White Knight AS Dark Horse

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sophisticated writes:

An infinite, eternal, omnipotent, anti-matter, timeless,

sentient high power can cause something into existence.

adifferentname writes:

Please provide evidencethat such a being exists

or that such a being can exist.

sophisticated writes:

You are a good example.

There was a time when you did not exist.

You were nothing. Think about that for a moment.

Then all of a sudden you came to life.

adifferentname writes:

How sheltered a life have you led to not know about biology?

aghogday writes:

‘He’ might be doING something else but i can easily prove both.

For one thing GOD lives within you and I, we, and me.

GoD is ALIVE as an energy inspiring

FORCE that is you and I, we,

and me

THAT

CAN BE MORE FULLY

UTILIZED AND EXPRESSED,

FOR THOSE WHO ASK

ALL THE QUESTIONS,

LOOK FOR ALL

THE ANSWERS,

AND FIND THEM WITH A

TOTALLY OPEN MIND AND BODY IN BALANCE.

For another thing, this thing called HUMAN mind

is not measurable, IN FULL AFFECT OR EFFECT BY SCIENCE.

However, this thing called creativity as the Human ‘Quantum’ mind AND body BALANCED, UNLEASHED, AND RELEASED

per fuller use of all human intelligences AND EXPRESSION THEREOF, in synergy, CAN AND WILL make real life HUMAN miracles happen, WITH HUMAN RELATIVE FREE WILL MORE FULLY EMPLOYED.

For instance, I as a shut in person with 19 medically documented disorders, FOR FIVE FULL YEARS, evidenced; shown by science and documented by doctor AS AND with NO chance of recovery, are ALL recovered ‘simply’ and surely by the ‘Quantum’ Power of my mind AND BODY IN BALANCE, with the higher force of Nature aka GOD or Mother nature True, IN HUMAN BEING MIND AND BODY BALANCE, AGAIN, MORE FULLY UNLEASHED, RELEASED, AND EXPRESSED EXTERNALLY IN FLESH AND BLOOD REAL LIFE; not just these ‘skeletons’ of words, alone.

Sadly, if you canNOT do this too, perhaps you are the one with a sheltered life, friend.

I invite you to ‘COME OUT and PLAY’, AS LIFE WITH GOD, AS A FORCE WITHIN EXPRESSED EXTERNALLY AS SUCH, in real life, IS THE STUFF OF REAL LIFE human MIRACLES COME TRUE..

JUST CALL ME ‘PETER PAN’, IF YOU LIKE..

AND THE ONLY real DIFFERENCE BETWEEN ‘ME’ AND ‘HIM’ IS

I CAN PROVE DREAMS

COME TRUE..

NO SH**..

THEY DO….

And here is the evidence, below, freely provided of course, as promised some months ago on this site, as there is no reward greater than the force of GOD in human mind AND BODY BALANCED, as a ‘Quantum’ Creative Force, making REAL HUMAN DREAMS COME TRUE…in FLESH AND BLOOD LIFE.

QUANTUM PHYSICS IS NICE, BUT ‘QUANTUM’

HUMAN MIND AND BODY IN BALANCE

IS KINDA LIKE ‘DIVINE’ AND OR

THE SCHOOL BOY NERD DREAM OF

SUPERMAN

COME TRUE..

Nietzsche STYLE AND even MORE thaN THAT

EXPRESSED PHILOSOPHY, AS SUCH.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Übermensch

But nah, no grade school lessons

WILL EVER TAKE YOU

TO WHERE i
am now,

Friend..;)

WHAT YOU MAY CALL GIBBERISH,

IS THE STUFF OF REAL LIFE MIRACLES,

PERIOD, IN FULL COLOR LIVING EVIDENCE..:)

And if scientists over here, in the U.S., cannot explain it,

I seriously doubt you can either.

But go ahead give ‘her’ a try if you will,

can, or like.

Mother Nature TRUE COME alive AS ‘GOD’,

in sentient human being(S) IS real AND TRUE.

AND YEAH, IT’S KINDA LIKE COMING AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN,

ALWAYS IN THE HEAVEN OF NOW, ETERNALLY NOW..

JUST LIKE THE PROMISE OF THAT

SO-CALLED JESUS DUDE..NOW..

IN FLESH AND BLOOD REALITY

ALWAYS NOW.

TRULY there’s

only room for

an infinite smile in now,

wHere i live NOW, eternAlly NOW,

wHere forever is one second of Heaven..
ALLWAYS
NOW..:)

https://katiemiafrederick.com/2014/12/09/gods-muse-of-dance/

https://katiemiafrederick.com/2015/02/02/3000-miles-of-dance-walking-now/

I am a very polite and kind person in real life.

But my entire life people have taken that kindness for weakness.

But truly most of them have no idea how strong i am,

either in the spirit of love or the spirit of strength.

Walking into middle school the first day in 6th grade,

homophobic so-called real boys call me the F word

and not the Fred word, for smiling generously,

at everyone I meet in the hall.

Nah, they never see what

I am capable of in strength,

until i challenge the biggest football player

to a game of arm wrestling, me at skin and bones,

and him extremely muscled for a 13 year-old,

at that time, in 8th grade.

I put him down

in less than a second,

and he says, oh sh**, Fred is STRONG.

After all, my middle is Arthur and that means

strong.

WELL, i’m not skin and bones anymore,

and i’m still nice and i’m still strong,

and never does anyone ever

bother me again,

about being nice in the real world.

And if I see them giggling behind my back,

when I do ballet in either the club

where I dance

or in the general public,

I do one of two things.

In the club where I dance with all the

pretty girls,

I show ’em a quick display

of my lightening quick

martial arts kicks,

getting less

than

an inch

from any

target I desire.

And in public, now, I show ’em my 930LB leg press video of me doing it slowly and surely 14 times, with my hands in the air. And then I tell ’em, if they do ballet/martial style dance for 3200 miles, in 18 months, they too, can be ‘Superman’ too…..in words to that affect AND EFFECT..;)

I have to prove people wrong in their assumptions about me, almost my entire life; but finally now, I have nothing to prove anymore, as it is ALL ONLINE, HA!HA!

AND WHEN I DIE, EVERY LOVING AND STRONG FEAT OF FRED WILL CONTINUE TO LIVE, AS LONG AS SERVERS SERVE, MY LOVE AND STRENGTH.

SO FITTING it is, when my friend Ariel (like the name of the angel) takes a video of me at the gym, lifting that weight, and the song by Rihanna, Paul McCartney, and Kanye West, “Four Five Seconds” comes on, with the words “you take my kindness for weakness” and I’m “four five seconds to wildin”.

Yes, I am wild, I am Free, And I am still a kind and smiling child of GOD AKA Mother Nature TRUE who CAN LITERALLy kick A**, with a half-a-ton of power, if it’s the last resort for survival.

Fortunately, as always, as no one has ever dared lay a hand or a foot, on me, yet, in a serious threat of fight, all I have to do is show ’em what i’m capable of.

And truly, I am capable of almost anything

and everything,

if properly

focused and motivated,

with due ethics, in tow, of course.

