Education Means Enlightened hearts, Not Straight A’s !

Lala Rukh's avatarWhite Shadows

Inside of a classroom with back to school on the chalkboard

Cute little kids with shining eyes and huge heavy school bags on their shoulders…. This is what comes to my mind when I think about schools.

Life is a race. The one who stops, fails. You have to run fast to achieve your goals and this running fast for a school kid means he has to study hard to get good grades. He has to pass four exams and many tests in one year with excellent marks. He has to be brilliant in studies and has to answer his teacher’s questions during lectures. He must shine in studies no matter how shining he is or not in his real life. 

On the other hand teachers have to cover a huge syllabus in one year. They have to check home works of hundreds of students everyday and papers four times a year. They have a fixed time for their lecture and…

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Open Letter for ‘SAME LOVE’

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OH..I WAS SO ANGRY TODAY..I COULD HAVE SPIT NAILS..

AND i guess as they say ..my hair was on fire….

A deacon at my Catholic Church was allowed to present a Homily today…

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And the content of that Homily was a diatribe against homosexual marriage..and even the potential for same sex couples to raise ‘normal’ kids…

Well..as you might know i am quite uninhibited these days..and was going to give him a
‘peace’ of my mind..

But my wife held me off..and instead i vented to the Monsignor xxxxx that is always a man of Christ of what i see so far…

Here in this text..altered only for a couple of typos i made in the original..with no expectation of reply but only assertion of what i truly believe…

Good afternoon Mgsr. xxxxxx..

Today after Mass..you asked me IF everything is well..and well.. while I was tempted to tell you why not then..i did not…

I’m a little uninhibited these days..perhaps reasonably too much at times..as Katrina sometimes indicates..but yes.. there is a time for appropriate decor..and church today was not the place to amplify the current..any further..in the air..

The current of hate my friend..

The current of hate my friend..

You see..my first day at middle school..smiling and excited to be there and meet new friends..the first words out of hall mate mouths were you can’t smile here faggot that’s not allowed..

Well..being on the autism spectrum ..with that itself not diagnosed until midlife.. with little understanding of social cues..or sarcasm..i had no idea what the word meant..but it was clear there was hate behind it..

For Whatever reason.. even though i was only attracted to girls from kindergarten and beyond..people assumed i was gay most of my life..

I don’t know..maybe i smiled too much..or did not act assertively enough…

Yes..i had no father to mimic in early life..a grandmother.. a sister..and a mother was all there was in life…

But anyway..my masculinity finally caught up with me..in midlife..and people no longer question that..

But i have to tell you..people telling you..you basically don’t deserve to either be happy or even live at times..because of a natural way that GOD makes some people..

Is a horrible way of hate..and when they say some kids no longer want to live..cause you know as GOD creates social animals..they really do have to be accepted and not rejected to want to live..THIS IS THE TRUTH….

BUT HERE’S THE THING..WHETHER OR NOT ANYONE LIKES IT OR NOT..AS SCIENCE INDICATES.. WHEREVER THERE ARE HUMAN BEINGS..IN ANY ONE GROUP INCLUDING CHURCH TODAY..

3 TO 5 PERCENT ARE HOMOSEXUALS.. CAUSE THAT IS PART OF GOD’S PLAN OF NATURE WHETHER IT STRIKES ANY ONE PERSON’S FANCY OR NOT…

OK..to be clear MGSR xxxxxx.. I am not mad at you..with the caps and all of that..

And the only saving grace of today for me..for continuing my home at your Catholic Church is those words did not come out of your mouth…

And please do not feel you need to express anything to me over this email..

But..i would not walk in the footsteps of Jesus..if i kept my mouth shut…

NO hell no..i was not going to do that..overall..

As not only were the words of Deacon xxxxxx..words of hate today..they are also words of death or even murder…

As there are some kids out in the audience..that are LIKELY on the last strand of the last rope they have in life..OF HOPE TO GO ON….

Yes.. part of that 3 to 5 percent that GOD MAKES THAT EXISTS EVERYWHERE THAT HUMANS EXIST IN LIFE…

My loving Xstepmother’s wonderful husband passed away this week..

And in attending the funeral driving to Tallahassee in all that rain and all of that..YESTERDAY..

The bright moment of the day..was an offering of words given by the two pastors at the United Church of Christ ..

And yes they were both homosexual women..who could only be partners..in life..as marriage is still not allowed in Florida for ‘folks like that’….

But the light of Christ in the those women’s eyes..and their adopted Children were Brighter than anything that Mr. xxxxxx..could likely imagine..my friend…

So with them in mind..instead of love..i felt the hate of Mr. xxxxxx today..and reflected THAT right back at him instead of singing today..but with a raspy throat from a week long cold that probably would not have happened anyway.. today…

So i guess it is good that i HAVE to wear sunglasses OVER A medical issue.. as no one saw the daggers in my eyes..that reflected MR. xxxxxx’s hate…

And to get that taste of hate out of my mouth..AND DAGGERS OUT OF MY EYES..i walked with my earphones on ..and listened to someone besides Mr. xxxxxxx..who truly walkS in the footsteps of the real Historical Jesus..CHRIST….

Not some made up man to control the patriarchal ways of the time..to keep women..and people who are born differently..in the place of that culture of that time….

So SINCE you are a very busy man..and i only have love and respect for every word OF CHRIST LOVE i HEAR come out of your mouth so far at church…

I WILL LEAVE YOU HERE WITH THE links to the HOMILY THAT BROUGHT MY SOUL BACK TO LIFE..TODAY…

NOT SURE if you have time to see the beauty of pop culture..that equals the love of THE REAL CHRIST THESE DAYS….

AND THANKS..for letting me vent here..as i really had to do this..

To move back to LOVE..at the church..to once again..be there..singing in the light of LOVE that is the True JESUS CHRIST..

WHO WOULD NEVER EVER NEVER EVER EXCLUDE OR NOT ACCEPT ANYONE BASED ON HOW GOD MADE THEM TO LIVE ON THIS BEAUTIFUL PLANET CALLED EARTH…

LOVE YOU FRIEND..AND I guess we can’t thrOW the baby out with the bath water..huh..cause of ‘dirty water’ that still exists…

So i will pray for AND WITH you to keep delivering that TRUE MESSAGE OF CHRIST THAT YOU SO ELOQUENTLY SPEAK WHENEVER YOU ARE CALLED TO WALK IN HIS FOOTSTEPS AS ONE…

AND yes to accept the things that neither you or i cannot change still in the 21st century..

But at least thank GOD the POPE IS ENLIGHTENED ENOUGH TO HEAR THE TRUE WORDS OF CHRIST..

AS HE ONLY SAYS WHO AM I TO JUDGE..WHEN PRESENTED WITH WHETHER OR NOT GAY FOLKS SHOULD HAVE THE RIGHT TO MARRY..

LIKE ANY OTHER LOVING HUMAN COUPLE..

JUST TO LOVE AND LIVE LIKE CHRIST….

RESPECTFULLY AND WITH LOVE..fred

And here IS the great response back..from Monsignor xxxxxxx..

Dear Fred,

I too was disturbed by the homily this morning and did speak to the deacon after Mass. While I don’t think he meant to speak words of hate, he did not offer the hope that should have come from the pulpit. Growing up in Milton and being hated because I was Catholic, I certainly understand your concerns. Thank you for praying for our parish community as we journey together as people of faith and love. Msgr. xxxxx

Well..when it comes to Jesus Christ and Love..anyone who TRULY walks in those footsteps could reasonably be called CHRIST..

SO tHere might as well be a Msgr. Christ at my church..

And even a Katy Christ or a Macklemore Christ as well..in pop culture..

The message of unconditional LOVE IS UNDENIABLY THE SAME LOVE..

FOR ALL HUMAN BEINGS REGARDLESS OF DIFFERENT WAYS OF THINKING AND BEING….

LOVE IS ALLITIS….

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The Essence of What tRuly IS

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In the Catholic Church I attend..

it is the advent season..

