7 Responses to R U Autistic or Artistic

1. katiemiafrederick says:

   October 9, 2014 at 2:51 PM

   http://www.wrongplanet.net/postt268425.html

   The feminist movement truly started in the last century with Margaret Singer and the PILL and reproductive freedom. Setting the stage for the empowerment of women to escape the reproductive cycle, and enter into a level playing field for those individuals who do want to have a family, or simply want to enjoy their reproductive freedoms without the consequences that are obvious, in full potential effect.

   Freedom for women is now won, and so easy for me to see now even compared to the 70 and 80’s when I am in the competitive environment of the male and female ‘battle’ to gain ‘love’, with each other.

   In a nutshell this women’s power movement has even gone the other way in some ways, as I as believe it or not it’s true, and yes can prove it in photos, am a 54 year old person who has an all encompassing special interest in dance, frequenting a Rave Dance Club almost every Thursday night for a little over a half of a year, with college age girls less than half my age.

   I am happily married, so all I go for there is to continue to increase my skills as a creative free style dancer, but rarely does a dance night go past, where some likely intoxicated girl, does not approach in what they now call Booty Dancing where the female rear rubs up against the male front, if you’ve ever seen this new cultural phenomenon of females ‘connecting’ to males in dance.

   Last Thursday night, a particularly aggressive, likely intoxicated, young lady, approached me in a very aggressive way with her hindquarters, addressing my lower front side, if you will, and as I tried to avoid the coming rubbing obstacle of her rear, by backing up, over a spilled drink I did not notice on the dance floor, I took a fairly nasty spill, falling back on some stairs of the slightly elevated dance floor, her cushioned on top of my 230 LBS or so of manhood to break her ‘dainty’ fall. Yeah, I still have nasty bruise on my hip as a result of that.

   The thing here is, if I did this, which is beyond my wildest imagination or intention to a total female stranger on the dance floor, with my ‘front’ on her ‘rear’ like this, aggressively rubbing up and down, it now still could most definitely be considered sexual assault.

   Do you really think, anyone would take me serious if I went up to the hourly paid security dudes and complained about this. Heck no, they would roll their eyes, but not so, if a male did it to a female, or they could get in really big trouble too.

   So yeah, all of this I don’t have any rights stuff in feminism is true, but in a time now gone past, where now women have the right and cultural right to sexual abuse men, on the dance floor, if they so choose; no not really legally but the reality is, sometimes cultural standards do trump laws, in the real life, of dance halls.

   I have Muslim women and girls that are friends from countries like Pakistan, and they still cannot leave the home without the adult supervision of a male, with veil covered faces and of course covered bodies from head to toe, fully.

   There are stovetop bride burnings of wives who don’t please their husbands with Dowry Value, and so many more incredible examples of basic human rights taken away, even to the result of death.

   So, compared to that, if I have to endure a few booty calls, I do not want to respond too, metaphorically speaking, on the dance floor of life, I will endure it, as to never ever never ever, have women treated like they are in these other countries where truly they are valued as lower than cattle.

   Feminism already wins the battle, and truly the battle of the sexes is being further won by women everyday, as now they are not afraid to fully embrace both their feminine and masculine elements as much more fully true human beings.

   Meanwhile, the guys who are so damn afraid of grace as a feminine element of real power in love, and even martial arts, if they feel like they might need to truly physically defend themselves one day, are still substantially in numbers engaging others as bantering homophobes, talking about who or who is not gay, if they display a little artistic talent, or grace in the game of life.

   Well, when I first started dancing at my metro Rave club, my ballet/martial art mix of dancing, did get some challenge from the homophobic audience, but now that they have more fully seen the martial arts part of grace in what I do on the dance floor, they fist bump me, and high five me.

   And yes, the booty calls do come in metaphor almost every week, as there is something about a man who is unafraid to embrace his masculine and feminine element that inspire women wild, at the core of human being.

