Grandfathers never met but heard and felt

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Capturing Light IN trees.. IS heArt..
Dove.. Sun.. yes.. TREE AS fuLL..
as i imagination and creativity..
human being be’s eyes
Nature True.. tHere
NO limits.. human
imagination and
creativity..
clearly
SPELLS
human
Magic..
as real..
as real
can be NOW..:)

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i never meet my Paternal Grandfather

or Maternal Grandfather..

the first is a Catholic Priest

who becomes a Protestant Christian Evangelist..

Noted Author.. and Editor of a Christian Missions Magazine..

dying at age 55 from cancer in 1950.. however..

i can Google his books to meet him now..

whenever and wherever i like..

his most noted book named..

“Behind the Dictators”..

full version from 1942..

available for free

on the Internet in PDF version..

Oh.. the Joy of modern technology..

bringing the dearly departed back to life..

for those of us who never see them or meet them..

and yes as you know.. as a late bloomer at age 50..

about 5 years ago.. i like to write.. a WHOLE LOT..

numbering 11 million words on the Internet

at O this point.. of my life.. as many

words as someone authoring

somewhere around 13.6

full version revised

bibles

in 56 months..

with my longest

free verse epic post..

written recently..

including comments..

designed as the FULL

body of that post

at 24K words

in a day.. titled

‘Tsunami of Love’..

also found on Google for free..

for anyone.. hehe.. with a powerful enough

computer to open it up.. with all the multi-media

photos and videos added in.. THAT as a new

technological potential.. fulfilled..

in communicating messages

in visual moving and still images..

auditory.. songs.. and written.. yes..

in freest verse poetic expressions…

And then there is my Maternal Grandfather..

i never see his face.. as he is the black sheep

of the maternal family.. dying at age 49..

from cancer.. like my Paternal

Grandfather.. he a smart

accountant.. and fiddle player..

but eventually becoming a drifter.. half shaven..

visiting my mother’s school.. dirty.. like a hobo..

my mother ashamed of his visit.. sadly in her words then..

as a young girl.. no photos of him.. and to be honest.. i cannot

remember his first name now.. only his last name.. and that is truly sad..

as the outcasts fall off the earth.. like they never exist at all..

but you know what I FEEL..

THAT Grandfather..

perhaps..

influences me most..

to ever arrive at all these words now..

and some kind of mark left on this world..

with no children by me and wife.. surviving physically..

as i DO inherit THAT dark side.. that pain.. that

dark night of the soul from him.. within..

there is no doubt.. as it does not exist

on my Paternal side of the family..

where everything’s a breeze..

everyone is happy and

thriving in life..

but yes..

i’ve livEDEvil..

the Dark Night of the Soul..

and there seems to be.. for me..

no inspiring grandfather.. either past

or present in our soul.. that the dark grandfather..

with no name.. who lives inside.. and fuels us to live..

like no one we ever know or FEEL before..:)

As i told you.. your ‘Gram’.. which i assume

is your Maternal Grandmother..

looks very much

like my Maternal

Grandmother.. and

as you relate here..

your family

has the broad

forehead.. well..

so does my father..

his father.. my Paternal

Grandfather.. foreheads  almost as big

as other human heads all together from top to bottom..

haha.. yes.. Godzilla Heads.. but yeah.. a lot of stuff just waiting

to come out.. my Paternal Grandfather gets it all out.. sadly..

my father gets little of it out.. as a patriarchal oriented law

enforcement officer for 46 years.. but yeah.. i get it..

ALL OUT.. with MUCH MORE TO COME..

hehE.. smiles.. winks.. and those heart symbols too..

and as always my friend Rafiah.. thanks for the inspiration..

as we can all be each others Grandmothers and Grandfathers..

of Wisdom and Love.. or as you say Uncles in Pakistan..

if we just open up and share what we understand

and FEEL of life.. and that is the Beauty of Blogs..

where there are plenty of Uncles and Aunties out there

to connect to in an extended tribe

and family of ONE WORLD

of eyes and ears..

to RAISE THE WORLD UP and US..

instead of knocking each other down.. where the lowest

outcast like me.. a shut in for 5 long years.. can come out of that too..

and while not playing a fiddle.. become a dancing.. singing..

and writing guy too.. with a dear friend from Pakistan..

which makes all of the dark of life worth it..

just to connect to another human

being with Unconditional

Tough and Passionate

Love of the

Allah Kind

and Courage

my friend..

as well as the dark soul of cross in night..

that Allah does gift US.. as well..

for the greaTEST Lights of Life..

as WELL WITH

LIVING WATER OF ALLAH..:)

YES.. BLACK PEARL..

et al.. that’s

quotable too..;)

Quote:

“LOL. Your title

is code for “real f-ing sex.”

