TSunami of LOVE



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“Build Thee More Stately Machines”

-Oliver Wendell Holmes


“!GOD StrIVIng to LiVE!”


To find the name within that has no word no letter no thought..
To live the name within that lives eternal without past without
future.. eternally now.. to be or not to be.. a stupid question..
for an animal with life.. to live or not to live.. a sad equation..
for an animal who forgets to live.. to embrace life with all
emotions.. senses integrated in site.. to be now is life
is love is light..:)

A gift for you;
your friend F or
once upon a time
007 visits me..
now 006 visits
you.. now..:)

No sweat.. no fear..
the mysteries
of life are safe
me.. now..;)

Oh to feed the elephant of life.. sweet peanuts of now..
oh to forget the elements of before.. trunk squeals horn..
in alarm of night in darkness before words come..
The elephant is wise.. all being.. all seeing..
all feeling.. sensing life.. the elephant
connects and loves others no
less than trunk
and swishing

Oh words.. feathers of so more.. so deep
within that lives expressing smaller
symbols of light.. in terms of
scratching symbols
of sand one
moonlit night
of stars
in eyes

ultimate truth
of a life

Ah.. giving.. totAlly satisfying
giving can be giving
that lasts forever
in satisfaction
love we take
with us is
we are
but possible
with practice..
uses or lose..
as in all
IS doing NOW..:)

I watch my mother kind hearted published poet.. open to all..
age in heArt.. still a beautiful heArt.. but a mind
less receptive to changes in structure and routine
of life.. sharp still.. as scrabble plays..
but less bending to rivers of now..
i suppose in some way i
write poetry
to avoid
in life..
been tHere
done that place
my mother never
enters in ‘defruiton’
i’ll write a million
or trillion words
and read ten times
more.. not to go back
to death in life.. it seems
to work..N..dance songs..
for now.. she quits writings
after five years or so in the
prime of her fifties of creation
then.. my goal is to be like
you and carry another decade
or so.. at least.. further.. if so..
keeping my universe
the best
medicine for me..
is giving.. growing
in heart of poetry..
dance and song..
i suppose that
is wHere the
are who flow
as a feather
as air just

I get it now..

My brain was a monster

and i finally harness

it with

poetry.. dance
and song..

Godzilla brain..
no longer
fire now..
that with

Ha! truly in my formative years my mother
and father never give me much advice at all..
single hard working mother.. and divorced
law enforcement father.. demands of life..
living miles apart..
a search alone
is hard..
but still
worth the effort
for me.. the
future was
free and i continue
to guide it now..:)

Sitting behind a fence.. other than making straight
A’s.. hitting a ball with racquet..
tennis is me… taking a rest
looking farther than fence..
having no frigging
idea what will come
next.. ah.. i already
have the answer to
life then.. just
live now..
tomorrow does
not exist.. and
i rarely go back
to that

The weakest links among us demand the most attention
to ensure that we as whole continue to link together..
Even one link of chain discarded disrupts
the flow of life from grain of sand
to highest
pyramid of
life and

No.. a treasure.. an oasis of freedom in
a sea of crashing waves that
know no freedom..
NO.. i love the
yes.. of no..
and YES
kills me..:)

Oh my GOD! peanut butter and jam sandwiches every dam day during college
for what seems like an eternity driving my twenty-something year old
maverick in commuting from living home everyday poor as frigging dirt..
ugh.. i cannot even look at a peanut butter sandwich without
getting old.. oh wait i’m old.. but dam not as old as i feel
then.. some 33 years ago in 1982.. those are really
old peanut butter sandwiches.. but after reading
this the steak and ice cream will
taste better
tomorrow.. smiles
thanks for the Steak and ice-cream
inspiration.. in peanut butter
and jam coloring..:)

And yes I see your Jaw Maw
Saw Paw in
reverse.. for what
that’s worth.. and
i’ll publish this
later on.. just
for giggles
and peanut
butter stuff..:)

Ah.. yes human reflects pockets of stars in elements
of blood.. stars look down with human eyes..
finally seeing the bright beauty of life giving
rays.. we are the stars with eyes.. finally
seeing life.. truly a sliver of heaven
in the greatest reality
of all

Love.. writing.. air.. blood stOnes.. swiRling gOlden
elecTrons of human nuclEus in flesh and hair..
a grain of sand.. a rock of life.. a connection
to stars above.. exist.. in brush.. of life
and light.. in loving nature one..
as us..:)

I suppose Unconditional Passionate Tough Love is the one for me..
tolerating and accepting differences.. including ways of writing
poetry.. i might add.. in a kind and encouraging way..
been tHere to that other place of narrow
poetry judging view of me too..
similar as ‘others’..
i can never judge the
value of another human
soul expressing spirit as heArt..
that range from the brightest star
to the darkest black hole Sun of light..
i love people who do not ever respect me..
i love people i cannot trust in any loving
way to be what they are.. but no.. i do not
respect hate in any shape or form that
refuses to see the diversity
among human being..
in words.. of
dancing or
grace truly
lives in love..:)

Oh.. i almost forgot to tell you..
i enjoyed your POEM.. very

Yes.. for me faith guiding the way
as emotion over words is a way
to be now…
to enter into what will be
for now..
with words as starting
point for now..
as well..

Love.. a multi-petaled flower reaching
up to higher levels.. in hues of color..
sometimes even shades
of black and white
and blue and red
for purple

In my view when we experience life the most..
we share that experience the most with GOD..
and mileage varies of course in all the
diversity of human being.. for some
fasting.. for others service..
and still for others
just surviving
is gift
for GOD..:)

Ah.. the philosophy of human connection
with other humans and the rest of nature
needs no words.. as yes words
do often get in the way
as idols.. instead
of essence..
and essence
as best for me..
in a non-verbal
of life..
flows for me

True the core of human being is emotions and senses first with words a
scribe of that reality in metaphor way.. as well as concrete labels
to assign meaning to the environment… and then there is
creation activity set free.. when words flow as
emotions and senses cooperating
from a now
before in now..:)

Loving children.. tenderly with nurturing Love
grows a garden of Love deep and
rich with flowers of trust..
the closer they
are to mother’s
arms.. the closer

A testament to strength and value of your heart..
spirit.. and soul.. is the regret.. the anguish..
the depression.. and the value you place on all human existence..
as well as your courage to talk to this.. in both secular and
Christian life.. in public.. for all the world to hear..:)

And another lesson in this.. not often spoken with courage
in ‘Christian’ public.. is that in SOME of ‘our’ ‘Christian’
Churches.. when ‘we’ stand up and suggest that people
who are natural GOD created homosexuals
do not have a HOLY right to enter
into the sacred sacrament of marriage..
‘we’ too are aborting human life in heart.. spirit and soul..

And truly many cases of abortions are an indirect or DIRECT
result of people in marriages having children.. who are not
innately cut out to do THAT by the GOD of Nature..
and would never naturally do it.. if not forced
by the heavy handed rule of patriarchal controlling..
subjugating religions.. cultures and churches through fear..
for power.. reproductive control.. and materialistic gains..
AND FEELING the ALL natural rules of GOD..

And to be clear i have no idea what your stances
OR FEELINGS are on these specific ADDITIONAL issues..
but the TRUTH will set all of US free to have greater
potential at a happy.. thriving existence.. in well being
with GOD.. as social cooperating human animals hand-in-hand..
no less than Bonobos who in nature.. overall.. Love GREATER
in the TRUTH AND LIGHT of what ‘Christ’ really is..
THAN human beings.. overall.. sadly enough in THAT Truth and Light..:)

Anyway.. thank you for your inspiring words OF FEELING..
as Truth in Light creates greater and greater
LiGHT in life for HUMAN BEING..:)

Ah.. the shell of a Nautilus spiRited in message of earth for millions of
years.. in fossilized Truth of the Art of GOD as Nature.. swirling
about like galaxies above.. sunflowers below..
still alive in etch a heArt soUl

Oh.. the systemizing mind creates with art hand-in-machine..
so now there are Blogs as Nautilus shells serving
up unique Light of human soUls as spiRit..
as sure as most words spoken and
more.. as human heart survives
like Nautilus heart
as spirit
in markings
of human
on earth
NOW as long as Nautilus
Shell Servers serve that up..:)

IT already HAS.. Smiles..
Love never dies…
as long as

Ah.. yes.. hopeless wanderer am i.. as hope is in the
wandering and wondering of the dance walk
of life..
NOT the sitting

There is no Y in Hope
for NO

But.. oh!
we can be

Ah.. PoeTry.. anOther GREAT! MANorWOmanIFestaTion!
of huwOman spIRit! aLive! expressInG!
throuGh hUwoman heARt of SoUl.. Oh.. do!
go oN..!
aNd wriTe!
thE fiGht!
to survIve!
in worLd!
LiVing NoW..!

Oh.. No.. Alone.. the greaTest illusion of all in human being..
ah.. to connect to the last dying gasp of breath
to a drop of air.. a pollen of flower if
only a sneeze.. is cosmic
oneness of delight
NOT sadly
in Truth for
some.. but
as long
breathe goes ON..
there is Now
and another
for potential

Ah yes! don’t wait EMBRACE! IT ALL..!
an infinity now is here..
in imagination of
ART in human
mind and body
in balance
of creation

Oh God.. i think
that sounds
like A TV

Dreams.. yes.. dreams true
Magic of human
Being delight
and mares
in human
Light and Darkness
of all Imaginings
in fuller
Expanse of
Who and
What we are
as Creative Light Beings..
Dreams Sing Inner Being
Escaping into Light of Greater
Song of

The greaTest thing I can do in life is be
an active friend.. whether or
not there are any
receiving friends
is up to them..
in Unconditional
yes.. Tough and
Passionate Love
for me..
at least..
at least
is best
for me..
and I will always
receive my friendship
from God who lives in me
ALLONE and Never alone..
my Chalice of Love has NO limit
with GOD aSoNE a child of NOW..:)

Ah.. yes..! to find sacred meaning and purpose in
life.. a continual journey for those of us
who continue to see the holy
in all that exists from
a strand of gray
to a grain of sand
to the eyes of children
to the seas of old and new
to the last grasp
for breath
aLive in
skEyes of

My wife is Mut
in pyramidic
hut.. or can
she be
with a yellow
sphinx as hEr
lap cat sat..;)

Hand connection.. leaves of forest drop
Love in fertile souls of sand..
a crippled knee..
a mind unease..
do we feel
the connection
as the
dirt of
connects our
heart in giving
leaves of spirit
soil of soul

EXPANSE of now.. LOVELY place with
no BOUNDS of time or distance
or space.. an ETERNITY we are
when we let all those
illusions go to
be alive to
now is
a place
i’ll stay too..
certainly now..:)

Oh God.. this is right up my alley.. can’t miss this one for all the money in the world.. welcome back Brian.. and i too can relate to being the nice guy as floormat.. in the work world of government service.. the go to guy.. that does it all.. and has no idea how to get angry.. or say no..

This can kill any Angel or Super Hero and change them into a Devil or Demon or worse.. as may be the case…

Anyway i survive and plan a rather light hearted.. yet heavy dose of reality for my input of philosophy today.. with fairly limited words and just one iPhone photo.. smiles..:)

Be back with that shortly.. with “My Philosophy of the Kiss of KALI”… after all..
it will be somewhat unique..;)

smiles.. bigger smiles.. and perhaps some frowns here or there before
all is
and done..
but that is the price of freedom as you know my friend..
a mix of
and light..:)

A real life lesson i learn all to well
in the greatest darkness
and light of life..:)

And a very busy day for me..
i will be reading on all
and commenting on all..
but that part may not
happen until tomorrow..:)

but like i said.. i will
make time
for this.. particularly
as i do miss

Oh.. X.. there is something so familiar about you.. it feels like i’ve known you for two years.. instead of a few weeks.. you always seem to visit me first.. and i do appreciate all the thoughtful comments you bring here.. AND YES X..

