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It’s true Maria..
God determines ‘this’..
through eyes of human..
never limited to parents
as children of God
and not when parents
are made as God’s voice
of future couple alone..
Funny how much people try
to chain God and put God
in boxes of 3 or more letters..
God is bigger and so is the human heart..
spirit.. and soul.. over cultural and religious
chains of human made prisons of faux rules
in attempts to rule God.. God spits those
humans out into real hell now
of human’s own self fulfilling
prophecy.. Yes.. I am sorry too..
‘This’ is true and few will listen
who are ruled by human
instead of God
who lives
within
without
any
culture
or religion…

PS.. Hi Maria..
and thank you
for your beautiful poem..
Right and Wrong is human..
GOD
is Real
and human
can be too..
simply
by escaping
humans in
cultural and
religious
ways of
illusions..
GOD
IS FREE
and so
are
WE
when
God lives
in out up
and down
and all
around
US FREE..:)

Listen to the
music
and
Dance
God..
sMiLes..
most of
all Be
YOU
BE
FREE..
sorry i missed
the call here before..
but i always try to lend
a voice to one who speaks Truth
and
Light
my friend..:)

http://freeversenudepoetry.blogspot.com/2015/10/empire-force-love-free-verse-nude-poetry.html

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First a quick
joke.. can
you imagine
me with
writer’s
block..
joke
ends.. now
back to catching
up to the rest of
what dVerse open
link Night has to
offer in the way
of poetic
responses
from me.. hehe..;)

True.. many folks spend
their life running away
with cultures and
religions
when the
them is
one and
true with
the
rest
of all
that is..
a comfortable
gLove of Truth and Light
that no one owns
but
US
as
WE as liGht and TRuTH..:)

*hmm.. this is fun..
i will continue..
side note
ends..;)*

Real Love is never
sorry
or hides..
@ALL..
IT oNly
Shares
and
GiVES..:)

Zombie apocalypse
of human cold hearts
LESs here theRe
is no doubt
but there
are great
lights
shining
that
will
conquer
AsLove
ASummer
wHere Winter
only
visits.. and never
stays
forever
dark
LIGHT IS HERE..:)

55.. i don’t suppose
is too old but there
is a now at 21
where
my song
ends..
re-beGins
at 22..
ends again
at 47.. comes
roaring back
like a Lion
at 53..
and the rest
is history now
is all Heaven..
illusion for
me is
song
ends..
it
never
does..
in
Finity
and yes..
sometimes
the first note..
word.. or step
is the long
song
and
dance
HOME
ASHEAVEN
ALWAYSNOW..:)

*WeLL.. THAT’S
all dVerse has
to offer.. and quite
honestly.. i guess i’ve
done enough for now huh..
it’s been overcast here
and stormy ever since the
Super Blood Moon comes
last Sunday night..
and i’ve written
somewhere around
27 to 47K words
depending on
if revised
words are
counted
or not..
Anyway the
Sun is forecast
to come again..
so i will leave this
pen I
s for now hehe..
and now the
dance of
Nature
comes
with the
flesh and blood
connection of dance
in many public stores
and farm to come on
Sunday as well..
so perhaps
another
blog post
will come with
all of this sometimes
around Sunday or
who
feels
and knows
when.. as the
hand of God guides
me in
Pen and
IS..:)

Anyway.. after a lifetime
of people more or less
taling my existence is a joke..
i say it is real.. and i will
be a joke too.. as there
are two ways of life..
Victory
or
Vengeance
and i for
one will
do a joke
to end this
as sometimes
quite honestly
sarcasm and
smart
asses
rule
as
sacred
fools..
but it’s
wit and neither
gold or green that
truly rules with
human HeArt
expresSing
SpiRit..
as miNd
and bodY
balanCinG
soUl aLiVe
my friend(s)..
for N0W I’M HOME..:)
HA! THE SUN JUST PEAkS
THROUGH A SIgN FROM GOD
THROUGH MY BEDROOM WiND0W..
i’LL TAKE N0W
TO C0ME
0UTSIDE
AND
F*KinG
jUst
plaY!..:)
1:01 pm
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667

i like to be unique..
before one morning
i cannot separate
myself from.. yes
X.. a rusty
chain..
rain.. stays
still and same..
and that
is too wet
for me..
cat who sees
beYond pastie
eYes of others
glue..:)

707

Hi Zee.. so good to hear from you today..
i’ve been checking back on your
site in the last day or so..
to see if you are writing
another post there..
as i was starting
to get a little
concerned
as you
seemed
somewhat
down in the
last post.. so yes.. SO
nice to see the smiley faces
here on Saturday.. and i wish
you a great and joyful Saturday
along with Sunday as I know nite
nite time is here now in
Pakistan friend..
smiles
with love
and laughter
for Living
LIFE!
PLAY
AS
FUN!..:)

Hi.. Zee..
I’m glad you missed ‘it’
as your word press
notification provides
an opportunity to read the wise
and kind words of all your readers..
Yes.. Love of the unconditional
KiND of ALLaH attracts the same..
You are a liGht for that my friend..
So may you always shine bright
like a human diamond..:)

858

HI X.. i like the metaphor of shipmate
to describe the fix the world is in..
In my local area.. yes..
fundamentalist
Christian
dominated
by the most
churches
per square
mile in past
Record books..
like the New Jerusalem
in both dark and light
ways of the
Old
ways..
is haven
to discriminate
against the different
past whitie
tightie pastie..
skin.. and
Southern
Baptist
church
pews..
yes.. some stUFF
rarely changes and as
mentioned.. per science mind
before.. science has a handle on
this too.. as science shows.. that
humans innately can be liberal
or conservative with the
super liberal folks
like me totally
open
to the different..
yes.. like the real
historical man Jesus..
Buddha.. and several
million and or billion
others like
us.. sMiLEs
yes.. miles of
liberals and
conservatives make
the world go around
as is.. by the way..
here’s that cool
science video
again for any
new comers..
smiles again..;)

So yes.. as long as humans are flesh
and blood thingies we are gonna
have much different ideas
among folks
innately
and
environmentally
liberal as open minds..
OR
as conservative
closed
minds..
about
the new and
the different of life..:)

So yes.. what the hell
does all of that have to
do with shipmates.. when
folks become shipmates they
are much more likely to tolerate
and even at times accept differences..
the Navy station i work at for over two
decades is a respite from the prejudice
in my local area.. particularly specific to
Black Americans.. and this can be true
in football too.. as folks find out that we
all sweat and bleed the same color..
great example of that in
the Forrest Gump
movie as
well of course..
where smart becomes
as smart does.. instead
of iQ frigging points on
a test.. or a graded
paper for
some
straight
A’s.. Just DOING
IT IS ALL OF WHAT
IT IS ABOUT..
AND WITH ALL STUFF
HUMAN IN MOVING
CONNECTING AND
CREATING
USE
IT
OR
LOSE
IT
DOES
MOST
DEFINITELY
APPLY!..;)
I PROVIDE tHe proof
of what can happen when a human
USES ALL OF IT HERE.. YES.. IT WORKS
AND WE CAN BECOME WILD AND FREE LOVING
SOCIALLY COOPERATING ANIMALS WHO
CAN DANCE AND SING..
RATHER THAN
ROBOTS
OR ZOMBIES
BEHIND
AN
ICE
COLD
SCREEN..
SCREAM!..

BUTT.. OH..
there is a paradox
of light and dark
with technology
too.. as with the shipmate
example.. to get to know your
shipmate in intimate detail is to
realize ya got stuff in common and not
just the different of the seeing eye.. the
feeling eye learns to rule by
pumping the
LOVE MUSCLE
HARDER FASTER
PLEASE.. LIKE THE
6 million dollar man
we can
rise
and
LOVE
AGAIN!
FASTER
AND
HARDER
WITH EACH
OTHER IN FLESH
AND BLOOD..
THE BEST
ParTs
of Living
HUMAN
BEING
AFRIGGINGALIVE!
AND YES.. expressing
E M O T i O n S AND
human sensuality in
grace and strength
for the
divine
masculine
and feminine
is the excellent
example of the big tough
dude in the multi-colored
Richard Simmons
sweaties..
with the
sweetie
dance
partners
too!
WoMEN
are much more
balancing
these days
in ways of feminine
and expressing their
assertive masculine
will of side..
they beat the F
out of men most
every time.. in culture
now.. where men will continue
to die earlier with more suffering
and misery.. by repressing their
human beings of feminine
E M O T i O N a L
and SENsualiTY side!..
And these screaming
screens of technologies
new age way.. is just the
virtual ticket.. yes.. the truly
only virtual ticket to get A BIG
WORLD HIVE.. CONNECTING
BUZZING.. AND BEING
ONE
AS WHOLE
LOVE
OF
SOCIALLY
COOPERATING
HUMAN LIVES!

IT AIN’T PERFECT
BUT IT
IS WHAT
IT IS..
AND
WE CAN USE
IT AS A TOOL TO
CONNECT BETTER..
PERHAPS MOTIVATE
OURSELVES TO MOVE..
AND PARTICULARLY GAIN
SOME ASSISTANCE
TO CREATE
IN BLOGGER
LIKE WAYS!
YES.. AND LOSE
IT OR LOSE IT ALSO
APPLIES TO UNDERSTANDING
METAPHORS.. WRITING.. MOVING
CREATING.. CONNECTING AND EVERYTHING
ELSE IN LIFE.. THE BIGGEST SECRET IS TO
NEVER EVER LEAVE
BOOTCAMP
OR PRE-SEASON
PRACTICE.. EVEN
IF ONE HAS NEVER
BEEN THERE..
GOD IS A GOD
OF CHALLENGE
ADAPTATION
AND CHANGE
TO BECOME
A FAT CAT
OF INSTANT GRATIFICATION
IS NOT TO LIVE LIKE A FERAL
YELLOW BOY.. in lightning
fast.. strong and smArt cat!
WHO HEARS
THE CALL OF THE
WILD AKA THE CALL OF GOD
AND SAYS IT’S TIME TO GO OUT
AND
HUNT LIFE
INSTEAD
OF WAITING
FOR IT TO COME!..:)

Katrina.. in the background
saying get the F off that
Keyboard
and let’s go
PLAY.. HUNTING
FOR SUBSISTENCE
STUFF FOR HER..
AND DANCING
LEGS
AND
CONNECTING
FOR ME..
sMILEs
of F in FUN!..:)

PS.. i never cover my naked
legs in the last two
years.. so i cannot
wear sweats
or tights..
even in
the
F
in
SnOW..;)

Hi X.. thanks for stopping by again..

so much.. adding the important

elements comprising

the shipmate life..

realizing we are

all in this keeping

the ship afloat game together..

and the only way for the

ship to sail true

and brave is for us all to work together..