Yeah.. you ThINK YOUR PAIN IS bad..

and.. YES.. i seriously FEEL for YOU Black Pearl, ET AL..

as i have this FEELING YOU MIGHT BE literAlly

giving me ‘the real’ on THAT migraine..

but never the less.. OMG..! not only do ‘i’

have to save this world by turning everyone back

into Bootie Dancing Bonobos.. playing the role

of Angel and Devil same.. IN JUST ONE LIFE! yes..!

MOTIVatE these silly.. repressed.. oppressed..

naturAlly sexy.. human being beasts..

back to BONOBO HUMAN AGAIN!.

AFTER THIS GOD GIVEN mission is over.. BAP BOOM..! I GET DROPPED IN ANOTHER World.. have to learn everything about IT.. and save IT too!.. before the WHOLE DAM CYCLE STARTS AGAIN.. BUT OMG! IT IS SO THRILLING TO BE ME.. IN ALL THE DARK AND LIGHT AND PAIN.. PLEASURE.. THAT CAN BE.. LIVING ALIVE! IS WORTH THE PRICE OF DYING SOMENOW OR THEN..:)

And yeah.. that’s the price of being my friend..

LEARNING MORE AND MORE secret
stuff
about me..
that ain’t so
secret
any more..
as all anyone
ever has to do
is ask.. as i
ain’t got no
secrets to
hide @ALL..;)

And OMG! that Black Pearl
thingy gETs my heArt beating
fast just like my old
friend WHITE
PEARL DOES..
YES.. obviously
you just don’t
go and
read folks
stuff and
just say
this poem
is nice.. to
get more likes
on your blog
count..
you are
FinREAL
007 and
6 too..
with or
WITHOUT
THAT SEX THINGY..:)..

AND US REAL ET’S..
WE DON’T GIVE
A CRAP ABOUT
THE BILL
DEF
OF THE WILD
THINGY.. OUR KIND
OF LOVE IS ALL GIVING..
JUST GIVING.. RECEIVING
IS SO OLD NEW SCHOOL.. ANYWAY…:)
‘WE’ find the women of earth HIGHLY
ALLURING BUT IF WE MATE WITH
THEM WE GET IN
REAL FLESH
AND BLOOD
TROUBLE..
SO WE WATCH
WE WATCH..
JUST WATCH…

YEAH.. IT’S BEEN ALMOST TWO YEARS
AND HONESTLY I DO NOT MISS ‘THAT’ AT ALL
AND HONESTLY MY WIFE NEVER
MISSES IT TO BEGIN WITH..
YES.. THE ETERNAL
NEVER AGING
PURE VIRGIN SHE
IS WITH OR WITHOUT
SEX.. AND THAT
IS THE ORIGINAL
BIBLE
DEF OF
THAT
ANYWAY..

LIKE I SAY..
NO
SECRETS
BABY.. i
AM AN
OPEN
BOOK(S)
OF WORDS
HEHE!.. my wife
on the other hand
might not be so
happy about me
airing our STUFF
IN PUBLIC
BUT
AS
always she
tolerates
my greater
purpose..
as that is
her purpose
too.. and mission
in life of course..
the wind behind
the ALL THIS STUFF..:)

or that song..
yeah.. THIS SONG..;)

And seriously.. even if I am successful in helping to
assist human beings in returning to their natural
ALL Loving Bonobo Nature of Sharing
and Just giving..
and Loving
each other
to Survive..
i will credit
my wife, ET AL..
NEVER me.. and
if i am lucky she
will be my wife
in the next
world
we
HELP
SAVE..:”)

AND YES.. MY NEW AND OLD
FRIEND(S) ‘BLACK AND WHITE
PEARLS’.. you guys/gals/et al..
are a breeze
from
heaven too…;”)

And in the next world
i hope to meet
yoUr heArts..
spiRits
and soUls
AGAIN
AND
AGAIN..
ETC..ETC..
ASFRIENDS..:)

Yeah.. OMG!
the BILL CLINTON
DEF OF SEX
IS JUST
SO
MESSY..
like you
say a pill
to get
pregnant
and all
of THAT..
AND O GOD..
I AM SO GLAD
TO BE A MALE..
NO WATERMELONS
COMING OUT
OF MY
PRIVATE
PARTS
OR ALL
THAT OTHER
CRAMPING
STUFF..;)

Like I say
ET before
and now
again ET..:)

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Quote:

“That’s the brilliance of writing the way you do.

You look like a nut-job because most people aren’t really paying attention.

