Confession of Muse

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Yeah..

sometimes i’m like the Nautilus

that works steadily all hours of the day..

and wakes up bright eyed and slimy tailed.. and with a surprised look

like Steve Erkel says ‘DID I DO THAT’.. WOW THAT’S A reAlly KOOL SHELL..;)

My philosophy is..

just keep walking..

look back and enjoy

the moment..

for a moment..

but just keep walking..

one step forward at a time..

and know NOW you made your mark…

and a difference in the world.. when the shell is finished..

for others to enjoy.. resting easy on the shores of eternity.. for NOW..:)

When the shells we make.. are the shells for others.. the life we live

can be bliss.. when we spend it creating.. instead of waiting..

or following the pattern of someone else’s shell..

oh the world.. will be such a beautiful place..

if we all create shells rather than then

just following patterns of before..

the tapestry is in the flow..

and when all is said and done

the pattern is the meaning

and purpose of life.. as SHELL..

as tRuly Well of Life as Living Water..

Earth.. Wind.. and Fiery Passion

that makes

a heArt.. a spiRit..

a

soUlWHOLE..:)

Ha!

the testosterone never arrives

and is still measured at a paltry 221..

seriously by medical test as assessed

as that of a 75 year old man or older..

And yes.. perhaps long ago..

that has something to do

with me being mistaken

for a girl at age 13..

but oh.. life

is magic

and if i can just

keep the poetry.. the memories..

and emotions I feel.. I will

never grow old in spirit..

as i already live

without the

most

important ingredient of life

that is the source of all strength and youth in spirit..

and that is Love my friend.. the GIFT OF LIFE..:)

And truly everything i do both literally

and metaphorically can be

attributed to that real positive

force of Nature that is empirically

assessed in my human nature..

considering the low testosterone

of moving literal mountains..

as when I lose my

emotions at age 47..

my 94 year old Aunt Jettie..

all 4 feet and 9 inches of her

crippled body outshines my

still weak feeling legs

that retain their

ability to

leg press 500 LBS then..

feeling so weak without emotions gone

that she can out talk me for hours.. she barely

able to make her way in socks and walker

to the other side of the room…

and me without a word..

to come next..

in breathless

way of being

in cold stone heart..

waiting for hell of spirit to leave me then..

The lesson of a lifetime then.. is.. i already lose it all..

and as long as I have a heart.. soul.. and spirit.. the rest

of it is just icing on the cake.. and yes.. I am enjoying

that frosting while it lasts.. as even Jack LaLanne

eventually dies at age 96.. and

OMG Bruce Lee at 32..

we are all on borrowed time..

but without worry every second now as is..

can be an eternity of heaven now..

the other place lasts forever too..

and death can be a pleasure..

compared to NOW..

as death in life

lasting forever

as hell

for now..

where spirit

of the older person

who still retains a loving one..

remains a loving STRONG AND KIND Soul… ALIVE!..

Like you my friend.. who I never consider an age..

but kind and loving
courageous
SPIRIT..:)

ONE TIME SOMEONE ASKS ME WHO IS YOUR PEER GROUP

AND I SAY WHAT.. AND THEN I THINK TO MYSELF

IS SEEING ALL OF HUMANITY AS YOUR PEER

GROUP REALLY A FUNCTIONAL DISABILITY

OF AUTISM.. AND THEN I SAY

NO.. HELL NO.. THAT IS

JUST A PERSON

BORN

AS

UNCONDITIONAL LOVE

LIKE MY AUNT IS BORN WITH

AND MY SON.. WHOSE ANNIVERSARY

OF DEATH I HONOR FOR TOMORROW ON

THE 24TH.. AS WELL AS MY AUNT JETTIE’S DEATH

A FEW YEARS AGO.. WHO PROVIDES ME THE MEANING

OF LIFE ALREADY.. THERE IS NO RANDOMNESS IN LIFE..

IT IS ALL MEANINGFUL AND

PURPOSEFUL FOR THOSE OF US

WHO DANCE AND SING IN LYRICAL

EYES OF GOD AS ONE FORCE

OF NATURE US..:)

THE SHINING LAMP
OF LOVE REFUSES TO
BE PUT OUT AND WITH THAT
SAID.. HERE IS LADY GAGA BORN
THAT WAY IS HOW WE TRAIN ALIVE..:)

My light IS turned off THEN and truly every human that experiences this darkness in life
MUST STRIVE AND DO WHATEVER THEY CAN TO SPARK ANY KIND OF SPARK
THEY CAN FOR ANOTHER PERSON LIVING IN HELL OF NO EMOTIONS.. AND TRULY THE FIRST SONG UP THERE THAT I SHARE NAMED ‘A DAY IN THE LIFE’.. SAYS IT ALL WITH A GRAND NOTE OF E-MAJOR.. “I’D LOVE TO TURN YOU ON”!

