AnD yes, Robin Williams expresses the GENERAL SAME SENTIMENT
OF HUMAN BEING, nicely in the DEAD Poet’s society,
“What will ‘yOur’ verse be…”
Hashed Browns get mighty STALE;
Kinda like driving a ‘UPS’ TRUCK all day;
I’LL GO FOR RAINBOW, and not some
pot at the end of
Sure, ‘we’ can make life science
or live life as ART; and again,
like I say; I choose A FULL
RAINBOW OF ART,
OF LIVING AND
DYING END AS GOAL,
ALONE, AS SCIENCE
Thanks for sharing a little history of the ‘Oldavid’. Interestingly, I too, experience a drought in desert of HOLY SPIRIT IN Creation Activity for 40 years, as well, from ages 13 to 53. Living in a world of mechanical cognition, am I then; and as mentioned before here, compared by others to a mind that works as a computer, rather than frigging FULL human being.
BUT the source of that desert, is a patriarchal fundamentalist Christian culture, where I live in the New Jerusalem in the U.S. OF FREEDOM for all of God’s melting pot children. IN New Jerusalem AKA Milton; fundamentalist extremist ways of oh NO! boys who smile and laugh are gay; and oh NO! anything graceful in art a boy does is gay; and a general scare of anything other than polar opposite gender roles, will be the end of the human RACE.
So yeah, while I’m doing an excited and spirited rendition of the Holy Spirit CreatION Activity of playing the GREAT SONG ‘JESUS CHRIST SUPERSTAR’; THAT NOW, AND then,
DOES NOT sit too well with the patriarchs of homophobe bully boys, men, girls, and women; as it asks questions and does not blindly follow the Catholic Cohorts of the Roman Emperor Constantine, who erase, BY NEVER ADDING, the so-called REAL GNOSTIC WORDS of Jesus,
IN 325 AD, out of the New T, and make ‘him’;
NOT CAPITAL HiM’;
into a soldier GOD, as King of the
OF PLANETS UNIVERSE,
UNKNOWN TO THEM,
OF COURSE then;
INSTEAD OF THE TRUTHS, of a Zealous
and OR Humble Yogi-Leaning Naturist teacher dude
more or less, as indicated in this oft provided link by me:
SO, to make a long story then, shorter, now; the crowd erupts into laughter as the dazed me from the Holy Spirit then, before the skill provided by GOD now, to always move in Golden Spiral balance comes, in the last couple of years; staggers off the stage to some degree then, and the crowd erupts into laughter like they do when they see a drunken clown clumsily walk.
And THEN, in the halls of middle school,
AS I smile brightly with a smile of GOD’s
gift of Unconditional Love grown
Strong by the same
Love of an ALL LOVING
AND NURTURING MOTHER;
the boys tell me in no uncertain terms,
if I do THAT, I am the F word,
and not FRED, and I will never deserve to live on this planet;
with UNCONDITIONAL LOVE OF GOD EXPRESSED IN SPIRIT.
WELL NO; those boys certainly are not poets;
but hate is easy to see, as promulgated
by Fundamentalist Christian
Patriarchal moms and dads; who tell their boys
to pull up their boot straps; and repress all those GOD given emotions
AND other ways of INNATE Divine human Grace Living AS Unconditional LOVE;
OR they will become little gay boys and men when they grow up, AND WILL BE BANISHED OUT OF SOCIAL ACCEPTANCE FOR SURE; a place of innate death in instinct and intuition, by any listening social animal to the reality of the culture of other social animals, at hand or claw.
So yeah; comply, adapt, and conform; or die is the only instinctual choice, at that point in social animal life.
Anyway, before that; I write a play for the school theater home room classes; an award winning Christmas Free Verse poetic expression IN STORY, for two home room classes; and generally smile and laugh a WHOLE lot EAR TO EAR;
BEfore GOD’S GREATEST GIFT OF HUMAN DIVINE CREATIVE
UNCONDITIONAL LOVING HOLY SPIRIT IS EXTINGUISHED
BY THE PATRIARCHAL FUNDAMENTALIST CHRISTIANS
WHO IN EFFECT AND AFFECT ARE TRULY ANTI-
CHRIST AGAINST LOVING IMAGINATIVE AND
CREATIVE GOD FORCE WITH
OPPOSING SPIRIT OF HATE
AGAINST MY GOD GIVEN NATURE
OF CHRIST LOVE GIFTED LIKE THAT
FROM BIRTH BY GOD AS UNCONDITIONAL
LOVE, AS THE ALL NATURAL HUMAN
ARCHETYPE OF ANGEL IN FLESH.