Rigidity of belief and conservative views as opposed to open mindedness and liberal views is actually a TED TALK thingy.. as illustrated nicely in the video below.. when you get back to view the videos in a bit.. very interesting.. and explains

about 50 percent of the population
and the other half..
and 20 percent
or so..
of ultra
folks who tend not
to be to friendly to change..
and associated of course with
introversion and extraversion and
poets are often introverts.. where
us extraverted poets can kinda
be the minority and make
the introverted poets
a little uncomfortable
here and there but
as you have
stated before
it’s a great
big world
and we all have
to accommodate each other’s
differences and that is why
i still go to the Southern
Baptists Gospel singings
even IF.. they talk
down to homosexuals
and OR anyone who
exists a little
tiny weenie
bit out
side there
or B
may be the
case where
X meets
as always
nice to
see you
X again!!..:)
friendly GREGARIOUS extraverted
people online
are so
Each human being is
a unique experiment
and I love them
wherever and whomever
they are off
and online too!..;)

Ha! most every poet is a prophet.. as truly the original definition of that term is not one who foretells the future; but just one who is sensitive to the ills of the world and wants to make life a little easier for someone.. anyone.. even a thirsty plant that needs a Lazarus drop of water..:)

For this world to be healed we must all become prophets.. I think that is
partiAlly possible..

and truly the folks who have responded here so far..

give me




Angel Fool/Clown OR Demon Fool/Clown
archetype of human being; YES; NO;

Not all Fools or apes agree with that;
sadly enough but hey..
I am blessed NOT to
walk in ‘tHeir’ shoes;
so i will not lose HOPE
to help them
on thEir
Rave dance approaches..
but will be by to visit.. read
and comment on ALLTHEtEAM’S
POEMS at least by tomorrow morning..:)

Yes, Sumana, and sadly in western cultures there is a dualistic approach to reality that says do not embrace the reality of the darkness of life; where truly fear is the parent of hate associated human experience. To embody the fear; to embrace the fear; to conquer the fear of death and destruction as fear itself is to live free with the understanding AND FEELING that ALLTHATIS IS required for reality as IS.

Sadly, the accommodation to what truly is the gift of GOD is a fantasy of golden clear floors for many folks who truly never find the gold of TRUTH and LIGHT in LIFE that allows one to embrace death as a true blessing as DARK in TRUTH of LIFE as LIGHT; But modern civilization sanitizes death; human suffering and misery; where death is no longer seen as the blessing it once is as a grace of escaping human suffering and misery; and perhaps the greatest gift is when the mythological KALI comes to pay a visit with human while alive.

And in this way ‘ShE’ visits me three times in life to test me; once at age 21; once at age 47; and once at age 47, 40 days later; after only one hour of sleep each night for 35 nights and none for the last 5 of 40, with the worst pain known to mankind, type two trigeminal neuralgia during all waking hours; assessed by medical literature as worse than literal human crucifixion; i meet that challenge with Kali and learn to love ‘HeR’ with all my heart; as now I embrace death, as the greatest gift, as well as destruction of potential human suffering and misery.

“SHE” gives me enough strength and courage in perseverance of ‘serpent-like’ human will to survive that pain for an additional 5 years, totaling around 66 months of human hell of death in life.

I have good reason And FEELING, AS WELL AS LACK OF FEELING, to Love the human archetype of KALI. with all my fearless heart NOW; in ways of illusory fears that keep one from truly living in light, embracing all of dark as well, with multiple arms of

Smiles, and thanks for helping me to provide an opinion on the darkest and best
elements of KALI; ignored almost totally by modern pop-culture as simply an
exotic pleasure rather than the test of infinity in death in life now; as
the bringer of the greaTEST HUMAN LIGHT OF ALL THAT


Ah.. thanks Sanaa Rizvi..

truly passiOn inspires my life..
and it flows from my fingers
as free as free can be..
as far as I feel and know now..

The execution for me is in the flow..

a place i love to let it ALL GO..


with the Sound of
Music and the Lyrics
of realiTy as IS NOw..:)

Oh yes.. we are all Anthropologists wittingly or not.. and the patterns of nature extend out in to pop-culture evidenced as such for those who see the patterns.. not much different really than the consistency of the Golden Mean of PHI all through nature.. the human mind is part of PHI as well.. and even emotions and senses when integrated for art.. communication in general to even dance.. song.. and poetry..
truly separation in eyes of lonely humans
is the greatest illusion of
what truly
ALLONE force of nature

Smiles and thanks for the visit..:)

Ha! yeah.. the night after rave dance that creative state of mind
is burning on all cylinders.. it’s a recipe for
human creativity like
a real Tsunami
of words in my case..
but it starts out as just a
rather small wave
then continues to
grow like a Tidal wave
of me..
anyway thanks for wading
through all haha! and still
having the fortitude
to provide such
a nice compliment
at the current
end of
Tsunami of
creativity for now;
and i must escape
this computer
now back
to the creativity
of dance and martial
arts.. and exXtreme
strength training
at my favorite
military gym..
to keep
it all balanced
and moving
as smooth
as a finely
tuned Ferrari
Fred.. head in
mind and body
balance heHE..!..;)

Ha!.. interestingly, this particular ‘mother post ‘up there with all ‘HeR’ children continuing to grow in the comments section; thriving as such; heHE; is born in the wee hours of Thursday morning well before I read Brian’s prompt in just another run of the mill stream of consciousness comment to a friend’s run of the mill blog post; and then I go to another website for folks with Autism and share that out-of-the-box comment there and do not exactly get any rounds of applause as it is not an area conducive to out-of-the-box, period, as rigidity of black and white thinking rules this Wrong Planet website; so I make it clear there that I like all the folks to bring the message in a little softer; then what I thought would be the cycle of open link night; and my post before this that I was gonna use for that; changes quickly in decision based on Brian’s prompt; and synchronistically as what seems to always happen with dVerse; my already designed poetic expression almost fully meets the prompt with a little tidying up here and there; as I did for the requirement of the title; but as usual, I over fulfill the requirements of the prompt in the comments section as I strive for excellence in practice for this poetic expression art; i give everything in life my all and I make heaven now by sheer will power, human heart, and soul expressed as spirit; and poetry, dance, and song; are among my favorite ways to do that; along with a dance of martial arts with my ballet like dance.

Life is Good.

And yes, I literally like you; in fact, I Love all the dVerse folks who pour out their heart in spirit of words as whole souls of human being every prompt that dVerse takes me, in freedom of expressing spirit in poetic heArt of Soul..:)

Oh I love the places words, imagination, and creativity take me; each morning I wake is like exploring an entirely different Universe of Meaning; it is the real Star Trek for me in going where I have NOT gone before; haha! and yes there are quite a few rough waves over at the Wrong Planet Website; but I manage to persevere and stay afloat as I balance the reasoning minds there with the artful minds here; an interesting duality of universes of thought and interestingly many similarities as well; as yes, patterns of human nature are all spread out;  everywhere one goes in life; as it ‘should be’ i guess..:)

Thanks so much Hank for those kind words

of encouragement.. life is a journey

i take with great pleasure..

a little adversity here and there..

is just the

spice of life for me now..

thank GOD.. and Haha!..;)

Hope your now is going great..

and will be by your place shortly

as a new now

arises for me..:)

I like you. In fact,

I like everyone on this Internet site.


“Thank you…
But on second thoughts,

that kind of devalues the word

“like” if you like everyone…:P

BTW, What are you on?
Can I have some?”

Here’s the thing friend.

You know that stuff that the so-called Jesus, Buddha, Lao Tzu, and all the really
great poets and philosophers are talking about when they talk about a bliss on earth.

Well, it’s a real deal. Problem though for Modern Christians overall, and even secular folks, Atheist
or not; is they think it is some kind of pie in the sky ideal, or a thought of after life, or just
a quick recitation fix of John 3:16 or something of that nature in literal rigid meaning.

Well, the real deal, is it is an all real natural phenomenon that our distant ancestors have no choice
to do to conserve energy for survival. It’s mind and body balance friend; and truly sitting still
and meditating in achieving it in a state of nothingness is overall bullcr8p, more or less.

Our ancestors moved, moved, moved, all day long foraging for food, food, food, and counted
on each other in matriarchal leaning AKA egalitarian cooperative ways; To survive
means then, to be invisible in mind and body balance floating on terrestrial
land like a REAL NINJA; as to make a noise means capture by predators or
no capturing of prey; in stealthy ways of cat-like hunting.

There isn’t much of this modern materialistic jealousy crap;
’cause the village is required in
total effort in social cooperation
for survival.

So what this means is the more Jack and Jill do the wild thing and cooperate; no matter
who or what they do it with, spells life for the village; and yes, Bonobos still
do it all like this; as they know how to REALLY STICK TOGETHER TO

OH, WELL, first comes agriculture and a sitting still way of life; AND abstract written
language, with a prehensile thumb and sticks sketching imaginary angles
in connections OF stars and spirals in nature, in sand, to make Sanskrit
the written reality; and then of course collective intelligence
that helps with the agriculture thingy; and soon humans
make tools that become an extension of their human
being; ranging from shelter to weapons to
transportation enhancements to
get from point A to point B;
then we have the Industrial
Revolution where humans become more
distanced from moving feet ways of life all day
long to now the Information age where folks sit still
static with their eyes glued on a screen hours upon hours
each day stagnating in mind and body imbalance. Well you
see or not; the human emotions are regulated ALL though-out the
human body from vagal nerve in throat down to gut to oxytocin
receptors to connect to the dirt of life on the bottom of one’s
feet; and back in them olden days the child is attached
to the mommy in close touch comfort for survival;
kinda like a kangaroo baby in a pouch;
now the children get carted off
to places and spend nappy
time in solitary cribs or on cots;
and oh boy; next thing ya know, ya got
canaries in the coal mine AKA yes, higher
functioning Autistic folks, ringing the alarm
bell of human being that this cultural experiment
in constant process and change now is quite frankly;
and I am not intended this as derogatory; but literally
a source of human misery, suffering; AND overall NOT well-being;
with Chronic social and nature stress of disconnection in SEPARATION.

AND NO, THIS IS NOT JUST AN AUTISTIC THINGY; like I said, Autistic folks
diagnosed as such with reciprocal social communication difficulties are mostly
out of balance in mind and body balance, as physical intelligence and moving
is what regulates emotions, integrates senses, and greater enhances cognitive
executive functioning; which is more or less the driver of relative human free will
through much greater focus and short term working memory to orchestrate the
emotions and senses in concert to make a human being run smooth as a FERRAI
additionally, when one is comfortable in their own skin; there is little to no
anxiety and no demanding reason to do repetitive stuff in restricted
area interests to escape the emotion of anxiety and fear of
being almost totally lost in mind and body balance; well
friend it takes me 53 years to cure my Autism; millions
of words of research, decades of real life Rough and
Tough Trial and Error Experience; but haha!
I did it; I cured my reciprocal social
communication difficulties
and retarded ways
of robotic
movement; and now I am
recently named as a literal ICON of
dance in my entire metro area of Pensacola, FL;
in fact, you can call almost any place in public and
just ask ’em if they know about the big guy who dances
everywhere he goes with Kool FBI looking shades; and they
will tell you; “Hey! that is the dancing guy; OH GOD he is Super Kool”;
or if it is a Fundie Christian; they might tell you; “he is evil and the spawn
of the the devil as no one can dance like that unless they are frigging possessed!”

Yes, friend; like I tell all the folks in real life who are simply amazed when I dance
like a ballerina martial arts dude on meth, molly, cocaine, LSD or whatever they
imagine I am on for hours; I just tell ’em; if I can bottle my BLISS and positive
energy in a pill; I will be a Trillionaire; and will be able to make
World Peace a Reality and Feed the poor ALL over the world;
well here’s the Real Deal; if tHere are more people like ME in
the world; it will be no problem; ’cause when you experience
life like I do, friend; one totally understands that loving oneself
and the rest of the Universe; down to a grain of sand or an
atom or less; is all the same; just imagine what that feels like.

Yes, Imagine a place where there is no wish for heaven
as heaven is real all the time now; materialistic goods
mean nothing; the connection to other humans
and the rest of nature is all that counts;
and there you go; that’s the solution
for World Peace and feeding all
the hungry from shore to shore;
just consider me A Tsunami
that is gonna help make
that happen friend;
there is no nappy
bin that is
too dirty
the real
LIKE Me; Hell this is just the best place
for folks to disagree with someone in Heaven;
if I can convince the canaries in the coal mine
it is the real deal; there is hope for the rest of
the coal mine

Anyway, I am doing this to help folks,
whether they want it or not;
but when one truly
writes it; what is
written most

and yes; jealousy
reigns here now;
sharing that is
no longer allowed
here; but it’s documented
all over my blogs; until
I am totally censored here for trying
to help folks; with all my literal and metaphor might;
but as in times of old; I simply dust my ‘sandals’
off and go to
the next Town;
or Dance HALL!
heHE! with an all powerful
Spirit of Unconditional

I truly hope you can
drink of that WELL friend;
soon; I intuit that possibility
for you; and that is why I am
making this effort here; whether you
or anyone else appreciates that; the

I for one; am just a grain of sand; or
wave(S); with a message of sorts..:)

with an

close to two-thirds of folks
on a site for Autism look
to the reasoning systemizing science/
mind instead of spiritual emotional
mind/heart for their beliefs about life.

