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Information below on Aleister Crowley reblogged from ‘Cabrogal’..
This information rings true for me too…
Aleister and Augustine – morality through love
One of these men was the most evil person who ever lived. But that was before Peter Singer was born.
“Love and do as you will” – St Augustine
“Love is the law, love under will” – Aleister Crowley
“Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law.” – Aleister Crowley
“Oh Lord, grant me chastity and continence, but not yet.” – St Augustine
Aleister Crowley gets some bad press, much of it generated by him.
Apparently proud to declare that his mother saw him as The Beast he adopted the number 666 as his own.
Openly bisexual at a time when homosexuality was not only illegal but something that horrified polite society, Crowley promoted sex magick – particularly gay sex magick – as a path to ultimate truth. He made no secret of his post-Nietzschian contempt for Christianity, famously remarking “One would go mad if one took the Bible seriously; but to take it seriously one must be already mad”.
It’s little wonder the tabloids of his time dubbed him ‘the wickedest man in the world’ and ‘the most evil man who ever lived’ – titles he reveled in.
But when he wasn’t trying to shock the prudes or engaging in outrageous self-promotion Creepy Crowley was actually a pretty serious and thoughtful religious scholar. It’s even possible he was a true mystic, though given his dedication as a student and talent as an actor it seems equally possible he was faking it.
What many would find particularly surprising is that Crowley was no slouch as a moral philosopher either. Many of his ethical aphorisms – such as “The Way of Mastery is to break all the rules; but you have to know them perfectly before you can do this” – are designed to shock as much as to enlighten, but throughout his writings you can see the influences of Aristotle, Spinoza, Hobbes, Hume, Kant, Bentham, Mill and, of course, Nietzsche. There are probably many others I am too ill-educated to spot.
At it’s core, Crowley’s professed morality resembles no others more than it does that of St Augustine of Hippo (cue the outraged cries of 1.2 billion Catholics).
If you know anything at all about Aleister Crowley you would know that the ethics of his home-brewed religion, Thelema, boil down to “Do what thou wilt”, but this is not the same as “just do anything”. He believed that the most important endeavour in the life of an individual is to discover his or her “True Will” and to follow it … err … religiously.
True Will to Crowley is a combination of calling, destiny and the mode of action that brings one most in harmony with nature. In this it is very similar to the Hindu fundamental moral concept of dharma. By acting in perfect accord with his True Will, the Master is not only maximising his own spiritual potential, but minimising the amount of harm he does to others.
True Will is something completely individual. It cannot be learned from a book or a guru – each must find her own True Will. In that, Crowley was a complete moral relativist.
And you know something?
I think he was right.Morality can only arise from the moral agent herself.
If you are following an external rule or prescription you are not really acting morally, you have handed your agency to someone or something else and have become an ethical automaton. And how can you possibly know if that external authority is ethical at all – it is only your own heart you can see into.
When the Buddha entered the town of Kesaputta he was mobbed by the local people – the Kalamas – who wanted to know the best way to behave. Kesaputta was on a popular pilgrimage route and many devout holy men had passed through, each preaching his own particular path to enlightenment with it’s attendant ethical precepts and each contradicting the teachings of the others. As you might imagine this left the Kalamas somewhat confused and in their confusion they thought the best thing they could do was ask yet another holy man for the answer.
A whole village load of straight men for Buddha!
Ananda must have felt greatly relieved.“Don’t listen to what everyone tells you”, the Buddha told them, “Don’t believe the hype or swallow the word on the street. Don’t go along with what the authorities say. Don’t just do what your forefathers did or let yourself be fooled by the nonsense in holy books. Don’t believe in natural laws or anything else taken as a given. And don’t kid yourself you know it all or can reason it out. Don’t hang on celebrity endorsements or self-help manuals and ignore those pompous prats who claim to have a direct line to God. If you want to know what to do, you’ve gotta ask yourself. You’re the only one who knows what’s right for you. But you have to ask yourself very carefully and thoroughly. And it’s probably a good idea to start by considering what wise folk say and whether it may also apply to you. If you’re wise that is.”
Aleister Crowley couldn’t have put it better himself.
Like Augustine – or Hindu bhaktis – Crowley believed that perfect love was the perfect guide to human behaviour. But perfect anything probably is. Perfect contemplation, perfect dedication, perfect concentration even perfect hedonism – all will eventually lead to the realisation that all is one and to disrespect anything is to disrespect yourself.
Of course perfection in anything is pretty tricky to pull off, so the best most of us can do is struggle futilely towards it. Near enough isn’t really good enough but as near as you can possibly get is good enough for you.
Strive towards your own level of competence, don’t think you can exceed it by aping the competence of others.
OK, I’ve bombarded you with truisms – just as Aleister did – but do I have any practical advice?
Probably not. I only know what works for me.But one thing that does work for me is to try to be aware that every decision is a moral decision, and every thought is a decision – or at least it should be. If you can’t even decide what to think there’s probably not much point trying to work out how to behave.
So you need to be mindful of your own mind. Be as aware as you can of every instant of your existence and everything that impinges upon it. Act in harmony with your own nature and what nature presents to you – because they are really one in the same.
Hey, did I say perfection was easy?
But if you’re really paying attention to the moment you simply haven’t got time to be worrying about what the law is or what the Bible says or what the neighbours might think. Or even what you think.You’re too busy living your life. Your life as a moral being.
And you know what?
It all works itself out.
It’s been doing that for a long time already, even without all your moralising and anguishing about it.You don’t improve yourself with morality, you improve your morality by improving yourself.
You can’t act morally, you can only be moral.
You don’t follow a morality, you live it.So get out there and start being the only thing you’re perfect at being.
You.
Even if it means you’re being a perfect fool.This is the end of the very informative and well written blog post by my friend Cabrogal from Australia…who often participates in discussions on White Pearl’s website about philosophy, religion, and many other various topics of specials interests…He has a form of Autism similar as I do…as he reported there on White Pearl’s website…White Pearl is a young Muslim woman from Pakistan…
KMF…haHa reminds me of KFC…Hehe…(Kentucky Fried Chicken..not original style..if you will)….?HUH!HEH?..
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katiemiafrederick says:
Learn about…Thelema..if you will…or if
you like..
The writings of Aleister Crowley…
the JOKER..
of the 20th Century..
http://www.thelema101.com
MORE..
TO COME…
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katiemiafrederick says:
Wow! How I do love Bowling and Tennis…and the number 66 if one remembers reading ‘REvelation 66’ in the KATiEMiAAghogday.blogspot.com blog….
Anyway this up and coming Artist of ‘LIGHT’, ‘LORDE’… if you will is brought to my attention today…Bowling and Tennis is actually a way of enlightenment too…with 10 pins one ball or racquet and one ball with laser focus to make IT happen…if you will..
I worked in a Bowling Center for almost two decades where my laser focus is people instead of Bowling watching their laser focus with their ball and 10 pins…
But much earlier from the time I was 11 to 21 for those 10 years I spent playing tennis at the walking distance park for almost everyday at times…hours…upon…hours…of laser focus….be the ball as is…not the racquet…if you will…
Funny how one can do something for almost ten years in in life…and not remember the importance of the pathway in that something to attaining approximately ultimate light…
Also love the number 11 and 6 of course for F and K too..which of course is the first initials of my wife and I for 9′s marriage…7 for G for God and 8 and H for infinity as one whole bridging 11 as well or what some might abbreviate as 718…of course @first we can respect 418 for one infinity2…B for two and one for A…ABBA 1221…KK11F6G7H8asA41….
HAha! looks like a youtube link?HUHEH!butjustanotherwordforeternity…if you will..kindalikehuhehyousee?seasasone…
Well if you didn’t understand anything I just said that is quite oKay IT IS just for flow..if you will…and maybe for sHOW aswell..
But I think some one might enjoy Lorde’s next three3forC videos and the little appreciation of bowling…66…and Tennis Courts too and my favorite channel 11 with no TV signal2…..join US IF YOuNe will….
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Oh! and I already forgot to mention the Royals again..remember that post about 722 and the ‘Royal’ and the baby and all that stuff called STAR OF DAVID MESSAGE FOR WORLD PEACE also from katiemiaaghogday.blogspot.com …well this girl would rather be a queen bee Eusocial ruler than any money oriented materialistic ‘chick’…if you will..have to say or will to say I agree….
Well..as I’m sure you can see by this at least..I think..I AM sure if you will…there is a great deal of free flow of unbridled creativity going on here…along with lots of ‘light’ bright music from ‘signingsinging’ stars…
Consider this a little tribute below for some of my very favorite ‘song artists’, if you will….
I also recently gained s sudden interest in numerology as one can see below as well…above?
katiemiafrederick says:
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But seriously…folks..’IT’s ALL Good’…
The Great Song Artist ‘Sting’ is heavily involved in studying the writings of
Aleister Crowley…
Many of the Lyrics in the songs
he
sings
reflect the teachings…
The Album ‘Sacred Love’
is
a
most wonderful expression of love to me…
and so in addition to the
youtube videos I link I will proceed
now to
link
3 songs from
his
‘Sacred Love’ Album..IT takes me there…if you will….
hopefully it may help someone
else
experience IT too…
These links should work ‘overseas’ too.. where
censorship of youtube is broadly prevalent…
LIBERTY!
is the greatest gift of ALL for mankind as whole…
If you WILL..
that IS my opinion…
and
not necessarily part of anyone else…
but
LOVE SHARES…
Inside..
Send Your Love to the Future…
Sacred Love..
And here comes the rest of songs stories…
With a little reward of a video
describing
gnostic
‘Knowledge’..
if
you will…
close to the end..
Enjoy…if..
but whatever..
‘Do what thou Wilt..
Love
Under
Will’
and
All that Stuffff…2
That’s my father on the right…I come from a long lineage of vampires..if you will…
HAhaHaHA
Currently I’m on the
Left in this particular
generation…
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glow wrote: wow- echo beach Yes…IT truly is…and even more than this..IT IS Paradise…some people spend their whole life looking for heaven..some people wait until the end for a dam dream of 72 or 72 Virgins..
but the TRUTH IS Heaven already exists for those who see..who…truly see..the FACE OF GOD…Some people think God’s a b***h..I think God’s a Beach..
