Confidence Stripped

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Confidence.. seriously
what’s wrong with being confident..
nothing as far as i can see.. OR FEEL..
as i’ve certainly been anxious before..
but no more.. Confident is what’s for breakfast..
lunch and dinner.. hehe! Wa some..
Yes.. it’s science of Human Being..
in balance.. fearless..

And OMgoodness
there’s a new song out
for JUST THAT..;)

Visiting Aunt Teenie..
at the Health and Rehabilitation Center..
And now off to finish this next blog post..
title not yet created.. but post written..
perhaps something about confidence..:)

And yes.. that’s the side of the family
with Sioux and Cherokee..
on my mother’s side..
her sister..
of course..
89 years old..:)

And yeah..
it’s pretty amazing how ballet/martial arts..
can make a person’s shoulders broader..
back to the confidence thingy.. i suppose..
and yeah.. Arnold the Governor..
did ballet.. believe it or not..
so no.. i ain’t the
first 234 LB dude
to do it.. either..:)

But Nude Art..
55 year old style..
sure i’m pretty much
the only one who does
that in free verse poetry style..
butt.. honestly that has done more
for me in human freedom way than
anything else.. as to stand naked in
front of the world is the ultimate
human archetype since
3500 years or so..
of what
is named
alpha male
status.. and truly
all that means is one
fears no other human
same as the other
animals
like Yellow
Boy.. who fears
no other cat..
but still
respects
humans
as he knows
where his meal ticket
comes from.. and no me no
slave to the work world any
more so i am subservient
to no human out
of fear.. yet i serve
freely out of Love..
and sure i
must serve
wife
Katrina
both out of
love and
ethics
of my
own
making of course..
obviously our relationship
is secure as she feels no
threat of my passion
in nude art..
in sharing that
with the world..
but Love is
THE DEEPEST
POWER AND GREATEST
POWER OF ALL HUMAN
POWER.. LOVE ALWAYS
GIVES.. REAL LOVE
NEVER RELIES
ON TAKING..
SHARING
IS
THE
INNATE
WAY OF REAL
HUMAN FREEDOM..
When i walk tall like
A LION ON THE SAVANNAH
I NEED NOT BOW OR PROSTRATE
myself to the ground to worship GOD as
GOD lives best as courageous and
kind in human
form
and essence
of FEARLESS LOVE..
yes.. unconditional
passionate
tough
LOVE
is GOD’s
GREATEST GIFT
MANIFEST BOTH IN
FORM AND ESSENCE
OF GOD
IN HUMAN
BEING..
THAT HUMAN
LOVES AND LIVES
WITH GOD THERE IS
NO FEAR WHERE
THERE
IS
REAL
FAMILY
LOVE..
JUST
RESPECT
AND LOVE..:)

http://freeversenudepoetry.blogspot.com/2015/10/diamond-eyes-life-free-verse-nude-poetry.html

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Hi.. friend revels1.. thanks for the visit today.. and i’m glad you enjoy the lovely flowers from my North Florida home.. here in the Panhandle.. with perhaps the most beautiful sugar white sands.. emerald green gulf.. sea oat swaying.. sea gulls spiraling around Sun.. place.. in the world!

But i live around 20 miles or so North of that beauty iN sandy loam soil that is white but not quite as white as the beach.. with flowers galore.. living in this soil with more nutrients to grow.. and i used to take great care in fertilizing my yard flowers.. watering them.. and even using some pesticide on ants then now.. but when i get sick i decide to let Nature take her course with all of that..

And to my greatest surprise and delight when i get well.. as all i feel is pain or emotional nothingness before my recovery.. is.. the flowers are more beautiful than ever before.. they take on the challenges of drought and plentiful rain the same.. and survive.. in God’s all natural plan of greaTest beauty among God’s creations that do adapt and survive these challenges of life…

Flowers are Universal beauty to human eYes.. requiring no language.. culture.. or religion for truth and light of beauty.. and the same is true when the beauty of God Expresses SpiRit of HeARt emotiOns.. in body and mind balancing soUl of human..

The continuing flower of all creation now.. is GOD..
and we humans are offshoots of that greaTEst FloWer
reflecting iN US.. when we sing toGetHeR
as one Force of
AllGODONE
in voice
of
SAcreDLove
ALLTHATIS
HOLY
AND
WORtHiT..:)

NO
separation
ALLisUNitY..:)

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And now to finishing up any more links for Haibun Monday
and Tuesday poetic links at dVerse online poetry pub..
in poetic responses of expression of course..
however that may come in no particular
order of
stream
of conscious
writing
rivers
flow
OceanOne..:)

Oh.. two paths of Friends
and Human BEinGs
in general..
yes.. two paths
of cognition in general
Social ways of connecting
and Mechanical ways of problem
solving.. while Problem
solving is required
for modern
life
Social
way is
Loving Life..

Live social..
solve problems..
see ya later..:)

Ah.. yes.. a SonG above
a DanCe below
a poeM sonG
moves
dancE above..
first is liGht
then is dArk
movement or
dance and song
or sound.. we work
toGeTheR to inspiRe more..

iNfiNiTy
n0w
daNceSinGs..:)

When i am a child..
i guess most children dream
of playing games and being movie stars..
but i just want to have a machine where
i can ask it any question i want..
and my handwriting is so bad..
i wish i can do it
faster and neater..
than the cursive word
to keep up with my mind of course…
and sure.. something more exciting than
a boring paper library.. with clunky card
catalogs.. not fast enough.. too..

Hmm.. i think Bill Gates and Steve Jobs..
must be dreaming the same thing.. so thank goodness
their dreams come true.. in action.. as my etch a sketch now..
is a wondrous machine that allows the outside world to finally catch up..
but haha.!. not necessarily keep up with my inside world expressed
as such.. through so many new electronic means
of etch a sketch communication!…

Etch a Sketch
Gates and
Jobs avenue poetic
expressions for me..:)

i suppose the greatest human illness
is the modern day first world
malady of
perfection..
ugh perfection
just s88Ks
as Infinity
as now demands
mistakes all the now..
anyway when my first
and last
child is born with
multiple
congenital
anomalies
SUFFERS FOR
51 DAYS AND DIES
WITH NOTHING
BUT PAIN..
i wake up
go back
to sleep
until i am blessed
with 19 medical disorders
including the worse pain
known to mankind
for 66 months of
shut in life..
20 YEARS
LATER AT
47.. AT 55..
AND WELL
AGAIN..
i ain’t going
back to sleep
baby.. i let i all
go now..
and just
flow with
what is
REALLY REAL
NOW.. my friend..
there are perfectionists
all around me.. but i for
one LET IT ALL GO..
revel in flow and
never a
care
for anything
but a practice
of Life AS IS NOW..
LESSON OF INFINITY
FREE AT LEAST FOR ME..:)

YEAH BABY..
POP THE
PIMPLE OF LIFE!..;)

And yes.. theRe is a SonG for THAT..
no doubt one hears iT before..
but never the less..
IT IS WHAT IT i iS..;)

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X.. It all starts with human heart..
fill it up in the first couple of years
if the innate stuff is ready..
and the environment becomes
loving and filling chalice
rather than just empty cup
with no feelings.. of
comfort.. trust.. and love..

Greatest gift of life..
is the human touch
from birth to life..

without it gifts of
stuff and power
takes the place..

drugs illegal prescription
drink a like becomes
the pill of feel
never filling
human liGht..

Love is the answer
but it comes first..
and modern science
says if the connections
are not made early
there is no going back..
the primacy of Love
has no
equal..
no grade..
no..
test
no
equal…
and sadly
no teacher..
after
the
FaCT
of empty…
But sure we
can still hope for more..
we have to.. there is no other avenue..
of
anything
but hope…
and i for one
believe in
more
than science
i for one feel
and know
miracles
are real..
but perhaps
all of that too..
comes from the
unconditional touchy
feely
Love
of Mother’s
unconditional
tough Love
breast
connecting
ALLONE..
LIKE a terminal
of life.. off
or
ONe..:)

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Hi X.. thanks for coming by tonight..

and yeah that devil of fear.. instant gratification of sin..

is challenging stuff to overcome in our western way of life..

but possible i find now with adequate cultural escape and

true human freedom in relative free will..