   I’m teaching the younger guys how to be real men on the dance floor, and truly some are watching and learning to be men, of the balanced masculine and feminine kind of full human beings.

   It’s about a balance. Women, overall now, have conquered patriarchal polarizing gender ideals and found tHEIR’s, in masculine and feminine balance, and of course there are still many exceptions to this, as nothing in life, true life, human life in being, is a simple math equation to be solved.

   Now the ball is in the Man court. But so far, the ball is being dropped in that court. It’s still easy to see, in the metaphorical dance of life, in the oldest battle of all, the battle of the sexes; the core element of human conflict, overall, along with conflicts of subsistence and territory.

   Human and mother nature, is never truly one to escape, as Mother Nature at Human Nature Core does rule humans as master, and we are ‘her’ slaves or servants whether we like to think we are or not.

   Just my opinion of course. Just saying..;)
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2. katiemiafrederick says:

   October 9, 2014 at 5:02 PM

   https://www.facebook.com/firstgeargreg/posts/10154709095915597

   Abrahamic religions are based on the tribal instinct of humans and separation from other humans who are competing for reproduction..subsistence..and territory….

   With further globalization.. and freedom of information.. where people come to understand at genetic core.. we are generally the same in needs of love.. reproduction.. subsistence and territory to survive..

   The barriers of separation in instinct of tribal nature are replaced with vicarious tribal substitutes like sports of even inter-country fights with differences of opinions in politics… but the bottom line is..

   Many churches cannot continue to exist… with the exclusion of natural variation of other human beings.. be it differences in gender.. color… sexual orientations or the need for different religious languages for GOD as is the need for different religions for different cultures to express any reasoned or emotional approach to motivate survival in life…..

   In visiting Gospel singing with Katrina’s friend Judy..of the Southern Baptist variety.. the heads in the audience are 99% percent gray.. and the repeated comments about how gays are evil.. in their behavior.. and how Muslims and Buddhist leaning folks are never gonna make it to some fairy tale of heaven after life.. just doesn’t cut it anymore..

   WITH a generation of young people who have been exposed to the parts of religious myths that are obviously lies to gain subjugation over others for materialistic gains.. reproductive control in general.. and oppression and repression of human nature.. to meet the selfish goals of the pulpit.. in keeping the money making and building building part of the PROFESSION going…!

   Brick and mortar churches will never completely go away as they meet the most important need of human being to connect and bond over common purposes.. and to cooperatively support each other for survival.. as long as the social welfare state is not strong enough to do that…

   But the younger folks are demanding change and change is occurring.. at the grass roots level…

   The churches of 20 years from now.. will likely sound very different from the pulpit than they do now… as ignorance will no longer be tolerated the way it has been.. up to now..

   Freedom is the most powerful force of human nature.. and truly it’s only now just starting to ring true.. effectively for the majority of the population… since 1776.. when the ideal was first put into words..in the constitution and now.. finally the eye of the pyramid on the dollar bill is coming wideR open..;) in enlightenment against ignorance.. plain and simple..:)

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3. katiemiafrederick says:

   October 9, 2014 at 6:52 PM

   https://www.facebook.com/firstgeargreg/posts/10154709095915597

   Very insightful.. Greg.. and i as well.. always appreciate your insights too..

   Interestingly my grandfather, the X-Catholic Priest.. of Vatican.. South African and North Florida Parishes when still under the robes of Catholic church.. in the book he then.. after his service there.. authors.. “Behind the Dictators” exposes the fraud of the Zionist Illuminati conspiracy..