So here you are, airing your secrets like crazy, and I’m the only one who gets it. LOL :)”

Well.. BLACK PEARL.. you know and FEEL.. i come to dVerse.. online.. or shall i say i am led tHere.. yes i will.. like everything else in my life.. as i escape culture and religion and truly tune into the lessons of GOD and signs that are OH MY GOD everywHere onE looks and sees in life.. inside.. outside.. above so below.. and ALL AROUND LIKE THAT…

i am in this other dimension of life.. on a short three month break from college in 1981.. at age 21.. the bliss is tHere thee same bliss now.. with unlimited energy to do however and WHATEVER i am led by spirit within.. TO JUST DO IT..:)

The thing is.. back at age 21.. MOST everyone considers it insane.. and while i dO NOT then.. the fear is always somewhere hidden in me.. that hey! maybe the other folks are correct and one day perhaps i will be insane.. but anyway.. after not sleeping for three days then.. and my mother getting me all checked out in that ‘other place’ for three days.. THEN..

The doctors consider me truly an enigma.. top notch.. top of the class student.. working to get through college.. and there is no label or category of mental illness they can put me IN.. SO they let me go..

YEAH… THANK GOD! LABELS FOR ME ARE NON-EXISTENT THEN.. PARTICULARLY THAT ASPERGER’S ONE I GET LABELED WITH IN MIDDLE AGE.. as there ain’t nothing disabling for what

I AM NOW.. other than illusions of deceit in culture and religion AND SO.. IN STUFF LIKE THAT.. NOW.. WELL TG.. out of grasp now OF THAT.. to take me down.. AGAIN..:)

Well.. my GOD.. it’s simple.. it’s a vision quest that MANY open minded wild eyed humans go through.. when escaping the lies of religion and culture.. to find eyes and ears of GOD within..

AND i listen and SEE.. that voice carefully in my heArt and soUl expressed as spiRit.. that has no words then.. an amazing experience that absolutely no one i know AND FEEL.. in my small Fundie town can relate to.. then..

But my Grandfather’s genius in the Catholic Church will not be wasted on robes of Gold.. instead he impregnates a 17 year old Cajun girl.. out OF his local run parish.. in Taylor County Florida.. first married a year.. before consummating THAT..THEN BEFORE THAT.. HE GETS excommunicated.. of course.. from THAT CATHOLIC CHURCH..

AND my father one of two offspringING identical twins..

looking a little bit like cool ice vampires..

in senior class photos.. is truly an amazing cool and handsome

LAW-ENFORCEMENT dude.. WHO always has women working for him LIKE JAMES BOND.. as the secretaries at work often ‘drool’.. TO write all his reports for him.. of all TYPES then..

AND never truly has to SEE SOME OF the darkness of life.. being handsome from day one to day last.. at 81.. other than the law-enforcment stuff.. that truly takes him into A darkest place OF ALL THAT he cannot even recognize numb without emotional expression of spirit.. almost.. at all… WITH his children.. at least…

And yeah.. he spends his entire life focusing on accumulating material goods.. and does so.. so.. on that.. in big world terms.. and yeah.. i appreciate THAT AS HIS EFFORTS now in inheritance as such..

WILL SURELY FUND.. my free style of BARD

epic free verse STUFF.. AS i ALWAYS pay

LASER FOCUS in class…

including every Monday..

at poetry class OVER AT dVERSE ONLINE..

And truly Bard and Epic Poetry Class is my favorite TWO.. but NOT surprisingly IN A TWITTER WORLD.. MOST everyone else seems to forget the importance of THAT ART STILL NOW IN MODERN TIMES.. that perhaps i and you may at some point be the only new age folks still with the fortitude.. and patience to GO out out on a limb.. LIKE THAT.. with no one listening to one THAT DAY..

As all my posts are designed not as a passing fancy.. but for ages.. to come.. with someone randomly stumbling across something of ‘MIND’ and FEELING of MINE expressing it all as i do in post to post..

IN A GOOGLE SEARCH SPELLing IN/CORRECTLY THIS OR THAT.. THAT MAY SPARK SOMETHING.. ANYTHING.. IN COLD DEAD HEART.. AS EVERY ‘MISTAKE’ I MAKE IS A CALCULATED MOVE IN ART.. REASON.. IMAGINATION.. AND CREATIVITY.. WITH ONE ‘WHO’ LIVES WITHIN WHO NEVER FAILS.. AT THAT MISSION AS IS.. NOW.. AS GUIDING LIGHT WITHIN..:)

Anyway.. i am having the time of my life.. NOW.. understanding clearly what the FUTURE WILL BRING.. with or without my existence as flesh and blood on this earthly terrain…

It’s nice to have someone to understand THAT.. but in the beginning i am offered no assurance that anyone but me will see the fruition of the whole OF ALL OF THIS..

AND AGAIN.. i am just dust in the wind.. but a powerful spirit energizes the spirit of THAT DUST FORCE LIVING WITHIN ME.. NAMELY GOD.. AS A THREE LETTER WORD.. OF A FORCE THAT IS BEYOND INFINITY AS KNOWNOW.. MY FRIEND..

