Fresh Air and Farm LIFE
is the place i love to be!’
And what a wonderful world
the GOOD OLE’ U.S. Of A.
IS wHere a person can be both ‘nut’ and surrounded by NUTS…
And by the way.. for clarification.. ‘NUT’ is just another word/NAME for the ‘Egyptian DIVA Isis’ AKA Katrina AKA my wife.. another multi-colored ‘NUT’ surrounded by other multi-colored nuts too.. today and always now.. in the melting pot of the U.S.A. that is for all practical ‘intents and purposes’.. TODAY.. the NEW Israel.. and yeah.. wHere i live that once holds the locality with the most churches per square miles.. is kinda like THE NEW JERUSALEM
ABOUT ‘NUT’ AKA KATRINA..
LIKE THE MOVIE ILLUSTRATED HERE:
AND PERHAPS better illustrated with Katrina..
realize IT immediately..
will marry me
MOTHER NATURE TRUE
when i am 29 and ‘they’..
in the case of Katrina.. is 19 years old…
HILARiouS.. how ‘SOME FOLKS’
tell me I am full of ‘bull-crap’..
before I prove my claims..
And hmm.. Katrina at 45.. now.. as is nicely illustrated in this blog post of ‘A world of Multi-colored NUTS’.. does NOT wear makeup and does not workout.. other than 3400 miles of dance walking i do.. while she shops and shops and shops.. in all her favorite ‘Park Avenue’ Kohls stores.. and such as that.. for 20 months now.. and yes..
looks as young
as her twenty-one old
nieces at ‘Green Acres’ today…
And even stranger.. IS IT IS kinda like THAT MOVIE.. this week.. in a synchronicity way where another 45 year old woman is questioned suspiciously by a cop.. when he sees that she is NOT 20 something and IS 45.. as WELL.. and yeah.. the woman who plays the part.. still looks older
than my wife
my wife’s sister
who is 5 years older than her..
arrives with her at any social event.. OUT..
she must quickly tell folks before they ask her..
this is NOT
THIS IS MY SISTER.. HAHA!
ANYWAY.. i do NOT often worship
THE ground that ‘GODDESS KATRINA’ walks on
ENOUgH in my blog posts.. so this is a ‘worship’ day for my ‘NUT’..
PER THE WORSHIP OF GOD’S GREEN ACRES THAT SHE WALKS ON.. NOW..
I love it. I love it. Katrina is a wonder woman. And that old photo of both of you, it is the sweetest thing ever. You two make a GREAT couple, match made in heaven type. I feel like a part of your family. Talking about synchronicity, we had a BBQ party yesternight at our home with our uncles, aunts and cousins. 😀 Also the lush green plants make me droll. Give my love to Katrina. ❤
Thanks friend Rafiah.. and truly you make me feel like part of the Rafiah family too.. as your heart is obviously like the kind loving hearts that are all Katrina’s extended family in the photos above.. who all open heartingly welcome me as part of the family when we visit them.. with tight hugs…
And yes.. if you are part of that BBQ they will also welcome you.. with tight hugs of open hearts.. no matter the differences of others.. no matter who.. or where.. or what they do.. as they are ALL from God’s family of loving ties IN GOD’s unconditional love.. naturally gifted to humans who practice love.. instead of material desires.. alone…
And yes.. this marriage is made by GOD.. as Katrina.. is probably the only woman alive who is strong enough to stand by my side through five years of horrifying shut-in illness.. where no one else i know in life.. outside of family.. cares if i longer exist or not.. for people i know… before i get sick… as far as reaching out to me.. then.. when sick…
And the woman in the photo with Katrina in the other old photo is her mother.. at 48 then.. three years older than Katrina now…
All the family members and so many more not imaged in the photos above.. are generated by that one strong matriarch of a women.. named Sandra.. or Sandy for nickname.. who raises 6 children as a single mother.. mostly.. very poor.. sometimes with no food.. or even a drink of water…
But the tie of GOD’s LOVE keeps them together.. and although the family.. overall.. is still very poor.. the love has more value than the money and assets that my much more affluent blood family has in million dollar homes.. and jobs that generate much higher sums of money…
i am truly glad that my money hungry father.. leaves my mother and us.. for poor.. when i am three…for us to make it on our own.. and live with and around so many other poorer people.. including my maternal grandmother who we do move in with then.. on one of God’s beautiful River front lands.. in a small old house.. WITH so many POORER PEOPLE around in our neighborhood then.. too.. who have the RICHEST gift of GOD’s unconditional LOVE.. as i learn to be human.. LIKE THAT TOO..
