Pain is an interesting thing..
is not interesting
at all.. perhaps they
are working.. working..
just a part of a machine for
another.. day.. starving or even
starved for emotions.. moving..
connections.. and creating..
yes.. i’ve been without
all this.. except for
the food part..
as i always
to eat.. but something
to eat is rather empty
too if one cannot enjoy
the food.. i’ve been there
too.. hmm.. i took a nap
on my mother’s recliner
and what i learned
is the best
way NOT to aggravate
Arthritis in the neck
is to keep one’s head
straight ahead.. and never
ever get tense.. stay loose
so muscles do not constrict
the degenerating parts
to come greater
i am reminded
clearly of the side
of the head that feels
a little like a big toothache
on the left side of my entire
head.. as those nerves and muscles
in neck are connected all around the head
too.. anyway.. i have the will to make the pain
go away.. i would explain how i could do it.. if it
wasn’t entirely a non-verbal process of power inside..
and i can bring the pain on at will as well.. but of course
i choose the former.. and get my head straight and continue
zero tension.. fears.. anxieties of life as comfort comes and
stays again.. my friend.. The Body keeps score.. it really does..
as science shows there are receptors for happy neuro-chemicals/
hormones in peptide way in every cell from head to toe.. as vagal
nerve equivalent of Kundalini rising or falling from Brain to gut
spreads the good news positive feelings… or bad news
negative feelings.. inside.. outside.. above..
so below and all around in almost
infinite connections from
neurons to cells
as the body
positive or negative
feelings as a way
of future life.. now..
more for those who can
escape the almost unavoidable
constant sometimes fight or flight
stress that spells the insanity of modern
society.. away from moving.. connecting..
and creating.. in touchy feely human way..
Sure.. just more evidence that some
folks live in heaven.. and
hell can be very
difficult to escape..
glad your pain is subsiding
friend.. and sleep is certainly
a recovery way for that too..
and with more
the creativity chemical
but the trade off for less pain..
is fair enough.. overall.. i guess..
Emotions motivate me for creativity
from sadness to joy and more than that..
Pain forced me to write for 33 months..
can’t say most of it was creative..
but lots of facts explored
in 5 plus million
words to that
and before that
for 33 months i could
not write.. or read.. or look
at TV.. a computer screen
without intolerable pain..
and nature or even
too.. or even
yeah.. those were the
hardest months of all
in Fibromyalgia.. Severe Arthritis..
Sjogren’s Syndrome.. Dysautonomia
Coat Hanger pain.. and sure some
more odds and ends of extreme pain..
including the worse pain known to mankind
from wake to sleep.. aka Type Two Trigeminal
Neuralgia that i’ve oft talked to here too.. before
of course.. and no.. no drug of any kind.. not even
opiate associated drugs would touch that pain
AT ALL.. AND I suppose i could HAVE gotten
MAD at Nature.. but nah.. i just whined and
couldn’t cry with no tear of relief..
for two years.. until
everyone got tired
how much i needed
a gun to end it all..
and i remember how frantic
i was one morning when i couldn’t
find our Cat Arthur as he was kinda
my only nuance of any kind back to emotions
and i couldn’t help but to have the kind of human
empathy.. of just how bad my wife.. sister and
mother would feel if i ended my pain for good..
and bad the same.. Catch 22 from
hell and back
and i suppose i am
just as joyful as hell in
heaven that i can make this
FUCKING PAIN GO AWAY..
WITH WILL MY FRIEND.. AND WILL..
OF THE RELATIVE HUMAN FREE TYPE
IS THE MOST POWERFUL FUCKING MEDICINE
IN THE WORLD.. sure.. the higher power of God and
or nature in us same.. for those of we who find a
way to tap it.. make it real.. and practice
a healing way of life that has
no equal in the world
that is weaker
than the power..
the potential of human
will.. Free Will is the Will
to control how one feels and senses
in mastery and integration of that whole..
And with that.. Heaven is now.. as it ends
and begins in how we feel and sense the
world at hand now.. with no one really
who can add anything to that
for those who
master life.. my friend..
Anyway.. again.. there is
always hope even if one can
never feel that emotion when
there is WILL that NEVER EVER GIVES UP..
AND TO END HERE.. my great aunt Jettie
at 94.. as crooked and crippled as any
old person one might see..
with arthritis from
head to toe..
could make her
pain go away at 94 without
any drugs either.. she gave me
a hope of that potential umbrella
of life to me then.. and now it’s
open wide my friend
as Joy Lives with
Human Relative Free WiLL..:)
Well.. my friend after reading
the entire blog post beyond
what was on your Facebook page..
i can certainly see your truth here of
how hard it can be to connect to other human
beings in this brave new world we live in..
but nah.. i think you are far from
alone.. alone.. in this problem
of not having any intimate
friends in flesh and
blood life who
with and be all of who
you are without personal
judgements against you once you
be you.. and after working eventually
25 years at the same place.. generally
speaking with the same folks.. generally
speaking.. with the last year and a half spent
in a leave status.. as i rarely ever did a sick
day.. and barely used my vacation days..
as workaholics real is what i was then..
working almost every Holiday for years..
all my friends i ever had were at
work.. working at a Cheers
like Military Bowling Center
for almost two decades
was a delight for
real.. as a person
on the Autism Spectrum
who wanted to connect oh so
bad.. but as soon as what ran
like a freight train out of my mouth
in flights of thoughts from A to Z..
that was that.. and sure
it was hard to find
but at work i could
smile with my contact
lens eyes and
teeth.. and that
was enough for folks
to smile back at me and that
was enough even if we never did
anything outside of work together..
sure.. my wife.. alWays my saving grace
from being oh so.. all alone too.. at home
my friend.. And when i left work.. sure.. i was
the commodity that lots of folks looked to.. to
help get the job done.. but close to zero contact
to the rest of humanity was what i had then for
66 months to come.. and i was too ill to really
connect to anyone anyway.. even if
they took the first step my
way.. my friend..
Anyway.. this ain’t
gonna help your flesh
and blood loneliness at
home.. and you don’t really
know me in flesh.. but it is fair enough
to say you touched my heart with
this story.. and i cared enough to
leave you this long note..
and sure.. i’m even
named a legend
by the general
in public now after
5555 miles of doing
that in the growing on
34 months now at the
end of this month since
i got well.. and my 101th
month celebration now since
i died as life.. but i still miss the eye to
eye connection that i no longer have with
shades my friend.. of Bowling Life then..
so i made up for it with words and
steps the best i can.. best wishes
to you.. just know that i can
relate and care about
Dance Shirt for the 115th
week of Dancing at Old
Seville Quarter fUn
on Thursday night
is ‘LOL NOW
out Loud and Crying..
both.. are beneficial to
the hUman condiTioN..:)
i guess i should
use a selfie flash..
as all that’s left in ‘this’
photo of me and A dancing
friend is the Cheshire Cat Smile..
and Jesus F. iN Christ.. the place
was almost crowded enough.. not
to be able to dance.. but i did.. of course..;)
And i suppose one might ask.. where Does
the Cheshire Cat get a smile that never leaves..
even after he or she dies.. if he or she cares enough
to leave a record of Love that can be freely shared for
perhaps a thousand or more years to come in server
way.. well for one thing.. to do it for free these
days with no expectation of materialistic
reward.. including followers.. likes and
shares in mega epic way..
one must have
and be the
liGht of Fearless Altruistic
Red Hot Unconditional Love
NEVER EVER JUST LUKE WARM..
O R C O L D AS COLD CAN BE…
and yes.. overall with a few written
exceptions in the New Testament per
swords for peace and even thinking
lusty thoughts is a sin.. the Jesus
is a very good role model for most folks
to walk in his shoes.. So when i say Jesus F. In Christ
or FucKinGod.. per me in Christ as F for Fred..
or sure Fred yoU seeK iN GoD.. yes that
is the eXtra cool word play of
turning old lemons that should
be sacred and holy anyway in terms
of lust and love.. to yes.. Sacred and Holy
words of i.. as i make it all holy and sacred
in liGht and dArk.. wHere no human is excluded
gentile.. Jew.. Mexican or Muslim.. male/servants/
female no more excluded all are FReED toGeTheR OnE..
yes Fred is Freed too.. in case ya ain’t got the nows
or propensity to wanna or will and can figure out
my Word Play that is eXxXtreme at nows..
so sure.. i’LL title this next Macro
Verse of the Longest Long Form
Poem eva of personal SonG
oF mY soUL.. aka mY
personal bible that is
4 times as long at least
than the entire old and new
testament bible and 40 times longer
than the Kuran.. ‘Jesus F iN Christ2 noW2’
as yes.. when i was a young man.. FeeLinG
outcast from society and down in the dumps and
afraid of stuff too.. including being oh.. oh.. so lonely
without Friends.. i could always find that friend in Jesus..
who was reported as an outcast too.. as sure there are lots
of outcast priests in the Catholic Church who did overall hone
in and scribe and sure in someways create the role model Jesus..
and they still do.. as every Sunday the Gospel that i have been
sharing here regularly for months now and will continue to
do.. they pick out the best parts of the bible.. old and
new.. and leave the violence.. raping.. and killing
little children of other tribes out.. and sure it’s
the same way the nice Muslims do too..
they pick and choose the good parts
and ignore the bad parts of killing..
raping.. and such as that of the
opposing non-believer tribes
they war against out in day to day
smiles of what one of my best online
Friends.. Muslim from Pakistan Rafiah
says as i WiLL quote here from Facebook
now with my response.. as Rafiah says
23 feels like 364675576… unsure emoticon..
yes in reference to her birthday on September
23.. where she will be 23 born in ’93.. then..
And i say..
It gets better..
And she says..
And i say..
And we continue to live
happily ever after.. as i go to
Catholic Church every Sunday and
she now celebrates Ramazan as a Muslim
for 30 days or so from June to July of 2016..
our common bond is Love and Rafiah is one
of the best examples of someone one could
say walks in the shoes of Jesus that i have ever
ever come across in my life.. including Himali
who was raised with Jainism.. and that
is why we are three best friends
as in practice we really
walk in the
Jesus.. except me
as older fearless man
who has already faced death..
i am the one out of the group
who expresses much dissent over
what i believe is harming folks all over
the world.. and in my eYeS noW the sword
of Jesus is powerful authoritative learnED
words and the not the metal of steel that folks
live and die by now.. as is clearly the case still
all around the world in continuing wars that are
unjustified and terrorist attacks Jihad style in
response as protecting territory for
subsistence and common
cultural ways of
bonding as is what
humans do of course
as pARt of tHeir God
Given Nature as WeLL..
i seek in God to understand
WHY FOLKS DO THE THINGS
THEY DO.. SO I CAN BETTER
TOLERATE AND ACCEPT THEM
NO MATTER WHAT THEIR DIFFERENCES
MAY BE FROM MINE.. AND TO UNDERSTAND
AS WHAT I ALWAYS SAY IS THE ANSWER TO
THE WORLDS PROBLEMS IN MOVING.. CONNECTING..
AND CREATING WAYS.. particularly touchy.. feely..
warm creative parental and child play like
the child who is carried to the breast
in carrier as the indigenous
peoples did/do when they
do/did gather the berries
of the wild.. science
proves this out too..
in the following linked study
as shared by Facebook Friend
Suzanne.. as linked here again..
with the most important paragraphs
highlighted here.. in quoted way.. now..:)
The title says new study indicates extravagant affection in infancy leads to healthier
happier.. more relational moral adults.. and sure i’m thinking no shit Sherlock
ya had to have a study to kNow this.. what the FucK… aren’t
humans.. human anymore.. and here are
the most important
Parents should hold, touch and rock their babies and children and be responsive to their needs.
“What parents do in those early months and years are really affecting the way the brain is going to grow the rest of their lives,” explains Narvaez, “so lots of holding, touching and rocking. that is what babies expect. They grow better that way. And keep them calm, because all sorts of systems are establishing the way they are going to work. If you let them cry a lot, those systems are going to be easily triggered into stress. We can see that in adult hood — that people that are not cared for well, tend to be more stress reactive and they have a hard time self calming.”
Narvaez say free play inside and outside is important.
It is also important that children have a positive,
warm environment inside the home.
“That they feel like they belong — they are part of the family unit or the neighborhood community and part of that is to have a lot of activities that you do together,” says Narvaez, who recommends going to the park or playing a game rather than spending time on a smartphone or in front of a TV.
And for those parents that need a break, Narvaez says a community of caregivers is important. That means grandparents, aunts and uncles and friends should play an active role.
“We need to, as a community support families so they can give children what they need,” says Narvaez, “we really didn’t evolve to parent alone. Our history is to have a community of caregivers to help — the village, so that when mom or dad needs a break, there is someone there who is ready to step in.”
“The research also showed that when children weren’t given things like affection, free play and a warm home environment, they turned into adults with decreased social and moral capacities.”
So sure the start of real Good Cop Jesus
walking in the shoes of altruism
starts with touchy feely Loving
parents.. who make life one
of moving.. connecting
creating warm and
and when my Grandmother
on the paternal side told my mother
in the nursery that my Grandmother.. ugh..
actually ran as her money making business..
Helen.. you cannot pick up that crying child and
hold him.. if you expect that child not to grow
to be a spoiled brat.. as sure the estrogen
dripped off my mother’s fair and
lovely face.. where she was
could feel no more love
than that for a crying child
in warm and holding touchy
feely loving ways.. and sure
the vicious cycle obviously goes
on.. as while my father was dam
sure fearless enough with a mom
raising him like her.. sure this one of the
reasons he told my mother she would have
to get a job to make some big bucks if he was gonna
stay.. as money was more FucKinG important than
raising a child at home.. and okay.. this is where
Muslim/Indian cultures are still better in some
ways than American cultures
as they do promote the
at ages 0 to 3..
and hopefully they are
treated with Love in their
marriage so they will be able
to do the same for their child
as Rafiah says Inshaa Allah
that means God Willing..
as God Willing does
mean God Willing
as Nature evolves
as God in us
just an external
else not directly connected
to us.. so yeah.. while terrorist
activities in Jihad way are a dirty
dark part of their culture no less
than unjustified wars from the
US side that kills over 100K
innocent Muslim folks..
and there are
lots of other
issues.. it is a big
plus that social roles
are as they are too now
in gender way.. where usually
the mother gets to raise the child
with touchy feely ways of being..
in play as well.. with less technology
than we have today.. and sure that is
changing.. it does explain why Rafiah..
and yes Himali.. and sure as for decades
folks referred to me.. at work and such
with the general church public saying..
Fred.. you are the best example
of a Christian i have ever seen…
weLL.. the truth is.. my mother when
she raised me was then the best example
of the good cop Jesus who ever walked
the earth too.. with a tear in my eye now..
nah.. it is not the bully boys in church and
mosques that make the difference or the husbands
who beat their wives here or over there.. it is as
alWays the Mother mostly and the way the culture
raises the child as a village that says whether
or not another Good Cop altruistic Jesus
will come again into the world..
so in Catholic Church
when i see the remaining
M O T H E R’s L O V E..
glowing estrogen fair/dark sKin
more giving Loving hugs to five..
six children more.. who are stay
at home mom’s i always kNew this
to be true that this was/is the best way
to create a new Jesus now.. and since the
60’s and the pill.. no matter how hard a pill
of Nature it is to swallow now.. our culture is at
least as FucKeD uP as Muslim cultures and in some ways
more.. in producing adults who don’t give a FucK about
other adults.. and with the exception of the ignorance about
why people are different.. including homosexuals in Muslim
cultures.. and all the discrimination.. and killing in suicide
bombings and such as that.. there are those
Rafiah Jesus’ that still do walk the
earth over there too.. and
the HImali’s of India..
where gender roles
allow more women to stay
at home with children.. but sure
that is changing too.. the best thing
my mother did for me.. like it or not..
is stay home with me from ages 0 to 3..
as that my friends.. is why you and yours
may see a smile from me online as Cheshire
does in dark of death.. when altruism comes alive
in Jesus online
F. iN Christ2 NoW..:)
But yes.. as alWays there
IS A dArk and liGht side.. sHades
of grey.. and hues of colors in all
philosophy and science too.. if
all human cultures continued
to BE able to reproduce like
this.. we would destroy
the earth species.. as
we simply consume
as it may seem
all the suffering and
misery we see around the
world in ways of cold hearted
selfish people are leading to fewer
human beings overall.. where science
even shows that in a few decades the
earth’s population will peak out..
and perhaps fewer species
will continue to go
extinct as the
footprint of human
in numbers at least
stabilized on the earth..
when one looks at the biggest
picture of earth coming back from
space it is clear as Mother Nature God Pie
that human cultures as whole are cancer
upon the Earth as living God whole
here.. and you know what..
my life would surely
be more warm
in an extended
village raising a family
as i am a very nurturing person
like my mother too.. as learnEd
man from birth too.. but nah.. God
has other plans for me.. as humans
have a responsibility to God oF aLL
in altruistic way of not just ensuring our
comfortable survival but the comfortable survival
in empathy of all of God’s evolving continuing creation
now.. jUsT now.. and that is the complicated pArts
of Pie iN GOD existence.. orchestrating the
entire symphony oF
whole God Play to
work in as GOD
Verses of Help
to God’s WHOLE PLAY..
SO I WORK.. I CONTINUE
TO WORK FOR GOD WHOLE..
as just another Jesus F. iN Christ2 noW..
“He who possesses art and science has religion;
he who does not possess them, needs religion.”
~~ Johann Wolfgang von Goethe ~~
“Nature is not cruel, it is, pitilessly, indifferent.
This is one of the hardest lessons for humans to learn.
We cannot admit that things might be neither good nor evil, neither
cruel nor kind, but simply callous
— indifferent to all suffering,
lacking all purpose.”
~~ Richard Dawkins ~~
for humans who
are fully human
and not missing
half of the Altruistic
pie of Unconditional
Love that make humans
the most successful primate
of reproducing a primate species..
as science shows now.. as WeLL..
Supporting evidence that
Richard Dawkins has no
real soul as Nature
Love as science also
shows now.. fails when
the scientist is born with two
high powered working parents
with not much time for touchy feely
warm Love play.. and the little lover
becomes a little professor.. instead.. too..
Yes.. science has finally provided evidence
that the Refrigerator parent theory is real
and ever present.. also truly associated
with the rise of so many people
who fail in full flesh
in Loving.. Caring.. ways
of the altruistic human at its
best iN totally caring ways of
Nature best as manifest
a village raising
that child from birth..
And here’s Richard’s other
famous Twitter Quote
And i quote..
@RichardDawkins @AidanMcCourt.. I honestly
don’t know what I would do if I were pregnant with
a kid with Down Syndrome. Real ethical dilemma.”
Richard says in Twitter response..
“Abort it and try again.