   Where he through his research suggests.. it was actually the Papacy of the Catholic Church.. in the Jesuit order.. who started the conspiracy of a Zion Led world domination.. to insure that the spread of Judaism.. is halted.. to a stop…

   Same story.. different time.. power plays for the human instinct for tribalism.. to say.. it’s our guy who’s the best.. and our way that’s the best.. etc.. but as you say here.. it is the cooperative effort of the growing global tribe.. that will truly set more and more folks free!

   i appreciate the freedom we have in this country and am more patriotic that ever.. as before.. i never really had to exert my legal rights as a citizen to fight for the freedom i needed to accommodate my disabilities.. and once again.. mainstream into society.. so to speak..;)

   And after spending so many conversations with Muslim girls and women from places like Pakistan.. it is true that the instinct for human freedom.. is the greatest instinct of all.. and when subjugated for materialistic gains.. repressed and oppressed through illusory fear.. human suffering can and does occur…

   All of us must play our sometimes bloody roles.. to keep freedom ringing.. as certainly as history shows.. IT is not a given.. when selfish minds rule!

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4. katiemiafrederick says:

   October 10, 2014 at 12:00 PM

   http://www.wrongplanet.net/postxf268425-0-15.html

   True, as I know in my personal life for sure, that this kind of self-defeatist ideology, can surely be a self-fulfilling prophecy, if left unchecked.

   The Army has it right, be all you can be, and f**, FUN, the haters, naysayers, and folks who tell one all about big limitations, and small expectations, or expectations one cares not to achieve.

   The kids in middle school, in so many words told me I literally did not deserve to exist, for weirdness, and appearance, and I said F** you, I go my own way, you do not own my will.

   At work they told me I am too hyper-excitable and will never amount to anything, and I said F** you, I go my own say; you do not own my will.

   The boys told me at the city park and at school that only gay guys smile so much like that and are so happy, and I said F** you, get happy yourself, it’s fun to be happy, dam it. Well, actually in that scenario as the relatively fragile child I was, I kept it in, under my breath, as yes, I was very logical, and saw that I might not survive with overt confrontational behavior, as these were really big guys. But, never the less, I kept smiling, and overall stayed happy, particularly when school was not in session, and the bullies of life were not around.

   And then the boys and girls said, you are too strange, Fred, and too much of a nerd, you won’t likely ever find a girl friend or get married, as you just don’t know how to regulate emotion. So I turned the other cheek and eventually married one of the most beautiful and kind girls in my area. Yes, it took awhile with me at 29 and her at 19, but the key is, I never gave up, or believed the naysayers/haters in life.

   And then in the latter part of my career when downsizing and reductions in civil service occurred, the personal department said it looks Grim Fred, there’s no way you are going to be able to stay, in the job you love, if you have a job at all.

   So I worked even harder and harder, and eventually the Captain of my base made a deal with the Captain of another base, as they determined I was a commodity they could not afford to lose.

   And then finally I broke down, total Autistic Burnout, also known as total Human exhaustion, with 19 documented medical disorders, including the worst pain known to mankind, type two Trigeminal Neuralgia, Sjorgren’s syndrome (my eyes quit making tears), and Dysautonomia, where my blood pressure and heart rate no longer, would work in sync, and when I raised my arms, I would almost pass out.

   The doctor gave me zero percent chance for recovery; So, I said F** you, not over my breath, as the only way I was going to survive then, even with the substantial money I had saved over the long term, was the legal and medical assessment of permanent disability.

   Oh, and then there was a diagnosis of Asperger’s syndrome, changed to Pervasive Developmental Disorder Not Otherwise Specified, when the psychiatrist found out I had a language delay until age 4.

   The Autism thingy was the least of my concern. I had adapted to that long before, well enough to get by, but never the less, it did play a role in my eventual breakdown of humanity

   So after five long years, starting here on this website, after two years of not being able to use my eyes or ears, due to the Trigeminal Neuralgia, that made effective use of them impossible, I developed enough grit to withstand the pain of a computer screen turned all the way down, to start writing here, one excruciating word at a time, in something I never thought I would do, as I hated writing, and was a visual thinking person.

   But I did not give up, even after losing all my emotions, including fear, from the pain of Trigeminal Neuralgia that makes a Migraine, a walk in the park, in comparison.