Should that be a surprise for a syndrome
where systemizing mind rules over empathic
mind; per the science of Simon Baron Cohen, et al;

No it should not.

All Spirit is; is human empathy for
other humans and the rest of Nature
AKA GOD, particularly expressing IT;
and no;
many so-called religious
folks experience little of this, as well;
particularly, little boys in macho red
state patriarchal states and localities
where expressing Emotion AKA Spirit;
is for sissies instead of so-called Jesus.

Oh the hypocrisies of knowledge and
human heArt, as ART AND science never
cease to amaze me; but hey I understand
the whole thing; and not half of the thing;
with smiles, of course; as WELL..:)

Even with the aid of so-called science;
it’s hard enough for even scientists to
understand human emotions AKA
human spirit; but nah; considering
that the systemizing mind itself
represses the empathic mind;

no wonder.

The Emotional Intelligence of human
beings overall is dwindling to deficit;
and even studies show this; where
college age adults have 30 percent
or so lower levels of empathy AKA
Human spirit expressed for others;
as compared to several decades ago.

Blame more focus on mechanical cognition
activities; i.e. screen ‘addictions’ on that;
it’s like 1 plus 0 equals 2; No it does not;
Use it or lose it applies as in all stuff
fuller in greater potential of human being.

The human heArt is just as much of a metaphorical
muscle as my legs that now press half a ton 25 times;
I exercise my human heArt just as strongly; and
so-called ‘normal humans’ tell me I have a best
personality; quotes and links for proof available
upon request; or just check out my latest blog
post if one likes..;)

And I communicate precisely like this;
that’s not surprising
at least
not for me..:)

I can predict who believes
in God or who does not
believe in God here by
empirical measures
of emotion in
metaphor of
human language.
Duh; considering
emotion expressed
as empathy in spirit
is what GOD is;
Duh; no surprise
for me; but Human
Being is my all
encompassing special
interest as a REAL LIFE

And to be clear fundamentalist
Christians use a systemizing
mind in conservative close-
minded ways, as well;
they looks at the bible
as science rather
than multi-meaning
metaphor of poetry;
people are alike
all over;
The Twilight
Zone is correct;
Truly the personality
for a fundamentalist Christian
and militant Atheist is almost
identical; main difference one
uses a bible for science and the
other uses science for science;
but in either case the systemizing
mind is ruling over the human
heart or spirit; clearly why
these folks can pass
by a homeless
person and
complain about
’em not pulling their bootstraps up;
even if they have severe mental illness;
heARt is a muscle and or gift; that not all share;
even science explains this fairly well now; food for heart..:)

But at any rate; have a good night; it is getting kinda stuffy in here;
and it’s time for me to out in the crisp warm gulf air of night
near the beach in one of the top 100 dance clubs in
the U.S.; to help lead the dance there among
100’s of college-age folks;
But I’m fresh out of Togas
to wear
in the Twilight
Zone of TRUTH
AND moonLIGHT..:)

Oh, CR8P; a new black
moon last night;
means I’ll be the
one who must
provide the
tonight; seriously;
light heartedness
is the cure for
all human
stress related
illnesses; and a great
exercise for a MORE powerful HEART
expressed as human spirit of SOUL;
I got this down as a science baby;
isn’t that ironic
or NOT..:)

Well, seriously; I don’t need any books.

In fact, I ‘talk’ directly to GOD when I am three
looking across a river; before I can speak;
as no; I don’t have the ‘normal’ Asperger’s;
I have the Gillberg Criteria Asperger’s that
can include a language delay until age 4
like me. And interestingly, the Gillberg
criteria better reflects the case-studies
of Hans Aspergers, back last century.

And just for a quick reference
offering up someone’s virgin
daughters as rape victims
instead of having someone
‘soil’ a man human is
evidence enough that the
Old Testament is a dirty book.

The New Testament is Okay;
and if you wanna take it
as the truth; heaven is now;
and there should be no
marriage now; if Jesus
has his way, then;
that’s okay with me;
I am naturally monogamous
with my wife; and can handle
that without having any license;
smiles; There are no special humans
anointed by GOD as any greater than
any other human; Jesus reflects himself
as a humble servant and clearly states others
will come after him who will do much greater stuff;
and if He wasn’t sure if GOD has forsaken him on the
cross; it dam sure cannot be possible for Constantine
and his Catholic Cohorts to elevate him to the soldier GOD
of the Universe; the Universe is a plot of Land back then;
now we have stuff like ‘multi-verses’; and Jesus if he comes
back now, will be steaming mad that someone elevates him
to a position that is well beyond any human’s pay grade;
or perhaps he will just laugh at humans for literally
being so ignorant; considering HOW MUCH further
we come now to view more of what reality is and is
not; problem with taking a book of poetry
as science, like the bible; is it is fallible
and created by poets who are in
a creative state of mind; where
truly anything goes; and some
stuff makes sense and some stuff
is literally cr8p; like the raping virgin
daughters stuff in the OLD testament;
but like Thomas Jefferson; if one separates
the gold from the garbage, the New Testament
is as worthy a document for wisdom, as the TAO
and other books of old that speak the same
Universal Truths; and seriously, when I am
three and GOD ‘speaks’ to me; GOD just tells
me GOD is here forever and forever is
now; then and now; and for all practical
purposes; i am here forever now; as well;
and as far as I know, other folks are too;
if they can get past the illusion of the
books are not required for GOD to
exist; the most basic common sense
of any human should be to understand
that GOD exists on the ‘beach’, with or
without humans; there is no evil on the
beach, only merit for survival; and the
rest of nature; all the other stuff is
just BS created by human imagination
and creativity; capable of great dreams
as well as great nightmares; evil is a human
creation; GOD is real all the time; in pain
and pleasure; GOD is reflected in us; and whenever
we hurt someone else or hurt ourselves or do not live
life to its fullest as gifted by GOD innately instinctually
and intuitively as the TRUTH WITHIN; then GOD gets
PISSED OFF AT US; MORE OR LESS, as metaphor; and
we pay the piper the piper’s dues; and that piper is
GOD too; I’ve been to hell already friend; and I live
in heaven now; the place that the man Jesus promises
is real; and for those who get through that needle;
they live in paradise always now; same as my cat
when he rolls in the sand of the midday sun;
or hugs the grass on a warm moonlit night;
Just living life as
‘GOOD’; smiles;
it’s too bad humans
develop written language;
non-verbal language does not lie;
but my form of Autism has no problem
with human empathy or non-verbal language;
just problems with verbal language that truly
gives me that direct conduit with GOD from
the age of three; that for most folks with
verbal language is drowned out by
the illusions of culture, as is;
GOD speaks to me loud and
clear, as I have no more
lies of culture or religion
to drown GOD

I could be wrong; but I have
100% trust in GOD; so
I seriously doubt that;
however, like Jesus; I
am not so big that I cannot
accept that someone else may
have a new truth that I may not be
aware of; some of my greatest lessons
in life are from folks with IQ’s around
70 or so; and some of the darkest
issues of life are with folks with
astounding IQ’s who relatively
speaking are impoverished
in human heart, spirit
and soul; but that
is the price of
book learning;
separation from
empathy and GOD;
as even science now
partiAlly shows is correct;
per the empathy thing; but
it’s all connected; there is no
separation but in the minds of
humans as illusion; or in some cases
apparently for innate reasons; but no
one proves GOD is fair in just one life;
and before anyone thinks they can escape
GOD and just cavalierly treat folks like dirt
all their life; just imagine being born a cricket
and being stepped on a million times in a million
new lives in infinity as present; anything is possible
with GOD; and i know Karma is real; at least in one
lifetime as we reap what we sow; beyond that
I’m not taking any chances of being that
cricket; as I don’t mess with GOD;
I respect all of creation, including
me and nature with the
same unconditional tough
passionate love as with
a grain of sand;
me, my wife;
and literally
hundreds of female
dancing friends; i will
hang out with prostitutes
too; but hey; my wife draws
the line somewhere and hundreds
of female dance friends is reasonable
freedom and relative free will to allow
GOD who lives within me; to experience
this divine life
with me;
I take GOD to places
that GOD may have never
been before; and that is what
Jesus is speaking about when he says
folks will do stuff greater than
he; for the Love of GOD to
show GOD what GOD creates
is ‘Good’ and
for amazing
and with that
said here is another song;
but what one must understand
is it’s not about a man; it’s a woman
showing God A good time; through
her eyes of GOD; and that
my friend
IS; and yes
i appreciate the reasoned
and civil human conversation
as well; that’s always a breath
of fresh air here to talk to
someone who can feel
and express feelings
for other folks
in reciprocal
social communication;
I think I’m the only person
here who has randomly just
told a person they are liked;
at least in this forum;
and truly a human
issue here exists
that needs
some kind
of remediation;
and overall; that is
an online thing;
as online allows
the devil to
come out in
those who truly
have this metaphor
human archetype
of life in cold
hearts, souls,
and little to
no expressed
human spirit
in connection
with other
human beings
and or the rest of nature

that lives within me that good time;
in just the last 22 months; oh,
passionately loving GOD
in tough unconditional


“It totally slipped my mind to ask this. Can I base my beliefs on bass?”

Of course.

First there is dark;
then light;
then movement
or dance; then
sound or
music and
then song
with lyrics
of human
verbal poetry eventually;
with sound inspiring
the cycle of movement
in infinity forevernow;
in bass as well as treble;
along with the infinite
emotions in sound
and music of song
with poetry of lyrics
as well
human movement
that is inspired
by sound OR
MUSIC that
is equal to
and that movement
unto itself; as whole
that is GOD and human
as reflections of both
in infinity now;
with all other
and inanimate

And no; you are not the first BASS leaning person who doesn’t
wanna go to any TREBLE OF BELIEVING in higher sounding
stuff; in reference to “Fnord’s” comment and not yours;

But yeah; BASS can be
very deep


“I appreciate your consideration…

I like who I am, where I am and where I am going…
Keep on dancing, bro…;)

Imagine” is one of the bestest songs out there…
However, Lennon struggled with it’s message and his personal lifestyle,
so I have heard…
Puts a little wrinkle in the overall effect, wouldn’t you say?”

Thanks and smiles; I just offer words and not DIRECTion..:)

But in regard to John Lennon and the reported Jesus;

Of course not; just like Jesus; he is inspired by GOD; and then
doubts his faith like Jesus is reported to do on the cross;

the story stays the same;
and so do Universal Truths.

words as metaphors change;
but the essence remains.

Learn to look deeper
than words as tool;

And to be clear;
words here,
are a metaphor
for the systemizing
mind as opposed
to a soUl expressing
spiRit in heArt of human
ONE with ALL Natural Force of GOD..:)

Yes, you are correct; I’m not about the malice thingy;
and truly my concept of heart, spirit and soul is all natural.

I consider the heart as the feeling of empathy/emotions and senses.
I consider the spirit the expression of human empathy/emotions and senses.
And I consider the soul as a mind and body balanced human, fully feeling
and expressing empathy/emotions and senses.

And truly there are not terms like cognitive and affective empathy
in the days of the bible; so they do the best they can to develop
metaphors for the human experience in balance, connection, and happiness.

Material items are tools for survival; and truly it is possible
to make those tools, including words, reality, instead of the
essence of human connection to each other and the rest of nature
as All That IS, as metaphor for the all natural GOD as Nature.

When I suggest someone does not have a soul, heart, or spirit expressed,
it is not a moral judgement; in fact, it is an empirical assessment
in their ability to feel empathy/emotions and senses, in balance;
as well as expressing empathy/emotions and senses in balance.

There is no woo to this;
it is human nature as gifted by Mother Nature
as another synonym for ALL THAT IS as GOD.