It would be immoral to bring it into
the world if you have the choice.”
Richard.. truly one of many
with less than
half a soul
to suggest that
a smile on a Down’s
Syndrome Child is
not as FucKinG
rid of religions
that do support
the golden rule
of Love.. there’s a lot
of dirty water in religions..
some that kill.. some that
discriminate.. some that
torture.. and many
but the problem
there is the same as
always.. a select few who
were not provided touchy feely
Love from birth as the village at
best raises a child.. and that still is
reflected everywhere.. in big black
books and scientists who fall far
short from having
soul that is real
as a Mother’s hug
for a child who is not her own
but is all’s own.. as altruistic Love does..
when watered as Garden from Birth..:)
Every day of my mother’s Life
of Caring Love makes Richard
a FucKinG ignorant Liar as Nature
is only as cold and indifferent like
Richard in Humans now STiLL
or Rich in Love.. Truth iN LiGht
in human beings.. as not watering
a Garden of Love.. will make.. vs..
human relative free will of GroWinG
that Love so tall.. that not even Nature..
God or whatever one may
call that Force.. at its
that child give up..
And that my friend
is real magic.. Human Natural Love GroWN..
that is never ever indifferent NoW@allREALitY..:)
Humans are part of
Nature.. some of them
care with meaning
it is not
illusion or a God delusion..
it is real.. so noW in common
logical terms with common
sense too.. Richard
IS A FucKinG idiot..
but we will let him
live.. as we
ignorance of what Love
can be when nourished from Birth..
on the continuing Unconditional
Love OF A Smile of a Down’s
adult who pays
it forward noW
THAT smile that
grows to potentially
as butterfly affect of
real effect saves the FucKinG
human species whole WITH LOVE.. iN pARt…
as grains of sand.. all oF it counts
to hold uP a potential
i can feel this
sTiLL around the World..
and that my friend is why
i have hope.. ’cause Love
is real.. and never ever
AS HUMANS CAN
AND WILL DO BEST..
IF THAT GARDEN IS
AND THEN ON..
in smiles of a Down’s
child too.. my FriEnD..
IN my mind Richard is not
much different than Adolph Hitler..
he just doesn’t have any political pull…
to enforce his Eugenics Rule.. except
for those who he can convince that are
FucKinG noT human enough to figure it out on tHeir own..:)
I have a cousin who was destined to have a healthy child
but her God fearing parents forced her into a heavy
handed decision to abort the child.. truly
sad as my cousin wanted the baby..
but mom and dad had
the TRUMP card then..
as it didn’t fit the
overall family plan..
Then my cousin had a child
who was profoundly disabled.. not
much different than a Down’s child
and my cousin Loved that child just
as much as my mother loved me from birth
as well.. and that child is a young woman now
who is a happy blessing to all who she meets
in the world now.. helping her father in his
business the best she can too..
BOTTOM LINE MY FRIEND..
FEARLESS AND UNCONDITIONAL..
NEVER INDIFFERENT IN THE HUMAN
BEING WHO IS NATURALLY GROWN THIS WAY..
Some people suck but sure there
is usually a reason
in the garden
of Love that
with love sAMe..:)
Ah.. the rises and pitfalls of being
a social animal with an opposable
prehensile thumb capable of writing
a written language.. thereby.. recording collective
intelligence.. and creating culture in all its heterogenous
and homogenous ways of sames and differences noW
in one melting pot of what is.. hmm.. well.. science
shows that some folks are more liberal and not
afraid of change.. the nomads as it were and
is still for some.. and there are others who
are more closed minded and tend
to love more the
in Ted talk YouTube
way by Jonathan Haidt:
‘The moral roots of liberals
and conservatives’ that provides
evidence that these differences among
humans are innate and Universal
across species.. and this of
course means there
are some very
and Center of Saudia
Arabia.. where these innate
differences do not match
the culture at hand
that is… hmm..
nice to have a choice
to move at least.. and sometimes
much easier said than done.. even
in the Paradise wHere i live
way.. my friend..
anyWay.. it’s kinda predictable
that ‘this vote’ was almost split down
the middle.. and while i generally understand
that it is somewhat of a conservative vs liberal
issue.. it gets complicated like it does in the U.S.
as of course there are concrete reasons why
some people are more afraid of others
than others are..
i am not afraid
of the weathered black
man who walks the parking
lot of bars.. as i too.. walk like
the weathered Tiger who has
fought tooth and nail to live..
there is a non-spoken respect
in male way of that that some folks
have no idea exists if they haven’t been
on both sides of the coin.. my friend..
it’s called privilege.. both innate now
and earned.. in yes.. nature.. nurture
including challenge too.. and sure.. the outcast
understands better once he or her is secure in his
fate.. the other outcasts who are lost and alone where
her or he were before.. the fact is as evolution shows.. generally..
primates like humans who are social live best in generally
speaking homogenous groups where most everyone
looks and behaves the same.. and that can
range from a Bonobo free for all love in..
to a covered mosque from head
to toe.. but yes.. it is part
of the social animal
rules as generally
speaking too.. in all the history
of humankind now too.. to be outcast
historically meant to frigging literally starve to
death.. be beaten.. tortured and killed and that
remains the solid truth still in some countries now..
i stand on the side of freedom wherever she blows..
however.. i live in a nice homogenous neighborhood
where generally speaking everyone fears hell.. has guns..
and generally speaking will not kill their neighbor over fear
of both God and State.. and then there are others who kill
for God over both fear of God and state as same.. a
strange brew we humans are when we
live in big countries and
are no longer
truth is.. deep
down we never were..
some of us must conform
and now.. some of us no longer
have to.. and we go it alone with
strong dissent as the same infrastructure
of society that causes wars.. is the same
infrastructure of society that allows freedom..
as always a mix of dArk and liGht but sure if
God came to Earth he or her would have to
be a Devil’s advocate for all ’causes as to be
the advocate of humankind whole is never to be the same..
in either what the other considers as daRk and ligHt.. i have
full freedoms in life.. there is nothing that i desire that i do not
have.. and for the rest there really is no choice but live and let
live or die as is.. but sure.. i dissent as any Epic Devil’s Advocate
as these days
we can get away
with it and even smile..
on and on and on..with
the fAct NoW thAT
we can is worth a smile
in my way.. my friend.. to
smile for standing tall for
who and what you are and
to be able to fully express that
IS A rather new and exciting way
of Being human different.. wHeRe this
human experiment goes next.. will never
for that reason
and that reason allone..
D I S S E N T is POSSIBLE..
wHere all humans revel free..
long live the dissenters on both
sides as they be who
same as different…
Living on the ‘Wrong Planet’
online where there were very
few dogs and most all cats
who thought and felt
different.. WAS the
to be a
my friEnd.. oh the
dissent.. oh the beauty
of dissent.. and mostly
moreover all the change
that comes WITH DISSENT.. MY FRIEND..
ON BOTH SIDES NOW OF INNATE HUMAN NATURE/NUTURE..
and YES2..The full spectrum of ‘tween beyond Rainbow sHades too..:)
i just came
here to say
hi.. i Love
i can.. and i
want to.. SMiLes..:)
AS i continue to write this
680th Macro Verse of the
Longest Long Form noW
poem ‘eva.. approaching
4 million words totaL Now..
as SonG oF mY soUl that
iS also my own personal bible..
as i kinda know what the other
one says by heArt and have heard
it God.. so many times beFore but true
the esoteric hidden teachings of the New
Testament in conjunction with hidden Gnostic
found Gospel Text.. like the Gospel of Thomas
in ’59.. makes a story that makes much more hidden
occult and esoteric sense.. with mystery revealed on how
to attain heaven now.. not just the fAct that it is possible to
attain now but like a camel going through A eye of needle tHeRe
is work to do to get there.. but as is the case in cultures of old to
go this way of the different instead of same.. means deep metaphor
with hidden meanings that the literal minds that do not interpret right
hemisphere brain ways of being.. will not get too offended about iT and
FucKinG literally kill you for doing something new and so exciting in
finding and practicing heaven now.. for example.. in studying the
thousands of years hidden
text of Gospel of
Thomas it is plain
to see that sacred marriage
is the combining of the above so
below in duality of opposites.. including
the divine feminine and masculine marriage within
each human being.. nah.. Jesus wasn’t even about
some paper of marriage.. he was about becoming
balanced as human being.. in all aspects
of Yin and Yang existence as the
Easterners further than the
middle east in South
Desi way did
in Asia fuller
ways of being then…
yes.. it does look like overall..
Jesus was more of a humble esoteric
occult teaching Yogi.. of the mysteries
of human existence in balance one..
with Nature whole.. however.. of
course he did not write a God
dam thing in his life.. so
after 40 years
of oral tradition
whether we have any
words of the myth and
legend of what Constantine
and the Catholic Cohorts and
Roman Empire whole to expand
with Mithra Sun god religion as Soldier
Sun God of Universe whole.. so Constantine
could erect a Sun-God-like monolithic statue
himself and be worshipped in megalomaniac way
then.. as folks like TRUMP DO LOVE TO DO FOR
THOSE WHO SWALLOW THE SAME HOOK..
LINE AND SINKER OF SNAKE
DONT’ CHANGE THAT
MUCH BUT THEY STILL
DO.. WHO WHO WHO..
YES.. everyone too…
nah.. if THAT JESUS CAME
TODAY.. NO ONE IN SO-CALLED
NEW CHRISTIAN CHURCHES WOULD
GIVE HIM MUCH RESPECT.. AND NOT REALLY
LIKELY EVEN A SECOND LOOK BUT DISGUST OF
WELL.. YOUR ARE HERE.. BUT WE ARE NOT
GOING TO HOLD YOUR WEIRD
LIKE that so Jesus
would have to shake that
sand off his bare feet/sandals
or ignore tHeir outcasting looks..
and other ways of non-verbal language
from head to toe.. of dissent for change still..
as same as way way back then.. per the
Legend of what could potentially be
as myth as well as the original
or whatever who
supported the same
Golden Rule as Buddha
unknown apparently to him..
or perhaps that is the way it
eventually got in the big black
book somehow.. still attributed
to a man named Jesus now whoever
he fully was then.. anyway.. bottom line
is back in those days you didn’t dissent
from the norm without actually SUFFERING
SERIOUS CONSEQUENCES UP TO TORTURING
DEATH.. and that is the reason Christianity continued
to grow as whole.. as it was enforced by consequence
where it stayed and grew.. no different than still the
Muslim way that on the one hand says there is no
compulsion for religion but on the other hand
will cut off your hands and more
if you dissent in some cases
and go another
way.. of simple
human God given
inherent rights of
Freedom.. for Independence
day now.. and not two thousand
years later on a Theater screen
still.. where so many
for who and what
they reAlly could be
in much fuller human potential
if set free from the chains of same
of Centuries old still… ugh. God dam..
i’M glad i AM an American.. as i can
be free and just do it in SUPER EPIC
WAY.. WITH THE SUPPORT OF GOOGLE
TOOLS like Blogger Blogs and
youTube Free.. Search
Engines that help
peruse the real
bible of human eYes and
eaRs.. FeelinGs.. Senses..
aLL eTc.. all around we now
forevermorenow.. oh.. so cool..
OUTSTANDING NOW TO LIVE
REAL IN THIS LITTLE SLIVER
OF HEAVEN IN FULL DARK AND
LIGHT UNIVERSE AND BEYOND NOW
JUST NOW.. yes.. free iN TrUth and liGht..
and sure if we have altruistic love REAL AS
OUR HEART.. OUR SPIRIT EXPRESSING
HEART REAL AS MIND AND BODY SOUL
IN BALANCE WE WILL DO WHATEVER WE
CAN TO HELP ALL OTHER HUMANS REACH
THEIR GOD GIVEN HUMAN FREE POTENTIALS
ALL IN GLOBAL
EYES AS WE AND
THE REST OF NATURE TOO..:)
Oh art.. from the beGiNinG.. so LonG…
of hUman noW.. you SinG so sweet Now
thE dreAMs of God within.. ah.. SonG..
DancE.. and poeTry of HeARt sAMe
iN Words oF spiRit eXpreSsinG
iNner EmoTions Free.. seNses
aLL otHeR FeeLinGs oF BeinG
uNleashed and reLeased NoW
gAMes too.. as somE
of wE aRe arT FeeLeRs
more than system thinKers..
as science scribes observable
realiTy in systemizing way.. but Art
SinGs.. aLL art froM MusicK to SonG
to literature to theater and yes MTV2…
A SonG.. A DancE.. iN PoeTry oF MorE..:)
Anyway.. born as a Hyperlexic late
speaker precious reading child
interpreting all symbols
of the Environment
in input morEover
out put way for
too.. IT’S NICE
TO GET IT ALL OUT..
as behind these eYes
a UniVersE oF a Life Experience
of input potential and realized possibilities
from birth to now.. iN total synergistic
human individual affect and effect
IS A Brand New experiment
iN those of us just old
it aLL as givers
WiLL do like no other
Aeon of Humankind to
date.. as the input.. simply
was NOT AVAILABLE back
then.. and there are ways to
SUPER GET IT OUT.. TOOLS
OF THE MODERN AGE OF
wHere the machines
are no longer
slaves in a singularity
of giving sharing way..
also kNown and feLt
wHole as online GroWinG
more as unaBridGinG hUmAN
Bible as seconds synergistically
become forevernow.. iN server way..
THerE is noThing to be afraid of Free..
iN.. uNless one enJoys a priSonPlaneT
of Ignorance in fear of dArk and cynicism
of new ways of HUman Freedom’s LiGht
And TrUth oNly dreAmed oF beFore iN Chains..:)
Yeah.. after experiencing 9 on the list
and 10 more.. some that are so rare
spell checker cannot spell.. i can relate..
And sure i’ll copy and paste this from
Friend Glenn’s page even though
he was not the originator of
and the such are among
the hardest challenges of life
to deal with as the empathy of
others is often invisible as well..
for those who do not live in invisible HELL…
“Coming from personal experience. To those who don’t
know the whole story. Until you have walked in our shoes
and have felt the pain we feel, keep your cruel comments
and opinions to yourself. Ignorant people can be so cruel!!
I’m posting to stop people from mocking and laughing at people
for things beyond their control… Not one of my Facebook friends
will copy and paste (but I am counting on a true family
member or friend to do it). If you would be there
for me no matter what then copy
and paste this. I’m doing this
to prove a friend wrong that
someone is always listening. I care.
Hard to explain to someone who has no clue.
It’s a daily struggle being in pain or feeling sick
on the inside while you look fine on the outside.
Please put this as your status for at least 1 hour if
you or someone you know has an invisible illness
(IBS, Crohn’s, PTSD, Addiction, Alzheimer, Anxiety,
Arthritis, Cancer, Heart Disease, Bipolar, Depression,
Diabetes, Lupus, Fibromyalgia, MS, AS, ME, , Epilepsy,
hereditary angioedema , Migraines, Hashimotos, AUTISM,
Borderline personality disorder, M.D., D.D.D., CFS, Histiocytosis,
O.D.D, A.D.H.D, RSD, RA (rheumatoid arthritis ) PBC, RLS ,COPD,
MCAS, EDS etc.)
For those who don’t know
how to copy and paste on FB…
hold your finger on this post until
you see copy, hit copy then go to status,
hit status a new page comes up, hit into
the white part and paste will show up and you’re done.”
And per last note/Facebook status thingie..
The photo collage below that wife Katrina made
me for Father’s day.. included a couple of blog posts ago..
without specific mention made per the photo.. is from the
Fall of 2009.. where my Uncle took me to see
my Father and his twin brother.. as there
was no way in hell i could drive to
Tallahassee.. so we had a quick
lunch.. and nah.. no real
indication i have 19 invisible
disorders in this photo.. including
the experience of the worst pain known
to humankind.. with a grin pasted on..
baring my teeth.. without shades..
tolerating light long enough to
look like a ‘normal’ person
without shades in
a family photo..
that yes.. i’m using here
as case study evidence for
what was said in the previous
Facebook status.. and this was actually
technically a few months after i officially
retired disabled from Government Federal
Service with 25 years of actual paid active
service.. of which the last year and a half..
was in a paid sick leave and annual
leave status.. as i rarely ever took
a sick day in the 23 years before
i got sick.. or even visited a
Doctor once.. as i was the
epitome of health before
never ending chronic
two years then of
flight or fight work
my life totally away
and made 66 months of
Living invisible hell as real
as hell can get.. even technically
one can say on the scale of pain
worse than what can be burning fire..
Anyway.. i Loved to work.. and used to
have dreams that i could do any kind of
work as for the first 33 months.. i could not
use my eyes and ears effectively for anything
without intolerable pain.. and finally tolerating
extreme pain looking at a computer screen with
light turned all the way down in brightness
and contrast.. a few inches from the
screen as prescription lens focus
only intensified the pain..
to intolerable levels..
so yeah.. i did that
in writing millions of
words for pain escape..
yes.. for 33 more months
then in a total of 66 months
before the God of Nature took
all the pain away at the end of
July 2013.. on or about the 22nd
of that month as is still complete
in written blog record of course
too.. everything in remission
for Doctor’s purposes except
for the Autism in Asperger’s
way and Bi-Polar Disorder
that went undiagnosed most
of my life that i have dealt
with mostly in extreme
lows and a few periods
of uncomfortable highs
after long periods of flight
or fight stress in school and
work.. i work like an Olympic
Athlete to stay balanced.. and can
do it as long as i am the one in control
of my life.. and not many folks can understand
this challenge unless you have walked in shoes
as incredible as mine.. in both liGht and DArk of LiFe..
Seriously.. not likely that many folks have survived
the invisible hell.. i for one did for 66 months..
as i could not find even one person online
who even had experienced type two
Trigeminal Neuralgia from
wake to sleep at
you are the
only one who
can relate to your
own living hell as death as life..
But i never gave up.. AND I’M HERE..
iN SUPER EPIC FucKinG Style.. for
the REAsON OF REAL HELL AND HEAVENow..:)
first of all.. like to say
i received both of your emails..
a day late from Germany.. but never
the less received them.. this time on the
first try.. with sMiLes.. and ah.. you’ve brought
to my attention several of my special interests..
the weather and how that affects happiness
and overall distress… as well as work
and politics which of course are
all interconnected in ways..
as where the weather is
mild and comfortable
in general of course people
are happier with less distress..
more likely to socially cooperate..
and if they are so-called ‘savage
enough’.. they will even dance naked
freely around a comfortable fire and
sea breeze at night.. ah the potential
bliss of the human condition.. all
covered up in some places too..
But the human condition as
nicely illustrated in a Ted
talk by Jonathan Haidt
on YouTube that i will
share with you again..
if i haven’t already shared
it before.. says it all in terms
of human internal conservative
and liberal weather in nature way..
of open vs closed minded thinking
and doing life in exploring the liberal new
or staying the same conservative way of life..
