OH..I WAS SO ANGRY TODAY..I COULD HAVE SPIT NAILS..
AND i guess as they say ..my hair was on fire….
A deacon at my Catholic Church was allowed to present a Homily today…
And the content of that Homily was a diatribe against homosexual marriage..and even the potential for same sex couples to raise ‘normal’ kids…
Well..as you might know i am quite uninhibited these days..and was going to give him a
‘peace’ of my mind..
But my wife held me off..and instead i vented to the Monsignor xxxxx that is always a man of Christ of what i see so far…
Here in this text..altered only for a couple of typos i made in the original..with no expectation of reply but only assertion of what i truly believe…
Good afternoon Mgsr. xxxxxx..
Today after Mass..you asked me IF everything is well..and well.. while I was tempted to tell you why not then..i did not…
I’m a little uninhibited these days..perhaps reasonably too much at times..as Katrina sometimes indicates..but yes.. there is a time for appropriate decor..and church today was not the place to amplify the current..any further..in the air..
The current of hate my friend..
The current of hate my friend..
You see..my first day at middle school..smiling and excited to be there and meet new friends..the first words out of hall mate mouths were you can’t smile here faggot that’s not allowed..
Well..being on the autism spectrum ..with that itself not diagnosed until midlife.. with little understanding of social cues..or sarcasm..i had no idea what the word meant..but it was clear there was hate behind it..
For Whatever reason.. even though i was only attracted to girls from kindergarten and beyond..people assumed i was gay most of my life..
I don’t know..maybe i smiled too much..or did not act assertively enough…
Yes..i had no father to mimic in early life..a grandmother.. a sister..and a mother was all there was in life…
But anyway..my masculinity finally caught up with me..in midlife..and people no longer question that..
But i have to tell you..people telling you..you basically don’t deserve to either be happy or even live at times..because of a natural way that GOD makes some people..
Is a horrible way of hate..and when they say some kids no longer want to live..cause you know as GOD creates social animals..they really do have to be accepted and not rejected to want to live..THIS IS THE TRUTH….
BUT HERE’S THE THING..WHETHER OR NOT ANYONE LIKES IT OR NOT..AS SCIENCE INDICATES.. WHEREVER THERE ARE HUMAN BEINGS..IN ANY ONE GROUP INCLUDING CHURCH TODAY..
3 TO 5 PERCENT ARE HOMOSEXUALS.. CAUSE THAT IS PART OF GOD’S PLAN OF NATURE WHETHER IT STRIKES ANY ONE PERSON’S FANCY OR NOT…
OK..to be clear MGSR xxxxxx.. I am not mad at you..with the caps and all of that..
And the only saving grace of today for me..for continuing my home at your Catholic Church is those words did not come out of your mouth…
And please do not feel you need to express anything to me over this email..
But..i would not walk in the footsteps of Jesus..if i kept my mouth shut…
NO hell no..i was not going to do that..overall..
As not only were the words of Deacon xxxxxx..words of hate today..they are also words of death or even murder…
As there are some kids out in the audience..that are LIKELY on the last strand of the last rope they have in life..OF HOPE TO GO ON….
Yes.. part of that 3 to 5 percent that GOD MAKES THAT EXISTS EVERYWHERE THAT HUMANS EXIST IN LIFE…
My loving Xstepmother’s wonderful husband passed away this week..
And in attending the funeral driving to Tallahassee in all that rain and all of that..YESTERDAY..
The bright moment of the day..was an offering of words given by the two pastors at the United Church of Christ ..
And yes they were both homosexual women..who could only be partners..in life..as marriage is still not allowed in Florida for ‘folks like that’….
But the light of Christ in the those women’s eyes..and their adopted Children were Brighter than anything that Mr. xxxxxx..could likely imagine..my friend…
So with them in mind..instead of love..i felt the hate of Mr. xxxxxx today..and reflected THAT right back at him instead of singing today..but with a raspy throat from a week long cold that probably would not have happened anyway.. today…
So i guess it is good that i HAVE to wear sunglasses OVER A medical issue.. as no one saw the daggers in my eyes..that reflected MR. xxxxxx’s hate…
And to get that taste of hate out of my mouth..AND DAGGERS OUT OF MY EYES..i walked with my earphones on ..and listened to someone besides Mr. xxxxxxx..who truly walkS in the footsteps of the real Historical Jesus..CHRIST….
Not some made up man to control the patriarchal ways of the time..to keep women..and people who are born differently..in the place of that culture of that time….
So SINCE you are a very busy man..and i only have love and respect for every word OF CHRIST LOVE i HEAR come out of your mouth so far at church…
I WILL LEAVE YOU HERE WITH THE links to the HOMILY THAT BROUGHT MY SOUL BACK TO LIFE..TODAY…
NOT SURE if you have time to see the beauty of pop culture..that equals the love of THE REAL CHRIST THESE DAYS….
AND THANKS..for letting me vent here..as i really had to do this..
To move back to LOVE..at the church..to once again..be there..singing in the light of LOVE that is the True JESUS CHRIST..
WHO WOULD NEVER EVER NEVER EVER EXCLUDE OR NOT ACCEPT ANYONE BASED ON HOW GOD MADE THEM TO LIVE ON THIS BEAUTIFUL PLANET CALLED EARTH…
LOVE YOU FRIEND..AND I guess we can’t thrOW the baby out with the bath water..huh..cause of ‘dirty water’ that still exists…
So i will pray for AND WITH you to keep delivering that TRUE MESSAGE OF CHRIST THAT YOU SO ELOQUENTLY SPEAK WHENEVER YOU ARE CALLED TO WALK IN HIS FOOTSTEPS AS ONE…
AND yes to accept the things that neither you or i cannot change still in the 21st century..