AND I WILL DO WHATEVER IT TAKES..
COME HELL OR HELL AGAIN

TO DO THAT MY FRIEND..

AS I FEEL THE DEATH
OF THE DARK NIGHT OF THE
SOUL.. AND I FEEL THE SPARKS
THAT TAKE ME AWAY FROM IT AS WELL

AND THAT IS WHY I SHARE
MY FRIEND.. KNOWING
THAT ONE DAY..
GOD WILLS SOMEONE
HERE TO SHARE THAT
WITH ME.. ALIVE
OR DEAD
IN FLESH
IT IS MY
MEANING
MY PURPOSE
IN LIFE TO
TURN
FOLKS
ON
!iI..:)

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8 Responses to Confession of Muse

  1. rum blue says:

    Just keep walking
    and expressing unconditional love.

    Perfect advice. You are so inspiring, K.

    ~I (et al.)

    • Ha! It’s ‘I’ again.. YOU
      reAlly again..
      and YOU
      my friend
      are a source
      of inspiration
      FOR much of ‘this’..
      smiles.. I do not
      recognize you yesterday..
      not enough words.. but i should
      of known.. as so few recognize
      who i really
      am.. truly only
      a handful.. of LOVE..
      smiles.. so before..
      so now.. when you
      recognize and
      speak to
      the VALUE
      OF LOVE
      in a post
      titled
      something
      about
      66..;)
      But 007
      can figure
      that one
      out.. easy..
      huh..
      one
      needs
      not even
      go to school
      to FEEL THE
      VALUE OF
      UN
      CON
      Di
      TiON
      AL
      TOUGH
      AND
      YES
      PASS
      iONatE-
      LOVE!..:)

      P.S.
      rum blue
      is the Koolest
      Pen Name ever
      for a poet.. when
      you come back
      for good
      i
      vote
      for that
      one..
      hehe!..;)

      • rum blue says:

        Okay, then. I’ll try to keep this name. 🙂 It really makes me crave coconut blue rum with cherries and pineapple in it!

        I’m glad you know that I truly see you, get you, and like you. Keep being you … exactly you. You are perfect.

        P.S. I adore today’s photographs. Especially the nature ones. And that dark club/bar you went to. That looks like uber fun.

        P.P.S. I am NOT a poet. I just like to hang with poets and see what rubs off on me. I am really an aesthete; I’m more into enjoying art, in its many forms, that I am producing it. I do it for fun, but my real passion is absorbing the energy that other people release. And being a muse, of course.

        • Oh.. Cool..! alWays knOW YOU are a Muse.. too..!
          AND seriously the more i hang around poet science..
          the less i like being called a poet.. per se.. as at first no one calls
          me a poet.. and that is kinda nice.. i like to be mysterious.. anyway..;)
          i am.. that’s all.. i love people dark and light.. big and small..
          and all around.. and up and down can be cool too..
          i LOVE to be so Frank and or Fred.. AND a ‘MILF’
          who FEELS i am much younger
          than i reAlly am is ‘Bootie
          Dancing’ with me
          last night..
          and i wonder
          if it is appropriate
          to get an erection.. NO
          FOR ME of course.. as i am married…
          BUTT the question remains thOugh..
          IS IT good or evil.. hmm..
          i’ll have to FEEL inTO
          THAT more..
          perHaps
          i alReady
          hAve..;)

          “When in Rome”

          Exodus 15:2

          “The Lord is my strength and song,
          and he is become my salvation”
          “Saul and Jonathan,
          the beloved and the lovely,
          in life and in death they were not divided”.
          “Ye daughters of Israel, weep over Saul,
          who clothed you in scarlet, and fine linen”.
          “And he shall be like a tree planted
          by the rivers of water,
          that bringeth forth
          his fruit in his season”;
          “I laid me down and slept;
          I awaked; for the Lord sustained me.
          I will not be afraid of ten thousands of people,
          that have set themselves against me round about”.

          ‘The Bible ‘is one of the most beautiful ‘poetry’ books..
          standing the test of time.. shared widely.. and
          unfortunately literally among the masses..
          exposing all the dirt and light of
          humanity as flesh and blood..
          but the saddest verse of the
          bible is the part that
          says no
          verses
          may be added
          to THE Bible.. and truly
          that is why Robin William’s
          DEAD POET’S SOCIETY
          is more savior than
          ‘THE Church’.. YES..
          THE ‘CATHOLIC ONE’..
          i never
          miss on Sunday..
          WE are ALL THE Book
          of ‘ELI’.. WE are ALL
          Aesthetes dark
          and light..
          the bible
          certainly
          reflects
          THAT
          TRUTH AS WELL..
          I’M NOT SURE WHY
          FOLKS WANNA GLOSS
          OVER THE DARK PaRTs
          of A Bible.. as that is PART
          of the human condition
          in all its bliss
          and dirt.. too..
          a field will not grow
          without dirt.. and neither
          will we.. and A Bible
          will not grow either
          without the
          contributions
          of WE.. perhaps one
          day for fun.. i’ll
          rewrite the
          bible..
          perhaps
          i already
          JUST DO THAT..
          bigger smiles
          friend..;)
          A SHeLL IS
          JUst another
          FRUiT..
          and WE mY
          friEnd.. are tHe
          TOSsED
          sALAd
          AKA
          GOD!..:)

