KATiE MiA FredericK!iI: My Perspective on Life
that were more of my thinking process,along with the tactile sensory world,than what I think most people may experience
as an internal dialogue of thought.
“Time” by the Alan Parson’s Project:
of connection to everything in the world,as if I had been here
forever,before I was able to speak
that I cannot fully put into words,from about age 3
looking out into the distanceover the river
I grew up next to.
But I think in some ways
I knew more about my existence then
than I do now,
as I could not separate myself
from what seemed
like a very old home of nature.
to roam desolate pristine beachesas a teenager and young adult,without any fear,and feeling one in beingwith the waves,
white sand,
emerald green gulf,
sea oats and seagulls,
with no dramas in my head.
with not being sure where their next meal
was going to come from.Not likely that many creatures in the Universe
could experience a little slice of nirvana like that.I can remember getting back into my car
and being jolted back into the reality
of all that is the complexity of modern culture,
which at
that pointin time
was so,
so limitedas compared
to today.I was never quite the same
after home computers came along,as I drifted further
and further
from a home
of nature.
The people I dealt with in the public
at that time,in what was a “Cheers” like
environment,
was also a slice of nirvana.
Cigarette filled,
but the emotional contagion
of a hundred human beingsthat are happy
that I had the privilege to serve
and make even happier,
equaled the nirvana
of the walkson the
sun-filled
beaches.
not being able to touchman made texture
without goose bumpsand an incredible feeling
of discomfort.
When I see Landon Bryce’s book,
“I Love My Own Autistic Self”,the little guy on the front
is how I usually felt
insidethat people could only see
in the gleam
of my
eyes.People often told me
they wished they had
what it was I had,or wanted some
of the drugs I was taking,
but I had no idea what they were talking about
because there was nothing I wanted
but to exist,
for so many years…
It was a powerful feeling
that no one’s negativity
could take away
from me,not even when the rest
of the world
told me
I was not
one of their kind.
Sorry,that was quite a tangent,but it is kind of therapeutic for me;I hope you don’t mind…
My point I started off with was religion
and classic pantheism,
which is all of nature and science for me;
the cultural complexity of what has come
from human collective intelligence,
including all the strange oddities,
even the strangest of religious cults and beliefs.
But most of all
the reality of that beach
those waves,
and
those grains of sand,that do not exist
without me.
by my father and mother,and their ancestorswhere there could be no break
in the chain of events
of human struggle
that all my ancestors experienced
to survive and reproduce,
and their rodent ancestors
about 75 million years ago,
and all the other ancestors not identified
and material substances that came together
to make that possible,
from the origin
of what is,
whatever
is, is.
That
one pointthat I can only abstractly define
because of the human collective intelligence
that provides the mapto what can be described,
as
one point
that we all share
that can never be disconnected,
as long
as we exist…
I just realized
that sounds kind of like
the introto the
“Big Bang Theory”
TV show…
And relatively speaking
the knowledge that I gainedthat this is one sliver
of conscious existenceand what really is
a little slice of heaven
for some that do exist,
considering just the benefit
of a warm soft bed,
a hot shower,
and things
now considered
so mundane
that took billions of years
to come into existence
that were not here
a little over
a century
ago…
like toilet paper…
But I could never experience
that connection
of what
is,any
stronger
than when
I
was
three.I have everything
and everyone before me
to thank for that experience…
Including collective intelligence
and the understanding
of that one point
that still existsin all of us
and everything else…
I never met a stranger,not even a grain of sand
on the beach…
But I did not feel
a category,a religion,
a race
or even
a gender
for myself,
which at least for me
enhanced the ability
to find a friend
in that grain
of sand.
I suppose it is
the immune system issues
and chronic pain
that has taken
some of that gleam
out of my
eyes,
but it still exists
in the eyes
in what
I perceive
of the
anthropomorphic
expression
of the cat
in my
Facebook
photo.
is likely closerto the wisdom
of that
three-year
old
child
that only existsin my memoryand pictures…
I sense that type of wisdom
requires no human intelligence at all
beyond the core
that is shared.