instead of money and asset hungry…
Ah.. the blessings of GOD
are in the struggles that are truly gifts
generating GOD’s GIFT of HUMAN Unconditional LOVE..:)
And i thank GOD everynow for every darkness and every light
of the LOVE of GOD’s LOVING LIGHT OF HUMAN UNCONDITIONAL
LOVE THAT LIVES IN ME NOW.. FOR YOU.. AND ALL OTHERS TOO..
Some folks are more like
Ha HA!; tHere is no predicting me,
as I have proven time and time again on this forum.
So, there is NO MATHEMATICAL EQUATION THAT IS ME.
I AM A FREE ‘UNI-VERSE’ HUMAN BEING..;)
But seriously, folks who never
seek, find, employ, develop,
utilize and PRACTICE
the IMAGINATIVE AND
THROUGH THE OVERALL
REASONING AND CREATIVE
HUMAN RELATIVE FREE WILL
TO REGULATE emotions and
integrate senses, and INCREASE
cognitive executive functioning through
greater focus and short term working memory, are often very rigid in their thinking,
and very easy to predict as they tend to think in black and white ways and do the
same dam thing over and over again, to get the same results.
And if they expect a different result in life, like love or happiness,
it will never ever happen according to another extremely
imaginative and creative individual, Einstein,
who states in words more or less
that THAT IS THE
AND HONESTLY, FOR ANYONE who is ‘half-alive’, they INTUIT that the SYNERGY,
of the materialistic reductionist details that the scientific method breaks down as
the ‘bones/trees’ of the details of human beings, is much GREATER AS IS THE FULL
FLESH AND BLOOD FOREST THAT CAN BE THE WORK OF ART IN/OF FULLER HUMAN
POTENTIAL OF/IN ‘QUANTUM HUMAN MIND UNLEASHED’ FOR MUCH greater human
experience, including the ability to self-heal and become as strong as a frigging
‘WOOKIEE’, WITH THE ‘FORCE’ OF THE ENTIRE FRIGGING UNIVERSE MORE FULLY
IN TOW AND FLOW AS one with ONE UNI-VERSAL FLOW IN AND AS IS NOW
JUST LETTING IT GO BABY, RELEASING THE FULLER QUANTUM HUMAN
I AM UNLEASHED
AND FREE, AND NO
FRIGGING MATH EQUATION;
BUT I DO COME ACROSS ‘THEM’
at times here;
easy to figure out
and predict as I go;
I can only hope that
they too get to be free
as well, one now, like
my nows, always now..:)
Being a ‘math equation’ s**S;
been there done it, big time, as
a robot human being more AND
Yes, I most definitely agree with one about music, as a language without words; and if one likes, one will ‘see’ above that the music I compose from my heart and soul, some 7 to 8 years ago, in expressing spirit, is in emotional flow, as well as what I do in flow of creating free verse poetry, in ‘free writing’, wHere I do not consciously think about the words;
they just flow off of my finger-tips same as the music of ebony and ivory keys and even the so-called ‘mistakes’ that make a pattern of what is the heart and soul of me expressed as spirit then, through a keyboard of notes, instead of letters.
It is all ‘sign language’ for and from the human heArt and soul more fully expressed to others, as well as the dance I do now, everywhere I go, now, 3444 miles in 20 months that people remark they have never seen before, as a mix of ballet and martial arts-like free style that leads me with no verbal thought in direction from me, as ‘BE water’ to Quote a hero as ‘large as REAL HISTORICAL FLESH AND BLOOD Jesus’, if he really lives, to me, as BRUCE LEE.
