THE END AND THE BEGINNING

SUNDAY, AUGUST 11, 2013

THE END AND THE BEGINNING

THE END
First of all, I’d like to say I bought a new computer last night…a 27 inch ‘i’ Mac all in ‘ONE’.
 
The last computer had over 6 million words on it..
 
I am discarding the other computer and giving all the words away for free…  heHe!  starting here now!
 
In fact, I am not even going to use Microsoft word…everything is going to be ‘new Apple’ for me…from now on…  
 
Haha! 
 
 
And for anyone else who shares the new words…however many more may come…
 
 
Change is good…new beginnings are even better…
 
 
That was the end…
 
 
This is the beginning…
 
I am also
 
starting
 
a
 
new blog
 
today named
 
KATiE MiA FredericK!
 
THE NEW WEB ADDRESS IS!
THIS
BLOG!
KATiE MiA/Aghogday
Views from the Autism Spectrum
And
Beyond
And
Beyond…
IS
Now
closed
for
new
posts
but
I will modify all 74 posts for some time
to come!
AS THERE IS ALWAYS
ROOM FOR
IMPROVEMENT!!
HAHA!
HEHE!
?HUH!
!HEH?
And oh by the way!
Bill Gates you are pretty cool!
But Steve Jobs
is/was/is 
the
nerd
of
the
new
World
Order!!!
 
😉
 
Sorry Word
Press!
gotta
stick
with
Google!
it’s
got
more
connections!
but!
Oh! HoW! I do?
Love Word Press two!

WELL…
White Pearl tells me
I should move over to WORD PRESS
’cause it..
IT is much more
FUN!
I don’t like
the commenting
system too much for
Google..so yeah..I am going
to do this blog two too.
With
Word
Press
and
Google
too
two.
WILL be back a little later
for the link to that blog here too…

The name of the Word Press
Blog is going to basically be a copy
and paste of this one…
but it will be called
KATiE MiA FredericK!iI
in ‘real’
life
I
Am
a Junior
so that makes it
super cool! two!
For all the people
who are
friendly
following
the
experiences
i
relate in this
entire blog con
sisting of over

half a million words as well as the

other 5.5 million plus words that are linked to

this blog across the internet here is 

a picture

log
of
me behind the computer to show
you the variety of faces I am
making
when
i
Am typing with you!
In addition!
now that
i
AM able to see with
the special $660 sunglasses
I purchased!
I am set free wild! back into
the jungle
of
people on this beautiful Earth!
My wife bought
me
a special
Uniform of T-Shirts that
she instructs me to wear!
out in the wild of all her
shopping stores!
so
i
can wander around with my Apple
iphone!
and
spread light with my ear buds in!
and
even share my Katie Mia story for people
to
read at home if they are even just a
little bit interested in most unusual things!
Sometimes just for fun!
I go through bigger!
stores like Super Walmart!
and use the negative energy of all
the customers to propel my walking to
Lightening walking speed zipping in and out
of aisles spiraling down left and right and twirling
upset down…
just kidding on the upset down part. 🙂
but
I
go
really really fast and randomly
and people
probably
think
I’m…
and guess! what!
they are very correct on that one!!

Ha!HA! HE!he!

Regardless…I’m tired of typing and so happy
to see again…I am damn sure going to spread
light big time whether people ‘lik!e’ it or not!!

HaHaHahehehahahehehahahahah!!!

Get ready world for Boom Boom!
Fireworks! and more!…cause
Katie Mia FredericK!
is
much
more like lightening
in
person
than
in
written ‘w1rds’!
I can see!
again!
means..
seeing
and
connecting to thousands of eyes of souls in the future!Now!
until
my
last dying day!
I plan on living a long time!
God Willing! to spread that light in person!1!
Here come the pictures…
Maybe I am
in love with me
now! too!
but…
i
definitely am in love with life and light!!!
oneallnowforevermore!
get
ready!
ready!
for
love light!
from
Freddy!
Freddy!
Mercury
would be cool too!
but
dam
some
one
already claims it forever!

Also,
a quick word from
our
sponsors!
on expressing anger!
and frustration!
It is
extremely important!
to use appropriate
words, actions!
or whatever works!
to
get it all out!!
My friend Inner Aspie!
Another really super cool Autistic
Girl!
shared
this great video that says it all!
Firetruck you!

that feels better!