IT IS a choice of TRUE WILL IS ALL to live in heaven or hell…
For anyone that walks this beach the answer seems clear to me..so only me shares IT in hopes that someone else… might SEE IT too….
Not everyone is fortunate enough to be born in paradise…
I suppose if there is…
a such a thing..
as
Karma
I must’ve made
a pretty big sacrifice
some where along the way
to be privileged to spend even one
moment in this place of paradise..for me…
I spent decades wandering this paradise without a
care in the world except for experiencing heaven..Wow! what..
love the face of God Brings for those who see it..
who experience and..
are TRULY ONE with IT…
I did not need any DAM religious book..
to experience this…
nor does a SEA GULL or a TORTOISE…
or even a CRAB in the sand or still A NAUTILUS..
Leaving a permanent record of PARADISE behind for ALL to share….
For those who TRULY SEE SEAS….ALL…
AS ONE AND ALL OF LOVE TRUE WILL LIGHT LOVES ALL…
ALL LOVES LIGHT WILL TRUE LOVE OF ALL..
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Wrong Planet Autism Forum Index -> Politics, Philosophy, and Religion 0 0 New The Windows of the Soul are in the Eyes…TWeyeLIGHT..True Will eye..i..Lovelight…Tw..i..LIGHT..TWiLIGHT…
OH! and before I forget..before I go and say see ‘ya later…for ALL you CAT lovers LIKE ME…in case you are concerned that’s Yellow Boy..set..free..in the picture above…HE is still locked up on the patio..protected from the wilder elements of life..if you WILL..The CAt in the photo above with the bright light eyes..is the extra Kool Burger King Lion King Kat..HE knowsalwaysnow his way around town..and needs no instruction from silly human beings to tell HIM where to go….I love that CAT but sHE will have no owner but heSheS…own WILLIGHTLOVETRUETOsHE..My wife clarifies to me that SHE is a sHE but I did not check out the private parts..I usually don’t notice them anyway…I like the eyes the most…Pretty much you’ve seen one vagina..penis..or breasts and you’ve seen them all but the eyes among all beings are always unique…and truewillovelightexpression of soul the..
deepest parts of our beings..for those without eyes the eyes still exist…always present beyond any shade that may present itself in life…the core of being that IS among ALL shared as US…forONEANDALL….SEAS?yet..seeyalater…
Meyes WILL SEE your soul in your dreams and I will be looking back at your eyes to the metaphors of suprorganism of mind…if you will..seeseasthatdeep….oceangreenoremeraldbluetheoneissimilarandthesame…
Here is a picture of the ‘little lion king’ we came across at Burger King on Sunday night…my wife and sister pointed out to me some most interesting figures/symbols of optical illusion in the bright lights of burger king parking lot light over my head…and burger king crown..if you will…
More interesting were the comments I received at the Wrong Planet website and the Reddit website…in even getting a personal opinion…but I suppose the most voted upon perceptions were Yoda with floppy ears..a donkey…and the full tapestry of a giant Lion in the sky…lights..again..if you will..
A strange looking spooky image in the Burger King big glass front window too..for view…
Well here is the photo here and a link to the Flikr version that you can make extra large on your big screen if you have one…would be most interested if anyone else perceived other images than we did in the bright lights of Burger King Parking Lot Light…please feel free to comment on anything I wrote..and I always welcome any type of disagreement to aim toward higher lights of understanding and knowledge of ALL THAT IS if you WILL…
http://www.wrongplanet.net/postt240117.html
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glow wrote:
wow- echo beach
Yes…IT truly is…and even more than this..IT IS Paradise…some people spend their whole life looking for heaven..some people wait until the end for a dam dream of 72 or 72 Virgins..
but the TRUTH IS Heaven already exists for those who see..who…truly see..the FACE OF GOD…Some people think God’s a b***h..I think God’s a Beach..
IT IS a choice of TRUE WILL IS ALL to live in heaven or hell…
For anyone that walks this beach the answer seems clear to me..so only me shares IT in hopes that someone else… might SEE IT too….
Not everyone is fortunate enough to be born in paradise…
I suppose if there is…
a such a thing..
as
Karma
I must’ve made
a pretty big sacrifice
some where along the way
to be privileged to spend even one
moment in this place of paradise..for me…
I spent decades wandering this paradise without a
care in the world except for experiencing heaven..Wow! what..
love the face of God Brings for those who see it..
who experience and..
are TRULY ONE with IT…
I did not need any DAM religious book..
to experience this…
nor does a SEA GULL or a TORTOISE…
or even a CRAB in the sand or still A NAUTILUS..
Leaving a permanent record of PARADISE behind for ALL to share….
For those who TRULY SEE SEAS….ALL…
AS ONE AND ALL OF LOVE TRUE WILL LIGHT LOVES ALL…
ALL LOVES LIGHT WILL TRUE LOVE OF ALL..
AND ONE AS ALL……..
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Here is a comment I made to one of the popular sites in the Autism Community as linked and quoted below…One area that I found particularly disturbing is the number of ‘spoiled brat’ autistic people that have not really experienced what life can mean after 4 or 5 decades and attempted to judge other people for their there failings without any ability to experience empathy for the ‘dark night of the soul’…
that is real and where are there are no limits as to what a human being will do to escape that place…A place of truly human hell where one second of hell is equal to a thousand years of ‘normal’ human experience without this true human hell..
Everytime I hear someone personally judge another person I only hope that they do never have to experience the dark place of the soul..as if they do..the guilt they feel for judging any human beings actions will be as strong are stronger than the dark place of the soul if there is any human left in them…
It’s impossible to fully understand heaven unless one has truly understood the true human hell that exists and is no dam JOKE….
That said I live in heaven now..and truly IS A BEAUTIFUL PLACE AS COMPARED TO THE UGLIEST PLACE OF ALL THE HUMAN SOUL OF DARKNESS…LIVING..DEATH…
I experienced a prison of the pain of trigeminal neuralgia for a solid five years…it’s the documented worst pain known to mankind…usually occurs in brief acute spurts but my ‘joy’ had no end if you will..
I will say this as 100% true…there are dark places of the human soul that no one can understand but those who enter it…
Anyone that doesn’t understand why someone would do this are the lucky ones..the silly green behind the ears autistic people that have not lived with the full scope of life are in never any position to judge anyone in doing this..
Until they have themselves spent even one second in the human hell on earth that is possible and real for any human being..
The pain I had was so bad…that a pleasant dream was dousing myself with gasoline and catching the next available match..
I would have done it the first day without any problem if there were not people… the only people… my wife..my sister..and my mother that were not willing to live without me.
Support means everything in this life…and there is no sin that cannot be forgiven or understood when one knows the dark place of the soul.
For every person that does not have empathy for the dark place of the soul…one day they may experience the dark place of the soul…and then they will finally..
understand what TRUE EMPATHY means…
By the way the pain has been gone for 6 weeks now.. I will also tell a another little truth here..’GOD exists’..miracles exist..and for those that cannot or will not have this hope..it’s only their loss…no one else…
That too… is a ticket to hell eventually… one way or another in the reality that is human…
I won’t be surprised if the comment above is not published but I am not too concerned about what is or what is not considered ‘politically incorrect’ anymore..the beauty of fuller liberty..that is true human liberty..as I personally see it..
That said and along the lines..what I first remember of my dark 5 years of the soul leading up to March 1st of 2008…was when I could no longer feel the love of the earth underneath my bare feet in my backyard…Maybe it’s harder to understand the love of the earth underneath bare feet that experiences before one loses it…as I never experienced that loss until that day in February of 2008…
WEll as you can probably imagine I feel the earth strongly underneath my feet now…that beautiful love of the mother earth that is all ours as one that we share…
The feet are no longer enough for me…my meditation now is wandering around my completely private backyard completely naked listening to my iPhone with only flow of being alive..it is a beautiful meditation practice to me…and the music takes me there…I was listening to Pieces of 8 by Styx today…another band that incorporates the writing of Aleister Crowley in the actual frequencies of music and lyrics too…
It truly is a MagicKal element of life in gaining higher levels of consciousness ONE with the Supraorganism of this planet of minds that is truly ONE whether cognizant of this experience or not…there is no fear possible when one is more fully aware and part more fully aware of the actual reality that is human without the collective intelligence of cultural byproducts that cloud our vision from the ONE that IS ALL..this supraorganism of human world mind that exists in the true reality of what is human experience…
My wife is having a little difficulty understanding that when I wander naturally in flow as a HAWK in the sky in the golden spiral… that HAWKS fly in the sky… that I AM not a stark raving mad lunatic as she had people on her side of the family that were in-laws that started walking in square boxes in the yard over and over…that technically had a mental illness disorder and were usually medicated..
Question being here is who has the truth of what it truly means to be human.. the so called ‘mentally ill’ person who has found the truth or the cultural byproduct of an illusion of what human has never meant to be until..now..
There are different levels of what is described as disorders like Schizophrenia, Bi-Polar and other related neurological differences of the mind..but there is never any normal in this condition called human being…anymore than there is ever any normal spiral flow of a HAWK in the sky among other HAWKS that flow somewhere among a pattern of golden spiral…
I wish I could fly..but if I keep walking in the backyard naturally in the golden spiral flow I suppose there will be a crop of circle of kind that looks like a Nautilus shell of complexity and kind….if you will…I could draw the pattern if I had the proper software to illustrate on the screen..a peaceful place of labyrinth where there is never any need to escape…if you will..of kind and same…of this fuller experience of human being….as ONE with ALL…
WEll that was a lot better than the last comment even if there was nudity talked about haha!…Filicide is a horrible expression of hell..but IT happens my friends and IS Only Truly SAD is all and always deservant of the highest levels of empathy for all who are concerned and involved living and dead…as the last thing any ‘sane’ human being will do IS kill their child…too much medical documentation that in almost every case of filicide there is some type of manifestation of this place of dark human soul that some people place labels on to attempt to better understand what is truly human hell….