YES! like the metaphor of Gilligan’s Island too!..

AND of course the social role is primal and most important in using strengths

of each individual’s skills to get each individual bee job done so the hive will thrive and THE Invisible Queen of Nature will stay happy.. sMiLEs.. of sailing well.. with more metaphors.. too.. from Mother Nature.. QUEEN BEE Truth and Light.. AKA God.. of course.. write on course.. aS ALLTHATIS.. hahaheHE!..;)

1792

Epic Mall dance.. Fred vs Darth.. Maul on Thursday Night Dancing.. and Vader.. Saturday tonight.. and stay tuned for who wins.. the dark force or the light force.. if i lose the duel.. i must wear a Darth Vader Shirt to Catholic Church tomorrow morning with a huge Darth face all across the shirt.. and then from there

i must wear the shirt to the Southern Baptist

Pastors’s home on the First Sunday get

together out in the back woods of

Santa Rosa County

close to Spring Hill..

where my kinfolks used to live too..

a very nice place to live.. on a farm..

except there ain’t no dam Internet access..wink emoticon..;)

1904

Suicide..

perhaps the

hardest subject to discuss

and live through there is for human being..

And yes.. there is most definitely some stuff in life worse than death..

And for me.. losing first love.. losing first and only child.. and watching first and only child suffer in only misery and pain for 51 days in a hospital.. and that’s all he ever gets in life.. all the bullying in school.. where people tell me in no uncertain terms that i do not belong on this planet earth.. and off with my life.. as far as they are concerned then..

NO.. i never ever consider suicide for even one second during all of that.. but ha!.. the challenge has not even started.. then.. a life of ‘JOB’ will start with the worst pain known to mankind..at age 47.. type two Trigeminal Neuralgia.. BORing Novocaine-less dentist-like drills in my right eye and ear.. from wake to sleep for 66 months..

A pain so bad that the first 40 days of this pain.. ALONG with the challenge of Dyautonomia where my heart rate and blood pressure no longer properly synch with autonomic nervous system.. where every time i drift off to sleep my heart goes fast to pick up the slack with my blood pressure and i wake up gasping for breath..

And Fibromyalgia.. Severe Degenerative Arthritis in the Spine.. along with Spinal Stenosis.. making incredible pain in my neck.. as part of an early onset issue associated with a Congenitally Fused Vertebra in neck from birth..

Sjogren’s Syndrome.. where my eyes

almost completely stop making tears..

like swimming with

one’s eyes open in salt water..

a perfect storm of illnesses coming together

with Severe Anxiety.. PTSD/Panic Attacks..

Severe Depression… Anhedonia..

a side order of a

middle-age diagnosis on the

Autism Spectrum.. specifically..

Asperger’s Syndrome..

ADHD.. and Alexithymia..

Severely closed up sinuses from

a Deviated Septum from birth.. and associated

exacerbated Inflammation of the Mucosa

in the Sinuses.. where

the ENT

who reads the Cat Scan

of my Sinuses says.. dam..

how do you breathe through your nose..

and i’m thinking.. dam.. don’t you know

there is another whole named my mouth..

but yeah.. a little air goes through the nose..

but no one ever tells me lots of air

is supposed to go through there..

haha.. i guess.. ya adapt.. and survive.. YNOT.. and sure..

Coat Hanger Pain syndrome associated with Dysautonomia.. too..

Moderate Carpal syndrome in both wrists.. extreme Tactile Sensitivity..

an ongoing issue still.. where i’ve never been able to touch

manmade stuff.. not even my pants..

without severe discomfort..

Tachycardia.. heart always

beating close to 100 beats

per minute.. and Vasovagal Pre-Syncope..

just eat a heavy meal.. and raise your arms..

and ya almost pass out.. as the blood is just not

getting to the head.. oh yes.. hell yes.. back

to the frigging 40 days.. with all these

particulars associated with Dysautonomia..

Perhaps.. the worse case of Insomnia ever.. as the record for no sleep at all is 264 hours of precisely.. 11 days.. and i get ‘gifted’ with 40 days.. only a shallow sleep one hour each night.. the first 35 days.. with the aid of a powerful alpha blocker to get my heart to slow down for about an hour to go to sleep.. yeah.. and then for the last 5 of 40 days.. not even an hour of sleep.. no sleep at all.. where the pain burning all over my body.. is worse than any pain imaginable.. worse than any flame.. and then OMG..

ALL THE FEELING STOPS EVERYWHERE

TOWARD THE

VERY

END..

AND i am like a piece of paper with no feelings at all..

My Brain has done something very strange..

i become the Living Dead..

where there is only time..

and a second lasts

a thousand years of hell with no end..

OMG.. it is beyond frigging anything i can imagine before.. and they cannot even describe this on the worst horror show ever.. as there are no words to feel zero point of.. Nothing Hell.. so much worse than even the worst pain known to mankind i have.. so then all that is left is the will to die.. as the last grasp resort escape for Hell in Life..

i struggle to find the keys on the 39th day..

i am going to drive as fast as i can into a tree..

and Fucking Escape Hell.. i sneak the keys past Katrina..

somehow find the strength to get to the car..

as she has been helping me even get

to a shower to take a bath..

as i am almost too weak to walk..

i get a second wind to die..

and i am gonna take it as i am

in a place no one tales me can

possibly exist in hell in life.. death is the blessing of eternity to me then..

So i drive.. and the cautious driver i always am.. for a lifetime… in muscle memory.. refuses to go over 55.. and after 40 days of little to NO sleep.. the state of mind is beyond belief.. i must get to a bridge and jump off.. as there are no high buildings and i am too weak to get a rope and hang myself.. i already make it to a store to buy a shotgun.. weeks before.. but i am too.. weak and tired.. to even figure out how to load it.. so i arrive at the Blackwater Bridge..

Yes.. the same place i am raised.. and get married on the gazebo of the boardwalk.. that i often show a photo of in my blogs.. and i sit at the bottom of the bridge in my car.. there are fisherman in boats.. and even if i can make it to the top to jump off.. they will surely save me.. there is no way to die..

My sister comes down the hill in her car.. at the red light.. somehow she knows i will be there.. she talks me into her car.. i want to go to the river walk.. and just jump off there.. as i am like a roach on his last leg of bug spray and pain.. as the pain comes back.. in stormy revenge after the NO Feeling of Hell..

and she takes me in her car to the highway up North..

the same Munson highway that takes us to the farm

we will visit on Sunday after church.. on the first Sunday of every month now..

Driving 80 miles an hour.. saying please i don’t won’t to live without a brother.. and i say no.. not you.. just me.. it is beyond the worst nightmare imaginable ever and it is real for me..

AND HER

AND THE REST

OF MY FAMILY TOO..

Well.. i must tale this

story as it is true.. and

i must relate my life to all others..

including the 66 months of hell after that…

as a shut-in in my bedroom..

and i must relate the fact.. YES.. the FACT THAT GOD HEALS ME OF ALL MY DISORDERS.. at least into remission.. SUDDENLY AND MIRACULOUSLY ON OR ABOUT JULY 22ND 2013.. AND ALL THE AMAZING STUFF THAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME IN THE BLISS OF HEAVEN AFTER THAT..

‘CAUSE.. I JUST WANT FOLKS

TO KNOW AND FEEL

SOMEHOW THAT GOD IS REAL..
AND MIRACLES AND ANYTHING

IS POSSIBLE WITH GOD..
EVEN THROUGH ALL THIS NIGHTMARE
OF A REAL BIBLE ‘JOB’..

LIFE CAN BECOME THE BEST EVER WITH A SECOND
AND THOUSANDTH WIND OF GOD AT OUR BACKS..
IF WE SET OURSELVES FREE WITH
THE WILL AND COURAGE OF SURVIVAL..
EVEN IF ALL IS LOST..
iN PEACE OF MiND
AND BODY BALANCE OF SOUL..

AND I TALE THIS STORY OVER AND OVER..
TO SOME degree when i talk to people.. IN FLESH AND BLOOD LIFE..
about why i dance in real life everywhere i go.. 4000 miles.. i tell them about the writing.. and my bravery to dance naked and free in front of the world.. if they are adults of course.. AND i tell them where i’ve been and i even show them the YouTube Video on my handy dandy iPhone 6s now.. of me pressing almost half a ton 14 times slowly on parallel leg press machine with my arms raised in the air.. and i give them the update on how i do it 25 times now..

And I TELL THEM AGAIN.. GOD IS REAL.. GOD IS GREAT
AND GOD LIVES INSIDE US ALL.. NO DIFFERENT
THAN JESUS… BUDDHA
AND FUCKING
JOE
THE
PLUMBER.. AS GOD IS
A GIFT OF ALL TO ALL..
AND IF WE LOOK WITHIN
WE CAN FIND GOD TO
HELP US IN OUR OWN
UNIQUE NEEDS
OF HEALING
SELF
IN ALL
OUR PAINS
AND MISERIES..
YES.. i am only
human but with
GOD i am
GOD as well..
as we are all
special
children
of GOD
with a gift
that no culture
or religion
can take
away..
for those
of US WHO
DO LIVE FREE NOW
WITH THE HIGHER
POWER OF GOD
MANIFEST
AS
HUMAN
BEING
LOVE
AND
FREEDOM
ALWAYS USAsNOW..:)

As often iPhones
do.. sometimes
they just start up
playing a random
song in one’s music
library.. this song comes
on.. i enjoy a whimsical
dance with it.. but when
i watch the Youtube video
i know it is once again.. time
to tale this full story.. as yes..
there are potentially many people
in the reading audience
now or somewhere
down the road when a
random person on Googles searches
clicks on this link.. perhaps long after i am dead.. who
will be able to see the evidence here.. of truly how happy
a person can be in a real heaven now.. after going to a real
hell
THEN..
THANKS GOD
FOR MY LIFE
AND THANKS
GOD..
FOR PROVIDING
THOSE FISHERMEN
THAT I KNOW THEN
WILL NEVER
LET
ME
DIE EITHER..
AS THERE ARE HEROES
IN THIS LIFE STILL THAT
LOVE UNCONDITIONALLY
AND THAT TOO IS WHAT
i now
aim
to
JUST
DO
IN ONLINE
AND OFFLINE
LIFE TOO NOW..:)