A person can tug on “Superman’s Cape”,

until they take it off, and find out

I’m neither “Big bad Jim” or “Slim”

OR EVEN ‘SUPERMAN’;

someone

AND SOMETHING

entirely new that they likely

have never ever encountered before……

Yeah, someone inspires this but i’m getting too well known in the general public, to give anymore specifics than this, without hurting someone’s feelings. ‘Cause yeah, I am the eternal nice guy, in the crowd….a people pleaser who has the potential to KiCK A** too.

AND FOR SOME ‘REASON’, THE FOLLOWING SONG(s), COME(S) TO MIND, too..;)

http://freeversenudepoetry.blogspot.com/2015/03/free-verse-nude-poetry.html

aghogday writes:

For one thing GOD lives within you and I, we, and me.

adifferentname writes:

We’re discussing the existence of actual supreme beings,

not the metaphorical euphoric fantasies

brought on by self-actualisation.

Thanks for the response,

but you’ve added nothing

useful to the debate.

aghogday writes:

Well, NO, you are INCORRECT.

That’s your definition of GOD.

Jesus, the man, historically reported in the Gnostic Gospel of Thomas,

clearly states GOD is inside human being, outside human being, above so below.

In other words, Nature IS frigging GOD. It’s as simple as THAT AS ALWAYS HAS BEEN, ALWAYS WILL BE, AS LONG AS NATURE EXISTS.

I am just a TRUE APOSTLE OF JESUS, IN THIS REGARD, WITH comprehensive knowledge of most other religions too, where the TRUTH remains the same, as Nature as the Higher Power, AS GOD, and simply the fact that human being is a watered down ‘worm’, in comparison to what REAL HUMAN

STRENGTH CAN BE with the higher power of Mother Nature TRUE MANIFEST IN HUMAN BEING Nature, as a free GIFT AS IS, MORE FULLY EMPLOYED AND PRACTICED in numerous intelligences

that most human beings today, never touch, in metaphor or reality.

YOGI FOLKS, LIKE THE REPORTED JESUS, can steam heat off of robes in icy waters, AND CONTROL THEIR BRAIN WAVES LIKE ME, as they have control over their autonomic nervous system through relative free will, and BIO-FEEDBACK, OF COURSE, LIKE ME.

THESE ARE THE ELEMENTS OF THE HIGHER POWER OF NATURE IN HUMAN, MORE THOROUGHLY PURSUED, FOUND, AND PRACTICED AS REAL SUPERMEN AND WOMEN, as human beings, through relative FREE WILL.

It’s much more than a long word in the dictionary that describes other words, describing REAL LIFE HUMAN MIRACLES, in comparison to what the average ‘human worm’ can do, WITH OR WITHOUT BIG SHELLS OF WORDS THAT are just mental masturbation, in true effect and AFFECT, online, OR EVEN OFFLINE, in most cases.

AND THAT’s OKAY, as meaningless pastimes, are a way to pass the time, too.

I prefer real life miracles in flesh and blood, cause THAT’S SUPER KOOL, JUST LIKE THE REAL JESUS, AS REPORTED, SAYS.

ANYWAY, here’s the documented evidence, as reported in the GOSPEL of Thomas, all about the Pantheist Yogi Leaning dude, Jesus.

AND YOU can keep talking about a Supreme FAIRY TALE, all you want, as a form of Mental Masturbation, while I continue to evidence a REAL GOD, I CAN IRREFUTABLY PROVE, AS A FREE HIGHER POWER OF GOD IN HUMAN BEING THAT IS TRUTH, PROVEN, AT LEAST, BY ME, in real life STUFF.

http://www.sacred-texts.com/chr/thomas.htm

GOD IS the TRUTH AND THE LIGHThe All Seeing EYE, AS metaphor.

EVEN Madonna is smart enough to figure that one out.

It doesn’t even take a step in A school room

OR WALK TO THE altar,

to TRULY KNOW

AND EXPERIENCE

THE ONE TRUE GOD OF NATURE.

IN FACT, BOTH ARE MAJOR ROADBLOCKS

TO HUMAN NATURE MORE FULLY REALIZED,

WITH THE GOD

OF NATURE.

TRULY nothing else matters, in what IS TRUE REALITY.

ANY questions..;)

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42 Responses to White Knight AS Dark Horse

  1. http://wrongplanet.net/forums/viewtopic.php?f=20&t=266978&start=105

    ^^^

    AspieOtaku wrote:

    Man has discovered electricity fire etc while god not existing hasn’t discovered anything hence god does not exist!

    aghogday writes:

    Hmm.. ‘you keep suggesting’ there is NOT an external GOD somewhere.

    Well that’s not GOD.

    When and IF you, for metaphor, find the HIGHER power of GOD aka Nature within you, after being a nerd like me, who is a complete 5-year shut-in with 19 medically documented disorders that both science and doctors suggest have no chance of recovery, and then FIND YOU CAN press 930 LBS with your legs, 14 times slowly with hands raised in the air, AND cure ALL YOUR MALADIES, WITH JUST THE GIFT OF THE HIGHER POWER OF GOD AKA NATURE INSIDE OF YOU, COME BACK AND TELL MY THIS HIGHER POWER OF GOD DOES NOT EXIST ‘CAUSE I FOR ONE CAN PROVE IT DOES, IN LIVING 87 SECONDS COLOR, and other broad-band Internet links.

    Oh yeah, and then there is over 150 girls smiling brilliantly with me while I excite them in the ART of dance, and I am now considered the overall best dancer, without even having to enter a dance contest, in one of the top 100 assessed dance clubs in America, where I do just that, coming up on my 51st week in a little less than a year of doing JUST THAT, 3 to 4 hours solid, with not even a water break, at Old Seville Quarter, in Pensacola, FL.

    Oh yeah, and then there is documentation of me dance walking a martial arts/ballet style of dance walk everywhere I go in public for over 3000 miles, and now over 3200 miles at the 18 month mark since the higher power of Nature aka GOD healed me from within, with absolutely no solutions from the medical community provided to me, after literally over 100 doctor’s appointments in that 5 year period of shut-in illness, with them just finally saying words to the effect and affect of ‘deal with it there is nothing we can do for you’, in fact, don’t even come back, as you are just wasting ‘your’ and ‘our’ time, as ‘we’ are at ‘our’ ‘wits end’ to help ya.

    I for one again, here, can prove this higher power of GOD aka Nature exists, manifest in me.

    And trust me, if you ever have anything close to my experience with this one TRUE GOD OF NATURE, YOU TOO, WILL HAVE A COMPLETE TURN AROUND, AND 100% TRUST AND FAITH IN THE GOD OF NATURE, AS TRULY AT CORE, I BELIEVE THAT I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE WITH THIS POTENTIAL. I FOR ONE, BELIEVE THIS TRULY ‘DIVINE SPARK’ OF HEALING AND AMAZING SUPERMAN like INCREDIBLE STRENGTH IS THE GIFT OF HUMAN NATURE MORE FULLY EXPRESSED AND GIFTED BY THE GOD OF NATURE.

    TO NOT USE IT, IS SIMPLY TO NEVER GAIN IT OR LOSE IT..

    IN JUST my very educated opinion and real LIFE EVIDENCED STUFF, PROVIDED BELOW AGAIN, FOR IRREFUTABLE EVIDENCE OF ALL I SAY HERE, for anyone new in the reading audience to this conversation, who needs some kind, any kind of inspiration, to live just one more now, of now.