And then add in the difficulty that modern global economics
continues to bring of Machine and Information Technology
doing what humans used to do as comfy life-long social
roles in jobs that are now done by the machines that
replace human ways of body and mind by
Information technology where humans no
longer need apply as nicely addressed
in this video that i may have shared
with you before.. too.. at least
if you saw it on
Anyway.. these dreams and fears
some folks have of a New World global
order.. are not a part of human nature
at core.. and the UK exit from the
European Union phenomenon
mostly as polls show still
over fears of migration
of African American
and now Syrian
same as the
fears of conservative
leaning folks here in the
U.S. about Mexicans and
Muslims in a change that is
too much for them to handle
in ways of fears that their social
roles and freedoms of same may now
have to change.. change.. change.. oh
lots of change.. so hard on conservative
leaning ways of nature and nurture of
human beings.. and that increases with
age.. but not necessarily as the mind and
body that continues to adapt to challenge now
and change in the environment over a lifetime
doesn’t stagnate as much into a closed minded
and body way of being.. Einstein.. a great organic
specimen.. as well as study of his organic brain
after death showed no visible signs of so-called
aging.. and of course the physical effects of
exercising an entire life accommodating
much challenge like swimming across
a bay towing 60 boats behind a
person in age decade of the
60’s is well documented
in case studies like
Jack LaLanne.. the
father of the gym
rat age in the United States..
an incredible individual for case
study.. who died at age 96 from
basically refusing to go to the doctor
early enough with pneumonia.. sure
a life of feeling bullet proof as the regular
pasty middle-aged football watching mall
sitting pot-bellied 50 year-old can be ran
around circles by a 70 year old man who
keeps the wild side up to speed as nature
will have with all wild things.. who must
work to eat in sTiLL.. both mind and body
balance way.. across the life span..
and yeah.. in my personal
experience.. a lead life
guard i managed
with my belly
leaning more and
more over my belt then..
as Athletic Director in
Federal service way
at the Navy Station..
much more than now me
at close to 30 Lbs heavier
than then.. as Ape vs..
yes.. MORE Now..
anyWay.. this lead life
guard at 65 years of age..
did ballet and construction
work.. a Vietnam Vet.. and
retired Parole Officer after
30 years at that and no.. not
a body builder dude.. but he could
dam sure out swim and outrun every
dam college sitting student life guard
out of the late teens to early twenties
group.. and this guy was the most balanced
and smiley happy guy i had ever seen for a 65 year
old dude.. and it reminds me of his fellow 65 year old
maintenance worker who was a retired master chief
in the Navy.. who used to say he needs to act
like a 65 year old man.. he acts like he’s
still a God Dam teen.. but the fact
was he had more energy than
a ‘normal’ teen today..
and a secret i was
yet to earn..
in doing the
same without lessons
in ballet and martial arts
like dance.. where Gravity is
now my best friend.. and i Fucking
float on land like a bird out of a cage..
and i have the advantage.. as i ain’t doing
this for a competition like the lead life guard
did in theatrical position of ballet.. just for fun..
just for Jonathan Seagull joy to see just how much
higher i can fly than the now before.. as everyday i
innately.. instinctually.. and intuitively.. earn and learn
a new move.. i never FELT BEFORE.. and that is key..
FelT.. AS FEELINGS THAT ARE ALWAYS SENSORY IN
NATURE AS WE FEEL THE SENSE OF IT.. ARE
EMOTIONS SAME.. WHERE MOST FOLKS
THINK EMOTIONS ARE IN THE
HEAD AND NOT FROM
HEAD TO TOE..
and the truth and
light is Emotions and
Senses swim from head to toe..
and can be like the water and
the air.. of bird and fish in human
same.. AND YES.. this is where only
poetry can describe the bliss i feel.. my
friend Leah.. out of a cage and aquarium
into air and water same.. so yes.. in just 34
months of doing this.. i have attained a state
of happiness.. that only Yogi’s and such as that
have worked for in instruction way and lessons
all their life.. my advantage is leaving all mechanical
cognition away.. and getting in touch with the source..
the force.. that is all God inside.. outside.. above.. so
below and all around.. AND NOW after chilling in a
100 degree day.. back in ’07 with Dysautonomia..
which is the ‘anti-christ’ way of being
of a modern Yogi today.. as my
central nervous system
was shot.. and
could no longer
even flow the
blood around my
body in heart rate..
and blood pressure balanCinG SteAM
so oh my God.. i hated all weather then
’cause i could not integrate any senses
or regulate emotions or even experience
hardly any emotions at all.. MORE THAN
JUST A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN.. A HUMANITY
BREAKDOWN ONE AND SAME AS A DIRECT RESULT
OF A FUCKING SOCIETY AND JOB GONE INSANE WHERE
i was slave to both the mechanical cognition of computers
and the social requirements to supervise anywhere from
30 to 130 employees.. depending on if i was filling in for
the Department head too.. or helping him do the
fine details of his job too.. the same administrative
office.. use to have 40 or so employees down
to 4 or 5.. and the big square brain
with screen of extension of me
sitting on my desk 24 inches
from my eyes.. 8 hours a
day.. of sitting
was no Fucking
escape from all the
stresses coming from
all directions everyday..
anyway.. i wasn’t cut out for
that and i really don’t think most
any human iS in terms of social and
mechanical cognition multi-tasking
every work day all day long.. so yes..
as you relate about a book talking
to happiness being a vocation..
Happiness is my way of life
now.. and i find it in
way i like
to do it.. no more
and no less than the sweet
spot of now.. and you know there
are two extremes of human personalities
the schizoid type that one could see in that
guy ‘Fnord’ on the Wrong Planet that expressed
little to no human emotion or magical thinking
on the Wrong Planet.. and that Woman
‘Cockney Rebel’ who literally/figuratively
imagined that she
Rebel.. but she
could express emotions
and emotionally connect to
people where that was totAlly
out of Fnord’s Ball park of human
being.. AND OF COURSE HE BELITTLED
anyone with imaginary beliefs.. but the
difference and bottom line is.. they were..
happy in their life.. MUCH MUCH MUCH
MORE THAN HE WAS BOTTOM LINE..
for people who scoff at human
creativity.. they must have
never experienced the
joy that human
bring in moving..
connecting and overall
creative ways of being human..
i remember still clearly when i lost
all my emotions but fear and constant
adrenaline response to stresses of life
that eventually made life one big
stress of death as life..
after close to
40 days with
no sleep on suicide
watch.. so Fucking exhausted
and dead inside beyond what i could
ever humanly imagine was possible..
and watching the schizophrenics in there
with their imaginary lives and grins
from ear to ear.. and being
so fucking jealous
that i wasn’t
like that too..
and so fucking logical
in fucking hell then that
i had to find someway to kill
myself to escape all the pain..
Well.. with great effort i’ve earned
my way to crazy with exquisite logical
control.. and i’ll never go back to sane
as long as i am the one in mastery of
regulations of my emotions and integration
of my senses.. as i always feel like i’m on top
of the world.. never wear anything but shorts
in 18 degree weather and can stand any
temperature extreme where some folks
say Florida is one of the hottest
uncomfortable feeling places
of all in combination
and heat together
around 100 degrees
mostly in Summer heat
index too.. BOTTOM LINE MY
FRIEND IS HUMAN POTENTIAL
IS CRAZY GOOD FOR THOSE BRAVE
ENOUGH TO PURSUE IT AND BECOME
SUPERMEN AND WOMEN TOO.. no different
than Jack LaLanne.. or the lead life guard where
i worked.. Too Fucking amazing for other folks to
see genius from head to toe.. and that’s the
thing.. almost everyone on the Wrong
Planet thought they were so fucking
smart.. ’cause they had one
type of IQ overall that was
verbal.. with no idea that
Standard IQ is mostly a cultural
invention over the last century or so..
and before that life was fucking magicK
from head to toe.. in a dreamtime of real
among our smart head to toe ancestors..
per the American Indians.. and
still the folks in South
who are named
as the Invisible People
as they and Nature sAMe
as God ARE ONE ARE ONE
and SO ALIVE.. AND FREE..
NEO IS REAL.. WHEN HE OR SHE
EARNS HIS WAY FREE FROM A PLACE
WHERE HUMANS NO LONGER NEED APPLY
WHERE THE LEFT AND RIGHT FIGHT FOR WHAT’S
LEFT OF SOCIAL roles today.. two-spirit Sacred
Clown/Warrior/Shaman IS Always open to apply
but one must earn/APPLY tHeir individual
way in a vision quest
head to toe
in this social
role of the ages
of the sages.. in human
archetype as real as ever now
when come to magic fruition
in a kind of intelligence that
defies all stand IQ..
averages that sadly
apply to the human
condition across the lifespan
now.. wHere Heaven and Neo
are as real as FucKinG Jesus2..
or she never
had to leave..
as Heaven and Hell
and oh God never
here are different
OF THE HUMAN
CONDITION STILL NOW..
anyway.. very inspiring Email
from you today.. Leah.. in almost
everyway.. and seriously my friend..
every God Dam thing.. from bLackest
dArk to BrighTest liGht inspires the
of me sTill
Day iS every FucKinG Day
inside.. outside.. above.. so
below and ALL AROUND NOW..
Haha.. i could name all of this the
modern online ‘Jesus
might take me
serious and shoot
me with an assault rifle
so i think i’ll stay all comfy..
KATiE MiA FredericK!iI..
as the Jesus meme carries
too much fear and hate still..
sAdly enough.. no way FucKinG
real Jesus could make a long life
identifying himself as the real
YOGI-LIKE dude he was then..
And FucKinG survive with
all the imbalance
ever with the
aid of killing tools now..
Only the clever fox or
thief in the night
yeah.. ya have
to wonder WHAT
WOULD THE FOX SAY..
wINks.. or the
with the nuts
all the predators with clever ease..
calling A pursuing cat on
a cell phone.. saying
i got all the
N U T S now..
see ya later.. Princess
Leah baby.. in online style..
And i must remember that your
vocation is editor.. ha.. imagine
the headache i could give
an editor.. with
my style of
if it was
to be presented
for print of
hehe.. ain’t.. online fine..:)
as yes the
of Zombie Apocalypse
is real and groWinG iN
colder human emotional
ways of empathy of heARt..
SpiRit FeeLinG and
heArt and the
as the real Terminator
age of hUmans becoming
more like machines and less
human in ways of mechanical
cognition over social empathic
cognition is a science proven
phenomenon now.. where
BRains are no longer
heArts.. and liFe
is more a less
shoot ’em uP
Video gAMe as
where the shooter is
unwitting subject and
scientist one in a brave
new experiment that can
be as cold as ice
Humanity that once
made the human race
the greaTest race on earth
in ways of Love in social cooperation..
Independence day comes with love and
never shoot ’em ups alone.. Society is
sick as a self-fulfilling experiment that
has never been done before…
a common bond of
Love over alien
i think there
IS A movie associated
with that coming soon
to a theater near a
me.. with WiNks
and grins of human FReED..:)
And as the title
does suggest a year
ago memory of one of
the most emotional
“He who controls others may be powerful,
but he who has mastered
himself is mightier still.”
Ah.. to avoid anger.. fear.. and hate..
oh.. the one who is all powerful with
FEARLESS KIND HOPEFUL LOVE..
And this reminds me of Deeprak Chopra..
and how Richard Hawkins couldn’t make
him Angry but Trump was the card
who made him lose his
cool.. recently i hear..
But what do i say when
i see Trump.. i see a spoiled
brat who was bullied who became
a bully.. he makes me giggle sad as i
know his weakness is
a heart that will
never feel or
long ago that
never came back
or even stArted BeFore..
my Friend.. anyway.. much
Wisdom delivered today.. as a
Novel just waiting behind every
aphorism of true my friend but
back to this one in liGht.. another
memory of Captain Dick..
i kid you not that
was his name..
Dick.. me a run of
the mill.. civil servant
serving up shoes at a Bowling
Alley paid by Uncle Sam.. and
a rather short red faced man comes
in with his kids.. looks around and sees
all the lanes are filled and says.. i need
a lane now.. don’t you know who i am..
i AM THE FUCKING CAPTAIN HERE.. NOW..
and i say well yes my friend.. you
are Captain Dick and my
name is Fred.. let’s
see what i can
do.. to get
you.. your lane
‘Caesar’.. and no
i didn’t say Caesar.. i just
looked at him like any humble
servant was/is that saw him as the
same kind of little scared boy that
someone made fun of long long ago..
perhaps because his name was Dick..
who kNows.. anyway.. i went down
to some cool teenage easy
going dudes.. explained
the asshole situation
and they said sure
Fred we will
his family the
lanes.. man you.. kNow
i have about a thouSand Bowling
Alley… two decades.. Cheers like
stories i could share.. ranging from
Bowling Leagues watching pornos then
on all those electronic Bowling Screens
after operating hours.. to me and the
waves and such as that but anyway
back to this story.. behind almost
every bully is another story
of where they were
bullied and turn
to a liFe of Vengeance
of anger and hate..
with fear.. instead
of kind and hope
with Love.. the
true master iN Victory regulates
emotions.. integrates senses.. NoW
and Loves with Kind and Fearless my friend..
total tolerance and acceptance in understanding
why some folks live in purgatory.. hell.. or heaven..
but surely the answer comes in WHO HURT YOU..
WHO HURT YOU.. WHO HURT YOU.. AH.. FORGIVENESS
AND FEARLESS KIND HOPEFuLL LOVE IS
THE ANSWER iN Victory THAT ALwaYS
END FOR THOSE
WHO NEVER EVER
GIVE IT UP AS REAL LIFE
JOB MIGHT INTIMATE NOW..
or who kNows Now perHapS noW
More dARk inspiration here from
an Internet Illuminati Conspiracy
ways of course.. sadly enough..
Dude.. you kNow.. there is an old testament
that supports rape and killing children
of opposing tribes.. including hate
over homosexuals and
there IS A
YOU KNOW THAT JESUS
STUFF that says gentile or Jew..
servant or free.. woman or man
no more.. hmm.. i suppose you
ain’t got the new message yet
huh.. cAlled the New Testament
that reduces 613 old Torah
to 1 that says
as you and
do to him or
her or whatever..
no harm that you
would bring for yourself
Loving all of God’s Creation
same as you as child of God..
let’s just say i have the authority
to paraphrase.. while you are attempting..
in this sAd anti-christ full of hate and fear
video to bully this young man who is
clearing defending gentile.. jew..
servant or free.. woman or
man no more.. this means
‘queer’ too baby including
you as you dam sure
ain’t fooling me
and sure.. Jesus
was ‘sweet’ too..
at least the way
the homosexual priests
and artists portray him as
a female with a beard as approved
in artistic way.. if you don’t support
any human being YOU FAIL.. NOW..
i HAVE RIGHT A
TO DISSENT.. YOU
CAN DO A LITTLE RESEARCH
ON WHO i REALLY AM TO
have a nice day
with your thousand
or so views.. Love wins
with 225K views or whatever
the other dude is receiving.. so have
a nice day with all your Google pennies
for fear and hate.. without hope of kind..
iN fearless Love.. God sent me a raven that
never needs to buy food or drink.. so.. i my friend
have been able to write a PERSONAL NEW AGE BIBLE
that is already coming AGAIN OVER
4 times the size of the
whole Bible.. 40
times the size
of the Kuran..
no Google pennies
to ever survive for perhaps
a thousand years or more..
this is my only invitation..
for you to join
me over tHeRe
or you can
stay here in purgatory
ranging to hell in fear..
and hate.. or antichrist
now.. or do the Christ
thing that is all Hope and Love as KiND..
Have a great day my friend.. but
it’s pretty obvious you live in hate
and fear for Google pennies and
that truly IS A sad way of Life.. IMHO
and nah.. a thief in the night wouldn’t
be nearly famous enough online
to garner a hate video like this
from some little scared boy
who was verbally abused and
named whatever in school..
Thus who protests the
most and all.. you
and time again….
AND YEAH before you
start suggesting i am strange
(note: to readers of comments
as the dude with the video
ain’t ever now gonna be
able to match wits with me..
trust me.. whole FucKinG
public Interent audiences
with 140 to 160 assessed
IQ’s could not do it.. as i AM
bullet proof in so many ways..
like T I T A N I U M NOW REAL..
out of parenthetical statement
now and back to what i said)..
AND all for writing like this be
forewarned.. that i too am Bi-Polar..
AND diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome..
and have already been to medically
assessed hell with a pain that
lasted 66 months named
type two Trigeminal
than the pain
like you who cannot
respect the so-called Sacrifice
that Jesus made in a three hour
or so stint like this.. who forgave
and humbled himself among thieves
on other crosses.. saying they know not
what they do.. i understand you know not
what you do too.. and i am not here to send
you to hell although i will judge you with
common sense/Love and logic.. i am only
here to invite you to heaven.. but
tHeRe baby.. IS A place
and fearless love
reigns.. and from what
i’ve seen of the other dude HIGHER…
you are attempting to bring down
with your one or so K views that
might make it to 30 if you can
attract enough haters over
here now in continuing
fearful and actually
ways in comparison
to the Unconditional
Love of the Jesus with
remember.. gentile or jew..
servant or free… woman or
man.. no more.. this is just a wake
up call for you.. if you have eyes and
ears to see.. as seriously.. if you actually
know what you are doing.. the Jesus ain’t
gonna be very happy with you after all is said
and done.. always now my friend.. always now..
Heaven.. Hell.. or Purgatory.. your choice alWays
noW iN Anger.. Hate.. and Fear or the other
place of Hope.. Love and ALWAYS KIND..
A NICE NOW..
WITH BIGGEST WinKs
And SMiLes aS WeLL..
And oh by the way.. considering
you are gonna be way to worn out
by the end of this to research who i am..
i’m just a New Age FreeST Verse poet as such
who IS A.. aLWays looking for A dArk to liGht prompt
to add to the literAlly assessed actual longest Long
Form Poem ever.. now approaching 4 million words
titled ‘KATiE MiA FredericK!iI’.. yeah.. i believe in Loving
until they hate
me.. funny how
it seems to alWays
turn out that way..
JuSt liFe iN
A Play of GoD
mY FRiEnD aS wHole
of DArk and liGht and tween
sHades of color and hues
bLack that sAdly..
i as humble servant
of God see here sTiLL..
with a real tEar in thE Bare oF God..
Ha!.. WE SHALL OVERCOMB..
