6 Responses to Facebook Resume Joy

1. katiemiafrederick says:

   August 10, 2015 at 11:32 PM

   Prose vs poetry?

   ^^^

   Prose expresses
   touches emotions
   PoeTry expresses
   touches
   un
   ordin
   ary..

   Or one can follow the
   Standard DicTionary
   way of doing it.. but
   nah
   not
   me..

   Art IS creating
   something NEW
   IMHO
   if it ain’t
   THAT
   ART
   i ain’t
   goin’
   tHere..:)

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2. katiemiafrederick says:

   August 11, 2015 at 9:14 AM

   Going in to the outside

   ^^^

   Amen.. “it’s” nature’s way manifest in humans of saving grace.. And no doubt the core of what is awakening in most so-called holy folks escaping the insanity of restricting culture on particularly free spirited humans.. Who are more dopamine sensitive.. which of course is core to social abuse as a substantial factor that even the director of the NIMH in the US suggests is an epigenetic trigger for the genetic pre-disposition for schizophrenia and associated so-called psychosis.. as what is now described in science as a type of genetic virus.. And yes as often is the case the medicine that treats the symptoms can be the REAL long term illness for those who cannot cope naturally as many have through history in accepting and supporting so-called more primitive cultures.. where it is seen as a vision quest instead of disease and or disorder..:)

   Smiles.. I am fortunate.. I never need drugs and at my age at 55 my ‘experience’ in part.. better allows me profiency in Martial Arts.. Dance in general.. As well as Physical Strength.. leg pressing half a ton with ease.. Now 25 reps.. surpassing Marine ‘Jar Heads’ in their early twenties.. by double.. at my Military Gym.. with oh yeah.. YouTube proof for Internet evidence.. But alas only 14 reps.. 5 months ago in that video.. But the key is the i that is Truth and Light behind I.. masters life as me.. all natural.. baby.. And I share that with the world for those with similar eyes and ears to see and hear it..:)

   Retreat from the Social: a review of Hegel’s Theory of Madness by Daniel Berthold-Bond, Suny Press, 1995

   I come across this blog, in discussing the issue of anti-psychotic drugs to treat schizophrenia and related psychosis with a friend. Both my friend and I are 55 year old males diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome in middle age.

   I find your most recent article to be reeking of academic and common sense truth of what it means to be a human being.

   Both of us (my friend and I) are very successful in academics in earlier life with of course the social challenges that go along with a life spent in mechanical cognition moreover than social cognition activities in flesh and blood life.

   My short lived so-called psychotic break comes in my early twenties as is common after folks with extremely high measures of standard IQ, reach around 14 or 15 years of school and related social stresses that with a School House of 2000 or so closely packed human primates is an inevitable reality; particularly for those viewed as way out of the norm, in terms of developing the most important human evolving social animal intelligence of physical/emotional intelligence in overall social cognition, in successful living and thriving as a social animal who is ‘normal’ will naturally do with flesh and blood practice, practice, practice; not unlike hawks who practice flying who rarely fall out of the sky or monkeys who swing from trees who rarely fall out of trees.

   Practice is required in all stuff animal to keep from falling down as a general metaphor of existence, too.

   Well Yes, use or lose it applies, as in all stuff specifically human animal, ranging from quadriceps to the emotional human heart that connects with the emotional contagion of affective empathy and learns cognitive empathy by days, months, years and decades of real life trial and error human flesh and blood verbal and nonverbal reciprocal social communication, in PRACTICE.

   Spend a life winning academic rewards by using mechanical cognition for a decade and a half, or so, in this way of life of sitting still, prescribed by human abstract written language, collective intelligence, and complex cultures that house millions of folks in one city as opposed to human being’s naturally evolving capacity for connecting to 150 to 200 sets of other eyes and what ‘we’ get is pure insanity for an extremely empathic species of primate that is still evolving to innately, instinctually and intuitively live in relatively small tribes to move invisibly with mind and body balance in nature to escape predators and capture prey; not unlike our other hairier cousins of which the Bonobo is the closest and overall a much more, in effect and AFFECT, loving and caring species than what human beings manifest now in global cultures, overall.