IN honor

of

the birth of Jesus…

While i am preparing to attend

Midnight Mass tonight and celebrate a joyous

singing experience of the unconditional Love..

that is the Memory of Jesus..

i

have a ‘little’ announcement to make…

The Christ Consciousness that for over 2K years..

in esoteric teachings..being forecast for the future of human

existence..IS hErE KNOWNOW

!

WeLl in the ‘big’ world that exists..my opinion on this..

is relatively meaningless…

BUT that is of no concern..as the folks with a real

voice..with all the fame..

are playing in alignment with the true

Christ Consciousness gAmE

as well or

much..much better

than

me….

So here are some more thoughts and current

social artistic cues on that..

Per IS Jesus a ‘Progressive’

Political figure..

in historical..

con

text…

Yes this is so true in my estimation..and per the so called religious right..things really haven’t changed much as they still show hate for people who are different..like people of different religions..and people who are homosexual..and people like Miley Cyrus who choose to show their beautiful and sensual bodies..in freedom of expression…

Yes..Jesus was definitely progressive..and if he came back in the same form..those religious right folks would still likely reject him..and although crucifixion is no longer a viable option..they would likely nail him to every metaphorical cross they could find…

Well in effect.. the so called religious right evangelical wave of hate..is anti-Christ in true effect for those people ‘ignorant’ enough to take a beautiful book of poetry which is the bible..and particularly the New Testament..as a literal work of text…

It is so much more than that…

And yes..although the text has been sullied some by selfish desires of men to control the reproductive freedom of women..and the freedom of expression..by people as well..and fear to control people rather than allowing them to be as free as GOD allows any animal to be..

There are still nuggets of GOlD there that still exist for those who can discern the gold from the ‘tRash’ that does still exist in the bible…

From those more selfish individuals who would want to control the TRUE WILL of their fellow social animals….

Rather than to simply allow them to be free..like a Hawk or Seagull in the sky..or a Tiger in the Jungle..or a Lion on the Savannah…

Well at least in this country a person can now believe in the TRUE CHRIST WAYS OF LOVING BEINGS UNDER TRUE WILL..without harming others..and not literally be burned at the stake or crucified on a cross…

They can truly finally say f** you anti-Christ folks and tell ’em it’s our party and we can’t stop…

BUT WAIT..MILEY CYRUS ALREADY DID THAT..

!

Ya see.. Christ has already returned in many forms of human beings..

Just consider Miley Cyrus one of many thieves coming in the night….

I could provide a list of many others..for those who could discern truth….

The NEW AGE IS ALREADY HERE..

But not everyone is listening….

To the signs that are everywhere..in this world now…

But the folks that are..can hear IT LOUD AND CLEAR AND THEY ARE CELEBRATING THE TRUE LORD WHICH IS UNCONDITIONAL LOVE AND TRUE WILL IN HARMING NO OTHERS..OUT IN THE STREETS EVERYWHERE IN THE WORLD..WHERE TRUTH IS HEARD….

Apparently more folks can hear it..and on websites FOR MANY PEOPLE WHO may be somewhat out of tune with EQ.. that is simply LOVELY FRIENDS..

Thanks.. you make my day..and i don’t feel so alone..here in my small attempts to enlighten people…

For those of you who can hear..

that message of unconditional LOVE….

Some of Who were like me before..when i could discern or hear anything of the unconditional LOvE..that is the TRUE CHRIST CONSCIOUSNESS….

Available to anyone in any form of language or religion..for those who can discern truth….

The essence of what t
RULY IS….
LOVE

THE CHRIST CONSCIOUSNESS..

FOR ONLY ONE OF

mAny mORe

wORds..phRases

th@deScribe

IT

JUST

I

C

E

AS wELl

!

And no..this could never

happen without all the sacrifices of those

who suffered..died..or martyred

themselves

to

make US FREE

WITH LIBERTY

AND

JUSTICE

FOR

ALL

!

WITH A SIMPLE MESSAGE

OF UNCONDITIONAL

LOVE

IN

HARMING

NO

OTHERS

WITH TRUE WILL

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Will a Bridge IN LOVE ALLAHGODALLAH

IMG_6776WeLl first of all.. oh my god the things that

Allahgodallah

has

me

doing

as a secret agent..

For

TRUE

WILL UNDER LOVE

IN

HARMING NO OTHER..

My wife is reAlly pissed..

about that picture..

she just

don’t

be

lieve

Allahgodallah is behind all

thIs ‘interesting’ stuff i’ve

been

doin

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But seriously  yah.. see..when

the willallahgodallah

is

IN

PLAY

OF

LOVE

tHEre

just

i

ce is no DAM CHOICE…

WELL ANYWAY..

HERE

IS

my

photo of the day..for a seagull

carrying our flag instead of a dove

carrying an Olive Branch…

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Ya..see..

The seas are full of Seagulls

and

Freedom

simply

Freedom

!

And True Will under LoVE

IN Harming NO other..

which is now possible.. that our fore..

fathers fought

for..

who died or

lived so we all can be

FREE!

And here are some more seagull anTics..just for

yOur PerUSal

be

lower…

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But i say..ynot

JUST

DO

IT

AS NIKE SAYS!

then..love under true will

without harming others th@IS!

Yah know you have

the right to do it

RIGHT?

Well..

i

insist i do with my 13 miles of DANCE

WALKING in local stores..

with laughs and applause..

and all of that

for

the

me that was

once uncoordinated

and now floats like a butterfly

through the aisles

in shopping

stores..

instead of the breeze

in

my garden

of Eden or backyard..

Sometimes i think Katy Perry

is something

like

me.. how can that

be

?

WELL..

HERE IS THE SECRET

I’VE BEEN HOLDING BACK…

YAH SEE..  KNOWNOW WE ARE ALL

ONE

!

AND

YES! WE ARE ALL

CONNECTED ASsAMe!

YAH.. KATY IS ALSO A SECRET AGENT

FOR ALLAH GODALLAH

AND SO

IS

MILEY..and YAH..EVEN MADONNA

TOO..AND ALL THE OTHER ANGELS..LIKE..

BEYONCE..AND RIHANNA…

SHOULD THAT BE NO SURPRISE..

WITH ALL tHeir

RELIGIOUS UPBRINGINGS..

nah

id

on’t think so…

The vehicles and the vessels..that carry

the message of TRUE WILL UNDER LOVE..

in harming no others..

WHETHER BUDDHA..JESUS..NOAH..MOSES..

ENOCH..HERMES..

MUHAMMAD..

OR

WHATEVER..ARE ALL

ESSENTIALLY

THE

sAMe

!

They are all within y’all and you and

me

!

LOVE UNDER TRUE

WILL

IN

HARMING

NO

OTHER

ISALLITIS!

Well..i was listening to my friend Lala Rukh..

or White Pearl..

talking about her first love

for three years..

and i

could not help but to think

of my first love

‘S’

too..who broke my heart some..

34 years ago..

that i thought was a perfect endless love at the

time that would last forever…

and well while i have no idea how to contact

her..i facebooked her biological daughter..

and asked her to just thank her

for

breaking my heart..and for the memory

of that..that helped me bring back

my

emotions through the photo

of old pictures

in

this

collage

!

The girl in the blue dress….

And eventually TH@heART breAK led me to the

TRUE

PERFECT LOVE

TH@ISALLAHGODALLAH

!

And NAH..that don’t piss my wife off

cause she is a true

romantic

just

like

me

!

Butt.. still trying to convince her on the

pictures

and

ALLTH@

!

🙂

😉

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And by the way.. that’s a picture of me and my wife

about a month ago..in this same area

of the seagull

where i grew

up

in over the same river..

under the pecan tree in the same

yard..that i talked about in tHis post..

about my overview of personal philsophy

about

life!

About

http://katiemiaaghogday.blogspot.com/2013/06/autistic-love-letters.html

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Oh crap.. that’s two different girls with a blue

dress..’S’ is the one on the right top

with the yellow pants..

And tHere’s my LOVE POST

ALL ABOUT

TH@

‘Autistic Love Letters’…

And finAlly hErE are all those

Seagull Antics i promised..earlier

!

