i’m always posting photos daily
of when i feel good which is almost everyday now for over a year..
so for fair and balanced coverage i suppose i shall post
the ‘DARTH VADER’ days too..
and after one week of respiratory virus challenge last week..
and this week with the stomach bug..
that my wife has now contracted..
is hopefully the end of my current DARTH VADER DAYS TOO..:)
but it wasn’t without some excitement
as now that my stomach bug is trying to go away
and this bad bug has brought my wife down too..
for the first time in 25 years my task is to go shopping
all alone in the grocery store
to actually purchase some Lipton extra noodle soup..
Nabisco Saltine Crackers..
a half a gallon of 2% milk..
and two assorted TV dinners
i think i can stomach..
also to browse the deli section for an optional menu..
that oh no..
i could not do…
and then the mission to visit BELL’s dept. store
to use my wife’s $20 Bell’s bucks coupon..
before it expires at the end of the day..
with two more discount tattooed meaningful T-Shirts
for me to wear on much brighter days!
would have been my half a year anniversary
26th consecutive week of RAVE dancing at OLE Seville Quarter
that is now postponed to at least Saturday
or a non-consecutive week starting next Thursday…
no rave dancing for me tonight..
where a restroom is unfortunately still what seems my place to be..
more often than not..
i wanna walk around the block..
but there are no facilities there either! dam it…:)
So i’m here tickling the computer keyboard instead!
In closing as my wife lays in bed..she says..well FRED.. sh** happens…;)
IT’S 10:34 PM..
ABOUT THE TIME i
leave for RAVE dancing FUN
every Thursday NIGHT
the call of the WILd
calls me outside..
i tune my iPhone5s..
i mean i turn it on..
THE THREE LETTER WORD
TOO MUCH LIKE KNOWN hmm..
NOUN to me!
And Allah a five letter word
rolls off my tongue and roof of mouth
a beautiful wave
THERE IS ANOTHER 5 LETTER WORD
often add a K
that says IT ALL ABOUT GOD TO ME!
SOME FOLKS SADLY ENOUGH LIVE IN A LITERAL WORLD
WHERE ALL THEY SEE IS FACTS AND FIGURES
OH MY MAGIC
HUWOMAN RELATIVE FREE WILL!
PLACE FOR THOSE WHO LIVE THEIR
SO GOD AKA
YOU ARE MINE TONIGHT
i forge my way outside
dancing like a feather in reverse
all around the block
others for who
Interesting, as I also had a difficult time with this, when faith is associated as believing something without tangible evidence. For example, the belief in a reward after life for believing in and repeating a few words in a text of book about a man who lived around 2000 years ago to believe that he is an only begotten son of GOD, otherwise known as John 3:16.
To put it bluntly I almost immediately smelled BS, even at around age 5 when Santa Claus is still coming to town for me and GOD an invisible omnipotent force is equaled with a bearded long haired photo of a man on my bedroom wall that looked like the hippies that folks made fun of in my fundamentalist deep south good ole Southern Baptist religion town.
If it did not make sense to me, the ‘heard’ of herd did not overrule my logic; simple and true, even at age 5.
However, the interesting thing when I finally left high school and entered college and receive my first taste of Philosophy 101 and Comparative Religions is that there are patterned elements of truth in almost all religions. That is when the intuitive part of my mind wakes up with the logical part of my mind and I first experience a sense of awakening or what some folks call enlightenment and experience a real sense of new human freedom as I am freed of the illusions of culture; yes, Philosophy 101 and Comparative religions helped to set me free. And the greatest religious elements that ring true for me then are in the TAO and Native American Indian religions.
The key is both religions look to nature and not to culture for the answers from within. With elements of the New Testament it is clear to me that some of the words of the reported prophet Jesus aka Yeshua then rang true too. And just this year, I finally get my hands on the Gospel of Thomas and I find that those reported words are of a man not much different than a Yogi or Classical Pantheist.
The bottom line I think is not much different than Jack London’s ‘Call of the Wild’. We set ourselves apart from other undomesticated animals as something special. Although the domestication makes human social animals suitable for civilization it takes away the true undomesticated animal powers that can be ours as human beings when the still present instinctual and intuitive mind is cultivated and used for real animal gain in internal power of fearlessness instead of the expectations and limitations that domesticated humans and culture place on each other to make us much weaker at core of human being that what we can be.
