i AM2

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Yes..
it’s not
enough to
wave the flag
we can be the
FlaG
Waves..
Freedoms RinGinG
sounds shores our sands
eYes of Oceans BlUinG
GivinG mEin LibertYinG GiVinG me WaltZinG Matildas.. i
willinG beinG freeinG not takinG alive or dead..
i willinG dancinG now in
livinG bushinG
and tree of life..
with Matilda too..
in Anthem of free
Official
or
not.. ugh..
human beings
and the fears
anxieties and
worries
over
othErs
WHO Free..
Hmm.. the context of Insanity
is relative of course.. we live
in the last 60 years or so..
in an amazing era of
sharing information
in audio.. visual..
feeling.. sensory
mega way of
living
a thousand
lives in one
vicariously as such
and WHO after living
55 years or so like me
exposed to all of this WhO
freeLY writes free verse poeTRY
to express all of this can possibly
be understood in relative terms by
those not seeing.. hearing.. feeling
and sensing as much of it as me or others
too.. if 99% of what i say does not make
sense.. it more likely means one has
not experienced what i’ve
experienced in life and
or remembers or can
relate to it as
much as i can
now by
simply
practicing
the expression of all of it
in the last 57 months and
11 millions words of all
of it.. yes practice
makes more and
more interesting
perhaps or not..
but it is all
relative
and part
of
whether or NOT
one has an experiential
context for all of what
i am speaking and feeling
too.. but here’s the thing
i am not singing a song
on this blog to
a target audience
and as mentioned
before i am not
here to be
right or
wrong..
i am simply
here and HEAR
TO SHARE ALL I KNOW
AND FEEL.. OF THIS LIFE..
THE SAME AS ANCESTORS OF
OLD DO TOO.. AROUND CAMPFIRES
OF HOURS OF ORATING AND DANCING
TOO.. WHERE FREE IS THE WAY AND
NOT A MOLD
OF YESTERDAY OR EXPECTATION
OF TOMORROW WAY.. i can
say.. feel.. do.. and
portray or role anything
i like here as this is a dam
blog and that’s what blog means
just to express anything
and everything one
likes where freedom
of expression rules
freedom and
not rules
of yesteryear
or future year
now.. and on
top of that i keep learning
more and more.. as when i encounter
something i do not understand i do not
say oh my GOD that is nonsensical why do
you write that way.. instead I turn to
the Google search engine type in
some new words from the
experience of others
relayed and
this mind
of mine
expands to where
human potential
can dare
to go..
and here’s the thing for anyone
who excludes others from their purview
of life.. thinking they are greater with
standard IQ.. dogma of one religion..
physical prowess.. good looks..
socio-economic fortune
or whatever class
one thinks
and feels
sets one
apart from
others.. they
are just excluding
paRt of GOD THAT ALLS
THE TRUE ART OF LIFE..
SHOOTING THEMSELVES
IN THEIR POTENTIAL
CREATIVE FEATS..
WHERE THE KARMA
OF DOING IS JUST
THAT! DOING IT!
FOR THE
JOY!
OF BEING!
ALIVE!
NOW!
AND JUST
DOING LIFE
PASSIONATELY
LIKE THE LIGHT
LOVES THE
MOON
AND
REFLECTS
ON US
!NOW!
I AM
HYPERLIVING
NOT JUST
HYPERRELIGIOUS
OR HYPERACTIVE
OR HYPERFEELING
OR ADHD OR ANY
OTHER RULE
OF HUMAN
THAT SAYS
BE LESS
THAN
i for
one
can
be..
i am totAlly
calm inside
like the eye
of a hurricane
or the center
of a wave
or nucleus
of atom
fullY
INTACT
BUT BY GOD
I HAVE WINDS
OF ‘200 MILES
AN HOUR’
THAT WILL
FLOW WHEREVER
THIS NUCLEUS
CARES
TO
GO..
WHEN ONE SEES THE WINDS
OF A HURRICANE THEY ARE
OFTEN SURPRISED TO SEE
AND FEEL HOW
CALM
AND BLISSFUL
THE CENTER IS..
WELL MY FRIENDS IT IS THE
SaME WITH ME.. EVERYNOW
IS BLISS.. AND WHAT YOU
SEE OF MY WINDS
MOVING RARELY
REFLECTS
THE CENTER
AM
i
And truly it’s the same
with GOD.. all some folks
see is big bangs.. weather..
sand.. seas.. stars.. space
the list goes on
but the
calm
in the
Center
that reflects
in me is GOD
at core
too
for
those
of us
whoare
i AM2

http://freeversenudepoetry.blogspot.com/2015/08/emerald-forest-reigns-free-verse-nude.html

Oh GOD.. if i ‘can’ run through the streets
naked and dance and sing loud or quiet
i WiLL say
‘listen’ to yoUr
bELy the vaGal
nerve will tale
ya.. you are
aLive
and
NOT
DEAD theRre
are neVer ruLes
for wiLd
that human
makes for
Creation ActivITy
REAL RULes
liveS
inSiDe
AndBYGi
am a furRy criTter<3..;)

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CREATING

LIVING

LOVING

NOW

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25 Responses to i AM2

  1. http://xpoet73.blogspot.com/2015/08/314159265.html

    ^^^

    Oh GOD.. if i ‘can’ run through the streets
    naked and dance and sing loud or quiet
    i WiLL say
    ‘listen’ to yoUr
    bELy the vaGal
    nerve will tale
    ya.. you are
    aLive
    and
    NOT
    DEAD theRre
    are neVer ruLes
    for wiLd
    that human
    makes for
    Creation ActivITy
    REAL RULes
    liveS
    inSiDe
    AndBYGi
    am a furRy criTter<3..;)

