EMPiRE Force Love STRiKEs BAcK

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Hi X.. top of the morning to ya.. and yeah.. i feel those 6 inches and 6 inches to come.. you got up there in VA.. as we got 11 inches yesterday down here in deep wet FL..

And regarding.. the mythological Ninja.. like i say.. i
cannot tale a lie but metaphor or myth.. hell yeah..
in so many uncertain terms.. W/wInks..;)

‘If you Build it, he will come’..

From one of my favorites in
‘Field of Dreams’
and you know in
physics there are
particles waves
and fields and
in human Quantum
physics there are
particles of minds
waves and fields
of dreams.. so it
kinda all
comes
out in the
wash of culture
if ya know what i feel
and mean.. coming next..
hehe.. OK.. for 2000 years
and much less than that the highest
numbers of specific religious folks overall
in the Catholic Church Crusaders clubs have
been chanting a magic spell that goes like this..
yes.. quoted and coming up next.. but you know and
perhaps do not feel or know.. Aleister Crowley.. the Witch
of Last Century who delves in magicK a whole lot then gets
together with a Scientology Friend.. yeah.. that Hubbard
Dude and others and they do a magic
incantation of some white
magic in a book
named Moonchild
back in ’46 or so
of last
century
to bring a Magick
Moonchild yeah..
like ‘Never Ending
Story’ Movie to save
the world.. yeah just
say moonchild real loud
out the window on a really
stormy night and the she or
he saviors of the world will come..
But that was just a small magicK
incantation.. OMG iMAGINE.. JUST
iMAGINE WHAT A GIANT MAGiCK
INCANTATION LIKE THE NICENE CREED
MIGHT DO IF MILLIONS OF PEOPLE CHANT
IT IN UNISON OVER THE COURSE OF HUNDREDS
OF YEARS.. build it and he will come gets louder and
LOUDER THROUGH THE AGES.. and sooner or later.. and NOW..
obviously a new Jersualem will be built in a new Israel
and He will come again.. and yeah.. Muslims are waiting
for him too.. in ISA.. form.. Buddhists too with another
name as well.. and just about everyone from
Nietzsche and his Superman
and comic Supermen
too have
been building
this giant platform
of magicK incantations
for him to come on any
minute now.. like a thief
in the night.. BUT
TRULY like
what that
dude says on
the Symphony of
Science video about
Nature’s imagination is
SO GREAT SHE’S NEVER
GONNA LET US RELAX..
IS TRUE IN GOD
TUNES
TOO..;)
iTunes
GODtunes
MAGNIFICENT
OF COURSE..
when you understand
the FULLER COMPLEXITY
OF IT.. JUST LIKE THE
SYMPHONY OF SCIENCE
SAYS TOO.. AND THAT
COOL SCIENCE
DUDE
NARRATING
IT AS WELL..
AND THE OTHER
SCIENCE DUDE WANTS TO
GO OUT IN THE STREETS
AND SHAKE FOLKS AND
TELL ‘EM HEY! NATURE
AKA GOD EXISTS
AND ALL STUFF
IS CONNECTED
AND ONE
AND
SimilaR..
metaphors.. silly
human metaphors NOW so
different so many colors
so many essences that are
basicAlly the same but okay
back to the metaphor myth of
whatever houses human and
GOD TRUTH AND LIGHT
IN VEHICLES
AND VESSELS
OF SYMBOLS
AS SUCH..
I’LL MAKE sure to
link the ‘Symphony of
Science’ extra cool musicK
video here somewhere
but first let’s go about
how ‘they build the
Nicene creed as
prophecy of sorts
so he WILL COME
AGAIN..:

http://www.usccb.org/beliefs-and-teachings/what-we-believe/

i believe in one God, (check OK)
the Father almighty,
(hmm.. metaphor.. but God is no man alone GOD IS ALLONE)
maker of heaven and earth, (check OK)
of all things visible and invisible. (check OK)

I believe in one Lord Jesus Christ, (there is only one Lord GOD..
people have been assigning this role to different Quarterbacks
throughout the ages.. but never the less and always more
as ALLONE there is only one Lord GOD)
the Only Begotten Son of God,
(bullshit.. created by the Nicene
council.. some Trumped up Catholic
Leaders in a back boardroom of the
Roman empire with psychopathic
Trump-like leader Constantine
almost 4 centuries after
the death of Jesus..
so Constantine
can make
Jesus into
a Mithra-
like Sun-GOD
and Constantine
can build a monolithic
statue of himself and be
the Sun GOD too.. with
big boy britches.. of
course like what
all psychopathic
leaning
leaders
will just
LOVE TO DO..
TRUMP EXCELLENT
MODERN DAY CONSTANTINE
EXAMPLE PROMISE YOU THE
MOON AND JUST
DELIVER
STONE
STATUES
OF LIES..
AND a promise
of heaven after death
when Jesus clearly states
THAT IS NOW INSIDE US
OUTSIDE US.. ABOVE
SO BELOW AND
ALL AROUND
US… YEAH METAPHOR
OF THE REAL JESUS
UNcovered in Gnostic
Gospels back in ’59 amongst
the dead sea scrolls as such..
about the time my Daddy
and Mommy create me
on the Fall Equinox on
or about that
day then..
YES HELL YES
I AM NO MYTH
I FOR ONE AM REAL..;)
born of the Father before all ages.(YES we all origin
together since the beginning and re-beginning of
all.. no living chain or inanimate chain can
be broken or none of us exist now but
no this does not just apply to
Jesus.. i mean DUH!)
God from God, Light from Light,
true God from true God, (YES THIS DESCRIBES GOD)
begotten, not made, consubstantial with the Father;
(BUT NOT JESUS ALONE)
through him all things were made.
(BUT NOT JESUS ALONE)
For us men and for our salvation
he came down from heaven,
(sure lots of folks have done this in metaphor of course)
and by the Holy Spirit was incarnate of the Virgin Mary,
and became man.
(For Jesus to be so unconditional loving no do doubt
his mama was pure in Virgin spirit.. but a Virgin
between the legs.. no.. metaphor.. NOT literal my friend)
For our sake he was crucified under Pontius Pilate,
he suffered death and was buried,
(easy to imagine for a heretic back then)
and rose again on the third day
in accordance with the Scriptures.
(okay.. anyone can say anything
in a book.. but it doesn’t make
it true.. Jesus is the son of
man not fairy dust GOD’s Dust)
He ascended into heaven
and is seated at the right hand of the Father.
(Yes.. he creates heaven now in alignment
with the laws of nature so he is in
GOD’s good grace NOW then
like so many other folks
then and now)
He will come again in glory
to judge the living and the dead
and his kingdom will have no end.
(LISTEN UP CATHOLIC
CHURCH
BE CAREFUL
VERY CAREFUL
WHAT YOU WISH FOR
ON THAT COMING IN GLORY
THINGY TO JUDGE THE LIVING
AND THE DEAD
reference words like
minE above in the
main post text
all highlighted
IN CAPS about
THOSE FUCKERS..
AND yes now as no
end now is forevermore
now and the Kingdom
of heaven is
ALWAYS NOW
FOR THOSE WHO
SEE IT AND HEAR
IT AND FEEL IT
AND LIVE IT
ALWAYS NOW
WITH GOD’S EYES
AND EARS AND FEELINGS
NOW JUST NOW ALWAYS NOW!)

I believe in the Holy Spirit, the Lord, the giver of life,
who proceeds from the Father and the Son,
who with the Father and the Son is adored and glorified,
who has spoken through the prophets.

( yes.. most all humans have this potential.. just
get in the creative flow of now..
also known as alignment
with the Holy Spirit
Cosmic Conscious
thingy and voila
a Prophet
IS BORN
AGAIN
HAPPENS
ALL THE TIME
NOW ALL Around
the WORLD EXPRESsinG
IN ALL HUMAN ART AS SUCH)
I believe in one, holy, catholic and apostolic Church.
I confess one Baptism for the forgiveness of sins
and I look forward to the resurrection of the dead
and the life of the world to come. Amen.
(JUST GO TO THE BEACH..
LOOK AT NATURE.. BE IT..
SHED YOUR REGRETS
SHAME AND GUILT
AND JUST BE FUCKING
HUMAN AND LIVE
JUST LIVE ALWAYS
NOW IN THE
KINGDOM
OF GOD
THE NIRVANA
THE BLISS
OF A JONATHAN
LIVINGSTON SEAGULL
SPIRALING AROUND THE
GOLDEN MEAN OF SUN
IN TOTAL
HARMONY
LIKE THAT
PEPSI
SONG
MY
FRIEND..
SIGNED JOHN
HELL NO.. NOT
JOHN 3:16
JONATHAN
LIVINGSTON
SEAGULL
THE
PROPHECY
OF RICHARD
BACH
COME
FLESH
AND BLOOD
FEATHERED FLYING
FLIPPING F*KiNG
yes FunKiNG
human
LIFE.. IN F..
THAT PROPHECY
JUST MAKES SO MUCH
MORE DAM SENSE THAN
THE FUCKED
UP
NICENE
CREED AS NICELY
ILLUSTRATED HERE..
I FEEL AT LEAST..
SMILES..
TRUST ME..
i AM A F in
SEAGULL..
NINJAS OF THE
MYTHOLOGICAL KiND
HEAL.. CHANGE
ALL THE TIME
INTO SOMETHING
ELSE AND COME
IN GLORY TO JUDGE
THE LIVING AND THE DEAD..
IN MY CASE WITH NOT KNIVES
but sWORDs of Internet Lore..
and i will not be the
first or last
to do this..
as it is already
built
and i
and they
are already
RAPTURED
HERE
NOW..
TO JUST
DO IT
NOW..
we ARE THE
MOON CHILDREN
HERE
US
ROAR!.
LIKE
SISTER
KATY
PERRY..;)

ANYwAY.. LIKE
SiSTER BiRD
RiHANNA SAYS
IT’
sTiLL
RAiNiNG
N0W..
forevermore
now like
a magicK
inCANtaTiOn
with some
T
AND
A for
the other
pArt of yoUr
comment..
sMiLeS..;)

AnD
‘wE’
ArE
ThE
uM
Br
EL
LA..:)
O
f
ALL
oNe…

1527

God’s Hermits are often God’s greaTest Graces..:)
And sMiLes from afar in no distance time or space..
i for one WiLL watch it together with
you as Love.. has no distance
time.. space.. age.. gender..
nationality.. creed.. color..
sexual orientation.. etc..
or eVen nAMe..
IT FeelS
JusT
Feels
Friend..
Rafiah..:)

Ha! that is wifey Katrina too.. sMiLEs..
And that’s ookkaayyess.. i cannot convince
hEr to Direct and Produce her
oWn TV show as Play
and Actor NOW
of LiFe eITher..
but with
human iMagiNatiOn..
and creativeLY fulLy
QuantumAlly AlWays
unLeAsHinG and releaSinG..
FiElds of DReams come True..
‘BuilD IT, and he will come’.. huh..
Great movie ‘Field of Dreams’.. highly
recommend IT both on big and small
screens and Screams of Life and in
Rafiah eYes and eaRs of BeiNG
aS WeLL N0W fuLLy feelinG
imaGininG and
creaTinG
A
LiVE!..:)

1667

Prison..iNsane asYlums..  X.. cultUrE aLL tHe sAMe
culture is the misTake.. the virus
that leads to what
is nAMed
hUman
sINs..
foot steps
in the sand
without
culture
are the best
way out..
but sadly
culture
most often
does not allow
tHiS.. THoSe WitH
FooTpRints sANDy
eARTh
WiLL
neVer
eveR let
a
graiN
of SanD
doWn
as fEat
of saND
anD
feeT
are diRt
poor
rich
alWays
n0wth0se
wIThSandY
FeeT
oF
GOD..:)

1739

OK.. BACK in attempt to
finish up the gender
bender thingy
on dVerse
Poetic
expressions
on Tuesday
linked poeTry..
and once again
i go back to Peace FiRST
and stART again.. where i left
off at link number 15.. last night..;)