Problem with human disagreement between militant Atheists and
fundamentalist Christians, alike, are semantic differences in
the language of Science/Nature vs. the language of Religion/Culture;
but the real essence of balance or strife is in all natural imbalance,
in regulating emotions and integrating senses
for a human soul in mind and body balance.

You are able to communicate on this site and stay
light-hearted enough to express your feelings and
not attack others in peace; that makes you as holy
as my Catholic priest. The words are just idols
to me; it is the human feelings and senses
that are felt and expressed in balance that is a soul to me.

It’s so dam simple; but culture and religion, along with
the ever present nature of the human instinct for tribalism
is what makes the world such a hateful place to live in
with someone’s special quarterback of their team as
Jesus or Muhammad or Richard Dawkins or Stephen Hawking
if one happens to be ‘Sheldon Cooper’, for pop-culture metaphor.

IN general, the reason humans cannot get along is they cannot
come to a tribal agreement on the meanings of words as
that applies to the human experience. AS an outcast in
youth, I develop my own natural beliefs by looking within
and at nature; as above so below, inside, outside of
me and all around me.

My life is balanced and
simple; but sadly enough the simple can become convoluted to the
extreme when it is as simple as reciprocal communication received
and delivered as empathy/feelings and senses with
and for humans and the rest of nature in balance.

It’s taken me years to put what is so easy to feel
and give into words; but my form of Autism is not
an issue with non-verbal language; as discussed
earlier on another thread here; it is an issue
in the areas of output
in both writing
and verbal language.

So now, I have both parts of the human pie;
and am simply enjoying life and attempting to
provide a bridge of understanding as the bridge
of my mind, body, emotions, and sensed are balanced
in heart, spirit and soul..:)

Understanding is valuable.
Not easy in a world of diversity;
but well worth the price of providing understanding
in as many ways as possible, as each human being has
a unique language of a Universe unto themselves
in feeling emotions and senses and expressing
emotions and senses in mind and body balance.

Anyway, peace to you too;
everything I speak here is about Universal Human
Nature and Mother Nature; the metaphors change;
but the Universal Truth stays the same for
the majority of human beings; but yes,
as in all spectrums of life;
mileage varies for
the outliers of life..:)


“getting frustrated with stupid lines of thinking
is part of who you are, or because you’re a contrary person.
That’s just how your neurons are arranged.”


AND no

Dude, I suggest you do a little MORE
research into epigenetics, neuroplasticity,
cognitive behavioral therapy, and biofeedback,
in general; and MANY other areas of human pursuit.

Zoology 101 does not cover this or Biology 101.

Humans are more than robots or parasites, my friend.

And yes, in metaphor and reality they are pArt of that; as well
or NOT so well.

Experience is the WELL spring of wisdom and freedom;
you are still relatively green my friend;
and that’s just how reality goes
with human nature.

Just means you are young baby and
and have a long way to go STILL
to understand
more of what
life can bring.

I hope that helps,
eventually; but
for now it seems
to me that you
are still locked
in Plato’s
first cave,
with all due respect.

And if this distorts
your picture of reality;
please feel free to
moderate it out;
sincerely, with all
due respect.



Oh, and in case you missed it;
Alex, the owner of the site gives
me permission to type however
I like on this Internet site
in the gun thread
that was locked.

If that is changed again; fine.
I follow the rules at hand.

Or you can make the
rules as you go;
this site does
not belong
to me; or
any other person
who dares to tread
out of the cave; for
the most part anyway;
as far as can i see for now.

The ONLY WAY to develop
human relative free will is
Years of real life
practice baby;
flesh and blood practice.


“Well said Fred. There’s nothing I can add.”

Smiles, and thank you, friend..:)

With experience and practice, it is possible to grasp it,
practice it, master it, and orchestrate it,
as a merit of human excellence innately
instinctually and intuitively as
whole of human continual
practice over the lifespan.

A choice NOT to do it is
weak relative free will,
others of us become Lions
or Kings of the Jungle
as Legend Dictates..:)

I for one, provided a great deal of explanation

in the comment that preceded THAT COMMENT.

However; it was deleted as I use a literary device

of language to overcome the inability of most humans

these days to attend to more than a few sentences

written all the way across a page without losing interest.

The reason that some folks do not like my accommodation for this as

A literary device is they actually read it; instead of ignoring

walls of text. It pisses them off ’cause

they have to work a little bit in life

and go outside their comfort zone.

But IF you WILL see

this is the issue of relative free will;

moving outside the box;

doing what science says is impossible;

and that is precisely the comments I provide

in my out-of-the box literary device that in the real BIGGER

world folks described as passionate and brilliant;

quotes and links available upon request.

I share the amazing things that I do in life

to inspire people to the FACT OF MIND OVER MATTER

in exceeding what folks ‘think’ or what ‘science’

says just does not happen in life.

I went on in that comment to talk about my achievements;

overcoming 19 medical disorders and doing feats of strength

in leg pressing 930LBS, 25 times, slowly and surely,

with my arms raised in the air on a parallel leg

press machine; a machine

that is almost twice

as hard than the steroid doped

dudes can do on a vertical leg press machine with sled.

This relative free will allows ME, a permanently disabled person

who is a shut-in in their home who cannot even go

into Whataburger for 15 minutes

two years ago;

a person who has to watch his wife walk

and copy her to even be comfortable

walking in Super-Walmart,

before age 53 two years ago;

when he could go in Super-Walmart at all, at age 47;

NOW who is literally named by the audience in dance at

one of the top 100 clubs for dance in the U.S.A.

as an ICON in my entire metro area;

also named legend, hero, boss of dance,

spirit animal, inspiration of dance,

awesome dancer, amazing dancer,

as well as similar accolades online

for the unique style of free verse poetry

I write; when all I can write at age 47

is technical writing without error

for the government,

in one of my many hats there.

And of and on course, additionally,

I dance walk a free style martial arts and ballet style of dance, fearless in public everywhere I go now for about 3900 miles, closing in on 23 months since the end of August 2013. Before that I have horrible social anxiety in Super-Walmart; now I master social situations with ease; and am ENFP in personality analysis instead of INTJ, before; scoring 11 on the AQ test for Autism a few months after healing, as opposed to 44 to 45 before; as well as scoring 95 on the EQ test as opposed to the mid fifties before.


and the power of epigenetics, neuroplasticity; and orchestrating reality with the power of the imaginative, creative, innate, instinctual and intuitive mind and body in balance with much GREATER PHYSICAL INTELLIGENCE.

If I have ‘his’ current attitude in cynicism of relative free will;

I will be still be locked in my bedroom as a shut-in;

in my underwear with a grim stone look of

a dead heart soul and spirit instead

of so dam fully alive now

that my light of


blinds those

who have no light in their life, in real life.

It’s not easy for folks who live very differently to hear this;

but it can help folks without hope to know

that there is more to this

life than a random

mix of flesh

and blood that is in control instead of US.

Many Christians think that GOD is in control and they have no will alone.

And many Atheists, ironically enough, in metaphor, believe the same dam thing.

And truly it is a literal dam; as the lack of belief in the REAL POWER OF imagination and creativity of human being in mind AND BODY BALANCE over matter that is the flesh and blood human body; is a self-fulfilling prophecy for human misery, suffering, and a potential earlier grave in life.

This is serious stuff, friend; life or death stuff for some folks in the reading audience; and for anyone to suggest that this is non-sensical or not worth a little extra effort to read when I provide a way to do that; is living in a much smaller world than me for sure; with or without relative free will to the power I have it now; in empirical results that are both documented and provided in visual evidence to help people here; that has now been banned by the moderators along with my

attempts in new literary devices

to allow anyone with a short attention span

to potentially gain the information for HELP.


of RELATIVE HUMAN FREE WILL IN much greater human potential.

This is the place for the most human suffering and misery for that online; as physical intelligence in emotional regulation and sensory integration along with greater cognitive executive functioning with enhanced focus and short term memory is required for human relative free will; and there are ways I bring to the table to increase that.

Those are my deficits before that AND

are the heart of Autism

in misery and suffering

and almost a much earlier grave for me,

as documented in medical science WITH MY DOCTORS.

I frigging cured my Autism baby; through all innate instinctual and intuitive abilities of human relative free will; as provided by the GOD of Nature all free in greater physical intelligence in the art of dance in free style way; that is the oldest and wisest art of human being as long as human being has been dancing the earth, instead of walking in the closed minded sidewalks of life; whether that means not able to accommodate a shorter horizontal varying wave of reading on a page, like the Golden Spiral PHI natural way to read and speak; or walking off the frigging literal sidewalks of life, with shoes off to feel the dirt of earth and oxytocin connection on receptors of feet to truly connect with nature much further than a frigging text book in high school or college OR IN A OFFICE WITH no frigging windows; or at home sitting static too, in front of a screen, like the worst dam Twilight Zone nightmare of years before, when folks have both common sense and relative free will and truly live free in a country that allows it.

You see that paragraph up there;

95 percent of the general public

will not be able to read it,

as it is too high in reading

comprehension and paragraph length.

IF I break it down in smaller pieces in vertical flow it will not be TL;DR; still hard to understand; as yes, my IQ in both standard IQ, and creative intelligence is off the charts, as THE professional who assesses me just recently measures it as such, in her expert way of providing that measurement; she’s never ever come across a person like me in her years of analysis; but you see not everyone is free with relative free will like me; and folks who meet me in real life may forget my name but they will never forget the amazing stuff, I for one can do in REAL LIFE WITH HUMAN RELATIVE FREE WILL.

IT MIGHT BE BULLCR8P ONLINE if I CANNOT provide the documented evidence but I can; and slowly and surely the folks who see it as self-indulgence rather than the altruistic effort I provide here to help other folks in this environment that literally stinks for any human with a real heart in life; is understandable, as they feel not what I do; obviously as they cannot see past the sidewalks of life; and truly the problem is a deficit in relative free will; which is in many ways precisely what the disorder of Autism is in some higher functioning folks like me; as assessed by doctors and medical science now.

I am just on the leading edge; sooner or later all of what I am speaking here will be validated by science; and in fact it already is as science now shows that Dance and in general ART therapy in expanding the human muscle of imagination and creativity IN PHYSICAL INTELLIGENCE with greater emotional regulation, sensory integration, focus, and short term memory remediates the symptoms of Autism in some folks NOW, in research in that area.

Common sense baby; that’s what’s lacking in the world; GOD given as the God of Nature freely gives it to human being in innate instinct and intuition; but taken away by culture and all the distractions it provides so that humans truly never become free in exercising freedom in practice of relative free will.

This is a deep subject and requires great attention and detail for any possibility of understanding; I do what it takes to make that happen; people ridicule my methods; however, others laud them to the sky; in real life and other places on the Internet where folks are not ‘handicapped’ like they are here. I could stay in the easy places where folks understand all this naturally; or I can still come back here to attempt to help folks no matter how many times folks attempt to knock me down.

Difference here is I have relative free will;

it might seem insane to some folks but yes,

it is real; and the real time results of it

in amazing flesh and blood abilities ARE IRREFUTABLE FACT.

THAT challenges the perception of reality of some folks and makes them very uncomfortable; however, for me, I understand it as a potential eventual life or death issue of importance; as I am not just talking the talk baby; I dance the walk of life IN FREEDOM AND RELATIVE HUMAN FREE WILL; AND I COPY ALL MY COMMENTS AND SHARE THEM ELSEWHERE; IF PEOPLE here are too shallow and narrow-minded to appreciate my creative ways of making change a reality in the world that counts now..:)

I am as powerful as Lion in metaphor


strength, courage,

and perseverance against all odds in life.

I am A ‘real JOB’;

and NOT just a figment of creativity in a frigging big black book. My life is irrefutable
evidence of The REAL HIGHER POWER OF the GOD OF NATURE AS MANIFEST in human nature THAT IS

All these human elements AS ATTRIBUTES are subject to THE LAW OF USE IT OR LOSE IT.

I USE IT AND DOCUMENT THE RESULTS AS I GO; for other folks to study at their leisure for
an unlimited number of years to come; as long as servers serve it on the internet
sites I pay for that will be carried on long after I die.