  2. Meeting the Bar and Modify it

    ^&^

    Modify… it.. ha! the story of my life..
    Great prompt Bjorn..
    be back to
    read
    and comment
    on y’all
    later..;)

  3. Ha.. not too many modifiers here.. but I found a few adverbs.. hmm a little far from the prompt actually.. maybe you should sprinkle it a little…

    • Goodness Bjorn you missed 13 in the first part alone.. the inG means in GOD.. and that my friend is the BIGGEST CREATIVE MODIFIER of all.. remember friend BREAKING THE CREATIVE RULES.. not following.. them.. and that my friend was your direction that I followed to the G..smiles.. i can elaborate more if you cannot see the other modifiers i provide.. but remember they do Not follow established creative rules..:)

  4. As one expands their potential
    conscious mindful awareness
    of life the modifiers do come
    more often and flower
    in colors not
    yet seen
    before..
    smiles..
    i’ve been to
    this place
    Bjorn.. and
    yes.. it is more
    colorful than places
    before.. alWays Now sMiles..:)

    OH no… those of US who absorb so much..
    and honestly by the time i hit 47..
    i can hold no more.. oh my
    head Is going to explode
    but oh no.. not now.. i
    find the off switch
    and simply
    turn it off..
    and yeah
    re
    Tiring
    wheels
    of life
    does
    help
    too..;)

    And that’s poetry
    to express the
    Queen’s English
    Grammar
    Unexpressable
    Bravo.. i see
    IT ALLNOW..:)

    The Major Factors Underlying Rampage Killing.. is a ‘special
    interest’ (Asperger’s) of mineD.. literAlly seriously.. top hit on
    Google with me at the HELm with other ‘interesting’ folks..

    http://wrongplanet.net/forums/viewtopic.php?t=218916

    http://katiemiaaghogday.blogspot.com/2013/04/the-major-factor-underlying-increase-in.html

    Social Roles are a biggest factor it seems.. we are social
    animals after all.. and that explains why people blindly
    follow so much bullstuff and do so many harmful
    things.. anything.. to get accepted is the true sad
    rule of human being.. and OH MY GOD if
    a person comes to believe the entire
    tribe is against them.. or nothing
    goes their way.. then
    bad stuff happens
    and Rampage
    Killings are
    a barometer
    of the health
    of society as these
    so-called rare events
    escalate.. but in decade
    50s’ there are almost ‘0’..
    none recorded.. go figure then
    social roles are clear and defined..
    as much as i am different i cannot
    deny the importance in society of
    clearly defined social
    roles.. which
    admittingly
    i fail.. as ‘class
    clown’.. however
    i go flow with
    the JeDi more
    and not so
    much
    SItH..:)

    If only all of use can share our childhood memories
    of dark and light this way.. perhaps we will tolerate
    and accept each other a little
    more.. understanding how
    much different our views
    of reality are..
    and for me
    at least..
    poetry
    continues
    to teach this
    lesson and among
    others i thank you for that..:)

    Funny how Nature trEats
    heR disobeying inhabiTants
    and balances stuff out..
    where numbers
    are the
    bottom
    lines no
    matter how
    we THINK WE
    get tHere Nature
    fEEls hEr waY
    ‘RouNd
    US
    wITh
    EASE AND
    GooGLEs
    @oUR
    DiS
    EASE..
    I watch
    and wait
    WitH DE
    ‘BAtING
    BREAtH..:)

    Ah.. yes.. i do agree when seasons
    become emotions anxiety rises..
    and when we master our
    seasons inside
    all
    now
    can be
    Spring
    or Winter
    Fall or NOW
    or Summer
    as the spiRit
    has potential
    sunShine eYes
    year
    ’round
    Peace
    and
    Har
    mony
    until one’s
    last grasp for breath..
    yes rare.. but potential..
    THE REAL ‘good news’ THEN
    of 2K years ago still NOW..:)

    The Hamster Wheel
    THAT is so Fin the
    realITy of
    modern
    America
    today.. i
    get OFF..
    still
    heRe
    but
    now
    FINaLLY
    FREE.. A HAMSTER
    WHEEL IS NOT EVEN
    A GOOD PLACE FOR RATS..:)

    Birth of PoeTRY
    wondrous stuff
    not sure who
    put IT in me
    but
    SURE
    of WHO..:)

    Cool.. Victoria..
    the ‘Burning Man’ Celebration in Nevada
    sounds a lot like the Global ‘Tomorrow Land’ Celebration
    that moves through different countries for the last
    decade or so.. a Rave of Free Love.. not unlike
    WoodStock.. but these folks are
    so-called high class jet
    setting hipsters..
    and not run
    of the
    mill hippies..
    yeah.. they
    are really
    more like Yuppies..
    but hey.. Love is Love.. smiles..:)

    Ah yes.. when modifiers
    become metaphors for
    Nature.. i for one
    cannot
    get
    enough..
    as beauty
    in Nature
    has Universal
    Metaphors
    literally
    and figuratively
    all over the place..:)

    Oh.. a song of monarchy is lonely song
    at top.. oh.. a song of democracy
    tries to get along.. ah.. a song
    of human
    gets
    IT ALL
    GREAT
    wITh LOVE..:)

    If only we can rid the world
    of cups and just be
    Awine
    of Love
    that
    overflows
    and justs
    flows
    flows
    as
    ONE..:)

