A Flock of Seagulls in PARADISE

http://katiemiaaghogday.blogspot.com/2013/07/for-8-t-n.html

Well..

this last weekend

and

beginning

of

this!

week..!

7182014

through

7202014

marks

the

ONE

YEAR

ANNIVERSARY!

FOR

A

LITERAL!

RISE!

OF

A

PHOENIX!

FROM

TOTAL!

ASHES!

FOR

ME!

WHEN JULY STARTS

IN

2013..

i

STILL

CAN

NOT

SECURE

FAITH

THAT

i

CAN!

make

it

through

another

day

with

19

medical

disorders..

TRULY

HORRIFIC

AS

SUCH..

MAKING

ME

ALMOST

A

COMPLETE

SHUT

IN

FROM

PAIN

SO

SEVERE..

EVEN

WORSE!

i

can

NOT

even

MAKE!

CONTACT!

WITH

ANYONE!

EVEN!

CLOSE!

FAMILY!

MEMBERS!

IN

HUMAN

EMPATHY!

EVEN

EMOTIONAL

HUMAN

EMPATHY!

A

HORRIFYING

MONSTER

OF

A

DEAD

HEART!

AND

SOUL!

IS

WHAT

i

TRULY

FEEL

THEN!

IN

REAL

LIFE!

AS

A

DEAD!

HEART

AND

SOUL

IS

NOTHING

ABOUT

LIFE

AS

HUMAN

BEING

TRUE!

MY JOURNEY BACK TO LIFE..

IS

PRECIPITATED

BY

A

CRYPTIC

AND

SOMETIMES

VERY

STRANGE

JOURNEY

IN

POETRY

AND

MUSICK

TO

DESPERATELY

FIND

MY

HEART!

AND

SOUL!

AGAIN..!

AFTER

LOSING!

IT

!

FOR

A

TOTAL

SLOW

BURN!

OF

DEATH!

IN

LIFE!

FOR

7

LONG!

YEARS!

CULMINATING!

YES!

IN

5

YEARS!

OF

SHUT

IN

!

BEING..!

WHERE

MY

THERAPIST’S

GOAL!

IN

EARLY

JULY 2013

IS

TO

JUST

MAKE

A

15

MINUTE

TRIP

TO

WHATABURGER..!

THAT

SEEMS

IMPOSSIBLE!

TO

ME!

THEN!

BUT!

A

MIRACLE!

HAPPENS!

IN

THIS

TIME

FRAME

LAST

YEAR!

WHERE

YES!

MY

HEART!

AND!

SOUL!

COMES

BACK!

IN

TRUE!

FULLEST!

FORCE!

ONCE

AGAIN!

AND YES..!

JUST THIS MOVIE

CLIP

CONTACT..

IS

INSTRUMENTAL

IN

REATTACHING!

MY

EMOTIONS

WITH

LANGUAGE

AND

THE

ABILITY

TO

FINALLY

FEEL!

UNCONDITIONAL SACRED LOVE!

AND

ACTUALLY

FULLY!EXPRESS!

IT!

AGAIN!

WITH

MY

CLOSE

FAMILY

MEMBERS!

YES!

HORRIFIC!

PAIN

IS

HARD!

BUT!

A

DEAD

HEART!

AND

SOUL!

MAKES PAIN

LOOK

LIKE

A

JOY

RIDE2ME!

IN

COMPARISON..!

AS

SUCH!

i

KNOW

ALL!

TOO

TRUE

TODAY!

NOW!

MY

EMPATHY!

AND

COMPASSION!

GIVEN

MY

EXPERIENCE!

FOR

ALL

OTHERS!

NO

MATTER

THEIR

CHALLENGES!

IN

LIFE!

OR

EXPRESSED!

DIFFICULTIES..!

EVEN!

SACREDLOVE!

FOR

SO

CALLED

ENEMIES!

MAKING!

THEMSELVES!

MY

FOES

AS

SUCH!

IS!

OFF!

THE

CHART!

OF

HUWOMAN!

BEING!

SOME!

PEOPLE CAN NOT SEEM TO UNDERSTAND

HOW

MUCH

!

i

SACREDlove!

them

simply

for

being

them..!

everywHere!

i

go

!

NOW!

SOMETIMES!

IT

SEEMS!2!

BUT!

OH

MY

GOD…!

IF

THEY

LOSE

THEIR

HEART!

AND!

SOUL!

PERHAPS!

THEY2!

CAN!

UNDERSTAND!

MY

SACRED!

UNCONDITIONAL!

LOVE!

FOR!

ALL!

OTHER!

HUWOMAN

BEINGS!

AS

SUCH..!

HELL

YES!

EVEN

ADOLF

HITLER..!

THE

GOLD

STANDARD

FOR

HATING

ANOTHER

HU

WO

MAN

DESERVINGLY

SO..

NO..

i

say..!

NO!

NO!

NO!

i

know

wHere the dark

soul

of

the night

goes..

and

NO!

NO!

NO!

i

can

never

PLACE!

personal

judgement

against

another

hu

wo

man

soul..!

as

there are some places

so

!

dark

that

the

LIGHT

NEVER

GETS

IN..!

AND

i

know

for

one..!

that!

there

IS

no

explanation

for

those

who

have

not

visited

these

TRUE

POTENTIAL

OF

DARK NIGHTS!

OF

THE

HEART!

AND

SOUL!

OF

!HU!

!WO!

!MAN!

!BEING!

!2ME460SACRED!WORD!SACRED460ME2!

!NOW!

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