    If I can come back from the lowest places of human existence, I do not see why most anyone else, WHO NEVER GIVES UP THEIR human relative FREE WILL, AND THE POTENTIAL EMPOWERING PERSONAL EMOTIONS OF FAITH, HOPE, AND BELIEF; AND A SUCCESSFUL PRACTICE OF INCREASING THE ART OF PHYSICAL INTELLIGENCE IN MIND AND BODY BALANCE, REGULATING EMOTIONS, INTEGRATING SENSES, IMPROVING COGNITIVE EXECUTIVE FUNCTIONING THROUGH SHORT TERM MEMORY AND focus CANNOT DO THE SAME THING.

    MEANWHILE people argue over a 3 letter word, where the essence of TRUTH in what so-called Jesus says, in the Gnostic Gospel of Thomas is irrefutably TRUE, at least in my case, evidenced as such.

    http://www.sacred-texts.com/chr/thomas.htm

    Both Atheists and MOST so-called modern Christians are missing the FRIGGING ENTIRE POINT OF THE HIGHER POWER OF THE SO-CALLED 3 LETTER WORD THAT IS A METAPHOR FOR THE HIGHER POWER OF MOTHER NATURE TRUE.

    AND THAT my friend is both amazing strength, and healing, for the end of HUMAN STRESS, MISERY, AND SUFFERING AKA THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN NOW.

    MEANWHILE, PEOPLE ARE STILL STRESSED OUT, MISERABLE, AND SUFFERING, PERHAPS BECAUSE THEY JUST WANNA BE THAT WAY AND DO NOT LITERALLY WANNA SAVE THEIR LIFE, in A real way of doing JUST THAT.

    GOD AKA NATURE ALLOWS THAT, WITH human RELATIVE FREE WILL, AS THE TICKET TO LITERAL HUMAN HELL IS PAVED WITH LACK OF HUMAN RELATIVE FREE WILL, AND A GARDEN OF PERSONAL EMOTIONS OF FAITH, HOPE, AND BELIEF THAT IS NOT APPROPRIATELY TENDED TO AND GROWN STRONG TO MAKE REAL LIFE HUMAN MIRACLES AND DREAMS COME TRUE.

    I FOR ONE AGAIN, BELOW, CAN PROVE human DREAMS DO COME TRUE in reality as TRUTH.

    The sages throughout time all have said basically the same thing to the ears and eyes of the blind and deaf to the higher powers of HUMAN life manifest from MOTHER nature TRUE AKA GOD in human nature reality FOR the potential of bliss, nirvana, AKA THE KINGDOM OF HUMAN HEAVEN NOW, WHICH AGAIN IS, SIMPLY THE ABSENCE OF HUMAN NEGATIVE STRESS, SUFFERING, MISERY, AND EVEN PREMATURE DEATH.

    https://katiemiafrederick.com/2014/12/09/gods-muse-of-dance/

    https://katiemiafrederick.com/2015/02/02/3000-miles-of-dance-walking-now/

    Signed,

    ‘Yoda’..:)

    “FORCE IS GOD”
    “GOD IS FORCE”
    “FORCE IS YOU”
    “YOU IS FORCE”

    I DON’T GIVE AN F (or personal Fred) WHAT YOU CALL
    IT.

    I JUST WANT YOU TO BE
    ‘SUPERMAN AND/OR SUPERWOMAN’ TOO,

    WHOMEVER IS READING THIS,

    IT exists and I can prove IT
    EXISTS as IT is mE too!

    I just hope and pray that whomever you are,
    you are three and more achieving and attaining
    a
    similar
    IT OF LIFE, ALL NATURAL, ALL FREE FOR THOSE WHO
    DO ACHIEVE AND ATTAIN IT, AS ‘SUPERMEN or and SUPERWOMEN’, THREE OR MORE…
    AND ‘IT’ WILLING, perhaps, THOUSANDS, OR EVEN MILLIONS MORE.. IN TRUE AFFECT AND
    EFFECT OF HUMAN NATURE LIFE PRACTICED WITH THE IT OF NATURE in HIGHEST OF HUMAN

    POTENTIAL.

    When I recovered from all those illnesses that was proof enough for me to have 100% FAITH, HOPE, BELIEF, AND TRUST in IT.

    MY GOAL AFTER THAT IS TO DO SOMETHING, ANYTHING, TO SHOW FOLKS, WHAT IT CAN DO.

    AND I FOR ONE, AM SUCCESSFUL IN DOING WHAT IT HELPED AND CONTINUES TO HELP ME TO DO.

    AND AGAIN, FOR CRYSTAL CLEAR CLARITY, IT IS THE HIGHER POWER OF MOTHER NATURE TRUE MANIFEST
    IN HUMAN NATURE REALITY.

    As lady Gaga clearly states, in ‘BORN THIS WAY’ that I will provide
    below for evidence too.

    ‘IT DOESN’T MATTER IF YA CALL’ IT
    ‘him
    or
    capital
    HIM’,
    “The M the M the M”,
    or the three letter pejorative GOD,
    IT exiSts and IT MAKES REAL LIFE HUMAN MIRACLES
    IN HIGHER HUMAN POTENTIAL COME TRUE IN REAL LIFE TOO!

    AND YES, ‘BABY, I WAS BORN THIS WAY’, FORGET ABOUT IT, AND
    AM LITERALLY AND METAPHORICALLY BORN AGAIN, AS A ‘SUPERMAN’
    IN REAL LIFE FASHION WITH IT INSTEAD OF AGAINST IT.

    We most ALL HAVE THE POTENTIAL TO BE REAL ‘SUPERSTARS’.

    Any questions…:)

    _________________
    KATiE MiA FredericK!iI

    Gravatar is one of the coolest things ever!! !

    http://en.gravatar.com/katiemiafrederick

  2. I think that anyone seeing a smile as unmanly probably feels quite insecure themselves.. cool to able to armwrestle so well… 🙂

    • The saddest part of all to me, is the cultural illusion that real men cannot freely express emotions is the number one cause of stress, illness, and premature death, among men, who usually die well before women, in westernized civilizations.

      And to be able to FULLY EXPRESS EMOTIONS, IRONICALLY ENOUGH, IS TO potentiAlly BE, ALMOST Superhuman in strength, compared to those males or females who STAY REPRESSED, OPPRESSED, OR SUBjugated through illusory fears..:)

      Thanks for visiting today, Bjorn. 🙂

  3. claudia says:

    it’s sad when people mistake kindness for weakness… and it’s a good point when we don’t have to prove things anymore..

    • I do still find great pleasure in showing repressed, oppressed, and subjugated males through SUBJUGATING illusory fears of western cultures THAT true male strength, EVEN PHYSICALLY strength, LITERALLY AS SUCH, as is the case already for many females, AT CORE, IS GENERATED through freely expressing a full range of emotion AND MOVING GRACE, AND NOT STIFF WAYS OF ‘JOHN WAY NE’..;)

      THAT IS THE MOST IRONIC PART, in the gender illusions of our westernized cultures.

      And sadly, increasingly now, in the Eastern ones, as well, as materialism gains a greater foothold OVER SIMPLY BEING a connecting HUMAN BEING.

      THANKS for coming by, and have a great now, IS always MY HOPE FOR YOU, Claudia..:)

  4. Yes, all the answered can be found if you have an open mind… thing is: more people in this world have closed-minds and are extremely ignorant, which is the reason for so much hate

    • This is so true, Desmond, a closed mind is a sure path to a black hole soul, and real human hell.