That’s altruism baby; I ain’t in it for any money; as I am already financial independent
in wealth of the greaTEST way in life; and that is in kindness, strength, courage,
and perseverance against the greaTEST ODDS AGAINST human being
in developing and using relative free for survival and assistance
in helping the willing tribe that wants to be helped;
This is an innate, instinctual and intuitive
attribute of human life for those
who gain this human

Anything is possible with it;
within reason of
course and

Like I told you in the post that you deleted,
in the gun thread, Alex and I discussed
my style of writing and he clearly
stated I can type however
I like on this internet site
so I used that liberty that he gave me.

There is absolutely nothing incoherent
about my posts; I provide deeper insights
that some cannot understand yes; but Yes, I
have over 1.2 million views in the real world
outside of this very limited area of thinking,
my friend; just in one avenue that I use on
Google plus; there may be ten times
that much in other avenue of communication.

And before I was asked not to create threads;
there are still threads that exist on this site
with much more abstract poetic views that
have literally thousands of views.
Links available upon
request for proof as well.

Just because someone is not commenting
on what I write; is far from the truth of who is reading.
I have been named creative genius on this internet site
and insane in the span of one post; by different
sets of eyes; still documented with quotes
and links available on request.

I will follow the rules here as they change
and as they are dictated to me; as spuriously as they are.

But you my friend are incorrect on your assessment of what I do.

But you are the authority here; and in my life I am used to dealing with
that in life and flow with it just fine.

With respect; but I will defend myself; while you deride me friend,
on the big board out there; and yes, more than likely at this point
people have become afraid of your authority to disagree with you;
but yes, I still have people supporting me here in PM’s.

Have a nice day;

And yes, I will do as you dictate now.
It’s not worth my time or effort
to pursue this issue with Alex,
at this point.

He is the owner of this site;
and not me or anyone else.

What he says will ultimately go; one way or the other.

And yes, for what it is worth; what you say for now is
the way it will go. I can do that; but don’t suggest
that Alex did not give me permission to type as I
wanted to; as that is still documented here
in black and white; I can only follow
the rules as published
or dictated personally
to me.

and sincerely in truth.


Yes, I will find that link

and provide it shortly.

I have respected you until today.

As truly when the owner says one can do something;

Why shouldn’t I believe it. I don’t have a problem
following rules; but when they become illogical;
even I have a problem dealing with that friend..:)

But for me; I can forgive and forget;

and still do what you ask me to;
even now.

That my friend is a type of relative
free will that is rare these days.

It is forgiveness
it is a tolerating what
one does not feel is fair;
and it is acceptance of
the individual perception
of dark in life..:)

It is Love;
the highest level
of relative free will;
the things I say today;
may truly come back
to haunt you
one day;
and I say that
with concern
and Love
and not


Page 16; and this gun thread apparently is not locked;
as I don’t see any mention of that at the end of the thread;
there were two gun threads of ‘fair’ disagreement..:)

“Yeah, glad we’re in agreement about that.
It’s always better to walk away if possible.

By the way, the use of all caps
is only acceptable for acronyms.
Any other use is interpreted as shouting.
You can type how you want but most people
view all caps as you yelling at them,
not as emphasis”

And yes, if you are going to
make me write entirely across the page
I will do that for you; but seriously friend;
it seems a little ‘anal’ to me; with all due respect.

There are lots of folks here who write extremely lengthy posts;
in fact, several in that thread that I was posting in; and in fact,
many folks who make shorter sentences than the width of the entire page;
and also regularly use caps for emphasis that
I can provide quotes and links to upon request as well.

In fact, the rule about disrupting the format of the page,
is in reference to the old software where the page
could actually be stretched without being able
to read the wideness of it comfortably;
with a long link or such as that.

It wasn’t for people who write shorter or
shaped paragraphs my friend, as that is
creativity in writing for those who can
see that to make life
a little more interesting
for folks who crave stimulus who are
autistic and not the ones who abhor change.

There are different types of Autism my friend;
and some of them include long monologues
and out of the box styles of communication.

You may attract a very limited TYPE
of Autism by rigorously imposing
the ‘Queen’s Standard of English’;
but what you may miss
is the next Einstein;
if you care about such as that;

If you do not;

you are not at all like me;
as I care a great deal
about everyone
from below 70 IQ of incoherent
communication that usually
I am the only one who can
interpret here; as has been
the case in the past
TO someone like Inventor
who I understand completely;
where folks demand he be
banned at first OVER INTOLERANCE
AND ACCEPTANCE of his different
style of Autistic communication.

The individual Ci who posted here
some years ago; was the object
of ridicule for his issue of
severe Autism and problems
communicating abstractly;
where most folks could not
understand him; but no
problem for me; and
he is still my friend;
as I understand his
style of Autism.

I am a code maker and code breaker,
friend; far beyond the ability of most
people; that is my speciality that
not all appreciate; but some do
describe as genius and
brilliant and I have almost
a photographic memory
for text; I can find all
those quotes and
links with
my skills
of memory if you
think I am not being honest;
as I do satire but I do NOT
do dishonesty under any
circumstances; if I say I do
it; chances are I am being
humble in real life; and the
real deal is actually
much more impressive
believe that or not
THAT is true
in human relative free will
my friend; there are realities
in this life my friend, and
or ‘Horatio’ that I sincerely
hope do come your way;
and there will be no
need for you to
if and
when they do;
as that is what
I hope for you
to gain the
greatest and
greater human
potential than me
in relative human

As always, you are entitled to your opinion.

However, when you personally attack the social communication
of others here in open discussion by suggesting it is incoherent
or illogical you are not only being unreasonable; you are being
selfish and unkind in an environment that by the very nature
of the disorder that it ascribes to support;
is just that for folks diagnosed with
the actual condition who really have
difficulties like this; that I do NOT
have for folks with the ability
to understand me, and some folks
here have no problems at all
understanding me; again links
and quotes available on request.

I am a rough boy baby;
there is nothing you
can do to alter my bliss;

I just feel sorry for
the folks who are not as
strong as I am who will likely
encounter your style of what has become moderation now.

I will write as you like; and I will even limit my use
of caps as you suggested I must limit before;
and now are suggesting that you already knew
that Alex said it was okay if I used all caps;
that doesn’t jive either with what you stated
before in our discussions
and that’s okay;
my great memory
and all of that you know..:)

I go with the flow, and will write
the width of the page from now on
friend to suit your needs..:)

And I will retain my hope
for your growth as
a human being,
as well..:)

With all due respect.

Sincerely, Fred..:)

Life is certainly not fair;
at least in one life time if infinity does not allow more
sentience cycles than that. I have no illusion that close
to even what might be described as a minority of people
can achieve what I have been able to do; however,
at my lowest point there is not even a reflection of who I am now.

I was born fragile and weak; and remained that way for many years;
I could not speak until age 4; and had problems communicating
until my mid 40’s; even though people thought I was
like superman for my problems solving abilities
both at work and school;

For me what folks named as incredible intelligence
was an incredible handicap for me
most of my life; and eventually
my overworking mind
almost kills me; in ways of
chronic human stress and what is
assessed eventually by doctors and legally
as permanent disability with no chance of recovery.

I do my best to possibly help others arrive at the
same point I did in all innately, instinctually
and intuitively healing myself and going to
places of bliss and connection

with literally thousands
of folks in real life

that before I have no
idea is possible in feeling,
in the actual experience of it
in existence at all.

The bottom line is
there is always more possible in life
than we think there is; and to feel life
instead of thinking about it in ways of mind
and body balance in the physical intelligence of
regulating emotions and integrating senses is a
first step for freedom of will for me;
and truly it is nothing new;
eastern philosophies
have been
singing the praises of
mind and body balance and acting on it
for thousands of years; while the western
world is one of external materialistic pursuits
that never bring TOTAL SATISFACTION

I have the worst case of anxiety, then
that my psychiatrist states he ever comes
across and he is an Air Force Major who dealt
with the worst cases of combat
fatigue and PTSD. I have zero anxiety now;
and in no way did I think that was possible
then, as then I
have little control over my thoughts
or the feelings in my body; including
emotions and senses; now I orchestrate
all of that in flow
all the time
now; moving or
sitting still
with the experience now
of the bio-feedback of
moving creatively in a
Martial arts ballet style flow
for literally close to 3900 miles,
approaching 23 months.

The answers now seems so dam easy;
but THEN; I didn’t believe I could get off the sidewalk
of culture; and honestly had no idea I was even trapped
in a prison of culture; I never truly
understood the true message of the
‘Matrix trilogy’, until
I literally become ‘NEO’;
and that
trilogy combines
all of the
world philosophies
for singular metaphor
for that truth in life
that the empathic and systemizing
sides of mind must be combined along with mind and
body balance; and truly we can imagine and create
our lives by writing it down and visualizing
it; where what is written becomes what is done;
it is no fairly tale;
it is not just
a movie; the
Neo archetype
is a real possibility;
and I as fragile human being make it there; many more
can too; If they don’t give up and like the ending
credits of the Matrix Trilogy state
in oracle way; ‘I BELIEVED’;
AS THE moral to the
entire Trilogy story;

I never understood
that ‘Believe’ is

an emotion and not just a word;
now I understand both the emotion of
BELIEVE AND the amazing power it
can bring to greater
human potential in mind and
body balance; creating one’s life
as one goes; as the director, producer and actor
of one’s own play; instead of being controlled
by culture AKA the existing matrix.

Best wishes to you; all I know for sure
is the answers come from within; trust your
heart; as the best tool to find and use;
is my best advice
for anyone to gain truest
freedom and satisfaction in life;
hard to do though; of course
with all the demands of
culture at hand; from a
small child with a plate
piled up with illusion that move far from
what human being even can be at much fuller
potentials of what can be in life..:)


Mathematics like human language for interpersonal connection
are abstract constructs created by human beings to describe
the patterns and connections of nature.

But all of that starts with one digit; later named prehensile thumb,
the ability to manipulate objects in the environment with fine motor
coordination with the other 4 digits named as fingers, in the actual
painstaking development of abstract concepts as the symbols of letters
together as words and numbers that identify thumbs and fingers.

A tool may be associated from nature later labeled and named as stick,
and our ancestors scratching symbols in sand by copying the
imaginary connections between stars in the night sky
as well as copying patterns
that are observed in the rest of nature.
And of course that part is even possible by just using
an index finger or other digit directly in the sand.

Eventually, the result of that is human abstract constructs
cooperatively developed with reciprocal social communication
as symbols of numbers and an alphabet like Sanskrit.

A 6 or a 9 is a approximation in reflection of PHI
as the natural occurring pattern in nature.

And any symbols in whole
or part coming close to
the shape of a circle
as an artistically created number
is coming closer to a reflection of PI,
as a natural occurring pattern in nature.

Sacred geometry arises from nature,
human imagination, reason, and artistic creation.

And of course it is fascinating how these symbols
vary between western and eastern cultures.

The symbols actually reflect the way
the cultures as whole restrict the views
of people in experiencing and viewing nature.

Anyway, what is observed as sacred and holy
is usually what is shared by the culture and or religion; and numbers
and letters are among the most sacred of ancient symbols for good reason,
as much human comfort has arisen
from the earliest inventions
of the sacred tools of numbers
and alphabets to assist human
beings in gaining subsistence.

Numbers are a reflection of nature
at the core of human creation.
And interestingly, people are like numbers,
in macrocosm and microcosm way as above so below;
inside outside; and all around; as human in many ways
are the cosmos, also known as the ALL THAT IS, also known
as GOD unto itself, as Carl Sagan eloquently describes
the significance of the human existential much
fuller reality that imagination, creativity
and science allows us to greater see
with the aided human eye, including
the aid of artistically created numbers
reflecting nature as an endless cycle
of connections in both creativity
and human perceived
and created meaning
in nature.

The bottom line is it’s not just that we are connected
to each other; IT (All THAT IS AKA GOD) IS all connected
and greater observed reality; there are no ‘REAL’ illusions in life;
not even in the imagination of human being before the word
illusion is created; it is all a reflection of ‘REAL’
nature in someway; and not all people have
the ability to share the reflections
of nature as whole that each
unique human is able to do;
as humans create their perception of
the Universe as they go with unique eyes;
not much different than that first human being
who attempts to copy nature by scratching symbols
in sand in day or night.

We can credit a prehensile
thumb, four fingers,
and sand for all we know in
life, now as written language,
as consisting of alphabet letters, numbers,
collective intelligence, and culture as whole.

