From the origin of allthatis..
gRains of SAnd fill toes
oF liGht bRiGht
connecting Now
to aLL ‘A eARTh
breeze through
eYes thaT LovE..
SinG through taste
of Night.. DancE aLL
SonG
oF
Be..
Butterfly born..
cocoons
shelved
away noW
as cycle oF LiFe
ends begins staRts
fiNishes aLways
MoRe noW
BrinG
tears
ring
Laughs
SMiLes moRe
liGht SunG
aM ONe..
and hmm..
off to dVerse Haibun
oF what WiLL be Fredbun
style of whatever free versE noW
comes to FinGerS of FReED.. oh
so short and long.. as Leaves
oF Grass WiLL Grow
in Fields
and Streams
of Rivers Ocean
Glow in midnight Diatom
sands of Sunlight Shores..
and the topic of the dVerse
prompt as coming noW is
how does one Rest and
Relax for R and R..
WeLL.. i have
a special
and very
SacRed Holy
Thursday and
niGht.. sEt.. uP
for R and R each
week.. and anyone
who follows my bloG
PoEM WiLL kNoW precisely
aLL the paths iN JourneY Now
oF Y i FreeST noW oF i thaT Goes..
So after what i provide here.. as mY
own contribution of mY way iN FReEDom
poeTry i.. iT’s 5232016.. and 4:50 pm noW to sTARt..
HeRe’s the deal.. i don’T juSt DancE aNd SinG
i aM a SonG
oF DancE
iN
poeTry
too.. and
thiS is jUst an
ongoing stARt to
never begin and finish
a never ending poeM oF
thE ‘SonG oF mY SoUl’.. i
AM.. and this iS the 671st
Verse of allthatis noW as i..
and surE.. sTiLL apProacHinG
4 MilLiOn words as aLL
WiLL FloW
iN
ZonE oF
i FReED..:)
http://freeversenudepoetry.blogspot.com/2016/05/pleasure-principle-of-hell-free-verse.html
sMiLes.. R and R
iN decades for me
was only a drive
through to see
mY Father then..
on Interstate
Roads.. twice a
year and twice
a month
moWinG
grass close
to Nature as
Leave of work
then.. worKing aLL
Holidays for decAdes..
never taKing a break WiLL
Certainly make i a dull boy..
noW neverLand
EnDinG story
aGaiN..:)
SMiLes.. WeLL
trUth iS i mainLY
stay in a state of
DancE and SonG even
iN poeTry that
is effortless
in balance
as best
Friend
oF graVity
noW.. iN WhiTe
liGht Love energy
that has no limits
or expectaTiOnsnoW
FReED from attempTinG
oTheRs to grey the
colorEd RainBoW
hiGh oF i
WinD FReED..
Sycamore
grows
ever taller..:)
Ah.. one of my most
favorite R and R DanceS
oF i to SinG iS FloWinG
WitH Butterfly golden
toes in Nike
Shox shoes..
yes.. size
11
and
a half..
with a bridge
across for H
wHolE as SpiRit
i oF liGht MoVinG
deep in SanDs WitH
arms as Wings BaLanCinG
GraViTy liGhts oF i.. wHere
Fingers are ruShinG DreAms as
Air oF mE.. Waves pattern Dance
Prints along never ending sway
of Ocean i across fAce of sUn
SeAGuLL jOY i
BRinG
to un-suspecting
Sun bathers sTiLL
who have never
viewEd an
ET
Butterfly
HUman BeinG
navigaTinG
i oF Heaven
HOmeNoW..:)
WoNder RiVers…
FoRests.. PoNds..
LaKes.. BaYs..
SuGar BeacHes..
EMerald WaTers..
SeaGulls SpiRal
neveR enDinG
SunnY Days
oF liGht..
NatUre’s
spiRit aS
animaLs
SingG Free
As heArt SoUL
BalanCinG heRe
noW iN Saint FloWer
oF Florida wHerE noW
i liVe iN RosE waY
peTals Of DreAms
coMe truE Now..
i’LL jUst
aDD..
iT’s HeaVen..:)
Seriously.. iTs
trUe.. it’S eVen
iN the good book
titLed.. “A History
of God’.. pAge 8..
the first name
for God iS
Lahmu and
Lahamn
meaning
silt as
water and
earth sTiLL
miXed toGeTheR
and per my last bLog
posT thAT mY friEnd..
iF you kNow the wHole NoW
story of ‘mY’ name.. iS iroNic
as both Heaven and Hell.. toGeTher..
iN oNe hUman BEinG aS DeViLAndAngEL..
SynchroniciTy
SinGs LaYman teRms
iN aweSoMe wHole waY..;)
WeLL.. trUth and liGhT iS noW
foR aA Angel emPath.. SaVinG gRace
is NatUre spAce..
as hUmans
with worry
emit stingy
jelly fish energy
kinda like the other
side of those jELly
fish like spiRits that
are positive liGht oF
FeeLinGs oF NatUre iN
that Avatar moviel.. then..
and noW.. wE Angel empaThs
mUst consTantly
generate poSitive
eNergy.. iN ways
of DancE and SonG
not to be defeated
by Human Jelly Fish
Stings of Stress.. Worry
Fear.. Doubt.. Jealously..
Greed.. and all the other
Con-social emoTions
that
non-
EmPath
AngEls
SinG.. but
trUly they
kNOw noT what
they do.. theY Now
juSt feeL and SinG noW
a DarKeR Song of Negative
EnerGy that wE empath AngeLs
do E-scape With DancE and SonG..
Beach.. Forest.. and under Trees..
and even in Caves and Desert too..
And yes.. Positive Energy oF poEtry2..
DancE And SinG NoW
aWay.. noW oN aNd or @NatUre HoMe
froM HUman SpiRit Jelly Fish StinGs..:)
SMiLes..
iN poEtry
SpeaK Jazz Now
iS jUst anoTheR
woRd foR Free Verse
SonG As MusiCK noW..
Free oF Art
SonG And DancE..
JaZz oF aLL..:)
6 ‘O’ 1 pm cLock
mean work-out
now.. be
back
later..:)
Back at 1:01 am
on 5242016..
Nature and photography..
Yes.. a relaxing mix of
rest of Nature
beyond the
mundane
routines
oF life
to make
the routine
oF liFe sacred
iN aLL deTails
of big photo view..
Mindful
iN phoTography..
Peace aNd Blisst..:)
Runner Endorphins of decades
past.. knees and hips no
longer agree with high
steps.. Now
but fLoWinG
Dance close
to eARTh BRinGs
SeNsaTionS noW oF
EmoTioNaL regulation
and sensory integration
to new highs in all pARts
of MiNd and BoDy Balance that
i had no idea even existed then
running to or away from something
that was toward the end of FeeLinG
rather than.. the do of Art iN noW..
Legs..Hips..thanK
mE For eYes oF
FloWinG DancE..:)
SMiLes.. sitting still or mechanical
walk not a meditation one noW..
MoVinG as i for one can
do iN ConNecTinG
CreATinG
Way oF aLL
thaT iS.. MuSt
FloW aNd SpiRal
iN body weight fULL
to be free.. my friend.. for me..
DanCinG
mediTaTion..
bestT piLL for i..:)
Quick poeTry break
ends at 1:15 am
and noW
foR
Bed..:)
Many Many
Global and
Local Metro
Area detouRS
as hiGhliGhTed
beLow.. noW bacK
here at dVerse Monday
prompt in Haibun
flavoRed
Fredbunns
in taste
oF R and
R for N0W..
10:41 AM..
5252016..:)
Ah.. CHalice oF wE
DanceE aNd SonG
oF Y i For mE..
FloW oF zoNe..
cOmes.. matterS
noT thE foRm
Or DestiNaTiOn
paThs JoUrney
aLiVe noW iN Peace..
Rivers Ocean
fly iN
eYe oF Love..:)
SMiLes.. cOunting sheeP
To g0 tO sLeep.. oNe steP
tWo stEp thRee sHeeP foUr..
NumBerSgroWinGs..
LetTers coMe FReED..
woRdSinGSonG
Longer noW
LettersEEd..
SpRead
i On..
PeAce cOmes..
eYe oF niGht
eYes oF DaY
sKeYes oF ALL..
SpRinG LiVes
iN aS MooN
ChiLd DreAms..:)
Saunter Red
White and Blue
Flag Breeze through
hiGhliGhts sacRed HoLy
FLiGht iNside.. ouTside..
so aBove.. beLow
all’A
rOund..
wHen aLL
becOmes
onE fLag
ofEYe..
NaTion
i oN
1 noW FReED..:)
FlaG oF
LovE fearLess
juSTiCe Flies iN FeAT..:)
HI.. Adriana.. haven’t
caught up with you
on the dVerse trail
recently.. nice to hear
your inspiRational words
here again.. another story
of tragedy inspired by bLack
books of lies.. rapes against
faith of different religions
God as evil
twin..
holding
hands with
Rapists Murders
evilivedevilived sAMe
raping little girls to burying
Lesbians to their chest aLiVe
to stone them with RocksNow
so they cannot cover thEiR oWn
eYes.. Supreme leader of Iran..
hA!.. supreme dEvil of heLL.. iN
real human form.. and aLL Ah
associated with
the devil realm
of killing
other pARts
of NatUre God
one sAMe all noW..
i’m getting reAlly REAL
tired oF iT.. and serioUsly
i lEarned how to shape shift
in so many artFuL ways he HE
perhapS i’LL beCome ISA
and settle
thE dajJaL
score of
Muhammad
twice and for
aLL oNe.. perHaps
A mYth.. perhapS
A dreAm pErhaps
thE anGer of God
Nature oNE as uS
mY frIEnd iNoW..
DEvils SpRinG
fRom loiN oF peDo
fiLe HeLL iN Dante bLack…
SMiLes.. moVing.. ConnecTArinG..
CreAtinG.. i too fiNd a way to
go iN R and R
HeaVen for noW
mY friEnd and oH
mY GoD the dEtale
pErson aWay froM
BiggeR viEw poeTry..
DancE and SonG i too
can be.. after three degrees
at the toP of my class through
Highschool.. UniVersity in Social
Sciences Interdisciplinary.. Health
Science.. Anthropology and then..
a Quarter oF A Century wHOle oH..
from Bowling ALLey to Adminstrator
oF Federal Government Programs then..
i neVer had a clUe trUly whaT
iT was to move.. connect
and create.. unTiL a little
Yellow Boy cat
disguised
as GoD aLL
cried under
my shed for
respite of
drOught with
no drop of water
taught mE aLL i
needed to kNow iN
PAws cLaws and puRRs
oF fearLess cAll oF the Wild
iN goD FreeD oF aLLeY strAy caT
SonG iN LiVinG Free liKe Whitman2..
PoeTriaL DanCes
iN SonG oF fEarFReED
Yellow Boy LoVe..:)
SMiLes..
bottom
line..
Nature
we are
ONE..:)
sMiLes.. for mE.. long
ago a giant oak
with spot liGhts
at bottom pointed
toward sky.. leaves
oF alive flow upward
downward sAMe for
a brief moment in break
from all stress work.. i AM
tree one WitH niGht.. tree later
felled by Hurricane Ivan iN then
WiNds oF FreeinG skY opens
uP cLouds oF Love never
seen in heaVens aBove..
and ah.. the stars no
longer covered
by branches oF
Love..
DarK iS liGht
IS A sTar
briGht MooNoN..:)
Sea as endless
as Summer neW
Breeze NoW iN
DeSert yellow
StreAM RiVer
eYes BriGht
aS Summer
longS AnD
WiNter FaLLS
SpRinG aGaiN..
Now oF Love..
NoW iN FearLess
SacRed eYe onE
WiSdom
Be
hOld..
i’s A foretOld
iN Led Zeppelin
Kashmir dreAm..:)
SmLes.. fOr thouSands
oF yeArs EaRth circles
Sun iN perFect pAth..
And ha.. hUmans
doubt they
master fate..
first step out oF
fear.. the rest fAlls
as pLace iN LoVeNOW
BesT FriEnd of ENerGy..
FrienD iN Gravity Balance tRue..
EarTh SinGs
truTh
iN DancE oF sUn..:)
SMILes.. a KaT then oH!
in cage oF a ThunDerstorm..
My liFe never but a sPark
of reaL reLaXaTioN on
the Autism Spectrum
then.. hA!.. anSwer
so simple!..
free fLow
iN ZonE
DancE aWay
from ruLeS Now
laughing aLL.. aH..
thE way to bliss bank
noW FReED no matter who
the F noW thInks i’M iNsanE..
IN FreeDoM
iNSaniTy
DancELoveSonG..:)
Oh God.. you are F iN
Hilarious.. the H and the
B ran mE out’A liNKinG
butT Jesus
F iN Christ..
thIS IS A foR fUn tHinG
noW and no F iN Science
PoeTry Project fOr mE.. heHE..
buTT i StILL wRote a 3 MilLion PLuS
LonGesT woRd ForM TerM poeM iN
thE hiStory oF HuMan
kiNd sTiLL
exPaNdinG
iN Words heRe
noW anD thE hidDen
MaGicK surPrise iS F iN
moSt everyOne oNliNe
i’Ve eVer conNecTaRed
WiTh iT IS A LoVinG
pARt oF iT iN aLL DarK
aNd liGht aS thIs iS paRT
oF thE 671st Verse.. iN aS
Love iT aLL..
as SonG oF
My SouL.. aka
the hidden title
IN KATiE MiA
FredericK!iI oH!
noW.. nanmykel
so mUch.. moRE wITh
FearLess noW LoVeNoW..
HeHeR.. yoUr
nAMe iS noW iN
mY Book oF LiFe2..;)
pS.. ‘they’ finAlly sorTa
put out that Alice
iN Wonderland
movie about
mY liFe..
thE LooKinG
GlAss IS A CaLLing
anD i liVe tHeir noW..
Two Fred
BuNs aNd PuNs
juSt For FuN..;)
Most people
don’T realiZe
thaT reTire
doesN’t
meaN reLax..
iT juSt mEans
gET eXcited aBout
LiFe witHouT worrY
WitH mOre tRead oN
thE WheeLs oF liFe..
oH.. To bE Re-
tiRed.. thE JoY noW
DriVinG aLiVe 55..;)
And fOr seCond FredKu..
FeeLinG younGer aT heARt
noW thAn sWeet mAle 16..;)
SMIles..
trUly.. iT’s
imPossiBle
to give the
most by folloWing
oLd ruLes.. to give is
not to take.. including
animal blood.. and lives
of others.. the
give is
without
take in
fearless
GiVinG Love..
withOut harm
to oTheRs mY friEnd..:)
Golden NEW rULE..
FearLess Love.. NO
hArm To creaTioN ONE..:)
As printED by SuN
AnD ShadeS oN mY bE
forEhead selFie waY..;)
AnD thE conText oF thAT
lasT Fred KU.. biGGer viEW..
reQuires deTail SeeiNG mY Friend..;)
And SeeKinG
EXploRinG
FinDinG
Too..2..;)
SMiLes.. iN mY miNd And BoDy
BaLanCinG SoUL Of EmoTioNal
FeeLinG heArT iN ExpreSsinG
SpiRit SamE.. FriEnd Viv..noW
i SaY.. nEither RelaXaTioN..
DancE.. SonG.. oR poEtry
worKs aS fuLLeSt hUman
heARt wiTh mechanical
cognition ruleS
NoW iN as i2..
Free Verse i
reLaX
ZERO RULE..:)
ps.. per.. second Fredku
and Fredbun Free foR aLL
PEtERPaNmINraRiFiED..;)
SMiLes… EarTh never
sweats orbit around
Sun.. cats say no
when they get
too many
petsnoW
and scratch
WarningS oF diScomforT…
hUmanS iN BaLanCinG
stAnd stronG
LoVe hard
hug noW iN
gRass moonliT..
rollS in midday
sAnds.. so free allone..
noW Sand oF SinG SonG
BliSS WitH Grass cat whiskers
freE noW to bE aLiVe noW withouT
hUman Cultural noise iN PriSon
cLocK
tiMeS
BreathE DancE SinG..
moonLit twiliGht
Sun’s.. hEiR..:)
Ah.. a cat of mine..
named Arthur for
20 years.. noble
alpha cat of neighborhood
bLock never injured posture says
at 7 lbs from 15 Lb
mountain lion
beFore.. go away
intruder cat or else..
i WiLL have your fur..
and it worked as this
cat would never be scratched
by a less brave one oF hE then..
BagG oF BONEs
i stepped on
one day..
all weight oF Y i
230LBS noW..
KinG Arthur geTs
uP leisurely thenoW
anD walKs LioN
KinG aWay sTiLL
HeaLinG proPerTies
thAT mediCine WiLL
never understand
in the relative
free WiLL
of even
a Cat
freeR than
hUmans arReNoW..
FunctionAlly
disAbled hUmans
bY culTuRe’s teAt priSon..:)
i lEArNed
HiS
lesSon WeLL..:)
And that catches
iT aLL uP for NoW..
next stop way beLow
here… WiLL be
Tuesday prompt..
all About
farewells
not so
sure
in hopes
of geTtinG
Back to Love’s WeLL..:)
1:37 pm..
5252016..:)
2253
And tHeRe’s
the much softer
Angel Side.. noW in ‘that’
Facebook Profile status photo..
And speaking of that i find
the Inner UniVerse of HUman
BeinG in terms of EmoTioNs
and seNses fascinating and
how we connect wITh each other
through the verbal and non-verbal
expreSsiONs of SpiRit oF HeARt
FeLt EmoTioNs through both
our physical verbal
and non-verbal
eXpRESSiOns
aS weLL as SiGn
Language in all the
symbols that hUmans
can abstract design
iN mind and body BalanCinG SoUL..
as constructs.. both representing
metaphors of Golden Calves.. Hawk
Headed men.. to a three letter word
named God.. to expReSS more of what
CAN NOT be measured by empirical means
alone in discrete observation in meaSuRinG
ways.. and the height of the weakness in both
the field of psychiatry.. psychotherapy.. and
the psychology field as whole.. is what to do
when a human no longer either FEELS EMPATHY
AND OR ASSOCIATED NUANCED EMOTIONS.. and now
for me this IS A case study of mY history
for sure.. as when undergoing 2 years
of fLiGht or fIght stress i became
the textbook version of a person
who experienced little to
no eMoTioN along with
losing the connection
of Language with EmoTioNs
to describe how i was feeling
if anyway at all.. and truly all
was left of me was panic mode on
or less on in total adrenaline
flow.. AND WHAT happens when
one loses this normal
innate human
ability..
is chaos
and a complete
change in how one
views the world in terms
of FEELINGS.. and the sickest
pArt of the whole experience was
my brain was so damaged by stress as
yes science proves prolonged stress WILL
DO TO THE HUMAN BRAIN and all other bodily
systems.. THAT THE way i viewed pleasure became
both my pain and the pain of others to wHere when
i saw a person suffering to my cognitive moral code
self viewing the unfolding of this new way of view of the
world.. WHEN i saw my beloved mother choking on a piece of
bread instead of extreme fear and concern.. i felt a perverse
pleasure and there was nothing cognitively i could do to change
that feeling.. and when the psychiatrist asked me to use something
other than adrenaline to motivate myself.. namely EmoTions.. i had
no idea what he was talking about at that point.. and no way to generate
anything other than adrenaline fight or flight hormones.. in fact he said
my adrenal glands were literally stuck in the on position as this is what
the body will do.. under constant fight or flight pressure when a job
gets like that.. and my perseverance to survive in the job
was of my own goal oriented behavior too.. NOT TO QUIT..
as i had been with the same Government employment
for close to 25 years.. close to retirement
and assurance of lifetime health
insurance.. for my wife
who had Epilepsy..
and for myself
suffering from
Severe Anxiety at an
era where any Mental Disorder
meant no insurance coverage if you
lost your insurance and went to another
coverage or coverage one could not afford..
so yes.. Golden Handcuffs were around wrists
as i made those Golden Handcuffs real with the
contingencies created by my mind as life or death
action and consequence of life.. in keeping that job..
wHere the demands were becoming increasingly impossible
for me to do in a catch 22 situation.. Well at that period
of my life.. i had no idea a person could lose their emotions
or that Stress could result in close to 20 disorders all at one
point in one human being.. as my body and mind finally gave up..
and i could not sleep for almost 40 days except for 1 hour each
night for the first 35 days with an alpha blocker to slow
my heart rate down enough with what then became
dysautonomia for a nervous system and
cardiovascular/respiratory system
damaged beyond immediate
repair.. and doctors
can’t do a dam
thing for
that as
only rest and
relaxation.. sometimes
years.. to even a decade
can heal the extent of the
damage of a synergy of bodily
destruction from the real deadly
results of continual Chronic flight
or fight stress.. ANYWAY.. along with
the worst pain known to mankind.. type
two Trigeminal Neuralgia like a dentist
drill in my right eYe and ear.. WITHOUT
NOVOCAINE.. Sjogren’s Syndrome wHere
my Eyes quit making tears..
Severe Degenerative
Arthritis in my
spine and Spinal
Stenosis precipitated
early by a Congenitally
Fused Vertebra in my spine..
Coat Hanger Pain associated
with Dysautonomia.. and Fibromyalgia
for an entire body of pain.. the worst
of all was losing my Emotions and at the
end of that 40 day stay with no sleep.. even
all senses and pain too.. which was the worst
Hell of all wHere yes.. as mentioned over and
over in my blogs and here on Facebook too.. a second
was like a thousand years in a piece of paper existence
and what felt like total separation from allthatis AKA
GOD.. yeaH.. so.. i finally figured out that Hell and
Heaven is here and no where else.. most obviously
what the folks where talking about in the
old sacred texts too.. as there is
no other word for this place
that i’m sure other folks
have been to iN a similar
place of hell
who experience
constant fight or flight
stress in whatever shape
form or fashion that comes
in both now and then in the
human condition as is.. anyway..
stress is a serious ill of western
civilization as we base flight or fight
reaction to external abstract constructs
as determined by our minds to have life or
death consequences through our actions of
either success or failure.. and that is
truly a catastrophic way of thinking
in potential catastrophic
illness.. AND BACK
TO THE FIELD OF PSYCHOLOGY
ALL THEY COULD DO WAS OFFER PILLS
AND THERAPY IN THE WAY OF THOUGHT CONTROL..
BUT ZERO WAY OR ZERO SUGGESTION IN HOW TO
GET THOSE EMOTIONS BACK.. no one could help me..
so i had to find my own back to humanity.. and finally
i did that with connecting emotions to language through
poetry in remembering grief in songs and photos of my past
as copied and pasted in visual blog way.. and in reliving that
grief it finally sparked my Emotions back like a Tidal wave..
turning me into a bi-polar state of mind from the darkest
dark of emotion-less existence to waves of EmoTion
from a drought of hUman BeinG for 66 months..
and the first laugh around the beginning of
August in 2013.. yes.. the first laugh
in 66 months and the first emotion
felt smile was a heaven out of
hell for me then..
simply coming
from a joke
from the
new person
we got to cut
my hair then.. she
was a savior too.. of my
heARt.. SpiRit.. and SoUL then
too.. and the first and only tear
in that 66 month period was in
April 2013.. after a beloved
cat we had to put down
due to Kitty Aids..
the son of
Yellow
Boy
named Sunny
Boy.. and now
i can bring tears easily
as i know the value of them..
as that one tear brought strength
of emoTions in my body that could still
muscularly press 500LBS then but
felt so weak inside
as EmoTions
are what
give uS
strength..
not the form
by itself of strength
of what we see on the outside
and this is why my 94 year old
crippled great aunt Jettie at this point
in my life at age 47 was infinitely
stronger than i.. without EmoTions
as i barely had the energy to
speak.. exhausted after
a few words..
so anyway..
dance was the next
step to regulate my new
found emotions and integrate
the senses of my new found bodily
strength.. from head to toe and how
i radiated this emoTioNal and sensory
energy to others through outward spiRit
eXpreSSinG energy in non-verbal ways and
other ways that science is yet to measure
that we humans can sense who experience..
it.. however.. as i know and feel now..
there are many who cannot as
both disuse of the emotional
intelligence of human
beings.. in physical
way too.. from head
to toe.. can wither
away emotions and empathy
to almost non-existent.. and of
course successful first responders..
surgeons.. law-forcement.. etc.. must
have excellent control over their
emotions and senses otherwise
they will not survive..
and interestingly modern
science shows the criminal
element of psychopathy has
the ability to feel emotions
and empathy fully like a faucet that
can be turned off and on.. but in my
mind those are not the real full psychopaths
who can only feel pleasure at someone’s pain..
as horrifyingly from first hand experience that
is no longer a part of my life.. it is a real deal
and beyond horrifying.. both to potential perpetrator
of all types of crime violent or not.. and or manipulation
of others who are white collar crime folks who are of the
higher IQ type of psychopaths with high
emotional intelligence.. and ability
to turn the emotions and empathy
off or on.. by will..
the moral code is
what sets folks apart..
and to pooh pooh the value
of all religions in modifying
potential dangerous and criminal
behavior of human beings.. is a distinct
and dangerous mistake.. as even science shows
now that otherwise psychopaths through structural
disorders in their brain can become successful law
abiding and folks with moral character if taught
this from birth with love no different
than the education of school..
so yeah.. take the
good book learning
away and potential
harm grows and of course
even in the clergy.. science
shows that is one of the top ten
jobs where psychopathic leaning folks
land jobs.. and certainly their upbringing
in church is what kept ’em at least in part
out of real criminal associated trouble..
and they are simply fearless and
smart enough to stand before
a crowd of folks and
speak freely
and coherently..
the lesson of the
day as it were and still
is today.. and what i feel would
be helpful to both boys and girls in school
is free style dance in martial arts ways for
girls to develop their masculine qualities of
fearless strength and will and ballet-like free style
dance now for boys.. to both expand their emotional
feelings of experience throughout a body of motion..
and to regulate more aggressive associated emoTions
too.. to limit potential negative action and
consequences upon both themselves and others..
sadly.. polarized gender role expectations
makes this almost impossible
in heavily influenced
patriarchal leaning
red state areas..
that are of
course homophobic
to the max from a
so-called part of a good
book that is not good at all
as that is one of many dark parts
of religion too.. in ways of hate now
and illusory fears.. so there is a long
way up for humanity.. but truly many ways
to get there for many folks who might not
otherwise have hope.. if they can just lose
their fears and get the job done on a path
that will work for them..