      Only if ‘they’ ‘knew’.

      Only if ‘they’ ‘knew’.

      Only if ‘they’ ‘knew’.

      And that’s kinda like the cock crowing three times.

      But it’s real.

      Thanks for commenting and hope you are having GREAT FUN NOW!..:)

  5. brian miller says:

    I think that kindness…like humility…like acknowledging our own failings…can be seen as weakness…though that is sad and often reflects the nature of the other person more than any failing on our part….it challenges the belief in how people define strength…

    • IT DOES reflect the nature of the other person, and the challenge, as always, is not falling to the level of the cold hearted person, as many people do, and become just another cold-hearted bully.

      Hope you are having a great day Brian, and thanks for stopping by. 🙂

  6. kanzensakura says:

    I feel badly for those who think strength is only in “manly” things, beating someone up, playing football, hunting…and that smiles, tears, compassion are weak. We just hve to continue on with that different strength and heart.

    • I think true strength is the full expression of both physical and mental strength for survival and emotional strength for love, balanced like Yin and Yang. 🙂

      And the practice of life, practiced well, can take one tHere almost continually if that intent of practice is never ending..:)

      Thanks for coming by kanzensakura, and I HOPE you are doing well. 🙂

  7. billgncs says:

    I’m so glad you can cut loose! Was that your wife ? Pretty picture.

    • Thanks for asking billgnc; yes, that is my wife, the west or east Indian princess who is a Pacific Islander American Indian mix in real life, who has the blessing of never aging, as reported by her admiring onlookers in real life, and even my mother, included, in perhaps an unusual in-law approving way..:)

      And yes, I’m definitely cut loose from the chains of the oppressing, repressing elements and subjugating illusory fears of culture, and yes! I am! totally footloose, floating like air on terrestrial land..:)

      Thanks again, for visiting with me, and hope you are feeling greater than fine today..:)

  8. Prajakta says:

    This was a great take… Perceptions and misconceptions about being a “man” and judging one’s actions… Like others rightly said, we need to have an open mind.

    • Thanks Prajakta. I truly believe the most beautiful thing about life, is expressing it freely and viewing it openly with a mind that knows no bounds of fear.

      And thanks for stopping by today, and hope you are having a wonderful day in free and open minded viewing ways!..:)

  9. http://wrongplanet.net/forums/viewtopic.php?f=20&t=275387&start=810

    ^^^

    ruveyn wrote:

    God is currently MIA.

    aghogday writes:

    That’s truly the best literal answer I’ve heard yet, as God is the literal force of ALL action and not a discernible concrete thingy, other than everything that is perceived.

    Yes, in other words, the forest, at times, can go missing in the action of focusing on much smaller, discrete trees.

    Narrator wrote:

    The God family forefathers were able to do amazing things. With a little chewing gum, some twine, a stick and a couple frogs they could do miraculous things. But each successive generation of the God family inherited less of the talents of the previous. Which I guess explains why the current generation is MIA.

    aghogday writes:

    I realize that is a tongue and cheek statement but ironically, per my current perception and definition of this three letter symbol named GOD, it is incredibly insightful.

    I never found GOD in church. I’ve always found GOD within ME and in Nature.

    Truly no words are required, and I do mean that literally.

    Science now shows that we live in a connected Interdependent Universe named as Nature, generally speaking, and some folks connect to THIS Universe more than others, as human beings have a ‘plastic’ natured mind AND BODY, subject to environmental challenges, neuroplasticity, epigenetics, classical evolution, AND THE RESULTING HUMAN adaptations that can be overall positive or negative in effect and AFFECT.

    HOWEVER, THE MOST IMPORTANT thing to understand for human well being in balance with the rest of NATURE PER WHAT I AND MANY PEOPLE INCLUDING the Gnostic reports of Jesus name as a similar metaphor for the living GOD of ALL THAT IS a continual moving and changing force, as an Interdependent RELATIONSHIP FOR ALL THE ‘DETAILS’ OR ‘TREES’ INVOLVED..

    YES, TRULY IN THE CASE of human beings the most important part of that for basic survival, as a human being is the AFFECT PART OR MORE SPECIFICALLY EMOTIONAL AND SENSORY EMPATHY.

    SADLY ENOUGH, as is the case, as a stereotype perhaps, is that most scientists are stuck in a specialized mechanical cognition area of mind, and literally do not more fully experience the emotional and sensory areas of life, simply, as ironically, the same science, overall, shows that a mind stuck in mechanical cognition represses those CONNECTING areas of the experience of human being with the rest of nature; most importantly HUMAN BEINGS.

    I’VE Never met an ’empath’, who didn’t believe in the connecting force of this three letter metaphor for the Interdependent Relationship of ALL things.

    However, I’ve met plenty of ‘psychopathic’, clergy type folks, who base their life on money, power, and control of other human beings in dominance FROM notching checks in belt loops for having sex with women as objects with no empathic connection to raking in cash from the congregation to buy a bigger house.

    People who are successfully connected with other humans and nature, generally speaking, do not need material THINGS and subjugating power over other HUMANS to simply be content.

    The greatest emptiness in life is not feeling a genuine oxytocin connection to other humans, and the proprioception sense that is now considered by some scientists as the 6th sense of humans that is sorely undeveloped in modern humans from A LIFE SPENT AS sedentary, IN NOT MORE FULLY CONNECTING to rest of the environment in ACTUALLY FEELING IT AND NOT JUST ‘SEEING’ IT WITH THE OTHER 5 SENSES.

    There is a spectrum of human connection to other humans and animals ranging from the archetypal ‘psychopath’ or ‘cold hearted devil’ that tortures small animals and sets fires just to see the damage, to the ‘angel’ or human ’empath’ WHO HAS SO MUCH LOVING connection to humans and animals that they cannot bear to look at those sad animal commercials, and cannot separate the feelings of others from their feelings.

    I for one, live in the second area of life.

    However, I for one, have the ‘privilege’ of moving to the first part that is truly what I understand as literal human hell now, with the loss of that connection precipitated by catastrophic multiple illness.

    The first thing I noticed is my cat noticed, when I could no longer feel that oxytocin feeling when I petted him.

    He could sense it and recoiled from my touch with his ears peeling back toward his head, in discomfort of the ‘psychopathic’ touch, of a human with no soul.

    Yes, that connection to the rest of humans; that oxytocin/mirror neuron connection that I was blessed with extremely strong where my connections to people, INCLUDING TOTAL STRANGERS, IS like a never ending romance of love THAT was suddenly gone, with extreme and chronic illness taking it all away.

    And in addition, my sensory connections to the rest of nature that were exquisite for me from birth, left my life experience as well.

    And then I finally understood, what it was when people talk about not having heart, SOUL, and spirit, as I never realized it was possible to LOSE WHAT I HAD THAT WAS A REAL AND EMPIRICALLY MEASURED HUMAN PHENOMENON.

    NO ONE IN SCHOOL, EXPLAINS HOW IN TECHNICAL TERMS ONE CAN LOSE WHAT IS UNDERSTOOD AS THE HUMANITY THAT KEEPS HUMANS CONNECTED, AND motivated strongly to socially connect as it is simply a feeling of bliss to connect with oxytocin and mirror neurons FULLY IN TOW.