    Oh.. tribes of Life wander deserts
    of Living .. where culture becomes
    the desert and life
    of desert sparse
    goes completely
    dark.. where not
    even grains
    of desert
    are
    seen
    by
    us
    alive..
    we fly alive
    we lose wandering
    deserts of culture.. we connect
    in eyes.. when we simply become
    waves of ocean again
    swimming
    alive
    in
    pre
    sent
    gift
    of
    now..
    i have beach to remind
    me of this.. perhaps it is
    easier to see theEe
    than desert..
    as peace
    reigns
    in
    sands
    of beach
    flourishing
    with life of water
    sun and winds of Loving
    Nature ONE as i with BEACH
    Dancing
    LIFE now
    connecting
    to all others
    and Beach
    of
    Nature
    too
    as
    eYes
    of
    i
    and Nature
    WELL as I!..
    For me.. greaTest
    Poetry
    inspires
    me more..
    and every time
    i come here yours
    inspires me
    more..
    and that is the
    greatest compliment
    anyone will ever receive
    from me.. poetry
    or
    NOT..
    to be inspired
    is True Breath of Life..
    some folks refer to
    aS Bread of Life
    aS Well
    aS
    Water
    of eYes..:)

    Ah.. a world of eye candy
    is harmless unless
    one becomes
    diabetic..
    sometimes.. a Burka can
    be more alluring..
    after all.. eYes
    are windows
    to
    soul
    and
    below..
    and frustration
    of not seeing more
    can lead to attempts
    at World War III..
    perspective
    is most
    alluring
    to me..
    in THAT
    case..
    mini
    skirts.. may
    JUST save
    the
    world..
    but i for
    one.. LOVE
    EyES MOST..
    SOMEtimes Burkas..
    THRILL me most..;)

    When words
    run freeDom
    Plays..
    Hi 5
    i Do
    iT
    iN 10..:)

    There is human
    magic in taboo..
    ‘history’ shows
    it over and
    over..
    and
    smart..
    truly smart
    folks learn
    from history
    and quiet
    lessons
    now..:)

    Small worlds
    row
    low
    Sun flies
    high as it
    is making
    way..:)

    • Let’s just say the Burners have to be quite well off financially!

      • Ha! yes.. VICTORIA.. music and
        celebrations pay well.. and
        for me i just like to
        CELEBRATE..;)

        And yes.. in Synchronicity way.. just FiXinG to walk out
        the door with my Kool AiD of Dance shirt ON
        THE WAY TO RAVE Dancing Night!
        yeah.. Kool AiD colored with a BiG
        KooL AiD sMILEY
        FACE!
        Photos coming later
        in the post before and
        post after this one..
        and oh GOD
        maybe
        this
        ONE2..
        WHO
        kNows..
        may BE
        ‘KOOL’
        AND
        THE GanG..
        yes THE KOOL ONE2
        AND A GANG OF ANGELS..;)

  5. aria onyx says:

    Dude. You cracked me up with “big bangs.” Totally picturing ’80s hair. 🙂 Love your title, the hidden 2 a.m.

    • Oh God.. CAN i stiLL pHOTO that 80’s hair.. and me doing my besTest trYING to copy John Travolta in a place named Riverside Disco IN THE LATE GREAT 70’S .. the first last place for teens to dance in good Old Red State LA Lower Alabama AKA as the Panhandle of Florida in Santa Rosa County.. i am way toO stiff to move like John then.. and i try i try.. coTtinUe trYing now.. PUSHING PUSHING.. like the little Red Engine that just keeps pushing UP THE TRACKS OF LIFE..

      HMM.. MAYBE THIS
      SHOULDA COULDA
      WOULDA BEEN
      MY POEM
      INstead..
      but anyway
      at 2 am
      i am gonna
      be burning
      the candles
      at both MEATS
      ends where
      brain meets
      feet and
      never
      Leaves
      Trees
      UnFold
      wheRe
      Feat
      Lives
      Foots share
      air on Terrestrial Bliss..
      Air FRED.. IMAGINE THAT..;)

      Ooh.. OOh.. lOOkiE LooKIE kOOkie
      This IS A wHiNe glaSs centeRed l@er i promiSe..:)

  6. Glenn Buttkus says:

    Whine glass, terrestrial bliss, little red engine, 80’s hair, wondrous stuff, modern America, (one of my faves)–debating breath, disobeying inhabitants & on & on, all modifiers, all good. Perhaps when the modifiers become absurd, or numerous, the prompt pops better. No matter, I dug your rant
    treatise style regardless.

    • I Love to MOVE Glenn.. and i visit a few folks who get the prompt aHead.. to get a JUMP on Thursday to try to participate more.. as Thursdays are an unusually busy for a retired dude like me.. didn’t realize the FULL EXTENT of the number of modifiers asked for.. but i think i HOPE i do my penance in the response back to Aria Onyx up theRe.. and i usuAlly don’t reaLly get cooking anyway.. until the response/comment sections come.. i like to flow and Just LET IT ALL go.. without much pre-thought.. and yeah.. that’s when i get cooking STEAMING broiling dreaming and it’s JUST ALL fun.. sMiles.. YeS! modifiers are FUN!..:)

  7. x says:

    Ha. The context of insanity is surely relative. And perhaps in more than one way. Perception is such an interesting thing as well. Some see the storm some the calm. All we can control is out own perceptions. But maybe other eyes open along the way. Peace.