   Standard IQ, is more or less a developing product of 10 to 12 thousand years of post agrarian culture.

   Humanity’s IQ, as innately, instinctually and intuitively gifted by practicing flesh and blood life, is as old as life itself.

   The ability to succeed in school, is a trap of cultures attempting to make machines out of humans where ‘we’ walk with repressed and oppressed emotions on tight concrete sidewalks that are most definitely required literally and as a metaphor to control large populations of human beings that are simply not evolving to live in groups of humans that large without strict controls in repressing and oppressing innate, instinctual and intuitive human animal behavior.

   The reason for my so-called psychotic break in the third year of college is simple and common sense. I have a very difficult time gaining social acceptance as a person with literally ‘retarded’ (slow) social cognition; Having no idea then that physical and emotional intelligence is the most important type of intelligence and most everything else I am championing in school is to make me a productive cog in a complex society to keep it working well enough to work; with all the other cogs.

   I finally get the heart brain horsepower to get the social stuff figured out with all the straight A’s to get accepted enough to meet that most important need of human being for survival in acceptance by the tribe at hand for the instinct that tells us this is a do or die scenario for our overall survival as a socially cooperative animal.

   The Junior College I go to is small and local, retaining a few of those accepting social friendships of people who have gotten use to my social/physical/emotional ‘retarded’ intelligence.

   The bigger college is a new challenge where I have no old friendships without the excellent tools of social cognition the other social animals have practiced without the top of the class grades I have on my resume, to effectively and affectively make friends with a new group of social animals at school.

   So yeah, I continue to practice my straight A’s and have no idea how to make friends, become weaker in social cognition skills, as yes, lose it or lose it continues to apply, and eventually I become colder inside and more like a text book than a human being, so one day a surge of social energy comes; yeah probably epigenetic induced change in neuro-chemicals and neuro-hormones to save my Grinch weak heart of emotions, expressed emotions as spirit, and a soul that is then trapped in a head, way out of the physical and emotional intelligence of emotional regulation and sensory integration that makes mind and body balance a reality in flesh and blood life.

   My human innate, instinct, and intuition of life as old as it exists as life itself, finally overrides 12 thousand years of travel away from what we even are as humanity or as social animal in general.

   That part of me says F culture; go to the beach; escape this S, before it kills you.

   So yeah, the part of me that is beyond this ego construct of what cultures says I must think and do for survival FEELS ME ahead to escape.

   So then, at age 21, I just start walking the beach; my footprints grow longer, until there is no more human culture in view of humans or condos behind me; and that nature that has always lives in me arises again; and I am reborn as human again; hoping and grasping a straw to survive as what I feel is me but cannot put into human words, adequately then.

   I honestly feel like I am GOD; but no; NOT THAT CRAP IN SUNDAY SCHOOL about some dude that is an only son of GOD. I feel like I am a part of everything and not a separate COG in a machine.

   And honestly, as a Gillberg Criteria type Asperger’s person with an Hyperlexic language delay until age four that my Psychiatrist takes note of and eventually part of why he bumps me into the U.S. diagnostic criteria PDDNOS part of the Autism Spectrum then; when I am age three I look across the river front where i live then; and feel this Universal Nature of GOD inside me, outside me, above so below, and all around me.

   I feel I have been here with no beginning and no end; as yeah, well, after all, with my ‘Big Bang’ brain now, if that is the case for an origin of all that is; there can be no break in the chain of events from beginning to now that results in my existence now; so yeah, everything I need to feel about GOD for 100% faith in GOD, I feel then, and now, without any words, church or school at all.

   And yeah, attempting to relate this to psychiatrists after I spend a somewhat manic three days pondering all of this in my escape away from insane culture, is a big mistake, as that is a textbook definition of psychosis when folks find out they are part of GOD and the same who attempt to tell someone about it in the psychiatric profession, when they have a big smile on their face and bliss of peace coming to this innate, instinctual, and and intuitive awakening and enlightenment in life; that is no big deal in Eastern Philosophies and will be rated as totally normal over there.

