Pain is an interesting thing..
is not interesting
at all.. perhaps they
are working.. working..
just a part of a machine for
another.. day.. starving or even
starved for emotions.. moving..
connections.. and creating..
yes.. i’ve been without
all this.. except for
the food part..
as i always
to eat.. but something
to eat is rather empty
too if one cannot enjoy
the food.. i’ve been there
too.. hmm.. i took a nap
on my mother’s recliner
and what i learned
is the best
way NOT to aggravate
Arthritis in the neck
is to keep one’s head
straight ahead.. and never
ever get tense.. stay loose
so muscles do not constrict
the degenerating parts
to come greater
i am reminded
clearly of the side
of the head that feels
a little like a big toothache
on the left side of my entire
head.. as those nerves and muscles
in neck are connected all around the head
too.. anyway.. i have the will to make the pain
go away.. i would explain how i could do it.. if it
wasn’t entirely a non-verbal process of power inside..
and i can bring the pain on at will as well.. but of course
i choose the former.. and get my head straight and continue
zero tension.. fears.. anxieties of life as comfort comes and
stays again.. my friend.. The Body keeps score.. it really does..
as science shows there are receptors for happy neuro-chemicals/
hormones in peptide way in every cell from head to toe.. as vagal
nerve equivalent of Kundalini rising or falling from Brain to gut
spreads the good news positive feelings… or bad news
negative feelings.. inside.. outside.. above..
so below and all around in almost
infinite connections from
neurons to cells
as the body
positive or negative
feelings as a way
of future life.. now..
more for those who can
escape the almost unavoidable
constant sometimes fight or flight
stress that spells the insanity of modern
society.. away from moving.. connecting..
and creating.. in touchy feely human way..
Sure.. just more evidence that some
folks live in heaven.. and
hell can be very
difficult to escape..
glad your pain is subsiding
friend.. and sleep is certainly
a recovery way for that too..
and with more
the creativity chemical
but the trade off for less pain..
is fair enough.. overall.. i guess..
Emotions motivate me for creativity
from sadness to joy and more than that..
Pain forced me to write for 33 months..
can’t say most of it was creative..
but lots of facts explored
in 5 plus million
words to that
and before that
for 33 months i could
not write.. or read.. or look
at TV.. a computer screen
without intolerable pain..
and nature or even
too.. or even
yeah.. those were the
hardest months of all
in Fibromyalgia.. Severe Arthritis..
Sjogren’s Syndrome.. Dysautonomia
Coat Hanger pain.. and sure some
more odds and ends of extreme pain..
including the worse pain known to mankind
from wake to sleep.. aka Type Two Trigeminal
Neuralgia that i’ve oft talked to here too.. before
of course.. and no.. no drug of any kind.. not even
opiate associated drugs would touch that pain
AT ALL.. AND I suppose i could HAVE gotten
MAD at Nature.. but nah.. i just whined and
couldn’t cry with no tear of relief..
for two years.. until
everyone got tired
how much i needed
a gun to end it all..
and i remember how frantic
i was one morning when i couldn’t
find our Cat Arthur as he was kinda
my only nuance of any kind back to emotions
and i couldn’t help but to have the kind of human
empathy.. of just how bad my wife.. sister and
mother would feel if i ended my pain for good..
and bad the same.. Catch 22 from
hell and back
and i suppose i am
just as joyful as hell in
heaven that i can make this
FUCKING PAIN GO AWAY..
WITH WILL MY FRIEND.. AND WILL..
OF THE RELATIVE HUMAN FREE TYPE
IS THE MOST POWERFUL FUCKING MEDICINE
IN THE WORLD.. sure.. the higher power of God and
or nature in us same.. for those of we who find a
way to tap it.. make it real.. and practice
a healing way of life that has
no equal in the world
that is weaker
than the power..
the potential of human
will.. Free Will is the Will
to control how one feels and senses
in mastery and integration of that whole..
And with that.. Heaven is now.. as it ends
and begins in how we feel and sense the
world at hand now.. with no one really
who can add anything to that
for those who
master life.. my friend..
Anyway.. again.. there is
always hope even if one can
never feel that emotion when
there is WILL that NEVER EVER GIVES UP..
AND TO END HERE.. my great aunt Jettie
at 94.. as crooked and crippled as any
old person one might see..
with arthritis from
head to toe..
could make her
pain go away at 94 without
any drugs either.. she gave me
a hope of that potential umbrella
of life to me then.. and now it’s
open wide my friend
as Joy Lives with
Human Relative Free WiLL..:)
Well.. my friend after reading
the entire blog post beyond
what was on your Facebook page..
i can certainly see your truth here of
how hard it can be to connect to other human
beings in this brave new world we live in..
but nah.. i think you are far from
alone.. alone.. in this problem
of not having any intimate
friends in flesh and
blood life who
with and be all of who
you are without personal
judgements against you once you
be you.. and after working eventually
25 years at the same place.. generally
speaking with the same folks.. generally
speaking.. with the last year and a half spent
in a leave status.. as i rarely ever did a sick
day.. and barely used my vacation days..
as workaholics real is what i was then..
working almost every Holiday for years..
all my friends i ever had were at
work.. working at a Cheers
like Military Bowling Center
for almost two decades
was a delight for
real.. as a person
on the Autism Spectrum
who wanted to connect oh so
bad.. but as soon as what ran
like a freight train out of my mouth
in flights of thoughts from A to Z..
that was that.. and sure
it was hard to find
but at work i could
smile with my contact
lens eyes and
teeth.. and that
was enough for folks
to smile back at me and that
was enough even if we never did
anything outside of work together..
sure.. my wife.. alWays my saving grace
from being oh so.. all alone too.. at home
my friend.. And when i left work.. sure.. i was
the commodity that lots of folks looked to.. to
help get the job done.. but close to zero contact
to the rest of humanity was what i had then for
66 months to come.. and i was too ill to really
connect to anyone anyway.. even if
they took the first step my
way.. my friend..
Anyway.. this ain’t
gonna help your flesh
and blood loneliness at
home.. and you don’t really
know me in flesh.. but it is fair enough
to say you touched my heart with
this story.. and i cared enough to
leave you this long note..
and sure.. i’m even
named a legend
by the general
in public now after
5555 miles of doing
that in the growing on
34 months now at the
end of this month since
i got well.. and my 101th
month celebration now since
i died as life.. but i still miss the eye to
eye connection that i no longer have with
shades my friend.. of Bowling Life then..
so i made up for it with words and
steps the best i can.. best wishes
to you.. just know that i can
relate and care about
Dance Shirt for the 115th
week of Dancing at Old
Seville Quarter fUn
on Thursday night
is ‘LOL NOW
out Loud and Crying..
both.. are beneficial to
the hUman condiTioN..:)
i guess i should
use a selfie flash..
as all that’s left in ‘this’
photo of me and A dancing
friend is the Cheshire Cat Smile..
and Jesus F. iN Christ.. the place
was almost crowded enough.. not
to be able to dance.. but i did.. of course..;)
And i suppose one might ask.. where Does
the Cheshire Cat get a smile that never leaves..
even after he or she dies.. if he or she cares enough
to leave a record of Love that can be freely shared for
perhaps a thousand or more years to come in server
way.. well for one thing.. to do it for free these
days with no expectation of materialistic
reward.. including followers.. likes and
shares in mega epic way..
one must have
and be the
liGht of Fearless Altruistic
Red Hot Unconditional Love
NEVER EVER JUST LUKE WARM..
O R C O L D AS COLD CAN BE…
and yes.. overall with a few written
exceptions in the New Testament per
swords for peace and even thinking
lusty thoughts is a sin.. the Jesus
is a very good role model for most folks
to walk in his shoes.. So when i say Jesus F. In Christ
or FucKinGod.. per me in Christ as F for Fred..
or sure Fred yoU seeK iN GoD.. yes that
is the eXtra cool word play of
turning old lemons that should
be sacred and holy anyway in terms
of lust and love.. to yes.. Sacred and Holy
words of i.. as i make it all holy and sacred
in liGht and dArk.. wHere no human is excluded
gentile.. Jew.. Mexican or Muslim.. male/servants/
female no more excluded all are FReED toGeTheR OnE..
yes Fred is Freed too.. in case ya ain’t got the nows
or propensity to wanna or will and can figure out
my Word Play that is eXxXtreme at nows..
so sure.. i’LL title this next Macro
Verse of the Longest Long Form
Poem eva of personal SonG
oF mY soUL.. aka mY
personal bible that is
4 times as long at least
than the entire old and new
testament bible and 40 times longer
than the Kuran.. ‘Jesus F iN Christ2 noW2’
as yes.. when i was a young man.. FeeLinG
outcast from society and down in the dumps and
afraid of stuff too.. including being oh.. oh.. so lonely
without Friends.. i could always find that friend in Jesus..
who was reported as an outcast too.. as sure there are lots
of outcast priests in the Catholic Church who did overall hone
in and scribe and sure in someways create the role model Jesus..
and they still do.. as every Sunday the Gospel that i have been
sharing here regularly for months now and will continue to
do.. they pick out the best parts of the bible.. old and
new.. and leave the violence.. raping.. and killing
little children of other tribes out.. and sure it’s
the same way the nice Muslims do too..
they pick and choose the good parts
and ignore the bad parts of killing..
raping.. and such as that of the
opposing non-believer tribes
they war against out in day to day
smiles of what one of my best online
Friends.. Muslim from Pakistan Rafiah
says as i WiLL quote here from Facebook
now with my response.. as Rafiah says
23 feels like 364675576… unsure emoticon..
yes in reference to her birthday on September
23.. where she will be 23 born in ’93.. then..
And i say..
It gets better..
And she says..
And i say..
And we continue to live
happily ever after.. as i go to
Catholic Church every Sunday and
she now celebrates Ramazan as a Muslim
for 30 days or so from June to July of 2016..
our common bond is Love and Rafiah is one
of the best examples of someone one could
say walks in the shoes of Jesus that i have ever
ever come across in my life.. including Himali
who was raised with Jainism.. and that
is why we are three best friends
as in practice we really
walk in the
Jesus.. except me
as older fearless man
who has already faced death..
i am the one out of the group
who expresses much dissent over
what i believe is harming folks all over
the world.. and in my eYeS noW the sword
of Jesus is powerful authoritative learnED
words and the not the metal of steel that folks
live and die by now.. as is clearly the case still
all around the world in continuing wars that are
unjustified and terrorist attacks Jihad style in
response as protecting territory for
subsistence and common
cultural ways of
bonding as is what
humans do of course
as pARt of tHeir God
Given Nature as WeLL..
i seek in God to understand
WHY FOLKS DO THE THINGS
THEY DO.. SO I CAN BETTER
TOLERATE AND ACCEPT THEM
NO MATTER WHAT THEIR DIFFERENCES
MAY BE FROM MINE.. AND TO UNDERSTAND
AS WHAT I ALWAYS SAY IS THE ANSWER TO
THE WORLDS PROBLEMS IN MOVING.. CONNECTING..
AND CREATING WAYS.. particularly touchy.. feely..
warm creative parental and child play like
the child who is carried to the breast
in carrier as the indigenous
peoples did/do when they
do/did gather the berries
of the wild.. science
proves this out too..
in the following linked study
as shared by Facebook Friend
Suzanne.. as linked here again..
with the most important paragraphs
highlighted here.. in quoted way.. now..:)
The title says new study indicates extravagant affection in infancy leads to healthier
happier.. more relational moral adults.. and sure i’m thinking no shit Sherlock
ya had to have a study to kNow this.. what the FucK… aren’t
humans.. human anymore.. and here are
the most important
Parents should hold, touch and rock their babies and children and be responsive to their needs.