    • Yes.. X.. the context of insanity is surely relative.. and my attending psychiatrist who helps me survive 66 months of the Suicide Disease.. in my case named Type two or Atypical Trigeminal Neuralgia during all waking hours.. stops his practice this month and I get all my records from those 66 months.. plus 2 years.. as he continues to monitor me during my recovery from devastating anhedonia for those months of pain.. i am Fin ecstatic to be alive after recovering from THAT pain.. happy.. blissful.. GRATEFUL dancing all the time.. zero internal anxiety.. but i have so much energy and truly fearlessness other than the common ones of heights and really loud noises.. that i get my Bipolar diagnosis per hypomania of what he sees of me now.. AND THE SEVERE ANHEDONIC DEPRESSION BEFORE..

      And in his notes.. he suggests that i am resistant to medication to make me less happy.. and perhaps talk slower without as much volume as full human freedom will bring A strength of vocal chords that are not worn out by chronic stress.. but i am pursuing human potential.. and truly my life is a miracle.. NOW compared to BeFORE.. and yes.. i am Hyper-God connected without the religion.. hyper-happy.. hyper-glad to be alive every now.. and perhaps if he experiences what i do.. i’m sure he will be a different person too.. when he comes out of human hell.. and enters into human heaven..

      So many labels.. the Asperger’s.. the Congenitally Fused Vetebrae in my neck.. Spinal Stenosis.. Severe Degenerative Arthritis in my neck.. the Fibromyalgia.. Dysautonomia.. Sjogren’s Syndrome.. and so much more.. so many dam labels for who i am.. and none of it makes a dam bit of difference to the happy sharing giving person i am all the time now..

      And no my Psychiatrist does not suggest i am insane.. in fact.. he says i inspire him and he is gonna teach TAI CHI as a therapy in a Medical Teaching school he is going to next… but the sad fact remains that the establishment says that someone as happy.. fearless.. open minded and bodied.. and energetic as me.. AND totally calm inside.. deserves a pill to come down lower.. USING less of my human potential..

      And all i can think of AND FEEL is.. surely IF Buddha.. Jesus.. Lao Tzu.. AND innumerable other folks who move into a brighter place in life.. live today.. they will have folks on their HEALs trying to bring them down with drugs and so much more.. whether it is doctors.. or people who have not seen someone do so much..

      IF IT doesn’t fit the paradigm snuff it out.. is the way of human cultures for so many years.. but yeah.. that is changing.. as avenues finally come open.. where no one can have their lives.. deleted or banned.. just ’cause someone else ain’t SEEN IT BEFORE.. i am just lucky I AM ALIVE TODAY.. AND honestly so are the others if they too.. CAN BE ALIVE TODAY.. AND SO MANY OTHERS… WHO DO LIVE MORE FULLY TODAY.. [RANtOVER/] BUT STILL ALIVE..;)!

  8. https://thefeatheredsleep.wordpress.com/2015/08/27/life-has-lived-long-before/

    ^^^

    A majestic oak.. tree that grounds me at night with spotlights
    in respite of decades toil and trouble at work.. a few moments..
    a quiet relationship with branches and leaves and stalwart trunk..
    Hurricane Ivan Fells that tree.. and like a parent or child the
    loss is not much different as it is pArt of my soul.. THAT
    will not leave.. dinosaur skeleton left.. cut to
    stump.. and the most amazing thing
    happens.. a small twig on the
    side and so much other
    tree.. bush.. and plant
    life sprout up
    and the
    Tree of
    Love Lives again..
    this time with a multitude
    of friends.. and nothing
    will stop
    this
    TREE NOW
    as it already
    dies in life
    and only
    lives
    for
    NOW
    IT IS growing
    as tall before
    but it branches
    out with friends
    like
    never
    BEFORE
    AND i for
    one will neither
    trim them or
    CUT
    THEM
    DOWN..
    THEy LIVE
    AND i for
    one Live TWO..:)

  9. ‘Wrong Planet’

    ^^^

    Hi Techstepgenr8tion,

    About a month ago I received a month long ban here at the Wrong Planet that has expired and at that time I promised myself to let this place go, as it has gotten to the point where my freedom of expression has been limited to a place that I cannot comfortably discuss all the ins and outs of philosophy that are myriad in context and nuance.

    While I will no longer post here in the forums I will continue to read in hopes of finding someone else here besides you who can truly think outside of the box of K-12 and University School Terms.

    I was enjoying that thread about magic you are in, and I watched that video through you provide and the core truth of that video is if one does not believe in more than what school teaches is human potential it does not exist AND THAT IS as simple as THAT and if one believes, pursues, and finds answers in greater Light and Truth in Life, one will not be able to ignore the Truth and Light that MORE is possible in human potential than school or so-called scientific method science will ever find for human potential in its MUCH FULLER ways.

    There is no doubt in my mind that much of the problem with so-called higher functioning autism of the higher standard IQ type, without some damage to the right hemisphere of the brain, is an environmentally produced phenomenon of simply not using more of our mind and body in balance, in regulating emotions and integrating senses, as well as increasing cognitive executive functioning in focus and short term working memory through the imagination and creativity of much greater physical intelligence that guides the bio-feedback of much greater emotional and sensory intelligence.

    My psychiatrist agrees and before he leaves his practice this Summer he is so convinced that he is going to include movement therapy in his teaching practice in his next step in his career for folks with higher functioning autism and other mind/body imbalances of emotions/language verbal and nonverbal; and sensory imbalances of the human condition.

    Anyway, one thing I learned well in my other online travels around the so-called Autism Community along the way, is no one really pays attention unless there is a social media drama going on, so yeah, I DID YELL, smiles, as much as I can, and used all kinds of emotional antics; but all of that was a Trojan Horse to get through to the listeners in the reading audience; as Lord knows, folks like Walrus, Fnord, and others, are simply a LOST CAUSE as they are in a room with NO windows to VIEW it at all, I am afraid for them, yes, sadly enough.

