in all the art
and science it comes in,
in reason and imagination,
AND CREATIVITY, is fascinating to me;
IN ALL the hues of colors of imaginative creative artist
and shades of grey of robotic systemizing scientist that comes in, too.
And the ground is fertile for both, here on the so-called Wrong Planet,
and pART, of why I visit here, as both a science project and art project.
Well, obviously you are thinking WAY OUT OF THE BOX HERE,
as it seems you may be interpreting through the silver allegory
that I am this Judas Iscariot fellow reincarnated.
That’s interesting and perhaps flattering
considering he gETS to play a noted role
in biblical history, if he really exists then.
But I’m happy to be me, and truly
CANNOT imagine a greater life
than the one I have ‘literary’ created
for myself, with a ‘little help’ from ‘some
of my friends’ through both imagination and creativity; AND REASON;
AND blood sweat and tears that is no fairy tale, and one I can prove with irrefutable evidence in documentation here; that I have already done, ad-nauseam here, to this point now.
Well, we live in an extremely big world where a lot of sperm (around 250 million) in my father’s testicles, in just one ‘shot’, gets the opportunity to make the unique me from a selected fertile egg from my mother that is
THE ONLY VERY VERY UNIQUE ME THAT CONTINUES
to change, as all human beings do from second to second.
So yeah, even if I am reincarnated whoMEver, I am not going to be the identical human in mind and body balance the next second that I am the last second; so whether or not reincarnation is real; it is a moot point, in the grand scheme of existence now,
it’s not too
I am unique too,
as after all my mother is voted
as having the best figure in high school;
my father serves as the longest ever serving deputy sheriff
in Florida, at a 46 year record of iron grip on law enforcement;
and my grandfather is a Catholic Priest serving at the Vatican, for legal support, later marrying a 17 year old beautiful member of his Parish in Taylor county, in Florida; going on to getting excommunicated, writing several noted books in the last century and editing a magazine named Converted Catholic in New York, New York.
Yes, a person can look him up on Wiki where he still exists there, and in books on the Internet still referenced by theology students today.
Some of the books titled for a quick google search include ‘The Soul of a Priest’, ‘Out of the Labyrinth’, and ‘Behind the Dictator’s, which per last noted title, is a free read now, in PDF form.
Yeah, he is a real wordy dude like me, too; not stuff for today’s Twitter reading level ‘gold fish attention span folks’, as science now shows too, to get through without great READING difficulty either.
A breeze for me of course, as genetics ‘reads’ and ‘speaks’ great stuff, over and over again, when all the potential DNA is unpacked, epigenticAlly, in a positive way.
My mother is a published poet, so that is pArt of where I get my art too;
however, she goes by the Poet rules of Poet science,
while I go all free verse,
both in words
and what I like to call
new age renaissance straight
male nude ‘selfie’ photo art,
where I AM literally compared
as a nicer flesh and blood work of art,
by the opposite sex, in the buff, than
the stone statue of King David, by that Michelangelo dude;
THAT yeah, I can prove too; but it WILL NOT be FAMILY appropriate to directly link THAT ‘HERE’ NOW.
I go as a little bit harder of a ‘rock’, if ‘you’ will, THAN Michelangelo; so that does excite some of my female audience a little more I guess.
But I see all the functions and parts of of the human body, as an aesthetic work of all natural GOD Art;
I am no prude; let’s just PUT IT that way, for now.
LET’S JUST SAY, I AM MORE comfortable in my athletic body
than most of the photos I see of the folks who post here.
But I too, am a worm of a guy;
that I can evidence too, in early life;
extremely uncomfortable in my own skin
and in even walking down the sidewalk in feeling comfortable doing that.
Now, I dance walk a style of martial arts and ballet everywhere I go in real life in public stores, and am known as a literal dance legend that anyone can verify by calling any big department store in the Pensacola Metro area, as 3500 miles in 20 months has gained me huge exposure and free advertisement for this new style of dance all SHARED ALL over the frigging world on Facebook through smart phone videos by literally hundreds of others;
THAT can also be verified by calling almost anyone who posts on Facebook in this metro area who is young enough, capable enough, and still alive enough, to ‘breathe in’, ‘NEW AGE’, electronic, social interaction.