’cause once
you’ve been
to hell.. trust
me.. you will appreciate
being an Earth Angel again..
oh yeah.. and for people who pooh pooh
the value of selfies that is total bull shit
as it is just another way of bio-feedback to
master and regulate human emotion through
the nonverbal language of facial
expressions and in the online
world of autism communities
folks with so-called
higher functioning
autism who are
more likely
to have problems
with non-verbal
language are using
this as an advantage
for personal therapy
in gaining a greater
emotional intelligence
and even with more severe types
of autism therapists are finding
great effective results using both
music and movement therapy to increase
the connection of language.. both verbal
and non-verbal with emotions and greater
all natural propensity to interact
with other folks
as sparking
the Emotional
life of human being
in pro-social ways
is what makes us strong
in social cooperation and is
why.. DUH.. WHY OUR FUCKING PRIMITIVE
ANCESTORS NAMELY MY INDIAN ANCESTORS
WHO WERE NAMED AS SAVAGES FOR DANCING
NAKED TOGETHER AROUND CAMPFIRES HAD MUCH
GREATER EMOTIONAL INTELLIGENCE AND COULD
KICK ASS IN ANY ONE TO ONE FIGHT WITH A SO-CALLED
WHITE WARRIOR WHO WALKED IN STRAIGHT BRITISH LINES
OF MILITARY BATTLE.. PER THE GENTLEMAN WAY AWAY
FROM THE WILD OF WILL AND STRENGTH..
yes.. the kind of IQ you get in school..
might make ya money.. BUT IT WILL
never IF yoU seeK iN GoD WITHIN
yes.. FucKinG WIThIN
save your
HeARt.. SpiRit
SoUL.. that are the
true life saving intelligences
of both the individual human
being and the race as
whole on a global
basis now..
so when
they say
DancE And SonG
in ExpRESSinG
EmoTioNaL SpiRit
HeARt and SoUL..
WiLL save the world
the Rock and Rollers understand
God better than most religions
and science will ever do
in the
tRue Art
iN liGht of hUman
BeinG and to put this
into words has been one
of the hardest tasks assigned
by the God of Innate Intuitive
Instinctual Nature real to me..
but worth it as the paths and
journey to help others attain
heaven now like i’ve
REALLY JUST DONE..
NOW.. COME
TO FRUITION..
IN HELPING OTHERS..
SURE.. it can’t
be said enough
when
a REAL
SPIrIT.. SOuL..
AND HeART
iS AT
STAKE
oF
ART..
And if you are wondering
how i do all of this..
i am an au·to·di·dact
from HeLL noW iN Heaven
who reads 10 to 15 times
faster than the average
human being and types as
fast as A Keyboard allowS
somewhere up to 130 words
a minute or so..
the volume of
information
i consume in both
Google text and
youTube Video way
as well as I generate
is beyond the fathom
of most minds of this
human era .. but again..
i am motivated from
a place of REAL
HELL.. THAT
MOST PEOPLE
CAN NEITHER
FATHOM EITHER..
THANKS
GOD FOR
THAT TOO..
and the closet analogy
to who i am now.. is probably
that new movie named ‘Lucy’..
as my mind and body balance
continues to grow at an
exponential rate to the
point that truly
no one
can catch
up to me now..
as far i know now
and have experienced
in all i do.. but again
as stated before that is
the mission assigned by
God in another intelligence
well beyond the fathom
of perhaps any
human
anywhere..
any day..
but i do not
kNow the answer
to that as i am
not all humans
yET.. who have
ever lived..
and the last
line was iS..
tongue
iN
cheek..
per the Movie
‘Lucy’ if ya
ever actually
see it more
than here..
hehe..
And as side note
here goes on.. last
night at the gym.. i take
a white towel.. and i use that
towel as a ballet-like tool to
butterfly my way twirling around
the iron of Nautilus machines..
as it Will impact my fLight
per weight of towel.. i ask
her iF iT’s bigger and
she says.. it’s just
different..
and i say..
okay.. next now
someone asks me
what’s wrong with
you i’m gonna say
the girl at the
gym said
iT’s
juSt
diffeRent
thaT’S aLL..;)
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Well.. iF ya look closely..
‘this’ iS my “Metaphors Be
With You Shirt”.. noW aND
that’S trUe hUman NoW iN
MetaphorsE iN wayS noW
of Sign language.. developed
in all visual abstract constructs..
whether as labels for so-called
concrete objects.. including we
humans.. And our figurative behavior
of emoTioNs in figurative metaphors
as well.. thAT CAN be either
FOR US
OR AGAINST US noW..
wITh some folks free to
go beyond the barriers
of fences constructed by
other humans in life or those
who succumb to illusory fears
generated by metaphors of symbols
ranging from words to horned pan
devils and such as that.. where
timid humans never develop
their much fuller human
potentials as progress
is halted by the
more conservative
closed minded folks
among us.. and ha!
there are those who believe
the magic of liFe in the belief
itself as human emotion is sorcery
per both black and white magic as
metaphor for Ted Bundy Shape Shifters
to murder young women.. to super hero
soldiers who save Liberty and Freedom
and Justice for all in Paul Revere waY iN
GIVE ME LIBERTY OR GIVE ME DEATH..
well.. ya see.. P!nk in her video FIRE speaks
to this.. in occult ways.. yeS.. it’s true..
folks in Hollywood practice occult
rituals to increase the Placebo
effect of human potential
and yes.. they use
what is described
as Sex MaGicK
in occult way
too.. but
seriously.. the essence
of what works is human
sensuality through changes
in neurochemicals and neurohormones
motivate us to be more creative and socially
cooperative.. and the action.. consequence of that
is positive over negative.. and those who lose all
illusory fears will succeed in whatever endeavor
they enter into whether in metaphor of black
or white magic.. per negative actions
that harm others.. potentially..
or positive actions that result
in positive outcomes for
most everyone as wHole..
but here’s the thing.. the
essence of Human Nature
iN Human potential in alignment
WiTH the Interdependent.. Interconnecting
Relationship of allthatis aka God is as real
if one calls iT blue as it is red or green.. the metaphors
just house the vehicles and vessels of trUth to liGht essence from
black to white to shades of grey and all the concrete labels
of the birds.. dragon flies.. and plants that my sister..
who is a lot like Ms. Jane Hathaway if you
remember that bird nerd.. who my sister
freely identifies with proudly as someone
diagnosed with the super IQ form
of Asperger’s syndrome too.. who
can tale ya every label for most
every living thing in Nature..
as that is HER SPECIAL
INTEREST.. and she captured
a Kite Swallow Tail bird today..
one of the most beautiful
members of the Hawk family
with her three grand or so digital
camera that will blow anything i take
with my iPhone 6s in quality but yes..
it weighs a ton and one cannot pull it
out of a pocket like drawing a gun in
a gun fight to point and shoot.. before
the target moves out of sight.. my advantage
too.. iS moving in 360 degrees in my own Kite
way of mastering my physical environment
and sensory integration.. in capturing
Nature in Smartphone/Fred way..
Well.. okay.. back to the occult..
the most famous occultist
in history by far in terms
of Hollywood practice..
is Aleister Crowley..
of last Century.. definitely
one with psychopathic checklist
symptoms as he tortured small animals
as a child.. and didn’t have a whole lot of
sympathy for those who got in his way..
in what his exploration was to increase
human potential in both he and others..
yes.. in total effect and lack of affect..
he was a lot like Steve Jobs..
in genius way too..
and yes.. the Beatles
and Led Zeppelin and many
other Rocks Stars.. including
Jim Morrison.. and even Sting
were highly influenced by this man..
and yes.. stars like JZ.. Beyonce..
etc.. in believing in a much higher
human potential than what was censored
out of the good book as iS in terms of Bible..
where human potential in all these ways.. particularly
the naturally lusty propensity of human beings iS sTilL
repressed and oppressed.. leading to much
lower potential in human creativity..
social cooperation.. and even
productivity.. as whole..
but no worries.. in the
western free world
as Porn HaS totally
taken care of this..
just finger tips away..
and most anyone who says
they do not peruse it.. is lying
through their fingers.. hands..
etc.. as iT iS juSt hUman NatUre..
as yes.. NaturAlly gifted by God and
only something that has been held back
by the so-called Victorian age before Vicky’s
secret came out in the heat of below and above
same… As given freedom.. women.. can be even more
sexually charged than men.. demanding it in bootie
dances as one sees free on dance floors today..
vs.. girls who waited like wallflowers all innocent
and such on the sidelines of life.. BUT.. SOME
FOLKS ARE NATURALLY LESS
SEXUALLY CHARGED.. CREATIVE..
PRODUCTIVE.. AS THAT ALL FITS
TOGETHER BELOW ABOVE..
INSIDE AND OUTSIDE..
ALL AROUND..
AND that is why in
a truly free country like the
USA.. there must be room for
both sides now and all the shades
of grey in true liberty.. freedom.. and
justice foR All hUman beings
to express more or less
of hUman potenTial and
that heaven is herE noW
for those who Master liFe
through relative free will..
and there are no longer any fences..
that i care to go through or so-called
dark but legal fantasies that i do NOT
explore fully without harming anyone
else but those who would like to say
in books.. others symbols.. and such..
including words.. no Fred.. you cannot
go past that fence.. you will be held
accountable for what it says in our book..
Well.. folks.. i have read many books.. and i for
one kNow and FeeL 100% that God does not
discriminate when it comes to God manifest in
us to find Peace.. and Pleasure in ways of
Unconditional Fearless White Magic Love..
and while the Ted Bundy effect has no
impact on me.. as i know what
makes Ted Bundy Fundies tick..
’cause i’ve been to
a similar place too..
folks like Aleister Crowley
do not scare me at all as all they
have is metaphors.. and no matter
how complicated human signs get..
in symbol and idol way.. THE GOD OF
NATURE ALL ONE OWNS FREEDOM..
AND LIBERTY AS MANIFEST FREELY
IN US.. AND WHEN ITS UNCONDITIONAL
LOVE AND IT FEELS GOOD THERE CAN
BE NO EVIL IN THAT AS LONG AS IT HARMS
NO ONE.. WITH INTENT.. AND IS DONE IN A WAY
WHERE OTHER FOLKS DON’T HAVE TO TURN IT ON
OR CAN TURN IT OFF.. AND the trUth and liGhT iS..
metaphors as attached to powerful human emotions
and senses associated with sensuality.. and the
human archetypes of the collective
genetic subconscious that impacts
us both through our genetic history
and our life experiences now are
powerful devices to increase the
real emotional and sensory
powers of human being..
in Quantum Mind and
body ways.. unleashed
and released that no human
has adequate metaphors yet to
describe.. but there IS A road there
through human language and other
metaphors that as a synergy of social
cooperation of human beings.. the Chalice
we raise to God IS A Temple of God Manifest
aS US iN mini selFie mE waY.. iT’s A Confident
FeeLing.. truly.. when you raise your armS noW
as the CHALICE OF GOD.. AND KNOW noW..
FEEL.. AND SENSE YOU ARE A MASTERPIECE
OF ART MORE VALUABLE THAN ANY PIECE
OF GOLDEN
CALF.. OR BIBLE
IDOlS WORD SYMBOL…
N O W LIGHT TRUTH
FREEDOM AND VALUE
iT iS TO KnOW WE ARE
THE NAKED FLESH AS PaRT
oF the Living God allthatis.. yes..
inside.. outside.. above.. so below..
and all around.. and truly it pained
me much not to be able to express..
my entire naked temple of God here..
but hey.. it’s the law and i give Caesar
what is ‘his’.. whether that means i have
to wear clothes or pay taxes or now DO
AS community standards dictate iT.. to be pArt
of the wHolE
human pie..
but sUre wHere
1st amendment rights
of the United States rule..
and there are open minded
Corporations like Google who
truly believe in the rights of human
beings as part of this country to fully
express what and who they are from
head to toe.. tHeRe are places wHeRe
folks can go online.. wherE the repressed..
oppressed.. and just plain vanilla.. not born
sensually charged can go to cover up too..
and generally speaking that is everywhere
for them.. and few places for trUly fRee fully
FReED folks like i.. but the world is changing
and the intoxication of Freedom iS
the drink
of God
free iN US/wE noW..
who have the desire
to be more fully free
and comfortable in our
own skin of God in however
the art of that comeS now..
And sUre.. theRe IS A Song
for this appropriate for the
coMinG Memorial Day
celebration for Rosie
the Riveteer PiNK
too.. as she INviTes
uS to raise our glasses
and be free.. truly the best
thanks to give iS to the those whose
blood and bones we stand upon noW
who allow us this great Freedom of
Expression in the U. S. oF A.. so
yeah.. whenever yA see.. naked
Miley’s.. Britney’s.. Rihanna’s trUth
such as THAT.. they are the liGht
oF HUman Chalice and Glass
iN God Given Freedom sET
and raised uP as Naked
God iN/aS uS WiLL Love
to do without human illusory
fears fostered by chains on
God in books large and small
of God iMpriSONed iN hUman mAde HeLLs..
OH.. by a way.. i had to travel all the
way to Bagdad to get this metaphor selfie photo..;)
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And.. God.. yeS noW as thE
Selfie Hit FredNoW
ParAde continues..
Martial Arts and
Ballet-like dance
IS A best way
to increase thE
metaphorSE
poTenTiaL
as i
iN Kite
hEiGhts
oF Egyptian
Mythology to
enhance the
EmoTioNal
and hUman
SeNsory poWer
oF juST thAT from
Head to toe.. to
aLL A RoundNoWoN..
And hell no.. iT’s nOthing
new.. folks have been raiSinG
conscious mind and body balance
oF SoUL awareness through all forms
of ecstatic dance from all nows memorial
but true when only footloose IS A freewayNOW..:)
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SMiLes.. with due respect
to EMiLy D..the best stuff
in life is free.. oh but so much
farther out of a book.. iF one
can find WinGs of SeeD
born in Happy Feat..
SMiLes aGaiN..
ImaGiNation iS mY
playgRound.. reaDinG
iS mY insPiRaTioN..
DancE iS thE
energy that
SinGS the
aLL SeeinG
eYe as pArt
oF i.. And then
the Lord said make
iT aLL sacred and
Holy jUst like Dance
and poEtry and aLL WiLL
be YoUr FriEnD from head to
toe to grains of sand of mountains
hOld above.. Valleys green.. and even
black hole rain of sOuL as boost to UP..
when one finds every Number as UniVersE
and every letter as natural poeTry.. duSt as
US in liFE as sAMe.. tHeRe iS no wHeRe but
uP and Up iN MindFuLL awareness oF NoW..
tHe only reaLiST pLace oF aLL in heAven’s
piLLoW i cloUds sKeYes AzuRe gOld
iN i..
noW..
anyWay..
paths never
stop branching
out and the journey
iS aLwaYs noW.. BooGiE
Wonderland iSRaeL and this
place ain’t HeLL for mE anymore..
as even though New Jerusalem can
kinda suck when ya feel the stress of the
helLions all around ya.. jUSt Dance juSt dAnce
as GoD WiLL SmiLe iN leGs oF Happy Feet uP
WiTh Gloria
noW
breatHe oF
i iS So flY aS GOlden
SpiRAls WiLL bE NOW..
and the fAct iS giVen aLL
possibilities i AM aWarE oF
iN UniVerse noW i would be
no wHere and no one different
than i iF given the opportunity
to do iT aLL oVer aGain.. and
i woULd do iT aGain.. aS now
the ultimate achievement
iS moving from
heLL to
HeaVen
iN juSt
oNE
noW
aLiVeFReED..
but the greAtest
luxurY iS NoWinG
i could die noW
and that
jUst
makes
HeavenoW
taste that much
better noW mY
FriEnd.. when iT
aLL makes FucKinG
sense as deep and hiGh
as soUl can go aliVenoW..
And iS iT noW nO WoNder
that folks who enslave others now
have hidden the tRuth that Heaven
requires no money at all.. no iT iS noT
as iF “THEY” kNew theRe would bE no reason
to buy anything but food.. water.. and shelter
from
HELL..
And of course
DancE And SinG
Naked and free hOlding
thE hand of God in each
otHeR FReED.. anyWay2..
i’M gonna keep doin’ Heaven
’cause i JuSt can.. bottom line..
and if no one wants to join me..
i WiLL not make them as they
can continue to live in prison
as sure it’S tHeir freedom..
theiRs of choice
as not so
WeLL..
@ALL. AH..
Dead.. Ashes to
dUsT..DuSt to Fire
i RisE aGain from
FLumes oF lies..
And as side note here.. PRoLoNG..
you kNow.. liFe is so FucKinG noW
strange gigoid.. at the start THEN
of Sjogren’s syndrome before
my eYes quit making tears
back in the FaLL oF
2006.. wondering
why when i touched
anything with my
feet it felt
like needles
in the bottom bones
of my feet.. where anything
i touched with feet was beyond
belief of pain.. funny how the
Trigeminal Neuralgia kind of
made me forget about
that pain and
about the
Fibromyalgia
too.. and sure the
arthritis in my spine..
Carpal tunnel syndrome..
etc.. etc.. but watching that
Movie back then.. yes.. Happy
Feet.. it was the strangest dam thing..
somehow someway i knew then i would
become that Penguin even though i could
not touch the floor underneath the seats
in the movie theater with my feet.. Jesus..
i aM that PenguiN NoW
and by
God
that’s
enough..
beyond BELIEF
AND MAGIC ISREAL
AS BY GOD HELL FEET ONE
TURNED INTO HAPPY FEAT TWO..
and now i kNow wHat the purpose of the
Tree of LiFe iS noW to gRow deepest roots
oF aLL
Ocean noW..:)
penniewoodfall resPonds
with this and i quote
her.. quoting
me and
someone
else..
more
or less
sAMe..
‘breatHe oF
i iS So flY aS GOlden
SpiRAls WiLL bE NOW’
“the habit of thinking only
of horizontal and vertical movements
often prevents us from experiencing
the spiral one
spiral movements
are LONGER in TIME
and WIDER in Space
than vertical and horizontal ones
applied to the breathe
this is the image to employ while breathing
it facilitates the exit and entrance of air
until it tumbles over the sides
and falls down
like a rain of light”
Sandra Sabatini..;)
i say..
penniewoodfall
You are a TreAsurE..
And then i say..
ps..
Pain is
Fear exiting
The body.. Also
kNown as Kundalini
riSinG and hA! Funny
How physicians noW and
Yogis can reduce thAT greAT
Inner UniVerse experiencE noW
To jUst 7 or so pArtS iN LaBeL
ReAcTioN.. WeLL poeTry iS every
gOdAm goDsubAtomicString RAng iN
pAint and NoW SinGs and DanCes
iN BList And HeLL oH! GoD yeS2..
YeS tHiS iS morE tHan A FuCKinG
HeaD and BreAtHinG GamE noW.
THiS IS A FKinG tHinG noW
PerioD oR A
eRa/AeOn..
siriUs..
noW LiKe
A DoGoD
sTaRry
StarrY
niGht
oF aLL
heaVenoW
aGaiNoWoN..:)
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Hmm.. seeing the date of the Happy Feet
Penguin movie as noted on Wiki..
actually i saw the movie
in 2006.. the fall
of that year..
and now i remember
that the first colors that i could
not bear with my eYes actually
started well before that pain
of feet at the beginning of
2006.. so yeah.. not
just 66 months of
extreme suffering..
actually over 8 years
of intense suffering overall..
and truly the strangest part oF
aLL was when i could longer stand
colors.. and no longer stand music..
and finally not even stand words as spoken
on the radio.. in around that period of now in
2006.. before Hell went full blown.. and in an attempt
to describe how i felt inside.. words will never do it.. but
visual arts in non-verbal language when a human beinG noW
has forgotten what a smile is or laugh in terms of FeeLinG And
or expreSSinG hUman spiRit.. the video “Illusion” as accompanying
VNV Nation’s Illusion song does the bLack of death in liFe juStice..
and existence outside of existence real in a place of machine
pArts begging to regain the flesh and blood of FeeLinG..
not just breathing.. and pain.. and pain and breathing..
always now in never ending ground hog.. yes.. Aghogday..
another ground hog day.. anyway.. the polar opposite
is my life now.. as i feel energy of EmoTioNs and
SeNseS in ever cell shining of my Body.. zero
pain when not sore from a Marathon
of dance.. and an energy
that i can actuALLy feel
radiating from me
in those
Spirits of Angel
energy presentations
that are pure energy without
form at all.. in liGht of hUman
BEinG.. anyway.. i celebrate life
and attempt to expReSS what i’ve
been through.. so.. someone listening
somewhere in the future through what i do..
NoW miGht gain hope that tHeRe iS A way out
and suicide really isn’t the answer although
i surely hoped it was.. during the suicide
disease of that type Two Trigeminal
Neuralgia from wake to sleep at
beyond eXXtreme levels
of pain for 66 months..
but when it comes to
empathic FeeLinGs of
conNecTinG iN MoVinG
CreaTinG ways.. tHeRe are
certainly ways to exercise this
Love Muscle like Insurance for
another heArt Day noW.. WitH
spiRit ExpreSSinG A BaLanCinG
MiNd and BoDy SoUL.. it’sREAL..
It’s now and anything iS trUly
possible iF ya jUst don’t
give uP.. if i had given
uP.. i would never
have got to
experience noW
heaVen and surELy
thAT would have been
a shAMe oF HeLL here on Earth..
same as polar opposite pLace oF Heaven
here on Earth too.. REAL.. A PLACE INSIDE
THAT NEVER ENDS.. WITH ZERO MATERIAL NEED..:)
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WeLL.. i muSt say.. I LovE ThE LoVinG Eagles and i had
a great night.. and yes.. i NoW like sleeping
iN the desert.. or aT least DanCinG
oN the Sand iN my back
yard and MaKinG
Love to the
sun of i..
aka God
within.. and yes
how i saY it.. from
inside to outside.. above..
so below and aLL’A’Round..
what else.. i don’t really care
iF Las Vegas.. lives forever..
butt i do Love to Dance
freeSt style on
Biloxi
Casino
Beaches.. what else..
i just let it go like the
froZen Princess and
Madonna does.. then too..
and hmm.. stream of consciousness
wRiting.. IS A Great River pLace to Be..
in Memorial of the Freedoms of the GreAt
U.S. oF A.. and of course all the folks
who have died for the unalienable
right even for ET’s liKe me.. for
Life.. Liberty.. and the Pursuit
oF Happiness.. which yes..
can sTiLL be achieved
in thiS great country
noW aND yeS oh
MaGiC iS now
juSt noW ah
ReaLiNoW
and i do
do that
noW
to
01
..:)
7997
Facebook FriEnd Mary F..
shares a heARt fELt
status that perhaps
she could use
some
couseling
and i say..
i feeL liKe thAT soMe noWs
aNd fiNd My beSt theraPist
iS
mY feeT
iN fLight..
wITh SonG
oF COUrse
accompanYinGliGht..
serioUsly.. i FeeL yOur
soUl.. coMe dAnce WitH
mE aT SeViLLe anD i WiLL
sHow yA mY waY foR
YoUR frEe waY
tHere aNy
ThurSday niGht
wHeRe i neVer reFuse
A reQuest To DancE..
mY ARTFUL FriEnd..:)
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i doN’t have any stigma
or fears or WTF toward
mental illness as i have
explored iT personAlly
in full disability oF dARk..
noW and also described
as mental illness in the liGht
of perseverance on what some
folks miGht think is insane in
terms of religiosity.. sensuality..
and overall life.. hmm… kinda like
Red hot instead of Luke Warm WiTH
God in two spiRit MiNd and BoDy BaLanCinG
way.. and thE truth iS.. iF it were not for political
pull THEN.. of an esteemed political person who
is a relative when i am young at 21.. the drugs they
were giving me then for a Condition of Asperger’s
mixed with a very strange manic episode that could
NOT BE diagnosed then.. WERE USELESS oh and
almost made me F iN reALLy lose mY mind.. way back
iN ’81.. and they basically just said.. sorry we can’t help
yA WitH tHeir hands up and said.. Fred there is nothing we
can do for you.. no different than what the Rheumatologist
said shortly after he said Fred you are wired different and there
is nothing more we can do for your pain.. sending me away then with
a paper highlighting the Dysautonomia.. Fibromyalgia.. Sjogren’s
Syndrome.. and later diagnosed Atypical Trigeminal Neuralgia termed
noW as Atypical Fascial pain too.. from wake to sleep for 66 months..
the degenerative arthritis.. Spinal Stenosis.. congenitally fused
vetebra and all of that2.. yeah.. i know i have already talked
to thAT in this 671st verse of the longest poem
in history now.. but it also stands alone in
this ‘tiny’ micro verse of 671 Verse
wHoLE.. which is also a symptom
of Bi-Polar noW aNd yES.. oH..