    BUT there is the other thing, and that is feeling comfortable in one’s own skin, per the environment that skin lives and moves in that I never really had.

    And now with the exercise of physical intelligence by way of ballet and martial arts style TOTALLY CREATIVE INNATE INSTINCTUAL, INTUITIVE MOVEMENT, I FEEL ONE WITH MY ENVIRONMENT, TOTALLY INTEGRATED IN SENSORY WAY AND ADDITIONALLY WITH MASTERY over my emotions in regulation experienced with control by me, instead of others.

    I am impervious to the affect of a manipulating psychopathic-like mind now.

    I literally float on land, in balance, as characterized by the onlookers who watch me move.

    And truly that is like the mythological Ninjas or the primitive folks who can manage to stay invisible in rain forests that includes both humans and bonobos.

    Yes, humans, overall, have forgotten and are increasingly forgetting the most important types of human intelligence, and that is simply connecting in a most blissful way to the rest of humans and nature that truly is PART OF the Interdependent Relationship of ALL of Nature, also known as GOD.

    When one doesn’t feel it, it simply does not exist in practical terms.

    And I’ve been to both the Heaven of CONNECTING MORE FULLY TO THE GOD OF Nature or the absence of the FEELING CONNECTIon with IT, in the literal hell of no connection with Nature AKA GOD.

    And after experiencing both, it is clear to me, why some folks here, will never ever experience the real GOD of Nature, more fully, particularly like our so-called ‘ignorant savage ancestors and primitive peoples’, WHO still do with never the need for a book of empty words, with no heart, soul, or spirit, inherently living AND NATURALLY LOVING IN THOSE WORDS.

    ‘THE WORD’ IS NEVER HOLY, UNLESS THERE IS A REAL HUMAN HEART, SOUL, AND SPIRIT WHO LIVES UNDERNEATH THOSE WORDS.

    AND TRULY, COLD HEARTED, SOULED, AND SPIRITED PEOPLE WILL NEVER EVER CONNECT TO GOD LIKE THIS, until by WORK AND practice or BY real life miracle they are reborn again, AS SIMPLY A FULL HUMAN BEING, AS IS THE CASE OF WHAT HAPPENED TO ME IN REAL LIFE THAT I have been able to empirically document and measure.

    The “Phoenix” is a human being more fully realized in metaphor, and not a myth at core, as many other MYTHOLOGICAL analogies for human ARE AT CORE.

    AND THEN THERE’S the pressing 930LBS with my legs, REGAINING THE INNATE STRENGTH OF MY PRIMATE COUSINS, the dancing ‘miracles’ that generally speaking thrills my metro area, and the way ‘all the YOUNG women’ seem to ‘love’ me now, with complete women strangers telling me that to my face, for no other reason, than being impressed by my humanity as A male EXTREMELY EXPRESSED FREELY AS SUCH IN VISIBLE MOVEMENT IN BOTH FEMININE AND MASCULINE BALANCE.

    I JUST REMEMBERED NATURE BY WAY OF HARD WORK AND PRACTICE, DRIVEN BY RELATIVE HUMAN FREE WILL, with the real life EMPOWERING EMOTIONAL elements of faith, hope, and belief in me GAINING TRUST IN THE REST OF NATURE AKA GOD ALONG THE WAY, WHERE NOW IT IS AT 100%.

    AND yes, there are mystical elements that no words can FULLY describe, PER A level of human ecstasy that no words CAN ADEQUATELY EXPRESS, AND where there are folks who do not experience IT that it is almost just as well THAT IT is not discussed, as it is a totally different dimension of experiencing life in a bliss that goes a thousand times, at least, above, what folks describes as a human orgasm.

    I can live there forever, now, If I like; however, I work to help others, on the more elementary parts of connecting to Nature AKA the Interdependent Connection FEELING PART OF IT, WITH SUCCESS, AT least in real life, as my spirit in connecting FORCE IS LITERALLY TOO POWERFUL FOR MOST PEOPLE TO MISS, when they FEEL IT EMANATING FROM ME IN REAL LIFE.

    AND YES, THIS IS REAL, AS EVEN SCIENCE SHOWS THAT THE OXYTOCIN, AND MIRROR NEURON EXPERIENCE IS A TWO-WAY FORCE OF HUMAN CONNECTION.

    AND truly, as science shows, THIS IS WHAT IS OFTEN BUT OBVIOUSLY NOT ALWAYS MISSING ON THE SPECTRUM THAT IS AS DIVERSE AS ANY OTHER GROUP OF HUMANS ‘in the wild’.

    But it never fails, and I am not directing this at you personally, as I think you feel it, AS you just DON’T NAME IT GOD LIKE I, AND THE PRIMITIVE FOLKS DO IN OTHER WORDS, LIKE GREAT SPIRIT OR WHATEVER BUT PEOPLE who do not feel it can rarely believe in it, as It is real when felt.

    WELL, IT IS A GREAT SPIRIT, IN THE SENSES AND EMOTIONS MORE FULLY CONNECTED WITH IT, LITERALLY AS SUCH.

    BUT THE KEY IS, IT IS NOT A NOUN, IT IS A CONNECTING FORCE ONE ACTUALLY EXPERIENCES AND FEELS BY WAY OF EMOTIONS, AND SENSES, AND NEVER EVER empty skeletons of words, alone.

    Words are nothing, COMPARED TO THIS GOD I AM TALKING ABOUT, IN REAL LIFE BLISS OF CONNECTION, ALL AROUND, INSIDE OUT, ABOVE SO BELOW.

    AND YEAH, SAME STUFF THAT THE GNOSTIC JESUS, is ‘talking’ about, WHOEVER THAT IS WRITTEN BY IN THE LINK BELOW.

    IT’S A UNIVERSAL HUMAN THINGY, for healthy balanced folks.

    And hell no, it doesn’t require any frigging human instruction for it, just human flesh and blood that more fully works.

    I sensed it looking over the river at age 3, like I had been here forever, before I could even speak.

    Written language becomes my first roadblock to eventually losing this connection with ‘GOD’, AND NOW THE ROADBLOCKS ARE AS FAT AS ANY CAMEL I KNOW AND AS SMALL AS ANY EYE OF A NEEDLE I SEE. BUT I FOR ONE, TOTALLY IGNORE AND ‘CONQUER’ THEM.

    http://www.sacred-texts.com/chr/thomas.htm

    TO KNOW GOD IS A LIVING FEELING THING;

    NOT DEAD WORDS;

    NEVER, EVER, NEVER.

    And truly, in at least my case, this is WHAT IT FEELS LIKE IN SONG
    TO COME ALIVE FROM

    STONE..

    REBORN AS HUMAN SIMPLE AND TRUE like a ‘GREEK GOD’ OR ‘MUSE’, IN TRUE EFFECT
    AND MOST IMPORTANTLY

    AFFECT.

    And REALLY, the quickest litmus test, for me to know, whether or not folks experience GOD, whether they name IT THAT or NOT, is how they connect to other human beings or animals, in both words, SPEECH, and NON-VERBAL actions, expressed.

    I rarely see a person who personally attacks another person OR ANIMAL, who REALLY believes AND CONNECTS TO ‘GOD’.

    And from a scientific perspective, per how I analyze GOD here, in systemizing ‘old’, general definition, of science way..