I am assessed by accomplished ballet artists
AS good at what I do in ballet mode,
and have been assessed by
military martial artist instructor experts
in the art of Kung FU, with expert like skills,
defined in their language of Kung FU,
and not mine that truly is
OR OTHER HUMAN LESSONS;
ALL innate, instinctual and intuitive,
as instructed by the GOD of Nature,
with me looking within for the expert advice that is encoded still, in my genetics, from my ‘invisible ancestors’ escaping predator and capturing prey that we all share in tapped or untapped encoded genetic memory.
Oh yeah, and for quick reference
for people who
I am just blowing
hot air out the butt,
anyone can do a ‘quick search’ on
“930LB LEG PRESS” with A YOUTUBE SEARCH,
and see what no human can specifically do IN TECHNIQUE on Youtube but me, in leg pressing 930 LBS, 14 TIMES, with my arms raised in the air, slowly and surely over the course of 88 seconds, on a parallel leg press machine that is bio-mechanically much harder to do than the vertical leg press that is frequented by ‘anabolic steroid heads’, all over the SO-CALLED macho YOUTUBE crowd.
I find my strength in the grace of the metaphor of CHI; just like Bruce Lee and million of other martial artists throughout world history. It ain’t nothing new; people are just too dim to do it, overall, in A Western World of extremely low overall artful physical intelligence.
So yeah, my 930Lb Technique record, may stand forever as the art of CHI continues to be lost through time; through mechanical ways of movement on the sidewalks of life, increasing globally, as we speak.
So yeah, ADDITIONALLY,
considering I AM a shut-in for 5 long years, with 19 documented medical disorders, including the worst pain known to mankind, type two Trigeminal Neuralgia, from waking to sleeping all though those five years; that is like someone drilling teeth without novocaine, except it is in my right eye and ear, making effective use of hearing and seeing almost impossible for 5 long years;
is also assessed as a pain
worse than crucifixion by the way,
in medical literature, as well.
AND CONSIDERING THE
other really difficult disorders of Sjogren Syndrome
where my eyes quit making tears, almost all together,
like swimming in salt water with eyes open;
AND Dysautonomia, where my blood pressure and heart rate are no longer properly synched by my central nervous system, and I almost pass out after eating a meal;
And Chronic SEVERE Insomnia, up to 40 days,
with as little as 35 hours of sleep of one hour of extremely shallow sleep, each night, with the assistance of a powerful Alpha blocker for the first 35 days and none in the last 5 of 40, in the period of spring (‘lent’) in 2008;
fibromyalgia; spinal stenosis; a congenitally fused vertebrae at the C6 vertebrae, precipitating early onset severe degenerative arthritis in my spine;
a congenitally closed up deviated septum in my nasal cavity with associated chronic mucosal inflammation that ENT’s ‘marvel at’, with my ability to breathe almost completely out of my mouth, instead, with that frigging congenital limitation too;
Severe Depression; Severe Anxiety; Alexithymia; Anhedonia;
Coat hanger Pain associated with Dysautonomia,
PTSD, ADHD, Autism, Moderate Carpal Tunnel Syndrome,
all assessed as miraculous healed/in remission, by doctors, some who suggest it is a religious type miracle on or about July 22nd of 2013; that I personally assess as an all natural GOD of Nature miracle;
I am just not ‘that impressed’ with most historical figures; and truly you couldn’t assess me with anyone, as reincarnated that I would want to be now, more than me, including the big dude Jesus, in the gnostic gospels of Thomas, himself.
If I AM not me, I will not believe that I exist now, either,
considering all of this, without the irrefutable evidence
I bring to the table here.
I am always a cynical
cognition dude too,
until I fully become me;
in much greater
all natural HUMAN POTENTIAL
PER THE GOD OF NATURE THAT INSTILLS MY
HUMAN NATURE AS ME.
There is nothing I can imagine any better,
in terms of human existence, accomplishment, or bliss
than what I am now; that I can irrefutably evidence
‘here’ in photos, videos, and those hundreds of
ear to ear gorgeous smiling 21 year old or so
faces of the opposite sex, posing with me, per the
bliss of the muse of dance I bring to them.
I live in the same heaven of now that the so-called real
YOGI-LIKE NATURIST Jesus of the gnostic gospels of Thomas talks about IN ALL REAL NATURE NOW.