God yeS.. Asperger’s syndrome
intense focus on one thing
per poeTry and now
over 5400 miles
of dance in just
33 months.. go go..
everywhere i go noW in
public.. and yes.. nude
art online for a 55 year
old dude.. is not exactly the
norm in the world today..
particularly.. if one
is only
hot for
the Ladies
as it were and
sTiLL iS for me..
okay.. i cannot deny either
of those two existing diagnoses
that keep me in the realm of the
so-called permanently disabled and
i cannot deny if i was put into the same
job i had before.. that i am at regular retirement
age now for.. anyway.. that i could do that now
any easier than before.. without falling
dead after a short while..
as i am simply
not able
to carry
on with a thousand
or so responsibilities
at one now.. in FAct NoW
out of Love my Wife Katrina
takes care of ALL THOSE SO-CALLED
MINOR Details of a so-called house wife
hunter and gather now.. oh yeah.. and Katrina
is Permanently disabled too.. with complex partial
seizures.. up to 5 times a week or so.. where she
cannot hardly function at all after the seizures and
will now.. some times.. thank God so far.. only fall down
slowly to the floor and in NOT one hard
head hurting fall.. and that has only
happened two times so far with now
only one Grand Mal Life threatening
seizure in labor with our son who
did not make it but for 51 days..
and yes.. as far as demon looking
possession goes the literal fAct iN
art is THAT is what a partial complex
seizure looks like in terms of facial expressions..
and the truth is.. both of us back in bible days..
then would have been strung up and or burned to the burning
stake for being different.. funny.. how invisible disabilities
can look until they are expressed or rarely expressed at
all in terms of outward behavior.. and Jesus F iN Christ..
i modeled others standing still to the best of my ability
‘tiLL i exploded with dance at age 53.. and finaLLy got
the whole thing balanced enough with SonG and
DancE iN steps of peace to find mInd and
Body Balance soUL wELL enough noW as
what i term Heaven iN noW..
@least for mE noW..
anyway.. it’s kinda
kool that my wife and i
have accomplished what we
have as basicAlly a couple of
rejects for what they call society
today.. but hey.. i know a secret too..
back in the primitive days.. folks noW
like us were actually put on a pedestal
and praised for our oh so ‘special’ abilities
as they were treasured then.. as the mysteries
of liFe come aLive in what is basically viewed as
Extra Terrestrial humans.. Robin Williams as it were
and sTiLL Jim Carrey’s and others today.. who entertain
instead of pushing keys in offices without free air.. i Love
to bRinG folks uP as i was perhaps in one of the LoWest
HeLLs ever for what we term as an animal on Earth..
or who knows.. perhaps any other planEt too..
as we likely share the same general
characteristics throughout the
UniVerse too.. as liFE
WiLL BrInG uS
ET’s aLiVe
wherever
wE find a way
to thrive and flourish
in a side niche.. where
most no one kNowS noW so KooL
wE Exist.. and theRe is zero doubt
in my mind that the Buddha.. the Jesus
and many others who would not kill or hurt
a fly.. have our so-called weird conditions
too and sorry.. i cannot say that for any
head hunter dudes no matter
how much good stuff
they copy
out of the
Good Book trUe oF liGht
iN lIFe noW they are the
scourge oF God’s NaturE noW
as they KiLL other pARts of
God’s Nature based on lies
of imaginations in books..
God WiLL noT Kill God for
no F iN Reason unless
God iS trUly insane
like.. ‘head hunters’
‘over tHere’ and here..
who trUly
as the Jesus
says kNow not what
the FucK THEY StiLL DO
iN DEViL’S DREAMS COME
REAL IN TERMS OF HUMAN
MISERY AND SUFFERING REAL
IN GOD’S EyES OF HuMAN
ONE AND SamE.. EITHER
InSANE IN KILLiNG
OR LOViNG
SENSUAL
NAKED
TOUCH OF
BONOBO FREE LOVE..
ANYWAY.. WE ARE WEIRD
WE ARE ALIVE.. AND EVEN IF
‘YOU’ ha! DO AWAY WITH US NOW.
THE TRUTH AND LIGHT WILL STAND
ONLINE AS LONG AS SEVERS SERVE US
UP.. YES.. me and Isis to Use one Egyptian
metaphor from way back when.. or Thot noW
or Mercury or Apollo.. whomevA Ya wanna
call the hUmans who stand out liKe
strange iCons of tHeir now.. iT iS
the SpiRit of God
in the young
disabled
boy
King Tut
around as disabled
as uS.. who is still remembered
in His Golden Nautilus shell
sTiLL noW.. and thiS iS
the first now
in history
that anyone
could upload
tHeir soUl even more
than ya kNow in perSon
online liKe this.. quiET amaZinG
what i and Isis have accomplished
as permanently so-called disabled
folks in ‘this world’.. tHeRe is no
commercial market
for trUe super
heroes
of SoUL
today.. but thaT iS
oKay as we mY friEnds
are oNly heRe to Offer aLL tHe
TrUth and liGht wE see and FeeL
and yes i am the egg head Osiris
member of the couple.. who
all the KinG’s Men
and h0rses could
not put togeTher
AgAiN.. iT took Team
LiGht to do that.. wiTh
sure.. lots of help from Isis..
as Isis alWays doES as Mother
oF my ‘little’ home hEar online..
Ha!.. i exist.. and therE is absolutely
nothing anyone can do to get rid of me
now.. or ha! even notice me.. unless they
truly chase the ‘tuition of my words deeper
than 99 percent of the general pop.. will do..
thAT pARt never changes.. iT reAlly
don’t yEt.. buTT tHeir
iS alWays room
for change
as long
as wE.. hehE..
and so many oThER
Team liGht members do exist
online in numbers of miLLioNs now
through recorded history in Google Search
way.. just adding a verse here to the UniVerse
oF multi-human way here on Earth.. sUre.. tHere
WiLL be less and likely more than tHiS from oTheRS2..
as tHere is no limit or expectations of i.. FoR wHerE noW
the eYes oF God iN hUmaNoW WiLL gO neXt away from dARk
And Jesus F iN Christ.. the thingie about Isis iS JuST a metaphor
no different
reAlly
than Jesus
F iN Christ..
have a nice noW..
we SureLy WiLL
heRe iN Heaven
where the foRest SinGs
DreAms of Pan and his Wife..
and sure.. all the nymphs of the
Forest in innocent meadoWed way..
as my 112th Dance oF PaN FReED iS cOminG
ThurSday Night and yeS iN all Politics and
even religion tHere aRe the Cat people and
Dog people too.. some of uS are in the ‘tween
of puppy dog tales.. and spice of kitty KaTs2..
and of core there are Jekyll’s and Hyde’s like
me and the Lilith and Angels oF mY WiFe too..
iT just
Depend on
what pARt of ‘OnE’
oF wHere you WiLL
FiNd uS to kinda quote
Richard Bach’s ‘other
Free Seagull book’
on thAT..noW
sUre.. i’Ve
seen both
sideS Now..
and thE Win
IS A mix of the
blUe and Red PiLLs
for the Greenest Tree oF LiFe
possible in terms of Blue Highs
and Red lows in hUman poTenTiaL noW..:)
9600
SAdly.. we live in a world now..
where humans have bEcOme
commodities and work
is no longer creating
and sharing a product
that is useful to folks
one can actually touch…
REAL problem.. as humans are
humans until they become machines
and break down.. of course.. as humans
WiLL who have FeeLinGS of course to sTARt
with to lose.. and of course.. a few do not have
that either through nurture or nature.. so in cold
heARted way.. And.. Oh God.. the government
disability process is like any Microsoft
project of nerds without heart..
as Steve Jobs might
complain about
Bill Gates
in no ArT liFe
cold mechanical
cognition robot way..
WitH no imagiNation..
arT bRinGs wHolenoW
aS logic without heARt
Brings chaos that has
no glue to get the miNd
oF EmoTioNs through now
for focus.. and iN short term
memory as executive functioning
with oil of sorts.. and the glUe oF iT…
anyWay.. the system is designed by lawyers
for lawyers.. and that’s the last place now wHere
someone with a disability needs to be to navigate..
Fortunately for me.. i was a lawyer more or less and
with 100 pages of documentation was approved the
first time like a breeze.. sAdly.. the system was not nearly
as efficient after that as i received three forms asking if
i was still getting workers comp.. when i never received
that at all.. and kept on having to fill the paper work out..
somehow with dentist drill in my right eye and ear never
ending from wake to sleep.. seriously.. i was already
intent on suicide for the first two years.. as those
were boot straps that not even JOB could pull
up then.. and that did just about put me over
the edge as you say Murphy says..
but some how i kicked Murphy
in the ass and he seriously
has just been wimpy
for the last
3 years..
no matter
what he attempts
to do in bits and bytes
hehe.. he ain’t got no teeth
no more for me.. i won the battle..
i won the war.. i AM ALIVE NOW KiCKING..
yeah.. so i’m at the gym tonight and a twenty
something muscular black military dude is now
really kicking ass pumping iron making some
gorilla sounds like me.. and i say.. man.. i like
this.. you are really working hard and he turns
around and says.. yeah.. man.. you are the one
who inspired me
to work out
like this..
Funny.. how
people can make
a difference without
even saying a God Dam
thing.. i AM.. ’cause i inspire
others.. and that’s all tHere is to iT
for NoW mY friend.. with words or steps
oF liVing liFe as aweSoMe as all our
functional disabilities as hUmans WiLL
allow.. and trUe.. as professionally
assessed in document way
by three professionals..
i am too disabled
to do a pay
for money
job sTiLL
yeS in
lifelong
way now..
but not too
disabled to help
save the world in
aLL our little ways.. mY
friEnd THAT DO ADD UP..
iN MORE NowTHAN JUST
BUTTERFLY iMPACT NOW
AS HuMANS HAVE HaNDS TO HoLD..:)
10,122
Yeah.. sure..
TRUST ME..
I’M A
NINJA..
sure.. it’s
just a myth.. but…
Hmm.. let’s see what Wiki has to
say all about this Legendary
Ninja stuff..
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ninja#Legendary_abilities
“Legendary abilities
Superhuman or supernatural powers were often associated
with the ninja. Some legends include flight, invisibility,
shapeshifting, the ability to “split” into multiple bodies,
the summoning of animals, and control over the five classical elements.
These fabulous notions have stemmed from popular imagination regarding
the ninja’s mysterious status, as well as romantic ideas found in later
Japanese art of the Edo period. Magical powers were sometimes rooted in
the ninja’s own efforts to disseminate fanciful information. For example,
Nakagawa Shoshujin, the 17th century founder of Nakagawa-ryū, claimed in
his own writings (Okufuji Monogatari) that he had the
ability to transform into birds and animals.[67]
Perceived control over the elements may be
grounded in real tactics, which were categorized
by association with forces of nature. For example,
the practice of starting fires in order to cover a
ninja’s trail falls under katon-no-jutsu (“fire techniques”).[94]
The ninja’s adaption of kites in espionage and warfare is another
subject of legends. Accounts exist of ninja being lifted into the air
by kites, where they flew over hostile terrain and descended into, or
dropped bombs on enemy territory.[75] Kites were indeed used in Japanese
warfare, but mostly for the purpose of sending messages and relaying signals.[98]
Turnbull suggests that kites lifting a man into midair might have been technically
feasible, but states that the use of kites to form a human “hang glider”
falls squarely in the realm of fantasy.[99]”
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Oh God.. gotta keep the legend
going.. K and H and
all that circus
stuff
with
aghogday
and such..
through
loops
of real
fire..
okay..
so back
to DVerse
and SpeakinG oF TEAM
LIGHT BrinGinG Folks back
to liFe a little GAGA iN House
of FaLLinG Angels iS iN oRDer
of Chaos yET arT i FeeL..
so BrinG her and
aLL her
Ancient
and modern
SGT Pepper
Captain sAlt Friends
on too.. WiTh Eros
and Venus too..
he HE.. noW..
and remember
thiS iS jUst another
one of those Ninja thingies..
in multi-UniVerse LeGent way..:)
So yeah.. here’s to dVerse
and Farewell with
some wishes
of coming
back to
meet
again..
fickle we hUmans
can be.. he HE..;)
noW at 11:51 pm..
5252016..
Winter comes
back in dreams
of farewells come
mET aGaiNoW..
LovELy
eYes oF
SnoW
SinG
BacK
to LovE..
A Kiss oF SpRinG..:)
Best thing about never
worKing aGain.. FOR
FUCKING GOD DAM
MONEY.. is no
one has
to be
the Supervisor’s
FRiENd.. the administrator’s
Pal.. or the slave of several
bosses.. hehe.. i DancE.. i SinG
i SpRead Love.. no matter
whaT
i foR
oNE LOVE..:)
A WORLD without third
places away from work
and home.. iS certainly a
sad place.. a place for
distance instead
of moving..
connecting
creating
flesh and blood
and although
there are no
more BowLinG
AlleY’s.. a place then..
of close to two DecAdes
for me at work wHere
everyone kNew me as
the Bowling Alley man..
there is Dance and Cheers
of the same bar.. and even
Super-Walmart.. as i am the
fixture of the never ending
story noW of the Metro
FL Panhandle
Dance man
at Large..
and jUst
iMagine.. planting
a sMiLe on someone’s
face everywHere ya go..
as they jUst wait for the
neXt dance from the
watch of dance
man days..
And that my
friEnd.. is whY i do
not take online seriously..
iT never existed before
iN flesh and blood
and iT still
doesn’t
exist that
way for me
and never WiLL..
THANKS GOD..
i feel wHere
REAL HOME
iS.. but sure..
it’s a very fancy
piece of paper
to noW write
some pretty
noteS ON..
that WiLL
never
burn
iN
eaRTh
HeLLnow..
So.. alOnE..:)
oH.. YeaH
genetic STiLL
memory and aLL
oF thAT aS hUmans
have A long history
of enjoying sacRedrum
death oF eWe.. poor
Goats.. i rather
fancy liFe and do
Love to eat Leg of Lamb..
as long as i am not NoW
the one
to slice
the throat..
oh.. the dirty
worK oF liFe
and hAnds so
iVory tower cLean..;)
Oh.. God Grief is hard..
as an empatH oh God2..
FeeLinGs so sTronG i lEarned
to close off those FeeLinGs unTiL
oh.. God3 all the tears dried up in dry rain
too.. aH.. but now i kNow the reaSon
for those tears.. actually an
increase in dopamine
release.. a steady
decrease in
fuzzy warm
and soft oxytocin
human connection
and reduction in
trust of Serotonin
but then the nomad
of Dopamine increase
WiLL create iN arT anotHeR
tOuch oF Love.. and then the
warm and fuzzies will come
back and the trust and human
moving.. connecting.. creating
fuller feelings but the
tEar IS A
stream
that FiLLs
the much fuller
Ocean oF Love aGaiN..
AS rivers do flow and
tides
do ebb
on Ocean
shores oF eYes
oF sorRow and Love..
and oh God4.. poeTry
and DancE as WeLL
as SonG IS A great way
to work through and process
oh.. those so.. difficult trials
and tribulations of hUman EmoTioN
FReED… and as side benefit.. inteGraTioN
Of seNses iN MiNd and BoDy
Balance oF SoUL WiLL come
Greater2 iN heArt and
SpiRit ExPRESSinG
ways.. oh so tRuE..
noW iN liGht Now
and dArK oF LiFe..
NoW mY FrieND..:)
Shot gun home on river..
Train tracks a stone throw
away.. Locomotive shaKing
Foundation on concrete blocks
mIles away in whistles oF Loving
Relatives inside then..
and then that
whistle so
far in the
distance..
lost and so
hard trYing to
FiNd that soft
Love connection
of Youth in Work
dead soUl.. heArt..
and SpiRit then.. and
noW the Whistle once
aGaiN is HaPPy as i own
happy.. iT is the servant oF I
noW
totAlly
tRain Whistle
Free.. mY friend..
and good forTunes
to yA as WeLL aLL aBoard..:)
SMILes.. farewells
used to scare me
oh so deeP iN fEar..
and noW
all i kNow
iS Hello
NoW oN
as the sea
iS alWays
fULL oVe
REaL
HELLoS..
iF oNe says
HeLLo fiRst..:)
Ships that pass
in the life decades
never meeting.. i tried
i tried but pretty much
the only thing my dad told
me after leaving our family
when i was three.. mad that
my mother then wanted to
raise us more than making
money.. SO LONG ago.. iS
boy.. be a man.. perhaps
the military can make ya one..
and when our child was going
into heart surgery.. he said..
make sure you
raise him
like a boy..
before the
child died..
problem was..
my father never
lEarned to be a
man first by being
a woman.. my friend..
a lesson lEarned by
i oF diVine feminine
Love finAlly setting
the father in
the face
of mirror
me free from
reins of Father
who never sadly
reAlly became a man
as A REAL MAN WiLL
love no matter
what..
as Real
human MEN do..
without excuses
for what they are
afraid they are or
not themselves..
Human Nature is
easy to understand..
once the real fears do come out
to play in ways of liGht and dARk..:)
Love as
nigh iS die
never
forgeTs
Love..
LesSon
leARned
bY DYinG
iN liFe.. soon
enough.. SaVinG Love..:)
Perhaps.. the saddest
thing about retirement
or even children is
Lovers and
even friends
can become
sibling rivals..
i suppose humans
are made to miss the other more
than count on ever presence.. ah..
effervescence off miSSinG Love..:)
And now as side note here..
A farewell to Love is sadly
what is expected in some patriarchal
cultures.. particularly the deep south
i live in.. that is so dam homophobic..
if any male even attempts to act
soft in grace as a REAL
MAN NOT AFRAID
OF THE DIVINE
FEMININE
OF ANIMA
but i fight
that with half
a ton of kick
ass strength
in ballet
and it gives
me great pleasure
to scare the feminine
back into so called
macho head men..
TO gET
the real
strength
of the inner
anima.. and true..
it works the same
dam way in reverse for
a woman who thinks her
husband must speak for
her.. and accompany
her on every walk..
as the woman has
an inner
animus
of WiLL
iN SpiRit..
W i S d o M
Strength too..
if not repressed
by self or oppressed
by others in ways of
culture and or religion..
trUly.. the patriarchal cultures
are the place wHere there is the
most psychological suffering.. wHere
only half a man or half a woman are allowed
to exist as one soul.. in this liFe noW..
that is beyond
sad as that is
liVing
half a liFe
or half a UniVerse
aS innEr BeinG beYonD aLLnoW..:)
And wITh aLL that sAid
iT’s noW for bed..
5262016..
1:33 am..
be back later..:)
11:35 AM..
and now back
to Unintentional
Farewells that noW
are alWays dVerse-
like potential
Hellos to mE noW..;)
Memory dusts photos old
from Bars of liFe
third places
away from
home.. work
and yes from school..
wHere we lean into hug
each other and find support..
oh.. the days of third places
gone in text
of cold
but now
found as arms
iN Feat oF Dance..
at Least for me..
wHere there
is never
a stranger
iN joY.. i.. lost loves..
lost friends.. lost joys..
sMiles.. laughs.. and cries..
alWays potential for new paThs
neW DreAMs FruiTioNoW jourNey..:)
SMiLes.. i neVer say
goodbye.. as i kNow/
FeeL/SeNse.. thE trUth oF morE
InFiNiTy iN liGht foreVermorEnoW
Now.. ALL.. AH.. iS SEE yA LAtER WaY..
AnD yeS.. i SMiLeS And neVer
ends a story.. fiNish..
beGinS alWays
noW A StARt FoR Art.. DroP oF
waTerstreAMsRiVerOceaNwHole..:)
Letting go.. can be so difficult
until one realizes
tHere iS
no letting
go only reaL
stayYinG Now..
WitH but noT WitH
juSt wordS.. seNses
FeeLinG DanCinG NoW
SinGinG liFe WholE
anD thE Rest SnoWs
iN Flow unFroZen ZonE..:)
From the origin of the
Cycle aLL Of NowonE
continues thE
poinT oF
noW re..
tUrn iS see ya
laTer.. BlanKeT
oF Love all that iS
one God sAMe.. no separation
aLL.. ah.. oNE.. Namaste arE wE
and all of creaTionS oWoNe WitH
never enDinG SMiLes aT lEasT noW
whOseeHEarFeeLeYesheReNoWoNe..:)
sMiLes.. oh.. the
poor roach.. disGuSTinG
villain hero who never
dies @aLL in relative
human
terms
of 300 miLLioN
years or so and
his/her giant dragon
flY brethErensistEren
wHo sTill
flY uP
to SpEEDS
of 60 or so
miles an hour..
oh.. hUmans.. so foCused
oN.. foRm iNstead oF eVer esSeNce
oF GoD iN Roach and DragOn Fly FReED..
speedY spiNy leGs.. WinGs FlYinG hiGher
thaN hUman cOuch potaToes feeDinG
wE Long terM liVers..
aS juSt noW
anoTHeR sOURce
oF cocKroach
wHinE toasT..;)
Ah.. FeeLinG iN aLL thE wHoles oF
iMaginAtiOns DreAMs No liMits
oF wHere aLL thAT iS caN
Go t0 A next noW
heLLo oF bYes
thaT aRe
neVer tOld..
wHeReVer neveR
lAnd iS neveR eNdinG
storY oF no eXpectaTionS
noW oF Valley MounTain hiGh
LoW gRainS oF deSert sAnds WitH
mEmorY oF BeYond Eternity jUsT noW…:)
Lovers liVing
iN air SinG
sweet refrain
of Yesternows
SonG and DancE..:)
CLocK Of FarEweLL
hAnds oF noW
No longeR
eXisT aS
i..N0W
FloWinG
RiVerSUniVer
sAL NoW SonG
aNd DancE As SpiRaL
InG ForevernowmorE..:)
“Poetry is a form of literature that uses aesthetic and rhythmic[1][2][3] qualities of language—such as phonaesthetics, sound symbolism, and metre—to evoke meanings in addition to, or in place of, the prosaic ostensible meaning.”
-from the Wiki Poet Professors..;)
For the literal minds aT hAnd.. poeTry
left the scene in farewell of
long poem
forM iN
oRAl tradiTionS..
We live in a Twitter
world.. wHere of course
most everyone lives as
mechanical cognition
cogs in machineS
Of spoon-fed
instructions from
birth.. what was/iS once
dream time iNnateNoW
iNstinct and iNtuition LanGuaGe
iN SonG and DanCe too..
iS noW pAINT by number
words and steps.. aS most
aLL other hUman
symbols aS EX..
PRESsinG.
liFe iN
SpiRiT
heArT
soUL
essence
of whaT is much
more than contrived form
before hand as it were/iS iN liPs
of cold analytical thoughts that
do noT FloW iN ZoNe.. i Am
jUst here to tale ya friEnd
thaT yoUr poeTry iS more
poeTry than
Mr. B uP
tHere can
imaGine.. iN
my oPinIon..
as what you do
heRe takes tHeRe noW
iS iN more than concrete
pAint by number words
masquerading as rote
ways of real liFE mY friEnd..
and that mY friEnd iS why i’ve
written thE Technically longest long
form poem in the history of hUman
kInd of which my entire blog iS worKing
noW witH this too.. in the 671st macro
verse as Micro Verse here of Super Epic
PoEM FLoWinZonE.. i neVer lisTeN wheN
the Twitter
kNats
sAy
shuT
iT doWn
Fred.. nO.. i ain’T
averAge.. i’M awEsoMe
liKe thE God oF aLLthaTis..
’cause i can DO no more.. no less
than whAT
i Am with zero
chains of gNat
bytes under
moons that
never feel
fuLLer Sun
gloWS oF liVinG noW
WitH zero chains oF anyThanG..
Bottom LineS.. Stay AweSome mY
friEnd.. yoUr poeTry stands ouT
’cause you do more
than Twitter
kNats..
WiTh aLL
due respect
to iNsects as they
too are necessary
for the Balance of
Law and Order
wiTh wE
Free
i’s too..
In other words
‘that parenthetical
statement’ ‘uP theRe’
iS just other words for
i am too busy and your size
iS not worth my precious time..
WeLL.. FriEnd.. not everyone Feels thAT way..
O B
V i O
U S ly..