And yeah.. it has been a long

and cloudy 10 days

or so here..

in FL..

as well..

and i too..

am so glad to see the wonderful sun

shine so high again yesterday after cold front passes

crisp azure sky once again.. still not cold but with dry skies.. smiles..

And.. oh yes.. exploring with your son.. is a way to go.. to make new connections in our physical and emotional aspects of social cognition pathways of mind.. and exploring farther than one’s neighborhood on foot is a best way to move in three dimensions outside electronics and automobiles..

Anyway.. that sounds like fun.. i’ve been spending way too much time behind this scream of screen lately and it is time for me to explore more out into the real world as well.. writing is fun.. but the dance of life is where i really love to go.. and explore.. my friend X.. as adventure truth and light in human eYes of wanderlust!.. and sure.. i can still share that here in photography!..in treasure the moment and count my blessings warm and true..:)!

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One of my favorite work-out shirts.. yes.. it says.. living the dream.. with a dude wired up to a screen of scream.. hmm.. yes.. GOD yes.. i spend lots of time online.. but it is in a dream of creativity and not a scream of screen alone.. to read is nice.. sure… and

OH GOD i do SO MUCH of that as well.. but to create is divine.. same as the weeds in the field that refuse to conform to the plain of the meadow without SPiCE yes SpiCE.. hmm.. ‘Dune Book’ reference too.. free association vs. rigid ways of analytical thinking is the difference between a Van Gogh and a textbook.. that gathers nothing but dust into old age.. and sure humans are the same..

Maslow’s top of the pyramid in human being is the level at self-actualization.. where the human finds purpose and meaning of life.. and reconciles the dichotomies of life in light and dark as a mix of purpose.. meaning.. and truth and light.. and the only REAL WAY to do this is through creative expression of art.. a place in the United States where historically only an elite few truly are able to express in later life..

as the demands of mechanical cognition repetitive

problem solving ways of life are the way

of the 9 to 5 grind for

many all the way

’til their last breath..

BUT the great thing about the

Steve Jobs way of bringing art to technology..

is it becomes a broader avenue to express the ART of US as Human being..

and YouTube.. and free platforms for Blogs provide an affordable avenue of that for folks to branch out in art and creativity not only to just do it.. but to connect as well.. where human self-actualization becomes a much greater force of creative energy.. for the entire world tribe to share in as well..

WeLL.. self-actualization.. is truly an adequate secular metaphor for religious terms like born again.. and enlightening and awakening.. as when we as human beings express ourselves with imagination and creativity we do become little children again in the spirit of free living.. expresSinG our most inner dreams of imagination and creativity.. brinGinG them to fruition like a cocoon of human who is literally born again in the spirit of creativity.. as a butterfly of human life..

And true some folks arrive here earlier..

as a result of their life fortunes.. or

misfortunes as may be the case..

some never arrive..

and perhaps that is

the saddest part of ALL..

as i for one.. believe most human

beings have this latent potential

that is often untapped by the reality of living life

like a machine instead of human being more fully realized in creative potential..

There are no limits and expectations for fuller human creativity.. where art becomes reality and human becomes.. ART.. GOD is ART.. FULLY FREE CREATIVE ART.. and so are we.. when we too.. BECOME ART.. AND YEAH.. my middle name ARThur comes from my Irish Rainsford Ancestors.. who provide housing for the Guinness Beer Operations.. and yeah.. that middle name is originally inspired in the family of Great Grandmother Rainsford from Dublin Ireland…

through the name of Arthur Guinness.. small world it is.. of Unity and no separation.. when fuller exploRinG freedom.. being.. human.. but nah.. no beer for me.. i am high enough.. free enough.. and HA! definitely uninhibited enough without additives.. i am an all natural beer unto itself.. ARThur or Not..;)

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mark_Rainsford

And her husband from the Black Forest of Germany.. Great Grand Father Edmund Lehmann.. a Clock Maker and Jeweler as part of the Lehmann empire for that.. but yes.. both he and his wife die.. and my Grandfather Leo.. also born in Ireland.. is put into an orphanage.. with his brother Joseph.. and they start a shoe shop in Ireland.. but Leo goes the route of Catholic Priest.. moves up into the ‘ranks’.. and gets his PHD in Divinity studies.. and such as that.. but goes the

FURTHER ROUTE OF getting married to my

Cajun Grandmother out of his Parish..

he at 36 and she at 17 or so..

in Taylor County Florida..

and then he goes on to scathingly criticize

the Catholic Church of Rome in connection with his book authored “Behind the Dictators”.. a book in full PDF form now.. with a simple Google Internet search.. but nah..

THAT does not go over well.. with the rest of the family so he gets excommunicated in both places.. Catholic Church banning his books.. with us just now getting connected back to that history of family.. and Lord knows when I take that picture of that Guinness advertisement with the name Arthur Guinness on it so many times.. when leaving Seville Quarter by the “End of the Alley” sign.. i never realize he is the reason for my middle name.. hehe.. but anyway..

it’s a small world

also with my Grandfather Leo..

with socialist party interests

in New York, New York..

as then he is one of Einstein’s acquaintances

having dinner with him.. and on the other side of the

American Indian Lakota/Cherokee ancestral associated family..

on my mother’s side.. my Great Grandfather Robbins.. a self educated

bar passed lawyer.. and top Debater in school.. crosses the trail

with Geronimo back here in the states..

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Leo on the far left as child..

All i have of my Grandfather Leo’s family for so long.. is just a picture of the early children together.. his brothers and sisters.. having no idea how ‘rich’ their heritage is.. but always just on the outside of big riches.. and not quite ‘there’ in money ways.. and i feel fortunate to have escaped riches as gold is a path often straight to human real hell.. of separation from Nature.. Love.. and what is truly real in life.. in adapting to physical and mental challenges to make change and human potential real.. instead of just a stagnant life.. living with riches..:)

Oh.. yes.. the Key to TRULY LIVING THE DREAM

IS NOT JUST TO CREATE WITH MIND ALONE

but get body in the show as well.. sadly in almost all of historical philosophy.. religion.. psychology and OH MY GOD even science too.. THE human body is relegated as animally inferior to the intellect of human miNd.. well ha! nothing can be further from the truth and this is coming from

one of the ‘eggheads’ me of all time.. always at the top of my class..

through three degrees in college and all stuff mechanical cognition..

often referred to as a computer instead of human being..

IN WAYS OF thinking.. the PITFALL OF HIGHER IQ LEANING DUDES AND DUDETTES.. is to get horribly and painfully.. in terms of potential stress.. anxiety.. and eventual illness..F*KiNG stuck in one’s head.. and oh my goodness.. the number of folks who live their lives vicariously in video games of movement while the stress hormones are pumping vigorously in adrenaline excitement of playing games is a danger of happy stress just like unhappy stress of eventually destroying the vital organ systems of the body.. where some pudgy

PASTIE ‘WHITE’ dude with a beard hiding

the pudgy pastIE SKIN of face and body

that just sits in excitement and never moves.. or gets outside..

IT is a national illness that is growing.. and sure i DO it too for many years.. so yah.. the board has been in my eyes as well.. i ain’t no worm anymore.. and by GOD if i can do it at age 55 in terms of incredible strength and agility.. there is no excuse for most young males these days who have become worm hipsters.. instead of full bred males.. but this ain’t just about vanity and picking up women.. this is about being comfortable in one’s own skin.. in ways of emotional regulation and sensory integration..

AND YES greater Focus and

Short term working memory

in terms of Cognitive Executive functioning.. and hell no.. going to the gym.. and using all the fancy machines in mechanical ways.. is not enough.. as humans are works of art just waiting to break out in the Dance Art of our ancestors who move invisibly to escape predator and capture prey.. which truly is more of a ballet-like movement than clunky boxing jabs.. and haha!.. a few people confuse my grace and smiles at times for weakness but they can become quickly aware with just one handgrip from me.. or sure.. a Youtube video of me leg pressing half-a-ton with ease.. my body is truly a temple of Nature and God the same.. as all the really cool wild animals just do IN the kingdom of God of Nature challenge..

WITH GRACE

AND STRENGTH..

TO make life into instant gratification and ‘VIDEO GAME’.. IN ALL WAYS OF VIRTUAL SITTING ENTERTAINMENT.. thrills like this.. with not even a way to burn off the happy.. sad.. or fear.. stress hormones.. is a sure way to early onset of type two diabetes as science already shows that approximately one-third of school age children are now pre-type two diabetic..

about 50 percent of the population of adults are on some kind of pain medication for chronic pain.. that is often a result of stress and repressed emotions and associated somatic.. yes hell yes.. psychologically driven tension all over the body.. in tandem with repressing overwhelming emotions.. as well as imbalance of the homeostasis of all the bodily systems that..