Historical study suggests that around 18 percent of what He originally states still exists in the NEW T, by the way.
All of what I say, PER PHILOSOPHY, is still recorded in the big online world IN THE NOW, MY FRIEND.
AND IN MY OPINION THE Ethics I MAKE for myself AND OTHERS, are greater than the ethics of that of Gnostic Jesus, at that time, in human tribal oriented history WHO promotes war for change among human beings.
I am both warrior and lover.
However, I do not promote war;
I promote peace through the swords of words.
And in my case I have literally written
over TEN million countable words
still evidenced on the Internet,
since November of 2010;
AND four, seven thousand word epic FREE VERSE poetry posts, illustrating my UNIQUE AND BORROWED philosophies of life in videos, photos, and words in the last month or so, with hundreds of thousands of TOTAL other words in the last two months or so, and record of an eight thousand word epic poem in the last week, to make the 5th one greater than seven thousand words, in around a month or so.
I do what no human has done before me.
So I cannot be compared to any human before me,
equitably, overall, at least.
And of course that IS NOT TO SAY THAT OTHER
HUMANS HAVE NOT DONE MUCH MORE
INCREDIBLE OTHER THINGS THAT I HAVE
NOT DONE, AS OF COURSE THEY HAVE.
Anyway, THAT IS interesting to me, SMILES,
whether it is or not, to anyone else;
and truly in the grand scheme of things;
that’s what counts for
OH, AND BEFORE I GO, I DO LOVE
the portrayal of Judas in the old movie
‘Jesus Christ SuperSTAR’,
where truly the villain
becomes the Hero in
being brave enough to ask
what, where, how,
I am not afraid to ask
the big questions of life and illustrate them
with answers in a very personal way.
I am a fearless LOVING child of the GOD of Nature, no different than
a Lion on the Savannah, really, for overall strength, compared
to size; or the grace of a seagull flying through the air,
for overall grace, compared to size; and inherent
limitations and advantages for BOTH.
TO SUM IT UP IN THE
‘NUTSHELL’ THAT IS
NOW ME’; CONSIDER
ME ‘CRAZY’ OR
BUT I AM PERHAPS THE
FREEST HUMAN IN THE WORLD
A MIGHTY COOL
PLACE TO LIVE
THE SILLY DETAILS OF LITTLE
PICTURE SYSTEMIZING THINKING,
ASSOCIATED WITH ALL OF THIS
BIG ART PICTURE THINKING AND FEELING
IN THE HEAVEN OF NOW WHERE I FOR ONE
AND the best thing of all, IS I believe it is possible
for many other folks too.
And the worst thing of all, IS DISBELIEVERS WITH
LITTLE EMOTING EMOTION OF FAITH, HOPE,
AND OR OVERALL BELIEF IN THEIR SELF
AND THE REST OF NATURE
THAT IS THE GOD OF NATURE;
AS THEY continue to do the
Einstein definition of
Insanity by staying
in the literal
NOW IN A DIFFERENT
UNIVERSE OF HUMAN EXPERIENCE
SAME BASIC STUFF THE GNOSTIC
JESUS, BUDDHA, KRISHNA, LAO TZU,
speak to, too;
ONLY difference really, per me and
others who are suggesting the
same thing now, IS, we are
alive, as the ‘Phoenix’ rises
from the ashes of
And lives again
through the all natural
eyes of a child of the
GOD OF NATURE.
‘OUR’ WORDS CANNOT
BE TARNISHED, BY THE
LIES OF OTHERS, IN
OF WORDS OF TRUTH
AND LIGHT IN THE
NEW DIGITAL AGE
AND LIGHT IS
OUT ThERE FOR
THOSE who continue
to seek, find, employ,
utilize, develop, and practice
it continuously IN ACTION IN REAL LIFE
NOW. AND I AM BY FAR CERTAINLY
NOT THE ONLY PERSON
WHO SPEAKS THAT
THE GOD OF NATURE
IS AN EQUAL
EMPLOYER OF MERIT
to be a true soldier
I SEE NO
who doesn’t have to WORK
for the GOD of Nature
as a volunteer to
make life miracles
To suggest that Jesus or anyone else
is more than a man OR WOMAN,
in theIR real life or EXAGGERATE
AND MYTH THE REAL LIFE
NATURAL miracles they do,
then nor now, OR LATER,
per directly specially
anointed by GOD,
FROM my perspective, every time
I hear my Catholic church peers,
Sunday morning, callING Jesus
the ONLY BEGOTTEN
SON OF GOD, MAKES
IN A HUMAN HISTORY
‘WHO AND THAT’ REPEATS
ITSELF OVER AND
OVER, per Einstein’s
DEF of insanity,
ALL OVER AGAIN.