Now I can make love with everyone!
Forever…(the spiritual kind!)
My other Autistic super cool!
Girl!
Friend!
yes
just
Friend!
Is very passionate!
about expressing all her feelings!
on her
blog!
no!
Matter!
what the cost!
That’s
 all cool!
Different Paths!
Here is a link that shows!
How i give advice to my best girl
friends!
yes!
just!
friends!
again!
By the way!
as I stated earlier!
White Pearl is
my daughter two!
in the
E-World!
But!
Wait!
that means!
i
have
a first
daughter too!
I’ve mentioned!
and highlighted!
 five
very special girl friends!
I’ve
come to know
in the E-World!!
as
you
read the story
or
if
you already read it!
I’ll
let
you!
determine which one
of the other
4
is my
E-World
daughter
1
But here is the
Autistic Hoya
WEBSITE!
 and an exploration of how
i
deal with conflicts!
It is creative you will see!
if you will!
KATE MIA
is
my blog warrior name!
By the way!
OKAY!
AS YOU CAN
PROBABLY
TELL BY NOW!
I
AM ONE REALLY HAPPY DUDE!!!
SERIOUSLY..MAYBE THE HAPPIEST
DUDE!!
IN THE
WORLD!
BUT
I
MUST SHARE MY
HISTORY HERE AGAIN
AS I START THIS NEW BLOG!!
AS
WE MUST
ALWAYS
REMEMBER
THE ROOTS
OF
OUR LIGHT
FOR
GRATITUDE IN
OUR
JOURNEY
TO
WALK IN LIGHT!!!
SHARE
LIGHT!!!
GIVE
LIGHT!!!
BE THE LIGHT!
NOT THE MAN!
THIS IS A COPY AND PASTE OF
WHAT I WROTE ON MY
DAUGHTER FRIEND WHITE PEARL’S
BLOG!
AFTER THAT
THIS BLOG
IS
DRIVEN!
DRIVEN!
DRIVEN!
TO
GREATER!
GREATER!
GREATER1
light!1
By nature I am
a visual processing
person! so now! that i have my
sight back! without much pain! there are going to be many!
photos! and likely moving pictures too!!
but anyway…here is my inspiration porn…
to share with you!
I hate it when people call
inspiration porn,
by the wAY!
INSPIRATION IS ALL GOOD!
WALK IN THE MY SHOES OF THE PAST! IF YOU
CAN! OR IF YOU COULD! OR IF YOU DID!
AND YOU WILL
LIKELY
SEE!
THAT INSPIRATION DOES INDEED SAVE LIVES!!
EVERY WORD OF ENCOURAGEMENT FROM ANOTHER HUMAN BEING!
CAN
BE
THE
WORD!
THAT SAVED THAT PERSON’S SOUL AND LIFE!!
IT IS ALL SACRED…EVERY WORD
WE SAY!
I think it is the duty of those who walk in light to lift up those who walk in darkness…when I walked in darkness every word of encouragement from a stranger was a gold mine/mind…of light…
I remember the goodness of that stranger and this is a big part of the passion to life/lift others up…
My wife’s brother is schizophrenic…however, he understands every insight that I have….
And while I give my wife and sister headaches he will listen to me for hours bringing me greater and greater insights from his endless wisdom that requires no text book for a high school drop out compared to me with 3 college degrees…
He knows at least everything I know plus he has lived as a homeless person…
Everybody that meets him loves him…the clothing of the dark can be the greatest light!
However, what I have that he does not have is fearlessness and belief in myself…
I am helping lift him up in that way and working on my wife too…
Without hope there is less fear…
When one loves their life and is afraid to lose it there is always fear…
One can be willing to die for ‘He’ at any moment to lose that fear…
You’ve heard this story at least once before privately but I will tell it here again because according to medical literature I was the King of Pain for about 5 years…
The nerve pain in behind my right eye and ear that I had during all waking hours for close to 5 years is the documented worse pain known to mankind…
It is similar to a cluster headache all the time…
For 2 years from 2006 to 2008 my adrenal glands were stuck in the on position leading to 35 days of one hour of sleep and absolutely no sleep the last 5 days…