AND AT A LEVEL OF IMAGINATION AND CREATIVITY AS ENTIRE FORCE THAT NO HUMAN OR HUMANS WILL EVER FULLY UNDERSTAND iNfiNitY FOREVERMORENOW.. AS that IS WHO HOW THAT
WHOLE thing WORKS..

Life is for creativity..

it’s as simple
as that..

And truly it is a NEVER ENDING story
of now.. THAT IS HEAVEN OF
NOW FOR THOSE
WHO WAKE UP
FEEL AND KNOW
NOW THAT NOW
IS ALL tHere
ever
ISISASAS
NOW.. NOW..:)

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22 Responses to Grandfathers never met but heard and felt

  1. black pearl says:

    that’s the price of being my friend
    that’s the price of being, my friend

    What a difference a com(m)a can make.

    “RECEIVING
    IS SO OLD NEW SCHOOL” … I love this thought. Yes. Give, give, give. That’s what keeps everything coming and going. That beautiful cycle. K/a/r/m/a.

    That’s the brilliance of writing the way you do. You look like a nut-job because most people aren’t really paying attention. So here you are, airing your secrets like crazy, and I’m the only one who gets it. LOL 🙂

    I agree with you that it would be way cool to be a dude and not have to carry or push out the babies. But at the same time, chicks GET to do that. I mean, it’s the most insane miracle of life! Now that I’m on the flipside of all that nastiness, I can really appreciate the beauty in what my body did. I mean, geez, my body made four humans! And they thrived inside and are still thriving, in large part to being breastfed for years.

    The second best reason to be a chick is that you are constantly attached to a pair of boobs. But I think it would be way fun to have a penis. 😛 I tell my husband that all the time … that if I had one, I’d never take my hands off it. LOL.

    • Quote:

      “That’s the brilliance of writing the way you do. You look like a nut-job because most people aren’t really paying attention. So here you are, airing your secrets like crazy, and I’m the only one who gets it. LOL :)”

      Well.. BLACK PEARL.. you know and FEEL.. i come to dVerse.. online.. or shall i say i am led tHere.. yes i will.. like everything else in my life.. as i escape culture and religion and truly tune into the lessons of GOD and signs that are OH MY GOD everywHere onE looks and sees in life.. inside.. outside.. above so below.. and ALL AROUND LIKE THAT…

      i am in this other dimension of life.. on a short three month break from college in 1981.. at age 21.. the bliss is tHere thee same bliss now.. with unlimited energy to do however and WHATEVER i am led by spirit within.. TO JUST DO IT..:)

      The thing is.. back at age 21.. MOST everyone considers it insane.. and while i dO NOT then.. the fear is always somewhere hidden in me.. that hey! maybe the other folks are correct and one day perhaps i will be insane.. but anyway.. after not sleeping for three days then.. and my mother getting me all checked out in that ‘other place’ for three days.. THEN..

      The doctors consider me truly an enigma.. top notch.. top of the class student.. working to get through college.. and there is no label or category of mental illness they can put me IN.. SO they let me go.. YEAH… THANK GOD! LABELS FOR ME ARE NON-EXISTENT THEN.. PARTICULARLY THAT ASPERGER’S ONE I GET LABELED WITH IN MIDDLE AGE.. as there ain’t nothing disabling for what I AM NOW.. other than illusions of deceit in culture and religion AND SO.. IN STUFF LIKE THAT.. NOW.. WELL TG.. out of grasp now OF THAT.. to take me down.. AGAIN..:)

      Well.. my GOD.. it’s simple.. it’s a vision quest that MANY open minded wild eyed humans go through.. when escaping the lies of religion and culture.. to find eyes and ears of GOD within.. and i listen and SEE.. that voice carefully in my heArt and soUl expressed as spiRit.. that has no words then.. an amazing experience that absolutely no one i know AND FEEL.. in my small Fundie town can relate to.. then..

      But my Grandfather’s genius in the Catholic Church will not be wasted on robes of Gold.. instead he impregnates a 17 year old Cajun girl.. out OF his local run parish.. in Taylor County Florida.. first married a year.. before consummating THAT..THEN BEFORE THAT.. HE GETS excommunicated.. of course.. from THAT CATHOLIC CHURCH..

      AND my father one of two offspringING identical twins.. looking a little bit like cool ice vampires.. in senior class photos.. is truly an amazing cool and handsome LAW-ENFORCEMENT dude.. WHO always has women working for him LIKE JAMES BOND.. as the secretaries at work often ‘drool’.. TO write all his reports for him.. of all TYPES then.. and never truly has to SEE SOME OF the darkness of life.. being handsome from day one to day last.. at 81.. other than the law-enforcment stuff.. that truly takes him into A darkest place OF ALL THAT he cannot even recognize numb without emotional expression of spirit.. almost.. at all… WITH his children.. at least…

      And yeah.. he spends his entire life focusing on accumulating material goods.. and does so.. so.. on that.. in big world terms.. and yeah.. i appreciate THAT AS HIS EFFORTS now in inheritance as such.. WILL SURELY FUND.. my free style of BARD epic free verse STUFF.. AS i ALWAYS pay LASER FOCUS in class… including every Monday.. at poetry class OVER AT dVERSE ONLINE..