ANd soMe oF
wE arE fiNanciAlly
iNdepenDent aNd jUSt FLY..;)
SMiLes.. ha!
moNey hELd No
yiELd to mE oF noW
dreAMs iN SnoWy
North way foR A
bigGeR ciTy greateR
waY oF doLLar biLLs..
haX2!.. to leave thE
Paradise of North
Florida for money dreaMs..
no fool.. i.. as poor.. LoVes liKe
A KinG’s Tree oF
liFE nOW..
iN ParaDise
ReaL.. FriEnd.. Viv..;)
Oh.. Lord..
80 at 21..
104 at 47..
And noW
16 CloSinG
DanCinG oN
@56 on June
6th.. and no
wonder i Love
sixes born then
on 6660.. hehe..
but anyway.. HeArt..
SpiRiT.. and SoUL
aS InnEr FloW oF ZonE
iN Force iS essence oF ReaL..
wheRe Age iS juSt a cLock
of no real meaning
for those
who do sTay
iN PracTice oF
GRoWinG heARt..
SpiRit soUL aS younG
aT heARt anD i alWays
tale the ‘scientistS’ when they
scoff aT mY Zealous acTivE
beLieF iN thiS.. heY!
Baby! got
AN Internet and MOre..
liNkS thAT proveS
aLL i Say iN
hUman
ForM
as sUre
thAt refLects
too.. thE essence of wHat
iS tRuLy liGht aS iSRaELwE..:)
sMiLes.. aS iN
reaLITy evolved
sTiLL as such
humans are usuAlly
only comfortable in connecting
to 150 to 200 sets oF eYes aT oNe
era oF tHeir liFE.. the BlesSinGS
iN liFe are to connect
to as many Loves
as possible..
i for one
FeeL.. so
oF course
see ya laters..
are necessary..
but i never say
goodbye as i aLways
beliEve in more.. jUst
’cause i can.. and oh what
a gift the Hello of Can iS
mY
Friend
when REAL..:)
Interestingly.. some folks think in almost
only verbal ways.. and others navigate
the world in movie like visual world..
and ha!.. 11 million words only
precipitated as i.. per
loss of effective
sight and hearing
in pain disorder
starting iN November
of 2010.. before that iS
almost no writing for me..
and truly my visual memory
is so deep that i can play all
the siGhts.. and additionally
sounds.. and other senses
of encounters with
others in full
cinema
mind and
body balance
way.. and i can
even feel the hug
of a couple everywhere
i go.. as iF iT were they hugging
i.. i suppose that is why i have
never said goodbye.. with nowsOme
as i wish there were a way i could..
but i guess that is why i’Ve lEarned
to Love aLL thE dARk anD liGht
sAMe… as for me at lEAst
theRe is no farewells
inside oF
i.. and that
mY friEnd.. perhaps
explains wHere the
11 million words plus
now come from.. a River
that finally escaped out of
dam
of Inner
liFe.. oH thE
StreAM.. Oh tHe
River seT Free ouTside
as oCean wHolD skEyes..
trUly
whaT a relief
to FeeL that i am
not the only one stuck
in this prometheus/FrankenStein
bRain
noW..
my FriEnd..
aS ReALLy
FinaLLy LiVinG
FReED.. iN
noW froM
bonDaGE
inSide..
never
ending..
noWoutErE-scAPinG..:)
For me at least..
a life of Beta brain
wave being of solve
this problem now now
now.. of course most all
work related as rat race then..
but now i find
retired with
no more
rat race
worries..
the creativity
fLows freer close
to alpha.. and even
theta waves of MiNd iN
FloW ZoNe noW.. i suppose
tHeir IS A Science of Creativity
but of course a 1 step to 5 step
or whatever old crusty formula
WiLL noT work for no repeatable
HearT for mE at LEast FReED
FloW moVinG LeTTiNG
aLL the Tension iN
mY body go..
iN EmoTioNal
REgulation and
Sensory Integration
was the answer but
so hard iT was for me
to raise my arms to the
sky as a man in the homophobic
red state south.. but that is history..
now is free.. i can ballet and martial
arts all i like.. as the tire of wheel is FULL
tRead re-tired aGain.. anyWay.. yOur wordS noW
inpiRed aLL oF thiS.. so.. thank you FrIEnd..:)
Oh goodness.. thiS noW
reminds me of supervising
a crew of lifeguards as Athletic
Director of a Military Installation..
i didn’t go into that line of work
for potential liFE or Death
situations i miGht be
responsible
for..
but that
does come
wITh experience
i guess.. and so much
harder when you are
actually drowning in
whatever may come in LiFe..:)
SMiles.. i never truly
became a friend
until i became
a friend
of me..
and truly
i FeeL we muSt
all lEarn to bE
our own
mothers..
fathers..
sisters
and
brothers
too.. as everyone
needs this assistance..:)
It’s truly a sad statement
of humanity when we are
taught to feel shame for
what hurts us.. or for
who we are..
and i suppose
thaT is why i find
God aLLonE inside
uS and noW buT alone
never in buildings or books
that support human hurt noW
iN any hUman way oF FReED..:)
2:30 pm
@5262016..
ends the dVerse
poEtry for tHis
“BeYonD fence oF liGht”
671st Verse oF the Longest
Long Poem Form Poem Eva..
hmm.. Holy and Sacred
R and R duties ahead
for i FReED as
usUAl..
bE
bacK
laTEr
as promised
sAMe aS AlWays..;)
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So.. back to the gym.. and i am
warming up then with.. yEs.. not
unlike my Fredbun and Fredku style
of Japanese Haibun and Haiku poetry
yes.. i am doing
FreDfu.. my own
style of KunGfu
and truly both
are getting in touch
with the Force.. the Ki..
the Chi.. the Qi.. the Dao..
the UniVerSal Interconnecting
Interdependent relationship of
all thaT is that the A. Indians named
as the Great Spirit but in their own
form of language of course.. bottom
line.. without the essence of God fELt..
LiVed.. experienced whole.. one is more
separated from God than oNE sAME wHOlE..
and to bE crystal clear when i say FreDfu that does
not mean Fred FucK You.. in Layman’s termS noW
seriouSly it means Fred iF yoU sEEK
and there is the inG part for iN God
one and sAMe but seriouSly2 iT could
mean Infinite concrete and figurative
metaphors and Force of letters.. words
and any other symbols.. either seen.. felt
heard.. and all other hUman poTenTiaLs
in EmoTioNs and Senses of the beYond
oF juSt a three letter word
to chain God..
oh GOD so
Tribal
Instinct owned..
true.. it’s not easy to
get so much wisdom in
liFE and or be Jesus ’cause
other folks ain’t caught uP yET
to the larger views of TrUth and liGht
and in general not to be proud and just
be literal.. they are still in nursery school oF
God yet to be weaned from chains of cave men and
women holding
God back
iN them..
in PRiSon
of HuMans
whether Free
wHolE oNe and SamE
wIth and as pArt of God
integral.. yes.. holy whole
and sacred aLL thAt iS noW
as God NatUre trUe are wE
who SinG and Dance Free a
DancE and SonG WitH and
as God Holy wHole liKe KaTs
do in the hunt of liFE FReED..
So to come UniVerSal circle
noW here.. oh so.. FReED iN
FreDbun FredKu.. and
FreDfu style of BeinG
oNe WitH God..
back to the
gym..
where a rather
large young man
comes uP to me after
i have been warming uP
with FredFu.. and the thing
iS.. the Interconnecting Interdependent
relationship oF all that iS Aka knoWn as God
teaches mE everyaLL i do through the InnateNoW
Instinct and Intuition gifted through existence oF
God IN uS iN the never ending story cycle of the
end and beginning.. start and finish alWays noW
and never ending.. beginning.. starting or finishing
as alWays iS noW
noW aLL onE
home
ALLONE
FOR ALL WHO
EXIST NOW IN
ALL WAYS THAT
MOVES.. CONNECTS..
AND CO-CREATES AS WITH
GOD SamE noW.. yes.. even
online in abstract constructs that
are human symbols to approximatE noW
the essence oF aLL tHat iS too.. but
yes.. approximation as words are only
signs and guideposts to the essence of
what iS not only kNoWn in terms of
abstract concepts and symbols..
but also felt and sensed from
head to toe.. and beyond
generated as energy
of Chi/Ki/Dao/Qi..
yes etc.. etc..
HOLY SPIRIT..
KUNDALINI RISING
AND SHINING EVERYWHERE now
YA GO AND SUCH AS THAT ALL THATiS..
NOW.. JUST FucKinG yes iF yoU seeK iN
God
now
juSt i Say
juStiCe Now..
okay.. WeLL here’s
the thing about the Aikido that
the rather large young man suggested
i was doing in preparation for a fight of LiFe..
Hell no.. i ain’t gettin’ in no fiGhts.. i’ll just tale
the drunk young dudes at the bar.. when they intimate noW
in body language they wanna challenge me.. here noW my
friend.. see this dude in the video leg pressing a half
a ton 14 reps.. now 30 reps.. in way of YouTuBe
video of parallel leg press machine.. slowly
surely with his arms raised in the air..
with 88 seconds of the 14 reps..
in YouTube way and yA
can come to
the NAVY
STATION AND
WATCH ME DO iT
NOW FOR MORE THAN
3 MINUTES.. WHOLE LIKE
ONE OF THOSE DANCING
SONGS ON THE SEVILLE
SCREEN NOW.. JUST
IMAGINE THIS..
BRUCE LEE
WITH THE STRENGTH
OF THAT.. GET MY DRIFT
YOUNG BUCK FRIEND.. AND
that is the end of that as they scurry
away.. with soMe wonder of who the fuck
i really am noW.. as obviously ya don’t
do that at the Military Gym full of Molly
drugs that let ya float across the dance
floor in Tai Chi-like butterfly moves.. heHe..
Presence.. harmony.. creativity.. iN
moving.. connecting.. and creating
sAMe.. many more metaphors for the
Chi of martial arts.. but Aikido was
developed moreover as spiritual
moving mediation exercises to
develop Utopia and or Heaven
on eARth.. unfortunately
that pArt of Jesus’
message and
even Buddha
iF it existed at all
is left out and all there
is is sitting still meditation
or prayer.. basically more or less
cognitive behavioral therapy for putting
the good words out.. and eliminating stress
and worry.. problem is.. sitting still is one of the
most ill ways of being sTiLL.. as even science now shows
that sitting still for long periods of time is equal to smoking
a pack of F in cigarettes A day.. we primates from our free Loving
rarely aggressive or violent free sex loving Bi-Primate Bonobos..noW
are noT evolved to fight.. FucK no.. we are evolved to cooperate
in touchy FeeLY.. MoVinG.. coNnecTaRinG.. CreaTinG ways for the
successful hunt and gather of liFe in foraging for species
other than killing our FucKinG self off GOD in violent
warring head hunter stupid ass ways out of BaLanCinG
with the holy wHole of Nature too.. TaKInG more
from God than GiVing TO God.. DUH.. F iN COMMON
SENSE DICTATES.. F in Share and GiVe..Now
aWay FROM insane
F iN
interpretations
of voice in caves..
and such as that..
per people.. psychopathic
clergy/political leaning folks with
little feelings for their neighborS noW
in the Golden Rule of Jesus and Buddha..
TaKinG away the freedoms of Rock and
Roll and Sex too.. but honestly when
ya find the Chi.. Drugs are Now
child’s play
after
the free
adult all natural
Force of God iS NoW
assessed in all FeeLinG
greAT and healing wayS noW
and yes.. if necessary as defense
to kick psychopathic leaning harming
folks ass.. and yes.. although my feet
are not registered as deadly weapons with
law enforcement.. there is no doubt i could
kill a person easily with one swift FredFu kick
so no.. i will never get in a fight as i for one
ain’t gonna risk manslaughter FredFu
charges.. for kicking someone
yards away.. them hitting
their head on a bar
stool.. and
dying and
such as that..
i’ll just show ’em the
video.. that way they will
see the imaginary potential
consequence first before any
potential action from me is necessary
to resolve the issue of any aggression
and violence from them toward me
in self defense ways.. no..
i do not spar with
flesh,, i spar with
metal.. and my kicks
always come fractions
oF inches away from metal
as metal will potentially hurt
my toes.. so the discipline of practice
of the monkey never falling out of the tree
or hawk falling out of the sky is built in as
practice as all those consequences hurt..
and fighting and any contact sport
that is trauma to the human
body is just plain
FucKinG stupid..
AS IT INJURES YA
MORTAL BODY.. AND IN
A F iN Civilized world where
thugs are now hooked up fingeRing
oN cell phones.. seriously.. if yA
walk like a Lion and look strong
as a LiOn.. and hehe.. wear Kool
Secret Service Shades like me.. with
the nuance of a potential hidden weapon
here or there.. the possibility of anyone F iN
with ya.. even iF they are drunk.. is rare to
close to nihl.. particularly if the other party
is sober as such with due prudence
to stay away from death and
seriouSly bodiLy inJury..
bottom line is free flow
iN zOne DancE SonG..
PoeTry and Martial
arts sAME allows one
the nirvana oF heaven now
F E A R L E S F L O W N O W
as ONE wiTh God.. so whenever
someone looks at me with a WTF
look.. i am alWays available to explain
all of thiS iN words to them in EnliGhteNinG
AwaKeninG-liKe speed.. or jUst give the folks
who are over 18 a quick google search on the
simple term ‘Katie Mia’ that anywhere in the
world BRinGs my SpiRtuaL FULLuST TEACHINGS
TO THE TOP.. and yes.. i alWAYS WARN THEM..
particularly the dudes.. that no.. you probably
do not wanna click on them restricted
links as baby.. seNsual
Intelligence
IS Also
a huge hUmaN
iNtelligenTce thaT
not many folks touch
iN liFE aS ways of Apollo..
Heracles.. Eros.. Michelangelo..
KinG David and sucH As that aLive
iN flesh as we WiLL RocK and RoLL
ya to thE bONe of hUman liFE oNe With
GoD aLive wHere aLL iS thAT iS exPreSsinG
ART as sAME.. SpiRit FloW iN zONe aS
MINd and BoDy BaLanCinG
soUL noW.. as lifelong
practice iN hUman
potenTial as
and WiTh
GoDarTnoWaLWaySaLiVE..
Oh and ps.. oh god yes..
almost forgot.. back to the
other pARt of the story
at the military gym
with the young
muscular
black military
dude who was inspired
by my fierce style of working
out with Gorilla Growl intensity
and such as that.. i also told that
young man.. back in the early 80’s or
so when.. all there was were a few Universal
weight machines.. a bar here a plate there.. a
chin-up bar and such as that.. there is a 30
something Marine Captain dude that gets under
somewhere around 200LBS on a Bench
Press machine and says.. oh God
i’m 30 now and this is Getting
so F in hard to do.. and then
i say.. please if you hear
any old dudes saying
that.. don’t
believe ’em
it is not true..
in fact.. you can
look up Jack LaLanne
on Google and it will tale
ya all about him in his 60’s towing
in swim 60 or so boats behind him
in rope way across a long wide bay..
and that dude kept pumping iron
to age 96.. and only
a bad case
of
pneumonia
brought him
to demise..
and that’s the thing..
Jesus can you imagine
how old my cat Arthur was
at 20 years old in cat years..
when he could still traverse
the neighborhood in stern
alpha cat way..
that’s the problem
with modern society..
sit on your butt
and eat
an ice
cream and yes..
i have been guilty
of doing just that when
my first Love told me you
are not gonna work out my
Loving whipped boy
friend.. you
will spend
ALL YOUR
TIME WITH ME..
until she broke up
with me.. i started working
out again and i said to myself
Jesus.. Heaven again.. i can finally
F iN focus in class and do not feel
like i am swimming in mud mind
all foggy as such..
ugh.. exercise
as science shows
in one hour fashion
before an IQ test is proven
to raise scores around 10 points
or so.. and Jesus F iN Christ aGain
that goes to show that hUman potential
is much more in thInking ways than
just F iN head deep.. as Lord
knows for decades i wasn’t
even comfortable raising
my hand up to
wave at someone
simply as the arm
swayed little at all
straight down.. and the
fingers were most always
attached to a pencil sloppily
taking notes in egg head speed..
And in college in Sociology class
and the study of aging the outlook
was bleak with folks my age.. doing
therapy in warm health pools all pasty
white and grey haired as such.. flabby
here and there.. with skin hanging down
off arms.. but ha.. they did not know
the secret of either Jack LaLanne
or Arthur Brown tabby cat.. who
by the way looked almost
just like
the Democratic
Cat in my Candidate
ANN channel for debate
on my dance shirt tonight..
yes the secret is simple.. move..
connect and create from birth to dust..
never ever stop.. and become a vegetable
or robot walking dude as i used to be too..
Flow.. don’t be a mechanical angular sidewalk
dude or dudette.. move like the UniVerse and
all stuff in Nature away from human
sidewalk hells do.. iN Golden
Spiral iN ZonE fLy oF spiral
either around the Sun or core
of God iN uS.. as God moves
more like sexy sixes and
nines.. than angular
so-called
God number
7 for G..
yes God iS
more like F iN 6
or i oF Nine foR All
oF liFe Free asOnE..:)
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And here is a couple more Facebook memories
of the totality of this 3 Million Word plus
play.. scores of thousands of photos..
thousands of videos.. links to
other places iN the
unabridged human
table of contents
bible named
Google so
far..
in E-Land
here.. one
of a year ago..
and one of nearly
the beginning of all
the poeTic reaLITy
in DancE and SonG
that does comprise
aLL online oF the
‘SonG oF mY SoUL’..
aka ‘KaTiE MiA FredericK!iI
on word press and KATiE MiA
FredericK! as a blogger blog
by that same general
Pen Name
aka
juST
plAiN
FREd..
and with that
said here is that
memory verbatim iN
text from three years
ago to date too.. NoW..:)
Postscript:
A Devil’s Advocate
Can Be a Friend
While the Devil may be Found
In DeTails
The Easter is in the Eggs
D’eviled Eggs
Can be
DeLightFul
..:):..
Even Without Friends
One can Play with Words
..:)
And now i say..
at the end of this
new post.. more fun
dance photos coming
after midnight.. yes
around the 3 am wee
hour of Friday morning..
after my 112th Dance Week
Thursday NiGht celebration
wITh aLL the Kool College
age Folks at Good Old
Seville Quarter..
one of the top
100 Bars
to dance
in yes..
the memorable
Good Old U.S. oF A..:)
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Love iS
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Well.. hi!.. back to you Princess
Leah.. and i always like to call you
that even before i saw your picture
in the ball attire as tiny.. strong.. and elegant
you are.. and as always after a night long sensual
Dance at Good Old Seville Quarter for my 112th
week.. i’M feeling particularly poetic.. and after aLL
i’ve been FeeLinG that way.. ever since the end of
February 2013.. like a switch changed in my
brain.. hehe.. but per science i am certain
it is neuroplasticity and epigenetics
at play as change of mind and body
balance soUl.. and in my case
iT IS A flow of energy iN thE
zONe.. what they
name as Chi
the Force..
hehe.. back
to Star Wars2..
and yes.. real magic
for me.. as before that i was
a list maker.. firstly.. secondly..
and thirdly.. and had no idea how
to be creative as i experienced this
artFUL flow twice.. once in middle school
then.. winning a Christmas story competition
among 80 students in two homerooms.. then..
and writing a play when i talked to the phenomena
of hot chicks.. but had no frigging clue what sex was
until age 16.. or had no clue until 18.. beyond the fur of what
was between a girl’s legs to put THAT rather bluntlY and crudeLY..
hehe.. but anyway.. with the HYperlexic mind that i’m pretty
sure we both share.. as there is a certain feeling about your
writing that talked to me beyond ‘just the words’ when you
conversed those few times with me on the Wrong Planet
IN a kind of advanced soul.. if not only in genetic
memory.. as scientists are starting to
explore the reality of that in
rats at first too… so there
is no rat taling how
that may apply
in depth
of humanity
whole.. but anyway..
it’s so nice not to have to analytically
plan something.. every step.. to make it happen..
it’s so nice not to have to worry about if every step
you walk is the normal way it is supposed to be as i never
felt comfortable in my own skin before 2013.. ever standing
next to a stranger as i truly felt a vague feeling that i wasn’t
balanced and might just topple over as i guess a part of Asperger’s
too. in motor coordination issues.. but back to Neuroplasticity.. Epigenetics..
and the real scientist part of me that i can still call up if absolutely necessary
to become a lawyer again too… CHALLENGE.. ADAPTATION.. CHANGE IS THE WAY
OF THE BEING AS HUMAN.. and Jesus F in Christ.. culture’s challenge was to become
a cog in a machine of who THEY said life was supposed to work.. from the first F iN
walk up that hill from the shot gun home on the Blackwater River front Down town
in old MiLL ToWn here.. and the German Shepard dogs barking at me.. and i was
afraid they might bite my tiny frail hands off in one chomp.. seriously..
i was terrified a dog might bite my hands off for some reason..
as they felt special and so airy.. almost like they were
not even there in the first place.. kinda like the
rest of my body.. just like air with
almost no weight
too..
so yeah..
i guess that’s
part of the reason
i feel so comfortable in
my body now.. as at 230LBS
i finally got enough poundage
to make me feel grounded to
earth as it were and truly
is now.. although
when i dance
i still feel
weightless
like one day
if i get too high with
the SonG and DancE i might
just float away like those 99 Luft
Balloon as originated by that group
as song in Germany where you live now
my wonderful kind and loyal Asperger’s
Friend.. like me.. who i know i will always have
and just the one reply a month now is enough for
always have.. my friend.. ’cause it does sTiLL make
me kinda sad that i always reciprocally communicated
with everyone in my life who has every communicated with
me.. and i am the always the last one standing.. if not for just
one conversation with them.. that i would like to extend for two..
but it’s like my wife says.. SHUT UP FRED.. YOU ARE HURTING MY HEAD..
YOU ARE GIVING ME A FREDACHE.. AS TEARS COME DOWN MY FACE NOW..
AS I JUST WANNA SHARE WHAT I THINK IS SO IMPORTANT THAT MIGHT MAKE
YOU FEEL BETTER DEAR.. it’s hard to be smArt.. but it’s almost FUCKING IMPOSSIBLE
TO BE GENIUS.. and have a God Dam Friend.. but i have a handful now.. and like in the
World Market store back in the day.. of working in an office for so long where i didn’t really
have a FUCKING THING IN COMMON ENOUGH TO HAVE A REAL FRIEND AT ALL.. i thought about
around the World.. and perhaps.. maybe.. just maybe there was one person like me.. and truthfully
i found a few on the Wrong Planet.. but none with any propensity for continuing reciprocal social
communication with me.. and now i have found a handful on the Internet that do the reciprocal
social communication BACK FROM ME.. and you know i FUCKING WROTE A POETIC RESPONSE
BACK TO EVERY SINGLE dVerse Poetry prompt and link that numbered in literal
thousands of poetic micro expressions from me in the course of an
entire year last year.. particularly after the administrators
kept taling me they didn’t like my Long Poem
way of doing poetry.. with videos..
and so many photo streaming
poetic expressions that
are integrated with
the written word
for the visual
thinking person
i was before i became
the 11 million word man
back on Thanks Giving day
in November of 2010 at the
Wrong Planet.. then.. to escape
my perfect storm of God Dam pain..
and back to all those poetic responses
after they deleted my poem.. ’cause they
FUCKING DIDN’T UNDERSTAND IT.. EVEN AFTER
I FUCKING CLEARLY EXPLAINED IT TO THEM.. I MADE
IT A MILESTONE TO KEEP GOING ON FOR A FULL YEAR
AND after i accomplished that at the end of March this year..
i made one poem titled “GodsUniVerseNovel3” so so far
far from me.. having no idea how long it was gonna be
before i compiled the Novel Free Verse Poetic
journey of one entire year.. and just a
fraction of what i did whole as year at
that one Internet place.. and it ended
up being 338,630 words long with
around 300 gorgeous
beach photos
i headed each
prompt with.. with
around 30 or so micro
poems.. and yeah.. although
i haven’t gone back and counted
each one.. that makes close to
10,000 individual micro poetic
expressions.. in one MACRO VERSE
OF MY ENTIRE WORD PRESS BLOG..
THAT IS ACTUALLY ONE HUGE LONG FORM POEM
THAT IS CLOSING IN ON 4 MILLION WORDS NOW
THAT EVEN AT 338,630 WORDS MicroSoft
Word says WiLL take 3000 pages to print
without the Fucking Photos and Videos
as such.. which means conservatively
speaking without the scores of thousands
of photos and Videos my entire 671 Verses
of my Blog that is actually one UniVerse of
Long Free Verse Poem Form.. would take over
30,000 pages to print.. and is actually almost twice
as long as the Longest Poem ever in humankind and
of course.. four times longer than the Fucking Bible and
40 times longer than the Fucking Kuran.. as it ain’t just
narrative free verse prose poetry .. it is FucKinG Deep
DEEP Poetry Shit too.. perhaps.. who knows.. maybe
as deep as it can FucKinG Get as sometimes i have
to read it three times now after i wrote it to get
the original meaning of it or the different
meaning after i first wrote it.. as truly
it just flows from my fingers with
little to no preplanning
per firstly.. secondly..
thirdly or all
those fucking
Mechanical Cognition
formulas they use in snooty
poetry land for WHAT SOME FOLKS
CALL REAL SCIENCE OF POETRY THAT
IS A FUCKING OXYMORON TO ME AS ANYTHING
PLANNED DON’T COME FROM THE HEART.. SOUL..