And yeah.. on the 40th day..
hard headed me agrees to
go to the hospital.. i am terrified
to go to ‘the mental place’ as it is
the place at age 21.. i almost
never escape.. but there
is no other
option..
and thank GOD
for Ativan.. as a 2MG
injection puts me to sleep
like a baby.. and what a relief
that is after 40 days.. where the
alpha blocker just makes me feel
all that much worse.. after it wears
off after an hour of semi-sleep
wake delirium
in a state
of mind
beyond
imagination
before.. as well..
i talk my way out
of the mental place
with the psychiatrist
but the the truth
still is.. then..
my only motivation
of life is to end it all..
and yes.. i remain suicidal
with a metal chain in my bicycle
basket as the Ativan is helping
somewhat.. in case the pain gets
as bad as it did before or the no
feeling at all.. like piece of paper
existence.. in 2010 around two
years or so into hell of 2010..
i am thinking about a tree on
Martin road.. some distance
from my home
on bicycle
travel..
a place far enough
where no one
but hungry
birds will
find what
is left of me..
and then my wife
awakes from a dream
and tales me her granny
who has long since passed
away and she are hanging up Christmas
ornaments on a tree on YES.. SPECIFICALLY
WHAT SHE SAYS IS MARTIN ROAD AND
SHE CAN’T FUCKING FIGURE OUT
WHY SHE DREAMS THIS..
AS SHE NEVER EVEN
THINKS ABOUT
FUCKING MARTIN
ROAD.. SO YEAH..
I NEVER TALE HER UNTIL
LONG AFTER I RECOVER
IN 2013.. ABOUT BEING
SUICIDAL THEN.. OR THE
CHAIN THAT REMAINS
IN MY BICYCLE
BASKET UNTIL
THE PAIN
GOES
AWAY IN
JULY OF 2013..
BUT YEAH.. I CAN’T
GET ANY MORE MESSAGES
FROM GOD THEN.. IN SIGNS
OF SYNCHRONICITY AS
THAT PART OF ME IS
DEAD THEN..
BUT SHE
DOES IT
FOR ME..
WITH GOD..
GOD KnOWS
THEN GOD
HAS OTHER
PLANS
IN STORE FOR ME..
AND yeah.. also when
i first come home from
work where i can no longer
do that.. extreme fight of flight
stress of two years.. finally
slows down for me..
all sick as hell
then.. and my
wife and i walk
around the block
me stumbling around..
and suddenly time slows
down dramatically to me..
and she says that’s weird
it feels like everything just
slows down.. she never says
that before.. and i never feel
that before..
there is stuff
in this life
‘HORATIO’
STRANGER
THAN ANY FICTION
EVER READ IN ANY
BOOK
AND THE
STRANGEST
THING OF ALL
IS IT
IS REAL
MIRACLES
ARE REAL
AND GOD
IS MORE STRANGE
AND MYSTERIOUS
THAN ANY BIBLE..
SACRED TEXT..
OR SCIENCE
PROJECT
WILL
EVER
TALE..
AND this is the best i can
do.. but sure.. there is much
more to it.. that i still have
no words for..
and may
never do GOD
justice for my
gift of life..
to FIND THOSE
NEW METAPHORS
TO DESCRIBE WHAT
I’VE BEEN THROUGH
BUT
I WILL
KEEP
TRYING
AS THIS
DUDE
DOES
NOT
GIVE
UP
UNDER
ANY CIRCUMSTANCES
WITH A LITTLE HELP
FROM
MY
FRIENDS..:)

And yeah.. toward
the end of those
40 days.. totally
incapacitated..
i vividly
still
then..
can imagine
my end being
eaten alive
by wild
dogs..
naked on
the side of
the road some
where.. So yes..
HELL YES.. i value
my Health and
Independence
AND MOREOVER
FREEDOM FOR
GOOD
REASON
AND MOST
OF ALL.. FEELING..
NAMELY UNCONDITIONAL
LOVE ALWAYS NOW ALIVE..
oh and one more thing
speaking of pain
medications and
addictive
prescription
drugs.. Ativan is
incredibly addictive
and the only thing
that saves my life
but starting out with
4 MG that will practically
put down a frigging larger
animal than me.. then at
a relatively shrunk down
182 LBS compared to today’s
‘Superfred’ at 234 Lbs..
Ativan will numb all
stuff emotions too..
a little high at
first like
that first
beer.. in
euphoria feel..
but Zombie waves
of beauty LESS
life of feeling
after that.. and
it takes me all the
way to July of 2013
and the end of pain
to take the less one
quarter of a pill i
ever take.. a long
journey from 4 to a
Quarter to none..
with withdrawal
symptoms along
the way..
with
car lights
coming alive
as eyes and
such as that..
yes really scary
stuff.. but never
the less i am successful
and fearless now with zero
levels of anxiety where my
psychiatrist at one point in time
an Air Force major who deals with
combat fatigue veterans says
i am the worst case
of human being
total disrepair
more and less
than he has
ever come
across
in
his
military
shrink career..
Anything is possible
with the higher power
of GOD.. call it the
higher power of Mother
Nature or WTF FTW
labels matter
NOT
THE ESSENCE
OF THIS HIGHER
POTENTIAL OF
HUMAN AND
THE REST
OF NATURE
REAL AKA GOD
IS AS REAL AS
ANY FLESH
AND BLOOD
WE FEEL
AND LIVE
NOW
TO
NOW
ALIVE
AS FREE..:)

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Hi X.. this reminds me of the inside stories of the homeless told by Katrina’s brother during his ‘stay’ as a homeless person in California.. but there is a caring in that survival environment that sadly does NOT carry over nearly as much in our modern society.. than before.. when most everyone experiences more rigor of finding the next meal.. and even the next spigot.. or cup of water in hands as God’s chalice to feel the rain of life giving flow of blood through veins of human..

The hands are a chalice of both
giving and receiving..
and sadly
cell phones
have
replaced
human
hands..
overall..
glad to hear
you lend a hand
and a heart to remember
a dog.. a loved one’s name..
where now love lives
much greater
in dogs
overall
than
human
hands
sadly
as realistic AS
that is to all the
miles my eyes and
feel see now.. my friend…

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Chaaaaaaa! a Feeling to relate..
friend Rafiah..
Words.. Letters..
Symbols HouSinG..
Vehicles.. Vessels
expresSing discrete
labels for stuff..
and abstract
figurative
metaphors
for deeper
FEELING
LIFE..
Mechanical cognition.. the stuff
of balancing checkbooks..
solving two plus two..
and yes..
Chemistry equations
too.. material reductionism
in black and white concrete
ways of human mind cognition..
in executive functioning of focus
and short term working memory prowess..

People for the majority of my life describe the
inner workings of me as a computer working in
PERFECT SYNCH AS PROBLEM SOLVER.. FRED
THE GO TO GUY.. IF YOU NEED A PROBLEM SOLVED..
YES.. FRED.. PROBLEM SOLVED.. PROBLEM IS THERE
IS an entire other hemisphere of human being in ways far
far beyond.. the Standard Intelligence Measures of school
grades intelligence.. NO.. Standard IQ does not
touch the intelligence of moving
connecting and creating..
the stuff that GOD does
first with Dark.. then with
LIgHT.. THEN WITH MOVEMENT
OR DANCE.. THEN WITH SOUND
OR SonG CONNECTioNS CREATinG
ALLTHATISNSIDEOUTSIDEABOVESOBELOW
YESALLROUNDASONEINFINITYNOWJUSTNOW..
THAT’
S a long word
but GOD is much
much bigger than
words and yes.. so are
we.. in fact all words are idols
for reality in moving connecting
and creating WitH eYes of GOD
manifest as human being NOW
yes.. again.. JUSTNOW.. so
yeah.. while some folks
are solving
problems
others are simply
moving connecting
and creating and
being
what is
truly Manifest
of GOD ALL of
creation
as
moving connecting
and creating human being..
and all other animals too..
yes.. almost my entire life is
one of input and solving equations..
and what is missing is the expression
of non-verbal and verbal human communication..
but that takes practice.. as does the imagination
and creativity of human physical
and emotional intelligences..
truly THE MOVIE AVATAR..
is a great example of what
mechanical cognition is
doing to the human heARt
iN SpiRit expresSinG..
FEELing ThAT
HEaRT of
EmoTiON
of us and all
others and
NATURE TOO
AKA GOD ALL..
iN balancing
mind and body
soUl as human
eyes come in
balance
wITh
instead of
AGAINST
the gravity
of GOD as
ONEFOrce
instead of
dividing mind..
body.. heart..
spirit.. and soul..
repressing human moving..
connecting and creating
in any subjugating or
controlling way..
either internally
or externally
oppressing muting
human being maniFesTinG
GOD on this terrestrial plane…
IN THE MOVIE ‘AVATAR’ THE ‘REAL
PEOPLE’ ARE ONE WITH NATURE IN
A GARDEN OF EDEN.. AND A HUMAN WHO
IS SOMEWHAT SEPARATE FROM THE MECHANICAL
COGNITION OF HIS ‘IQ SUPERIORS’ IS ABLE TO
MOVE.. CONNECT.. AND CREATE AGAIN AS
MUCH FULLER HUMAN BEING.. the little
creatures like fairy angel beings that
fly around him is the human
heArt FeeLinG tHe spiRit of
GOD as Nature
reflectTinG
back
THat as same..
hE becomes one
with his new MUCH FREER
FRIENDS AS NATURE ONE
WITH GOD.. AND THEN
HE IS MASTER OF
RELATIVE HUMAN
FREE WILL.. HiM
TOTALLY FREE
TO EXPrESS SPIRIT
FEEL THE HEART
AND HEART OF
OTHERS AND
BALANCE
MIND AND BODY
IN WAYS OF MOVinG
CONNECTinG AND
CREATinG LIVinG
ALIVeNoW..
It’s hard for me to
answer to the question
marks fully but in just
seeing your face.. just one
time before you erase it..
it matters not as it
is etched in my heart
and soul now.. and in
your eyes i see the empath
you are that explains more fully
why you are perhaps the only
one who has stuck with me as friend
this long online.. without abandoning me
now and then.. but as i was before.. i have no real
way to express what i am inside.. and am overwhelmed
with emotions that are killing me to express outside in ways
of moving connecting and creating.. and sure i need not
express my path again.. as you’ve heard it all too much
before.. but i do what i can friend.. when
ever i hear.. you heart.. spirit and soul
calling with one
word
or two
eyes and
a smile
my friend
just from
photographic
memory for
eyes and smiles..
and empath
souls..
we all have our unique
journeys and paths with
Allah GOD guidDinG us..
within all innate instinctual
intuitively just doing tHiS Now..
yours may be totally
different than
mine to
come
to
a similar
place.. but @age
22.. you still are
a young
babe..
with an
Infinity of
potential still far ahead
but always now for
you
my friend..
there is no doubt
in my mind that you
will go far.. but each
moment of ALL
N0Ws
is worth aLL
the dArk and
liGht that leads
one further
NOWs
WitH
GOD..:)