Turning To A Zombie
Days purposeless, lifeless
Nights sleepless, weep-less
Mind powerless, thinking-less
Heart feeling-less, emotionless
Eyes tear-less, fearless
A little brain making me alive
Turning to a Zombie, I survive
Those awake nights with tears
Have disappeared in fog
But still I stand filled with fears
With all the hollowness and less hope
I flow with the flow of life
A zombie walk on streets
He hunt people to survive
And I get my own meat to eat
Mind collapsed, fainted, wrecked
They hold secret of eternal life in it
Depression, pain and schizophrenic attacks
My forever friends no longer dwell
My life has possessed some weird days
A state between happiness and hell
A zombie life is indeed pleasant
Nothing to feel, Nothing to repent
Life is turning to a meaningless dream
Awareness-less, Search-less, direction-less
Praying , longing…… for pain, for screams
As Pain takes everything, gives everything, doubtless !
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Yasmeen Baloch / September 8, 2013
Oh yar,dara dya na subah subah…
katiemiafrederick / September 8, 2013
There was a time not too long ago where I could not remember what a tear..a laugh..or even a smile felt like…A time much longer before that where life was all a smile…a time before that where the feelings where lost but still remembered… and a time before that where only smiles is life…
In my opinion..the greatest thing to remember is that any ‘zombie’ can come back to life…if properly loved enough…xxlovexx….xxlovexx..
Forgiving oneself is always the most important gift as far as I can see..
As the only other person to blame is God and he is on this journey with us..never missing but sometimes not felt…always waiting patiently for us…
Again..please remember my comments here are never personal and always for a greater purpose…
My love for you as human will never change…my friend…
IN other words please again understand the comments are only temporal and never lasting my friend…
I continue to learn and am cautious not to let logic win my mind again…and spirit of course too…as the logic is the zombie and the emotion is the life…
Even sadness is stronger than zombie in everyday..way..I see…as long as I flow like a hawk in a golden spiral in the sky…
I did not sleep at all from 9/4 to 9/6 not meeting my two hour requirement..my Ramadan never ends…my friend…
Best thoughts to you love…the sacred love..that IS
IT IS…
IT
My friend…
Comment from White Pearl’s Website linked here…
A very passionate person of SAcred love she is..
A very inspirational poem I just came across generated these comments I WILL link below…
Kate MiaSeptember 8, 2013 at 11:01 AM
I truly believe the mysteries of the Universe are ALL in stories..paragraphs..words..letter…and numbers2..and three and 4 and whatever5…may bring…as WELL AS ALL…IS..IT..AS IS..AS ALL…ASONENOWforevermore…
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Kate MiaSeptember 8, 2013 at 11:03 AM
…And WILL TRUE fore..everNOW…
“Song for a New Millennium: God…”
http://songsforanewmillennium.blogspot.com/2013/09/gids-and-rabbits-feet.html?showComment=1378663399997#c814325317062452729
Another great AWE inspiring poem generated by the d Verse gang..if you will.. and link below to the poem about Syria..if you will…like to take a glance..at that..too…
Being human can be an ‘aweful’ ugly thing or an ‘awful’ beautiful thing..I suppose all cultures and peoples choose the beauty they believe in or what may be ugly2…
The human condition and man in general is the most beautiful and terrifying species all in one reflecting the truer truth of reality that many refuse to accept…the image of god is both beautiful and ugly as one…for perfecKtion of what IS as ALL as that IS ALL AS IS…
http://clementsgeoff.com/2013/09/01/looking-towards-syria-dawn-21-august-2013/comment-page-1/#comment-623
The Poetry keeps tasting better over there at d Verse ‘Pals” if you will…
http://miskmask.wordpress.com/2013/09/04/i-just-want-to-climb-a-tree/comment-page-1/#comment-7639
God help me too…I AM eleven again 2..or even one maybe..two…
I’ve been wandering around in the ‘Golden Spiral’ in my completely private backyard lately completely naked..but my 23 year and something or another marriages wife thinks..I’m crazy as a ‘Fox’ for doing this3 times a week..if you will..
I suppose someone answered my request…as I finally feel GOD too on every cell of my being finally as ONE again…
The lessons in Life never end my friend..beautiful words they certainly are…
And I try to never let a an unusually creative effort go to waste…here is a great one of foxes..after that 2hilarious videos from Above Average productions..one of my favorite youtube subscriptions…
OH MY GOD! HOW I DO LOVE CREATIVITY…
WTF…
,,,FTW
Hmmm..one left I think…
Here is my progressively..increasingly cryptic response made in five parts to Cabrogal’s latest beautiful post on wildlife in his backyard…Wordpress was not capable of formatting properly some of the extra long cryptic words in the desktop version vs. the mobile version of the software so I will edit them here for correctness..if that matters anyway..if you really want to see the deeper secrets in the message I provide from free flow of creativity through what I describe as the supra organism of human minds…as ONE..if you will..with WILL of one…Hmmmm…already gettincryptichuh?he!h!anywayherShegoes…@ALI…with AILies..if you will…with WILLILY…ILY..WILL..F..AM…
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Loved IT as much as EO Wilson…when you can find all the answers to the mysteries of good and evil that do not exist in the backyard…haha…as perfects..&…as perfects…and…dam spellcheck…that…neverheardofaspergers….always good to find people who simply tell their truth…
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by the way not at all suggesting your writing is simplistic just that the flow of your truth is not hard for you @ALl that’s and l and an I BTY…
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Just I say..just I ce..justice…justgivemelettersandwordsandihaveaspergersfriends2alwayswithorwithoutanyoneelse…ohandnumbers3..andallothersymbols..and..akeyboardofcourse… for little…ability..to writersnot..a digital..man..irobotandiphone..aninterestingmix…
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Justcallmr..ALI..sillylittlelovesongs..Ily..si..seyes…nodoubtaleisterhad..a touch..oftheaspergrs2…not nearly..the..Same as classic..autismbutsimiliar…seyes..eme…
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godgivesustheanswersinreverseinexpressionoftheenglishlanguageandwhenwewalkbackwardtheirisalsointrinsicrewardorawards..ifyouwill..orcantryit…when you..wil..seyes…
For those of youWho do not like words very much..much of this cryptic story is in the pictures of my FLICKR photo expressions too..there is nothing that meets the eye at first that cannot have deeper meaning IN LIFE…and there is everything that meets the eye at last that can have shallower meaning IN LIFE..been there down that…in the shallow..part…writeright..before…i experienced DEATH..if you will..i prefer to stay in deeper waters…NOWISALLITWILLSONEWILLSONESLOVEONESWILLSONEWILLSITALLISNOW
THAT’S AN S…W..ER..TO COMPLETE THAT LINE UP THEIR AFTER D…BYTHWAY….IFYOUWILL..ILY..SEEYOU LATER..F…AM….SEYES…(TE2T~:);(:~T2ET..)S(…=2..MW.1.MW..2=…)M(…
THEREANDTHEIRBYTY2…FOR ALL THE PATHSALL..ONEWILLonewills
OOps..almost forgot about one left… maybe this is IT…the video that IS…
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LOVELIGHTLOVELook forward..walk backward..read forward..write backward… BebnowKnowNwonKonenoseyesayesONEISALISONE
rightiswriteiswrongiswriteisrightisdarkislightisdarkislight…
ALLNOWONEFOREVERMORE…
NOWONWINIWMWINIWNOWON
PASSION
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OMG! WOW! YOU JUST WROTE HIS BIBLE..at least in my opinion..sincerely fred..who makes things happen..if you will…feel free to delete if you like…it is the emotion and energy that counts..in the long run..that IS..you got IT that’s ALL that COUNTS IS LOVE AND TRUE WILL for each and every one as one with ALLISONEISALL
Resolve..by MOSTLY TRUE STUFF’S BLOG…AND sHEwhowritesIT
http://www.mostlytruestuff.com/2013/09/resolve.html
WOW! OMG! you just wrote his bible..sincerely Fred..that IS so beautiful Saha..I am going to share this link on my blog…to live with one as one is the most beautiful way I see too…
And here is arguably the greatest male singer and rock musician who ever existed in the recorded history of man..who also had among the brightest lights of love of what I have ever seen on this blue green earth…did I mention He is bisexual…who IS a F******King of musicians songwriters and singers as far as I can see…spreading light bringing people ‘up’ who are often perceived as different…so many more people confident…that they belong on this beautiful earth…Even Katy Perry credits him for bringing confidence to her in her repressive fundamentalist household that abhors all Popular Culture Music…for the holders of the TRUELIGHTiCE…Seeseas…fro&zen alive..I honor him here@below but he is IS@bove as far as I see proudly honoring hI’masone of the greatest partnersOFONE…
FREDDIE MERCURY…coolest on stage namever…If I could be a popular singer..I would love this name…but IT WILL BE HIS FOREVER..as originality can never be mimicked…The true measure of success asfarasmeseyes…
Disgusting that his home nation would not honor his name for the fact of his bisexual human orientation…that is common everywhere in God’s green and blue earth where social animals live..who are sexually dimorphic…keeping support for the greater good of all the species..and invaluable support for the greater good of ALL..
I am trying to select a Church in my local fundamentalist area but it will have to be a church that does not exclude those of different neurological and biological minds and bodies including individuals with sexual orientation variations along with gender variations..
I am actually a pretty good singer with a church choir…I sang in the Catholic Church choir and played the piano for over 10 years…and there was never any bad words said about anyone of different sexual or gender orientations..with people from many multicultural areas of the world…coming from military backgrounds…
So…it appears again that my only choice to share light in church singing in a choir in my little fundamentalist town will once again be the Catholic Church…this Sunday will be my first time back in close to 23 years as when I got married I lost the passion for singing…the passion is back…I Am going to ‘blow the walls down’ of that Catholic church with my voice that spans several octaves of ‘thunderous and angelic like soundvoicefrequencies’ in always perfect harmony with the rest of the choir..maybe even solos someday…could never do that before but anything is possible nowKNow…the piano most unfortunately is probably out as I have carpal tunnel syndrome substantially when I try to play now…but I am never giving up for that either…one day I will play again if not there..with myself and wife at home…
But anyway…it’s now..and time for Freddie Mercury appreciation…for one of the greatest lovelights of all human beings who have walked this earth…asfarasisees
All I can say is what an incredibly brave artist to express emotion sensuality and pain all in one almost perfecKt package…this artist is definitely on her way up…over 8 million views on you tube in less than a day2…simply amazing..more surprising how many people miss the much deeper meaning of this artistic expression by focusing on what we are fed everyday by mass commercialization for selling anything from ice cream to coca cola…
How in the world can anyone judge Miley Cyrus for maintaining what is already the social norm…. I am almost clueless other than people attempting in forcing their expectations on her freedom of expression and true will along with all the other artists she works with to make this powerful muse to melt the hearts of ‘frozen humans’ happening now as they listen and look at this powerful artistic muse..