“What parents do in those early months and years are really affecting the way the brain is going to grow the rest of their lives,” explains Narvaez, “so lots of holding, touching and rocking. that is what babies expect. They grow better that way. And keep them calm, because all sorts of systems are establishing the way they are going to work. If you let them cry a lot, those systems are going to be easily triggered into stress. We can see that in adult hood — that people that are not cared for well, tend to be more stress reactive and they have a hard time self calming.”
Narvaez say free play inside and outside is important.
It is also important that children have a positive,
warm environment inside the home.
“That they feel like they belong — they are part of the family unit or the neighborhood community and part of that is to have a lot of activities that you do together,” says Narvaez, who recommends going to the park or playing a game rather than spending time on a smartphone or in front of a TV.
And for those parents that need a break, Narvaez says a community of caregivers is important. That means grandparents, aunts and uncles and friends should play an active role.
“We need to, as a community support families so they can give children what they need,” says Narvaez, “we really didn’t evolve to parent alone. Our history is to have a community of caregivers to help — the village, so that when mom or dad needs a break, there is someone there who is ready to step in.”
“The research also showed that when children weren’t given things like affection, free play and a warm home environment, they turned into adults with decreased social and moral capacities.”
So sure the start of real Good Cop Jesus
walking in the shoes of altruism
starts with touchy feely Loving
parents.. who make life one
of moving.. connecting
creating warm and
and when my Grandmother
on the paternal side told my mother
in the nursery that my Grandmother.. ugh..
actually ran as her money making business..
Helen.. you cannot pick up that crying child and
hold him.. if you expect that child not to grow
to be a spoiled brat.. as sure the estrogen
dripped off my mother’s fair and
lovely face.. where she was
could feel no more love
than that for a crying child
in warm and holding touchy
feely loving ways.. and sure
the vicious cycle obviously goes
on.. as while my father was dam
sure fearless enough with a mom
raising him like her.. sure this one of the
reasons he told my mother she would have
to get a job to make some big bucks if he was gonna
stay.. as money was more FucKinG important than
raising a child at home.. and okay.. this is where
Muslim/Indian cultures are still better in some
ways than American cultures
as they do promote the
at ages 0 to 3..
and hopefully they are
treated with Love in their
marriage so they will be able
to do the same for their child
as Rafiah says Inshaa Allah
that means God Willing..
as God Willing does
mean God Willing
as Nature evolves
as God in us
just an external
else not directly connected
to us.. so yeah.. while terrorist
activities in Jihad way are a dirty
dark part of their culture no less
than unjustified wars from the
US side that kills over 100K
innocent Muslim folks..
and there are
lots of other
issues.. it is a big
plus that social roles
are as they are too now
in gender way.. where usually
the mother gets to raise the child
with touchy feely ways of being..
in play as well.. with less technology
than we have today.. and sure that is
changing.. it does explain why Rafiah..
and yes Himali.. and sure as for decades
folks referred to me.. at work and such
with the general church public saying..
Fred.. you are the best example
of a Christian i have ever seen…
weLL.. the truth is.. my mother when
she raised me was then the best example
of the good cop Jesus who ever walked
the earth too.. with a tear in my eye now..
nah.. it is not the bully boys in church and
mosques that make the difference or the husbands
who beat their wives here or over there.. it is as
alWays the Mother mostly and the way the culture
raises the child as a village that says whether
or not another Good Cop altruistic Jesus
will come again into the world..
so in Catholic Church
when i see the remaining
M O T H E R’s L O V E..
glowing estrogen fair/dark sKin
more giving Loving hugs to five..
six children more.. who are stay
at home mom’s i always kNew this
to be true that this was/is the best way
to create a new Jesus now.. and since the
60’s and the pill.. no matter how hard a pill
of Nature it is to swallow now.. our culture is at
least as FucKeD uP as Muslim cultures and in some ways
more.. in producing adults who don’t give a FucK about
other adults.. and with the exception of the ignorance about
why people are different.. including homosexuals in Muslim
cultures.. and all the discrimination.. and killing in suicide
bombings and such as that.. there are those
Rafiah Jesus’ that still do walk the
earth over there too.. and
the HImali’s of India..
where gender roles
allow more women to stay
at home with children.. but sure
that is changing too.. the best thing
my mother did for me.. like it or not..
is stay home with me from ages 0 to 3..
as that my friends.. is why you and yours
may see a smile from me online as Cheshire
does in dark of death.. when altruism comes alive
in Jesus online
F. iN Christ2 NoW..:)
But yes.. as alWays there
IS A dArk and liGht side.. sHades
of grey.. and hues of colors in all
philosophy and science too.. if
all human cultures continued
to BE able to reproduce like
this.. we would destroy
the earth species.. as
we simply consume
as it may seem
all the suffering and
misery we see around the
world in ways of cold hearted
selfish people are leading to fewer
human beings overall.. where science
even shows that in a few decades the
earth’s population will peak out..
and perhaps fewer species
will continue to go
extinct as the
footprint of human
in numbers at least
stabilized on the earth..
when one looks at the biggest
picture of earth coming back from
space it is clear as Mother Nature God Pie
that human cultures as whole are cancer
upon the Earth as living God whole
here.. and you know what..
my life would surely
be more warm
in an extended
village raising a family
as i am a very nurturing person
like my mother too.. as learnEd
man from birth too.. but nah.. God
has other plans for me.. as humans
have a responsibility to God oF aLL
in altruistic way of not just ensuring our
comfortable survival but the comfortable survival
in empathy of all of God’s evolving continuing creation
now.. jUsT now.. and that is the complicated pArts
of Pie iN GOD existence.. orchestrating the
entire symphony oF
whole God Play to
work in as GOD
Verses of Help
to God’s WHOLE PLAY..
SO I WORK.. I CONTINUE
TO WORK FOR GOD WHOLE..
as just another Jesus F. iN Christ2 noW..
“He who possesses art and science has religion;
he who does not possess them, needs religion.”
~~ Johann Wolfgang von Goethe ~~
“Nature is not cruel, it is, pitilessly, indifferent.
This is one of the hardest lessons for humans to learn.
We cannot admit that things might be neither good nor evil, neither
cruel nor kind, but simply callous
— indifferent to all suffering,
lacking all purpose.”
~~ Richard Dawkins ~~
for humans who
are fully human
and not missing
half of the Altruistic
pie of Unconditional
Love that make humans
the most successful primate
of reproducing a primate species..
as science shows now.. as WeLL..
Supporting evidence that
Richard Dawkins has no
real soul as Nature
Love as science also
shows now.. fails when
the scientist is born with two
high powered working parents
with not much time for touchy feely
warm Love play.. and the little lover
becomes a little professor.. instead.. too..
Yes.. science has finally provided evidence
that the Refrigerator parent theory is real
and ever present.. also truly associated
with the rise of so many people
who fail in full flesh
in Loving.. Caring.. ways
of the altruistic human at its
best iN totally caring ways of
Nature best as manifest
a village raising
that child from birth..
And here’s Richard’s other
famous Twitter Quote
And i quote..
@RichardDawkins @AidanMcCourt.. I honestly
don’t know what I would do if I were pregnant with
a kid with Down Syndrome. Real ethical dilemma.”
Richard says in Twitter response..
“Abort it and try again.
It would be immoral to bring it into
the world if you have the choice.”
Richard.. truly one of many
with less than
half a soul
to suggest that
a smile on a Down’s
Syndrome Child is
not as FucKinG
rid of religions
that do support
the golden rule
of Love.. there’s a lot
of dirty water in religions..
some that kill.. some that
discriminate.. some that
torture.. and many
but the problem
there is the same as
always.. a select few who
were not provided touchy feely
Love from birth as the village at
best raises a child.. and that still is
reflected everywhere.. in big black
books and scientists who fall far
short from having
soul that is real
as a Mother’s hug
for a child who is not her own
but is all’s own.. as altruistic Love does..
when watered as Garden from Birth..:)
Every day of my mother’s Life
of Caring Love makes Richard
a FucKinG ignorant Liar as Nature
is only as cold and indifferent like
Richard in Humans now STiLL
or Rich in Love.. Truth iN LiGht
in human beings.. as not watering
a Garden of Love.. will make.. vs..
human relative free will of GroWinG
that Love so tall.. that not even Nature..
God or whatever one may
call that Force.. at its
that child give up..
And that my friend
is real magic.. Human Natural Love GroWN..
that is never ever indifferent NoW@allREALitY..:)
Humans are part of
Nature.. some of them
care with meaning
it is not
illusion or a God delusion..
it is real.. so noW in common
logical terms with common
sense too.. Richard
IS A FucKinG idiot..
but we will let him
live.. as we
ignorance of what Love
can be when nourished from Birth..
on the continuing Unconditional
Love OF A Smile of a Down’s
adult who pays
it forward noW
THAT smile that
grows to potentially
as butterfly affect of
real effect saves the FucKinG
human species whole WITH LOVE.. iN pARt…
as grains of sand.. all oF it counts
to hold uP a potential
i can feel this
sTiLL around the World..
and that my friend is why
i have hope.. ’cause Love
is real.. and never ever
AS HUMANS CAN
AND WILL DO BEST..
IF THAT GARDEN IS
AND THEN ON..
in smiles of a Down’s
child too.. my FriEnD..
IN my mind Richard is not
much different than Adolph Hitler..
he just doesn’t have any political pull…
to enforce his Eugenics Rule.. except
for those who he can convince that are
FucKinG noT human enough to figure it out on tHeir own..:)
I have a cousin who was destined to have a healthy child
but her God fearing parents forced her into a heavy
handed decision to abort the child.. truly
sad as my cousin wanted the baby..
but mom and dad had
the TRUMP card then..
as it didn’t fit the
overall family plan..
Then my cousin had a child
who was profoundly disabled.. not
much different than a Down’s child
and my cousin Loved that child just
as much as my mother loved me from birth
as well.. and that child is a young woman now
who is a happy blessing to all who she meets
in the world now.. helping her father in his
business the best she can too..
BOTTOM LINE MY FRIEND..
FEARLESS AND UNCONDITIONAL..
NEVER INDIFFERENT IN THE HUMAN
BEING WHO IS NATURALLY GROWN THIS WAY..