Hi thefeatheredsleep..
Tribal innate instinctual
intuitive way of
human being
true or
false..
whatever
sticks ’em
together
iSglue
of humankind..
ethics matter
not when
gLue of
social
roles
is
staKinG
deep..
ONlY
FRIGgInG
ANSWER iS
ONe TRIBE OF
SOMEtHinG
ASINSTINCT
ISALWAYS
HERE
TOSTAY..
SOYEAH..
i say a tribe of dance…
but sadly theRe iS A camel
of cultureS IN A way.. and
a pin prick of dance
to
move
aWay
or
cLose..
sMiLes..
so yeS…
i readDiLY
admiT i am
a PENpRiCK
and or Fred
eRicKnow..;)

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24 Responses to Bottom Bridge WinGs

  1. X says:

    The art of You.
    Your epic finish.

    finding poetry in your pictures again.

    • Hi X.. thanks for your visit today.. and hope you are drying out a little up there in VA.. as A Son peaks out a little on Saturday but goes back and is still hiding among clouds through today on Monday as well..

      And God speaks through synchronicity to human in visual and hearing ways along with all human senses and emotions in ways of greater than human eyes and ears along..

      I just point and shoot with my
      my new iPhone 6s and
      let GOD
      do the speaking
      in synchronicity
      way when
      i come
      home
      to read
      GoD’s
      mesSage specificAllY
      tailored for me and
      you too.. hehe..
      like poems
      do in
      multi-layered
      meanings of
      words as well..
      as sure.. this is
      where the mystery
      and magic of GOD
      Light and Truth comes
      into Lives that are open
      in emotional and sensory
      experiences letting GOD’s Light
      and Truth come in.. with or without
      sunshine
      from
      skies
      my
      friend..:)

  2. X says:

    BUTT.. OH..
    there is a paradox
    of light and dark

    ok, you got me chuckling…

    you with writers block – no. Lol.

    I am like a peice of paper without feelings – what an honest line that is,
    and thought provoking too.

    • HA! X..! no…no..! TRUE and LIT
      streaming conscious.. bLocKs..
      iN words oF poeTry oR daNce
      for mE
      anymore..
      HE.. HE..!
      my heArt..
      soUl.. and spiRit!
      is constipaTing through
      all lies of culture and
      religion for 40 years or
      so of walKing on human
      deSigNing narRow
      sidewalks
      of prison
      HeLL..
      so sure in
      heaven it all comes
      out like a flood of raiN
      human heaRrt.. spirIt
      souL..
      unencumbeRinG
      by eyes of human
      psychopathic leaning hate..
      that will stop a human up
      until the septic
      tank of
      life
      EXPLODES..
      SO SURE I Am
      FULL OF SHiT BEFORE
      AND NOW THE RIVER
      FLOWS ONCE AGAIN
      AS HEaRT
      SPIrIT
      AND
      SOuL..
      AS ENEMA TRUTH
      AND LIGHT RELEASED
      UNLEASHED AS QUANTUM
      MIND AND BODY BALANCE AND
      NO LONGER
      BACKED UP
      SEPTIC
      TANK
      OF
      HUMAN BEING..
      a river streAMinG
      Ocean once
      again
      am
      i..:)

  3. https://shadowsofthedivine.wordpress.com/2015/10/05/just-sharing-a-thought/

    ^^^

    Rain is God’s greaTest GiFt
    to human as iT bRinGs
    purifying water to sustain LiFE…
    Once.. there is a human that wanders arid
    lands.. this human Loves rain as much
    as life itself.. as inDeeD Rain is Life
    as Life iS for
    human being.. then and NOw..
    this human wishes more than
    anything.. to have a rain
    that reins forevermore
    as reign of KinG
    of VeinS
    Love
    Human
    groWinG
    noWmore..
    so yes.. in
    metaphor
    this human
    eventuAlly
    wanders
    North and
    finds the place
    where you live now..
    in a land.. a new world
    of cold and endless rain
    that sadly drOwns
    thirst of human
    heArt..
    extinguishing
    FiRe of human
    SpiRit that must
    move invisibly
    to capture
    prey
    and
    escape predator
    on butterfly dance
    feat of human being..
    and to connect to other
    human beings in these
    arid lands of little.. is to
    survive.. to LiVE spiRit
    expresSinG human
    emotiON emoting
    human Force of
    God’s Love
    gifTing gRAce
    alWays
    iNbalanCinG
    SoUl of human beInG
    mind and body REAL
    ALL innate.. instinctual
    intuitive.. from ALL oriGiN
    InFiniTy aLL n0w as
    human evolves
    through
    GOD
    ‘s
    grace sTilL NOW..
    MoVinG.. ConnecTinG
    CreaTinG.. reflecTinG
    GOD’s UniVersAL
    SoUl of
    BEINGAlWAYS
    NOW.. as we WiLL
    BE too.. if we
    generate
    Force
    of GOD..
    the spark
    the flAMe
    inside
    not yet
    put out
    by instant gratification
    of new human reign
    of reins of
    all we can
    eat
    rain..
    The real devil is fear..
    The real sin is succumbing
    to instant gratification
    with no longer
    the challenge
    of Life that GOD
    bRinGs to uS
    as MoVinG
    ConnecTinG
    CreaTinG
    adaptTinG
    chanGinG
    reflecTioNs
    ForCe
    ChanGe
    alWays
    aLLthaTis
    GOD..
    Rain has more than
    rainbow colors for those
    who see and feel ALL
    MORE COLORS OF
    GOD’S eYes BeInG
    and when we are stifLED
    or abuse(D) those colors
    without challenge
    adaptations
    and change
    we lose GoD’s
    gift of grace to us
    as always
    NOW..
    and those who look forward
    or past.. will never
    ever
    LiVE
    aGaiN..
    SMiLEs.. anyway.. nice to
    see you on the 5th as i am
    thinKinG of what to write
    you without a poetic
    prompt for you..6th..
    and i Love to
    be inspiRed
    by otHeRs
    more than
    a weak attempt
    to inspire them without
    a connection from them..
    as always for me Love is
    Uncondtional without any
    stRinGs attaChinG no
    requirements from
    me but to
    breathe
    my friend..
    but i will tale you this..
    as a 234 LB man who
    can leg press half a ton
    now 25 times straight
    forward on a parallel
    leg press machine
    with arms raised in
    air.. dance walking
    a martial arts style
    of ballet everywhere i go
    now for 4200 miles or so
    since i meet you at the end
    of July..2013.. when now then
    i gain A greatesTgift riSinG
    of Phoenix from God that YOU
    help spark in me.. i am fearless
    but yet.. my heart.. spirit.. and soul..
    is as or more sensitive than it has ever
    been before as a Human Empath Angel
    houSinG as this body of steel.. AlL tHis Love i
    give to you and expect absolutely nothing in
    return.. and although out of concern for you..
    when i attempt to reach out to you..
    as i always do.. i am very happy
    to get that notification on
    my iPhone that you
    accept my
    facebook
    friend
    request.. from months..
    as sure reciprocation now
    feels good too.. to all we
    human beings.. i don’t
    say anything but a like
    on one of your posts
    that says it all
    that Love
    is a spirit
    with no time..
    distance or space..
    that never ends when
    real with yes.. no sorrows
    regrets.. or shame
    no matter what
    happens or what
    the other person does..
    in life.. but i will
    say this too..
    as a human being
    for whatever reason
    that Lala Rukh face
    is erased from my
    friendship face
    list either
    intentional
    or not intentional
    that hurt my feelings
    in a little dArk way
    but yet it inspires
    me more..
    as that my
    friend is the
    PRACTICE OF
    THE REAL UNCONDITIONAL
    TOUGH AND PASSIONATE
    LOVE OF ALLAH
    ALWAYS
    RESTORieD
    IN US.. THAT NEVER
    GIVES UP then or NOW
    AND IS A PERFECT
    STORM OF LOVE
    THAT NEVER
    REIGNS DEAD
    WITH REINS OF
    RAIN THAT
    ARE ALWAYS
    CHERISHED
    AND
    NEVER
    EVER
    TAKEN
    FOR GRANTED
    by me at least my
    friend.. To be the Truth
    and Light as guided by
    GOD is a greaTesT
    challenge and
    adaptation
    from GOD
    for change..
    but it is a challenge
    and my real
    version
    of Ramadan
    that rains
    forever
    now
    my friend..
    with this..
    Love,
    Fred…
    And sure..
    i just share
    a stream
    of consciousness
    thought too that comes
    from the ocean of human
    cosmic consciousness
    also known as
    Holy Spirit..
    and so many
    other metaphors
    across all cultures
    and religions always
    now.. when two humans
    connect in whatever way
    where GOD comes into
    the room too..
    to have
    GOD’s
    say
    so
    as well.
    but yah.. sure
    human language
    is so dam limited
    that we will never
    speak the
    full language
    of God and
    that my friend
    is the most beautiful
    reality of all.. the mystery
    and magic of GOD that will
    always keep us on our toes
    and alive.. for those of us
    who hear
    the cALL..
    answer
    and never
    ever give IT UP..
    as GOD’s
    GreaTesT
    GiftINfinite
    potenTiaL reflecTinG
    in Human GOD’s
    eYes and eaRS
    of
    N0W..
    LOVE..
    my friend..
    Lala Rukh..:)

    Ratika says
    all i say
    in one
    word..
    EXPLORE..;)

    • Hedera says:

      Did you just call me vain? 😉

      • He he.. hedera..
        only if you live
        in SpaiN.. aRe
        UvaiN.. GReAT!
        and you kNow
        what tHey saY
        about
        ladies
        who live
        in France..
        haha!.. my lady
        inside lives in France..
        and never wears pants
        but sure.. shorts away from home..
        even in feet of snow.. and i can prove
        it too.. but not here.. now.. haha! buTT i actuAlly
        do a facebook profile photo of me dancing
        yes wife Katrina takes it giggling all the way..
        in my underwear barefoot and free spirit-
        aSs can be in the frigGinG sNow
        in Florida.. but i wear
        black.. an always
        acceptable
        men’s
        speedo
        color for
        BEACHES TOO..
        hehe.. Fred ski(E)s
        in hiS
        underwear
        just on feet
        of feat
        in sNows
        of Florida
        warm and true
        as frosty Fred..;)

        • Hedera says:

          You see, this is EXACTLY what I’m talking about. Why CAN’T we take Facebook profile pics of ourselves in our underwear?! It shouldn’t be such a big deal. I was so born in the wrong place at the wrong time.