I CHOOSE DIFFERENT,
AND LIVE THERE IN
THAT HEAVEN ALL
sums it up
is a most interesting prompt and way of life to me..
and there are truly too many answers for me to provide in a succinct way..
that will make most people comfortable.. I think. My inspiration comes from the genetics of my published science of poetry mother who never ever goes free verse and who chooses to remain anonymous for online purposes.. And an author of a grandfather still used as a reference point in theology classes from last century…
However.. poetry is never something much of interest to me other than the meaning of leaves of grass in Universal connection to nature of Walt Whitman.. That’s truly only a line or two that I read of his poetry.. but one poet friend compares some of what I do to him.. and that is a height of unexpected compliments for me.. along with a Ginsberg analogy…
Poetic expressions flows little at age 13 or so.. in a Christmas story winning two home rooms prize.. and at age 18 for a page or two in a philosophy class.. and culture takes all the rest of that potential away.. per all non-fiction mechanical ways of cognition in school and work…
Truly for me a gift of Poetic free verse expression.. is an escape from THAT and pain of health disorders to reconnect language with emotions after 5 years of total anhedonia… All natural though.. inspired by what is inside of me and the inspiration of all others as I continue to go along…
I gain great pleasure in any flow of art as poetry.. dance.. singing.. martial arts.. and piano are all flow of art to me.. without structure.. lessons.. or guidelines from or ‘form’ any others.. just the love of the flow of art itself…
Again.. Just a gift.. but I feel that ‘SPOCK MIND MELD’ connection with other REAL LESSONED POETS when I READ THEM..
and just love to go with that flow with my comments as such.. and I guess that’s the only so-called REAL POETRY i do.. as the pattern of flow is already there to just let it all go.. without thinking of what I am doing.. for me.. tHere..:)
Art for me is to live and escape mechanical cognition.. and at least for me.. if I have to think about
what I am doing in way.. shape or FORM.. the art is over for me.. and the terminator of my heart and soul that is a robot computer mind comes back again to steal again…
I’d rather STAY ‘BACK’ as artist than a robot.. my heart and soul is way too precious to lose again in spirit of free art expression.. no matter the cost of who likes that or not.. in the larger world of eyes with different perceiving universes.. challenges.. and gifts…
BUT with ALL OF THAT SAID..
I am just human too.. and love human connection.. so while I will not link my current post that speaks to this the way my heart and soul speaks.. as to not make any of the ‘narrower thinking minds’ uncomfortable.. online or off..
I hope to be there to read.. and do the ‘Spock mind meld’.. to connect in heart and soul.. to express that in comments of feeling of words of spirit.. rather than conscious thinking ways.. of analytical communication…
I’m sure that will make sense to ‘you’.. but some folks will NOT understand that.. online or off.. and that’s okay too.. as truly before 2013.. this is not part of my UNI-VERSE of input or output either.. but always with smiles for me..for now.. again..TG..:)
I’ve already been to hell.. and there is no one or anything that anyone will do in this world to make me the least bit uncomfortable.. as those ‘real flames ‘do bring a perspectives of cognitive and affective empathy of 14.5 billion years or so.. with more smiles.. and winks.. of course..too..:)
And oh by the way.. i love ‘your’ poem and here is my ‘Spock mind meld’ response to it.. in closing and living for now.. away from the mechanical cognition.. I just do..as sure that’s part of life too..:)
Ah.. the dog of love.. lives in the cold and barren leaves.. in death of trees.. that no longer exist in hues of grey.. that January brings.. to souls that grow cold.. in SAD ways of dim light days.. of hearts no longer red.. with pale pink that cannot breath in and OUT..
BUT THAT dog lives on in growling growing love..
that cannot be put away for ever..
no matter rotten leaves
or empty limbs