    THAT MAKES almost PERFECT, RATIONAL SENSE.

    I can sense someone doesn’t believe in GOD before they tell me, about 99% percent of the time, per my mental PHOTOGRAPHIC MEMORY LIKE notes, when I experiment with this REAL LIFE GOD PHENOMENON.

    AND I HAVE EXPERIMENTED WITH LITERALLY ALMOST 100 THOUSAND FOLKS.

    AND MY EXPERIMENT goes on, both for EXPERIENCING ME, and OBSERVING OTHERS, with or without THIS CONNECTION, PER ‘GOD’.

    SOME PEOPLE EXPERIENCE ‘THE FORCE’ STRONGLY AND ARE EVEN missed when their physical presence is not felt.

    SOME PEOPLE EXPERIENCE ‘THE FORCE’ WEAKLY AND EVEN CATS RECOIL FROM THEIR TOUCH.

    Truly, GOD IS NOT ‘ROCKET SCIENCE’.

    GOD IS ‘COMMON

    SENSE’.

    _________________
    KATiE MiA FredericK!iI

    Gravatar is one of the coolest things ever!! !

    http://en.gravatar.com/katiemiafrederick

  10. http://wrongplanet.net/forums/viewtopic.php?f=20&t=278032&start=15

    ^^^

    During my work career, dealing with literally tens of thousands of people over three decades, I was too tired to do anything but workout, play a video game, and vegetate in front of a T.V.; and then do the chores of home and wife maintenance on the weekends, and start the rat treadmill again, in an endless circle of stress and less and less recreative recovery.

    Yeah, that almost ended in death.

    LESSON LEARNED.

    TV S***S, AS ANY activity that is MORE fully input and not interactively expressed output to grow a mind and body in balance STRONG INSTEAD OF UNFEELING, NON-ENGAGED, NOODLE, IN both affect and EFFECT.

    I ENJOY theater, and DVD’s with fuller emotion, and ethical meanings to analyze and FEEL, AS more effort is put into THAT TO SELL SOMETHING THAT MAKES HUMANS FEEL, AS that is what drives folks, moreover to the theater, of course with the sensory excitement of special effects that some folks thrive on stronger to come alive.

    But truly the worst part of all, is anything that stunts human physical intelligence that drives emotional regulation, integration of senses, and cognitive executive functioning by way of focus and short term working memory; and anything that STILLS HUMAN BEING TO SITTING STILL, IS a true ‘CANCER’ for THAT along with real life chronic stress not resolved by burning stress chemicals off through movement eventually resulting in potential depression, illness, and even premature death.

    TV should come with a warning..

    TV can kill, over the long term, of sedentary life in A horrible imbalance of mind and body, WITH the REAL potential for a premature death.

    But nah, ‘too much common sense’ in THAT mixed with the negating variable of COMMERCIAL profit.

    And the human misery and suffering goes on, for those who do not even understand and practice more fully, what human nature is classically evolved to be.

    And IT dam sure ain’t sitting still (for most people, anyway) focusing on just one point of distance and space anywhere, whatever that entails for a human zoo or prison, come alive in an illusory hell of TV OR OTHER screen reality.

    To me, it’s much more fun interactively entertaining in real life, AS the Director, Producer AND ACTOR OF MY OWN DIRECTED, PRODUCED AND ACTED PLAY of LIFE!..;)

    SPECTATOR IS NOT A LIFE FOR ME, as far as I see, for now!.:)

    _________________
    KATiE MiA FredericK!iI

    Gravatar is one of the coolest things ever!! !

    http://en.gravatar.com/katiemiafrederick

  11. http://inthecornerofmyeye.blogspot.com/2015/03/secrets.html

    ^^^

    Truly.. a well painted portrayal of the quintessential American Male.. too afraid to live and not brave enough to cry…

  12. http://glassstaircase.blogspot.com/2015/03/his-confession.html

    ^^^

    Art is the meal never satisfied by human wants and needs alone.. ART is the life that lives by needs and wants never satisfied by life alone..

    ART IS wORth living for living wORth IS ART

  13. http://www.waystationone.com/2015/03/confession-is-good-for-weak-so-i-do.html

    ^^^

    Somewhere in mysteries of life GOD speaks.. thIs IS not working out A way one thinks IT is.. tHen GOD rests on eight day.. 8 ..of never.. iNfinitYnow…

  14. https://brudberg.wordpress.com/2015/03/10/the-secret-in-my-jeans/

    ^^^

    Ah.. the jeans.. the expression of human genes so eloquently written in the hips of men and women.. and then there are the crotches and stitches of what is left unsaid but certainly spoken.. in flow of river and mountainous terrain..:)

    And by the way, thanks.. my goal is to comment on 30 or so more poems.. in the next hour or so.. and this one wake me UP!..;)

  15. http://a-sweetlust.blogspot.ca/2015/03/confessions.html

    ^^^

    Art.. signs without musical symbols.. confessions without lyrics.. squeaks without songs.. a flame without a wick.. a kiss that dreams never asleep.. tragedy and pain that come with words.. the moon rising with never a stick in time.. startled seas by cobalt blue.. passion existing in tongues that live.. the water of a dance that is never named as tango.. alone.. a belief of gaze never molded by look.. and the melting of snow.. with never form… alone…

  16. http://bibliosity.blogspot.com/2015/03/disclosure.html

    ^^^

    So true.. my memories as a Catholic boy are more full of guilt from confession than absolution from sin.. and truly the guilt can be the sin.. more than the nature that is human… that no seNsIble GOD WILL create asSIn….as in human nature fully expressed or the peace of ZEN ALONE.. ALLONE.. JUST IS… JUST IS..

    TRULY JUSTICE
    AT THE END OF

    NOW..

    IT JUST IS

    AND THAT IS

    ALL..:)

  17. https://kabryce.wordpress.com/2015/02/24/the-poem-beautiful-portraits-of-unaware-animals-wandering-majestic-spaces/

    ^^^

    To wander majestic spaces unaware as animal.. is beautiful way of life.. that human separates from in dreams of cultures in truer nightmares.. away from eyes seeing only now.. in nature’s way of beauty full.. never a word to water down IS real we ARE animals of majesty too.. tHere is no majesty greater than nature true.. in animal human asONe..:)

  18. http://kanzensakura.com/2015/03/10/confession-hanakotoba-花言葉/

    ^^^

    When flowers sing more than colors poetry comes alive in nature.. as it always.. as it always is.. for NOW!..:)

  19. https://lindakruschke.wordpress.com/2015/03/02/my-schedule/

    ^^^

    Ah.. so true.. when life gets too busy to help those so close.. so truly in need.. love becomes lost.. and life is no longer living..:)

  20. https://quest4peas.wordpress.com/2015/03/10/spring-romance/#comment-3888

    ^^^

    Ah.. to know that flowers feel the warmth of sun.. in all growing ways of Springest life.. Sprung from yellow heat.. IS to know the Spring of Love.. that grows petal of life.. in love of being here.. and nothing more than that..:)

  21. https://theordinarilyordinary.wordpress.com/2015/03/10/confessions/comment-page-1/#comment-490

    ^^^

    Interesting.. over here in the U.S. ..as boys are becoming more distant from girls and girls are becoming more distant from boys.. where there is an ‘epidemic’ of sorts.. of girls coupling up with girls who have given up on boys.. and boys who can no longer express emotions stuck in video games and the such.. they wonder why.. oh why.. don’t girls wanna be with they.. they should.. but they can’t ‘FEEL’ ..why.. as a self fulfilling prophecy of a gender that increasingly can no longer express heArt of love….

    i suppose when I go to dance… even at 54.. i find so many friends there of the fairer gender.. as i am not afraid to express love in either words or graceful heart of moves…

    Anyway.. i never get to watch Sherlock..