          • Well.. sweet heARt.. Hedera.. the truth is
            WE CAN take Facebook profile pics
            of ourselves in our underwear
            as long as no private pArts are shoWinG..
            butt most people are too afraid to do it..
            I DO IT at least five times.. and sure
            they are still there.. and one of ’em
            is kinda cool.. as i look like one of
            tHOSE Michelangelo David’s
            all posed in wolf grey shademan
            panties.. haha.. hehe.. who cares..
            women are afraid they will be seen
            as sluts
            and men are afraid
            they will be seen as gay..
            well.. i.. my friend am human
            and as the real man Jesus..
            NO.. NOT the fake ONLYTRINITYMANGOD created
            in the Nicene Council of Trump 325AD..
            iN back boardrooms of Constantine
            and his Catholic Cohort big
            wig leaders.. REALLY
            SAYS THIS! IN
            THE ORIGINAL!
            GREEK VERSION
            OF THE GNOSTIC
            GOSPEL OF
            THOMAS.. YES
            JUST THIS..
            AS reported
            of course..:)

            http://www.sacred-texts.com/chr/thomas.htm

            37) His disciples said to him,
            “When will you be visible to us,
            and when shall we behold you?”
            He said, “When you strip
            naked without being ashamed, and
            take your garments and put them
            under your feet like little
            children and tread upon them,
            then you will see the child of the
            Living, and you will not be afraid.”

            King David does it DANCING
            in his underwear as prophecy
            half complete before the real
            Dude Jesus makes the prophecy
            above for human being All.. And
            King David promises to do it in
            more so-called vile ways
            like Egyptian GOD Min
            as Myth then..
            in ways of fertility
            human hopes..
            and sure i JUST DO
            IT HANDS FREE..
            WITH LEFT ARM
            RAISED INSTEAD
            OF HOLDING.. (it).. LEFT hAnd
            ARM HOLDING iPhone 6s
            Lion Roar now asserting
            Freedom’s ROAR FROM
            TOP OF FINGER TIPS
            TO THE MOST
            DELICIOUS
            ENDS OF
            PEN IS
            AND V
            AGI
            NAs
            most beautiful
            butterfly
            WinGs..
            the only
            SiN iS clothes
            in ALL the metaphor
            and reality of TRUTH
            AND LIGHT IN THiS..
            THAT LITTLE BITTY
            REAL Insane humans
            often
            name
            as eviL
            INSTEAD
            OF GOD’S LIGHT
            AND TRUTH IN THE
            MOST MOIST
            AND HARD
            PLACES
            faces iN
            FEELinGs
            OF HUMAN
            heArt
            aS flesh
            and blood
            balancing
            Human
            Temple
            of GOD
            FULLY
            EXPRESsinG
            GO
            d’s
            Love and
            never clothing
            AS human
            cultural
            or religious
            lies.. this is THE NOW
            baby.. for the fearless
            among us.. wHo
            exPreSS all of
            GOD
            as wE
            FREEsT
            HUMAN BeinGs
            of GOD’s unconditional
            tough and PASSIONATE
            LOVE FREE AND
            NEVER EVER
            AGAIN NOW
            CLOTHED
            IN HUMAN LIES..:)
            i am not the first or the
            last of MOVinG
            SINGinG Elvis and
            Marilyn NAKeD
            Truth
            and Light..
            wE CoMe as naKed
            DANcINg SINgINg
            Angels awaiting
            Freedom
            of other
            Angels
            EMpATHS
            wArm
            and True
            as GOD
            AS human
            Light in FLESH
            AND BLOOD
            LIGHTsTRUTH..:)

            Interestingly.. i weigh about 220LbS in this
            one before i get my 234 LB dancer body..
            more like World Wide wrestling
            than ballet
            martial
            arts dude..
            but yes..
            it has nothing
            to do with
            the Pen
            IS
            as that thing
            hides when
            fighting
            comes
            to play..;)

            And this one is when i am expresSing
            the feminine side.. more like
            the old King David
            statue.. i used
            to do this
            SHARING on poetry
            sites.. before
            the hypocrites
            put an end to
            it.. AND of course
            female frontal
            nudity still
            passes
            the critical
            eye of art..
            without
            a sigh..
            in poetry
            online land..
            hypocrites
            UGH.. HypocriteS
            but that is the
            way of the
            natural
            closed
            human
            mind of
            conservative
            ways of human being..
            so yeah.. conform
            or be cast out.. and
            my last underwear
            photos are in June of
            2014.. around this last
            one below..
            before i gET
            to all restricted
            linkS and reAlly
            let it ALL
            hang
            uP..
            if you will.. hehe..
            they can ban me..
            they can delete..
            me.. but in our
            modern
            day they
            will not shut
            me up with
            free blogger
            avenues of ADULT
            RESTRICTED
            GOOGLE aRT
            heHE!
            So cool..! if the
            real dude Jesus
            comes back.. at least
            i provide a path for
            him to TRAVEL
            TO
            DO
            HIS
            WiLD
            THinG2..
            iT dam sure
            won’t be in
            ANY OF THE
            FUCkING CHURCHES
            THAT CALL THEMSELVES
            CHRISTIANS OVERALL.. AND
            THAT’S DAM SURE false IN CLOTHED
            LIES
            OF
            HUMAN
            culture
            BEING..;)
            But admitTingLy i forgive them
            too.. as they kNow
            NOT
            what
            they do..
            and crap
            they likely
            cannot just FEEL IT
            LIKE I DO ALL FREE EITHER..
            and that’s worth more than
            one tear from me
            for sure..
            as it is only
            tHeir loss
            in HeLLnow
            away from the
            promise of the gift
            of Heaven that is
            fulfilLinG in my eYes
            like
            REAL
            Jesus..
            OH God..!
            it WiLL be
            hilariously
            funny IF IT IS NOT
            tRuly so full of suffering
            human prison in hell now
            just
            now..:(
            i rarely use
            sad face
            icons but
            this is the
            OCCASION
            FOR THAT FOR
            THEM AND NOT
            FOR
            US..
            MY Ivy
            FREE
            Friend
            Hedera!..;)

  4. Hedera says:

    Dazed and Confused is my all-time favorite movie.

    “rending now” … Yes.

    “diamonds so expertly cut” … It does seem that way, doesn’t it? The ways in which we get cut …

    I love that gothy manequin girl behind the window.

    “girl in motion” … Yeah. That’s me. 🙂

    Midnight bowling. Fun!

    Wow, you had a really great weekend. I love your photog. Such a treat. And an inspiration.

    • Hi Hedera.. actuAlly i am hoPing too..
      yoU jUSt loVe the NeW cROWn of
      IvY.. as Hedera often wanDers..
      and explores
      new sands of
      liFe.. and
      tRees of hiGh
      as WeLL
      as sAnds
      loW..
      i Love
      Ivy and
      all its explorations
      too.. a beautiful plAnt
      iT iS.. wHere ever it decides
      to gO and gRow.. NeXt
      haha!..
      i hAte bowLinG..
      but i love people..
      i always try to talk
      wife Katrina
      into going
      just so i can
      connect to more
      loveLy BowLinG
      people PiNs..
      and sure why not
      go gotH.. as the
      dArk maKes tHe
      greaTEst liGhts
      by tRend of
      now aLways
      beginNinG
      inFiniTy
      wiSe
      anyWay
      N0W
      heHE!
      MoTioN
      girL
      FRIeND
      IS WHErE It’S
      ASs..
      AND MY
      AsS MOVES
      TO ThE iGOD
      ItUnes iNow
      wHeReVer GOD
      moves my
      feet
      as feat
      of brighTesT
      bRiLLiance
      iN liGht
      of steps
      and sUrE
      wORds are oK
      too.. but i’d rathEr
      dance and connect
      in fleshYiTones
      of human
      beInG
      aLive
      toUchy
      FEELY
      SURrEAL
      aLive mY
      Hedera
      FREInD!..:)!

