This

post inspired by the

only

other

mid-life

diagnosed

Autistic

POETICALLY

TALKING

ONLINE

person

of

the

Asperger’s

variety..

i

come

across

on

the

Internet..

a

visual..

pattern..

and

word

thinker..

so

unusual

like

me

in

Online so called

Autistic

communities..

THAT

i

avoid

like

the

PLAGUE

NOW!

UNFORTUNATELY..

BUT

NOT

A

PLACE

FOR

ME!

OR

THE

FOLKS

TO

DEAL

WITH

A

TOTALLY FREE

DUDE

LIKE

ME

!

virtual

places

for

people

to

attempt

to

be

their

inner

self..

as

free..

 i don’t feel comfortable linking

her

allegory

to

what

seems

to

be

the

Albatross of anxiety..

TO

INSURE

i

don’t

make

her

anxious..

but

most people have an idea about

anxiety

anyway huh..

yah..!

in

a

fast pace

CRAZY

WORLD

WE

LIVE

IN

no

wonder!

and

not

much

NEED

TO

EXPLAIN

WHAT

ANXIETY

IS!

now!

to

AMERICANS

AT

LEAST!

This

seems to me to be

powerful words

that describe what can truly be

the Albatross of human generalized anxiety..

never a source that one can quite grasp..

but always a source

that limits the laugh of life for long..

and in some cases

completely extinguishes

both laugh and smile out of life…

Been there done it..

attending military psychiatrist..

dealing with hundreds of military PTSD clients..

identifies me as his worst case yet…

Hmm..

hard to believe..

in fact almost impossible for people to believe..

that see me dancing and doing martial arts exhibitions..

in front of hundreds..

at times solo..

and

delivering speech in front of funeral audience

and such as that..

But even more impossible

and evidence of some kind of miracle…

for people who knew me then..

i guess what i wanna say is..

it’s possible to get rid of all of it..

But for me.

it truly is a miracle..

and nah..

i don’t have the instructions to get there…

but
hope..:)

and the power of..

BELIEVE…!
MOREOVER IN YA
SELF!

i believe as social animals..

the source of most anxiety

is that of being unaccepted
in all the flavors that comes in..

in human life..

and yeah definitely been there and
done the extreme of that too..

particularly in middle school life..

when some humans become
incredibly mean..

when puberty awakens..

in efforts to literally destroy

the perceived weak
fish in the aquarium…

Sometimes after several decades

of living with the pain..

hidden away..

no longer surfacing

it still dwells

and pokes its way up..

to the surface of core of human fear

of not being good enough

to exist among fellow ones..

who seem to thrive so easy…

Sooner or later the love for one’s i of me..

can replace the I of I of i of me..

be

SACRED LOVE..

conquer! all! fear..!

forevermoreNOW

But again..

i don’t have many instructions..

Miracles are hard to put into words..

but i’ll keep trying..:)as i hate to see folks cry without tears..:(…..with only fears…..!

Upon

the

depths

of

the

greatest

darkness

the

ALBATROSS

BECOMES

THE

PHOENIX

AND

RISES

AGAIN!

OUT

OF

ASHES

OF

*!500WORDSgainst!FEAR!again@WORD500!*