SHOULD BE THE HUMAN RULE INSTEAD OF THE CHRONIC STRESS REALITY… there are so many creative ways to move.. and gain balance in emotions and senses.. it is unlimited and far far away from the schools of any exercise or dance class.. and there are an almost infinite number of emotional nuances that are a Delight

iN FEELING to go with these ways of human

imaginative and creative dance expression

in movement of life..

that some males or females

may never experience as they

adhere to polarized gender expectations of

culture on the way a ‘proper man or woman’ can move in life..

OH YEAH… AND THEN there is the epidemic of psychotropic medications for adults that has even become a reality for children more increasingly as well.. Moving.. Connecting.. Creating humans are happy joyous humans with meaning and purpose.. take away any of those three elements of human being..

And you get a broken human

who needs to be naturAllY fixed..

not just STUCK ON PILLS

OF QUICK FIX..

THAT RARELY

WORKS SIGNIFICANTLY GREATER THAN

THE PLACEBO EFFECT OF JUST BELIEVING that is also a vital way of human healing in attitude of thinking and feeling as Believing iS A FEELING EMOTIONAL EXPRESSION OF HUMAN TOO.. SADLY dead in many human beings these days too.. as a result of stagnant bodies..

FREEDOM IS IMAGINATION SET FREE

IN THE EXPRESSION OF MOVING CONNECTING AND CREATING..

AND TRULY THE FIRST STEP TO CONNECTING

AND CREATING IS MOVING..

AND THAT IS WHY THE WORLD IS

BECOMING INCREASINGLY

VANILLA AND QUIET

IN TERMS OF HUMAN ART..

AS SCREENS BECOME

HUMAN BEINGS..

INSTEAD OF

HUMAN BEINGS SCREAMING

CREATIVITY EVERYWHERE THEY GO..

iT’s a choice of HUMAN RELATIVE FREE WILL..

and a tough choice to go against the grain of vanilla…

but yes.. for rational people who exercise that choice in a Peaceful

LOVING way the avenues are there for expression of human Creativity

more than ever for those who find them and fully exercise them to

self actualize human being as fully VITAL AND REAL..!..:)

Oh and did i not mention the most important pArt

of the Human Moving.. Connecting..

and Creating.. source..

THE root force of all

that mammals do.. yes..

Human sensuality in ways

of sexual expression

is the root of all that moves.. connects

and creates in terms of human being..

And even science now proves this as true

in clinical experiments that measure stuff like girth and moisture..

TO repress/oppress human sexuality IN CULTURAL AND RELIGIOUS WAYS OF ILLUSORY FEARS FOR CONTROL.. AND SUBJUGATION OF HUMAN FREEDOMS LIKE REPRODUCING.. AND FOR MATERIALISTIC AND POWER GAIN in Collecting ways..

IS a sure way to increase human aggression.. violence.. and yes.. desires for World War III WITH Apocalypse dreams.. as humans become cardboard.. with frustration.. again.. aggression.. often leading to violence.. particularly in the male of the species.. as that is what GOD as nature dictates..

THAT humans freely express their sexuality..

in balancing ways of living life with Love as the regulator of that..

WeLL baby.. the USA is leading the world with other countries on that one for sure.. particularly here in Southern States where sexuality is expressed everywhere one goes in terms of ‘warm sKin’.. but the saddest

ART of all human being.. is one that is covered up and hidden as a flower that never sees the Sun or GOD for that matter.. FuLL as Nature’s Truth that lives in US from top of head to tips of toes and fingers.. to yes.. the Flowering VaGinA.. and the tip of penIs aimed at creativity in more ways than just creating children..

The Whole Human tHinG works as wHole..

from head to toe.. to subtract

any pArt of FuLL human being

.. is to break the

cHaiN of LiVinG FREE.. theRe is no fooling

or escaping GOD of Mother Nature True.. to live out of balance is to live in misery.. suffering.. and overall discontent.. but sadly most people will believe religion and culture over GOD that lives within and tales the truth through innate instinct and intuition of what is correct in life..

AND THE REASON for this is simple.. fear of being outcast from the social group.. the human instinct for social acceptance is so great.. in terms of gaining necessary subsistence for survival.. that women in countries that chop off the pleasure parts of females.. in FGM.. female genital mutilation..

come to view this truly

barbarian act..

as that of holy.. no different really

than ISIS terrorist who rape little girls in the

name of ALLAH.. while these little girls plead

by the name of GOD to stop bringing horrifying pain to them…

These are not people of GOD.. these are humans of psychopathy who have no feeling but power gained through controlling the relative free will and human nature of perceived weaker human beings than they.. as they smile to their selfish pleasures.. in power and material gains.. that will never feel a soul..

THAT is non-existent in terms of the greaTEST INHERENT HUMAN POWER THAT IS LOVE.. as fostered from birth through the breast connection of parents in terms of touchy feely hugging Love.. that humans are gifted by GOD greatest in by far for those who have not lost their humanity yet.. through the negative epigenetic environmental effect and emotional negative

AFFECT of a cultural or religious driven tool of life

gone truly humanely insane and psychopathic same..

by cold hands and arms that do

not Love others in moving..

connecting.. and creating ways..

BEyond made-up stuff of human myths of moral tales

that veer from GOD given human Nature.. sadly enough.. there is no

REAL Human Nature Instructor in life but GOD.. sadly some folks manage to evade GOD all their life.. with lies of religion and culture DEVIL FALSE.. INSTEAD OF ANGEL GOD THAT LIVES WITHIN as Mother Nature TRUTH AND LIGHT..:)

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And now to the joy
and yes.. challenge
of only my making..
as it will be too much
perhaps to ask this
of anyone
else.. hehe..
but me..
but anyway..
a new form of
poetry i’ve never
heard of before..
and i will
proceed to
use this
new
“Trimeric”
forM of poeTry
to sPeak mY
heArt.. expresSinG
spiRit of emoTiOns..
miNd and
body
balanCinG
soUl
of i…
until i catch
up with what
dVerse
has to offer for now..
and move onto other
ways of physical creative
ART.. as free as it
gets for human
passionate
imagination
creativity
just
doing
IT now ALL FReED!..

sO heRe goEs
sometHinG.. N0W..:)

*Fear creates war..
truly it’s culture
that is the tool
of death

Truly it’s culture
so far removed
from human life…

That is the tool..
that humans use
to separate from Nature..

Of death culture brings..
Of life culture sings..
It is is what is it is.. so is…

*Evening Princess of Indian Lore..
Sitting by a fire of naked..
Swirling dance of flames
Awaken in eYes of Life..

Sitting by a fire of naked..
warm blood sings of Nature..
Long hair brushes breasts of Life..

Swirling dance of flames
engulf woman whole..
fire of live you lie inside..

Awaken in eYes of Life..
Yes.. Sing to me..
SonG of God.. am i Alive…

Prison of Love Long Lost
Love Long Lost found now..
Never gone always here
Love is where heArt Lives Now…

Love Long Lost found now..
Where do you go so far away..
eyes of love live near more far…

Never gone always here
of course you are..
you live in me..

Love is where heARt Lives Now…
Never lost.. never found.. just is
As is Now.. light or dark.. Evergreen…

Canaries mine SinG daRk tUnes
Lives dArk.. always paRt..
Separation myth..
Unity Real..

Lives dArk always paRt..
Real is all.. all is light..
DaRk comes.. goes..

Separation myth..
always lie..
Truth ALLthatiS…

Unity Real..
Now is woN
oNe is Now..
Ancestors light no broken chain..
Hands of i and those enjoin..
Voices SinG ancestral realm..
Life goes.. comes again…

Hands of i and those enjoin..
struggles past grown strong..
challenge i.. live strong..

Voices SinG ancestral realm..
a dance of they.. a dance of i..
a fire of live.. in center heARt…

Life goes.. comes again…
Life here all.. now always..
Just N0W..:)

Form of politicians.. broken DArk Truth..
There is no money.. in Truth and Light..
A day will come when money falls..
All is left.. human being..

There is no money.. in Truth and Light..
All is free.. wheRe human lives
Sad cold eYes.. lose eyes of warmth..