   But no, not in a culture where humans are viewed as textbooks instead of real flesh and blood feeling beings, with a whole history of insane culture and social stresses and abuse as dark wind behind their back.

   All of they can see of me, then, is deluded psychotic words that I am part of this whole dam thing of all that is that is GOD.

   And so yeah, they they try to force drugs on me; and eventually a community leader who can vouch for who I am before this break into common sense, gets me out of a place of drugs that quickly makes me into a Zombie who cannot function at all.

   I am just a few days away from getting sent to a State Asylum before that; and instead do escape drug free, eventually receive three college degrees, go on to a successful 25 year career with government service with all my Autism Spectrum challenges in tow.

   And then I am continue to get moved up the Peter Principle ladder of success, until one day my newly found social abilities no longer are great enough to meet social demands to fill the bill of reciprocal social communication efficiency at work, and that severe and chronic fight or flight stress eventually leads to 19 medical disorders, including the worst pain known to mankind, type two Trigeminal Neuralgia during all waking hours for close to 66 months, where the pain is actually assessed as literally worse than crucifixion in medical literature for that disorder, and in my case this dentist drill like face pain with no novocaine is in my right eye and ear making effective use of hearing and seeing almost impossible with pain.

   And yes, other stress exacerbated issues include Dysautonomia, Sjogren’s Syndrome, Fibromyalgia, Severe Degenerative Arthritis and Stenosis in my Spine, PTSD, Severe Depression, Anhedonia, Severe Anxiety; all intertwined with the experience of years of chronic human stress, and more specifically SOCIAL STRESS.

   And YES, modern science now illustrates well that Chronic Stress over years will destroy all major body systems and can lead to a premature death.

   Anyway, the good news is I am healthy, stronger, and happier, and more productive than ever before, in what I do now in creative, artistic, social cognition activities of life; including an approaching four thousand miles in dance walk everywhere I go in public now, with my wife who loves to shop, over the span of two years of recovery from 66 months of shut-in illness stuck in a bedroom, more or less.

   The point is I am human now, living in an Insane Asylum of all of culture, as it currently exists in the deep Red State south; but hell no; no longer trapped, as for all practical intents and purposes I am NEO, Buddha, Jesus, Lao TZU, or any other indigenous human being that never falls into or escapes this Insane Asylum served up as culture on a platter from birth.

   The only thing that truly saves my human heart, spirit and soul, is incredible illness that no doctors can do anything for with any kind of drug for pain, allowing me and giving me no choice but to escape modern westernized culture.

   As with all other animals, I innately, instinctually and intuitively find the cure through mind and body balance.

   And I am here to ‘tale’ you now in words of Light and Truth; that i ain’t insane baby; and modern westernized culture, overall, is, truly Insane living mostly, in the DARK OF DEATH in Life; wittingly or not.

   And seriously, with half the nation on some kind of pain killer in the U.S., about a third of school age children assessed as type two pre-diabetic, and sky rocketing prescriptions of psychotropic drugs to fix a human who is living dead in life, with incredible somatic pains and emotional numbness as a result of repressing and having their human emotions oppressed by others; emotions becoming those somatic pains; why should anyone doubt this; but never the less they do.

   ‘They’ live in a real matrix, and perhaps one day they too, will save their selves in terms of all natural human heart, expressing that heart, as WELL in a balanced mind and body soul with emotional regulation, sensory integration; and much better cognitive executive functioning in focus and short term memory working like a finely tuned Human Ferrari as flesh and blood FEELING AGAIN.

   Anyway, answers to life are in disappearing human footprints on sands of all natural beach life.

   And no, I am no one special; most everyone else who has brought this message to the rest of the tribe has either been described as insane or a mythological man or woman GOD.

   So I relate it in every poetic way I can; and in all the multi-media ways that modern technology assists in as greatest artistic creative view of what human being can do.

   And every once in a while, i lay it all out like this, in more or less logical terms; when no one is really listening but folks like you, who seem to have a little more insight than the average COG in the machine of textbooks and school.

   This is truly a beautiful life for those who finally ‘hear’ it, ‘see’ it and most importantly FEEL IT.