SO YEAH, after that I ‘wOndered’ the halls of the true insanity of mind
of human mechanical cognition for 40 long years; out of mind and body
balance; but yah; with straight A’s, three college degrees, all the i’s and t’s
of details dotted and crossED perfectionist skills through almost A quarter
of a century with a fine penciled and noted Government Federal Civil Service
Career; until finally the chronic social stress of not
BEING A FREE CHILD OF GOD
TAKES ITS TOLL AND THE DEVIL OF
CULTURE BECOMES EMBODIED IN ME; AND THE
RESULT OF, in 2008, is close to 40 days of human hell without sleep, and all the 19
medical disorders I have detailed here time and time again; included the worst pain
known to mankind; type two trigeminal neuralgia, like a dentist drill without novocaine;
but in my case, in eye and ear, making effective use of hearing and seeing almost impossible
without intolerable pain for 5 long years; yes, a pain described in medical literature as worse than
Crucifixion becomes minE from wake to sleep; not for several hours or even three days; 5 long years
is my blessings from life and the GOD of dark and light; to learn all about human misery, suffering, and
attempt to teach the rest of the sheep a way to avoid literal human hell in real life for NOW. So yeah, there
are 40 years in ‘desert’ of wandering the mechanical cognition of “Moses” for me; 40 days in the desert of
“Jesus”; only 1 hour of extremely shallow sleep aided by a powerful alpha blocker for the first of 35 of 40 days,
until no sleep with any aid the last 5 of 40, when the ‘angels’ and ‘demons’ of GOD fight within me to tempt me to
END ALL THEN, AND JUST GIVE THE WILL OF SURVIVAL UP;
NO DIFFERENT REALLY THAN THE STORY OF JOB DURING
SHUT-IN, ‘HUNCH BACK OF NOTRE DAME’,
IN A BEDROOM FOR 5 LONG YEARS;
WITH ALL EMOTION, INCLUDING FAITH,
HOPE, BELIEF, AND RELATIVE HUMAN FREE WILL,
AND FRIENDS, GONE FOR ME; WITH NO HUMAN CONNECTION
PHYSICALLY POSSIBLE WITH IMMEDIATE FAMILY MEMBERS;
SO I TURN TO WRITING TO ESCAPE A PAIN;
THAT NO HUMAN DRUG WILL TOUCH, AND THAT
STARTS on Thanksgiving day, 2010; and I add a bright eyed baby picture of me when I still have a human soul, heart, and spirit in bright eyes expressed, on Christmas Day, as avatar in 2010; as a goal to become AGAIN then; when each word typed is excruciating eye pain; even with the screen turned all the way down in brightness, with my nose upon it; as prescription glasses clear or tinted with the focus and nerve associated issues; turn up the pain like any torture chamber can.
God gifts me again, with the Holy Spirit Creative flow precisely five years from the beginning of my 40 day lent sojourn to hell of no sleep, in 2008, 60 months later in March of 2013; all still documented here for purview in realtime then, as well
as my blogs starting in March of 2013.
So yeah, I could go the round of our friend ‘Edward Palamar’ here; I guess and start applying biblical significance
with all these 40’s, fives, Job, Deserts, Lent, and all of that; including my birthday on 6-6-60; but no; I know better to fall in that devil’s trap of
thinking, truly thinking, I am any one any more special; than anyone else on GOD’s green and Blue
earth of Nature; who has simply met the challenge of life and come out on the other side born
again, in the metaphor of creative holy spirit alive again; and particularly for me now;
in fearless mind and body balance of relative human free will as co-creator with
GOD; same as all the other folks who are born again with the eyes of the
curious and ever playful child who plays with GOD with eyes, souls,
hearts, and expressed spirit of the FORCE OF GOD LIKE THIS
AS HUMAN CREATIVE SPIRIT WITH NO
LIMITATIONS FOR ME
aND NO EXPECTATIONS TO
MEET FROM ANYONE ELSE BUT ME AND
GOD TOGETHER AS ONE TRULY
AND You know what, I can play Jesus Christ Super Star
with even wild eye hip gyrating belly dancers to
accompany THAT NOW, and there are no silly
little homophobes of patriarchal Christians who
CAN STOP ME NOW BABY;
AS I NOW AM
A TOTALLY FREE CREATIVE
INSTRUMENT FOR AND
WITH THE GOD
OF FORCE OF
NOW, ‘just’ NOW.