AND SPIRIT.. DEEP IN MY FEELINGS FREE.. BUT OF
course before THAT switch went off in my mind
and body BaLanCinG back in 2013.. i had
to have a manual to write
then too..
anyway..
it’s nice to
go NOT BY THE BOOK..
AS THAT WAS THE PROBLEM
WITH CULTURE.. IT MADE ME INTO
A COVER OF A HUMAN BEING INSTEAD
OF THE GOD DAM REAL THING.. the real
thing was me in the backyard of that River
Front home.. in Down Town Milton.. looking
in flow and ZonE at age 3 across the River before
i could speak at age 4 as of course what does happen
in modern day Autism.. where back then the Doc just
said he will speak when he gets good and God dam ready
to speak.. and yes.. i added in the God dam for my emphasis
there.. i am so FucKinG happy.. there was no diagnosis for FucKinG
Asperger’s then.. as if that were the case in my Hyperlexic form.. i would
have been spoon fed mechanical cognition activities at FucKinG age 3
in the-ra-py.. when all i needed to do.. was juST enjoy liFE look across
that River in Flow.. and ZonE and kNow and FeeL AND SENSE without
words that i was one with this thing called Nature GoDONE AND SAME..
develop the same friendships i was developing in play in back
and front yard games.. until they TRAPPED ME IN
A DESK ALL DAY LONG.. SAT ME IN FRONT
OF A BOOK AND A TALKING HEAD AND
SAID SIT FRED SIT.. AND TO BE HONEST
I WAS TOO FUCKING SCARED TO
MOVE OR NOT PAY ATTENTION
AS I THOUGHT GOOD
GRADES WAS
THE HIGHWAY
TO SURVIVAL
IN THIS WORLD..
I WAS WRONG.. I WAS GOD
DAM WRONG.. THE HIGHWAY
TO LIFE IS PAVEDANCE MOVING WITH
CONNECTING SonG WITH OTHERS NOW
AND CREATING.. NOT A FUCKING NUTHER
ROTE FACT TO REMEMBER AND ACE ON
A MULTIPLE CHOICE TEST TEN THOUSAND
AND MORE FUCKING TIMES FOR FUCKING
19 YEARS UNTIL THE SIX YEARS OF COLLEGE
ENDED AND ALL THE THREE DEGREES WITH
NO FUCKING JOB SKILLS TO DO ANYTHING
BUT PASS OUT SHOES TO CUSTOMERS
AT A MILITARY BOWLING CENTER
‘CAUSE I NEVER REALLY
LEARNED TO
SOCIALLY COMMUNICATE
FULLY OR EVEN FUCKING
EXPRESS MYSELF FULLY
IN WRITING EITHER.. the two
skills i needed most that multiple
choice tests never gave me.. and no matter
how garbled and incoherent my words were
as i could not F-iN Focus after sitting still all
day long with no movement.. i was for all
practical intents and purposes retarded
with three degrees.. at the top of my
class as that was all the teachers
were interested in.. not what
i could do in real life.
just F In test
scores then..
lesson learned..
the very hard
way.. then and
i eventually got
a lot of the social
part from the hard
knocks of Bowling Alley
social life then iN trial and error..
but truly the school system Sucks
for a nomad like me that was meant
to be on the ADHD move.. i’m just fucking
smart and didn’t have any way to get it out..
Well..the DancE and SonG of LiFe finally cured
that.. allowing me to Express all that was inside
that i could never get out.. and yes.. it is good that
your husband quit that Game of Thrones game developer
job and is taking a long month break.. as corporations will
change.. and stress will continue to grow greater… and my
sister recently retired.. and by the way she is diagnosed with
Asperger’s in mid-life too.. if i didn’t already mention
that.. and she said she finally enjoys food again..
as the pleasure of life was leaving
her the same way it did
me after prolonged
life cumulative
flight or fight
stress since F iN
age 5.. that first
walk up that hill
to mechanical cognition
school.. and she can enjoy
music again.. as i lost the ability
to even listen to a talk radio show
or listen to any sound at all or look
at any colors either.. as stress will
do FucKinG whacky destructive stuff
to the body from head to toe.. to
potential premature death..
yes.. it is potentially
a life saver that your
husband is taking a break
and as long as you have your
exercise program to accommodate
your stress.. you should survive well
now.. my friend.. off of cigarettes.. as that
is a common way to deal with cumulative
fight or flight stress too.. and is what my
father did since age 13.. until his
fortunate long life at 81 although
his identical twin brother is
still living.. approaching
84 as Gemini us too…
on June 20th..
ha! anyway.. i have developed
a science of creativity unhampered
by what society says i shouldn’t do or
should do now.. it is extreme.. but it is
unfettered by what others say i should
or should not do.. from the age
of Pre-K.. yeah.. i forgot
my stress actually
started in Catholic
School pre-K but it
was a tiny classroom
and kinda lax as pre-school
can come now to make the
next brain surgeon as it were
now more so as now.. anyway2 and
three now to end mY FriEnd.. Life is
exciting.. ever changing but much better
with moving.. connecting.. and creating to me..
instead of someone spoon feeding life to me
out of an F IN societal instruction manual..
but sure it’s good to know the law and
the loop holes too.. as the
smARt ArT HeArT SpiRiTeD
S O U L N O W human..
wiTh reaSoNInG BraiN
too.. will survive the
long haul with a dirt
nap dream that says
I DID IT ALL.. I LIVED AT
THE LAST BREATH THEN..
AND SURE.. LEFT A LITTLE
MARK AND SOME GUIDEPOSTS
FOR OTHER FOLKS ON THE MULTI-VERSE
PATHS OF THIS JOURNEY CALLED LIFE.. thanks
for stopping by on my Artful Poetic Journey
now away from the mechanical cognition
of liFe.. my Friend.. always nice to
hear from you.. and as you
know you can alWays
expect a tSuNaMi oF
i when i floW back
to you Now
iNZonE noW..
Joy to you in eYes
of Peaceful and Energetic
liFe my friend.. with plenty
of MoVinG.. CoNnecTinG
and CreaTinG ways in whatever
way suits yoUr happiness best
and of course whatever else
will tickle your fancies
too.. my dear
FriEnd..
Leah..
See ya later..
WitH Smiles of course..
-Fred..:)
PS.. Happy Birthday
at the end of May too!..:)
Hi! gigoid.. almost exhausted here after my last 15K word 671st..
Macro Verse of my LonGeST Form Poem but fired back up after a night
of sensual dance that always fuels all things associated with ART oF
social/nature cognition for me in terms of moving.. connecting
and creating whole.. and truly why DancE and
SonG.. iNcluding poeTry iS my onLY
TRUE RELIGION FRIEND..
other than learning
to accept all the dARk and
LiGht oF noW as sacRed HolY
and change what i can
and lEt the
DaRk that iS
here as is that
i cannot change
a pArt of the SacRed
hoPe that more folks
who are DArk WiLL to
become more liGht iN ArT
than science of fear and hate
and all other stuff related to
not LiVinG liFe WeLL aT aLL..
so sad so sad in DArk oF aLL
trUly FaLL of hUman Angel
potential Altruistic
ways like
our Bonobo
FrienDs who juST
Love moST All iN tHe
liGht of EnJoYinG noW
WitH only Food.. Shelter..
Water.. and yes.. luSt and
Love to make liFe aLL.. AH..
Love noW.. mY FriEnD and so
nice to see you back on Facebook.,
Facebook FriEnD Ned.. too.. numbering
iN as 51 who are even brave enough to
have me on their FriEnD liSt @ALL.. as
i come here for TrUth and liGht and often
upset the so-called Atheist with my insistence
that Nature.. Magic.. God and all stuff life iS
saCreD hOly ALLTHATIS SAME.. and my
insistence.. that whomever wrote the
words of the gnostic Jesus.. was
more Yogi-Leaning than any
other metaphor of
sacred text
dudes or dudettes and
of course the insinuation noW
that a dude called MuHammad
who dictated something called
the KuRaN in just 2000 words of
vocabulary in an 80K word book..
is the last F In Prophet when little
old me.. the permanently disabled
dude in a little River Town who could
not speak before age 4.. mumbling his
way through life fast and incoherently
to most in a thousand different subjects
of flighty ADHD mind all at once.. who has
now written 11 million words online.. including
the longest long form poem that is my Word
Press Blog now approaching 4 million words
itself.. that is at least 40 times longer than than
the friGGinG little bitty gnat sized Kuran in comparison..
wHere even one of my macro Verses per ‘GodsUniVerseNovel3’..
is 4 times as long as that little black book.. and almost half the
size of the entire F iN Bible new and old testament full.. and
twice as large as the Frigging New Testament now at
only 180K words compared to my 338,630 words
big Macro Verse noW.. in pARt of what
WiLL be here.. the 672nd macro verse of
tHaT wHOLE LONG POEM NOW..
anyway..
i peck the eYeS iN metaFO
RcE of folks who think they are
the last and first of anything noW..
iN terms of sacred text.. as idols of
men who WE now.. are far exceeding
in human potential.. with the help of God ALL
ONe heRe on eARTh.. including all of Google and
the Internet too.. in terms of synergistic effect and
Emotional AFFECT TOO.. in all the arts and sciences
of humankind eYes of God maniFest in this Golden City
IIT without even the Sun and Moon for liGht.. additionAlly
defeating the law of entropy in Nature’s full science way..
iN ART and SCIENCE as just one SonG oF
EmoTioNaL Energy NOW can repeat..
almost forever in terms of human
lives here on earth relatively
speaking as long as
Servers continue
to serve up
that human
EmoTioNaLLy
inSpiRinG Energy
with tiny tiny batteries
iN sMARt PhOne way..
that can move a 230LB
man like me through spiRAls
oF Ballet and Martial Arts
Dance for hours on end
in juST Super WalmARt
AisleS now.. so.. sure.. now
i/wE come here to SpRead
trUth and liGht and
while the HuMan
Social Animal
instinct sTiLL
dictates conformity
for the social norm for
overall survival.. we live in
a technology aided world where
the outcasts with the Bigger TruThs
oF liGhtS.. without fear of crucifixion.. starvation
and such as that.. or even psychopathic leaning
fools who will never ever get down this far in the
deeper metaFORCE OF LiFe to DIFFERENT like
the metaphors of the New Testament created
by whomever created THAT have much
deeper meanings than MOST
never even get a FULL clue oN
now.. not EVEN
THE LITERALLY
THINKING PSYCHOPATHIC
LEANING PRIESTS AND PREACHERS
AS SCIENCE SHOWS AS FACT ARE PART
OF THE TOP TEN PROFESSIONS WHERE
THOSE KIND OF FOLKS LURK.. ‘PErvFECT’ PLACES
TO MANIPULATE OTHER FOLKS FOR MATERIAL GAINS
AND REPRODUCTIVE CONTROL.. AND CHANGING THE
RULES TO GET 10 WIVES INSTEAD OF 4 AS ‘SOME’ HAVE
CERTAINLY DONE IN HISTORY.. ADDITIONALLY.. ENFORCING
THEIR RELIGIOUS RULE BY PENALTY OF DEATH AND TORTURE
AND STONING LESBIAN WOMEN IN IRAN.. WHILE COVERING
THEM IN DIRT TO THEIR BREASTS WHERE THEY CANNOT
SHIELD THEIR EYES.. WELL.. LET ME TELL YOU.. THE REAL
GOD.. YES.. THE SAME GOD THAT WHOMEVER WROTE
THE GNOSTIC GOSPEL OF THOMAS.. PER SO-CALLED
JESUS.. IS TIRED OF OTHER PARTS OF GOD HARMING
EACH OTHER FOR FOOLISH INSANE PSYCHOPATHIC
FOLKS LEANING RULES OF YESTERNOWS.. ThEIR
IS A WAVE IN THIS WORLD.. A NoW SEVENTH SEAL
WAVE NAMED SACRED LOVE THAT IS BREAkING..
RIsING LIKE A TSUNAMI AND iN A SYNERGY
OF A TIPPING POINT WILL SWEEP
THE HATE.. AND PERHAPS
EVEN MUCH OF THE FEAR
AWAY TOO.. AND i.. my fRiEnd
aM pArt of an Iron Fist of God
as meteor in metaphor among
many others who have
come back now..
in metaphor
of phoenix rising
from the lies of culture
wHO are bRinGing the
fist of the God oF Nature
altruistic fearless Love back
to punch the FucKinG haters
back to knock them back
iN
Fearless Love..
hehe.. tSuNaMi am i..
and i’Ve lots of tSuNaMi
FriEnds BacKinG mE Up
whether they are cognizant
of thAT fAct and Art and ReaL
ALL NATURAL QUANTUM
MECHANICS MAGIC NOW
iN THE HUMAN MIND AND BODY
BALANCED SOUL UNLEASHED AND
RELEASED.. HeHeh.. these ARE INTERESTING..
VERY interesting nows.. my friend.. and i’m jUst
a court reporter/scribe/poet as such to
wRite iT aLL FucKinG dOwn.. in terms
oF iF yoU seeK iN God.. yEs the REAL
GOD OF NATURE NOW.. IT’s NOW
FOR NATURE ALLTHATIS PeR US..
TO TAKE
GOD BACK
OUT OF FUCKING
LITTLE BLACK BOOKS..
OCEAN oF i..wE sMiles
iN streAMs to Rivers oF
LoVe NOW mY FriEnd..
NO LUKE WARM HERE..
LUKE OF STAR WARS HIGH
IN AWAKENING AND ENLIGHTENING
WISDOM EYE OF GOD IN US/WE ILLUMINATI
OF
FEARLESS
LOVENOW..
mY FriEnd..:)
Thanks.. my friend..
noW aftA soMe Sand
aNd Sun and Dance oFF
to refresh more.. i’m Off to
your next blog posT noW…
to see.. hehe.. wHere i go
neXtnoW.. as i moST alWays
StArt oFfT wiTh whAt ‘they’
nAMe aS Zen MiNd eVen
afTer i read whatever comes
nexT..
iT’s liKe
A BoX oF
Chocolates
as ForRrEst
WiLL saY
too iN
GumP
TioN way..;)
Ha!.. i’ll drop down straight from finishing your words and wisdom
to the Pearls and pearls in the comments section too..
and say.. when i snarl and spit like the
primate beast i am at core to
survive at the military
gym in what the
big alpha-like
headed male
WiLL do in aLL
hIs Natural Glory..
juSt to let ’em kNow..
he ain’t got no nows for
messing around.. he HE iS
here for survival.. LiVinG noW..
NO.. iFs and or Butts.. but maKinG
sure din din now comes sAMe.. tHere
iS tHe great pleasure of FeeLinG Fearless
mY friend.. and L I K E the alpha ape who is
trULy Gentle at core after he gets his Gorilla Growl
ouT to let other aPes kNow tHeir ain’t no fear here..
there IS AlWays more RooM for Love iF the fear can
be put aside.. and the same wITH Yellow Boy applies..
he is never afraid to come uP to strangers and offer a
fRiEndLY cLaWed Paw.. as he has been to the Jungle
uP close and personal.. and KNoWs when it’s F iN now
to get out of the way or stay.. from personal cat experience
THEN.. so yeah.. i went to the Jungle and survived intAct
fINally Fearless.. and the constructs of culture abstracts
in LanGuage way.. including obsolete pArts of
FearFULL RELIGIONS.. no longer touch
the WinGS oF miNe hiGher WitH
eYes that do fLy as
pArt oF aLLthatiS Free
noW FriEnd.. the kiNship
with the cAll of the WiLd iS
real iN fearless luSt and Love..
butT harming no other.. iT iS the
alTruism in Balance oF we LoVinG
Apes at core oF BeinG
when E-escaped
from the
LYinG of Hate
DeN iN absTract
coNstructs and symbolLocKs
like the four letter words
hate and fear.. Loveall
is the Seven word letter
as symbol and word that IS A BalancE
iN mY SaVinG Mantra for HEaveNoW..:)
Back to dVerse for a few here..
before work-out now comes..
It’s Open Link Thursday
and the first one of those
i have visited noW iN a few
weeks for sure..
where almost
anything goes..
hehe.. except
for what i do..
in Longest Term Free
Verse PoeTry way.. hehe..;)
Lot.. oh the story of Lot.. two daughters
blamed for getting their father drunk
and what making him Fuck.. nah ain’t
the way it works.. alcohol no excuse for
getting it up and putting it in.. anyWay iS
a man’s world then.. a man’s book.. half
a culture away from the fuller story of the
human soUl.. and at least spoken to some
in New Testament way.. but rapes.. violence..
murdering children of the opposing team then
as an eye for an eye.. the way of liFe noW when
one gender dominates the other of course with yes..
help of laws for FORCE and BOOKS CONTROLLING
FOR PATRIARCHAL CONTROL IN SICKEST WAYS now
OF HARMING WEAKER HUMAN BEINGS WITH FORCE..yes
WITH FORCE AND LIES AND LIES.. ANYWAY.. SADLY MUCH
OF THE WORLD POPULATION IN FEMALE FORM SUBMITS
TO THE SO-CALLED STRONGER WEAKER SEX NAMED MALE
WHO REFUSES TO CARRY THEIR OWN WEIGHT IN LOVE OVER
LAWS.. AND THAT TAKES MORE WORK IN LOVING THAN KILLING
WOMEN AND OTHER MINORITIES IF THEY DO NOT SUBMIT TO THE
LAWS AT HAND FOR DOMINATION… God lives in and as women same
as men.. homosexuals.. weaklings.. stronglings.. transvestites.. androgynes
and even Elohim.. at first was a mix of androgyne metaphor of masculine
and feminine before THEY made God into an angry old White man with
a beard.. just like the Angry Old men who dreamed uP the stories
for control of others.. through psychopathic dead heARt
ways oF BeinG then.. same as we see in the
middle east today.. ranging from
marriages made as institutionalized
rape when dowries are used for
non-consenusal marriage.. to
female Genital mutilation
to the old tradition
of separated
human’s
need iN protection
from the environmental
elements AKA FORESKIN..
RIPPED OFF FOR THE LIE THAT
WE ARE NOT JUST ANOTHER pArt
of the Balance of GoD Nature.. no more..
no less.. just killing the GAiA with the veiL
of ignorance still covering the eYes of
around half the world or so..
in harming lying
disgusting
ways…
Harm is
disgusting.. sex
when consensual and
between two mature adults
is sacred and holy.. but the lies go
on in pedophile priests.. buddhist monks
and ‘clerics’ over ‘there’ too.. it can be a sick
world without Love that never harms the free
WilL of another human being in relative way..
and wow this is one long poem but inspired by
a very inspiring poem by Bjorn.. about the
story of Lot turned around where the
woman who just wanted to
protect her daughters
from an incestuous
father who
wanted
some of
his own daughter’s
soft skin.. was turned
to a pillar of salt to keep
her mouth shut about the real
perverse of what was behind the
story to give men just another
excuse to harm women
and call them evil
at the same
dam time..
the truth gets out..
even in mythological lies
in the first place.. of stories whose
real purpose is to give one segment
of pArts of God power over the other
that is truly like God shooting God in
the God dam foot.. it’s sick.. it still happens
and the cure is fearless Love in harming no
other human being’s relative free will.. and those
people who would then Love to cover uP Real TruE
intentions of control in dominance for material
gains and reproductive control.. whether it is
a FucKinG 10 million dollar home for
sport.. or a man with 10 wives
as basically slaves.. or
whatever it is
that harms
those
with less
so-called power..
it is the greatest sin
and only sin to harm the
relative free will of another
human being.. God’s rule.. not
rules from a book.. just remember
God lives within all as Force.. to harm
any of that Force unjustified for greater
God’s Love.. iS separation to harm God
now.. God KnoWs.. FeeLs.. and seNses
iN human eYes and sKin.. to rape it.. sell
it,, or trade it for material Goods iS to do the
sAMe AS oNe to GoD ONE.. and the eventual
consequence is yes.. HOPE AND LOVE WILL
WIN OVER FEAR AND HATE.. AS LOVE AND
HOPE ARE MUCH MUCH GREATER FORCES THAT
LAST FOR THE LONG TERM OF HUMAN HAPPINESS NOW..
AND NOW off to the next link.. as i’Ve got a few more moments
left before the work-out comes to escape words with steps then..:)
The moment of never
say Goodbye can last
ForevernoW as long as hELLo
Now lasts in the heat of LovinG
every moment wiTh LuST for LiFe..
And trUly one who has LUst for aLL A’ LiFe..
can be happy with just one bed on the head
oF
NiGht..
sadly.. for some
folks the great main
pleasure is a variety
of places to put stuff in
and take stuff out.. and or buy it.. BuTT
the heARt..the SoUL.. the SpiRit kNoWs
more that putting
stuff in
and out and buying
in different places..
as objects over LoVE..:)
And that does it for noW..
at 6:06 pm.. 05262016..
and as alWays
what i say..
Be Back
LaTers..:)
5282016
2:39 pm..
A few global detours
and now back
to dVerse for
a few.. before
i run to
Alice
and
Wonderland..
better yET.. drive..;)
i Love the siGn of a free
bird flYinG iN thE
sprawl of Big
City Stress..
murder on the
24 hour news circuit..
muggings around the back..
as the birds just fly and do
what they do.. and yes… i
too.. am that free bird too..:)
Rose nose of smells
so sweet no knows
of fELt so red..
red FeeLs
oF pInk
petals so sweet..:)
Sadly.. people are afraid of different..
glAdly.. not all people but some..
And that is a pArt of human nature..
dARk and what can bE liGht..
and that’s why we have
laws to
protect
the different
among us as
yes.. attitudes
do go DNA
deep
as far
as human
inclinations go
unfettered now.. by
laws that do protect..:)
LIFe.. a continuing practice
oF liGht that must be
fiercely hELd bRiGht..
less the dArk
overwhelm
what was once
and or first noW
LiGht.. and Now the
dArk.. too.. a pLace
of continuous practice
that must be changed one
step at a day to reach liGht
for the last or first now too..:)
WeLL that was rather short and
sweet.. as Katrina says.. Fred
you better get moving for
Alice and
WonderLand
and she iS
correct.. i cannot
expect for Wonderland
to arrive here.. iF i
do not go tHeRe first
so.. see ya laTers aGaiN
when i gET bAck oN Course..;)
3:00 pm..
Well.. goodness back
on 5302016.. as there
have been many many
detours below.. and
i am a gonna skip
wRite on Over to
dVerse Quadrille Monday
44 word prompt about
the wonderful term
Breeze.. catch up there
and publish this newest
Epic 672nd Verse of the
Longest Long Form Poem
ever.. wRite here as
it.. oh my God! keeps
GroWing like
thE Breeze
that Will
never stARt..
finish.. end
and always
begins now
butt no.. no
restrictions for
me but sure.. i’ll
keep iN the spiRit oF
the particles of micro
poetic expresSioNs heRe
to go along with the
672nd wave iN
Macro Verse
oF tHe entire
Field iN Ocean
oF thiS wHole BLog
Poem that is headed
sTiLL towards 4 milLion
words now.. with the shore
that has no horizon and
ALL Breeze aT means
oN sitE noW.. 7:02 pm..:)
Breeze of fingertips
wandering travelers
along the sKin
of velvet tips
that yearn to spREad
a FeeLinG oF continual
bLiss.. Force oF ENergy
bEneath rosE skiN GloWeRing
as the belL TOlls aNd SingS
soft breath Breeze undulating SonG..:)
Breeze of Freedom Lonely
Souls for Soldiers known
only to God..
Giving so much
for LiFe’s LibeRty’s
Justice and yes.. the
pursuit of happiness..
UNsung heroes of long
near and far.. Soldiers
Song for God Free
no Glory..
jUsT
Free For
ALL N ALL..:)
A Summer’s Breeze for
mE iN July of 2007..
in 100 degree Florida
weather.. a chill.. an
OMeN of what
soon WiLL
come neXt
iN Hell for
Me In 66 months..
i’d rather be RED BURNING
COAL hot than go through
thaT aGaiN.. SMiLEs..