          Yes.. I LOVE YOU
          MORE FRIEND NOW..
          AS YOU INSPIrE
          ME MOrE
          THAN
          MOST..
          TrULY THAT
          MAKES YOU SPECiAL
          TOO.. AS ALL INSPIRES ME!..:)

          Oops.. almost forget the DANCE..
          that CAN go with the original
          aesthetic expression of humanity..
          as for one instance.. known
          now as the new revised
          Bible..
          i like it..
          particularly the
          New Testament..
          it’s not
          perfect..
          but it
          certainly
          reflects
          much of
          humanity
          still..
          as is..:)

          And the U.S.A. is MORE OR LESS
          THE ‘NEW ISRAEL’ TODAY..
          IN TERMS OF GOD AND
          HUMAN FREEDOM..
          AND OH.. THE ‘JERUSALEM’
          I LIVE IN.. WITH THE
          MOST CHURCHES
          PER SQUARE MILE
          IN THE RECORD
          BOOKS.. IN
          MY LOCALITY..
          CAN BE QUITE
          CONFINING..
          BUT I FORGIVE
          ‘THAT’ FOR WHAT
          IT KNOWS NOT.. AND
          I DO NOT EXPECT
          TO PROVIDE
          ANY WORDS
          THAT CAN
          ILLUMINATE
          ‘THAT’ OVER
          ‘THAT BOOK’..
          SO I DO THE UNIVERSAL
          LANGUaGE OF DANCE..
          AND FOR SOME IT
          SINKS
          IN..
          AND I WILL
          CONTINUE
          TO HOPE
          FOR
          MORE..
          AND
          MOST IMPORTANTLY..
          KEEP ON DANCING!..
          AND OTHER NON-VERBAL
          HELPFUL ‘STUFF’ TOO..:)

  2. rum blue says:

    “i love people dark and light.. big and small..”

    You’ve really got me thinking with this. I think I am all of those things wrapped into one. The human quest, for me at least, is to be okay with that … to embrace and love the dark as much as the light, the small as much as the big, the weakness as much as the strength. Every human is all of these things. Some just feel wider gaps between their opposing parts. Some walk more along the middle line, while others of us are drastic, hanging out at one pole or another. We gives ourselves completely to whoever we happen to be in THIS moment. We don’t do anything halfway. We commit, wholeheartedly, even if it makes us look like idiots. That’s how I am, anyway.

    • Yes.. my friend.. to truly Unconditionally Love Human and the rest of Nature.. one must gain the truly tough and passionate part of Love.. allowing one to Love ALL.. GOD the Alpha and the Omega.. has no exclusions.. truly there is no other way.. and any thing else is ‘Anti-Christ’.. and real ‘sin’.. in the ‘eyes’ of GOD as ALL..

      as far as I can ‘see’ now.. THE ‘CHRIST BEING’ IS ALL…

      It TAKES me years to gain the courage for THAT..
      and particularly to walk the walk..
      even if it means ‘then’.. when
      i start this journey
      as Convenant
      with
      GOD
      to lose
      everything
      IN life i LOVE..
      But.. what i know..
      and most importantly
      FEEL NOW.. IS GOD
      REWARDS THOSE FOLKS
      RESOLVING.. NEVER GIVING
      UP.. WITH A SIMPLE PEACE OF
      MIND.. AND A LOVE SO STRONG
      THAT IT OVERCOMES ALL THE DIRTY
      DARK IN LIFE.. AS WELL AS TOLERATING
      IT AND ACCEPTING IT.. WITH RESPECTFUL
      DISAGREEMENT.. WHEN THAT PART OF THE DARK
      OF LIFE IS REQUIRED.. AS WELL.. AND A PRACTICE
      THAT IS WORKING ON AND ON.. AND THE BEST THING
      OF ALL IS.. THERE IS NO PERFECTION.. BUT MASTERING
      PRACTICE.. LIKE ‘JONATHAN LIVINGSTON SEAGULL’ GROWING
      IN THE FLIGHT
      OF
      LOVE..
      HIGHER
      AND HIGHER..
      WITH GOD AS ONE
      TREE OF LIFE AS LOVE..:)

      • rum blue says:

        What beautiful shaping!!! Half a tree. That’s what we all are … half, waiting for completion. And the ultimate completion, I feel, is in the wind. I never feel more whole than when I’m alone with the breeze blowing my hair around. That is when I am centered and with God, but also, truly with myself … without the restraint humanity wants to place on an individual’s right to exist 100% in the all of being, without bending herself into this or that, depending on whom she’s spending time with at the moment. The wind doesn’t ask us to change; it just asks us to stand there while it touches us. It’s the ultimate beauty of creation.