Some people suck but sure there
is usually a reason
in the garden
of Love that
with love sAMe..:)
Ah.. the rises and pitfalls of being
a social animal with an opposable
prehensile thumb capable of writing
a written language.. thereby.. recording collective
intelligence.. and creating culture in all its heterogenous
and homogenous ways of sames and differences noW
in one melting pot of what is.. hmm.. well.. science
shows that some folks are more liberal and not
afraid of change.. the nomads as it were and
is still for some.. and there are others who
are more closed minded and tend
to love more the
in Ted talk YouTube
way by Jonathan Haidt:
‘The moral roots of liberals
and conservatives’ that provides
evidence that these differences among
humans are innate and Universal
across species.. and this of
course means there
are some very
and Center of Saudia
Arabia.. where these innate
differences do not match
the culture at hand
that is… hmm..
nice to have a choice
to move at least.. and sometimes
much easier said than done.. even
in the Paradise wHere i live
way.. my friend..
anyWay.. it’s kinda predictable
that ‘this vote’ was almost split down
the middle.. and while i generally understand
that it is somewhat of a conservative vs liberal
issue.. it gets complicated like it does in the U.S.
as of course there are concrete reasons why
some people are more afraid of others
than others are..
i am not afraid
of the weathered black
man who walks the parking
lot of bars.. as i too.. walk like
the weathered Tiger who has
fought tooth and nail to live..
there is a non-spoken respect
in male way of that that some folks
have no idea exists if they haven’t been
on both sides of the coin.. my friend..
it’s called privilege.. both innate now
and earned.. in yes.. nature.. nurture
including challenge too.. and sure.. the outcast
understands better once he or her is secure in his
fate.. the other outcasts who are lost and alone where
her or he were before.. the fact is as evolution shows.. generally..
primates like humans who are social live best in generally
speaking homogenous groups where most everyone
looks and behaves the same.. and that can
range from a Bonobo free for all love in..
to a covered mosque from head
to toe.. but yes.. it is part
of the social animal
rules as generally
speaking too.. in all the history
of humankind now too.. to be outcast
historically meant to frigging literally starve to
death.. be beaten.. tortured and killed and that
remains the solid truth still in some countries now..
i stand on the side of freedom wherever she blows..
however.. i live in a nice homogenous neighborhood
where generally speaking everyone fears hell.. has guns..
and generally speaking will not kill their neighbor over fear
of both God and State.. and then there are others who kill
for God over both fear of God and state as same.. a
strange brew we humans are when we
live in big countries and
are no longer
truth is.. deep
down we never were..
some of us must conform
and now.. some of us no longer
have to.. and we go it alone with
strong dissent as the same infrastructure
of society that causes wars.. is the same
infrastructure of society that allows freedom..
as always a mix of dArk and liGht but sure if
God came to Earth he or her would have to
be a Devil’s advocate for all ’causes as to be
the advocate of humankind whole is never to be the same..
in either what the other considers as daRk and ligHt.. i have
full freedoms in life.. there is nothing that i desire that i do not
have.. and for the rest there really is no choice but live and let
live or die as is.. but sure.. i dissent as any Epic Devil’s Advocate
as these days
we can get away
with it and even smile..
on and on and on..with
the fAct NoW thAT
we can is worth a smile
in my way.. my friend.. to
smile for standing tall for
who and what you are and
to be able to fully express that
IS A rather new and exciting way
of Being human different.. wHeRe this
human experiment goes next.. will never
for that reason
and that reason allone..
D I S S E N T is POSSIBLE..
wHere all humans revel free..
long live the dissenters on both
sides as they be who
same as different…
Living on the ‘Wrong Planet’
online where there were very
few dogs and most all cats
who thought and felt
different.. WAS the
to be a
my friEnd.. oh the
dissent.. oh the beauty
of dissent.. and mostly
moreover all the change
that comes WITH DISSENT.. MY FRIEND..
ON BOTH SIDES NOW OF INNATE HUMAN NATURE/NUTURE..
and YES2..The full spectrum of ‘tween beyond Rainbow sHades too..:)
i just came
here to say
hi.. i Love
i can.. and i
want to.. SMiLes..:)
AS i continue to write this
680th Macro Verse of the
Longest Long Form noW
poem ‘eva.. approaching
4 million words totaL Now..
as SonG oF mY soUl that
iS also my own personal bible..
as i kinda know what the other
one says by heArt and have heard
it God.. so many times beFore but true
the esoteric hidden teachings of the New
Testament in conjunction with hidden Gnostic
found Gospel Text.. like the Gospel of Thomas
in ’59.. makes a story that makes much more hidden
occult and esoteric sense.. with mystery revealed on how
to attain heaven now.. not just the fAct that it is possible to
attain now but like a camel going through A eye of needle tHeRe
is work to do to get there.. but as is the case in cultures of old to
go this way of the different instead of same.. means deep metaphor
with hidden meanings that the literal minds that do not interpret right
hemisphere brain ways of being.. will not get too offended about iT and
FucKinG literally kill you for doing something new and so exciting in
finding and practicing heaven now.. for example.. in studying the
thousands of years hidden
text of Gospel of
Thomas it is plain
to see that sacred marriage
is the combining of the above so
below in duality of opposites.. including
the divine feminine and masculine marriage within
each human being.. nah.. Jesus wasn’t even about
some paper of marriage.. he was about becoming
balanced as human being.. in all aspects
of Yin and Yang existence as the
Easterners further than the
middle east in South
Desi way did
in Asia fuller
ways of being then…
yes.. it does look like overall..
Jesus was more of a humble esoteric
occult teaching Yogi.. of the mysteries
of human existence in balance one..
with Nature whole.. however.. of
course he did not write a God
dam thing in his life.. so
after 40 years
of oral tradition
whether we have any
words of the myth and
legend of what Constantine
and the Catholic Cohorts and
Roman Empire whole to expand
with Mithra Sun god religion as Soldier
Sun God of Universe whole.. so Constantine
could erect a Sun-God-like monolithic statue
himself and be worshipped in megalomaniac way
then.. as folks like TRUMP DO LOVE TO DO FOR
THOSE WHO SWALLOW THE SAME HOOK..
LINE AND SINKER OF SNAKE
DONT’ CHANGE THAT
MUCH BUT THEY STILL
DO.. WHO WHO WHO..
YES.. everyone too…
nah.. if THAT JESUS CAME
TODAY.. NO ONE IN SO-CALLED
NEW CHRISTIAN CHURCHES WOULD
GIVE HIM MUCH RESPECT.. AND NOT REALLY
LIKELY EVEN A SECOND LOOK BUT DISGUST OF
WELL.. YOUR ARE HERE.. BUT WE ARE NOT
GOING TO HOLD YOUR WEIRD
LIKE that so Jesus
would have to shake that
sand off his bare feet/sandals
or ignore tHeir outcasting looks..
and other ways of non-verbal language
from head to toe.. of dissent for change still..
as same as way way back then.. per the
Legend of what could potentially be
as myth as well as the original
or whatever who
supported the same
Golden Rule as Buddha
unknown apparently to him..
or perhaps that is the way it
eventually got in the big black
book somehow.. still attributed
to a man named Jesus now whoever
he fully was then.. anyway.. bottom line
is back in those days you didn’t dissent
from the norm without actually SUFFERING
SERIOUS CONSEQUENCES UP TO TORTURING
DEATH.. and that is the reason Christianity continued
to grow as whole.. as it was enforced by consequence
where it stayed and grew.. no different than still the
Muslim way that on the one hand says there is no
compulsion for religion but on the other hand
will cut off your hands and more
if you dissent in some cases
and go another
way.. of simple
human God given
inherent rights of
Freedom.. for Independence
day now.. and not two thousand
years later on a Theater screen
still.. where so many
for who and what
they reAlly could be
in much fuller human potential
if set free from the chains of same
of Centuries old still… ugh. God dam..
i’M glad i AM an American.. as i can
be free and just do it in SUPER EPIC
WAY.. WITH THE SUPPORT OF GOOGLE
TOOLS like Blogger Blogs and
youTube Free.. Search
Engines that help
peruse the real
bible of human eYes and
eaRs.. FeelinGs.. Senses..
aLL eTc.. all around we now
forevermorenow.. oh.. so cool..
OUTSTANDING NOW TO LIVE
REAL IN THIS LITTLE SLIVER
OF HEAVEN IN FULL DARK AND
LIGHT UNIVERSE AND BEYOND NOW
JUST NOW.. yes.. free iN TrUth and liGht..
and sure if we have altruistic love REAL AS
OUR HEART.. OUR SPIRIT EXPRESSING
HEART REAL AS MIND AND BODY SOUL
IN BALANCE WE WILL DO WHATEVER WE
CAN TO HELP ALL OTHER HUMANS REACH
THEIR GOD GIVEN HUMAN FREE POTENTIALS
ALL IN GLOBAL
EYES AS WE AND
THE REST OF NATURE TOO..:)
Oh art.. from the beGiNinG.. so LonG…
of hUman noW.. you SinG so sweet Now
thE dreAMs of God within.. ah.. SonG..
DancE.. and poeTry of HeARt sAMe
iN Words oF spiRit eXpreSsinG
iNner EmoTions Free.. seNses
aLL otHeR FeeLinGs oF BeinG
uNleashed and reLeased NoW
gAMes too.. as somE
of wE aRe arT FeeLeRs
more than system thinKers..
as science scribes observable
realiTy in systemizing way.. but Art
SinGs.. aLL art froM MusicK to SonG
to literature to theater and yes MTV2…
A SonG.. A DancE.. iN PoeTry oF MorE..:)
Anyway.. born as a Hyperlexic late
speaker precious reading child
interpreting all symbols
of the Environment
in input morEover
out put way for
too.. IT’S NICE
TO GET IT ALL OUT..
as behind these eYes
a UniVersE oF a Life Experience
of input potential and realized possibilities
from birth to now.. iN total synergistic
human individual affect and effect
IS A Brand New experiment
iN those of us just old
it aLL as givers
WiLL do like no other
Aeon of Humankind to
date.. as the input.. simply
was NOT AVAILABLE back
then.. and there are ways to
SUPER GET IT OUT.. TOOLS
OF THE MODERN AGE OF
wHere the machines
are no longer
slaves in a singularity
of giving sharing way..
also kNown and feLt
wHole as online GroWinG
more as unaBridGinG hUmAN
Bible as seconds synergistically
become forevernow.. iN server way..
THerE is noThing to be afraid of Free..
iN.. uNless one enJoys a priSonPlaneT
of Ignorance in fear of dArk and cynicism
of new ways of HUman Freedom’s LiGht
And TrUth oNly dreAmed oF beFore iN Chains..:)
Yeah.. after experiencing 9 on the list
and 10 more.. some that are so rare
spell checker cannot spell.. i can relate..
And sure i’ll copy and paste this from
Friend Glenn’s page even though
he was not the originator of
and the such are among
the hardest challenges of life
to deal with as the empathy of
others is often invisible as well..
for those who do not live in invisible HELL…
“Coming from personal experience. To those who don’t
know the whole story. Until you have walked in our shoes
and have felt the pain we feel, keep your cruel comments
and opinions to yourself. Ignorant people can be so cruel!!
I’m posting to stop people from mocking and laughing at people
for things beyond their control… Not one of my Facebook friends
will copy and paste (but I am counting on a true family
member or friend to do it). If you would be there
for me no matter what then copy
and paste this. I’m doing this
to prove a friend wrong that
someone is always listening. I care.
Hard to explain to someone who has no clue.
It’s a daily struggle being in pain or feeling sick
on the inside while you look fine on the outside.
Please put this as your status for at least 1 hour if
you or someone you know has an invisible illness
(IBS, Crohn’s, PTSD, Addiction, Alzheimer, Anxiety,
Arthritis, Cancer, Heart Disease, Bipolar, Depression,
Diabetes, Lupus, Fibromyalgia, MS, AS, ME, , Epilepsy,
hereditary angioedema , Migraines, Hashimotos, AUTISM,
Borderline personality disorder, M.D., D.D.D., CFS, Histiocytosis,
O.D.D, A.D.H.D, RSD, RA (rheumatoid arthritis ) PBC, RLS ,COPD,
MCAS, EDS etc.)
For those who don’t know
how to copy and paste on FB…
hold your finger on this post until
you see copy, hit copy then go to status,
hit status a new page comes up, hit into
the white part and paste will show up and you’re done.”
And per last note/Facebook status thingie..