    BUT anyway, mission accomplished on my part as long as I could worm my way through the fish hook and stay online here.

    And I will continue to check back here reading for more folks like you, who are not afraid to fish outside the box of life, for the really good catch of life that is Nirvana/Bliss/Heaven NOW.

    It is the place I live ALWAYS NOW, and all the frigging Standard IQ intelligence I develop at the top of my high school class and through three college degrees is nothing compared to what I FEEL all the time now; totally integrated and balanced in control of my mind and body thinking and feeling, with true relative free will.

    There was a time when my mind and body are a machine, a robot, and a Zombie that is almost foreign to me; and this life friend is another one, truly a reborn one from the decades past.

    But no, I feel that one must move through it and experience something like this, to get a real lesson from it.

    But yeah, the first step is to move.

    And that my friend is my message
    here that is now complete and finished.

    Smiles, and if I ever come up with something truly revolutionary for a quick fix to get to heaven, you are the one I will share it with here, as it seems you are the only one at this time, at least, capable of hearing anything associated with it, or even giving it a second thought AND feeling.

    Best fortune to you my old friend, and I will never forget you, as you my friend
    are one of the few free souls here,

    AT ALL.

    Respectfully and Sincerely,
    Fred..:)

    Hi Tech,

    Yes, I did notice, and obviously to me Walrus locked the magic thread ’cause he didn’t understand your post, and he didn’t understand how it applied to the topic at hand.

    And he was too weak, to do it in the open, as he does not have the kind of intelligence to understand you, and subconsciously he is probably intimidated by that.

    What you are saying in the thread makes perfect sense to me and is directly on topic; but I come from a long history of being a watcher instead of a talker, paying more attention to the deeper stuff of life, well before I can express any of it, in words of speech or written way.

    And if I do not lose effective use of my eyesight and hearing, I will likely never develop whatever skills in written communication I have now, and now I explore that as Art instead of just dead robot language; yeah, as you mentioned one time before I do my best to make language organic now; and that’s kinda ironic as the word becomes flesh; instead of the old time religion way of flesh becoming word, smiles..:)

    I’ve more or less uploaded my soul online; and that is pretty amazing as there is so much of it on here already that the average person with any inclination to get interested in all of me already will not likely be able to finish me online in one lifetime, haha!

    And that’s kind of a funny metaphor and literally the truth too, as literally 11 million words flow off these fingers, in total, since November 26th, 2010, when I first start writing here to escape the pain of Type Two Trigeminal Neuralgia during all waking hours for what will become a total of 66 months, ending in July of 2013.

    That’s over, TG, and Ha!; if anyone thinks then or now they are gonna destroy my bliss, by trying to get on my nerves anywhere then or now, they are alive wrong in my case, but yes, my time spent here, then, is taking away valuable time in my life to create organic written communication, and now since that is not allowed here, that challenge here is finally gone, and while I Love challenges, I Love ART much more; and that is where I will stay now and live, and yes, I will keep you informed on any worthwhile really new stuff that I inherit through my studying life more.

    Again, great fortune to you my friend; and Ha! not the money kind; not more than you need, anyway, smiles;

    Fred..:)

    I didn’t see any real specific directed ad hominem personal attack against Fnord by you in that ORIGINAL thread; you kept it, rather, as a general opinion in reference to ‘you’; but not necessarily ‘you’, specific to Fnord.

    I think he was just expressing his usual sarcasm to pick at YOU, in the administrative forum. That’s the only he seems to gain pleasure in life, by being cynical and sarcastic AGAINST OTHERS as tool of Hate instead of tools of pro-social emotions associated with LOVE.

    I learned lots of pointers on doing that from him, as a dark art of sorts, HA! as his Sith Avatar illustrates nicely as dark truth, smiles..:)

    And you never personally attack anyone in a DIRECT personal way that I’ve seen, and even if it was perceived that way certainly it wasn’t a valid reason to lock what was a reasonably discussed topic, overall.

    In my opinion, it was flavored by a moderator that can’t see past the skin of his nose, and takes personal offense when people describe how they can. Walrus is seriously stunted in emotional growth, as of course that is part of the overall condition of Autism, clinically speaking, as such, anyway, generally speaking, so yes, to be expected on the Wrong Planet as part of the overall territory; no surprise on THAT at all.

    He’s got some good verbal intelligence going for him and crystalized school knowledge; but he is seriously ‘ignorant as a stone’ when it comes to human well being and the philosophy of human emotions that is as real as it gets, as science now shows most all human meaningful personal decisions come from the emotional mind first, and then we rationalize the REAL reality later with thoughts that are an after EFFECT OF THE AFFECT of the REAL human INTERNAL Life, now.

    He’s rationalizing himself out of human well being, and he will eventually pay the price of the Karma of not exploring more of his potential IN JUST DOING IT NOW.

    But THAT is a lesson he will have to learn for himself, as I sure did when I THOUGHT I KNEW IT ALL, in the smallest of relative IQ, as Standard IQ.

    Food for thought goes further when balanced; and crystallized intelligence is a very small and recent focus of the human race; sadly mostly an illusion that folks here, ON THE WRONG PLANET, particularly fall to, as AN ILLUSION OF reality.

    ‘Nothing AS MUTE EMOTIONAL NUMBNESS’ CAN be further from the Truth and Light of what human beings ARE IN WELLBEING as touchY Feeling caring creatures who connect to each other in Loving ways, and not the psychopathic intentions and misanthropic beliefs about human beings that rule on this Internet site in the PPR section, overall, sadly and coldly enough.

