a student of life..
an Athletic Girl..
who is lonely
and finds a friend..
a stranger on the phone..
a Computer Scientist
in the making..
the top of the class..
A 23 year-old woman..
married now.. filling the
role that religion and
even a Loving
Caring Husband is not
enough to fill an empty space
within.. but here’s the thing..
humans have never been
cookie cutter things
humans are free
when allowed to
be that way..
when we move
from our gifts
from God we suffer
at the hand of cultures..
religions.. and yes.. even our own
hand that forgets how to be free..
find purpose and meaning..
and create something
new and useful for the
rest of the tribe of human
so i see this
woman sitting in this
Dark Northern European
Foggy place.. much different
than the bright Sun of Pakistan
Land.. an apartment perhaps.. with
this window view.. a walk to the ocean
but still there is something missing..
depression is not truly
and purpose in life..
depression is God’s signal
to us to change for whatever
it is that is our purpose and meaning
in life.. and for you my friend.. apparently
Marriage wasn’t the thing.. as sure it is
enough to fill many women up..
who want children and
to raise a family..
but here’s the other
thing.. throughout history
of humankind.. there has always
been a village of other women and
men to help raise the children along the way..
so here you are.. two nomads.. you and your
husband embarking on this journey alone..
in a new country.. one that is likely
not always welcoming to
in times of now..
so yes.. i have been listening
close to you.. these two years..
and some four months..
and i remember
most of what
in stormy mood swings
of up and down.. but now..
at least from what you bring here..
in the last several months.. the mood is all
down.. and truly i am too far away and do not
know and feel enough about your situation still..
to offer you any real concrete kind of help..
i’m not much of one to recommend
psychiatrists to people
with issues of
but there are some good therapists
that can help with this issue of numbness
that takes away our motivation to move.. connect
and create.. it is good to see you have enough
pain here of the emotional and
physical kind to
create here and
but what i’ve noticed
is.. even in your ups and downs
of the past.. you used to connect to
every single person who comes here.. no
matter what.. so yes.. apparently the
depression has even taken
the pleasure out
of that.. but again..
how little i know of you..
as i vaguely even remember
what you look like in your Facebook
photo.. sitting on that bench.. with
the oversize glasses.. looking
the world.. so while
there might be great stigma
in your cultural past in
help for depression..
it might be
worth a try
if you can find
a good therapist..
as you know i’ve suffered with
this issue when i am a little younger
than you now.. and much later in life
for an entire run of 66 months..
and sometimes honestly
even with the best
and Love from
the only answer is to
survive.. and pray for
a miracle.. in whatever
way works for you..
it worked for me..
66 months was
a long to wait..
but the bottom
line is.. i waited
and the answer eventually
came.. and now at age 55..
i’ve never been stronger..
healthier or happier
than now.. in all ways
of moving.. connecting..
and creating.. in fact if i was
anymore happy.. it might be
uncomfortably happy to the point..
where i might sink again.. balance my
friend.. as in all stuff creation.. balance..
finding it and keeping it is the difficult pArt..
but possible.. and yes.. the greaTest lesson
in my life i’ve learned is no matter how dark it
gets from the pit of hell.. heaven is here waiting..
it’s just a matter
of a personal
work for it..
find it.. and
practice it.. as Lord knows..
now.. we all have to do
this now.. good luck to
you.. i’d really like
to hear back from
you.. but hey.. i..
been to a hell
so deep that
the patience of
Biblical JOB belongs to me..
and that is the greaTesT gift
from God i know.. and FEEL
and perhaps that will be
your destiny as well..
to set you
completely free with
God like me one
is the greaTest
prayer and blessing
i could wish for anyone..
to go to hell.. and stay
in heaven always now
like you are
to hell too..
but yes.. my friend..
the Kingdom of God
in Heaven is here and
just waiting for you to find
it and practice it all your nows now
in moving.. connecting.. creating..
And yes.. i still Love
you Friend.. and no.. i’m
not really feeling any Love
back from you anymore.. but
hey.. REAL Love is giving.. not
taking.. you give it
to me when i first
at least for me..
no matter what
comes in dArk
and Light.. and
ha! no marriage
vows or threats
of death required..