The photo collage below that wife Katrina made
me for Father’s day.. included a couple of blog posts ago..
without specific mention made per the photo.. is from the
Fall of 2009.. where my Uncle took me to see
my Father and his twin brother.. as there
was no way in hell i could drive to
Tallahassee.. so we had a quick
lunch.. and nah.. no real
indication i have 19 invisible
disorders in this photo.. including
the experience of the worst pain known
to humankind.. with a grin pasted on..
baring my teeth.. without shades..
tolerating light long enough to
look like a ‘normal’ person
without shades in
a family photo..
that yes.. i’m using here
as case study evidence for
what was said in the previous
Facebook status.. and this was actually
technically a few months after i officially
retired disabled from Government Federal
Service with 25 years of actual paid active
service.. of which the last year and a half..
was in a paid sick leave and annual
leave status.. as i rarely ever took
a sick day in the 23 years before
i got sick.. or even visited a
Doctor once.. as i was the
epitome of health before
never ending chronic
two years then of
flight or fight work
my life totally away
and made 66 months of
Living invisible hell as real
as hell can get.. even technically
one can say on the scale of pain
worse than what can be burning fire..
Anyway.. i Loved to work.. and used to
have dreams that i could do any kind of
work as for the first 33 months.. i could not
use my eyes and ears effectively for anything
without intolerable pain.. and finally tolerating
extreme pain looking at a computer screen with
light turned all the way down in brightness
and contrast.. a few inches from the
screen as prescription lens focus
only intensified the pain..
to intolerable levels..
so yeah.. i did that
in writing millions of
words for pain escape..
yes.. for 33 more months
then in a total of 66 months
before the God of Nature took
all the pain away at the end of
July 2013.. on or about the 22nd
of that month as is still complete
in written blog record of course
too.. everything in remission
for Doctor’s purposes except
for the Autism in Asperger’s
way and Bi-Polar Disorder
that went undiagnosed most
of my life that i have dealt
with mostly in extreme
lows and a few periods
of uncomfortable highs
after long periods of flight
or fight stress in school and
work.. i work like an Olympic
Athlete to stay balanced.. and can
do it as long as i am the one in control
of my life.. and not many folks can understand
this challenge unless you have walked in shoes
as incredible as mine.. in both liGht and DArk of LiFe..
Seriously.. not likely that many folks have survived
the invisible hell.. i for one did for 66 months..
as i could not find even one person online
who even had experienced type two
Trigeminal Neuralgia from
wake to sleep at
you are the
only one who
can relate to your
own living hell as death as life..
But i never gave up.. AND I’M HERE..
iN SUPER EPIC FucKinG Style.. for
the REAsON OF REAL HELL AND HEAVENow..:)
first of all.. like to say
i received both of your emails..
a day late from Germany.. but never
the less received them.. this time on the
first try.. with sMiLes.. and ah.. you’ve brought
to my attention several of my special interests..
the weather and how that affects happiness
and overall distress… as well as work
and politics which of course are
all interconnected in ways..
as where the weather is
mild and comfortable
in general of course people
are happier with less distress..
more likely to socially cooperate..
and if they are so-called ‘savage
enough’.. they will even dance naked
freely around a comfortable fire and
sea breeze at night.. ah the potential
bliss of the human condition.. all
covered up in some places too..
But the human condition as
nicely illustrated in a Ted
talk by Jonathan Haidt
on YouTube that i will
share with you again..
if i haven’t already shared
it before.. says it all in terms
of human internal conservative
and liberal weather in nature way..
of open vs closed minded thinking
and doing life in exploring the liberal new
or staying the same conservative way of life..
And then add in the difficulty that modern global economics
continues to bring of Machine and Information Technology
doing what humans used to do as comfy life-long social
roles in jobs that are now done by the machines that
replace human ways of body and mind by
Information technology where humans no
longer need apply as nicely addressed
in this video that i may have shared
with you before.. too.. at least
if you saw it on
Anyway.. these dreams and fears
some folks have of a New World global
order.. are not a part of human nature
at core.. and the UK exit from the
European Union phenomenon
mostly as polls show still
over fears of migration
of African American
and now Syrian
same as the
fears of conservative
leaning folks here in the
U.S. about Mexicans and
Muslims in a change that is
too much for them to handle
in ways of fears that their social
roles and freedoms of same may now
have to change.. change.. change.. oh
lots of change.. so hard on conservative
leaning ways of nature and nurture of
human beings.. and that increases with
age.. but not necessarily as the mind and
body that continues to adapt to challenge now
and change in the environment over a lifetime
doesn’t stagnate as much into a closed minded
and body way of being.. Einstein.. a great organic
specimen.. as well as study of his organic brain
after death showed no visible signs of so-called
aging.. and of course the physical effects of
exercising an entire life accommodating
much challenge like swimming across
a bay towing 60 boats behind a
person in age decade of the
60’s is well documented
in case studies like
Jack LaLanne.. the
father of the gym
rat age in the United States..
an incredible individual for case
study.. who died at age 96 from
basically refusing to go to the doctor
early enough with pneumonia.. sure
a life of feeling bullet proof as the regular
pasty middle-aged football watching mall
sitting pot-bellied 50 year-old can be ran
around circles by a 70 year old man who
keeps the wild side up to speed as nature
will have with all wild things.. who must
work to eat in sTiLL.. both mind and body
balance way.. across the life span..
and yeah.. in my personal
experience.. a lead life
guard i managed
with my belly
leaning more and
more over my belt then..
as Athletic Director in
Federal service way
at the Navy Station..
much more than now me
at close to 30 Lbs heavier
than then.. as Ape vs..
yes.. MORE Now..
anyWay.. this lead life
guard at 65 years of age..
did ballet and construction
work.. a Vietnam Vet.. and
retired Parole Officer after
30 years at that and no.. not
a body builder dude.. but he could
dam sure out swim and outrun every
dam college sitting student life guard
out of the late teens to early twenties
group.. and this guy was the most balanced
and smiley happy guy i had ever seen for a 65 year
old dude.. and it reminds me of his fellow 65 year old
maintenance worker who was a retired master chief
in the Navy.. who used to say he needs to act
like a 65 year old man.. he acts like he’s
still a God Dam teen.. but the fact
was he had more energy than
a ‘normal’ teen today..
and a secret i was
yet to earn..
in doing the
same without lessons
in ballet and martial arts
like dance.. where Gravity is
now my best friend.. and i Fucking
float on land like a bird out of a cage..
and i have the advantage.. as i ain’t doing
this for a competition like the lead life guard
did in theatrical position of ballet.. just for fun..
just for Jonathan Seagull joy to see just how much
higher i can fly than the now before.. as everyday i
innately.. instinctually.. and intuitively.. earn and learn
a new move.. i never FELT BEFORE.. and that is key..
FelT.. AS FEELINGS THAT ARE ALWAYS SENSORY IN
NATURE AS WE FEEL THE SENSE OF IT.. ARE
EMOTIONS SAME.. WHERE MOST FOLKS
THINK EMOTIONS ARE IN THE
HEAD AND NOT FROM
HEAD TO TOE..
and the truth and
light is Emotions and
Senses swim from head to toe..
and can be like the water and
the air.. of bird and fish in human
same.. AND YES.. this is where only
poetry can describe the bliss i feel.. my
friend Leah.. out of a cage and aquarium
into air and water same.. so yes.. in just 34
months of doing this.. i have attained a state
of happiness.. that only Yogi’s and such as that
have worked for in instruction way and lessons
all their life.. my advantage is leaving all mechanical
cognition away.. and getting in touch with the source..
the force.. that is all God inside.. outside.. above.. so
below and all around.. AND NOW after chilling in a
100 degree day.. back in ’07 with Dysautonomia..
which is the ‘anti-christ’ way of being
of a modern Yogi today.. as my
central nervous system
was shot.. and
could no longer
even flow the
blood around my
body in heart rate..
and blood pressure balanCinG SteAM
so oh my God.. i hated all weather then
’cause i could not integrate any senses
or regulate emotions or even experience
hardly any emotions at all.. MORE THAN
JUST A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN.. A HUMANITY
BREAKDOWN ONE AND SAME AS A DIRECT RESULT
OF A FUCKING SOCIETY AND JOB GONE INSANE WHERE
i was slave to both the mechanical cognition of computers
and the social requirements to supervise anywhere from
30 to 130 employees.. depending on if i was filling in for
the Department head too.. or helping him do the
fine details of his job too.. the same administrative
office.. use to have 40 or so employees down
to 4 or 5.. and the big square brain
with screen of extension of me
sitting on my desk 24 inches
from my eyes.. 8 hours a
day.. of sitting
was no Fucking
escape from all the
stresses coming from
all directions everyday..
anyway.. i wasn’t cut out for
that and i really don’t think most
any human iS in terms of social and
mechanical cognition multi-tasking
every work day all day long.. so yes..
as you relate about a book talking
to happiness being a vocation..
Happiness is my way of life
now.. and i find it in
way i like
to do it.. no more
and no less than the sweet
spot of now.. and you know there
are two extremes of human personalities
the schizoid type that one could see in that
guy ‘Fnord’ on the Wrong Planet that expressed
little to no human emotion or magical thinking
on the Wrong Planet.. and that Woman
‘Cockney Rebel’ who literally/figuratively
imagined that she
Rebel.. but she
could express emotions
and emotionally connect to
people where that was totAlly
out of Fnord’s Ball park of human
being.. AND OF COURSE HE BELITTLED
anyone with imaginary beliefs.. but the
difference and bottom line is.. they were..
happy in their life.. MUCH MUCH MUCH
MORE THAN HE WAS BOTTOM LINE..
for people who scoff at human
creativity.. they must have
never experienced the
joy that human
bring in moving..
connecting and overall
creative ways of being human..
i remember still clearly when i lost
all my emotions but fear and constant
adrenaline response to stresses of life
that eventually made life one big
stress of death as life..
after close to
40 days with
no sleep on suicide
watch.. so Fucking exhausted
and dead inside beyond what i could
ever humanly imagine was possible..
and watching the schizophrenics in there
with their imaginary lives and grins
from ear to ear.. and being
so fucking jealous
that i wasn’t
like that too..
and so fucking logical
in fucking hell then that
i had to find someway to kill
myself to escape all the pain..
Well.. with great effort i’ve earned
my way to crazy with exquisite logical
control.. and i’ll never go back to sane
as long as i am the one in mastery of
regulations of my emotions and integration
of my senses.. as i always feel like i’m on top
of the world.. never wear anything but shorts
in 18 degree weather and can stand any
temperature extreme where some folks
say Florida is one of the hottest
uncomfortable feeling places
of all in combination
and heat together
around 100 degrees
mostly in Summer heat
index too.. BOTTOM LINE MY
FRIEND IS HUMAN POTENTIAL
IS CRAZY GOOD FOR THOSE BRAVE
ENOUGH TO PURSUE IT AND BECOME
SUPERMEN AND WOMEN TOO.. no different
than Jack LaLanne.. or the lead life guard where
i worked.. Too Fucking amazing for other folks to
see genius from head to toe.. and that’s the
thing.. almost everyone on the Wrong
Planet thought they were so fucking
smart.. ’cause they had one
type of IQ overall that was
verbal.. with no idea that
Standard IQ is mostly a cultural
invention over the last century or so..
and before that life was fucking magicK
from head to toe.. in a dreamtime of real
among our smart head to toe ancestors..
per the American Indians.. and
still the folks in South
who are named
as the Invisible People
as they and Nature sAMe
as God ARE ONE ARE ONE
and SO ALIVE.. AND FREE..