  5. Hi Zee..
    Chaos is
    GoD’s perfeTtinG..
    Order is
    human’s
    sin.. but GOD’s
    chaos is river
    streams ocean
    inFinITy NOW..
    Human
    order
    is true
    chaos in
    human
    terms
    of complex
    language and
    culture drawing
    us in sidewalks
    straight and
    narrow
    away
    from
    GOD’s ocean
    neverendingmore
    true with always
    mystery
    more..
    for those
    of us who
    continue exploring
    fearless wITh GOD’s
    eYes and eaRs much
    greater
    guiDinG
    uS as rivers
    streaMinG OCean
    instead of human concrete
    zombie sidewalks of
    prison fences
    barbed
    rusty
    and poison
    arrows for human heArt’s
    emotiOns expresSinG
    spiRit REAL IN
    miNd and Body
    balance
    of JUST
    LIVING NOW.. ACCEPTING
    ALL OF WHAT GOD HAS TO OFFER
    US AS GRACE.. AND LEAVING SIDEWALKS
    OF HUMAN
    CHAOS
    BEHIND
    BARS
    OF HUMAN
    PRISON DEAD..
    IT is culture that is chaos..
    God is perfecTinG chaOs
    once again..
    always now
    rivers streaming
    oceans dreAMs of human
    instead of walls of college
    losing allthatis..
    GOD liVinG
    outside
    of
    culture walls..
    It is Culture that is poison
    It is the Nature of God that
    lives within
    that is medicine
    my friend.. with GOD’s
    Love as sand and water
    mixed
    as
    silting
    Love.. shores
    with patterns
    of GOD..
    but never
    concrete
    steps and
    iDOL
    words
    of
    human being..:)

  6. http://www.icnia.blogspot.com/2015/10/like-molasses-snow-white-under-lamp-lit.html

    ^^^

    Keep dreaming
    baby.. Hedera..
    dReams
    Real
    aLive
    alWays
    true aWay
    from human lies..:)

    http://freeleeves.blogspot.com/2015/10/im-not-fool-its-only-part-i-play.html

    i am a Fool2 my
    alWays
    nEw friEnd
    Hedera..
    butT A
    TRuE
    a FooL
    alWays chanGes
    neW aNd neVer
    staYs sAMe..
    a F00L
    TruE
    iS G0D
    and to
    sugGest
    th@gOD
    does n0t
    chaNge
    iS 0nlY
    fooLinG
    ReaL
    FooLs
    alivE deaD
    falsE…
    TruE aRe
    uS
    FooLS
    TRuE
    WeNOW..:)

  7. http://xpoet73.blogspot.com/2015/10/goodnight-honey.html

    ^^^

    Well.. i Love ‘this one’.. X.. so much in fact.. and theory
    that it inspires a prophecy.. prediction.. hypothesis
    or what they call.. i think.. an educated
    guess these days..
    and THAT iS.. if the real dude
    Jesus comes back today..
    he’ll enjoy the large
    metro fancy malls for
    all the freedom
    of the new
    female
    seNsual
    ways of
    advertiSing
    stuff.. but most of
    all he’ll love Super
    Walmart.. but hell NO
    not for ‘everyday low
    prices’ buTT for the
    common human
    who is no longer
    conformist and
    will let IT ALL
    HANG OUT..
    NOT GIVING
    AN F WHAT
    any conformist
    thinks or FEELs
    about THAT.. the
    place and time is
    finally correct..
    build it
    comes and..
    WeLL.. whatever
    comes.. neXtasFREE!..:)

  8. ^^^

    A discrete way to stick one’s tongue out.. just for wit.. sarcasm.. and satire.. always in great jest.. of course.. just jest.. hmm.. court jester.. anyway.. just got back from Southern Baptist Gospel singing community wide.. and loved it.. except for the part.. when the lady is deriding dancing floors.. taverns.. and movie theaters.. replacing a church.. well.. all these other places are third places too.. away from work and home.. where everyone is welcome.. even homosexuals.. prostitutes.. single mothers.. and the tax man too.. oh yeah.. and Jesus as well.. as Jesus will certainly have to come undercover.. to be welcome in a Southern Baptist Church.. as he will come bare butt naked.. free with nature.. like the Gospel ofThomas 37 says we will find GOD FREE aLiVE in our Temple of GOD.. but sure.. a fat cat shirt with a pink tongue will do just the trick.. for Jesus and me.. sMiLEs.. sure.. according to the record book.. Jesus is quite a sarcastic.. witty.. parable-like satire dude.. too .. as reported in the New Testament and the Gospel of Thomas.. he is all free style human then.. making up the dance steps and poetic expressions as he goes.. that go right over the head of psychopathic leaning power hungry.. vagina mongerers too..;)

    Some stuff is just really hard to change..
    genetics.. environment.. and all that other
    cultural and religious stuff.. that is built
    all around the human tribal instinct for
    US vs Them and Them vs US..
    Anyway.. i enjoy singing as
    the spirit does still come..
    when two or more folks
    sing high in spirit..
    together as
    ONE
    wITh
    God..
    i cannot shed
    the Love baby..
    no matter how much
    dirty.. dirty.. water is in
    the pews
    of
    church..
    And a
    SonG
    for tHis
    too..:)

  9. Now.. it’s Haibun
    Monday.. week
    two at dVerse..
    so now i embark
    on another wonderful
    journey of poetic expressions
    there to the links posted so far..:)

    And of course.. i will use the Fredbun
    form.. hehe.. to respond.. as FreEd..;)

    *Ah.. young love.. wet summer grass..
    river moisture.. lungs
    full of air
    and electric
    skin from
    head to toe..

    Driving Force
    Life.. moving
    ’round us.. connecTinG
    CreaTinG Love more.. more..:)

    Forrest runs away from
    past into now.. one step
    of now.. always now..
    running now..
    never past
    or future..

    now runs
    present gift..
    runs now..:)

    Dreams of fiery
    pleasure past
    and future..
    ways of being..

    flesh lives now
    touch is present..:)

    *Ah.. a haibun.. a limit
    of 250 words… oh.. an
    administrator of poetry
    with a Haibun of 417 words..
    and it is only a sin
    when Fredbun’s
    go over the
    limit of
    hypocrite
    ways
    excluding
    human beings..
    but anyway the
    bottom line is..
    Rules only
    make broken
    when free..
    so Kudos to ya..
    bravo hurrah!..
    And welcome to
    the human
    race
    of freedom’s
    friends off prison
    sidewalks
    of human
    HotheLLs..

    Humans.. just
    Humans..
    typical
    humans..;)

    Oh.. to make weather
    internal
    eternal
    now..
    ah.. weather
    outside cannot
    impact
    weather
    stations inside
    controLinG
    NaTtUre’s thermostatic
    breath.. inside out.. ’round free..

    Weathers human being
    controls iTAllinside
    free iS NOW..:)

    Yes.. wake up brother..
    sister.. child.. the time
    is now.. to save a
    planet home
    as God
    or whatever
    metaphor our
    maker.. wE arE
    saviors wHole..
    ThiS lives inside
    and no man or woman
    will ever take tHis Love
    of Nature GODasONe
    a way of US..AllONE
    nowoneforevermore
    NOW.. awake i am 2..
    013.. March 1st and after..
    and yes.. tHere’s a sonG
    about that too.. by Katy
    Perry Aka pure rock as well
    in words of ‘Awake’ SonG formilLions..

    Wide awake..
    new dimension
    human eYes
    noFaLLenOW..:)

    A stop of dust
    intuition
    infinity
    now..
    go
    on or
    leave
    stay and
    finish now..

    Time not memorial
    now always present..

    And yes.. from THAT now
    life now beyond all
    dreams
    aNd
    imaginaTiOns..
    floW..

    JUSt FloW
    CreaTe..
    rareLY
    thINK..:)

    Oh.. how i love present
    but tasKinG wITh worst
    pain kN0Wn to mankiNd..
    have past..
    5 years or so..
    all rest
    now
    then pain..

    Careful
    wishes
    past.. savior too..:)

    Ah.. yes.. flesh
    always
    real
    net tempting
    touch invites
    responsibilities..

    N0W Love
    Comes
    aLive..:)

    Well.. i for one write
    of rain.. lose keys
    at gym.. wife’s
    friend finds..
    come home
    finding water
    bubbling up
    from water
    pipe ground..

    It’s raining
    It’s raining
    i’ll sTill Play..:)

    Nature desolate
    of human hate..
    Nature’s way..
    never culture..
    never religion..

    JUST way..
    aLive..:)
    10062015..

    1:29 AM.. break..
    10:16 AM.. back..;)

    Ah.. human maturity.. comes with understanding
    Sensing.. Feeling.. Living.. yes.. Loving
    spiRiTuAl Love and seNsuaLitY..
    connecTinG forces creativiTy
    regulaTinG greaTest
    LoVe heArts
    expresSinGs
    sPirits balancing
    WeLL water SoUls
    Human Being..

    Human sensuality
    sins not.. Pure Love..:)

    Ah.. when birth and death
    and dark and light
    and male
    and female
    mix in
    one..

    ONE comes
    cake mix
    of NO
    wLiFe..:)

    When all is dArk..
    when pain lives..
    friends come in
    furry pets or
    sweet smiles
    or words of
    Unconditional
    Love.. greaTest
    adDictions
    are
    friends
    who
    refuse
    to
    end and never
    go even after
    in eyes of us.. i
    once have a friend like this
    named Renee.. she tales me
    nothing can ever happen to me..
    she leaves and eventually ends her life..

    i am still here..
    she lives in
    my eyes…

    And words….
    And tears….

    A play.. a liFe..
    of eYes..
    a child
    as
    US..

    Child’s play
    ageless timeless
    liVes uS..:)

    First of aLL.. glad you break
    ‘ poetry rules’
    heArtLess
    fodder as
    far as i for
    one feel..
    Whitman
    Gingsberg
    and others
    wil die with that..
    PoeTry! LiVes! N0W…!

    heArt! Dies wITh RuLes..
    ALLsmArt.. aRt
    LiVes FReED!..:)

    A child of dreams
    child of vision
    child of ways
    so far beyond
    culture.. religion ways
    prophets live in child’s
    lucid dreams.. aLive..

    LiVe agaiN..
    eYes CHiLDreams
    Phoenix True.. flAMe i..:)

    Dogs never
    philosophy
    Dogs just Do IT
    Dogs wear
    Nike
    shoes..
    Paws
    Now
    Air..

    Humans
    overall.. just
    dum smArt..;)

    Ah.. time..
    ignorant construct
    of creation now
    by ‘rocket
    scientists’
    who rarely
    seeandor
    Live
    Now..

    Equation
    humans
    silly time..

    Time for
    people who measure
    now greater or less
    than now..
    it shouldn’t
    take a
    rocket
    scientist
    to measure
    that
    paradox
    in measure..

    Scientists breathe
    heads
    stuck up cLocks..

    Science and those
    who practice it are
    fine as long as they
    realize they
    are only
    relative
    to
    NOW..

    Relative
    Free WiLL
    only lives now..:)

    So sad.. some folks go
    out in the world
    averting eYes
    all day long
    and others
    see a friend
    where otHeRs
    onLY see cold
    eyes nothing…

    Friendship LiGht
    lives in warm
    eYes dance
    aisles Walmart Truth..:)

    My goal in life is to live
    as many memories
    without them
    as possible..

    sMiL
    Es
    N0Ws..:)

    As a younger man thiN
    and fast runninG flighT
    As an older man thicK
    and strong fighting fighT..
    As a free maN
    BotH
    N0W..

    LiFe fliGht
    fiGht
    rUns fLy..:)

    Twice a month.. i cut
    grass.. now i
    weeds.. go free..