So a grain of sand is as important as a skyscraper,
angles or the imagination of angels in sky.
The moral of the entire story is don’t
discount the significance of
a grain of sand; we depend on that grain of sand
to both stand on what it comprises as whole earth;
as well as to name earth and imagine, reason, and create the
‘number’ of grains of sand as earth with the use of relative
human free will, as we reflect the grand creator of Nature AKA GOD.

And no; one will never find all of this in one textbook;
as creator me; creates it with relative human free will.

Relative human free will can be empirically proven
through art and originality in creativity.
That’s becoming rarer as time goes by,
as humans become more specialized
and limited in mechanical cognition mind
as culture dictates; but never the less,
human relative free will can be proven
through the empirical results of humans
who truly create with originality
with the caveat highlighted that
AS WE stand upon the shoulders
of giants of grains of sands.

As above so below;
inside outside;
all around
IS more than frigging Haiku;
IT IS a reflection of GOD.
To understand all of this
is the greater possibility
to live in bliss;
when exercised
and practiced with human
relative free will; of course..:)

And with all due respect to anyone reading this;
just because one never sees it before;
does not mean it does not exist;
is insane or whatever.
It is in empirical measure
of human relative free will
in human creativity and originality.

Before humans explain

to other humans what numbers are;
numbers are meaningless gibberish;

however that does
not discount



of that grain(s) of sand;
that first finger(s) and or prehensile thumb; or that first
human who works with painstaking human imagination, creativity,
and reason; to artistically create what that number is now as symbol
for patterns and connections in nature; through individual and cooperative
effort with other humans and of course again that grain of sand AKA GOD, too.

i Hope YOU enjoy The Mother  AND Father of ALL

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Ugh.. i left one out!

THAT is almost like




one for A

X for 24

F for 6






Hey.. thanks for the visit friend named “I”..
For five years I spend life as a literal
shut-in with the worst pain known to
mankind with no doctor’s hope of

I am well.


I have a message.


And I am going to scream it as loud as I can from

AND with that said.. here is a little
song that spells it out
in music
as well
as words..:)

May all your nows be joy-filled with LIFe..!..:)





1400 WORDS


With believe it or









“Isn’t it wonderful how the world religions
and cultures merge in so many ways…
IF we take the time to listen to others?”

YES.. IT IS! and JUST more proof!
that GOD
IS everywHere !
ALL the

THAT IS what i cALL



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The link to the post above is from two years ago on


my first trip back to beautiful

Navarre beach with wife

Katrina.. and miraculous

recovery from a synergy

of 19 life threatening illnesses

working together to kill me that i survive…

Around 66 months of the worst pain known

to mankind detailed elsewhere in this blog post..

as an almost complete shut-in in my bedroom

in more dire straits than the hunch back of Notre Dame..

and the question comes to mind.. how far will you go

to prove your Love for All THAT IS AKA GOD

that creates this great gift of human life..

if God decides you are going to

have to go as far


a real devil in life.. will you still love GOD

and be God’s humble servant doing

whatever GOD will have you

do.. including



in front of the whole

world to celebrate life with



















































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21 Responses to TSunami of LOVE

  1. I. says:

    I love that song! And I always enjoy your pictures.

    This is great:
    of stars
    in eyes

    Scrabble is one of my favorite games.

    Love this:
    write poetry
    to avoid
    in life”

    “the best
    medicine for me..
    is giving.. growing
    in heart of poetry..
    dance and song..
    i suppose that
    is wHere the
    are who flow
    as a feather
    as air just

    YES. Exactly.

    Ooh, I love ALL Lorde songs too. It was perfect too because “Fight Song” ended just at I got down to “Tennis Court.” 🙂

    You are so crazy cool, bro. I really dig you.

    Glad you dug up some good/bad memories and inspirations between the peanut butter and jelly. 🙂


    “hopeless wanderer am i.. as hope is in the
    wandering and wondering of the dance walk
    of life..
    NOT the sitting

    “The greaTest thing I can do in life is be
    an active friend”

    My favorite:
    “My wife is Mut
    in pyramidic
    hut.. or can
    she be
    with a yellow
    sphinx as hEr
    lap cat sat..;)
    Hand connection”

    “Each human being is
    a unique experiment”

    Love this thought:
    “For this world to be healed we must all become prophets”

    “the night after rave dance that creative state of mind
    is burning on all cylinders” True that. 🙂

    “the more Jack and Jill do the wild thing and cooperate; no matter
    who or what they do it with, spells life for the village” Ha. Can’t argue with you there. 🙂

    I love this section:
    “from vagal nerve in throat down to gut to oxytocin
    receptors to connect to the dirt of life on the bottom of one’s
    feet; and back in them olden days the child is attached
    to the mommy in close touch comfort for survival;
    kinda like a kangaroo baby in a pouch;
    now the children get carted off
    to places and spend nappy
    time in solitary cribs or on cots;
    and oh boy; next thing ya know, ya got
    canaries in the coal mine AKA yes, higher
    functioning Autistic folks, ringing the alarm
    bell of human being that this cultural experiment”

    My daughter has Asperger’s. It’s definitely got it’s challenges, but it also brings forth a pretty amazing personality.

    I love Ellie Goulding. And Meghan Trainor. Man, this is the longest post ever … but also one of the coolest!

    “You are able to communicate on this site and stay
    light-hearted enough to express your feelings and
    not attack others in peace; that makes you as holy
    as my Catholic priest. The words are just idols
    to me; it is the human feelings and senses
    that are felt and expressed in balance that is a soul to me.” Amen to that, bro.

    Sweet Mother of Pearl, you like Flo Rida too?! We are twins. That’s it. I am NUTS over GDFR. Have I mentioned that you freaking rule?!

    Ooh, Taylor Swift is my girl!

    “There is absolutely nothing incoherent
    about my posts.” No, there is not.

    “I have been named creative genius on this internet site
    and insane in the span of one post.” What fantastic compliments. Both of them. If you are not at least somewhat insane, you are probably not very interesting. That’s how I feel, anyway.

    “You may attract a very limited TYPE
    of Autism by rigorously imposing
    the ‘Queen’s Standard of English’;
    but what you may miss
    is the next Einstein;” AMEN! You are SO awesome.

    “I am a code maker and code breaker,
    friend.” I can totally see that about you, friend. You see a lot more than anyone gives you credit for.

    “there is nothing you
    can do to alter my bliss” That is something to be very, very proud of.

    “I was born fragile and weak; and remained that way for many years;
    I could not speak until age 4; and had problems communicating
    until my mid 40’s; even though people thought I was
    like superman for my problems solving abilities
    both at work and school;
    For me what folks named as incredible intelligence
    was an incredible handicap for me
    most of my life; and eventually
    my overworking mind
    almost kills me” … I totally get this. My daughter is brilliant, but she would give anything to be able to shut off her thoughts. They are really like a dagger attacking her constantly. Her anxiety is through the roof, and she has panic attacks. It’s those repetitive thoughts that just completely take over.

    And I totally hear you on the sensitivities too. The way material feels, sounds, temperature. Anything in the environment that’s off kilter just really makes you feel whacked out. You can’t concentrate on anything you’re supposed to because something doesn’t feel right. Even if it’s just wearing uncomfortable pants or being hungry.

    This is an excellent paragraph:
    “But all of that starts with one digit; later named prehensile thumb,
    the ability to manipulate objects in the environment with fine motor
    coordination with the other 4 digits named as fingers, in the actual
    painstaking development of abstract concepts as the symbols of letters
    together as words and numbers that identify thumbs and fingers.”

    This too:
    “Sacred geometry arises from nature,
    human imagination, reason, and artistic creation.”

    You are speaking my language here:
    “Numbers are a reflection of nature
    at the core of human creation.”

    “So a grain of sand is as important as a skyscraper,
    angles or the imagination of angels in sky.
    The moral of the entire story is don’t
    discount the significance of
    a grain of sand; we depend on that grain of sand
    to both stand on what it comprises as whole earth;
    as well as to name earth and imagine, reason, and create the
    ‘number’ of grains of sand as earth with the use of relative
    human free will, as we reflect the grand creator of Nature AKA GOD.”

    You are so sweet with your shout-outs to me in your post. And I can’t wait to work out your code at the end. Be back in a minute with my results. 😉

    • Are you sure you are not an Angel..
      Isn’t there a song somewhere that says something
      like ‘calling all Angels’…

      it worked.. smiles..
      you Rock and

      You know i used to
      be really analytical..
      lost my ability to
      create for
      40 whole years..
      from the age of 13 when
      the thin always smiling boy
      who is happier than anyone
      else in the world is told
      by the patriarchal bully
      boys that smiles are
      equal to death
      in this town..
      in so many..
      11 year-old
      and they did it
      again at the city
      park.. after all tennis
      is fun for me.. i used
      to write plays.. sing in the
      choir.. and even won a two
      home-room Christmas
      story writing
      award in
      middle school too..
      the patriarchal fundamentalist
      Christian way of life in my home
      town takes away my soul.. my heart
      and expressing spirit.. along with
      imagination and creativity.. 40 years
      later I also escape about a quarter
      of a century working for the Navy
      as a federal civilian employee
      in macho x2Land again.. where
      everyone has a stick
      up there butt.. more
      or less..
      i hang loose now after
      40 years of wandering
      the desert of my Fundie
      close-minded area that
      is actually in the record
      books with the most
      churches per square
      mile.. my special interest now is
      everything about human happiness
      and everything about limiting human
      misery and suffering.. and when it comes
      to Asperger’s syndrome.. and if your daughter
      is anything like me to move MOVE AND spin
      with arms spiraling around AKA flapping AND

      THAT’S WHAT I DO; and then I tell them I celebrate
      GOD by dancing naked; and then they scurry away;
      as after all I do weigh 230LBS and literally leg press half
      a ton at my military gym.. with my retiree benefits in tow ..25 times..
      with arms raised in the air after I warm up with TAI CHI-like Ballet
      Moves.. like a frigging ‘Arnold’ fairy.. hehe! on Speed.. but really smooth
      with grace.. and slow whenever i feel like going that way too.. with ease..:)

      But anyway as you likely know this comment could turn into 10K words
      and actually last night I find out the limit is around 9K words for a comment
      in word press.. cause i meet that limit with 9800 words of so.. and my
      formatting goes dead.. and I have to split the comment into two 5K’s..
      like halfING a Marathon or something like that! OK like i say you do
      COMET hmm.. COmEnT in the video..
      as wherever I GO I
      OR LEAVE
      A MARK
      OR MORE..

      SEE YA! BABY..
      you know Asperger’s is
      genetic.. my father.. my sister..
      my cousin.. my grandfather..
      a noted author who has dinner
      with Einstein last century as members
      of the socialist party then.. and I am
      not diagnosed until age 47.. and yeah
      that Crystal children or Indigo children
      otherwise known as human
      Angels THINGY KINDA
      IS a REAL DEAL
      OF MY OWN.. AND
      i’ll leave a second
      song for that;
      with kinda
      the mission
      OF my life..
      in code and synchronistic
      way as well.. like I said..


      See you around for the rest of my life.. if you are around
      these Internet parts.. in the wild wild E-Land.. we all can
      share.. as a global tribal home.. where folks JUST

      • I. says:

        This is my favorite “Angel” song:

        CONTROL” … I’m so happy for you. It’s this beautiful, magnificent brain that can drag you under and destroy you OR lift you up above everyone else around you. Most people can’t grasp the profound genius you are, just because their brains don’t work the same. But I’m pretty sure every genius in history struggled in much the same way you have. NOW people appreciate their contributions, but did they THEN? I seriously doubt it. Artists, poets, inventors, scientists. They walk alone, to a large degree. But here you are, spreading your immense joy … the joy you had to work hard to find. And man, that is deeply inspiring. I’m blessed to know you. I’m so sorry the church and its people have cause you so much suffering and pain. Unfortunately, some of the most judgmental and cruel people are in churches. The bottom line is, everyone is suffering and just trying to keep their heads above water, trying to make it through a painful life one day at a time. And if any of us can find half the joy and kindness you’ve found, then we’re very lucky people. You are doing something magnificent with your life and your beautiful energy. Keep it up, no matter what response you get from others. It’s not about them. You are letting your light shine; that’s all that matters.