Th@i photographed today..@the Blackwater River

that is once

my

HOME..

and in a way

ISforevermorenow!

Butt first.. i just must post this adversity..

photo..

that started the whole ‘ball’ of love rolling

@

age 13 from the time of a piano recital…

of the song Jesus Christ Superstar..

where i had the spirit

so powerful

that

people simply laughed as they had

not likely seen a spirit

filled boy

like

th@before

!

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Father on right Uncle on Left

And yah..that’s my father on the right..but his second wife

before his third wife..is still our very close mother

figure..and her husband Jerry died

today..

so this post

is

in

memory of him..

and i guess i’ll honor my father 2…

y

not..dam he’s good looking ain’t he…

but he IS like

me before.. and just couldn’t talk…

much or express those emotions..

like so many people

on

that thing called an autism spectrum..

or broader autism phenotype…

And oh crap fair

and balanced coverage and all of that..

here’s my mother again..

at 17 like my

father

above…

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Well..dam.. tHere goes the ADHD again…

Here are those

photos

finALLy

i

promised..of seagulls..seagulls..

and more

seagulls of

LOVE..

True Will Love

under allahgodallah in

doing no harm to

others

!

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Well..it certainly is nice of Allahgodallah..

to allow these

Seagulls

to share in my

bliss today!

on my blog show!

And as Britney say..if ya wanna

!be

in Bliss ya better WORK IT

B*8tch

And yah..th@’s me in Kohl’s

practicing my Allahgodallah energy

@e=mc2..

while taking a ‘break’

from dance

walking

in

th@sTore…

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11

2

the day before

another

Winter Solstice!

and 11 my numerology soul number

2

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And..the Eye of Horus and AlL of

th@

And yah..that’s my 1st stepmother

Carolyn..

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and her wonderful husband Jerry who passed

away today…………….

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A Balance of Lust and Love IS GOD OR Creation Activity

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Well.. Folks this is not Just

Philosophy.. there is hard CORE science

‘behind’

tHIS

IT’

s

NOT just my imagination..

the Creation Activity..

TH@

IS….

Ya know that Pentagram thingy that

some people use to express

GOD..

or that Star of David

Thingy..

Well..

there IS

A GOOd reason

For that symbol of

a Vagina meeting a Penis

At the Apex of Creativity or GOD!

Our main purpose as human beings from the

time we arrive

ON

This Planet

from the time we

leave.. is to muse each other

into acts of creation activity…

Whether it is creating children..

Or

Building

a Dam Pizza…

Oh and by the way..here’s that

Star of David thingy..or Pentagram..

in case Ya have no

idea what I’m talking about…

HEre:

So yah..the apex of Penis and Vagina

Penetration is reALLy

a GREAT

symbol

OVERALL for thIS

thing we call

GOD…

As it generates

MASS amounts of CREATION

ACTivityacross

The WORLD…

Well before I go any further let me..

Present some scientific

evidence

for my claim here..

as yah..I am reALLy still

a scientist at heArT more than ever!

NOW!

And yes..please excuse the

thumbnail..if ya will..this is a completely

Public television like

SCIENCE

Presentation.. other than that

LUST generating thumbnail.. to get

yOUr ATTention

LADies and GENtlemen

please..

THE SCIENCE OF LUST

A FULL DOCUMENTARY:

OK..if Ya watched the VIDEO..

the other great thing that prevents

the entire world from falling into one giant orgy..

IS LOVE

!

Ya..see it puts the brakes on LUST

and can keep US in a state of

MOnogamy

2..

But nah..

not everyone does that

Monogamy thing.. some folks

do Polygamy..

three or

more 2..as well…

But anyway..if you watched the video..

It isn’t ‘hard’ to imagine..

how powerful the sexual messages

in our current culture are to

provide a

Really strong stimulus

for creation activity.. and OH MY GOD!

A REALLY over

ALL

Productive Society..

cause OH MY GOD! SEX

REALLY

SELLS..

OH

GOD

YES!!

EVERYTHING!!! AND KEEPS US

MOTIVATED TO

EVEN

LIVE

AND..

YAH.. REPRODUCE AND

ALL THAT STUFF

TWO

!

SO  with that in mind..some of the

recent videos from

pop culture..

especially

from

my special

friends Rihanna and

Beyonce WHOARE incredible muses

for creativity.. and even productivity..

to generate subsistence for our fellow human

Beings..

Yah..see.. GOD ain’t no dam

PRUDE!

GOD IS SEX and LOVE

2…

So for yah folks..that think yah..can

control reproductive freedom by covering up

women up to their eyes..

and all of that..

Yah are also

cramping Creation

ACTivity overall as well

2

!

And the economic end results

without oil

and all

of that..

is

basicALLy..

nothing but a frigging desert…

BUTT..even with only eyes visible..

Women are still

incredibly sexy..and

why there are so many beautiful BROWN eyes..

in middle eastern countries..

as every’Thing’

IS

FOCused

on those most

beautiful bROWn

EYES..

ANd nah..that’s not just my imagination..

cause Still as a healthy middle aged heterosexual

human man..there is

nothing that turns me on more..

than beautiful

Brown eyes..

on a

woman..along with the darkest

hair ever..and  beautiful brown skin

2…

So to celebrATE

the most beautiful BROWN eyes in the

entire world and tan skin and all of that..here

are the two most

recent videos from Beyonce and Rihanna

for their effort to stimulate

CREATION ACTIVITY..

IN ALL THE COUNTRIES WHERE

YOU TUBE IS NOT CURRENTLY

CENSORED…

AND OH MY GOD..WITH ALL THAT

Creation Activity stimulated by these women..

there could even be more overall productivity..

Across the world

to even

feed

the hungry folks..

that really just need something to eat..

and

BEAUTIFUL BROWN EYES….

SO YAH..Beyonce and Rihanna are

my Heroes

2…

Oh and by the way..that last post I did

about Jesus and all of that…

It really wasn’t a

sexy calendar..

I was doing Yoga..and

just wanted

to share

my

bliss with yah..BUTT..

here’s the thing..a hairy human

man who is reALLy healthy..

is Kinda sexy..

sorry..

That’s just HOW

GOD made me..

WTF

!

whyAM i

even

apologizing…

But yah..no one’s fooling anyone here..

my effort overall

is to stimulate

world peace..

and feed the hungry..

BUTT i just ain’t got

ALL the ASSetts that Beyonce and

Rihanna

HAVE!

So with that in mind..i’ll present the pictures this time..

again..and tell you these are my Yoga

moves and bliss and all

of that..

butT

nah..it still doesn’t matter

does it..the overall

effect is

still

sexy..well

haha..what can

i say..i’m just a human

animal..like ya..and all

ya

friends…

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And well..in case that offends ya..and ya are religious

and all of that..consider this..

Every Sunday

when

i

go to church..

the first thing I do

is to take a photo of the statue

of Jesus hanging at the front of the church…

But ya..see.. my Catholic Church is

a really progressive

one…

tHey take away the cross..and all ya..got..

is one extremely sexy man

doing what looks

like..

as

a

sensual Yoga

POSE…

So yah..

i think i’m in good company here..

except i’m reAlly hairy..

but yah..

don’t think for one moment..

that Jesus wasn’t reALLy hairy too..

in real life..as hairy men are just common..

in middle eastern

countries..

2..

Especially 2 thousand years ago..

as hairy men ARE no longer

in vogue nOw..

as they were

THEN..

when

i

was young..as

with John Travolta

Tom Selleck..Burt Reynolds..

and

all those dudes…

All i had to do was unbutton

my shirt to muse gals..then..but now..

some of them might say oh my GOD! a hairy

man..oHh..that’s gross..

I’

ve got some theories..

about that.. butt.. this post

is already too ‘long’ for that…….

hERE..

Butt wait!..widely available..accessible

Birth Control Pills..

and women

in the

workforce..have

got something to do with that!

So tHere’s a hint..