AND SpEAkinG of thaT BeYond
Independence Day.. Resurgence..
and more on that later.. of course..;)
And thaT iS wife Katrina’s
WTF iS he F iN Going to
L O O K..
as yA miGht
iMaGine.. i AM
alWays fuLL of the
surprise that comes
Oh.. so much
wRiTinG and Store
DanCinG.. the Bed
IS A SinGinG to
me to come
So after watching Independence Day..
you may not kNow the Resurgence
but i saw it yesterday.. and what
about Beyond Independence Day..
you know that day that the
right to life and liberty
and the pursuit of
Happiness was secured
for us.. of course unless you
were woman and black and
homosexual and in many cases
suffering from an illness or enduring
some other kind of human disorder or
even just different genetic way of being
that set you a little too far from the perceived
norm of the vanilla flavor of the day.. well the truth
is even the potential for Independence day was so
far in terms of close to two centuries away even a
potential.. depending on which weaker or perceived
norm of human reality one is born into then.. ah…
and finally after a common goal of good was
sorta won in World War II.. other than
the slaughter of over 90K
folks on an
no choice but
to die by the hand
of US and newer technology
then that in final assurance of
mutual destruction among the big
powers of killing machines left a lull
of peace overall long enough with some
serious skirmishes of course.. for the
‘smaller’ folks to rise up and
make their desire for
equal rights under
the law made
and it worked
for many.. and finally
as we are moving past
an African American President
we are now coming into a female
President.. unless the devil has his
overcombing due.. which ain’t likely as
even George Will is leaving that
amazingly ignorant crew now..
and of course that generally
speaking is all about the
hate of the different
like banning all guns..
it’s just a fact and an ongoing
fact.. that we have the land of the
brave and the free.. and still the land
of the extra cautious to down wrong paranoid
among us who deep down are just plain scared
but anyway.. as evidence provides for earlier
in this 680th macro verse about a Jesus2..
it’s pARt of human nature and human
nature is part of Nature that is
God one and same..
so who ya gonna
call.. nah… Ghost
Busters ain’t gonna
change human nature..
nature.. and or God by
words of criticism or even
magic incantations.. anyway the
good news is the African American
Dude and all his friends in low and high
have paved the way now for some expanded
health care albeit sure the prices continue
to rise.. even for me.. with all my Gravy
Train Government benefits as well..
coming from the Golden
Handcuffs of Government
employment and near
of my relatives have
been able to get married
now.. even in the overall hate
state of Governor Rick Scott..
who still denies folks who make
under 11K any health benefits
at all.. of course along with
all of his dark dark anti-christ
nature fear and hate friends..
some of whom have the audacity
of fear to call themselves fundamentalist
Christians.. which is sadly also part of human
nature.. nature and God of nature too sAMe.. so who
ya gonna cry too.. ya just gotta keep trying as that
is what nature does best.. never ever give up per say
of reptilian brain of survival sTiLL now.. ah the common
enemies/enemy of life..and or the coming love/lovers of
life.. two paths to go.. wHere the open minded liberal
Good Cop Jesus mind and body soul will go the way
of Love your enemy.. turn the other cheek when at
all possible.. gentile.. jew.. servant or free.. woman
or man no more.. all with equal opportunities for
life.. liberty.. and the pursuit of happiness.. yes..
Good Cop Jesus is like A founding father of the
best of what the United States
has to offer as greatest Good
liGht cop Jesus..
there is the
dArk Bad cop
Jesus who still reigns
as the daRk one of us vs them
and them ain’t gonna have any of
our seed or grain.. as WE WANT IT
ALL AND NANANA WE AINT’ GONNA
GIVE AND SHARE AND DAM SURE
AIN’T GONNA BE FORCED INTO IT
BY A GOOD COP JESUS GOVERNMENT
EITHER.. yeah that is sad for sure in my
eYes of Good Cop Jesus but let’s face it as
the polls do still show for folks who undeterred
still support the anti-christ fear and hate ideology
of Mr. Trump Trump Trump Grinch as such sTiLL..
yes now.. the dArk and liGht of humanity is sTiLL
the same.. i mean Jesus F. in Christ2.. if the actual
devil with a comb over ran for president it would
still be split close to down the middle for the
Good Cop Jesus and the Bad Cop Jesus
like it always is as metaphor of course..
and again.. Hillary ain’t perfect…
she has kinda fucked up
a lot it seems.. by not
to the details
of red tape..
that part of Government
can kinda suck for the big picture
folks who break the rules to get the
job done.. or just aren’t paying attention
to all the all the rules at hand that sure are
necessary too.. to make it all work.. anyway..
the bottom line is.. with the passage of gay
marriage in the U.S.. we have finally almost
arrived at Independence day for most of the
population but the fact that in Anti-Christ
Red states per Bad cop Jesus.. folks who make under
11K still can’t get affordable health insurance means the
anti-Christ rule still tries to gain a foothold in FreeR.. U.S. of A
now.. but the best thing about the Devil per anti-christ policies
of fear and hate running for PREZ.. is folks like George Will who
are tough all natural God gifted conservatives.. have enough integrity
and responsibility to say no to folks who are getting where they are..
simply by playing to the card of audiences who thrive over a common
social bond of fear and hate and anger of course too… Hope.. Love
and Kind is better in my way of seeing life.. but i am one of those
Good Cop Jesus folks as that is just the way the God of Nature
made me from birth.. with mother making me that way too..
moreover in nurture way too.. So as Robin Williams
says the powerful play goes on.. the liberal humans
vs the conservatives humans of Yin and Yang
swings back and forth somewhere in
a mix of dARk and LiGht.. but bottom
line is at least the most folks ever
have a legal right to actually
do the right to life.. liberty
and pursuit of happiness
than ever before in the
U.S. and that IS A good reaSon/FeeLinG
more than ever to celebrate Independence
day in the REAL SPIRIT OF OUR FOUNDING
SO-CALLED FATHERS WHO WANTED TO ESCAPE
A MONARCHY AND MAKE A REPUBLIC WHERE EVEN
GOD COULD BE FREE IN US TO BE WHAT WE ARE ALL
NATURALLY AT CORE AND BY NURTURE AS WELL AS
WELL CAN BE.. YEAH.. THAT’S GOOD NEWS.. FROM
THE ORIGINAL GOOD COP.. JESUS TOO.. TO FREE
THE SLAVES FOR A THOUSAND YEARS TO COME..
AND EVEN BETTER IS tHeRe is still room for improvement
and as always the nomad.. the open mind and body in balance
the liberal way of liberty will lead the way for that as history shows..
and the conservative way for caution that is necessary for all our nicely
paved sidewalks and roads too.. will have its say as well to keep balance
of right to life.. liberty.. and the pursuit of happiness secure and free too..
i ain’t scared.. ’cause i’ve seen the liGht and dARk.. up close in heARt..
SpiRit and SoUL.. and taken great effort to analyze the whole
situation with reaSoNinG miNd too.. but i exclude
no other.. and that is what makes
me neither afraid of the
dARk or Cynical
of the liGht with
hope.. faith and belief
in the power of humankind
toGeTheR.. so i DancE and i SinG
on in MoVinG ConnEcTinG Creating poEtry
ways.. and when i’m out in the wild i open
my arms and shine a light of God behind my
shades for anyone who is receptive to that liGht
and needs some help.. i’M just one tiny gRain of
sand and small wave.. but i’ve gotta match and
a FLAME THAT REFUSES TO BE PUT OUT..
NEVER EVER GIVE UP.. NEVER EVER GIVE UP..
HOPE.. LOVE AND FEARLESS KiNd always wins
noW a TaLL
War even if some
small skirmishes and
battles are lost along
the way.. All Apes.. no matter
the differences.. STRONG TOGETHER
AS THE APE CAESAR with FUR OVER
BOMBS IN WARM AND FUZZIES WILL
SAY AND STAY..
for many years to
come.. perHaps a
thouSand and more
iN A city with no sun
and moon IS A web foR Now..
So anyway.. with all that
said and SunG.. noW is the
now for me to get ready
for Catholic Church
and celebrate the
Good cop Jesus
that is mostly
and that Good cop Jesus
as me2.. trust me2 you wouldn’t
wanna reAlly see/FeeL the REAL BAD
COP JESUS2 ANGRY2.. AS METAPHOR2
and trust me2
it’s safe to say2
so far.. no one2
it stays that way2..;)
Somewhat short excerpt of the
very abstract… and yes strange
mystical post.. ‘SEEin elEVeN’..
about a month here in
journey away from
recovery of the
worst pain known
to humankind at
the end of June 2013.. here..:)
Katie Mia talking to Aghogday:
Remember Five Years when you were
so scared, and you wanted to do anything
to escape the fear.
You did it…
nothing scares you
What you wanted to achieve was feeling love again
without facing your fears.
You thought you could build
a ‘special place’
where others could join you and escape
the Big F.
Remember those passages from the ‘Ghost in the Machine’
and ‘Synchronicity’, from those Albums ‘I’
planted in your mind 30+ years ago that
have followed you in your life.
The first two have been
You ‘felt’ like you got be the “King
for five years..
you take a journey
to find answers to ‘key’ questions
you have been asking all your life…
The last one was a little, tricky…
“Mephistopheles is not your name
I know what you’re up to just the same
I will listen hard to your tuition, You will see it come to its fruition.
I’ll be wrapped around your finger.
I’ll be wrapped around your finger
Devil and the deep blue sea behind me, Vanish in the air you’ll never find me.
I will turn your face to alabaster, When you’ll find your servant is your master.
You’ll be wrapped around my finger”
When you finished copying and pasting “A Thousand
Years”, and “Silent Lucidity” back to Autism and the Nautilus
they touched a place in your ‘soul’ that you were looking for…
‘I’ provided a little ‘treat’…
When you reviewed the posts, you found
a different song in the place of “A Thousand Years”
in the “My Mind does not Belong to Me”…
“Thank you, for being a friend”.
It scared the scientist in you.
‘Blogger Software Bugs’ happen
this went past the expected ‘Algorithm’ of your mind…
You came here to find hope…
I brought you here to show
you fear, so you could…
tell your wife you love her
it this time,
from your heart…
not just your mind…
You haven’t paid much attention to ‘pop’ culture
in the last five years…
You went on a little ‘Google Journey’,
to find out about all ‘those’…
‘I’ provided a hint,
when you found your
naming his baby
along with all the other C and K
you find on this journey…
Remember that song “Frozen in Ice”,
by Madonna, that you listening to over and over
when you first lost your emotions…
you never saw the video before…
You saw her making the symbols of the six
with her hands and you started getting
scared again about your birthday
like you did when you
saw that ‘Omen’
“No way; it couldn’t be you,
you are just too nice…”
Don’t worry, that ‘Devil’ Guy
is here for a reason…
You don’t get to be him/her,
can’t escape her either…
Fear is here for a reason…
it is here to
The people who try to escape it
are making a deal with the ‘Devil’…
It is the way nature works…
have any control over that,
You know your wife…
who is scared all the time
‘loves’ so deeply,
and has no problems
She has a gift that she does not easily
Fear and Love…
You weren’t that ‘lucky’,
You found a way to escape it..
You see, when those folks in ‘Hollywood’
are making those signs, mocking ‘fear’
at the Camera, laughing in the
background, because they
know the masses feed
off that type of
They really are making a deal
with the ‘devil’…
“Only, if they knew it”…
The video didn’t scare you enough
in the place of ‘a thousand years’…
You found a way to interpret
it as a gift instead of…
a ‘waKe uP” call…
‘I’ did not give up
on you yet…
‘I’ provided another
That song by ‘Perri’
that you rationalized
as something good
not to be afraid
Remember when you got to the
end of the video, and you kept
hearing ‘break neck’, and seeing
the little smirk on the face at the end…
You couldn’t look away could you…
You had to keep playing it over and over
again, to hear a positive message
to escape any chance of fear.
You woke up this morning
and asked your wife
what time it was.
She said “One”.
That is when you faced your
You started thinking, maybe the
sign was something was going to
happen to your wife…
She was going off with a friend
in a car…
maybe the message was
to warn her,
not to go…
You used to worry about that all the time…
When you escaped fear, and made that deal,
you stopped worrying about ‘IT’…
Remember when you told your
wife you loved her
when she left
You felt ‘IT’…
Enjoy your gift…
of Fear, Love,
Life is fleeting…
That apple with
the bite out of it
that you hooked
up to this
Was a warning…
You just couldn’t
There is nothing in life
that is random…
‘Perri’ is right about that…
The tattoo is not
The name ‘Jobs’
The answers are
there for anyone
“Only if they
You have ‘the gift’ now…
It is not one easily shared…
And the liGht of poEtry
gRows more.. a year
later.. in thiS noW
‘SonG oF mY SoUL’..:)
Yes.. a ‘Symphony
Tough Love ‘
And finAlly heRe..
thE full liNked
oF sEEin elEVen..
iN mY original bLog
way of KATiE MiA/
Aghogday stYle.. iN
yeS aGain.. A strange and
somewhat mystical way.. 2013..
on the road bacK to hUmaNitY2..:)
As i say again
to Friend Rafiah
on her blog..
i just came
here to say
hi.. i Love
i can.. and i
want to.. SMiLes..:)
Yes you can, and I know you do.
And it’s a greatest blessing of Allah Almighty
that one is capable of loving. I think that’s the essence of life.
Life lived in loving is life worth living. You do that. You
should be grateful to God that He gave you
this gift abundantly.:) heart emoticon
always keep loving.
And i say in addition..
SMiLes my friend.. i am currently
writing a blog post almost entirely on
the subject of what Islam names
as ISA.. aka Jesus over here
in the Catholic West..
and the best thing
i like about the
Jesus is he reduced
all the complexity of
Laws of God into one
rule of Loving God the
same as we as our neighbors
all of Nature one as God’s Creation
Unconditionally without consuming
others with harm.. and the greaTeSt thing
about this reported measure of Jesus is that
even science now shows that this is the all
natural gift given to human by God when
there IS A practice of touchY FeeLY
hELd to breast of motHeR
and extended village
as metaphor too..
to raise the child
than the Garden
with Corner Stone of
Love and ISA/Jesus
same aS oNE.. and i story recently
this subject shortly with one of these
Christians who believes in hate and fear
over Love and Hope.. in BrinGinG down the
rest of God’s Creation and remind him how
Jesus reduces 613 commandments of Torah
down to only one that yes God is Love in uS
greaTesT of aLL Gifts.. and Love is the Golden
rule we aLL and neighbor one including the
rest of God’s nature sAME in fearless
Unconditional way wHeRE our
enemies are to be understood
and Loved Unconditionally
as well in an AGAPE
kind of human
And while it is
trUe that Love must
be expressed to all others
to be real.. it is also trUe that
when one becomes enlightened
with the emotional Force of pure
white Love.. tHeir are no boundaries
or barriers that one will not break to
share and give this Love Red Hot to
ALL the same as the story of
ISA/Jesus does show too
in biblical new
and never luke warm
or less as oh.. so cold..
AnyWay.. when science
and religion and the philosophy
of a true prophet like Jesus do come
out aLL LiGht iN A miX of Fearless Kind
aS Hope of Love.. tHeRe are no barriers
that are too tall to be broken down by
the all powerful Love that is the
hiGhest power we hUmans
do share at heARt of
Core and a MiNd
and BoDy Balance
of moving.. connecting
and creating love watered
S O U L iN uS alWaYs noW..
across the lifespan of a garden
of fearless Love in HopE and KiNd
that never ever stops groWinG taller
and taller.. TrUe iT iS a gift.. this Fearless
Love is that i lost for 66 months almost completely
in FeeLinG but kept in logical mind to still share online..
but iT iS an EmoTioN of pure White LIGht that is that much
more powerful when it reAlly comes back online FULL STEAM
noW.. as stReAms
to Rivers to Ocean
whole in particles as
drops of water.. waves
iN Field Same as Ocean
blUe tHeir iS never defeat iN Love
NoW when iT iS reAL and ever
At Least in my experience.. my Friend.. Rafiah..
tHeRe is no time.. distance.. or space in Love
Love iS oNe Force thaT iS evergreen when
real.. and therE is no doubt tHeRe is that
Love sTiLL between you and your Nani
AliVe in YoUr eYes everlasting..
And to celebrate that Love
in WRiTing IS A liGht
thaT iS also
the path oF Love’s
Journey as well that
iS aLwayS noW when
Healthy and iN BaLanCing
NatUre.. my Friend.. Rafiah..
iN my liFe.. friends that i have loved
never age in heARt.. in SpiRit.. iN SoUl
oF i.. nor do the troubles that come with
Love last over the LoVinG pArts mY FriEnd..
a young man who witnessed my rather informal
proposition of Marriage to Katrina in a causal
stand on Bowling Lanes of where i worked
for the government over here in almost
two decades of 80’s to past the
turn of the century.. passed
away from complications
from Diabetes last
Tuesday.. his name
is Raymond and even
though we never saw this
man for years.. we both felt some
kind of emotional Force of Loss on
Tuesday well before we found out about
his death today.. we are all connected my
friend in so many ways more than just the
flesh.. Love is Forever and more than
we will ever understand with
wE ARE ALL CONNECTED
I N T E R D E P E N D E N T L Y
FROM THE POINT OF THE NEVER
ENDING.. NEVER BEGINNING ETERNITY
OF ALLAH NOW.. AH.. YES.. IT IS ALL
AH NOW.. MY FRIEND A LOVE WITH
NO START OR ENDING.. ONLY
NOW..aND can i prove that
i don’t even
care to my friend
as i alWays want it to
be too deep to ever put
into words.. a depth of eYeS
thaT alWays SinG A LovE SonG
and DancE intimatELy TRuE IN LIGHT FoR aLL..
mY Love filLED
FriEnD Rafiah maY
thiS liGht oF God’s Love
as and in you rise to greaTesT
heiGhts EVER MORE NOW..:)
coming in the
next profile status
photo.. thingie.. who
has the best Edit in
Summer’s Blues of
It doesn’t matter
WTF FTW iF i’ve
danced close to 5600
miles in 34 months.. leg
press close to half-a-ton
of weights 33 times with
my arms raised in air with
yes.. free weights now..
can eat chips
all day and only
walk shop.. and
she still looks like
a dancer and i look
like whatever i guess..
but you have to admit..
hehe.. for a 56 year old
dude my legs are
kinda shapelier than
most of the mall Sports.. TV..
sitter watcher dudes my age..;)
As Alan Watts says..
Society IS A Hoax and
sure iT iS but tHere IS A reASon2
for the insanity that one never
arrives until they die..
and it’s just humans
who are not evolved
to live in large groups
out of balance we are
and lots of people
pay the real
Nature who is
alWays the Big
BosS GOD nOW..
in terms of misery
and suffering real..
