http://dversepoets.com/2015/03/23/bold-and-brave-in-poetry/

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i have

a standard

IQ of over.. 130..

Which truly overall..

is a curse..

as that mixed with culture today

is a likely destiny in failure of personal humanity…
A human cannot be an external human..

And to be painfully aware of all the details in this world of info

overLOAD

is to eventually die in life…
Retiring half dead teaches me to

turn it off

and live…

But honestly.. before..

i carry culture on my shoulders

and it is way too heavy to hold up..

No matter how broad my head or shoulders grow…

I spend most of my life too scared to live or truly love.. Consistently noted by others as always following the rules of cultural form until perfectionism literally nearly kills me and metaphorically kills me alive…

Now in the words of the newest version of Cinderella I am both kind and most importantly courageous enough to be free of perfection and instead only a practicer of living NOW…

The joy of life is not knowing form…,
@all

So true and to make it up as we go

is to make it happen in a new way

instead of a robotic wave

that follows a path

planned by

someone

else..

But

yeah..

video

games

can be

fun

too..

Living under

the paraMETERS

of someone else’s play..
And truly the matrix of culture

is a video game for the participants

wittingly or not and a camel with a tiny ‘whole’ of needle too

to escape

getting smaller and

smaller

in a Twitter world

of human…

Approximation…

Oh.. GOD.. Yes!..

Seeing the world

through the eyes of a child

almost always better reflects human truth…

Interestingly.. The so-called ‘Bi-Cameral’ mind

theorized by some folks as the creative human archetypal

way of thinking by the ancient Greeks

may better represent the human mind without decades of spoon fed school and work..

where so-called insanity of dreamy thinking may be the norm then.. instead of school rule ways of processing the world through prescribed ways of thinking and speaking…

The further I drift into ‘reality’

the more i realize

Truth

in

THIS.

@word358word@

All of this mix of

art and science sounds

like common sense to me.

But unfortunately,

the scientific method does

not measure what all

folks have in common,

particularly science leaning folks

as opposed to artistic leaning folks

in divided ways of mind and body balance.

To join both is two have two metaphorical

happy hemispheres of

UNI

verse of life unto itself. Yes, strangely enough

this head between our shoulders is remarkably like the
earth with neuron-like humans attempting to make so
many more connections with each other to fire a

planet alive in dual hemispheric flow

as ONE mighty

force of human being life
and EARTH in letting go of

dividing ways
of mind
and
body
imbalance

FOR LIGHT IN NEW IDEAS

WHEre AuTIST BECOMES ArTIST

WITH only u r separating
dark from
light..:)

wHeRe only rR
separates
Ee and H,
in masculine
and feminine balance

as

WELL
FOR NOW
AS
IS
IS.

Hmm.. perhaps philosophy is largely irrelevant, unless science is used in regard of being human being, in the most base of all human existence, which is human emotions and senses that science has no tools to adequately measure to replicate the human experience and experiment that is ALWAYS UNIQUE TO EACH HUMAN UNIVERSE OF PERCEPTION of what reality even is,

in a personal Universe of emotions and senses felt and lived in ALWAYS UNIQUE flesh and blood action.

IN the case of human being, only philosophy can fully address THE FULL CONDITION THAT IS human being.

I’m not sure what else REALLY counts, EXCEPT FOR A PHILOSOPHY OF THE HUMAM CONDITION, AS IS, considering ‘we’ are human being, ARE WE NOT…

PERHAPS SOMEONE will develop a test for that.

Wait, I think someone already has.

I’ll check back later

to let one know of the results, when
THAT EXPERIMENT IS

DONE.

Hmm.. perhaps philosophy is largely irrelevant, unless science is used in regard of being human being, in the most base of all human existence, which is human emotions and senses that science has no tools to adequately measure to replicate the human experience and experiment that is

ALWAYS UNIQUE TO EACH HUMAN UNIVERSE OF PERCEPTION of what reality even is, in a personal Universe of emotions and senses felt and lived in ALWAYS UNIQUE flesh and blood action.

