe.. and
that is oKay.. as history shows
when anyone deviates from the norm
as Maverick.. there will always be the
extra cautious sitters who tale the Rovers..
no.. you cannot move out of the Cave art of paint..
hehe.. i know and feel the history of this.. my kind is well documented
in wild and
be ignored by
pushing out even further
and further in different when
the sitters tale the Super Rovers
to stay still.. Quiet hands… don’t fidget..
take a FucKinG PiLL to kill yoUr eXtra Creative
miNd and Body thaT can BALANCE as Force greater
than beFore is sET free as wIld.. with harming neither
self or otHers from their freedom to sit still and even
stay all covered up from Naked God
within if that is what they
choose with relative
free will now..
it’s a big globe
and if no one likes what i
do here.. the modern Information
technology Globe is almost limitless
with oTheR places to Go.. and as i Love
to empirically measure my Art in Science
ways of ReAson too.. this day was the
biggest view day.. on jusT
yesterday as that
one blog of five i have
that are currently active
and public.. has gone over
156K views in three years..
with 2,683 views yesterday
with a peak hour of 1,136 views
too.. nah.. it’s not an average view
day.. but with close to 1.5 million total
views.. per my Kate Mia Google Art Sources
only page.. i get around.. no matter how strange i AM..
We live in a world.. where the most outliers of wE get heARd..
no stopping ‘WE’
for now FReED@ least for me..;)
Hi.. FriEnd.. Glenn..
i personAlly like Fowler’s Definition oF Faith
as changing/evolving across the lifespan.. not unlike
Stages of Development in
Maslow’s 6 level pyramid..
in hierarchy way too..
As taken directly heRE..
From Wiki as preSented here on the topic of Faith..
“James W. Fowler (1940-2015) proposes a series of stages of faith-development (or spiritual development) across the human life-span. His stages relate closely to the work of Piaget, Erikson, and Kohlberg regarding aspects of psychological development in children and adults. Fowler defines faith as an activity of trusting, committing, and relating to the world based on a set of assumptions of how one is related to others and the world.
Stages of faith
Intuitive-Projective: a stage of confusion and of high impressionability through stories and rituals. (Pre-school period)
Mythic-Literal: a stage where provided information is accepted in order to conform with social norms. (School-going period)
Synthetic-Conventional: In this stage the faith acquired is concreted in the belief system with the forgoing of personification
and replacement with authority in individuals or groups that represent one’s beliefs. (Early-late adolescence)
Individuative-Reflective: In this stage the individual critically analyzes adopted and accepted faith with existing systems of faith. Disillusion or strengthening of faith happens in this stage. Based on needs, experiences and paradoxes. (Early adulthood)
Conjunctive faith: In this stage people realize the limits of logic and, facing the paradoxes or transcendence of life, accept the “mystery of life” and often return to the sacred stories and symbols of the pre-acquired or re-adopted faith system. This stage is called negotiated settling in life. (Mid-life)
Universalizing faith: This is the “enlightenment” stage where the individual comes out of all the existing systems of faith and lives life with universal principles of compassion and love and in service to others for upliftment, without worries and doubt. (Middle – late adulthood (45-65yrs and plus)”
When i was ill and forced as a shut-in for 66 months in the
Home.. etc.. my car in.. A Walmart
Parking Lot while my wife shopped..
as i sometimes tolerated the eye
pain a few seconds in shades view
to watch folks go
doors of consumerism
21st century style..
nary a smile
on any adult’s
face under the age
of 60 or so.. i like to think..
that at least some of them got
up to Level 6 as Lord kNows many
stuck on Level three
or even no Faith at all..
Faith as trust in the existential
reaLiTy of existence.. IS A pARt of Humanity
that is sadly groWing more lost as days go by..
and a potential
as Nature within
in BaLanCinG way full
of compassion… in loving
sharing giving fearless reAlly sMaRt
way wHeRe the only tight rope and Balloons
to use are those of kNow with SensE and FeeL
mY FriENd.. noW..
otHer than that.. Now
yes.. more or less Faith
can be a waste of time
if with no substance..
oF iSREaL noW2..:)
Thanks.. mY friEnd Glenn.. Hopefully i will retain.. A similar
Creative SpiRit that you have noW.. as i continue to go A way oF
Senior.. My friEnd.. SMiLes.. inSpiRaTioN
is everywHere.. A thouSand
lifetiMes iN oNe..
And i sTiLL won’t
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