Yes.. that’s insane..
no other animal but
one with sidewalks
and books could
way of being..
anywhere but now
whole with nature one
AKA the inheritance
of the God experience..
anyway the Good News is
there IS A simple solution iF
practiced early enough and that
is touchy feely love in moving.. connecting
and creating.. and yes that probably means
homeschooling but hell if Tim Tebow can
(by the way in a very strange and
synchronistic and ironic too way
Timmy kinda forecast me coming
back from the dead in life too
in a very very public way2)
still be a rough boy by being home
schooled.. so can other
to give and share
taking less through
mastery of moving emoTioNs
and integration of seNses sAMe..
and the best news of all is this
information as told by sages of
the ages.. is all available online
for more people than ever
around the globe..
many elitists.. are
in charge of the material stuff and
and other money bill goods.. but they
ARE NOT in charge of moving..
connecting.. creating.. or the
faith.. belief.. and hope of
the real deal of mastering
emoTioNs and inTeGraTinG
seNses wHoLE on the
individual level as even
IF THEY COULD DO IT..
THEY WOULD FIND FIND THAT
ALL THIS MONEY MAKING AND
MATERIALISTIC STUFF IS TOTALLY
ANTITHETICAL TO FULL SATISFACTION
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TO BRIGHTEST COLORS IMAGINABLE NOW
IN CREATIVE FREE LIFE THAT HARDLY COSTS
ANY BIG MONEY OR MATERIAL GOODS AT ALL..
NO ONE CONTROLS me as i master and integrate
all the stuff that counts in life.. which is Love
in fearless.. kind and hopeful way in
moving.. connecting.. creating
goods has very very little
to do with that as i could be
Freddy Free Loader and as
happy as i am now.. as long as
i have three feet and space to dance
and a hand to hold that holds me back
from the insanity of society that surely
(yes.. i’ll need food.. water.. and shelter too)
Hoax in my
mind and body
Balance of SoUL..
heArt SinGinG in SpiRiT..
alWays noW oNE.. graduAlly
more folks will follow suit and iF
the folks at the so-called top ever
get REALLY REALLY SMaRT
ENOUGH TO LIVE iN
they will find
fast sports cars
and other ways of
Luxury are just anoTHeR
way to say HELL NOW.. sure
the Meek have already inherited
thE Earth.. and wE rough boys and
girls thrive alive for the WiN noW oF
Fearless Kind iN hoPE oF LovE REAL..:)
penniewoodfall thanks me for the
Alan Watts Video and i say..
You are very welcome penniewoodfall..
Alan Watts definitely shows profound genius
in the area of Philosophy/Religion and the overall
existential intelligence of what can make humans balance
but sadly as often what happens this genius battled his own
Demons out of Balance.. Namely the disease of addiction that
is almost always a disease of Emotional and sensory imbalance
at core.. In his case the bottle that cut his life short.. Anyway..
to me that makes what he achieved in verbal wisdom that much more impressive..
And considering if The Jesus dude actually did go on some angry tirades turning
money tables over.. Obviously he didn’t get where Buddha did in actions speak
louder than words.. Both should have spent more of their life dancing..
It works for me complete as balance but an athlete sage would be
Apollo.. WiNks back at yA.. Yes.. THE flesh is highly underrated
in Abrahamic religions and of course a substantial source of
human frustration.. Aggression and mass killings.. And even
Fear.. Hate and wars.. Pan is smArter2.. The soul
is real and flesh and blood.. We need more naked
Miley selfies to save the World as Jesus in metaphor
was too scared to do the full Monty Python.. With WiNks Again..
i imagine Muhammad did but yeah.. Umm.. He had younger issues.. Oh..
the demons of a life out of balance in emotions/senses/sensualiLiTy flesh
and blood way.. The real Devil of Abrahamic religious orienTated way..
And even modern Buddhist ways in at least someways with the ’97 Dali
Lama announcement that Homosexuality IS A sin.. A balance of Lust
and Love is integral to Homo sapiens sapiens peace of mind and
body balance in moving.. connecting.. creating.. giving..
sharing ways.. The Bonobo is the greatest genius sTiLL iN
Love and Peace without any FucKinG written books at all..
The body keeps the FucKinG score.. Bottom and Top line..;)
penniewoodfall shares some spiritual guru info on
‘Cutting Through Spiritual Materialism’
CHÖGYAM TRUNGPA, BORN IN 1939
and died of alcoholism all
too soon.. too like Mr.
Thanks again to you
Too.. off to Google now
for more Cliff Notes/Videos
on this man too..:)
Oh Lord.. 10
Predator “Holy Robe”..
For rape associated
Miley Selfies yes..
No means NO..
To quote her..
“It’s my pussy”..
Only a distant
Many Muslim women..
And other so-called
From God too..
Oh.. when the
Of a Dick
goes on to say his book
was good.. and i say..
but first in a response
back to another response
of hers in regards to
Grimms Fairy tales..
and The Owl, the
Raven, and the Dove
in book form too.. i
Off to check
The link out too..:)
With word search..:)
Heart IS A
He of patriarchy..
All Art to bring
Back HeArt.. All
Of Creativity to
Dull.. And now there’s
More to create forever
Now.. For those in the real
Know and Feel We really
Did it and in this way
Is heaven when
And then before moving
back to penniewoodfall’s
first note on the TRUNGPA
dude.. when waking up
later this morning..
i say.. in
me to generate
all these words..
Alan Watts and
yes.. i say..
Fred word winds
Breeze through again..
i asked Katrina off the
Recliner to come back
To bed and she said oh
My God.. Dear.. What
If we sleep to 9 or 10..
And then i sAid WTF
FTW.. The REAL Modern
FamiLY ISIS.. OsiRiS.. HoRuSzz..
Three iN two for OnE wHoLe2..
Only plays and never works for
Pay.. So we can sleep to 11 or
Even odd 13.. Wake up refreshed
and Hurricane Fred and Katrina
will blow again with ease of peaceful
center cAlm green changing to blUe2.. and MiXinG
With Brown eYes4.. Yes.. Yes!!.. too and Blow winds
and rains aGaiN and say Oops.. We jUst pLayed
And now back
to my final
on the TRUNGPA
SMiLes.. penniewoodfall.. i was gonna say ditto back to you..
on the free verse comment i just made back to gigoid but
this one got me out of Bed at 10:11 am.. now 10:13 am..
and i will quote you heRe for trUe and liGht wherE you
say.. “Repression does not serve well in religion…
neither does following gurus… I step outside ..
and observe… and there will always be suffering…”
and i say yes.. so true.. and what’s truly sad is
when i read about that dude’s behavior on
Wiki cliff notes.. it kinda sullies the other
stuff he did that i will research more
later.. as what i’ve come to lEArn
is ya can’t discount a philosophy
per liGht over the dArk pArts
oF it like an out
pair of pants..
as generally speaking
and potential for aggression goes
hand in hand with at least a touch
of hypomania.. to Bi-Polar.. as i kNow
all too well2.. for the biggest injection
of all natural high side of thaT i’ve ever
received after this cycle removed me from the
dArkest hell i’ve ever seen too.. i’Ve
lEarned to control the balance of the
hypersexual pARt with Art thank God
in this new brave Internet world.. and
i’M hyperspiritual more than ever
but it doesn’t matter what age
or word of humankind goes
with thaT in structured
religion rules or not..
and aggression.. well.. leT’s
just say i’ve pushed the edge
in defending myself in physical
ways i’ve never done before.. and
put a lid on that too.. and am probably
fortunate that no one had a gun and
shot me dead on the dance floor.. etc..
if i got all paranoid about that too..
which fortunately i don’t have
that pArt of Bi-Polar this
go around that
when my last
big UP EXPERIENCE
HAPPENED AT AGE 21..
IN ’81.. ANYWAY.. i have empathy
for the Jesus.. the Muhammad. and
lots of gurus and even this dude who
was feeling up the skirts of women who
were not exactly really into him.. although
he was never officially charged with a crime
i understand.. it happens.. i don’t condone
it.. i have always been able to control
that and generally speaking literally
fortunate as the girls have always
come to me.. and still do
in clothed ways
of dance FREE..
and hey.. being
56 slows stuff down
a little bit at least.. noW
i’m not saying being a guru
is an illness in spiritual way..
but it is a disorder no doubt out
of the norm.. per the literal definition
of what is seen in and out of order my
friend.. i’m just glad i reap the positive
liGht benefits.. and stay truly all of out
of the negative soup.. of human misery now
and suffering.. now2.. but the NoW i live and
all the advantages of what culture does bring
in adaptation for those who are smARt enough
in science and art to navigate it.. is truly a weapon
of Love in hope.. faith.. and belief.. in fearless kind
ways that is like a perfect storm too.. of prepare ye
old me.. Now2
Anyway.. thanks my
friend.. this changes the
title of my 680th epic macro
verse of longest long form poem
ever.. approaching 4M words now..
to “Pan at the Apollo Theater2”..
as the WhOle comes again
as micro and macro
oF it iN streAms
to River of
oh.. the joy of Bi-Polar
reined in with reign of rains..
in liGhTED TALK wAY oF Fred..
yeah.. and i’m WorKinG like a
mad scientist sTiLL to keep that
ego thing in artful control2.. as
Truly the grandiosity pARt of
Bi-Polar has sunk an other
wise long term story
of many a Guru2..
DArk has its
say too.. and sure
somewhere deep down
tHeRe is sTill a little bLack
Spot on an otherwise white oLd sOuL..
wHolE.. but that’s the way the Yin and Yang
diceY of Life
i’LL be back aGaiN
somenow wITh more
of you.. WitH grins oF liGht..
for what i FeeL..
sEnse.. and KnoW
all the SeNsual
ways that comeS iN
and moVinG iN General
has been thE miSsinG
connecting LiNk of public
religions and philosophy
way too long.. and that’s
changing in prepare ye
a way of Miley
oh.. the team work..
oh.. the team work..
OF TEaM LIGHT..
THE REAL F in
freeST verse ILLUMINATI
cAlled by A pan of
NatUre aLL as sucH
AKA GOD NOW2..
oF HUmanS noW oH
so brave and FucKinG
CRAZY AS ME.. HEHE..
A DANCING SIOUX CRAZY
HORSE COME BACK TOO2..
with a little ancestral mix
of Cherokee too..
hmm.. i thInk
tHeRe IS A
see ya.. as the
winds oF Y i
enJoy another glass
of red wine.. i StaYiN
aWay from aLL of thaT even
F iN coFfee or a hot toddy2..
keeps mY hiGhS iN cHecK2..
anotHeR thing.. Buddha and
etc.. didn’t understand.. not every
one is as high as Bi-Polar/hypomania
folks as they then too.. Cognitive empathy..
a life long practice of understanding what it’s
like to walk in the other shoes.. no philosophy..
no religion.. no ted or fred talk works the same
for each snowflake of God.. oh so special AND REAL..
THAT’S WHY EVERYONE NEEDS TO WRITE ThEIR
OWN FucKinG BIBLE OR AT LeAST MAKE iT REAL..
the liFE JOB DonE..
per right to liFe.. libertY
and the pursuit of hapPineSS2..
and nah.. happiness wasn’t alWays
possible in joy way much of human
history but iT iS noW in heaven trUe FReED..
DO iT.. ToPs
iF ONE CAN1
AND WiLL2 NOW iN
gOlden RULE WAY3 aS oNE…:)
Yup.. every woman
Loves a sharp
i did seed
and am harvesting
the acorns at lEast..
and this dance shirt
was hilarious.. oh yeah..
iN Catholic Church shirt too..
i am some nows the highlight
of the little kids who are bored
stiff straight ahead in their
priSon pew seats..
Katrina.. butt i AM
way too busy singing..
to notice who looks at
what anYwhere in pews
And the nice lady next
to me says.. after i shake
her hand.. after Lord’s prayer
friendly now connection pARt..
yes.. Oh my.. i Love hearing you
sing every Sunday.. and i ask
Katrina why she doesn’t tale
me this too.. and she says
my head is already
and i say..
fun of my
Alien.. ET size head..
anyway.. iT’s definitely
worth another ZZ top SonG
iN my XXL head for surE nOW2..
but i thiNk/FeeL..
i’ll juSt go WitH
ET instead for
a little Katy plaY noW2..
And it may be hard to see
in these photos but the squirrel
is taling a kit kat.. on the face of
hiS/HeR smArt phone that yes.. HA!
true the cats
in my neighborhood..
are not always the
never.. but that’s
the way Nature goes..
in all dArk and liGht of
survival real.. humans are
very fortunate to be blessed
with the liGht of Love.. as that
IS A only BlesSinG that makes
human heaven even possible
now as gifted by God aLL
Nature one and
in and as
uS FoR NoW..
TrUE LiGht LoVE..
Oh yeah.. and i came
across the older man and
what i believe is his son..
in Barnes and Nobles again..
who think.. i am a dancing
Navy seal.. who writes longest
long form poems in the history of
humankind.. and they say.. well no
i’m not a Navy Seal but i didn’t have
the heaRt to break that pArt of bad news
to ’em.. anyway.. haven’t seen ’em in
about 2 months or so and they tale me
they’ve been spreading my story wide
around the town.. and i am a legend
now.. it’s not the first now i’ve
heard that for dance at least..
but yes that pArt is trUe.
and trUly in all of
that is the greaTest
compliment anyone could
receive.. while they are
FucKinG LiVinG hehe.. yeah..
that’s what Batman’s mentor
told him. Fuck the Famous
be the Legend..
and in a way
and that pARt IS A
way too deep for me
to explain in science
terms.. you’ll get to know
GoD wHole better iN instinctual..
innate intuitive way to figure thAT
pArt out like i did one day too.. and
iF ya do.. good chance you will be named
Legend by the vieWinG audience for doing
nothing for money and material good’s aT
FucKinG all.. and that mY friends is
just God dam Awesome.. end and
beginning of story never
finishing and starting
i couldn’t imagine
a greater life in the
meek will inherit the
earth and the last will
be the first.. even iF
i wasn’t a REAL Jesus F.
a nice day..
trUsT me Heaven
if FucKinG red hot..
never Luke Warm
soUl noW jUST NoW..;)
Oh.. yeah.. my friend gigoid..
and one more quick note here..
before i go publish noW A very
heavy macro verse in deed..
if you remember that then
post by Islam friend
in the comments
section alone.. per
just a video post then
about the return now of
Jesus and that was/is all..
safe to say
iN some ‘sMAll’
way.. i change the
i’Ve been and go2..2
hope you FeeL better..
the other two contenders
iN THaT debaiT.. SOHEIR..
and IMRAN.. rarely blog any
more.. like they say in the
Big Lebowski Movie..
i’LL do anything
for A SMiLe aGaiN..
iT ain’T easy being
A great White
but i try..
gigoid says in return..
Those who speak truth are almost always vilified, my friend.
Albert noted it several times in his quotes… It’s their loss…
And as A final final Facebook
Algorithm generated memory
from a year ago.. it bears notice
and attention again.. if one reAlly
respects the Teachings of the Jesus
and ain’t giving it lip service alone with
way of John 3:16 for a quick trip to
heaven anywhere and anynow
but the one thAt iS at hand
allNOW.. for those who seek..
find.. it.. and practice heaven
and or Nirvana.. bliss.. eTc..
whatever yoUr linguistic flavor
of the essence of TrUth and liGht
may be.. Gentile.. Servant.. Slave
or Free.. Woman or Man no more
ALL A are free in the Golden rule of
Jesus consolidating all the nit
picky rules of past into one..
MEANS NO EXCLUSIONS..
BOTTOM LINE.. ‘QUEER’..
AND HUMAN OR FUCKING
AND SMALLER THAN
A GrAin of sand too..
as only you have
most to lose
by Loving less..
fearlessly and kind than
a REAL NEW AGE JESUS
COME TO LIFE WOULD DAM
SURE DO AND DOES.. iN HOPE
OF FEARLESS AND KIND UNCONDITIONAL
LINE AND WORD..
LOVE LOVE LOVE
AND MORE LOVenOW..:)
Yeah.. thE final iS heRe
noW.. maKe iT aLLa pArty
oF FearLess Love.. iF noT..
onLY yoUr anG
easY buT i foR
oNe PROVE IT’S
LINE POWER OF GOD
HIGHER IS REAL WHEN
SoUGHT.. FoUnd AND PRACTICed
BeforE and After NovEL pARTy
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CrediTs FiELd oF DreAMs..
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GRains oF SaNd
so nice to see you this afternoon..
and thanks for wading all the way
down through this really really
deep post of photos.. videos..
links.. and so much
text now.. but hehe..
in way of Pan at
the Apollo Theater2..
you got here
geTs close to
that long too..
albiet not nearly
as many photos and
other stuff here.. Hope to
see you soon on the dVerse
trail of poetry too.. but no matter
what i’ll be by your place shortly
to see what you are offering tHeir
too in ways of Love for the beauty
of nature well2 in photography way..
i reAlly wish i could see more
photos that tale a story
in poEtry way.. and
the nows are
and power of
technology to make
that a great reaLiTy too
my friEnd.. and i AM very
blessed with the slave of
technology that i rein
in reign for i.. to have
as much speed
for art that
iT bRinGs nOW
real.. and sure tHeRE IS A
Direct correlation and causation
in how much this WiLL continue to
GroW human potential in Epigenetic
impact of affect and effect in just one
lifetime of Environmental adaptation
to struggle of advancing now new..
but the key i find to genius
my friEnd is Branching
out and never
too long except
for gratitudes and blessings
before the grave of what was beFore
leads to the neXT Great! Adventure oF LiFe..
aLL in Nature and Technology that is extension
of God’s Nature one too.. oh the balance..
oh the incredible potential is
as clear as one key stroke
leads to the next..
click on the
tRail of Heaven now..
Ah.. a Rodent Squirrel
in Heaven2.. IS A what
i WiLL do for noW iN
a day full of Nature’s
Beauty my friend of fair air..:)
Thank you for your poetic lines and loads of photos!
Roses are true
Violets are read..
i AM a Tree and
Ocean BlUe noW
and with that sAid..
sure.. Roses are true
as the Golden Spiral oF God
as pattern 1.618 mean of Nature
is encoded real and visible beautiful
for the hUman eYes to see.. and yes..