IN the case of human being, only philosophy can fully address THE FULL CONDITION THAT IS human being.

I’m not sure what else REALLY counts,

EXCEPT FOR A PHILOSOPHY OF THE HUMAM CONDITION,

AS IS, considering ‘we’ are human being, ARE WE NOT…

PERHAPS SOMEONE will develop a test for that.

Wait, I think someone already has.

I’ll check back later to let

one know of the results, when
THAT EXPERIMENT IS

DONE.

To be clear, I am being as serious as

‘Aghogday’ can get here, first, before I go on.

This proof of if I exist is an interesting question.

Honestly, I lived decades of my life as a being more in the existence of external requirements rather than innate instinctual, intuitive experience of life.

In fact, my psychiatrist suggests that I never actually developed an ego until the last year and a half, and I have to agree as there was no integrated me for decades. I was the sum of all the parts of my environment.

Truly, finding center in self, or as some folks pejoratively describe it as self-centered is a goal to attain, not one to avoid, IN ZEN like practice of generating one’s ego through the core of what we can be as creative human beings, per what some describe as the inner self.

My entire life, for decades, even with an exceptional IQ of above 130, I never really created anything new, except for a few isolated incidences.

I play the piano wonderfully by sheet music but could not create my own music in creative flow until age 47, when I was losing my emotions from chronic stress, and the battle within me was to stay alive, as truly a living feeling human being.

In my opinion, although for decades It did not really seem like I fully existed as an integrated human being, I can for sure now say that when a person does a search on just the name ‘Katie Mia’ that I created as an acronym of sorts in tandem with a form of my wife’s name, they will find a human entity that they’ve never seen before.

So yes, in this way, I exist, and I can prove it

in videos; photos; yes, living color;

and creative expressions

in both photos and words

in forms that no one has created before.

It appears that technology allows humans now, finally, to

PROVE THEY EXIST.

Anyway, perhaps a topic for another time.

Quote:
“b) proclaims the non-existence of something

simply because the tool it uses (i.e. the scientific method)

is inadequate as a method in this respect,”

TheWalrus writes:

No, this is wrong.

If something is real, it can be verified or falsified by examining reality.

If something cannot be detected by examining reality (assuming you had perfect instruments), then it does not exist.

Aghogday writes:

No, this is patently false.

For example, some people experience nuanced emotions that empower a person to action including belief, which science already provides evidence of for, per the positive placebo and negative nocebo effect.

However, close to 66% percent of people in the general population cannot effect real life results from the power of the real emotion of belief that underlies whatever metaphor of words generates the emotion of belief, per human effect of change, which is just a synonym for the placebo effect, generally speaking.

And honestly, in a world where the majority of people are stuck in a mechanical cognition way of thinking THAT is not surprising at all, as even science now shows THAT way of thinking suppresses the emotional/empathic/social cognition intelligence of mind.

So in other words, if the placebo effect does not work for you, or you do not experience the empowering emotion of belief that emotes action for positive or negative human change, per placebo or nocebo effect, this part of the human condition may not exist for you, and may not be proven to exist in your life but never the less that does not negate the reality of this empowering emotion of belief in other folks lives to make real human miracles happen.

I know, as I have access to this empowering emotion of belief and can do amazing things, where before, where I fell Ill, and lost that empowering emotion of belief, my life was basically crap pie, with the inability to even heal myself, of 19 medical disorders.

With the FULL POWER OF BELIEF, TOTALLY ESCAPED FROM A MECHANICAL COGNITION WORLD, I DO move metaphorical real physical mountains, as evidenced time and time again, already, here on this site.

What you may fail to understand, with the condition of Autism, as it is a clinical trait, is that people experience life much differently than you do in the way of sensory and emotional connections WITH other humans along with the emoting power of emotions, you may or may not more fully experience.

And it is clear to me, as relatively speaking, a natural ’empath’ of a human being THAT the so-called most famous Atheist folks like Mr. Dawkins, and Mr. Hitchens have LITTLE TO no affect of emotion in their speech, and that is an objective way to determine if someone can even experience the emotion of belief, as it is a much more advanced emotion than just laughter, or joy.