Madonna received similar criticism throughout her career even on her wonderful album Ray of Light full of some of the brightest dark and light generating overall energy of lifelovelight in a most incredible way to also melt the hearts of frozen humans..zombies if you will…the real apocalypse is the loss of human spirit..emotion and sensuality to cold hard logic…the balance is always required and artists like Miley Cyrus, Madonna, and so many other artists of all kindstypeshapesforms work together…to provide..what I call BAND AID to the rest of their beloved species…sometimes giving their life to spread the power of creativity and greater lights of love and more and more love of ultimate lights..even when the darkness generates the light of overall..LoveLIGHTlife…!
Another comment of mine in response to a post that is bent out of shape that people are expressing empathy for a person that committed a horrible crime against their child..likely associated with a fall to the darker side of human nature….again not sure if it will be published but my liberty of freedom of speech is definitely free here…and not subject to private rights to censorship…
Empathy is a normal human trait..Empathy does not equal condoning horrible human behavior…Love is all that matters in the end.. and empathy is always part of ‘true’ love no matter how serious the crime may be…
Unfortunately… not everyone is strong enough to love like this..and the reaction is often hate instead of love..
I’m not quite sure why people have to do this..but I guess maybe it is at least in part my autism that allows me never to feel hatred or personal judgement against other human beings no matter what the mistake they make in life is..
I do not ever meet the type of autistic people in real life that express this type of hatred against their fellow human beings that make mistakes..it is not a type of autism I either understand or share with those autistic people in real life…so yes I do feel empathy for this parent who fell to the dark side of human nature and feel even more empathy that it is horrible that any child should ever have to suffer at their parents hands…or voice… but Love is love..true love that is…it has no conditions ever…
And here are some words of wisdom from Steve Paul Jobs…in the link below…
http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/authors/s/steve_jobs.html
Hmmm..9/11/13 is almost here…more on that later..
But meanwhile I never seem to get tired anymore and need sleep rather in a peaceful state of mind still..so I guess it is time for some more free flow of creativity..
The cycles of life are so interesting to me…living as one spirit and expressing so many faces of one with others during the course of a lifetime..
Modern technology provides an elixir of so many remedies to heal the spirit from emotional distraught..and the numbness that can often result from extreme empathy..that people on the broader autism phenotype extending out to about 10 to 15% of the population and introversion that strongly extends out to about 25% of the population and by Briggs Meyers studies is slightly over 50% of the general population at 53%…experience in life.
The extroverts may make most of the noise…but it is more often the introverts that are feeling more of the emotions and/or pain of other human beings…
The greater the sensitivity and easier satiation for the neurochemical dopamine the greater the sensitivity to all life experiences including the nuances of empathy that can be so strong for some people that they eventually repress most of their feelings..
Extreme emotional contagion the core of intrinsic empathy rather than cognitive empathy of understanding the difference betweens one’s emotions and other people’s emotions and what make them tick in effect..is more often associated with introverts or what even might be considered as more extreme introverts in the broader autism phenotype in 10 to 15 percent of the population..
Unfortunately reaction to extreme empathy of emotional contagion can sometimes be turned into expression of hatred of others…in fighting back to control overwhelming emotional contagion with others..in defense for one’s ‘own’ psychological..spiritual.. survival…
So basically there is adaptation to emotional contagion..avoidance and repression of emotion…or fighting back… When I fell to many health problems my ability to adapt lost it’s grip…so I moved to avoidance and repression of emotions…and ended up being basically a robot…computer..or basically an analogy of a digital man..a complex one..yet never the less more associated with how a computer works than real human beings…
The only resolution to this issue..a true resolution that is…is to experience constructive communication with other human beings..and choose the social environment that is easier to adapt to in the long run…not many choices where I live at in my town..but the internet does provide relatively limitless opportunities to communicate with people across the glove..GLOBE….
That said I am lucky I can express my self in writing as I was a ‘jumpy around’ type speaker in real life.. Computers keep me organized and focused…training my mind to be much stronger..overall I think…but the human connection in real life is always the best as I can more fully absorb the soul of another human being…write now.
The battle for truewillightlove continues in whatever little ways I can effect IT in small but hopefully meaningful part of ALL…lovetruewilllight…This one from the Thinking Person’s Guide to Autism…facebook page….many discussions from that site where I fight this battle of lovetruewilllight is linked on my Katiemiaaghogday.blogspot.com website..hopefully to inspire people to do the same or greater in the propagation of truewillightlove for ALL..if one wills..
The Thinking Person’s Guide to Autism: “lack of compassion and coming together in the community of autism parents” is indeed a tangent. The fact that Issy’s mother tried to kill her is what we need to focus on. That is what this article is protesting. And hell yes, I will judge someone who tried to kill her kid. We all should. Services or the lack thereof (though this was so very much not the issue in this case) is a separate discussion. Don’t kill your kids, spread the message that it’s wrong to kill your kids, do everything possible to look out for other kids in danger of being killed. End of story. -SR
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Julia O’Connell: Kelli will have her day in court. In the meantime, do you have any suggestions about how to look out for other kids in danger of being killed?
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Katie Mia: The hatred of judging the mentally ill is exactly the type of behavior that in reality is correlated with more of this horrifying behavior…if one is really concerned about lessening the impact of this type of behavior one pursues answers and effects them…all hatred does is exacerbate the real potential that this may happen again..
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Katie Mia: So if you really want to help the children help the parents my friend support them in all their endeavors..and try to understand and show some empathy if you can when things go OH! so very sad in this thing called human nature..ALL the hate in the world will not cure the reality of the limitations of human nature my friend…but unconditional love is hope and support….you’ll find that on the mostly true stuff facebook blog and it is much much brighter lighter love and healing propensity than the hateful words of some autistic people..
That said they obviously have their own histories of abuse and hatred….that generate this vicious cycle of hatred my friend the truly courageous and brave people will go up against hatred every time with unconditional love of healing instead of generally killing daggers of hate..my friend..
There is no question in this equation of human nature and what works and what does not work…unconditional love propagates unconditional love along with unconditional empathy while hatred plain and simple propagates hatred of every form until those that live it are propagated by their own true will motivations to finally walk…themselves..in true will love and light…my…friend…I’m still here a little bit more so i guess at least for now you are still worth IT for me to try to help you find that true will love light my friend…
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(she may think I am a little overzealous if you will..but the words will stay with her in her subconscious mind for sometime to come as most people do not show this type of altruism for complete strangers..)
IMPACT IS WHERE IT’S AT
Oops! forgot the website for the thinking person’s guide to Autism…
here it is:
https://www.facebook.com/thinkingpersonsguidetoautism
And here is a picture of the little “Lion King we came across at the Burger King Parking Lot”..my wife and sister pointed out several optical illusions in the lights above my head at burger king..the most interesting ones were Yoda with the floppy ears and giant lion with a fluffy mane and prominent snout if you will..
I tried to discuss this at the Wrong planet website and immediately got a suggestion that my wife was paranoid schizophrenic…and i needed to get my meds back to speed and come back at the reddit website…That link at the Wrongplanet is linked below and there is a link to the reddit discussion on the picture… in the Wrongplanet link toward the end of the comments there too…The Wrongplanet website has good moderation for anyone that is actually personally adversely affected by this type of attempted personal attack…but Reddit.. the few times I have been there…usually reminds me of an online version of the “Lord of the Flies”…culture is a little sick it seems…as these type of things would have not likely happened in the “Good Ole days”…if you will?
Anyway here is the link to Wrongplanet and the link to the flickr picture of the ‘little lion king’ in the front of burger king…I would be most interested if any poet cares to suggest what it is they interpret of the optical illusions in the light above burger king in the flickr picture..thanks very much if you determine to add input on this…in advance…
http://www.wrongplanet.net/postt240117.html
Ah.. this was packed man… a lot to read.. love the wordplay with the waves in the beginning… sure like waves rolling back and forth.. everchanging… cool
Thanks Bjorn..words are my pleasure and the wordplay is always a little thrill..the waves flowing back and forth and ever-changing is always enough and I’ll think I’ll go there again before the mythological nile flood on 911 tomorrow and see how shores feel the third time again for this most wonderful summer of human healing for me.. and my wife…good to see you friend…again…
i love light as well…so many different shades.. so many painters where their whole life fascinated by its multimillion different facettes
It is all bliss for me being able to fully see light again..my friend…
i love the thought of god as poetry…ha…that is cool…and dude you are rocking the crown as you call to the cat….hope you are having a great week man…
Thanks for stopping by Brian..this week is simply splendid and I never used that word before..so it must be great haha! but actually I think the cat was calling me..and I just followed sHes lead…:)
HATE and Darkness is a most amusing muse for LIGHT and Love…Here a two sources from this horrible tragedy of a distraught mother attempting to kill her child and herself over the darkness that can happen with human nature and horrible circumstances not fought off with… for those who are not strong enough to win the battle…and choose a path of darkness instead…however the path of darkness is not one to bring these people back to a path of light…only light and love ‘cures curbs’ the darkness and hate…in path…
It’s amusing and amazing as a recent book called Zealot shows the historic facts of Jesus and He was no lamb in actual effect…He was a Tiger instead…not unlike Aleister Crowley…these are the men who are my role models…those who fight for ethics and love and will not be chained by any other human being or cultural byproduct that does not agree with their true will which is a lifelong challenge for anyone to attain in this life…
They and others just embraced the challenge a little…more.. in every true will way that found them in their path of living love and light and sometimes IT DOES require one to visit the most hateful and dark of places to reach those most high places of love and light in LIfe…and to spread it too2…
I let no experience..when possible…deter me from seeking the truth…and most amusingly IT IS they who think I AM the ONE who needs help..but more than anything to me IT is so sad and so almost unbelievable I could cry for their infinity in now their soul and laugh for their utter ignorance of what I understand as truth…
So I just smile and try to let them know I love them…what else can a person do anyway in this life…but that…to really make a difference in the end….and now…as all the similar for ONE and ALL…
https://www.facebook.com/MostlyTrueStuff
The greatest lessons of love and hate and can be inspired by the greatest lessons of dark and light….