    People view AND SPEAK the world the world most often the way they live it, and when I hear people saying that humans are at core greedy and selfish, they are truly speaking to their own heart and not feeling anything of what’s, OVERALL around them, IN TERMS OF OTHER HUMAN BEINGS and the cognitive and affective intelligence of empathy that many folks on the autism spectrum are weak in, per clinical study, as well.

    That’s a sure fire way to QUICKLY find out who is ‘fuller human’ and who is not, when folks suggest that humans are not loving creatures; THEY, THE OTHER FOLKS, OVERALL, most definitely ARE for folks who have the innate, instinctual, and intuitive way to FEEL THAT LOVE through cognitive and affective empathy, mirror neurons, oxytocin receptors that work, and such as that.

    WITHOUT THAT ABILITY THE WORLD IS A VERY COLD HELL TO ESCAPE AND A TRAP
    OF purgatory; and many folks express that HELL and purgatory on the Wrong Planet, not so WELL, as they are more prone to the fall of human intellect verses our Innate, Instinctual and Intuitive ability from birth that is ‘affect’ my friend in FEELING instead of just EFFECTS IN COLD HARD FACTS

    Smiles, and you are on the correct FEELING PATH, my friend.

    You are saving yourself; your heart of emotion, your spirit expressing
    emotion and your mind and body in balance as living soul
    now, and that’s the
    REAL WAY TO DO IT,
    NOW, Living Loving Life.

    AND PERHAPS THE ONLY WAY TO DO IT,
    IN THE KARMA SPEAK
    OF PRESENT
    GIFT..:)

    Respectfully,
    Fred..:)

  10. Methinks you had fun with wordplay in this, Fred.

    • Ha.. Truly all of life is play for me Victoria..
      sometimes i miss labels
      but never the less
      a PLaY
      my life
      goes on..
      goes on
      some more
      nows always
      modifying NOW’s
      PLAY OF LIFE NOW..
      AND THIS CAN SPREAD
      @FURTHER BUT HEY IT’S
      ALMOST RAVE DANCE TIME
      FOR ME TO GET READY FOR THE
      73RD RAVE DANCE WEEK THURSDAY
      NIGHT TONIGHT WITH ALL THE COOL COLLEGE
      AGE FOLKS AT OLD SEVILLE QUARTER PENSACOLA
      FLORIDA.. HA! IT SOUNDS LIKE I’M GETTING PAID TO
      SAY THAT HUH.. BUT I AM JUST SO EXCITED TO DANCE
      A
      PLAY
      OF LIFE..
      AND YES..
      BIGGEST SMILES
      AND THANKS SO MUCH
      for
      stopping
      by NOW..:)

  11. kaykuala h says:

    totAlly calm inside like the eye of a hurricane
    WINDS OF ‘200 MILES AN HOUR’ THAT WILL
    FLOW WHEREVER THIS NUCLEUS CARES TO GO..

    While one faces opposite fortunes it is good to experience both to maintain balance

    Hank

    • Hi Hank.. yes balance is the important thing
      as too much calm will stifle energy
      and energy without calm
      will surely burn out
      quicker..
      i’m not going out
      to the Northeast
      Atlantic anytime soon..
      i’ll travel as Hurricane
      fast yet calm in the
      Gulf of Mexico
      that is me
      for long
      as now
      can
      go..
      Thanks for dropping
      by and hope you are
      enjoying now..:)

  12. claudia says:

    i think we all do this – sharing and writing about life and how we see it

    • Hi Claudia.. in the World of writing poetry i think we can say with confidence that we all share and write about how we see life.. as far as how we feel life that perhaps is not a Universal as some people experience a condition named Alexithymia that can be partially innate and or environmental where a person does not have or loses the ability to connect emotions and language.. I have no idea this was even possible until it happened to me in conjunction with severe chronic work related stress for several years.. and a synergy of severe illnesses that were definitely associated with the chronic stress…

      And interestingly.. while this condition is developing.. and i am losing my ability slowly.. not only to connect the language with emotions but the depth of emotions too.. AFTER a lifetime of playing piano music with only sheet music.. creativity in composition of my own notes begins spontaneously like a gift.. but the truth is.. it is like a defense mechanism where one can posit that my heart as emotion and my spirit… as the ability to express that emotion in a mind and body balanced soul.. where emotions are properly regulated through literal moving the physical body in balance and connecting language to emotion is breaking down..

      And when ‘they’ talk about chronic stress and what they call a nervous and emotional breakdown.. science understands now.. these are more than metaphors.. they actually describe the physical process of the chronic human damage associated with chronic stress.. where emotions do break down in the sense of feeling them and expressing them with verbal language and non-verbal expression.. as well as the physical damage of long term exposure to stress hormones in the blood stream that eventually damage the actual nervous system.. destroying myelin sheaths of nerves.. the vascular system of the cardiovascular system.. and the ability for proper respiration as well.. and other bodily organ systems damage..

      STRESS IS INDEED SCARY STUFF.. IF ANYONE TELLS YA JUST TO SUCK IT UP IN THE WORK PLACE LIKE THEY DO OVER HERE IN THE UNITED STATES.. THEY CAN BE LITERALLY INVITING AN EARLY DEMISE OF THE HUMAN BODY and MIND in BALANCE AND THESE COMMON HUMAN EMOTIONAL LIFE METAPHORS OF HEART.. SOUL.. AND SPIRIT..