Both Mr. Dawkins and Mr. Hitchens speech is robotic in affect, AND CONVERSELY emotions are expressed in human language, flowery like you suggest I communicate, and other folks, UNLIKE Mr. Dawkins and Mr. Hitchens, who do NOT speak with the empowering emotive metaphor in AFFECT OF HUMAN LANGUAGE in FULLER nuanced PRO-SOCIAL human emotions.

So truly it stands to ‘reason’ but really ’emotion’ that I as an empath will have flowery language, as truly that is an empirical measure of both my emotional intelligence that not all share, particularly here, as well as the general potential that I will have as a human being to use the emoting power of the emotion of human belief to emote real life PHYSICAL ACTIONS, LIKE LEG PRESSING about HALF-A-TON OF WEIGHT, 14 TIMES SLOWLY, WITH MY ARMS RAISED UP.

YOU SEE, EVEN THOUGH science does not have the tool to measure the actual emotion of belief that I experience when I lift that 930LBS, 14 times; never the less, the empirical results are there for others to observe.

And truly any athlete who experiences strong positive pro-social emotions is more likely to produce miracle-like physical results through the power of the emotion of belief.

Perhaps, I have control with my mind down to the atomic energy at the core of all my cells, per a ‘Quantum’ Observer Affect, per effect that not all humans achieve in life. And perhaps science will one day provide a tool that can measure the empirical process of how this works, if it does work in a way like this.

But never the less, I have always been super strong, even as a frail looking skin and bones boy who DOES BEAT THE BIGGEST MOST MUSCULAR FOOTBALL PLAYER BOYS IN ARM wrestling by generating a ‘quantum’ power of mind over matter, per my body, where muscle mass in bulk, is not needed.

When I am 120 LBS, I am beating 160 LB muscular boys.

When I am 170 LBS, I am beating 260 LB muscular law enforcement dudes.

And now at 233 LBS, I am lifting hundreds of more LBS, at age 54, verses elite physical specimens of military males in their twenties that is empirically evidenced, as I’m sure you’ve already seen here.

But the thing is, I am born with extreme emotions and obviously more gifted with the emotion of belief than most people are.

Some folks do not even realize emotion is a belief, and if not that emotion obviously does not likely exist fuller in their life, as the effect of that emotion in terms of physical abilities, is simply amazing, AND HARD TO MISS, EVEN FOR THE MOST CASUAL OF OBSERVERS,

IN REAL flesh and blood life.

But anyway, your statement here

that if the tools of the scientific method

cannot measure a human phenomenon

per the emotion of belief, it does not exist,

IS PATENTLY FALSE.

930 LBS does not lie, and neither do my hips, or eyes of the emoting power of BELIEF.

AND TRULY, NOT ONLY THAT it’s sad that modern religions have changed the word belief into a symbol for something that does NOT EMPIRICALLY EXIST, PER A only HUMAN BEING GOD,

WHERE this real human emoting power in the emotion of belief, CAN MOVE METAPHORICAL MOUNTAINS,

IF properly sought, found, utilized, developed,

AND practiced in the internal human being life

that science currently CANNOT adequately MEASURE

WITH THE LIMITED TOOLS THAT EXIST, AND DOES NOT NECESSARILY EXIST IN MR. DAWKINS, MR. HITCHENS, MR. HAWKING, MR. DENT, MR. FNORD, MR. TheWalrus, or MR. A Different Name’s life

BUT NEVER THE LESS AND MUCH MUCH MORE, the emoting power of the emotion of belief DEFINITELY DOES exist in my life, and I provide the miraculous results of that emoting power of the emotion of belief by the LB, and more precisely 930LBS.

AS another historical example of someone who has strong emotions of hope, faith, and belief that can be measured in affect of speech, is the Football Player Tim TEBOW, who speaks with a great amount of flowery emotional affect as well as non-verbal emotional expression, with homophobes around the world accusing him of being gay ’cause he shows so much freedom in expressing emotion.