Christine xxxxxxx: You know what Lexi, I commented back, then deleted my comments in a attempt to not look like a “bully.” But, that isn’t me. I would love for you to send or post some things YOU have done to resolve issues within the autism community. I’ve never seen it or even heard of you until this past weekend. I did not come to your blog. In your half ass attempt to gain some new likes, I saw your newest blog post beings spewed on Facebook land. Please don’t flatter yourself by thinking for a moment that I would want to like your page. Your hypocrisy is not my cup of tea. I do not see the difference, and I don’t think you can convince me otherwise. But, if you are saying because your friend tried to find other sources in which to help her daughter, and was declined, she is entitled to try to kill herself and her child? I just can’t get that one wrapped around my head. I sure hope I don’t read about you Lexi one day, it is clear to me that you condone murder when all else has been exhausted. It’s also clear to me you need medication. (Since, I am a bully, I might as well call it like it is.) Peace out.
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Katie Mia: Christine you do not even understand what empathy is it appears…It is simply and expression of unconditional human love for those who truly live…there is no way you can kill this love with hatred my friend..Love does not allow others to chain it and the love here will always win over the type of expression of hate your express here my friend..there is nothing at all you can change about love…but there is everything you can do for not propagating hate..that is only your choice your true will..your light..your love to choose…hate is a black hole sun and love is a light than never ends…my friend..good luck as one day too..you may walk in fulife and lovelight my friend…
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Katie Mia: Heaven is Love and Hell is Hate..IS only your choice of where you choose for lifelivevilivedevil….your true will..your path..your dark..your light..your love..your hate..to lifelove or hatedeath…
But here’s the most amazing thing of all…your darkness muses the light…
All these Autistic People with their empathy deficits are in effect inspiring others to love…
Godlove is pretty amazing..IT can not lose ever…as all things lead to love ultimately and light..as a moth flying toward a lampbofGod..
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Katie Mia: Sharon this woman is charged with a crime at this point but our judicial system in due process in determining all the facts and extenuating circumstances will determine what the actual conviction will be.. Not folks with armchair online opinions and there is no one here with the authority to provide any rule that human ever has to stop regardless of what the human fall may be yeah like it or not that means I can love and have empathy for hitler and there is nothing you can humanly do about that even If you torture me… In real life this is how love works Sharon your hatred for any type of love will never be enough to put any chains on it you only make love stronger by in effect expressing hatred for it this way by attempting to kill the unconditional love and empathy so if it is your will carry on my friend love always wins in the long run but as you know life is short and only you runs that path my friend.
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The Thinking Person’s Guide to Autism: Katie Mia again, you are not sounding like your usual circumspect self. I hope you find the help you need. We will continue to speak out clearly that murdering autistic children is wrong, and that we cannot make excuses for the people who commit such crimes. -SR
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Katie Mia: I hope the same for you Sharon more than you may ever ‘cognizantly’ knowNow my friend..obviously IT is wrong to murder but IT IS NEVER EVER NEVER EVER WRONG TO EXPRESS UNCONDITONAL LOVE OR LIGHT that IS A LAW OF THE UNIVERSE..in my opinion only…of course…as my true will only belongs to me and your true will only belongs to you…
That said you are courageous enough to let me express this opinion here so that IT ITSELF GAINS MY RESPECT AS CENSORSHIP IS THE GREATEST SIN EVER again in my own true will opinion…so have a great day IS PRETTY MUCH ALL I CAN SAY AT THIS… point smiles my friend…
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Katie Mia: Ahhh….!this page is so hate filled… so glad I do not visit here anymore..bybye…There must be better goals in life..than spreading hate…I think…just my personal opinion…see ya much later…but never the less I do see you…for what you more fully are…
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Katie Mia: Write now…
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The Thinking Person’s Guide to Autism: Katie Mia you do not sound like your usual self, and that is a strange statement for you to make. I hope everything is OK with you. -SR
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Katie Mia: Thanks very much for what seems like sincere concern Sharon..I’m just alive that’s all…and after living with the worst pain known to mankind…the trigeminal neuralgia atypical nerve pain behind my right eye that did not allow me to effectively use my eyes or ears for five years..this is just sad…that is all..we should really have more compassion for everyone than this..I think…just call IT the tears of a Clown if you will my friend..I’m just sad for you as all for a person who I know is capable of much more than this…otherwise I would have never spent my time trying to help you…and I had plenty of IT for more limited purposes like interacting on this page when I was fully disabled…life changes but my love and compassion for other people never changed during the last 3 years…no matter how bad the pain got…this is not the Autism I know of in the real world among the people I encounter..they would never judge another human being like this…it’s not even possible…but as they say it is a spectrum of differences…sad to encounter so many people like this in the online world but I think most of it must be personal as I see so many stories of abuse by parents in childhood..my mother loved me with all her heart no matter how difficult I was to raise…this love is contagious if you will… for all others…for those that could ever feel that love..the true love my friend..the unconditional all forgiving sacred love…if you will..trust me I am still as worried about you as I always was as a fellow human being as I would love to see you share the sacred love with others..as I really do think you have that potential…my friend…
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Katie Mia: Just to be clear that was in reference to the people that are getting mad because people are showing empathy for the woman who did the horrible act of trying to kill her child…empathy does not equal condoning any behavior my friend…that is an elementary part of empathy and anyone who does not have the ability to understand that difference has a serious cognitive empathy deficit…as we already Know that is a documented peer reviewed studied issue with autism anyway…helping people to understand this deficit is very important as while you and your similar autistic like friends are not meaning too…you are coming across in society in this type of cold unempathic opinion for others who may suffer in life… as very cold without any potential for empathy…
It just propagates the sterotype my friend that Autistic people do not have empathy…
I have extreme empathy and that is not a stereotype that is advantageous for people like me..to be propagated on sites like this one..this is one of the few left that I was not successful in dousing with ice water to kill the fire of hatred if you will..like Landon Bryce’s website that was the only real popular website that was doing this on facebook that was receiving any real recognition…no one in the real world even notices ASAN for the most effect..and beyond minor players like Steve Silberman in the larger media a site like this that is obviously observed as a cold place with humans that have little empathy for their fellow man…this is what it looks like to the larger world that get air of this place my friend and you are as autistic as anyone that visits this site in my opinion…or more you just don’t have a diagnosis…and this is why I think you don’t even have the ability to comprehend what I am saying as you stay within your circle and do not venture out far enough as what I can see..to even have the potential to more fully understand this through neuroplastic adaptation which is definitely possible as I now score an 11 on the AQ test..and while I am still professionally diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder…the things that hold some autistic people back in life…the social stuff…no longer hinders me at all..I am free to be comfortable in any social interaction now…in effect I developed a personal program to cure my own negative aspects of autism…So curing those negative aspects is not at all impossible and there is always potential for effective change to be successful in this world no matter how high an AQ score is…mine was 44 to 45 before…I effectively cured the negative impacts of my Autism…my friend..but one cannot do this if they do not have any desire to do this in a ‘closed circle’ of friends alike instead of different my friend…best of wishes to you…I just don’t care to be associated with hate anymore…even though I truly wish i could help people see the greater light of true unconditional sacred love…it’s hard…so very hard..my friend…and sad…so very sad my friend…good luck..
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Emily xxxxx xxxx: ” Katie Mia you do not sound like your usual self, and that is a strange statement for you to make. I hope everything is OK with you.”
SR, I was just thinking the same thing.
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Katie Mia Thank you so much Emily as that does seem like actual empathy…I am better than ever my friend I am alive knownow in effect when I spoke with you last as metaphor I was dead…the living communicate much different than the dead my friend..and again that is only metaphor..I wish the same for your lovelight my friend and Sharon as well..I would not waste my time with either of you if I thought there was no hope…and actually all I have is faith and hope now so I will never give up on anyone as far as that goes now…
The darkness and hate muses the light love..I am here for muse more than anything else my friend to spread higher levels of love light that is All my friend(s) thanks for your valuable input as always to my lifelong project of true will for me…all I can do IS hope for similar for Y’all…
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The Thinking Person’s Guide to Autism I’m not Sharon. And after consulting with numerous friends who have had had to resort to banning Katie from their pages, we’re unfortunately going to have to do the same here. -SR
Well here is where Shannon Rosa goes into the real darkness of banning those who she suggests she protects of the facebook page the Thinking Person’s Guide to Autism.. I have been very patient with the ignorant people on this page to better help them understand what empathy is and what it is really like to be autistic above and beyond the people who have other neurological differences that come to this page and suggest they are autistic after taking an online ineffective screening test really are..
So instead of facing facts she takes the easy route out and bans me and erases what I have documented above..
Well..she can shut me up their but she will not shut me up here..as this is my space now and I have freedom of unfettered speech here..and can copy any public information from her public facebook page I care to here to expose the lies she makes on her facebook page..
While she can dismiss me there here is my full response I made to her and a philosophical one and mystical one too..as this is not an area at all I am afraid to pursue outside the realm of cold hard prison structured logic..
My direct quote from my ‘public’ email that I also sent her privately is here…She is too curious not to read It..and will never likely respond to it…but it will last in her subconcious mind forevermore..
As that is the way Karma works..in my little true will opinion..
Shannon Rosa..
you offered me help on your blog…
You lied about my reputation..
and suggested your friends had me banned when I already specifically told you..
my situation on the Autism women’s network and a documented case of a misunderstanding…
and Karla Fisher’s blog and another documented case where I defended another person against her bullying..
YOu know you lied as you know I speak the truth and you cannot defend against my logic and truth..
so you lied about my integrity, dismissed me, and banned me..
Well let me tell you this…I am a little more than who you think Iam..
There is a Universe of principle called KARMA my dear..
And trust me I see your future..I forecast the future.. and it comes true..