      AND THE AMAZING THING THAT PASSES BY MOST PEOPLE’S EYES WITHOUT NOTICE DURING A LIFETIME IS THAT THE METAPHOR OF MOST RELIGIONS.. WHEN IT COMES TO HEAVEN AND HELL AND SALVATION ARE DIRECTED AT THE ACTUAL LIVING ELEMENTS EVERY NOW OF THE HUMAN EMOTIONAL LIFE THAT CAN LITERALLY DISAPPEAR INTO A REAL HUMAN HELL ALONG WITH THE ASSOCIATED ISSUES WITH CHRONIC HUMAN STRESS THAT ARE MOST OFTEN ASSOCIATED WITH REPRESSING HUMAN EMOTIONS AND THE LITERAL PHYSICAL DAMAGE CAUSED BY STRESS HORMONES CIRCULATING THROUGH THE BLOOD STREAM AND NEVER BEING BURNED OFF LIKE THEY NORMALLY ARE THROUGH THE FIGHT OR FLIGHT RESPONSE WHERE WE ACTUALLY FIGHT OR RUN.. WHEN A PERCEIVED RISK TO OUR LIFE IS ASSESSED IN OUR THOUGHT AND FEELINGS PROCESSES…

      WELL.. they try to teach ways to avoid this in church.. but it is very vague and what Jesus talked about in the kingdom of heaven of now.. finding this inside is simply the process of regulating emotions and integrating senses.. and more than likely he did it through some kind of still meditation or moving meditation like TAI CHI.. and achieved what folks call Nirvana which is simply mastery in regulating one’s own emotions and integrating one’s own sense where in doing so one also enhances their cognitive executive functioning through greater focus and short term working memory naturally as a human process of simply living day to day.. as our foraging ancestors have no choice to do to remain invisible to escape predator and capture prey in moving in balance and soft quiet on the earth.. in agility.. to basically survive life for hundreds of thousands of years..

      Modern Psychiatry misses an important element of a cure for this.. cognitive behavioral therapy attempts to redress negative thoughts with positive ones.. and psychotropic drugs attempt to redress chemical imbalances.. but where most psychiatry and psychology fails is in the basic human instinct and need to move in balance to attain simple mind and body balance in regulating emotions and integrating senses.. a literal work around that all naturally works..

      Eastern philosophies in terms of the moving meditation of TAI-CHI-ike exercises incorporating with Martial Arts like Kung FU have the long term solution for not only physical health but mental health too.. in mind and body balance.. as movement naturally regulates emotions and integrates senses.. as well as.. burning off stress hormones.. and raising mood.. but here’s the thing.. where i go one step further than this.. i truly believe this kind of balanced movement is in our innate instinct and intuition.. and sadly the lessons make it more of a mechanical cognition activity that tends to take us away from the social cognition mind that includes the regulation of emotions and integration of senses through strict and rigid lessons..

      IT is my belief THAT RIGID INSTRUCTION.. overall.. hinders the process of emotional healing but unfortunately most people are afraid to MOVE OUT on a free style.. free verse way of life.. as we are instituted in a life of instruction by the way others have done life instead of pure human imagination and creativity that is fostered by innate instinct and intuition and not someone else’s instruction of how they do life or they folks who lived before..

      It is a major paradigm change to break out of this human made box.. and truly this information is priceless but you will not or will rarely find it in any books as our culture is designed around quick external fixes and not one that explores the internal innate.. instinctual and intuitive life of human beings.. as is the case of human nature for hundreds of thousands of years.. and they way other animals live life without the functional disabling aspects of a culture that spoon feeds us life instead of achieving it internally and expressing that freedom of being externally by way of dancing.. singing.. or whatever ART allows one to balance mind and body.. but without the movement over 50% of the equation of human WELL BEING is lost.. and this will never be achieved sitting still or behind a computer or a notebook of writing alone for those challenged like this.. as i once was..

      And truly I’ve never fully explained the significance of the piano song I do compose then.. named Challenging Alexithymia here.. but i was the road that started me back on human art.. writing poetry.. and connecting emotions with language in 2013.. and the final piece of the puzzle to FIND and PRACTICE human nirvana.. bliss.. and the Kingdom of Heaven Now found internally that Jesus speaks to in what remains in the bible of his words.. but sadly how he actually did it in detail is missing.. anyway this is one way that history proves in eastern philosophies works to attain human nirvana.. bliss.. also known as the kingdom of heaven now.. and when they say don’t drink the Kool Aid.. the Kool Aid of Dancing a ballet/TAI CHI way of dance mixed in with martial arts ALL free style dance is a REAL PILL PROVEN TO WORK TO ATTAIN THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN NOW…

      IT’S NO FAIRY TALE AFTER LIFE.. IT’S REAL NOW..

      BUT YEAH.. WESTERN CULTURES ARE ALWAYS LOOKING FOR THE QUICK FIX WHETHER THAT COMES IN A PILL OR FAIRY TALE OF THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN AFTER ONE SPENDS THEIR ENTIRE LIFE WASTING IT NEVER FINDING IT HERE..

      BUT YEAH.. HOW CAN SOMEONE FIND IT..

      IF NO ONE EVER SHOWS THEM A WAY..