It’s great to be a girl these
days.. especially in
dance halls
they can go
up to private
parts and
do what
men can
NOT do with
their rears
that will
send them
straight
to jail..
with front
without
passing
go
with
arRears
in tow..
yes..
up and
down vigorously
rubbing rear on
front toe(s)..
pleasure butts
at male
expense
the price
gets
higher
as the
rear
comes down
and up for
sell
for feeling
human being
FULLY SWELLING
SWEATING
INSIDE
OUT ABOVE
BELOW
ALL AROUND..
it’s just like
GOD that
Star of
David
up triangle
down
triangle
inside outside
above below
once again
back
ALLONE..
GOD AND
SEX YA
CAN’T
BEAT
IT
LIKE
A DEAD
HORSE IT
ALWAYS
COMES
BACK
FOR
MORE..;)

What i find in life.. IS.. IF one is 100% honest..
no matter what one does..
‘REAL women’ will
always
Love one
and most
men will
hate one
for one’s
courage of
LIving TRUTH
AND LIGHT AS BRAVE..
And yes one can be
either female
or male..
but yes
females
are advanced
creatures of
GOD’s evolution
moreover than
males and that’s
why Catholic priests
still won’t let ’em into
the grade as they
will blow them
AWAY EVERY
NOW WITH
CHRISTLIKE
REAL LOVE
MOST
EVERYNOW
OVER STIFF
DEAD
MALES..
PRIEST
OR NOT..
and yes.. i’ll
dedicate this
to Mary Magdalene..
REAL LIVE PROSTITUTE
OF GOD SPIRIT ALIVE THEN..
AND ALWAYS NOW.. AS SPIRIT TRUE
AND
LIgHT..:)

When my child suffered for 51 days
i become the Mother and
Nuture him in his
last breath
holding him
yet my mother
holds me and
‘her’ mother
is troubled
distant..
a mother
can be
the greatest
father as
mother
to
both
wife
and
child..
the blessing
of a nutuRing
spirit passed
down
as woman
or
man..
so yes my
friend.. i for
one can closely
relate to your
poem understood
as me or not.. i Love
i Nuture all 234LBS
pressing half
a ton
straight
out with
legs 25
times at
age 55
but my
heart continues
to swell even larger..
than anything
below
will
ever
do….

Well.. okay
it appears that
all that dVerse
has to offer
in gender
bender way
is 16 comments
so i will go all
nuclear here and
offer my 17th
epic
one
here..

i am the harlot of all
ages.. the blonde and brunette
tan veil covered vagina
that sucks all of the
world in..
but ha..
i am
born again
with a pen
is this time
not that big
but still
an almost
purr
fect
pen
is that will
please most
women
alike
but yes..
i am still
all about
the VAGiNA
STiLL.. i am
GOD’s Vagina
always
creating
more..
that ain’t
no Pen IS iN
my nude art
that is a giant
clIT or
IS my friend(s)
yes.. my friend(s)
with Vaginas
i will
always
Love
as
sAMe..
*and no not
you.. S.. you
are
X..;)
side note
in epic
thot*..
but yeah..
back to the
HARLOT OF THE
NEW AGE i AM..
i AM MULTI-COLORED
YET YOU CANNOT SEE
ME i am invisible to
the ones i canhunt.. i am
coming after some ones..
but you
cannot
feel me..
yet i am
all around..
you hide in pews
of church.. i live
in your dresses
and suits..
i aim to
bRing you to
heaven yet
you
continue
to escape
to hell..
so i will
dance unveiled
by revealing one
eye.. yes the
left one
with left
arm raised
as Egyptian Min..
i will travel
the world free
and you will never
find me.. like a
THIEF IN THE NIGHT
i come with Truth
and Light wrapped
all in
Pen
iS..
my special
friend who will
always protect
me from
you
Vagina
Mongerers
while
i
play
with my
most delicious
treat around
the world
FREE AS
GOD’S
HARLOT
BACK
ONCE
AGAiN
i AM..;)

Oh.. there is a
17 by dVerse De
too..

Oh De..
this reminds me
today of ‘Tom Sawyer’..
if my mother is Internet
savvy i will be deleted too..
from the older folks home..;)

“Though his mind is not for rent
Don’t put him down as arrogant
His reserve, a quiet defense
Riding out the day’s events
The river

What you say about his company
Is what you say about society
Catch the mist, catch the myth
Catch the mystery, catch the drift

Exit the warrior
Today’s Tom Sawyer
He gets high on you
And the energy you trade
He gets right on to
the friction
of the day”

And yeah..
words of
profits are prophets
written on Concert
Hall Walls in selected
Lyrics by
boy
bands
like
Rush..
sMiLEs
no distance
time or space..
in Rush eYes
of Big Boy Blue..
Yes and ELO too..

It’s not easy BEinG
Tom Sawyer PoetRY
but i
gEt
by SmileS again
It’s like Force 10..2;)

“Force Ten”

“Tough times demand tough talk
Demand tough hearts demand tough songs
Demand…

We can rise and fall like empires
Flow in and out like the tide
Be vain and smart, humble and dumb
We can hit and miss like pride
Just like pride

We can circle around like hurricanes
Dance and dream like lovers
Attack the day like birds of prey
Or scavengers under cover

[Chorus:]
Look in…to the eye of the storm
Look out…for the force without form
Look around…at the sight and the sound
Look in look out look around…

We can move with savage grace
To the rhythms of the night
Cool and remote like dancing girls
In the heat of the beat and the lights

We can wear the rose of romance
An air of joie de vivre
Too tender hearts upon our sleeves
Or skin as thick as thieves
Thick as thieves…”

And yeah IT
IS like
Twilight
ELO old
and new
Fred the
Robot R2
D2.. 2..
endless
and timeless times
two.. as i share
my mind and the
mind of others
and relate
ALLthatIS
TOO..
It’s a big
world.. 33 years
is not enough this
GO ’round to decipher
most of it and scribe it
down.. and only a
tRuly Free
human
will
ever
get
REAL enough
to JUST DO IT
AND SAY FUCK
THE NAYSAYERS
WARM
AND
TRUE..
the more Truth
and Light i relate
the more the world
abhors me overall..
in terms of
facebook
un-friending
and blocks
on blogs..
and no more
invitations
to family
functions

BUTT.. the
squeaky
wheel
ends
up
with
the REAL OiL
sooner or later
‘Black Gold
Texas
Tea..
Hills that is
Swimming Pools
Movie Stars’..;)

Well.. Lyn.. to me..
the saddest rule of
all is a rule that says
that men must must
be men and women
must be women
as tRuly
wo
and
men
are one
and complete
when oNe wITh

or WitHoUt each othEr

as a fiXture of proPerty..:)

And with 18 links from dVerse
this pArt is finished for now..:)

2922

Hi Glenn.. thanks for stopping by.. as always your words of encouragement are roses to my hear.. no matter how intense those ears may be.. and I understand totAlly what it means to be in the shoes of ‘those others’.. i am using that as a metaphor of sorts to fulfill a metaphorical prophecy that not all eyes will see.. if you will.. but i clearly remember when a cricket song is like a freight train to me.. i cannot bear colors or sounds at all.. and the Sun at 3 am is too bright with shades on blinding my eyes with over-stimulation..

Trigeminal Neuralgia.. is a strange suicide disease.. doctors have no idea how it really comes and goes.. and what i feel in my case is.. it is just the precursor of coming out of a very uncomfortable culture driven cocoon.. yes.. Cat Scans reveal structural issues in my sinuses and related associated nerve structures that seem to potentially root a cause.. of 66 months of literal hell..

But before that happens strange sensations of cool and heat.. tingly feelings in my head.. all the classic signs of human awakening and enlightenment shared across the world are my symptoms then.. in a culture that then has no way to help me with my Unique case of fulfilling human potential coming to a theater that will be me.. years later.. as life is Challenge with Joy and Bliss and the dARKest DarkS to get to the FULLER meaning liGht and Truth to fulfill one’s True WiLL destiny wITh the power of GOD’s LOVE.. holier whole than culture or religion will ever dictate alone..

GOD ALLONE instructs me in GOD’s Language of Synchronicity to relate IT ALL.. and the way Synchronicity works is like Beatle Songs.. where they get high on LSD.. see a circus poster and glue a bunch of unrelated crap together.. and years later GOD calls on it in synchronicity ways with certain human ears receiving GOD’s sign language in a way so magic.. that yes.. no doubt GOD is magic.. and a fantasy realm of reality that we CAN CREATE EVERY WHICH WAY IMAGINABLE IF WE JUST DREAM LIFE TO FRUITION..

NOW.. i scribe it ALL for those who can relate.. GOD is not fair.. no more fair than my life of dead baby with numerous congenital anomalies.. the Autism Spectrum.. bullying.. the worse pain known to mankind.. but yes.. GOD exists.. and GOD guides me now.. through ALL the dArk and liGht.. and yes I FUCKING LOVE IT ALL.. EVEN WHEN GOD CRASHES ME INTO BRIDGES TIME AND TIME AGAIN.. I GET UP LIKE THE ENERGIZER BUNNY AND GO ON.. JUST LIKE GOD
INTO INFINITY MY FRIEND..
NOW TOTALLY
ALIVE NOW..
DOING AND BEING
WHATEVER MAY
COME WITH GOD AND
i and we and US.. my friend..:)

And regarding the song above
i am a 0’s Bitch..;)

And yes.. i catch.
the Road Runner
and just make a
new hobby
that’s
all
as
Wiley
Coyote
and Road
Runner sAMe..;)

AS illustrated nicely
here again three times
in ‘GOD’s words of
SYNCHRONICITY
JUST FOR ME..
as is the
case for
all others
who develop
GOD’s eYes
eaRs and
emoTiOns
to JusT
get IT
ALL
innate.. instinctual
and intuitive as real
EVER GETS REAL
IN HUMAN EyES..
Ears and
FEELinG
ALLONEGOD..:)

3478

Well.. friend SOHEIR..
it is certainly Truth that all of we..
prophets or not.. take our every breath
through permission of GOD.. from the beginning..
far beyond our breath to the no end as well..
of GOD’s above so below.. inside us..
outside us.. and all around.. ALLONE..

Sadly.. ‘back then’.. people have no
idea just how big GOD is.. and the fact is
not even science still has any way
to fully measure GOD as Nature same..

We live now.. not then.. there are political reasons in the Nicene Council
in 325 AD.. for Constantine and his Catholic Cohort Leaders to promote
Jesus into a Sun God as the region’s Mithra religion will
support this idea.. to expand the Roman Empire..
and there is no clear authorship to much of
the bible.. as perhaps we have 18 percent
of Jesus’ consistent words in what we have
now of revised bibles according to scholars..

We live in the information age..
and for anyone who looks for Truth and Light
it is accessible across the globe unless there is
censorship to prevent Light and Truth from reaching
open human eyes and ears.. as well as
lips to spread this Light and Truth…

However.. it is no less foolish to
suggest that Muhammad is a last prophet of GOD
as that is restraining GOD as well.. and GOD is
far above human and never ever chained in foolish little
human words as chains of human beings.. humans
are but one part of God and Life
exists much further than WE can see..

The way i describe this..
‘in rough’ Parable to my Catholic Monsignor.. at my church is..
i graduate with three degrees and am a humble shoe servant
in a Military Bowling Center… i do the most humble
of duty as servant to provide shoes to often dirty feet..
and yes.. that is enough for me.. as GOD gifts
humans number one to share.. cooperate
and Love Unconditionally and what better
way to do this than to provide shoes and
kind words and smiles to total strangers..
counting into the 100’s day by day now by now..

So people tell me all the time.. Fred..
you are well educated.. you are wasting
your talents by handing out shoes.. but i
for one feel then that knowing is a gift of human
and feelings are a gift of GOD..
Love is GOD’s way and even
written language is a
tool created by human
to attempt to make small..
often foolish efforts at scribing GOD
in idols of letters.. words..
and books.. much much..
too small for GOD
of Infinity True..