You WILL FACE THE DARK NIGHT OF THE SOUL MY DEAR…
and then you will understand what empathy truly means..
after that you will understand what sorrow means,,
and the hatred that you have spread to others..
Good luck you’ll need IT in when this happens..
You may be smiling to day but smiles don’t always last…
I hope you recover when that time comes..
God/s blessings to you my friend.
Shalom
ALSO JUST SO YOU WILL KNOW NOW SHANNON ROSA I DON’T EVER EXPECT YOU TO REPLY TO THIS EMAIL MESSAGE NOR DO I HAVE EXPECTIONS TO CONTACT YOU AGAIN OR SPEAK ABOUT YOU AGAIN..
BUT YOU WILL KNOW NOW THAT THIS ENTIRE CONVERSATION AS WELL AS THE COMMENTS YOU ERASED ON YOUR PUBLIC FACEBOOK PAGE AND YOUR RESPONSE TO ME
WHERE YOU LIED ABOUT MY REPUTATION IS ALL DOCUMENTED ON MY BLOG IN THE COMMENTS SECTION ON THE POST CALLED TRUEWILLOVE LIGHT…
SO EVERYONE AND YES MANY AUTISTIC PEOPLE FOLLOW MY BLOG WILL FIND OUT JUST HOW WELL YOU SUPPORT AUTISTIC PEOPLE
WHEN THEY DARE TO DISAGREE WITH WHAT YOU THINK YOU KNOW ABOUT ALL AUTISTIC PEOPLE AND HUMANS IN GENERAL…
SO GOOD LUCK TO YOU AGAIN..AND ONLY HOPE THAT WITH THE ONE WITH GOD THAT YOUR SOUL WILL EVENTUALLY EVOLVE…
Reply from Shannon Rosa:
Hi Katie,
It seems as though you are not yourself right now — or not the person you used to be at TPGA — as your comments were violating our stated policy, repeatedly and uncharacteristically. I hope things balance out for you soon.
-Shannon
My reply back now haha!smiles:) on 9.18.2013 approximately 5 pm..
WEll Shannon…IT looks like my little ploy to gain your offline..if you will..attention worked.. Perhaps now you will listen to some straight talk from me.
I guess calling you Sharon was the hook that first got your real attention as it seems to me you are likely influenced by the symptoms of non verbal learning disorder yourself..
As your command of the literal use of the English lS great but your metaphorical emotional skills are severely lacking.. if you will..
I can relate.. until I found neuroplastic adaptation through writing poetry and other ‘right’ brained activities I suffered from this deficit too..that is often associated with my Gillberg form of Asperger’s syndrome..
Here’s the thing..there is definitely the potential for at least some Autistic People to over come this reciprocal social communication deficit and become quite successful in this life..
But and a big but as long as your are promoting bitterness and hatred for your fellow human beings on your website you are in effect holding some of my beloved autistic people back my friend…
You know not any better of course as you ‘suffer’ from the same deficit my friend… I..it is not I..that are humanly imbalanced.. technically and ethically speaking it is you who are imbalanced..my friend.
Anyone with any emotional IQ of any substance clearly understands that human empathy is a completely separate quality per the unconditional love that balanced human beings experience as compared to hatred and bitterness for the failings of their fellow human beings…
I did not break any rule on your Facebook page and you have yet to ever caution me of any rule broke yet..
You are taking advantage here of what you think is a mentally imbalanced person and that is truly the saddest part my friend…
I did not disagree with you any different than all the truly compassionate balanced unconditional empathy filled people in what they are suggesting on your site ‘write’ now as we speak…in disagreements with you on your ignorance on human empathy and human emotions in general…
And listen up real good…if you will..I am extremely financially independent…and have every resource necessary to sue you dear for slandering my reputation on your Facebook page..
I seriously suggest that you delete that comment that you made that i still have documented along with every word I have ever stated on the internet…
There are over 6 million words…but better yet my memory is so good I rarely forget any conversation or any words I have stated anywhere in writing on the internet…
And no I am not going to sue you but that is just good measure because if you keep it up sooner or later someone will sue you my friend..you can’t keep slandering the integrity of the morality of individuals suggesting they promote a criminal offense of murder like you keep doing which is a complete lie.
That is the legal definition of libel. Period.
But again you are mentally challenged in the emotional part of your brain ..so I guess you can make that your defense or try to …if you ever find yourself in civil court..
That’s just my opinion..not a medical diagnosis or a professional legs opinion… but if there is any expert on autism in this world and all associated spectrum conditions that can communicate this to most everyone IT IS ME..
I spent 28 months waking to sleeping studying and researching everything about Autism…You don’t likely have 50% of the knowledge that I currently hold..It’s just a math equation my friend..
My IQ still measures out at 140 to 165..
And All the horrible health disabilities that I faced and clearly conquered from Autistic burnout are completely gone now..you are facing the full me now not part of my intelligence..
And for any thought that I may be exaggerating IT is ALL documented even in photographs on the 13 internet sites I clearly document IT on..
Now to get really BLUNT IT IS FUCKING INSPIRATIONAL NO OTHER AUTISTIC PERSON OR EVEN ANY HUMAN BEING AS BEEN ABLE TO OVERCOME WHAT I HAVE OVERCOME IN THIS LIFE SO FAR…
You haven’t heard the last of me,,,trust me on that one..but that’s not to say we will necessarily ever personally converse again.
And finally as you should clearly recognize anyway.. i stopped commented on TPGA months ago simply because I got well and had a much higher purpose in life to pursue…things that you may never gain cognizant awareness of my friend..
Simply if no other reason that you don’t have time in this rat race of a world we live in..
That said seriously my story is inspirational…if you really want to hear an Autistic Success story or even a human success story here is the link to IT right here..
You don’t even know what I look like…get ready for a surprise..when you get time to check it out..if you will..
No hard feelings you are less of an asshole than most of the people associated with Autism on blogs and Facebook…that call themselves advocates of anyone but their own selfish desires…
Seriously good luck.. if nothing else you amuse me…and yes I am ‘dead’ serious about that ONE..my friend..
My new writing pen name…KATiE MiA Frederick!il.. my friend..I’m even a member of an International Poetry Club now…
‘Super Autistiic MEN’ can DO IT ALL AS THEY ‘JUST DO IT’ WITHOUT ANY RESERVATIONS…OR INHIBITIONS..
AND HERE IS THE LINK TO EVERYWHERE I WRITE ON THE INTERNET..TPGA DOESN’T EVEN MAKE THE TOP 100 PER ANALOGY..AND NEVER WILL AS I WAS ALREADY FINISHED WITH THAT SITE MONTHS AGO..MY FRIEND..YOU SERVED MY PURPOSE..ONLY THEN.
http://en.gravatar.com/katiemiafrederick
katiemiafrederick / September 9, 2013
LOVELIGHTLOVELook forward..walk backward..read forward..write backward… BebnowKnowNwonKonenoseyesayesONEISALISONE
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katiemiafrederick / September 11, 2013
Sorry, forgot to mention above that I am going to the beach again for the 3rd time this summer to celebrate the beginning of the 9/11 Nile flood calendar and no hurricane floods here this year…but my sister who has visions that do come true dreams a monument of apocalyptic proportions arises out of the bay.. So I can only guess that we may or may not see a flood of somekind.. But I know you say you love the beach and there will be more pictures later on my Flickr feed on my wordpress blog.. Again.. glad you are doing ok.. I was starting to miss you love…
Copied again above from White Pearl’s Blog as linked in a previous comment..here…
I cannot emphasis enough how important I think this philosophy of seeking one’s true will.. as it were.. the true will destiny assigned to each ‘man’ or star of the Universe as a planet’s orbit around a son..It should be nowknowno big science surprise one day that our destinies reflect the orbits of planets as we too are made of the stuff…of stars..and the patterns of the golden spiral that exist through most everything we seaseas..
When I was 21 and I first explored my true will attempting to escape the illusion of cultural byproducts…I naturally felt the desire to run around my whole town backward as free spirit of desire to be ONE WITH ALL…I found it so incredibly enlightening that Aleister Crowley suggested the same in Walking and this is part of what inspired the moonwalk that Michael Jackson did…
So many people since ALeister Crowley’s life that ended in 1947 have been inspired by the simple truth of pursing one’s own true will and living under the law of love and true will…with the real sin being as blocking one’s being of finding their own true will…It is so beautiful to me and reflective of true light..yet It can be so hard to escape the illusion of our cultural dark spaces to more fully enter into this most beautiful light I see…
My so called disabilities were my in effect actual strengths in life…as exclusion mean more time in youth to reflect on the ONE that IS ALL…
From a scientific perspective humans are only born with two intrinsic fears…falling and loud sounds…I make some of the loudest sounds imaginable with my vocal cards and powerful lungs..and jaws..and necks so I guess I can be a pretty scary deed in an inherent kind of way…and I am very afraid of falling as I value my life anyway….
That said..we humans…learn all of our other fears through the illusion of culture….even fear of the dark…and this more so than anything else in my opinion blocks one from reaching the highest or even close to highest of highest attainable light and life destinations…
Anyway..the exercise of walking backward is not only a great physical exercise one can practice without any exercise equipment IT requires focus as one must be one with their feet to properly balance and stay anchored…
The exercise of writing backward can also be a source of great focus and even greater oneness with the Greater OnEness…as well reading backward…inspiring greater levels of light creativity and love…
I walked about 4 miles last night which equates to 8 times around my .5 mile block and almost all of it was walking in reverse and even what looked like dancing in using the golden spiral walk to maintain balance grace and speed for a not too flexible now much more solidly built 222LB 6FT male human being…HaHA I am starting to remind myself of Emmitt Smith when he was ‘dancing with the stars’…He had amazing grace for a big guy…if you will…
Additionally… I listened to Sting’s Sacred Love Album on my iPhone with Earbuds and took pictures of me walkingdancing backward around the block…included on my latest FlickR Word Press widget on the side of the Word Press format in the Word Press blog…But It was very dark last night….so not all pictures are bright…if you will…..
Well….it is better than any sex I’ve had as the vibration of life kept moving to higher and higher vibrations of light where no price could put a value on that experience…in TOTAL love..