Violets as all other forms.. including hUman
words can be read sAMe as deeper symbols
of God’s patterns Fearless Love in same of never
ending circles of LiFe noW ReaL wHere HeaVen
SinGs as SpiRit ExPreSsinG EmoTioNal HeARt..
and a miNd and BoDy BaLanCinG Rose SoUl
oF GOlden spiRaL GoD one.. iN us aLways
noW.. so wIth thAt saiD2.. preLudE
heRe and bookmark2.. as i move
on to the dVerse Monday
words of LoVinG
to the Quadrille 44 prompt
word theme on Roses TrUe2..
but of course iN mY FloW oF
words that only count
as unleashed and released
as mInd and BoDy HoLy
SpiRit.. heARt and
but anyway.. a couple
more places to visit before
bedtime comes for Bonzo2
Ape or Clown three as WeLL2..
for one.. so i’LL keep a Rose
sweet heaR iN wAiTinG
unTil the Red
in early morning..:)
WeLL.. lots of dE-tours
beLow.. so iN A morNinG
two days later i come back
heRe to dVerse Rose prompt
Quadrille in my free style
of com·mu·ni·ca-ting.. iN
P o E t i C…
and i WiLL say
heRe.. iT iS trUly
no wonder to mE that
mystery schools use a Rosy
Cross for symbol of God whole
As God IS A Rose that continues
to unfOld.. with thorns oF cross
oF course.. aLonG a way.. that is Now
all that is jUst now and now can be.. as iS..
AM.. So perhaps folks will continue to metaphor
God as such in an almost infinite number of
other ways to the say the sAMe iN miCro to
maCro wHole of allthatiS now.. and sure
that WiLL bE the way it goes.. as we
humans are sTiLL only micro of
macro wHole sAMe.. we have
limits.. no matter how
sMArT iN Art
i ever gET
i have limits too..
i cannot connect to many
more people than any other human
can in comfort of 150 to 200 sets
of eYes.. as this is the way i for
one AM evolved to be too.. but what
i can do.. is leave a fossil record
of my soUL that lives now2 bEfore
i die.. and becoMe just
no one no where
but wHere the
and the Love
rEmains in the
heARts of those i touch
in flesh and blood and as long
as a record oF mY soUl touches
otHeRs too in what ever ways may
literAlly come.. aS WeLL.. iT iS
the Love we give that we take with
us in fearless way.. on death’s
bed of last breathE now..
and it is the Love that
continues to gRow
when a Nautilus
Shell of human
is lEft behind
not the first
or the last of anything
i AM just another record
of micro pArt mini-me real
of God of Rosy FloWeR wHole THaT
continues to unfOld as i..
in the rEcord continuing
oF what is oF F Y i..
with sure.. some
thorns of i2..
as the dArk
miX iN allthatis
to make the hUes
and sHadeS real
iN the bLack and
WhiTe colors oF
wE iN LiGht
A colorfUl Rose
wiTh thorns wE aLL
caN bE iF wE juSt
FloWer iN ZonE WitH
AM.. noW.. anyWay
6/29/2016 11:16 am..
and i’LL be back later
to BRinG more Rosy thOughts
to the table WitH whaTeVa’..
WeLL back to the topic
of the dVerse weeklong prompt
on 44 word Quadrille poems
with a theme of Roses for
inspiration.. just the
word Rose in a prompt
was enough inspiration
to generate so much with
out even reading any of
the poetic expressions
from the dVerse Crowd
of International poets..
and the overall messAge
beLow wHere all the deTouRs
oF this 681st Macro-Verse
takes.. are pArt oF the WhOle
of the deTAle thaT iS pArT
oF aLL i do.. to continue
to ascend hiGher as co-creator
WiTh GoD oNE.. iT IS A practice
of Love and Fearless TrULY
BeYond anything thAT
i thOught was
oF liFE noW
bEfore or better
put raped by the
divisions of cultural
barriers that cAMe beFore
that did almost lead mE and
did lead mE into total dArkness
of an abyss beForE i found mY
way back as LiVing LiGht
iN trutH of no
in a way of
GoD oNE noW..
so this above
so below iT aLL
comes out iN the
Frosting oF A greaTest
gift on the cake of Nature
thaT is GoD aLL oNE noW..uS2..:)
“Hundreds of people can talk for one who can think,
but thousands can think for one who can see.
To see clearly is poetry, prophecy, and religion – all in one.”
~~ John Ruskin ~~
Own the form
instead of bEinG
tHe essence.. what A
way of liFe.. what an illusion
NOT to be the essence oF NoW..
aliVe.. inseparable from all else that iS
and to reAlly FeeL and words without
seNses and FeeLinG.. are empty
sHells of form
to no SoUl
that fly hiGher
than iNk and pAGe..
Language can connect us
allone too aS aLL or disconnect uS
iN paths so far apArt.. LanguagE noW
IS A ARt.. and rarely science aLone..
And that’s A sAvinG GRace oF
NaTUre’s oldest tool..
come truE NoW…
it comes noW iN many
flavors but iF it workS noW
for greater liGt no matter
form of poetry.. prophecy
or religion/politics.. iT
bottom noW onE
line.. per whatever
does for whomever
does or did.. oh..
and nice niece Candie
shares a saying that says..
next time a stranger comes up
to you and strikes up a conversation
whisper softly can you see me..
AND I SAY..
Dance in Public..
and even if they
don’t act like they
and 1 in 1,000
will strike up A
it’s like clock work
or a golden spiral
‘they’ alWays tick tock
around you like a galaxy..:)
And now i say.. it’s kinda like
Facebook.. instead of 166.66 miles
of steps in public.. i dance hmm.. conservatively
speaking 100K words a month.. and out of those
words i get about.. hmm… let’s say about 100 words
back.. so.. umm.. that’s also a 1 in 1,000 feed back
aka Reciprocal Social communication Ratio..
but trust me.. when no one in the entire
world rarely communicates with you
in 66 months.. this is an outstanding
Social Reciprocal Social communication
ratio that makes me wanna jump with
joy like Snoopy who F iN lEarns
how to entertain his lONEsoMe
with a Snoopy day
i thiNk theRe
IS A T-Shirt for that
today that says.. NOPE..
I’M JUST A GONNA KEEP
DOING IT MY WAY AND
IF i AM not mistaken it
Will be the third grey shirt
i have oN ouT in public
shades of grey is
thE NEW BLACK..;)
THE housewife has
just informed me THAT
new shirt has not yet
been washed so i will
go with Nirvana and black
ON grey.. as truly when an
individual lEarns to entertain
themselves enough they do
live in Nirvana regardless if
they get feedback on tHeir
Heaven or not..but WAIT!
KATRINA just remembers
tHere are shirts hanging
in the garage and as
what usually happens
when one is
through even when
she doesn’t at first
remember she comes
through ’cause she has
CRS.. but anyway she told
me about three times to say
she is great2.. so yes.. i did not
forget as i F iN remember every
oh my God deTALE of life.. it ain’t
easy being a grey elephant.. but
the truth is THAT Snoopy shirt is
blue.. kinda grey blue.. as the
color of my Green eYes will
do2 when they too change
the story of my liFe..
in flow.. iN ZonE..
as i continue
to freeLY entertain
myself in public and
like snoopy says.. NOPE..
NOT TODAY.. i do as thY
wilt.. and yeah.. don’t yA
kNow Snoopy IS A mystery
i Am too.. WitH WinKs..
wITh very little admitted to
folloWing.. and that’s the way
i liKe bEinG A so-called LeGent2..
’cause if i was engaged in reciprocal
social communication.. as i would Love
to do all day long like i used to do for almost
2 decades like that bartender on that show
Cheers did too.. at the Military Bowling
Center i Bar managed2.. tHere would be
little to no nows to do any LegenT stuff2..
so as alWays.. like the Raven..
GoD aLL provides juSt tHe
miX of heaven..
mE aLL iN oNE..:)
Moral of the story.. why did
Michelangelo paint the sistine
Chapel and sculpt the statue
of King David for all to see..
he was just looking
for a friend to
talk to and
the way in heaven
now both ways in dArk
of lonely and ONENESS2..
something to think about the
next time you see a so-called
eccentric person doing tHeir ‘thing’..
iT IS A survival thingy that any social
animal WiLL do jUst to survive and
of course as aLways God rewards
the last greatly for continuing to
tow the plow without relief..
to be WitH GoD oNE no
says.. does.. or
doesn’t say or do..
so sure.. i AM in Good
company.. hiStory proves
it out and i don’t have to wait
to see what happens neXt..
JuSt Do iT in Victory
noW not later iS
of GoD aLL
Oh yes.. and the other analogy/metaphor i
Will use is “Autism and the Nautilus”
and i even have a header liNk
now as an attention getter
to add in this Facebook
status 2.. to morph
it into a share..
jumps for Joy..
he can and
WiLL one more
now before the neXt
noW comes and he
rarely looks back as
tHeir IS AlWays a new
adventure.. iF even jUst
in Snoopy’s iMagiNatiOn
alone as allone now goeS on..
Co-creating with GoD oNe.
and oh my God YES! it can
even be more fun than
but it depends
on how GREAT!
you are at
LegenT WiLL say
and JuST DO NoW..;)
Hmm… and that photo of that
Seagull on the Beach reminds me
of my Facebook Friend Rafiah from
Pakistan.. who saw me communicating
with my friend Lala Rukh also known
as White Pearl.. on Lala’s blog site..
And i guess Rafiah could see the
kinda unconditional Love without
any expectations from the other
person.. and when Rafiah
sent me a friend request..
and i posted on her
timeline she told
me i had a
and that was two
years ago… Lala Rukh
was my good friend who
after she got the dowry notice
and was sold away to her chagrin
never really truly came back to be a
creative writer anymore.. much.. any
way.. i really didn’t have
many other friends..
then.. so i really
the fAct that
Rafiah was brave
enough to reach out
to me to be my friend..
and what made me really
happy too.. was she was using
my seagull photo as her profile
photo.. and it made me feel like
every dam word and every dam
photo that i had every shared was
worth all that WiLLinG effort and more..
as i did something beautiful
enough that someone
else thOught in tHeir
heARt was worth
Art is worth
it as sooner or later
someone will say hi..
and i for one WiLL alWays
Well.. here i stARt off with 3 years and 5 Facebook
Algorithm provided poetic Macro Verse Memories
in Rampage Poetry Spree Creativity.. and
truly behind most every real creator and
or destroyer.. which is the
dARk and liGht too..
of reAliTy oF
GoD wHole too..
as We all kNow the
Sun WiLL eVentUAlly
burn out and WeLL BeforE
that all hUmans WiLL revert
back to Star DusT and Star
DUst and We WiLL Go On
forevermore noW as
we are all energy
and Force oF GoD one
at core noW more ever
for one noW oNE..
and seriously iF
i wasn’t here
the FucK do yA
thInK little old new
me soUl could do
aLL A this.. it’s juSt
common sense that wE noW
live forever iN dArk and liGht
and aLL the shades and coloRed
hues of BLack And WhiTE sAME..
IF and BIG IF.. IF YOU HAVE THAT
UNIVERSAL ONE COMMON SENSE..
EITHER in words and or intuitive..
innate.. instinctual FeeLinGs and
seNseS oN.. yeah.. this kNOWledge
without any time.. space.. or distance..
floWed ouT of mE sAme when i was
18 in a philosophy class as the spark
was tHeir to flAMe it.. and the
idiocy of modern human
cultural ways put me
back in the dArk..
of society’s illusory
wHole of problem solving
away from Creating way of
human Art bEinG.. oh.. so crazy
what we think is sane can so be
now.. without many oF uS ever
realizing iT and remembering
the oneness of forever now..
the inheritance of bEing
one and pARt of One
God sAme.. allA ’round
everYwhere noW one
aLL.. anyWay.. tRust mE
i kNow more.. much more than
i can put into the human language..
as truly iT is limited vs the language of
God inherent iN us.. thaT sure iS stored
in our DNA too.. as God is both aRt and
Science in Tapestry oF aLL thaT iS.. a sky
fall above so below.. and All A’round heaven
real now.. so far beYond what most folks thINk
in the English Language is human poTenTial kNow..
the liGht BrinGers are heRe.. and wE have much more
and yes.. back now
to my original point..
the first and last of the
greaTest human destroyers
and creators.. usually have
a struggle story of disconnect
from other social animals to tale..
some go the path of status.. power
and vengeance.. others go the path..
of art.. creativity and victory in giving
more than taKinG noW.. iT iS what iT
iS and those of uS who are fortunate
enough to be watered by at least one
person in the formative years in Garden
of Love.. most often go the route of
creator in what is fearless Love..
aWay in Victory.. from the
real loser first as last..
in power.. status..
of other pARts of
God in Positive to
more negative way
ways of bEinG.. in Vengeance
wake.. of dArk in Sleep.. away
from LiGht of whaT iS possible for
most aLL wE to Be noW.. but anYway
With light is hope.. with dark is fear.. noW
Hope and Love Arts up liFE with heARt..:)
“Language is a Universe of expression. It starts
with the stars, 4 digits. a prehensile thumb. and
people sketching angles in sand reflecting connections of stars.
As with the expression of emotion and differing cultural ‘artifacts’,
across cultures, the end result is not always the same, but
the start is the same beginning.
People describe it differently and label it differently.
That is All.
No one paints the same picture except for One.
Suggesting that God does not exist, IS A
‘silly’ rhetorical argument.
If there was a whole that could communicate.
it would laugh back at ya.
Keeping in mind, I Am a classical pantheist…
This is not a personal comment
directed at anyone here;
it is poetry of how I view
word play here..:)
Yeah and here’s
one of my
this says iT
are a microVerse
of UniVerSal PoeTry
unto itself in colorEd WAy..:)
yA jUst haVe2
spEll iT aLL out2..;)
Photo of a Lion
“i Am too positive to be doubtful..
too optimistic to be fearful..
And to determined to
And i say in
Who needs words
when yoU are A LioN
yeah.. the English
Language is OK..noW..
iF yA tWeak iT STronG..:)
I’LL share this SonG noW by Rihanna.. Written by
Sia as i can imaGinE and dreAm for real thaT
God wrote iT jUst for mE and yes God did
as God aLL OnE includes Rihanna and
Sia as one whole SonG no different
and different sAme as the SonG
i SinG and even you whetHeR
or noT you realize yoU
are one and never
but when one
rises from the ashes
of a Wall away from God
but sTiLL one with God carrying
footprints of i in finger’s sonG.. ah..
yes.. a sledgehammer i WiLL BrinG
otHeRs too.. back to what they miss
that IS A.. sparRow who arrives back
wITH the Love of GoD oNE all sAMe
and difFerent noW aLive riSinG Fire
from ashes Phoenix once.. aGain..
on that July 22nd day 3 years ago
wHere this SonG wiLL come aGAin
in ways of BeyOnd of Star Trek too..
on the 50th Anniversary of That ARt2..
anyWay.. iF only for a moment noW.. oh..
unTiL that day aGaIn.. as YouTubE noW
ain’t gona let this copy/paste SonG stay long..;)
AS promised earlier..
As i share aGain..
Funny little Synchronicities..
Views from Beyond iS alReady
heRe as promised on my KATiE MiA/Aghogday
Blog that says Views from the Autism Spectrum
and Beyond.. tRust mE i.. alWays keep mY promises..
as i miX
oF Yoda and Spock
toGeTheR oNe i2..;)
And now i say..
aLL iN an hOur or tWo
oF A daY In the Life oF Y i..
Snoopy would bE PRoUd oF mE
jUSt DoEs iT2..
without a word..
as Dance.. PubliC DanCE..
WiLL SooN ComE2 once AGaiN2..
in A Aisle of A Department store too..:)
PS.. putting all the pieces of Humpty
Dumpty Egg Head.. Walrus..
and or Yellow Submarines
BacK toGeTHeR aGaiN2..
IS A not alWayS easY
Art never ends..;)
oF Y i’..
and that mY
be the title of the
681st Macro Verse
of the Longest Long Form
Poem ever sTiLL MoVinG noW
at Warp speed.. sorta.. toWard 4 miLliOn
sMiLes.. my friend navalsolnature.. i enjoy all
the photos of Nature you provide here and very
interesting information here and well concern for
the continued stewardship of greener ways of life..
after the BREXIT controversy for sure..
And it’s funny per literal take..
how.. although i am not
up to date on all
the ins and outs
of this controversy
there.. over here it is
the conservatives who
actually conserve the environment
less.. as they seem to value material
items and money moreover the living
stuff.. including taking care of the less
advantaged pARt oF Nature who can
be human too.. but truly things are
much better than when i was
younger in the states here..
as i remember jogging
in the early 80’s behind
all the smoke of fume
machines that were
automobiles then.. and
the area plants were pumping
stinky pollution in the skies and
rivers to the point that even after
improvement some areas sTILL more
or less are a toxic waste dump attempting
to finAlly come back to liFE more than bEfore
when no one ‘up top’.. seemed to care at
ALL about the environment as money
and stuff was number one.. anyway
glad to see your efforts here
to keep your land my land
and our land same as we
for generations to come
Green Green Green and more Green..:)
“The truth is more
important than the facts.”
~~ Frank Lloyd Wright ~~
“Faith does not offer the least
support for proof of truth.”
~~ Friedrich Nietzsche ~~
Ah.. truth.. a moving target that
wears many shoes in dArk and liGht
and the ‘tween all of that… Of course..
truth for my wife is she is shy and
too much stimulation will
drive her nuts..
now.. but yes.. i’Ve
been her side too..
but oh.. A joy ride iS noW
wHere i go.. hiGher and
hiGheR bEyond the moon..
the sky.. and ground to wHeRE
i’VE never gone before.. above..
so below.. inside.. outside all
around.. to go wHere i have
not gone bEfore continues to
bE my mantra of Real in my little
world of TrUth and liGht that mostly
suits me.. fAct of the matter is some
folks are more scaredy cats than others..
i’ve already disintegrated into nothingness
once before and after that.. so relatively
speaKinG i alREady KnoW
that the only guarantee
we Have and Love
is what we do
wITh NoW.. Now
noW.. and no time
but NOW.. it’s quite
liberating this truth of mine..
needs zero facts but yes it’s
all about faith.. the faith when
one understands how nature works
and put’S iT into action with no more
need for facts or words to lead
one own.. FeeLinG And SenSinG
iS mY TrUth and liGht and the
words are juST dreSsinG On
a Cake oF Y i.. but that
my friend is an entirely
of TrUth and
me who lived beFore..
tHeRE are no limits or expectations
that i care to meet anymore.. and with
that Freedom.. comes more TrUth
and liGht that iS real that i
can touch and see
before iN my lifetime real..
THeRe are entire worlds of experience
that are different from my past.. so no limits
or expectations.. WiLL Certainly BrinG more..
as is is.. thE
meanwhile.. yes.. i understand
perfectly clear why folks sTiLL
suck on pacifiers as this liFe
business ain’t for ‘sissies’.. or
people without heARt.. SpiRit
and SoUl.. that makes the hard
and soft of life.. a sunny side up
scrambled egg that never breakS noW..:)
Oh Lord.. Katrina
trRies To drY mE outT
iN thE Dryer cYcle.. eitHeR
thaT oR iT’s jUSt anoTheR
DanCinG Shiva.. foR NoW..:)
So.. it’s literAlly
i go tHeRe IS A Free
Shoe Carnival fOr-aLL to see..