I think it can be lost
so much easierin a human
into a little sliver of hell
somewhere outside
that balance of heaven.
Particularly
in lives
where
instant gratification
has become
the norm…
I am at the service
of my fully inside cat,but he has never had that gleam
in his eyes,
or the same struggles
to survive.
on the “Autistic Hoya” website,
was a feral cat
that only knew strugglesin his several years of life
behind our house in the woods.
He became my emotions
after chronic pain
had removed them
from my existence.
He gained
a gleam in his eyes
of gratitude
to have a balance
in his life
when we
allowed him
a place
to gain
predictable
subsistence.
An identical yellow cat
that likely is his offspring,
younger and stronger
appears intermittently
out of the woods
and started to injure
our now neutered cat,
racking up $200 dollar vet bills,
every other week
so the once feral cat
has now been forced
to become
a fully inside cat.
I am watching him
slowly lose
that gleam in his eyes,
with the call of the wild
slowly drifting away,
along with all the likely
incredible sensory experiences
that come with an outdoor world
that the other cat
that never gets injured
in fights at age 18,
can still fully experience.
As I sit outside
toward the back of my yard,in the afternoon sun,he is pacing back and forth politely,
still with a humility of respectfor a place of subsistencethat keeps him from tearing
the screen of the patio.
Perhaps if he could speak
and let me know in words
what I was taking away from him,
I would listen.But I cannot bear the thought
of additional bloody wounds on his face.But still I remember
what it meansto have
that connection
and balance…
When I watch him
pace back and forth,
it is one
of the few things
in life
that will bring
a tear to my eye
that reminds me
that I too
am still
connected.
🙂
Other than that,
it could be
just a word
like Synesthesia
that seems
to trigger
something
in my brain
letting the brakes
off of logic
to move
into
figurative
space.
“Come Sail With Me” by Styx:
can be a giftthat leads me
to a place
in wordsthat I don’t
often visit.
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Autistic Love
And the Science of Kindology
An Ideological First Identity
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I was so happy to see how you expressed your feelings about the comments on Ricardo Andrade’s blog. Wow. I wanted to apologize for others but I know I can’t do that. Hopefully he won’t take it to heart but I really appreciated personally how you wrote that. I want to remember that the next time I might be too critical of someone’s work.
Hi Friend Pleasant Street..
thanks for your kind visit here and
comment of support.. Human Creativity to me..
is the height of human experience..
along with human connections
that lead to creativity..
and moving
that leads
to human
connections..
for me as a person on the
Autism Spectrum with extremely
high top of the school class standard IQ
i fail miserably in these three most important
of REAL INNATE INSTINCTUAL INTUITIVE
INTELLIGENCES that people all around me
excel in that i have no idea how to do..
that i will trade all that standard IQ in..
IN a heaRtbeat.. just to truly move
like the Athletes do..
and connect so
easily like
the people
do at
school break
times and physical
education recess in
moving team sports
ways too.. i am
so sad and lonely
and people sense my
difficulties and i am so
strange they tell me in
very clear ways
that my
existence on
this earth is not
worthy.. so i look
to my immediate
family and pets
for support and the
NATURE ALL AROUND
me that is so beautiful and
i work to be a stronger boy as
i am born very fragile with even
neck vertebra fused before birth
in a congenital way.. it has taken
me so long to gain those other
types of intelligences that
are so important..
so i have empathy for
other folks who cannot see
deeper too.. to the greater complexities
of human empathic social intelligence that
includes understanding deeper metaphors in
poetic ways of life.. for me.. i always felt inadequate
and wanted to do more.. and this fired me to greater heights
of learning more.. but it can be very frustrating to see people
bring other folks down.. and not understanding that
actually they are the ones with the issue..
just as i was before.. admitting it
and doing all i could to
change it..
but anyway we live
in a fast paced world and
someone like Ricardo.. who may
only have the time and inspiration to
do a poem a month or whatever deserves
like every human flowering to be watered..