NEO IS REAL.. WHEN HE OR SHE
EARNS HIS WAY FREE FROM A PLACE
WHERE HUMANS NO LONGER NEED APPLY
WHERE THE LEFT AND RIGHT FIGHT FOR WHAT’S
LEFT OF SOCIAL roles today.. two-spirit Sacred
Clown/Warrior/Shaman IS Always open to apply
but one must earn/APPLY tHeir individual
way in a vision quest
head to toe
in this social
role of the ages
of the sages.. in human
archetype as real as ever now
when come to magic fruition
in a kind of intelligence that
defies all stand IQ..
averages that sadly
apply to the human
condition across the lifespan
now.. wHere Heaven and Neo
are as real as FucKinG Jesus2..
or she never
had to leave..
as Heaven and Hell
and oh God never
here are different
OF THE HUMAN
CONDITION STILL NOW..
anyway.. very inspiring Email
from you today.. Leah.. in almost
everyway.. and seriously my friend..
every God Dam thing.. from bLackest
dArk to BrighTest liGht inspires the
of me sTill
Day iS every FucKinG Day
inside.. outside.. above.. so
below and ALL AROUND NOW..
Haha.. i could name all of this the
modern online ‘Jesus
might take me
serious and shoot
me with an assault rifle
so i think i’ll stay all comfy..
KATiE MiA FredericK!iI..
as the Jesus meme carries
too much fear and hate still..
sAdly enough.. no way FucKinG
real Jesus could make a long life
identifying himself as the real
YOGI-LIKE dude he was then..
And FucKinG survive with
all the imbalance
ever with the
aid of killing tools now..
Only the clever fox or
thief in the night
yeah.. ya have
to wonder WHAT
WOULD THE FOX SAY..
wINks.. or the
with the nuts
all the predators with clever ease..
calling A pursuing cat on
a cell phone.. saying
i got all the
N U T S now..
see ya later.. Princess
Leah baby.. in online style..
And i must remember that your
vocation is editor.. ha.. imagine
the headache i could give
an editor.. with
my style of
if it was
to be presented
for print of
hehe.. ain’t.. online fine..:)
as yes the
of Zombie Apocalypse
is real and groWinG iN
colder human emotional
ways of empathy of heARt..
SpiRit FeeLinG and
heArt and the
as the real Terminator
age of hUmans becoming
more like machines and less
human in ways of mechanical
cognition over social empathic
cognition is a science proven
phenomenon now.. where
BRains are no longer
heArts.. and liFe
is more a less
shoot ’em uP
Video gAMe as
where the shooter is
unwitting subject and
scientist one in a brave
new experiment that can
be as cold as ice
Humanity that once
made the human race
the greaTest race on earth
in ways of Love in social cooperation..
Independence day comes with love and
never shoot ’em ups alone.. Society is
sick as a self-fulfilling experiment that
has never been done before…
a common bond of
Love over alien
i think there
IS A movie associated
with that coming soon
to a theater near a
me.. with WiNks
and grins of human FReED..:)
And as the title
does suggest a year
ago memory of one of
the most emotional
“He who controls others may be powerful,
but he who has mastered
himself is mightier still.”
Ah.. to avoid anger.. fear.. and hate..
oh.. the one who is all powerful with
FEARLESS KIND HOPEFUL LOVE..
And this reminds me of Deeprak Chopra..
and how Richard Hawkins couldn’t make
him Angry but Trump was the card
who made him lose his
cool.. recently i hear..
But what do i say when
i see Trump.. i see a spoiled
brat who was bullied who became
a bully.. he makes me giggle sad as i
know his weakness is
a heart that will
never feel or
long ago that
never came back
or even stArted BeFore..
my Friend.. anyway.. much
Wisdom delivered today.. as a
Novel just waiting behind every
aphorism of true my friend but
back to this one in liGht.. another
memory of Captain Dick..
i kid you not that
was his name..
Dick.. me a run of
the mill.. civil servant
serving up shoes at a Bowling
Alley paid by Uncle Sam.. and
a rather short red faced man comes
in with his kids.. looks around and sees
all the lanes are filled and says.. i need
a lane now.. don’t you know who i am..
i AM THE FUCKING CAPTAIN HERE.. NOW..
and i say well yes my friend.. you
are Captain Dick and my
name is Fred.. let’s
see what i can
do.. to get
you.. your lane
‘Caesar’.. and no
i didn’t say Caesar.. i just
looked at him like any humble
servant was/is that saw him as the
same kind of little scared boy that
someone made fun of long long ago..
perhaps because his name was Dick..
who kNows.. anyway.. i went down
to some cool teenage easy
going dudes.. explained
the asshole situation
and they said sure
Fred we will
his family the
lanes.. man you.. kNow
i have about a thouSand Bowling
Alley… two decades.. Cheers like
stories i could share.. ranging from
Bowling Leagues watching pornos then
on all those electronic Bowling Screens
after operating hours.. to me and the
waves and such as that but anyway
back to this story.. behind almost
every bully is another story
of where they were
bullied and turn
to a liFe of Vengeance
of anger and hate..
with fear.. instead
of kind and hope
with Love.. the
true master iN Victory regulates
emotions.. integrates senses.. NoW
and Loves with Kind and Fearless my friend..
total tolerance and acceptance in understanding
why some folks live in purgatory.. hell.. or heaven..
but surely the answer comes in WHO HURT YOU..
WHO HURT YOU.. WHO HURT YOU.. AH.. FORGIVENESS
AND FEARLESS KIND HOPEFuLL LOVE IS
THE ANSWER iN Victory THAT ALwaYS
END FOR THOSE
WHO NEVER EVER
GIVE IT UP AS REAL LIFE
JOB MIGHT INTIMATE NOW..
or who kNows Now perHapS noW
More dARk inspiration here from
an Internet Illuminati Conspiracy
ways of course.. sadly enough..
Dude.. you kNow.. there is an old testament
that supports rape and killing children
of opposing tribes.. including hate
over homosexuals and
there IS A
YOU KNOW THAT JESUS
STUFF that says gentile or Jew..
servant or free.. woman or man
no more.. hmm.. i suppose you
ain’t got the new message yet
huh.. cAlled the New Testament
that reduces 613 old Torah
to 1 that says
as you and
do to him or
her or whatever..
no harm that you
would bring for yourself
Loving all of God’s Creation
same as you as child of God..
let’s just say i have the authority
to paraphrase.. while you are attempting..
in this sAd anti-christ full of hate and fear
video to bully this young man who is
clearing defending gentile.. jew..
servant or free.. woman or
man no more.. this means
‘queer’ too baby including
you as you dam sure
ain’t fooling me
and sure.. Jesus
was ‘sweet’ too..
at least the way
the homosexual priests
and artists portray him as
a female with a beard as approved
in artistic way.. if you don’t support
any human being YOU FAIL.. NOW..
i HAVE RIGHT A
TO DISSENT.. YOU
CAN DO A LITTLE RESEARCH
ON WHO i REALLY AM TO
have a nice day
with your thousand
or so views.. Love wins
with 225K views or whatever
the other dude is receiving.. so have
a nice day with all your Google pennies
for fear and hate.. without hope of kind..
iN fearless Love.. God sent me a raven that
never needs to buy food or drink.. so.. i my friend
have been able to write a PERSONAL NEW AGE BIBLE
that is already coming AGAIN OVER
4 times the size of the
whole Bible.. 40
times the size
of the Kuran..
no Google pennies
to ever survive for perhaps
a thousand years or more..
this is my only invitation..
for you to join
me over tHeRe
or you can
stay here in purgatory
ranging to hell in fear..
and hate.. or antichrist
now.. or do the Christ
thing that is all Hope and Love as KiND..
Have a great day my friend.. but
it’s pretty obvious you live in hate
and fear for Google pennies and
that truly IS A sad way of Life.. IMHO
and nah.. a thief in the night wouldn’t
be nearly famous enough online
to garner a hate video like this
from some little scared boy
who was verbally abused and
named whatever in school..
Thus who protests the
most and all.. you
and time again….
AND YEAH before you
start suggesting i am strange
(note: to readers of comments
as the dude with the video
ain’t ever now gonna be
able to match wits with me..
trust me.. whole FucKinG
public Interent audiences
with 140 to 160 assessed
IQ’s could not do it.. as i AM
bullet proof in so many ways..
like T I T A N I U M NOW REAL..
out of parenthetical statement
now and back to what i said)..
AND all for writing like this be
forewarned.. that i too am Bi-Polar..
AND diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome..
and have already been to medically
assessed hell with a pain that
lasted 66 months named
type two Trigeminal
than the pain
like you who cannot
respect the so-called Sacrifice
that Jesus made in a three hour
or so stint like this.. who forgave
and humbled himself among thieves
on other crosses.. saying they know not
what they do.. i understand you know not
what you do too.. and i am not here to send
you to hell although i will judge you with
common sense/Love and logic.. i am only
here to invite you to heaven.. but
tHeRe baby.. IS A place
and fearless love
reigns.. and from what
i’ve seen of the other dude HIGHER…
you are attempting to bring down
with your one or so K views that
might make it to 30 if you can
attract enough haters over
here now in continuing
fearful and actually
ways in comparison
to the Unconditional
Love of the Jesus with
remember.. gentile or jew..
servant or free… woman or
man.. no more.. this is just a wake
up call for you.. if you have eyes and
ears to see.. as seriously.. if you actually
know what you are doing.. the Jesus ain’t
gonna be very happy with you after all is said
and done.. always now my friend.. always now..
Heaven.. Hell.. or Purgatory.. your choice alWays
noW iN Anger.. Hate.. and Fear or the other
place of Hope.. Love and ALWAYS KIND..
A NICE NOW..
WITH BIGGEST WinKs
And SMiLes aS WeLL..
And oh by the way.. considering
you are gonna be way to worn out
by the end of this to research who i am..
i’m just a New Age FreeST Verse poet as such
who IS A.. aLWays looking for A dArk to liGht prompt
to add to the literAlly assessed actual longest Long
Form Poem ever.. now approaching 4 million words
titled ‘KATiE MiA FredericK!iI’.. yeah.. i believe in Loving
until they hate
me.. funny how
it seems to alWays
turn out that way..
JuSt liFe iN
A Play of GoD
mY FRiEnD aS wHole
of DArk and liGht and tween
sHades of color and hues
bLack that sAdly..
i as humble servant
of God see here sTiLL..
with a real tEar in thE Bare oF God..
Ha!.. WE SHALL OVERCOMB..