But the deal is, he is so frigging powerful looking in person, they will not do that to his face, just like me in real life doing a ballet exhibition in Dick’s sporting Goods today, where there is no one, powerful looking enough, to come up and make fun of me to my face, although one can bet they are doing it behind my back, just as they do with Tim Tebow.

Tim Tebow actually finished a high school football game,

with a broken femur, which is a miracle all by itself.

But ‘little’ Timmy is obviously another ’empath’ of a human being,

where PRO-SOCIAL emotion FULLER EXPRESSED is STRENGTH, INSTEAD OF WEAKNESS, PER THE POWER OF BELIEF IN MAKING THESE REAL LIFE MIRACLES HAPPEN.

BUT SERIOUSLY, if you do not run in ‘our league’ all of this may sound like gibberish to you in YOUR Universe but our UNIVERSES are in actual DEED MUCH DIFFERENT THAN ANY OF THE FOLKS I listed above, simply as there is no evidence of emotional affect in language, written or spoken, except for some that you have recently manifested here that is encouraging, at least in your case, as truly it is the most important type of human intelligence for basic survival,

IN THE FLESH AND BLOOD WORLD, still.

But here’s the deal, although I do not have a scientific method, per the official one, to measure this, never the less, I am using basic human common sense per my high levels of cognitive and affective empathy, and my exceptional IQ in ways of logic, as standard IQ and grade school/college measured, to systemize it per general science methodology of logic in systemization, as best as that can currently be done.

This is philosophy and logic mixed.

I am not just telling you miracles happen with belief, without actually describing, explaining, and providing evidence of how MIRACLES DO HAPPEN WITH THE EMOTING POWER of THE HUMAN EMOTIONS of relative free will, faith, hope and belief that do not have to be attached to any religion, at all, to be just as pertinent as ‘THEY’

always have in the human condition.

What modern humans have forgotten truly is losing many of the empowering emoting emotions that our ancestors or even people currently separated from modern cultures with overbearing mechanical cognition requirements of thinking, STILL DO have as part of their human experience to do more amazing real life physical feats of achievement.

Emotions are internal feelings and senses that motivate human action.

Emotion equals emoting or generating action in human being.

It is a metaphor, yes, PER WORDS LIKE BELIEF, and can be an empty shell of a word, without the experience in the human condition of these emoting emotions that again,

ARE DEFINITELY REAL IN HOW THEY AFFECT THE EFFECTS OF REAL LIFE HUMAN ACTION IN RESULTS THAT COUNT.

AND AGAIN, while there is not a tool that currently exists or not a tool that will ever exist to measure these empowering emotions of human relative free will, faith, hope and belief, if you currently do not have full use of these emotions to make real life miracles happen in your life that

DOES NOT MEAN THIS IS NOT PART OF, OR EXISTS, AS A REAL INTERNAL PHENOMENON in someone else’s life, AND CERTAINLY NOT ME, BABY, as I’ve got enough belief to BLOW MOST PEOPLE AWAY in almost anything I attempt to do in real life, and do have those empirical results in tow,

with a simple click of smartphone

to prove REAL LIFE human miracles DO come true.

YES, I know this is long winded; however, there may never be enough words to explain HOW REAL THE EMOTION OF BELIEF IS, FOR FOLKS, INCLUDING MANY religious folks with repressed emotions who NEVER EXPERIENCE THE EMOTION OF BELIEF to make real life human miracles a potential real life flesh and blood reality, too, coMe TRUTH..:)

AND true that so many folks water the garden of culture but never truly cultivate the internal human being Universe that can be a HUMAN mind and body in total and POWERFUL GRACE AND STRENGTH, BALANCE.

HONESTLY and sadly,

in true effect and affect,

some folks have no idea

THAT reality even exists,

neither in words or feelings.

Yeah, I used to be a ‘PASTAfarian’ most of the days too..