I was desperate to kill myself to escape the pain but I did not have the strength to do it, and my sister drove me 80 miles an hour daring me to have her kill us both because she did not want to live without a brother…of course my mother and wife love me that much too. I was too loved by my immediate family to die..
Never the less, I thought about suicide every day for almost 2 years…I rode a bicycle with a metal chain in a basket in the front so I could hang myself from a tree on a road far from my house if the pain was no longer bearable..when I was thinking about doing it on a road called Martin Road my wife told me she had a dream specific to that Martin road where she and her grandmother who passed away were hanging Christmas ornaments on a tree…I never thought about suicide again…my wife’s dream saved my life…
Shortly after that I started writing on the internet to escape the pain on Thanksgiving day 2010..the legacy of my wife’s dream is close to 6 million words now on servers spread all over the internet…
There is no way I would believe it unless i saw myself do it…for instance not experiencing the effects of gravity lifting over 500 lbs…before that I would almost faint when I raised my arms up above my head…and could barely walk around my block without passing out…Everything and I do mean everything is possible with HE!!! I have never spoke a miss-truth intentionally on the internet…
All the pain is gone and quite frankly not to brag but for the truth everything about me has become ‘superman’ even my voice in real life has been described as lightning…
That is less hard to believe when people see ‘that’ picture…it is to inspire others and that is all, because all my strength comes from having absolutely no ego and being one with HE…There are witnesses to all of it where I live…
I spend my leisure time with my wife going to places and being nice to people lifting up their spirits…it is a life of bliss after being in the abyss for close to 7 years, overall..
Anyone can have this all it takes is complete focus and belief in light, but with the absolute necessity of understanding there is NO GOOD OR EVIL IN THIS WORLD ONLY LIGHT AND DARKNESS BOTH OF WHICH ARE REQUIRED FOR THE GREATEST LIGHTS OF LIGHTENING…
I AM NEVER RIGHT AND I AM THE LEAST OF ALL BUT THE LIGHT IS DEFINITELY LIGHTENING…
The evidence here is plain that people fear darkness even in your blog that is the brightest white light of blogs anywhere I find…only three comments here and over a hundred when the subject is love which is more appropriately described as light in our jealous emotional love cultures…It is a thousands times more important to love darkness to walk in the light than to stand in the light for a thousand years…
You won my respect when you respected the animal that lives in everyone with the animal face that you used in your post about the monster that lives inside of all of us…it is the feral spirit of passion life and that is all…
Only humans assign jealousy and insanity to it…
The meaning of life is to life/lift the light of all others…including animals, plants, and even a grain of sand…
For an analogy a young boy who watered a sapling grew into a beautiful tree inspiring romance of a lovely couple creating a savior of the world…
Every drop of water is life and light…
Light you I am tired of the word love it means nothing anymore…where I live…for the most part…sooo! I guess from now on! for my private will it is Hey Light love you light!!!