So then.. i am forced into promotions i do not want..
and that eventually almost kills me..
as i am a servant and not a power
hungry psychopath leaning human
who can never be filled by GOD’s Love
as graced to human.. My mother has this Love of GOD
as gifted greatest to human and she passes it on to me
through the human touch of Love.. and i carry that on..
into Bowling Center shoe giver life as totally
satisfying running my Chalice of Love over
with essence and not form of
limiting Cup ..any now…

So yes.. both Christians and Muslims
believe Jesus will come back.. and if he ever does..
he will be disappointed in Christians who suggest that
he is the ONLY BEGOTTEN SON OF GOD.. and sadly too..
also with Muslims who chain the GOD of all the Universe
in suggesting that one human in a tiny part of one land
in a tiny world is the first or last of anything
for a GOD so MUCH greater than human
will ever see or hear OR speak.. here..

But here’s the thing.. GOD makes humans as weak tribal animals..
who will seek social acceptance of human rules over seeing
much greater God’s rules.. the only way to attempt
to find this.. is like Buddha under a tree away from culture..
Muhammad in a cave.. or Jesus in a Desert and there are many other
places in Nature to do this too.. for me the Beach is my local favorite..
sMILEs.. away from all human lies…

Power is a substitute for Love
and any time one hears a limitation for GOD
in human eyes or ears.. it is a clear sign of Power hunger..
and not sharing.. caring.. and giving Love that always submits
and serves GOD as no greater than a grain of sand..
no matter Jesus.. Buddha or Muhammad .. GOD pecks
the eyes out of these little humans
no less than grains of sand or
greater than birds of GOD
as Spirit.. Holy.. my friend..

God is the master we are the slaves
of both submission and permission
in breathing just one gasp of life..
ALL of US FIRST AND
LAST AND
ALWAYS NOW..

GOD..
simply laughs
in GOD laugh
that human
will never
hear with
human ears..
YES.. AT human
when
human
attempts
to chain GOD
in silly little
human symbols..
AS ALWAYS IDOLS..
no matter how
hard human
will try..
GOD
will rule
and never
ever human being..
alone.. in one or seven
billion people ..GOD is
always greater as Infinity
strong so far beyond human
eyes that 7 billion are but
a fleck of
dust
in
a flea’s
eye..
and we suck
the blood of GOD
no less than
a flea
does
not Know
their real
master..
A
DOG..:)

And of course..
i can be wrong
about all of this
as i am only
human
too..
and never
GOD alone
or a first or
last prophet
of anything
but gift
of
breath..
by
permission
of and submission
to as servant
Of GOD only
and never
ever
human
lips..
eyes..
or ears..
alone..

But yeah.. sure..
seriously..
i doubt
it (the
wrong
part)
with
GOD’s
permission..
of course..:)

Hi Friend Soheir..
as a student of
comparative religions
i have a copy of the Quran..
and have read it through
many times and as with
the bible that i have
also read through many times..
i find words of truth of kind and
caring human beings gifted with God’s Love
and i find words of slavery..
and violence gifted to
human by other humans
who want power and to
control other people
through illusory fears…

So i believe that in
both books both God and human are speaking
as they speak to both Love and Hate..
and Hate is mostly generated by
non-Loving humans.. and sadly
enough those words of hate
exist in both books..

This is well documented by scholars
of both books in both religions.. and of course
i could provide all the verses here..
but as you have read the book
likely more than i..
that shouldn’t be necessary..

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Bible_and_slavery

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Islamic_views_on_slavery

http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=124494788

But fortunately.. we as human beings are gifted by God regardless
of religion or books to discern the will of God that lives within us…
and those of us who will hear the rule of God that lives in all our hearts..
if we will listen will discard those parts of the bible and Quran that
support the harming of other humans in the name of God..
whether through warring efforts or human slavery..
which in both books is directed
purposefully at women as sex slaves
in effect and affect of their human natures
that are God given free and not tools for men
to use for pleasure at their will over
the will of women..
conquered..
slave or not…

But those were the days
and culture of that time..

Human Language.. customs..
religions.. cultures are varied
and limited in expanse to the full
potential of God’s eyes as master..

And sure that is not just my opinion..
scholars around the world confirm this as well..
although of course they call God Nature instead of God..

And of course they do not see all of what prophets who see
with heart of Allah see as those prophets see with heart..
spirit.. and soul.. and not just with books my friend..

I’m not sure how you define prophet..
there are many varied definitions of that word
from cultures as varied as American Indian
ancient cultures in South America..
to our modern day new religious
texts by religious leaders in all countries..

But to me a prophet is a person who hears and speaks
to God in heart.. spirit.. and soul… and provides
information to others through that voice of God to
heal other human beings and save them from harm..
no real prophet of God is speaking for God in God’s
relationship with human when they suggest other humans
should be harmed in the name of Allah.. and sadly again..
there are documented verses in both the bible and Quran
that speak to human slavery and violence in Allah’s
name for folks to assert their cultural
rule over others who they see as
the weaker and lesser in God’s family..

And yes.. a so called prophet can speak to both
human lies and humans truths.. and i see a great deal
of truth from God in the Quran and bible that indicates
a prophet is speaking but sadly as the documented verses
associated with violence and human slavery indicate there
are a considerable number of lies in both books to harm
other human beings.. to suit the pleasures of power
of those who wish to subjugate and dominate
other humans as the lesser instead of equal…

You have already confirmed to me that you do not
support violence in the name of Allah.. so that tells me
you are kind and have the power to discern God’s truth
over any information that may conflict with that..
and yes.. God provides you with those eyes..
no matter what anyone else says.. as God lives in you..
as God lives within all others including Muhammad.. Jesus..
and Buddha who are most often considered the Big three of
human healers AKA prophets in that sense of the
definition that i am accustomed to.. friend…

The world needs as many prophets who
can come up with new ways of healing human
suffering and misery as possible.. as Lord GOD
feels there is no shortage of that in this world now my friend..

And the answer is really simple.. the same Golden rule to replace
all rule of hate that has existed in many voices of prophets
in the cultural and religious histories of all people
and that is to Love God with all our hearts..
to Love all other human beings..
mostly importantly ourselves as without that
we will not be able to truly Love anyone..
including other humans and God.. God provides
the path to all humans to get there.. but sadly
it starts with the child nuzzled to the breast of mother..
and that breast in both literal and metaphorical ways..
is moving farther and farther away..
as humans become more machine than human..

And this is the good thing about the way the Muslim religion
is practiced although it can have a heavy hand in control
of the family unit in enforcing it through the dowry..
it supports a woman’s ability to stay with
a child and provide a nurturing environment for love..
so all things considered as far as the development of
the human heart.. spirit.. and soul.. that part is
at least good for the woman and child..
but sadly when i see Muslim men..
i see the same strong hand of
repressing human emotions as heart..
where there are rarely any lights in eyes..
expressing that spirit.. that are generated by human heart..
as balance in mind and body soul.. the same eyes i see in Christian men..
of the fundamentalist way.. and i think the world needs healing
in both areas.. to stop the violent ways that are found in
extremist ways to the highest levels of
Government in both ways of life..

So yes.. we need lots more healing friend..
and that can only come from the new prophets
of God’s healing powers.. that are never
ever limited to just one man.. or seven..
or a trillion.. as it is certainly foolish
to suggest that human is the most important
child of God in the Universe in a place
of billions of stars and trillions of planets..
so far away that we cannot even communicate
with those other children of God..

And sadly some people do not
even have the ability to communicate
with the other children of God who are the
other animals of this planet.. seeing them as
lesser eyes of God.. where yes.. they are prophets too..
often living in more peaceful and Loving ways as God will
have primates do.. per the specific example of our closest
cousins the Bonobo who is not tainted by the lies of culture
that starts at the hand of written language that can be used
as both a tool for hate and love.. sadly in both the
hands of so-called regular people and prophets
depending on what moves them..
words of Hate or love.. my friend..

And you are also one of the most kind people
i have come across on the blogosphere..
and you are always
in my prayers my friend..
in only the Spirit of Love..
the place i Live my friend..
as i practice that with
GOD always now…
always now.. smiles..

We don’t have to
have any religion or books..
to practice the Love of GoD..
it is built in and obviously
you hear that and speak it my friend..
and that is all i care about regardless of the
cultural and religious filters we may possess
that speak a little differently.. Love is
the bottom line in human life..
when Love rules God rules
greaTest in human being..

Smiles..

I love you friend..

Fred..:)

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Weather.. my friend X.. is like the breath of God and always awesome.. in my book at least.. and as talked to death before.. Hurricanes at one time are my favorite until Ivan destroys my favorite tree that grounds me to God.. when work and CULTURE THEN.. will never have me that way.. It’s an awesome experience to have God blow most all of cultural infrastructure away in just a day.. but
truly
culture
is
the rain..
It’s like that movie planet of the
Apes when Charleston Heston
is riding down a most
beautiful beach
with the most
beautiful
woman
in the
world
at his back..
and bitches cause
humans destroyed
all the ugly buildings..
ha! i remember that
as i follow my wife around
with my iPhone camera
beauty is in
flesh
and flowers
and never
ever
brick
and mortar alone..
during the first hurricane
Erin.. i experience in 1995..
i am forced out of work
AND CULTURE
to remember
how beautiful
my wife
is
then..
as a
face of
GOD..
as i remember
we haVE great
sex.. at that
time.. as
i remember
i sEE God’s
face again
at that
time..
It’s raining
my friend
it’s raining..
but it’s
raining
tears
of culture
moreover
than tears
of
life
giving
water
of human
Love..
yeah i know..
gotta always
get it deep
deeper
but hey..
once again.
we got all
11 inches
in one
day
down
here..
It’s raining
yes.. it’s raining
even in new Jerusalem
in the new Free Israel
for human beings
with more
churches per
square mile
historically
speaking..
still filled
with rain
than any other
place in the USAisRAel..
and who knows perhaps
the UniVerse.. but i ain’t
making any
bets
on that..
with my
little
eyes
of tears
of God..;)

But perhaps that will be easier for
Charlton to see back then..
if he lives in the
real new Jerusalem
in real new Israel
like in
Paradise
REAL..
but sure..
i have proof..
and signs
from
GOD..
in eYe
of God
as WeLL..:)

6117

It’s truly quite a handicap to have to wear
sunglasses everywhere one goes..
as sure.. my eyes can say
so much more than words ever will…

And without the modern technological
advantage of selfies.. it would be
much harder for me to express that..
at least.. somewhere..
on the
Interwebz World…

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Hi X.. well.. your ballet credits from college
certainly lend credit to a new age renaissance
man.. smiles.. and speaking of Renaissance
men.. my first real introduction to health and
well being of ballet.. is through a lead lifeguard
who works for me as Athletic Director toward the
end of my work career at the Navy Military station
and at age 65.. he has much greater overall health
and vitality than the College age Lifeguards he is training
then.. and truly his strength and peace of mind in ways of
emotional regulation and sensory integration is generated
by his performance arts level of ongoing ballet training.. his
spirit shines far wherever he goes.. always a source
of positive energy and resilience to negativity..
and this gentleman also serves decades
as a parole officer retiring
from that work
and is
also
a wartime
Vietnam veteran..
his name is Arthur..
i am most honored to
be able to do this in public
now.. and actually identified by
some schooled ballet folks at my
military gym as being schooled myself..
but no.. it’s innate.. instinctual and intuitive
for me.. as is a martial arts style that has been
identified by experts in Military training of martial
arts as the dance of
death
in Kung
Fu.. people
underestimate
human innate instinct
and intuition but it is simply
’cause they never escape learning
from the environment to look within
and express
the hero
that lives
within
NAMELY
GOD
my friend
X.. as the
truly unnamed force
without what scientists
name as
form
OVERALL
OF COURSE..
ALLONE
SPECIFICally
in my books
my
friend
yes.. perhaps
X will be a good
name for GOD
too..
like a perfectly
balanced
hour glass
that
never
spills
sands
of time
always
existing
as
NOW..:)

6461

Yes.. my friend.. Rafiah.. perhaps
the greatest of nowsnow are when
we are part of a group and no.. not
just individuals on a raft in an
open sea alone..
but i refuse
that
and
join in
my friend..
as to well be
for human IS Ocean..

alWays flesh/blood touchy
feely human beings beyond
these shores of onLiNe Now..:)

6520

And now off to the ‘side job’
of fun in responding in
poetic expressions
to open links
night
at
dVerse
online poet’s
pub over the
next few days
until poetry runs
away like a heaRD of something free!..;)

And i’ll start with my current.. favorite.. Glenn..