        • HA! Thanks Rum Blue.. tomorrow.. GOD willing..
          sometime.. it will be a full tree.. as i cannot center it..
          in the comment section.. but both you and i are Full Trees
          anyWay.. as it were and as IT IS.. for NOW..:)

          Yes.. OMG! THE Breeze.. i Fly with my Clothes
          of GOD.. AS the wind.. effortlessly like a
          Forrest Gump Sailing Feather..
          with practice of course..
          one doesn’t get to be A
          Ping Pong Champion..

          without practice.. and haha!..
          not suggesting i am
          any champion
          of dance..
          but oh.. do
          i
          Practice..

          Dance Fred.. DANCE!..:)

          MAN! DUDE! i mean.. woman.. OR WHATEVER..;)
          WHAT! A PALETTE OF EMOTIONAL PAINT
          IN MUSIC YOUTUBE BRINGS
          TO ACCENT THOSE AESTHETIC
          WORDS OF ART!..
          AND WOW!
          FOR THOSE
          WOMEN or whatever
          who enjoy my ALL
          Nude Renaissance
          MALE Selfie ART..
          Google makes me
          into a dam Dancing
          Aesthetic Athlete..
          with that
          Animation
          thingy
          that the
          Algorithm
          provides
          Absolutely
          Free..! turning
          my still photos
          into a Literal GIF!
          AND Metaphorical
          GIFT!.. for the
          women who
          enjoy that
          kinda
          ART!
          WE live in the
          BEST OF TIMES MY
          RUM BlUE FRIEND..
          AND AT LEAST
          FOR SOME
          OF US
          THIS
          TRULY
          IS A
          SLIVER
          OF HEAVEN
          IN A VERY
          CHALLENGING
          UNIVERSE OF
          OVERALL
          EXISTENCE!

          AND HEY!
          girl FRIEND..!
          did ya catch
          the LAMP
          SHADE UP
          THERE WHEN
          I AM TALKING
          ABOUT MY
          SHINING LAMP
          OF LOVE.. AND
          NO.. I DON’T PLAN
          THESE SHAPES.. AND
          NEVER HAVE.. AFTER
          THEY FORM.. ONCE IN A WHILE
          I WILL IMPROVE THEM A TAD
          HERE AND THERE.. BUT
          THAT LAMP COMES JUST
          AS IS.. AND
          I TELL MYSELF
          YES.. MY
          FRIEND.. THAT!
          IS PROOF
          THAT
          UNICORNS
          EXIST..!
          IN UNI-
          VERSE
          OF
          FINGERS
          AT LEAST..;)

          LIFE IS Magic..
          IN IMAGINATION
          AND CREATIVITY
          IN MIND AND BODY
          BALANCE AS FREE!
          But only for those
          Seeking the Magic
          from
          within..
          inside..
          outside..
          above..
          so below..
          and all
          around AKA GOD..:)

          And now as this 24th day of
          July closes.. i thank you my
          friend.. as when two connect
          like this or more.. GOD does
          come into the room.. whether
          offline in dance.. or
          online in text..
          so we share
          GOD together
          today..
          as i
          always
          hope to do
          no matter
          who i interact
          with in verbal
          or non-verbal
          language in life..
          And i thank my son..
          for his short 51 day
          life of misery.. that
          still lives in the inspiration
          of my eyes and fingers as i continue
          to flow with GOD here.. as yes.. the
          smallest of lives.. and the greatest
          of disabilities.. can change
          the world.. with
          BUTTERFLY AFFECT..
          AND WITH THE SAME
          PROMISE OF JESUS
          IN THAT MOVIE
          THAT COMES
          OUT
          THIS YEAR..
          WE ARE GOING
          TO CHANGE THE
          WORLD MY
          FRIEND..
          AS PEOPLE
          WHO SHARE
          GOD ALWAYS
          DO.. from the little
          disabled boy who
          waters a sapling
          tree that grows
          into such
          beauty..
          that it
          inspires the
          love of a man
          and a woman
          who literAlly
          save
          the world
          with the
          help
          of all
          others
          of
          course..:)

          So let it
          be written…

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