   So yes, after five long years of being almost a complete shut-in my bedroom, I moved from INTJ Personality to ENFP, in a matter of months, a year ago Summer; and from 195 on the Aspie Quiz, to 92; from 44 to 45 on the AQ screening test to 11, and from the mid fifties on the Emotional Intelligence Quotient test to 95.

   And all the medical maladies, almost miraculously disappeared in my life, including ALL THE PAIN IN my body, which also included Spinal Stenosis, a congenitally fused vertebrae in my neck, and severe degenerative arthritis in my spine.

   The professionals who treated me call it a miracle, yes; even a religious miracle, but I chalk it up to the real human potential of epigenetics and neuroplasticity. I presented an extreme challenge to my genetic potential and my genetics responded in kind to an extreme epigenetic change in mind and body finally balanced.

   Part of it was poetry and music, as it helped to connect back my emotions with language. Part of it was working on emotional intelligence through the art of dance, and now martial arts. Science now shows that emotions do reside in the body, physiologically speaking, in various body parts, and when they are repressed somatic pain and even autoimmune issues do occur, in part, with this causal factor.

   And while I keep having to clarify on this site, that I am trying to help to inspire people and not self-aggrandize when I talk about my road back to health, and what I have achieved, I am sick and tired of hearing that.

   So instead I’ll provide a link, to ALL OF WHAT I am now, as per the comment above.

   I survive now, no matter what anyone told me I could not do in life, for anyone who wishes to see it.

   No offense, but I no longer call my self Autistic; I call myself Artistic, truly the way I was born to be, until culture got a hold of me, with truly the eventual challenge of ‘JOB’.

   R U Autistic or Artistic

   Human will, and the power of unconditional fearless love, is the greatest power humans have on this earth. Not to use that, sadly, is to lose it. And my life is proof, of what can be for folks, who do not let the challenges of life become a self-defeatist ideology, and a self-fulfilling prophecy for failure in life; and yes chronic stress, anxiety, and depression. We are the navigators of our life. No one is going to fix our problems, but us, in the long run.

   Yes this is true, in my opinion, too.

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5. ManicDdaily says:

   October 11, 2014 at 7:26 AM

   Katie Mia Frederick–you are right that there are many kinds of intelligences, and kids should not be in a box of video games, and that life is quite wonderful and intense. You have a great exuberance, but the length of the post maybe scares commenters away–just a thought–of posting shorter things, perhaps more frequently, if you wanted more readers?–An idea. k.

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   • katiemiafrederick says:

     October 11, 2014 at 9:42 AM

     Hi ManicDdaily.. thanks so much for stopping by and taking the time to read what i wrote…

     Ha ha..surprised to see anyone commenting on this 2518 worded and photoed mix of Epic Free Verse Poetry and or Soliloquy…

     Actually the one i linked for dVerse is two posts back and is 333 words.. with some photos.. short enough for people to take the time to stop by and read and comment…

     This website is my palette or canvas for the practice of creativity.. as i do whatever strikes my fancy per nude male renaissance style art.. linked in other places.. photography.. and all free verse poetry.. totally flowing out of my heart.. with even science mixed in at times….;)

     In a Twitter World with a standard of 140 characters to go as deep as a human has time or attention to go.. as science now shows.. humans have the attention span.. seriously ..of less than a gold fish.. now that instant gratification and the next biG thing rules the world…

     To get anyone to stay long enough for 2518 words.. is quite the miracle…

     So thank you.. as i guess you are a miracle today.. Smiles and thanks again for stopping by… on this long winded effort….

     i am a maverick through and through.. i go my own way.. often against the herd….

     i am blown away that i have over 800K views in totality of the work i do with 3 more blogs.. other than this one.. linked on my Google plus page.. now just in over a years time…..

     For whatever reason.. nah.. i don’t usually get many comments unless i link something at dVerse or the Online Autism Community i occasionally write for.. particularly one on rampage killings that isn’t poetic.. but considering the topic.. has received over 100K views.. and it is a discussion that is much longer than this…. on that site there….