AND SpEAkinG of thaT BeYond
Independence Day.. Resurgence..
and more on that later.. of course..;)
And thaT iS wife Katrina’s
WTF iS he F iN Going to
L O O K..
as yA miGht
iMaGine.. i AM
alWays fuLL of the
surprise that comes
Oh.. so much
wRiTinG and Store
DanCinG.. the Bed
IS A SinGinG to
me to come
So after watching Independence Day..
you may not kNow the Resurgence
but i saw it yesterday.. and what
about Beyond Independence Day..
you know that day that the
right to life and liberty
and the pursuit of
Happiness was secured
for us.. of course unless you
were woman and black and
homosexual and in many cases
suffering from an illness or enduring
some other kind of human disorder or
even just different genetic way of being
that set you a little too far from the perceived
norm of the vanilla flavor of the day.. well the truth
is even the potential for Independence day was so
far in terms of close to two centuries away even a
potential.. depending on which weaker or perceived
norm of human reality one is born into then.. ah…
and finally after a common goal of good was
sorta won in World War II.. other than
the slaughter of over 90K
folks on an
no choice but
to die by the hand
of US and newer technology
then that in final assurance of
mutual destruction among the big
powers of killing machines left a lull
of peace overall long enough with some
serious skirmishes of course.. for the
‘smaller’ folks to rise up and
make their desire for
equal rights under
the law made
and it worked
for many.. and finally
as we are moving past
an African American President
we are now coming into a female
President.. unless the devil has his
overcombing due.. which ain’t likely as
even George Will is leaving that
amazingly ignorant crew now..
and of course that generally
speaking is all about the
hate of the different
like banning all guns..
it’s just a fact and an ongoing
fact.. that we have the land of the
brave and the free.. and still the land
of the extra cautious to down wrong paranoid
among us who deep down are just plain scared
but anyway.. as evidence provides for earlier
in this 680th macro verse about a Jesus2..
it’s pARt of human nature and human
nature is part of Nature that is
God one and same..
so who ya gonna
call.. nah… Ghost
Busters ain’t gonna
change human nature..
nature.. and or God by
words of criticism or even
magic incantations.. anyway the
good news is the African American
Dude and all his friends in low and high
have paved the way now for some expanded
health care albeit sure the prices continue
to rise.. even for me.. with all my Gravy
Train Government benefits as well..
coming from the Golden
Handcuffs of Government
employment and near
of my relatives have
been able to get married
now.. even in the overall hate
state of Governor Rick Scott..
who still denies folks who make
under 11K any health benefits
at all.. of course along with
all of his dark dark anti-christ
nature fear and hate friends..
some of whom have the audacity
of fear to call themselves fundamentalist
Christians.. which is sadly also part of human
nature.. nature and God of nature too sAMe.. so who
ya gonna cry too.. ya just gotta keep trying as that
is what nature does best.. never ever give up per say
of reptilian brain of survival sTiLL now.. ah the common
enemies/enemy of life..and or the coming love/lovers of
life.. two paths to go.. wHere the open minded liberal
Good Cop Jesus mind and body soul will go the way
of Love your enemy.. turn the other cheek when at
all possible.. gentile.. jew.. servant or free.. woman
or man no more.. all with equal opportunities for
life.. liberty.. and the pursuit of happiness.. yes..
Good Cop Jesus is like A founding father of the
best of what the United States
has to offer as greatest Good
liGht cop Jesus..
there is the
dArk Bad cop
Jesus who still reigns
as the daRk one of us vs them
and them ain’t gonna have any of
our seed or grain.. as WE WANT IT
ALL AND NANANA WE AINT’ GONNA
GIVE AND SHARE AND DAM SURE
AIN’T GONNA BE FORCED INTO IT
BY A GOOD COP JESUS GOVERNMENT
EITHER.. yeah that is sad for sure in my
eYes of Good Cop Jesus but let’s face it as
the polls do still show for folks who undeterred
still support the anti-christ fear and hate ideology
of Mr. Trump Trump Trump Grinch as such sTiLL..
yes now.. the dArk and liGht of humanity is sTiLL
the same.. i mean Jesus F. in Christ2.. if the actual
devil with a comb over ran for president it would
still be split close to down the middle for the
Good Cop Jesus and the Bad Cop Jesus
like it always is as metaphor of course..
and again.. Hillary ain’t perfect…
she has kinda fucked up
a lot it seems.. by not
to the details
of red tape..
that part of Government
can kinda suck for the big picture
folks who break the rules to get the
job done.. or just aren’t paying attention
to all the all the rules at hand that sure are
necessary too.. to make it all work.. anyway..
the bottom line is.. with the passage of gay
marriage in the U.S.. we have finally almost
arrived at Independence day for most of the
population but the fact that in Anti-Christ
Red states per Bad cop Jesus.. folks who make under
11K still can’t get affordable health insurance means the
anti-Christ rule still tries to gain a foothold in FreeR.. U.S. of A
now.. but the best thing about the Devil per anti-christ policies
of fear and hate running for PREZ.. is folks like George Will who
are tough all natural God gifted conservatives.. have enough integrity
and responsibility to say no to folks who are getting where they are..
simply by playing to the card of audiences who thrive over a common
social bond of fear and hate and anger of course too… Hope.. Love
and Kind is better in my way of seeing life.. but i am one of those
Good Cop Jesus folks as that is just the way the God of Nature
made me from birth.. with mother making me that way too..
moreover in nurture way too.. So as Robin Williams
says the powerful play goes on.. the liberal humans
vs the conservatives humans of Yin and Yang
swings back and forth somewhere in
a mix of dARk and LiGht.. but bottom
line is at least the most folks ever
have a legal right to actually
do the right to life.. liberty
and pursuit of happiness
than ever before in the
U.S. and that IS A good reaSon/FeeLinG
more than ever to celebrate Independence
day in the REAL SPIRIT OF OUR FOUNDING
SO-CALLED FATHERS WHO WANTED TO ESCAPE
A MONARCHY AND MAKE A REPUBLIC WHERE EVEN
GOD COULD BE FREE IN US TO BE WHAT WE ARE ALL
NATURALLY AT CORE AND BY NURTURE AS WELL AS
WELL CAN BE.. YEAH.. THAT’S GOOD NEWS.. FROM
THE ORIGINAL GOOD COP.. JESUS TOO.. TO FREE
THE SLAVES FOR A THOUSAND YEARS TO COME..
AND EVEN BETTER IS tHeRe is still room for improvement
and as always the nomad.. the open mind and body in balance
the liberal way of liberty will lead the way for that as history shows..
and the conservative way for caution that is necessary for all our nicely
paved sidewalks and roads too.. will have its say as well to keep balance
of right to life.. liberty.. and the pursuit of happiness secure and free too..
i ain’t scared.. ’cause i’ve seen the liGht and dARk.. up close in heARt..
SpiRit and SoUL.. and taken great effort to analyze the whole
situation with reaSoNinG miNd too.. but i exclude
no other.. and that is what makes
me neither afraid of the
dARk or Cynical
of the liGht with
hope.. faith and belief
in the power of humankind
toGeTheR.. so i DancE and i SinG
on in MoVinG ConnEcTinG Creating poEtry
ways.. and when i’m out in the wild i open
my arms and shine a light of God behind my
shades for anyone who is receptive to that liGht
and needs some help.. i’M just one tiny gRain of
sand and small wave.. but i’ve gotta match and
a FLAME THAT REFUSES TO BE PUT OUT..
NEVER EVER GIVE UP.. NEVER EVER GIVE UP..
HOPE.. LOVE AND FEARLESS KiNd always wins
noW a TaLL
War even if some
small skirmishes and
battles are lost along
the way.. All Apes.. no matter
the differences.. STRONG TOGETHER
AS THE APE CAESAR with FUR OVER
BOMBS IN WARM AND FUZZIES WILL
SAY AND STAY..
for many years to
come.. perHaps a
thouSand and more
iN A city with no sun
and moon IS A web foR Now..
So anyway.. with all that
said and SunG.. noW is the
now for me to get ready
for Catholic Church
and celebrate the
Good cop Jesus
that is mostly
and that Good cop Jesus
as me2.. trust me2 you wouldn’t
wanna reAlly see/FeeL the REAL BAD
COP JESUS2 ANGRY2.. AS METAPHOR2
and trust me2
it’s safe to say2
so far.. no one2
it stays that way2..;)
Somewhat short excerpt of the
very abstract… and yes strange
mystical post.. ‘SEEin elEVeN’..
about a month here in
journey away from
recovery of the
worst pain known
to humankind at
the end of June 2013.. here..:)
Katie Mia talking to Aghogday:
Remember Five Years when you were
so scared, and you wanted to do anything
to escape the fear.
You did it…
nothing scares you
What you wanted to achieve was feeling love again
without facing your fears.
You thought you could build
a ‘special place’
where others could join you and escape
the Big F.
Remember those passages from the ‘Ghost in the Machine’
and ‘Synchronicity’, from those Albums ‘I’
planted in your mind 30+ years ago that
have followed you in your life.
The first two have been
You ‘felt’ like you got be the “King
for five years..
you take a journey
to find answers to ‘key’ questions
you have been asking all your life…
The last one was a little, tricky…
“Mephistopheles is not your name
I know what you’re up to just the same
I will listen hard to your tuition, You will see it come to its fruition.
I’ll be wrapped around your finger.
I’ll be wrapped around your finger
Devil and the deep blue sea behind me, Vanish in the air you’ll never find me.
I will turn your face to alabaster, When you’ll find your servant is your master.
You’ll be wrapped around my finger”
When you finished copying and pasting “A Thousand
Years”, and “Silent Lucidity” back to Autism and the Nautilus
they touched a place in your ‘soul’ that you were looking for…
‘I’ provided a little ‘treat’…
When you reviewed the posts, you found
a different song in the place of “A Thousand Years”
in the “My Mind does not Belong to Me”…
“Thank you, for being a friend”.
It scared the scientist in you.
‘Blogger Software Bugs’ happen
this went past the expected ‘Algorithm’ of your mind…
You came here to find hope…
I brought you here to show
you fear, so you could…
tell your wife you love her
it this time,
from your heart…
not just your mind…
You haven’t paid much attention to ‘pop’ culture
in the last five years…
You went on a little ‘Google Journey’,
to find out about all ‘those’…
‘I’ provided a hint,
when you found your
naming his baby
along with all the other C and K
you find on this journey…
Remember that song “Frozen in Ice”,
by Madonna, that you listening to over and over
when you first lost your emotions…
you never saw the video before…
You saw her making the symbols of the six
with her hands and you started getting
scared again about your birthday
like you did when you
saw that ‘Omen’
“No way; it couldn’t be you,
you are just too nice…”
Don’t worry, that ‘Devil’ Guy
is here for a reason…
You don’t get to be him/her,
can’t escape her either…
Fear is here for a reason…
it is here to
The people who try to escape it
are making a deal with the ‘Devil’…
It is the way nature works…
have any control over that,
You know your wife…
who is scared all the time
‘loves’ so deeply,
and has no problems
She has a gift that she does not easily
Fear and Love…
You weren’t that ‘lucky’,
You found a way to escape it..
You see, when those folks in ‘Hollywood’
are making those signs, mocking ‘fear’
at the Camera, laughing in the
background, because they
know the masses feed
off that type of
They really are making a deal
with the ‘devil’…
“Only, if they knew it”…
The video didn’t scare you enough
in the place of ‘a thousand years’…
You found a way to interpret
it as a gift instead of…
a ‘waKe uP” call…
‘I’ did not give up
on you yet…
‘I’ provided another
That song by ‘Perri’
that you rationalized
as something good
not to be afraid
Remember when you got to the
end of the video, and you kept
hearing ‘break neck’, and seeing
the little smirk on the face at the end…
You couldn’t look away could you…
You had to keep playing it over and over
again, to hear a positive message
to escape any chance of fear.
You woke up this morning
and asked your wife
what time it was.
She said “One”.