But at least thank GOD the POPE IS ENLIGHTENED ENOUGH TO HEAR THE TRUE WORDS OF CHRIST..
AS HE ONLY SAYS WHO AM I TO JUDGE..WHEN PRESENTED WITH WHETHER OR NOT GAY FOLKS SHOULD HAVE THE RIGHT TO MARRY..
LIKE ANY OTHER LOVING HUMAN COUPLE..
JUST TO LOVE AND LIVE LIKE CHRIST….
RESPECTFULLY AND WITH LOVE..fred
And here IS the great response back..from Monsignor xxxxxxx..
I too was disturbed by the homily this morning and did speak to the deacon after Mass. While I don’t think he meant to speak words of hate, he did not offer the hope that should have come from the pulpit. Growing up in Milton and being hated because I was Catholic, I certainly understand your concerns. Thank you for praying for our parish community as we journey together as people of faith and love. Msgr. xxxxx
Well..when it comes to Jesus Christ and Love..anyone who TRULY walks in those footsteps could reasonably be called CHRIST..
SO tHere might as well be a Msgr. Christ at my church..
And even a Katy Christ or a Macklemore Christ as well..in pop culture..
The message of unconditional LOVE IS UNDENIABLY THE SAME LOVE..
FOR ALL HUMAN BEINGS REGARDLESS OF DIFFERENT WAYS OF THINKING AND BEING….
LOVE IS ALLITIS….
Two more great posts by Lala Rukh..AKA White pearl..and my response to them..i also reblogged them in honor of them…
December 30, 2013 at 4:58 pm
Well..i can certainly relate as even among the highest scoring grads in high school..and three degrees out of college..relatively speaking i still knew nothing..
My real education was in a Military Bowling Center full of real live diverse human beings..trying to cooperate and simply make each other happy in a stress free environment..
So Love was the real education..that is all..
But still though there was no one to truly teach me about stress and the real human limitations that can really lead to death..if left..unchecked…
So i lived and learned is all..and while i have no children..if i did i would certainly educate them on the human that is laughter..movement..and simply the homeostasis of alive..
Yes..there are much more than the focused upon 3 types of intelligence in school..which are verbal..mathematical and visual spatial intelligence..
There is movement..that comes with the eastern philosophies of Yoga..Tai-Chi.. or the Chakras of Indian Gurus and all of that..the fuller energy that is the human of spirit..
And YES THERE ARE THE EXISTENTIAL TRUTHS that only the study of philosophy can bring..
And moreover there is the musicK of Love that allows us TO GO ON..AND TO BE HAPPY AS ONE…
SO YES..OVERALL THE NEW EDUCATION SYSTEM..DOES SIMPLY SXXK..
SO WHAT..CAN WE DO ‘BOUT THAT..
WELL IN THE INFORMATION WORLD..freedom is information..and sharing with others..
So even if there is no formal education that can GET ONE THERE..
ALL THE ANSWERS ARE AVAILABLE ON THE INTERNET..FOR THOSE WHO SEEK TRUTH..AND CANNOT BE DIVERTED BY CENSORSHIP…
AND really dear you have all you need in a blog as you can spread your light and love and no DAM ONE PERSON CAN STOP YOU…..
Sorry if that was a ‘little’ too passionate..
But YES I AM TRULY PASSIONATE ABOUT THIS TOPIC YOU BRING TO LIGHT!
SO THANKS FOR SPREADING THAT LIGHT!!!
December 30, 2013 at 5:13 pm
WELL OH GOSH! LOOK AT YOU..ANOTHER ENLIGHTENING POST..:)
Where in the ‘real’ do you get all this Wisdom..surely your soul is older than 21;)
But anyway oh my gosh..this does ring true for me too..
With that worst pain known to mankind for 60 months..and human exhaustion and all of that at 48..i certainly had to ponder all of this..
But again..you again..at 21 pondering this..oh i just have to say..that is awesome dear…
But back to me again..sitting with the aunt i talk about who was 94..i could not really talk and could only listen..and these are the things she talked about…
So sad..that while i had some time for imagination..and make believe in my early youth..before the internet age..that was all she had for decades in youth..and the light in her eyes at 94 still reflected that wonder of youth…
So i thought to myself..when vision and hearing fades..and fingers go in pain in disability in old age..as was the experience of my Aunt at 94 where would the young folks today..find their happiness at 94…
Well..the blessings of imagination and bliss..were one of history and real life for my Aunt in the early 20th century of life…
First there was air-conditioning..and no longer were front porches used..to tell the stories with each other that only imagination and true human empathy can bring among more than one human being in real life..
Now there is instant gratification..really that’s all there is..
No longer looking forward to the gift..of wonder and delight..of simply tranquility that comes from patience of just being alive..
Well thank GO
D for delicious excruciating pain that took away all of everything from me…
Cause it left one thing behind..that was imagination..without effective use of eyes or ears..that was the most limitless place of reality..
That any human being can live….
So once again i am my aunt..and that light of imagination that lived in her eyes..back when i was 48 and three is mine again at 53….
Anyway you go girl..you are getting your groove back again..and i am so enjoying being connected to your life..in this written way of being….
December 30, 2013 at 5:25 pm
And oh by the way..while i’m not an official part of this Word Press 1 a day or one a week thing..
My goal in December was to do twelve posts after only averaging about 4 or 5 for the last 4 months…
So i am only up to 10 and time is running out so i am gonna cheat a little or break the rules or whatever…and reblog your last two enlightening posts and my responses to get to number 12…
So thanks..you help me once again..in part..to meet my goals in life..:)
So haha..this will be 3 in 24 hours..my friend..;)