      And truly Bard and Epic Poetry Class is my favorite TWO.. but NOT surprisingly IN A TWITTER WORLD.. MOST everyone else seems to forget the importance of THAT ART STILL NOW IN MODERN TIMES.. that perhaps i and you may at some point be the only new age folks still with the fortitude.. and patience to GO out out on a limb.. LIKE THAT.. with no one listening to one THAT DAY..

      As all my posts are designed not as a passing fancy.. but for ages.. to come.. with someone randomly stumbling across something of ‘MIND’ and FEELING of MINE expressing it all as i do in post to post..

      IN A GOOGLE SEARCH SPELLing IN/CORRECTLY THIS OR THAT.. THAT MAY SPARK SOMETHING.. ANYTHING.. IN COLD DEAD HEART.. AS EVERY ‘MISTAKE’ I MAKE IS A CALCULATED MOVE IN ART.. REASON.. IMAGINATION.. AND CREATIVITY.. WITH ONE ‘WHO’ LIVES WITHIN WHO NEVER FAILS.. AT THAT MISSION AS IS.. NOW.. AS GUIDING LIGHT WITHIN..:)

      Anyway.. i am having the time of my life.. NOW.. understanding clearly what the FUTURE WILL BRING.. with or without my existence as flesh and blood on this earthly terrain…

      It’s nice to have someone to understand THAT.. but in the beginning i am offered no assurance that anyone but me will see the fruition of the whole OF ALL OF THIS..

      AND AGAIN.. i am just dust in the wind.. but a powerful spirit energizes the spirit of THAT DUST FORCE LIVING WITHIN ME.. NAMELY GOD.. AS A THREE LETTER WORD.. OF A FORCE THAT IS BEYOND INFINITY AS KNOWNOW.. MY FRIEND..

      AND AT A LEVEL OF IMAGINATION AND CREATIVITY AS ENTIRE FORCE THAT NO HUMAN OR HUMANS WILL EVER FULLY UNDERSTAND iNfiNitY FOREVERMORENOW.. AS that IS WHO HOW THAT
      WHOLE thing WORKS..

      Life is for creativity..

      it’s as simple
      as that..

      And truly it is a NEVER ENDING story
      of now.. THAT IS HEAVEN OF
      NOW FOR THOSE
      WHO WAKE UP
      FEEL AND KNOW
      NOW THAT NOW
      IS ALL tHere
      ever IS
      AS IS
      NOW.. NOW..:)

  2. O.. DAM..
    i left out a part i like..
    Boobies..
    and
    honey
    skinned
    milk
    maidens..

    Perhaps i’ll get another
    anonymous blog
    and do erotic
    writings..
    i bet
    i will
    reAlly be
    good at that..
    smiles.. and winks..:)

  3. http://dversepoets.com/2015/08/03/pub-talk-non-standard-english-in-poetry/

    ^^^

    I love reading all the flavors of language that come through in English translations.. and the more complex they are to interpret the more i enjoy reading them time and time again.. to get to the meaning… the more complex.. the more interesting in my eyes.. and sometimes the complexity can just be in approximation of translation from one language to another..:)

  4. black pearl says:

    “But my Grandfather’s genius in the Catholic Church will not be wasted on robes of Gold.. instead he impregnates a 17 year old Cajun girl.. out OF his local run parish”

    Ha ha ha. That is a priceless story. Always, always snag a Cajun. They’re spicy. 🙂

    “and yeah.. i appreciate THAT AS HIS EFFORTS now in inheritance as such.. WILL SURELY FUND.. my free style of BARD epic free verse STUFF.. AS i ALWAYS pay LASER FOCUS in class” … I love this part.

    “EVERY ‘MISTAKE’ I MAKE IS A CALCULATED MOVE” So true!

    The Neverending Story is one of my favorite movies from childhood.

    • I’ve never seen the FULL ‘Never Ending Story’ before.. and i believe it comes out first in 1984.. i’ve been wanting to see it for decades.. and after purchasing it the other day.. on BLU RAY.. I’m gonna take a break and watch it tonight.. after finishing this post in a few.. and adding it to my other Blogger Blogs.. for my other readers there…

      And hell yes.. the Cajun Grandmother is a frigging fireball of energy.. business woman.. and has French Foreign Exchange students as Lovers into her fifties to sixties.. and that first marriage to the priest my Grandfather.. only lasts a few years.. and then she marries a Jewish Policeman guy.. and she is a hell of a character indeed.. dying of a massive heart-attack.. at age 69.. always having high hopes for my development as someone special in the work world.. but that is not ever for me.. as just living is enough.. with no special job at all.. AND OH GOD.. little did i know the job of JOB as far as surviving catastrophic physical illness in synergy of 19 will come my way later.. to literally survive for around 5 years.. with that.. as shut-in too..