Human innate instinct and intuition is art and truly never equation and or science, AND in truly feeling and not just knowing THAT one truly knows the ‘face of GOD’ as a fractal expression, ‘face to face with GOD’, of what ‘we’ too, can express as ‘children of the GOD of Nature’, just as is, NOW that continues to evolve with us, every now of every now, when we move from robot mind to the mind of Unconditional Love that is synonymous with the mind of FLOW IN CREATIVITY FREE, AS TRUly HUMANS, WHO are unadulterated by culture and religion WILL DO NATURALLY WHEN letting ‘IT go’;
I did not ‘WRITE’ that music; I created it in internal flow of imagination and creativity with absolutely no guiding verbal instructions of ‘musical’ thought, per all the ‘science’ of music taught by piano teachers..:)
There is the ‘ear of music’ and the ‘science’ of music; AS well as the ‘science of the human language’ and ‘the art of the human language’. Truly it takes an imaginative and creative ‘ear’ in the sense of imaginative and creative mind unleashed and released, in what I like to term as metaphor of ‘Quantum Human Mind Unleashed’ to fully appreciate these more abstract human emotionally, imaginatively, and creatively produced arts.
In fact, it will be impossible to actually write music for what I create in the linked video, as it follows no specific laws of music, as currently defined, in how sheet music is specifically written.
And no, I am certainly not the first one to accomplish this, as musicians such as Syd Barrett are noted as accomplishing similar feats, and in his case, shortly before he goes to the ‘DEEPER end’, as a diagnosed schizophrenic.
There is a spectrum of the creative mind that definitely is associated with so-called madness; but there is also a fine balance that CAN be accomplished through both reason and creativity; that I can say with confidence that I am currently mastering, greater, as I go.
But I do not write for the comprehension, as the technical manual says, one should for the 8th grader, and no personal offense intended to you, please understand, with that metaphor.
AS truly if I attempt to step into my shoes before I gain greater imaginative and creative power in the art of abstract emotional mind and physical greater imaginative and creative intelligences, I will likely just skim past my writing too, as writing before I become imaginative and creative is of little to no interest to me, and particularly poetry, as it is mostly just meaningless gibberish to me then, as well.
So in other words, I totally expect the negative responses I get on this Internet site, particularly, as it truly is a deficit in fuller human potential not to have greater human potential in imagination and creativity and all the potential arts physical arts in intelligences expressed from that.
I express creativity in my early teens; but that is snuffed out by an emotionally, imaginatively and creatively repressive patriarchal red state, so-called ‘fundie’ Christian, culture, all the way through my civil service military career.
I never can do anything, then but play piano by sheet music, until my truly creative and imaginative mind is AWAKENED AND ENLIGHTENED ALL NATURALLY AROUND AGE 47, BY STRUGGLE AND ADAPTATION TO CHRONIC STRESS, AND RESULTING HORRIFYING DISEASE AND DISORDERS, TO THE tune of 19 total disorders/disease, as detailed, much greater here, in the past.
I LEARN MUCH ABOUT INNATE INSTINCTUAL AND INTUITIVE HUMAN NATURE THROUGH ALL NATURAL PERSONAL EXPERIENCE.
This is hard to relate in the ‘STANDARD of Queen’s English vernacular’, so I go new ways, in hopes of expressing something in metaphors that may spark a similar awakening and enlightenment in others, in fuller human imaginative and creative intelligences physical human potentials, expressed as such.
And to date, it is effective in limited affect of emotional ways of affecting change in real flesh and blood life effect; but truly more so in the dance in the equally if not more creative art of dance, I accomplish now, in my local metro area, 3444 miles, in 20 months.
Many people directly tell me I inspire them greater light in life, by being brave enough to master an extremely unique and what is described as an amazing way of ballet/martial arts dance by many other spectators, in the general public.
I develop carpal tunnel syndrome by playing the piano extensively and intensively back in 2007, when I under a two year duress of flight of fight work related chronic stress. The Carpal tunnel syndrome is so bad that I almost get to the point where I cannot effectively use my hands. I am okay, with an ergonomic typing keyboard, relatively speaking, with still some minor issues; but for now the piano is in my past.