As stated earlier in my posts I find GOD on the beach in the Wild and the GOD of nature is a powerful atomic force at core. I know this force is in me. I respect and I use it wisely but yes faith in this real tangible force for folks who become ‘fully enlightened’ can move the metaphorical mountains of life. Now to be clear, as I know you know as a successful teacher it doesn’t mean actually moving a mountain as some of the literally thinking folks here might limit it to.
But what it does mean is that a 54 year old man who is totally and permanently assessed as disabled with 19 documented medical disorders, who cannot even raise his hands above his head without almost passing out a year ago can be recognized and noted by the majority of folks who participate as the most innovative and creative dancer in one of the top 100 dance clubs in the US. Yes, in just 6 months of training without any lesson except those instinctual ones from within. Additionally, I am recognized as a Kung FU expert without any instructional lessons, by a training expert. And additionally, I am now lifting 740 LBS with free weights with my legs and to put it into visual perspective: 16, 45LB weights and an additional 2, 10LB plates amassed across a bar.
A year ago, the goal of my therapist was to just go into a Whataburger for 15 minutes. I had to watch my wife to walk straight at the mall, even before I got sick. Motor Coordination was not my forte for sure, then. And yes that is documented on this website well before I experienced my second awakening in life last Summer. Yes, with the realities of culture and survival, getting a girl friend, finishing college, getting a job, a house, a car, getting married, and surviving work for over 30 years, almost 25 of it in government service, the first full enlightenment did not last long. The medical disabilities and escape from culture without effective use of my eyes and ears for almost 5 years is the ticket that gets me where I’m at now. Maybe one can say it’s sad that’s what it took, but for me, perhaps with the literally Autistic thinking mind, before, that is much different now, that is what it took.
Relative Free Will, Faith, Belief, Hope and Sacred Unconditional Love of the force within, outside, as above so below, are all extremely powerful emotive forces that are likely available to most human beings who lose their fears that are culturally inspired through expectations and limitations of culture.
Losing the fear is the hard part.
But for one diagnosed with the assessed worst case of anxiety that a military psychiatrist ever came across, who assessed military folks, specializing in PTSD combat cases, it is potentially possible for almost anyone, considering he gave me no chance of recovery.
This force of GOD of nature is a relative force and power that each individual can potentially gain access to.
The metaphors of poetry are one way to spark the archetypes of evolution of mind and body that are one and same, that a Lion or Tiger, or my feral cat has access to before he is tamed, and still retains to some degree.
Animals need no language to confuse the power of the GOD of nature; they have none.
It’s extremely hard to make it happen with any ifs ands or buts.
The movie Frozen and the metaphor of LET IT GO; be the flow, in other words, is a metaphor for enlightenment.
It requires no complex language or logic to truly apply it in life. In fact, almost everything one learns in traditional secondary school is just an obstacle.
But yes, civilization goes on, and the reality is the true human hell of limitations and expectations are the way of life for most domesticated folks, who never find a way to escape human domestication.
If it was just a word and I wasn’t moving any metaphorical mountains, with tangible evidence I can measure in my own life, faith would mean little to me.
But no, it is everything now, as I know it is as real a valuable human attribute that can be utilized and continually developed, as the Sun in the sky orbiting a black hole, and electrons that orbit every nucleus in every cell of my body, as above so below.
But there may be no path but an individual one that works for each human being, as the path is within; not one necessarily lead by others with domesticated human expectations and limitations.
Religious text not required; just the ‘voice’ within aka human social animal instinct and intuition; an attribute sadly missed by many folks these days, in my opinion and of course as that pertains to the rest of this monologue as well.
It’s real though.
I have the evidence for me; documented, as such, in REAL LIFE EFFECT AND affect. 🙂
And I go to this much trouble to share it, as I would be terribly selfish to keep it to myself, considering the real life results. It’s not that much trouble either, really, as my so called Autistic Super Power in Hyperlexia is reading somewhere between 10 to 15 times faster than the average human, depending on my attention and focus, and a side ability to type around 130 words a minute, when motivated as such. 🙂
But no, obviously it’s not everyone’s cup of tea here; HOWEVER, if only one person finds it within themselves and utilizes IT like I can now, OMG, now THAT WOULD BE COOL. 🙂 Unfortunately, there are no real instructions though; only really to look within, outside, above so below; and other poetic sentiments. 😉
Sentiments are a powerful force of nature, though, for those who find a way to use them, as such.