Well this is 911 and I choose to celebrate the fact there is no Nile like Flood here rather than look back on darkness and know that even that darkness then impacts the level of light I ownow….and only attempt to share with others with no restrictions…as far as I can prevent…and present….
So here is two more videos before I go to the gym and enjoy this most beautiful day of the year in Florida as the first small cold front has moved through and the skies are more azure blue than ever that will certainly guarantee too… the most beautiful seas too at the beach…with little humidity level in the air for the clearest day of visibility yet…WILL post pictures in the FLICKR feed later on this page…
My shirt will tell the tale..perhapsmorefully…the night is day the dark is light the time is now for time…and.. eternityforonenowforevermoreternalight…TRUEWILLS…LOVESLIGHTS…ONEALLNOWASISIS…SEASEASEMEYESEY…LIGHTLOVELIGHTISALLASONEWILLTRUE
911/2013
11/7
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That’s a Matrice by the way…not numerology this time…
The great thing about matrices is they can be original…..an expression of only one of ONE..if you will…a TRUE ORIGINAL and similar at the similar time…
That’s really all of What Aleister Crowley and Jesus were saying to their target audiences..there was never any chance that the folks outside of the target audience were going to fully hear it.. but…that IS the way nature works…Survival of the fittest is a Universal LAW from the smallest of stars to the greatest of STARS THE WILL TO SURVIVE IS THE ONLY TRUE LAW…..just my opinion…don’t believe IT if IT hurts Your feelings…and does not really matter if you do not IN the long run as everyone must arrive at their own TRUTH… there is no other way…no matter how we may wish IT the path is CHALLENGE..there is nothing LiGHT that IS FREE…NOTHING IS TOTAL DARKNESS…so pick up the challenge and ‘run’ like the wind if you will…and ‘sail’ to your destination…as ONE THE ONE THAT LOVES THE MOST IS THE WINNER AFTER ALL IS SAID AND DONE…
Here is the last comment from the TPGA website linked above that I made on that site regarding the hatred among people associated with that site and ASAN related individuals express anytime someone in the general population shows empathy for people involved in tragic circumstances..such as filicide…
This was enough for Shannon Rosa who I accidentally referred to as Sharon to ban me and instead of arguing the logical points to make a personal attack on me suggesting that her friends had to ban me and she was going to have to do it too.. And of course this was also after she expressed her great concern that I needed some help…as I was not acting according to her expectations from before…
In our previous conversations which I still have documented i explained to her I had been banned from two of her friends sites..one for defending a person against the site bully owner…on a facebook site titled as an ASD page and the President of another site that allowed her audience to use profanity against me….what can I say I AM not afraid of conversation…and for anuyone that wants to stay that way.
Well…my point with her was that any hate for fellow human beings expressed over falls in life and tragic endings can be shown empathy for and it certainly does not mean anyone would want to condone potential criminal behavior..there is a balance to be maintained if possible…
Katie Mia: Sharon this woman is charged with a crime at this point but our judicial system in due process in determining all the facts and extenuating circumstances will determine what the actual conviction will be.. Not folks with armchair online opinions and there is no one here with the authority to provide any rule that human ever has to stop regardless of what the human fall may be yeah like it or not that means I can love and have empathy for hitler and there is nothing you can humanly do about that even If you torture me… In real life this is how love works Sharon your hatred for any type of love will never be enough to put any chains on it you only make love stronger by in effect expressing hatred for it this way by attempting to kill the unconditional love and empathy so if it is your will carry on my friend love always wins in the long run but as you know life is short and only you runs that path my friend.
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The Thinking Person’s Guide to Autism Katie Mia again, you are not sounding like your usual circumspect self. I hope you find the help you need. We will continue to speak out clearly that murdering autistic children is wrong, and that we cannot make excuses for the people who commit such crimes. -SR
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Katie Mia I hope the same for you Sharon more than you may ever ‘cognizantly’ knowNow my friend..obviously IT is wrong to murder but IT IS NEVER EVER NEVER EVER WRONG TO EXPRESS UNCONDITONAL LOVE OR LIGHT that IS A LAW OF THE UNIVERSE..in my opinion only…of course…as my true will only belongs to me and your true will only belongs to you…
That said you are courageous enough to let me express this opinion here so that IT ITSELF GAINS MY RESPECT AS CENSORSHIP IS THE GREATEST SIN EVER again in my own true will opinion…so have a great day IS PRETTY MUCH ALL I CAN SAY AT THIS… point smiles my friend…
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Even as one lays here choking on one’s own vomit one awakens to the greatest lights of lights…
I LOVE YOU LOVEILYLI..IlYll..l..love you..love..i..:)
This comment is in response to ‘Flannery’s’ blog post about frustration as linked below…
She was one of the targets of the ‘parent haters’ among some of the troubled people in the Autism Community who have difficulty with empathy and emotions…not unlike me before I overcome the severe pain I had…although I never had it in me to express real hatred for anyone…I used sarcasm instead…when people purposely attacked me when they were not able to counterpoint my debates with research…where that was a type of gift I’ve always had..yeah the sarcasm wit or whatever one wants to call it…maybe fucking with somebodiy’s head… but it’s better than hate as far as I am concerned…
I don’t blame Flannery if she deletes..it…she faces the potential wrath of the ooohhh! so scary! internet autistic zombie warriors if she does….sticks and stones may….
katiemiafrederick | September 12, 2013 at 2:32 am
HA! you think that ‘s frustrating well you are lucky you are a girl autistic person..
You know how Einstein couldn’t figure out how to tie his shoes?
I couldn’t figure out how to work
the zipper on my pants..
Yes.. I am dead
cat serious
about that.
WEll..
I am also
too honest too..
at least that is what
People tell me…I told
Shannon Rosa I love that
woman that tried to kill her child
regardless of how bad the deed was
and she banned me right after she said
I changed and she hoped I got the help I needed..
to be oKay…I thought OMG…she’s dead and doesn’t even know it.
HAHA! You’re alive Flannery
don’t let the haters
take your love
away
I say fuckemup if they try…
but HA! I already did that too many
times to count…
as just
a
little
pass time
before I got
my human back
again…
When I saw you I identified you as another human so I stuck to you like glue..
As I was
afraid of zombies…
in the online Autism community
Scary Scary
zombie
world..
Sorry but like Abe said…I cannot tell a lie.
My CAt tells me that all the time too..by the way…when he doesn’t hold a knife to
my throat..hehe…Hmmmmm… are you okay fred…do you need help…hehehehehe…
See you later Flannery you always make my day…your words that is….
September 1
9/1, 6:55pm
Katie Mia
I continue to enjoy your xxxx very much.. I missed so much of popular culture when I did not effective use of my eyes to watch it or effective use of my ears to listen to music for 5 year…
I find that Google and youtube is a wonderful tool to catch up in snippets..if you will..
I checked out xxx xxxx on you tube and I think I have a new popular culture interest now too..
After getting all that Ativan out of my system…I am starting to get full use of my logic again along with my emotions and of course all the other wonderful stuff…
What is really amazing is I just took the AQ test for Autism and I scored an 11..hehe..11 huh… Anyway I scored a 36 when I was working and a 44 to 45 when I was disabled…
The xxxxx and such is what is driven me to an 11 more than anything else I think…as I am completely extroverted now for the first time in my life…
Just another thank you from me from your excellent xxxxx that take me to that place…
I am so excited about life now I can hardly ever sleep and wish there were more than 48 hours in a day.
There was a time I slept 16 hours of every day with Ativan and never wanted to wake…so anything is possible in this life…..
MOre inspiration porn Haha….but it’s true….see ya later look forward as always to your next installment of xxxxx….I love xxxx xxxx too..the xxxxxx that is Hehe…
September 2
9/2, 5:40pm
xxxxxx xxxxxxxx
This is awesome to read. I am so glad things are going well for you and thank you for letting me know you still enjoy my xxxxx.
xxxx xxxxx is an interesting show, I get bored sometimes with it. However, I have a strange fondness of the character xxxx xxxxx many of the men I have xxxxxx about in my xxxxx have been like him. I did not know that until I watched the xxxxx though.
9/2, 5:44pm
Katie Mia
Thanks xxxxx xxxxx you are an all around awesome person! :)2haha! I”ve got lots of confidence now two, too… talk to you once in a while later…smiles…:)itis really really beautiful just to be alive…
And an xxxxxx
Today
1:45am
Katie Mia
Well it’s 912 now I got through 911..was a difficult day but a loving one too..at the beginning and the end of it at least..and most difficult in the middle and issues associated with my long online rocky road with having all this empathy among people in the autism community that had very little…it seemed…anyway…that tie however small it was is completely severed after today and it is just as well as I refuse not to love anyone…
That said..I hope you don’t mind me sharing this little story but IT is about Brown eyes a avery special color of brown eyes that you seem to share closely with someone I knew from far in my distant past called Tammy…an 11th grader when I was a 9th grader well before I knew anything at all about the three letter word…if you will..and I do mean anything…
Tammy was an athletically built super smart girl..a nerd…if you will too but not naive about the world so much…
I had a huge crush on Tammy even though she was two years older than me and it was all about her mind and her interesting brown eyes…I will have to say…
Seriously Tammy was probably my biggest crush in high school and by the time I met my first ‘real’ girlfriend in that physical type of way…at 18 me and 15 she…I remember seeing Tammy at a convenience store and her saying don’t you get in trouble now..I didn’t have any idea what she meant…but my heart was eventually completely broken by this first ‘real’ girlfriend Sonia…
When I first started communicating with you..without my vision and the pain that I was with no emotion…all I was was words and your words were the only words I could connect to in your xxxxx for the first time in over 5 years…my wife had gone through the literal hell of what I went through with me and there was only her living and me dead…and loving me just enough to take care of me like a person in a nursing home really if not worse because at least the folks in the nursing home can play bingo with the rest of the old folks…my only friend really was letters..words..and numbers…no ability to listen to music at all or
look at a video or even a picture would hurt
my eyes too bad to see a photo…
some how..your xxxxx
helped to cure
that..