A day will come when money falls..
Money fails on day one.. Now..
Judgement.. heArts no Love..

All is left.. human being..
cold illusion.. money sinks..
Love melts money.. Truth SinGs LiGht..:)

Moon SonG.. widows breath..
Black hair girl.. SonG gone lost..
Sweet life lives.. lips so smooth..
Hair illuminating.. full moon lit…

Black hair girl.. SonG gone lost..
picks up pieces.. Love before..
scattered here ’bout.. alone..

Sweet life lives.. lips so smooth..
Ample shoulders.. strong and true..
SonG Love Lasts.. moonlight hips..

Hair illuminating.. full moon lit..
sMiLes arise.. new born Love..
Phoenix shines.. hEr first breath..:)

*Politics always soap opera..
Conservatives and Liberals.. iNnate..
Wife Katrina.. watches soap operas..
Old white men.. watch Fox..

Conservatives and Liberals.. iNnate..
Seriously.. no shit Sherlock.. Truth..
Science measures.. this Truth.. NOW..

Wife Katrina.. watches soap operas..
Politics bores.. as it stays the same..
4 years later.. different.. talking heads..

Old white men.. watch Fox..
This 55 year old.. dance dude..
400+ photos NOW.. with Foxes..;)

*Side note
YES.. i can prove IT..;)

https://katiemiafrederick.com/2014/12/09/gods-muse-of-dance/

https://katiemiafrederick.com/2015/03/19/666-months-of-dance/

*end side note and
please note..
as mentioned
in previous posts..
asterisks indicate
places WHO have
decided not to
allow my comments..
as previous
record
indicates..
but hey.. it’s the
thought that counts..;)

Wolf Dog of London
You bring memories.. wild..
i am no different.. fur now..
i SinG MooN.. new SonG…

You bring memories.. wild..
So alive.. so passionate.. real..
Present wild.. God’s delicious liGht..

i am no different.. fur now..
More challenge.. ever stronger..
GroWinG.. liVinG.. no other way..

i SinG MooN.. new SonG
i am no WereWolf.. NOW
Set free.. Jack’s HUman..:)

Death of life.. silence..
Death of moving.. words..
Death of life..
Still…

Death of moving.. words..
Dance.. UniVersALLangUage.. ages..
EmoTiONs expresSing fulLer…

Death of Life..
No Moving..
Connecting.. Creating..

Still..
Still..
Still..:)

Apple on a Tree..
Do not Reach..
Do not pass Go..
Do not Live..

Do not Reach..
stay put..
bore..

Do not pass Go..
stagnant
rot..

Do not Live..
apple eat..
Live..:)

4:42 pm..
and 11 is all
dVerse has to
offer..
and on
to different
STUFF FOR ME..
continue
this pARt
later
when
dVerse
Catches
pass me
again.;)

And back to catch up
again.. 12:52 pm..
10092015..:)

And first two stops
on Haibun Monday
to catch up
there before
moving
on to
Trimeric
Thursday..
both from
dVerse Poet’s
Pub.. Online..:)

Perhaps.. the most influential person
in my young adult life.. is no
preacher.. but a philosophy
instructor in junior
college.. beyond
the strict
sidewalks
of schools..
and brick churches..
curriculum.. hE looks
to the American Indian
for his greaTesT truths
and in balance and
heritage..
i do too.. yes..
Dr. Ralph Hunt..
and before he dies
of Leukemia.. walking
down a hill from the same
two story building that is
once my elementary school..
now a Junior College.. in
walking distance
from River
home..
i have my
vision quest
and relate it to
him.. and at the
end he says.. nah..
i will not say goodbye
in the words of the
American
Indian
there
is only
SEE YA LATER..
and at least..
he is still
here in
eYeSworDs
of me..
sMiLEs..

WordSeYes
lifetime(s) last
server ways..:)

Humans will do almost anything to escape pain.. including
painful emotions.. bud sadly without the
sadly or not..
Human emotions
are energy
for us to
grow in
both light
and dark
ways of feeling
life.. Lesson of a lifetime
for me.. is to appreciate
both the dark and light
of human
emotions
of the Pro-Social
kind freely the
other darker
con-social ones..
i regulate out and
do not miss at all
like jealousy.. envy
pride.. doubt..
illusory
fears
and all of that..
It is possible
to get control
in relative
human
free will
of emotions
and senses in
ways of regulation
and integration..
but surely
in our culture
in the U.S.
with all
THE NOISE..
THE job
of JOB..
to get
that
life
span
job
done!..

Rests n0 JOB
unTiL peace iS
heRe.. staYsN0W..:)

Milky way a fetus.. N0W
Spiraling Alive iS It.. Now
Swirling around like iT..
Is US..

Spiraling Alive is it.. Now
Universe unto itself.. sAMe
Patterns living throughOuT

Swirling around like iT..
Always moving.. dancing..
SinGinG.. Sound from THAT..

Is US
JUST IS
UniVerse WE..:)

Divine feminine and masculine in one..
Seeking opposites when two live as one..
Love only giving.. never taking..
When one becomes two..

Seeking opposites when two live as one..
Other spirit strives to live..
Joining both fully alive..

Love only giving.. never taking..
Bride is body.. groom is miNd..
Whole.. never wanting..

When one becomes two..
Feminine and Masculine..
ONE Divine..:)

Oh the tree..
Oh the desert..
Oh the cave..
Oh the Beach..

Oh the desert..
a place of Jesus
to escape Religion..

Oh the cave..
a place of Muhammad
to escape Christianity..

Oh the beach..
i come back full circle..
i am A Tree wITh Forrest..

PS..
And Buddha too..;)

A seed of hate..
Separating Child and Mother..
Losing Heart of empathy..
Garden of Love dies..

Separating Child and Mother..
Often Electronic devices..
raising children..

Losing Heart of empathy
eyes become screen
instead of human..

Garden of Love Dies..
Human becomes gun..
Death becomes human..

Freedom’s way..
No possessions..
Wild living..
Passionful..

No possessions..
Rent this place free..
Wind as eYes bleed…

Wild Living..
Flesh and Blood Real..
No regrets.. no shame.. LiVE..

Passionful..
No looking.. BACK..
Future alWays NOW..:)

*Moon.. a dream.. a sing..
Moon.. does more than sing..
Moon.. moves.. never still..
Humans still..

Moon.. does more than sing.
Moon.. dreams.. eYes uS..
We.. SinG dReaMs..

Moon moves .. never sTill..
Humans falter.. still..
Humans die.. stagnant..

Humans.. still..
Moon.. lives..
Move humans..:)

Road of iNfiNiTy no end beginning..
Road of eyes.. begin and end..
And begin again..
Humans smAll..

Road of eyes.. begin and end..
Give it all in.. take.. Love beyond..
Grains of sand.. humble sees more..

And begin again..
Never ending story..
Now..

Humans SmAll..
Big enough
Be SmaLL..:)

Hurricane heArt sMiLEs wiND..
SpiRit ExpresSinG HearT..
SoUl Balancing..
Body and Mind…

spiRit ExpresSinG HearT
Move.. connect.. create..
Body and MiNd Balance..

SoUl Balancing
Time is now..
only now..

Body and Mind
Bride and Groom
ONE practice Storm..:)

Hurricane heArt sMiLEs wiND..
SpiRit ExpresSinG HearT..
SoUl Balancing..
Body and Mind…

spiRit ExpresSinG HearT
Move.. connect.. create..
Body and MiNd Balance..

SoUl Balancing
Time is now..
only now..

Body and Mind..
Bride and Groom
ONE practice Storm..:)

Seasons of cycles.. energy rests..
A now for sun… A now for shade..
Love the Sun.. Love the sNow..
Party comes in rest and fire..

A now for sun.. A now for shade…
Love the cool.. Love the Rain..
Snow White brings clean..

Love the Sun.. Love the sNow..
Winter’s grip.. release..
ALLONE..

Party comes in rest and fire..
Passionate eyes
neverFall..:)

A chalice.. A cup that holds..
A Love.. a Force that grows..
Hands embrace..
Love spiLLs..

A Love.. a Force that grows..
UnconditionAllY..
Mother’s Love..

Hands embrace..
touch becomes
sweet alive..

Love SpiLLs
EveRrgreen..
No Cup Holder..:)

Okay.. all caught
up to 32 Monday
Haibun’s and
21 Thursday
Trimeric
verses..