A beautiful vision of Stallion so strong
and graceful where hooves barely
touch terrestrial earth in flight
of Equine resilience
to those who
wish to
mute
the wild
to tame
the free
into beasts
of burdens..
and of course
applies as well..
to modern Homo
SAPIENS SAPIENS
i
say..:)

*Compassion is tolerance
and acceptance of
difference
anything
else
is
separation
and indifference..:)

Truly sad how
many women
are crucified
where no
one wears
tHeir
cross
or
prophet
of pain…

Ah..
the way
of ‘the
world’ only
a psychopath
leaning person
will sacrifice
Love to lead..
self-fulfilling
human prophecy
of humans who are
only evolved to live
in small cooperative
sharing caring
touchy feely
groups
with around
150 to 200 sets
of human eyes at
most..
Psychopathic
rule.. a symptom..
of a disorder of
a sick species
of animal..
OUT OF
MOTHER
nature balance..
There is no
fooling
Mother
Nature
ever in eyes
of non-loving rules
in cold human eYes..:)

Ah.. the whole
medical industry
missing any feeling
of heart at all.. if it
doesn’t exist in a
pill there is
no way out..
after 66 months
i proved all my doctors
wrong that i will never
recover.. and now i am
stronger than ever
and prove
it to them
every now..
miracles happen..
when feelings of
hope.. faith..
and belief
and all feelings
go away and
all of life
is pain
and nothing
else but pain..
there is a very long
tunnel with the light
at the end and it
is a phoenix
for us
and not
a freight
train
for
them
my friend..
Miracles are REAL..
SURVIVING
is the first
step
to
real
always..:)

Ah.. imagine a place
of freedom.. where there
are no bounds no limits
and never
any expectations..
better yet live
it now
my friend
as your
words
tale..
It’s tempting
to go there and never
come back online
in attempts to
metaphor
a path
for
others to
this place we
enjoy always
now generated
totAlly free from
within but it is too
delicious a meal
not to
attempt
to share
for
free..
sMiLEs..
of Love
Friend..:)

Beauty of expressinGineffable
in symbols of human
spiRit never
bRinGinG
tHese
emotiOns
befORe.. a
tAble of more
a napKin wITh
colORs neVer
tasted at
all..
explore
more
be more
expresSinG
ineffAble
pURe
MORE..:)

i never realize a human can become
a desert until one day i awake
and my eyes and heart
are full of
sand
and
no
thing else..
now that i have
vision and feeling
i love deserts and
sand so much
i make one in
my backyard
just for
fun and twirl
iN iT marveling
at my re-found
ability
to
see and
feel.. and a grain
of sand is no
less
than
me..:)

With lots of love
i hope you have
a great week
ahead.. i highly
appreciate you..
i like your
poetry
and
thanks
for being
here..
sincerely
with smiles..
i just recuperated
THAT and it feels good..:)

Blessed days of bountiful chow..
years pass farm animals and plow..
Oh.. how love circles smiles flower
when tummies are full Love now blows
tunes more songs of human found smarts..;)

Oh.. the eyes are truly
windows to souls
who live in
more expression
than poem or
sunset
may
ever
tale..:)

Love
trumps
blood except
for culture
or Trump..;)

Oh.. fall of depression
oh.. fall of spring
oh.. rise of Life
possible
any
Now..:)

Yes.. A Truth
is culture
and religion
does not
give humans
innately.. instinctually
and intuitively.. Credit..
for ruLinG themselves..:)

*Love lost knows
no boundaries
of human
or other
Nature..:)

All caught
up to 15
links.. noW
ON TO other FUN
EXTRAcurricular
activities leading
to Rave DANCE TONIGHT!
continuing this pArt
tomorrow.. now..
4:47 pm
10012015
11:25 am
10022015
now time to
catch up
and
post
the
‘next one’..:)

Fear THE DEVIL
THE SINNER
The Father
of all
doubt.. envy..
jealousy.. pride..
anger.. collecting
and most sadly
of all
THE
Father of
Hate..
LOVE
THE
WINNER
of ALL
GOD..:)

Ah.. but no
breeze
or
greenest
of maples
leaves
without
storms
and yes Hurricanes
are God’s gift to redistribute
heat so more can live
but human alone
in God’s
Creation
of
all
Great
Blue Green
Grey Brown
orb
of Life
here
NOW
Heaven
as IS
and sure
hell too..
for those
who
walk
that
path
NOW..:)

Ah.. sister Lynn Friend..
square in the
middle and you
take away my
breath with
your
own unique
style of poeTry
however.. i must
say.. yes.. i have
no choice but
change and to
say that the
greatest
lie
ever
told to humankind
is that GOD does
not change..
ha..
we
are reflections
of that my friend..;)

While the world
is busy worrying
about fiscal
issues
in a new government
year.. others of
us totally don’t
give an
F and
sImply
LiVE N0W
in abundant
Health and Love..
sure there are
two paths
of Heaven
and Hell..
Hell is paved
with green
and Heaven
is paved
WitH
FLESH
AND
BLOOD
FEELING
heArt
spiRit
expresSing
hearT and
mind and
body
balancing
SoUl jUSt
N0W..:)

Truly it is about
naked balance..
hide the fruit
and trees
struggle
to reproduce
more.. when
fruit is
plentiful
balance
comes..
it’s time
to get
naked
and dance
my friend..
but
few
can see
the simple
FREeDom of
Truth and Light
in that eternal
solution..
to
Human
Life..
Naked
kills
the
Devil..
history
shows
this time
and time
again..
only the real
devils clothe humans
in ways of fear
restricting
clothing..:)

Well.. first of all.. i must
say i am impressed..
the poetry
world
online
and online
in general
is full
of text
and devoid
overall of
the human
touch.. the human
voice is a song unto
itself that sings
a Breath
of heArt..
expresSing
SpiRit
within..
balancing
mind and
body soUl..
and yes i will
do this too..
but sure..
i’m already
overwhelming
enough to most..
hehe.. but anyway
from memory.. of reading
literally thousands of poems
you are the second female
to be brave enough
to put her
voice out
tHere in poetry
land so sure
that in itself
makes you
a girl
superhero
as you now..
i will
love to
see more
human in poetry
land.. and online
in general than
just
symbols
for
human
being in sign
language my friend..
so i will just do it..
and now that i belong
to no restrictive communities
perhaps i will my add my voice
of which is more like lighting
thunder
than
these
words
alone…
i’ve already
put my eyes out
tHere and
flesh
and
blood
so sure
so why not
SinGaSonG2..:)

Well.. my friend.. i just named the previous
female poet a girl hero for
being brave
enough
to put
her voice
out there
in poetry
land as that is
so rare in a land
online devoid of
the human touch
outside of sign
language
of text..
where
even the
greatest of
human messages
in human faces
are cold and
more dead
than
the
colDest
vampires
or zombies..
and honestly
you read beautifully
to bring any vampire
as more valuable than
cold dead
heArted
robots
and zombies
in sign
language
text.. the human voice
is a harp of GOD and the way
you speak in sing song voice of
poetry heArt.. is the natural way
SOuLs speak as poetry spiRit.
before electronic devices steal
SOuL away.. i am a poem in
real life too..
and people
think it’s
strange
to hear
melody
naturally
coming out of
a human being today..
but sadly they are not
people at all.. they live
in hell and have no
idea that this is
heaven
that once
exists
and
can come again..
as zombie and robot
rises to flesh and blood
of beating
heARt..
where vampires
are more alive
than THE REAL
Zombie
Apocalypse
here.. oh yeah.. and
tHere’s that twitter thingy
where more than 24 lines
is death in life.. or 105 characters..
or whatever… where humans now technically
scientifically speaking have the attention span of
a gold fish.. no kidding.. a gold fish.. back in the
day chewing the fat.. IS KinG.. hours on end..
no TV.. no Radio..
NO INTERWEBZ..
just
the
human
heARt
sPIRit..
plaYinG
through
harp
of GOD
soUL
aS
Hu
MAN..
i am
heRe..
thIS is
heaven..
few
WiLL
joIN
mE..
and that my friend
is to be expected..
most sadly
as
such..:)

i am a weathered worn human
being.. i’ve been to hell
and no one
can hurt
me more
than GOD
and i can
Love no one
more than GOD
as GOD IS ALL THAT
IS.. but yeah.. i have literally
commented on thousands of
poems and actually paid
enough attention and
respect to respond
lyrically
in poetry
way in inspiration
of the words others
bRinG.. tHere can
be NO greater respect
paid to another human
being than that my friend..
yet.. on an average visit
i receive maybe 3
reciprocations of
visits out
of 40 totally
engaged efforts
of me soaking up
the soul of the other
and responding
in KiND..
i am
a human
being and
the fact of the
matter that i cannot
hide is SURE i am an
awesomely PROLIFIC
AESTHETE
and cannot
avoid
doinG
that my friend..
but the main thing
i shed tears for is that
there are very few human
beings here in interweBZ
land that are human
enough to pay
at least
a respect
of hello
to someone
as awesome
as me.. wInks but
that’s Okay
as me
and GoD
carry THAT
ALLONE MY
FRIEND..
SERIOUSLY
I CRY for OTHERS
AND NOT ME..
lip service
is
just
that..
lip service..
DOING IS
ALWAYS
WHAT
COUNTS
IN REAL
TiME NOW
sMiles.. i like
you.. i realize not
everyone is as
strong.. smart..
financially independent
and fortunate as i.. but
it doesn’t take
much
to
say
HELLO..
and you have
been kind enough
to respond to my comments
here and i thank you very much
for that friend.. and that is certainly
more than i ever expect online where
human
hearts
rarely
rule
over
rules..
SmileS
charity
Loves
at home..;)

*side note:
“Righteous
Indignation
and Dissension”
uncomfortable at
times but a necessary
tool for human
changing
Positive
heArts
in
JUST
DOING
IT
AS
ACTiONow..
*end
side note..;)

For every human
heaven there
is a hell
burning
darker..
but always
potential
for
change..:)

People often scoff..
more often totally
ignore me.. hehe..
when i tale
them i
write 13.6
bibles in
the length
of 57 months..
but yes..
online is
forever in
servers..
and i for
one can
prove
all
11
million
words
hehe..
and sure i am
inspired.. by
100’s of thousands
of people.. who
knows perhaps
144K or so..
but never
the less
IT is
what
IT
is..
wInks..
perhaps
i am A
REAL BOOK
OF Eli..
hmm..
just
hmm..
(:movie
reference;)
always great
to ride a
GREAtESt
Meme..
and besides
the real man
Jesus before
Constantine promotes
him into a Sun GOD to
suit the Mithra religion
in his area at the time
already states
as clearLY AS THIS..
in new testament
ink sTILL that FolkS
will come to do much
greater than he does..
awe the green
monster
rises
his ugly
head when
words
of
Jesus
come true..
somethings
rarely change
he HE..
but
yes..
THEY
ALWAYS
DO..;)

Oh.. to see the
blood of
love
in the
red of
flowers
is to
flow
as
GOD..:)

Oh.. myths.. you
house truth
and light..
you vehicle
and vessel
in words
and other symbols
myriad to human
feelings and
senses..
Oh.. heArt
sEat of
emotiOns
SinG wORds
of spiRit aGloW
in floW
energy
IT IS
of human
KinD.. to
growiNGmiNds
and bodies
in balance
as
LiGht
of SoUls
tRuth..
no wORd
is too
smAll
to
save
the
entire
human
race…
as every word
is a butteRfly
of
GOD..:)