And haha.. so.. i’m in the middle
eXtra wide aisles of TarGeT doing
mY aLL FReED miX oF Ballet and
marital arts juSt for KicKs and a grand ma
according to Katrina tales her grandson on her
cellphone.. i got him.. i got him.. and i’m gonna
text you his photo right away.. yeah.. all iN a Day
of A liFE iN A DancE
Facebook Friend and fellow
poet Blogger.. Candice.. shares a
photo of a saying that
“I Don’t want to look pretty..
I want to look otherworldly
and vaguely threatening”..
And i say..
sMiLes.. true.. in the
real world.. no one messes
with the crazy eye..
and for the most
pArt.. in my
certain look in the
eye online can
of yA wouldn’t
wanna see mE noW
i keep mUself on
a short chain sane..;)
And further i say.. tHeRe nOW..
and heRe aS weLL too iN Fredism..
Ah.. the mask of the warrior..
Eastern Philosophy teaches
this in martial arts way for a defense
that has less opportunity of the need for
offense.. fearless speaks volumes.. and now
truly fearless only comes when one is comfortable
in their own body and secure in their basic ability
to use that body as defense against predator as
invisible like balance in force.. or capture against
prey in the same way.. anyway.. a mask it is and not
necessarily representative of the fearless Unconditional
Loving SpiRiT that lives within.. and yes.. i lEarned early
about this mask.. at the city park.. and at middle school..
as it was a cultural way of patriarchy as well.. for a long
lived religious oriented middle eastern desert way of low
subsistence non-fertile lands.. where the winning tribe
of the fertile lands could make the difference between
life and death.. and so one still sees the height of
patriarchy wherever the need of the warrior
human being needs be.. to secure
and war for subsistence of
the tribe one is raised
we no longer
live in a desert.. we live
as comparison in a land still
of abundant resources and a social
net of giving where we do not have
nearly the starvation in need of
third world countries where
Patriarchy still reigns the
strongest.. for reasons
that are real for survival
still.. it’s hard to be politically
correct in what humans can be
as altruistic.. sharing beings.. when
there is not enough to eat.. and that
is where one still finds the practice of
filicide and infanticide for the same reasons
of survival of what it takes to live on.. in other
words.. walk in the other shoes before one judges
the other.. nah.. i didn’t like it very much in school..
when the middle school bullies and city park ones
same said boys don’t smile in a threatening tone..
took me years and years and decades to understand
why as there were no males in my family to share this
patriarchal tradition with me.. thank God.. as i lEarned
the heARt of hope and love early and evermore still..
through the divine feminine love of a mother over
what can be the fear and hate of patriarchy still..
as his way of living is like an emergency way
of bEinG human for survival but it is
also a way of life out of balance
where there is no Art in heart..
and all that’s left is he with
no real diving feminine
being for Fearless
love.. and that
is among the saddest
left-overs of patriarchy in
fundamentalist ways of culture
in my little home town of new Jerusalem
where the Old testament rules are still honored
over the Jesus rule of gentile.. jew.. servant or free..
woman or man no more.. and where even in the original
Gnostic Gospel of Thomas.. Jesus says he will make Mary
Magdalene into male so she will be deserving of the same
spiritual attainment in an era where women were seen not
much different than cattle for breeding young.. and
on top of that the original mystical ways
of Judaism.. Elohim.. the original name
for God meant a balance of male and
female.. and that is what the
symbol of the star of
David truly means
as male phallic
triangle pointed symbol
upward and divine feminine
fertility triangle pointed downward
for union of one and same as marriage
of one male and female in one person
whole in spiritual way.. and this philosophy
and mystical way of greater enlightenment
and balance bEinG one with God STilL
remains in the Gospel of Thomas now…
Well.. there is another profile photo i could
have used to better illustrate that where
i live is not much different than modern
Muslim Cultures who denounce any
Homosexual or other sexual
Transgender ways of
being as worthy of death
in some cases.. but here in
New Jerusalem.. the place in
New Israel U.S. oF A.. that once
held the record book title of most
churches per square mile.. the veil of
ignorance in real original Greek meaning
of the word Apocalypse still sadly covers the
innate trUth and liGht of God that lives in wE
all innate.. instinctual.. and intuitive.. the power of
the balance of the divine feminine and masculine
attributes of human one in being as one human being
one with God now.. as we are made as mini-me’s in structure
with the rest of the Universe whole in Golden spiral ways of
as above so below.. from the fetus to the curled cat to
the galaxy.. to yes the rose.. nautilus and all of
Nature form A to Z beyond only the
symbols of human written language
alone in the symbols as numbers
6 and 9 same as Golden
Spiral of Life symbol
too.. as above.. so below..
inside outside.. all around..
so we are driving by this place
Called ‘Faith Baptist Church’ tonight..
and Katrina snaps a photo of a marquee
of lie that says “God doesn’t recognize
Transgender” and supports that
statement with a verse 1:27 from
the oldest part of the antiquated
historical Old Testament
that says basically
that God created
human in God’s image
and made male and female..
well.. yeah sure.. and God also
made her·maph·ro·dites too
but who knows perhaps in
infanticide ways they were
destroyed at birth by their
parents.. but if so.. i doubt
there ever was a record of it
and it was kept hush hush.. same
as homosexuality in the closet back
then and Muslim countries same where
a homosexual can come to self-loathe
themselves so much in the contradiction
of what the church says they are that in
paRt can lead to a rampage killing of the
greatest number of deaths in U.S. history..
There is good reason to accept everyone into
the tribe of human being.. as Jesus says… It keeps
the blood shed to minimum as an outcast can be
a most dangerous weapon of all to the tribe at
hand if they truly get out of hand in fear
and hate as well.. in Vengeance ways
instead of continuing Victory in the
Hope and fearless Love as
originally taught by the
good cop Jesus from
the record mostly
as it stands..
but yeah.. there
is still the part in the
gnostic gospel of Thomas
as well that says i come with
a sword and not for peace.. and
you have to hate your parents to follow
me.. so sure.. the BAD Cop Jesus lives
even in the Gospels not yet twisted by the
Roman empire as myth to spread the Roman
Empire greater in coordination with the Mithra
Myth of that area/era to make Jesus into a Soldier Sun
God.. particularly around 325 AD.. with the help
of Emperor Constantine of the Roman Empire
and his Catholic Cohorts then.. eventually
too.. where Constantine could erect
A Monolithic Statue of himself
represented as a Sun God
to be worshipped too..
greater than the
other children of
God too.. as first
instead of last or
a special appointed position
on a throne by an anthropomorphic
God with a white beard or whatever
with the artistic representation of
a bearded female named Jesus..
all effete looking as such in
Androgynous way but
in keeping with
of Elohim too..
anyway.. back to
the mask.. when you
weigh 230 LBS.. leg press
a half a ton 33 times.. and wear
a hidden mask like the one below
behind shades.. you get to do ballet
in a public place like this.. that still
thinks that Gender roles in one way
are life and death.. bottom line is
the new patriarchs finger
Cell phones.. and i
kick iron without
touching it in
literally 100’s of thousands
of kicks as a practice of martial
arts.. it is fair to say.. like the Monkey
or the Hawk who rarely fall out of skies
and trees that i virtually never miss for the
same reason of wax on.. wax off.. i practice..
like any REAL WARRIOR OF GOD WOULD..
AND MY ACTION IS FEARLESS LOVE.. THE
MOST POWERFUL HIGHER FORCE OF HUMAN
ALIVE.. EMOTIONS MOVE.. EMOTIONS SAVE..
EMOTIONS FREE THRIVinG HuMAN BEINGS
IN HEALING FORCE.. folks like men who
repress or oppress these emotions.. now..
particularly behind pudgy fingers
of a ‘smart’ phone.. die early
from metabolic disease..
and that IS A fact..
Move.. Connect.. and
Create in the action of
fearless love.. or basically
suffer the consequence of
Emotional retardation.. and never
ever developing a full humanity of
heARt.. SpiRit of heaRt ExpresSinG
powerful liFe giving EmoTioNs of Fearless
Love and all the pro-social nuanced emoTions
that are almost unlimited that can go with that in
a mind and body balanced sOuL or suffer the consequence
of being lost from the human potential that God as Nature
gives us from birth when fully watered by caring parents
and a village of balance in abundance from birth to
death.. the vital element is the watering and
the abundance of subsistence that can
be a fertile ground to grow altruistic..
fearless loving human beings who
have a balance of the divine
and masculine pARts
of God divined to
us all natural now..
or suffer the consequences
in misery and suffering.. ya see..
i don’t have to prove i am correct about
this as there is NO ESCAPING THE GOD OF
NATURE IN THIS LIFE OF ACTION/CONSEQUENCE
OF THE REAL DOING NOW OF KARMA NOW.. THE PIPER
IS GOD.. AND WE EITHER PLEASE THE GOD IN US OR PAY
THE PiPER.. IN SWEAT.. TEARS.. BLOOD AND AN EARLY
DEATH OR EVEN WORSE LIVING AS THE LIVING DEAD..
APOCALYPSE OF LIFTING THE VEIL OF IGNORANCE
OR APOCALYPSE OF THE REINS OF ZOMBIES..
a choice that must not only be made but one
grown from birth from a culture that is
in the kNow and FeeL of A Good
Cop Jesus real.. but sure..
it’s all confusing as
3500 year old..
warring tribal religions.. come
over to a new world of abundance
now named the U.S. oF A.. eventuAlly
the TrUth and liGht ReaL ruleS.. as Freedom
continues to be contagious and while i wiLL
not put that image of this hate and fear filled
Marquee on Facebook.. i will put it on my blog
as just more evidence of the bad cop Jesus that
still rules over heRe wHere A good cop Jesus
lives as me.. and otHeRs.. in New Jerusalem iN the
New ISraEL oF U.S. of A.. that truly means
all of God’s people Free..
slowly but surely
Fearless Love Grows
and Wins the War over
ignorant skirmishes like this
that litter the roads of my home..
here in God’s PoTenTial Paradise REAL..
oh yeah.. and by a way..
the shirt says NIRVANA..
YES.. A BAND.. AND TRUE
THE PLACE i for one LIVe Free
iN God Cop Jesus Heaven REALnOW..:)
Well.. yeah.. here comes a whole ‘nuther string
of Facebook memories beginning with this one
from three years ago in quotable text.. and yeah..
i know i probably share my own stuff more than
most anyone else on Facebook.. but it’s true i’m kinda
literally a big deal in terms of actual quantity of words written
and steps danced.. both in poetic artistic ways of being..
and considering how controversial my art could be
observed particularly in my very conservative
place of origin.. i never really thought
many folks would want to
associate with me as so-called
Facebook friends.. as speaking an
unadulterated human truth not tainted
by modern religions and cultures of dark..
isn’t exactly a way to win friends of group think..
but anyway.. i figured long ago.. this was an excellent
free storage disk in ways of Facebook for back-up of
writing the longest long form poem ever.. success
on that so sure it’s still all worth it..
as i’m doing this for the very
long term record.. not any
short term likes.. shares..
followers or whatever is the
flavor of the cultural moment.. when
you do something no one else has ever done before..
let’s just say sooner or later it stands on its own merit..
history proves this time and time again now.. even when
the record is as hidden away as Emily’s poems in a drawer
of years ago.. etc.. etc.. etc.. live.. lEarn.. and MAKE THE
DEAL REAL.. AND in my case totally for free..
as i’ve earned enough green backs in that
other prison way of life of culture iN 3
decades plus.. of my nose to thAT
grind stone.. to last me the
rest of my life of doing WTF
i care too.. FTW as Snoopy
might sTill say in a breeze
of ease.. figuring the system out
and making the most of it.. like using
Facebook for free hard drive space in this
online cloud with no sun or moon that can be
pARt of heaven noW2.. for those who find it..
seek it and Just do it now.. making it yes.. THE REAL DEAL NOW..:)
As A poetic memory from three years ago continues On iN Internet print..
“That is what I mean by rhetorical question.
It doesn’t take language to see it.
All it takes is perception.
Humans likely do not experience anything of
what some other animals do,
as they are ‘blinded’ byproducts
of collective intelligence.
I have a good memory
and can still perceive
part of that experience
before I gained
the ability to speak
as a non-verbal child.
That deficit in language
was a gift beyond
my ‘wildest’ imagination…
It is the beauty of poetry
that lets one see
a larger part of it,
if one is able to listen,
and hear the messages…
By the way, I use a clip from the movie ‘Contact’, inspired by Carl Sagan, to express this feeling of whole, in my blog over and over. It is my all time favorite ‘thought’, that expresses what I am saying, in a simple 10 minute video.
It is easier to visit that place than to live there…
That stuff that ‘Jesus’ and others (the combined effort of the folks that wrote the stories) was talking about that was not ‘adulterated’; commercialized out to patriarchs; is a Universal truth… NO ONE can change… it is just a matter of ‘tapping’ into it… that is the challenge….
There are no two paths that are the same…
and there are no two paths that are separate…
It is ‘questions’ like that…
that can take one there…
In a “Twitter-Verse”,
the Camel is bigger
than ever before…
and eye of needle is closing in…to closed…
The only escape now is language,
And by the way.. with this 2nd memory
from three years ago.. when i got the REAL
PASSION for writing poEtry.. before i started
DanCinG liFe as WELL.. i won’t just tale ya..
heaven is now.. AND DAM SURE WILL NOT
LIE TO YOU THAT iT is only after this liFe..
i’lLL show ya how i found it.. and
how i keep it reaL Now.. and no..
of course i will not necessarily be
able to lead you to the water of heaven now..
and sure.. i cannot make you drink a single drop
of water in the heaven i live in now.. but sUre..
i cry.. i try.. i just do iT.. REAL.. ALwAYS NOW..:)
(figuratively speaking, me)
To be clear…
I am using ‘Katie Mia’ as ‘a symbol’
for the Christ
that IS ALL
for the historical Jesus Christ
sacrificed on a cross;
‘Aghogday’ or ‘Aghori’
for what people describe as
or the ‘Anti-Christ’
The essence of all three
‘live’ in everyone…
whether one likes it or not…
I am fortunate and unfortunate…
to experience ‘polar opposites’
of these human
in one lifetime
How do I know…
35 hours of sleep,
no sleep in the last 5 of 40…
a little over 5 years ago…
who comes to this
which will happen…
as there are over 5 million
words that link back to it…
This is full disclosure…
Now, back to the message…
(‘All three’ still ‘figuratively’
‘speaking’ through me…)
One views a thirteen year old boy
practicing a song for weeks…
in preparation of
a talent show…
in middle school…
The Piano Music
inspires one’s passion
One is drawn
The passion filled boy
plays the song for others
inspired beyond what can
the boy cannot walk straight.
The boy thinks…
“Don’t they understand
how much this song means
“Who do you think
why should they
‘Only if you knew IT’
‘Only if you knew IT’
‘Only if you knew’…
‘I LOVE CHRIST..’
‘Can’t YOU SEE that…’
“‘HE’ is right here in ‘FRONT’
‘SHE’ lives in ‘YOU’…
See, I didn’t forget you…
the ‘Big J’…
‘I’ love you in ‘Spirit’
I couldn’t have done
Thanks for coming
Yes.. of course Whitman and the Gnostic Jesus were correct..
the Soul and God same resides in the Temple of God that is our flesh and blood..
and it does its best.. when wE aRE BaLanCinG iN miNd and boDy Yin/Yang way..
so yes.. if ya celebrate ya body.. Eclectic Electrically.. you miGht just
get the motivation to balance ya miNd and boDy aS onE
FORCE OF GOD HUMANIFEST IN YA NOW..
works for me.. anyWay.. and that’s
the waY i liKe iT2..:)
Oh Lord.. more on a wrecking ball
of hate here in a few.. as copied and pasted currently..
this morning on a couple of Facebook Friends pages.. ugh
yeah.. the wrecking ball of culture/religion is still in full
StRinG.. particularly as the terrorists attacks..
namely the one in Turkey.. sadly still wreck
on in fear and hate.. of ignorance in
religious and cultural human ways..
the REAL APOCALYPSE OF LIFTING
THE VEIL OF IGNORANCE.. IN ORIGINAL
GREEK DEFINITION OF THAT TERM.. is yes..
oh God2.. long overdue.. to save F iN Lives..
including species of Nature WHOLE..:)
Yup.. more ‘children of the
corn’ photos here.. from a
year ago.. too.. as yes2..
like the original movie.. IS A
dArk parody of sorts in assessment
of the hell pit falls of modern religion2..;)
And last.. but certainly
not lEast.. the wiNd
that’s got my back..
in putting me all back
togETheR.. after humpty
dumpty mE feLL off the
Wall of culture.. liKe A
loose brick.. back then
in 2008.. where none
of the King’s men..
eTc.. could put me back
T o G E T h e R AgaiN2..
noW in year ago memory
too.. child of the okRA..
wiFe Katrina/Isis iN
terms of basicAlly A
sAMe real Egyptian
myth of Goddess..
yes.. the wiNd beHind
mE.. toDay in new Jerusalem
now.. M I L T O N.. in the state
of Flowers Florida noW2..
iN the new ISraEL of the
Good old new world of the
Americas of Good Old U.S. of A2..
and if you want to call me the underworld
dude.. as Osiris.. go aHead.. sure.. Now i’LL be
an old bird-head..;)
Extra cool Seville Quarter
Frolicking Dancing Friend
Cortney shares a video
of a bird’s eye view of
an Eagle flying over
New World American
terrain.. and she
notes with sad
and unsure emoticons
she is still trying to figure
out what an ‘American Eagle’
is so i say in ‘helping
her out’ on this
That IS cool..
If humans could
Be more like the animal they ARE..;)
And in addition now i say..
Yes.. while humans certainly have a
tribal instinct.. of relatively small groups
of humans against other small groups
of humans to achieve basic subsistence
needs of nature.. fitting into their current
same evolved way to connect
peacefully to around 150 to 200
sets of eyes.. hips.. torsos and
other naked stuff dancing
all ecstatically around
the campfire at
night.. kinda like
what me and
Cortney and all
my other Dancing
Friends do at good
old Seville Quarter
on Thursday nights..
albeit we wear clothes
as there are way too many
strange unknown folks to
go all naturale as our
did all in happy
peace in balance
with Nature whole..
yes.. human nations are
insane at core.. as we just
are not evolved to live like this..
so that IS A source of all human
conflict.. so hope i just solved the
world problems but of course i didn’t
i only identified the problem.. but Nature
Will have her way with humans sooner or
later to get them back in balance with the
rest of Nature one as God’s creation LiVinG
on earth noW onE.. #NatureBoss bottom
Okay now i travel over to Ashe.. my old
friend who i worked with before i fell
out of the hell of work in 2008..
into an even deeper pit of hell..
and no.. she’s.. much much
younger than me..
by decades of
church story where
her Methodist Grandma
asks if Baptists get dipped
in water for Baptism like
a flea dip for dogs..