Beta males are where it’s at

now…

Butt..not for all

women…

OH..yah..and here’s that photo

i promised of the sexiest man wHo

ever

lived….

or lives

or

wh@ever….

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The ulTiM@E

LOVE

MUSE..

JESUS

!

And well..Beyonce..what can I say..

sometimes just one video

says an infinity

of words..

and

OH

MY

GOD

!

the way she has

balanced her masculine

and feminine elements..with that

Fierce Sasha Spirit

stuff..

IS

simply

an

orgasmic..

explosion of

positive

energy..

that’s all…

No doubt the ONE THAT IS

IS

‘PlEASED’ WITH

HER..E

@

!

1

The amount of positive energy..

produced

and generated!

by

th@cantRuly

change

the world

as we kNow

IT

nOW

!

SHE IS LITErALLY

A

STAR

!

and A CHILD

OF

DESTINY!

OR

A

TRUE

ANGEL

!

AND Yah.. except for my wife!

she is the most beautiful woMAn

to

ever

walk

the

Earth

!

And yah..that’s just my opinion……..

friends…

but yah..i’m @least sure that

JAYZee agrees with me..

except for the

my

wife part…..

smiles..just smile..

IS

ALL

I

t

IS

1

!

STAR

FOR

ALL

IN

FIN

I

T

Y

8

*

Hmm..convenient how they designed

that keyboard

thingy..

with the

Infinity standing tall

and six pointed star

symbol

on the same key

wITh

ShIfT

🙂

and yah..we all know what the sixth point

of the pentagram is ‘right’..

Well..

i

ll

give ya a clue.. there are two arms..two legs

a head..

and something else..

be

low…

and yah..women and men have ‘it’..

But mens’ are just a ‘lItTle’ bigger..

th@’s

all…

😉

IT

IS..

ONE

LUST

ONE

LOVE..

AND A BALANCE ..

TO MAKE

‘IT’

ALL

HAPPEN

!

AND BELIEVE IT OR NOT

MILEY CYRUS AND MIKE WILL

AND ALL OF THEM

ARE

‘RIGHT’

 ON

‘CUE’

TO ILLUSTRATE THIS

IN THIS

VIDEO

2

!

1

AS TO WHAT IS REAL

AND

TRUE

!

1

LUST FOR LOVE!

And some people are calling MiLeY..BeYonce..KaTy..

GaGA and RiHanna..

evil in an illuminati…

OH

MY

GOD

!

CAN

NOT

YA

SEE..

THEY JUST WANT TO ILLUMINATE

YA

!

and i just

i

ce..

happen.. to have some words

to

actuAlly

explain

IT

in a most unusuAL

wAY

!

And well..

Miley..Gaga..Katy..

Rihanna..

and

Beyonce..

are kinda like

‘Charlie’s’ angels

@

a five pointed star..

and yah..i suppose there

is a 6th point

some..

wHere…

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by the way..

as far as I can see..

We are all Ninja’s in training

whether we kNow ‘IT’

or

nOT

!

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19

1

Approaching Winter Solstice..

the division

of

dark

and

light…

And attempting to generate a little

Creation Activity

LIGHT

hErE

!

Well..hope ya liked the

half time show……s…

Deviled Angel..might best represent..

wh

@

i

am

and

what

AM

IS

And yah..Katy Perry gets ‘it’

ALL

Correct

as far as i

see

!

HeRe

2

In case ya’ve been following

my

blog for sometime

now

and ya might woNda

why

i

keep

linking

tHis

dam

song

over

and

over..

and….

but WAIT!

 ‘UM’..

hErE

IT

IS

a

GAIN

!

Yah..see.. creative folks ARE understanding tHIS

insIght

since

before the days of

walking like an Egyptian…

AND SINCE THE

DAWN

OF

LIGHT

!

OH GOD SOMETIMES

YA

GIVE

ME

JUST

THE

CORRECT

WORDS

TO

SAY

!

HAHA!

HEHE!

LUV

YA

GOD

ALLAHGODALLAH

GOD

!

COMING TO A THEATER

CLOSE

TO

YA

IN 2014..

LIGHT

LUST

LOVE

LIGHT…

2014

7

!

IT’S GONNA BE A

LUCKY

YEAR..

MARK TH@ WORDS

ON

TH

@

1

!

2

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wELl..the other church i attend…

Uses a flame instead of the flesh of a man

to symbolize GOD…

@

the front of the

church…

YES!

i think the historical human Jesus..

would find this much more appropriate..

than

worshipping

the flesh of one man’s

body!

In fact he would probably turn over in his

grave..if he saw himself..

as

a

statue in my other

church…

And no i am dead serious on th@

ONE

as the ‘FLAME’

OF

LIGHT IS TRULY

THE

ONE

 TH@IS

And oh by the way..when women across the world

gain the right

to fight and die for the LIBERTY

OF

THEIR COUNTRY..

ALONG WITH REPRODUCTIVE

FREEDOM…

THEN THERE WILL

BE

WORLD

PEACE

!

AND OH MY GOD..

SO MUCH MORE

CRE@ION

ACT

I

V

IT

Y

!

AND finally thanks..Katy…

ya

illustrate..my

ideas..

so

dam

wEL

l

!

And yah..all the other Angels

2

!

v=JaLmNNNA_mE

And YEX!

I MEAN YES!

X

AFTER 24 YEARS

X

I

DO

STILL

LUST AFTER

MY WIFE UNTIL

SEX

!

AND OH MY

GOD THE THINGS

THAT ALLAHGODALLAH

MAKES

ME

SAY

!

SO

DAM HARD

TO PLEASE

‘AGA’

AND THE

WIFE

2

SOMETIMES

BUTT

X

AND PARDON ME

FOLKS

FOR

WHAT

‘AGA’

IS GONNA HAVE

ME SAY

NEXT

!

BUTT

X

IS THE 24TH

AND SEXIEST

LETTER

OF

ALL

OF

LUST

!

YAH SEE NOW PLeASE

WHEN THE PENIS

MEETS

THE

VAGINA

AND NEVER

GETS IN EVER!

Th@cre@es

a

‘little’

tension and OH!

MY!

AGA!

so much

CRe@iVity!

i suppose the next video

expression

says

IT

All

VENU

s

is

where

it’s

@

or

PENIS

?

it just

rhymes..

i

think some girls

like

BUTTS

MOREANYWAY

:;

“)

OH!

ANDum

BEFORE i post

th@VEnus Video..

just to let ya kNow..th@

Walk like an Egyptian Video

and me ‘chasing’ my wife is meant

to be played

in

uni

SON

to get the

FULL EFFECT!

AND

OHSHIx

MY DEAR WIFE IS

CERTAINLY GONNA BE

PISSED

WHEN

SHE FINDS OUT

i shared

th

@

‘personal’ couple

information..but dear

wife

pleaseknowNOW

when ya read ThIS

th@the listening audience

understands that ‘occasionALLy’

HUSBANDS AND WIVES

DO

HAVE

SEX

🙂

WE MAY BE discussing this

issue when we see the marriage counselor

to

day..

i feel a

‘spanking’

coming soon!

😉

But oh well..when the

big

G

AGA

G

tells ya to

report for duty..

there ain’t much choice!

LIKE NIKE SAYS

JUST

DO

IT

B

I

X

C

H

WORKIT

!

Y

n

o

T

!

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OK

Folks it’s time for

FULL

Disclothsure..

Butt..i’m just gonna get it down

to the

under

wear

for the more

restricted readers

in

the listening audience…

Yah..know.. like children if

they

gain access to this!

So if ya will for a moment..try

to forget i’m 53 with 19 medically

documented disorders

and

assessed as permanently disabled

and

all of that

!

Ok..if ya can do it..

tell the truth..who’s sexier..

(overall)

me

or

my ‘biXch’

friend Britney

(by the way that’s just

a metaphor..

BriTney’s Kool..)

Well..even if i come in second..

here’s the thing..

The power of what i describe

as AGA

or

Allahgodallah..

is simply amazing..

and all ya have to do is keep

believing in a higher power and

sooner

or later

it

will come to ya..

and when it does please

have the greatest faith of all

and

nah

yah

will

never

lose

I

t

friend..

