to

visualize dreams in now..

for me is dreams come true in future too..

And the blogs are kool..

as

they document my path in future now..2!

But yes..

patience can be for years..

Truly for those who never ever never give up..

on dreams

that
do
come
true!
eventuAlly..
and worth
the
wait!
for true dreams
now..
REALitY!2!

As

i grow older and surpass my 54th year..

what i come to realize

is

all

my

thoughts are dreams..

and oh yes..

at one time all my thoughts and dreams are complete negativity..

so in other words my waking reality then..

is nightmare in comparison of now to dream in bliss….

From the depths of my physical illness..

anxiety..

depression..

in those days..

the attending psychiatrist..

who then is doing his best

to bring feelings and thoughts of anything else

to me to transcend

the horrific physical pain

that does exist in me then

in all wake of hours..

tells me now..

that no you do not have an ego then..

and develop one now..

too..

along now..

in the wake of renewed scientific interest

in Freud’s psychoanalytic archetypes

in human mind..

in the ‘business’ per se…

of healing minds….

i reflect and understand my truth

as the I of ego..

is now something the Captain of i

creates beyond conscious..

as subconscious awakes

and makes i known to me

as one creative force of me..

as above so below..

inside outside..

all one of me now

as ONE WitH ALL…

the guide of waking dreams..

is now i…

For decades my thoughts

or fragmented ego chaotic way of life

is almost all controlled by the chaos of reality

i see all around me..

in fact if ego is me..

it is the world around me not the i of me..

behind the ego i create now..

as Captain of my heart..

soul..

spirit..

and beyond with allitis..

with my body and mind

as instrument i play

in tandem in guide with ALLitis…

instead of robot

controlled by the direction of others..

instead of i

For me this is enlightenment

the inner i wakes

and

once again becomes a LIVE..

The same inner i..

i knew at age 3…

is once again me…

Set free to live

me.

Relative free will..

is now..

yes..
finAlly me….
i
is
me

Well..

as mentioned above in the i of me..

The i of me..

is an incredible visitor of i to come…

When this i awakens the intuition and instinct of me..

expands anew..

the uncoordinated clumsy child way

of a 53 year old..
becomes a VIBRANT dancer..

a martial artist..

a warrior at heart too..

with control of loving enemies 2…

And yes..

for whatever reason..

sometimes

there is the veiled Arabian dancer
gamingly (new word)

seducting ‘other’ girls for ONLY play

AND NO REAL action in connecting in dance
in real life..

as dream too..

of seemingly distant days…

am i a lesbian under
all this hair and muscle covered outer body

of manifest current soul..

may be i am…

2…

veiled Lesbian Arabian
danceR..

heHEr!2….

So i look to epigenetics

and genetic memory

to at least spark hope of something

more than reality now

for my cyclical cynical

science minded ‘friends’…

And i entertain..

reincarnation..

for me 2..

and even if it is just imagination..

imagining greater reality..

and the infinity of is..

as me too..

as multiple characters

in the greatest transcendent play

of parade of LIVING life…

Is yes ..

intriguing too!..;)

TO

me
of
i..:)!I1..2!

Well..

these

REALLY

DEEP

THOUGHTS

THAT

MAY

ONLY

BE

COGENT

TO

ME

OF

i

ARE

inspired

by

Claudia..

Bjorn..

Brian..

the

three

dVERSE

POET

PUB

VOLUNTEER

TEAM

MEMBERS

who

consistently

comment

on

my

Dverse

prompting

contributions!

as

linked

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Memoir of a transcendent Time IN NOW