But truly, per the general concept of Rastafarian ways of Christian-like philosophy, in practice, with a so-called original gnostic context, are relatively speaking great, compared to modern Christianity, as ‘IT’

focuses on the Now of ‘Heaven’

on this Terrestrial Earth, as an achievable result now IN REAL LIFE PRACTICE.

And while I do not agree that ‘they’ have THE ONE SON OF GOD BACK IN BLACK OR WHATEVER, or the still homomophic patriarchal leaning beliefs, THEY do tend to keep the common sense of the so-called Gnostic Thomas Gospel of Jesus THAT REALITY IS real, GOD IS ALL NATURAL,

AND LIVES WITHIN HUMAN BEING AS WELL as outside, above and so below, and so-called heaven CAN BE NOW, FOR FOLKS WHO MASTER MIND AND BODY BALANCE NOW, AND not in some fairy tale of gift of heaven after life for repeating JOHN 3:16, and having to exclaim one believes it literally, as such, to get a TICKET SOMEWHERE OUT OF REALITY,

AFTER DEATH.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rastafari_movement

While death is a reality,

the fear of death is an unnecessary illusory fear,

for those who have mastery in human relative free will over mind and body balance.

Truly, for all practical intents and purposes, in life without fear of death, death does not exist in life.

And obviously, that SEEMS TO BE

what the real so-called Gnostic Jesus dude

means when he states humans can escape death.

http://www.sacred-texts.com/chr/thomas.htm

Sure they can,

with a mind and body balanced

to extinguish the fear of death,

instead, to never truly experience death in life.

And sadly, most humans do not take the time

and effort to cultivate and grow human relative free will

through physical intelligence to regulate human emotions

and thoughts to do JUST THAT.

I AM NOT afraid of death,

as it simply

NEVER ENTERS MY MIND.

I CONTROL THAT AS I FOR ONE

DEVELOP the relative human free will to do JUST THAT.

And on top of that I’ve been TO MUCH worse places than death, documented as such, where the wish for death is my only salvation for a pain of numbness of life much worse than pain, even so-called ETERNAL HELL FIRE PAIN.

DEATH IS A GIFT;

I for one, have NO FEAR OF DEATH AT ALL.

AND THAT’S an excellent place to truly live ALWAYS NOW…

AND for people who are afraid of death, where only fairy tales work

to extinguish that fear, more power to ’em as fear s**KS MUCH, MUCH, more than myths.

Truly, it’s just common sense and requires NO modern schooling to attain this all natural philosophy of life.

Humans all barefoot and naked with unshaved bodies, dirty, cold and huddled with the warmth of each other CAN easily determine what the truth is.

The truth is an Interdependent relationship

of all that is IN connection.

It’s that simple.

Modern society takes ‘us’ away from that

and leads to all kinds of bizarre illusions

separating many of ‘us’ at core of what

WE CAN be in flow WITH nature,

as just part of the whole,

and a fractal reflection of the whole too.

I mean, ‘DUH’, even a wave ‘knows’ that,

without any sentience, AT ALL,

per above so below,

IN PARTICLES

OF

WAVES

TOO…

I FOR ONE,

choose to

LIVE WITH

THE ‘FIELD’,

INSTEAD

of against ‘IT’,

in TRUE FIELDS

OF

human

DREAMS COME TRUTH.

AND THAT IS SOMETHING

our so-called ‘primitive ancestors’, who still live today,

PRACTICE IN THE RAIN FORESTS OF TRUTH, TOO..:)

And in regard of ‘THAT’ my favorite ‘NEW AGE’ illustration

of JUST THAT
PER THE ‘Emerald Forest’…

That’s the way I like it baby, all natural, All FREE LIVING WITH NATURE AND CONNECTING WITH OTHER HUMANS IN FLESH AND BLOOD CONNECTIONS, in ecstatic trance dance,

JUST LIKE MY FLORIDA ‘NATIVE FRIENDS’,

WHO DO STILL RAVE DANCE WITH ME!

AND I’VE NEVER ever felt

any younger, in both strength and grace;

subjectively and empirically assessed as such.