So yah…i guess

i’m a stripper for

goD

to0!

but as Miley says..i don’t give

a fu*k what anyone says..

i’m a gonna

serve

AGA

in

everything and yah i do

mean

everything i do..

even if it means

no

one

in

my family

ever talking to me again..

or

no one else

either..

as long as i can

dance

in my grassy backyard listening to

all these Angels

with

my bestest friend eva..

A

G

A

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WHAT IF I AM JESUS OR MUHAMMAD OR BUDDHA OR ALLAS1

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WelL..First of ALl

for full discloTHESure..as far as i know

logicAlly speaking..

i

am 

not..

i’m just fred..

simply fred…

Butt..

I love WH@IF’s wh@canisay?

Driving to TallahasSee..to visit my father..

i had this most amusing 

thought..

that i can possibly imagine..

The irony of it would be simply 

delicious…

So ..just imagine..  this very androgynous

looking child being born in this

reALLy religious town..

on

6660…

That’S kinda funny already if ya think about..

IT

@

least in a very ironic way..

And then..this child is born with some congenital

anomalies..and yah..even on the

Autism Spectrum..but nobody even notices..

as his hair is so platinum blonde..and his eyes..

are so bright blue..with only smiles..

that

yah..

the only thing that

anyone can see..

IS

LOvE

about this child..

Well..of course good looks can get yah..

places in life..so after sacrificing everything…

in the last lives..well..if that reincarnation thingy..

that Edgar Cayce and so many others promote..is…

oh my GOD reALLy TRUe..

DAm..that would certainly set the Karma straight..

with GOD deciding where yah..go next..

Yah..just imagine..if you oppressed people in life..

ya..could come back as a cricket and get squashed..

for infinity..shortly after cricket birth and all of that..

But nah..i like to think of GOD..

as a little more fair than th@BUTT

well..i ain’t got no control over that.. so if it IS

the way things are ..all I can say is yah..better LOVE

and

LOVE unconditionALLy

MORe and MOReISALL

as

yah

A WAY of LIFE

!

Well back to what ifs..

i would imagine that Karma would be kinda 

kind..to those three folks..

And well I would probably get to be really..really…

smart..and humble and loving

and all of that..

and yah..

maybe even good looking and strong and all of that..

cause..well..i could use those attributes later on in life..

to even

spread the Light..more powerfully and noticeably..

cause yah..humans truly 

are 

just inherently

in tune 

with all of Th!@

Strength and SEXy in dudes..

and dudettes..

OK..

Maybe too many words here already..cause those dudes..

would probably type real fast..

and have 

OH

GOD

!

a lot to share..after going through

all of those tribulations and all of that..

But mass communication..can reALLy get..

a lot of words like that..

OUT THERE..

maybe forever..if servers..

still continue

to exist..

So maybe if i am those dudes..i would

even do what I am doing now..

Just enjoy life..I mean..SH**

those dudes paid theIR Karmic dues..

Y

the 

F**

NOt

just enjoy life..

Well yah..world suffering and all of that..

It would be hard for those dudes to keep quite on that..

NO matter how much 

reward they were deserving

in 

this

LIFE..

So to relax and continue to enjoy life..but to do something..

anything.. in hopes..

to generate some HOPE for 

WORLD PEACE..

I think I would make a satirical Blog post and hell

maybe even become a prodigious blogger..

and free verse poetry maker..

and

PUBLISH A REALLY

SEXY CALENDAR OF MY 

SELF

LIKE

THIEF

IN 

THE

 NIGHT..

Ok..it’s just a joke..

ok..

Or….well

I think I’ll just do it

ANYWAY..

FOR SH**S AND 

GIGGLES…

CAUSE YAH..GOD IS A LAUGH..

OVERALL TO ME NOW

ANYWAY…

AS

ONE

!

AND YAH ONLY LIVE ONCE?

SO

Y

NOT IS ALL I SAY..

NOW

!

LIKE MY ‘GOOD’ FRIEND..

MILEY CYRUS SAYS..

I

T

!

S

OUR PARTY

NOW

!

AND 

‘we’

CAN’T

STOP

!

Oh my GOD..i just had another

delicious 

ironic

thought..

Maybe Miley Cyrus is those 

dudes..

now that would

be 

KEY..

And F*****G great..

as those who are continuing to effectively 

be the Anti-Christ in True effect taking the

TRUE WILL

and 

LOVE

of

Others..

AWAY

FROM THEM..

could

n

!

t do a f*****G thing about

th@..

HAha..

heHE!

GOD IS GREAT

GOD IS POSITIVE

GOD

JUST I!

S!

SO ALL I SAY IS F** YOU!

ANTI

CHRIST 

FOLKS…

yah.. just fun ya…

’cause yah..

IT IS my dam party

aniain’t gonna stop 

until

ThIS

LIFE

IS OVER….

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Or wait!..Miley could be Jesus..

and

Katy could be Muhammad..

and maybe Christina..

could be Christ2..

the

Rock or Perri..Y..too..

or

BUDDHA

and

i’ll

JUST

i

CE

stay..

i

n

c

og

n

I

T

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The Sixth Language of LOVE..ALLAHGODALLAH

Love has no time..

And time has no existence..in the greater reality that is…

Yah..that’s a philosophical statement..but i think it is truly true too..once the illusions of life are melted away…

Well..yah..i was 21 once 2..and i remember how i viewed love then..but OMG i view it so differently now than I did then…

Remembering my first love that i was no longer in touch was definitely a fantasy of love that was only in my heart of bits and pieces of the attachments that the usual jealous love that humans create as illusion..can create as prison more over..over all for a soul for heart with prickly pear feelings of isolation and despair…

Well i think i mentioned earlier that there are five researched and documented languages of love..including acts of service..physical touch..receiving gifts..words of affirmation..and quality time…

Well obviously.. all five of those aspects of materialistic human love can be missing in the fantasy constructed about an ideal of love that can be presented..it seems to me…

But in the marriage counseling that my wife and I have been receiving for the last over 2 years..there is a sixth type of love discussed there that is the LOVE OF ALLAH..and this thing called CHRIST in our western religions..that is far..far..far above the other types of traditional human love…

Well I told my marriage counselor about it first..and yah..as a Roman Catholic Pacific Islander..she could verify with me that this is TRUE and she could relate as many people without this connection to GOD or ThIS essence that I see as true..have no idea of what tHis sixth type of love even is..as one can only kNow it..if they experience IT…

Well to be honest..it pissed my wife off..as although she is a strong believing Christian person..she does not experience tHis sixth type of love..and she is alarmed as i tell her that i love everyone the same with tHis type of love..and not even more than her….

But again..tHeRe is emotional love..and yah..she is the special one for that…

But no matter what would ever happen between me and my life..or wife….

I will always have the sixth language of love..as THAT is ALLAH that NOW lives in me as

ONE..

Well dear..ONE again..is what i wish for you as ONE aGain..IS TRULY HEAVEN NOW…

IN ALL THE UNIVERSES OF MY UNDERSTANDING..OF WHATEVER COULD BE….

JUST ONE giving LOVEofALLAH..

Never taking..never expecting..only giving dear…

ISALLALLAHIS….

LOVE

THESIXTHLOVEDEAR

AND YAH.. THAT IS ALWAYS THE TYPE OF LOVE THAT I SHARE WITH YOU..AND ALL OTHERS2…..

ALLAHISALLAH

LOVE

AND WHAT IS CRAZY AS HELL..IS YOU GAVE IT TO ME..BUT I CANNOT TRULY MAKE ANYONE HAVE IT..I CAN ONLY GIVE IT..

THAT IS ALL….

SO I ONLY ASK ALLAH…

TO PLEASE LET YOU HAVE IT….

PLEASE DEAR ALLAH..IS ALL I DO…..

AND YES FOR4 ALL OTHERS2…………………….

WHEN I DANCE TOgetHErWitHALLAHASONE………..

