Well..

trying to find closure

after my father’s death..

shock worn off..

dance completed

to celebrate his life..

trip made

to Tallahassee..FL..

with my sister to settle the

affairs..

of his estate..

a lot to do

in 24 hours

to get things

straight….

Sleeping in his home

without him..

i

suppose he did love

me

in what

i

call

Non-Verbal

Wolf Love as such…

There is no doubt

my father has

a

version of

what can be described as the

WARRIOR GENE..

DOPAMINE

VARIANT GENE..

ASSOCIATED

WITH ADHD..

BASICALLY

THE

WILD ONE

GENE…

His habit of smoking

tamped things down…

Many people with this genetic

variant

have a predisposition

to

addiction of some kind..

i suppose

mine

is

exercise..

that i cannot go without

most of my

my life..

without exploding

i

guess..2

But..

anyway..

although there are vey few words of

love or closeness

from my father..

what i

remember

is

a

warm loving

feeling

when

i

am in his presence

as he sits close to me..

or the

awkward hello

or goodbye

hug…

And truly i do not feel this

from many people in life..

and

it seems

that the ADHD

leaning girls

with the warrior gene

2

are the ones

i feel it from too..

particularly

NATIVE

indigenous ones..

dark haired and

dark eyed

as

such…

My first girl friend

as Cuban..

and others..

including my wife

with

Pacific Islander/American

Indian

roots..

who seem

to have

a

WILD

NOMADIC

SPARK

AS

SUCH…

including

LOVING WAYS

2

!

an empathic feeling experience

over

words

of

SACRED LOVE…

And

well..

wolves are often misunderstood

by humans

as

science now shows

them as only violent against

humans

after

they lose their fear of humans…

Wolves are monogamous

and are

strict in adherence

to

rules of

social unit

hierarchy..

And they do exhibit

kind loving ways of

NON-VERBAL LOVE WITH

EACH OTHER..

AND

DO

HOWL

LONELINESS

WHEN SEPARATED

FROM THE

WILD

PACK

OF

THEIR FORM

OF

SACRED LOVE!

But anyway..

a few photos

documenting

my life

experience

with this..

First time..

i am partially responsible

for someone else’s financial

arrangements

after death..

but nah..

it ain’t gonna be the last one..

as every life experience

prepares

us

for

something else

in life…

My father with his 3rd wife

around 1976

at

44…

My father with my sister

at a celebration

of his birthday

and his twin brother’s birthday

around 2005..

at age

71..

Momento’s from his home..

remembering

his 3rd wife’s

love

for Greek and Roman

mythology i share too…

My wife’s not too happy about

our new bedroom friends..

Hebe..

Goddess of Eternal Youth..

and

Apollo..

God of Sun..

Light..

Music and Poetry…

Hmm..

and i imagine

my father’s

sculpture of

Wolf

head will probably

end up in the

shed

with my father’s

favorite

Florida State University

cap..

in the next few days..2

but..

I don’t think she’ll mind

the money part..

after probate ends…

That’s the part

i

don’t care as much about..

i’d rather

have

a

part of his soul

of what he

IS

!

wolf

or man..

he is my father

always..

to remember

for

me…

IN HEART

AND

SOUL..

SPIRIT

AND

BEYOND..

after ALL IS

done

and

SAID..

AND DISTRIBUTED

AS SUCH..

THROUGH

ALL THE LEGALITIES

OF

PROBATE

STUFF….

SACREDLOVEISALLITIS

STiLL

NOW

STiLL

W

ON

E

!

oh..

and i almost

forget..

the twin brother or sister..

can’t tell which

gendered one..

TIGER..

from my father’s

great room…

The first one from his

home is riding

in the back of

my

Passport truck

for close to a year now..

and the twin tiger

is going

to

my

wife’s Autistic leaning

nephew..

as such…

But..

Yellow boy..

don’t like this Tiger much..

nor did

he like

the other

one..

when arriving

in our home..

But Moby..!

the gray

FULLY

domesticated

cat..

tries to tell

him..

Hey buddy..

it’s only

a heartless Tiger..

ya ain’t got nuthing

to fear

from this one..

friend…

AND

yes..!

as often is

the

case..

Yellow boy helps

me write

this

one

(:2:)

Moral support

from any

other

ONE

of

GOD’S CREATIONS

IMAGINED

OR

REAL

can mean

the difference

between

life

or

death

of

heart..

soul..

3

SPIRITiN1

BEYOND

OF

ALLITIS2

4

ONE

!