To be free IS NICE and

POTENTIALLY LITERALLY DIVINE

in metaphor of course, too…

TO LIVE IN CHAINS OF CULTURE, JUST s**KS, in my opinion,

including mechanized GRADE SCHOOL

science limiting ways of thought,

WITHOUT

TRULY

CREATIVE

ART,

WITHOUT AN

INSTRUCTION BOOKLET,

PAMPHLET, OR YouTube Video.

i GUIDE my SELF, as I ego, per i me,

with a little !spiritual! help from ‘my friends’,

and Mother Nature TRUTH.

Hopefully,

one is not

stating that as absolute,

per philosophers and mystics stop at step 2,

and treating their hypothesis as fact, without actually testing it,

As obviously there are folks who are philosophers, mystics, and scientists;

ALLINONE.

I ‘hate’ to think one believes there is a limit on human nature this way.

But truly, the human experiment/FULLER EXPERIENCE that is driven by human NATURE IN EMOTION, is unique, and not a fully repeatable one with any control group anywhere.

‘We’ can break things down to observable units..

But truly, not all emotional powers

are observable external

OR INTERNAL

units of measure.

AND TRULY,

AS A PERSON WHO

technically loses their

emotions due to illness,

who experiences

a very rich internal

environment of emotions,

NOW, I can say without pause that a person

who does not experience the type of rich internal

PRO-SOCIAL emotions that I am innately blessed with

WILL NEVER EVER UNDERSTAND THIS

AS THERE IS NO REFERENCE POINT TO UNDERSTAND IT

WITHOUT RICH NUANCED EXPERIENCED PRO-SOCIAL EMOTIONS.

IN FACT, 85 PERCENT OF FOLKS DIAGNOSED ON THE AUTISM SPECTRUM, as assessed by ‘science’, have difficulty describing complex emotions with human language; even the simplest emotions like joy and sadness,

PER THE medical TERM,

ALEXITHYMIA.

There is THIS biological and or environmental problem in innate human nature that makes assessing the reality of others who do experience rich nuanced emotions literally and metaphorically impossible.

When emotions go, there is not even a memory of

IF A PERSON EVER FEELS A LAUGH OR SMILE,

AS EMOTIONS ARE THE GLUE OF

MEMORY OF EMOTION ITSELF.

IN OTHER WORDS, when a human being

loses their emotions due to illness or chronic

PTSD type emotional trauma, they fall into

A BLACK HOLE OF EMOTIONAL DEATH,

until IF THEY RISE OUT OF THAT BLACK HOLE

of no emotions BACK IN EMOTIONAL life

like the metaphorical Phoenix, RISING from Death.

The most horrifying thing I can imagine now,

is the life of either a full blown or partial

so-called internal life of a

SO-CALLED psychopath,

as I know precisely why, now,

they enjoy inflicting pain on others,

because that’s all they can feel;

pleasure over pressing the HURT BUTTON

ON SOMEONE ELSE FOR SELFISH GAIN.

WHENEVER I SEE PEOPLE CALLOUSLY

PERSONALLY ATTACKING

OTHERS HERE LIKE TOYS,

IT RINGS THAT BELL FOR ME.

But seriously, a person who does not experience

the rich internal emotional life that gives a wondrous intrinsic

OXYTOCIN-like feeling in connecting to others that is often indicated in medical literature, AS missing from SOME folks on the Autism spectrum,

THEY WILL NEVER EVER TRULY UNDERSTAND WHY FOLKS SIT IN A CHURCH HOLDING HANDS SAYING A COMMON PURPOSEFUL MANTRA OR CREED ARE TRULY ‘just’ DOING IT.

THEY DO IT

BECAUSE

THERE IS

AN ELIXIR

OF COMMONLY

SHARED FEELING EMOTION

THROUGH COMMON PURPOSE

IN CONNECTING HUMAN BEINGS

THAT FEELS BETTER THAN

ANY PSYCHOPATHIC LEANING PERSON

WITH A LACK OF THIS COMMON CONNECTING FEELING

WILL EVER FEEL IN LIFE, IN A LIFE THAT TRULY IS LIKE

LIVING IN A DEEP PIT OF BLACK HOLE WITH NO ESCAPE.