    DandeLiON
    sMileS
    LiFe..:)

    PerHaps trueSt
    form human
    poeTry
    is in a Temple
    of expression’s
    grace
    aSnaked..US..
    Kahlil Gibran
    sees this paint of
    greaTest beauty
    and thanks GOD
    it is still not
    erased
    from online
    poetry of
    less than
    that..

    God lives
    in Truth and Light
    Naked eYes
    wArm ReAl..:)

    11:50 am..
    all caught
    up to 24..:)

    11:50 a..m.
    10072015
    catching up
    for the next
    blog post..
    and will continue
    there as well..then
    now.. in comments..:)

    There is onlY ONE
    God of DArk and
    LiGht
    all else
    is separation..

    We ALLONE
    as God
    separate NO
    THING..:)

    Happiness
    is as happiness
    Does..
    Now
    does
    as Now
    iS..

    Now
    iS Now..:)

    Love is a flower
    grown from
    birth..
    water
    is always
    Life or death
    in flesh
    or spirit..
    Garden children
    WeLL wITh
    Loving
    Water
    or
    Not
    is the way
    of the world
    and no it is not
    fair..

    alWays
    ripe
    for
    change..:)

    Ocean.. a soul
    mate with
    Love
    unrequite..
    Humans
    Love
    FiLL
    Ocean
    need..
    too much
    Ocean
    for
    just
    one soul
    mate per
    soul.. a Tree
    of Life branches
    out and never withers
    when leaves are shared
    and
    grow
    more..

    Love leaves Tree
    wither
    never sharing..:)

    And that ends #28
    at 12:06 pm..:)

  10. From Friend Rafiah’s
    Facebook page..

    ^^^

    That’s
    beautiful..
    my friend.. Rafiah..
    and it is so true that we all
    need each other to sit by..
    and never leave.. but yes..
    even though i cannot share a
    meal with you and my family..
    i will always sit by you my friend..
    with words of Love.. and mind
    stimulating conversation..
    as well.. as i am
    scientist and perhaps
    Nature’s greatest Lover..
    including all human beings.. too..
    as i lose that all for so long.. before.. yes..
    66 months of living hell.. the gift is in the losing..
    and the gaining friendships moving connecting
    creating Nature and human again.. yes..
    perhaps the greatest gift of living devil
    and angel in one life sAMe..
    as God’s eyes of dArk and liGht..
    set free.. simply as GOD intends thAT
    as Nature’s
    Truth and
    Light Free..:)

    Ha! ‘They’ have a mind of their own..
    A ghost in the machine can be keywords
    in terms of synchronicity too..
    As God has NO limits..
    Yes.. God lives
    in algorithms too..
    As humans make them
    and God makes humans.. too..
    And that is my justification
    for liking keywords..
    Butt they can be
    a pain in the but..;)

    Smiles.. Yes..
    friends are not problems
    to be solved.. like Sherlock does..

    Friends are weeds of difference who must
    be watered and cherished AND that is the
    Love of Allah.. as Allah loves weeds most
    of any so-called normal wanted plant..

    And.. i am a Dandelion
    who refuses to be
    pulled up by
    the root of Allah..

    Yes.. I am Allah’s special weed..
    And Sherlock too.. As alWays..
    Allah demands balance the most from US..
    and the rest of Nature..too..sMiLeS..:)

    Bottom line..
    friends are to be
    loved as is.. my friend..
    Rafiah..:)

  11. From Facebook Friend..
    Cortney’s page..

    Smiles.. Cortney..
    that dude needs
    to get out of his
    parent’s
    basement
    and just do it..
    F yeah.. dance!..wink emoticon

    And sure.. i used to
    play video games
    too when i am a little
    40 year old boy..wink emoticon

    Real Life IS Good and better..wink emoticon
    and ha! i can prove it in living Colors..wink emoticon
    and sure.. smiley
    icons too..smile emoticon

  12. Glenn Buttkus says:

    This one weighs in at 7000 words+, & the swirl of images stirs my blood, the neon & plastic mall dreams, the food porn, Katrina framed with flowers, selfies by the dozen, dancing on point, flexing for the cold mirror, juxtaposed with the farm, turkeys vs. pigs refereed by children, & my favorite of the day, the scraggly gray cat lying midst the wreckage of a shed-& then the responses & tributes to friends & commuters. Like X, I cannot imagine writer’s block for super Fred, & I really enjoyed the wondrous gaggle of short Fredbuns, which I have to assume are different from baker Eddy’s Buns.

    • Hi Glenn.. thanks so much for coming by and visiting with me.. as always with souL pleasing encouraging words.. and a celebration of now.. is where i always go.. and oh how wonderful technology is allowing us to document..

      oUr happiness.. dark days.. light days.. joys and struggles with all others.. as a liGht that shines instead of hiding inside as repressing oppressing heArt emoTiOnal.. spiRit expresSing balancing miNd and body soUl so true in danCinG sinGinG liGht and tRuth..

      And.. oh yes.. my Fredbuns are different from baker Eddy’s bun molding and conforming dough plate prisons as haibuns who cannot escape 250 words of just one of this or that or what not.. as my stReams FReEDomS RiVers where ever noW WiLL guide my spiRit lET iTaLL gO floW 2N0w..:)

  13. And now with dVerse Tuesday
    poetics prompt on gifts..
    and yes the
    gift of
    Poetry
    in expressing
    fuller human
    heARt.. spiRit
    and soUl as US..:)

    WeLL.. aWay from birthday cakes
    candles.. and onto numbers.. at least for
    me when i am 34..
    my life is just beginning
    as a babe at it..
    barely 1 year into
    mortgage iife..
    4 into marriage
    life.. now then..
    18 years into
    work.. sure..
    ya gotta eat..
    and not even a
    dream of a child..
    child am i.. child then..
    child lost.. i am child
    again.. 55.. and never
    younger in
    all that
    counts
    inside
    Human now plaYinG
    emotions regulaTinG
    senses integraTinG
    into always
    N0W LiVinG
    focuSinG FlAMe..
    heArt expresSing
    SpiRit.. SoUl in mind
    and body balance..
    iT tAKES me decades
    to younger and younger
    AND tHere iS a real fountain
    of youth that lives within
    across the live span
    for those
    who move
    connect
    and create
    iT with relative
    human free will..
    sadly.. school and
    work teach us nothing
    of this.. as one must
    seek and find
    a path that
    works for
    tHEm..
    but anyWay
    my giFt to
    uS is tHe fAct
    thAT it’s reaL
    and i illustate
    that profusely
    as you already
    may likeLY kNow..
    if not feel at aLL..
    sMILEs
    Fountain
    of Youth
    a gift
    and
    real
    within
    uS..just
    waiting in
    bEinG finDinG
    ExpresSinG
    SinGinG
    DanCinG
    ReaL..

    Butterfly humans
    releaSinglate
    better than never..:)

    Wife Katrina leading
    me out to play
    in public
    dancing
    with
    her
    pursuit of
    consumer goods..
    for us and mother
    off where she lives
    as well.. be back
    later to finish this..
    smiles..
    see ya
    later..;)
    and as usual…
    once again..

    oK.. 8:58 pm.. and i’m
    back.. sMiLes..:)

    *Ah.. inner lights of
    poet dreams
    speaking
    SinGs
    inner
    be..
    oh
    God you
    do relate in words
    of dreams.. in poet eYes..
    sAMe as then sAme aS n0w..

    prophET wORds
    etcHinG poeTry
    SonG..:)

    Okay.. after a detour
    to Hedera’s place..
    and a nap at
    my mother’s
    place and
    a late
    dinner
    break..
    i am back
    again.. at
    my place at
    11:30 pm..;)

    *L0ve iS writTen
    iN tHe sTone
    aSoNe
    hopE
    fOr
    humaniTy..
    LoVe’s hoPe..
    God’s eYes
    chilDren n0w..

    G0d sPeaks
    iSTones
    SAnduS..:)

    i go to a Southern
    Baptist singing
    and the pastor
    says everyone is
    packing heat if
    shoot it up
    comes
    Here..
    and
    no..
    he’s
    not
    kidding..

    pistol carrying
    preachers DeadLy..;)

    Yes.. the best ways to
    get Facebook likes
    in general is
    hate and
    discontent
    and of course
    that applies
    to every where
    else where
    misery loves
    company..
    children who
    are loved with
    touch feely
    love often
    do not
    fall to this..
    but that mortal
    sin of human being
    in not touching feeling
    and loving children with
    constant hugs
    is bringing
    the entire
    race
    down..
    to before
    prehistoric
    more peaceful
    times like the more
    Loving species who
    bonds with
    Love
    instead
    of hate..
    namely
    the Bonobo..
    a race of real
    Jesus’ in fur
    or not..

    Bonobo
    fur Jesus
    SinGs Love..:)

    So true all we have to
    give is life from birth
    to death.. and those
    ending white
    sheets
    are a ’cause
    for giving always
    now only in the
    name of
    Love
    the Uniter..
    never the
    divider
    when
    REAL..
    LOVE’S REELS
    LOVE’S MOVinG NOW..:)

    Well.. Suzanne..
    the synchroncities of March 1st..
    continue.. i am a survivor of Sjogren’s Syndrome..
    Dysautonomia.. Fibromyalagia.. in the last decade..
    and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome or what is understood
    as the Yuppie flu.. when it first comes to press circa 80’s..

    And i have to say.. i personally believe most auto-immune issues
    are caused by.. both a combination of chronic stress related disorders
    as well as mind and body out of balance.. where moving… emotions.. language
    and regulation as such… is broken from repressing emotions for survival
    or when they are oppressed of course.. along with a body that
    may no longer be in a position to move as it can…

    Anyway.. glad to hear your story.. and your road to recovery..
    i have to work extremely hard at staying well now.. with zero
    stress as well.. to remain healthy.. and so far..
    i am very fortunate at age 55..
    after traveling down that
    long road of ill
    health
    for
    so long..:)

    Yes.. Suzanne.. I totally agree..
    And sadly doctors and science in general
    may never understand the ethereal and energetic
    aspect of the internal nonverbal healing aspect
    that is soul driven as each human soul is a
    non-repeatable experiment who is
    continuously creating
    and changing as a fractal of the whole
    of Living Creation Aka God
    Living in us outside us..
    Above.. So Below..
    And all around us..
    And it is often the hermit and or Yogi
    who escapes the material reductionism
    of cultures and religions who makes
    the metaphorical ascension..
    As human history across cultures
    shows now and now again.. And yes..
    To come down from the mountain and to
    relate this to others is the challenge of
    everyone who travels a path up and back down like this..
    As a soldier of healing my friend.. Not found in books
    of modern schools sadly enough as there is no one recipe
    in creative healing of the non-verbal type..
    But we try our best to relate..
    Friend Suzanne..:)

    Rivers of Veins
    Rivers of Land
    all flow to
    streams of
    Ocean LiVinG
    Free.. WasHinG
    in and tiDinG
    oUt
    brinGinG
    joy to
    healthy
    rivers..