        “THAT’S WHAT I DO; and then I tell them I celebrate
        GOD by dancing naked” … The Jesus I know and believe in would LOVE this. And I’m pretty sure he’d happily do it with you. I seriously doubt he liked clothes any more than we do. 😛

        Oh yeah, Indigo Kids! I love that book. 🙂 I diagnosed my daughter (and myself) as such years ago after finding that book. It’s a beautiful thing. You just have to jump the hurdles to find the art in it.

        And yes, we’ve encountered plenty of frustration and judgment, both at church and at school. I’ve mostly homeschooled her so that she wouldn’t have to endure as much pain as she would if she were in school. But she did go to a private school for 2 years. She doesn’t make or keep friends easily, unfortunately. But no one deserves her. They just aren’t cool enough. 😛 I tell her all the time that no matter what, she and I are a team. We will be together, best friends, forever. No matter what she suffers, she will have me. And I will have her. She’s artsy, creative, clever, and HILARIOUS. She’s great at making up jokes. 🙂

        You have bad-ass musical tastes!

        And yes, angels and superheroes obviously go together. 🙂

      • I. says:

        Tove Lo is definitely one of my favorites. “Talking Body” … so much love for that one.

        • You are a beautiful person with a genius creative mind as well.. friend.. it means a lot to me to find a kindred soul today.. as truly i celebrate a date today of recovering from my physical illnesses 2 years ago.. and finally rejoining humanity.. with the first photos of me that i could barely recognize.. in a blog post then.. after not having use of my eyes to see colored photos or my ears to hear any music at all.. living in front of a dimly lit screen in novocaine-less dentist drill like pain in my right eye and ear.. for almost 66 months.. a few inches away to see it at all.. with almost intolerable pain where every word written is like climbing a steepest mountain then.. and spending the first two years mostly in a dark room.. with my eyes not making tears with the auto immune system disorder Sjogren’s Syndrome.. Spinal Stenosis.. Severe Degenerative Arthritis.. in my spine.. precipitated early by a congenitally fused vertebra in my neck.. Fibromyalgia.. where my heart rate will not synch with my blood pressure.. severe anxiety.. with accompanying PTSD.. and panic attacks.. anhedonia.. alexithymia.. severe depression.. almost zero emotions.. living dead.. in life with a total of 19 serious medical disorders inclusive of the before mentioned ones.. with the smallest challenges of Autism and ADHD.. and miraculous recovery on or about this date closing in on July 22nd of 2013.. i can never look back.. to remember that pain.. it is gone from my brain.. and only a distant logical memory now.. and i maintain 100% TRUST and FAITH.. that this real miracle of my life is going to continue.. and a powerful spirit of GOD moves me like the air all around me.. as one..FORCE OF POSITIVE ENERGY.. on a mission of Love that no human will ever hurt or hold me back from.. as i’ve lived a real life of the biblical JOB and survived.. knowing.. there are much worse things in life than any fear of death..

          My greatest blessings are the real pain of life that is afforded me.. to learn the empathy for all others to a grain of sand.. and smaller.. of 14.5 billion years.. or so.. and truly this will be a much lonelier pursuit with out blogging..as the words that GOD inspires in me.. speaks back to me.. in bright-lit screen like a FORCE of all that is.. in me.. outside.. me.. and all around me… but i will not stray from speaking all the truths and lights i know.. no matter how much it goes against the religious or social norms.. as most of all i want to be the only one that has to go to the hell i go through to get here now.. and my belief is GOD puts me through that as GOD knows i love to help people and always have.. and will never give up.. even if i am literally nailed to the cross i already wore for 66 months again..

          God is magic
          Life is magic
          You are magic
          and so is your daughter
          and all of those kind and innocent
          outcast people living with the eyes of GOD..

          If only OTHERS knew

          THEY are
          magic too..

          smiles.. and blessings and peace for you.. my friend.. in the spirit of forever now..
          ME.. AND YOURS.. AND OURS AND WE’S..:)

          AND WITH all that said.. i just return from dance walking around 7 miles with my wife
          while she shops in the grocery stores.. have a little photo footage to add for
          all the blessings of my life from head to toe.. and i will sleep soundly
          tonight.. knowing I still am blessed with blissful life..
          Life is Magic..
          and i find other
          magic people in
          life today.. a
          true blessing
          from GOD
          you and others like you ARE! my friend..
          and yes…
          in my final two videos tonight.. the first truly is
          like me outcast in middle school riding my bicycle
          all over trying to maintain my light to shine on others..

          and then a recent inspiring song.. about a sky-lit
          with positive notes
          of Love..

          So goodnight friend
          and may your nows be
          filled with magic

          Ha! i’m one of Youtube’s favorite customers.. what treasure
          music is to inspire spirit in emotional energy..
          and music flies higher now..
          in sonic
          areas of
          delight that tickle
          my super-sensory ALL
          Free Light as I feel
          UNI-verse vibrating all
          through.. me.. and if one
          day.. i disappear.. chances
          are i go up
          of going

  2. I. says:

    “as i’ve lived a real life of the biblical JOB and survived” You sure have! You are absolutely a miracle. Thank you for being such a blessing to me and the rest of the world. I’m so glad to have met you through dverse. YOU are beautiful.

  3. http://booknvolume.com/2015/07/20/domination/


    “University of Bowling and Curious Ted Forrest”

    (Insert 100 photos or so coming in the next blog
    post titled above in quotes post PLUS
    THE NEXT comment below and add this
    link at the bottom of the
    next post to come back
    to this post
    in the ‘growing’
    body of
    that link;)


    First of all, welcome back; and even though I do not often comment here it is more for the fact that i tend to take the oxygen out of the room with my wordiness; but I see your creativity as an enigma of sorts and of great value to others so when it seems you may be weathering choppy waves i bring in some prevailing winds from the other direction, if you will, as inspired by the voiceless force that lives within me.

    I find this poem of yours very inspiring for personal reasons that I will share a little with you, hopefully for inspiration; but I promise it will NOT be the 14.3K SIZE of my last epic free verse poetic expression on my blog, smiles, and winks..:)

    Straight A’s are my goal through school.. 11 out of 381 tying with my best friend Lynn.. then on to college and a triple major and three degrees.. but for some reason I cannot do the output of creative communication.. including writing and speaking in verbal way.. i manage that at age 13.. but the repressing environment in my ‘red state’ area.. turns me into a more quiet ‘real man’ boy.. plus i already have issues then.. with not speaking to age 4.. stuttering.. social awkwardness.. and general issues associated with what i become professionally diagnosed with at age 47.. in terms of something like ‘Sheldon Cooper’.. with Asperger’s Syndrome..

    i am kinda like the higher standard IQ version of Forrest Gump.. as well.. as i kick my legs out strange when i run.. and people say that Fred sure can run.. run Fred run.. and eventually at work later at the Bowling Center where i work.. running down the middle cross walk of the lanes to gather up ‘dead wood’ pins.. folks literally do bellow out RUN FORREST RUN!.. yes.. an ‘interesting’ life i lead.. smiles again..:)

    Problem after college is even though people literally name me Superman for attending to 3 part time jobs.. poor as peanut butter and jelly sandwiches everyday.. still reining in top grades.. gaining triple major degrees.. i still have problems speaking and writing.. and in them days it’s mostly multiple choice.. even in college.. in the input stuff i’m good at..

    So the Military Bowling Alley becomes my job.. for a young man who can play a ‘weird’ style of Tennis with super curving balls.. but who is still not coordinated enough to roll a ball down the middle of the lanes with body in flow to score more than 98 or so.. out of the 200.. A.. grade of Bowling.. but although i am very underemployed there.. technically speaking.. i start to thrive in social cognition.. doing funny exploits.. making people laugh.. watching children grow up.. having an extended village ‘third place’ home away from house and church.. for almost two decades..

    It’s a life of Cheers.. and i am ‘Ted Danson’ less or MORE FOR ALMOST 2 decades.. the best job in the world.. as i gain my heart.. spirit and soul.. as bright as the noon-day sun.. but then toward the end computers come and my mechanical cognition grows again.. dims my social cognition skills.. and slowly become an office robot.. government cutbacks.. reduction of force.. and eventually the smiling boy that i become again.. after being silenced in school of red state boys and girls.. loses his grin for five years as Computer Support Assistant.. Community Activities Director.. and then Athletic Director of the Military installation for the boy who still has no idea how to PLAY team sports.. but watches a little football here and there with dreams of being coordinated in movement like that one day… and is assessed as a vital commodity for his computer skills then.. over what it is he is actually administrating..

    As part of my Autism Spectrum issue.. i cannot bear to touch manmade stuff.. i have extreme emotional empathy where it is like i am the other person and cannot separate myself from their emotional pain and physical pain.. and yes.. i’ve been feeling that from you.. even though i do not know you well at all in real life.. and truly that empathic nature of mine inspires so many words of beauty from the GOD force that lives within me.. as i travel around the online world of ‘scientists’ and poets.. but i cannot write legibly.. per issues with dysgraphia.. and this device created and promoted as art.. respectively.. by the likes of Bill Gates and Steve Jobs.. becomes a wonderful accommodation for creativity of the stellar lights that live within some of us.. that will never be seen in the underemployed world.. if not for this tool For Hive of Global Interaction now..

    And oh my GOD.. i learn so much while being disabled and cut-off from culture for five years.. all innately instinctually and intuitively.. but the best part of that is i can escape a stuffy no-window office and prison of mechanical cognition.. that almost literally kills me from chronic work and related social stress.. and then one day GOD tells me in GOD’s dance words DANCE FRED DANCE.. INSTEAD OF RUN FORREST RUN.. SO i close into almost 3900 miles in 23 months now.. in dancing like ‘David’ everywhere i go.. with shopaholic wife.. and then GOD says in GOD’s way.. WRITE FRED WRITE.. AND this is the result of that.. and the caring eyes and all other emotions and senses that are once mine in flesh and blood life.. become words as eyes of love AGAIN in PASSIONATE unconditional tough way.. SO the smiling 13 year-old boy who writes a little poetry and play then.. become the Ted Danson.. Forrest Gump.. Bowling Alley guy again.. in words my friend..

    So basically I just want to say i have empathy FOR in EXPRESSING THAT and FEEL your ‘pain’ and encourage your enigma ways of writing until your last breathing day..

    Have a great day friend.. with smiles.. and when you go into rough winds again.. i’ll be back to share a ‘few’ words with you..:)

    But as you know I will be reading without fail.. as GOD gifts me with little verbal and writing skills from birth.. but oh boy does GOD let me read.. around 10 to 15 times faster than the average human.. with a memory the size of an elephant.. as associated Hyperlexia.. with an accommodation by THE LIKES OF Jobs and Gates, et al.. NOW!.. to let my LIGHT SHINE..! IN WORDS OF ME!.. Raining every where i go.. along with a dance with GOD in steps of tough unconditional LOVE!..:)

    But most of all i play with GOD like a little child..

    AND WE HAVE FUN!..:)

    With Love,

  4. http://wrongplanet.net/forums/viewtopic.php?f=20&t=287850&start=90


    ‘Thanks’, for providing that interesting debate that includes more FOLKS IN IMPORTANCE OF TRUTH; than Craig and Dawkins.

    At the time scale of 1:31.11, the young Asian or Pacific Islander woman, has the answer and that is WE are the ‘eyes’ of ‘GOD’; some brighter and some dimmer; and the gentlemen that suggests that the essence of the Universe is vibrational music through 11 dimensions of hyper-space is SPEAKING no different really than my short free verse poem that I already provide in this thread that poetically speaks to dark, light, movement, and sound as GOD exists now in ACTION VERB, instead of Abrahamic noun; along with lyrics of poetry that sing in music to a core of the human mind and body in balance at highest levels of expressing VIBRATIONAL Truth and Light of reality as ‘Human Forest’.

    The rest of the Video provided, is human tribal instinct expressed more or less, in complicated mechanical cognition; where I am right and you are wrong and my team is better than yours; ‘nana nana nana’; I can’t hear what you are saying kinda stuff.

    It takes folks who are reAlly LIVING NOW IN FLESH AND BLOOD ACTION LIFE, out of some Illusional Academic and or Theological Ivory Tower, to come up with the simple answers of Truth and Light in what CAN and WILL make this HUMAN Life GREAT as opposed to suffering and misery and a potential earlier grave. Human beings can create their own purposes in Life with AND THROUGH Imagination and Creativity IN MIND AND BODY BALANCE coming from depths as great as the giants of Philosophy and Arts, IN GENERAL, have done through history; AND potentiAlly MORE.