I just read your comment word by word and feeling the pain in each word……. I am scared ! And I am touched…..Though I knew your story but reading it here was like experiencing it myself……
I am impressed by you. You came out of all the pain and hopelessness and you are blessed…. I respect you really I am out of words to share my feelings right now !!
Your whole life is a sign of bravery and courage for weak people like me !
Thank you…. Thank you so very much For telling me I did something good……
Hearing admiration from your mouth feels excellent :)
I can just pray…….. I can just wish you ! And My prayers are always with you !
Thank you again……….
Thanks for calling me light it made me smile :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e9SeJIgWRPk

 
 

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o_v9MY_FMcw


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  1. I’ve never been very interested in getting awards…
    But gratitude rings true to me.where IT’s@.
    Period…YES…PerIod@.
    For the person WHO IS thankful enough…
    FOR a blade of grass their spirit expressed…
    Can be larger than the size of a football field..or more…
    A100 yards or meters or more of approximately of what IT IS…
    I suppose some movies are blocked in Pakistan..on the big screen too…
    HOPE the MOvie JOBS is not..as that is a REALLY RINGS TRUE movie about IT if you WILL..as..saHA describes IT…
    This perSON liveS life almost ALL HIS WAY…
    Yet appreciates what seems like every second of his life as if every second of his life WILL save the WHOLE WORLD…
    In fact..his last LIVING WORDS ARE WOW!!!
    He didNOT give a DAMn what anyone else thought..
    sHE Know what heS doing ISmore important than any..one’s criticism…
    TIME IS proving HIM correct as time goes ON…
    AS IT IS HIS MAGICKAL connections that he helps provide through technology..INCluding musICK that IS rising the GREAT SPIRIT OF THis NEW WORLD OF COOPERATION..PEACE LIGHT LOVE AND LIFE together with so many people..WHO ARE looking to BE ONE WITH EACH AND EVERY OTHER…
    This IS the Destiny of ONE SPIRIT OF ALL…MAN and ALL the Rest…
    YES!
    GRATITUDE@tiTUDE is better than S**!!
    IT..doeS NOT matter if ONE FilLS IT IN…
    With EX or IN…
    IT IS ALL GOOD!!!
    WHEN IT ENDS IN EX OR IN…
    ON FOR ONE1!!!
    SO!..ILS…
    BUT I DO IT MY OWN WAY 2 for you…
    And everyone else…
    IN my own little way…
    too…
    ONE THINKS YOU DO TOO…
    As just a little person I thank you for that the MOST 2.
    LOVE AND LIGHT IS THE BIGGEST REWARD OF ALL!!!
  2. THIS IS THE QUOTE AT THE END OF THE MOVIE JOBS BY HIM…I follow every dot of every eye of this philosophy…
    Steve Paul Jobs:
    “Here’s to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in the square holes… the ones who see things differently — they’re not fond of rules… You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them, but the only thing you can’t do is ignore them because they change things… they push the human race forward, and while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius, because the ones who are crazy enough to think that they can change the world, are the ones who do.”
    Thanks to you too love light White Pearl…
  3. Thank you so much ;) Love you !

‘Heartache’

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Caustic heavy heart beat drumming in ears
The very choking breath full of fears
The restlessness, hopelessness, pain arise
Rubbing hands, Hollowness, tears in eyes
The severe agony thinking about the future
The regrets while peeking into the past
Eating my heart like beetles eat wood
Not letting me do, what I should !
The wish to have a wound on my body
The urge to scratch it hard with nails
That pain would kill the pain in heart
The blood would cause the heartache frail
Stepping singly on the graves of wishes
Each one arises and cause acute affliction
Somewhere deep down a part of heart itches
Takes me back to the endless expedition
The questions bubble into my mind
Like the sky with soft white clouds aligned
Am I bipolar , mystic , schizophrenic , wacky brain ?
Or I am just having the ‘Heartache’ again.

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by WHITE PEARL on AUGUST 17, 2013  •  PERMALINK