      And even smaller do i know.. that my best years of life will be well after 50 years old.. as i watch my father vegetate on his easy chair as long as i can remember.. falling asleep in his chair every night watching TV.. as understandably his law enforcement job takes just about his whole life.. until he retires.. and then spends his time until his day of death.. at a flea market on the weekends.. selling Nascar Stuff.. Guns and Knives.. trading silver.. and the ‘normal’ variety of other red state stuff in the deep south way of fundamentalist MALE Life…

      And yes.. i do the same thing vegetating in front of a TV after work or a quick computer game.. for decades.. to always escape the rat race of life.. as most everyone does.. i guess.. to survive this strange cultural game of life.. where honestly most folks are cogs in a machine as a machine more or less..:)

      Nice to escape that.. after all of this is said and done.. my friend.. Black Pearl, et al.. and going to see the monthly marriage counselor at the beach.. with a little break away from online tomorrow with plenty of beach photos coming sometime after that in an unnamed post sometime after then.. and probably will be stopping by dVerse to read and comment.. but i don’t know if i will have time to contribute something different there.. depending on how strict the guidelines will be for forms of poetry or whatever..

      Anyway.. as always thanks for the visit friend.. and whenever you get a home base again.. as i’m thinking you are on vacation now.. i will be by to visit ‘your place’ too.. and i was just thinking after remembering seeing Shawna again.. i bet if you ARE a male in ‘another life’.. of course.. you will have a nice wife that looks just like U 2.. just like THAT.. as Shawna too.. as truly life is best when wife and husband can play together as one force of LOVE JUST LIKE THAT… MS. PEARL.. with Shawna too.. anyway give my love to your substantial other.. ‘they’ will have to be great to be married to you.. my friend.. and super nice too.. of course.. with smiles..:)

      And with all that said now..

      i will leave a note here with A
      SCREAM!

      MOON CHILD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!…;)!

  5. sreejaharikrishnan says:

    very Interesting write…some true writings leave you with not much to comment…..nice snaps….enjoyed the sky and the cat pics…

    • Thanks so much sreejaharikrishnan.. and i think that’s true.. i write in hopes of allowing folks to see a different point of view.. and not so much to get comments or likes from folks.. i just want to share what is in my heart.. however.. that may come each day.. to me from within.. in sharing with all the tools of technology of course.. to add to that.. with others folks.. smiles..:)

  6. Himali Shah says:

    Hello Fred, the pink flowers are so lovely and your dad is such a nice man.

    • Hello to you as well my friend Himali.. Sometimes the smallest things mean the most.. i suppose the Light in my Father’s eyes is his way of expressing Love.. and that is no small light or beautiful color of eyes for sure.. and you know Himali.. the way you kindly address me with the simple words Hello Fred.. Lights my Heart up.. as on this cold expanse of Internet road.. truly my friend i don’t think anyone has ever addressed me with a Hello anything.. as sad as that may be.. in school my friends always address each other with a Hello (name inserted).. as simple greeting of Human connection.. to do this online is to become human again.. my friend.. with smiles of course.. and proof that yes.. you my friend.. are Special.. too..:)

      • Himali Shah says:

        That is so sweet of you Fred.. I never knew that such a simple gesture could mean mean so much to anyone. I am touched. So, hello again. I hope you’re having a lovely day. How was your day at the beach ? I hope u guys had lots of fun 🙂

        • Hello Himali.. yes.. the trip to the beach is lovely fun.. with all the photos included in the next blog post after this one.. titled “Never Ending Story of Now”.. and yes.. i think it is the most beautiful beach in the world.. particularly as it is not too crowded in the way some beautiful beaches can be.. I hope your are having a wonderful day in now always my dear friend.. and will talk to you later.. with smiles of course..:)

  7. https://decodinghappiness.wordpress.com/2015/08/04/do-what-you-love/

    ^^^

    First of all.. i Love your painting that says in Magical colors of flowered heArt.. and rainbow colors of grass and more that “Love is magic One of a kind” by Himali.. with red outline of Heart as well.. and so often it is the strongest muse of Love either gained or lost that inspires the greaTEST ARTS of all or creation for the everyNOW grind of survival we see in Nature..

    And one of the greatest measurements of this Magic of Love in Human Creativity that i am exposed to in life is the Legend of Coral Castle and the reality of that place in Homestead Florida where a Latvian man spends 28 years alone building a castle in dedication to his ideal of his sweet sixteen girl friend who walks out on him in promise of marriage day when he is young.. all alone this man suggests that he learns the secrets of building the pyramids of old.. and builds this coral castle alone with blocks as big as 30 tons seamlessly placed together so well without mortar that no light will escape through the tonnage of bricks..