And i ‘somewhat’..
Not to change the subject
but the Faith Baptist Marquee
on Dogwood street that says ‘God
doesn’t recognize Transgender’..
Is Missing the FACT that some
folks are born with both organs..
Some folks Are missing a chromosome..
Etc.. Not realizing that religion still creates
ignorance and yeah.. wInks.. I’m talking to
the choir but additionally the closest thing
to Christianity before Constantine and his
Catholic cohorts got ahold of it in 325 AD
in the Nicene council is the Gnostic Gospels
uncovered in ’59 where the dude and no ONLY
begotten son of God was reported saying in metaphor
for the male and female as marriage of one human for
yin and yang male and female divine balance.. That yes..
‘they’ would make the apostle Mary Magdalene who was
Jesus’ most favorite apostle into male so she would be
‘worthy’ as we all know.. Women didn’t even get a right
to speak in church or vote in politics until relatively
recently since the REAL fall of humanity when
they started agriculture in storing grain ways
10 to 12 thousand years ago as this ends
the Grandpa Fred story2..
God a good mind to give
that Faith Baptist Preacher
A REAL lesson on God but
i tend to blow So-called Christians..Jews..
And Muslim’s heads off without owning or
carrying a gun when i do that so the singing
to your choir ends now..;)
And i say here in
addition.. in so
AnyWay.. i already did this
God lesson online with a Muslim
Friend.. i can just copy and
paste the link and voila here it is
gigoid.. my friend of liGht..
which means i can’t
add a dam thing.. and
trust me.. NoW.. noW..
that doesn’t often happen..
SO i’M GONNA COPY
AND PASTE THE
(except for your
iT SPECIFICALLY TO
YOU OF COURSE..
with direct link
WHAT I NEEDED
TODAY.. noW.. SMiLES..:)
Retroactive Prophecy by gigoid..
“The fact that we are human beings is infinitely more important
than all the peculiarities
that distinguish human beings from one another.”
~~ Simone de Beauvoir, “The Second Sex” ~~
“Anarchism is the only philosophy which brings to man the consciousness of himself; which maintains that God, the State, and society are non-existent, that their promises are null and void, since they can be fulfilled only through man’s subordination. Anarchism is therefore the teacher of the unity of life; not merely in nature, but in man.”
— Emma Goldman “Anarchism: What It Really Stands For”
Think about it, ffolkes. Humans, as they exist, are natural anarchists; we don’t do well with too much order. It’s too artificial, because the universe isn’t built that way…. Chaos and order coexist, side by side, connected, and we are merely a 3D representation of that quality…. THAT is something about which it would be well to have faith, for it is as much a part of you as water….
Until I knew there was more,
I wanted to know God.
They said he was a nice guy,
and would let me live forever.
All I had to do, they said,
was live my life for Him,
always living by scripture
cleaving only to his Way.
But, everyone I saw in church,
acted different at home.
Living wild, cussin’ and fussin’,
nobody lived like they said.
Still, I tried to be like Jesus,
he was sort of cool.
He never hurt nobody
and walked on the right path.
‘Course they killed him for that,
they couldn’t stand his example.
Turned him into a martyr,
hid his real words among their own.
Then I found the Buddha,
and met Lao Tzu at the gate.
They saw things real different,
showed me how to see straight.
Right thought, and right action
replace blind obedience and faith.
Reality becomes manageable,
fear retreats, the universe expands.
Brother John said it pretty well,
“Imagine there’s no heaven,
it’s easy if you try.”
Sounds like he knew why.
Day to day, life is grand,
we walk in eternal beauty.
Open your eyes and hearts,
find yourself already immortal.
~~ gigoid ~~
“We cannot put off living until we are ready.
The most salient characteristic of life is its coerciveness;
it is always urgent, here and now,
without any possible postponement.
Life is fired at us point blank.”
~~ Ortega y Gasset ~~
“All is mystery;
but he is a slave
who will not struggle
to penetrate the dark veil.”
~~ Benjamin Disraeli ~~
“It is the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance.
It is the dream afraid of waking
that never takes a chance.
It is the one who won’t be taken
who cannot seem to give.
And the soul afraid of dying
that never learns to live.”
~~ Bette Midler, The Rose ~~
“I want to stay as close to the edge as I can without going over.
Out on the edge, you see all kinds of things you can’t see from the center.”
~~ Kurt Vonnegut ~~
“The higher we soar, the smaller we seem to those who cannot fly”
~~ Friedrich Nietzsche ~~
“There is nothing more notable in Socrates
than that he found time, when he was an old man,
to learn music and dancing, and thought it time well spent.”
~~ Michel de Montaigne ~~
“To see the world in a grain of sand,
And a heaven in a wild flower,
Hold infinity in the palm of your hand,
And eternity in an hour.”
~~ William Blake, “Auguries of Innocence” ~~
And those words end the ones of gigoid for NoW
and the wise of those bEfore in retroactive
prophecy that still come beFore iN now..
and of course this tradition continues
online now.. wHere anyone
can be employed
Facebook Friend Rafiah
changes her cover to a
hand held pink balloon
imprinted with words
of “The Crushing
Weight of Reality”
over a city
now full of
thAT Force God..
A balloon of air..
above.. so below
and all around now..
of course.. yes.. easier
sAid than dONE.. no Matter
how poetic words WiLL Come..
Moving.. Connecting.. and Creating..
oF idols iN
Rose of tree
cross of LiFe
Life of cross
tree of Rose
iN idols oF
Creating and Connecting.. Moving..
Come WiLL words poetic how
Matter no.. dONE than sAid
easier.. yes.. course of
now around all and..
below so.. above
air of balloon A..
God Force tHAT..
SMiLes… my friEnd..
the only social animals
who do not seek attention
One can only love
another to the extent
they love tHeir self..
tHeRe is no love
oh.. theRe is
those timid souls..
anxious to attach
to another soul that
loves THAT SELF i.e…
When filled up with Love
of Self tHeir is nothing to lose
by Loving otHeRs.. now of course
there are those who love themselves
without the capacity oF empathy for others
but A question is.. do they really Love themselves..
and the answer likely is
ends at home
base of self and
expands out to all oF
Nature for greaTest Lovers
with onE noW
and never end..
allone.. a tree of
life one with spirals
GOlden that go on and
on.. and keep on LoVinG…
Selfish Love that never shines
a lamp of liGht.. kNows no Love
Signed by an
who is finAlly
a very healthy
level of self love
and the same for aLL otHeRs2..;)
And sure.. i am not afraid to admit
that i too.. once was jealous of folks
who loved themselves as much as they
loved others.. that liGht surely can hurt
of dark now..
of haters originate
from a place like that
of self loathing and
at the eXtreme
of that too.. oh..
so.. sAdly enough…
but the liGht shines on
for those who have the
liGht that shines iN first..
Yes.. my friend.. lots
of folks are shocked in
real life to find that folks
like Lady Gaga off the stage
are rather introverted and reserved
too.. in person..
my cousin has
been playing in public
in bands in front of up to
thousands for decades and
he too is as almost shy as my
sister who has
when it comes to the
vanilla Walmart trip..
But of course i am Bi-polar
and can go from one extreme
to the other depending on the stresses
of life.. in addition to that Asperger’s
thingy where interestingly the two
conditions.. one that can be
wild and crazy super
keeps me in check
or should i say i keep
my self in check and yes
i do with great effort exercised
not to go one way or the other too far..
Anyway.. we have this Christian religion
that professes in fundamentalist ways among
the 2.2 Billion folks who believe that way among
those to the extreme that they are born unworthy
in someway.. so the timid soul is grown in pews of
guilt.. where anything less than Virgin can be unworthy too
like sex soils a female body part and not a male one simply
cause one is in and one is out.. in a book that says it is this way
where actually in primitive cultures the more semen that is added
in the act.. with more prospective sires is seen as self esteem that
the coming child to use a pun too i guess.. will be greater wise for
effort of more
but when everyone is
getting that much attention
there is not as much need as
yes.. the group is the selfie and
the selfie is the group sAMe..
to hold life sacred no matter
what seems to be a best way
to go for me.. i like my
alone time and
like my time
in the crowds
of others.. as long
as i get a portion
of both.. i AM A oKay..
true.. i’ve seen both sides
L i TeRally and figuratively..
And a best way to control most
anyone is to make them feel the
lesser.. and sure that is what organized
religion is the best at doing.. overall.. sAdly2…
And nah.. what a person sees of
me on the Internet is not necessarily
me depending on which color of
chameleon i’m wearing
the now they
see me.. now..
Let’s.. just say
it makes life
me and a
i AM the
of I actor..
this is my play
alWays and i
give and share it..
but as any REAL ZEN
master WiLLs.. i regulate
emoTioNs.. and integRate
senses like a well tuned Ferrari..
and sure i can say that from the
other side of a Moped with
than sitting for me..
the wheels are no
oh the ease
of aging gracefully
my friEnd.. and that
is what i hope for you
too.. my young friEnD..
with an autistic fLair now
for so much more to come..
Let’s ‘face’ it.. we couldn’t do all this
if we had too much social interaction..
out.. i guess..
and that’s why i
rarely comment here..
as i will suck the energy
out of a concert hAll if given
the opportunity to exhaust the crowd..
as a miX oF Y i..;)
For me primal urge says iT all
for the steps of DancE and the
words of SonG iN PoEtry.. for me2..
and truth be tOld
when i’m in the
bar and more
than four girls
when i dance..
the attention does
make me uncomfortable..
and when i say i would suck
the energy out of a concert hall
or Spring Festival like i have in
the past in dancing my own style
on the sidelines.. i’m not talking about
being on a stage.. as i need very little
attention from others to get by.. but
yes i do need people.. and i am human..
nice talking to you Candice and keep on writing
as i kNow
and FeeL you WiLL..
DancE and SonG in voice..
feet.. and words.. makes me happy
no matter if i am around thouSands
of people or the Nature in my back
yard that only plays with me silent
in winds of echoing sAnds..
bliss.. as leaves..
samE as aLL the colors
i paint with.. my friEnd..
noW as air and water sAMe2..:)
As standing technology..
if given the opportunity to
choose a Star Trek Phaser
or.. an iPhone6.. in the 60’s
when i first saw the phaser
as opposed to ’16 and the
iPhone 6s.. i’LL go for
Apple for art..
beam me uP
as heaven is hEar..
@lEast for me REAL..
don’t need no starships
for the journey free beyond
within real with Nature FREE..:)
Yep.. tHeRe iT is aGaiN..
‘the evil eye’.. that in
Turkish terms means
the eye who looks out
to make sure we are all
reminded that no child oF God
iN creation iS greater than the other
than any lesser of a gRain of Sand..
And my watch for the day online in
text ways has run out for the day..
as sleep calls for another
Helloooooo! Beautiful message..
With God, all of us stand
equal as his children..:)
iN return i say..
Hi.. Helloooo! To you too.. Himali..
As i start to snooze but am awakened by
Yellow Boy and see your nice words of appreciation..
So now i wiLL sleep well and good morning to
you in the Arab Emirates..:)
have a blessed slumber..:)
And finally i say..
Thanks and that was kinda weird as your first
comment was greyed out where i couldn’t like it
but of course i do.. May your day be extra Happy..:)
And here i say..
Yes.. the Facebook
at times grays out comments..
it ‘thinks’ is spam.. and apparently
it didn’t like the emotion enhanced
way Himali.. spelled helloooo..
true Algorithms don’t
no robot will
ever genuinely have
them.. and it is questionable
whether some humans will gain
all human emotions too..
goes on as war
of liFe from
sea to sea
and shore to shore
of greater poTenTial
oF Love and more on that too…
Yes… speaking of ‘the message’..
here is where i got the idea in the
Earth Store last Sunday
regarding this message
originating in Turkey..
Sadly ironic it is..
tHeRe IS A Evil eye..
and then therE is just plain
Evil more than sadly enough..
But tHeRe iS Love and that iS
all we ever truly own and take with
us.. the Love we give.. so those who
hate and fear.. are truly in ligHt now as
dArk thE ultimAte losers of the UniVerse
and those who walk as liGht and loVe are
here to help bRinG them out of thaT dArk..
where the Son of Man is just a metaphor of
essence wHere God as Nature in man and
woman becomes a Loving Force of Hope..
Love in Kind of Unity.. that kNOws and
FeeLs no separate EmoTioNs noW
as SpiRit of HeArt.. from aLL
otHeRs iN a BaLanCinG
CreaTinG way oF
with the rest
and the metaphors
for this wHOle State
oF human being wITh
the rest of NatURe one
and sAMe as metaphor
as GOD.. sTiLL range
from the Adam of the
Kabbalah.. the reborn
of Christianity.. to the
Atman of the HIndu..
and to role models
like Jesus.. Buddha
and all those in real liFE
who become noW onE Fearless..
Hopeful LoVinG Force oF God
whOle wE as children of God REAL..
and that pARt mY FriEnds as oNe wiTh
Nature is the natural experience of most
animals except for human animals.. as our
written language.. collective intelligence.. and
diversified cultures of differences have created the
barriers that bRinG uS the illusion that wE are separate
from the whOLe tHAt iS God ONE wE.. anyWay.. liFe goes
on dArk and liGht and yes.. the hues of colors and shades
of Grey ‘tween bLack and WHiTe.. and bEyond a Rainbow
of hUman potential for hopeful fearless Love in KiNd NoW..
and this Energy as Force of BeinG HuMan is contagious..
the more of who win this Fearless LoVinG way of
BEinG.. the more wE spRead it to oTheRs and
iT GroWs the way continuing toward a
much more peaceful world as REAL..
and sure tHere WiLL alWays bE
a mix oF dArk and liGht but
may you fiNd yourSelf iN
the place of Fearless
Love in Heaven instead
of that other place of Fear
and Hate in what can be either
or in this Earthly Dimension one
or the oTHeR noW.. the paths
diverge and come toGeTHeR
and LiFe does go on.. and on..
iN liGht or dARk ToGETheR noW..:)
And what i just said bEfoRE..
UniVersAlly expressed in
the Video heRe bY
Rihanna as she
rises from an
Abyss to oneness
With the Universe God
one and sAMe.. not everyone
WiLL catch it but not everyone
has bOldLY gOne wHere most have
not dared to Go Free WiTh GoD aLL..
the iNner UnivErsal Journey that
tRuLY BRinGs iT aLL noW onE..
anyWay.. i’LL use this
new version of
twice in the
coming oF A ‘Beyond ‘
681st MacroVerse.. later..
and sAdly those NoW who
continue to separate in duality..
the oneness of God.. Will name
this video evil by the end of the
day in conspiracy theories wHere
they are too afraid.. sadly.. to let
all cultural dualities go.. and come
to the realization that all iS GOD
and wE aLL are one WiTh God..
sAdly most have just forgotten
through the barriers of
division that is
culture.. and trUly
iT iS possible to remember
and be one wiTh God aGaiN
as aLL oTHeRs too.. ONE.. but
the Matrix iS ReaL. and to E-scape
it TrULy takes the bravery of a real
liFE NeO.. noW.. the invitation remains
open for those who are brave enough
to come toGeTHeR noW aS oNe Force
aS Fearless Love
iN CouRage oF kINd..:)
“Loyalty to petrified opinion never yet broke a chain or freed a human soul.”
~~ Mark Twain ~~
~~ Inscription beneath his bust in the Hall of Fame ~~
i’LL take the first quote..
run with it and say..
ain’t that the truth..
is what bonds
human as a group..
we are social animals..
that is the reaLITy of culture
and we get used to it.. and it
becomes home.. and often
comfortably numb.. or
to the group
think oF aLL..
the catch 22 is thAT
IS A pArt of Nature and
we are Nature in Social
Animal form and essence too..
except for those of who are cats
and can go our own way.. aWay
from what hurts.. from hurts
so bad.. and sure one can
do that in the good old
but in some
places the action
of different leads to
even the potential
of death.. yes.. we
are the lucky ones who
can escape an insanity
for harm in many cases that
is Nature whole as DArk
or liGht that comes with
noW as is.. nah.. while religions
may be used as extra inspiration
for aggression.. violence.. wars
and even potentially world war III..
it is the haves and have nots as all
ways that make this reaLITy real as
Nature WE.. if there were no religion
the something other than religion would
take the place for inspiration to kill to have..
until we learn to once again.. give and share
more than we take.. but.. we are not evolved still
to do that with more than around 150 to 200 sets
of eyes that are homogenous as us.. so the insanity
goes on.. and An only escape truly possible iS iN the
moment of now.. wHere iMAgiNAtiOn.. iN MoVinG.. conNecTinG
and CreaTinG ways makes Neo possible in a world of cogs who
remain in the machine as is.. as extension of Nature as us.. out
of balance.. where culture is the virus and we are the experiment
in both scientist and guinea pig ways.. trULy it takes genius WiLL
of heARt.. as SpiRit iN HeArt.. regulating that EmoTiON
real.. and integration of senses at hand that are wE..
in MiNd and BoDy Balance SoUL oNE WhOlE..
to make the great escape
in the insanity of
out of balance
now.. bottom line though..
iT is possible for those who leARn
else thInks WE
are doing as group think..
wE win alone allone with Nature REAL..
yes.. action consequence NATURE REAL..
THeRe is no E-scape without a art oF heARt..
and the talking heads speak to this well in
metaphor too.. in the SonG you
quote too.. as Nature
E-scape back FReED..
wHeRe wAter and AiR
Free FloW uS iN ZonE noW..:)
Anyway.. enough writing for the
day.. now for sacred and Holy
Thursday R and R activities
for me Now to E-Scape
this digital keyboard
of IS A
DancE and SinG
liFE sAMe as iT
ever was iS..
Earth Flow of wE..
and i’LL do thAt greaTEst
toniGht at Good Old Seville
Quarter too.. WitH folks who
are lEAst College age young
enough to remember what iT iS to
a 116th week
of A Thursday niGht
of DoinG JUST that..
LiFE IS AlWays an action
and consequence of liGht
for those who lEarn it ReaL
as a practice oF liGht over DaRk
iN WhatEver F iN TruTh juSt F iN Works.
to Do iT
of the sAMe old
phrases so noW
to Dance NeW but
yes.. as aLWays
i’LL be back lATer..
aT aRound 3 AM oN the wee hOur
of Friday 7012016.. with fun dance
photos.. iN thiS BEyond MacroVerse then..
thaT WiLL bE published WeLL bEforE Then2..:)
And as alWays Facebook
Memories in MacroVerse
forms of Essence..
And thE EviL
eYe aLL MiXeD..
iN ‘BeYonD SuBliMe’..:)
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