2:56 pm..:)

Wind trees..
Fall Breeze..
Leave fall..
Cool skips steps

Fall Breeze..
Seasons change..
Easy breathe comes..

Leave Fall..
Winter come..
Spring Yet..

Cool skips steps
Spring rise fall..
Summer Bright again..:)

4:42 pm

10:00 am
10102015

Challenge of the cold
piercing winds change..
Humans travel North
escape desert South..

piercing winds change..
humans adapt..
grow stronger..

Humans travel North
culture grows smarter..
humans change

escape desert South..
New World Nomads..
New IsRaEL Live Free..:)

Eternity swims sweet refrain..
All ocean fish
So many more
Infinite connections…

All ocean fish
passers by
greet each other

So many more
connections stronger
pleasing eYes dreams

Infinite connections…
no time now..
All we Eyes..:)

Truly it’s about social roles
Boys who fear emotions..
Boys driving girls away
Lonely isolated boys..

Boys who fear emotions
grow weak
alone

Boys driving girls away
become frustrated
get angry..

Lonely isolated boys..
can become violent
some Kill

So in conclusion
who kills the
emotions
of boys..
Patriarchal
ways of life..
where boys
no longer
feel
like
boys…

In two of the last
several major
rampage killings..
not having
a girl
friend
is a
cited
source of
all the anger..

Humans
are still
humans..
there is
natural
aversion
to killing other
humans without
tools of death..
put a trigger
in the mix
and death
comes quicker…

It’s
just one
plus one
equals instant death.

And yes.. i’ve pursued this
with great interest..
with potential
candidates
who
overall
agree
about
the
factor
of the
social
role..
the
latest
killer
boy has
no empathy..
and much anger..
like some other folks
on the ‘Wrong Planet’ too…
It’s the illness of losing soul…
Where the real devil becomes human…
and only society overall has the potential of cure..
there are close to zero rampage killings
in the 50’s.. where social roles are
clearly defined.. and
jobs are
plentiful..
boys no
longer are
making the grade
of being boys
at
all
in their minds..
Credit sitting on their
butts in front of
screens
for a
large
part
of that..
doing whatever…
There is an epidemic
of a Zombie Apocalypse
in the U.S. where science
empirically measures empathy
levels dropping 30% since
the 50’s.. go figure..
it’s common
sense
for those
who still
have a
soul….
but hey.. i did author
the top search result on Google
for this special interest of
mine.. on the major factors
underlying rampage
killings..
if one wants to
know the answers..
listen
to
‘the
boys’…
that’s what i did..
i didn’t rely
on the
talking
news
heads..
alone..;)

smiles.. reference
below.. sister Lynn..
and friend
at
the
almost
end..;)

http://wrongplanet.net/forums/viewtopic.php?t=218916

Culture erasing imagination creativity..
Humans losing humanity slowly..
torturing death in life from birth..
rising alive.. dreams fruition..

Humans losing humanity slowly..
drifting away.. childhood suffocates..
Childhood sLows.. adults die as life..

torturing death in life from birth..
Spoon feeding culture
large plate from birth..

rising alive.. dreams fruition..
spark inside.. coming now..
imagination’s creativity.. Phoenix SpRinGs..:)

11:40 am
this part appears
to be finished for now..:)

Yes.. i am on a poeTry
ramPage word
spree aGain..
bullets are not
my style.. i WiLL
JusT d0
sWORDsNOW..
letters.. photos..
videos.. and
other
symbols
2..;)

6277

Steve Jobs..
ALL that effort.. all the naysayers..
all the FLACK.. well it comes down to this..
years after his death.. and yes.. celebrating
his life tomorrow.. with the opening of a new movie
to celebrate his life’s work.. yes.. i can take the
iPhone 6s.. camera.. in my pocket..
anywhere i go.. and take pictures
that are point and shoot..
of masterpieces past..
with $10,000 dollar
cameras of
complicated features..
with sweaty hands.. now..
dancing sideways.. on sand..
in yard spring of always.. now..
CREATIVITY..
‘Build IT and He will Come’..
‘Field of Dreams’..
circa N0W..:)

http://www.quotationspage.com/quote/38357.html

“Here’s to the crazy ones,
the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers,
the round pegs in the square holes… the ones
who see things differently — they’re not fond of rules…
You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify
or vilify them, but the only thing you can’t do
is ignore them because they change things…
they push the human race forward,
and while some may see them
as the crazy ones,
we see genius,
because the ones who are
crazy enough to think that they can
change the world, are the ones who do.”

-STEVE JOBS

6470

WALT WHITMAN..
from the preface
of
“LEAVES OF GRASS”

http://www.bartleby.com/39/45.html

“The known universe
has one complete lover
and that is the greatest poet.
He consumes an eternal passion
and is indifferent which chance happens
and which possible contingency of fortune
or misfortune and persuades daily
and hourly his delicious pay.
What baulks or breaks others
is fuel for his burning progress
to contact and amorous joy.
Other proportions
of the reception
of pleasure dwindle
to nothing to his proportions.
All expected from heaven
or from the highest he is
rapport with in the sight
of the daybreak or a scene of the
winter woods or the presence of children playing
or with his arm round the neck of a man or woman.
His love above all love has leisure and expanse …
he leaves room ahead of himself.
He is no irresolute
or suspicious lover …
he is sure … he scorns intervals.
His experience and the showers and thrills
are not for nothing. Nothing can jar him …
suffering and darkness cannot—
death and fear cannot. to him
complaint and jealousy and envy
are corpses buried and rotten in the earth …
he saw them buried. The sea is not surer
of the shore or the shore of the sea than
he is of the fruition of his
love and of all perfection
and beauty.”

“There will soon be no more
priests. Their work is done.
They may wait awhile …
perhaps a
generation or two …
dropping off by degrees.
A superior breed shall take their place …
the gangs of kosmos and prophets
en masse shall take their place.
A new order shall arise
and they shall be the priests of man,
and every man shall be his own priest.
The churches built under their umbrage
shall be the churches of men and women.
Through the divinity of themselves shall the kosmos
and the new breed of poets be interpreters of men and women
and of all events and things. They shall find their inspiration
in real objects to-day, symptoms of the past and future… .
They shall not deign to defend immortality or God
or the perfection of things or liberty or the exquisite
beauty and reality of the soul. They shall arise in
America and be responded to
from the remainder
of
the
earth.”

6850

Hi SOHEIR..

i watch ‘the entire video’..

and if this is just the interpretation of the Quran..

including an equal respect for women..

it is truly a beautiful way to live..

from what i see..

Love is the bottom line.. sadly.. fear is the Devil..

in all ways fear is incorporated into Life.. so no..

i cannot agree with some of the dogma..

but i am very happy the narrator realizes that my Ancestors..

the Sioux/Lakota and Cherokee.. of American Indian heritage

are truly the first historical people’s to believe in

ONE GOD.. as the GREAT SPIRIT..

HUMANS cannot fit God in one word only.. or one language..

or one religion and this is what i mean about God pecks out the eyes

of prophets that humans come to worship as men instead of messengers..

that’s not a literal statement.. of course.. as i have great respect for all prophets who

humble themselves to the much greater reality

that is God over human.. It is only when they are made

more than human that lies come…

Human manifests God’s power within.. outside.. above.. below and all around.. but it is never the full manifestation of all the glory of GOD that lives ALL as ONE GOD..

The danger is always when humans attempt to suggest they know and feel all the being of GOD as they are a reflection.. but never the full Light and Truth of GOD that will always be above the understanding of human..