NOT flooded with human eyes
darkening the light of
human blooming
in ways like
this in poetry online..
when i see poetry i see a person’s
soul.. that souls touches me.. and i respond
in kind.. the weakness of my youth has turned
into the strength of never giving up.. and trying
something new.. until finAlly i truly move
connect and create.. and when i
see that process being
blocked by someone
else.. somewhere else..
my New STRONGER
antlers raise UP
and for what i’ve
been through
in life i
must at least
express dissent..
and usually more tactfully
than i do today.. but the thing
is for my own mind and body
balance after putting so much
effort into this dVerse community
for two years.. NOW.. i must express
my emotions.. adequately.. as negative
as they may be.. so i will let that completely
go.. and continue to fly higher and higher in
ways of ‘Jonathan Livingston Seagull’ flight even
if it is all alone on this blog OR alone in the streets
of dance as i dance with Nature as GOD.. free AS domesticated
and wild animals.. there is much moving.. connecting.. and creating
to do.. and much to do it with.. whether others can see and take
advantage of that or not.. my friend.. and truly i hope they
will and hope to at least inspire part of that WELL
of Living WATER..
my friend
Pleasant Street..
sMiLES..:)
Howdy….
I read your comment over at SOHEIR’s site, where I go to keep abreast of current Islamic thought (one source,anyway….) I too am a fast, voracious reader, (since age 4; average 1 book/day for 55 years now…. It took me until age 10 to read fast enough for my purposes…) and, seem to have traveled some rather similar paths as you, at certain key points in Life…. It is nice to meet someone who has such a firm grasp of what for me would be a very consensual reality.
I also have chronic pain, probably for different reasons than yours, but, it’s become an old familiar, if not friend…. I also have a cat, only the latest of many. She is Leelu Magicat, a now six-month old half Siamese-half Tortoiseshell Calico… She showed up one morning on my porch, demanded inside, to be picked up, & claimed me as hers by settling in and purring…. How does one ignore such a message from Bastet? She is now teaching me whatever it is Bastet believes I need to know….
I saw you’d followed my site; I always come to see whomever does so, but, I don’t always follow, as there is only so much time, fast as I do read. However, I’ll be back, to steal from Arnie…. for sure and for certain. (to steal from a random Sackett….)
See ya ’round WP, and welcome to Exploring Consensual Reality with me….
gigoid, the dubious
Smiles.. Friend.. Thanks for stopping by.. Am out and about the Christmas shopping crowds and will definitely be by later.. to check out your site.. as i am always looking for open minds..:)
10-4
O&O
g, td
Concurring with gigoid on what we can all regard as a very consensual reality! There is always so much to read and so little time available. I also hope that you will eventually find a way to relieve your chronic pain.
Hi FredericK, I would like to inform you that you have one of the most expansive “About” pages that I have ever encountered. Overall, it is a highly commendable effort in getting across your life experiences and insights. Your choices of music also resonate well with your general ethos and outlook, as much as your connections with science and nature, and your affinities with spirituality and pantheism have resonated with my own worldview and my understanding of your thoughts and approaches, as expressed in your writings and comments on your blog as well as on others’ blogs.