WITH FiEry
ReD eYes
oF RelieF
iN CoLd
icE
PIECE BeForE
Breeze comeS iN
aS iN PAPER HeLL..:)
Grass blows in Breeze
of Memorial day rocks
as stones wHere heads
lay to rest of wars and battles
gone by.. Rockets.. bombs.. Fireworks
sky of Old.. beneath the bones and bloods
wE stand
to Be
free in
Rocks oF Breeze..:)
Breeze of time has
no rigid ticks or tocks..
there was a tIme when
both i and wife walk around
the block after two years of
flight or fight stress for me..
she says oh that is weird
it feels like time suddenly
slowed down..
a split second
after i felt this
feeling of gravity
slowing time like
never ever before..
iN January of 2008..
i never looked at reaLITy
the sAMe after thaT or time
as ever just tick tock again
and no… now reTired since
then i have alMost no perception
oF tiMe aT all.. iN fAct i’M sure iT
doesn’T eXist wITh only noW aS reaLITy..:)
Surely Funny sad
strange yes whimsical
and magical noW how the
same breeze one breeze
can be so different in the
next breeze same breeze..
and that was when i determined
i WiLL master the Breeze oF FeeLinG
aLL inside and REAL IN RELATIVE
Free WiLL.. ha..! iT worked wITh
so much practice but
yes.. bottom
linE It works
i AM thE master
of mY own FeeLinGS
and SenSes noW which
means zero nada no one
controls my FeelinGs or
SenseS now.. not even
the moon.. the clouds..
the Sun or skeYes iN
Breeze.. all iS BliSS
aLL iS Color aLL
A
BriGht
liGht oF REaL..
oh.. by the way.. sorry..
i went WAY over the liMit
but you so
inspired mE..;)
Oh Lord.. it’s been
oh God.. but this
reminds me..
yes.. 37 years
ago.. and i can
still remember the
smell and name of
that first perfume
of my first Love..
the name was BABE..
and oh my wife is so
much more Lovely and
still looks as young almost
as that 16 year old girl at 46..
seriously.. it’s true.. i’ve photos that
prove that.. hehe.. noW on my blog but
yes.. anyway.. it’s kinda sad as honestly i
cannot remember any of the smells
of my wife’s perfume or names.. but
oh! i kNow.. i FeeL.. i would NoW
if she ever leaves..
or faLLs aWay breeze..
perhaps.. i’ll now go grab
a bottle.. spray it all.. over
mE now.. and bask noW iN
thE nAMe and SmeLL Now
oF LovE TrUe..
oh! thanks so much
Candy.. this inspireS
me.. so noW.. mY friEnd..:)
Oh Lord.. Bryan..
Living on the River
Front home in
Panhandle Florida..
Summer Humidity..
sound of crickets
way back in 60’s..
and frogs.. through
open dead breeze paste..
turning the pillow over and
over again.. now infinity it
seems then.. stiLL noW
never a cooler spot
in mouth of River heat..:)
Sharing deeper secrets..
sharing links a place
for Facebook..
sharing dreams
now in someone
else’s photo..
oh God..
wHere is
Real.. i WiLL
noT lEt ReAL Go..:)
Oh gosh.. this reminds
me of an entire Summer
of Digging as a research
associate in Archaeology
way back in ’83.. so young..
as Anthropology IS A degree
of miNd.. never a breeze across
holes that never end.. shovels
that alway dig.. dam it..
this frigging brown
collar work..
not college
boy stuff.. i felt then..
hehe.. now i’m tougher..
Bring on the hell hEat.. it’S
better than nOthing iN REAL HeLL..
oh.. wet behind the ears.. green with
no understanding then oF REAL BREEZE..:)
Vietnam.. A jungle
that never ends in
fiery breeze of gun
shot wounds.. my 1st
cousin in ’69..
burned
to death
in Helicopter
shot down..
breeze in
Washington
Still no feeling
for what counts
sAdly it sTill seems…
HeARt Of LiFe
Rose oF FeelinGs
SinGinG DanCinG
SmeLLinG
FloWers
sAME..
never an
Age when hUman
bLooms SonG
i
DancE..:)
Fall Breeze a favorite
SinGinG through
Northern Florida
tall pine needles..
cold front a sign
of North breeze too..
cure for humid ways..
WiNter even welcome
iN SAuNteRing FL DreAMs..:)
WeLL.. as Shakira
says.. hiPs and eYes
do not liE..
and after 5444
miles in 33 full
months of dance..
i repreSent umm.. aLL
heR reMArk withouT
one word.. noW iN
thaT heART liFe..;)
Oh cRap..
i left out the
word Breeze iN
mY last poetic
eXpresSioN iN
rEsponse heRe..
never less i’LL
pARty oWn
iN
Breeze
oF Y i..;)
SeNseS and EmoTions
lovers yeT not friEnds..
and the converse..
Breeze..
perverse..
and empty
space between
hugs.. longing
to hold
noW
lonGer
as Real..:)
BreaTh of Kiss
Breeze oF liFe
SonG oF FeeLinG
deePer than
toNgues
oF SonGSin
HAte..:)
Been through it with
a baby too.. of 51 days..
LiFe is never
fAir wHole
but alWays
worth iT iN
Breeze oF
dArk and liGht..
but with modern
medicine.. one can
understand better
the gift of short
verses
aided
torture
of medical death..
It’s always relative
but more relative
when it’s
relative..
and to be
clear.. i am not
presuming.. juSt
responding from
the inspiRaTioN thEse
words bRinG mE noW..:)
Oh.. to Love thE Breeze
tHe staRs oF shiNe..
WinGlits
Ocean
diAtoms
bRinGing
liGht Now to
neW moon
sKeYes..
to Love iT
aLL to bE iT
All comFort
BliSs
wE
cAn
bE
noW..
In sMiLes
oF LoVeAll..:)
9:00 pm..
all caught
uP! and ending
dVerse for noW..!..:)
Nice one…. a couple things…. Why on Earth was Ellen DeGeneres sending people to Dubai?
What river were you walking by?
The medical marijuana product known as “Phoenix Tears”, aka Rick Simpson’s Oil, would control Katie’s seizures, completely. It has been proven by research, by the National Cancer Research Institute, not only does it cure more than 90 types of cancer, it will stop the strongest forms of seizures and epilepsy, in their tracks.It cured my brother’s stage III lymphatic cancer, in four months. I’m using it, and it is improving my vision, and has healed my diverticular bowel enough it now works normally.
But, the AMA and Big Pharma wouldn’t make anything on selling pills, if that became widely known, now, would it?
My eyes are tired now… *smile* See ya ’round the net, bro
Love
gigoid
Hi.. gigoid.. thanks so much for stopping by
and absorbing 200 or so photos.. 15k words..
etc.. hehe.. about the average output of the
poets i visit in about a years time.. so truly
if most anyone visits me out of that crowd in reciprocation
of my reading their 50 or so words output.. we are now even for the
year.. hehe.. as tit for tat goes.. but yes.. seriously.. i was never
a word person as you know.. until 2010.. as before that hmm.. back then..
i just couldn’t use my eyes and ears at all after 2008.. for anything
other than pain.. and when i could use them.. most all of what i did
in my spare time away from work is the home stuff that had to be done..
and a few news shows.. and this same dam little snow boarding video
game that was just a way to escape all the worries associated with
work.. and keeping a job that for me lasted nearly a decade of
scares of losing a job over reductions in force.. working for
the government.. oh yeah.. and now to answer your questions
before this turns into just another one of my daily war
and peace size monologues.. or whatever
one would like to call an ocean Now
of flowing waving go go so long
words.. in Free Verse Stream..
the River is Blackwater
River here in Florida..
more specifically
what they
call now
tributaries
to it in the
Bagdad Mill
photos.. named
Pond creek.. as that
body of flowing water..
And Ellen was holding
some kind of game show
and Dubai.. is considered a
big tourist place to go and the
reason i used it in synchronicity of
this particular association is my dear
friend Himali.. originally from India lives
there now doing her new job noW in Management
Accounting.. so it’s kinda in honor of her and yes
only meaningful to me and her.. i guess.. if she ever
sees it wading through all i do.. which of course is noW
Legion.. and sometimes seemingly Foreign too of course too..
but considering this whole dam blog is the longest long form
poem in history.. i like to honor those who touch my life including
all the symbols and nature of life.. so a photo of almost anything
will meet my very low bar of LIKE LIKE LIKE LIKE ALL STUFF LIFE..
AND ASSOCIATED SYMBOLS AS SUCH TOO.. AND yes the Marijuana working
Medical solution has been suggested to my wife before.. and i understand
that Medical Marijuana is becoming legal here in Florida.. but my wife is one
of those folks who cannot tolerate Alcohol or Marijuana.. and interestingly
while i used to drink to get rid of all my social anxiety and general hang
ups when i went to bars when young.. ranging up to the equivalent
of a 6 pack of beer.. or so.. just when i went out to vegetate
mostly as a wall flower.. as i was Oh God.. impossibly
too anxious to get up there on that dance floor
alone then.. and when i did dance..
it was really limited
where my arms never
went above my hips..
but no more alcohol or even
caffeine for me as i control inner
bliss like a faucet that goes way way uP.. staYinG
sTill in relative calm inside.. and any substance
would just take that balance away now… while many
of my friends smoke Marijuana.. although they don’t
talk about that to me.. hehe.. as they know i don’t..
when i did try it.. i hated the way it made me
feel as it took away the Natural high i had
when i was young.. and just made
me feel bored and empty
in sensory way..
i really
hated it
and of course
it must make other
folks feel much different
as it only made me feel low
instead of high.. but of course
i was born high.. more high than
most.. so voila Bi-Polar and the such..
but i’ve had decades of relative high
without lows as long as i stay away
from catch 22 stress.. that will
basically blow me up
to smithereens
as i don’t like
to leave any detail
hanging and must have
a clean slate to start the next
day of problem solved.. as the
natural perfectionist i can unfortunately
be as you see while there is no planned
form here.. it does come out rather smooth..
so perhaps the perfectionist even lives as
subconscious mind too.. and that’s why i dance..
as it allows me to really escape the Frankenstein/
Prometheus Brain as such.. and CAN LET IT ALL
ICE PRINCESS GO.. WELL OKAY.. HOPE YOU
DON’T COME BACK TO SEE THIS TONIGHT AS
YOU SAY YOUR eyes hurt and this ain’t gonna help
at all.. and Jesus F. Christ i am an expert on eye
pain if there ever was one.. so i feel for yA oN thAT..
but hey hey hey.. as Fat Albert WiLL say..
i can’t stop the Love Train from
Flowing go go go.. it still
comes what may until
the end here
wriTE noW..
as i continue
to shake my tail feathers
and Lord i had a great martial
arts routine in Tai-Chi like speed..
when listening to the theme song
here tonight at the military gym..
and the Chi was exploding
in all directions of
where the
body
sped away
iN liGht oF aLL
i can be as the
Army Recruiters
still do say.. have
a great night friend..
i’ve got some more reams
of poetry to write.. and some
dreams to do after that to wake
up and do some more go go go.. GO
iN SHAKING MY TAIL FEATHERS MORE..;)
These three yearly series of Facebook Algorithm memories..
demonstrate well i thInk.. the evolution of my writing style..
moving from slow flow to full sWeLLinG Flow iN ZonE oF
Stream of Consciousness Free Verse poeTry..
of course what is now the longest historical
poem ever at over 3 Million words whole
in my Word press Blog as whole
with this 672nd MacroVerse..
speaKing here of the
process as well
as the end as means
of product to all one..
anyway.. also on current
topic for this 672nd MacroVerse
of Super Epic PoeTry MacroWhole..
that will be named “tSuNaMi 7tH WaVe oF LoVE”..
per the importance of poeTry.. Confidence noW..
and overall zest for freedom of expression.. AS
i FeeL.. the best way to honor those who have given
tHeir liFe for Country.. is to be as free as possible..
as that is the greatest thing about this country.. Miley
can swing naked NoW from her WrecKinG Ball and i can
sure as hell dance in public.. and do iT ALL ONLINE..:)
http://katiemiaaghogday.blogspot.com/2013/05/30-safe-sites-for-people-on-autism.html
And here is the oldest post from three years ago..
where i am gradually on my way to recovery and
re-entry back into humanity in the real flesh and
blood world at the end of July 2013.. whereas
before.. i couldn’t even go into a Whataburger
for 15 minutes.. as was my assignment
by my therapist then.. where not long
after that i was dancing
freely in public.. like
a butterfly escaping out
of an old and moldy cocoon..
that WAS my physical body then..
less and more of robot in human
flesh and Zombie too.. but anyway..
this altruistic effort was one of many
that helped me get my human back.. then
in trying to help other folks.. and eventually
it worked big time.. and i came back ON earth
from a living death.. and back then.. i had one
friend on Facebook.. and none at all the two years
before that and only this cat avatar of my beloved
Noble Arthur Brown tabby alpha neighborhood
block cat.. who was more frigging human than
me in the feelings and senses that really count
in social mammal life.. and the only other
avatar in there is my Yellow Boy
Kate Mia Avatar i used then on
Google plus.. as quite honestly
without an emotional life inside..
i didn’t feel like i had a face at all..
and my first selfies in August of 2013..
were of great surprise to me.. as i actually
saw emotion on my face.. and all my selfies
have been therapeutic in getting my humanity
more fully and fully back.. as quite honestly.. the
Trigeminal Neuralgia type two.. from wake to
sleep for those 66 months.. as well as a
perfect storm of life threatening synergy
of 19 disorders erased whatever parts
of me in Feeling and Senses that
made life worth living at all..
i built the good parts back up..
and left all the fears and anxieties
behind as well as input activities like
TV that did not allow me to develop the
output of life in moving.. connecting.. and
creating.. i still have the propensity for an
extremely systemizing mind.. so art is therapy
to F In Stay human away from Robot liFE.. as that
was what and how folks described the way my mind
worked both online then.. AND in my work life before
i got sick.. yes.. they called me a computer.. a problem
solver.. and a commodity for work.. well no.. i am NO
longer a cog in societies machine to make other folks
comfortable… i am now a poet.. dancer.. Singer renaissance
nude self artist in the photographer flesh.. bottom linE noW..
i’M
F iN ALive..
beginning.. ending
stARt.. and never finish
of never ending story i..
and when you die dead iN
life aLive.. if you ever you do..
iN REAL LIFE noW AND GO WHERE
Li’VE BEEN.. PERHAPS YOU TOO.. WiLL
LIVE LIFE SUPER EPIc iN HEAVEN NOW2..:)
And Facebook Friend Benjamin.. my only
Facebook Friend.. now out of 50..
from the Wrong Planet website..
as it seems a dear one decided
to no longer use
Facebook recently..
from my college past..
so a core of 50 is left..
but anyway.. Friend
Benjamin. and by
another way
the other friend
who left Facebook
is named Ben too
or Benny Junior II..
not to complicate matters too..
much but Benjamin says in response
to my posting of this three year old memory
from the Wrong Planet website then in Blogway2..
good post
And in
response
to that
i say..
Yes..
Old Wrong
Planet memories..
Thanks Benjamin.:)
Then Benjamin says..
You dont post there much anymore
And then i say..
Actually i don’t post there at all anymore..
since the end of July 2015.. the last straw
for me was when the moderator Bookashaya
or however she spelled her user name
banned me for a month for giving
Raptor back what he gives
people to try to make
’em feel bad…
i told her i wasn’t
coming back after
that and did mean it..
occasionally.. i drop by to
see if there is anything interesting
in the PPR section.. but i find the same
stuff that was discussed before.. basically..
so it’s kinda like a soap opera where i’m not
missing anything.. and anyone who frayed from
the standard Philosophy and Religious views were
ostracized by the militant atheists there.. and
bullied by little boys behind avatars that were
afraid to show their real face online.. anyway..
i’m glad i left.. i was trying to illustrate fully
how i overcame the most disabling impacts
of both my physical and Autism related
functional disabilities but most folks
wanted to continue on with their
misery Loves company
philosophy along
with cynicism of
anything more than
their book learning..
there’s more to life than
that and i find it out there in
the flesh and blood world more
than online.. so no.. i don’t miss that
place at all.. but it was a life saver when
i couldn’t effectively use my eyes and ears
in real flesh and blood life.. or connect with
any human much in the real world.. that hell
is over and i have found ways to insure i don’t go back..
and quite honestly the only nice person there other than
Sallamandrina who is Leah who i talk about on my blogs
and keep in touch with on Email.. is you my friend as
quite honestly you are only one of few that had any
common human decency there to treat other folks
like human.. in other words you weren’t retarded
in the worst way.. of not showing other humans
basic empathy.. and truly at least there on
the Wrong Planet the greatest problem
was a lack of real human empathy..
for those who did post.. not likely
many Autistic Folks with empathy
would post there as quite honestly
i feel like most people there actually
had personality disorders instead
of self diagnosed Autism..
namely Border Line
personality disorders..
particularly what i saw in
other online self-diagnosed
Autism Communities.. i couldn’t
speak until age 4.. but my mama
Loved me.. so i guess that was my
saving grace to develop human empathy..
anyway.. thanks again my old Wrong Planet
Friend for stopping by and all the support you
gave me while i was in hell here and there for REAL..:)
Then Benjamin says..
yea wrong planet is crazy hey
And finally on
Facebook i say..
Yes.. Benjamin..
Amen..
And i say here now.. of very interesting note..
Benjamin.. was actually an Autistic person
who spent sometime in his younger years
in the institution life for folks more
severely impacted by Autism..
he was a very caring person..
and passionate about life..
Another Individual on the site
also institutionalized named Ci..
more severely impacted by Autism
was also very passionate and emotional
about life.. but of course with difficulties communicating
aS that is the bottom line with Autism as difficulty in
reciprocal communication.. both verbally and
actually now with the new APA definition
of Autism more issues actually with
non-verbal language.. anyway..
the bottom line is both these men
were capable of expressing human
empathy in emotional ways.. whereas
most people there had almost zero
motivation or pleasure to socially
reciprocate human language..
in back and forth conversation..
and in my case.. in my life.. my problem
wasn’t a lack of wanting to reciprocate
social communication with other human
beings.. just a problem expressing it in
socially appropriate and wanted ways.. i still
tend to talk more about what i am interested in deep
deep ways.. than what’s for dinner.. or what’s on TV.. although
as i get older i get much much better at doing that and seeing the
inner workings of so-called normal every day folks online and particularly
Facebook in ways of share and likes for what the so-called common
human does.. has helped me greatly to get in the grove of what
most humans do in day to day life.. and sure.. i count these
blessings much.. in ‘this’.. Longest long poem form poem
ever.. as it reinforces A better way to really
connect to people.. as i receive that
warm fuzzy feeling aka oxytocin
release.. and Serotonin
comfort as trust and
Dopamine/endorphins
as a pleasurable healing
FeeLinG when i connect
to other human beings..
and sadly.. the medical fAct..
is some folks with Autism are missing
the ability to either produce or feel these
human neuro-chemicals/hormones from head to toe..
noW in cellular peptide way.. and of particular emptiness
the NON-ability to feel the social bonding hormone oxytocin..
the stuff of the nurturing human.. being both male and female..
and some don’t even feel it with sex.. therefore.. some of them..
never ever even want to have sex for that reason and many others..
BUT THE FACT IS.. MOST KNOW/FEEL NOT WHAT THEY DO.. AS WHOMEVER
WROTE THOSE WORDS OF SO-CALLED JESUS ON THE CROSS INTUITIVELY
UNDERSTOOD.. WHETHER OR NOT THEY KneW THE BIO-CHEMISTRY FACTS
BEHIND THE MISSING FEELINGS OR NOT.. so these people deserve empathy
and sympathy too.. and while folks love to call them evil.. and in literal
ways when they harm folks.. instead of bonding with them..
the behavior can be viewed as evil.. STILL.. OFTEN.. THEY
ARE MISSING SOME OF THE GLUES OF SOCIAL
ANIMAL LIFE IN WAYS OF NEUROCHEMICALS AND
NEUROHORMONES.. so it’s like they are running
on a very LOW OCTANE OF HUMAN GASOLINE
or viscosity of Oil that makes them rather
thick when it comes to wanting
and making reciprocal
social communication
a warm and fuzzy reality
in trust and comfort in others..
Nature.. and God yes.. in FeeLinG
Nature.. and SenSinG Nature as God
one and sAMe.. and this is why i could
most always predict the allegiance of a
militant atheist there.. by the lack of affect
of human emotion in their written language.. then..
and it is the same in the poetry world… there are
folks who do poetry.. as fill in the blank rhymes that
talk about the world like tHeir is no figurative language
of emotions too.. similar disease.. just no diagnosis in
general.. and truly all the most destructive diseaseS in
the world.. in terms of human psychological hurt.. carnage
and even potential World War three.. are both a direct and
indirect result of people who cannot easily get filled up in
heARt.. SpiRit.. and soUl.. of FeeLinG and ExpRESSinG
the warm and Fuzzy FeeLingS of liFE that are
unmistakable for someone like me
who can read that easily
in the eYes of
someone
who is not
dead inside.. or
just pretending to be
human in an imitation game
as such.. i can’t show THAT much
in my eyes anymore.. ’cause i must
wear shades.. for medical reasons
associated with Trigeminal Neuralgia
so that FucKinG Hell pain will not come
back.. and truly that is the biggest part of
why you see so much of my eYes online..
as that is how i for one best express my
soUl.. whether passion for survival
or the warm human Loving
touch.. and i have done
my best to make the
rest of my face
shine..
and my
body in DANCE iN ExPresSinG
aLL the Love i feel inside
fearless for both me and the
rest of humanity.. along with all
of Nature and folks dear to MEnOW
like Yellow Boy and all his paWed
and claWed brothers and sisters
of the world.. you see.. like
my nephew.. who is
my wife’s deceased
sister’s son.. who
is diagnosed on
the Autism Spectrum
he is in learning classes
for folks with difficulty in education
but when it comes to empathy and the ART oF
human touch he had a full adult understanding FeeLinG
of that.. from the age of his middle teens.. creative.. YES!..
Loves Disney movies.. attached to animals.. truly
human without the grades of life that social
cogs of machines can become
without the human FeeLY touch..
particularly from parents
who are too busy
for their
children
in touchY feeLY
face to face NOW hUwOmAniFEST
interaction for whatever reaSon
from the two parent high class jobs..
that take all their effort.. to noses in
4 to 5 inch screens.. at the dinner
table in restaurants where the
child is tugging at the
mom or dad’s shirt
and they are
not even
FucKinG NOTICED
BY THE PARENTS.. i got all
the attention i needed from my
mother THEN whether i could speak
to her until age 4 or not.. and the
greatest reward of all her effort
is I AM STILL FucKinG HuMAN
AFTER ALL i’VE BEEN THROUGH
IN HELL..
THE GIFT
OF A MOTHER
WHO TOUCHY FEELY
LOVES THEIR CHILD AND A
FATHER TOO.. iS FUCKING PRICELESS
AND CAN FUCKING SAVE THE WORLD
AS OPPOSED TO CLOSED HEARTS
AND EYES
WHO DO NOT
EVEN NOTICE LOVE
ANYMORE IN
THE WARM
AND
FUZZIES OF WHAT
HUMANAS ARE EVOLVED
TO BE.. FROM HEAD TO TOE
TO EYES TO HOLDING HANDS
TO HUGS.. AND THE SEXUAL
INTERCOURSE THAT BRINGS
PEOPLE TOGETHER TO RAISE
CHILDREN INSTEAD OF HEY
I SCORED
AND THERE IS
ANOTHER NOTCH
ON MY BELT OR BRA..
BOTTOM underwear/panty
LINe NOW
HUMANITY
COUNTS
WHEN REAL
NO MATTER
WHAT THE FUCKING
REPORT CARD SAYS
AT SCHOOL OR WORK NOW..
or in bars for scores instead of Love
Love is the only score that trUly counts
when the head meets the bed of death.. NoW
And the after life.. but i stick to what
i can prove not what i have 100%
Faith and Belief in the THAT
God speaks to me
in God’s way
of doing
thAT aLways
noW in Synchronicity
ways of ALLTHATISART
OF GOD’S EyES US NOW
WHEN FINDING SEEKING
AS OPEN TO ALLTHATISARTNOW
AND practicing allthatis alWayS noW
As Tapestry oF Fearlessly LoVinG LiFE as Art
with the just the science as vehicles and vessels
to drive
around iN
Fearless Sacred Love
wHere aLLiS Holy SacRed noW..;)
‘Funny’.. how ‘some” fundamentalist
‘Christians’ can Oh! DeVIL! YES!..
now sTiLL support an
‘Anti-Christ’
like ‘this’..
and don’t get me
wrong.. Hillary
ain’t a Saint..
but.. yeah..
just sayin’..
THIS IS TRULY InSANE..
iN.. HuMAN SPEAK AT LeAST..
And as of 5282016.. close to
9 million views of the viral
Facebook Video version
of this.. let’s shoot for
300 million or so..
but nah.. there
iS ZERO CHANCE
THIS DeVIL DUDE IS
GONNA WIN.. iT Is
AN EPIC
DEMOCRATIC
TRUMP CARD
FOR YEARS
TO COME
IN POLITICAL
LIBERAL LEANING
SUCCESS IN CHANGING
THE U. S. of A.. unless Republicans
can find the Real Jesus and convince him
to run.. but nah.. he or she would never slime to THAT…
Sorry.. no.. i’M NOT.. iF it hurts.. but truly like the big
J says.. THAT can set
yA
FReED..
yA kNow.. i would
Love to be in a room..
with TRUMP ALL ALONE..
let’s say with a bright light..
and we could just talk.. talk..
talk.. TALK.. for FucKinG 40 hours
NOW.. straight.. without sleep.. to see
who would win the DeViL/ANgEL NOW..
battle..
in REAL
HeLL.. bet he
would quit by
the 39th hour..
but in all fairness i would
have the advantage as i’ve already
gone 40 days with only 1 hour of shallow
sleep the first 35 of 40 with an alpha blocker
and none the last 5 out of 40 days with the
worst pain known to mankind and 18 or so
synergy of life threatening disorders.. in
REAL HELL THEN.. and sure 11 million
words of documentation along the way..