    And the Legend pArt of this great Art inspired by ideal of Love.. reports young people sneaking into watch him at night.. and seeing him somehow floating the big blocks like hydrogen balloons.. but the science of it suggests he uses a complicated leverage system.. him alone at a little over 100 LBS before his death.. in his 60’s.. accomplishing this great feat of human potential in working with Nature’s Laws of doing great ART in accord with those Laws of Nature..

    https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Coral_Castle

    And in Nature i am always inspired by the life’s work ART in Shell of Nautilus still preserved for five hundred million years in fossils as these relatively tiny sea creatures are some of the greatest artists of Nature as we still currently see .. and just to imagine how those first Nautilus Creature’s LIFE ART will not see the LIGHT of FuLL significance and meaning OF IT.. until humans discover it 500 million years later.. and see the same Golden Spiral Mean of 1.618 PHI in the intrinsic design of the Nautilus Shell with shape reflecting the human constructed 6 and 9 symbols of Numbers.. Galaxies.. Sunflowers.. Fetuses.. Hurricanes.. and the Curled Cat Asleep.. and truly reflecting the greatest ART of GOD THAT ALL IS Interdependently connected and related in our existence.. inside.. outside.. above.. so below.. and all around us..

    Yes.. from the Smallest Artisans of Life

    LIGHT greaTEST TRUTHS of Life
    that we my friend are ALL
    in this game of
    LIFE TOGETHER
    AND WHEN WE
    WORK TOGETHER
    AS LOVE WE
    DO
    MAKE
    AMAZING
    TRUE MAGIC
    IN LIFE AS IS
    FOR NOW!
    AND this story is
    my Friendship Day
    belated gift to you..
    My New Friend in Kind
    and Courage
    of Unconditional
    LOVE.. tHere
    need be no
    barriers in
    the power
    of this Love
    of miles
    or time..
    gender..
    age.. race..
    creed.. nationalism
    tribalism.. or any
    other differences
    that exist between
    human beings..
    and Coral
    Castle
    and the
    Nautilus
    are among
    my greaTEST
    Muses for
    JUST THAT..:)
    Oh.. and when the
    Beatles say
    ALL YOU
    NEED
    IS
    LOVE..
    and YOU my
    friend and
    ALL OTHERS
    OF COURSE
    ON THE
    LIGHT
    COURSE
    OF LOVE
    LIGHT
    LIFE!..:)

    Also too.. is it OK
    if i share your
    painting
    on my blog..?…:)

  8. From Facebook..

    ^^^

    Well.. Rafiah.. if it’s not part of the requirements for your graduation i wouldn’t be too worried about understanding the proper mathematical formulation of general relativity.. as truly how much of what we learn in school.. is really about living life day to now.. other than gaining some type of COG placement in a machine of culture to gain some food to eat.. and a shelter in support of a family unit… as general subsistence for survival.. along with the rest of the tribe to Nation.. to hopefully one world of tribe with GOD of Nature one day soon.. now..:)

    And you are never so-called ‘dumb’ dear.. not understanding one facet of manufactured human intelligence through abstract symbols.. is not nearly important as other kinds of human intelligence.. namely the emotional intelligence of physical intelligence and the existential intelligence of understanding.. feeling and expressing GOD as well as the emotion of LOVE and all the other emotions that in nuance are as expansive as Infinity and more.. just as the arts of human movement in dance in infinite ways of movement and senses are as an expression of that human nuanced emotion too.. and the intelligence of music and color.. that also reflects human emotions.. in living color and sound my friend… through human art in painting and composition of music.. and poetic lyrics of Heart as well.. as much greater potentials of many kinds of human intelligence far beyond the human manufactured cultural measures of so-called Standard measured cultural intelligence..:)

    And the simple equation E=MC2.. or Units of Energy equals MASS times the speed of LIGHT AKA Light itself squared.. is truly an

    Amazingly simple at core equation.. and so elegant in that simplicity.. as well as the numerical symbols that represent PI.. the ratio of the circumference of a circle to the diameter of the circle.. at 3.14 and PHI.. as the golden mean 1.618.. spiral flowing ratio seen all over nature as a signature of GOD’s GREAT interconnecting interdependently related CREATED AND PRODUCED ART.. WITH we as humans as actors of that biggest Play of GOD..:)!