Love is easy
Oh yeah.. one other thing..
the only other gift i have
for now for you..
is this song..
and sure i gave
it to you once before
and you are familiar
with it.. as you stated
then.. and truly in those
66 months as a tear comes
to my eye now.. this woman
Katy Perry with this song..
is then in 2010.. the only faint
brings to me then..
where i am at least
6000 feet underground
and i rise again.. and
she gives me that first
faint spark that brings
my heARt.. spiRit of
of heArt back in a
mind and body
once again.. you
are not a wasted
space my dear
and there is
a Hurricane that
comes with a Rainbow..
and that Lightening bolt
is me.. so yes.. By GOD’s
name Katy Perry is a greATEST
Prophet and Healer greater than
mythical Thoth.. Krishna.. Buddha..
Brighter than the moon and the
star of Jesus and Muhammad..
’cause she found the tool..
yes.. as INSTRUMENT
OF ALLAH NOW TOO..
the healing power..
back from Hell..
and i freely admit
I am the Devil friend..
but no more.. ’cause
Katy Perry and so many
others.. including Mr.
so my mission in Life
is to do the same.. and that
my friend is how the continuous
circle of Angels/Saints
in a circle
same as now..
wHeRe we just
each help each
and that my
friend is GOD TOO..
ALL MERCIFUL.. WHO
WILL NEVER EVER SEND
ANYONE TO HELL FOREVER..
AS we are God’s
And yeah.. more or less this is my next Blog post..
titled “A Girl and A Devil”.. but first a little Public Devil
dancing to fully illustrate more of this.. before this blog post comes..
smiles.. and still the last blog post titled Alien of Creativity..
with faster links comes to Facebook.. that is kinda like a
bridge here.. as well.. as ALL things in life..
Bridges of connectivity.. it’s what’s for
Dinner.. Lunch.. and Breakfast..
The Day of the Dancing Devil..
well.. yeah.. Darth Maul.. it’s the closest thing i have
for a Devil shirt.. representing the dark side.. also in
illustration of this next blog post.. ‘A Girl And A Devil’..:)
And yes.. while i’ve often presented Charlie’s Angels here and Facebook.. from Seville Quarter on Thursday Night.. here are my Super-Walmart.. Angels.. for dance.. including wife Katrina on the right.. and the other two young ladies.. also serve us as at Ryan’s All You Can Eat Buffet on Sunday after Church.. to fuel me up again for the next week of dance.. but yes.. they are just spectators.. and do not really join in on the dance.. at Super Walmart.. i mostly go solo.. and that’s okay.. as i create the moves as i go anyway.. with just the God of Nature and me..;)
And yes.. the young Silver Haired Lady..
comes up and pulls up my sleeve and asks me to flex
one or two for her.. before she takes Katrina and i’s photo.. and no..
i haven’t provided her with my blog posts ‘links’ yet.. as she might not be ready for all of that..;)
i am very pleased in my role to now..
as a Devil of sorts.. more specifically.. Darth Maul.. the Sith as pArt of the Dark side.. to walk in to the Best Buy store.. for all types of electronics.. and find the dArk side there.. greeting me.. just about to break out into joyous dance with arms raised in air..
Yeah.. before this good news.. i laid my iPhone 6S.. ear buds down
for just a few moments in the Dollar General store.. walked away..
and someone swiped the ear buds.. as sure.. they ‘think’
they can get away with it.. as no one is watching.. huh..
well yeah.. think again.. ear buds are cheap..
but souls cost… BIG TIME NOW…
Encouraging ‘this’.. is..
as of course
to get terrorists..
to Dance Naked with ‘Nympths’..
or at least partially clothed.. with shorts and T-shirt like me..
’cause.. seriously.. who needs 72 Virgins.. after life.. AFTER MURDERING SOMEONE.. when you can dance with a zillion beautiful girls now.. if you just learn how to dance.. truly it’s as simple as that.. and i don’t remember the last time.. anyone used a gun in the act of sensual dance with the opposite sex..
And yes.. if they still demand at least one virginal looking group of girls after death as a reward with firm breasts.. there’s always porno too.. NOW TOO.. with a zillion more girls.. that they will not have to hurt to rape either.. as unwilling.. they might be in real life.. as they are just a fantasy.. and you know what they say.. about Imaginary Lovers too..
Let’s face it.. if the APE.. THE BONOBO..
CAN LIVE WITHOUT AGGRESSION.. VIOLENCE..
OR WARS.. UNDER THE ALL NATURAL POWER OF GOD..
using the power of Lust and Love..
PERHAPS.. we need to just burn ALL THE SO CALLED SACRED TEXTS..
AND JUST BE FREE.. ”CAUSE BY GOD.. FROM THE TIME OF THE BIBLE AND THE BLOODY CRUSADES.. TO THE MISPLACED WAR IN IRAQ.. TO THE TERRORIST ACTS NOW.. WHEN PEOPLE TWIST SO-CALLED SACRED WORDS INTO SUPPORT FOR KILLING TOOLS.. AGAINST OTHER INNOCENT HUMANS..