66 months now.. oh.. another 66 comes
up NoW.. how cool.. since November
Thanks Giving day of 2010.. oh joy..
when i started all this writing
then.. anyway.. as i say the
Monkey does not fall out
of the tree.. and the
Hawk does not
Fall out of the
sky and i never
kick anything less than
a fraction of an inch away
as i practice my FredFu ways
of Martial Art.. because wE noW
ALL PRACTICE CONTINUOUSLY
iN MORE THAN OLD ANGRY WHITE
MAN WAYS.. WITH TRUMP BUCKS
OF DEAD HEART.. AND SOUL NOW..
TRUST ME.. FEARLESS LOVE WINS
IN THE LONG RUN.. AND FEARLESS
HATE IS JUST A BOTTOMLESS PIT
THAT FOLKS LIKE TRUMP WILL NEVER
CRAWL OUT OF WITH THE EMPTY POWER
OF FEARLESS
HATE.. BlACK
WhOLE SOUL
ANTI-CHRIST IN
LITERAL HUMAN METAPHOR
THEY ARE UNTIL THEy FIND THE
LOVE TO FucKinG GET OUT OF
REAL HUMAN EARTH HELL NOW..
oh what an inspiring little VIDEO noW..
And yeah.. the end of Trump’s NOW
unsuccessful IGNORANT HATeFiLLeD
try at President is gonna
look a lot like ‘this’
video ‘here’..
MaRK MY WORDS..
iT’S GONNA BE RADiON
ACTIVE iN CHANGING THE
HIsTORY OF THE U.S. OF A..
TO A MUCH KINDER GENTLER
CHRIST LIKE WAY.. PER THE YES..
angEL VERSiON oF REAL JESUS..;)
Hmm.. gosh.. that Trump speech left somewhat of a bad taste
in my mouth.. but at least it is justification enough to
repeat the salient dance photographs of
my last Novel Macro blog post verse with
the cat and dog
debate
in ANN
candidate Dog
eat Cat eat Dog
style as such.. anyway..
aGaiN.. as i’ve clearly stated
before.. politics is no different
than a soap opera as it is based on
Human Nature as whole as there are
the more fearful conservative anxious
folks in the world who must have
control.. and then there
are the more
Liberal Leaning
open-minded folks
who want progressive
change.. the nomads as such
as it were and still is that made
this country great to get out of conservative
Monarchies of the Old English way.. WeLL..
Jesus F iN Christ and God too of Nature
they brought genetics over the
big pond of Atlantic
too.. so the soap
opera goes on in
conservative and
liberal ways and HA! TRUMP
A CONSERVATIVE.. hell no.. he is
a risk taker from hell.. with no fear
and plenty hate filled ways of Loveless
being selfish ways.. and that is how he
got way way ahead in a Billion or whatever
empty bucks he stores in cabinets and
Trump Towers of hell.. as such..
anyway.. he knows
how to pull
the heart
strings of scaredy
dogs of red who are
afraid of change.. he ain’t
no cat but he is clever enough
as all psychopathic leaders are in
how to push the buttons of fear like
oh my God oh my God they are gonna
take your guns away and turn this country
into one gigantic mosque Temple with covers
on.. Well.. wELL.. WELL.. IT is just really boring
but funny to me.. as it is so F iN predictable.. just
like when Gore lost and the re-constructor military
contract cronies.. with the head of Cheney snake
went into Iraq after 911 to make the really
big indusTRiO miLitary CompleX BUCKS..
AND THAT THEY DID.. but yes.. at a
price.. ’cause once aGAin.. Love.. and
Hope is stronger than Fear
and hate.. so the Dude
who had the audacity
for Hope got elected
over the oh god non-
charisma left of
God he was boring..
i almost cannot remember
his McCain dam name.. but
anyway.. that chick he was
with was F iN Hilarious and
i bet she would make a spirited
dance partner too.. getting down
at Seville as it were and now is too..
Hmm.. what else.. ’cause i already
had to go outside and do the
Sun and Sand dance thingy
to get that dEvil
bLack Trump
taste out
of my
wordY mouth..
oh yeah.. the new age…
the new world order as
promised by the book dude
Jesus.. and somehow how
Fundamentalist Religious
folks think oneness in a Global
way of Love is the F iN Sign of the
DeViL.. WeLL maybe iT iS iF YOU CAN
catch the FULL METAPHOR OF THAT..
but MOST WiLL NOT..
HEHE.. SO THAT
iS why i can say
WTF.. yes.. whatever
noW the FucK i liKe…
tHe deeper pArts WiLL
Jesus F iN Christ of how
that story goes as Thief in the
night not be read and if read totally
go wRite oVER ANYONE’S HEAD
THAT iS crazy as me as fearless without
any FucKinG Real empathic Right Brained
way in figurative interpretations to now get what
the FuCK i even said.. somethings.. never change..
Fundamentalist religious folks still don’t get the
fact that Jesus was a Naturist who
explored human potential with
the God oF Nature at hand..
to gain greater potential
in metaphor and
Force way..
like Luke
of Star wars
says too.. anyway..
THAT should do.. the wife
is asking me about issues
with the insurance bill.. which
means i had to put my Lawyer
Fred Head hat on and just about
have lost my artistic flow here
back into the mechanical
cognition of humanly
prescribed abstract
constructs that
are so far
beyond
the Nature
of human being
they are like poison
in the water of Life but
it is the mind and body that
gets corrupted before anyone
can even find a saving grace
of one drop of God water in hell now..
kinda like the place where Trump… Bush
and so forth and so on live.. but WAIT!.. i underStand
G.W. is now painting puppy dogs with quite a great
FeeLinG in Brush way.. so maybe he found a heARt
after all after Living in Cheney Snake heLL back then..
for the dude with only a mechanical apparatus of heart now..
anyWay.. i wanna get back to dVerse and catch up some tHeRe
as Alice and Wonderland is at the theater just waiting for her
to join
me hEar.. hehe..
with mysterious
and everlasting
magic joy down
the rabbit whole
of all oF tHAT
iS noW oF course..;)
Alice Through the LooKinG gLass.. not to give
too many spoilers here.. a basic story about
a young woman whose milestones are
are to do six impossible things
in life.. and you WILL to
does this no matter
what all the
control
freaks and
naysayers say in
Life about her achievements..
and yeah.. blah blah blah.. sure
Fred can relate as relatively speaking
Fred has used the power of Hope.. Faith
and Pure Belief with the assistance of God
all that is.. see i told you i wouldn’t give you
any real spoilers.. matter of fact.. at this point..
let’s just go this REAL TALE.. FRED THR0UGH
THE LooKinG Glass at this point here in
my never lAnd’s longest Free Verse
Poem iN the History of humankind
in Long Poem Form here
at the 672nd Macro Verse
that of course would be
impossible for any
kid who could
not speak
until age 4
with Autism huh..
Well.. kNow like Britney
say.. Oops i just did iT iN
ever increasing poetic SpRinG
Verse of SonG NoW MoVinG Faster
iN oN 4 Million words of a total
of over 11 million total since
66 months ago on Thanks
Giving Day.. at the
Start oF all this
Lightening
Run of
deeper words
oF i.. after not BeinG
able to effectively use
my eyes or ears to read
or hear music or most any
words at all for 3 years almost
to that date then.. Zombie Hunch
Back of Notre Dame i was then..
yes.. sorry.. blah blah blah..
you may have heard
this before.. but
yes.. sure.. empiricAlly
speaking it is one of the
perhaps most inspiring
stories of human
being that
juste happens
to be me through
FUCKING SHEER WILL
AND LOTS OF LOVE FROM
GOD.. YEAH.. LOL.. GOD EXCLAMATION
POINT NOW.. WITH THOSE OTHER 18
OTheR MEDICAL DISORDERS AS A SIDE
ORDER OF HUMAN HELL TO GO WITH
ALL THE REST.. anyway.. back
to impossibilities in what
humans normally
think humans
can or cannot
do.. so yeah.. that
Autistic boy Graduates
with three degrees at close
to the top of his classes in college..
then Marries a woman who still looks
the same at 46.. from 27 years ago..
when he first met her then.. that’s two..
Dance Walks Everywhere he goes for
now over 5400 miles in 33 months
approaching the distance of
back and forth across the
U.S oF A.. this Memorial
Day.. from sea to sea..
in Super Walmart..
Target.. the Mall
etc.. etc.. all
through the Metro
area for 3 and although
i didn’t have to do much
obvious work to keep the
wife young.. it’s still the
impossible more or less
in norm of human way..
okay.. let us move to number
4.. and leg pressing that close
to half a ton.. 30 times now at
the military gym.. much more than
any other elite military dude who has
attempted that there.. and with my arms
raised up in the air in perfect balance
slowly and surely on that parallel
leg press machine that is
almost twice as hard
as the standard
Leg press
machine ya
mostly see in
big man gyms..
and now to five..
sure.. 112 weeks
with somewhere between
600 to 800 photos of me and
oh God.. so many Gorgeous girls
and remember i have Autism and
that ain’t standard operating procedure
for that challenge for sure.. in the realm
of what most folks raising an Autistic
kid would say would be impossible
approaching age 56 now.. well..
what about number 6.. that’s
a secret.. and although
i talk about it all the
noW it’s stlLL
a secret service
noW in convenant
between me and
the God oF aLL
Nature.. and every
REAL FAIRY TALE noW
NEEDS SOME MYSTERY
OR A HOOK AS SUCH TO KEEP
THE INTRIGUE GOING FOREVERMORE
NOW FOR WHO KnoWS.. PERHAPS A THOUSAND
YEARS OR MORE.. OR WHEN SERVERS DIE.. WHICH
EVER COMES MORE FOREVERMORE IN THE RELATIVE
REALM OF HUMAN BEING.. in what most folks would say
is impossible unless they witnessed iT FirsT FucKinG HanD
noW on Facebook.. hehe.. in real time while it’s GoinG onOW..
and yeah.. just the fAct that i did all of this NoW
for NO God DAM money aT all IS A FucKinG
Miracle iN itself all own it’s oWn..
FucKinG Free now..
so.. i guess
We WiLL
make number
7 the secret
and go from there..
as the LooKinG Glass
and Rabbit hole grows
deeper and deeper with
hidden paths exposed in
JOURNEY OF REAL NOW..:)
“Somewhere, something
incredible is waiting
to be known.”
-Carl Sagan..
i’LL go one DancE
step further to say..
aLWays NoW
more to
FeeL..
SensE..
and talk about
later iN poEtry..
And yes.. in terms of bombs
and wars the human race has
become a great annoyance to
the rest of NAtuRE.. including
hUman BeinGs.. so.. i sImply
DancE and SinG aS noW
iN a key of C sHarp
EarTh humm..
unTiL iT’s
noW to Go to
theEneXt AdvenTuRe..:)
SMiLes.. many children smile.. giggle.. laugh.. share..
SinG.. DancE and give freely.. as they have not
forgotten how to be human
in the basic principle
of life
named
use it or lose
it humanity noW
but more on that
in a few.. my friend
Prajakta.. in your next
blog
post
wRite
oN course
of topic.. noW
of course.. Freedom is.. not
holding back
letting it go
voila
Go..
Go..:)
Hmm.. more
than hey.. i could write
a Novel on say.. in fAct
i do in size on average
every two weeks at 40K..
anyway.. to let it flow to let i go
to let the streAM of mind and body
Balance become river in ocean flow..
and to note..
even Einstein
who discovered
relativity.. learned
to stick his tongue
out before it was too
late to be human
and then he
said
the poverty
of humanity
is never moving
out of one’s inner circle
and loving it all.. pure
genius that man
became
as human
too more than
empirical science but
he understood the value of
imagination.. over one step
two step three and more for
A scientific method.. now then..
and as mentioned before.. use it
or lose it applies.. the gold of selfies and
the starvation of any kind of facial expression
interaction is the habit and the glory of that in
increasing natural humanity of what science shows
is 60 to 90 percent of natural human reciprocal communication..
in non-verbal expression.. and nah.. Emotive icons do not
match the almost infinite number of facial expressions
AS the human face potential that move our emotions
and inspireS our very basic ability
to move in life at all..
and literAlly
not get
depressed..
again.. selfies..
somewhat of a bandaid
to save the human face
from Zombie life as again..
in all things human and animal
too.. as i like to say.. why our friendly
Monkeys do not fall out of trees in India..
and other high places and hawks out of
skies is they practice practice and practice
more the ability to do what they naturally DO
do and not lose it as humans literally NoW
are as science shows 30% in measures
of behavioral empathy have dropped off
among college age adults in the
last several decades.. yes..
evidence that our
technological
ways of
being our tools..
and electronic sign
language.. is making
the Zombie Apocalypse
real in that it is eating away
our basic social animal nature
propensity to dance and dance
some more together in the most basic
dance steps that are the movement of
the human face to express emotions and
move us higher and higher away from
a depressing life of blunted emotions
that can move us like the atomic
fuel of basic neurochemistry
and biochemistry
whole
of
human being
as inoculation
from the Zombie
apocalypse… yes.. back in the
day.. they had signs on computer
labs and engineer classes that said
don’t forget YOU ARE HUMAN.. WeLL..
those signs are no longer posted as so
many
folks
have literally
forgotten in cold
frozen faces that do not noW look
uP.. butt the ice princess learned better
my friend.. she released her heart.. UP!
her spirit.. her soul.. and yes sensuality
whole as the potential for humanity to
come back more is still tHeRe to practice..
And that’s pArt of the reason i’ve now danced
5400 miles in public.. believe me it forces some
kind of facial expression of dance.. on at least
some folks lost in the REAL ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE
AND MAKES MY BODY GLOW BRIGHTER AND BRIGHTER..
NO.. not even 40K thousand words every two weeks of multi
dimensional emotional words in the sign language of blogging
comes close to the original language of human that is dance
that can say it all in just a smile or a twinkle of an eYe
that moves.. CONNECTS.. and
CREATES uS toGeTheR
NoW..:)
Oh the power of Chi.. truly
such a powerful force of human
and the rest of the UniVerse that
few people know and understand until
they experience it through the power of
the hUman heARt.. SpiRit and MiNd
and Body SoUl.. unleashed and
released.. iN Balance and
sure it comes
through body
language as postures..
facial expressions and
such as that.. but it slices
through concrete blocks for
the martial artist who comes
to iNnately.. iNstinctually.. and
iNtuitively master the force inside..
outside.. above so below and
all around as the Chi..
the Qi.. the Ki..
the KA..
Dao..
and so many
other words that
express what IS A
HIGHER power of God
available for human beings
to do amazing stuff in life iS
tHeRe for the taKing for those
who seek it.. find it.. practice it
and master it to higher and higher
feats of human potential and at times
in the snootier of stores.. like Publix..
some old angry white dude who ‘THINKS’
HE HAS power as established through the
illusion of the dollar bill.. with his golf buddy
buds.. as groups feel more confident in
expressing so-called male power
than a solitary male will
do when faced
with the
different
and hehe
THE
FUCKING
CRAZY FOLKS
AMONG US ENOUGH
to do memorial day JUSTICE
AS FREE.. thinks.. i ain’t paying no
attention to his middle age lady
gossiping in line.. and yes
the dude is probably 10
years younger than me
and his friends all
grey haired
and potbellied
fat cats on the
golf course they
just came off of..
but anyway.. he don’t
know the crazy 230LB
Alice in Wonderland wearing
shirt dude.. is an empath who can
feel what’s on the emoTioNs of
people without even FucKinG
seeing them in physical way..
has no idea how FucKinG hiGh
i am WitH Chi as i could break
a metal door off the hinges as i did
one time when i was 20 or so at a
McDonalds.. juST ‘casually’ pushing the
door open.. when in a state of this CHI
mind unknown to me what it was in mind
and body balance then.. but here’s the thing..
and no.. i can’t FucKinG prove it but anyone
who has mastered the Chi WiLL tale ya..
in the Eastern ways of doing this
first of course.. and as any
of our American Indian
ancestors likely
mastered
in the
call of the Wild too OF GOD..
i can easily look at a person
who is harming anyone with
either verbal or physical ways..
and like that video ‘up there’ about
Radioactive.. can penetrate them with
energy that says watch your step you
are on shaky ground my friend.. anyway..
all it takes is one direct glance from me
in non-verbal language wHere the dance
suddenly stops.. and i am motionless like
the calm of a Hurricane at eYe.. and their
heads go down.. and do not come up until
i continue A dance as the Winds oF Y i Hurricane
Chi goes.. as Holy Spirit of God released for both
Love and Defense AGAINST hate if necessary in
what makes even the smallest female martial artist
a holy terror to a pot bellied angry old white
man as it were and still is..
as God IS A equal
opportunity employer
in making Shepard boys
like David in metaphor KinG
oF thE Lions sTiLL noW.. in
ways of sWeeping Hurricane
Winds with cAlm oF eYe at
the Center now.. and yes..
i thInk.. the lady with
the name
of a certain
flower has a
song for that now..
and you do realize
that when Jesus said
me he was talking about
God in me.. unleashed..
released.. and ready to
ROCK AND FucKinG RoLL..;)
WeLL.. the 60’s or so VW Bus in multi-colored
Memorial Background was a popular hit
with the Lady’s as far as i like your shirt..
but NO.. not so much for the men.. as ya
know.. down here in Southland..
a colorful man can scare some
Homophobes.. but anyway..
no complaints here but i did..
get a Mississippian
Biloxi native scream
out of his Big Red Truck..
last time i wore this at the
Casinos and was dancing on
the sidewalks getting squeals
from women driving by.. and yes..
Hot Apple Pie.. A comment indicating
a crude way of referring to a Woman’s
Vagina.. in Urban Language technique..
anyway.. it’s like those anonymous online
haters who hide behind avatars.. iT won’t happen
to my face.. but distance saves the day.. in hater way..
Anyway.. just imagine.. Jesus Driving the VW Bus in never
land of heaven.. wHere all pArts of existence are equally
important as grains oF sand holding up the mountTaiN oF
Love and for the homophobes that attempt to climb
on the Jesus Bus of Love.. Jesus will probably
say.. i’m sorry i don’t know you in my Book of Life..
but.. you know not what you do.. as you are probably
scared you like penises yourself.. so grow up..
and come out of the closet.. won’t ya.. instead..
of hating up on what you kNow you are
deep down.. and are God dam afraid..
of.. but anyway.. you humans
have been ruining the earth
as Nature with your
increasing numbers
so WTF do you expect
God to do to limit the numbers
of you killing cockroach culture
human beings against the rest
oF God’s Nature one and sAME..
YeS! perfect solution.. same sex message..
ya big dummies.. that’s what God LovE noW..
does.. iN particular to keep the numbers of yA
offspring down from killing the
rest of my precious species..
Anyway.. i find it rather
disgusting.. in church..
yes.. my church too..
that the so-called Sacred
Sacrement associated with a dude
in a book that said all pARts of Nature
are one as same.. even in today’s God
Dam scriptures.. still discriminates pArt
oF God’s Nature as less sacred and
holy in ability to do the Sacrament
of Marriage vow thingy in the
church.. WeLL.. let’s see..
the Catholic Church believes
in Evolution and Science.. so.. perhaps
sooner noW than later they will quit splitting
hairs out of tradition.. and JUST FUCKING
DO THE TRUTH AND LIGHT AND SING NOW
THE HAPPY SONG OF LIFE AS FEARLESS
LOVE TOGETHER.. I HATE IGNORANCE AS
IT IS PROPAGATED BY FOLKS THAT FEAR
AND HATE THE DIFFERENT AMONG US..
And anyway.. pretty much a moot point here
in the U.S.. noW but i’ve already lost at least one
nice Muslim friend in ways of social reciprocal
communication that NO.. it’s not kool to Stone
Lesbians in Iran after they are buried in dirt to
tHeir chest SO they cannot cover their
eyes.. and be killed like that out
of hate and ignorance.. anyway…
while this person.. did not
agree that Isis should
kill folks who were
of different faiths..
it’s still apparently a free
for all of torture and agreement
on the target of God’s Gay Children
square in misery and suffering way..
And.. sorry.. although only me and
one person were human enough
to disagree with her.. all her other
American readers stayed silent..
And that’s where murder..
torture.. and so much
more fear and hater
stuff begins.. ends.. and
begins for more.. when folks
do not value humanity enough and
God who lives in all of humanity and
all of creation as one and sAMe.. ENUFF
to FucKinG sPeak up and just say that’s
enough that’s truly evil so just put a stop
to it or pay the Karmic consequence as
mArk my words they will if they do not
quit murdering people for ignorance..
in fear and hate.. anyway.. hope
all the gay folks enjoyed our
beaches down here..
as the U.S. oF A..
is finAlly acting liKE
ONE NATION UNDER
GOD as a real Memorial
Day for the folks who died
for Life.. Liberty.. and the
Pursuit of Happiness.. which
means everyone.. with no exclusions..
which is one up on the Frigging Catholic
Church.. i have attended every Sunday
for going on three years.. THAT iS
Still Separated from God..
in ways of fear and hate
against God’s Homosexual
children as just another part of
oF Nature as seen in our closest
primate cousin.. the Bonobo too..
As juSt pARt of maKing the balance
of God’s Nature work how iT should..
thiS way.. FREED.. NO EXCLUSIONS..
WHERE EVERYONE GETS TO RIDE THE
BUS IN FIRST TO LAST SEATING ACCOMMODATIONS..
IN HEAVEN NOW.. anyway.. the Homosexual folks i have
kNoWn over the years.. TRUMP… all the FOR CHRIST
LOVE I HAVE SEEN as compared to homophobes now
TrUlY iN LoVe liGht oVer thE DArk oF Fear and HATE..
BOTTOM
LiNE..
FEARLESS LOVE
KiCKS ASS OVER
FEARLESS HATE..
iN aLL tHe Trump
ways of
THaT..:)
Anyway.. when people say..
i don’t have the Key or KA
to tHe FounTaiN oF YouTH..
i juSt say oF course i do..
and heRe iS clear and
preSent eviDence oF
wHat thAT COULD
DO FOR YOU..
iF yA kNew
thE secRet
LoVe PoTioN
Fearless FReED2..;)
Yep… thaT dArK hAiRed slender girl
in Egyptian mythology..
referred to as Isis..
Nut.. and Mut..
iS noT
a real person
then.. just a prophecy
oF Sorts for NoW as shE Stands..;)
http://starjessamine.blogspot.com/2016/05/buying-cow.html
Oh.. Lord.. a quick
visit over to Shawna’s
continuaLLy changLinG Blogs..
as i say..
Ha!
As soon
As i
Saw Holy
Now New
iT is you..;)
And Shawna says..
You can spot me
from a smile(y) away
any day..:)
And then i say..
Ugh.. your myoutube
lInks aren’t working..
butt anyway.. read all your
poems and my favorite one
iS thE one aBout the fur..
as it reminds me now of
3D Anime Monster porn..
and thaT is so friGGinG
hilariOuS iN A veRy
dArk anD furry wAy..
hmM.. whAT elsE..
yeaH.. i staY
hiGh too..
aLL.. ah..
Nat
uRA
LLy butT i c H i
baLanceS iT ouT
WitH DancE anD
stroKes oF lucK!..;)
“Grain grows best in shit.”
~~ Ursula K. LeGuin ~~
Oh Lord.. Ain’T thAT thE trUth..
and probably one of the world’s
greatest problems iS not enough
people toe the sand anymore..
yes.. the struggle noW..
Now iS most Of thE
bATtle For heavenoW…
tHe Victorious neVer
give up or tUrn to
Vengeance
but yeS..
sWords
oF WiT..
SpiT diRt
iN
tHeir
eYes..
Blind..
mY FriEnd..
foR poTenTial aWake
wiTh SiGht aNd hEAr..:)
Yeah.. i realize iT’s almost
Memorial Day now but
truly there is only one
Holiday for me always
now.. and that is the
Independence day
of the 4th of July
where alWayS
noW iS Saturday
in the park oF Y i..
and does anyone
Know what time iT is
Thanks God i don’t and
that is why i for one make
aLWAYS now the Fourth oF July
oF Independence Day.. and truly
i Feel sorry for those who do not
exercise more fully that great
privilege and right wE have iN
this country for the unalienable
God oF Nature giveN right
for LiFE.. LiberTy and
the purSuit of
Happiness thaT
can mean the
U.S. oF A.. CaN
be thE REAL GARDEN
OF EDEN IN LEGEND WAY
THAT IS NO MYTH AT ALL AND
ALL iS RAEL now.. iN a place of
HeavenOW.. only dreAMed oF..
days beForE.. anyWay thAT
daY of allthatis aka God
and God’s Kingdom
as gifted as Human
Fearless Sacred Love..
iS noW for those who SeeK
iT.. FinD iT.. and practice allthatiS..