The greaTest
prison my
friend
is prison
of mind and
body out of balance..
in only pain.. always NOW..
where Jail is respite
for at least
what
could be..
something..
anything..
i have no idea
how you feel..
but do know
what IS to
NONfeel
ZerO
poINt
of human
HeLL.. all I can
say friend.. is when
all feeling is gone..
worse than the worse
pain known to mankind
yes.. worse than crucifixion
that i for one survive named
atypical trigeminal neuralgia
from wake to sleep from wake
to sleep.. for 66 months..
mine are words
this.. yoUrs.. then..
now.. you speak..
now..
there is
zero
hope..
just
pain.. then..
but miracles
do happen..
yes they
do..
to the
darkest
of humans
as the
DeviL
incarnate
i for one am
then..
an angel
can be a devil
and then angel
again.. and i will
gladly experience this
again and again.. in hopes
of preventing just one person
of
going
there
again..
but that’s
what happens
when a person
gains the empathy
of
INfiniTy..
NOW..
The WiLL to
Live is the
greaTest
SURVIVAL
gift of ALL..
the serpent
AKA
REPTILIAN
BRAIN..
rules ALL
from
beginning
to end my
friend..
DeviL
or not..
IT IS
our
greaTest
friend.. the
snake my friend..:)

WELL OKAY..
ENOUGH is enough
for now..huh..
that’s 33
responses
to 33 poems..
i like the
number 33
so much
i’ll stop
here and
continue
this in
the comments
section of
this next
blog post..
titled
“EMPiRE Force Loves STRiKEs BAcK”
sMILEs
aGAiN..
i’ll be
back AGAIN..;)

And yes there is
32 on the list
at this point
and i am
number
33..
whether
i lInk
wITh
rUles
or N0T..;)
10022015
3:08 pm…

Hi Glenn.. through the course of my life i sweat BULLETS being accepted and following A social norm where ever i GO.. as soon as the first person in middle school notifies me that i am not good enough to exist.. eventually that compliance results in all those illnesses in middle age.. i am 16 again.. better yet 13.. before i listened to ‘them’..

i no longer listen to them..
i am no longer them..
i am just me
now with
GOD
and those
who see me now..
may only be found
on the other side of
the world and some
here like you..
but finding
them
is
worth
all of this
my friend..
and of
course
moreover
FREEDOM
JUST
TO
BE ME
WITH
GOD..:)

I don’t give an F
what anyone
thinks or FEELS..
TO THE COnTRARY..
me as F and
God are
AN AWESOME
TEAM..
and you
too my
friend..
and others
too who are FREE!.
LIKE! THIS! aLIVE!..:)

i AM NO LONGER A
STANDING STATUE
AT A GREEK
PANTHEON..
or on
the album
cover of the
Sgt. Pepper’s
Lonely
Hearts
Club
Band..
I HAVE
COME
UNGLUED
WITH MORTAR..
NO LONGER STONE..
AND THE BEST THING
OF ALL IS I AM JUST
A MUSE
AND
DANCE
MY WAY
ALwAYS
NOW TO NOW..:)

9007

Hi Scott.. thanks for coming by.. and
Just Love Unconditionally no matter
what and rise again more fully alive
than ever before.. is the only pill
i need in life to excel
in all my friend..
one direction
of LOVE..
sMiLEs
of
LO
VeNOW

Smiles.. Revels17..
Nurturing is a gift from parents..
What is given is returned ten-fold
but only for those who can feel it
as nurturing is an emotion
that some cannot feel at all..
Typically these are the
people who abhor Babies..
Parents.. And women..
in a heart way..
Truly a potential cycle
of Love or Hate starts
when that finger is held
or ignored
for whatever reason
sMiLEs.. and mine
was held often
and still
IS..:)

9127

OMG! PLUM
you mean
i actually
have another friend
in this world..
that makes my
Life.. tRuly
it does..
friend RumBlue..
Black Pearl..
Shawna.. S..
oh GOD
there are
so many
more and you
are too amazing
to be true.. girl..
you are like
a million times
one.. hehahaheR..
and i’m guessing
your real name is Shawna
simply as Grace seems
like she really cares
about you
and
calls
you S..
nah.. ha!..
i don’t miss
much.. both a grace
and curse truly
of this
condition
of me
i am
born with
friend.. and
enjoy so much
now.. hehe! friend..
well now i’m gonna
have to tale my family
yes.. the flesh and blood
one that reads.. me.. that
you are real
haha!
write
now
write
hear..
that family
haha!X2 and
pleased to
meet
you
girl
FRIEND..
oh and the more
intense we as human
being live BOTH OUR
FEMININE AND MASCULINE
DIVINE BEINGS AS ALIVE
THE MORE
REAL
WE
ARE
AS
HUMAN
BEING
GOD’S
CHILDREN
IN BALANCE
OF MOTHER
NATURE TRUTH
AND LIGHT MY FRIEND
FOR
NOW
A DELIGHTFUL
SWEET
PLUM..:)

9309

Well.. no matter where you
blog or who you
are it
feels
like family
when i come
to you.. hmm..
i havE to wonder NOW
if you are my long
lost daughter
back from
October
12, 1981
on a
full
moon
night
in a
dark
hotel..
but
‘she’
says no..
a girl i
meet in
the ‘nut
house’
hehex2..
but
any way..
and.. that
is an
entirely
different
story
every
way..
sMILEs..
how
else
can
one..
be this
much like me..
grins friend.. Shawna..
you are truly a blessing
from God as is your daughter
and all those
who
are
touched
by your Life..
and i Love everything
about all your blogs..
and YOUs..
they
are ALL
WORTH
READING
AND KEEPING
AGAIN
AND
AGAIN..
but nah..
i never look
back at what
i do anyway..
either..
as there
is
OH
ALWAYS
SO MUCH
MORE TO
DO.. ONLY
LIMITED
BY DREAMS
AND THERE
ARE NO
LIMITS
WITH
DREAMS..:)

9464

Hi Bodirose.. just one kind person like you
makes it all worth it.. and yes my friend..
there are a few..:)

i am diagnosed on the Autism Spectrum with Asperger’s syndrome.. i do not speak until age 4.. in putting words together.. i have great difficulty speaking until my mid-40’s but manage to graduate at the top of my class with three college degrees and retire from a federal government job at the highest pay grade levels..

i am not diagnosed with Asperger’s syndrome until after i come down with several auto-immune issues from chronic stress at work.. in my late 40’s.. and additionally gain what is termed as the suicide disease.. type two trigeminal neuralgia.. which is like someone drilling one’s teeth without novocaine.. also identified in medical literature as literally worse than crucifixion..

Except in my case.. it is in my right eye and ear.. making effective use of eyes and ears almost intolerable for 66 months.. i am a shut-in in my bedroom for those months.. and with little ability to creatively write.. i start writing two years into the illness when i tolerate a screen turned all the way down in brightness..

about two inches from the screen..

as prescription glasses increase the pain..

with associated focus and related nerve issues..

every word.. is climbing a highest mountain then.. in excruciating pain..

i then have a total of 19 diagnosed illnesses.. and in the end of July of 2013.. God miraculously cures me of the pain.. yes.. literally miraculously cures me of all the disorders.. and i already experience a creative spark for the first time in my life since middle school when i am 13 and write a poem then.. a play.. and just a few philosophical writings in a philosophy class when i am 18.. i have a long.. long dry spell.. of no creativity.. around 40 years.. fostered by the mechanical cognition activities of both work and the information technology associated duties of many years.. and that spirit comes back around March of 2013…

The reason i give you this background information.. is i already have the life of JOB.. so there is no challenge too large for me now.. and poetry is my joy.. and not something i expect anyone to appreciate.. when i state that the administration of dVerse.. does not seem to understand my metaphors.. it is because they delete 3 of my links after i fully explain those metaphors.. without answering to my defense of the meanings that are clearly defined then.. and still documented on my blogs for those instances..

i have a sharp pencil.. if you will.. like a lawyer..

and can pick up those duties in a heartbeat when i revert

back to the techno-speak of work life.. however.. creativity with the help of GOD literally saves my life.. so it is all a joy.. it’s just a little disturbing to me.. overall.. how society has grown so cold in empathy ways..

There are basically two forms of Asperger’s syndrome.. generally.. and those two forms are folks who are cold to human empathy and literal empaths like me who can take on the emotions and pains of the entire world.. if i do not take great effort to regulate that ‘gift’.. my friend.. and it has taken almost a lifetime to gain an ability to do that.. for peace of mind and body balance..

I am sad for the human beings who live this way.. in cold ways of heart.. i am not mad.. i am just sad for them my friend.. and sometimes i vent about the situation.. to regulate my emotions and empathy.. friend.. and i find it works.. and it means very much to me just for the fact that you tolerate and accept me.. this go around.. and do not wipe me off the face of the earth in metaphor of deleting me.. smiles..

Love to you friend..
and i hope your
nows are always
filled with joy..
as truly
mine are
friend.. as
there is NO
better lesson
in life
than that
of A REAL
‘JOB’.. SO YES..
even all that
misery
and suffering
i thank GOD for
always now
as it truly
makes
me like
a literal
superman
now.. so sure..
what more can i
ask God for .. but that..
i just humbly say thank
you and NEVER STOP..
GIVING MY FRIEND..:)

And smiles.. if you ever are interested in what i do
you can just click on the katiemiafrederick
name and that will take you to all of
what i do.. but yes… technology
is having a hard time
keeping up
with
me..
so it does
take a robust
broadband avenue
of access and a powerful
computer to find what i do..
but ha! now the iPhone 6s
has finally
caught
up to
me..
sMILEs
again..
Life is
Great..
NOW..:)

http://www.katiemiafrederick.blogspot.com

Thanks so much for trying Bodhirose..
and yes.. sadly WordPress is a clunky
platform for what i do..
a friend talked
me into moving
from Blogger
format..
and at that time
people also had problems accessing
me who were already my readers
so i keep two blogger blogs
for those people since
then.. that are much
much busier than
word press..
with
1.25 million
views of what
i do on Google
plus.. overall..
So sure..
i feel
appreciated
enough.. haha!..
about two and
a half years
into all of
this..:)

Anyway.. the fastest
one i will link for you here..
and you are always welcome
there.. but it is limited to
the blogger
commenting
feature..
that not
everyone likes..
and now thank goodness..
the iPhone 6s is robust
enough with the
LTE broadband
access to
open my stuff
as smooth
as my iMac
desktop does..
as yes.. my site
will often not open
on mobile and slower connections
then at all either.. but yes.. agaiN
TECHNOLOGY IS CATCHING UP!..;)

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17 Responses to EMPiRE Force Love STRiKEs BAcK

  1. https://randomlyabstract.wordpress.com/2015/10/03/not-made-for-each-other/

    ^^^

    It’s true Maria..
    God determines ‘this’..
    through eyes of human..
    never limited to parents
    as children of God
    and not when parents
    are made as God’s voice
    of future couple alone..
    Funny how much people try
    to chain God and put God
    in boxes of 3 or more letters..
    God is bigger and so is the human heart..
    spirit.. and soul.. over cultural and religious
    chains of human made prisons of faux rules
    in attempts to rule God.. God spits those
    humans out into real hell now
    of human’s own self fulfilling
    prophecy.. Yes.. I am sorry too..
    ‘This’ is true and few will listen
    who are ruled by human
    instead of God
    who lives
    within
    without
    any
    culture
    or religion…