That is when you faced your
You started thinking, maybe the
sign was something was going to
happen to your wife…
She was going off with a friend
in a car…
maybe the message was
to warn her,
not to go…
You used to worry about that all the time…
When you escaped fear, and made that deal,
you stopped worrying about ‘IT’…
Remember when you told your
wife you loved her
when she left
You felt ‘IT’…
Enjoy your gift…
of Fear, Love,
Life is fleeting…
That apple with
the bite out of it
that you hooked
up to this
Was a warning…
You just couldn’t
There is nothing in life
that is random…
‘Perri’ is right about that…
The tattoo is not
The name ‘Jobs’
The answers are
there for anyone
“Only if they
You have ‘the gift’ now…
It is not one easily shared…
And the liGht of poEtry
gRows more.. a year
later.. in thiS noW
‘SonG oF mY SoUL’..:)
Yes.. a ‘Symphony
Tough Love ‘
And finAlly heRe..
thE full liNked
oF sEEin elEVen..
iN mY original bLog
way of KATiE MiA/
Aghogday stYle.. iN
yeS aGain.. A strange and
somewhat mystical way.. 2013..
on the road bacK to hUmaNitY2..:)
As i say again
to Friend Rafiah
on her blog..
i just came
here to say
hi.. i Love
i can.. and i
want to.. SMiLes..:)
Yes you can, and I know you do.
And it’s a greatest blessing of Allah Almighty
that one is capable of loving. I think that’s the essence of life.
Life lived in loving is life worth living. You do that. You
should be grateful to God that He gave you
this gift abundantly.:) heart emoticon
always keep loving.
And i say in addition..
SMiLes my friend.. i am currently
writing a blog post almost entirely on
the subject of what Islam names
as ISA.. aka Jesus over here
in the Catholic West..
and the best thing
i like about the
Jesus is he reduced
all the complexity of
Laws of God into one
rule of Loving God the
same as we as our neighbors
all of Nature one as God’s Creation
Unconditionally without consuming
others with harm.. and the greaTeSt thing
about this reported measure of Jesus is that
even science now shows that this is the all
natural gift given to human by God when
there IS A practice of touchY FeeLY
hELd to breast of motHeR
and extended village
as metaphor too..
to raise the child
than the Garden
with Corner Stone of
Love and ISA/Jesus
same aS oNE.. and i story recently
this subject shortly with one of these
Christians who believes in hate and fear
over Love and Hope.. in BrinGinG down the
rest of God’s Creation and remind him how
Jesus reduces 613 commandments of Torah
down to only one that yes God is Love in uS
greaTesT of aLL Gifts.. and Love is the Golden
rule we aLL and neighbor one including the
rest of God’s nature sAME in fearless
Unconditional way wHeRE our
enemies are to be understood
and Loved Unconditionally
as well in an AGAPE
kind of human
And while it is
trUe that Love must
be expressed to all others
to be real.. it is also trUe that
when one becomes enlightened
with the emotional Force of pure
white Love.. tHeir are no boundaries
or barriers that one will not break to
share and give this Love Red Hot to
ALL the same as the story of
ISA/Jesus does show too
in biblical new
and never luke warm
or less as oh.. so cold..
AnyWay.. when science
and religion and the philosophy
of a true prophet like Jesus do come
out aLL LiGht iN A miX of Fearless Kind
aS Hope of Love.. tHeRe are no barriers
that are too tall to be broken down by
the all powerful Love that is the
hiGhest power we hUmans
do share at heARt of
Core and a MiNd
and BoDy Balance
of moving.. connecting
and creating love watered
S O U L iN uS alWaYs noW..
across the lifespan of a garden
of fearless Love in HopE and KiNd
that never ever stops groWinG taller
and taller.. TrUe iT iS a gift.. this Fearless
Love is that i lost for 66 months almost completely
in FeeLinG but kept in logical mind to still share online..
but iT iS an EmoTioN of pure White LIGht that is that much
more powerful when it reAlly comes back online FULL STEAM
noW.. as stReAms
to Rivers to Ocean
whole in particles as
drops of water.. waves
iN Field Same as Ocean
blUe tHeir iS never defeat iN Love
NoW when iT iS reAL and ever
At Least in my experience.. my Friend.. Rafiah..
tHeRe is no time.. distance.. or space in Love
Love iS oNe Force thaT iS evergreen when
real.. and therE is no doubt tHeRe is that
Love sTiLL between you and your Nani
AliVe in YoUr eYes everlasting..
And to celebrate that Love
in WRiTing IS A liGht
thaT iS also
the path oF Love’s
Journey as well that
iS aLwayS noW when
Healthy and iN BaLanCing
NatUre.. my Friend.. Rafiah..
iN my liFe.. friends that i have loved
never age in heARt.. in SpiRit.. iN SoUl
oF i.. nor do the troubles that come with
Love last over the LoVinG pArts mY FriEnd..
a young man who witnessed my rather informal
proposition of Marriage to Katrina in a causal
stand on Bowling Lanes of where i worked
for the government over here in almost
two decades of 80’s to past the
turn of the century.. passed
away from complications
from Diabetes last
Tuesday.. his name
is Raymond and even
though we never saw this
man for years.. we both felt some
kind of emotional Force of Loss on
Tuesday well before we found out about
his death today.. we are all connected my
friend in so many ways more than just the
flesh.. Love is Forever and more than
we will ever understand with
wE ARE ALL CONNECTED
I N T E R D E P E N D E N T L Y
FROM THE POINT OF THE NEVER
ENDING.. NEVER BEGINNING ETERNITY
OF ALLAH NOW.. AH.. YES.. IT IS ALL
AH NOW.. MY FRIEND A LOVE WITH
NO START OR ENDING.. ONLY
NOW..aND can i prove that
i don’t even
care to my friend
as i alWays want it to
be too deep to ever put
into words.. a depth of eYeS
thaT alWays SinG A LovE SonG
and DancE intimatELy TRuE IN LIGHT FoR aLL..
mY Love filLED
FriEnD Rafiah maY
thiS liGht oF God’s Love
as and in you rise to greaTesT
heiGhts EVER MORE NOW..:)
coming in the
next profile status
photo.. thingie.. who
has the best Edit in
Summer’s Blues of
It doesn’t matter
WTF FTW iF i’ve
danced close to 5600
miles in 34 months.. leg
press close to half-a-ton
of weights 33 times with
my arms raised in air with
yes.. free weights now..
can eat chips
all day and only
walk shop.. and
she still looks like
a dancer and i look
like whatever i guess..
but you have to admit..
hehe.. for a 56 year old
dude my legs are
kinda shapelier than
most of the mall Sports.. TV..
sitter watcher dudes my age..;)
As Alan Watts says..
Society IS A Hoax and
sure iT iS but tHere IS A reASon2
for the insanity that one never
arrives until they die..
and it’s just humans
who are not evolved
to live in large groups
out of balance we are
and lots of people
pay the real
Nature who is
alWays the Big
BosS GOD nOW..
in terms of misery
and suffering real..
Yes.. that’s insane..
no other animal but
one with sidewalks
and books could
way of being..
anywhere but now
whole with nature one
AKA the inheritance
of the God experience..
anyway the Good News is
there IS A simple solution iF
practiced early enough and that
is touchy feely love in moving.. connecting
and creating.. and yes that probably means
homeschooling but hell if Tim Tebow can
(by the way in a very strange and
synchronistic and ironic too way
Timmy kinda forecast me coming
back from the dead in life too
in a very very public way2)
still be a rough boy by being home
schooled.. so can other
to give and share
taking less through
mastery of moving emoTioNs
and integration of seNses sAMe..
and the best news of all is this
information as told by sages of
the ages.. is all available online
for more people than ever
around the globe..
many elitists.. are
in charge of the material stuff and
and other money bill goods.. but they
ARE NOT in charge of moving..
connecting.. creating.. or the
faith.. belief.. and hope of
the real deal of mastering
emoTioNs and inTeGraTinG
seNses wHoLE on the
individual level as even
IF THEY COULD DO IT..
THEY WOULD FIND FIND THAT
ALL THIS MONEY MAKING AND
MATERIALISTIC STUFF IS TOTALLY
ANTITHETICAL TO FULL SATISFACTION
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TO BRIGHTEST COLORS IMAGINABLE NOW
IN CREATIVE FREE LIFE THAT HARDLY COSTS
ANY BIG MONEY OR MATERIAL GOODS AT ALL..
NO ONE CONTROLS me as i master and integrate
all the stuff that counts in life.. which is Love
in fearless.. kind and hopeful way in
moving.. connecting.. creating
goods has very very little
to do with that as i could be
Freddy Free Loader and as
happy as i am now.. as long as
i have three feet and space to dance
and a hand to hold that holds me back
from the insanity of society that surely
(yes.. i’ll need food.. water.. and shelter too)
Hoax in my
mind and body
Balance of SoUL..
heArt SinGinG in SpiRiT..
alWays noW oNE.. graduAlly
more folks will follow suit and iF
the folks at the so-called top ever
get REALLY REALLY SMaRT
ENOUGH TO LIVE iN
they will find
fast sports cars
and other ways of
Luxury are just anoTHeR
way to say HELL NOW.. sure
the Meek have already inherited
thE Earth.. and wE rough boys and
girls thrive alive for the WiN noW oF
Fearless Kind iN hoPE oF LovE REAL..:)
penniewoodfall thanks me for the
Alan Watts Video and i say..
You are very welcome penniewoodfall..
Alan Watts definitely shows profound genius
in the area of Philosophy/Religion and the overall
existential intelligence of what can make humans balance
but sadly as often what happens this genius battled his own
Demons out of Balance.. Namely the disease of addiction that
is almost always a disease of Emotional and sensory imbalance
at core.. In his case the bottle that cut his life short.. Anyway..
to me that makes what he achieved in verbal wisdom that much more impressive..
And considering if The Jesus dude actually did go on some angry tirades turning
money tables over.. Obviously he didn’t get where Buddha did in actions speak
louder than words.. Both should have spent more of their life dancing..
It works for me complete as balance but an athlete sage would be
Apollo.. WiNks back at yA.. Yes.. THE flesh is highly underrated
in Abrahamic religions and of course a substantial source of
human frustration.. Aggression and mass killings.. And even
Fear.. Hate and wars.. Pan is smArter2.. The soul
is real and flesh and blood.. We need more naked
Miley selfies to save the World as Jesus in metaphor
was too scared to do the full Monty Python.. With WiNks Again..
i imagine Muhammad did but yeah.. Umm.. He had younger issues.. Oh..
the demons of a life out of balance in emotions/senses/sensualiLiTy flesh
and blood way.. The real Devil of Abrahamic religious orienTated way..
And even modern Buddhist ways in at least someways with the ’97 Dali
Lama announcement that Homosexuality IS A sin.. A balance of Lust
and Love is integral to Homo sapiens sapiens peace of mind and
body balance in moving.. connecting.. creating.. giving..
sharing ways.. The Bonobo is the greatest genius sTiLL iN
Love and Peace without any FucKinG written books at all..
The body keeps the FucKinG score.. Bottom and Top line..;)
penniewoodfall shares some spiritual guru info on
‘Cutting Through Spiritual Materialism’
CHÖGYAM TRUNGPA, BORN IN 1939
and died of alcoholism all
too soon.. too like Mr.
Thanks again to you
Too.. off to Google now
for more Cliff Notes/Videos
on this man too..:)
Oh Lord.. 10
Predator “Holy Robe”..
For rape associated
Miley Selfies yes..
No means NO..
To quote her..
“It’s my pussy”..
Only a distant
Many Muslim women..
And other so-called
From God too..
Oh.. when the
Of a Dick
goes on to say his book
was good.. and i say..
but first in a response
back to another response
of hers in regards to
Grimms Fairy tales..
and The Owl, the
Raven, and the Dove
in book form too.. i
Off to check
The link out too..:)
With word search..:)
Heart IS A
He of patriarchy..