    But I love girls too.. and can do without the three letter word that begins with s and ends with x.. just to connect with smiling eyes.. and graceful feet….

    To the dismay sometimes and great surprise by me.. even at 54 with wedding ring.. for the ones who want more…

    And he! he! I am not gay either.. there are just things in life more exquisite in heart.. soul.. and spirit.. than x or s.. and the middle E..

    i hope your girl FRIEND returns LOVE to you soon..

    The nicest thing about being retired is there is time to love the whole world..

    And I have enough love to set out..

    And do

    JUST THAT..

    ‘CAUSE i

    have relative
    human free will..

    FAITH.. HOPE..

    BELIEVE..

    and that’s all

    i need..

    AND IN A

    NUT SHELL

    TRULY

    that’s

    ALLAH
    holding
    ALLAH

    in

    ME…

    And I see now words
    shape a chalice of LOVE..
    But the base here must be longer
    to hold the love that is the chalice of me…

  22. comment above
    so below..;)

    ^^^

    303

    3112015

    13

    4

    203

    5

    And it looks like a chalice more at my home than yours..

    And i put in the words in place of semi colon.. slashes.. and dots..

    as your blog here don’t like links that be clicked on much..;)

    Just ‘call me’ if you like IT when you get home..:)

    And may be one day your smile
    will be as big
    as
    mine..:)

    and

    just

    a few

    more
    words to
    make a wine
    glass.. a base that
    is way too long..

    http semi colon two slashes katiemiafrederick dot com /2015/03/11/chalice-of-allahs-love/

    now@word393@word@now

  23. http://law-poetry.blogspot.com/2015/03/phoenix-rising-for-deverse-poetic.html

    ^^^

    i like to think love exists and lives on.. without words or even memories.. or even life.. when love lives ON.. in eyes WHO continue to love..:)

  24. https://razzamadazzle.wordpress.com/2015/03/10/kids-today/

    Ah.. the world of mechanical cognition.. a far cry.. from the right brain of interpretation.. creativity and love….in synchrony with mechanical mind to make a robot sing..:)

  25. https://bwfiction.wordpress.com/2015/03/10/confession-dverse/

    ^^^

    My mother always promises it’s not you eat that counts.. it’s the spirit you release.. that brings fulfillment of appetite.. and now that the working world ends.. i too.. have time…

    for that..:)

  26. Glenn Buttkus says:

    To have been so long on the outside, not one of the cool kids; hey, & on top of that to have a boy struggling with the artificial guilt of Catholicism, you & I have a lot in common spiritually. Your wife is a beautiful creature, & between your dancing & working out, the gods of the universe, with their spirit guides beside us, are allowing you to have a joyous healthy period in your life; enjoy every moment of it, brother; for it could end tomorrow,

    • Thanks so much Glenn for stopping by with these words of Glenn wisdom that i always appreciate.

      And truly if i did not already live dead alive.. i could never live like this alive for now.

      The darkness always accompanies the light.. and i will walk in the light AS A LIGHT..
      to the best of my ability ‘TILL the cycle of dark inevitably catches up with me.. like it does for all of us….

      Until the next

      cycle

      of
      life
      AND LIGHT

      COMES AGAIN!..:)

  27. http://wrongplanet.net/forums/viewtopic.php?t=278056

    ^^^

    YES!

    i reject Philosophies based
    on Biological Reductionism.

    (Almost sounds Catholic)

    DeviliveD deTails of tREes.

    GoD EvilivE GOD in FORESt

    liKe MIN
    or PAN.

    AnD i for one am
    more likE MIN
    or PEtER
    PAN.

    Yes.. i am gre@er than
    tHe sum of my neurons alone.
    i for one am aLLONe LIKE PETER
    PAN.

    EVen algorithms cannot detErmIne if i am huMan or not.

    The GoOgle AlgoriThm ofTen marks me as

    SPAM
    GREEN HAM
    SPAM.

    IT’S ALL GOOD TO ME.

    IF i CAN GO
    unnoticed
    as human
    by Algorithms..
    i am perfecting
    practice iN
    ART of
    some
    thInG

    eLse

    tHat eveN
    computers
    cAnnoT
    kNow
    but hUmans
    cAn underSTand
    alonE.

    IT’s not even code.

    it’S

    heArt spelLed
    HEART.

    _________________
    KATiE MiA FredericK!iI

    Gravatar is one of the coolest things ever!! !

    http://en.gravatar.com/katiemiafrederick

  28. http://wrongplanet.net/forums/viewtopic.php?f=20&t=278056&start=15

    ^^^

    Truly, the power of human creativity and emotion is fascinating AND POWERFUL, as when I was in middle school, I had a spark of creativity that came from somewhere I had never been before, in my mind. There was a Christmas story contest in 8th grade, and in the midst of feeling like an outcast where other kids told me in no uncertain terms I did not deserve to exist, as I was very strange looking and acting, deep emotions started flowing through my heart and I wrote a Christmas Story that won first place among 80 students in two homeroom classes.

    After that I wrote a short play, in the same grade level, and played the song Jesus Christ Superstar, so overwhelmed with emotion in the talent show I was in that year too that I left the piano not able to walk straight, with the audience erupting in laughter, over my clumsiness.

    It was’t funny at all to me then, after only hearing criticism that I did not deserve to exist for so long. I was the quintessential, 99LB wimp looking kid, at 5 foot 10, and 120 LBS, with long hair, and mistaken for a girl at McDonalds, by the cashier there.

    IN fact, here is a picture of me, at age 13 in front of a ‘trial’ of my peers, stumbling through speech, stuttering while the other kids hold back snickering.

    I didn’t give up on life, and kept fighting and fighting to be strong enough to be accepted, and to look and act normal enough to be accepted. I lost my creativity, and did not get it back until a philosophy class in college, writing a few philosophical creative papers about what I understood then to be GOD that were lauded by the teacher, as unique and insightful.

    I played the piano from the time I was twelve and improvised a little on guidelines of sheet music in front of me but never truly created my own music until age 47, in 2007 that I recorded on a cheap dictation device, and later copied that to You Tube in 2013, as carpal tunnel syndrome ended my piano ‘career’.

    Overall, I had a dry period of no creativity for 40 years, from the time I was 13 to age 53, truly taken away by the repression and oppression of a patriarchal, fundamentalist, religious leaning local ‘red state’ culture, along with subjugating illusory fears over what it means to be a man.