    PS.. Hi Maria..
    and thank you
    for your beautiful poem..
    Right and Wrong is human..
    GOD
    is Real
    and human
    can be too..
    simply
    by escaping
    humans in
    cultural and
    religious
    ways of
    illusions..
    GOD
    IS FREE
    and so
    are
    WE
    when
    God lives
    in out up
    and down
    and all
    around
    US FREE..:)

    https://randomlyabstract.wordpress.com/2015/09/11/sauces-2/#comment-7740

    ^^^

    Listen to the
    music
    and
    Dance
    God..
    sMiLes..
    most of
    all Be
    YOU
    BE
    FREE..
    sorry i missed
    the call here before..
    but i always try to lend
    a voice to one who speaks Truth
    and
    Light
    my friend..:)

  2. First a quick
    joke.. can
    you imagine
    me with
    writer’s
    block..
    joke
    ends.. now
    back to catching
    up to the rest of
    what dVerse open
    link Night has to
    offer in the way
    of poetic
    responses
    from me.. hehe..;)

    True.. many folks spend
    their life running away
    with cultures and
    religions
    when the
    them is
    one and
    true with
    the
    rest
    of all
    that is..
    a comfortable
    gLove of Truth and Light
    that no one owns
    but
    US
    as
    WE as liGht and TRuTH..:)

    *hmm.. this is fun..
    i will continue..
    side note
    ends..;)*

    Real Love is never
    sorry
    or hides..
    @ALL..
    IT oNly
    Shares
    and
    GiVES..:)

    Zombie apocalypse
    of human cold hearts
    LESs here theRe
    is no doubt
    but there
    are great
    lights
    shining
    that
    will
    conquer
    AsLove
    ASummer
    wHere Winter
    only
    visits.. and never
    stays
    forever
    dark
    LIGHT IS HERE..:)

    55.. i don’t suppose
    is too old but there
    is a now at 21
    where
    my song
    ends..
    re-beGins
    at 22..
    ends again
    at 47.. comes
    roaring back
    like a Lion
    at 53..
    and the rest
    is history now
    is all Heaven..
    illusion for
    me is
    song
    ends..
    it
    never
    does..
    in
    Finity
    and yes..
    sometimes
    the first note..
    word.. or step
    is the long
    song
    and
    dance
    HOME
    ASHEAVEN
    ALWAYSNOW..:)

    *WeLL.. THAT’S
    all dVerse has
    to offer.. and quite
    honestly.. i guess i’ve
    done enough for now huh..
    it’s been overcast here
    and stormy ever since the
    Super Blood Moon comes
    last Sunday night..
    and i’ve written
    somewhere around
    27 to 47K words
    depending on
    if revised
    words are
    counted
    or not..
    Anyway the
    Sun is forecast
    to come again..
    so i will leave this
    pen I
    s for now hehe..
    and now the
    dance of
    Nature
    comes
    with the
    flesh and blood
    connection of dance
    in many public stores
    and farm to come on
    Sunday as well..
    so perhaps
    another
    blog post
    will come with
    all of this sometimes
    around Sunday or
    who
    feels
    and knows
    when.. as the
    hand of God guides
    me in
    Pen and
    IS..:)

    Anyway.. after a lifetime
    of people more or less
    taling my existence is a joke..
    i say it is real.. and i will
    be a joke too.. as there
    are two ways of life..
    Victory
    or
    Vengeance
    and i for
    one will
    do a joke
    to end this
    as sometimes
    quite honestly
    sarcasm and
    smart
    asses
    rule
    as
    sacred
    fools..
    but it’s
    wit and neither
    gold or green that
    truly rules with
    human HeArt
    expresSing
    SpiRit..
    as miNd
    and bodY
    balanCinG
    soUl aLiVe
    my friend(s)..
    for N0W I’M HOME..:)
    HA! THE SUN JUST PEAkS
    THROUGH A SIgN FROM GOD
    THROUGH MY BEDROOM WiND0W..
    i’LL TAKE N0W
    TO C0ME
    0UTSIDE
    AND
    F*KinG
    jUst
    plaY!..:)
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  3. http://xpoet73.blogspot.com/2015/10/understanding-void.html

    ^^^

    i like to be unique..
    before one morning
    i cannot separate
    myself from.. yes
    X.. a rusty
    chain..
    rain.. stays
    still and same..
    and that
    is too wet
    for me..
    cat who sees
    beYond pastie
    eYes of others
    glue..:)

  4. Love the first picture with the sky and the ocean, it’s so beautiful and serene!
    And the skeleton driving the car was hilarious! 😀 We do the same kind of stuff with our skeleton dummies when we are in Anatomy lab in university!

    Hope you have a great Sunday Fred 🙂

    • Hi Zee.. so good to hear from you today..
      i’ve been checking back on your
      site in the last day or so..
      to see if you are writing
      another post there..
      as i was starting
      to get a little
      concerned
      as you
      seemed
      somewhat
      down in the
      last post.. so yes.. SO
      nice to see the smiley faces
      here on Saturday.. and i wish
      you a great and joyful Saturday
      along with Sunday as I know nite
      nite time is here now in
      Pakistan friend..
      smiles
      with love
      and laughter
      for Living
      LIFE!
      PLAY
      AS
      FUN!..:)

      https://lifeconfusions.wordpress.com/2015/09/21/about-life-shit/

      Hi.. Zee..
      I’m glad you missed ‘it’
      as your word press
      notification provides
      an opportunity to read the wise
      and kind words of all your readers..
      Yes.. Love of the unconditional
      KiND of ALLaH attracts the same..
      You are a liGht for that my friend..
      So may you always shine bright
      like a human diamond..:)

  5. X says:

    Sometimes we have to become whatever is needed,
    especially when our child is sick.

    never ending story is an amazing movie
    as is field of dreams.

    you really need to get you come of those stretch pants.
    lol.

    technology is catching up,
    is that a good thing?
    it concerns me at times.

    not everyone understands metaphor
    i think they are too lazy to try to understand
    at times.

    • HI X.. i like the metaphor of shipmate
      to describe the fix the world is in..
      In my local area.. yes..
      fundamentalist
      Christian
      dominated
      by the most
      churches
      per square
      mile in past
      Record books..
      like the New Jerusalem
      in both dark and light
      ways of the
      Old
      ways..
      is haven
      to discriminate
      against the different
      past whitie
      tightie pastie..
      skin.. and
      Southern
      Baptist
      church
      pews..
      yes.. some stUFF
      rarely changes and as
      mentioned.. per science mind
      before.. science has a handle on
      this too.. as science shows.. that
      humans innately can be liberal
      or conservative with the
      super liberal folks
      like me totally
      open
      to the different..
      yes.. like the real
      historical man Jesus..
      Buddha.. and several
      million and or billion
      others like
      us.. sMiLEs
      yes.. miles of
      liberals and
      conservatives make
      the world go around
      as is.. by the way..
      here’s that cool
      science video
      again for any
      new comers..
      smiles again..;)

      So yes.. as long as humans are flesh
      and blood thingies we are gonna
      have much different ideas
      among folks
      innately
      and
      environmentally
      liberal as open minds..
      OR
      as conservative
      closed
      minds..
      about
      the new and
      the different of life..:)

      So yes.. what the hell
      does all of that have to
      do with shipmates.. when
      folks become shipmates they
      are much more likely to tolerate
      and even at times accept differences..
      the Navy station i work at for over two
      decades is a respite from the prejudice
      in my local area.. particularly specific to
      Black Americans.. and this can be true
      in football too.. as folks find out that we
      all sweat and bleed the same color..
      great example of that in
      the Forrest Gump
      movie as
      well of course..
      where smart becomes
      as smart does.. instead
      of iQ frigging points on
      a test.. or a graded
      paper for
      some
      straight
      A’s.. Just DOING
      IT IS ALL OF WHAT
      IT IS ABOUT..
      AND WITH ALL STUFF
      HUMAN IN MOVING
      CONNECTING AND
      CREATING
      USE
      IT
      OR
      LOSE
      IT
      DOES
      MOST
      DEFINITELY
      APPLY!..;)
      I PROVIDE tHe proof
      of what can happen when a human
      USES ALL OF IT HERE.. YES.. IT WORKS
      AND WE CAN BECOME WILD AND FREE LOVING
      SOCIALLY COOPERATING ANIMALS WHO
      CAN DANCE AND SING..
      RATHER THAN
      ROBOTS
      OR ZOMBIES
      BEHIND
      AN
      ICE
      COLD
      SCREEN..
      SCREAM!..

      BUTT.. OH..
      there is a paradox
      of light and dark
      with technology
      too.. as with the shipmate
      example.. to get to know your
      shipmate in intimate detail is to
      realize ya got stuff in common and not
      just the different of the seeing eye.. the
      feeling eye learns to rule by
      pumping the
      LOVE MUSCLE
      HARDER FASTER
      PLEASE.. LIKE THE
      6 million dollar man
      we can
      rise
      and
      LOVE
      AGAIN!
      FASTER
      AND
      HARDER
      WITH EACH
      OTHER IN FLESH
      AND BLOOD..
      THE BEST
      ParTs
      of Living
      HUMAN
      BEING
      AFRIGGINGALIVE!
      AND YES.. expressing
      E M O T i O n S AND
      human sensuality in
      grace and strength
      for the
      divine
      masculine
      and feminine
      is the excellent
      example of the big tough
      dude in the multi-colored
      Richard Simmons
      sweaties..
      with the
      sweetie
      dance
      partners
      too!
      WoMEN
      are much more
      balancing
      these days
      in ways of feminine
      and expressing their
      assertive masculine
      will of side..
      they beat the F
      out of men most
      every time.. in culture
      now.. where men will continue
      to die earlier with more suffering
      and misery.. by repressing their
      human beings of feminine
      E M O T i O N a L
      and SENsualiTY side!..
      And these screaming
      screens of technologies
      new age way.. is just the
      virtual ticket.. yes.. the truly
      only virtual ticket to get A BIG
      WORLD HIVE.. CONNECTING
      BUZZING.. AND BEING
      ONE
      AS WHOLE
      LOVE
      OF
      SOCIALLY
      COOPERATING
      HUMAN LIVES!

      IT AIN’T PERFECT
      BUT IT
      IS WHAT
      IT IS..
      AND
      WE CAN USE
      IT AS A TOOL TO
      CONNECT BETTER..
      PERHAPS MOTIVATE
      OURSELVES TO MOVE..
      AND PARTICULARLY GAIN
      SOME ASSISTANCE
      TO CREATE
      IN BLOGGER
      LIKE WAYS!
      YES.. AND LOSE
      IT OR LOSE IT ALSO
      APPLIES TO UNDERSTANDING
      METAPHORS.. WRITING.. MOVING
      CREATING.. CONNECTING AND EVERYTHING
      ELSE IN LIFE.. THE BIGGEST SECRET IS TO
      NEVER EVER LEAVE
      BOOTCAMP
      OR PRE-SEASON
      PRACTICE.. EVEN
      IF ONE HAS NEVER
      BEEN THERE..
      GOD IS A GOD
      OF CHALLENGE
      ADAPTATION
      AND CHANGE
      TO BECOME
      A FAT CAT
      OF INSTANT GRATIFICATION
      IS NOT TO LIVE LIKE A FERAL
      YELLOW BOY.. in lightning
      fast.. strong and smArt cat!
      WHO HEARS
      THE CALL OF THE
      WILD AKA THE CALL OF GOD
      AND SAYS IT’S TIME TO GO OUT
      AND
      HUNT LIFE
      INSTEAD
      OF WAITING
      FOR IT TO COME!..:)

      Katrina.. in the background
      saying get the F off that
      Keyboard
      and let’s go
      PLAY.. HUNTING
      FOR SUBSISTENCE
      STUFF FOR HER..
      AND DANCING
      LEGS
      AND
      CONNECTING
      FOR ME..
      sMILEs
      of F in FUN!..:)

      PS.. i never cover my naked
      legs in the last two
      years.. so i cannot
      wear sweats
      or tights..
      even in
      the
      F
      in
      SnOW..;)

      • X says:

        Shipmates implies that we realize we are in this together
        That we are on the ship and the only way for it to go anywhere
        is for us to work together.

        I like it as a metaphor.