NoW iN MoVinG.. CoNecTinG.. and
CreaTinG.. way.. as to lose
Heaven when it can
certainly be found..
exercised and
practiced aLWayS
noW as i document
every God dam day
here iN Fred’s HeaVeN
iS possible for many otHeRs
too.. when they get to tHeir
own TrUth and LiGht WitH the
God Of Nature allthatiS now juSt aS iS iS..:)
An Enlightened one of Nature..
yes..! Yellow Boy doing his early
morning Yoga Pose in Tai Chi Balance..
no less balanced than the way he walks to
conserve all energy for the fight or flight of liFe
when necessary to reduce cat suffering.. to be at
ONE with allthatis Nature also known as God.. or
if you are Buddhist you choose not to name it with
a humanly designed abstract three letter word concept..
but never the less a Buddhist Will tale ya.. no less than
a Christian that Heaven is possible after life and of course
in life in the State of Nirvana no less than what is relayed
in the New Testament of so-called Jesus that heaven
is at hand in a different state of mindful awareness
away from worry.. yes.. fear.. jealousy.. doubt..
hate.. and all other con-social emotions
but HA! IN BOTH Christianity and
Buddhism.. lust is considered
a sin.. instead of the
now scientifically
evidenced juice
of most all stuff
human in creativity
and basic productivity..
while meditation is the human
way of escaping negative thoughts
and thoughts in general.. Yellow Boy
is not saddled with this neocortical deficiency
as such.. as he comes with the full package of
innate.. instinctual and intuitive ways in mind and
body balance soul.. of Emotional heArt… expresSinG
this emoTioNal heArt as SpiRit in yes.. a miNd and boDy
BaLanCinG soUl.. without the ambulance traffic of worry
thoughts about oh my God i don’t have the biggest house
in the neighborhood.. the most shapely breasts or the
longest God dam dick.. in the gym locker room..
BUTT!.. YES.. before he got ‘the operation’..
he FEELS AND SMELLS the value of lust
to get the job of reproducing
done.. and there’s no
holding back
in wild CAT
ways of doing that
for long term survival
oF tHe cat species at hand..
and seriously.. out in the wild..
depending on the resources noW at
hand.. it can be a real struggle full
of misery and suffering.. no different
than what THE BUDDHA DUDE SO-CALLED iN India
SAW BACK then.. outside of the castle of all
ya can eat tender vittles.. anyway.. a balance
yes.. and attachment to material goods and
making the tools us instead of what we
naturally are all naked in nature..
is a big no no.. for simple
Nirvana and Bliss
of the morning
kitty kat
who lives
life in the liGht
of God of aLL Nature at
Peace.. without all the worries
of mortgages.. car payments.. and
sure he still has the tools of claws and
jaws to survive in the wild like he did before
he met us two years or so into his wild cat life to
bring him the easier ability to enjoy early morning
Nirvana in the SunliGht of GOD ALLONE WITH NO
GOD DAM HUMAN SEPARATION FOSTERED BY
FRIGGING WORDS COLLECTED IN BOOKS WITH
RULES OF PRISON WHEN THERE IS OBVIOUS
ABUNDANCE THAT COULD BE SHARED IN
SMALLER HUMAN GROUPS IF WE DIDN’T
LIVE IN INSANELY LARGE POPULATIONS
THAT HUMANS ARE STILL ONLY EVOLVED
TO LIVE with just 150 to 200 sets of
touch feely naked eye connections
together as one happy human
Bonobo-like family that
uses sex together
to get rid of the
frustrations Now
of Neo Cortical
existential thoughts
about what comes next..
or what was before.. particularly
in the case of human beings noW with
books.. and particularly big black books
that suggest that going away from human
Nature like repressing lust and becoming
celibate is a great thing to do to become a
spiritual leader.. overall.. as we already know
how that works with pedophile fetish priests.. yes..
God dam Buddhist Monks and Muslim clerics who have
also been caught with the little boys pants pulled down..
and yes.. the so-called men of God partaking of using little
boys for slaves to fill their sexual desire that would be
much better used in a willing vagina or hand than
harming a little boy as history shows always
happens when humans get out of the
Nature of God’s Balance that is
consensual Lust and Love between
Loving primates..
where humans
have made women
and little boys into slaves
to suit tHeir whacked out of Nature desires
now from a life of withholding lust instead
of letting it go and flow.. in consensual
non-harming ways.. YEAH.. tHiS iS A SOURCE
STILL OF MUCH MIDDLE EASTERN AGGRESSION
AND VIOLENCE By noW SHUTTING DOWN HUMAN
LUST BY FORCE.. THEREBY MAKING RECRUITING
TERRORISTS EASY BY LETTING THEM RAPE LITTLE
GIRLS OF OTHER FAITHS IN CONQUERING THEM.. AND
PROMISING 72 YOUNG VIRGINS AFTER LIFE IN SUICIDE
BOMBINGS.. ANYWAY.. i live in Miley Cyrus wrecking ball
land where sexuality is celebrating in oh so many wonderful
and lusty ways that increase human creativity and balance
except for folks with the disease of addiction that are gonna
get addicted to something to excess that harms them
no matter what.. as most often the core issue of
that disease is mammas.. daddies..and or peers
then and now who did not cultivate the garden
of touchy feely love at a relatively tender
young toddler age and in school boy.. girl
days and even work days too.. all around..
so yeah.. i veer paths with the ignorance
of both Buddhism and Christianity.. and
Islam too as ‘they’ FAIL TO UNDERSTAND WHAT
FUCKING HUMAN AND GOD GIVeN HuMAN NATURE FeeLinGsEnSes
EVEN iS.. and to suggest tHeRe is no God as a Buddhist
and then go on to say you are going to live forever in bliss
away from this earthly plane is the height of hypocrisy as
how the fuck do you get to control that if there is no other
higher power either named or unnamed.. it matters not
as Yoda Might say as this Force of God that can
certainly be unnamed but is still God dam named
when someone calls it the Force one and same
as Force underlying allthatis same and ONE..
i say.. LET’S GET REAL.. THiS iS FucKinG
GOING DOWN FOR REAL ALwAYS NOW
AND DON’T FOOL OURSELVES TO
BELIEVE THAT GOD LIVES
ANYWHERE BUT EVERYWHERE
ALWAYS NOW.. INSIDE.. OUTSIDE..
ABOVE.. SO BELOW.. AND ALL AROUND.. NOW NOW NOW..
there is no escaping the God of Nature.. no.. not
even after death.. as even science shows that
Energy always exists whether in matter or not..
and we are energy at core.. same subatomic stuff
as the Stone of the Mountain of gRains oF sand
that hold up the Mountain of Love as human
potential when we work together in naked
flesh of lust and love instead of against
each other when we make cars
lovers and brick houses
and pyramids
Gods.. NOW YES..
now WE are God
allisGod NOW
allthatis now…
and tHeRe ain’t no need
to fear attraction to breasts
Penises and Vaginas or even GOD YeS..
firm male butts if you are a valley
girl.. depending on whatever the FucK
God given sexual orientation the God of
Nature gives ya from birth or extension of
cultural leaning ways of being in Nurture NoW
iN aLL.. YES.. BALANCE iS KEY.. ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE
WITH THE DISEASE OF ADDICTION.. BALANCE Is NoW
KEY.. VERY POSSIBLE WITH A LOVING FAMILY AND
PEERS FROM BIRTH WHO MOVE… CONNECT.. AND
CREATE FROM BiRTH IN GIVING SHARING WAYS noW..
SO.. ON THIS MEMORIAL DAY WHILE I GREATLY RESPECT
THOSE WHO HAVE DIED WHO GIVE ME THIS YELLOW BOY
IN BALANCE OPPORTUNITY TO HAVE BOTH TENDER LOVING
VITTLES AND THE GOD DAM CALL OF THE WILD TOO IN BALANCE noW
I SAY JUST REMEMBER YOU ARE A CHILD OF NATURE.. YES GODoNE
AnD SamE.. both seen and unseen and sure i intuitively FEEL the essence
of myoUr soUl LiVes forever the same as God dam Buddha.. or Jesus or
whomever the other countless enlightened primates or such as those
intellectual and artful beings have come to understand
all over and beyond the UniVErse and InFinity
beyond thAT alWays now.. anyWay..
Yellow Boy is far more advanced
in being one with God than
most humans mired
as tools are
today.. all
he needs is fur..
paws and claws to
be one with God in
thE Sunlight oF BreaKinG
dawn who he is at core noW
with the liGht of God Now..
and yes.. the tender loving
care and tender vittles helps
but no.. i’M not sure what brand
name Katrina buys.. but he only
eats what he needs to get BuY..
to maintain his youthful God cat
appearance in balance and bliss
in the law of claws of God set FReED WitH i..
Culture.. is an enormously large millstone for a
human being noW to escape with a vision quest that
is truly still necessary these days away from spoon
fed culture no different than the legends of the Buddha
and the Jesus and whatever is truly historical fAct of those
two men’s lives.. and sure.. Muhammad rates too.. but OH GOD..
levels of violence still propagated by that associated religion
truly does show it doesn’t work well as the sacred text is not
clear enough for folks as whole to actually practice
peace and harmony in BaLaNcinG REAL EFFECT.. and sure..
those problems exist everywHeRe.. including heRe..
wHeRe humans live in insanely large populations..
particularly.. in low resource areas like
desertS of course.. yeah duh.. that’s
just FucKinG common sense and
why tHeRe is so much CONTROL
FOR BASIC GOD DAM SURVIVAL..
so.. the answers are still
in A way like the
ones of the Jesus
and the Buddha.. they must
be obtained at the individual level
in seeking finding and practicing A INdividual
way that works for each person as we are all
different in the bio-diversity of God for the
struggle of life that allows us to survive
for the longest eras of now
ALIVeNoW bottom
linEnoW..
what works
works… seek It..
find IT.. use it.. or
never NoW find it or lose
iT as in all stuff animal
oF God oF aLL LiFeNOW now
so hEar with my Memorial
Day treatise on remembering
who and what we are at core..
a little Vision quest music and
the life of the Buddha celebrated
in PBS documentary way..
anyway.. no one
owns the
trUth and liGht
but the LiVinG God
as yes.. Force that lives
all that is inside us .. outside
us and all around us NOW above oh!
so below.. to make the best of iT
iN INTerdependent relationship
with allthatis God can be
YES.. RELATIVE
HUMAN WILL iN
MASTERING
THE NIRVANA..
THE BLISS OF HEAVEN
NOW.. BUT REMEMBER2 NO
ONE OWNS THAT BUT GOD
AND YOU ALL NEVER A SLAVE
TO TEXT OR ONE HUMAN ALONE..
FREEDOM IS FREE
ALWAYS
BOTTOM
LiNE
NOWFReED..:)
Okay.. so in conclusion here.. while i might still go way up
back ‘up’ there and finish the Thursday Open
Link from dVerse poeTry poetic responses
to keep this Trojan Horse of
longest Long
Poem Form
eva in the
History of Humankind
with all the colors that must
come in to keep it somewhat
monolithically interesting too..
going.. approaching 4 million
words now in this 672nd verse
as inspired and in covenant
with God too of course but
hell no.. it ain’t like
‘we’ jUst
have a beer
and chit chat
to discuss this
stuff but haha..
it can even be stranger
than that in non-verbal
terms too.. hehe.. noW
of course iN synchronicity
ways of tapestry of all ‘A
God Art and science put
together in one whole painting
of beauty forevernowallmorenow..
so anyway.. basic instinct lie of Christianity..
Islam.. and Buddhism.. the big three religions
that some folks like to lie to themselves
and say Buddhism isn’t a religion
as i pull out my handy dandy
Wiki instruction on that
here and quote:
Okay i’ll go easy on ya..
and use the long term
Merriam Webster
Def. of religion
AS we analyze
it in Layman’s
terms using
Fred Logic
here..
RELIGION
: the belief in a god or in a group of gods
: an organized system of beliefs, ceremonies, and rules used to worship a god or a group of gods
: an interest, a belief, or an activity that is very important to a person or group
Well.. the truth is Islam.. Buddhism.. and Christianity all meet
the third part of this three part and or or and definition
of religion.. and yes.. of course science and
the scientists WHO passionately
use science as an interest, a
belief, or an activity that is
very important to a
person or group..
Jesus F iN Christ
of course meet THAT
definition as clearly
expressed noW iN this
Symphony of science
video ‘heRe’.. same passion
same preaching with emotion
same mysteries and imagination
of God and Nature one and same
of what is known and unknown in
all the mysteries of what is as is noW..
Bottom line.. replace the word Nature with
God and they are talking about the same
God dam Interconnecting Force as
Interdependent relationship
of allthatis AKA GOD ONE
GOD ALL NOW ALL OK..
let’s not get caught up
in priSons of words
LET’S JUST GET
REAL AND ADMIT
IT IS THE SAME
GOD DAM THING
ALL REAL NOW.. ALL NOW.. OK..;)
but anyway here is the clear evidence
of THAT NOW IN THE VIDEO HERE..
Okay.. so back to Islam and Christianity now.. the other
two of the big three religions in the world today..
Well.. Christianity as whole clearly worships
a man on a cross named Jesus..
they stand.. they kneel and they
bow to Jesus too.. and yes..
although not all folks
do this with an idol
form of Buddha.. it’s
plain to see many do and
argue as to who is or is not
veering from the Buddha’s
teaching of who’s got the real
message real of supernatural
too.. yeah.. legend has it that
Buddha was born of a Virgin birth
too.. not unlike the same mythology
of Jesus.. and Horus of Isis and
Osiris too.. same story.. just
different God dam
actors in
the play..
of human history
stories that house
the vessels and vehicles
of Truth or Not and or both
Truth and Not.. and Islam..
well that’s a little more tricky
but as obvious as a man who
changed the laws of the day
to get his dick in one more
little girl who never has
a chance to find
her own
independence
first before owned
as a slave back then..
and sure if your dick
is really hard as pedophile
then.. you can get even get
10 AS more little girls by the
price of a dowry too historically
set as precedence by that somewhat
sick in the mind and body balance
dude Muhammad.. and Jesus F in
Christ.. per what so-called Nicene
Creed talks to about putting the
dead and alive on trial and
judging then.. i’ve already
given plenty of Muslim
Folks time and effort
to defend Muhammad
but they failed miserably
as they cannot deny the
lust of his selfish ways..
over love with slavery of
others by purchase instead…
sorry NO.. it pisses me and GodONE
oFF Very much.. in the eYes sTill of
stove top burned beautiful young
women in Pakistan.. tortured ’cause
A husband didn’t like the slave money
for the wife enough to be satisfied in
eyes of Muhammad still then now..
yeah.. i read about Muhammad playing
with the dolls of that 9 year old girl whatever
her name was that he purchased at a young
age.. and what particularly makes me sick
is Muslim women come to believe THAT is
sweet and loving.. when truly it is so
God dam sick.. in perversion
of what the greatest
gift to human
Love even is
more than
sticking a dick
in a little girl’s private
parts.. for perhaps the
reason he didn’t feel man enough
to do it with an ADULT woman at that
point in his life.. you know a
FULLY mature one and not
a little bitty girl..
ugh.. this putting
Devils on trial is not
a task i like to do.. but
ya know the Covenant
thingy and all to bRing
GREATER TRUTH AND LIGHT..
God is the Judge.. i’m just
the court reporter.. and
scribe.. and sure prophet
too.. in healing SOMEwayS..
yep2.. oKay..
And yes..
by penalty
of death.. if ya say
Muhammad don’t have
the last word from God you
can be punished by death
if you live over ‘there’..
FAIL.. MISERABLE
FAIL.. THE GOD JURY’S
OUT.. MUHAMMAD FAILS
MISERABLY FOR THE CAUSE
OF FREEDOM IN GOD’S CHILDREN’S
FREE EYES AWAY FROM SLAVES THAT
ARE BOUGHT WITH DOWRIES AND SUCH
AS THAT.. but yes.. it is what it was and CAN
be different if more folks wake up and quit
worshipping Muhammad as a God no
different than Jesus.. or for the
folks who bow down to an
idol of Buddha too..
and fear to veer
from whatever tHe
Fuck he suggested then..
while humans are never cookie
cutter replicas as sure some can go
without lust by nature.. but a balance
of lust and love is what makes humans
most creative and productive for survival
and that is why mostly the United States
has been the leader of the free world up
until around now.. where the U.S has
failed miserably.. recently.. in ways
of greed.. and killing others
for the almighty dollar
of illusion away
from the
God of Nature
now.. well.. anyway..
YES.. the trUth can hurt..
NOW but the liGht feels
great wide awake once
one arrives there.. and the
trUth and liGht is.. science so
far as both a religion and one
that can see the interdependent
relationship of all that is one and
same from inside us.. outside us..
and all round us above so below..
is doing the best God dam great
job so far overall.. with
at least not raping
too many little
girls.. stove
top burning
wives.. going into
Iraq by calling three
other countries the axis
of evil.. to use God to Kill
as a defense.. so dam INSANE..
or bombing A Japanese ISLAND
and killing almost 100 thousand
innocent people there same
as Iraq over there.. yep..
most everyone has
blood on their hands..
and yes.. science does too..
as mistakes in the medical profession
are the third leading cause of death
in the U.S. now too.. too many folks
relay on external substances to heal
themselves rather than the all
Natural Yellow Boy power
inside who is doing
fine by the way..
after surviving
feline leukemia
for around 8 or 9
years now.. and perhaps
it is all natural Tai Chi and
Yoga Poses at peace and
rest in still call of the Wild
Balance with a serving
of tender vittles love
to keep life
bright
and liGht
now.. it beats
raping little girls
for a price for dam
sure or the spoils of wars
in promises of 72 virgins
after life too.. tRust me..
God over all as God lives
in all is not very happy with
the human race.. and sure.. while
not many people may read this or give
a shit.. it matters not.. as God
Speaks For God allone
iN ALL of US
never separated
now when free allone..
the wages of going against
that allone is real sin.. the
balance with it is simply
Nirvana and bliss
now
ONE AND
SAME AS THE
HEAVEN OF NOW..:)
OH.. yep.. and in addendum to
conclusion here..
iF anyone thInks
thaT Synchronicity
is not real.. in terms
of the ant who has no
idea what the hive looks
like when the ant finishes
the individual of teAM task
at the end of the day now..
or the fleA.. who dePends
on the Dog for its very
survival but has no
idea what makes
the whole
dog NoW
tick with
holy and
sacred blood
as meal for life..
Secrets in plain siGht
show clearly the phenomenon
of the same hive LiKE synchronicity
of human behavior too.. and no.. not an
individual or even nation effort alone but
an entire iNnate.. iNstinctual and iNtuitive
art of creaTiViTy thAt Flows iN God’s eYes
oF UniVersal Flow as a streAm that flows
into a River of Ocean one wHole ZonE..
now.. as wE.. and iT makes mE giggle
when conspiracy theorists
on the Internet suggest
there is some
kind of WHoLE
secret corporation
plan of ruling the world
in one world new age order
when it is simply and complexly
yes.. beyond the human power
oF reaSoNing to the
non-empirical
meaSuRinG
Art of God
wHOle nowoNe
Force of brush
aS paiNt iN Action
with beYond inFinite
hAnds on thE liGht oF
Brush noW iN yes dARk wAves
oF negative too.. so the best
advice is to grab hold of the brush
and ride in new heights of liGhts ReAL
wAvE.. trUe.. iT IS A TEAM EFFORT AND THE
CALL OF GOD HAS BEEN SET FREE back into
HuMans OF LITTLE AND BIG BLACK BOOKS aS
DancEs and SonGS oF artistS iN Global Wide wayS..
and even profit making organizations that sell shoes
that say JUST DO IT.. iN GOD OF VICTORY OVER VENGEANCE noW
WAY.. i added in the Vengeance pArt oF Course for a wheeL rehearsed..
No Harm Clause for the best oF Fearless Love LIFE Now.. a drink of
water for all when aLL liVes In JuST DoinG Fearless Love LiFE Now..
so with that sAid.. iT’s Memorial day and the gym is cloSinG early
for celebration ways.. but no different than when i started a
little warrior journey as A soldier of God at age 12 with some
rudimentary concrete and bar weights.. Fearless is required
to truly express Love.. thE GreaTesT iN love aS Sacred waY..
so here comes a three hour or so Exxtreme Martial arts..
ballet-waY iN intense strength training too.. noW witH
the technology of free FloWinG Nautilus
Golden Spiral machines that exercise more
range of motion and paRts of the body
than just free weight exercises and
such as that.. but no.. no rat
treadmill repetitive cage
movements for me..
all so freE noW..
i WiLL Tai Chi-like
move my way fast and
slow.. iN InfiNite more and
potential nuanced Movements
and Associated EmoTions aS
experienced per way of peptide
receptors of positive insPiRinG
Electronic music with associated
Neuro-chemicals and hormones way
noW hiGher to fiRe A praCTiCinG
play oF Y i.. aS A conTinUinG
pasSioN oF miNdful bodYFuLL
Awareness iN balance oF soUl..
wHere the creaTiVitY iN wayS
Of DancE and SonG oF poEtry
WiLL Fly hiGher and hiGheR
SOaRing around the God oF/iN/aS..
i.. wE.. mE.. uS.. sAMe ONEnoWonE..:)
Oh Lord.. of Beers and Bowling Alleys
and all them years i had to drink
a beer to relax.. well.. i’m glad
i don’t need no more beers
to Chill out.. and noW this
‘tSuNaMi 7tH WaVe oF LoVE’
is dedicated on Memorial Day
to my 1st cousin Dickey who died
in a fiery Helicopter crash in Vietnam..
back in ’69.. i remember he said he
always wanted to buy a Camaro and
marry his sweetheart when he got back..
Well.. i was fortunate.. was born just at the
right time where i didn’t volunteer like my
cousin did for the ’cause of preserving
life… liberty.. justice.. and the pursuit of
happiness over here in the
U.S. of A.. and yes i married
my sweet heart and drove
a teal green super
sporty Camaro
for all of 14 years..
and sadly.. since then..
in ’69.. it’s hard to find a fully
truly justified war for good
but never the less.. plenty
of folks were still fighting for
freedom no matter what the higher
ups were arranging for them next..
and that reminds me.. never thank
a living Veteran for their service
on Memorial Day as more than
likely they will get a little
indignant.. and i was
talking to the X-Commodore
of the Naval Station where i work-
out about just this same thing a couple
of hours ago.. yeah.. an amazing dude
in his 70’s.. still squatting over 400LBS..
as solid as monument of a Human Rock..
without steroids.. yeah that Movie Star ‘Rock’..
in the REAL special services S.E.A.L.
operation and spending
years ’66 to ’70 in
Vietnam witnessing
the Loss off 44 of his
fellow sailors to deaths
as horrible as being chopped
in half by chopper blades in
front of friends.. and one guy
he said who only served 4 hours
and was killed.. oh.. the price of Freedom
iN Life.. Liberty.. and our current pursuit of
happiness has been the steepest price of all
for many through our history.. and hopefully now
with more freedom of information.. NO unjustified
wars where our own young men and women and
other young men and women of other countries noW
are NOT sacrificed for a dollar bill.. some reconstruction
of an oil country or whatever suits the administration
higher ups.. fancy.. of psychopathic leaning current
REAL INTENTION.. then.. no more.. JUST DON’T
DO IT HERE.. NEVER EVER DO IT.. YOU HEAR..
Life.. Liberty.. Justice.. and the pursuit of Happiness
are worth dying for overall for the Human species
to thrive alive.. but lies.. oh no.. OH NO.. OH NO.. NO NO..
DON’T
DO IT UNDER
ANY FucKinG Circumstance
as trUly the God oF aLL iS watching
iN and as aLL oF uS.. anD more
of US are free than
ever before..
and that
counts
for
a
LOT..
while WE ABIDE..:)
OKaY.. noW..
thE otHeR
YelLow Boy
CAMe BacK.. TG..;)
Facebook Friend Rafiah
from Pakistan says..
As you talk about inner healing,
this reminds me to tell you that Ramazan
is just around the corner. And it all about
inner healing. I am going to be such a good baby.
Hahaaa wink emoticon grin emoticon
And then i say..
Oh Gosh.. Ramazan is like alWays noW for me..
and your Ramazan starts the day before my 56th birthday..
the 6th.. on June 5th.. sMiLes mY friend.. Rafiah.. you
are always a Good baby to me.. And good to hear from you..
i miss you ’cause you are my REAL FRIeND.. for
so long now.. going on
two years..
smile emoticon
Then Rafiah says
in another Facebook
Share discussion..
It’s very surreal where science and arts meet.
My presentation topic for my organic course was
biosynthesis of cholesterol in body. When I was
studying I was so much amazed at the how subtle and
beautiful the design is. Subhaan Allah, is the word.
P.s I am sure you’ll google the meaning of
Subhan Allah yourself. wink emoticon
And finAlly i say..
Yes.. Glory bE to God
when art and science
comes together
iN the HUman
MiNd and BoDy
iN BaLanCinG souL
my friEnd also through
expresSinG EmoTioNow
noW aS SpiRit to gET
iT aLL toGeTheR NoW..:)
And then Rafiah shares
a Facebook Status about
“Never Let Me Go”
and i say..
Wiki makes
Me thInk
Good movie
And way..:)
Rafiah says..
I liked the movie.
It was bi sad though. But it’s the
song with the same title that I love
so much. And me and my friend Juwairyah
go crazy over this song. Lol actually I go
crazy an she accompany me in my craziness.
It was her birthday. So yeah. smile emoticon
And finAlly iN conclusion i say..
WeLL… happy birthday to her too..
and stay crazy wiTh Good EmoTioNs..
as God WiLL bE Happy WiTh you too..:)