Posted in EMOTIONSFEELINGSLOVEPOETRY
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  1. Loved this! I was walking through the store penning my own best seller when I finally “GOT IT” I relate to everything you said! The regrets while peeking into the past is an amazing line! YOU must keep writing!! Anyway as I was in the store yesterday, I got this overwhelming feeling to cry. Nothing new bad happening… in fact, a few morsels of good news came my way… but I was writing a scrip in my head… something I might say in the future… like:
    I could go to work and be animated and funny, kind and even fun… but when I would find myself alone with me…. and I would not have any distractions… just me and my thoughts… and this overwhelming heart ache would fill my senses… this total shot of regret… a lump in my throat… a pain so great I’d try to impulsively calm it. I guess in the same way a cutter cuts or a person with eating disorders does their things or maybe like an alcoholic or an addict drinks or uses… maybe shopping or in my case a connection with someone from my past who I can’t seem to disconnect from… and I understood mental health and illness more. The thing is…
    WE are NOT alone. The end of my script is still unwritten. It obviously needs that hook… of and then I found….. the cure, the miracle… God Himself (Which by the way I do believe… I just think He wants me to find the answer myself which will ultimately turn back to Him…) But I think it is a lesson even deeper. We all need to go back and find the pain. The kid inside us all and bring them home so the pain can begin to heal.
    Sorry!!!!
    I should have blogged this one myself.
    But you know you have a great poem when someone can write this much about what it brought out in them! ;)
    Keep writing my friend!
    xoxo
  2. Well…White Pearl..I guess this quote is a good answer for you here too…Love Ya dear..let’s be crazy together with all our other crazy friends…!
    I had my Marilyn Monroe Shirt on last night when I went to see the Jobs movie…I was so happy and so unashamed to be crazy when I saw the movie that I whirled and twirled like a ballerina through Walmart @light speed if you will..up and down the aisles here and there and everywhere..I weigh about 210 lbs and AM ‘pretty light’ on my feet if you will..
    When I was singing and playing the piano for my Catholic Church choir for over 10 years I was also dancing in the youth of mating ritual for over 10 years too at a place called 2001 for disco freaks like me2 at that time through the 80′s to electronic music TOO with higher frequencies too for light and love…
    Yes I was acting crazy as hell…but the end EFFECT…is more people went home smiling at least once that day…yesterday and long a go when this crazy nerd danced like hell at 2001..that bar back then that was a relative lit up heaven of LIGHT and MUSICK!
    Pictures of me with my Marilyn Monroe shirt on my latest twitter feed..maybe for some more laughs HAhaHEhe..who knows maybe God is a laugh after ALL..and maybe it is a divine comedy…
    Only a crazy person would think that huhheh1!
    Maybe one day TIME WILL PROVE ME RIGHT TOO2!
    LOVE YA LIGHT WHITE PEARL SEE YA LATER….
    THIS IS THE QUOTE AT THE END OF THE MOVIE JOBS BY HIM…I follow every dot of every eye of this philosophy…
    Steve Paul Jobs:
    “Here’s to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in the square holes… the ones who see things differently — they’re not fond of rules… You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them, but the only thing you can’t do is ignore them because they change things… they push the human race forward, and while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius, because the ones who are crazy enough to think that they can change the world, are the ones who do.”
AND well…EXCUSE me if a Hurricane of light and love comes ON a little too strong on your blog here now but hear know this video below is what my spirit looks like if it could be sea and see..you see..it has no gender no shape form but if it would..if it could..it would be this song..this video..this expression of passion energy light and love…
The song and dance is by Olivia Newton John..I have no idea who made the video but it found me and it rang true for the spirit I experience as true…
Sorry again.. you cannot see the video in Pakistan..but I will provide the lyrics again…here too…
“Magic”
Come take my hand
You should know me
I’ve always been in your mind
You know that I’ll be kind
I’ll be guiding you
Building your dream
Has to start now
There’s no other road to take
You won’t make a mistake
I’ll be guiding you
You have to believe we are magic
Nothin’ can stand in our way
You have to believe we are magic
Don’t let your aim ever stray
And if all your hopes survive
Your destiny will arrive
I’ll bring all your dreams alive
For you
From where I stand
You are home free
The planets align so rare
There’s promise in the air
And I’m guiding you
Through every turn I’ll be near you
I’ll come anytime you call
I’ll catch you when you fall
I’ll be guiding you
You have to believe we are magic
Nothin’ can stand in our way
You have to believe we are magic
Don’t let your aim ever stray
And if all your hopes survive
Your destiny will arrive
I’ll bring all your dreams alive
For you”
OLIVIA NEWTON-JOHN lyrics are property and copyright of their owners.
“Magic” lyrics provided for educational purposes and personal use only.
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9 Responses to THE END AND THE BEGINNING

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  2. As I mentioned before, your work gives a fascinating insight into the mind of autism. For example, your work with numbers. For myself, I find it most meaningful to focus on one segment of your posts. I have great appreciation for your talent, KatieMia Frederick!

    • Thanks so much Victoria! It makes me feel very good that you find my thoughts meaningful.. My journey has been one to show people what it is like from the inside out for one who experiences Autism but more than that.. It is a journey to understand myself, with relatively few clues..in my school and work journey in life.

      There seems little likely hood to find this path I find if it is not for the adversity that finds me along the path..

      I am much to feel gratitude for in life..Now! ..as there are many years where a second of relief of pain is nirvana itself.. and lesser pain is even something to look forward to avoid the greater pain…

      There is only joy now! Love ya friend! And best to you!

  3. White Pearl says:

    Well you haven’t wrote anything…I came here to read you !
    And its nice to see all your post is full with links to my blog lol Thanks for this !

  4. Ya maybe ya gottit now too.. I am playing with you as the little child that is my heart and finding that little child in you2…In “H IS” World there are only little children playing together..not even brothers..sisters…mothers…fathers….and certainly never never ever….Husbands or Wives…..All is FREE FOR ALL…if you will as I seas sees IT…FOR4 NoW at least….

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