   So sad that some human beings truly never even live, and are worried about what happens after they die.

   And we call ourselves the apex predator; Apex Blind Apes is closer to the truth. A run of the mill Bonobo understands and most importably FEELLS life in moving connecting and creating better than most CEO’s and Leaders of so-called free nations. Perhaps Obama is an exception; am still studying him; Smiles.

   And don’t worry, this is just a quick and wordy visit, I will not come in the future to drown your blog with words like this in the future.

   As Part of my Autism Spectrum Hyperlexic form of Gillberg Criteria Asperger’s syndrome, I read 10 to 15 times faster than the average human being and as a life long pianist with horrible dysgraphic handwriting , I have the fortune of typing around 130 words a minutes, when properly focused; so this is just a sigh for me.

   Extremely High IQ can be a gift or curse. I keep the gift and spit out the curse.

   Smiles, and have a nice day friend. I come here innately, instinctually and intuitively, and I shut the door here now, in a continuing Heart expressing Spirit of Unconditional Tough and Passionate Love as Human Soul, with mind and body balance in harmony and FEELING CONNECTION with the rest of Nature AKA GOD.

   It is what people like me through history have always done, walking through villages, towns, and cities, clothed in hidden and expressive eyes of GOD OF ALL THAT IS..:)

   AND YEAH, AGAIN I am ‘smart’ enough to feel that GOD exists with 100% faith as God is me and GOD is YOU AND GOD IS us; SOME folks think they know it; some folks think they don’t know it; and there is feeling it 100%, with no doubts at all.

   Imagine life with zero illusory fears and zero illusory anxiety; able to do amazing things that none of your peers can do. I evidence that my friend and share this heaven of now with the world, online.

   The philosophers of old are the real wise men as well as the philosophers of new with the same basic human Universal ALL Natural experience of living in balance with the rest of Nature as evolving now AKA God..:)

   Anyway, your blog here helps inspire these words of analysis my friend, and I thank you for that as a lifelong friend, whether or not I ever see your face or speak to you again; as that is just the natural evolving human WAY OF BEING now, when no longer separate from the the rest of THAT..:)

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3. katiemiafrederick says:

   August 11, 2015 at 12:54 PM

   http://xpoet73.blogspot.com/2015/08/this-present-alchemy-of-art.html

   ^^^

   We humans are an innately instinctually and intuitively creative animal that will build and share new creations in stuff others can see.. hear.. taste.. touch.. smell with other senses like proprioception and infinite nuances of emotions just for the love of each other and associated subsistence and survival if given the opportunity..

   Oh and so many of us.. are so separated from sensing and feeling.. what we do in our lives work for subsistence and survival.. where there are so often no human smiles and connections along the way of making life moving connecting creating ART.. instead of cold steel metal of machine in life..

   At least Zombies get a pArt of human in what they do.. and on a more macabre point people who cannot feel Love from others or express that Love often turn to violence and more macabre ways of making some.. any kind.. of human bloody connection.. oh.. the song of us.. can be so lonely and separated from us.. i’m just glad i have an opportunity to sing at all.. and most importantly connect in feet of flesh that dance a life of now..:)

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4. katiemiafrederick says:

   August 11, 2015 at 1:17 PM

   

   One of the greatest measurements of this Magic of Love in Human Creativity that i am exposed to in life is the Legend of Coral Castle and the reality of that place in Homestead Florida where a Latvian man spends 28 years alone building a castle in dedication to his ideal of his sweet sixteen girl friend who walks out on him in promise of marriage day when he is young.. all alone this man suggests that he learns the secrets of building the pyramids of old.. and builds this coral castle alone with blocks as big as 30 tons seamlessly placed together so well without mortar that no light will escape through the tonnage of bricks..