I’VE SEEN BOTH SIDES NOW, in feeling and non-feeling,

and truly no matter how callous ACTING AND FEELING,

the folks ARE who ARE IN the black-hole OR how callously

THEY personally attack other people in an attempt to see their toys jump,

I TRULY feel sorry for them,

as truly they have never lived,

no matter why they are destined

to live this way, per either innate

or environmental FACTORS.

But again, if one does not feel

what I am talking about,

tHere is ABSOLUTELY NO

REFERENCE POINT TO UNDERSTAND IT.

THERE IS only a reference point for folks who feel some nuance of this, to actually remember what it might have been more fully like, before the environment of culture and chronic stress extinguishes the true elixir of humanity out of their bright-lit soul to a

black-hole soul that can never be filled simply by living and loving other human beings; regardless if the common purpose to do that in SOCIAL COOPERATIVE bonding is a football game, politics, RELIGION, ETC.;

no matter the myth or fact that bonds

human nature in common purpose

IN TRUly FEELING SOUL AWAY

FROM AN EMPTY

BLACK HOLE SOUL.

FEELING IS LIFE.

ANYTHING ELSE IS JUST

A ROBOTIC APPROXIMATION.

AND truly there are not many ’empaths’

in life who lose almost all their emotions and gain

them back stronger than ever before; so in all seriousness,

one may NEVER EVER HEAR THIS POINT OF VIEW AGAIN,

PARTICULARLY, HERE.

MOST PEOPLE, WHO go through what I go THROUGH, KILL THEMSELVES EARLY ON,

in what is described as the suicide disease in more ways than one, as it takes the emotional life away from a person almost immediately, as the only thing that can be felt is WORSE THAN excruciating NEVER ENDING PAIN FROM WAKE TO SLEEP,

in my case for five years,

and documented in medical literature,

as A worse fate than the much more

temporary problem of dying on a cross,

per crucifixion,

IN SPECTRUM OF FEELING PAIN.

For folks who do not experience pro-social emotions,

in a way they already die on a cross that they have no idea even exists.

I will like to find a way to change that but I’m not sure it’s even possible.

And truly that’s proof that at least in this lifetime, as a singular one, if there is a GOD,

GOD IS NOT FAIR.

I LIKE TO THINK THERE IS MORE TO EXISTENCE THAN THAT BUT IF NOT, THERE IS NO ESCAPE IN LIVING LIFE, AND ONLY THE REALISTIC CHOICE TO GRIN AND BEAR IT,

FOR folks who live in

THE OTHER PLACE of death in life, wittingly or NOT.

PERHAPS it’s harder when one vaguely remembers

they are alive

BEFORE IN FEELING SOUL.

This may not be an easy to thing to hear, AND OR ABSORB, true.

But sometimes the TRUTH CAN TRULY SET ONE FREE,

IF one IS TRULY LUCKY/fortunate, IT SEEMS,

WITH THE WAY this life looks

on the outside,

AND INSIDE,

at least,

to me.

Life is no

science project

AND NEVER TRULY WILL BE,

FULLY EXPERIENCED.

And honestly, the folks who think it is,

from ‘Dawkins to Hitchens to Hawking’,

likely have/HAD
THIS PROBLEM

TOO…

AND YES,

HARD TO impossible

to UNDERTAND,

UNLESS ONE walks in  SIMILAR shoes

too;

TRULY AN EMPTY and beyond sad PLACE TO BE.

If there is Karma, perhaps it is/WAS theIR destiny per what EVER Karmic rEaSon.

I ain’t going back, and I’M LIVING LIFE LIKE THERE IS KARMA, AS IT’S NOT WORTH TAKING ONE CHANCE IN AN INFINITY OF GOING BACK TO DEATH IN LIFE..

PERIOD.

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