KATiE MiA FredericK!iI
Gravatar is one of the coolest things ever!!!
Me too, but even sadder to me is the more obvious reality of life that misery loves company. To believe and have faith and or hope in anything is better than misery in my estimation; any now of any now.
But that’s the ‘whole’ point; the symbolic nature of life is real and so are the tangible human emotions of faith, belief and hope for those who find a way to connect the dots of emotion/heart and life; along with logic/reason, of course. One without the other, often results in human suffering.
The myths matter not; the substance or essence is what is important.
Whatever path takes a person to ‘whole’ life matters only now, once one arrives.
So in this scenario what is often seen is wandering souls with one half or the other of the whole pie of life.
There are elements of truth to be learned across the bridge of both rivers of being in reason and heart. And perhaps art.
The greatest parts of the Quran that ring true are in the art of emotion, but no, not science as it stands today. But never the less that does not negate the parts than ring true for the core of human being that generates rationality too, and yes, that is heart aka emotion, as now science more fully shows in catching up with the Quran and other religious texts that have this figured out for all of recorded history.
As much as I might not agree with the details of what the folks profess and believe, per mythological tales with deeper meaning, who attend the churches religiously in my area; for the most part in real life they are content and happy with many friends who support each other in REAL life; and yes they do most definitely gain this through the social activities of organized brick and mortar churches.
In reality that is the bottom line of life; yes, per what science understands of it too, now.
Different paths work better than others.
The bottom line in life is and always will be what works. That is simply why folks do it.
It works. They are far from ignorant in the REAL game of life. But that’s just common sense. And that requires much more than logic alone, or facts. It’s part of big picture thinking and yes that most definitely does require proficiency in the art of heart and emotion. No, it’s not rigidly constructed science and will never be as it flows; it is not a math or geometry equation with angles or squares.
But again, different paths of rivers; and most optimistically put, perhaps, the potential for bridges.
KATiE MiA FredericK!iI
Gravatar is one of the coolest things ever!!!
You make me want to dance too. 🙂
Very happy i do Rafiah, and honestly in my heart i feel that GOD puts me on this earth to inspire other folks to dance..and yes everywhere i go..i do my best to fulfill GOD’s wishes for me that are one and same for me..and blessed too..to be able to do it.
I saw your comment on my iPhone dancing in my backyard..but now that i am getting well..it’s time to go out to the tribe..once again..:)to JUST do it again!
Ahh..the Yin And Yang of fire and water..and of fire and of water..and of woman and man..and of human being…
The balance and change are one..
The effect can be two..
i one for one..experience the floods living on the river growing up..but am spared from the fire of the faulty wiring…
But still with a gas stove too..fire is life..and with fishing in the river..water is life for fish and i too…
But what is human…
Human is connecting to other humans..the Yin of Love…
Solving problems is the Yang of survival..rationality..and cultural extension of comfort..for another day..
the dragon of reptilian and neocortical brain too…
Are we solving problems to live or are we living to love…
That is the dilemma of being human these days..
for i know Now i love for sure….
Now that i am not working and solving literally hundreds of problems a day.. both my wife and i will shed a tear and send some money.. if we see these floods on TV…
And oh my GOODness.. now that you tell me.. we can look it up on the Internet and do the same!
But true before.. i am a machine..while my wife is crying..when the little children are flooded by Tsunami.. and such as that too..
Then i Am the Yang of Robot Reptilian Dragon true..
But the hope is for change..
The balance can come true..
For one is not another..and another is not one…
The effect can be two..
And now i know..
i CAN CHOOSE AND LIVE SACRED UNCONDITIONAL LOVE..:)TRUE!
And that is what i JUST do.
can others too…
Wow..! The fire seems terrifying..need some money for a new AC..:)
Or perhaps love is enough…
Yes.. i thought so.. I’ll send it to the flooded children.. instead…:)
And does your husband have any warm food lately.. if not.. i can arrange a hot meal too..
That last line is a joke..on your cooking skills dear…:)AND the fear of the kitchen stove…;)