We humans have always attempted to use symbols
to express the Truth and Light of GOD of ALL..
but we always fall
short
of the
Glory of GOD..
ALL of WE humans
from the first to the
last who will ever
exist on this
terrestrial plane..
owe our lives to
GOD as lives are only
gifts to cherish
and offer
up to
the potentials
gifted to
us
by the
Grace of
GOD..
i speak
from
spirit
not
from intellect
my friend..
in planning
way.. GOD
flows in
US..
ALL from
the first Indians
who are indigenous
peoples of this planet
to the last Indians who
will always be indigenous
beings
AS
children of
GOD.. where GOD
always lives in the
open hearts.. spirits..
and souls.. of humans
on
desert
isles..
But anyway.. i assess a religion
by the people who follow it
in ways of Love and
never the
religion
or country
alone.. i can
disagree with you
about these things
and you will still unconditionally
Love me as friend.. and that my
friend is my
definition
of both
Christian and
Jesus ..one who Loves
GOD.. first with all their
heart.. spirit.. and soul..
and mind and body
incorporated as
temple of GOD too..
one who respects
and Loves themselves
the same as well as one
who respects and Loves all
others no matter differences
of opinions.. as worthy children
of GOD… as WE ALL ARE REGARDLESS
OF RELIGION.. NATIONALITY.. GENERAL
DISABILITY.. SEXUAL ORIENTATION..
ETHNICITY IN SKIN COLOR..
AND ALL OTHER DIFFERENCES
FROM ALPHA TO OMEGA..
sadly few religions will
incorporate ALL into
GOD’s reality
as children
of GOD
and that is where i for one
separate paths.. as i have
seen the face of GOD close
up and personal… and i am
both Angel and Devil/Jinn/Demon
in one life and have
visited both Hell and
Heaven in one life as well..
so i know these metaphors
for Angels
and Devil/Jinn/Demons
as well as hell and heaven
are not just myths.. they
are symbols for human
reality no different
than
GOD
is REAL
and evident
in ALL OF
NATURE..
NO SANTA
CLAUS.. NO
ONLY SON OF GOD..
THE GOD OF ALL THAT IS..
AND IF I AM WORTHY TO
BE IN GOD’S KINGDOM
NOW.. i am the least
and all others
are greater
than me..
and that
my friend
is THE REAL
MESSAGE OF JESUS
AS WELL.. AS GOD SPEAKS
AS PARENT OF ALL.. EVEN
US DEVILS/JINN/DEMONS
AND LUCIFER INCARNATE
IF YOU WILL.. AS METAPHOR
ONLY OF COURSE..
IN OTHER WORDS..
THERE IS NO SEPARATION
ANYWHERE THERE IS ONLY
ONE GOD.. all else is human
lies.. illusions.. and of course
metaphor for Truth.. which are
for the deeper seeing eyes that
can read the prophets hearts..
spirits.. and souls..
and not just
their
words
alone
as
literal….
sMiLEs friend ..
i appreciate you..
and truly from my heart
the saddest part of the Muslim
religion as it is practiced in some
areas of patriarchy rule over women
as less than human.. IS that.. if ISA
is born again.. with no earthly
father.. which i do not believe
God has to do magic tricks
beyond Nature to
convince me GOD
is REAL..
THAT sadly
enough.. ISA will
not be able to
come again
like this
in these
areas for
more than
obvious reasons..
and those are the
areas OF DOGMA
where i diverge.. but
NEVER THE LESS I WILL
NEVER THROW THE LOVE
BABY OUT.. ‘CAUSE OF SOME
DIFFERENCES IN OPINION OR
HISTORICAL REFERENCES OF RELIGION
and that my friend is why i still visit the
Catholic Church for over two years now..
since i am healed from Devil and Hell..
but i will never worship Jesus..
i will hear his words as teacher..
but he will be steaming
angry like a lion..
if he ever does
come back
to find
that he is both
worshipped and humans
have killed in his memory
as not a humble prophet
teacher.. but the Soldier GOD
of Roman
Emperor
Constantine
and his Catholic
psychopathic
Patriarchal leaning
cohorts .. in that now..
of 325 AD.. my friend..
So i silence my voice
when those words in church
come.. but i keep the love of GoD..
myself.. and others sAMe no matter
what the different opinions are that
come beyond what GOD speaks to
me FACE TO FACE AS ANGEL
AND
DEVIL with GOD..
AND SURE.. THERE IS
A KARMA TO PAY
FOR ALL
HARM
DONE
TO OTHERS
IN THIS LIFE NOW..
I KNOW.. FEEL.. AND
UNFEEL.. THE BURNING
PLACE OF PENANCE
ALL
TOO
WELL
AS REAL..
AS HELL..
AND I FOR
ONE WILL ALWAYS
SUBMIT MYSELF TO
GOD AS NO
GREATER
THAN
A
GRAIN
OF
SAND..
AND SURE..
MUHAMMAD
BUDDHA.. LAO TZU..
JESUS.. AND ALL THE OTHER
PEOPLE OF GOD’s eYes WiLL
DO THE
SamE..
as far as i
see.. as
grain
of
sand..:)
Peace and Blessings
to you my friend
and i Love you..
and you know sadly
i have Muslim
friends who are
women who Love
me as friend..
but who will
never tell me in
words..
as they fear
their religion
over GOD..
in saying
that to
a male..
but you
and other
Muslims do
see deeper
with
eyes
of fearless
LOVE
from
GOD
with GOD’s
Loving Nature..
as gift of human..
GOD’s Love in human
is tough.. passionate..
and unconditional
and it has little to
do with human reproduction..
i am married but live a celibate
life to be closer with GOD
as ‘priest’ without
children or clerical collar..
but that is between GOD
and me..
and no
religion..
EVER
ALONE..
GOD ALLONE
IS ALL i FOR
one need..
on my desert
Isle.. with friends..
smiles.. my friend..:)

8041

Yes.. my friend.. Zee.. beautiful words
of children who have not yet
forgotten how to live..
and i suppose
it is possible
to stay
that way
with freedom of
imagination and
creativity of us in a play
of life where we are the Directors
Producers and Actors of Now scene..:)

8091

Hi Maria.. i think the whole
purpose of life.. is for us
to become our own
ministers of Truth
and Light..
and as
we
grow
older if
Freedom
plays True..
this Light becomes
brighter as God’s Truth
Manifest in us as children of
LiGht..:)

8135

Ha! smiles Victoria.. the 15 responses.. mostly mine.. are a growing
new post that will be finished with the addition of some
photos i plan on taking at a Catholic Church Festival
later today.. and i’m glad you enjoyed the sand
photos.. as for so many years
i avoid getting
my feet dirty..
they hide
beyond
pure
virgin
100%
cotton
white
socks
with
soft skin bottoms.. as
on the Autism Spectrum
with my tactile sensitivities
i cannot touch any textures man
made with my bare skin feet.. including
carpet.. but stone floors are
okay.. including
sand floors
of nature..
i take great
pleasure now
with the bottoms
of my sand brown
and calloused feet..
i feel
earthy..
one FOrCE
wITh GOD..
i finAlly
feel
wild
and FREE
aLiVE.. again like
a child on the River
grass.. barefoot then..
The clothing of culture
are the only sins
i know
and
feel..
starting
with manmade
clothes.. as i am
not born
to even
touch
them..
without discomfort..
hmm.. except for
100% virgin
cotton
and silk..
smiles..
like
‘Rain
man’..
speaking
of the Rain..
i’m all about
the ‘Hanes’ but
we go to Walmart
not Kmart for that..
(movie reference..
for clarity.. just
in case..)
i’m almost
sure
you
get
that
cultural
TV trope..
but of course
almost is never
now.. enough for me..
smiles again.. W/wInKs..;)

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10 Responses to Confidence Stripped

  1. https://theordinarilyordinary.wordpress.com/2015/10/04/chaaaaaaa/

    Smiles.. so let it be written..
    So let it be done..
    I WiLL be
    HERE..:)

    https://theordinarilyordinary.wordpress.com/2015/10/10/saying-it-loud/comment-page-1/#comment-665

    ^^^

    SMiLeS.. friend Rafiah..
    i weep almost everyday
    for the gift of my life..
    and yes.. for
    the gift
    of friends
    as well..
    in prayers..
    and yes..
    just being
    here.. is enough
    for me as well..
    There is
    a place
    of
    lonely
    that is so far
    beyond sadness
    and tears.. that
    it has no name
    like GOD..
    and that is
    why GOD
    creates
    US as
    GOD
    wants
    more than
    one Friend..
    as the mirror
    tires
    alone..
    and you know.. honestly..
    when i come face to face
    with GOD on a dark beach
    night in the month of September
    of 1981.. this is what GoD tales
    me in God’s way of speaking
    that God is lonely in
    the beginning
    and can truly
    not feel
    Love
    until
    GOD
    creates
    US..
    WE Are
    GOD’s
    Gift to
    GOD and
    IT IS up to US..
    to show GOD
    the best now
    ever always
    as an
    expression
    of GOD’s Love..
    so sure.. how can
    i not Love you.. i have
    GOD’s
    eYes..
    and those
    eYes will
    Love All of Creation..
    and even Greater
    when God’s eYes
    are Loved
    back..
    when two or more
    come into a room
    GOD LIVES
    AS US
    IN EACH
    NEW CONNECTION
    OF HUMAN EyES
    OF
    UNCONDITIONAL
    TOUGH
    AND
    PASSIONATE
    LOVE FOREVER
    NOWMORE
    TEARS
    OF
    GOD
    OF
    JOY..
    GOD WANTS THIS
    LOVE.. GOD NEEDS
    THIS LOVE
    MORE
    NOW
    ALL
    WAYS
    EVER…
    so i WilL
    FOLLOW
    THROUGH..
    with GOD’s
    request
    to
    me..
    then alWays
    NOW my
    friend..
    wITh
    LOVE..
    Mushy..
    Cozy..
    in ALL the ways
    GOD WiLL Love ITiN0W..:)