    But here’s the thing.. time is relative.. Now is real.. Love is real.. and our connections with others and the rest of Nature AKA GOD is REAL TOO.. the symbols are just THAT.. symbols for the essence of TRUTH and LIGHT.. AND WE HUMANS NEED NO TEXTBOOKS or schools.. to have the greatest Intelligences of ALL both felt and expressed as the Kind and Courageous Unconditional Passionate LOVE as Manifest in human beings my friend.. and never ruled by school.. alone.. or cultures/religions…

    Stay Smart in LOVE.. the other stuff is just tattering wrappings of a box that can truly be a trap of culture.. and nothing much to do with what is REAL THE MOST AS GIFT OF ALLAH AS LOVE.. AT ALL….

    Science and math and all of that human developed abstract STUFF ATTEMPTS to describe the essence of Truth and Light in material reductionist terms.. but the Synergy of the Truth and Light that is MUCH MUCH GREATER THAN THE MATERIAL REDUCTIONIST SCRIBE OF THAT.. Lives in open minded eyes AND EARS.. of human beings.. as the eyes and ears of Allah GOD magnifies the stuff that truly counts in life.. manifest in human being.. and that is Loving Connections in human eyes AND EARS.. and all other emotions and senses.. both literal and metaphorical.. manifesting the highest power of the FEELING Universe THAT IS LOVE AS EXPRESSED AS HUMANITY TOGETHER MY FRIEND…

    SO YEAH.. the proper mathematical formulation of general relatively theory.. is just window dressing.. for what what truly speaks in souls of eyes of Humans.. as spirit manifest LOVE of ALLAH GOD reflecting and radiating from human souls in mind and body balance…:)

    There are lots of so-called ‘retarded’ folks who make the best grades in school.. who FAIL MISERABLY IN WHAT IS EVEN TRULY REAL IN LIFE.. and that is the true danger of the devil of school.. and CULTURAL Mechanical Cognition COG in machine WORK.. and even play like mechanical cognition video games.. including human languages.. collective intelligence.. and all stuff COMPRISing complex materialistic cultures..

    A path away.. this can be.. from Allah GOD and eyes and ears of GOD that allow us to FEEL EACH OTHER WITH FEELING EXPRESSION OF THAT IN FLESH AND BLOOD.. AND not empty structures of mathematical formulas.. or words.. and letters.. without human expression of flesh and blood emotions and senses to even LIVE and LOVE this life hand in hand with others and GOD..:)

    BUT WITH all that said.. thanks GOD for human culture too.. collective intelligence.. abstract language.. as recorded to get to THAT AS MY Air Conditioner in the Summer and Hot Water in the Winter.. and my nice soft bed sure does feel good.. but A KEY IS moderation and not getting too caught up in the comforts and stresses of mechanical cognition culture so much that we FORGET TO MOVE AND LOVE.. in SOCIAL COGNITION ..AND JUST BE KIND AND COURAGEOUS LOVING HUMAN BEINGS… AS IN ALL things a balance is TRUTH AND LIGHT.. of what is that constitutes our animal existence.. with the GOD of Nature..:)

    AND WITH ALL that said.. i am sorry you feel down about school.. and i will be saying prayers that you both feel better and get that more complicated equation down correct.. and if you need help i will tutor you online.. as soon as I give a feather about the more complicated mechanical cognition part of that..;)

    Chances are.. in five years.. nothing in your life will be remotely related to school.. per the theory of general relativity.. in more complex formulas.. as you enter MORE in the real test of life.. that is always Love my friend.. and with heart and ART that is only limited by human imagination and creativity in greater human potentials.. of expanding myriad intelligences beyond Standard IQ measures of that..:)

    #longwordedwindymewithloveofcourseoncouseintherealtestoflife
    #AKAHURRICANEOFWORDS

  9. ^^^

    Oh.. what a wonderful woman.. Kathryn IS.. our marriage counselor for over 2 years now.. helping me in the dead zone.. where she gives me a goal of just going into Whataburger for 15 minutes.. after being a shut-in with incredible illness for over 5 years.. back in July of 2013.. and a week later.. i am miraculously healed.. go to the beach.. and i can go anywhere and do anything.. i care to then.. and after 5 years.. of shut-in.. DEAD ZONE STATUS.. truly this woman is part of the blessings that do lead to my miraculous recovery.. and entry back into humanity.. as human being once again.. well.. she is leaving the area as her military husband is getting shipped off to California.. so this is our last visit with her.. and she leaves me with marriage duties.. in homework of cleaning out the work-out room.. fixing one of our computers.. and responding to the timer Katrina has for me.. when i am writing and i say i need ten more minutes.. before it is time to do whatever it is Katrina wants me to do.. as when a person gets in the creative spirit of writing or whatever other art they are doing in total flow and focus.. it can be hard to move onto the chores of life that must get done.. for subsistence.. and STUFF LIKE THAT.. that is required to survive.. but anyway.. she becomes more of our friend than marriage counselor at the end.. so we will miss her very much.. oh yeah.. and the other last homework.. is to put this in my next blog post.. so WHAT WILL BE WRITTEN WILL BE DONE..:)

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