One of my failings now..
is
i
OFTEN FEEL INVINCIBLE
AND
HAVE
TO
CONCENTRATE ON CAUTION
IN
A
LOGICAL
WAY..
AS
ANXIETY
USED
TO
BE MY AUTOMATIC WAY OF LIFE..
THAT
IS
NO
MORE…
THANK GOD
FOR
THAT!
YESTERDAY..
i dance walked over 21 miles all around metro area stores..
while
my
wife
SHOPPED..
AND TRULY i was FEELING LIKE
A
BUTTERFLY IN FLIGHT
ON
TERRESTRIAL PLANE
EVEN IN THE BOOKSTORE
READING
A
BOOK
ON EVIL SWITCHING THE BOOK FROM HAND TO HAND
IN
DANCE WHILE i listened to a highly motivating Alan Parson’s song…
And this book on evil brought back the memories of torture that the
United States inflicted on prisoners
in
Iraq
and reading about it spired
a feeling of wrath against all humanity
that IS
DEAD HEARTED SOUL..
LEADING OTHERS TO THE SAME PATH
OF REAL HUMAN EVIL
AND
HUMAN HELL..
AND THIS POWER OF FORCE INSIDE ME
SEEMED SO STRONG..
i felt like i could become a Hurricane
and
blow those people
away..
in
GOD’s
force
of
WRATH…
So GOD sends me two messengers of peace with mustaches..
yes.. two girls having fun with me dancing..
copying my bushy mustache with
fake mustaches
available
in
the bookstore somewhere
i guess…
Well the wrathful feeling was replaced with
LAUGHTER AND LOVE..
AS
THE FEELING OF WRATH IS ONLY COUNTERPRODUCTIVE..
IN CAUSING THE SAME
HARM
DESCRIBED
IN
THE BOOK AS A VICIOUS CYCLE
OF
RIGHTEOUS INDIGNATION
THAT CAN RESULT IN TRIBAL WAYS
OF
HARM
TO OTHER INNOCENT HUMAN BEINGS..
IN WINDS OF WRATHFUL
TRIBAL
STORMS!
SO as i am finishing
my dancing walking
in Kohl’s department store..
yes..
all this documented in the previous blog post
in
photographic
REAL LIFE
ILLUSTRATION!
A COLD OR A FLU HIT ME LIKE A TON OF BRICKS
AND SUDDENLY i could hardly walk
or think clearly
and
ALL i wanted to do is find a bed to lay my head..
in
weakness….
So yes.. another message from GOD that truly i am still as fragile
as any other human being..
ALL THINGS CONSIDERED
IN
POTENTIAL SICKNESS…
AND MY WILL POWER THAT IS THAT OF JOB NOW..
AFTER RECOVERING FROM 19 DOCUMENTED HORRIFYING MEDICAL ILLNESSES..
PER DARKEST OF TYPE TWO TRIGEMINAL
NEURALGIA..
SJOGREN’S SYNDROME..
AND
DYSAUTONOMIA
AS MY GREATEST FEAR CAME TRUE..
I COULD NO LONGER FEEL..
USE MY EYES OR EARS EFFECTIVELY
TO ENJOY LIFE..
OR
EVEN WALK OR
RAISE MY ARMS AFTER EATING
WITHOUT ALMOST
PASSING OUT..
AND PART OF SJOGREN’S SYNDROME
THROUGH INCREDIBLE FOOT PAIN
AND TOTALLY DRY EYES
LIKE SWIMMING IN SALT WATER
WITH ONE’S EYES OPEN..
MADE IT
WHERE
i could not even take one look of life
one sound of life..
or
one step of life.
without incredible human pain and suffering
as almost a complete shut-in for over 5 years..
of literal human hell…
But truly that was GOD’s greatest gift to me..
as i finally escaped all the illusions of culture..
and looked within.. outside..
above..
and so below
for
Truth
AND
TRULY
i
WOKE
UP
LIKE
THIS!
SO YES.. LIFE CAN BE FRAGILE
BUT THE BLESSINGS OF LIFE..