   And the Legend pArt of this great Art inspired by ideal of Love.. reports young people sneaking into watch him at night.. and seeing him somehow floating the big blocks like hydrogen balloons.. but the science of it suggests he uses a complicated leverage system.. him alone at a little over 100 LBS before his death.. in his 60’s.. accomplishing this great feat of human potential in working with Nature’s Laws of doing great ART in accord with those Laws of Nature..

   https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Coral_Castle

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5. katiemiafrederick says:

   August 12, 2015 at 12:03 PM

   ^^^

   A Seven year and seven month relationship in professional practice of mental health.. yes.. my Psychiatrist and I.. Henry he.. Fred me.. a long journey from the beginning.. well before I am actually diagnosed with the worst pain known to mankind… literally worse than actual crucifixion as described in medical literature.. named type two Trigeminal Neuralgia.. like a dentist drill in face without any novocaine for pain relief and in my case not the teeth but the right eye and ear.. making effective use of my eyes and ears almost impossible with almost intolerable pain.. and yeah.. that’s why they call it the suicide disease.. and additionally for me.. a total synergy of 19 medical disorders.. additionally ranging form Dysautonomia.. where my blood pressure and heart rate will no longer synch properly under control of autonomic nervous system.. to Sjogren’s Syndrome where my eyes quit making tears.. making reality a nightmare like swimming in salt water with eyes wide open.. as well as Spinal Stenosis and accompanying Severe Degenerative Arthritis.. precipitated by a congenitally fused vertebra in my neck… as well as congenitally closed up sinuses associated with the Trigeminal Neuralgia.. where the ENT who does the CAT SCAN asks how do you breathe… and at the time I’m THINKING duh.. through my mouth.. what do you think.. mostly.. after all.. i am born this way baby.. through no fault of my own.. or anyone else.. as stuff happens in life.. and then there is PTSD.. Severe Depression.. Anxiety and accompanying Anhedonia.. as well as associated Alexithymia.. and other substantial challenges that round out the 19 I am diagnosed with then.. well.. except for the fact it takes almost two years to get diagnosed with Trigeminal Neuralgia.. as type two that lasts during all waking hours is so rare.. where most people wanna end it all just experiencing the pain a few times a month.. if that much.. yes.. it’s worse than any migraine headache imaginable.. in fact a migraine headache is relief for the pain I experienced for 66 months.. but nah.. there is not a drop of water of relief in human hell… so yeah.. why am I always happy living life to the max.. I know what it feels like to die in life.. and I’m sorry if you are my friend and you have to hear this again.. but here’s the thing.. 1.2 million folks have viewed my stuff just on my Google avenues of communicating the art of what I do.. and all those years.. i can never find anyone.. anywhere.. in the entire world offline or online who is even diagnosed with type two chronic all waking hours Trigeminal Neuralgia.. and i will be a cold hearted dude.. if I do not do my best to reach out.. in the rare possibility that someone might read this some time they stumble across my stuff on an Internet search and it might give them just enough hope in possible recovery.. seeing someone else recovered.. where they decide not to commit suicide and try to live just another now.. for the real potential that almost anything is possible in this human life.. when folks tell you the impossible will never ever happen.. and my psychiatrist.. suggests stuff I know will not work before the root cause of the pain is diagnosed two years into our patient.. doctor relationship.. but he allows me to use my best judgement on what will be good for me.. and eventually GOD provides the all innate.. instinctual.. and intuitive cures.. that now continue to follow.. in outstanding health and happiness.. beyond my wildest expectations and imagination before.. i hold no bars against what is possible in life.. and I WILL CONTINUE to pursue the greaTest of human potential for me in this lifetime.. no matter how different that my be from the practice in life of others.. and if folks do not like the way I count my blessings.. of course they are not required to look.. smiles.. but I love this life.. cherish it.. and truly worship the GOD of Nature inside us.. outside us.. above so below.. and all around us.. all the time now.. giving respect where respect is due for ALLTHATIS AKA GOD.. AND ALL GOD’S CREATION AND CHILDREN.. INCLUDING HUMANS DARK AND LIGHT.. IN HEART.. SPIRIT.. SOUL.. AND WHATEVER ELSE MAKES THE ENTIRE HUMAN AND REST OF NATURE SOUP WHAT IT IS NOW..:)!