I
have
no
idea why
and i guess
I may never know
why but it is what it
is and I continue to be
connected to your xxxx in
the most mysterious way I can
possibly imagine as it is beyond
my logical understanding of how the
Universe works which also makes me more
than ever assured of the connectedness among
us all…the path for me was in your xxxxx and there
is what there was that seriously brought me back to life
as a human being…
Okay back to your eyes now..When I first saw your
eyes was when you put the picture up with the xxx xxxxx
that picture really didn’t do your overall beauty justice but
the upside down picture of you definitely does but..IT
didn’t highlight your eyes like the xxxxx picture did..
I always notice the eyes more than anything with any
body..and maybe that is the same for many others
too..but your eyes were striking to me and so
familiar…IT took me weeks to remember
and I guess IT was in part for the
reason I had totally forgot
about TAmmy
but that is
where
I saw
that similar
look in those
God endless deep
Brown eyes of the mind..
xxxxx entity..your eyes are
truly reflective of your soul xxxx
xxxxxxx and while I can no longer
create music the way I could before
to frame that feeling those eyes give
me in a mysterious ethereal type of way
consider this if you will an ode to the xxxxx
eyes..nothing emotional really and nothing mushy
or what not…but something in the cosmos mysteriously
wonderful and something I will never forget now..nor did I
ever forget?
One more interesting thought about connections
is when I was at the intense part of free flow
of creativity…I guess close to xxxxxxxx
or whatever it may have been when
I was fighting to be alive
again..that song
about the
Mumford and
Sons split screen
and four people your
friend left on your site.
that struck me so mysteriously
and my thoughts about my connection
with xxxxx xxxxxx and the logic of my mind
and White Pearl and the spiritual part of me and
you and your xxxxx and my heart…It truly is like in
some mysterious way you three..like the three girls in
that video that were looking through pictures and making
the guy with the beard placed on his face ready for some un
known type of role is where I find myself ‘knownow’ that
I am again fully or getting there to fully alive again..
where I can make some type of difference in
the real 3 dimensional flesh and blood
world again like I did for over 4 and
a half decades before I died for
5 years..and really
came back to
life
on 7222013 and
not at all what I thought
could even be possible when
I identified that date as I had no
idea it was a significant date for the
selfish desire to be alive again using my
eyes to see beauty and ears to love music
again…
My psychotherapist
who actually followed me
through the depths of all the
health issues and psychological
horrifying issues..Tells me it is really
a miracle and nothing like she has ever
seen in a patient as ‘bad’ off as I was in totality.
My psychiatrist 5 years ago..told me that I was his
most difficult case ever and he was a military psychiatrist..
A Major dealing with all types of combat fatigue and
PTSD from the war…PTSD was just one of a list of
too many problems to even list here…
Well I just want to say that anything
is possible in this life xxx xxxx…and
I hope that miracle happens for you
when you are stronger than
anything in life
that tries
to bring
you down…you
already roared now
so maybe you are catching
up to me..I hope so because
there are no words or emotions that
exist that can describe the connection I
feel to some part of you that I guess I will never
truly understand other than it is part of what I understand
as the face of God.
sorry..I know
that is getting close
to war and peace in length
but there
are some eyes
in this universe
that dictate
these
things
my friend
xxxxx xxxxx..
as you did indeed
xxxxxx my mind whether
you ever intended to or not.
I’ll try not
to make
the next entry
this
long..but
I had to say this ALL
life is to short not to.
1:53am
Katie Mia
Lots of typos but It does honestly make sense in the way it turned out still in too many others ways..so I will
leave it be as is..another exercise to
escape the OCD too…smiles..
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I am not an easy person to be a friend to as I usually never keep anything back…and seriously am very unpredictable at times…my wife is some kind of unworldly saint to have been
successful for over 23 years at keeping us and me together. I don’t keep any secrets from my wife she knows all about my special and very helpful relationships between the two autistic girls here that I keep anonymous out of respect of keeping them out of the ‘craziness’ of what I am doing here.. White Pearl is so much like me in that way…she doesn’t mind which is the sweetest thing ever to me..I do love that ‘crazy’ girl and my wife knows that too..My wife knows I don’t really care that much about sex anymore so she’s knows a girl friend to me is truly a girl FRIEND..And love is something I share with any complete stranger anyway…
It’s a beautiful life to love without restraint..but what can I say…that’s how God created me…and god knows IT took me too long to find that person he created from the get go in that ‘crazy’ loving baby
seyes…
smiles…smiles…love…smiles…
my next post is truly gonna be restricted to love…not the comments…just the post…and It is going to be called Life’s a Beach and then you Live..
probably not that hard to figure out what it is gonna look like huh?
smiles again and again…and againnn…waves…waves….seeyalater….
Just have to link that Mumford and Sons video that I included in my Revelation 66 post in katiemiaaghogday.blogspot.com…It truly is in somewayd a dream come true…so maybe when we visualizes things strong enough in a place of ‘silent lucidity’…or songs of assuredness we create our futures somehow…in the most MagicKal kIND of way…I don’t know how… all I know IS IT truly works!…a splendid! generator of faith and hope!…if oneOnE T..RULYwills!…
Just another funny little synchronicity…but the video was released on the same exact day i started the KATiE MiA Aghogday Views From the Autism Spectrum Blog …and OH GOD! I was truly possessed to make that blog happen…on March 10, 2013…and my first poetry like ‘public’ thought on March 1st 2013…precisely 60 months after I entered the realm of human hell…the real hell of human…as farasIseaseyes…
And the beginning of the whole thing generated by one word synesthesia by my first real internet Autistic friend..with the whole prose in the about section of this blog…that is word by word just an email response back to that person that said synesthesia…a muse anywhere I find a muse it is what keeps this human human….THANK GOD FOR ALL THE MUSE..DARK AND LIGHT…THE TREATMENT I RECEIVED AT TPGA TODAY…GENERATED MOST OF THIS LOVE…AND IT WAS THE DARKEST PLACE I HAVE BEEN IN FOR WELL OVER A MONTH…and more love to come…
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BritAspie
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Joined: May 31, 2013
Age: 22
Posts: 143
Location: Peterborough, UK
Posted: Wed Sep 11, 2013 2:20 am Post subject:
I did see a faint face in the light from the closet street light.
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KATiE MiA FredericK!iI
Joined: Nov 26, 2010
Age: 53
Posts: 5131
Posted: Wed Sep 11, 2013 9:50 am Post subject:
BritAspie wrote:
I did see a faint face in the light from the closet street light.
Thanks BritAspie for that seemingly very honest and direct response.. I suppose if the face had been too distinct people would have assumed I photoshopped IT..the thing here is that the mysterious and the natural are the same as one as reality in my little true will opinion..but this never negates the mysterious or the natural in my opinion either..the hope and faith can be found both in the natural and the mysterious…again..in my true will love light opinion…my focus is on seeking my truth and relatively few times do I vary now from what is becoming a more and more focused path of truth in will of me and what I see as times and time goes on…
The experience of life I think can range from being no one and experiencing none to experiencing ALL and experiencing ONE..but to experience no one and none requires an experience of human hell that not any human would choose willingly I think..in my case there was no choice as the never ending waking pain of atypical trigeminal neuralgia in the nerve that controlled my right ear hearing and right eye sight provided my no choice but human hell for 5 solid years..I suppose there was only one other place for me to go after than pain ended and I am there…not much different than a 90FT wave before it was at zero crest if you will…the waves of all things in nature I think are the similar..and humans are similar to this phenomenon that the illusion of cultural byproducts presents that we are more different instead of similar as all things…even a stone or a grain of sand in our environment…
All the lessons to the mysteries of life…live and exist in my backyard as long as i have one living plant and a grain of sand..yet still greater that backyard is still a sanctuary of a ‘Garden of Eden’ as there was too much love put into every small seed for any of those expressions of life to die now…as they live all on their own without me ever having to take care of their needs again…
Everything in my opinion is wort…hy of this type of respect event that grain of sand or less…and when there is this type of sacred respect for every thing…sacred is everything…love is everything…LOVE SIMPLY IS…HEaven…and one just simply exists as life..that is ASIS..IS..ONE..IT..or whatever…onenowallforevermore…
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LIFE’S A BEACH AND THEN YOU LIVE
The beach pictured here is not only a beautiful place of paradise IT IS also one knownow formed through natures forces in the early 2K’s when the powerful i Letter 9 storm IVAN in 2003 damaged the dunes and primed them for the most powerful storm of ever in total damages done in the US gulf coast the powerful k letter 11 storm KATRINA in 2004 along with a mighty punch from the d letter 5 storm DENNIS…IN THE 7 MONTH JULY WITH the other two in September for the 9 Month…
My reverse naturally reading mind found IT amusing that the two storms that directly impacted my house..IVAN..DENNIS..IS..NAVI..SINNED…
Did the US NAVY MAKE some kind of SIN to deserve THIS…likely not as Hurricanes are only here to cool the beautiful mother earth from severe hot summers for the balance that IS…
Pious preachers were too busy blaming IT on HOmosexual lifestyles in NEworleans..2even take notice to those backward words…and even so..war…is Usually seen as SUPER cool.. if you
will..by fundamentalist leaning folks in the US…
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SO SO sad I think when a war is not Justified but they were all on the BUSH bandwagon…for that ‘little’ lie for the true extend AND EXPANSE of defense warranted contingencies..
The folks that planned ‘the 911’ were obviously well aware of the domino…effect…
of the true US psyche overall…
The cold hard dark reality is 911 as horrible as IT was is Leading to…
World Peace noW..in total effect…
IT allowed an almost impossible phenomenon to happen in the US..
An African American President with a Muslim origin name to become…
the leader of the free world for ultimate peace as far as peace can be in this very..
sometimes brutal world…
The signs of greater love and light are every where in this global NEw WoRld OrDER thaT IS NOWone fast approaching…
Even World WAR II and Hitler are the ingredients ever so dark..
to make this totality in greater world wide peace..
a real and present potential of reality..
For those fortunate enough!
to Share IT..
All will not…
BUT..IT
IS the
PRICE OF TOTAL FReedom..potential for world peace..TRUE WILL LOVE..
Where some people will never see that lightlove most unfortunately…
THE HIGHEST TOTAL EFFECT OF TRUE PEACE ON THIS BEAUTIFUL EARTH!
LOVElightLOVEs!!ii..i
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