And by the way; the piano is perfectly tuned as it is an electronic piano. The reason it doesn’t sound quite right, is all I have back then, is a cheap dictation device to record it on as a whim; as I then, am not taking what I am doing seriously as it is just an exercise to attempt to keep my emotions intact; which are eventually lost through chronic stress, disease, and disorder, as well.
The recording is transferred from that dictation device from the music in 2007 to 2013 YouTube way, and unfortunately is crappy; but that music is unique and will never be reproduced by me, or any sheet music as is, as it is a direct expression of the art of heArt, and no scientific approximation of a science of music.
No computer will ever be able to reproduce that; although as in the video I provided, computers do arrange beautifully composed ‘PERFECT SCIENCE’ OF MUSIC, physically expressed, MUSIC CREATIONS.
BUT NAH, NO COMPUTER WILL EVER REPLICATE THE ‘QUANTUM HUMAN MIND’ UNLEASHED AND RELEASED IN the true flow of imagination and creativity as it reflects the ‘Quantum GOD’ of all that is; that has no leashes that can be reined or reigned over by the minds of computers either in machines or flesh and blood, as my so-called ‘perfect science mind’ per systemization is referred to by peers, as in the ‘IMITATION GAME’ THAT USED TO BE MY LIFE as only partial human being with little to no imagination and creativity, in tow or IMAGINATIVE CREATIVE FLOW.
In my opinion, in my case, the environment I am exposed to IN MY LIFE, is directly responsible for that computer mind, in what I feed my mind everyday in mechanical cognition, then, instead of empathic imaginative creative ways of social cognition, now, as an adaptation for cure.
So yes, in my opinion, my so-called deficits of Autism that are viewed then as a limited systemizing ‘perfect’ structure of analytical mind are truly a deficit of culture, and not truly a gift but an overall, curse, IN REAL FLESH AND BLOOD LIFE OF MORE FULLY CONNECTING TO OTHER HUMAN BEINGS AND NATURE IN GENERAL AKA GOD.
So yes, in my opinion, this type of Autism can and will BE CURED BY FOLKS LIKE ME WHO ARE INNOVATIVE ENOUGH, IMAGINATIVE AND CREATIVE ENOUGH, TO HEAL THEIR SELF;
NOT SURE how many have the potential to do this;
but my science mind tells me I cannot reasonably be the only Autistic person in the world that can heal their REAL TIME RECIPROCAL SOCIAL COMMUNICATION DEFICITS; AS I CAN Walk INTO ANY PUBLIC place now and spark up a conversation of interest with almost any stranger now, and develop a potential mutual lifelong friendship, as well.
That’s a cure for me, and I love it beyond what most people can likely believe. But never the less, it is REAL IN MY
AND PERHAPS POSSIBLE IN THE UNIVERSE OF OTHERS, AS WELL, WITH similar deficits of Autism that I DO BEFORE have, IN an extremely limiting effect and AFFECT ON MY HUMAN POTENTIAL and POTENTIAL IN THOSE successful social interactions with real life flesh and blood folks.
And to be clear, I do not communicate like this in flesh and blood life.
My verbal communication is much different than my written communication, as I take all the visual and auditory social cues into consideration of the effect and affect I am having on others in FLESH AND BLOOD, reciprocal social communication.
Obviously, IF, I relay all this information to a ‘normal’ person in real life, they will likely experience a ‘headache’, as not everyone’s mind either flies as fast as mine does in either thought or verbal communication as an extremely fast potential verbal speaker now, TOO, unless I consciously slow it down, as I do, to meet the human potential of others to receive that much faster thinking and talking mind, in real flesh and blood time, now.
AS a lifelong pianist in ways of sheet music, I type up to 130 words or so a minute when properly focused, and read up to 10 to 15 times faster, as per my innate Hyperlexic form of Autism.
What you ‘see’ here and may not be able to fully ‘hear’, can be accomplished by me in a matter of minutes.