   And here is what a finely tuned healthy Fred looks like.. and truly when I say LET’S GET WEIRD i mean that.. as no one can beat me now.. as far as i know.. on the weird factor of surviving life against impossible odds.. and i do more than survive.. i THRIVE ALIVE.. AS WEIRD AS HELL.. IN REAL LITERAL HUMAN HEAVEN NOW.. AND HEAVEN YES.. I PROVE IT EVERYWHERE I GO.. to the joy of some.. and the chagrin of others.. and that’s the way life goes.. in ups and downs.. but I master those ups and downs.. with much greater.. physical and emotional intelligence of emotional regulation.. sensory integration.. greater cognitive executive functioning through enhanced focus and short term working memory AKA my practice of a free style balancing act of martial arts and ballet like dance walk everywhere i go.. getting close to 4000 miles.. as will happen now in the 24th month after the start of this human dance journey.. in a week or so from now..:)

   And yeah.. a post about the state of mental health in the U.S. as truly an expert in the field myself.. at this point in life.. in fact.. my Psychiatrist Henry who is quitting his practice in Crestview is moving to Orlando to teach and he tells me today that my own personal cure of dancing in leverage and balance to make my way to well being.. is inspiring enough to him.. where he is going to incorporate TAI CHI Movement Therapy into his mental health field of teaching.. so yeah.. at least folks in the know are listening to my story.. and I guess that makes it all worth it to tell it over and over.. as yeah.. it cured me.. so why not others.. and most people view me as so deliriously happy.. i can’t be sane.. but yes.. oh yes.. I am the sane one now.. and my psychiatrist totally agrees with THAT.. IN professional analysis.. no matter what the folks who are not in the know AND FEEL think they FEEL and know about living life the best it can be as a free and wild human being ferAlly civilized again!..:)

   Yeah.. I am passionate about THIS.. AND TRUST ME if you walk in my shoes just one second then.. I’m sure you will understand it much better too.. smiles.. and I truly hope no one.. YES no ONE ever has to walk in real life hell shoes like that.. and I will do ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING TO PREVENT THAT.. in my GREATest human potential to my last GRASP FOR BREATH.. FOR LIVING AND THRIVING THIS LIFE ALIVE.. AND NEVER EVER DEAD IN LIFE AGAIN!..:)

   Oh and finally after my expression of creativity is reduced and reduced on the Wrong Planet and finally banned.. i find it amusing that the more ‘high classed’ folks on the Poetry site I frequent online ask me politely to conform to their ideas of what modern poetry should be and I politely tell them no I will create as I like.. and then they continue to impose guidelines on restrictions now on what will or will not be deleted that is shared there.. tailored to the multi-media poetry I do.. to restrict it further.. but what they do not understand is the gifted child in school gets bored and wants to do more..

   I can write a poem that meets their requirement every five minutes.. without thinking at all.. linked with one paltry photo.. and sure I will do that in addition to this.. and just use their poetry for inspiration to write more.. and if they all decide to ban me.. from posting.. to their individual poetry sites.. which is the worst they can do to me.. I will read and get inspired and write it to my own blog without sharing it there if they individually decide to do that.. by deleting my posts or whatever..

   but anyway.. the person who starts the whole dam thing is my supporter and understands that new art is most always discouraged that breaks a mold of old.. and yeah.. the history of that is ripe with discouragement all over the place in the art world..

   and on top of that.. i publish for free online.. and do it all for the ZEN bliss of doing the art itself.. there is nothing they can take away from me.. as they continue to discourage others from pursuing their dreams of creativity.. by limiting it further and further.. SOME humans love to make other humans conform to their ideas of what is order in life..

   But nah.. i for one.. am NOT afraid of ANY one’s freedom of expression from the so-called finest arts.. to what folks describe as the dirt of human pornography that is just another gift of ART from GOD that humans rule as evil.. while GOD Googles a Giggle AT their subjugating controlling butts.. in metaphor and reality too.. as we are all eyes of GOD who can see through the lies of human when we seek the GOD answers all FREELY available within HUMANS AS WE FIND THAT TRUTH AND LIGHT FOR US DIRECTLY FROM GOD WITH NO CULTURAL/RELIGIOUS INTERVENTION..:)

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