    Truly this one act of recording what I had done in 2007, in creating piano music, was the first spark of creativity that has led to an avalanche of creativity for me, now, for two years, in dance walking a martial arts/ballet style of dance for 3200 miles, in 18 months, documented at 3000 miles here:

    https://katiemiafrederick.com/2015/02/02/3000-miles-of-dance-walking-now/

    with a sample of that here:

    And I have danced a free style rave type of dance now for 50 weeks coming up on Thursday night, at one of the top 100 dance clubs, in the U.S., documented at this link, with a video of me dancing in the body of the linked post, illustrating some of the folks I danced with this last year, me at age 54 now, and most all of them in their early twenties.

    https://katiemiafrederick.com/2014/12/09/gods-muse-of-dance/

    And after being a shut-in for 5 long years, from 2008 to 2013, early retiring on disability, as a Federal Civil Service Athletic Director from a military installation, in a quarter of a century career there, I suffered 19 medical disorders, including what is described as the suicide disease, type two Trigeminal Neuralgia that is like someone drilling one’s teeth without novocaine, except the pain was in my right eye and ear, during all waking hours that five years, making effective use of my eyes and ears, impossible without excruciating pain.

    And truly, me ever becoming Athletic Director of anything, is the last thing the kids in school would have predicted of the last kid picked on sport teams; however, I was promoted to the job for my computer skills, as I still had no skills in team sports that I became responsible for at the Military Installation.

    I was also diagnosed with Dysautonomia, where my nervous system would not synch my heart rate with blood pressure, causing me to almost pass out when even raising my arms after eating a meal or walking around the neighborhood block one time.

    And the two other major disorders were Fibromyalgia and Sjogren’s Syndrome, where my eyes stopped making tears, adding to eye pain, like swimming in salt water with eyes wide open.

    Back to that piano song, something about listening to the recording on Youtube, started bringing back the creative spark, and I started writing free verse poetry, making an inner journey in a myth of fantasy of total recovery, and the dream came true.

    So true the dream is now that now I can leg press 930LBS, 14 times, as evidenced here, just 18 months after recovery.

    Before I did this, a ‘little voice’ (my voice) in my head told me I was going to do amazing things, and document them to prove to others what human potential can be.

    I don’t know what words to describe that forecast, other than a higher power of what ‘they’ call GOD inside of me.

    I have literally written millions of words of free verse poetry, in the last two years, and have become a male nude renaissance self artist in the last 13 months that is not appropriate to link here, of course, per restricted adult blog way, AND it is far out of the social norm for a 54 year old dude to do that as a straight guy but I have literally been compared from the discerning female eye of doing a better job at it, than Michelangelo’s ‘David’ come to life in flesh and blood.

    This higher power of GOD thingy is more amazing in what the potential of the human mind can do in a ‘Quantum’ effect and AFFECT THAT BLOWS ANYTHING SCIENCE KNOWS AWAY, if one considers the synergy of what I have been able to do in two years, with the power of relative human free will.

    The man Jesus, historically speaking, stated that with a strong enough internal power of faith, hope, and belief, human beings can do anything, and those were also the similar words of the historical man Muhammad, as well as many other folks through human history.

    Apparently, these folks and many other folks have tapped into this higher power of GOD, by sitting under a tree, spending time in a cave, taking a 40 day walk in the desert, or in my case suffering through the worst pain known to humankind for 5 long year of literal human hell.

    The inner journey and potential of the human being, in art and creativity of human being is where the real power in this world exists.

    If I can do this, at age 54, imagine what someone with this higher power can do at age 30 or 25.

    It is a ‘Quantum’ effect and affect of human mind, open, and more fully expressed in mind and body balance.

    If I haven’t proven that I’ve definitely proven that a REAL LIFE ‘FORREST GUMP’, EXISTS..:)

    AND IT IS SO DAM COOL TO BE like FORREST GUMP, AS I DO NOT CARE ABOUT MONEY, and if I was a materialistic person, I probably could have never been free enough in mind and body balance to do any of this, as all my incentive came from within, with a ‘little’ help from

    my friends..:)

    And eerily enough, I look like the statue in the front row of the FUNERAL CEREMONY, on that Beatles Album cover, AS truly during those 5 long years, I was dead as a stone statue, alive. 🙂

    Life is so much stranger than

    fiction.

    And science truly ain’t got a clue when it comes to the

    BIG PICTURE of MOTHER NATURE TRUE AKA GOD, FULLY EXPRESSED IN HUMAN NATURE AS THE higher power of the ‘QUANTUM’ MIND UNLEASHED AND RELEASED, in balanced mind and body.

    Anyway, the main thing is, no matter what happened, I refused to ‘let the sun go down on me’..:)

    And that was hard, as when I first got the pain disorder, and the Dysautonomia, from March through April of 2008, I could not sleep but one hour of each night for 35 days, with the assistance of a powerful alpha blocker, with only shallow sleep for that one hour each night, and the for the last 5 of 40 days, I could not sleep at all making a last gasp effort to find my way to a bridge to jump off without the strength to get out of the car.

    My sister found me at the bottom of the bridge, and drove me home, where I finally went to the hospital, and a heavy injection of Ativan, finally put me to sleep, and the Ativan was my only relief to sleep for the next five years, and I have been drug free from it since July of 2013.

    I hope if anyone is listening in the audience who has lost hope in life, this story may give them hope to go another now, as Lord knows during that period of 5 years, I was hoping for someone, anyone, to tell me they survived something worse BUT TRULY, I never found anyone who has experienced the full darkness of my life or the LIGHT NOW, FOR THAT MATTER, DOCUMENTED LIKE THIS.

    I CARRY a story for what I understand as the higher power of GOD, to help other people, and if anything before I do die, I just want to be remembered as a humble servant for GOD, as the Inner FORCE of the GOD of NATURE LITERALLY BROUGHT ME BACK TO LIFE, AGAIN OF COURSE, with a ‘little’ help from my friends..:)

    I know this is long, and some of it has been repeated on this site but I would not be worthy of recovery, if I did not share it as much as I do.

    There is nothing better than 100% trust in what reality is, whether one names it GOD or Mother Nature or whatever label is assigned to what is.

    And that is the place i live in now, WITH 100% trust in ALL THAT IS..:)

    AND TRULY, even from an empirical view, after all of this, HOW COULD I NOT FEEL THAT ‘GOD IS GOOD’ AND DREAMS AND REAL HUMAN MIRACLES DO COME TRUE..:)

    I can only hope and pray the same FOR ALL OTHERS, TOO..:)
    _________________
    KATiE MiA FredericK!iI

    Gravatar is one of the coolest things ever!! !

    http://en.gravatar.com/katiemiafrederick

  29. https://wordrustling.wordpress.com/2015/03/10/truth-is/

    ^^^

    So beautiful and so true.. love is with the flow of light and veer of dark and acceptance of difference to grow a life of heArt AS HEARt..:)

  30. http://thecourseofourseasons.com/2015/03/10/just-thinking/

    ^^^

    Ah.. the balance.. of bird feet.. only swaying left or right with wind of light.. ah the wind of being light.. the weight of love.. never heavy.. in feat of light..:)

  31. https://anarmchairperfectionist.wordpress.com/2015/03/11/confessions-of-a-model/

    ^^^

    Ah.. yes.. when the mirror becomes the unconditional friend.. the peace of mind and loving others.. does usually flow.. as well as health and so much more..:)

  32. http://kanzensakura.com/2015/03/10/confession-2-hanami/

    ^^^

    Yes.. to celebrate change is to live in now.. and to stay anywhere else.. in my mind.. is not to live at all..a pause for life.. is necessary at times.. but to gear in now.. is a flow of light.. for me in now.. or meow.. for my cat
    at least.. in more..:)

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