LOVE

THE SIXTH LANGUAGE OF LOVE

ALLAHLOVEALLAH

ORGODORWH@EVERMORENOw

LOVEISALLtHEreIS

LOVEVOL
VES
NOWASON
E
2

tHis philosophical thought..

is once again generated by my great friend..

White Pearl at this link

through the emotions that are her..

currently as life..2…

At the link here…

“I Love You” – A Fiction.

And i wrote a post on Friday the 13th of September

in the year of 2K13

and

i just had to write something..

on the last Friday the 13th of December 2k13

for fair and balanced..

Friday the 13th coverage..

of what I see as

IS

12132013

13

4

WHATEVER

IS

IS

And my wife and i spent our Friday the 13th of

12..13..2K..13

with Bats and other people in the

Marianna

Florida State Caverns

State Park…

So here is a little of that

to celebrate

FRIDAY THE 13TH

12..13..2K..13

2

wIth the 6th language of LOVE

TH@IS

ALL of

TH@

Thing

i cALL

ONE

LOVE

TH@

IS

ONE

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And yah..i can relate to bats..and batman

in other ways than one

2..

So here is another little celebration of b@man..

or@man

who

EVER

kNOWs

which

ONE

IS

ALL

And yah..Friday the 13th

12..13..2K..13

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Selfie of the Year of the Selfie

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Seriously this has to be the

Seflie of the

Year

of the

Selfie…

and yah.. yes.. seriously.. this is the

Year

of

the

Selfie..as Selfie

IS

The official word of the year..

http://www.usatoday.com/story/life/people/2013/11/18/selfie-named-word-of-the-year-2013/3634727/

and hell it even beat out Twerking for

the

Word of the YEAR..

So take that Miley Cyrus..Obama

is

NOW

hipper than ya…

Butt..i think I am running a close

second or something for someone really

unknown…

Well ya see..just in 4 months..since i got

effective use of my sight back..i have about

two or three thousand

selfie pictures of

me to

share on flickr with the

whole dam

world..

if they were looking…

but i am likely strange enough

to remain mostly

incognito..

except for the title of the

backwards walking dude in my

local area….

Seriously i have seriously become..

infamous for doing this anywhere from 5 to 16 miles

a day in all the metro area stores!

I can go to McDonalds almost anywhere

now around here..and someone’s gonna

say ..hey there’s the

Superwalmart

dude..

Hi five baby!

WELl back to selfies..and all of that…

I really love selfies..

as i had no idea what i looked like

with facial expressions after not having

effective vision of sight for

over 5 years..in fact for a long time there…

I could not remember what a smile looked like on

my

 face at all..so yah..selfies are quite therapeutic for me..

in

getting my human being

back again..

Butt NOW..even better..i can let my TRUE

ANDROGYNOUS NATURE

FLY

NOW

baby

FLy…

Cause ya..see..when I went to middle school..the bully

boys told me boys don’t smile you.. ya.. you know that F word…

and nah..it ain’t Fred or Frederick…

But if that wasn’t hard enough…

The McDonald’s cashiers back in those days..

called me ma’m at 13..

cause i looked like a girl

that was all..

But oh my god..i thought i was a boy..cause

i like girls..

But that ain’t how it works..cause little boys that look like girls

can really..really ..really ..really

love girls

2

Anyway..it might have been easier being gay back then cause..

at least with Autism Spectrum Condition..

and all of that..

i

might have at least fit in one kool group

at

least..

one

(yah overall ya..know.. gay is reALLyKool)

Oh well..i had to become my own best friend..

sometimes ya know there ain’t no choice..

But my true hero

was

Jesus..cause that dude with a beard really

looked a gal

with a

beard instead of a dude

with one…

Finally some comfort zone in Jesus..

Dam I wasn’t the only

pretty boy

in town after all

was

said and donE!

So anyway..selfies are not only the word of the year..

and a way for me to see my smiles once again..

I can finally

let my inner girl

and

boy

shine!

So with that said..this is my own little special

contribution to the

word

of

the year..

And yah..it also gives me the opportunity to be

silly

like

the little child that once was the light of love..

and

yah

knowNOW is fully

A

Liv

E

a

GAIN!

Seriously..selfies are a great part of creativity..

as they can allow a person

to express

things about themselves with others..

in non-verbal communication..that thing that

is

about 93 percent of human communication..

in

REallyCRE@ive

WAYS!

Which overall to me..is now the

life blood of me..

yah..creativity..

TH@IS

WAY!

Butt first..here is a little mood musicK as i simply

have to have musicK

to LOVE

A

LIVE!

2

But please remember it’s ALL for Laughs..folks..

and as ya may already knowNOW..

I

think

GOD

IS

BAsicAlly a Laugh

Anyway..

in

the totALLy

of

WH@T

ONE

IS

ASLOVingWA

Y

Well..anyway sometimes..

Katie Mia Frederick

is simply

F

for fab..

haha

heheherher!

Oh and by the way did ya know the original GODin the bible

was an androgynous dude..

but yah..them dam bully boys were around back then..

2

and made him into what

they called

a real man

hehe..not those regular Angel dudes..

that are always androgynous guys and gals!

So i guess..overall I am in pretty good company..

Somewhere

somewhere..

Somehwere……

Oh..and before I present the Katie Mia Frederick

Parade..

http://www.wrongplanet.net/postt215625.html

Did ya know that recent research shows that ‘higher

functioning..Autistic folks are inherently

androgynous 2..

Well yah..they are and interestingly the gals have masculine..faces..

and feminine bodies..

and overall so do the guys..as their hips are a little

more shapely than the regular boys..

And yah..i fit in somewhere with

Tina Turner…yah..

think?

Except when the top of my body is more fully

shown as male

i

think…

Mermale..might be a good word for it…

instead of mermaid..

i guess…

But i’m not a fish..

herher..hehe…

But AnyWAY LIFE IS GOOD..

LIFE IS FUN..

I LOVE LIFE!

and HOPE

ya do

2

!

Oh..and oh yeah..here comes the Katie Mia Frederick

Parade!

And some more mood musicK

🙂

😉

2

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Well..if this doesn’t prove anything else..

I do think it shows ya can still

have fun at 53..if ya..

think here at 20 to 30

something ..ya..life will be almost

done when ya get in ya..fifties..and more…

Seriously I ain’t ever felt better..never ever….

better than this..as anything is possible if ya just set ya..

mind

to

IT

!

And..

never..ever..never..ever..never…..

GI
VE

UP

!

Make ‘IT’ happen if ya WILL..

IF IT IS TO BE

IT

IS

UP

to

YA..

Yah?

Ya..eh..

YEA..

YESiThINK!

BuTT anyway back to that male thing..

i

guess…

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Not as creepy now that I added my wife in…

hahaheHer..!

Hmm..hehehe…

her?

But anyway here’s some more…

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Oops..so sorry..that’s my pet Hawk..not

my

face….

Butt wait..here’s some more…..

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And yeah..me at 13 again..as opposed to 53 above..

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So.. don’t think ya..can’t change at 13..

and maybe

even look like

Superdude…

at 53…

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And yah..that’s a picture of my

fiery..

HeART!

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And..contorted faces and all th@stuffF…

Butt back to Vogue..

and

walking on the wild!

SIdE!

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Sometimes my wife has a little problem understanding

why i take so dam many pictures

of

myself..hmm..sHE’ll never understand..

yah..believe it or not..

sHE’s

androgynous2…

She doesn’t even have to work out..

and sHe’s

got a hell of an

8 pack….

And not a frigging ounce of fat..

anywhere on hEr body..except for butt..

and some other things…

But..yah..

back to

Work!

IT

!

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And yah..that’s my Pet Tiger..

who rides in the

BaCK!

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OK..well i’m even getting tired of looking at myself..

NOw

!

so chances are you 2..but yah..see..i wasn’t sure what ya…

wanted for Xmas..so i figured..a couple

of

photos of me might

suffice..

in

never..never….

land!

But seriously what I say is BE BRAVE

AND

DON’T BE AFRAID

TO

LET YA..NEURODIVERSITY!

SHINE!