    Eternal
    floW n0w..
    OceaNSun..:)

    Kindness and courage liVinG
    N0W and oh my Goodness
    Lynn.. a short list of
    ten to night
    and you
    number
    thAT at End..:)

    And all caught
    up now.. at 12:35 am..
    10072015..:)

    Yet.. back again..
    to catch up and
    publish this
    next post
    titled
    “Diamond eYes Life”
    as this is getting really
    really long now
    and will continue
    tHere.. in
    the comments
    section
    as well..;)
    10:50 am..

    Ah yes.. my friend.. a passionate tough and unconditional
    Love for us and all others too as is.. as we all journey
    this path of being human together
    and alone in seeker’s
    dungeons
    of unparadise
    too.. but HelL
    is a place
    with EL
    of God
    as housed
    between
    H and L..
    tHe DArk
    makes the
    liGht.. no
    heaven
    without
    hell..
    no
    human
    without
    just
    being..

    Being Human
    HelLove
    Heaven price..:)

    TouR of liFe
    Golden
    SonG
    Tui
    coins
    of Life Alove..
    traveler lone
    traveler allone..

    Traveler we
    ToUr
    sAMe..:)

    A sMiLe
    A laUgh
    enJOYins
    uS..
    HumAn
    LifE RiSe aGaiN..

    EmpatHy
    LiVes
    bEinG whEre
    HUman rUles..:)

    To grow trees
    instead of cutting
    down is a way
    up
    instead
    of
    down..

    To grow
    up is to live..
    to grow
    down
    is to die..

    Grow
    is living
    up or
    down..:)

    YeS.. saDly.. thAt’s
    The othEr siDe
    Of thE pArk
    darK…

    Ending
    with #15..
    11:37 am
    10072015..:)

  14. http://freeleeves.blogspot.com/2015/10/halo.html

    ^^^

    Oh God.. Hedera..
    spReaDinG iVy friEnd..
    who comes and goes..
    i loVe tHis SonG..
    HalO bY BeYonCe..
    iT’s liKe sHe’s
    sinGinG iT tO mE..
    hehE.. i cAn
    preTend.. hahA..
    aT lEast..
    Halo..
    i doN’t
    thInk shE’s
    talKinG aBout
    a maN.. naH..
    a forCe inSide
    expresSing
    SonG
    like when
    she says
    Sasha Fierce
    is her guiding
    spiRit foRce
    oF
    DAnce!..:)

    http://freeleeves.blogspot.com/2015/10/look-at-those-beautiful-blues.html

    Oh bless..
    you..
    Hedera
    you
    trust
    a stranger
    and a man
    yet.. perhaps
    a combat Army
    veteran too.. at the park
    with your children.. and you..
    overcoming fear
    makes
    Love
    real..
    with
    due caution
    sure.. Love wins..:)

    http://freeleeves.blogspot.com/2015/10/peach-fuzz.html

    Oh God
    that man
    made peach
    fuzz material
    will drive
    my skin
    up a wall
    and back
    down to
    floor me..
    ugh.. back
    to Nature for me
    all the always now..;)

    http://freeleeves.blogspot.com/2015/10/i-had-to-take-cheat-break-for-some-of.html

    Raw fish.. food
    of Pi..
    and his
    Tiger
    friend..
    Richard
    Parker..
    but not
    yet me..
    i’ll have
    apple pie
    on country farms.. and
    good luck on the veggies..;)

    http://freeleeves.blogspot.com/2015/10/i-need-this-chair.html

    A 60’s yellow
    submarine
    recliner..
    and if it
    comes with
    a walrus
    and eggman
    i’m sold on it..;)

    http://freeleeves.blogspot.com/2015/10/funky-hats.html

    You know..
    Hedera
    friend..
    it’s harder
    for girls
    with Asperger’s
    than boys.. it’s
    true ’cause
    my sister
    reminds
    me so
    much
    of that little
    girl when
    she is
    little..
    and the world
    is a cruel place
    for the different…):
    i struggled figuring
    out how to make
    that sad
    face..
    but it’s
    truly
    sad…

    http://freeleeves.blogspot.com/2015/10/dating-and-such.html

    okay you are seeming
    more real to me
    now and
    less like
    X.. hehe..
    her her..
    Love
    is complicated
    and strange..
    but also
    real
    and sad
    and real
    and sad..etc..;)

    http://freeleeves.blogspot.com/2015/10/i-dont-care-how-ugly-you-think-i-am.html

    Yes.. of course
    you are beautiful
    inside outside
    up and down
    all around
    and upside
    down
    too..
    shake you
    up and you
    still turn
    out
    pretty..:)

    http://freeleeves.blogspot.com/2015/10/a-few-thought-provoking-notions-from.html

    Jesus is a mix of
    Buddha
    Lao Tzu
    and mythological
    Krishna
    as Yogi too..
    and then
    ‘they’ make
    him into
    a Hollywood
    Idol.. and
    Quarter
    back
    God
    of
    a team
    against
    other religion
    teams..
    so when i wanna
    hear more about
    what Jesus says..
    i just go back
    to the uncensored
    TAO.. and
    the path
    to real
    Heaven
    now..
    TAO!
    yes and
    mythological
    Yoda.. too..
    may the TAO
    Force be with
    you.. friend
    Hedera..:)

    http://freeleeves.blogspot.com/2015/10/natural-healers.html

    All your gypsy
    girls and gypsy
    yous are precious
    my friend Hedera..
    Park sMiLEs
    forever
    to you
    now
    my friend..:)

    http://freeleeves.blogspot.com/2015/10/touch-sky.html

    Oh wow! i love this
    ‘Touch the Sky’ sonG
    Hedera.. and OH GOD!
    the more i dance the
    more i become
    air.. and tonight
    at Publix store
    it is more
    than dancing
    in the rain..
    i become
    air floating
    unto myself
    all 234 LBS
    feather light
    spinning
    arms.. legs..
    torso.. hips
    feet.. toes..
    hands.. fingers
    riSinG higher
    and higher..
    the entire store
    watching me spiraling
    around my wife
    shopping through
    all aisles..
    and i am one
    with GOD
    and they
    will
    never
    break
    me again..
    as i am whole
    my friend spirit
    soaring..
    and i will
    not
    leave..
    until i pick
    everyone
    up and
    take them
    wITh me ’cause
    wiTh
    GOD
    SOARinG
    i WiLL
    just do iT
    ALL iF iT taKes
    INfinIty to
    do iT
    now and
    baby Hedera
    spreading
    renewing
    vine..i am
    crazy
    enough
    to just
    F*KiNG
    maKe
    iT happen!..
    sMiles.. see you
    at Glenn’s place
    and take an 11 poetic
    response detour.. here.. and
    you know and feel what..if and
    when Jesus comes
    back.. perhaps
    the entire world
    will be creeped
    out by his unconditional
    tough and passionate
    Love.. but you
    and me
    will
    be
    his friend
    sAMe and
    true and
    perhaps
    the only
    ones..
    as i am
    looKinG
    for 55 years
    for his friends..
    like me and you..:)

    10:26 pm…

  15. ^^^

    Dumpkin..;)

    Okay.. all the pumpkins are in the box..
    and the goal is clear to see.. and i will almost guarantee..
    i am the only one on Facebook who picks the pumpkin up
    to reach the Dumpkin goal.. Ynot.. i ask myself.. and just
    F in Do IT.. F in Do it.. get IT.. IT has nothing to do with sex..
    sex is not the only F word.. FireTruck IT works just as well..
    IT’s in the sound vocalization/verbalization.. as metaphor..
    NOT the discrete
    concrete meaning..
    for literally thinking peoples…

    And yes.. this ‘white’ boy can dance..
    but he does not jump or run.. he fights..
    and stands his ground.. with hands.. feet..
    the rest of body.. and words..
    and never silly weak little
    human guns..

    And yes..
    i am for second amendment rights
    for people who are not strong enough
    to go without guns.. life’s not fair..
    and equalizers are necessary
    to keep freedoms for some..

    But people without empathy
    should be outlawed from having guns..
    if there is a real way to fully measure that
    but there is not.. as one can bet one’s evil
    dollar that a lack of empathy and misanthropy
    and loss of social roles is behind all rampage killing..

    And while Rampage killings are rare.. they are a direct
    barometer of the health of the soul of a society in empathy
    ways.. the United States is sick when it comes to Human
    Love of the Innate Kind.. there are zero rampage killings
    in the 50’s when social roles are clear.. jobs are abundant..
    and people focus on more than just glitz and thrills…

    And no.. i am not
    speaking out my butt.. do a quick search
    on ‘Major Factors Underlying Rampage Killing’
    and i author the top result on Google.. and what better
    place to survey it than a teaming ground online of
    empathy-less souls.. the type of Asperger’s
    syndrome that is foreign to an empath like me..

    http://wrongplanet.net/forums/viewtopic.php?t=218916

    Where empathy does not live.. violent video games
    offer killing ground practice.. where social roles leave..
    where tools of killing are easily available and accessible..
    where role models for evil are available and accessible
    everywhere one looks on TV and Internet permanently
    living evil idols.. the perfect storm for rampage killings
    is here.. and it is not going away.. until society heals itself..

    But sure.. there is a larger nature message here.. nature is pissed
    off at humans for getting out of balance.. and this is just a symptom
    of change that is coming dark or light.. Nature will have her way..
    mark my words.. of Godzilla lore.. dark or light the sowing and
    reaping
    COMES
    AGAIN
    AS KARMA
    DOES KARMA
    IS..
    PER
    iOD

    Ah.. tHe challenge of graduating..
    when thErE are no lonGer anY
    classmates or teachers
    in the room..
    yet yes..
    aLL iS possiBle..
    WitH ONe.. sTiLL..:)

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