All Art to bring
Back HeArt.. All
Of Creativity to
Dull.. And now there’s
More to create forever
Now.. For those in the real
Know and Feel We really
Did it and in this way
Is heaven when
And then before moving
back to penniewoodfall’s
first note on the TRUNGPA
dude.. when waking up
later this morning..
i say.. in
me to generate
all these words..
Alan Watts and
yes.. i say..
Fred word winds
Breeze through again..
i asked Katrina off the
Recliner to come back
To bed and she said oh
My God.. Dear.. What
If we sleep to 9 or 10..
And then i sAid WTF
FTW.. The REAL Modern
FamiLY ISIS.. OsiRiS.. HoRuSzz..
Three iN two for OnE wHoLe2..
Only plays and never works for
Pay.. So we can sleep to 11 or
Even odd 13.. Wake up refreshed
and Hurricane Fred and Katrina
will blow again with ease of peaceful
center cAlm green changing to blUe2.. and MiXinG
With Brown eYes4.. Yes.. Yes!!.. too and Blow winds
and rains aGaiN and say Oops.. We jUst pLayed
And now back
to my final
on the TRUNGPA
SMiLes.. penniewoodfall.. i was gonna say ditto back to you..
on the free verse comment i just made back to gigoid but
this one got me out of Bed at 10:11 am.. now 10:13 am..
and i will quote you heRe for trUe and liGht wherE you
say.. “Repression does not serve well in religion…
neither does following gurus… I step outside ..
and observe… and there will always be suffering…”
and i say yes.. so true.. and what’s truly sad is
when i read about that dude’s behavior on
Wiki cliff notes.. it kinda sullies the other
stuff he did that i will research more
later.. as what i’ve come to lEArn
is ya can’t discount a philosophy
per liGht over the dArk pArts
oF it like an out
pair of pants..
as generally speaking
and potential for aggression goes
hand in hand with at least a touch
of hypomania.. to Bi-Polar.. as i kNow
all too well2.. for the biggest injection
of all natural high side of thaT i’ve ever
received after this cycle removed me from the
dArkest hell i’ve ever seen too.. i’Ve
lEarned to control the balance of the
hypersexual pARt with Art thank God
in this new brave Internet world.. and
i’M hyperspiritual more than ever
but it doesn’t matter what age
or word of humankind goes
with thaT in structured
religion rules or not..
and aggression.. well.. leT’s
just say i’ve pushed the edge
in defending myself in physical
ways i’ve never done before.. and
put a lid on that too.. and am probably
fortunate that no one had a gun and
shot me dead on the dance floor.. etc..
if i got all paranoid about that too..
which fortunately i don’t have
that pArt of Bi-Polar this
go around that
when my last
big UP EXPERIENCE
HAPPENED AT AGE 21..
IN ’81.. ANYWAY.. i have empathy
for the Jesus.. the Muhammad. and
lots of gurus and even this dude who
was feeling up the skirts of women who
were not exactly really into him.. although
he was never officially charged with a crime
i understand.. it happens.. i don’t condone
it.. i have always been able to control
that and generally speaking literally
fortunate as the girls have always
come to me.. and still do
in clothed ways
of dance FREE..
and hey.. being
56 slows stuff down
a little bit at least.. noW
i’m not saying being a guru
is an illness in spiritual way..
but it is a disorder no doubt out
of the norm.. per the literal definition
of what is seen in and out of order my
friend.. i’m just glad i reap the positive
liGht benefits.. and stay truly all of out
of the negative soup.. of human misery now
and suffering.. now2.. but the NoW i live and
all the advantages of what culture does bring
in adaptation for those who are smARt enough
in science and art to navigate it.. is truly a weapon
of Love in hope.. faith.. and belief.. in fearless kind
ways that is like a perfect storm too.. of prepare ye
old me.. Now2
Anyway.. thanks my
friend.. this changes the
title of my 680th epic macro
verse of longest long form poem
ever.. approaching 4M words now..
to “Pan at the Apollo Theater2”..
as the WhOle comes again
as micro and macro
oF it iN streAms
to River of
oh.. the joy of Bi-Polar
reined in with reign of rains..
in liGhTED TALK wAY oF Fred..
yeah.. and i’m WorKinG like a
mad scientist sTiLL to keep that
ego thing in artful control2.. as
Truly the grandiosity pARt of
Bi-Polar has sunk an other
wise long term story
of many a Guru2..
DArk has its
say too.. and sure
somewhere deep down
tHeRe is sTill a little bLack
Spot on an otherwise white oLd sOuL..
wHolE.. but that’s the way the Yin and Yang
diceY of Life
i’LL be back aGaiN
somenow wITh more
of you.. WitH grins oF liGht..
for what i FeeL..
sEnse.. and KnoW
all the SeNsual
ways that comeS iN
and moVinG iN General
has been thE miSsinG
connecting LiNk of public
religions and philosophy
way too long.. and that’s
changing in prepare ye
a way of Miley
oh.. the team work..
oh.. the team work..
OF TEaM LIGHT..
THE REAL F in
freeST verse ILLUMINATI
cAlled by A pan of
NatUre aLL as sucH
AKA GOD NOW2..
oF HUmanS noW oH
so brave and FucKinG
CRAZY AS ME.. HEHE..
A DANCING SIOUX CRAZY
HORSE COME BACK TOO2..
with a little ancestral mix
of Cherokee too..
hmm.. i thInk
tHeRe IS A
see ya.. as the
winds oF Y i
enJoy another glass
of red wine.. i StaYiN
aWay from aLL of thaT even
F iN coFfee or a hot toddy2..
keeps mY hiGhS iN cHecK2..
anotHeR thing.. Buddha and
etc.. didn’t understand.. not every
one is as high as Bi-Polar/hypomania
folks as they then too.. Cognitive empathy..
a life long practice of understanding what it’s
like to walk in the other shoes.. no philosophy..
no religion.. no ted or fred talk works the same
for each snowflake of God.. oh so special AND REAL..
THAT’S WHY EVERYONE NEEDS TO WRITE ThEIR
OWN FucKinG BIBLE OR AT LeAST MAKE iT REAL..
the liFE JOB DonE..
per right to liFe.. libertY
and the pursuit of hapPineSS2..
and nah.. happiness wasn’t alWays
possible in joy way much of human
history but iT iS noW in heaven trUe FReED..
DO iT.. ToPs
iF ONE CAN1
AND WiLL2 NOW iN
gOlden RULE WAY3 aS oNE…:)
Yup.. every woman
Loves a sharp
i did seed
and am harvesting
the acorns at lEast..
and this dance shirt
was hilarious.. oh yeah..
iN Catholic Church shirt too..
i am some nows the highlight
of the little kids who are bored
stiff straight ahead in their
priSon pew seats..
Katrina.. butt i AM
way too busy singing..
to notice who looks at
what anYwhere in pews
And the nice lady next
to me says.. after i shake
her hand.. after Lord’s prayer
friendly now connection pARt..
yes.. Oh my.. i Love hearing you
sing every Sunday.. and i ask
Katrina why she doesn’t tale
me this too.. and she says
my head is already
and i say..
fun of my
Alien.. ET size head..
anyway.. iT’s definitely
worth another ZZ top SonG
iN my XXL head for surE nOW2..
but i thiNk/FeeL..
i’ll juSt go WitH
ET instead for
a little Katy plaY noW2..
And it may be hard to see
in these photos but the squirrel
is taling a kit kat.. on the face of
hiS/HeR smArt phone that yes.. HA!
true the cats
in my neighborhood..
are not always the
never.. but that’s
the way Nature goes..
in all dArk and liGht of
survival real.. humans are
very fortunate to be blessed
with the liGht of Love.. as that
IS A only BlesSinG that makes
human heaven even possible
now as gifted by God aLL
Nature one and
in and as
uS FoR NoW..
TrUE LiGht LoVE..
Oh yeah.. and i came
across the older man and
what i believe is his son..
in Barnes and Nobles again..
who think.. i am a dancing
Navy seal.. who writes longest
long form poems in the history of
humankind.. and they say.. well no
i’m not a Navy Seal but i didn’t have
the heaRt to break that pArt of bad news
to ’em.. anyway.. haven’t seen ’em in
about 2 months or so and they tale me
they’ve been spreading my story wide
around the town.. and i am a legend
now.. it’s not the first now i’ve
heard that for dance at least..
but yes that pArt is trUe.
and trUly in all of
that is the greaTest
compliment anyone could
receive.. while they are
FucKinG LiVinG hehe.. yeah..
that’s what Batman’s mentor
told him. Fuck the Famous
be the Legend..
and in a way
and that pARt IS A
way too deep for me
to explain in science
terms.. you’ll get to know
GoD wHole better iN instinctual..
innate intuitive way to figure thAT
pArt out like i did one day too.. and
iF ya do.. good chance you will be named
Legend by the vieWinG audience for doing
nothing for money and material good’s aT
FucKinG all.. and that mY friends is
just God dam Awesome.. end and
beginning of story never
finishing and starting
i couldn’t imagine
a greater life in the
meek will inherit the
earth and the last will
be the first.. even iF
i wasn’t a REAL Jesus F.
a nice day..
trUsT me Heaven
if FucKinG red hot..
never Luke Warm
soUl noW jUST NoW..;)
Oh.. yeah.. my friend gigoid..
and one more quick note here..
before i go publish noW A very
heavy macro verse in deed..
if you remember that then
post by Islam friend
in the comments
section alone.. per
just a video post then
about the return now of
Jesus and that was/is all..
safe to say
iN some ‘sMAll’
way.. i change the
i’Ve been and go2..2
hope you FeeL better..
the other two contenders
iN THaT debaiT.. SOHEIR..
and IMRAN.. rarely blog any
more.. like they say in the
Big Lebowski Movie..
i’LL do anything
for A SMiLe aGaiN..
iT ain’T easy being
A great White
but i try..
gigoid says in return..
Those who speak truth are almost always vilified, my friend.
Albert noted it several times in his quotes… It’s their loss…
And as A final final Facebook
Algorithm generated memory
from a year ago.. it bears notice
and attention again.. if one reAlly
respects the Teachings of the Jesus
and ain’t giving it lip service alone with
way of John 3:16 for a quick trip to
heaven anywhere and anynow
but the one thAt iS at hand
allNOW.. for those who seek..
find.. it.. and practice heaven
and or Nirvana.. bliss.. eTc..
whatever yoUr linguistic flavor
of the essence of TrUth and liGht
may be.. Gentile.. Servant.. Slave
or Free.. Woman or Man no more
ALL A are free in the Golden rule of
Jesus consolidating all the nit
picky rules of past into one..
MEANS NO EXCLUSIONS..
BOTTOM LINE.. ‘QUEER’..
AND HUMAN OR FUCKING
AND SMALLER THAN
A GrAin of sand too..
as only you have
most to lose
by Loving less..
fearlessly and kind than
a REAL NEW AGE JESUS
COME TO LIFE WOULD DAM
SURE DO AND DOES.. iN HOPE
OF FEARLESS AND KIND UNCONDITIONAL
LINE AND WORD..
LOVE LOVE LOVE
AND MORE LOVenOW..:)
Yeah.. thE final iS heRe
noW.. maKe iT aLLa pArty
oF FearLess Love.. iF noT..
onLY yoUr anG
easY buT i foR
oNe PROVE IT’S
LINE POWER OF GOD
HIGHER IS REAL WHEN
SoUGHT.. FoUnd AND PRACTICed
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