I would like to share with you another video of “Time” by the Alan Parson’s Project:
Thanks so much.. Sound Eagle.. for dropping by with
these words of encouragement.. and this
song you share “Time” by Alan
Parsons is an all ‘time’
favorite of mine
that i often
use to express
sentiment in the
words i attempt to
bring to relay feelings
and senses about life beyond
what might be termed more concrete
words as the Government Employee i
used to be in overall ‘Spock’ metaphor
for writing technical lists without much
color that speaks to the sublime
in Nature that ‘technical’
life often takes
away in
a metaphor
of left verses
right brain experience
of life which of course again
is just a metaphor as our mind
is more like a Symphony full
from an Entire Orchestra
rather
than sorts
and label stickers
and bits and bytes
and such as that of just
this or that musical device
hehe.. anyway.. as this has
become somewhat of an all
consuming hobby.. this writing
and dancing adventure.. i could
go on and on and.. even forget to
thank you for dropping by
but i’m getting
better
now at
the ‘small talk’
of life that truly is meaningful
to the human connection and overall
condition as one diagnosed on the Autism
Spectrum learns to express over the long run of
trials and errors in life where i suppose my Bi-polar
Condition colors that Autism a little more than perhaps
some folks on just one end of the numbers verses the colors of
life experience.. and thanks too for wishing me fortune with the pain..
and This About Section originally written and published on my Blogspot
Blog on 3.10.13 was indeed when i was still suffering then from the pain
of Type Two Trigeminal Neuralgia from wake to sleep that finally did
leave me at the end of July of that year which helped in the
new found life in as life to give life to what now has
become an over 5 Million Word Overall
Long Form Free Verse Poem
here as this Blog
on Word
Press
that i Happily
refer to as “SonG oF mY SoUL’..
somewhat of a riff off of Whitman’s
“Song of Myself” as i too share much
of his philosophy of life expressed in
Free Verse Poetry too that really only
need express what’s inside that
Naturally Flows
with no
rules
but
Life and
Free to be now
on this Earth Alive
to the best of our abilities
to fulfill all our human potential..
And that pain was like a Dentist Drill
in my right eye and ear then from wake to
sleep for 66 months.. aptly named the Suicide
Disease by the medical profession for very good reason..
i didn’t give up and i must admit as science minded as i’ve always
been i created a World in Writing of a place i didn’t live that eventually
became mine through the real Force and Power of the visualization of mind..
And then i danced to keep the liGht on Bonfire Strength.. where i’ve found a whole
lot of ‘Magic’
in life
that
supersedes
anything i learned
out of three degrees in
College.. and sure.. perhaps
some of it is naturally associated
with so-called Bi-Polar Disorder
and that’s okay too as that
along with the
Autism
is
just another
Flavor of the Human
Condition to give and share
to others too.. hopefully with
the brighter parts of Love as contagion too..
No Human Being Wasted when used as Love..:)
Hello FredericK,
Thank you for expressing and revealing more of the human conditions that you have personally experienced and crystalized in your journey through life. I can sense that you have an acute awareness of how far you have come, and that your humanity is palpably heightened, transformative and even profound.
As I read your reply to my earlier comment, I am listening to “Ammonia Avenue” by the Alan Parson’s Project whilst typing out a reply to you:
This song has some stylistic similarities with some of the more lyrical pieces by the band called “Chicago”.
SMiLes.. my FriEnd.. thanks so much
for sharing “Ammonia Avenue” from
Alan Parsons with me.. been a while
since i listened to it but it very
much fits the Song
of My
Mind
at this
point in ‘time’..
as deeper soul..
it took me a very
long time to play
life by ear.. a
memory
of wanting
heART ‘then’..
my so-called
Intellectually Disabled
First Cousin on my
Mother’s side
who played
piano by ear
and my other First Cousin
on my Father’s Side who could
do the same with any song on many instruments he
heard before.. i would have given up all of my straight
A’s to Sing a Song of life Free like this.. then.. now..
some ways i did and even do more as i no longer
follow the
lines of
another
book.. now
i play by ear
by sKeYes
my dream as
Child is now reality..
i really never wanted any
money.. just a SouL wHo WiLL Dance and Sing.. LOVE..
sure.. it helps to be financially independent too with wiNks..
no longer
slave..
basicAlly..:)
Hi FredericK,
Is it somewhat uncanny that the YouTube video that I, namely SoundEagle, just shared with you has the image of an eagle!