        Everyone on the ship has their role too,
        their own strengths and when everyone does their job —

        • Hi X.. thanks for stopping by again.. so much.. adding the important elements comprising the shipmate life.. realizing we are all in this keeping the ship afloat game together.. and the only way for the ship to sail true and brave is for us all to work together.. YES! like the metaphor of Gilligan’s Island too!.. AND of course the social role is primal and most important in using strengths of each individual’s skills to get each individual bee job done so the hive will thrive and THE Invisible Queen of Nature will stay happy.. sMiLEs.. of sailing well.. with more metaphors.. too.. from Mother Nature.. QUEEN BEE Truth and Light.. AKA God.. of course.. write on course.. aS ALLTHATIS.. hahaheHE!..;)

  6. ^^^

    Epic Mall dance.. Fred vs Darth.. Maul on Thursday Night Dancing.. and Vader.. Saturday tonight.. and stay tuned for who wins.. the dark force or the light force.. if i lose the duel.. i must wear a Darth Vader Shirt to Catholic Church tomorrow morning with a huge Darth face all across the shirt.. and then from there i must wear the shirt to the Southern Baptist Pastors’s home on the First Sunday get together out in the back woods of Santa Rosa County close to Spring Hill.. where my kinfolks used to live too.. a very nice place to live.. on a farm.. except there ain’t no dam Internet access..wink emoticon..;)

  7. Suicide.. perhaps the hardest subject to discuss and live through there is for human being.. And yes.. there is most definitely some stuff in life worse than death..

    And for me.. losing first love.. losing first and only child.. and watching first and only child suffer in only misery and pain for 51 days in a hospital.. and that’s all he ever gets in life.. all the bullying in school.. where people tell me in no uncertain terms that i do not belong on this planet earth.. and off with my life.. as far as they are concerned then..

    NO.. i never ever consider suicide for even one second during all of that.. but ha!.. the challenge has not even started.. then.. a life of ‘JOB’ will start with the worst pain known to mankind..at age 47.. type two Trigeminal Neuralgia.. BORing Novocaine-less dentist-like drills in my right eye and ear.. from wake to sleep for 66 months..

    A pain so bad that the first 40 days of this pain.. ALONG with the challenge of Dyautonomia where my heart rate and blood pressure no longer properly synch with autonomic nervous system.. where every time i drift off to sleep my heart goes fast to pick up the slack with my blood pressure and i wake up gasping for breath..

    And Fibromyalgia.. Severe Degenerative Arthritis in the Spine.. along with Spinal Stenosis.. making incredible pain in my neck.. as part of an early onset issue associated with a Congenitally Fused Vertebra in neck from birth..

    Sjogren’s Syndrome.. where my eyes almost completely stop making tears.. like swimming with one’s eyes open in salt water.. a perfect storm of illnesses coming together with Severe Anxiety.. PTSD/Panic Attacks.. Severe Depression… Anhedonia.. a side order of a middle-age diagnosis on the Autism Spectrum.. specifically.. Asperger’s Syndrome.. ADHD.. and Alexithymia..

    Severely closed up sinuses from a Deviated Septum from birth.. and associated exacerbated Inflammation of the Mucosa in the Sinuses.. where the ENT who reads the Cat Scan of my Sinuses says.. dam.. how do you breathe through your nose.. and i’m thinking.. dam.. don’t you know there is another whole named my mouth.. but yeah.. a little air goes through the nose.. but no one ever tells me lots of air is supposed to go through there.. haha.. i guess.. ya adapt.. and survive.. YNOT.. and sure..

    Coat Hanger Pain syndrome associated with Dysautonomia.. too.. Moderate Carpal syndrome in both wrists.. extreme Tactile Sensitivity.. an ongoing issue still.. where i’ve never been able to touch manmade stuff.. not even my pants.. without severe discomfort..

    Tachycardia.. heart always beating close to 100 beats per minute.. and Vasovagal Pre-Syncope.. just eat a heavy meal.. and raise your arms.. and ya almost pass out.. as the blood is just not getting to the head.. oh yes.. hell yes.. back to the frigging 40 days.. with all these particulars associated with Dysautonomia..

    Perhaps.. the worse case of Insomnia ever.. as the record for no sleep at all is 264 hours of precisely.. 11 days.. and i get ‘gifted’ with 40 days.. only a shallow sleep one hour each night.. the first 35 days.. with the aid of a powerful alpha blocker to get my heart to slow down for about an hour to go to sleep.. yeah.. and then for the last 5 of 40 days.. not even an hour of sleep.. no sleep at all.. where the pain burning all over my body.. is worse than any pain imaginable.. worse than any flame.. and then OMG..

    ALL THE FEELING STOPS EVERYWHERE TOWARD THE VERY END.. AND i am like a piece of paper with no feelings at all.. My Brain has done something very strange.. i become the Living Dead.. where there is only time.. and a second lasts a thousand years of hell with no end..

    OMG.. it is beyond frigging anything i can imagine before.. and they cannot even describe this on the worst horror show ever.. as there are no words to feel zero point of.. Nothing Hell.. so much worse than even the worst pain known to mankind i have.. so then all that is left is the will to die.. as the last grasp resort escape for Hell in Life..

    i struggle to find the keys on the 39th day.. i am going to drive as fast as i can into a tree.. and Fucking Escape Hell.. i sneak the keys past Katrina.. somehow find the strength to get to the car.. as she has been helping me even get to a shower to take a bath.. as i am almost too weak to walk.. i get a second wind to die.. and i am gonna take it as i am in a place no one tales me can possibly exist in hell in life.. death is the blessing of eternity to me then..

    So i drive.. and the cautious driver i always am.. for a lifetime… in muscle memory.. refuses to go over 55.. and after 40 days of little to NO sleep.. the state of mind is beyond belief.. i must get to a bridge and jump off.. as there are no high buildings and i am too weak to get a rope and hang myself.. i already make it to a store to buy a shotgun.. weeks before.. but i am too.. weak and tired.. to even figure out how to load it.. so i arrive at the Blackwater Bridge..

    Yes.. the same place i am raised.. and get married on the gazebo of the boardwalk.. that i often show a photo of in my blogs.. and i sit at the bottom of the bridge in my car.. there are fisherman in boats.. and even if i can make it to the top to jump off.. they will surely save me.. there is no way to die..

    My sister comes down the hill in her car.. at the red light.. somehow she knows i will be there.. she talks me into her car.. i want to go to the river walk.. and just jump off there.. as i am like a roach on his last leg of bug spray and pain.. as the pain comes back.. in stormy revenge after the NO Feeling of Hell.. and she takes me in her car to the highway up North.. the same Munson highway that takes us to the farm we will visit on Sunday after church.. on the first Sunday of every month now..

    Driving 80 miles an hour.. saying please i don’t won’t to live without a brother.. and i say no.. not you.. just me.. it is beyond the worst nightmare imaginable ever and it is real for me.. AND HER AND THE REST OF MY FAMILY TOO..

    Well.. i must tale this story as it is true.. and i must relate my life to all others.. including the 66 months of hell after that… as a shut-in in my bedroom.. and i must relate the fact.. YES.. the FACT THAT GOD HEALS ME OF ALL MY DISORDERS.. at least into remission.. SUDDENLY AND MIRACULOUSLY ON OR ABOUT JULY 22ND 2013.. AND ALL THE AMAZING STUFF THAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME IN THE BLISS OF HEAVEN AFTER THAT..

    ‘CAUSE.. I JUST WANT FOLKS TO KNOW AND FEEL SOMEHOW THAT GOD IS REAL..
    AND MIRACLES AND ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE WITH GOD..
    EVEN THROUGH ALL THIS NIGHTMARE
    OF A REAL BIBLE ‘JOB’..

    LIFE CAN BECOME THE BEST EVER WITH A SECOND
    AND THOUSANDTH WIND OF GOD AT OUR BACKS..
    IF WE SET OURSELVES FREE WITH
    THE WILL AND COURAGE OF SURVIVAL..
    EVEN IF ALL IS LOST..
    iN PEACE OF MiND
    AND BODY BALANCE OF SOUL..

    AND I TALE THIS STORY OVER AND OVER..
    TO SOME degree when i talk to people.. IN FLESH AND BLOOD LIFE..
    about why i dance in real life everywhere i go.. 4000 miles.. i tell them about the writing.. and my bravery to dance naked and free in front of the world.. if they are adults of course.. AND i tell them where i’ve been and i even show them the YouTube Video on my handy dandy iPhone 6s now.. of me pressing almost half a ton 14 times slowly on parallel leg press machine with my arms raised in the air.. and i give them the update on how i do it 25 times now..

    And I TELL THEM AGAIN.. GOD IS REAL.. GOD IS GREAT
    AND GOD LIVES INSIDE US ALL.. NO DIFFERENT
    THAN JESUS… BUDDHA
    AND FUCKING
    JOE
    THE
    PLUMBER.. AS GOD IS
    A GIFT OF ALL TO ALL..
    AND IF WE LOOK WITHIN
    WE CAN FIND GOD TO
    HELP US IN OUR OWN
    UNIQUE NEEDS
    OF HEALING
    SELF
    IN ALL
    OUR PAINS
    AND MISERIES..
    YES.. i am only
    human but with
    GOD i am
    GOD as well..
    as we are all
    special
    children
    of GOD
    with a gift
    that no culture
    or religion
    can take
    away..
    for those
    of US WHO
    DO LIVE FREE NOW
    WITH THE HIGHER
    POWER OF GOD
    MANIFEST
    AS
    HUMAN
    BEING
    LOVE
    AND
    FREEDOM
    ALWAYS USAsNOW..:)

    As often iPhones
    do.. sometimes
    they just start up
    playing a random
    song in one’s music
    library.. this song comes
    on.. i enjoy a whimsical
    dance with it.. but when
    i watch the Youtube video
    i know it is once again.. time
    to tale this full story.. as yes..
    there are potentially many people
    in the reading audience now or somewhere
    down the road when a random person on Googles searches
    clicks on this link.. perhaps long after i am dead.. who
    will be able to see the evidence here.. of truly how happy
    a person can be in a real heaven now.. after going to a real
    hell
    THEN..
    THANKS GOD
    FOR MY LIFE
    AND THANKS
    GOD..
    FOR PROVIDING
    THOSE FISHERMAN
    THAT I KNOW THEN
    WILL NEVER
    LET
    ME
    DIE EITHER..
    AS THERE ARE HEROES
    IN THIS LIFE STILL THAT
    LOVE UNCONDITIONALLY
    AND THAT TOO IS WHAT
    i now
    aim
    to
    JUST
    DO
    IN ONLINE
    AND OFFLINE
    LIFE TOO NOW..:)