GOD GETS VERY PISSED OFF.. ‘CAUSE HERE’S THE THING..
WANNA BE TERRORISTS.. AND THOSE OTHER FOLKS
WHO CHOP OFF HEADS AND STUFF LIKE THAT..
GOD LIVES WITHIN ALL OF GOD’S CREATION..
AND WHENEVER YOU DO ANYTHING OTHER
THAN GIVE THAT CREATION PLEASURE.. YOU ARE HARMING GOD..
YOUR JOB.. HERE ON EARTH.. IS TO SHOW GOD WITHIN A GOOD TIME.. AND HELP ALL OF THE REST OF CREATION IN BALANCE HAVING THE BEST TIME POSSIBLE WITH GOD WITHIN.. ON THIS TERRESTRIAL PLANE.. to yes.. show God a GOOD NOW…
AND TRUST ME.. YAH.. DON’T WANNA F WITH GOD..
‘CAUSE THE NEXT TIME YOU HARM A HAIR ON
ANY PART OF GOD’S INNOCENT CREATION FOR
SELFISH MISPLACED GREEED..
POWER.. STATUS.. OR
WHATEVER SELFISH REASON..
TO SHOW WHO IS RIGHT OR WRONG..
IN HUMAN MANUFACTURED EVIL WAYS OF RIGHT OR WRONG..
GOD WILL NEVER FORGET THIS.. ‘CAUSE GOD LIVES WITHIN.. AND TRUST ME.. OR NOT.. INFINITY AND ETERNITY LASTS A VERY LONG TIME.. AND I’VE ALREADY FELT GOD’S WRATH.. PLAIN AND CLEAR IN THIS LIFETIME.. AND I AIN’T NEARLY KILLED ANYONE.. TO HAVE TO GO TO REAL HELL IN THIS LIFE.. TO GET MY SLATE CLEAN..
LET’S JUST PUT IT THIS WAY.. ONE DAY NOW OR ONE DAY THEN.. YOU WILL FACE GOD FACE TO FACE WITHIN.. AND YOU WILL HAVE NO ONE TO ANSWER TO BUT YOU AND GOD ALL ALONE EITHER SEPARATE OR TOGETHER ALLONE.. THERE IS NO ESCAPING THE GOD OF NATURE.. FOR ETERNITY AS IS NOW..
SO.. THE NEXT TIME YOU HURT ANY
HAIR ON THE HEADS OF ANY PERSON..
YOU ARE HURTING THE HAIR OF GOD..
AND JUST IMAGINE WHAT IT WOULD BE LIKE
TO BE BORN AS A GRASSHOPPER A THOUSAND
LIFETIMES IN A ROW.. AND GET STEPPED ON EACH TIME..
IF YOU REALLY
CAN DO ANYTHING..
PERHAPS GOD WILL..
THE BEST BET IS TO LOVE EVERYONE
LIKE YOURSELF.. AND DO NO HARM..
AND SHOW GOD A GOOD TIME WITHIN..
SO GOD WILL BE PLEASED.. ‘CAUSE
NO ONE WILL ENJOY..
BELIEVE IT OR NOT… IT’S UP TO YOU.. YOUR FATE..
YOUR DESTINY BETWEEN GOD AND YOU..
I CAN ONLY RELATE THIS EXPERIENCE
FROM EYES OF ME.. BUT NAH.. YA DON’T WANNA F
WITH GOD’S CREATION.. YOU CAN TRUST ME ON THAT.. YA DONT’
WANNA SEE GOD ANGRY.. THAT PLACE IS TRULY HELL NOW.. FOR ANYONE.. WHO WALKS IN THAT DOOR.. OF HARMING AN INNOCENT OTHER PART OF GOD’S CREATION.. THAT LIVES WITHIN.. AND IF YOU DO.. PERHAPS ONE DAY YOU WILL REMEMBER THESE WORDS… LIGHT OR DARK.. THAT’S UP TO YOU..
But anyway.. i had a gift card for Best Buy..
that i never used as there is nothing.. i needed until today..
and it almost covered the cost of the Ear Buds..
Balance Baby.. it’s what life is all about..
and when you throw balance out..
you literally are
throwing GoD out now..
of a place of Heaven now..
Live and learn.. and practice more than preach..
it’s what i did.. AND DO and it F in Works
for this F.. for sure.. too..