  2. From Facebook Friend Himali’s Page..

    Hi Himali..
    It’s raining again..
    leaves are falling..
    and there is always room for sharing..
    giving.. and hope.. when leaves and rain
    fall in cycles of soul.. spirit..
    and heart of human too..
    so if one looks way.. way down that street..
    there is a spark of Sun.. that will soon shine..
    and rise again.. as human heart.. spirit of soul..
    connecting friends again..:)

    Hi.. again.. Himali..
    a notebook of evergreen..
    is a work of art.. that refuses
    and never turns brown..
    in shades of grey..
    until daRkness
    becomes
    art
    aGaiN..
    a place of
    mountain tops.
    where skis of snow..
    slope.. will never
    end for now..
    painting..
    friends..:)

  3. First of all this is kinda like a poem.. so no.. don’t take it literally.. but what IF.. that Egyptian Goddess(es) Isis and Mut is more than myth.. what if she is real and that is prophecy and she is yet to come in flesh and blood.. and what IF she is incarnate as a very sick child and flowers in to what she is now at age 45.. with all beauty and glory.. just natural as IS IS..

    just saying..;)

    It is
    what
    IS IS..;)

    True Story.. my second cousin Fred.. yes another Fred.. son of Great Aunt Jettie.. calls wife Katrina.. Mut often.. and his frigging inside joke is he is comparing her to a goddess and not a mix of dog.. ha!.. the last laugh is on US.. after he dies.. and i find the meaning of his joke online.. IN WIKI LAND..;)

    Anyway.. Katrina thinks that Woman/Goddess MUT/ISIS is not attractive.. and she gets mad when i say she ‘looks like her’.. and sure Katrina is more attractive.. it’s hard to be the most beautiful 45 year old woman in the world.. without make-up.. i guess..

    Yes.. Katrina is ALL REAL..
    ALL THE TIME.. AS
    IS IS..;)

  4. Hi.. Leah.. after all the challenges you meet in life and continue to adapt to in surviving.. it is no wonder that it has not been a joyful ride.. joy is an emotion.. that yes.. not all experience.. of course.. and apparently you seem to say here you never have.. as of course with joy comes Love of Life as a given.. for those moments immersed in joy..

    And no.. i cannot say i’ve always wondered how people enjoy life.. but yes.. for long stretches.. i see the joy of others.. but can no longer feel or remember how if feels to me before..

    And as already discussed.. in the past for me there is no memory of how a tear of comfort feels.. a laugh or even a smile in those days of 2008 to 2013.. and several depressions in earlier life.. but none.. where memories of emotions go away with the emotions as any feeling at all.. not even fear.. with physical pain replacing all of that with the atypical trigeminal neuralgia and the other 18 or so disorders.. for icing on the black cake..

    My fortune.. i guess.. is being born happy.. and at least having an old picture of the smiling eyes and mouth of a baby.. who lives joy then.. and brings the faint hope that joy can live again in me..

    When there is no reference point that people who routinely feel joy cannot fathom… i for one cannot fathom that place of human darkness as you go one step above me.. if you’ve never seen more or less how people can enjoy life.. i feel for you.. as i know that temporary place.. but nah.. not the forty or so year place that you apparently reside in.. there.. now..

    For me at least.. when all feelings are gone.. including the emotions of belief.. faith.. and hope in living life.. the DNA we share and epigenetics provides the potential of always change.. even if one must be the first in memory of history.. to make the change a reality.. but of course .. the path that works.. is one of personal path.. but all i feel at this point.. is human being at genetic core has incredible potential for real change.. and at 40 or so.. it is far too soon.. to say no.. i think.. i FEEL..

    on the eventuality that you enjoy life so much..
    that you wanna live forever..
    now.. then.. now..
    some how some way
    that works
    for you..
    and that is
    my wish for you..
    you are too far away
    to dance with me but
    if i could dance with you..
    i believe i might bring you joy
    in feeling the empathy of me..:)

    Your friend,
    Fred..:)

    I dance alone first..
    if there is no hope..
    there can
    still
    be
    a
    Dance..
    of Life…:)

  5. https://shadowsofthedivine.wordpress.com/2015/10/12/preamble-of-my-death-note/

    ^^^

    Well.. my friend LaLa.. you have felt joys in the past so there is the reality of the potential of those joys in the future.. that will likely come to pass again.. i for one believe.. FEEL.. after knowing.. FEELING you for these two years and hmm.. two months or so…

    Not everyone has that blessing.. as i just speak to another friend.. who has apparently never been able to understand how people feel joy in life at all.. as from an early history of childhood emotional abuse.. there appears to be no reference point for her.. but she goes on at age 40.. truly still doing incredible stuff in life.. as a survivor…

    The greaTest gift of GOD is our will to live.. some folks call the Serpent or Reptilian brain inferior as they THINK THINKING is better than emoTiOns of FEELING.. BUT OF Course AS WE FOLKS who have experienced the drought of tears KNOW.. with at least some reference point.. of crying.. and joy..

    There can be no lie further from the truth..

    as to feel is to human

    and to human
    is to Live..
    and never
    wanna
    die..
    alive..

    but others say it much better than i..
    and perhaps at this point ‘the
    words’ may mean more
    than
    a few of ‘my
    favorite
    things’
    in
    YOUTUBE FORM..

    “Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
    Bright copper kettles and warm woollen mittens
    Brown paper packages tied up with strings
    These are a few of my favorite things

    Cream colored ponies and crisp apple strudels
    Doorbells and sleigh bells and schnitzel with noodles
    Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings
    These are a few of my favorite things.

    Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes
    Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes
    Silver white winters that melt into springs
    These are a few of my favorite things

    When the dog bites, when the bee stings
    When I’m feeling sad
    I simply remember my favorite things
    And then I don’t feel so bad

    Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
    Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens
    Brown paper packages tied up with strings
    These are a few of my favorite things

    Cream colored ponies and crisp apple strudels
    Doorbells and sleigh bells and schnitzel with noodles
    Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings
    These are a few of my favorite things

    Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes
    Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes
    Silver white winters that melt into springs
    These are a few of my favorite things

    When the dog bites, when the bee stings
    When I’m feeling sad
    I simply remember my favorite things
    And then I don’t feel so bad.”

    There is a now when these metaphors
    of song have zero meaning to me and
    i cannot imagine ever writing
    a song like this
    of my own..
    but i did..
    and it’s
    11 million
    words long
    now..
    keep writing
    my friend.. it takes
    me 5.5 million words
    to get THIS back..
    but i LOVE MORE
    DEEPER than i
    ever have
    before..
    as
    i write the
    light.. and
    let the
    dark
    sINk
    back
    in
    the
    pit
    of
    hell..

    There is no formula i kNow..
    i FEEL of.. that works but.. move..
    connect and
    create..
    and more ways
    to do iT.. than i will
    ever move.. connect
    and
    create
    alone..
    the fastest way to
    death as life is
    to
    keep it
    inside..
    withOUT expresSinG
    iT.. moving.. connecting..
    in creative
    plaYinG
    ways
    of HUMAN
    SpiRit of
    emoTioNal
    HEaRT..
    wITh mind and
    body balancing
    soUl N0W..
    wITh other
    humans.. theRe iS
    no play of Life..

    just a lonely
    script
    of
    isolation….