dance naked and
celebrate GOD, as long
as I do it, in adult restricted
link; and of course comply
with all local, state and
federal laws; to always
give ‘CAESAR’ STILL,
WHAT IS ‘HIS’
NOW to go full circle to 3500 years ago,
when populations are relatively small then,
and extended families are the difference
between surviving or not; most of those
3500 year old patriarchal rules; though
strict, repressive and oppressive, are not
much fun to many of those, with different
natures, in culture; but never the less, as
I learn in my 40 sleepless stay; survival
and the WILL TO SURVIVE
IS GOD’S GREATEST
GIFT OF TOUGH UNCONDITIONAL LOVE TO
COMPLETE THE POTENTIAL OF HUMAN BEING
TO SURVIVE AND
COOPERATE TO LIVE AND
THRIVE. SO YES, THE BIBLE HAS GOD GIVEN
SURVIVAL MERIT IN MORE COUNTS THAN
JESUS BRINGS A NEW TESTAMENT; THAT TRULY
ISN’T READY FOR PRIME TIME THEN; AS IT PROMOTES
FREE AND LOVING RELATIONSHIPS WITHOUT EVEN THE
CULTURAL NECESSITY OF MARRIAGE IN POLAR GENDER
NOW, we have 7 billion humans; the New Age is here;
and now humans can truly be free by reproducing
or NOT; as they freely choose to live. Populating
humans while the common sense goal then;
is no longer the way to go; as resources
are growing thin; but alas do
NOT WORRY; AS ALWAYS
THE GOD OF NATURE IS
IN CONTROL; WE HAVE
ALL ACCESSIBLE FREE
MAKE SEX A COMMON
AND VANILLA THING;
that even science shows
now that folks are losing
interest in, not only severely
in Japan; but steadily in the U.S.;
as well; and overall population rates
are going down all over the Western World.
Trust me, there is nothing sexier and more taboo;
than being presented with WOMEN from a young age
with everything covered up but bright and shining
eyes; the imagination and fantasies are simply
bliss that originate from that; all the way to
72 virgins awarded upon martyrdom for
suicide bombers, as such. Uncover
those women and expose all the
males and females to a commercial
world of sex; and the birth rate will
fall in those places of sex-intoxicated
fantasies, with a law to reproduce now,
as well. Humans thrive, increasing in population,
with the laws of intermittent gratification utilized;
when instant gratification becomes the rule of life;
folks are no longer nearly as excited to actually go DO
all the sticky and messy business, and threats of STD’s
TO do the actual wild thing;
And of note; the last evidentiary link clearly indicates that when the work of life, overall, is reproducing for survival,
even in primitive tribes with no fundamentalist Abrahamic religions to boot; there are not even any words for
homosexuality or masturbation in the language. The ‘work of the night’ is what folks do to survive; and
from sexual maturity there are willing members of the opposite sex; that seem to keep folks inline
in the gender opposites of doing the wild thing; with no fetishes observed; not even masturbation.
But again; humans will do the laws of the culture when it comes to survival; the will usually find a
way to conform and comply; as the other option is more or less death away from the social
unit and cooperation necessary for survival, when there is no teat of modern culture and
technology to suck on,
AS in all stuff in GOD’s big Universe; there is light mixed in dark and dark mixed in
light for fifty shades of grey; a colorful world of art; or the ‘work of the night’
mostly in the missionary position
ALL I CAN SAY IS, humans and GOD
all TOGETHER OBSERVED WITH A TOTALLY
OPEN MIND LIKE MINE; IS A FASCINATING
AND REWARDING LIFE
TO be closed minded for me; is the equivalent
of death of human soul, heart and spirit
to me now; I ain’t going back to
the Desert OR
THE LIFE OF
FOR I AM ONE FREE
WITH THE ONE GOD
OF ALL FIFTY SHADES OF
GREY; AND COLORS OF ART
IN ART AND NEVER EVER
CLOSED SYSTEMIZING SCIENCE
MIND ALONE AGAIN IN THE DESERT
OF MECHANICAL COGNITION
WITH LITTLE SOCIAL
IN THE fuller IMAGINATIVE, AND
CREATIVE, physical intelligence
of emotions regulated, senses
integrated, greater COGNITIVE
EXECUTIVE FUNCTIONING IN
focus and short term
with all the
in a rhythm
of connected bliss
in the rave dances I attend now,
with thriving young folks, living
free as evolved; not unlike my
primitive Native American
Ancestors dancing naked
and free with the rhythms
of Drums of GOD in song
and beat, DANCING WILD
AND FREE under the
SO LIFE IS FUN;
HOW ABOUT YOU.