     But yeah.. people love to look at the dark side of human nature.. and it doesn’t get much darker than rampage killing..

     The target audience for that is immense…

     And if you do a google search on major factors of rampage killings in almost any key word combination it’s right at the top of the search results…

     Nah.. this one won’t make that grade.. per public consumption…;)

     With middle aged male nude renaissance new age selfie art.. and Soliloquy style epic free verse poetry.. there is almost no target audience at all where i live locally….

     But the world of the world wide web is a huge place… and 800K views is a drop in the bucket there….;)

     i linked this one to the Autism Online Community site.. as it was written not only for my celebration of life.. and for creative practice..

     But yes.. additionally..specifically.. for that target audience.. among the folks that are extremely interested in this niche topic.. per inspiration.. of coming out of living human hell.. for those who see their difficulties that way….

     And in that target audience there is a substantial percentage of the audience like me.. born with a condition known as Hyperlexia associated with higher functioning autism.. where although i’ve had great difficulty speaking in life.. i read 10 to 15 times faster than the average human being..

     So reading something like this topic post for me.. is just a few minutes out of my life.. and a breeze.. even in a hectic REAL LIFE.. scenario..

     And again.. there are a substantial amount of others like me in that target audience.. that don’t often comment but are in the background reading.. for sure.. and that must be where a substantial part of the 800K views come from….:) from all around the world as indicated in my blog statistics here and on blogger where my other three blogs are that get 10 times more views that Word Press.. for whatever reason…. they do load much faster.. with slower computers…

     I’m glad people are reading what i do.. whether they comment or not.. but whether they do or not.. is not of any personal interest of consequence to me to fulfill any needs.. as i would rather connect with people in real life.. with warm smiles.. loving eyes.. and hugs..

     than just words.. and that is where i am motivated to truly connect everyday…REAL LIFE..:) and i do it with literally hundreds of people a day at times in my exhibitions of public dance.. yeah the maverick thingy again..;) in real life.. now over 2300 miles in just over a year.. in PUBLIC PLACES…:)

     And honestly..THIS IS part of why i stay as ‘controversial’ in everything i do here.. as i do reciprocate all communication people provide me on everything i do on the internet.. everywhere i go..

     And even with my ability to type close to 130 words a minute.. as a life long pianist.. per that type of dexterity in finger skills.. the reciprocal communication on the internet can take up much more time than even what i write here.. per example of the post immediately preceding this one…

     Well haha.. this comment IS epic too..

     But that is me.. epic in everything i do.. and yes.. hypomanic too.. in a positive way always… to the best of my ability…:)

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6. katiemiafrederick says:

   October 11, 2014 at 11:06 AM

   http://www.wrongplanet.net/postx268247-15-0.html

   Not in Florida, where I live. I like dark haired dark eyed girls, and almost every selfie I have with a girl I dance with at a metro dance bar, where I live, has blonde hair and blue eyes. Is it natural, though; well, there’s not much natural even with the dark haired girls, either, who change the color of their on a whim these days, more than ever it seems.

   But hey, I’m all for creativity. They can paint themselves up whatever way they want to as far as I am concerned.

   And Scandinavia, is still the ‘MECCA’ for blond haired blue eyed folks, in general, at least until the immigrants get their ‘foot’ in the ‘door’, securely, so to speak.

   But I’m a natural blonde with blue eyes, but nah, not the soft type, at least for now, as change is always possible.

   And in response to K_Kelly, up there, about getting a girlfriend, my advice to you is to learn how to dance, and do it in a way that no other guy does it, totally uninhibited. It works, and I’ve got incontrovertible evidence of it in photos.

   And nah, don’t let the Aspie thing be an inhibiting factor. Recently, science shows that a woman without a cerebellum learned to move well enough to thrive, through epigenetics, neuroplasticity, and practice, practice, practice.