    But here’s ThAT song..
    i’m almost sure you
    know it but
    i will
    hate it
    if you haven’t
    heard it at least
    once.. but at least
    i feel you have lived
    it more than once..
    and that my
    friend is
    not a gift
    my other
    friend apparently
    has the luxury of reference
    point for.. but it’s all
    relative in
    the game
    of
    human
    life.. that
    works best
    as plaYinG Life..:)

  6. ^^^

    Halloween serves many valuable purposes..
    among those are imagination.. creativity..
    and the expression of human art.. in act of ego.. change..
    to the dark symbols of illusory fears and some real fears of life..
    some people fear the dark.. and others are cynical of the light
    and what i find is that the folks who are the most repressed in life..
    in ways of expresSinG emotions and sensuality fear the dark the most..
    and those who never imagine or create.. in ways of human art..
    are most often cynical of the light.. To mix life in a way of
    fearlessness and creativity one and same..
    is to conquer the dark.. and grow the light
    to highest ways of human being..
    being one with all of Nature AKA God as well..
    but it all comes down to experience of life..
    in feeling and sensual ways.. of moving..
    connecting and creating..
    a science text book feels little of this..
    and many philosophy books.. and even religious bibles
    feel little of this.. in the full of human being.. particularly
    moving ways of dance.. that is a core way of living
    for our ancestors true to communicate..
    and escape predator and capture prey..
    in a praying way of life.. of invisible balance..
    that is moving moreover speaking in concrete ways of life..
    and then there’s the poetry of life.. that expresses the deeper
    experiences of life.. far and few between.. short snippets
    of small talk here and there.. but still.. even small talk
    is better than nothing.. where cold eyes
    never meet the tween of dance in life…
    and sure there is always a song for all of this..
    and for now it is Josh Groban’s
    ‘You Raise Me Up’.. for me..:)

  7. ^^^

    I’ve never been much of a name person.. i am more of a face person.. and truly more of a visual thinker than word maker.. words are sign language for human non-verbal communication.. in ways of discrete and concrete labels.. that humans have come to be moreover as a way of thinking themselves to be even.. some folks look at themselves as dumb or smart.. others look at themselves as beautiful or ugly and the dichotomies go on.. of the what folks perceive as dark and light in life.. from poor to rich.. from atheist to priest..

    we humans are quick to label.. and much slower to find the deeper meanings of the human heArt.. soUl.. and SpiRit more fully expresSinG the much greater gift and yes.. miracle.. as Mr. Lorre suggests above in his #504 vanity card at the end of tonight’s Big Bang TV show.. and speaking of social awkwardness vs.. the egghead way of living.. of course there is Autism.. a full spectrum of differences as in any other Doctor organizational oriented human label of difference or disorder..

    Walking up to the festival grounds of Church.. yesterday on Sunday.. i hear a most beautiful woman’s voice singing.. and sure it’s time to dance.. and nah.. at a church festival where i live.. there are rarely any folks moving anything but a stiff stare.. so i will obviously be the lone one in this effort if i express that total joy of life.. in letting emotions freely flow in a simple bliss of moving life.. to celebrate with joy.. just being here.. alive.. and healthy.. as truly sWell.. smiles…

    And to my great surprise this is no young woman singing the song.. it is a 29 year old Autistic Man.. who can replicate the song pipes of any singer.. male or female.. with a creativity that flows and does not have to think.. and sure this is how i sing too.. however i pass that parrot stage.. as i do with technical writing at work.. and move into how music in my heart carries me above and beyond the written notes of others..

    In Pop Music.. perhaps singer Sia is best at doing this.. some folks suggesting she is from another planet her voice is so unique.. and from lowest notes to highest notes for me.. i do not restrict either the dance or song of life.. in anyway.. if it feels good.. i simply do it.. my body and voice will tale me where to go.. without any worry.. or anxiety over planning ways of life…

    I suppose that kind of potential comes with years of living in many shoes of life.. and all the dark stuff in my life is a blessing.. as i have walked in so many shoes.. i have enough common sense now.. to understand that humans are extremely complex.. and not judge a person on just one area of their life with a label.. and it also allows me the freedom.. to Love myself however i create the next moment free.. in the freest spirit of human imagination and creativity.. in the song and dance of life..

    Anyway.. the young Autistic man singing.. appreciates my courage to dance.. as nah.. except for my bright white pants.. light blue shirt.. that says ‘IT IS WHAT IT IS’.. i can easily pass for law enforcement or in the military with my super cool shades.. and muscular 234 LB body sitting on a 6 feet or so frame of bones..

    The surprise comes when i float on land.. pretty much over the top.. for a dude who looks like me.. hehe.. but my aim in life is to dispel stereotypes and myths of human limiting labels.. so i do everything i can to be different to show folks what different truly is..

    So yes.. i walk up to the young man and grab the microphone.. without grabbing it.. if you will.. as my voice carries these days.. with or without a microphone.. and i say.. yes.. i am on the Autism Spectrum as well.. diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome.. and i too.. love to sing.. as it allows me better to regulate my emotions and communicate them too..

    Sure there is more details.. but i just let the young man sing.. without going into too many details.. but the nice young autistic man with a smile on his face says ‘isn’t he smart’.. with just another human way of connecting to another person.. with more than one label.. in this life of diversity.. and this young man like me does not speak until he is over age three .. and like me.. there are threats of institutionalism for perceived labels of human being.. according to his parents.. i chat with in the audience stands.. while he is singing…

    But to see deeper in human ways is always to see more than a label with no limits of human potential.. and this young man.. is going far.. as he sees no limits for himself.. and neither do i.. the challenges of life.. as history shows.. is truly what shines the diamonds of life.. from just a label to brilliant light of human heArt.. spiRit and soUl.. expresSinG a way of life that may be new to the other human eye.. as frigging something extra special.. taking steps that few folks take before..:)

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  8. https://thefeatheredsleep.wordpress.com/2015/10/12/on-the-luxury-of-boredom/comment-page-1/#comment-4704

    ^^^

    Hi friend.. the feathered sleep..
    ‘they’ say in numerology that
    when one has completed all
    the tasks of cosmic life
    through life times of
    practice and
    practice
    of making
    grades pass
    struggles this
    and struggles that..
    that one gets the gift of
    free will.. 0.. and one can do
    whatever one likes.. perhaps
    one is born into fortune like
    Buddha.. or one is born Now
    as strong as Muhammad
    Ali floating like a super
    butterfly and singing
    like a Bee with ease..
    and sure one can
    lounge around
    and take
    all their
    life easy..
    never give
    a dime of
    effort back..
    but seriously how
    can one who climbs
    all the mountains.. sit
    at the bottom.. and
    never climb
    again..
    Real Heroes
    do it for
    more
    than
    just
    them
    alone..
    REAL heroes GIVE
    ten times or more than
    what they get.. and sure
    the Universe has a way
    of rewarding wills
    of real life
    like
    that..
    f
    r
    e
    E
    And my
    number(s)
    iS… 0 1 1 1
    for my
    4 Life challenges..
    coincidence… sure..
    whatever ‘they’ say..;)

    12,122
    177
    12,299

  9. ^^^

    JUST another selfie
    with the Bear Head Lady from the mall..
    and classic photo bomb by the little boy with the tie..
    who wants to be part of the creativity in full sWinG..:)

    Yes.. the bear head makes an excellent conversation
    piece to break the ice.. for a quick convo.. and lately
    wherever i go.. it seems i make a conversation piece..
    in different ways of dArk and liGht..
    and sure most of the time.. I’m not
    in the actual conversation..
    just the topic of it..
    wherever i go dance..:)

    i must say again..
    It’s truly amazing what smartphones
    can do in the way of art.. today.. and the iPhone 6s..
    with the simple point and shoot feature.. and much
    better quality photos makes real magic of Nature
    come to life.. raw.. just raw.. without any
    enhancements at all..
    Anyway.. i get really disgusted
    sometimes for some folks who wish
    this beauty all away with an apocalypse
    to get a free ride to heaven.. when the REAL
    Jesus says it IS now AS Nature.. per gnostic gospel of Thomas..
    for those of us who learn to see it and feel it with more than literal
    materialistic eyes.. if more people can truly feel heaven now..
    they will wanna keep IT ALL CLEAN…
    IN EVERY WAY..
    WITH BLESSINGS AND PEACE..
    WITH GRATITUDE FOR ALL WE
    ARE GIFTED WITH.. AS
    MOTHER NATURE
    TRUE.. AKA
    GOD..:)

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