I particularly like how you ended your previous comment with
Now, let Love be the contagion with (or via) my special post at https://soundeagle.wordpress.com/2013/04/10/soundeagle-in-april-love-and-dove-art-and-heart-game-and-puzzle-music-and-video/
Mixing Technology
And heART
Of
Creativity
Expanding Horizons
Thanks for Sharing..
And as far as Eagles
go i often find
they
fly
with
Synchronicity
hehe.. at the
Dance Hall i
frequent there is an
Eagle with the name of Fred..
surprisingly.. i too became FReED..
And by A way tHeRe IS A FRiEnD iN Fred..;)
Fascinating to try and follow all your thoughts. There is such a fountain of creativity within you. Hope there will be less pain too as your blog really seems to laugh and smile.
SMiLes my friend.. navasolanature..
thanks for visiting here on my
about section.. overview as such..
again.. and all the pain is gone..
back in July of 2013.. it all
seriously miraculously
disappeared
on that day
on the same
beach as pictured
here.. after that
the real fun started
in both flesh and blood
life and blog life as well..
sMiLes.. there is a much
larger force driving me friend..
and that Force
is all that is
NOW..:)
So pleased to hear you are free from that pain and so much happier now.
SMiLes..!
And Thanks..
My friend..:)
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Your blog and writings are incredible. Funny thing: I just started following you, and went to check my email, only to find that you started following me! How did we know??
Hi.. purplepeninportland..
so happy to see you drop by
here on the about section of my blog..
a little top heavy it is.. hehe.. where some
folks with slower computers and Internet connections
cannot open me up here.. as i am rather multi-media
and wordy intense.. to the max yes.. as i was once in a
very bad place.. escaped that and give my life as gift
in all the human potential i find..
and approaching 4 million
words now in this blog
in a little over three years
now by a few days.. with close to
60 to 70K photos and thousands
of videos encased in what i name
as ‘SonG of My SoUL’ now
compriSinG
696 verses as
the one i am currently
working on.. this is not everyone’s
cup of tea.. unless they are hugely
patient and interested in a very broad
point of view.. with a great deal of satire
over decades of what i have come to learn
in life.. that is reasonably offensive to some
i would think and feel too.. but what i’ve found in
life is the best lessons others taught me were the
hardest to believe at first.. mileage varies.. and at age
56.. i’ve renewed my life to truly cheap thrills of the
only way i can describe as a real heaven now..
i share it all just ’cause i can and will..
and that my friend is the
greaTest gift i kNow..
Can and WiLL witH
unconditional
Fearless Love for
all as holy and sacred sAMe..
it works for me @lEast and alWays
worth sharing to the max in all i do..
i alWays follow folks who follow me..
but i really only have time to follow dVerse
along that trail and have truly never even looked
at the reader list.. but surely i will see you again
at dVerse.. my FriEnd.. you always bRing a positive
liGht there that i enjoy seeing.. and you have always
been kind to me.. with nice responses that always help to
make my day a light one.. i appreciate that and hope the best for you..:)
This is to inform you that I have shifted my blog to shiningtheory.com and you could have received a subscription mail which is not a scam.
Please follow me again, and I regret the inconvenience caused to you.
From My Theory.
Enjoyed your post about
Trump and it seems
That link above is
The one I originally
Followed.. checking
It as linked here..:)
What an impressive about section. Happy to have stumbled upon your blog!
Much love & cares.
Your new reader,
Noorain.
Hi.. Noorain.. thanks
so much for dropping
by and
i’M
glad
i stumbled
into you and
your blog as WeLL..
as aLL can/WiLL be art thaT flows..
and not
reAlly
sTumble
at aLL..
SMiLes.. mY FriEnd..
And have a liGht filLed NoW..:)
So happy to be part of your blog journey dear Katie Mia 😁
Welcome again..
My friEnd Noorain..:)
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SMiLes..