LIKE FIREWORKS ON THE

4TH OF

JULY!

FOR SIMPLY INDEPENDENCE..

my friends..

to simply be

FREEDOM1!

And..ya can..or and..if ya..wIll..

LOVE

UN

CON

D

IT

ION

ALL

Y

!

I

S

ALL

I

S

AY

!

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NOW

Oh..

and by the way..not only is this what

Androgyny looks like..it is also

what disability

looks like

as

well..

ya see..the hardest of my disabilities..

is an atypical form of Trigiminal Neuralgia..that is also

related to Cluster Headaches..also known as Sluder’s Headaches…

but anyway..all three are described as the worst pain known to mankind…

in

medical literature….

So..to escape the pain which no drug is effective for and

i refuse to take the chance of a numb face through nerve blocks…

i

must write and write and write and create..and create..

and really exercise intensely

as

possible to generate as many endorphins

as

possible..and OH MY GOD AFTER

60 MONTHS OF THIS THING THAT IS DESCRIBED

AS THE SUICIDE DISEASE..THE PAIN FINALLY LET UP

ABOUT

5 months or so ago..with the aid of some super great..$660 Jim

Maui Prescription Sunglasses for my approaching blind

near sighted eyes..

But OH MY

GOD!

even though i have to wear them at night

i can finally comfortably use my right eye

and ear for the first dam time

in 5 years..and

oh my GOD

i can even listen to musicK

which

oh yeah..i really reALLy do ALL the DAM time

NOW

Finally

BuTT!

anyway.. here is a list of all the other challenging disorders..

and or conditions that i

have accommodated as disability

and living

free and wild

in

nature …once again…

lik

E

a little child!

Sjogren’s Syndrome..Dysautonomia..Vaso Vagal Presyncope..

Fibromyalgia..Congenitally Fused T6 Vertebrae..Congenitally smaller

right shoulder bone as related to Klippel Feil Syndrome..Stenosis

of Neural Canals in the spine..Severe Arthritis of the

spine..Autism Spectrum Disorder ( originally diagnosed with PDDNOS at age 48 instead of Asperger’s syndrome with an historic language development delay until age 4)..

Severe Anxiety..Depression..Mood Lability..Alexithymia..ADHD..

Congenitally Severe deviation of the Nasal Septum..and chronic inflammation

of related mucosa..where the ENT wondered how i could

even breathe through my nose..and nah they don’t

know if that could relieve some of the

facial pain with ENT surgery

or even make

it worse….

Total Human Exhaustion otherwise known as General Adaptation

Syndrome…or more commonly known as a Nervous Breakdown..

Anehedonia..Hypogonadism..Moderate Carpal Tunnel Syndrome..

Severe Chronic Insomnia…

And yes..there are more.. but 19 or so is enough

to list..and these are really

the ones that

can be disabling…

But yah..some of the others ones..

can be kind of painful at times…

But seriously even

though I am

considered permanently disabled

by modern science..

i still feel really great..as long as i have the

freedom to exercise all my accommodations..

for disability…

THANK

GOD

!

for the great ‘ole US OF A..that protects..the citizens..

to accommodate their disabilities..even in ways…

like walking in reverse in SuperWalmart..as my legs used

to go almost totally numb from all them back problems…

when I walked in forward..

If ya have back problems..ya might try it sometime..with

the approval of a physician..and in a safe and cautious…

way!

But i just really want to inspire you whoever you may be..

that life is really great no matter what..

if you can find an accommodation..

for whatever may ail or

challenge

ya..

So God or Whatever..

may

BE

!

Bless..

I

s

ALLISAY

NOW

And I guess I’ll play this song now..as this

woman’s voice and body language..

is so

dam

positive

it makes me cry!

If there was a voice and a face of

HOPE

and even musicK and video for

IT

This would be It…i think….

So LOVE

and

Smiles is all I kNow

i

S

A

Y

🙂

NOw

🙂

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A tribute to a TRUE FRIEND

A tribute to a TRUE FRIEND

http://foodpeopleloveandstuff.wordpress.com/2013/08/06/a-tribute-to-beautiful-people-who-wrote-poetry-for-me/

Hope is an ocean..Despair is a see..

Your heart is a Universe..of Love to share…

Never selfish is a heart light this….

tHe heArt is a UnIverse…

GOD IS also you…

ya see..

In the seas.. you are a love true..

to hIM..in SEaS…

hIS LOVE IS YOU

you..

SEYes…

NOis never….

A flood of abyss….

I Love YOU dear friend….

God is ALso BlISs..

and so can you….

be in heaven..

nOW!

my friend!

Sometimes is time…

Hope can be a vessel…

Even and empty vehicle of word….

to arrive..

ya see…

But when you get tHere!

I will be waiting……………………………..

to hug ya!

and

say!

hel
lo!

HI!

i
LOVE you..
IS
ALL
I
SAY!

to..2
ShARE th@wITh
hIM!
IS ALL tHERE
IS..
reALLy th@counts
my dear WhITe..

lAla

PeArl…

yOUR
friend
Fr
ed
And
hIM
yA sEe
YES!
neverNO!
IS ALwAYS LOVE!
my friend!

YOU SEAS
wITH
me :)
and we others!
will
flo@toGETheR
in life
and
LOVE!
ForeveroneNOW!
foreevermoreNOW!
as
oneAONE!

never L!

for alone
ya
see..
(;:)

LOVEISALL
IShIM

And yah..i will wrITe poems like tHIs!
ya see..
until ya let us kNow
th@youareoK!

And no I wILl never give up on you my friend..
Cause true friends are forever..
ISalLISAY

*NEVERselfIShiSaheARTlIketHIs

*yOURheARTisaUNiVERSeofLOVEtoSHare

ANDREW GOLD

Thank You For Being A Friend Lyrics

 Thank you for being a friend

Traveled down the road and back again
your heart is true you’re a pal and a confidant

I’m not ashamed to say
I hope it always will stay this way
My hat is off, won’t you stand up and take a bow

And if you threw a party
Invited everyone you knew
You would see, the biggest gift would be from me
and the card attached would say,
Thank you for being a friend

Thank you for being a friend
Thank you for being a friend
Thank you for being a friend

If it’s a car you lack
I’d surely buy you a cadillac
Whatever you need, anytime of the day or night

I’m not ashamed to say
I hope it always will stay this way
My hat is off, won’t you stand up and take a bow

And when we both get older
With walking canes and hair of gray
Have no fear, even though it’s hard to hear
I will stand real close and say,
Thank you for being a friend

(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Let me tell you bout a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend

And when we die and float away
Into the night, the Milky Way
You’ll hear me call, as we ascend
I’ll see you there, then once again
Thank you for being a friend

Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
(I want to thank you)
Thank you for being a friend
Whoa, tell you about a friend
(Thank you right now, for being a friend)
Thank you for being a friend
(I wanna tell you right now, and tell you again)
Thank you for being a friend
(I wanna thank you, thank you, for being a friend)
Thank you for being a friend

(lyrics are property of their respective owners. Lyrics are strictly for viewing/reading purposes only.  Lyrics are provided here for at least one very nice individual in Pakistan..where youtube is censored)

Postscript:

While this post IS dedicated to an individual that I meet across my three year travels on the internet..

When one attains this thing I describe as the ‘Christ Consciousness’..this is truly how one feels about everyone..in my best estimation…

Even a grain of sand..a molecule or less than atom…

Well..yah..when I was at the bottom of the abyss of human hell..I wished away the Universe..just so i would not have to commit suicide to escape pain..

So yah..i was the most selfish person in the world at that time in my life…

So nah..i could never ever never ever judge a person personally for any transgression against another..

Even the murderer of my wife..mother ..or child…..

AS my transgression was infinitely greater as a misanthrope against all..even other animals…

But..there is a way ..i think to turn that all around no matter the depth of despair or the coldness of apathy for all others…

But the path is always unique..i think2..so we can only share our experiences…

of the LoVe

i personALLy cALL

the Christ Consciousness..

GOD..