I have no idea what it will be like to read so-called normal and think so called normal; and without real time feedback of distress on folks faces, there are no breaks for either this mind or fingers, as I flow in creativity and reason on this TYPING keyboard now.
But I am what I am and I will be free to be who I am, as long as the moderators tolerate that here.
If not, it’s no surprise as history shows the same frigging thing happens to innovative artists time and time again, with their work not fully appreciated until there are ‘eyes’ that can more fully appreciate it.
But that is how ‘folks like me’
always advance the human race.
‘WE are crazy enough’ to know;
that almost anything is possible with,
FREE UNLEASHED AND RELEASED IMAGINATIVE
AND CREATIVE MIND; YES, SET FULLY FREE;
AND WITH the freedom of expression the Internet does bring
with no censorship personal blogs and YouTube expressions;
there is no telling or ‘taling’ now where
the human imaginative and
creative minds of
human may eventually
guide the rest of
the human race.
The illusion is;
It’s not possible.
I’ll stick with the reality
of what I know to be real
human potential in both imagination,
creativity and MUCH GREATER physical intelligence,
as well as myriads of other potential human intelligences
untouched by the prisons of human freedom of expression in
CENSORSHIP OF HUMAN MUCH GREATER POTENTIAL; YES, MYRIADS
OF OTHER UNTOUCHED
INTELLIGENCES THAT i FOR ONE
continue to seek and find and become
one with, in greater
But anyway, thanks for taking the
time and reciprocal social communication
effort to share in my achievements.
That sounds kind of dry but it is the science
of kindness to me, as well; that is also an ART
for me, IN AT LEAST, ‘REAL LIFE’ NOW, and in
the poetic circles online that I also ‘inHABIT’
KATiE MiA FredericK!iI
Gravatar is one of the coolest things ever!! !
For me, NOW IS better than ever before;
however, I have a huge advantage; and THAT is financial independence
with never a worry on how I am going to gain and retain subsistence.
Living in this world, intelligent enough to navigate the positive and negative aspects of it, retaining and continuing to develop fuller body and mind balance with ever growing physical intelligence, life is amazing fun to me, and never better, NOW.
I honestly feel healthier, stronger, and more passionate ABOUT life, THAN I EVER HAVE; simply, AS I have got the ‘LIFE, LIBERTY AND HAPPINESS’ PART OF THE ‘DECLARATION OF INDEPENDENCE’, FIGURED OUT ON MY OWN; and yeah,
with the help of SOME of ‘my friends’.
To be clear, what I mean by some of my friends is,
I seek the truth and light from all sources; light AND DARK.
MASLOW’S hierarchy OF NEEDS move from Physiological; to Safety; to Love/Belonging; to Esteem; to Self-Actualization; to Transcendence, a 6th level of altruistically sharing to help others as the ultimate expression of human being beyond what is required for self-actualization in gaining fuller human potential.
Maslow, suggests that one cannot move farther up the LADDER OF HUMAN POTENTIAL,
UNLESS THE SO-CALLED LOWER RUNGS ARE SATISFIED AND MAINTAINED FIRST.
AND truly his insights ring true for me, as I’ve moved from the top to the bottom and back in life, several times, depending on environmental circumstances.
The last bottom part, per chronic stress, not allowing me to stay and get past level one, almost literally kills me.
And truly, most people, these days, live in an environmentally produced ‘level one’, ‘teetering’ existence
in chronic STRESS, and that IS sad, and even more unfortunate, is that it CAN BE,
almost impossible to avoid in the prison that can be school, work,
and even ‘home life’, NOW.
The BIGGEST PROBEM, IS THE TOOLS OF HUMAN BEINGS; THAT AT FIRST MAKE LIFE EASIER FOR CREATURE COMFORTS, ARE NOW BECOMING THE MACHINE OF INFORMATION TECHNOLOGY AND THE INDUSTRIAL REVOLUTION BEFORE THAT; THAT IS MAKING FINDING basic subsistence generating activities
in LEVEL ONE PHYSICAL EXISTENCE ALMOST
impossible for some folks in a world where:
‘HUMANS NEED NOT APPLY’;
AS THE SOCIAL ROLES ARE NOW RELEGATED TO MACHINES,
MOREOVER, AS TIME GOES BY THAN THE HUMANS WHO USED TO RULE THE ‘ROOST’.