What do you really do
to thrive and live
THERE ARE INNUMERABLE
WAYS TO DO IT IN BLISS,
BEYOND THE STRIFE
AT LEAST in FREE
LIKE THE U.S.
So yeah, ‘you’ ask WHAT LIFE IS;
if you ask BIG QUESTIONS;
YOU CAN EXPECT
AT LEAST, FROM
FOLKS WHO STILL
FULLY RECOGNIZE THE
QUESTION AND ANSWERS, AND
MOST IMPORTANTLY CAN STILL
Modern Twitter minds are the
poison of deeper STILL
minds; mine still
for me is no word.. no lesson..
no instruction.. just the water am i..:)
And the master is the practice as
i do in life..
whether it is
and intuitively sparring with metal machines..
rather than flesh and blood.. with the arms and legs am i..
or the words that flow like this.. with little instruction or lesson..
other than flowing and reviewing the flow later..
for the subconscious mind to correct as it pleases for the next flow of kicks or words..:)
Ah.. just to walk and talk confidently in grace.. without fear.. is a best to avoid conflict in life…
A way of all natural instinctual intuitive Kung Fu and or water is a way for i..:)
But right now.. i am just informed that my DOD retiree plan.. forgets to mention
i must get covered under medicare part B.. to be covered under my retiree plan..
Unfortunately Kung FU will not solve that.. but my lawyer brain will find a way….;)
Yes.. there are many obstacles in this modern world we live in..
to live as Kung FU in grace.. practice.. and peace..
but yes.. we can try as best we can..
to get by and adapt and
survivors always do..:)
Anyway thanks.. ‘Bill’… in this now.. i need this
REMINDER OF SOUL.. in a moment of almost getting mad..
at the system of red tape culture.. as still is.. so hard to escape..:)
Back to ‘Bruce Lee’ life i’ll go again at peace.. and grace.. with all natural
water flowing style..:)
Yes.. the way WE honor NOW.. in Unconditional Love as Light..
and all related senses.. emotions.. and thoughts..
in Positive Action as THAT..
opposed to hate as dark..
and all related thoughts.. emotions.. and senses..
in negative action as THAT.. IN Gift as NOW..
presenTed to US.. by Allah True..
AS Blessings PRESENT..
BECOMES consequence as NOW..
WE make wITh Allah..
for NOW to come.. here.. after NOW.. always NOW..
as all we kNowNOW.. with in.. and out.. breath.. as NOW..:)
Ah yes.. the friendly measure of discomfort loves company..
and easy it can be to fall prey.. to the predator
bonding force of that dark as well..
opposing the potential greater bonding force when light meets light..
becoming.. passion bright.. but alas it is duty.. to meet dark as well..
face it.. name it.. and deal with it.. otherwise..
the dark may never come brighter.. as love can..
when always prayed.. given.. and never given up.. for NOW..:)
GOD.. can we..;)
I certainly do not
have head or pants..
big enough for THAT..:)
Humility is Pretty Cool STUFF..
no matter how strong and awesome IT
may be… but the bottom line.. as always IS..
GOD is bigger than US…..:)
AND NOW A
To clarify; THAT song is not the original
song associated with the movie, ‘Hunger Games’;
THAT song is a RE-mix about the TRUE MAGIC OF HOPE;
NOT a hanging rope; GIFTED to most healthy humans
by the Force of GOD, along with the
emotions of FAITH, BELIEF;
AND HUMAN RELATIVE
WHEN exercised properly WitH the GREATEST GIFT
FROM GOD THAT IS Tough Unconditional LOVE,
when growing a Garden of Love that is TALL,
STRONG, and BENDING AS Tree of LIFE to
THRIVE ALIVE in
NAMELY IN OUR CASE,
the abstract construct
TITLE HUMAN BEING.
IN other words, if one’s Arse
is one’s only reality, one lives
in a very narrow ARSE of A
UNI-VERSE; I for one am
BROAD ENOUGH, AS
HUMAN, TO ADD
i care to
LIFE IS A BREEZE,
WitH FORCE OF GOD
AT ONE’S BACK,