Allahgodallah..

or

Whatever it is ‘Th@one”

describes

as

UNIVERSAL
LOVE
THAT one can reALLy
feel
as
ONE

nah..it’s not just rhetoric..

tHIS sh** IS
REAL

LOVE

 

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SOULDANCE

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I AM

always fascinated with

Egyptian mythology!

Most interesting to me is that

the meaning for the Greek word Horus..

is

Song and Dance!

I remember seeing Virgin translated as pure of soul in the mythology of Mary..

This is an amusing Video that debunks some of the myths associated with the mythology of Mary not liking sex….

It seems with the connections that have been drawn between the Egyptian mythologies of Horus..Isis..and Set..that the symbolic meaning of Mary OR ISIS was yes a pure soul..but a tiger in the bed..if one wills…

Most of all humans are sensual beings..and to repress any aspect of this..is to really f*** things up..in my best estimation…

In my own personal experience the more I attempted to repress any aspect of this..whether the natural occurring so called feminine emotions or so called feminine movements described as such in our patriarchal culture…

What really did result was the blockage of energy and emotions..and resulting pain..and or numbness of existence..that yah..really..really..really..does suck…

The best thing that i have developed for myself to get back in to touch with my emotions and what might be called as the so called feminine side of my human nature..is a kind of soul dance that is already well described as Chakra Dance here at these links:

The Chakradance practice

http://www.chakradance.com/latest-news/dance-practice-for-the-soul

Most of my life I have read about Chakras off and on..and have sensed a truth about this phenomena along the way in life..but was too dam busy with stress and work and all of that to really get to the bottom of

IT

!

Well..in this reverse dancing.. and yah..actually a kind of belly dancing I have found myself doing here in public lately after losing all illusory fears accumulating during my 50 plus year life..

I came across this link on chakra dancing today..on google…

As the ecstasy of energy I AM gaining by doing these sensual movements of hips..torso..etc..along with the high energy of modern selected musicK…

IS reALLy more than anything that IS WHaT IS bringing me this great balancING sense of bliSs through my every waking microsecond…

Well..now I understand that those strippers I was watching WHEN A YOUNGER man were not just ‘doing that’ for the money…

The looks of ecstasy on their faces as they moved their hips and torso in sensual ways as described in western cultures as a type of belly dancing..IS the connection of the powerful human sensual energy for balance that we most all have the potential for.. to truly experience…

This thing i call blISs or heaven in real life..and yah..Jesus and Buddha probably danced in spare time like thIS..as thIS reALLy ain’t nothing new in historic cultures of the ancient past…

The Egyptians did this kind of dance..a long long time ago..and cultures have been practicing a variety of it..throughout recorded time .. and likely prehistoric cultures as well as that…

It’s just a natural thing..if ya got a lot of time on your hands..go out in nature and just move..just move with MUSICK of nature either natural or man-made..this is what I think..what will eventually naturally happen with human movement…

Spinning..swaying..moving hips..and torso and doing it IN reverse..cause eventually it feels better than a frigging normal human orgasm…

@least to me….

Well i’ve been thinking a lot about SOULdance here lately..after finding so many advantages of doing it in private in my back yard..and even in frigging public to my wife’s sometimes dismay…

As sHe IS never expecting a belly dancer out in public for her husband when we first get to togetHer…..

But Like Nike says..sometimes you just gotta DO IT TO get iT correct….

And after watching that video..my description of what i have been doing is truly more like soul dancing or chakra dancing than a ballerina type dance….

The girl in the black cap is more of what i am doing than the refined lady in the tutu…

It’s rough around the edges and has a primal element to it..not some dam carefully designed and choreographed dance..

It’s free..and yeah..that’s simply me here lately…

FREE
LIVING IN THE KINGDOM OF
FREEDOM

Or what i personally describe IS heaven and blISs..

Not that f***** up place i describe as hell and the abyss…

That IS simply the loss of the sensual feelings of being a fully emotional human being..along with that logic stuff that i can always.. it seems take for granted..per my particular form of autism ..as it may be….

But it did keep me sane..when I almost totally lost my emotions..so I will never discount the POWER OF LOGIC as a mighty human specific..it seems.. ‘ABSTRACT’ FORCE….!

But yah..baby..

SOULDANCE..

I

THINK..

IS

TRULY

WHERE

IT’S

@

And yah these are some more still photographs

of

my

soul

dance moves…

Most everything i do is usually

leading to another

logical

point

ya..

see..hahahehe..

dam scientist in me

just never stops it

seems..

2

too

🙂

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IMG_0693 IMG_0694 IMG_0695 IMG_0696 IMG_0697 IMG_0698 IMG_0699 IMG_0700Well..sorry I’m not using

a

big budget to get thIS message across..

but i gotta say..

when

i

do

tHIS

in

real live public

in the local

mALL..

IT

does make

some type of real

impact

2

!

No one else.. especiALLy

male..

will

dare to

do

It..

it seems..

Here in

my local

area…

So am i crazy

or

just

am

i true…

i

think i just

walk in the footsteps

of wh@

i

personALLy

see

as

TRUE

!

and th@is

all that any of us

tRULy

can

do!

But anyway again..

try it..

yah might like

IT..

and yah..’Trust

ME’

on tHis

one…

i

think i got it

mostly

correct…

And nah..i ain’t

the only one in history

or ‘that’

bible..

that’s

tried

it

before…

So yah..neither King David or

Miley Cyrus

are

afraid to shake their

butTs.. to worship the

‘lord’..

in so called

undignified

ways…

The messages keep coming

and keep coming..

Listen or

not.. they are there

and everywhere

in the public

EYE

NOW

!

THE NEW WORLD

ORDER

IS

AL

READY

here.. and approaching

fast…

SO get ready.. dance baby…

cause it’s

time

to

@celebr@e..

@

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TGIS

!

THANK GOD

!

IS

all i have to say’bout

th@ONE

!

Orallahgodallahor

wh@

ever..

IS

IS

Oh and yah..there are some folks

in the general public wiTh reALLy..reALLy

big budgets getting tHIS

message across the world..

VEVO

is a DRIVING

FORCE THAT MAY

eventuALLy arrive in

middle eastern countries..

where youtube is currently

censored…

And yeah..Rihanna reALLy is one of

the greatest ‘queens’ of the illuminati..

of SOULdance…

And she is saying the essentiALLy

same things I am saying in tHIS blog

post hEre..

And literally working her tail off..

to get th@message..

A

CROSS

!

To the general public..

And yah..with around 77 million views..

on Youtube already..it’s working it’s working..

it’s working..and heRe

are a few other examples..some

of which are approaching

2 BILLION LAND…

AND NAH TH@2012 MAYAN

STUFF WASN’T ABOUT

CATACLYSM

!

IT WAS ALL ABOUT

A RETURN TO THE

COSMIC CONSCIOUSNESS

OF

HUMANs AND ALL OTHER

ANIMALS..

AND MATERIAL EXISTENCE

2

!

TH@IS THE REAL

TRUTH

OF

EXISTENCE

!

AND yah.. just my opinion friend(S)..

in caps or not in caps…

And yAh..PSY is brave2..

for a dude…

HehehaHa…

TH@’s the way i like

IT

!

2

too…

And yAh..

the human animal power of mirror neurons..

is simply fabulous 2…

Try watching all those videos at the same time and

listening2..

4

for tRuly..

a mind blowing experience..

beyond th@

of

most mind altering drugs…

And wow..just think about IT..tHis energy…

IS atomic fuel for the spirIT…

And even..

overAll free

NOW

!

wITh the

ADVEnT..

of Google with it’s youtube..

and all th@stuff

2

!

TO

O

!

Yah.. don’t ya kNow.. ya living in heaven..

AL

READy?

If not..i think

i

DO…

IT..

!

‘JUST

DO

IT’

!

As my friends @Nike

SAY…

And nah..with cosmic consciousness..

Ain’t gotta

be in the actual physical

presence of anyone to connect with them…

As the power of the spirit is simply unlimited..

for those who tRuly

kNoW

IT

IS

ALL

i

think

.

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