   I used to have to watch my wife to walk, to stay comfortable doing it in public. But the thing is, I lived my life in my head, more than my body.

   Now that I retired and recovered from major shut-in type illness for five years, I’ve focused over a year, with intense focus, on full physical intelligence including dance and martial arts.

   My non-verbal communication is now comparably outstanding, and even bothersome to my wife now, as it is over the top for her as a relatively shy person, and my dancing literally scares the hell out of her, as she thinks I’m going to hurt myself doing it, falling down or whatever.

   But the thing is, although walking was even uncomfortable before for me, and comfortable for everyone else, what I do with dancing for now, requires no thought at all, as it is complete muscle memory, and people literally think I’m skating on land it is so smooth. And yeah, I’ve got the videos to prove it, in case anyone thinks I’m exaggerating, on that one.

   But truly a guy that can dance is a major draw for a woman, and seriously science now also shows that repression of human emotions takes the form of somatic issues like constant tension in the body, that makes for robotic like moves rather than graceful ones, that turn girls on.

   Honestly, in a way, except for RRBI’s and Sensory Integration that I still have some issues with, dance is the best therapy, for all practical intents and purposes, to cure my Autism, per the reciprocal social communication difficulty part of it.

   And science is finally catching up too, as they are using movement therapy in balance with the left and right sides of the body in eye movement, and pressing buttons on each hand for sound tones, to remediate issues with emotional problems like PTSD, and issues with the Autism Spectrum too.

   The emotions reside, physiologically speaking, per feeling, in the body, particularly the gut area. And dance does most definitely focus on the gut area per core abdominal strength.

   I’ve heard a lot of folks on the spectrum say they just can’t dance. And well, it’s true; if they believe that and never take the first step they will never be able to do it.

   As a person on the spectrum with a language delay until age 4, and trouble speaking coherently until middle age, I eventually learned how to be proficient at tongue twisters, but the thing is, I started off one word slowly at a time, using a melodious flow of words like song, with emotion to glue it all together and now it sounds like I’m calling an auction when I do it.

   Truly with functional disability, adapting to the challenge of dance, as functional disability, the remediation can work the same way, with one step at a time, slowly at first melodious in song of step, progressing faster and faster with no real instruction and guidelines from others, except moving with natural instinctual, intuitive rhythm and flow; yeah like the FROZEN MOVIE, JUST LETTING IT ALL GO CAN in total human effect and yes emotional AFFECT make REAL human miracles happen in the place of what is once functional disability, in physical and emotional intelligence.

   It’s kind of like the movie Napoleon Dynamite that no matter what the producers say is a take off on the Autism Spectrum, generally speaking, like the TV show the Big Bang theory. Sheldon definitely hits the whole checklist of historical Asperger’s syndrome, as diagnosed in the US.

   But to avoid anyone suggesting I am attempting to promote myself here, I will provide a video for example by way of Napoleon Dynamite, and as you will see in the audience, the jocks might be snickering, but the girls are saying, hmmm;) in the audience, and this is precisely what happens when I go to dance in the REAL DANCE of life, even at age 54, and the girls in their 20’s.

   So what I’m saying here is, I’m not anything special at core of how I am born, but I adapted to the challenge at hand and developed positive results. And if I can do it in REAL LIFE, I DON’T see why others cannot, here too. As let’s get serious, for the sexually active or emotionally connecting folks who want to connect to another human in that way, it’s a priority in life, worth fixing, if not working now.

   And yes, I have proof of that, (connecting to girls at the dance hall) as they say, show me the photos or it didn’t happen. Available up on request of course, as I don’t come here without hard evidence per what I claim, as usual. 😉

   And ha-ha, when I was younger I looked and moved very much like Napoleon Dynamite, even down to the big wire frames. 🙂

   But the boy can dance; he can really dance, in REAL LIFE TOO. 🙂
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