Thoughtful
Of you to
Link this
HeAR.. thanks
Himali with
SMiLes..:)
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Thanks for the
Notification
Himali…
Will
See
You in
A few at your place
Of
Happiness..:)
Thank you for making my day a happy day !!! 🙂 xx
That activity is
Always a Happy
Milestone
For
Me
Too HiMaLi..:)!
Hugs to you !!! x
You too..!!..:)
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Thanks again
HiMaLi
For
Linking
Your Love..:)
Quite some thoughts you’ve shared here!
Every individual is unique and our uniqueness should be our strength.
You are so confident about your uniqueness and that alone makes you stand out strikingly.
Your creativity and the way you connect everything is amazing and laudable.
Keep up the good work!
Very kind and
Encouraging
Words.. thank
You very
Much..:)
You are always welcome.
Keep up the good work.
Thanks..:)
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Thank you. The beach is there, the grains of sand and the gulls, even when you aren’t. I know, because I’m looking after it for you 🙂
Life IS A Gift We
BReatH and BLinK
At Best We SPReaD
LiFE So OTHeRS Will See
And
Breathe
Living Loving
Life for Present
Now thanks for
Dropping
By
About
My FRiEnD..:)
Living life for the present
because it will end
one day
and we will leave the beach
for others
as beautiful as it was
when we walked upon it.
SMiLES only if We
All WiLL See
Nature as
The only
Gift of Life
To Give and Share
More than Take
And Hoard
Like
Tarzan
And Jane
With SMiLES
An onLY Religion
Of Nature Wild
Loving
Free
JusT to Be
ToGeTHeR aLL..:)
The world is
we are
life is
nature lives
and we are
grains of sand
in the
universe.
Below Above
Within Inside
Outside All
Around
A GRaiN
Of
Sand
SaMe We
Are Free to
Be IS NoW..:)
It’s all we’re certain of.
SMiLes.. i do my
Verily Best to
Live
With
Thorns
And Flowers
Marrying the
Night Living the Day..
LiFE NoW Will Still Be
Rose
This Way..:)
Roses all the way
is all I wish you 🙂
Thanks my Friend
i Find too.. Thorns
Do Keep
Flowers Fresh..
When
Winter
Went
Away
A Year
in
North
Florida..
No Passion
Flower Blooms
Or even Special
Warmth of Hot
Chocolate in
Cold
Of
Thorns..
Flowering
Winter Nights..:)
Sleep well
friend
and chocolate dreams
of winter flowering
thorn blossom
billow.
Thanks my Friend
May Sleep
Heal
All
Your
Thorns
Into Blossoms
Coloring up Your Life..:)
Blossoms spring like thornless roses in the May rain 🙂
Roses without Sleep
Will be thornier
Yet More
Creative for
The Dopamine
Response for
Survival
Until
The Brain
Consumes itself
To the Polar
Opposite
Side of
Creativity
For now Welcome
To a World of Poetry
Never Ending Stories
After less than 5 Hours
Of Sleep until
Poetry
Changes
Again to Dreams..:)
poetry sleep and dreams
dream-poetry sleep
sleep-dream poems
poem-dream sleep
roses with without thorns….
Poetry
Twilight
Sublime
After
Nap
Sprouts Higher…
As long as A Nap
Is shorter
Than
Longer…
Oh God if i
Still Worked
All Would
Still be
Crap
Poetry Breathes
Now with or without
Sleep
HeART
Wide AwAke..:)
Heart never sleeps 🙂
Awake
Forever
Now HeARTS
Speak Poetry Dreams..:)
🙂
😀
Beautiful indeed. I can relate.
Thanks Anna…
Merry Christmas to
You And All You
Love With
SMiles😊💫
Thankyou for making me understand me 🙏🦉🙂✨
All my Pleasure
Kathleen A Greatest
Challenge In Life i
Finally Met At Age 53
Is Understanding me
Indeed Life Doesn’t
Always Lend Room
To Understand The
One Within A Greatest
Challenge
For Many
Indeed With SMiles☺️