    Some never attain the ‘Forest of Human Life’ for becoming blind for seeing trees WITHOUT FOREST.

    My Anthropological study-time on ‘this Internet site’ is particularly fascinating, as I share my philosophical insights (the same exact ones) here with systemizing minds and (the same exact ones) with poets across the International online arena of poetry.

    And in empirical evidence, I am able to document where my insights here are described as incoherent and even moderated out of the conversation, as such; whereas, the same insights as assessed by creative poets is described as profound genius; as documented currently on my latest 14.3K Epic Free verse poetry blog post; that yes, even without linking it to poetry sites is assessed as such by a poet who is able to read all 14,333 words assessing the poem as THE LONGEST BUT one of the coolest in great detail in poetic response, as well.

    The point is this; some folks create purpose in life and thrive; and some folks do not.

    This overall ACTION force of reality that some folks call NATURE and some folks call GOD is never before or after; when it comes to reality NOW; AND what potentiAlly makes life great in lemonade as opposed to sour lemons.

    There is A WHOLE LOT OF LEMONS IN THAT PODCAST; and some lemonade that makes the medicine of life go down like bliss for those of us who master life’s REALITY WITH GOD NOW, as ourselves, THROUGH imagination and creativity in mind and body balance.

    It works for me with practice in action; written words describe; but written words are only cultural byproducts as tools. Life starts in flesh and blood away from the illusion of written words alone; as well as other cultural byproducts as human tools that aid comfort or create misery and suffering in life..:)

    God is reality as Nature NOW in action VERB, and so am I..:)

    Anyway, this is a fascinating discussion and hopefully this makes enough sense where it does not get moderated out. I AM SINCERELY and SERIOUSLY DOING MY FRIGGING BEST.

    Smiles; and with all due respect; no hard feelings from me on the way folks treat me, overall on ‘this site’, for the last 56 months, as they literally do, as I prove in irrefutable fact they simply know not what they do; and yes, some folks here by there own metaphorical poetic EXPRESSIONS in heart, spirit, and soul assess my communication as having no problems understanding me at all.

    Problem IS when only one or two ‘types’ of Autistic speaking folks are provided freedom of expression in discussing philosophy as truly the answers in philosophy are poetry and NOT SCIENCE ALONE. However; it is like Plato’s cave; not all live in the same cave and that is the greatest truth of all, when it comes to human beings, WITH understanding in cognitive empathy as well as the affective empathy of tolerating and accepting others for a FULL SPECTRUM OF HUMAN DIVERSITY IN working reciprocal social communication; WHERE communication can be validated and clarified with due acceptance, tolerance, and most importantly PATIENCE TO hear ALL OF WHAT other human beings have to say.

    Sometimes folks eyes light up with joy when I speak to them in real FLESH AND BLOOD life; others just nod and say hmm, OK.

    But at least the second group is tolerating me and not slapping me across the face; but of course in real life my size and strength excludes that option in ALL CASES SO FAR; smiles; BEING an alpha male in true life effect and affect helps a person to speak their mind in terms of flesh and blood.

    AND IF anyone doubts I make a REAL CASE-STUDY for Alpha male, the evidence is more than flesh and blood clear in a special full color link in a blog post of mine titled, ‘Staycation Breeze’, as when I express that side of my human flesh and blood being; even so-called thugs do NOT wanna meet me in a dark alley; but if one is brave enough they can assess that pArt on their own; as I am in this anthropological study of GOD and human alike IN PROVIDING plenty of documented evidence for clear case-study perusal by the ART AND science oriented minds among us that yes; believe it or not, includes me; for dam sure, still now; even enhanced since I expand human potential mind and body in balance with imagination and creativity AS ART, far beyond my ‘computer brain’; before 30 months or so ago..:)


    And no, I do not have to speak anything special to show my strength; fearless speaks with no words at all, in real FLESH AND BLOOD life, at least; it is truly A greatest privilege there in life; as God of Nature is a God of Love and Courage too; in all that manifests in human life; and if anyone thinks they are more than the pecking order of the Animal Kingdom; THAT IS the greatest God Delusion of all; and part of why the Internet is so popular for SOME folks as it allows them to puff up their ‘illusional fur’; smiles; my fur is literally and metaphorically REAL, and yes, I understand my privilege clearly and remain humble in flesh and blood life, without too much satire, AS I am once a fragile and weak pecking order human too, in flesh and blood life..:)

    LIFE SPENT twice as such in the same life; is also an incredible flesh and blood tool of personal case-study reference for my life-long Anthropological study, in ALL stuff human and GOD of Nature, overALL.

    But anyway; thanks again, for that inspiring Video AND have a great NOW in mind and body balance, if you will, of course..:)

    KATiE MiA FredericK!iI

    Gravatar is one of the coolest things ever!! !


  5. Oh.. Lord.. 29 years old.. 1989.. Wild-EYED.. DELIRIOUSLY HAPPY Bowling Center Worker.. behind the counter serving up rental shoes.. Summer courting wife Katrina.. and spending close to two decades of working at Good ‘Ole NASWF Military Bowling Center.. a ‘third place’ of life away from home and work/church.. so fun.. that i quit church as Bowling Center becomes church and home.. all the same as work away from house..

    Bowling Center’s may be low brow to some folks.. but they are highest heArt of human being and GOD to me.. and i also find a wife there who lasts 25 years.. plus.. 19 years old then… yup.. 10 years younger.. it is a place of treasure.. no matter what the high brows say in life.. people often tell me then.. I can do better than THAT.. but truly those are not people at all in my estimation.. of what people wholly can be.. as human being with Love instead of eyes of dollar bills or mathematical equations of LIFE.. LOVE! the greatest toughest unconditional power of them ALL!

    And associated of course with my next blog post titled University of Bowling and Curious Ted Forrest.. Trust me or NOT.. IT WILL make sense before ALL IS SAID AND DONE..;)

    Hmm.. and per reference of two Facebook profile status photo thingies below.. I almost look ‘Joker Happy’ but hmm.. not quite.. i suppose i am born almost a ‘Happy Joker’.. after all is said and done..:)

  6. And tHere is wife Katrina.. as stunning as any Ms. America.. or Universe or Isis or Cleopatra or Indian Princess that ever walks the earthy stage.. poor as dirt.. and she thinks the other girls bully her in school.. ’cause she is poor… but i feel better.. as I know how mean girls feel.. where jealousy reigns where tHere exists Universal beauty of Light and Love as one person living now or then.. but anyway.. she looks not much older then.. at 19 as she does now at age 45.. there’s something magic going on here.. and i do not KNOW what it is BUT i FEEL WHAT IT IS beyond words alone..:)

    I hate to sound crude but she can look gorgeous when she picks her nose.. and no.. i’m not suggesting she does that as she is equally aggressive as beautiful.. as well.. and i make sure i stay on her kind side.. if at all possible.. or else.. the military drill sergeant comes out in her..:)

    Truly it is the chronic repressing of emotions that ages one.. she let’s all THAT OUT in NO uncertain terms with me.. as the empirical evidence still radiates from her face.. so i enjoy the full range of THAT up or down.. knowing it is healthy too..:)

    And she is mistaken for American Indian.. Hispanic.. East Indian.. Middle Eastern.. farther away from her actual half paternal Pacific Islander roots mixed with some American Indian.. English and Irish roots on her maternal side.. a thin nose for arid lands.. instead of wider nose for jungles of life.. are what makes her a diversity of human beauty all in one.. from west to east.. equally as such..:)

    Okay.. my scientific study of Wife.. Katrina.. is done for now!..;)

  7. Lily Lau says:

    I felt ALL THE LOVE of this tsunami 😀

  8. Ah.. so sad.. a Cordova Mall Dance and just a faceless nameless dummy to take a selfie with but WAIT.. drum roll.. next Facebook Profile Status thingy..coming..;)

    Yes.. Thanks God yes.. a pleasant and pretty blonde haired face.. don’t know the name but a really Super Kool Bear HEAD to top her off!.. and if all else fails on Sunday metro area dance walk.. drum roll.. coming next..;)

    Yes.. Yes.. Yes.. triple X.. i mean YEX! tHere is always wife Katrina as an easy fill-in for a selfie day or night.. but i do love to meet stranger than her heHE!.. as well.. she is kinda normal.. and i am.. well.. you know..;)

    But anyway wearing my Curious George Shirt.. with relaxing monkey.. pictured.. with the words ALL DAY EVERYDAY and yes always now.. is a Curious George PLAY DATE FOR ME!..wink emoticon WITH WONDER AND AMAZEMENT FOR ALL THAT IS.. AKA GOD!..;)

    NO BLOG POST Sunday.. 14,333 words shared on my other blogs at 3:16 AM will most definitely suffice.. while the next one brews.. living in print wRite here..;)

    Hmm.. i almost look ‘Joker Happy’ but hmm.. not quite.. i am kinda high today.. though.. like most days.. as heaven is literally now all the time for me.. as promised by the really cool dude Jesus.. in his reported words.. about the kingdom of heaven. with GOD inside us.. outside us.. ALL around us.. with a key word(S) of ALWAYS NOW!

    IT TAKES WORK THOUGH.. one will not get tHere with any magic incantation of a John 3:16.. as GOD gifts us with great stuff.. but GOD is also a GOD of merit.. requiring us to meet challenge in life.. adapt.. and change in continuous practice from birth to death.. the cost of the Kingdom of Heaven now.. is truly like a biggest camel or even Blue Whale fitting through less than an eye of a needle.. but possible yes.. for those who seek.. find.. and exercise a way that works through practice.. practice.. practice.. all now all life long! in mind and body balance.. to regulate emotions.. integrate senses.. increase cognitive executive functioning as well in focus and short term working memory.. and hey it can be as simple as free style all innate.. instinctual and intuitive DANCE! as i continue to flow with GOD like AIR in everynow dance.. i get closer and closer to the all powerful spirit of unconditional tough LOVE.. and fly higher and higher.. no different reAlly than ‘Jonathan Livingston Seagull… me.. now.. smiles.. and biggest smiles.. i feel and know now..:)

    I just had to have another reminder photo of that monkey kicked back in heaven.. named curious..
    Fred.. and truly back
    in the Summer of 2007.. after about a year and a half of continuous Chronic.. adrenal gland stuck on flight or flight work related stress.. my body is giving out.. where i am chilled in July in 100 degree heat when.. a breeze crosses my skin.. and I am already having problems viewing colors on TV screen without pain in my eyes.. and I cannot even bear to listen to talk radio anymore.. and music hurts well before then.. yes.. i am falling to general adaptation syndrome aka human exhaustion.. as described by Hans Selye.. as school and work does not teach one what chronic flight or fight stress will eventually do to a human being.. where all the bodily systems from cardio vascular to respiratory to nervous to yes.. all the systems are literally slowly destroyed by the poisons of stress hormones circulating through the body day after day that turns into 2 years for me.. where i literally almost die…

    Fear is the parent of most all stress and human hate.. and i have 100% faith that I will not go back to THAT PLACE.. of 2007 and 2008.. ’cause I know how to control my emotions and senses now.. in relative human free will.. so the monkey or more aptly described Bonobo that is me.. thrives now.. in all emotional.. sensory.. and rational areas of life in standard IQ status.. LIFE IS GOOD for us Bonobos..like Curious
    and Curiouser George.. and now Fred as well in always now..:)

    And now with the 9,513 words in the comments section.. this completes the comment portion that is one and same with the ‘official’ blog post up tHere with words of this ending comment for now rounding out the entire poetic expression of ‘Tsunami of LOVE’ equaling.. a grand total number words of:

    23,847 now..:)

  9. http://xpoet73.blogspot.com/2015/07/dead-or-alive


    senses.. FEELING
    emotions.. passions.. soaring
    when practiced freely.. as fruit of eyes..
    regenerating creativity and imagination
    in all that feels and senses.. when free
    to balance all of it best we can..
    a mix of lust and love makes
    human passion for life
    go ’round.. and
    upside down..
    in just the nick of time..
    staying on train of living life..
    they don’t teach that in school..
    it’s a poetry thing.. and not
    the kind that queen’s sing..
    A Lesson of life for me..
    is never leave
    low brow
    for some..
    but highest
    inside of me..
    expressing outside..
    as Passionate Tough
    Unconditional LOVE!


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