      NO ONE ALONE ‘TALES’ ME HOW.. BUT THERE ARE HINTS
      ALONG THE WAY.. TV SHOWS LIKE KUNG FU..
      A PHILOSOPHY CLASS IN COLLEGE.. A DEEPER
      READING OF RELIGIONS TO FIND THE DEEPER
      MEANINGS HELD WITHIN BUT TRULY UNTIL
      I ESCAPE THE ILLUSIONS OF CULTURE BY
      THE IMPACT OF SEVERE ILLNESS
      WHERE I LOSE OF EFFECTIVE
      USAGE OF VISION
      AND HEARING
      FOR 66 MONTHS..
      ‘CAUSE JUST
      THAT
      THERE IS NOT ENOUGH
      MOTIVATION FOR ME TO FIND A WAY.. BEFORE..
      I FIND A PATH THAT WORKS AND YOU MIGHT
      IMAGINE THE GOD OF NATURE HAS ME TO
      SHARE THAT TOO.. AS THAT IS HOW INNATE
      HUMAN ALTRUISM WORKS THAT TRULY FLOWS
      MORE FREELY WHEN A PERSON
      DOES LIVE IN THIS KINGDOM
      OF HEAVEN NOW.. THE
      PROBLEM IS
      CONVINCING
      FOLKS IT IS
      BOTH
      REAL AND NOW..
      AND IT IS AS DIFFICULT TO
      CONVINCE SO-CALLED CHRISTIANS
      OF THIS AND PERHAPS MORE DIFFICULT
      THAN IT IS TO CONVINCE ATHEISTS OF IT
      AS BOTH HAVE CLOSED MINDS.. ONE TO
      A LITERAL READING OF THE BIBLE AND
      ONE TO A LITERAL
      SCIENCE READING
      OF THE MATERIAL
      REDUCTIONISM OF
      THE SCIENTIFIC
      METHOD..
      THAT HAS
      NO WAY TO CONSISTENTLY
      MEASURE THE HUMAN EXPERIMENT
      THAT IS THE EMOTIONAL AND
      SENSORY MIND AND
      BODY IN BALANCE
      AS IT IS NOT
      EVEN CONSIDERED
      ETHICAL TO DO LARGE
      STUDIES LIKE THIS..
      THERE IS NO
      TIME TO
      WAIT FOR
      THAT SO I WRITE
      ABOUT IT AND DANCE IT WHERE I CAN
      AS THIS IS NOT USUALLY ACCEPTED
      IN THE MEDICAL FIELD OR IN SCHOOL
      AS A REAL LESSON IN LIFE AND PERHAPS
      TO DATE THAT IS THE SADDEST
      LESSON OF REALITY
      OF ALL
      IGNORANCE OF
      HUMAN WELL BEING
      IN HOW TO
      TRULY
      GET
      THERE…

      ANYWAY.. DANCE
      IS ONE ‘KOOL AID’..
      AND NOW IT’S TIME
      TO ADD SOME MORE PHOTOS
      TO ILLUSTRATE THAT MORE..
      HERE AND IN THE NEXT
      BLOG POST..
      WHERE PERHAPS
      FOLKS WILL EVENTUALLY
      UNDERTAND MORE FULLY
      WHAT FRED IS UP
      TO HERE..
      I’M JUST
      HERE TO HELP..
      AND SOMETIMES LIKE ROBIN
      WILLIAMS SAYS YOU HAVE TO
      STAND NAKED ON A DESK
      EXCITED ABOUT
      SOMETHING
      TO CHANGE
      A PARADIGM
      AND AFTER BEING
      TO HUMAN HELL I CAN
      UNDERSTAND WHY LAYING
      ONE’S LIFE DOWN TO SAVE OTHERS
      IS A WORTHWHILE ENDEAVOR FOR
      THE ART OF HUMAN ALTRUISTIC
      LOVE.. SO HEY.. ME STANDING
      NAKED ON THE DESK
      ALL EXCITED ABOUT
      THIS IS NOT
      MUCH
      OF A SACRIFICE
      AT ALL.. PARTICULARLY
      AFTER GOD’S GIFT
      OF PAIN TO
      ME IN TYPE TWO
      TRIGEMINAL NEURALGIA
      THAT IS ASSESSED BY MODERN
      SCIENCE AS PAIN WORSE THAN
      LITERAL CRUCIFIXION THAT
      I FOR ONE WITHSTAND
      FOR 66 MONTHS
      FROM WAKING
      TO SLEEPING..
      NAH.. STANDING
      ON THE DEAD POET’S
      SOCIETY DESK
      NAKED
      IS
      A PIECE
      OF CAKE
      COMPARED
      TO THAT..;)

      ANYWAY.. THANKS FOR THE VISIT
      CLAUDIA.. IT DOESN’T TAKE
      MUCH TO INSPIRE
      ME NOW.. SOMETIMES
      JUST A WORD OR
      A FEW TO
      GENERATE
      ALL OF THIS
      BUT THAT IS
      THE REALITY OF HUMAN
      POTENTIAL FURTHER PURSUED
      INTERNALLY THROUGH THE
      ART OF
      HUMAN BEING
      EXPRESSED AS SUCH
      IN FULL INNATE.. INSTINCTUAL
      AND INTUITIVE IMAGINATION
      AND CREATIVITY NOW EXPRESsing..:)

  13. Grace Black says:

    I knew this one would be an easy one for you. Your colorful explosion of sight and sound always mingle and find their way to the screen. Fantastic!

    • Hi Grace Black that is such a nice compliment and not so amazingly i use to see and hear most everything as a metaphor of black and white.. but now the metaphor does seem more like a rainbow and more.. in colors of sound too.. and that is a much greater blessing than the 2 or 3 shades of grey i live before.. hope you are doing well.. and be by your place a little later to see what you are writing about there.. and of course to get inspired with even more colors.. as others are my palette of colors too.. along the poeTRY trails of life.. smiles..:)

  14. ^^^

    Wow.. there’s a little synchronicity going on here.. as your poem relates to the comment i just make in response to you on my site.. i know precisely how these shades of grey feel experiencing this in my life.. before.. for over 5 long years.. and it is a most difficult place to live in shades of grey and black and white.. where there is always something vaguely missing as more colors of life..:)

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