    And yeah.. on the 40th day..
    hard headed me agrees to
    go to the hospital.. i am terrified
    to go to ‘the mental place’ as it is
    the place at age 21.. i almost
    never escape.. but there
    is no other
    option..
    and thank GOD
    for Ativan.. as a 2MG
    injection puts me to sleep
    like a baby.. and what a relief
    that is after 40 days.. where the
    alpha blocker just makes me feel
    all that much worse.. after it wears
    off after an hour of semi-sleep
    wake delirium
    in a state
    of mind
    beyond
    imagination
    before.. as well..
    i talk my way out
    of the mental place
    with the psychiatrist
    but the the truth
    still is.. then..
    my only motivation
    of life is to end it all..
    and yes.. i remain suicidal
    with a metal chain in my bicycle
    basket as the Ativan is helping
    somewhat.. in case the pain gets
    as bad as it did before or the no
    feeling at all.. like piece of paper
    existence.. in 2010 around two
    years or so into hell of 2010..
    i am thinking about a tree on
    Martin road.. some distance
    from my home
    on bicycle
    travel..
    a place far enough
    where no one
    but hungry
    birds will
    find what
    is left of me..
    and then my wife
    awakes from a dream
    and tales me her granny
    who has long since passed
    away and she are hanging up Christmas
    ornaments on a tree on YES.. SPECIFICALLY
    WHAT SHE SAYS IS MARTIN ROAD AND
    SHE CAN’T FUCKING FIGURE OUT
    WHY SHE DREAMS THIS..
    AS SHE NEVER EVEN
    THINKS ABOUT
    FUCKING MARTIN
    ROAD.. SO YEAH..
    I NEVER TALE HER UNTIL
    LONG AFTER I RECOVER
    IN 2013.. ABOUT BEING
    SUICIDAL THEN.. OR THE
    CHAIN THAT REMAINS
    IN MY BICYCLE
    BASKET UNTIL
    THE PAIN
    GOES
    AWAY IN
    JULY OF 2013..
    BUT YEAH.. I CAN’T
    GET ANY MORE MESSAGES
    FROM GOD THEN.. IN SIGNS
    OF SYNCHRONICITY AS
    THAT PART OF ME IS
    DEAD THEN..
    BUT SHE
    DOES IT
    FOR ME..
    WITH GOD..
    GOD KnOWS
    THEN GOD
    HAS OTHER
    PLANS
    IN STORE FOR ME..
    AND yeah.. also when
    i first come home from
    work where i can no longer
    do that.. extreme fight of flight
    stress of two years.. finally
    slows down for me..
    all sick as hell
    then.. and my
    wife and i walk
    around the block
    me stumbling around..
    and suddenly time slows
    down dramatically to me..
    and she says that’s weird
    it feels like everything just
    slows down.. she never says
    that before.. and i never feel
    that before..
    there is stuff
    in this life
    ‘HORATIO’
    STRANGER
    THAN ANY FICTION
    EVER READ IN ANY
    BOOK
    AND THE
    STRANGEST
    THING OF ALL
    IS IT
    IS REAL
    MIRACLES
    ARE REAL
    AND GOD
    IS MORE STRANGE
    AND MYSTERIOUS
    THAN ANY BIBLE..
    SACRED TEXT..
    OR SCIENCE
    PROJECT
    WILL
    EVER
    TALE..
    AND this is the best i can
    do.. but sure.. there is much
    more to it.. that i still have
    no words for..
    and may
    never do GOD
    justice for my
    gift of life..
    to FIND THOSE
    NEW METAPHORS
    TO DESCRIBE WHAT
    I’VE BEEN THROUGH
    BUT
    I WILL
    KEEP
    TRYING
    AS THIS
    DUDE
    DOES
    NOT
    GIVE
    UP
    UNDER
    ANY CIRCUMSTANCES
    WITH A LITTLE HELP
    FROM
    MY
    FRIENDS..:)

    And yeah.. toward
    the end of those
    40 days.. totally
    incapacitated..
    i vividly
    still
    then..
    can imagine
    my end being
    eaten alive
    by wild
    dogs..
    naked on
    the side of
    the road some
    where.. So yes..
    HELL YES.. i value
    my Health and
    Independence
    AND MOREOVER
    FREEDOM FOR
    GOOD
    REASON
    AND MOST
    OF ALL.. FEELING..
    NAMELY UNCONDITIONAL
    LOVE ALWAYS NOW ALIVE..
    oh and one more thing
    speaking of pain
    medications and
    addictive
    prescription
    drugs.. Ativan is
    incredibly addictive
    and the only thing
    that saves my life
    but starting out with
    4 MG that will practically
    put down a frigging larger
    animal than me.. then at
    a relatively shrunk down
    182 LBS compared to today’s
    ‘Superfred’ at 234 Lbs..
    Ativan will numb all
    stuff emotions too..
    a little high at
    first like
    that first
    beer.. in
    euphoria feel..
    but Zombie waves
    of beauty LESS
    life of feeling
    after that.. and
    it takes me all the
    way to July of 2013
    and the end of pain
    to take the less one
    quarter of a pill i
    ever take.. a long
    journey from 4 to a
    Quarter to none..
    with withdrawal
    symptoms along
    the way..
    with
    car lights
    coming alive
    as eyes and
    such as that..
    yes really scary
    stuff.. but never
    the less i am successful
    and fearless now with zero
    levels of anxiety where my
    psychiatrist at one point in time
    an Air Force major who deals with
    combat fatigue veterans says
    i am the worse case
    of human being
    total disrepair
    more and less
    than he has
    ever come
    across
    in
    his
    military
    shrink career..
    Anything is possible
    with the higher power
    of GOD.. call it the
    higher power of Mother
    Nature or WTF FTW
    labels matter
    NOT
    THE ESSENCE
    OF THIS HIGHER
    POTENTIAL OF
    HUMAN AND
    THE REST
    OF NATURE
    REAL AKA GOD
    IS AS REAL AS
    ANY FLESH
    AND BLOOD
    WE FEEL
    AND LIVE
    NOW
    TO
    NOW
    ALIVE
    AS FREE..:)

  8. http://xpoet73.blogspot.com/2015/10/flood-stage.html

    ^^^

    Hi X.. this reminds me of the inside stories of the homeless told by Katrina’s brother during his ‘stay’ as a homeless person in California.. but there is a caring in that survival environment that sadly does NOT carry over nearly as much in our modern society.. than before.. when most everyone experiences more rigor of finding the next meal.. and even the next spigot.. or cup of water in hands as God’s chalice to feel the rain of life giving flow of blood through veins of human..

    The hands are a chalice of both giving and receiving..
    and sadly
    cell phones
    have
    replaced
    human
    hands..
    overall..
    glad to hear
    you lend a hand
    and a heart to remember
    a dog.. a loved one’s name..
    where now love lives
    much greater
    in dogs
    overall
    than
    human
    hands
    sadly
    as realistic AS
    that is to all the
    miles my eyes and
    feel see now.. my friend…

  9. https://theordinarilyordinary.wordpress.com/2015/10/04/chaaaaaaa/

    ^^^

    Chaaaaaaa! a Feeling to relate..
    friend Rafiah..
    Words.. Letters..
    Symbols HouSinG..
    Vehicles.. Vessels
    expresSing discrete
    labels for stuff..
    and abstract
    figurative
    metaphors
    for deeper
    FEELING
    LIFE..
    Mechanical cognition.. the stuff
    of balancing checkbooks..
    solving two plus two..
    and yes..
    Chemistry equations
    too.. material reductionism
    in black and white concrete
    ways of human mind cognition..
    in executive functioning of focus
    and short term working memory prowess..

    People for the majority of my life describe the
    inner workings of me as a computer working in
    PERFECT SYNCH AS PROBLEM SOLVER.. FRED
    THE GO TO GUY.. IF YOU NEED A PROBLEM SOLVED..
    YES.. FRED.. PROBLEM SOLVED.. PROBLEM IS THERE
    IS an entire other hemisphere of human being in ways far
    far beyond.. the Standard Intelligence Measures of school
    grades intelligence.. NO.. Standard IQ does not
    touch the intelligence of moving
    connecting and creating..
    the stuff that GOD does
    first with Dark.. then with
    LIgHT.. THEN WITH MOVEMENT
    OR DANCE.. THEN WITH SOUND
    OR SonG CONNECTioNS CREATinG
    ALLTHATISNSIDEOUTSIDEABOVESOBELOW
    YESALLROUNDASONEINFINITYNOWJUSTNOW..
    THAT’
    S a long word
    but GOD is much
    much bigger than
    words and yes.. so are
    we.. in fact all words are idols
    for reality in moving connecting
    and creating WitH eYes of GOD
    manifest as human being NOW
    yes.. again.. JUSTNOW.. so
    yeah.. while some folks
    are solving
    problems
    others are simply
    moving connecting
    and creating and
    being
    what is
    truly Manifest
    of GOD ALL of
    creation
    as
    moving connecting
    and creating human being..
    and all other animals too..
    yes.. almost my entire life is
    one of input and solving equations..
    and what is missing is the expression
    of non-verbal and verbal human communication..
    but that takes practice.. as does the imagination
    and creativity of human physical
    and emotional intelligences..
    truly THE MOVIE AVATAR..
    is a great example of what
    mechanical cognition is
    doing to the human heARt
    iN SpiRit expresSinG..
    FEELing ThAT
    HEaRT of
    EmoTiON
    of us and all
    others and
    NATURE TOO
    AKA GOD ALL..
    iN balancing
    mind and body
    soUl as human
    eyes come in
    balance
    wITh
    instead of
    AGAINST
    the gravity
    of GOD as
    ONEFOrce
    instead of
    dividing mind..
    body.. heart..
    spirit.. and soul..
    repressing human moving..
    connecting and creating
    in any subjugating or
    controlling way..
    either internally
    or externally
    oppressing muting
    human being maniFesTinG
    GOD on this terrestrial plane…
    IN THE MOVIE ‘AVATAR’ THE ‘REAL
    PEOPLE’ ARE ONE WITH NATURE IN
    A GARDEN OF EDEN.. AND A HUMAN WHO
    IS SOMEWHAT SEPARATE FROM THE MECHANICAL
    COGNITION OF HIS ‘IQ SUPERIORS’ IS ABLE TO
    MOVE.. CONNECT.. AND CREATE AGAIN AS
    MUCH FULLER HUMAN BEING.. the little
    creatures like fairy angel beings that
    fly around him is the human
    heArt FeeLinG tHe spiRit of
    GOD as Nature
    reflectTinG
    back
    THat as same..
    hE becomes one
    with his new MUCH FREER
    FRIENDS AS NATURE ONE
    WITH GOD.. AND THEN
    HE IS MASTER OF
    RELATIVE HUMAN
    FREE WILL.. HiM
    TOTALLY FREE
    TO EXPrESS SPIRIT
    FEEL THE HEART
    AND HEART OF
    OTHERS AND
    BALANCE
    MIND AND BODY
    IN WAYS OF MOVinG
    CONNECTinG AND
    CREATinG LIVinG
    ALIVeNoW..
    It’s hard for me to
    answer to the question
    marks fully but in just
    seeing your face.. just one
    time before you erase it..
    it matters not as it
    is etched in my heart
    and soul now.. and in
    your eyes i see the empath
    you are that explains more fully
    why you are perhaps the only
    one who has stuck with me as friend
    this long online.. without abandoning me
    now and then.. but as i was before.. i have no real
    way to express what i am inside.. and am overwhelmed
    with emotions that are killing me to express outside in ways
    of moving connecting and creating.. and sure i need not
    express my path again.. as you’ve heard it all too much
    before.. but i do what i can friend.. when
    ever i hear.. you heart.. spirit and soul
    calling with one
    word
    or two
    eyes and
    a smile
    my friend
    just from
    photographic
    memory for
    eyes and smiles..
    and empath
    souls..
    we all have our unique
    journeys and paths with
    Allah GOD guidDinG us..
    within all innate instinctual
    intuitively just doing tHiS Now..
    yours may be totally
    different than
    mine to
    come
    to
    a similar
    place.. but @age
    22.. you still are
    a young
    babe..
    with an
    Infinity of
    potential still far ahead
    but always now for
    you
    my friend..
    there is no doubt
    in my mind that you
    will go far.. but each
    moment of ALL
    N0Ws
    is worth aLL
    the dArk and
    liGht that leads
    one further
    NOWs
    WitH
    GOD..:)

  10. https://thefeatheredsleep.wordpress.com/2015/10/05/human-stain-2/

    ^^^
    Hi thefeatheredsleep..
    Tribal innate instinctual
    intuitive way of
    human being
    true or
    false..
    whatever
    sticks ’em
    together
    iSglue
    of humankind..
    ethics matter
    not when
    gLue of
    social
    roles
    is
    staKinG
    deep..
    ONlY
    FRIGgInG
    ANSWER iS
    ONe TRIBE OF
    SOMEtHinG
    ASINSTINCT
    ISALWAYS
    HERE
    TOSTAY..
    SOYEAH..
    i say a tribe of dance…
    but sadly theRe iS A camel
    of cultureS IN A way.. and
    a pin prick of dance
    to
    move
    aWay
    or
    cLose..
    sMiLes..
    so yeS…
    i readDiLY
    admiT i am
    a PENpRiCK
    and or Fred
    eRicKnow..;)

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