Historically speaking, ThERE are many metaphors of WARNING FOR THE HUMAN RACE in literary, theater, and even religious ARTS, from the ‘APPLE OF THE TREE OF KNOWLEDGE’ TO THE ‘TERMINATOR’ AND ‘MATRIX’ SERIES OF MOVIES;
BUT THE TRUTH IS:
‘1984’, IS here now for many folks,
and much of that is the microcosm ‘we’ have ‘here’
more fully related by those who do live in
I am free, to transcend NOW, in the ‘6th hierarchy’ of human existence,
as I am innately instinctually and intuitively ‘smart’ enough in mind and
body balance, and fortunate enough in environmental experience to get
here NOW. But truly, for more people who live on ‘this’ InterwebZ
of vicarious virtual life, ‘1984’ is here, NOW.
The social roles are GONE,
FOR MANY FOLKS, and there does
not seem to even be
A way ‘HOME’
to even get the most
basic of physiological human needs met. So yes; that is a major part of why there
are sky-rocketing rates of Autism and other human disorders, like a third of all school
age children assessed now, as pre-type-2-diabetic; around 50-percent, or so, of adults on
types of pain medication for chronic stress related pain; AND sky rocketing rates of psycho-
tropic drugs for mental disorders, as an indirect and direct result of a culture where ‘humans
NEED NOT APPLY’.
AND FOR THE FACTS
ASSOCIATED WITH THIS
EMOTIONAL POETIC EXPRESSION
OF MINE, THE VIDEO
DETAILS OF FACT,
AND YES, I can tell ya what’s wrong;
but I cannot fix a culture that truly is an
insane ‘Clown EXPERIMENT’, NEVER TRAVELED
I WATCH THE CHAOS
FROM MY ‘SAFE’ PERCH
OF ‘BRANCH’ ON THE
TRULY, THE FIRST
STEP IS GAINING THE PHYSICAL
INTELLIGENCE TO GET TO STEP
AND SADLY, SOME FOLKS LIVE AND
DIE, AND NEVER EVEN TRULY LIVE
ONE NOW; THE BLISS,
OF WHAT CAN EVEN BE,
ON A SAFE BRANCH,
KATiE MiA FredericK!iI
Gravatar is one of the coolest things ever!! !
i always find my freedom in nature.. from the time i am three looking across Allah’s rivers before i can speak.. until the time i am middle-aged and hear so many human voices that it makes my head hurt.. and i only wanna be ONE.. with Gulf of beaches.. in white sands.. flowing sea oats.. and emerald green waters whEre pure WHITE colored seagulls.. rise above.. and below again and again.. in waves.. like i become.. in just doing it.. in my mid-teens.. in bliss of now..
wHere i become a wave and INStruMENt of Allah..
AsWELL human being WitH AllahONEnow…
i Love humans.. but not culture/religion..
or even language.. overall..
as much as connecting
in skeyes of spIRit..
WHO need no word..
ONly whole spirIt
In just letting GO
in flow of Allah
Fun looking at the photos with Enigma playing in the background. I don’t usually listen to video/audio inclusions but they are among my favorite groups. I think the French/Latin/Gregorian additions are so beautiful, seductive even.
Ah.. yes.. Enigma is one of my favorites.. and i even use them again.. in my last longest post ever.. for anyone to get through.. haha!.. at 8377 words.. a record for even me.. for epic free verse poetry.. as such.. with yeah.. of course over a hundred photos to complement that as well..
But Ha..! i do it for the creativity.. as art is love enough for me.. and everything else including art.. is already the icing on the cake of the gift of life..:)
Oh.. and looking back at this post here.. i see this is not the other one with Enigma.. so i suppose you comment here..
as there is less stuff to wade through.. to get to the comments sections.. and of course that is great!.. too..:)
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