ARE
GREATER THAN ANY NECESSARY DARK ILL
i
knowNOW
for
sure!
i skipped only my 2nd work-out due to illness
in over a year..
and
decide
to Celebrate the DARK of ILL
leading
to
Light
wRite
here
now!
at word five-hundred-fifty-five…
http://myfreelancestripperblog.blogspot.com/2014/11/legend-stripping.html
11172014
17
8
852
15
6
http://www.wrongplanet.net/postxf270708-0-30.html
^^^
Of course all of this is just my opinion, and relative to both my personal life experiences as well as direct interaction with 10’s of thousands of humans in my decades long career working with the general public.
All it really takes is a walk through Wal-Mart with emotional eyes wide open, to see the level of suffering that exists even in the US among the ‘common’ human.
One key is human happiness per science is number one associated with social relationships that are successful with other folks in flesh and blood interaction in real life.
This takes both emotional and physical intelligence, and a computer does little to nothing to improve those instinctual and intuitive human skills.
The 20 most peaceful societies in the world as measured by science are more reflective of the primitive societies that do still exist in the world as humans are innately evolved to share and cooperate for both love and subsistence, more like the Bonobo who is evolved the same for around 150 to 200 sets of eyes like human beings.
Truly it’s not the fault of human beings that they are functionally disabled in the most important aspects of any animal intelligence per emotional and physical intelligence, it is complex culture and language that is the virus, not humans per innate propensity.
Higher functioning Autism truly is representative of this overall trend in animal culture for animals that are not even able to successfully reciprocally socially communicate with other animals.
And put a Bonobo behind a computer instead of with an all loving ‘tribe’ of other Bonobos with comforting and touching love from the ‘village’ and Bonobo symptoms similar of Higher functioning Autism do most definitely occur per Scientific study as a result of a non-nurturing environment particularly in the first two years of life, whether it is a Bonobo or a human.
It’s no wonder that science now shows that the causal factors of Autism may actually be greater per nurture than nature.
Although innately I had a language delay until age 4, now that I have become a relative social butterfly at age 54, IN REAL LIFE, AS EVIDENCED ON MY BLOGS, I am totally convinced that my previous diagnosis of Autism was more a result of a culture gone insane per environment than any natural propensity of mine not to able to successfully socially reciprocate communication in real life.
Working behind computers instead of working with real life flesh and blood people, was the path to horrible symptoms of Autism that I never experienced before in life, after age 4, per inability to even have motivation to speak to others in real flesh and blood life.
And now children are indoctrinated to a mechanical cognition way of life, from a very young age.
There is no doubt in my mind at least, that the cultural phenomenon of autism will keep skyrocketing up, until folks gain a little bit of common sense per nature instead of nurture.
But of course, some folks today don’t even have a reference point for nature.
The primitive societies out there that still exist, most definitely do per the real advanced emotional and physical intelligences that humans innately can do, if properly challenged in the environment they live in.
And yes, when I was functionally disabled by modern cultural ways of mechanical cognition per reference point I scored a 195 on the Aspie Quiz and I score a 92 now.
I scored 44 to 45 on the AQ screening test for Autism, and I score an 11 now.
I scored in the mid 50’s on the emotional intelligence test, and now score a 95.
And my personality changed from INTJ to ENFP.
So yes, per my personal experience I have objective evidence that this higher functioning autism thingy is relative to the environment one lives in, for sure, but no I cannot speak for anyone else, per his or her innate and or nurture of environment.
But let’s just put it this way, I wouldn’t go back ‘there’ for all the money in the world, and on top of that I do not need money nor does any other human that lives by innate human rules, per instinct, intuition, sharing and cooperation IN a culture that LIVES THAT WAY.
I am extremely fortunate to be financially independent in real life, as the rules of culture no longer apply to me, per control and fear, so I simply live free now, as innately and intuitively I am evolved for, as such, and in relative comparison it is simply amazing fun.
As yes, overall, animals are evolved instinctually and intuitively to play, not live in despair. There was a time when I had no idea what it meant to truly be creative and play in instinctual and intuitive ways without any cultural and technological crutches.
Now that I practice play almost continuously everyday, except for periods of time like this, when I am sick and spend time online while I’m getting over being sick, my life is bliss, simply bliss, like my cat’s life, as well.
Play for me, at least, is never something that has anything to do with operating a computer. In fact for me, computers are counterproductive for instinctual and intuitive play but a challenge of dark, I do entertain from time to time, as challenge is as ‘good’ as play, all things considered for OVERALL ‘GOOD’.
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